Hope you enjoy my silly editing! These were SO good. I might be a TikTok convert (still haven't downloaded the app though😬I hold it at arms length!) Other videos you might like: Autistic Person Reacts to Autism TikToks! ua-cam.com/video/J0m_9ft1Wuo/v-deo.html I Hid my Daughter's Autism Diagnosis for YEARS | r/AITA: ua-cam.com/video/hqzpiGhJGVo/v-deo.html Thank you for all of your amazing, insightful comments this week!
I would also really like to read a DSM-VI whenever it comes out. If ADHD and autism need as much updating as I know they do then I'm certain the whole manual needs work.
I love your videos. I'm a teacher and it gives me lots of hints on how to deal with the diversity in my classes. Just being aware of the neurodiversity and how some of my students have to deal with it is just great. I am more open minded and can offer different options to accomodate most of them.
It is impossible for me to sit down while on a phone call. I pace all over my house, spin in circles, and travel in and out of rooms for hours sometimes. Phone calls are also an amazing time to get cleaning done. I mopped my kitchen while on the phone with my mom yesterday.
i relate to the adhd routine so much… when you have anxiety, sleeping is difficult and i just stay up until like 2:00 am with the “what-if”s in my head 💀 then i wake up like 20 minutes before my school starts…. i get ready in like 15 minutes, and always forget to brush my teeth and my hair, sometimes put on dry shampoo because i forgot to shower yesterday, then eat my breakfast in a car, and then i end up arriving late to my homeroom class 💀 also does anyone else always speed up videos at 2x because you have bad attention span? i did it with this video i wish i would stop getting distracted by stuff and then people call me “tiktok attention span” but i dont even have tiktok and i rarely use youtube shorts…….. sometimws i think im just dumb and on this comment im getting off topic lol i dont even know what im typing lol
Hello! I don't have ADHD, but I am dyspraxic and autistic, and your content is so helpful and entertaining! I hope you have a lovely day, and thank you for making these videos
time management can also be going over how difficult one task is going be + mentally rehearsing every step repeatedly for 3 hrs (or several days) & turns out it's > 30 min job. Ahhh, the mystery parcel. Love em.
The dry shampoo one though 😂 I used that a lot when I attended a folk highschool a few years back, because I was so mentally drained that I couldn't bring myself to wash my hair more than like once every two weeks. The funny thing though, is that whenever I showed up to school with actually clean hair, this one guy would ask me if I had cut it almost every time, and I was always just like "no, I've just washed it" 😂
@@teratsukielizabeth543 Now that I think about it, I'm pretty sure it was more like once every two weeks and not once a week. And as terateratsukielizabeth said, it really depends on your skin and hair type etc. 😊
I wasn’t diagnosed with ADHD until I was already a young adult and the time blindness thing is so relatable but in the opposite direction for me. Since I had such bad time management I would end up fixating so much on not being late to things like work that I would start to panic about it. I was obsessively like an hour early. Even so I always felt like I was going to be late. Still happens now but my husband is literally the opposite and always running behind so we kind of even out.
Omg that's literally me. I'm not diagnosed with ADHD but I am diagnosed with autism and I suspect it's possible that I have ADHD but I'm not really seeking a diagnosis, but knowing time blindness can go both ways and such my extreme obsession about being early and flipping out if I don't leave 3 hours in advance for something 30 minutes away can be explained much better with ADHD terms than autism terms...... I still don't think I'm ever gonna seek a diagnosis cause I'm too old for it to really benefit me in any way to be aware of it but it is pretty fascinating
That itself is seen pretty much as a diagnostic sign, or should be given how common that over compensation is. It's not something i personally share but my life would probably be better if i did... And certainly the author of the adhd alien comics that first gave me the lightbulb moment of identification reports it being something she does.
I’m always early too and very anxious about being late, that it’s to overcompensate for the time blindness wasn’t always obvious but made so much sense once I realised
@@TeahThyme heh... I try to compensate and even then it rarely works. Just stops the lateness being quite as chronic. Like, I'm no longer starting to pack for a trip after the point where i should have already set off or maybe even have arrived at the destination any more... But with less of an adrenaline burst it takes longer and can have quite a tail of wandering around gathering forgotten things and trying to figure out what else i haven't realised yet, which may not come until it's too late. EG i have at least one set of accessory items that i normally wouldn't own, but i bought them just before a shop closed the night before a friend's wedding, in desperation to stand in for something else i needed but had left behind... Three hours drive away... And for some reason couldn't find a direct replacement for anywhere locally without spending a fortune on something even less suitable in terms of size and appearance than the nominally totally different thing that offered itself up as an ADHD-creativity stand-in (aided by the clever thinking of a neuroscope-pinging shop assistant when i told them what i was searching for and why). That plus traffic on the way that i totally ended up without any spare time to deal with meant i was barely in time for the (non dress) rehearsal despite driving like a demon on an iffy improvised diversion route, and nearly missed dinner afterwards as i had to blast off to the shops in between. That despite having made sure everything was ready the day before THAT... Or so i thought. Or winding up to go to the cinema yesterday. Prebooked my ticket. Showered an hour ahead of time when it was only going to be a fifteen minute drive. Somehow still turned up a couple minutes before the official start time even so, thankfully no major traffic. OK, should have time to get a drink and snack. Not many people in the queue. Except the staff were going the slowest I've ever seen someone move without being dead. Literally got in the door of the theatre proper as the title cards came up. Jeez. It's just, like... There's always someone else, something extra not accounted for, and i can try to engineer in enough earliness, enough slack time, ever more of it, but it seems that's just from my brain silently discarding parts of the process to convince me that there'll be time. That or the world hates me and continually throws additional stumbling blocks in the way that other people either don't experience, or can adapt to and/or just weedle their way out of the consequences better. Had to leave a job on the other side of my not overly large city because of it, as the commute was just killing me and i was always, always, always late no matter what i did to try and compensate. Like even when on disciplinary warning it was like something out of a stupidly hard game or an action movie just getting in the door with seconds to spare, or finding some way to disguise that i hadnt quite managed it. Waiting outside for half an hour or more because I've deliberately overcompensated to make sure there's absolutely no chance of ever being late... That'd be nice. About the only exception so far has been flights and long distance bus or train trips, but those at least have dedicated waiting areas with cafes and such, and for planes a need to check in hours ahead of time (if going abroad, or still fairly early domestically). So it's as much a destination in itself and there's a broad window within which you're EXPECTED to turn up and then just... Hang around. It's not like being awkwardly present with nothing to do (except maybe unpaid labour) at a job or interview or whatever. There's license to be there with a coffee and a book, or go for breakfast and a beer at the departure lounge pub. Those more leisurely kinds of things. You need to be in the area and good to go at a very particular time that can't be violated or bent, but there's nothing you can do to hurry it up at all, and there's other activities available in the meantime. Travelling as a means to itself, especially public transport, seems to short circuit things somehow. Ditto organised activities whilst on holiday, but that's subject to similar liminal weirdness. There's a bunch of you wanting to do the same thing either at the same hotel or across a small set of them. It's all organised by other people externally, runs to a schedule they control, they know absolutely where you're going to be at what time in order to be picked up, which won't be very far from the pickup point, and will probably come investigate if you don't show, so you don't complain about losing the money just because you tripped over on the way down or your watches weren't synchronised. They can lend you money if your purse/wallet isn't in your bag/jacket for some stupid reason (ask me how i know...). Meals etc around the events likely all happen at a regimented time. And, you're on holiday. You're not having to get up stupid early to try and get ready to go to work etc, you can wake at a more civilised hour and if necessary just throw on whatever clean items may be at the top of the suitcase, grab the absolute bare essential items, and book it out the door sixty seconds after being jolted awake and still be fine. Really the only problems i ever had were when doing something I'd previously done to get around a really awkward situation at a misdescribed camping break... Renting a scooter. The first time it was fine. Second time the stupid thing broke down on the way back from the place I'd gone to check out which wasn't on the itinerary due to the arrival/departure dates but really wanted to see, and i had to get two different buses back to the resort after abandoning it. Third time i just got lost and, shock horror, lost track of time and under estimated how long a ride it would be to get back and how bad the bike's lights were / how terrifying the local roads became after dark as the drivers seemed to lose their minds, so i spent a lot of time trundling along the rough shoulder outside of the main carriageway where the bikes and mopeds travel... And then there was the interesting time renting a car instead and not being able to find the airport drop off... Or the airport itself at first... Luckily the flight was delayed.
I started masking really really early on in my life to the point where it wasn't really a concious decision anymore, I never really thought about why I was acting differently to how I wanted to act. At a certain point, it started to catch up on me and I didn't know what was going on, I was suddenly burnt out and spiraling and had no way of understanding myself. Because I didn't know about stimming, I didn't do it when I needed to, and the stims found a way to get out anyway except they were very bad. I started biting and scratching myself whenever I was stressed or anxious, I would pull out my hair and stab myself with pencils just to try and get a grip. Even now that I know I'm autistic and am re-learning to stim, I find myself going back to those kinds of stims when things are really overwhelming and when I forget to stim for too long. It happened today in class, I suddenly felt an intense need to pull on my hair or rip the paper I was drawing on, and it took a lot of willpower to stop myself from doing that and just stim regularly. I had to take a break to stim because I really needed to calm down. After that, I kept stimming regularly throughout the rest of the class and it didn't happen again since I was regulating my emotions in a healthy way.
I can't stand clothes on the floor. So I have a decorational ladder where my floordrobe can stay organized. Once worn trousers on the bottom steps, cardigans on the middle step and so on. This is my final confirmation I am both autistic and ADHD xD
That's interesting! I think a doctor mumbled something about a virus once to me too - who knows what happened! 😂 Hope both your wife and her mum are okay 😊
The aerosol thing is extremely relatable. I hated the feeling it gave me in my air passaged and mouth, and my parents didn't understand, so they just sprayed more of it so I would 'get used to it'. I sometimes had to avoid entire areas of my house because of the scent lol.
