I listened to this on your ask Kati anything pod (thank you for both options!!) rethinking the role anger has is such a challenge but so so good to hear and shift my thinking about
What about this consideration... How NATURALIZED are you to the culture of persons you are compelled to work with/for? What I'm thinking is... 12 step programs, Al-Anon, NAMI, spiritual retreats & such...will be where you can see your "proverbial constituents" & the "functionales"/coping method they utilize. The world is "introvert bias". ua-cam.com/video/f_WqGCqjNAk/v-deo.html ... ua-cam.com/video/qHeqq6b6Vtw/v-deo.htmlsi=wDD3AtAQYHM9v7-w
My god, that’s what I got and I’m still getting it off those closest to me. Your comment, validates me, thank you so much for taking the time and will to comment. I wish you nothing but kind thoughts 🙏☮️
The question about the therapist not going into the causes of depression was very interesting. I went to some CBT sessions a few years ago and felt the same way. In fact the weekly worksheets and anticipation of the sessions ended up causing more anxiety and so i stopped going.
Thanks for saying that you like the complex cases, I've had therapists that couldn't handle them or figure them out and were making me feel like I was the problem when they weren't willing to take on a challenge. Also, I have had therapists say that I am too sensitive o rate "sensitive type" which was a total disservice to me. So I am glad you address that word too. Thank you.
You're unusually excellent today, Kati- in top form, even for you. Normally I can listen to you talk for an hour about things that don't apply to me and I'm still educated, encouraged, and soothed by your steady voice and intelligence and your command of the subject, and your humanity. Today it's all just a little but better, maybe because so much of it is hitting the target with me. I'll never say it enough, but thank you so much.
Like every episode is a literal question I have asked myself. It's interesting to me that sometimes it's still hard to think about myself even in the smallest ways.
Regarding the idea of being "too much" and "too needy" I would also say that someone doesn't have to have said that to you directly if they have given you that sense. I don't recall my mother telling me I was too much, but if I shared difficult emotions with her it became all about how she couldn't cope with how I felt. So the sense I got was that I am too much and my emotions can't be coped with. That's how I still feel now if I have a crisis.
Also there’s just so much golden information because from a client standpoint, we don’t really know how therapy works in the beginning like kind of expect the therapist to foster everything. This is like a “how to participate in therapy” video and I love it so much. Thank you again. This is gonna be a game changer for my own therapy. ❤
One way of understanding (or understanding that I cannot understand) that some people do terrible things occurred to me while learning programming logic - Some people have a wildly different operating system. Much like Windows documents used to get corrupted when opened in Mac software (or vice-versa), when an abusive person meets a peaceful (live-and-let-live) person, the interactions between the two can get corrupted. But, instead of crashing - like software - we humans endure (or on the other side cause) a lot of illogical irrational things. It´s okay to not understand that some people were "okay" with doing horrible things. Recognizing that you don´t understand how anyone could do such horrible things, also means that you know what is good for you and what you deserve - to get back to the programming analogy... You know what your rule-set your operating system works with and where to get your bug fixes (great Bug-fixer: Kati Morton).
Hi, Kati. Thank you so much for answering my question. My question was the one about rage spirals. A bit of follow up. 1. I know people for whom anger is motivating. So I get it. For me personally I go into this almost freeze state. Anger on the outside paralyzes me. You've talked about learned helplessness. For some reason it resonated with my anger issue. Even though I don't know the link between them. For me anger is more like that- I feel so trapped and get so angry that I can't take any action. Like I'm not allowed to take action. Because... my mother never did. As a child I could sense her getting cued up, but nothing changed. So I learned to be powerless in very abusive situations. Still to this day- even though I want to destroy and fight, I just freeze. At least outwardly. And it all turns inward. The only thing I end up destroying is myself. I don't know if it made sense. 2. Could you please elaborate more on how to healthily express anger? Especially physically? I can write angry letters and tear them up all day long and while my mind gets calmer, my body doesn't. That feeling of "stuckness yet wanting to punch" never leaves my body. Never has. For years. I have tried things you've suggested for feeling anxious/disregulated (full body shakes, cold shower/humming), they don't really work.
What about screaming or swearing as loud as you can inside your car? Or taking up something really physical /aggressive like kickboxing to help you physically release some of that anger? Would that help?
this is so astounding. how is it that i'm only hearing all this now. this is just so 100% right. I'm also proud to say I do some of these techniques you've mentioned which is prob why i'm still here.
