The end of this video brought me to tears. When you lose a baby, that devastating hurt and pain, it stays with you for life. And that sadness remains there forever in a corner of that mother's heart. Very intuitive women can recognize that sadness in another. Susan, I believe that is why people feel that you are sad. I thought that same thing about you. I thought, it must be from losing your husband. No, it would be losing a baby. That embedded pain and sadness in your soul, is a part of you, and it is okay. It makes you who you are.
My favorite day was filled with sorrow, abuse and then pure happiness. I was young and married to the father of my baby I was going to give birth to. While I was in labor at the hospital I was in alot of pain, he kept yelling at me to stop screaming. He hit me a few times, called me names and he made me cry. All I cared about was having my baby. There was no joy or excitement between him and I as I was about to bring a new life into this world. He made that special moment very difficult for me. I still feel the sadness today all these years later. But everything changed the moment I gave birth to my baby. I was filled with love & joy. My heart felt like it was going to burst. Nothing else mattered except for my baby. I could not stop looking at my little miracle. God blessed me that day, he changed my life forever. God gave me the best gift, the gift of life. I tried but my marriage did not last. My husband showed me that day what kind of man he was. He never changed. Now I have beautiful Grandchildren. They fill my heart with so much love & joy. My heart is full. My worst day turned into the best day of my life.
I'm so glad you were able to see your husband for who he was and still enjoy that wonderful day, and then did not waste your life being abused by him. God Bless You!
Im happy u got away from him. He sounds alot like the father of my two children. He died at 45 from his alcohol. He owed his children an apology during the 3 days and nights I had them sleep over at the hospital. His kids next to his bed as he looked at them and never said a word to them. My son says, Stop living in the past. I told him you werent the one getting hit, a loaded gun under my chin. You never forget such things. You sound like a lovely woman and glad you have you own children and your grandbabies.
Beautiful soul and amazing wisdom! She probably taught many lessons to others during her lifetime and continued teaching until the very end. Thank you for sharing your sweet grandmother's wisdom with us.
I think you are a lovely, intelligent woman. Your dating ideas about intimacy are shared by many older women, including myself. Don't ever change your values for any guy. If they care enough, they will wait for you.
I was a very young widow my husband died instantly in a car accident. At the time our daughter was 10 months old and he missed her first birthday by a month and half. I poured everything into raising her by myself. I always just thought there would be time for me later. He died on January 13, 1987. I know people think I’m so weird for not remarrying and even dating but I just didn’t have time while I was raising her and also didn’t really want to. He was my high school sweetheart. So now at 67, I am alone but I don’t regret my decisions. My daughter is happily married and I have 2 little grandchildren. We have a very close bond and she is strong for everything she has been through growing up. I’m not sure what my future holds and I don’t care (finally) what people say about me. I want to try to start fixing myself up and your videos help. It’s like we are friends and you are talking me through all this. Thank you so much for the videos.
Thank you so much for your comments and your kindness!!! I am so sorry for all the tragedy you endured.I am so happy you are here!!! xxoo Susan & Desi Happy Sunday!!!
I totally get that. What a lucky little girl she was to have a mother who loved her so much that she devoted her life to raising her child. Children first, men come and go, but children are forever. I always said that if anything happened to my husband that there is no way on this earth that I would bring a man into that equation. No way. It just never seems to work. How could you focus on child rearing and dating? The two are just not harmonious. There is plenty of time for men once your children are grown. They did not ask to come into this world. They must be loved and turned in the right direction and constantly guided until they can make it on their own. God bless all single mothers and stay strong. Those little ones need their mother all the time until they are out of the nest. No just half your attention.❤
Namaste Susan, I have just recently discovered your channel and as a man I have to say that I greatly appreciate your raw honesty and overall approach to life. I took a look at your youtube video library out of curiosity and I have to give credit were credit is due as they say, it is apparent that you walk your talk. Your passion is obvious, you have taken care of yourself from the inside out, mind, body and spirit which is absolutely necessary for One's overall wellbeing!!!
I started to use a dating service when it was brand new and I was 56. Most of the men respected me, but it took 4 years (2006) and I had just turned 60, before I met the "right" one for me. He is 8 yrs. younger, but I knew it was love from the beginning. He definitely has an "old soul" and could relate to everything I did. I didn't feel comfortable "giving in" too quickly and he respected that. It really doesn't matter how old you are or how old the person is that you meet. Just focus on people that respect your values. While dating him, I knew he was a very loyal and trustworthy person. That was very important to me, especially since I had been married twice before where there was none. He also has a great sense of humor and makes me laugh a lot! I realize that online dating isn't what it was back then, but it's always worth a shot. I lived in a very populated area of Southern California, and believe it or not, it was very difficult to meet the kind of older men that I wanted to date. I am now 77 yrs. old and we've been married for 12 years!
Unfortunately - I have heard so many awful things about it - I don’t even want to try it. Too many are like Susan described - after a date or two, they expect you to fall into bed with them. I could never do that…yuck.😳
@@davisholman8149 I honestly don't know if I would do online dating now, but you CAN be selective. There are older men out there that want companionship and realize some woman are done with sex, but can express love and affection in other ways. My husband's golf buddy is 70 and just wants a woman who's not after his money!!
Good for you, Susan, for holding out for a meaningful relationship. I came of age at the height of the sexual revolution (I'm a few yrs younger than you), and I jumped right into it. I thought I was being "liberated" and learned the hard way that putting out doesn't necessary lead to long term love. Now here I am all these years later, never married, haven't been out for so much as a coffee date in over 20 years. I wonder if any if those long-ago boyfriends ever really cared about me or if I was just a f*** to them. My life now is lonely but peaceful. I don't have anybody breaking my heart, making me feel not good enough, gaslighting me, etc. I don't know if I'll ever want to date again; the last couple of times a guy acted a little interested I shut him right down. I could feel the panic in my gut. My ability to trust has been severely damaged, and as you and other commenters have pointed out, very few men have the patience to go slowly and allow me to feel comfortable and confident that I'm okay as I am.
Boy can I relate to everything you said. I had a friend's father once say to me...'You're looking for love in the wrong way.' He never elaborated...but I figured it out too many years later. The best date I had was actually telling the guy that I didn't believe in sex before marriage...and he said, 'Oh I can't have that.' And the date pretty much ended shortly thereafter. It just felt so great knowing that this jerk wasn't going to get to use me. Because I wanted real love, someone willing to pursue me and make a commitment...not just use me and walk out of my life with piece of my heart. I'd done that too many times.
Sarah Renz I can relate completely. I dated after my divorce but found it so much work for not much reward other than a dinner or movie. I take a long time to let people into my life and most won't wait so I chose not to date. Most men disappoint me anyway. Enjoy your girlfriends, they will bring you happiness and laughter.
@@Cindy-bee yes, I agree. I was deeply hurt and betrayed by my ex husband and it destroyed my trust in everyone actually. I continue to recover and focus on my own healing. I realize even being married 35 years I never really knew him and what he was capable of, so I can't even trust my judgment. I don't want that pain ever again.
@@wildhorses6817 you said exactly how I feel. I can’t trust my judgment anymore. Sad, but true. Also, I just don’t want all the ups and downs of a relationship. I’m doing better by myself.
“2 hours to live so you better put out” 😂😂 you do make me laugh at times......and you take your camera and take pictures of trees all you want. That makes YOU happy and that’s all that matters.....👍🏻👍🏻 This was a terrific video. I hope you continue with the Q&A...it was interesting and fun.....
My grandma used to say: "the darkest spot is under the lamp". When I listen to you talking about your decades of friendship with Hal (sp?), this saying comes to my mind. Your closeness with him, your mental intimacy, prevent you both from seeing, potentially, the romantic partner in each other. Like you said - you are more like brother and sister. Maybe this closeness is true love? Not the passion and intense excitement that in time turn into a disaster, but this solid, reliable presence? Think about it, beautiful Susan... I also have a son, who is 41 now, born in Poland, my old country. We live door to door, but are not very close, due to nobody's fault. Although I love him, the day he was born was not the happiest day in my life. The day I still remember like it was yesterday, was the one I finally left my abusive husband, here, in our new country - Canada. The relief was immense and the freedom I felt was extatic. I slept that night like never before in my adult life - deeply and peacufully. It was a true beginning of my new, happy life, but that would be a story for another time...Thank you Susan for sharing with us your most private thoughts. Lots of love to your sweet old pal, Desi. Forget all men - this pup looks at you with love deeper than universe! ❤🇨🇦
Hello, another Canadian here. Been a subscriber for a few years and just love that we share and are encouraged by each other's stories. 💕 to Susan and you all from,🇨🇦
Dear Grace from Canada. I too am from Canada and can relate to your struggle and how hard it is to leave an abusive husband. Society and friends and family do not always support us. Here is to a good future for all of us who have struggled. Love Susan’s approach to life and men. Hope your life in Canada is going well. 😊. Linda.
Wow people can be mean or judge mental. I’m thinking back to years ago when I started watching you and I could honestly say I have never had a negative thought of you ever! I can see your sweet dear soul. Date your heart out! Have fun and know how truly beautiful you are. I’m praying for you. Much Love
My best day(s) of my life are when my sons were born. When my husband died in 2019, I knew I would never date nor marry again. We were together 53 years. I have 3 fur babies and they keep me company. Thank you, Susan, for your honesty and may God continue to bless you and little Desi. Hugs!