I (not an expert, just an ADHDer) think ADHD should be renamed to Attention DYSREGULATION and Hyperactivity Disorder. It's still not great because it doesn't capture everything that comes along with ADHD, but it is just a little more accurate while still keeping the acronym the same (which is useful considering how people still call it ADD).
As an inattentive type, them combining ADD and ADHD into just ADHD is such a pet peeve. Not all of us are hyperactive and then people who are inattentive type are less likely to get diagnosed because we don't fit the stereotype. So I wish ADD was still an acceptable acronym.
Wow, I never thought of it before, but it's so true about the jolt of anxiety that makes you avoidant of crossing work/school people with any activity that is outside of that place. Masking is exhausting. It's like the reason that we don't bother lying, its anxiety-inducing to memorize and hope they don't find out. It's easier not to do it at all.
Floordrobe!! I don't mind having my clothes around but not for too long because my apartment bedroom is tiny. They're on the floor and on my desk until I can't stand it and I put them away. It's a cycle hahaha I used to bite my nails but it hurt my teeth because they're quite hard, and I like how they look long, but I do still pick and bite the skin around them when I'm trying to focus and don't have any fidgets on me.
I was scanning myself for stimming action in the present moment. I didn't detect any. But the second you said "bite", I realized I was chewing the inside of my cheek.
Masking was not a conscious thing for much of my life, for a lot of reasons. I think my autistic traits were attenuated by ADHD and PDA, and in primary school I avoided social groups. I had more social contact in secondary school, by which time my ADHD hyperactivity was the dominant theme. By then I was oblivious to many traits, though by eighth and ninth grade I did have things happen that drove home the extent to which I annoyed people, and that did precipate my first serious bout of depression. For the first 20 something years of adulthood, I did freelance art, which was pretty solitary, though I periodically got involved with volunteer groups, and crashed and burned after a while. I finally took a real job a bit after 50, and that was when I finally started masking consciously, though I didn’t know to call it that. I recognize it now as one of the reasons I really fell apart between 55 and 60. That said - I did unconsciously mask in various ways prior to 50. Stimming is still very hard to do proactively and comes out in Tourette’s like bursts a lot of the time; I hand flap but only when I am really frustrated, for example.
Your explanation of the balance between two sensory icks wrt showering is a big issue with my morning routine too... Thank you for articulating it, I hadn't been able to see it quite right from that angle before.
I thought I was the only one who just doodles snails all the time everywhere, but I guess not. Actually, my need to doodle as a stim has massively helped me with biology class as I just doodle all of the drawings of things all the time!
I'm shit at masking as an ADHD person, I got loads of (backhanded) compliments at school about how I was so confident in myself and uncaring of social pressure. It felt crappy because I could see I wasn't doing what was expected, I just didn't know how to. On the plus side, I've never really had to worry that people just like the "masked me".
The ordering a bunch of identical socks thing was pretty relatable. I especially appreciated the detail that she had perfectly fine socks that didn't appear to be in any sort of need for replacement. I'm a bit too cheap to throw mine out en masse, so I just rotate through the ones I've got and don't throw any of them out until they've worn out, or I'm down to only one. I remember it being a bigger deal than it should have been when my mom couldn't find me socks with a blue stitch at the toe and I had to switch to red. I was well aware of the fact that nobody was paying any attention in gym, and that was the only time I ever had my shoes off at school. But, I wore the white socks with the blue stitch, not the white socks with the red stitch.
Floordrobe!! I love that. Also, one day I bought a pair of barefoot shoes, liked them, and the very next day I donated every single pair of shoes I owned, a laundry basket full, and dropped close to a thousand dollars on all barefoot shoes. To be fair, a year later I still love them and my feet feel fantastic, so it was the right decision. We will not discuss how I can't close my sock drawer because I keep buying new socks to go with my new shoes!
Even I didn't see myself unmasked. I think ADHD masked ASD however I was perfectly content being the hyper 1, so in that way, some natural trait was allowed to remain. Although I did get called annoying a fair bit.
My father chewed pens and pencils, and I do the same. I’m not even aware of it anymore, but since all my pencils look like they’ve been through the mixmaster, I know I still do. What we both did/do that I’ve never quite understood is to grit our teeth and grimace when petting an affectionate cat. It feels like, although the sensation is pleasant, it’s a little too intense. Anyone else?
Thanks to your channel I've had quite a few breakthroughs in understanding of my condition(s), these commentary videos are great for elucidating the things I may find relatable but not understanding why. I used to get in trouble in school for doodling all the time (above and beyond bored kids drawing stussy S's), never realized there was a good reason driving my compulsion.
The socks thing omg! I “discovered” feetures ultra thin socks and I literally buy a new 1/2 dozen every year and just rotate the old out. They feel AMAZING (though they are expensive af! - so I just ask for them for gifts too lol)
I'm always rubbing my ears with cuticles 😅 I'm always drawing a specific kind of flower if not any flower. Specifically, it's just a flower that I made up that I draw all the time
Two little hacks. One, a watch that beeps hourly or buzzes (if smart watch) can help keep track of time better. Two there are clothing horses or trees for clean cloths or semi clean cloths instead of the floor.
The first time I felt the rush (found out at 42) it was amazing! I was smiling randomly and cracking up laughing. I had no idea until that point that I could literally get a high of sorts from it (I can't with medical terms, they're so sterile and invasive) it was the most wonderful thing ever to finally feel. I couldn't believe I was actually high on movement
😂 Oh. No. The neck pinch. I forced myself to stop that in my 40s. I wasn't aware it was a stim, but I had become aware of what it was doing to my neck's appearance. Painfully aware. 😂
The floordrobe is so real for me. I have 2 laundry hampers of clean clothes and my dirty ones go on the floor, when I am running low on clean clothes I merge the hampers of clean clothes together and use the empty one for dirty clothes. Then I wash them and now there’s two hampers of clean clothes again. I initially bought a second hamper so I could have one for dirty and one for clean but this system works better even tho it looks messier. I wish I had the wherewithal to actually fold or hang my clothes like a normal person.
OMG NO, I TOTALLY AGREE, I WANT TO KNOW WHEN THE DSM 6 WILL DROP, it will be sad for psychologists BUT I REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHEN IT IS GOING TO COME OUT BECAUSE IT IS PROBABLY GOING TO BE A LOT BETTER, IT WAS PUBLISHED MORE A DECADE AGO BUT WHO CARES IF THE DSM 4 AND DSM 5 ARE 19 YEARS APART, WE ABSOLUTLY NEED A NEW ONE
After I watched Tick Tick Boom, for like a whole week I was just singing "the green green dress, twenty buttons and a strap...the green green dress, twenty buttons and a strap" just that line over and over and over and I couldn't stop. It got a little annoying, but mostly I was just enjoying myself 😂
I haven't been diagnosed with ADHD or autism, but really relate/identify to both. Before realizing this I was with my "skills trainer" it's like a therapist(none available) that isn't as qualified and specifies in using skills for your problems(self-care, scheduling, etc.) Anyways, point was that I was talking to her about my time blindness, specifically how long I accidentally take when getting ready. She did NOT understand how I took 3 HOURS to get ready. It was pretty embarrassing and didn't help with my stress around me being late all the time. She did tell me to plan ahead and start getting ready earlier, but it didn't help as I already try to do that(even using alarms/reminders) and I still struggle.
It's funny how you explained to me, why I could stop nailbiting magically with the age of 18 - since it was the time, school-education was finally over.
Luckily, growing up, I’ve always been an artistic kid. I went into band in 7th grade which is kind of known for being Full of “the weird kids” which I now know, they were just neurodivergent and queer like me. Going into band was the best decision I made in school. If I wasn’t in band, I don’t think I would’ve made it. I hardly made it even when I was in band. It was the only good part of my day all throughout middle school and high school. I still dropped out and missed the majority of the days, but at least while I was there, I had people to talk to
The time management thing for me can be a major issue when I'm working. Im an Architectural Technician and had issues at the start when asked to estimate how long it would take to draw a detail. I would say an hour and they would be like thats more like an hour and a half to two hours. So I had to learn to take my estimate and add at least another half to double to my time frame.
Best stimming invention ever, and my constant go to, are plastic toothpicks with the little piece of floss. I probably have the best floss teeth on the planet right now.
I relate to all of this lmao! I absolutely love stumbling on these knowing we're not alone in this crazy place ... I do now have one burning question, however; as an autistic, adhd, ocd, infj ... How the heck are y'all finding such amazing partners and spouses, like where are they hiding! LOL
I got called out by the chair covered in once-worn clothes comment, was literally in my field of view while watching. Don't feel right putting them away, but don't wanna put them straight to laundry cause I'll probably wear them again.
16:59 I am always one step from disaster, my working memory is just to busy being a RAM from an early 2000s computer to remember that. Just got that subconscious feeling of dread all the time.
I masked in front of my family my entire life as they set up who they wanted me to be as a person. Then as an adult when I stopped masking my family started calling the real me fake and told me I needed to go back to the me they know
Bruh I used to doodle on every single test. And I would doodle butterflies, flowers, vibes and leaves, happy faces and sad faces, and puzzle pieces(way before I knew anything about anything please don’t come for me, I just liked putting them on the side of the paper margins and it lined up perfectly) I also play with my hair A LOT, and bite the skin on the sides of my fingers by my nails, I grow my nails out so I do it less but when one breaks, I have to cut them all down to the same length of the uneven-ness of my finger tips in my hands bother me sooooo much
The time blindness part is me all the way. I plan out what I'm doing, set out an amount of time to get it done, and the finish twenty minutes too late and now I'm late to school/work/life/etc..