Thank you Kati, I always find something of value within these videos, I really enjoy listening to you as it really gets me thinking and is also soothing. Be well ❤
Me too, it always teaches me something about issues that I've had or someone I know has had. I especially like learning more about trauma which seems to be so much more common than I ever thought.
I am disabled now after a long attempt to ignore my symptoms believing I simply had muscle and nutritional symptoms, I slowly found it harder and harder to maintain my composure to the demanding standards of my profession as pain increased and I managed to fill my life with distractions. I focussed on other peoples problems and realized I needed to turn in my keys and just stay in treatment because I had let stress hormones and the products of pain to make me irrational and emotional, I had to stop and focus on myself to realize I need to focus on my health and began to help myself with a dissociative disorder. I realized I am actually very physically damaged and I was ignoring the pain from a broken back and neck and ankylosing spondylitis slowly took over my body while I was looking outward. I have been doing my best to manage the pain and get my body working again settling on keeping my joints moving and finding medications to help me with the pain. One of the most important part of my job was identifying physical ailments because it is impossible to fix a brain if the body is screaming in pain just to ignore my own philosophy and try and fix my mind before fixing my body. I still have problems with wanting help or asking for help, we are the hardest patients. But it is so much more, I question my own sanity, question if I am this sick or If I can do more just to try and realize I cannot increase my demands on my body in a cycle that is hard to break. Part of me wants to do everything I know I am capable to realize I am not able nor capable. I am now a partial paraplegic looking at wheelchairs as an eventual hell I will do anything to avoid and hoping I can avoid morphine in the future as my pain grows daily. Oddly I have never been happier, i feel healthy and the handful of pills leaves me feeling ... ok but able to ignore the pain lol, and not become Dr Jeckle as long as I know my limits.
I suffered incredible pain for three full years and I learned that psychological pain/trauma can actually activate the pain pathways of the physical body and cause extreme pain. EXTREME! It can become unbearable, but there is an excellent book called Explain Pain that is extremely helpful in understanding this and how it works. I would love you to give it a go. There's multiple things that can help but there's also been research saying that just the knowing and understanding of how chronic pain can be occurring this way for you is one of the most effective means of pain reduction, and I've experienced this myself! Also, the app called Curable absolutely backs this up and this was something that completely changed my life. I'd recommend it highly if you have any kind of chronic pain. Please try this! Xxx
You’re absolutely amazing. Thank you so much for everything you do. And for those asking these questions, thank you for making me feel less alone. I relate to a lot of these so much.
This episode really helped me a lot, Kati. I appreciate your comments about how to talk about things that make us feel dysregulated with our therapists. I've personally dealt with being told my feelings are incorrect by my close family and it's isolated me quite a bit for the last year. I think I can now vocalize this to be able to discuss with my therapist.
I'll also add to the first question that I've heard providers use the word complex/complicated to mean that *the path forward is unclear for any reason*--whether it's what Kati said of an unclear diagnosis, a person with a lot of diagnoses that have a challenging interplay that make the path forward unclear, someone who cannot participate in typical interventions for the diagnosis they have due to other conditions they have, etc.
A little late to the game watching this but I was having a tough week and this episode really helped me ❤ Especially question number 6. Thanks so much Kati. You really are the best.
With me, it has its root as me feeling I’m not believed. I’m on the spectrum and dealing with both childhood sexual abuse and relationship abuse. The last ex really destroyed all my coping mechanisms and I’m having to start again. The amount of gaslighting and dismissiveness I get, no wonder I feel this way, already have issues with trust and blame myself for all of it….if I had any hair I’d rip it out in frustration
Hi Kati! Thanks for the podcast this week. I was wondering if you could make a video about OSDD (Otherwise specified dissociative disorder), and get into the types symptoms and causes? Thanks for all that you do!
