I have never experienced a sensory meltdown, or maybe only once when teachers forced me to play with other kids and I couldn’t stand the horrible noise they made and I was so overwhelmed by them running everywhere around like a swarm of bees. So I started crying screaming and I run away and it took me quite much time to calm down. I couldn’t understand why the teachers were so obsessed to have me playing with other kids. I kinda wanted but couldn’t. I have experienced a lot of I’m not sure they were shut downs or dissociations… it was like when all together was too much I turned everything off and sank my thoughts somewhere else in different world and there was no contact with me. I also remember i couldn’t speak, it was kinda painful or impossible but I’m not sure why. It’s not that I felt like outside my body, but like I was in a different world or that this world is not real. As I grew up I started having panic attacks. And this was a mystery for long years, because I didn’t have them in stressful situations. I had them at work, where it was noisy and with blinking lights, in a shopping center, in a bus, tram, even in intimate situations when the partner was kinda too fast and too passionate and sometimes even tasting food feels like too much and I get irritated, jittery and it starts. I had many situations where I was anxious but the panic attacks did not occurs in those situations, but in many other instead. I ended up few times in hospital with strong panic attacks, heart palpitations and all doctors said everything is fine with my heart and I even heard that I’m faking it all for attention. Then I heard that I have depression and got meds, which didn’t help. My daughter accidentally helped figure out that all those reactions were connected to too much especially noise. She makes a lot of noise, screams and her toys are unbearable for me. I started wearing earplugs. How is it possible I don’t know, but I have no more panic attacks, no heart palpitations and I finally can relax. Am I Crazy? Is it anything to do with spd or something else? Anyway looks like I found the simplest solution without medicine
The more I watch your vids the more I can relate because I’ve done this since I was a child and still do often . It’s like I’m gone ! Mentally I’m somewhere else . Thanks for explaining something I’ve experienced for most of my life 💓🕊
I only just come across your channel recently and have been loving your videos! I know this is 2 years old but I haven't been diagnosed with spd but want to pursure one as I relate to everything you say about spd and the things that come along with it. I've had dissociation a couple times in my life and it's so scary and confusing when your in that state. I would describe it as floating outside my body and nothing feels real and like I've had seen this exact image/situation before in my memory or dream when in reality it's something new. Don't even think that makes sense but the only way I could get out of that sensation was to attempt to ground myself or get out the environment/situation entirely
There’s days where I can’t control when my brain turns off during arguments or stressful situations and I try to tell people that I don’t understand what’s going and they get mad at me for it and say I’m lying and that I need to use my brain . But I can’t …bc my brain shuts down when stressful things happen.
Interesting question! I think they can appear similarly from the outside - it seems like the person is in a stupor or unaware of what's going on, but there is an internal awareness and feeling of disconnection from the body/inability to make your body do what you want it to. I'm sure there's some nuance between the two situations, but I don't want to say anything for sure because I haven't done much research into catatonia.
I have never experienced a sensory meltdown, or maybe only once when teachers forced me to play with other kids and I couldn’t stand the horrible noise they made and I was so overwhelmed by them running everywhere around like a swarm of bees. So I started crying screaming and I run away and it took me quite much time to calm down. I couldn’t understand why the teachers were so obsessed to have me playing with other kids. I kinda wanted but couldn’t. I have experienced a lot of I’m not sure they were shut downs or dissociations… it was like when all together was too much I turned everything off and sank my thoughts somewhere else in different world and there was no contact with me. I also remember i couldn’t speak, it was kinda painful or impossible but I’m not sure why. It’s not that I felt like outside my body, but like I was in a different world or that this world is not real. As I grew up I started having panic attacks. And this was a mystery for long years, because I didn’t have them in stressful situations. I had them at work, where it was noisy and with blinking lights, in a shopping center, in a bus, tram, even in intimate situations when the partner was kinda too fast and too passionate and sometimes even tasting food feels like too much and I get irritated, jittery and it starts. I had many situations where I was anxious but the panic attacks did not occurs in those situations, but in many other instead. I ended up few times in hospital with strong panic attacks, heart palpitations and all doctors said everything is fine with my heart and I even heard that I’m faking it all for attention. Then I heard that I have depression and got meds, which didn’t help. My daughter accidentally helped figure out that all those reactions were connected to too much especially noise. She makes a lot of noise, screams and her toys are unbearable for me. I started wearing earplugs. How is it possible I don’t know, but I have no more panic attacks, no heart palpitations and I finally can relax. Am I Crazy? Is it anything to do with spd or something else? Anyway looks like I found the simplest solution without medicine
The more I watch your vids the more I can relate because I’ve done this since I was a child and still do often . It’s like I’m gone ! Mentally I’m somewhere else . Thanks for explaining something I’ve experienced for most of my life 💓🕊
I only just come across your channel recently and have been loving your videos! I know this is 2 years old but I haven't been diagnosed with spd but want to pursure one as I relate to everything you say about spd and the things that come along with it. I've had dissociation a couple times in my life and it's so scary and confusing when your in that state. I would describe it as floating outside my body and nothing feels real and like I've had seen this exact image/situation before in my memory or dream when in reality it's something new. Don't even think that makes sense but the only way I could get out of that sensation was to attempt to ground myself or get out the environment/situation entirely
Totally get it! Best of luck to you in pursuing a diagnosis 💜
Great metaphor about the internal brain machine. :)
There’s days where I can’t control when my brain turns off during arguments or stressful situations and I try to tell people that I don’t understand what’s going and they get mad at me for it and say I’m lying and that I need to use my brain . But I can’t …bc my brain shuts down when stressful things happen.
How is it different from Catatonia?
Interesting question! I think they can appear similarly from the outside - it seems like the person is in a stupor or unaware of what's going on, but there is an internal awareness and feeling of disconnection from the body/inability to make your body do what you want it to. I'm sure there's some nuance between the two situations, but I don't want to say anything for sure because I haven't done much research into catatonia.