0:58 Autism actually (etymologically) means something similar to self-centered but also used to referred to having fantasies like in schizophrenia. I can't decide if that makes any more sense than any other of the unfortunate names.
I was reading quietly in my room and someone else joined for some quiet reading time, asked (very politely) if I’m aware that I’m humming to myself and this like tapping my foot in the air repeatedly (I lay in awkward positions) well, now I am, except not when I’m doing it. The obvious one is my lower lip and people always suggest lip balm but that’s not why it looks like that unfortunately ;-; At least I stopped pulling my hairs out, lashes and brows mostly, because that one is VERY obvious to people and I wasn’t consciously aware that I was doing it in school to help focus since classes are always noisy so that didn’t help with the bullying x.x I couldn’t tell why I was doing it so felt ashamed that I just couldn’t stop (and then my environment changed so my behaviour changed, felt so confused about why something impossible to stop was just gone, it seems like it was just very tied to the situation, so many different things going on and changes in how things were done during that same time of going from being given instructions to doing things more independently or in group projects, it was always weird to me, why’d I start, why was I doing it and then why did it suddenly stop, and now “you’re very intelligent so that might be why you don’t come across as obviously neurodivergent” in therapy .-. But my apartment still looked very much like nobody cleaned up after the explosion went off and I feel trapped so my solution, go for walks a lot, fighting my brain to get things done is EXHAUSTING)
"is anyone else excited for the DSM 6 to come out" OH YES there have been a few recent papers about Visual-Spatial learning disorder and I was screaming out THAT'S IT this is why I feel the way I do in my body!! But I had never heard of this because in the DSM-5 its called (get this) Nonverbal Learning Disorder because (GET THIS) it doesn't affect your verbal communication at all. Justice from the DSM-6 please
I’ve recently found out that I may have autism and adhd…and I’m in my 30s… it’s great having access to this type of thing now but I wish I had it when I was younger too.
@@imautisticnowwhat the adhd thing has came at no surprise at all… but the autism part, that was like an uppercut to the face. Like everything I’ve learned is completely wrong about being neurodivergent. It’s blown my mind. Thank you for creating the content you make and helping people like myself and others 🥰🥰🥰
Any suggestion on how to approach the situation I am in: After my son was diagnosed with Autism, I felt I too am different and taking myself just as a different individual than others. After searching I try to tabulate my behavior from my early age: 1. I always felt I was a average student though other tell me I am good student and I scored good grade which I believe is I brute forced. I forget most of the things after the exams. 2. I always told myself learning for myself and for exams are different for reasons mentioned above. 3. I am late doer as I think stress hormone helps into my efficiency. It is really difficult for me to start early mostly if the thing does not interest me. 4. If the task interests me, I carry that all day and all night just that task. After completion of task I do not feel that much joy. 5. I am monotonous in any work; I can not multi task, too focused on single task. Eg, while cooking I cut and pre prepare everything before starting the stove. 6. I keep my general things like glass and ring in the same place, else I forget where I kept those. 7. I sometime forget things I heard few mins back or activities few mins back. 8. I sometimes forget that I am wearing my glass or I have my helmets on while riding bike. 9. I have tried but never completed reading a book because I can not remember what few pages had read before. I only try reading short chapters. 10. I sometime feel low without any reason and stress out, usually work it out by sleeping through. 11. I have to create routine and alarm system even to drink water and I am not organized. If I do it only lasts for few days. These are the things I always find different to myself. People always tell me I am a lazy and yes I am. Lazy in doing daily activities but always engaged in things I like to work on esp. on my laptop.
Yep… sounds like you’re in The Club too. Welcome!!! ❤ We’re frickin awesome. Tim Burton to Sir Anthony Hopkins and waaaay more, our contributions to society are innumerable, and regardless of what you learn/hear/read/see, even remember, when done objectively, devoid of moral judgments or subjective opinions and remembering to note sources, potential unaccounted biases, etc., I think you’ll be surprised.
Sounds like ADHD. And yes, I've also thought of myself as lazy. But procrastinating with uninteresting stuff is typical ADHD, and these kinds of behavior were also in the questionnaire I needed to fill in order to begin the assessment. I don't believe you're lazy. I've even seen comments on how lazy doesn't exist, and they've made me think. We always have reasons, be it ADHD or something else. If you wish to begin the diagnostic process, that might be difficult. Depends where you live. I'm 47 and started with contacting the ADHD association in my country, because I wanted to ask them if I should seek a diagnosis, and how to do that. They advised to make a list of all the ways ADHD has negatively affected my life, but now I have about 25 pages of ADHD effects in general, also the positive ones. Anyway I contacted the public healthcare. The nurse asked me questions, and I was admitted to start the assessment. First thing I needed to get blood samples done. If you need to go to a private healthcare provider, or live in the US, the assessment is going to be expensive. Something like 2k I've heard. Just to add: ADHD is unique for everyone. School performance doesn't necessarily indicate anything. There's ADHDers with academic degrees. While ADHDers might struggle with reading, there are also lots of writers and people who love to read (just not the uninteresting stuff). You are good the way you are.
@@elainelouve I live here in Nepal. thank you. please let me know if anything comes up. I am finding it very difficult to be a decent husband. This is too tiresome. Feels like nobody understands and there is complain everywhere. why is this so hard?
Me: Oh I dont doodle often at all I wont be able to relate to this section *proceeds to detail all the main things I have ever drawn when I do on the rare blue moon occasion decide to doodle*
Yeeees the name! I feel the hyperactivity part to me is for my brain being hyperactive sometimes (sometimes???😅😅😅😅😂😂😂). And my speach is "hyper"- I have to speak quickly or my brain gets too far away and I might get lost in it completely. 😅
When you were talking about the soccer bouncing and you put a sound in I didn’t know where it was coming from and then I got confused and immediately wanted to know where it came from but then I went though that part again then realized that you put that sound affect in there 😅 I always hear a sound and ask people where that sound is coming from and they’re just like “what sound” and I think I’m losing my mind but there really was a sound that only I could hear. I am autistic
since my childhood i struggled with masking even tho ı wanted to, i was constantly bullied by my classmates in elementary and middle school, by my cousins and even teachers bullied for a reason unknown to me but since even the adults in my life did this i didn't realize about it until high school which is the time i had phone and source to do research and other people in social media, i got bullied in high school to btw which was more subtle if i compere to the bullying in elementary school (in elementary school they even locked me in bathroom as a "joke") so i didn't really mind it but still it had huge impact on me bc i was constantly trying to mask and fail constantly, the sec i get excited the mask was falling of even if ı try my hardest i didn't know why ı couldn't be like others, i pushed myself soo hard for it but it was sth impossible for me to do but now that i learned about autism and adhd i m trying my best to not push myself that hard to fit in bc i know even if i do my best i wont be nt and i don't wanna be one either
I don't know how to describe it but you have special kind of warmth and very subtle, gentle and respectful way of communicating strong views wich is very unique
Someone made the mistake of encouraging me to not just pick one topic to dump a story on you about, so now, we suffer :) On the topic of sleep and depression, I took Wellbutrin for depressive symptoms for years. It worked well for me… while I was taking sleep meds. When I had to discontinue those, neither myself nor my doctor made the connection between my terrible sleep and the activating effects Wellbutrin can have, in part because i wasn’t feeling the energy because i also wasn’t sleeping, and i just felt so tired and depressed anyway… it was rough, but in the month-ish since I discontinued it my sleep and mood have improved SO MUCH. Any positive effect it has for me was completely obliterated by not being able to medicate the side effects away. I’ve still got a mood disorder and all that fun stuff so it’s not like the depressive symptoms stopped with it, unfortunately, but it’s actually possible to *cope* now. I think working a job that would fire me if i was late too many times really messed with me. If i’m not at least 15 minutes early to something i’ve done before (appointments, meeting at a specific restaurant, going to work, etc) I start to panic about it. If i’ve never been to a place before, I have to be there at LEAST 30 minutes early, but I aim for 45-60. If it’s a reasonable drive I’ll even go by during rush hour the day before so I can plan around that, regardless of what time i’m actually expected to be there. I was only on time to work a few weeks ago (where people regularly show up late with no consequence and we have no point system attendance policy) and had a small crisis about it 😂 And boy oh boy, when i tell you it was a tense drive to my first appointment at a new office after sitting in traffic for 45 minutes due to an accident on the off-ramp… and then I combine that anxiety with “can’t do this 15 minute task at 9 because i have a 20 minute drive at 1” and I end up losing a lot of time to it on appointment days, all to avoid a teensy bit of rsd. I threw out all my socks a while ago in favor of buying a few packs of the same socks because differently colored socks on each foot is fine, but if they’re not the exact same brand and size I’ll be acutely aware of it all day long and i just don’t want to deal with the hassle. It’s bad enough that i have to wear foot coverings in the first place, i’m not adding more work for myself to do something i don’t wanna do. I have naturally curly hair that I always kept long because it was pretty and I got compliments, but it couldn’t be blow-dried due to frizz. I always knew I hated the feeling of wet hair on my neck, and especially wet slimy hair after I put mousse in, but I didn’t really grasp just how much i hated it until I started to transition and cut it all off. It didn’t fix my terrible hygiene issues (actually it kinda made them worse since i don’t have to shower if I want nice hair anymore) but it removed a huge element of dread that i didn’t even know was there before. Last of all, my American ears really like to hear the wrong things from you. Every time you mention your mother is an artist, I question what I think I know about your family, because “Wait, I’m pretty sure she’s not autistic… right?” 😂
I tried Wellbutrin (well, Bupropion,everything’s generic on my insurance) before my ADHD assessment, because I was already on an antidepressant. Sadly, it helped with ADHD issues, and got me off an SSRI which was worsening the ADHD (apparently this can be a thing) - but I had anger and extreme stiffness, I think because my fight or flight reflects the fact that while I know I’m low on dopamine, I’m pretty sure my CNS is overloaded with noradrenaline. (I was already on Clonidine for that). I’m trying tiny amounts of generic Adderall now in the hopes of boosting dopamine a bit without boosting noradrenaline too much, but I’m nervous about this. Our methods of managing lateness are the same; hypervigilant fear of being late for things with hard deadlines. When I flew for work (that was rough) I had to add margin for error/delay at every stage, and the margin added up so I’d be very early. Still better than leaving about enough time for say the drive and then hitting a delay though. Connecting flights were brutal because I couldn’t control the available time. FWIW I like your posts and am happy to be in a place where people post detailed entries and I don’t feel like quite such an odd person out. I still struggle with the fact that I post a lot of responses to people, I think too darned many. I’m used to the fact that I annoy people by talking too much; yup, RSD issues.