My favorite day: Having my one and only child at age 40. I am so very grateful I did not miss out on being a mother. Susan, you were so very young when you had your son. Being an older mother was the perfect time for me.
When my mother was 89 years old and on her death bed, she placed a necklace around my neck that magically clasped in the back. She said her mother gave it to her just after her divorce. She called it her “no man necklace” and said, you need “no man” to help you put it on. She was a wise woman.
I’m turning 65 soon, and still going to try dating. Like I told my son, we don’t give up until it’s all over. I won’t give up. Hands down, the best day of my life was the day my son was born! I feel every bit the same 23 years later❤️
I gave up. I’m 64. Then last spring I met a British man on a group I belong to on Facebook. Long story short. We are in a long distance relationship and recently got engaged. Love will find you in time. Believe. ❤
the best day of my life was when my doctor told me I was cancer free!! My heart is radiating after watching this video. Thank you for being so open, genuine, and full of compassion.
The best day in my life would have to be when my 2nd husband asked for my hand. I thought I’d never marry again and within 3 months, we knew we loved one another forever! ❤️ Thanks for sharing so much with us. I always kinda thought that’s how dating would be these days. I’m with you, no sex after 2 or 3 dates, I believe in love! It’s been 6 years already since my hubby passed but at times I think “I’d rather kiss a dead moose’s butt than get intimate with someone just to do it”. I get that line from Sophia Loren’s character in the Grumpier Old Men movie. 🤣. Your earrings are just lovely. And it’s so great that you and Hal have been friends for so long. It’s just nice to have someone to go out with, laugh with and enjoy each others company. Awh, the small angel is so cute. Thanks for sharing your life. You mean so much to all your subscribers. What a great Santa bow tie for Desi. Have a great week.
Just flipped my daily devotional today, Sunday, and there was the same phrase Susan shared about a word fitly spoken. It’s Proverbs 25:11. I had no idea. But now can see it. “Pause and let my mind picture the work of art my words will produce.”
@cherrylthepearl14085. I’m so sorry for your loss, I know how you feel about your 2nd hubby, I met mine the same and after 3 months we were married, just celebrated 35 years. He’s my best friend too.❤️🙏🏻
I lost my baby last February she was 47yrs old , I'm lucky to have a son 42yrs old. And yes they were the happiest days of my life. Thanks to you and Desi for getting me through these last 10 months you truly are a beautiful person. 💖💖
@@FaithyandOtis..Massachusetts Oh us of so little “Faithy.” Realists. Optimist’s. Knowing, no matter how hard it’s been, can always get worse. Dating? Dayum hell no. Hugs too Desi!
My favorite day was my son’s birth too, you got me when you said he was your baby to keep!! I completely understand as I lost 5 babies to miscarriages but my son was Gods gift to keep
I agree with you 100% about sex and romance. I am 71 and I lost my husband 13 years ago. Since that time I think I have briefly dated about 5 men, either through online dating or through friends of friends, and by briefly, I mean one or three dates. When they discover that there is no reward at the end of the date, they wander off. Or maybe they just get bored with me. I don't have casual sex either, and I can't seem to find someone that I feel comfortable enough with to give of myself. I get very lonely and I wish I could find another companion, but that doesn't seem to be in the cards for me. I go out with my gal friends and I travel alone or with groups.
i know how you feel , i always have to go to functions alone , seeing couples togeather on face book , some times makes me sad , but thank you for your comment,,,,, i do like my life
I was so glad when you said ,yes, I'd rather take pictures than go to bed with you. I cheered!! ☺️ Thank you for being real! We all love seeing you every week. ❤️
At 3 weeks old when my baby gazed in my eyes and smiled like , I know who you are, your my mom! Oh, my heart! On my 63rd Birthday my son and 9 year old grand daughter brought me a little cake and my grand daughter would not let me blow out the candles until she sang Happy Birthday and in this loud right on key voice with her body moving to every note like I was the most important person in the world. I just wanted to weep it was so profound and meant so much to me because I was feeling kind of sad and alone that day and that was just exactly the cure I needed . Thanks for another heart filled video Susan!
I am 69 and I think as my life has gone by I have had many best days at different ages all for different reasons. I can remember as a little girl waking up in the morning at my maternal grandparents house and being THRILLED to the moon and back to be THERE. I have never forgotten it I was probably about 4 or 5. It was a happy home to be in with very loving grandparents. 💕, Just wanted to share that. Love to you and Desi.💕
Thank you Susan for being so open and vulnerable with us as always... I don’t see sadness, just an emotionally literate, beautiful woman❤. You inspire and bring so much comfort and hope. Hey non of those men are worthy of your intimacy, move along Mr, there’s a beautiful tree to photograph and your standing in the way ha ha ha love to you both as always 😘❤
I think you and Hal are just precious together. I do notice a little flirtingness in his eyes with you. I am 64 and I didn't think I would ever want to be in a relationship again. In kind of a quirky accident I met this gentleman named Ted. Ted is exactly what I have been looking for my entire life. And when you truly love someone the sex is fantastic. You feel like you finally know what you're doing and exactly how to do it the right way or as you say the "movie" kind of sex. Never say never.
Absolutely, budget my money. Widowed 74 years old. I did date a few years back from a dating site. I found most males my age had hang ups, lots of adult children Problems, they were looking for a nurse with a purse. Most ask if you cook. They'd rather eat in. I was looking for an interesting educated conversationalist, who liked to play cards & board games. Love your earrings. I worked at Macy's for 13 years. ❤ I now enjoy,being alone, and content to be with myself. My favorite day in my life was marrying my love in front of Niagara Falls.
I don’t see sadness at all in you !! I see a pure passionate , deep thought , soul filled woman. You have many layers to you and that’s why I will stop what I’m doing when you post a new video 😊 I truly wish I had women like you in my life. But I do not unfortunately .:: I truly admire you. ❤❤❤
My hubs and I had long been married - I thought I'd never have a baby. Even my best work friend had her first on a Christmas Eve and got to take Jessica home in a stocking to celebrate with family. I thought I would explode! The next spring I awoke queasy after a party where yet ANOTHER girl was congratulated on her new little one. I was at last preggers. I gave birth a bit early on Thanksgiving weekend to a perfect boy. When we were dismissed from the hospital Monday morning , a volunteer rushed in the room and said "WAIT! You're one of our first two Christmas babies!" Yes - it was indeed Monday December 2, and my long awaited little boy went home in a handsewn stocking celebrating the fact he was born close enough to Jesus' birthday to bless his mama's impatient heart ❤
@@Intellect3544 Or maybe it is their life's experiences, heartbreak, illnesses, and loss that forms our thoughts and attitudes as we become older. I'm almost 65 and still married, and I am very passionate and young feeling inside my spirit in spite of all of these times in my life. I give credit to my creator and His son Jesus for this.
You know what I think Susan?it’s not that you are sad I think maybe it’s how beautiful and emotional your filming and music is and you are right it’s probably those feeling your videos bring out in others so it’s their emotions coming to the surface so they think it’s you that’s sad if that makes sence and your singing voice is amazing thanks for sharing ❤️
I have never thought of you as any sadder than anyone else. In fact, i view you as a a woman who takes responsibility for her own happiness. You seem to enjoy your life and I like that about you. I love that you care about your appearance and enjoy being a girl. I love that you have a bit of glamour because it shows that you are still alive and kicking. You are someone would be fun to have coffee and chat with. So many women I see and know have given up in so many aspects of life because of their age. I enjoy the fun that you have in decorating your apartment. Don't let anyone rain on your parade with their negativity.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts on intimacy! So many people try to find love through sex. Only to go through one relationship to another. And end up feeling used. I love all your videos and your wisdom that you have gained through the years! May God bless you and Desi❤
Like you, the best day of my life was the day I had my only child, my daughter. She continues to bring me the greatest joy I have ever known. How blessed we are to have been given our children. ❤
I must agree with you...the births of my daughters were the happiest days of my life! After all the anticipation, they finally arrived. I remember feeling the spirit of God in the room each time. It was pure and honest joy.
I have never felt you were sad. I have felt you were a peaceful and calm spirit. You seem at peace with yourself and with Desi. You help me calm down at the end of the day when I am stressed and need to hear a sweet, calm voice. Keep up the inspiring videos. I am 50 and starting my life over, with being divorced suddenly from a 20 year marriage, financially and emotionally devastated. You bring me hope.
My gosh ...some of these questions are just rude ....You are being so gracious by answering them!!! Shop to your hearts content ...date who you want....don’t dust if you don’t want to...😮 I appreciate you!!! Thank You for Sharing Your Life With Me ❤️💞❤️👏🏻🙏🏻👏🏻I’m so sorry about the loss of your precious baby ...I can only imagine that kind of pain. God has you in the palm of your hand always 🙏🏻💞
Little pretty, I love listening to your charming voice. You don't talk too fast or too slow! You mellow attitude, you give good advice. I always feel better after listening to you. Stay well and be happy
I love all your videos. Sometimes I comment and sometimes I don't. I never expect a response back. If all you have time for is a heart. I'm happy that you had time to read what I wrote. I look forward to your videos every week. That part about dating and men being eager to go straight to the bedroom, I'm 52 now and I've had that experience since I was in my late 30s. I've often not gotten a call back after the first date if I didn't "put out". Recently I've been getting messages from young guys in their early 20s that make it plain that they want to meet specifically for sex. I've always been a romantic and believe that two people need to be in love before any intimacy can happen. The last part where you said you had lost a baby, brought me to tears. There is no greater pain than the loss of a child. No woman should have to go through that. I'm so very sorry that happened to you. But I also wanted you to know that you look radiant in that burgundy blouse. It is truly your color. And please give that little gangsta Desi a hug from me. See ya next week.