So when I was in highschool (senior year) I became majorly depressed. Or well, it's complicated because I truly don't remember very much from this period of my life, other than the emotions and some of the more common details. At first I only noticed the overwhelming depression. This despair was so deep, so thick it was almost tangible. I remember how, while I was asleep I felt nothing bad, even if the dreams were bad. Waking up every day was like leaving beauty, to enter dull Gray, and that slow realization hurt so bad, that I'd just turn over and go back to sleep. Sometimes for 19, 20 hours. The more I slept, the more vivid the dreams, so the harder it got to want to be aware. I completely stopped bathing, changing clothes, I even stopped thinking about sex, would go so long without any form of sexual contact that I'd forget the last time I even did anything. I felt nothing. with that said, It was only during the daylight I felt that anguish. On the flip side, after the sun would set, and everyone was in their bedrooms, I felt a massive amount of relief. Every night I would pop on the TV, and watch dr. House, law and order, whatever was playing back to back all night. Somehow this nightly relief started to turn into my mind and I, talking to one another. I wasn't delusional, I knew It was myself talking back. but It wasn't like normal "thinking". I would rapidly create thoughts, and conversations, I would heavily theorize space, and time, and laugh out loud at my own jokes. Jumping from one thought to another to another, and back to the first again. I started to turn from that deep sadness, from a guy who hated to feel awake, to someone who didn't want to go to sleep. Even when I was depressed, I didn't feel tired, so when my mood shift happened it became normal to stay awake for two nights, or three. I remember feeling SO confused when I would see my twin brother had turned out his light. I couldn't understand why, if he did not need to wake up early, would he WANT to go to sleep. I forgot what it felt like to be tired. But all I noticed was the depression, I had no idea I was clearly manic. Things really got bad, and one of my teachers took notice, and got me onto homebound so I wouldn't flunk out. My parents were worried, my twin brother was very concerned and told me years later that he cried for fear of my state of mind. Yet somehow I felt like I was making it up. I really did. Things were so obvious to everyone around me, and I thought no one believed me. I mean, I was positive that it was all real, but still felt embarrassed and as if I was seeking attention. I went literally mute, only spoke to say how badly depressed I felt, because saying anything normal amplified the pain, I mean it literally hurt to speak. Unless I didn't sleep the night before, then I wouldn't shut up. Of course I was eventually committed to a hospital, but even there I felt as though I was just being weak or something.
I know other my therapist she has been trying to get my head above water. But honestly I think I really do need to break down the shell I put over all of my emotions. So I need to let them out. Mostly anger, sadness, loneliness, and fear.
I have ASD. I have problems in social situations that I don't understand. Like when I was in school kids used to oink at me and throw food because I've always been fat. So, now I try to go to a cafeteria and I don't understand how it works and I can't operate in it. Or, there is an awkward situation where I'm waiting for someone else to do their job so I can do mine but, I don't know how to get them to do the thing so I can do the other thing. I've been practicing imaginary social interactions in my head my entire life so I can figure out how to behave but, there are nuances to everything that can make the situation incomprehensible to me. Then, I don't know what to do and I become overwhelmed.
Wish you were still taking patients. I'm struggling to afford anything and what I know it self learned with my BA in psychology. But what I know is that my BPD shared my mind with CPTSD and when it's bad, my heart muscles feel the pain, literally, so I no longer cut myself, which is good but now the pain is truly internal. Some days I really think I'm going to have a heart attack. 😢
Life is cruel but also worth living it. We are all going to die sooner or later. But life is to be lived. If you believe in goodness, give your kindness to the world and carry your struggles with compassion ❤️
I've spent years trying to repair or cure myself from the trauma of a abussive parent and family, the isolation is probably not healing, not being able to reach out and have real friends.
You mentioned a frustration with the DSM about when someone doesn’t fit the criteria of a disorder. However, the DSM 5 TR makes it extremely explicit that it gives the diagnosing therapist leeway to make the diagnosis they think is best even when the client doesn’t meet all the criteria. Based on that, I think your frustration should be placed on the field more broadly than the DSM which has actively addressed that point.
Possible answer: Because an online therapist I've trusted for years listed "Fun" Facts about narcissists in a video supposedly about Why I attract narcissists and it felt dismissive, invalidating, and disrespectful of the abuse and harm I suffered?
Is OTDM finished or on a new platform? I am really missing it. I don’t mean to put pressure on you and Sean. It’s just that it was something I looked forward to so much every week.
Hi Cindy, we are coming back shortly. Had to adjust our schedule due to some other work deadlines but we will be back in a few weeks! Sorry for the delay :) and thank you for reaching out!!! We miss doing the pod as well.