Yes I'm glad for the long responses too, I'm one of those too lol. I recently cut my own hair, which I was afraid would make me look crazy, had no idea what I was doing. What I knew is that I wanted to not have such a hard time brushing my hair. I knew it might make me cold having less hair which it did but now my hair doesn't touch my neck, love it, plus my hair in the front I can see which I think is cool. People r complimenting me and no one has said they think I must b having a breakdown lol. Although if they thought my haircut was awful they probably wouldn't say I suppose, but if u thought it was bad would u go out of your way to say it was nice? In my mind u would just hope not to be asked if u didn't like it, but definitely everybody doesn't think the way I do. Another note, I finally gave RSD some more thought.. it has a big effect on me. Even the slightest hint of rejection, definitely it's sometimes just perceived like a bad vibe or something and I can b just devastated
Now that you mention it... I'm actually kinda amazed how soft bamboo socks are. It's literally wood but still it's so much softer than any other socks I ever had so far. Even the actual alpaca wool socks - they might be fluffier but they aren't softer.
For me all my life I have absolutely hated and dispised the feeling of underwear, socks, shirt tags, free fitting shirts which is why I wear a large not a medium and long sleeve shirt that I rarely wear because it makes my arms tingle and itchy and lace does that too. Also I abandoned bras they are so sensory hell
I'm doing a lot of self exploration and I'm realizing a lot. I really relate about forcing myself to "be normal" makes me feel bad, like if I want to stim and I don't, or especially if I've started and am asked to stop is very negative feeling. I was very upset and pacing and singing and saying stuff repetitively and I was a bit worried I was upsetting my son, he's 4 so I asked, but my husband thought I was talking to him and said yeah, I felt so bad and tried to go in my bedroom and just sit on the bed quietly but it felt so horrible, I started to rock, it was unbarable to remain still in that state. But on a lighter note I have another example of waiting at the bus stop to walk home with my daughter. I used to stand there perfectly still, it felt like what u were saying about being in a straight jacket, maybe it's partially demand avoidance even too because I didn't feel like I was allowed to pace, I was being forced to just stand still, just "b normal". Now I just pace around the whole time even though people can see me when they drive by, and I'm also in front of somebody's house.
How I stim is wiggling to the point mom has to ask if I have to use the bathroom since I also wiggle when I have to use the bathroom. She's sorta learned which one is which.
Yes! The bamboo socks are amazing! My feet are always dry; they are much stretchier than nylon socks, and they are soft without being thick or fluffy, so they don't make my shoes feel tighter either.
Man borderline personality disorder, what a name. I got diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder at 9 years old...(turned out it was a wrongful diagnoses and I was just an ftm with adhd but it took until i was like 26 (?) until they took it off my medical records, im now 29) but anyways Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder is a bloody horrible name because I have a pretty good handle on my emotions considering the hell I've been through haha I get panic attacks in the shower , only recently figured its sensory overload. I always used to draw to help me concentrate at school but then i would get told off for not paying attention even tho i was lol I used to draw eyes and flowers and snakes , anything that would fit in the margins of the books. I draw alot of jellyfish and spaceships/aliens abducting cows lol My personal stim is stroking my chin / beard. I didnt know it wae a stim until my niece startee copying me because i did it so much ♡
Aw that sounds so cute. My kids both have a song memorized because I was so obsessed with it, for quite a period of time I would sing it every time we drove anywhere. I wish I could see your UFO's abducting cows doodling, it sounds cool
@@heedmydemands that's so sweet ♡ My niece has some songs in her back pocket too, I got her a cheap kids mp3 and headphones when she was 3ish coz she loved playing with mine, she knows alllll the frozen soundtracks and trolls lol ♡ Haha its not that great of a drawing, my cows always seem to look odd and I can't figure out why lol 😆
Fun fact about me! The main reason I didn’t get diagnosed with adhd (primarily inattentive type) was because I’m a very laid back person in general. Unless you catch me talking about my interests or when I’m overwhelmed, I’m very quiet and go with the flow. But my attention was so all over the place and I was constantly daydreaming so my school work suffered. Plus none of my friends had the same interests as me. I’ve always liked cartoons and more childish media like Sonic or TMNT. And they were more into books and movies or tv shows. So combine the fact that me and my friends don’t really talk much or hang out outside of school with my constant bad grades and you get a beautiful diagnosis of “lazy”. And of course now that I’ve been diagnosed and put on meds I’m actually a straight A student. So no. I’m not lazy. I’ll still procrastinate like hell but at least I get the work done. Go figure.
I also got rock hard nails from my dad's side of the family! 😃 My mom is quite jealous 😅 I got the urge to bite my nails in middle school and that went on for a little while but eventually my teeth were just tired from how much work it took to chew through the nail and my executive dysfunction took over and made me stop
19:13 the ting is that ppl don't like my blanc mask,but i can unmask w ppl I'm not comfortable with just when I'm really tied and then ppl like me more.it's kinda out of my control if I mask or not but it surely is really exhausting
Me: _is trying to stay awake long enough to get ready for bed by watching/listening to the video but is drifting_ Video: 9:25 Me: 😮 _pauses video and proceeds to get the rest of the way ready for bed_
Because masking (also with that Co***a thing, not only trying to fit in) is mentally hard for me (it strains me and I _hate_ being strained) I just simply try not to mask. I'll still prevent myself from doing disruptive things, but I do not try to seem neurotypical. And it's pretty relieving to see that almost nobody cares that I'm strange and either ignores me (if I'm not directly interacting with them) or accepts me as I am.
When I stress out about having too much of one kind of thing, that's real. I tend to wanna get rid of a lot of things in bulk when it gets overwhelming and start again. I've had to move around a lot so I learned how to lessen my load materialistically. I used to be a clutterbug but now I'm all about organization and efficiency.
Hope you enjoy my silly editing! These were SO good. I might be a TikTok convert (still haven't downloaded the app though😬I hold it at arms length!)
Other videos you might like:
Autistic Person Reacts to Autism TikToks!
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I Hid my Daughter's Autism Diagnosis for YEARS | r/AITA:
ua-cam.com/video/hqzpiGhJGVo/v-deo.html
Thank you for all of your amazing, insightful comments this week!
I love your silly editing!! like the soul fading out, the little pumpkin boi dancing, it makes me smile and I feel silly too heheh
the best thing the internet has done for me is showing me other people with adhd, it makes me feel "normal" and less lonely
Me too! I was recently (like a month ago) diagnosed at 41. It's comforting to see.
@@CaliAmandalyn1981 I'm 45, but I was also diagnosed at 41. Greetings and well wishes from an AuDHD gal in Oregon.
It shows me that I was misdiagnosed. ADHD doesn't fit now that I'm not in school. I failed school because I hated being there.
Same! Hi!! I see you!
Love that for you! :D
I would also really like to read a DSM-VI whenever it comes out. If ADHD and autism need as much updating as I know they do then I'm certain the whole manual needs work.
Yeppp!!
🙌 🙌 🙌 THIS!!! Rabbit holed this and the 🤬! 🤦🏾♀️
I love your videos. I'm a teacher and it gives me lots of hints on how to deal with the diversity in my classes. Just being aware of the neurodiversity and how some of my students have to deal with it is just great. I am more open minded and can offer different options to accomodate most of them.
You sound like the best teacher in the world! Thank you so much 💛💛
@@imautisticnowwhat I just do my best. I love my students so I try to give them the best as possible.
@@nathalietremblay686 This is the best thing a I have heard all eek. Thanks for that. Your students are very lucky.
Thank you from an AuDHD adult 💜
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It is impossible for me to sit down while on a phone call. I pace all over my house, spin in circles, and travel in and out of rooms for hours sometimes. Phone calls are also an amazing time to get cleaning done. I mopped my kitchen while on the phone with my mom yesterday.
With a head set?
5:07 I literally was given a pair of those exact socks when I was a teenager FROM A GUY NAMED DAVE. 😂
Nooo!!! That's MAD! 😂😂😂
That is amazing
i relate to the adhd routine so much… when you have anxiety, sleeping is difficult and i just stay up until like 2:00 am with the “what-if”s in my head 💀 then i wake up like 20 minutes before my school starts…. i get ready in like 15 minutes, and always forget to brush my teeth and my hair, sometimes put on dry shampoo because i forgot to shower yesterday, then eat my breakfast in a car, and then i end up arriving late to my homeroom class 💀
also does anyone else always speed up videos at 2x because you have bad attention span? i did it with this video i wish i would stop getting distracted by stuff and then people call me “tiktok attention span” but i dont even have tiktok and i rarely use youtube shorts…….. sometimws i think im just dumb and on this comment im getting off topic lol i dont even know what im typing lol
Story of my life lmao😅
Hello! I don't have ADHD, but I am dyspraxic and autistic, and your content is so helpful and entertaining! I hope you have a lovely day, and thank you for making these videos
Thank you so much - that's so kind! I'm really glad 💛 Have a lovely day too and thank you for watching!