I was surprised to find out my MIL in her 70's -'80's was dating and very sexually active. Then one day she said she was over it not going to date because she was sick of the guys expecting sex. I said, "just say no", she said 'they don't take no for an answer', I was shocked, really shocked...and appalled. Whatever happened to companionship.
Thank you so much for being here...I sure could relate to everything you said!!! The private messages from the younger men did send a chill down my spine and I am not 100% sure why...but if felt very off...almost scary. I'm out! But I still love those dreamy dates...at least the first few weeks! LOL...xxoo Thank you for your kindness.
Definitely the day my wonderful son was born! He is a blessing in my life every day. I worked as a nurse the last six years before retiring was in end of life home care. People never know when their life may end - so enjoy every day, there are blessings in even bad days. Live your life by your own choices not someone else's choices and you will be happy as long as your choices do not hurt anyone. Always be kind as you do not know what others are going through.
the best day in MY LIFE was when my 1st daughter was born. I love all my children the same .But the 1st, I looked in her eyes & thought OMG this is a person that is looking at me & she grew in me. I can't explain it. I just couldn't believe it. I never felt a love like that before💞
Why would anyone think you’re sad? Quite the contrary, that’s why I follow you and admire you so much, your positivity is a kind of happiness that makes me happy even on the lousiest days. You’re so inspiring, Susan. And like you, my best day was the day my son was born. ❤️ Sending you and sweet Desi much love! ❤️
It is always fun to listen to your dating stories. I am your age and also did online dating and was often solicited by younger men so it is not unusual. I do believe they must think we are needy or desperate because nothing else makes sense and must view us as potential fling! I used to be flattered but no more. As far as your dates leaving you if you didn’t go to bed with them that is a problem I didn’t have. I had a 3 month window which allows me time to decide if I am interested in them or not, they were willing to wait. You may be unknowingly sending out an energy that is interpreted the wrong way. Nevertheless, I applaud your morals and hope you find the man of your dreams, as I have. ❤️
Hi Susan, you do not seem sad to me, you have a beautiful soul, I could listen to you for hours. Being single today is not easy, I totally understand how you feel about casual sex, that would not be me either if I were single. My happiest days (I can’t say just one) are when I married the love of my life, 48 years ago, when my daughter and my son were born and when each of my 5 grandkids were born. Sending hugs, Clara,xo
Hello from the U.K. 🇬🇧 My favourite day was the first date with my husband, I knew he was the one he just felt like I had known him for ever. He made me laugh and it was Christmas Eve we and two friends just walked around town looking for somewhere to eat but everything seemed to expensive so we only ordered the main meal and went back to his home, that night I fell in love with his father he was such a wonderful man every thing my own wasn’t. We have been married for 54 years and he’s still as patient and honest as day one. Love Dessie’s bow tie and I wish I could pop over and get one of your top it’s so Christmasy
What was my favorite day of my life I immediately thought, when I gave birth to my two sons. I cried like a baby when you said the same. Susan, you are so greatly loved. I wish we could do a group HUG! ❤
I'm laughing in a way...I never think to ask you a personal question... Wondering is enough for me... Yes I too loooovvvve to clean and decorate, relocate, and change things around. Always did...love "playing" as I call it! (PS...I went from a wonderful teaching career of 30 years to cleaning houses!) Favorite day of my life... Yes when my son came into this world... There are many more days, wish we could all list them! Your ability to put yourself out there is unbelievable... Could not do that... I don't express fully even with my closest friends... Well...my son leaves today after a wonderfully full few days and Thanksgiving. It's always difficult to watch him drive away. The emptiness overwhelms me and , of course. I cry. Back to silence without him and my late husband. Guess what... I start cleaning! See you next week... Gail
I don’t find you to be sad all the time, Susan. Once in a while, yes, but aren’t we all sad sometimes? And you’re honest enough to let us see that. We see your happiness too! Thanks.😊
The day I arrived in Venice. I turned down a trip to Italy when I was 17 (for a very dumb reason but that’s too long a tale to tell here). It took 38 more years for me to get to Venice. I learned a valuable lesson though - never turn down an opportunity saying “ oh I’ll go next year or in a few years,or whatever”. Life has a way of twisting and turning and 38 years go by. I actually cried my eyes out because I was so overcome with joy at being there and the beauty that is Venice. I went back this September for my second visit at 63. It has a piece of my heart.
Susan, we have the values about dating and sex. We will find the One for us someday. I have been a widow since 2014 and I haven't dated and no sex. I don't believe in one-night stands.
You explained intimacy very well. I am exactly the same way. I'm in my 30s and dating again after a long, committed relationship and I feel that same pressure from men to go to bed with them quickly. They want the sex without doing the work to get you to fall in love. Sometimes that takes time. And then I feel like it's just this constant push pull thing where I'm trying to reject their advances.
Being sensitive and emotional are also faux traits of sadness. Although at the end of the vid about her son, I'm inclined to say clearly it is nostalgic and suppressed pain. My deepest sympathies to you, Susan. Your song travels into all the nooks and crannies of your life.🖤
Okay I’ve stopped 1/4 of the way through your video. I’m so surprised that viewers would say you are really sad. I feel you are very honest, and not sad whatsoever. So yes I think it is a “projection.” You seem to me you have forged a very enjoyable life. So have I so, so maybe that’s what I see. 🙃
I never saw you as unhappy. I always thought you were just a person who is deeply reflecting and and contemplating your life, people and such. I’m afraid to think deeply and afraid to be alone with my thoughts. Maybe one day because of your channel I’ll be brave enough to quietly reflect on myself and my life. THANKS FOR SHARING
I’m almost you age and a boring 37 years married. No one expects you to answer all the comments, give yourself a break on thst. Just know that we appreciate your candor and humor and that’s why we’re here!!❤
A word fitly spoke… A gentle tongue will rebuke at times, never out of pique, but always for the good of the hearer. Words from a friend pointing out a fault will hurt, but they come from faithful love. The gentle tongue instructs, speaking wisdom, with words that fit each situation, like apples of gold in a silver setting.
Oh Susan, giving birth to my 2 daughters is the favorite days of my life! They were born in ‘72 and ‘74. The love I felt for them was like nothing I have experienced those 2 days! ❤
As human beings we are full of joy and sadness. I lost a granddaughter on Christmas day of last year. That sadness will never go away. And our world is in such need of healing at this time. What can I do about this? Each day, I can love me more and stay in a space of love while sending ripple after ripple of love into consciousness. Love is the most powerful healer there is. I loved your honesty. This was a really good video. I like Hal, too! Love to You, Hal, and Desi.
Susan! Thank you for this lovely girlfriend-style video. Your willingness to show your true self, down to the very heartbeat of life is a gift to us all. I had all of those questions and felt it was "none of my business " and never would've asked. And now I'm blessed to know. You took this community to a whole new level with this discussion today. I follow a couple of other UA-camrs and never read the comments but the stories and wisdom shared here are helpful to us all. I know why you would feel sad not to engage in a conversation with so many of the replies you receive. Have a wonderful, safe week and I'll come back next week to see you and Desi. xo karen
Dear Susan, I have the same favorite day. The birth of my 2 children. The wonder of it all. The indescribable joy of holding them of the sense of contentment breasting them, which brought a closeness to God and love I had never known before. Thank you so much for this video.
You never fail to bring a smile, a chuckle and a tear all in the same video. I have too many favorite days in my life to share, but one of them was giving birth to my only son as a young widow of age 22. Thanks Susan for sharing with us every week!
Susan, I knew your answer! As it was my favorite day, as well. When the nurse brought in my son, I held him in my lap and finally knew what LOVE was! Yes, this was real love!!! I have two more sons, and I love them so much.............but I think that is because I realized what real love with my first son. I still tear up remembering the look on his beautiful face, and how my heart exploded with love at that moment! xoxo Sandie
Thank you for acknowledging your salvation. That’s the spiritual and eternal so most important to me too. I’m not afraid to speak that truth, especially when asked, but I do hesitate in that Susan isn’t making her channel about faith. She mentions it and even shows Scripture and I’m grateful to her for that. But, yes, that day I was saved is my epic day and always will be❣️
Susan, love you! The best day was when my son Christopher was born. His adopted parents picked him up from hospital 3 days later and that was a happy day too. Was able to share 3 spectacular days with him then let 2 beautiful people share their life with him. Girl, dating is a rush. Will be 70 and enjoy it. And I don't compromise my values and for some reason, they stay. Think is because they know I am true to myself and won't compromise. That's refreshing to them. Don't think you are sad at all. Sometimes being real is misinterpreted. Big hug to Desi. Have a magical week!
Both my daughters are adopted and half sisters. So those days in 1994 and 1996 are both so precious. Although I couldn’t give birth, I feel we connected right away and their birth mother was our angel! ❤️
Thank you for the honest talk about dating. I'd been thinking about a dating service, but maybe it will be better if I just find some local live music or theatre and show up for that. The biggest smile I got from today was that you adopted the Christmas bear after all. Seems there's always room for one more in your heart.