Wow. I really wish i watched this when i had psychiatrist. I think the reason why i feel like it's never helped is because i never learned how to properly communicate to my psychiatrist how i am feeling
I never made up my own problems they were real such as when I noticed last year that my adult sister stoled 500 dollars from the purse that I hide inside my backpack from under my bed and I keep complaining about it to my mom but she kept ignoring me and kept doing she she was doing and she said “that was a long time ago that I happened” thinking that is wasn’t important to her, so I punched her head for ignoring me when I bring up about the money being stolen, then she threaten to call the police on me for that when she is suppose to call the police on my adult sister for stealing my money
American therapies rush into drugs too quick, in my country therapist tend to not diagnose right away and let the patient heal without a label attached to them. Also instead of giving drugs, they treat mental illness like addiction rehab and let the patient go through the stages of “feeling the symptoms” cause it actually helps the therapy and the road of the patient to fight them back, that can take months but they wont encourage pills. Personally that helped me a lot, I had what an american therapist would call depression and anorexia, and Im very happy my therapist didn’t sedate the symptoms with drugs or straight up diagnose me with anything, so I could fully be conscious of the symptoms without a diagnosis that would put me in a box. feeling like shit was useful, like when your going throw withdraws form addiction rehab, when you come out of it on your own (of course with the help of psychoanalysis) it feels a lot better than being dependent of drugs. Both my mother and sister did psychoanalysis with antidepressant and they had simnifically worst results than me
How many sessions before your therapist gives you suggestions or homework. I feel like I just talk and think and she hasn’t really talked or asks me a lot of questions
i notice therapists don't like to dive too deep. when i was younger they did dive more. nowadays, like along with some sort of societal change, therapists don't dive as deep. it's interesting.
Kati please please please and please talk about slut shaming and the trauma it causes. I was slut shamed by my family and it has taken a toll on my mental health. I have severe anxiety disorder and cptsd. The slut shaming happened when i was 17 and now i am 29 but i havent been able to process that trauma. Thanks a lot kati . Love your work
Tengo varias respuestas: 1. Como Taylor Swift que hace acuerdos prenupciales probablemente si. 2. Jum.. because life is about confronting problems all time etc etc. 3. No se.
Technically, all our psychological problems are in our heads. I tell you... I used to have a lot of panic attacks, but it was liberating when I realized "I'm just crazy. Reality itself isn't about to collapse around me and I won't be trapped in agonizing eternity forever. I'm just crazy."
Sorry to hear that! It is common to "phase out"/many therapies have the goal of the client/patient no longer needing it... But this sounds different? I'm sure she's made a video about this topic as well, if you wanna learn more; if you just wanted to share your incredulity, please disregard the second half of my comment.
@@AllanBarker-g2w I had this experience with my first therapist he said something like I wasn’t even trying and didn’t know how to help me i remember it made me feel bad and “unfixable” but now I recognize I feel like a therapist might say something like this because they are not confident enough in their own ability to help you and project that onto the client , ended up getting a different therapist who was way better and patient and a lot more understanding
If they are supposed to be helping You with Your Mental Health why should You be Worried about Triggering them? They are there to help You, not the other way
just talking here is not enough for us being victims of domestic and narcissistic abuse and violence... there need to be more done ones one open up and talk here ...
I listened to this on your ask Kati anything pod (thank you for both options!!) rethinking the role anger has is such a challenge but so so good to hear and shift my thinking about
Helped me too.
What about this consideration... How NATURALIZED are you to the culture of persons you are compelled to work with/for? What I'm thinking is... 12 step programs, Al-Anon, NAMI, spiritual retreats & such...will be where you can see your "proverbial constituents" & the "functionales"/coping method they utilize. The world is "introvert bias". ua-cam.com/video/f_WqGCqjNAk/v-deo.html ... ua-cam.com/video/qHeqq6b6Vtw/v-deo.htmlsi=wDD3AtAQYHM9v7-w
If a bird has broken wings, it can't be blamed for not flying away. Gotta heal the wings first. Therapy heals the wings.
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Yes!!!😮😮😮
"You're too sensitive. You're too needy!" Boy did I hear that growing up!
i had that as well narc parents say that to take the spot light off themselves
Gaslighting is the worst
My god, that’s what I got and I’m still getting it off those closest to me. Your comment, validates me, thank you so much for taking the time and will to comment. I wish you nothing but kind thoughts 🙏☮️
The question about the therapist not going into the causes of depression was very interesting.
I went to some CBT sessions a few years ago and felt the same way.
In fact the weekly worksheets and anticipation of the sessions ended up causing more anxiety and so i stopped going.
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Thanks for saying that you like the complex cases, I've had therapists that couldn't handle them or figure them out and were making me feel like I was the problem when they weren't willing to take on a challenge. Also, I have had therapists say that I am too sensitive o rate "sensitive type" which was a total disservice to me. So I am glad you address that word too. Thank you.