@@imautisticnowwhat Thank you
I have ADHD and im also dyspraxic! I also think im autistic too thats cool :)
ooooh dinosaurs do rule I agree do you have a favourite?
@@honeybun3596 I like diplodocuses :)
What about you?
time management can also be going over how difficult one task is going be + mentally rehearsing every step repeatedly for 3 hrs (or several days) & turns out it's > 30 min job.
Ahhh, the mystery parcel. Love em.
that was funny many pauses in the one after that however adhd in the adhd tiktok lol
The dry shampoo one though 😂 I used that a lot when I attended a folk highschool a few years back, because I was so mentally drained that I couldn't bring myself to wash my hair more than like once every two weeks. The funny thing though, is that whenever I showed up to school with actually clean hair, this one guy would ask me if I had cut it almost every time, and I was always just like "no, I've just washed it" 😂
That's hilarious. I shower once a week basically all the time. How often do u think u should?
@@heedmydemands it entirely depends on your skin type, hair type, bodily and if you have other conditions or on meds
@@teratsukielizabeth543 Now that I think about it, I'm pretty sure it was more like once every two weeks and not once a week. And as terateratsukielizabeth said, it really depends on your skin and hair type etc. 😊
@@heedmydemandsEvery other day! Maybe every 3 days if you’re not active!
I wasn’t diagnosed with ADHD until I was already a young adult and the time blindness thing is so relatable but in the opposite direction for me. Since I had such bad time management I would end up fixating so much on not being late to things like work that I would start to panic about it.
I was obsessively like an hour early. Even so I always felt like I was going to be late. Still happens now but my husband is literally the opposite and always running behind so we kind of even out.
Omg! Now that makes so much sense to me!
Omg that's literally me. I'm not diagnosed with ADHD but I am diagnosed with autism and I suspect it's possible that I have ADHD but I'm not really seeking a diagnosis, but knowing time blindness can go both ways and such my extreme obsession about being early and flipping out if I don't leave 3 hours in advance for something 30 minutes away can be explained much better with ADHD terms than autism terms...... I still don't think I'm ever gonna seek a diagnosis cause I'm too old for it to really benefit me in any way to be aware of it but it is pretty fascinating
That itself is seen pretty much as a diagnostic sign, or should be given how common that over compensation is.
It's not something i personally share but my life would probably be better if i did... And certainly the author of the adhd alien comics that first gave me the lightbulb moment of identification reports it being something she does.
I’m always early too and very anxious about being late, that it’s to overcompensate for the time blindness wasn’t always obvious but made so much sense once I realised
@@TeahThyme heh... I try to compensate and even then it rarely works. Just stops the lateness being quite as chronic. Like, I'm no longer starting to pack for a trip after the point where i should have already set off or maybe even have arrived at the destination any more... But with less of an adrenaline burst it takes longer and can have quite a tail of wandering around gathering forgotten things and trying to figure out what else i haven't realised yet, which may not come until it's too late.
EG i have at least one set of accessory items that i normally wouldn't own, but i bought them just before a shop closed the night before a friend's wedding, in desperation to stand in for something else i needed but had left behind... Three hours drive away... And for some reason couldn't find a direct replacement for anywhere locally without spending a fortune on something even less suitable in terms of size and appearance than the nominally totally different thing that offered itself up as an ADHD-creativity stand-in (aided by the clever thinking of a neuroscope-pinging shop assistant when i told them what i was searching for and why). That plus traffic on the way that i totally ended up without any spare time to deal with meant i was barely in time for the (non dress) rehearsal despite driving like a demon on an iffy improvised diversion route, and nearly missed dinner afterwards as i had to blast off to the shops in between.
That despite having made sure everything was ready the day before THAT... Or so i thought.
Or winding up to go to the cinema yesterday. Prebooked my ticket. Showered an hour ahead of time when it was only going to be a fifteen minute drive. Somehow still turned up a couple minutes before the official start time even so, thankfully no major traffic. OK, should have time to get a drink and snack. Not many people in the queue. Except the staff were going the slowest I've ever seen someone move without being dead. Literally got in the door of the theatre proper as the title cards came up. Jeez.
It's just, like... There's always someone else, something extra not accounted for, and i can try to engineer in enough earliness, enough slack time, ever more of it, but it seems that's just from my brain silently discarding parts of the process to convince me that there'll be time. That or the world hates me and continually throws additional stumbling blocks in the way that other people either don't experience, or can adapt to and/or just weedle their way out of the consequences better. Had to leave a job on the other side of my not overly large city because of it, as the commute was just killing me and i was always, always, always late no matter what i did to try and compensate. Like even when on disciplinary warning it was like something out of a stupidly hard game or an action movie just getting in the door with seconds to spare, or finding some way to disguise that i hadnt quite managed it.
Waiting outside for half an hour or more because I've deliberately overcompensated to make sure there's absolutely no chance of ever being late... That'd be nice.
About the only exception so far has been flights and long distance bus or train trips, but those at least have dedicated waiting areas with cafes and such, and for planes a need to check in hours ahead of time (if going abroad, or still fairly early domestically). So it's as much a destination in itself and there's a broad window within which you're EXPECTED to turn up and then just... Hang around. It's not like being awkwardly present with nothing to do (except maybe unpaid labour) at a job or interview or whatever. There's license to be there with a coffee and a book, or go for breakfast and a beer at the departure lounge pub. Those more leisurely kinds of things. You need to be in the area and good to go at a very particular time that can't be violated or bent, but there's nothing you can do to hurry it up at all, and there's other activities available in the meantime. Travelling as a means to itself, especially public transport, seems to short circuit things somehow.
Ditto organised activities whilst on holiday, but that's subject to similar liminal weirdness. There's a bunch of you wanting to do the same thing either at the same hotel or across a small set of them. It's all organised by other people externally, runs to a schedule they control, they know absolutely where you're going to be at what time in order to be picked up, which won't be very far from the pickup point, and will probably come investigate if you don't show, so you don't complain about losing the money just because you tripped over on the way down or your watches weren't synchronised. They can lend you money if your purse/wallet isn't in your bag/jacket for some stupid reason (ask me how i know...). Meals etc around the events likely all happen at a regimented time. And, you're on holiday. You're not having to get up stupid early to try and get ready to go to work etc, you can wake at a more civilised hour and if necessary just throw on whatever clean items may be at the top of the suitcase, grab the absolute bare essential items, and book it out the door sixty seconds after being jolted awake and still be fine.
Really the only problems i ever had were when doing something I'd previously done to get around a really awkward situation at a misdescribed camping break... Renting a scooter. The first time it was fine. Second time the stupid thing broke down on the way back from the place I'd gone to check out which wasn't on the itinerary due to the arrival/departure dates but really wanted to see, and i had to get two different buses back to the resort after abandoning it. Third time i just got lost and, shock horror, lost track of time and under estimated how long a ride it would be to get back and how bad the bike's lights were / how terrifying the local roads became after dark as the drivers seemed to lose their minds, so i spent a lot of time trundling along the rough shoulder outside of the main carriageway where the bikes and mopeds travel... And then there was the interesting time renting a car instead and not being able to find the airport drop off... Or the airport itself at first... Luckily the flight was delayed.
The NT/ADHD couple have been my new favorites for the past few weeks! And the "5 minutes" vid is the first one I saw from them. It's too good!! 😂
They're amazing!!
Yeah those r really good. I don't have ADHD I don't think but I love them. I can super relate about time blindness and stuff
she's an amazing singer too, she has her songs on UA-cam. I like her song Family Tree
I started masking really really early on in my life to the point where it wasn't really a concious decision anymore, I never really thought about why I was acting differently to how I wanted to act. At a certain point, it started to catch up on me and I didn't know what was going on, I was suddenly burnt out and spiraling and had no way of understanding myself. Because I didn't know about stimming, I didn't do it when I needed to, and the stims found a way to get out anyway except they were very bad. I started biting and scratching myself whenever I was stressed or anxious, I would pull out my hair and stab myself with pencils just to try and get a grip. Even now that I know I'm autistic and am re-learning to stim, I find myself going back to those kinds of stims when things are really overwhelming and when I forget to stim for too long. It happened today in class, I suddenly felt an intense need to pull on my hair or rip the paper I was drawing on, and it took a lot of willpower to stop myself from doing that and just stim regularly. I had to take a break to stim because I really needed to calm down. After that, I kept stimming regularly throughout the rest of the class and it didn't happen again since I was regulating my emotions in a healthy way.
Your song “you probably stayed up too late doing something on the internet” made me feel so called me out 😂😂.
I can't stand clothes on the floor. So I have a decorational ladder where my floordrobe can stay organized. Once worn trousers on the bottom steps, cardigans on the middle step and so on. This is my final confirmation I am both autistic and ADHD xD
That sounds nice, I like it
I truly appreciate that more and more people are unafraid of being themselves online. It feels better to know I’m not alone.
My wife has ADHD and probably autism and is deaf in one ear, they put it down to a virus, her mum is deaf in the opposite ear.
That's interesting! I think a doctor mumbled something about a virus once to me too - who knows what happened! 😂 Hope both your wife and her mum are okay 😊
I read that as " She has autism in one ear." Was very confused.
The aerosol thing is extremely relatable. I hated the feeling it gave me in my air passaged and mouth, and my parents didn't understand, so they just sprayed more of it so I would 'get used to it'. I sometimes had to avoid entire areas of my house because of the scent lol.