Oh Susan, I am crying …. You touched me with this video yes I can agree my happiest day was the day My daughter Joy was born, just like your favorite day was when your baby boy was born… a mothers love is like no other I had two miscarriages before my daughter was born, I remember being wheeled out of the hospital that day we brought her home…I couldn’t believe my husband and I were actually bringing her home..after the two miscarriages I never thought I would have a child I lost two more babies after Joy, needed hysterectomy at age 30… but my daughter is such a gift, her name was meant to be hers for sure… I’m so sorry you lost a baby as well…. One day we will know their soul, they will be waiting for us Loved this weeks video, feel like I know you even more now…. Have a great week both you and Desi xo
I appreciate your honesty! 😊 I'm a dud! lol Up until I was 55 I loved intimacy, but since then, let's just say I've "lost that lovin feelin". Perhaps I have not truly been in love with a man since then. But I agree...men are definitely in a big hurry to get to the bedroom. Problem is, when they get there, many of them have no idea what a woman wants or needs. Keep being you! I enjoy your channel.
I just recently found your channel, quite by accident. I'm not sure what drew me in, because I am married (a very long time) and not living alone. But I just loved you and your precious Desi, and felt a connection that keeps me coming back to your videos. My favorite day? There are multiple days. The birth days of my sons will always be the most treasured. Each one of the 5 was just as joyful as the other. I always wanted to be a mom. And I felt more complete and fulfilled with each baby. I knew what I was meant to be, and I was lucky enough to see it happen. I too lost a baby at 38 weeks. And I never ever took for granted a moment of the privilege of having and raising my other children. I have been abundantly blessed.
You are very intuitive and seem like an empath. At 73, I was told I was an empath and an old soul. I'm trying to get back into painting and redoing thrift items. I like old stuff.... lol...like me..
Gosh, some people ask some questions don't they!! I have never wondered if you dusted every day or anything like that. I have never thought that you are a sad person. To me you seem like a lovely person who is very well rounded in life. You have Desi, you love your apartment, you love going to the thrift store, and you date, and you seem perfectly happy to me. I am 68 too. I have no desires of dating. I wouldn't mind having someone to cuddle with occasionally, but I don't want to go any further. That is the opposite of what men want! Ha! At least that's been my experience in life. One thing I have done that you got me started on is using the fairy lights in my home. Thank you for that!! I enjoy them so much. As I type this I, again, have to shake my head at some of the questions people ask. The age spot thing on your hands made me look at mine to see if I have any!! LOL Love the earrings! You always dress and look so lovely. Desi is handsome as usual. Love the red bowtie!
Very seldom do I comment. But I look forward every week to our chat time. I feel you are posting just to me. Lol. I'm 66 and married for 49 years to my best friend. You are not sad. You lift me up every week. Thank you for being real. You are one of my best friends.
Our moods are always changing from sad to happy back and forth and my therapist said that is perfectly normal so don't listen to people's comments you don't look sad, I think Hal looks like a doll of a man and I think you would make a great couple he already likes to do the things you like to do and goes with you all over and he probably already likes you how could he not your adorable and pretty and dress lovely....just a thought/suggestion no pressure at all, I just turned 64 and I am single on purpose I was married a long time and feel the need to be without a man in my life because honestly im tired of the effort (cooking for them, trying to make them happy all the time, doing what they want me to do even if I don't want too) I put so much of myself into relationships all my life its time for me its time to make ME happy and continue to be the best Mother I can be to my daughter.
Felt just like you. Especially getting to 60? Turned to verbal abuse. I left. Divorced. Our 5 grown kids? Divorced me! They …saw…heard. Where? When? How did it all go so wrong? He passed away in January. Saw our children at his Wake. Before then, 6 years ago. No contact since. It’s only one way…me reaching out.
Susan’s Facebook friend’s I was shopping today at The Forestwood Antique Mall in Dallas, Texas and they were playing different types of music and behold a song caught my attention. Guess who it was? It was our sweet Susan, singing Something About You, from her CD. I was so excited to hear her. Yea Susan I so proud of you. You’re out there and you’re be heard.
I honestly can’t say what was the best day of my life because I had five beautiful kids, I married the most wonderful man in the world and lost him to cancer, but if I could roll that all up in a ball and add the best day of my life was also the day my eyes opened and I knew I loved myself and believed in me that I’ve done a wonderful job so far. And that now I have peace. So now everyday is the best day of my life. I did start a UA-cam channel with passion for what I share and I’m letting you know your a part of what’s inspired me. Thank you so very very much. Your an amazing lady
When I first started watching you, I sensed that you were a melancholy temperament. I recognized certain traits because my husband was melancholy. He kept a journal and talked about the past quite a bit. And because you talk about your past and past relationships that didn't turn out the way you had hoped, people take that as being sad. Later in his life he moved away from the melancholy, and I found that to be more balanced. I also thought he was happier too. Sometimes we grow out of who we used to be. I enjoy seeing you laugh at yourself. That's a great trait.
Best day in my life? Graduation from USMC boot camp 👍 another good video with words of wisdom thanks it’s always good to seek from the other side a good perspective truly appreciate it, thank you! Dezi too
Humble, that's what I always think of when I watch you. No matter what's happened in your life, you're grateful, humble for the people and events. The best day of my life ...I have 8 beautiful people in my life who call me Auntie. We just celebrated the first born, who turned 30. And, although he's a grown man, he still likes to hear me tell him about the night he was born.
Your pensive and reflective and there is nothing wrong with being like that with life. Being thoughtful is having a state of mind aligned with your heart in my opinion. A rare skill in today's wounded world and is much needed. You have that gift, Susan bestowed on you from above. If anyone around, you do not recognize that in you then walk away from them. Protect your heart & soul always. 💜🧡 🦃
I spent my holiday alone again. I have been estranged from my son and my sister for several years. But we have our fur babies to keep us company and they give unconditional love
Hi Susan , my beautiful son was born 12 th April 1973 and yes the best day of my life as well, the nurse gave him to me and I cried because he looked just like my Father who had passed away 2 years earlier. Thank you for your openness, I don’t believe you look sad I love your quirky jokes and the fact you can laugh at yourself. Have a great week with Dezi . Lots love Margie. 🤗💕🌺
Susan...you just have a good soul..and I enjoy your good Character. Don't apologize for anything. Live your live for yourself. And have fun Christmas decorating.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful soul, Susan. I so look forward each Saturday to see you and Desi. My best day was the birth of our daughter. I couldn’t, and still can’t, believe God had such love for me as to give me my beautiful angel. I don’t deserve Him and I don’t deserve her. Blessed beyond words. Grace
My favorite day was also the day my son was born. For the first time I fully understood my mother in a way I might never have, without him, and I loved her even more ❤ ♥ 💕
The end of this video brought me to tears. When you lose a baby, that devastating hurt and pain, it stays with you for life. And that sadness remains there forever in a corner of that mother's heart. Very intuitive women can recognize that sadness in another. Susan, I believe that is why people feel that you are sad. I thought that same thing about you. I thought, it must be from losing your husband. No, it would be losing a baby. That embedded pain and sadness in your soul, is a part of you, and it is okay. It makes you who you are.
I immediately thought the same thing, such a terrible loss, it says lots of things about your strength to live the life you do.
I thought her son Chris was alive & well. I thought he was her grandchildrens dad....maybe I'm confused
@Chrissie B I don't know, I don't think I have ever heard her mention children or grandchildren, but I have not seen every video.
@@amyjohnson4543 she has a grandson & a granddaughter she's talked about
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My favorite day was filled with sorrow, abuse and then pure happiness. I was young and married to the father of my baby I was going to give birth to. While I was in labor at the hospital I was in alot of pain, he kept yelling at me to stop screaming. He hit me a few times, called me names and he made me cry. All I cared about was having my baby. There was no joy or excitement between him and I as I was about to bring a new life into this world. He made that special moment very difficult for me. I still feel the sadness today all these years later. But everything changed the moment I gave birth to my baby. I was filled with love & joy. My heart felt like it was going to burst. Nothing else mattered except for my baby. I could not stop looking at my little miracle. God blessed me that day, he changed my life forever. God gave me the best gift, the gift of life. I tried but my marriage did not last. My husband showed me that day what kind of man he was. He never changed. Now I have beautiful Grandchildren. They fill my heart with so much love & joy. My heart is full.
My worst day turned into the best day of my life.
Did you stay married or divorce him? Have other children, quietly, of course?
I am crying reading your comment, Mary Allen. I don't know you ... but I know you are an amazing woman. I know that.
I'm so glad you were able to see your husband for who he was and still enjoy that wonderful day, and then did not waste your life being abused by him. God Bless You!
Im happy u got away from him. He sounds alot like the father of my two children. He died at 45 from his alcohol. He owed his children an apology during the 3 days and nights I had them sleep over at the hospital. His kids next to his bed as he looked at them and never said a word to them. My son says, Stop living in the past. I told him you werent the one getting hit, a loaded gun under my chin. You never forget such things. You sound like a lovely woman and glad you have you own children and your grandbabies.
@@Bluelargo50 When you are the one who lives it, it is extremely hard to forgive, much less forget!
My grandmother was 103 when she died and I ask her what was favorite day, and she said today. I loved that! Hi Desi...
Your grandmother!!! An amazing soul!!!
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That is the most perfect answer. Love it!
that is a great way to live!
Beautiful soul and amazing wisdom!
She probably taught many lessons to others during her lifetime and continued teaching until the very end. Thank you for sharing your sweet grandmother's
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I think you are a lovely, intelligent woman. Your dating ideas about intimacy are shared by many older women, including myself. Don't ever change your values for any guy. If they care enough, they will wait for you.