These topics are eerily relevant...
Agreed! These are the topics uncovered by digging deep
You're unusually excellent today, Kati- in top form, even for you. Normally I can listen to you talk for an hour about things that don't apply to me and I'm still educated, encouraged, and soothed by your steady voice and intelligence and your command of the subject, and your humanity. Today it's all just a little but better, maybe because so much of it is hitting the target with me. I'll never say it enough, but thank you so much.
Like every episode is a literal question I have asked myself. It's interesting to me that sometimes it's still hard to think about myself even in the smallest ways.
Regarding the idea of being "too much" and "too needy" I would also say that someone doesn't have to have said that to you directly if they have given you that sense. I don't recall my mother telling me I was too much, but if I shared difficult emotions with her it became all about how she couldn't cope with how I felt. So the sense I got was that I am too much and my emotions can't be coped with. That's how I still feel now if I have a crisis.
@Louisyed
Also there’s just so much golden information because from a client standpoint, we don’t really know how therapy works in the beginning like kind of expect the therapist to foster everything. This is like a “how to participate in therapy” video and I love it so much. Thank you again. This is gonna be a game changer for my own therapy. ❤
Thanks
One way of understanding (or understanding that I cannot understand) that some people do terrible things occurred to me while learning programming logic - Some people have a wildly different operating system. Much like Windows documents used to get corrupted when opened in Mac software (or vice-versa), when an abusive person meets a peaceful (live-and-let-live) person, the interactions between the two can get corrupted. But, instead of crashing - like software - we humans endure (or on the other side cause) a lot of illogical irrational things. It´s okay to not understand that some people were "okay" with doing horrible things. Recognizing that you don´t understand how anyone could do such horrible things, also means that you know what is good for you and what you deserve - to get back to the programming analogy... You know what your rule-set your operating system works with and where to get your bug fixes (great Bug-fixer: Kati Morton).
I have felt this way for years! I’m looking forward to listening to this.
Hi, Kati.
Thank you so much for answering my question.
My question was the one about rage spirals. A bit of follow up.
1. I know people for whom anger is motivating. So I get it. For me personally I go into this almost freeze state. Anger on the outside paralyzes me. You've talked about learned helplessness. For some reason it resonated with my anger issue. Even though I don't know the link between them. For me anger is more like that- I feel so trapped and get so angry that I can't take any action. Like I'm not allowed to take action. Because... my mother never did. As a child I could sense her getting cued up, but nothing changed. So I learned to be powerless in very abusive situations. Still to this day- even though I want to destroy and fight, I just freeze. At least outwardly. And it all turns inward. The only thing I end up destroying is myself. I don't know if it made sense.
2. Could you please elaborate more on how to healthily express anger? Especially physically? I can write angry letters and tear them up all day long and while my mind gets calmer, my body doesn't. That feeling of "stuckness yet wanting to punch" never leaves my body. Never has. For years. I have tried things you've suggested for feeling anxious/disregulated (full body shakes, cold shower/humming), they don't really work.
What about screaming or swearing as loud as you can inside your car? Or taking up something really physical /aggressive like kickboxing to help you physically release some of that anger? Would that help?
I love listening to your podcast I have terrible anxiety and and struggle with self harm so I also learn from your podcast. Keep up the good work ❤
I often listen to your podcast when I'm doing school work and it puts me in a very focused mood lol
I wish you the best in your healing ❤
Thanks I appreciate that
this is so astounding. how is it that i'm only hearing all this now. this is just so 100% right. I'm also proud to say I do some of these techniques you've mentioned which is prob why i'm still here.
Thank you Kati, I always find something of value within these videos, I really enjoy listening to you as it really gets me thinking and is also soothing. Be well ❤
Me too, it always teaches me something about issues that I've had or someone I know has had. I especially like learning more about trauma which seems to be so much more common than I ever thought.
I am disabled now after a long attempt to ignore my symptoms believing I simply had muscle and nutritional symptoms, I slowly found it harder and harder to maintain my composure to the demanding standards of my profession as pain increased and I managed to fill my life with distractions. I focussed on other peoples problems and realized I needed to turn in my keys and just stay in treatment because I had let stress hormones and the products of pain to make me irrational and emotional, I had to stop and focus on myself to realize I need to focus on my health and began to help myself with a dissociative disorder.