I (not an expert, just an ADHDer) think ADHD should be renamed to Attention DYSREGULATION and Hyperactivity Disorder. It's still not great because it doesn't capture everything that comes along with ADHD, but it is just a little more accurate while still keeping the acronym the same (which is useful considering how people still call it ADD).
People will still call it adhd anyway, in my head nobody will notice if it changes
If u drop the "hyperactivity" then I agree. Or maybe just AAD (Attentional/Activity Dysregulation)
As an inattentive type, them combining ADD and ADHD into just ADHD is such a pet peeve. Not all of us are hyperactive and then people who are inattentive type are less likely to get diagnosed because we don't fit the stereotype. So I wish ADD was still an acceptable acronym.
Wow, I never thought of it before, but it's so true about the jolt of anxiety that makes you avoidant of crossing work/school people with any activity that is outside of that place. Masking is exhausting. It's like the reason that we don't bother lying, its anxiety-inducing to memorize and hope they don't find out. It's easier not to do it at all.
Floordrobe!! I don't mind having my clothes around but not for too long because my apartment bedroom is tiny. They're on the floor and on my desk until I can't stand it and I put them away. It's a cycle hahaha
I used to bite my nails but it hurt my teeth because they're quite hard, and I like how they look long, but I do still pick and bite the skin around them when I'm trying to focus and don't have any fidgets on me.
For some reason I've never picked at the skin around them either - it's just my poor neck that gets attacked 🤣
I was scanning myself for stimming action in the present moment. I didn't detect any. But the second you said "bite", I realized I was chewing the inside of my cheek.
Masking was not a conscious thing for much of my life, for a lot of reasons. I think my autistic traits were attenuated by ADHD and PDA, and in primary school I avoided social groups. I had more social contact in secondary school, by which time my ADHD hyperactivity was the dominant theme. By then I was oblivious to many traits, though by eighth and ninth grade I did have things happen that drove home the extent to which I annoyed people, and that did precipate my first serious bout of depression. For the first 20 something years of adulthood, I did freelance art, which was pretty solitary, though I periodically got involved with volunteer groups, and crashed and burned after a while. I finally took a real job a bit after 50, and that was when I finally started masking consciously, though I didn’t know to call it that. I recognize it now as one of the reasons I really fell apart between 55 and 60. That said - I did unconsciously mask in various ways prior to 50. Stimming is still very hard to do proactively and comes out in Tourette’s like bursts a lot of the time; I hand flap but only when I am really frustrated, for example.
Your explanation of the balance between two sensory icks wrt showering is a big issue with my morning routine too... Thank you for articulating it, I hadn't been able to see it quite right from that angle before.
I love the shower. At times I just fold my ears forward and listen to the water drops falling on my head. Sooo calming 😅😂😂
I thought I was the only one who just doodles snails all the time everywhere, but I guess not. Actually, my need to doodle as a stim has massively helped me with biology class as I just doodle all of the drawings of things all the time!
I'm shit at masking as an ADHD person, I got loads of (backhanded) compliments at school about how I was so confident in myself and uncaring of social pressure.
It felt crappy because I could see I wasn't doing what was expected, I just didn't know how to. On the plus side, I've never really had to worry that people just like the "masked me".
Buying 20 pairs of identical socks & then you change styles😢
But not ever having an odd sock WAS a genius idea in the moment.
The ordering a bunch of identical socks thing was pretty relatable. I especially appreciated the detail that she had perfectly fine socks that didn't appear to be in any sort of need for replacement. I'm a bit too cheap to throw mine out en masse, so I just rotate through the ones I've got and don't throw any of them out until they've worn out, or I'm down to only one.
I remember it being a bigger deal than it should have been when my mom couldn't find me socks with a blue stitch at the toe and I had to switch to red. I was well aware of the fact that nobody was paying any attention in gym, and that was the only time I ever had my shoes off at school. But, I wore the white socks with the blue stitch, not the white socks with the red stitch.
They probably didn't match anymore
Floordrobe!! I love that. Also, one day I bought a pair of barefoot shoes, liked them, and the very next day I donated every single pair of shoes I owned, a laundry basket full, and dropped close to a thousand dollars on all barefoot shoes. To be fair, a year later I still love them and my feet feel fantastic, so it was the right decision. We will not discuss how I can't close my sock drawer because I keep buying new socks to go with my new shoes!
Even I didn't see myself unmasked. I think ADHD masked ASD however I was perfectly content being the hyper 1, so in that way, some natural trait was allowed to remain. Although I did get called annoying a fair bit.
My father chewed pens and pencils, and I do the same. I’m not even aware of it anymore, but since all my pencils look like they’ve been through the mixmaster, I know I still do.
What we both did/do that I’ve never quite understood is to grit our teeth and grimace when petting an affectionate cat. It feels like, although the sensation is pleasant, it’s a little too intense. Anyone else?
Because of the purring?
Thanks to your channel I've had quite a few breakthroughs in understanding of my condition(s), these commentary videos are great for elucidating the things I may find relatable but not understanding why. I used to get in trouble in school for doodling all the time (above and beyond bored kids drawing stussy S's), never realized there was a good reason driving my compulsion.
The socks thing omg! I “discovered” feetures ultra thin socks and I literally buy a new 1/2 dozen every year and just rotate the old out. They feel AMAZING (though they are expensive af! - so I just ask for them for gifts too lol)
I'm always rubbing my ears with cuticles 😅
I'm always drawing a specific kind of flower if not any flower. Specifically, it's just a flower that I made up that I draw all the time
My dad did that with his socks - his reasoning was that he would never have to struggle to find matching socks if all his socks were the same.
Two little hacks. One, a watch that beeps hourly or buzzes (if smart watch) can help keep track of time better. Two there are clothing horses or trees for clean cloths or semi clean cloths instead of the floor.
The first time I felt the rush (found out at 42) it was amazing! I was smiling randomly and cracking up laughing. I had no idea until that point that I could literally get a high of sorts from it (I can't with medical terms, they're so sterile and invasive) it was the most wonderful thing ever to finally feel. I couldn't believe I was actually high on movement
Your videos have really helped me understand what my teen is going through with their adhd & how we can support them. Thank you so much 🙏🏼❤
😂 Oh. No. The neck pinch. I forced myself to stop that in my 40s. I wasn't aware it was a stim, but I had become aware of what it was doing to my neck's appearance. Painfully aware. 😂
How did you stop?? I just caaan't!!
The floordrobe is so real for me. I have 2 laundry hampers of clean clothes and my dirty ones go on the floor, when I am running low on clean clothes I merge the hampers of clean clothes together and use the empty one for dirty clothes. Then I wash them and now there’s two hampers of clean clothes again. I initially bought a second hamper so I could have one for dirty and one for clean but this system works better even tho it looks messier. I wish I had the wherewithal to actually fold or hang my clothes like a normal person.
about the nail stimming. I also do that. Getting Gelish or arylic nails really help :3
OMG NO, I TOTALLY AGREE, I WANT TO KNOW WHEN THE DSM 6 WILL DROP, it will be sad for psychologists BUT I REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHEN IT IS GOING TO COME OUT BECAUSE IT IS PROBABLY GOING TO BE A LOT BETTER, IT WAS PUBLISHED MORE A DECADE AGO BUT WHO CARES IF THE DSM 4 AND DSM 5 ARE 19 YEARS APART, WE ABSOLUTLY NEED A NEW ONE
but like, the dsm 2 and dsm 3 were 12 years appart, they absolutly can publish the dsm 6 a 11 years apart
.45 seconds YES!!! I was like why does BPD and all these different things sound so scary?!
After I watched Tick Tick Boom, for like a whole week I was just singing "the green green dress, twenty buttons and a strap...the green green dress, twenty buttons and a strap" just that line over and over and over and I couldn't stop. It got a little annoying, but mostly I was just enjoying myself 😂
I haven't been diagnosed with ADHD or autism, but really relate/identify to both. Before realizing this I was with my "skills trainer" it's like a therapist(none available) that isn't as qualified and specifies in using skills for your problems(self-care, scheduling, etc.) Anyways, point was that I was talking to her about my time blindness, specifically how long I accidentally take when getting ready. She did NOT understand how I took 3 HOURS to get ready. It was pretty embarrassing and didn't help with my stress around me being late all the time. She did tell me to plan ahead and start getting ready earlier, but it didn't help as I already try to do that(even using alarms/reminders) and I still struggle.
It's funny how you explained to me, why I could stop nailbiting magically with the age of 18 - since it was the time, school-education was finally over.
Luckily, growing up, I’ve always been an artistic kid. I went into band in 7th grade which is kind of known for being Full of “the weird kids” which I now know, they were just neurodivergent and queer like me. Going into band was the best decision I made in school. If I wasn’t in band, I don’t think I would’ve made it. I hardly made it even when I was in band. It was the only good part of my day all throughout middle school and high school. I still dropped out and missed the majority of the days, but at least while I was there, I had people to talk to
The time management thing for me can be a major issue when I'm working.
Im an Architectural Technician and had issues at the start when asked to estimate how long it would take to draw a detail. I would say an hour and they would be like thats more like an hour and a half to two hours. So I had to learn to take my estimate and add at least another half to double to my time frame.
Best stimming invention ever, and my constant go to, are plastic toothpicks with the little piece of floss. I probably have the best floss teeth on the planet right now.
I relate to all of this lmao! I absolutely love stumbling on these knowing we're not alone in this crazy place ... I do now have one burning question, however; as an autistic, adhd, ocd, infj ... How the heck are y'all finding such amazing partners and spouses, like where are they hiding! LOL
Could b at the library, that's where I met my husband
Oh man I relate so much to being diffrent around diffrent people and behaving on a certain way
I got called out by the chair covered in once-worn clothes comment, was literally in my field of view while watching. Don't feel right putting them away, but don't wanna put them straight to laundry cause I'll probably wear them again.