I do agree! We love you beautiful soul!
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So true; these older men are terribly low-value and have a sense of entitlement. It's quite discouraging.
I was a very young widow my husband died instantly in a car accident. At the time our daughter was 10 months old and he missed her first birthday by a month and half. I poured everything into raising her by myself. I always just thought there would be time for me later. He died on January 13, 1987. I know people think I’m so weird for not remarrying and even dating but I just didn’t have time while I was raising her and also didn’t really want to. He was my high school sweetheart. So now at 67, I am alone but I don’t regret my decisions. My daughter is happily married and I have 2 little grandchildren. We have a very close bond and she is strong for everything she has been through growing up. I’m not sure what my future holds and I don’t care (finally) what people say about me. I want to try to start fixing myself up and your videos help. It’s like we are friends and you are talking me through all this. Thank you so much for the videos.
Thank you so much for your comments and your kindness!!! I am so sorry for all the tragedy you endured.I am so happy you are here!!! xxoo Susan & Desi Happy Sunday!!!
I totally get that. What a lucky little girl she was to have a mother who loved her so much that she devoted her life to raising her child. Children first, men come and go, but children are forever. I always said that if anything happened to my husband that there is no way on this earth that I would bring a man into that equation. No way. It just never seems to work. How could you focus on child rearing and dating? The two are just not harmonious. There is plenty of time for men once your children are grown. They did not ask to come into this world. They must be loved and turned in the right direction and constantly guided until they can make it on their own. God bless all single mothers and stay strong. Those little ones need their mother all the time until they are out of the nest. No just half your attention.❤
Namaste Susan, I have just recently discovered your channel and as a man I have to say that I greatly appreciate your raw honesty and overall approach to life. I took a look at your youtube video library out of curiosity and I have to give credit were credit is due as they say, it is apparent that you walk your talk. Your passion is obvious, you have taken care of yourself from the inside out, mind, body and spirit which is absolutely necessary for One's overall wellbeing!!!
I started to use a dating service when it was brand new and I was 56. Most of the men respected me, but it took 4 years (2006) and I had just turned 60, before I met the "right" one for me. He is 8 yrs. younger, but I knew it was love from the beginning. He definitely has an "old soul" and could relate to everything I did. I didn't feel comfortable "giving in" too quickly and he respected that. It really doesn't matter how old you are or how old the person is that you meet. Just focus on people that respect your values. While dating him, I knew he was a very loyal and trustworthy person. That was very important to me, especially since I had been married twice before where there was none. He also has a great sense of humor and makes me laugh a lot! I realize that online dating isn't what it was back then, but it's always worth a shot. I lived in a very populated area of Southern California, and believe it or not, it was very difficult to meet the kind of older men that I wanted to date. I am now 77 yrs. old and we've been married for 12 years!
Unfortunately - I have heard so many awful things about it - I don’t even want to try it. Too many are like Susan described - after a date or two, they expect you to fall into bed with them. I could never do that…yuck.😳
@@davisholman8149 I honestly don't know if I would do online dating now, but you CAN be selective. There are older men out there that want companionship and realize some woman are done with sex, but can express love and affection in other ways. My husband's golf buddy is 70 and just wants a woman who's not after his money!!
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I never thought you seemed sad. I believe you’re totally honest, and no one is hilariously happy all the time
Good for you, Susan, for holding out for a meaningful relationship. I came of age at the height of the sexual revolution (I'm a few yrs younger than you), and I jumped right into it. I thought I was being "liberated" and learned the hard way that putting out doesn't necessary lead to long term love. Now here I am all these years later, never married, haven't been out for so much as a coffee date in over 20 years. I wonder if any if those long-ago boyfriends ever really cared about me or if I was just a f*** to them. My life now is lonely but peaceful. I don't have anybody breaking my heart, making me feel not good enough, gaslighting me, etc. I don't know if I'll ever want to date again; the last couple of times a guy acted a little interested I shut him right down. I could feel the panic in my gut. My ability to trust has been severely damaged, and as you and other commenters have pointed out, very few men have the patience to go slowly and allow me to feel comfortable and confident that I'm okay as I am.
Boy can I relate to everything you said. I had a friend's father once say to me...'You're looking for love in the wrong way.' He never elaborated...but I figured it out too many years later. The best date I had was actually telling the guy that I didn't believe in sex before marriage...and he said, 'Oh I can't have that.' And the date pretty much ended shortly thereafter. It just felt so great knowing that this jerk wasn't going to get to use me. Because I wanted real love, someone willing to pursue me and make a commitment...not just use me and walk out of my life with piece of my heart. I'd done that too many times.
Sarah Renz I can relate completely. I dated after my divorce but found it so much work for not much reward other than a dinner or movie. I take a long time to let people into my life and most won't wait so I chose not to date. Most men disappoint me anyway. Enjoy your girlfriends, they will bring you happiness and laughter.
@@Cindy-bee yes, I agree. I was deeply hurt and betrayed by my ex husband and it destroyed my trust in everyone actually. I continue to recover and focus on my own healing. I realize even being married 35 years I never really knew him and what he was capable of, so I can't even trust my judgment. I don't want that pain ever again.
@@wildhorses6817 Sorry to hear that. I had a similar experience so totally understand. Hard to get past that mistrust.
@@wildhorses6817 you said exactly how I feel. I can’t trust my judgment anymore. Sad, but true. Also, I just don’t want all the ups and downs of a relationship. I’m doing better by myself.
“2 hours to live so you better put out” 😂😂 you do make me laugh at times......and you take your camera and take pictures of trees all you want. That makes YOU happy and that’s all that matters.....👍🏻👍🏻
This was a terrific video. I hope you continue with the Q&A...it was interesting and fun.....
Your first sentence, yes that made me laugh so much too..😂
My grandma used to say: "the darkest spot is under the lamp". When I listen to you talking about your decades of friendship with Hal (sp?), this saying comes to my mind. Your closeness with him, your mental intimacy, prevent you both from seeing, potentially, the romantic partner in each other. Like you said - you are more like brother and sister. Maybe this closeness is true love? Not the passion and intense excitement that in time turn into a disaster, but this solid, reliable presence? Think about it, beautiful Susan...
I also have a son, who is 41 now, born in Poland, my old country. We live door to door, but are not very close, due to nobody's fault. Although I love him, the day he was born was not the happiest day in my life. The day I still remember like it was yesterday, was the one I finally left my abusive husband, here, in our new country - Canada. The relief was immense and the freedom I felt was extatic. I slept that night like never before in my adult life - deeply and peacufully. It was a true beginning of my new, happy life, but that would be a story for another time...Thank you Susan for sharing with us your most private thoughts. Lots of love to your sweet old pal, Desi. Forget all men - this pup looks at you with love deeper than universe! ❤🇨🇦
Hello fellow Canadian 😊 I so relate to your story! Thanks for sharing.
Hello, another Canadian here. Been a subscriber for a few years and just love that we share and are encouraged by each other's stories. 💕 to Susan and you all from,🇨🇦
Abd yet another Canadian who just found this lovely lady and subscribed. Sending love to all of you. 🇨🇦
Dear Grace from Canada. I too am from Canada and can relate to your struggle and how hard it is to leave an abusive husband. Society and friends and family do not always support us. Here is to a good future for all of us who have struggled. Love Susan’s approach to life and men.
Hope your life in Canada is going well. 😊. Linda.
Wow people can be mean or judge mental. I’m thinking back to years ago when I started watching you and I could honestly say I have never had a negative thought of you ever! I can see your sweet dear soul. Date your heart out! Have fun and know how truly beautiful you are. I’m praying for you. Much Love
My best day(s) of my life are when my sons were born. When my husband died in 2019, I knew I would never date nor marry again. We were together 53 years. I have 3 fur babies and they keep me company. Thank you, Susan, for your honesty and may God continue to bless you and little Desi. Hugs!
I feel the same way. I'm 67, and if my husband goes before me, I can't imagine looking for another husband.
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My favorite day: Having my one and only child at age 40. I am so very grateful I did not miss out on being a mother. Susan, you were so very young when you had your son. Being an older mother was the perfect time for me.
Omgosh. I feel the same way about sex. If my heart isn’t in it my body is off limits 🤷♂️
Oh that did make me laugh Beverly……how right you are 🌸
P.s I’ve been married forever, but feel the same 😁😁🌸
When my mother was 89 years old and on her death bed, she placed a necklace around my neck that magically clasped in the back. She said her mother gave it to her just after her divorce. She called it her “no man necklace” and said, you need “no man” to help you put it on. She was a wise woman.
Oh I love this so much!!!!!
@user-bw3mv6xb8k Perfect and powerful too ! Thanks for your sharing.
I love that !!
Perfectly correct.........thank you for sharing that...touching!
I’m turning 65 soon, and still going to try dating. Like I told my son, we don’t give up until it’s all over. I won’t give up. Hands down, the best day of my life was the day my son was born! I feel every bit the same 23 years later❤️
I gave up. I’m 64. Then last spring I met a British man on a group I belong to on Facebook. Long story short. We are in a long distance relationship and recently got engaged. Love will find you in time. Believe. ❤
Good for you! ❤
@@monam.5923 that gives me hope!
Good for you Kat💜
the best day of my life was when my doctor told me I was cancer free!! My heart is radiating after watching this video. Thank you for being so open, genuine, and full of compassion.
That's a celebration!