I realized I am actually very physically damaged and I was ignoring the pain from a broken back and neck and ankylosing spondylitis slowly took over my body while I was looking outward. I have been doing my best to manage the pain and get my body working again settling on keeping my joints moving and finding medications to help me with the pain. One of the most important part of my job was identifying physical ailments because it is impossible to fix a brain if the body is screaming in pain just to ignore my own philosophy and try and fix my mind before fixing my body.
I still have problems with wanting help or asking for help, we are the hardest patients. But it is so much more, I question my own sanity, question if I am this sick or If I can do more just to try and realize I cannot increase my demands on my body in a cycle that is hard to break. Part of me wants to do everything I know I am capable to realize I am not able nor capable. I am now a partial paraplegic looking at wheelchairs as an eventual hell I will do anything to avoid and hoping I can avoid morphine in the future as my pain grows daily. Oddly I have never been happier, i feel healthy and the handful of pills leaves me feeling ... ok but able to ignore the pain lol, and not become Dr Jeckle as long as I know my limits.
I suffered incredible pain for three full years and I learned that psychological pain/trauma can actually activate the pain pathways of the physical body and cause extreme pain. EXTREME! It can become unbearable, but there is an excellent book called Explain Pain that is extremely helpful in understanding this and how it works. I would love you to give it a go. There's multiple things that can help but there's also been research saying that just the knowing and understanding of how chronic pain can be occurring this way for you is one of the most effective means of pain reduction, and I've experienced this myself! Also, the app called Curable absolutely backs this up and this was something that completely changed my life. I'd recommend it highly if you have any kind of chronic pain. Please try this! Xxx
You’re absolutely amazing. Thank you so much for everything you do. And for those asking these questions, thank you for making me feel less alone. I relate to a lot of these so much.
This episode really helped me a lot, Kati. I appreciate your comments about how to talk about things that make us feel dysregulated with our therapists. I've personally dealt with being told my feelings are incorrect by my close family and it's isolated me quite a bit for the last year. I think I can now vocalize this to be able to discuss with my therapist.
I'll also add to the first question that I've heard providers use the word complex/complicated to mean that *the path forward is unclear for any reason*--whether it's what Kati said of an unclear diagnosis, a person with a lot of diagnoses that have a challenging interplay that make the path forward unclear, someone who cannot participate in typical interventions for the diagnosis they have due to other conditions they have, etc.
Omg I’m so thankful for the question of when will I get to the deeper reasons of why I came to therapy ❤. Thank you, Katie
"A lot of us are in therapy because someone else should be in therapy," that sums it up.
im struggling so bad right now and i just found your page, thank you for giving me hope. 🖤🖤
My therapist told me: "Being human is messy."❤😊
So glad to see the questions written in the description Kati!❤
"Living Well is the best revenge"
A lyric from Citizen soldier, if you haven’t heard of em, go listen, they’re life changing
A little late to the game watching this but I was having a tough week and this episode really helped me ❤ Especially question number 6. Thanks so much Kati. You really are the best.
@@kendallmarie9761 Thank you so much ❤️ xoxo
Thank you Kati 💕
Love your tshirt Kati!
Love all your help too thank you ❤
With me, it has its root as me feeling I’m not believed. I’m on the spectrum and dealing with both childhood sexual abuse and relationship abuse. The last ex really destroyed all my coping mechanisms and I’m having to start again. The amount of gaslighting and dismissiveness I get, no wonder I feel this way, already have issues with trust and blame myself for all of it….if I had any hair I’d rip it out in frustration
Hi Kati! Thanks for the podcast this week. I was wondering if you could make a video about OSDD (Otherwise specified dissociative disorder), and get into the types symptoms and causes? Thanks for all that you do!