16:59 I am always one step from disaster, my working memory is just to busy being a RAM from an early 2000s computer to remember that. Just got that subconscious feeling of dread all the time.
you're really relatable as a fellow AuDHDer!
With my tounge (every time I spell it, it doesn’t feel like a word), I can feel lines on my cheeks where i subconsciously bite them over and over
I ordered Dani Donovan's new Anti-Planner, but had totally forgotten I'd ordered it & was really surprising when it arrived. Yay, ADHD! 😂
Omg thank you for mentioning the sensitivity towards aerosols and things entering your airways.
I masked in front of my family my entire life as they set up who they wanted me to be as a person. Then as an adult when I stopped masking my family started calling the real me fake and told me I needed to go back to the me they know
Bruh I used to doodle on every single test. And I would doodle butterflies, flowers, vibes and leaves, happy faces and sad faces, and puzzle pieces(way before I knew anything about anything please don’t come for me, I just liked putting them on the side of the paper margins and it lined up perfectly) I also play with my hair A LOT, and bite the skin on the sides of my fingers by my nails, I grow my nails out so I do it less but when one breaks, I have to cut them all down to the same length of the uneven-ness of my finger tips in my hands bother me sooooo much
The time blindness part is me all the way. I plan out what I'm doing, set out an amount of time to get it done, and the finish twenty minutes too late and now I'm late to school/work/life/etc..
0:58 Autism actually (etymologically) means something similar to self-centered but also used to referred to having fantasies like in schizophrenia. I can't decide if that makes any more sense than any other of the unfortunate names.
I was reading quietly in my room and someone else joined for some quiet reading time, asked (very politely) if I’m aware that I’m humming to myself and this like tapping my foot in the air repeatedly (I lay in awkward positions) well, now I am, except not when I’m doing it. The obvious one is my lower lip and people always suggest lip balm but that’s not why it looks like that unfortunately ;-;
At least I stopped pulling my hairs out, lashes and brows mostly, because that one is VERY obvious to people and I wasn’t consciously aware that I was doing it in school to help focus since classes are always noisy so that didn’t help with the bullying x.x I couldn’t tell why I was doing it so felt ashamed that I just couldn’t stop (and then my environment changed so my behaviour changed, felt so confused about why something impossible to stop was just gone, it seems like it was just very tied to the situation, so many different things going on and changes in how things were done during that same time of going from being given instructions to doing things more independently or in group projects, it was always weird to me, why’d I start, why was I doing it and then why did it suddenly stop, and now “you’re very intelligent so that might be why you don’t come across as obviously neurodivergent” in therapy .-. But my apartment still looked very much like nobody cleaned up after the explosion went off and I feel trapped so my solution, go for walks a lot, fighting my brain to get things done is EXHAUSTING)
"is anyone else excited for the DSM 6 to come out" OH YES there have been a few recent papers about Visual-Spatial learning disorder and I was screaming out THAT'S IT this is why I feel the way I do in my body!! But I had never heard of this because in the DSM-5 its called (get this) Nonverbal Learning Disorder because (GET THIS) it doesn't affect your verbal communication at all. Justice from the DSM-6 please
I was just diagnosed with adhd a few days ago, and it all makes sense now. I relate to so many of these videos
Floordrobe. What a great word.
The spiral I went down when I noticed the vampire bites moles and what I’d comment was almost as entertaining as the video itself.
I’ve recently found out that I may have autism and adhd…and I’m in my 30s… it’s great having access to this type of thing now but I wish I had it when I was younger too.
I know that feeling/pain. I'm so glad you're learning this information now, at least. I'm so grateful for the internet!
@@imautisticnowwhat the adhd thing has came at no surprise at all… but the autism part, that was like an uppercut to the face. Like everything I’ve learned is completely wrong about being neurodivergent. It’s blown my mind.
Thank you for creating the content you make and helping people like myself and others 🥰🥰🥰
OMG. I totally draw as a stem. Snails and eyes specifically....
Any suggestion on how to approach the situation I am in:
After my son was diagnosed with Autism, I felt I too am different and taking myself just as a different individual than others. After searching I try to tabulate my behavior from my early age:
1. I always felt I was a average student though other tell me I am good student and I scored good grade which I believe is I brute forced. I forget most of the things after the exams.
2. I always told myself learning for myself and for exams are different for reasons mentioned above.
3. I am late doer as I think stress hormone helps into my efficiency. It is really difficult for me to start early mostly if the thing does not interest me.
4. If the task interests me, I carry that all day and all night just that task. After completion of task I do not feel that much joy.
5. I am monotonous in any work; I can not multi task, too focused on single task. Eg, while cooking I cut and pre prepare everything before starting the stove.
6. I keep my general things like glass and ring in the same place, else I forget where I kept those.
7. I sometime forget things I heard few mins back or activities few mins back.
8. I sometimes forget that I am wearing my glass or I have my helmets on while riding bike.
9. I have tried but never completed reading a book because I can not remember what few pages had read before. I only try reading short chapters.
10. I sometime feel low without any reason and stress out, usually work it out by sleeping through.
11. I have to create routine and alarm system even to drink water and I am not organized. If I do it only lasts for few days.
These are the things I always find different to myself. People always tell me I am a lazy and yes I am. Lazy in doing daily activities but always engaged in things I like to work on esp. on my laptop.
Yep… sounds like you’re in The Club too. Welcome!!! ❤
We’re frickin awesome.
Tim Burton to Sir Anthony Hopkins and waaaay more, our contributions to society are innumerable, and regardless of what you learn/hear/read/see, even remember, when done objectively, devoid of moral judgments or subjective opinions and remembering to note sources, potential unaccounted biases, etc., I think you’ll be surprised.
Sounds like ADHD. And yes, I've also thought of myself as lazy. But procrastinating with uninteresting stuff is typical ADHD, and these kinds of behavior were also in the questionnaire I needed to fill in order to begin the assessment.
I don't believe you're lazy. I've even seen comments on how lazy doesn't exist, and they've made me think. We always have reasons, be it ADHD or something else.
If you wish to begin the diagnostic process, that might be difficult. Depends where you live. I'm 47 and started with contacting the ADHD association in my country, because I wanted to ask them if I should seek a diagnosis, and how to do that. They advised to make a list of all the ways ADHD has negatively affected my life, but now I have about 25 pages of ADHD effects in general, also the positive ones. Anyway I contacted the public healthcare. The nurse asked me questions, and I was admitted to start the assessment. First thing I needed to get blood samples done.
If you need to go to a private healthcare provider, or live in the US, the assessment is going to be expensive. Something like 2k I've heard.
Just to add: ADHD is unique for everyone. School performance doesn't necessarily indicate anything. There's ADHDers with academic degrees. While ADHDers might struggle with reading, there are also lots of writers and people who love to read (just not the uninteresting stuff). You are good the way you are.
@@elainelouve I live here in Nepal. thank you. please let me know if anything comes up. I am finding it very difficult to be a decent husband. This is too tiresome. Feels like nobody understands and there is complain everywhere. why is this so hard?
@@SandipDhakal-hc9tk best of luck to you!
ooh, I love bamboo socks too! They are so soft! (but they get holes in them so easily 🥲
Me: Oh I dont doodle often at all I wont be able to relate to this section
*proceeds to detail all the main things I have ever drawn when I do on the rare blue moon occasion decide to doodle*
Yeeees the name! I feel the hyperactivity part to me is for my brain being hyperactive sometimes (sometimes???😅😅😅😅😂😂😂). And my speach is "hyper"- I have to speak quickly or my brain gets too far away and I might get lost in it completely. 😅
when I was a kid I used to flap my hands and squeak as if I was a bird. my parents loved it
When you were talking about the soccer bouncing and you put a sound in I didn’t know where it was coming from and then I got confused and immediately wanted to know where it came from but then I went though that part again then realized that you put that sound affect in there 😅 I always hear a sound and ask people where that sound is coming from and they’re just like “what sound” and I think I’m losing my mind but there really was a sound that only I could hear. I am autistic
Whenever I have my hair in braids I always play with my braids and if I have a ring on I spin it around on my finger like a fidget.
since my childhood i struggled with masking even tho ı wanted to, i was constantly bullied by my classmates in elementary and middle school, by my cousins and even teachers bullied for a reason unknown to me but since even the adults in my life did this i didn't realize about it until high school which is the time i had phone and source to do research and other people in social media, i got bullied in high school to btw which was more subtle if i compere to the bullying in elementary school (in elementary school they even locked me in bathroom as a "joke") so i didn't really mind it but still it had huge impact on me bc i was constantly trying to mask and fail constantly, the sec i get excited the mask was falling of even if ı try my hardest i didn't know why ı couldn't be like others, i pushed myself soo hard for it but it was sth impossible for me to do but now that i learned about autism and adhd i m trying my best to not push myself that hard to fit in bc i know even if i do my best i wont be nt and i don't wanna be one either
13:41 yeah, feels like being in a straight jacket
I don't know how to describe it but you have special kind of warmth and very subtle, gentle and respectful way of communicating strong views wich is very unique
Someone made the mistake of encouraging me to not just pick one topic to dump a story on you about, so now, we suffer :)
On the topic of sleep and depression, I took Wellbutrin for depressive symptoms for years. It worked well for me… while I was taking sleep meds. When I had to discontinue those, neither myself nor my doctor made the connection between my terrible sleep and the activating effects Wellbutrin can have, in part because i wasn’t feeling the energy because i also wasn’t sleeping, and i just felt so tired and depressed anyway… it was rough, but in the month-ish since I discontinued it my sleep and mood have improved SO MUCH. Any positive effect it has for me was completely obliterated by not being able to medicate the side effects away. I’ve still got a mood disorder and all that fun stuff so it’s not like the depressive symptoms stopped with it, unfortunately, but it’s actually possible to *cope* now.