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The best day in my life would have to be when my 2nd husband asked for my hand. I thought I’d never marry again and within 3 months, we knew we loved one another forever! ❤️
Thanks for sharing so much with us. I always kinda thought that’s how dating would be these days. I’m with you, no sex after 2 or 3 dates, I believe in love! It’s been 6 years already since my hubby passed but at times I think “I’d rather kiss a dead moose’s butt than get intimate with someone just to do it”. I get that line from Sophia Loren’s character in the Grumpier Old Men movie. 🤣. Your earrings are just lovely. And it’s so great that you and Hal have been friends for so long. It’s just nice to have someone to go out with, laugh with and enjoy each others company.
Awh, the small angel is so cute. Thanks for sharing your life. You mean so much to all your subscribers.
What a great Santa bow tie for Desi. Have a great week.
Just flipped my daily devotional today, Sunday, and there was the same phrase Susan shared about a word fitly spoken. It’s Proverbs 25:11. I had no idea. But now can see it. “Pause and let my mind picture the work of art my words will produce.”
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@cherrylthepearl14085. I’m so sorry for your loss, I know how you feel about your 2nd hubby, I met mine the same and after 3 months we were married, just celebrated 35 years. He’s my best friend too.❤️🙏🏻
I just love Desi!!!!
He looks deliriously happy in his new home.
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I lost my baby last February she was 47yrs old , I'm lucky to have a son 42yrs old. And yes they were the happiest days of my life. Thanks to you and Desi for getting me through these last 10 months you truly are a beautiful person.
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“68 & dating.” Oh Lil Poet ❤you’re brave. I’m 37 yrs married & at 70 - 20 yrs of rough road - I’m looking to adopt another Desi❤️Men? Pass.
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It gets better after year 45 years married lolololol then after 52 years he's gone and i cry every waking minute. Didn't know love until it was gone 😪
Hard pass😂😂
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@@FaithyandOtis..Massachusetts Oh us of so little “Faithy.” Realists. Optimist’s. Knowing, no matter how hard it’s been, can always get worse. Dating? Dayum hell no. Hugs too Desi!
You’re a beautiful woman but it’s your heart attitude that keeps bringing us back to your channel. Thank you for sharing your life with us.
My favorite day was my son’s birth too, you got me when you said he was your baby to keep!! I completely understand as I lost 5 babies to miscarriages but my son was Gods gift to keep
Let's be really really honest.....children aren't the images we saw growing up on Hallmark cards.
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I agree with you 100% about sex and romance. I am 71 and I lost my husband 13 years ago. Since that time I think I have briefly dated about 5 men, either through online dating or through friends of friends, and by briefly, I mean one or three dates. When they discover that there is no reward at the end of the date, they wander off. Or maybe they just get bored with me. I don't have casual sex either, and I can't seem to find someone that I feel comfortable enough with to give of myself. I get very lonely and I wish I could find another companion, but that doesn't seem to be in the cards for me. I go out with my gal friends and I travel alone or with groups.
i know how you feel , i always have to go to functions alone , seeing couples togeather on face book , some times makes me sad , but thank you for your comment,,,,, i do like my life
You are my weekly therapist! I get so much out of this time listening to you, Thank YOU!!
I was so glad when you said ,yes, I'd rather take pictures than go to bed with you. I cheered!! ☺️ Thank you for being real! We all love seeing you every week. ❤️
At 3 weeks old when my baby gazed in my eyes and smiled like , I know who you are, your my mom! Oh, my heart! On my 63rd Birthday my son and 9 year old grand daughter brought me a little cake and my grand daughter would not let me blow out the candles until she sang Happy Birthday and in this loud right on key voice with her body moving to every note like I was the most important person in the world. I just wanted to weep it was so profound and meant so much to me because I was feeling kind of sad and alone that day and that was just exactly the cure I needed . Thanks for another heart filled video Susan!
Our grandkids are great aren't they!!
I am 69 and I think as my life has gone by I have had many best days at different ages all for different reasons. I can remember as a little girl waking up in the morning at my maternal grandparents house and being THRILLED to the moon and back to be THERE. I have never forgotten it I was probably about 4 or 5. It was a happy home to be in with very loving grandparents. 💕, Just wanted to share that. Love to you and Desi.💕
Thank you Susan for being so open and vulnerable with us as always... I don’t see sadness, just an emotionally literate, beautiful woman❤. You inspire and bring so much comfort and hope. Hey non of those men are worthy of your intimacy, move along Mr, there’s a beautiful tree to photograph and your standing in the way ha ha ha love to you both as always 😘❤
Thank you so much for your comments and your kindness!!! I am so happy you are here!!! xxoo Susan & Desi Happy Sunday!!!
@@LittlePoet thank you and to you too xx BTW a little heart symbol from you is always lovely and more than enough, don’t you worry about that ok ❤️🌷❤️
I think you and Hal are just precious together. I do notice a little flirtingness in his eyes with you. I am 64 and I didn't think I would ever want to be in a relationship again. In kind of a quirky accident I met this gentleman named Ted. Ted is exactly what I have been looking for my entire life. And when you truly love someone the sex is fantastic. You feel like you finally know what you're doing and exactly how to do it the right way or as you say the "movie" kind of sex. Never say never.
Absolutely, budget my money. Widowed 74 years old. I did date a few years back from a dating site. I found most males my age had hang ups, lots of adult children Problems, they were looking for a nurse with a purse. Most ask if you cook. They'd rather eat in. I was looking for an interesting educated conversationalist, who liked to play cards & board games. Love your earrings. I worked at Macy's for 13 years. ❤ I now enjoy,being alone, and content to be with myself. My favorite day in my life was marrying my love in front of Niagara Falls.
Susan, you’ve been so open and articulate discussing dating, it’s a good thing to share, we learn from each other. Stay well!😊
I don’t see sadness at all in you !! I see a pure passionate , deep thought , soul filled woman. You have many layers to you and that’s why I will stop what I’m doing when you post a new video 😊 I truly wish I had women like you in my life. But I do not unfortunately .:: I truly admire you. ❤❤❤
My hubs and I had long been married - I thought I'd never have a baby. Even my best work friend had her first on a Christmas Eve and got to take Jessica home in a stocking to celebrate with family. I thought I would explode! The next spring I awoke queasy after a party where yet ANOTHER girl was congratulated on her new little one. I was at last preggers. I gave birth a bit early on Thanksgiving weekend to a perfect boy. When we were dismissed from the hospital Monday morning , a volunteer rushed in the room and said "WAIT! You're one of our first two Christmas babies!" Yes - it was indeed Monday December 2, and my long awaited little boy went home in a handsewn stocking celebrating the fact he was born close enough to Jesus' birthday to bless his mama's impatient heart ❤
I call sadness, soulful introspection!! Little Poet!!!
I think it's so amazing that anyone still enjoy dating over the age of 60s. Would love to meet someone like Howard❤️
Don't be ridiculous, unless you're half dead why wouldn't you be interested in men at any age.
@@streaming5332 it's not about being "half dead" but many mature women preferred "solitude".
@@Intellect3544 Or maybe it is their life's experiences, heartbreak, illnesses, and loss that forms our thoughts and attitudes as we become older. I'm almost 65 and still married, and I am very passionate and young feeling inside my spirit in spite of all of these times in my life. I give credit to my creator and His son Jesus for this.
@@925muz He has everything to do with it ...
@@Intellect3544 Susan certainly doesn't subscribe to solitude, no fun in that.
You know what I think Susan?it’s not that you are sad I think maybe it’s how beautiful and emotional your filming and music is and you are right it’s probably those feeling your videos bring out in others so it’s their emotions coming to the surface so they think it’s you that’s sad if that makes sence and your singing voice is amazing thanks for sharing ❤️
I have never thought of you as any sadder than anyone else. In fact, i view you as a a woman who takes responsibility for her own happiness. You seem to enjoy your life and I like that about you. I love that you care about your appearance and enjoy being a girl. I love that you have a bit of glamour because it shows that you are still alive and kicking. You are someone would be fun to have coffee and chat with. So many women I see and know have given up in so many aspects of life because of their age. I enjoy the fun that you have in decorating your apartment. Don't let anyone rain on your parade with their negativity.
You make me smile. Inspiration. A woman of courage. The day I held my baby daughter, Heather. 1980. My favorite day of my life.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts on intimacy! So many people try to find love through sex. Only to go through one relationship to another. And end up feeling used. I love all your videos and your wisdom that you have gained through the years! May God bless you and Desi❤
Like you, the best day of my life was the day I had my only child, my daughter. She continues to bring me the greatest joy I have ever known. How blessed we are to have been given our children. ❤
In my mid 60’s and I love your channel. You bring joy to my heart. Keep up the good work of encouragement 🙏🏾
I must agree with you...the births of my daughters were the happiest days of my life! After all the anticipation, they finally arrived. I remember feeling the spirit of God in the room each time. It was pure and honest joy.
I have never felt you were sad. I have felt you were a peaceful and calm spirit. You seem at peace with yourself and with Desi. You help me calm down at the end of the day when I am stressed and need to hear a sweet, calm voice. Keep up the inspiring videos. I am 50 and starting my life over, with being divorced suddenly from a 20 year marriage, financially and emotionally devastated. You bring me hope.
I'm glad and grateful that you were thinking about those of us who were alone for Thanksgiving maybe we weren't so alone after all.