This one is a very good one!! Love the colors of the new shirt!!❤
Always thumbs up then read ❤
So when I was in highschool (senior year) I became majorly depressed. Or well, it's complicated because I truly don't remember very much from this period of my life, other than the emotions and some of the more common details. At first I only noticed the overwhelming depression. This despair was so deep, so thick it was almost tangible. I remember how, while I was asleep I felt nothing bad, even if the dreams were bad. Waking up every day was like leaving beauty, to enter dull Gray, and that slow realization hurt so bad, that I'd just turn over and go back to sleep. Sometimes for 19, 20 hours. The more I slept, the more vivid the dreams, so the harder it got to want to be aware. I completely stopped bathing, changing clothes, I even stopped thinking about sex, would go so long without any form of sexual contact that I'd forget the last time I even did anything. I felt nothing. with that said, It was only during the daylight I felt that anguish. On the flip side, after the sun would set, and everyone was in their bedrooms, I felt a massive amount of relief. Every night I would pop on the TV, and watch dr. House, law and order, whatever was playing back to back all night. Somehow this nightly relief started to turn into my mind and I, talking to one another. I wasn't delusional, I knew It was myself talking back. but It wasn't like normal "thinking". I would rapidly create thoughts, and conversations, I would heavily theorize space, and time, and laugh out loud at my own jokes. Jumping from one thought to another to another, and back to the first again. I started to turn from that deep sadness, from a guy who hated to feel awake, to someone who didn't want to go to sleep. Even when I was depressed, I didn't feel tired, so when my mood shift happened it became normal to stay awake for two nights, or three. I remember feeling SO confused when I would see my twin brother had turned out his light. I couldn't understand why, if he did not need to wake up early, would he WANT to go to sleep. I forgot what it felt like to be tired. But all I noticed was the depression, I had no idea I was clearly manic. Things really got bad, and one of my teachers took notice, and got me onto homebound so I wouldn't flunk out. My parents were worried, my twin brother was very concerned and told me years later that he cried for fear of my state of mind. Yet somehow I felt like I was making it up. I really did. Things were so obvious to everyone around me, and I thought no one believed me. I mean, I was positive that it was all real, but still felt embarrassed and as if I was seeking attention. I went literally mute, only spoke to say how badly depressed I felt, because saying anything normal amplified the pain, I mean it literally hurt to speak. Unless I didn't sleep the night before, then I wouldn't shut up. Of course I was eventually committed to a hospital, but even there I felt as though I was just being weak or something.
I know other my therapist she has been trying to get my head above water. But honestly I think I really do need to break down the shell I put over all of my emotions. So I need to let them out. Mostly anger, sadness, loneliness, and fear.
I have ASD. I have problems in social situations that I don't understand. Like when I was in school kids used to oink at me and throw food because I've always been fat. So, now I try to go to a cafeteria and I don't understand how it works and I can't operate in it. Or, there is an awkward situation where I'm waiting for someone else to do their job so I can do mine but, I don't know how to get them to do the thing so I can do the other thing. I've been practicing imaginary social interactions in my head my entire life so I can figure out how to behave but, there are nuances to everything that can make the situation incomprehensible to me. Then, I don't know what to do and I become overwhelmed.
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Did anyone else laugh as much as I did at the "woo-aah" (or whatever)? 😆
I’m a complex case physically, mentally, you name it…!
Wish you were still taking patients. I'm struggling to afford anything and what I know it self learned with my BA in psychology. But what I know is that my BPD shared my mind with CPTSD and when it's bad, my heart muscles feel the pain, literally, so I no longer cut myself, which is good but now the pain is truly internal. Some days I really think I'm going to have a heart attack. 😢
Life is cruel but also worth living it. We are all going to die sooner or later. But life is to be lived. If you believe in goodness, give your kindness to the world and carry your struggles with compassion ❤️
I've spent years trying to repair or cure myself from the trauma of a abussive parent and family, the isolation is probably not healing, not being able to reach out and have real friends.
Where do you ask questions for you to answer on your podcast?
Community tab of AKA & OTDM channel.
You mentioned a frustration with the DSM about when someone doesn’t fit the criteria of a disorder. However, the DSM 5 TR makes it extremely explicit that it gives the diagnosing therapist leeway to make the diagnosis they think is best even when the client doesn’t meet all the criteria. Based on that, I think your frustration should be placed on the field more broadly than the DSM which has actively addressed that point.
Possible answer: Because an online therapist I've trusted for years listed "Fun" Facts about narcissists in a video supposedly about Why I attract narcissists and it felt dismissive, invalidating, and disrespectful of the abuse and harm I suffered?
Is OTDM finished or on a new platform? I am really missing it. I don’t mean to put pressure on you and Sean. It’s just that it was something I looked forward to so much every week.
Hi Cindy, we are coming back shortly. Had to adjust our schedule due to some other work deadlines but we will be back in a few weeks! Sorry for the delay :) and thank you for reaching out!!! We miss doing the pod as well.
@@Katimorton so glad you’re going to continue OTDM. It’s so fun to listen to and watch.