I think working a job that would fire me if i was late too many times really messed with me. If i’m not at least 15 minutes early to something i’ve done before (appointments, meeting at a specific restaurant, going to work, etc) I start to panic about it. If i’ve never been to a place before, I have to be there at LEAST 30 minutes early, but I aim for 45-60. If it’s a reasonable drive I’ll even go by during rush hour the day before so I can plan around that, regardless of what time i’m actually expected to be there. I was only on time to work a few weeks ago (where people regularly show up late with no consequence and we have no point system attendance policy) and had a small crisis about it 😂 And boy oh boy, when i tell you it was a tense drive to my first appointment at a new office after sitting in traffic for 45 minutes due to an accident on the off-ramp… and then I combine that anxiety with “can’t do this 15 minute task at 9 because i have a 20 minute drive at 1” and I end up losing a lot of time to it on appointment days, all to avoid a teensy bit of rsd.
I threw out all my socks a while ago in favor of buying a few packs of the same socks because differently colored socks on each foot is fine, but if they’re not the exact same brand and size I’ll be acutely aware of it all day long and i just don’t want to deal with the hassle. It’s bad enough that i have to wear foot coverings in the first place, i’m not adding more work for myself to do something i don’t wanna do.
I have naturally curly hair that I always kept long because it was pretty and I got compliments, but it couldn’t be blow-dried due to frizz. I always knew I hated the feeling of wet hair on my neck, and especially wet slimy hair after I put mousse in, but I didn’t really grasp just how much i hated it until I started to transition and cut it all off. It didn’t fix my terrible hygiene issues (actually it kinda made them worse since i don’t have to shower if I want nice hair anymore) but it removed a huge element of dread that i didn’t even know was there before.
Last of all, my American ears really like to hear the wrong things from you. Every time you mention your mother is an artist, I question what I think I know about your family, because “Wait, I’m pretty sure she’s not autistic… right?” 😂
I tried Wellbutrin (well, Bupropion,everything’s generic on my insurance) before my ADHD assessment, because I was already on an antidepressant. Sadly, it helped with ADHD issues, and got me off an SSRI which was worsening the ADHD (apparently this can be a thing) - but I had anger and extreme stiffness, I think because my fight or flight reflects the fact that while I know I’m low on dopamine, I’m pretty sure my CNS is overloaded with noradrenaline. (I was already on Clonidine for that). I’m trying tiny amounts of generic Adderall now in the hopes of boosting dopamine a bit without boosting noradrenaline too much, but I’m nervous about this.
Our methods of managing lateness are the same; hypervigilant fear of being late for things with hard deadlines. When I flew for work (that was rough) I had to add margin for error/delay at every stage, and the margin added up so I’d be very early. Still better than leaving about enough time for say the drive and then hitting a delay though. Connecting flights were brutal because I couldn’t control the available time.
FWIW I like your posts and am happy to be in a place where people post detailed entries and I don’t feel like quite such an odd person out. I still struggle with the fact that I post a lot of responses to people, I think too darned many. I’m used to the fact that I annoy people by talking too much; yup, RSD issues.
Yes I'm glad for the long responses too, I'm one of those too lol. I recently cut my own hair, which I was afraid would make me look crazy, had no idea what I was doing. What I knew is that I wanted to not have such a hard time brushing my hair. I knew it might make me cold having less hair which it did but now my hair doesn't touch my neck, love it, plus my hair in the front I can see which I think is cool. People r complimenting me and no one has said they think I must b having a breakdown lol. Although if they thought my haircut was awful they probably wouldn't say I suppose, but if u thought it was bad would u go out of your way to say it was nice? In my mind u would just hope not to be asked if u didn't like it, but definitely everybody doesn't think the way I do.
Another note, I finally gave RSD some more thought.. it has a big effect on me. Even the slightest hint of rejection, definitely it's sometimes just perceived like a bad vibe or something and I can b just devastated
Now that you mention it... I'm actually kinda amazed how soft bamboo socks are. It's literally wood but still it's so much softer than any other socks I ever had so far. Even the actual alpaca wool socks - they might be fluffier but they aren't softer.
For me all my life I have absolutely hated and dispised the feeling of underwear, socks, shirt tags, free fitting shirts which is why I wear a large not a medium and long sleeve shirt that I rarely wear because it makes my arms tingle and itchy and lace does that too. Also I abandoned bras they are so sensory hell
I'm doing a lot of self exploration and I'm realizing a lot. I really relate about forcing myself to "be normal" makes me feel bad, like if I want to stim and I don't, or especially if I've started and am asked to stop is very negative feeling.
I was very upset and pacing and singing and saying stuff repetitively and I was a bit worried I was upsetting my son, he's 4 so I asked, but my husband thought I was talking to him and said yeah, I felt so bad and tried to go in my bedroom and just sit on the bed quietly but it felt so horrible, I started to rock, it was unbarable to remain still in that state. But on a lighter note I have another example of waiting at the bus stop to walk home with my daughter. I used to stand there perfectly still, it felt like what u were saying about being in a straight jacket, maybe it's partially demand avoidance even too because I didn't feel like I was allowed to pace, I was being forced to just stand still, just "b normal". Now I just pace around the whole time even though people can see me when they drive by, and I'm also in front of somebody's house.
How I stim is wiggling to the point mom has to ask if I have to use the bathroom since I also wiggle when I have to use the bathroom. She's sorta learned which one is which.
Yes! The bamboo socks are amazing! My feet are always dry; they are much stretchier than nylon socks, and they are soft without being thick or fluffy, so they don't make my shoes feel tighter either.
Man borderline personality disorder, what a name.
I got diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder at 9 years old...(turned out it was a wrongful diagnoses and I was just an ftm with adhd but it took until i was like 26 (?) until they took it off my medical records, im now 29) but anyways Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder is a bloody horrible name because I have a pretty good handle on my emotions considering the hell I've been through haha
I get panic attacks in the shower , only recently figured its sensory overload.
I always used to draw to help me concentrate at school but then i would get told off for not paying attention even tho i was lol
I used to draw eyes and flowers and snakes , anything that would fit in the margins of the books.
I draw alot of jellyfish and spaceships/aliens abducting cows lol
My personal stim is stroking my chin / beard. I didnt know it wae a stim until my niece startee copying me because i did it so much ♡
Aw that sounds so cute. My kids both have a song memorized because I was so obsessed with it, for quite a period of time I would sing it every time we drove anywhere. I wish I could see your UFO's abducting cows doodling, it sounds cool
@@heedmydemands that's so sweet ♡
My niece has some songs in her back pocket too, I got her a cheap kids mp3 and headphones when she was 3ish coz she loved playing with mine, she knows alllll the frozen soundtracks and trolls lol ♡
Haha its not that great of a drawing, my cows always seem to look odd and I can't figure out why lol 😆
ADHD should be named EFD (Executive Function Disorder)
Fun fact about me! The main reason I didn’t get diagnosed with adhd (primarily inattentive type) was because I’m a very laid back person in general. Unless you catch me talking about my interests or when I’m overwhelmed, I’m very quiet and go with the flow. But my attention was so all over the place and I was constantly daydreaming so my school work suffered. Plus none of my friends had the same interests as me. I’ve always liked cartoons and more childish media like Sonic or TMNT. And they were more into books and movies or tv shows. So combine the fact that me and my friends don’t really talk much or hang out outside of school with my constant bad grades and you get a beautiful diagnosis of “lazy”. And of course now that I’ve been diagnosed and put on meds I’m actually a straight A student. So no. I’m not lazy. I’ll still procrastinate like hell but at least I get the work done. Go figure.
I also got rock hard nails from my dad's side of the family! 😃 My mom is quite jealous 😅 I got the urge to bite my nails in middle school and that went on for a little while but eventually my teeth were just tired from how much work it took to chew through the nail and my executive dysfunction took over and made me stop
I have school in less than a hour and I decided to watch this video and write this comment cuz I think I get get ready in time 😃
Thank you for watching! Hope you make it on time 😂 💛
@@imautisticnowwhat your welcome :DD Im on my way now! Really enjoy your videos and have a good day!
19:13 the ting is that ppl don't like my blanc mask,but i can unmask w ppl I'm not comfortable with just when I'm really tied and then ppl like me more.it's kinda out of my control if I mask or not but it surely is really exhausting
Self diagnose how severe it is. He says severe so he doesn't condemn all adhers to certainty of depression.
Me: _is trying to stay awake long enough to get ready for bed by watching/listening to the video but is drifting_
Video: 9:25
Me: 😮 _pauses video and proceeds to get the rest of the way ready for bed_
Because masking (also with that Co***a thing, not only trying to fit in) is mentally hard for me (it strains me and I _hate_ being strained) I just simply try not to mask. I'll still prevent myself from doing disruptive things, but I do not try to seem neurotypical. And it's pretty relieving to see that almost nobody cares that I'm strange and either ignores me (if I'm not directly interacting with them) or accepts me as I am.
My sock revolution was with nylon ankle socks....lol they're so comfortable but wear out way too fast.
Ugh, I tried dry shampoo, but I absolutely hated the chalky texture and residue it left in my hair for some brands, or the intense perfume for others.
My husband leaves clothes on the floor... but he folds them first 😂
Sweater corner. A sweater gets worn twice before a wash, the corner indicates a sweater has only been worn once and can be worn once more.
When I stress out about having too much of one kind of thing, that's real. I tend to wanna get rid of a lot of things in bulk when it gets overwhelming and start again. I've had to move around a lot so I learned how to lessen my load materialistically. I used to be a clutterbug but now I'm all about organization and efficiency.
So for dry shampoo, I hold my hair back and spray backwards. The chemicals and aerosols don't get in my face.