My gosh ...some of these questions are just rude ....You are being so gracious by answering them!!! Shop to your hearts content ...date who you want....don’t dust if you don’t want to...😮 I appreciate you!!! Thank You for Sharing Your Life With Me ❤️💞❤️👏🏻🙏🏻👏🏻I’m so sorry about the loss of your precious baby ...I can only imagine that kind of pain. God has you in the palm of your hand always 🙏🏻💞
Little pretty, I love listening to your charming voice. You don't talk too fast or too slow! You mellow attitude, you give good advice. I always feel better after listening to you. Stay well and be happy
I love all your videos. Sometimes I comment and sometimes I don't. I never expect a response back. If all you have time for is a heart. I'm happy that you had time to read what I wrote. I look forward to your videos every week. That part about dating and men being eager to go straight to the bedroom, I'm 52 now and I've had that experience since I was in my late 30s. I've often not gotten a call back after the first date if I didn't "put out". Recently I've been getting messages from young guys in their early 20s that make it plain that they want to meet specifically for sex. I've always been a romantic and believe that two people need to be in love before any intimacy can happen. The last part where you said you had lost a baby, brought me to tears. There is no greater pain than the loss of a child. No woman should have to go through that. I'm so very sorry that happened to you. But I also wanted you to know that you look radiant in that burgundy blouse. It is truly your color. And please give that little gangsta Desi a hug from me. See ya next week.
I was surprised to find out my MIL in her 70's -'80's was dating and very sexually active. Then one day she said she was over it not going to date because she was sick of the guys expecting sex. I said, "just say no", she said 'they don't take no for an answer', I was shocked, really shocked...and appalled. Whatever happened to companionship.
Thank you so much for being here...I sure could relate to everything you said!!! The private messages from the younger men did send a chill down my spine and I am not 100% sure why...but if felt very off...almost scary. I'm out! But I still love those dreamy dates...at least the first few weeks! LOL...xxoo Thank you for your kindness.
Definitely the day my wonderful son was born! He is a blessing in my life every day. I worked as a nurse the last six years before retiring was in end of life home care. People never know when their life may end - so enjoy every day, there are blessings in even bad days. Live your life by your own choices not someone else's choices and you will be happy as long as your choices do not hurt anyone. Always be kind as you do not know what others are going through.
You are deep, not far away or enveloped in sadness. The things you share are creative, sweet, smart, somewhat sarcastic, and very very real.
the best day in MY LIFE was when my 1st daughter was born. I love all my children the same .But the 1st, I looked in her eyes & thought OMG this is a person that is looking at me & she grew in me. I can't explain it. I just couldn't believe it. I never felt a love like that before💞
Susan, Thank you for sharing your life with all of us.❤
Why would anyone think you’re sad? Quite the contrary, that’s why I follow you and admire you so much, your positivity is a kind of happiness that makes me happy even on the lousiest days. You’re so inspiring, Susan.
And like you, my best day was the day my son was born. ❤️
Sending you and sweet Desi much love! ❤️
It is always fun to listen to your dating stories. I am your age and also did online dating and was often solicited by younger men so it is not unusual. I do believe they must think we are needy or desperate because nothing else makes sense and must view us as potential fling! I used to be flattered but no more. As far as your dates leaving you if you didn’t go to bed with them that is a problem I didn’t have. I had a 3 month window which allows me time to decide if I am interested in them or not, they were willing to wait. You may be unknowingly sending out an energy that is interpreted the wrong way. Nevertheless, I applaud your morals and hope you find the man of your dreams, as I have. ❤️
Hi Susan, you do not seem sad to me, you have a beautiful soul, I could listen to you for hours. Being single today is not easy, I totally understand how you feel about casual sex, that would not be me either if I were single. My happiest days (I can’t say just one) are when I married the love of my life, 48 years ago, when my daughter and my son were born and when each of my 5 grandkids were born. Sending hugs, Clara,xo
How lucky you are to have Hal in your life. We all need a good friend. How does he feel about your moving away ?
Moving? What did I miss?
@@makeyourselfathome6826 Susan wants to find a house by where her son lives
@@deborahpellerito6117 he seems like someone who will make the trek to stay in touch.
Hello from the U.K. 🇬🇧
My favourite day was the first date with my husband, I knew he was the one he just felt like I had known him for ever. He made me laugh and it was Christmas Eve we and two friends just walked around town looking for somewhere to eat but everything seemed to expensive so we only ordered the main meal and went back to his home, that night I fell in love with his father he was such a wonderful man every thing my own wasn’t.
We have been married for 54 years and he’s still as patient and honest as day one.
Love Dessie’s bow tie and I wish I could pop over and get one of your top it’s so Christmasy
What was my favorite day of my life I immediately thought, when I gave birth to my two sons. I cried like a baby when you said the same. Susan, you are so greatly loved. I wish we could do a group HUG! ❤
I'm laughing in a way...I never think to ask you a personal question...
Wondering is enough for me...
Yes I too loooovvvve to clean and decorate, relocate, and change things around.
Always did...love "playing" as I call it!
(PS...I went from a wonderful teaching career of 30 years to cleaning houses!)
Favorite day of my life...
Yes when my son came into this world...
There are many more days, wish we could all list them!
Your ability to put yourself out there is unbelievable...
Could not do that...
I don't express fully even with my closest friends...
Well...my son leaves today after a wonderfully full few days and Thanksgiving.
It's always difficult to watch him drive away. The emptiness overwhelms me and , of course. I cry.
Back to silence without him and my late husband.
Guess what... I start cleaning!
See you next week...
Gail
I don’t find you to be sad all the time, Susan. Once in a while, yes, but aren’t we all sad sometimes? And you’re honest enough to let us see that. We see your happiness too! Thanks.😊
The day I arrived in Venice. I turned down a trip to Italy when I was 17 (for a very dumb reason but that’s too long a tale to tell here). It took 38 more years for me to get to Venice. I learned a valuable lesson though - never turn down an opportunity saying “ oh I’ll go next year or in a few years,or whatever”. Life has a way of twisting and turning and 38 years go by. I actually cried my eyes out because I was so overcome with joy at being there and the beauty that is Venice. I went back this September for my second visit at 63. It has a piece of my heart.
Susan, we have the values about dating and sex. We will find the One for us someday. I have been a widow since 2014 and I haven't dated and no sex. I don't believe in one-night stands.
You are refreshingly authentic. Creative people are sometimes distant bc they think differently, more sensitively. I love to clean and decorate also.
You explained intimacy very well. I am exactly the same way. I'm in my 30s and dating again after a long, committed relationship and I feel that same pressure from men to go to bed with them quickly. They want the sex without doing the work to get you to fall in love. Sometimes that takes time. And then I feel like it's just this constant push pull thing where I'm trying to reject their advances.
I feel just the same way...all our years apart and yet perhaps life is life!!! xxoo
Stay on course. Respecting yourself (despite what others may wish differently for you), is what 's important.
I Just discovered your channel and Thank you for being so inspiring and giving hope …
I enjoy your channel and I’ve never thought that you looked or were sad. You always look joyful, have positive thoughts, and have a calm presence.
I think being nostalgic can be taken as sadness ❤
Being sensitive and emotional are also faux traits of sadness. Although at the end of the vid about her son, I'm inclined to say clearly it is nostalgic and suppressed pain. My deepest sympathies to you, Susan.
Your song travels into all the nooks and crannies of your life.🖤
Okay I’ve stopped 1/4 of the way through your video. I’m so surprised that viewers would say you are really sad. I feel you are very honest, and not sad whatsoever. So yes I think it is a “projection.” You seem to me you have forged a very enjoyable life. So have I so, so maybe that’s what I see. 🙃
I never saw you as unhappy. I always thought you were just a person who is deeply reflecting and and contemplating your life, people and such. I’m afraid to think deeply and afraid to be alone with my thoughts. Maybe one day because of your channel I’ll be brave enough to quietly reflect on myself and my life. THANKS FOR SHARING
I’m almost you age and a boring 37 years married. No one expects you to answer all the comments, give yourself a break on thst. Just know that we appreciate your candor and humor and that’s why we’re here!!❤
A word fitly spoke…
A gentle tongue will rebuke at times, never out of pique, but always for the good of the hearer. Words from a friend pointing out a fault will hurt, but they come from faithful love. The gentle tongue instructs, speaking wisdom, with words that fit each situation, like apples of gold in a silver setting.
Yes. Proverbs 25:11 ❤️🙏
I smiled when I saw the 2 bear wreaths with Desi.🧸🧸 I think my best day is yet to come.
Oh Susan, giving birth to my 2 daughters is the favorite days of my life! They were born in ‘72 and ‘74. The love I felt for them was like nothing I have experienced those 2 days! ❤
As human beings we are full of joy and sadness. I lost a granddaughter on Christmas day of last year. That sadness will never go away. And our world is in such need of healing at this time. What can I do about this? Each day, I can love me more and stay in a space of love while sending ripple after ripple of love into consciousness. Love is the most powerful healer there is. I loved your honesty. This was a really good video. I like Hal, too! Love to You, Hal, and Desi.
Susan! Thank you for this lovely girlfriend-style video. Your willingness to show your true self, down to the very heartbeat of life is a gift to us all. I had all of those questions and felt it was "none of my business " and never would've asked. And now I'm blessed to know. You took this community to a whole new level with this discussion today. I follow a couple of other UA-camrs and never read the comments but the stories and wisdom shared here are helpful to us all. I know why you would feel sad not to engage in a conversation with so many of the replies you receive. Have a wonderful, safe week and I'll come back next week to see you and Desi. xo karen
Dear Susan, I have the same favorite day. The birth of my 2 children. The wonder of it all. The indescribable joy of holding them of the sense of contentment breasting them, which brought a closeness to God and love I had never known before. Thank you so much for this video.