Is it true that if I go to a therapist and get diagnosed with anything, they will write it to my health book? If yes, is there any other way?
Hey guys where do we submit questions? ❤
Community tab of AKA & OTDM channel.
@@aam6545 thank you so much!
What’s the meaning behind the safety pin necklace?
Hi kati do you have any videos or plan on making any videos to do with bpd and how to help/soothe yourself when a therapist isn’t an option?
Wow. I really wish i watched this when i had psychiatrist. I think the reason why i feel like it's never helped is because i never learned how to properly communicate to my psychiatrist how i am feeling
I never made up my own problems they were real such as when I noticed last year that my adult sister stoled 500 dollars from the purse that I hide inside my backpack from under my bed and I keep complaining about it to my mom but she kept ignoring me and kept doing she she was doing and she said “that was a long time ago that I happened” thinking that is wasn’t important to her, so I punched her head for ignoring me when I bring up about the money being stolen, then she threaten to call the police on me for that when she is suppose to call the police on my adult sister for stealing my money
It’s the Discovery Dozen, actually. The dirty dozen is for organic fruit. 😆🍒🍓
hii i was wondering where i could send in a question?
American therapies rush into drugs too quick, in my country therapist tend to not diagnose right away and let the patient heal without a label attached to them. Also instead of giving drugs, they treat mental illness like addiction rehab and let the patient go through the stages of “feeling the symptoms” cause it actually helps the therapy and the road of the patient to fight them back, that can take months but they wont encourage pills. Personally that helped me a lot, I had what an american therapist would call depression and anorexia, and Im very happy my therapist didn’t sedate the symptoms with drugs or straight up diagnose me with anything, so I could fully be conscious of the symptoms without a diagnosis that would put me in a box. feeling like shit was useful, like when your going throw withdraws form addiction rehab, when you come out of it on your own (of course with the help of psychoanalysis) it feels a lot better than being dependent of drugs. Both my mother and sister did psychoanalysis with antidepressant and they had simnifically worst results than me
How many sessions before your therapist gives you suggestions or homework. I feel like I just talk and think and she hasn’t really talked or asks me a lot of questions
Interesting
I don't need to make up problems because I have enough real ones
i notice therapists don't like to dive too deep. when i was younger they did dive more. nowadays, like along with some sort of societal change, therapists don't dive as deep. it's interesting.
try emdr. It has been such a deep dive and so hard, but so liberating. Years of talk therapy never came close.
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Kati please please please and please talk about slut shaming and the trauma it causes. I was slut shamed by my family and it has taken a toll on my mental health. I have severe anxiety disorder and cptsd. The slut shaming happened when i was 17 and now i am 29 but i havent been able to process that trauma. Thanks a lot kati . Love your work
I nervous laugh All the time.
This is fun
Need the long videos.
Ooh. Ive been like, manipulative too. Can u keep doing these dor me cuz i Dont know. I didnt kniw i couldnt run away
Tengo varias respuestas:
1. Como Taylor Swift que hace acuerdos prenupciales probablemente si.
2. Jum.. because life is about confronting problems all time etc etc.
3. No se.
Technically, all our psychological problems are in our heads. I tell you... I used to have a lot of panic attacks, but it was liberating when I realized "I'm just crazy. Reality itself isn't about to collapse around me and I won't be trapped in agonizing eternity forever. I'm just crazy."
My therapist quit me?
Sorry to hear that!
It is common to "phase out"/many therapies have the goal of the client/patient no longer needing it... But this sounds different?
I'm sure she's made a video about this topic as well, if you wanna learn more; if you just wanted to share your incredulity, please disregard the second half of my comment.
She said she didn't know how to help me. Didn't really surprise me.
@@AllanBarker-g2w I had this experience with my first therapist he said something like I wasn’t even trying and didn’t know how to help me i remember it made me feel bad and “unfixable” but now I recognize I feel like a therapist might say something like this because they are not confident enough in their own ability to help you and project that onto the client , ended up getting a different therapist who was way better and patient and a lot more understanding
Kati can you please give me therapy
If they are supposed to be helping You with Your Mental Health why should You be Worried about Triggering them?
They are there to help You, not the other way
Umm need that shirt haha 🩷
Time stamps anyone
Yes, someone commented them. 😊
(@Lemonady, or you can find them in the description)
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just talking here is not enough for us being victims of domestic and narcissistic abuse and violence... there need to be more done ones one open up and talk here ...
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