You never fail to bring a smile, a chuckle and a tear all in the same video. I have too many favorite days in my life to share, but one of them was giving birth to my only son as a young widow of age 22. Thanks Susan for sharing with us every week!
I’m still enjoying the pjs you suggested getting!!! And the red lipstick!!!
Susan, I knew your answer! As it was my favorite day, as well. When the nurse brought in my son, I held him in my lap and finally knew what LOVE was! Yes, this was real love!!! I have two more sons, and I love them so much.............but I think that is because I realized what real love with my first son. I still tear up remembering the look on his beautiful face, and how my heart exploded with love at that moment! xoxo Sandie
The birth of my children. My Salvation, Surviving what was meant to destroy me.
Sending you much love.
Thank you for acknowledging your salvation. That’s the spiritual and eternal so most important to me too. I’m not afraid to speak that truth, especially when asked, but I do hesitate in that Susan isn’t making her channel about faith. She mentions it and even shows Scripture and I’m grateful to her for that. But, yes, that day I was saved is my epic day and always will be❣️
Susan, love you! The best day was when my son Christopher was born. His adopted parents picked him up from hospital 3 days later and that was a happy day too. Was able to share 3 spectacular days with him then let 2 beautiful people share their life with him. Girl, dating is a rush. Will be 70 and enjoy it. And I don't compromise my values and for some reason, they stay. Think is because they know I am true to myself and won't compromise. That's refreshing to them. Don't think you are sad at all. Sometimes being real is misinterpreted. Big hug to Desi. Have a magical week!
Both my daughters are adopted and half sisters. So those days in 1994 and 1996 are both so precious. Although I couldn’t give birth, I feel we connected right away and their birth mother was our angel! ❤️
Thank you for the honest talk about dating. I'd been thinking about a dating service, but maybe it will be better if I just find some local live music or theatre and show up for that.
The biggest smile I got from today was that you adopted the Christmas bear after all. Seems there's always room for one more in your heart.
I love your videos i am 75 and live alone and i is so nice to listen to your videos.
Oh Susan, I am crying …. You touched me with this video
yes I can agree my happiest day was the day My daughter Joy was born, just like your favorite day was when your baby boy was born… a mothers love is like no other
I had two miscarriages before my daughter was born, I remember being wheeled out of the hospital that day we brought her home…I couldn’t believe my husband and I were actually bringing her home..after the two miscarriages I never thought I would have a child
I lost two more babies after Joy, needed hysterectomy at age 30… but my daughter is such a gift, her name was meant to be hers for sure…
I’m so sorry you lost a baby as well…. One day we will know their soul, they will be waiting for us
Loved this weeks video, feel like I know you even more now….
Have a great week both you and Desi xo
I appreciate your honesty! 😊 I'm a dud! lol Up until I was 55 I loved intimacy, but since then, let's just say I've "lost that lovin feelin". Perhaps I have not truly been in love with a man since then. But I agree...men are definitely in a big hurry to get to the bedroom. Problem is, when they get there, many of them have no idea what a woman wants or needs. Keep being you! I enjoy your channel.
I just recently found your channel, quite by accident. I'm not sure what drew me in, because I am married (a very long time) and not living alone. But I just loved you and your precious Desi, and felt a connection that keeps me coming back to your videos.
My favorite day? There are multiple days.
The birth days of my sons will always be the most treasured. Each one of the 5 was just as joyful as the other. I always wanted to be a mom. And I felt more complete and fulfilled with each baby.
I knew what I was meant to be, and I was lucky enough to see it happen.
I too lost a baby at 38 weeks. And I never ever took for granted a moment of the privilege of having and raising my other children. I have been abundantly blessed.
I love it that you found me....and Desi...I love your words and heart!
You are very intuitive and seem like an empath. At 73, I was told I was an empath and an old soul. I'm trying to get back into painting and redoing thrift items. I like old stuff.... lol...like me..
Gosh, some people ask some questions don't they!! I have never wondered if you dusted every day or anything like that. I have never thought that you are a sad person. To me you seem like a lovely person who is very well rounded in life. You have Desi, you love your apartment, you love going to the thrift store, and you date, and you seem perfectly happy to me. I am 68 too. I have no desires of dating. I wouldn't mind having someone to cuddle with occasionally, but I don't want to go any further. That is the opposite of what men want! Ha! At least that's been my experience in life. One thing I have done that you got me started on is using the fairy lights in my home. Thank you for that!! I enjoy them so much. As I type this I, again, have to shake my head at some of the questions people ask. The age spot thing on your hands made me look at mine to see if I have any!! LOL Love the earrings! You always dress and look so lovely. Desi is handsome as usual. Love the red bowtie!
Very seldom do I comment. But I look forward every week to our chat time. I feel you are posting just to me. Lol. I'm 66 and married for 49 years to my best friend. You are not sad. You lift me up every week. Thank you for being real. You are one of my best friends.
Our moods are always changing from sad to happy back and forth and my therapist said that is perfectly normal so don't listen to people's comments you don't look sad, I think Hal looks like a doll of a man and I think you would make a great couple he already likes to do the things you like to do and goes with you all over and he probably already likes you how could he not your adorable and pretty and dress lovely....just a thought/suggestion no pressure at all, I just turned 64 and I am single on purpose I was married a long time and feel the need to be without a man in my life because honestly im tired of the effort (cooking for them, trying to make them happy all the time, doing what they want me to do even if I don't want too) I put so much of myself into relationships all my life its time for me its time to make ME happy and continue to be the best Mother I can be to my daughter.
Felt just like you. Especially getting to 60? Turned to verbal abuse. I left. Divorced. Our 5 grown kids? Divorced me! They …saw…heard. Where? When? How did it all go so wrong? He passed away in January. Saw our children at his Wake. Before then, 6 years ago. No contact since. It’s only one way…me reaching out.
Erika i think being cheated on by my husband then I had 2 horrible boyfriends ive just had enough if you know what I mean
@@Karenseward yes…I DO know what you mean. All charm “act”, then ughhh. So, yeah, I gotcha.
SAME HERE!!!
IM EXHAUSTED.
This having children thing isn't all that wonderful!!
No one talks about that.....but I will!
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Susan’s Facebook friend’s I was shopping today at The Forestwood Antique Mall in Dallas, Texas and they were playing different types of music and behold a song caught my attention. Guess who it was? It was our sweet Susan, singing Something About You, from her CD. I was so excited to hear her. Yea Susan I so proud of you. You’re out there and you’re be heard.
I honestly can’t say what was the best day of my life because I had five beautiful kids, I married the most wonderful man in the world and lost him to cancer, but if I could roll that all up in a ball and add the best day of my life was also the day my eyes opened and I knew I loved myself and believed in me that I’ve done a wonderful job so far. And that now I have peace. So now everyday is the best day of my life. I did start a UA-cam channel with passion for what I share and I’m letting you know your a part of what’s inspired me. Thank you so very very much. Your an amazing lady
When I first started watching you, I sensed that you were a melancholy temperament. I recognized certain traits because my husband was melancholy. He kept a journal and talked about the past quite a bit. And because you talk about your past and past relationships that didn't turn out the way you had hoped, people take that as being sad. Later in his life he moved away from the melancholy, and I found that to be more balanced. I also thought he was happier too. Sometimes we grow out of who we used to be. I enjoy seeing you laugh at yourself. That's a great trait.
Best day in my life? Graduation from USMC boot camp 👍 another good video with words of wisdom thanks it’s always good to seek from the other side a good perspective truly appreciate it, thank you! Dezi too
Humble, that's what I always think of when I watch you. No matter what's happened in your life, you're grateful, humble for the people and events.
The best day of my life ...I have 8 beautiful people in my life who call me Auntie. We just celebrated the first born, who turned 30. And, although he's a grown man, he still likes to hear me tell him about the night he was born.
Your pensive and reflective and there is nothing wrong with being like that with life.
Being thoughtful is having a state of mind aligned with your heart in my opinion. A rare skill in today's wounded world and is much needed. You have that gift, Susan bestowed on you from above. If anyone around, you do not recognize that in you then walk away from them. Protect your heart & soul always. 💜🧡 🦃
I spent my holiday alone again. I have been estranged from my son and my sister for several years. But we have our fur babies to keep us company and they give unconditional love
Hi Susan , my beautiful son was born 12 th April 1973 and yes the best day of my life as well, the nurse gave him to me and I cried because he looked just like my Father who had passed away 2 years earlier.
Thank you for your openness, I don’t believe you look sad I love your quirky jokes and the fact you can laugh at yourself.
Have a great week with Dezi .
Lots love Margie. 🤗💕🌺
Susan...you just have a good soul..and I enjoy your good Character. Don't apologize for anything. Live your live for yourself.
And have fun Christmas decorating.
I have no words. You are so precious. Thank you for being so warm and honest and loving! ❤️ Suzy
Thank you for sharing your beautiful soul, Susan. I so look forward each Saturday to see you and Desi.
My best day was the birth of our daughter. I couldn’t, and still can’t, believe God had such love for me as to give me my beautiful angel. I don’t deserve Him and I don’t deserve her. Blessed beyond words. Grace
My favorite day was also the day my son was born. For the first time I fully understood my mother in a way I might never have, without him, and I loved her even more ❤ ♥ 💕