Bringing the local electronic music scene to ME! Here's some collabs that i've already done: ►DAWLESS Minimal House Approach: ua-cam.com/video/5scq1YMT4yg/v-deo.html ►DAWLESS Improvised Techno Approach: ua-cam.com/video/PzpirC45nvo/v-deo.html
Hey Liam, sorry to hear you’re going through this rn. Love your content and wanted to share something with you that might help. Have you ever looked into earthing/grounding as a remedy for your epilepsy? I’m sure you have a decent enough understanding of electrical current to know what happens when our equipment isn’t grounded. Well the same thing happens to our bodies! And epilepsy specifically sounds like it could be caused by electricity/energy that isn’t being discharged properly. There’s some solid documentaries here on the tube. Check it out when you get a chance! Hope you feel better 💫
Liam put yourself first and focus on your health and self confidence. We all understand and the most important thing is you. The community will always be here and work at your pace. Best wishes and thank you for sharing ❤
All I know is you come across as a great guy, and I'm glad you're mindfully finding ways to try to manage the issue somewhat- and trying to look after yourself. You're not alone...the community cares about you. Bringing in the local live musicians has been super insightful, ty
It takes courage to let yourself be vulnerable, thank you for doing so. I am wholly unqualified to speak about your condition but since you've concluded that having an open discourse about it may be a helpful means of navigating this struggle, I support that and once again commend you for choosing not to shrink before what must be a fearful time in your life. We are often unaware of the obstacles those around us face, and I think in the broader sense, fostering a culture of empathy, which I believe to be what you are now doing, is healing for all of life in this mortal coil. God speed! *The hacky, heavy handed neo-Shakespearean brooding prose, the cost of being earnest in a post-ironic milieu, is meant to, at once, speak to you earnestly and to, at my own expense, hopefully, give you a chuckle at what a pretentious dweed I sound like. As is my excessive, wholly unnecessary use, of, commas. Did it work???? I made it worse, huh?
I am so sorry to hear this. Very brave of you to open up about your health issues. All the comments here show that it was the right thing to do. You have an appreciative and understanding community here and that speaks volumes about you and your channel.
Liam I’m truly sorry to hear about this. I had two tonic clonic seizures in 2021, preceded by partial seizures, which were undiagnosed. The seizures then caused a mental health crisis due to medications, stress etc. Now things, thankfully, are under control. Seizures are scary and suck, period. So I feel you and my heart goes out to you. For me stress is a big trigger, packing my schedule, not taking care of myself. So I think taking time off is a great move. Thanks so much for sharing and making music it is a huge inspiration. 💪
I'm sorry you had to go through that. Yeah the mental aspect is by far the most challenging thing for me. Just taking it day by day. Thank you for watching :-)
I got diagnosed in my 30s, it's been about 8 years since I had a grand mal. My auras are huge deja vu and feeling like someone is in the room with me when there is no one there. Last seizure I was running away from no one before I blacked out. It's funny, I've had this experience in my youth but never had an actual seizure so thought it was just interesting, confusing, but interesting. Seizures terrify me, I completely black out and it takes me weeks to physically and mentally recover. Several of my vertebrae have been crushed by my convulsions, and my shoulders pop out. I too have nothing on MRIs, and EEGs. I'm not light sensitive. It's a mystery. I for sure abused diphenhydramine (Gravol) for sleep which I found lowers seizure threshold and I ascribe that to my episodes. I fear having another seizure, share the same emotional despair I can see in you in this video. I've sobbed in front of my neurologist, had long term anxiety because you never know when it will come back. I am going to heed your experience and cut out caffeine again. I also have ADHD and started taking stimulants, so that plus caffeine is probably asking for trouble. Obviously cut out the alcohol entirely. Get good sleep, and maybe try and find a therapist to talk to. I had PTSD for a long time after my last seizure, it helps to talk it out. I was left with an existential crisis after my post ictal experience. It was horrible, terrifying, and just destroyed my faith in reality. If you ever want to chat it out with a stranger let me know. I hope your medication adjustment works out ❤
oh god - that sounds very intense - sorry to hear about all this. My life has shrunk a lot since this problem popped its head and i'm still working on finding the resources to deal with it - sounds cliche but one day at a time.
I would love to see this channel developing into the direction of you introducing artists to your audience. I allready liked the last videos like that a lot :)
You may take a closer look at your heart, my partner's brother (epileptic since 17) only at 47 found he had one heart valve debit, less than usual. A Chi meridian/channel goes from the heart to the brain. God Bless.
Lots of love for you here Liam. That sucks. Many years ago I worked in a hospital for kids with very severe epilepsy. It is can be such a debilitating condition. But... there's every chance you'll find a way through this. So many neurological conditions are a medical mystery still, with no easy answers... but it's often the case that a combination of new/different meds plus further diet and lifestyle changes can make a radical difference. Hang on in there. Meanwhile... absolute yes to the collaboration vids, they are awesome and I'd love to see more.
I found out I had epilepsy 20 years ago on my first date with my wife. After that first grand mal seizure, I had to take it easy for quite a while and change my approach towards music myself. I've home recorded probably a hundred albums since then but I haven't found an easy way to promote my music so I don't have many people check it out. It really changes your priorities when you only make music for yourself. But I have been seizure free for 18 years.
Damn dawg. We don't know you personally in this sort of format, but I always gravitate towards your personality and vibe here on youtube. I really hope you begin to experience healing from taking some rest. I do agree that this is your body sending a message to rest and allow for some recuperation time. My heart goes out to you, man. Take care of yourself. I'll always be tuning in to check on you, as will many supporters of your great art and perspective.
I went through my teen years in Saskatchewan with Epilepsy and the “grand mal” seizures are scary and very painful. I’ve been lucky to go without one for over 20 years but there are times when poor sleep and lots of stress cause that “aura” and that’s a strong warning for me. You’re transparency is inspiring and shows how strong you are. All the best to you as you navigate this and find your way forward.
I'm sorry it's so hard to control now. Very frustrating. Do everything you can to get it back under control. My brother had it and you are right. Everything about it sucks. Best of luck.
I’m sorry LK. I really enjoy your channel and you seem like a genuine person. I wish you good health. You’ve taught me a lot since I subbed to you. Get well brother.
Thank you for making this. I have a lot of the same problems. Its really frustrating when you're trying to take care of yourself but it gets worse. Stay Strong
I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through such a scary time in your life. It is good to be free of hiding from something that effects your life and is through no fault of your own. It really sucks that shit happens. I will say a prayer for your Liam and I hope you will get to a point where you are seizure free. Remember there are new discoveries being made every day so though it's hard to be positive I hope that you can find a way to be. It seems like you are and it's good to have family and friends support and to know that you are not alone. Keep playing music in one shape or form because music heals too.. Much "luck" in getting completely healthy again!
Take care! I have a lot of stones in my kidneys for almost 2 decades now and I know this feeling of always wondering when a renal colic will happen, always looking for signs. I hope you’ll find at least a way to get your issue under control. Sending you good vibes from Sainte-Agathe-Des-Monts.
thanks for everything youve done, brother. not only do you cover an awesome and relevant topics, you make the process feel good and worthwhile in figuring out how we choose to express ourselves sonically. you've got a lot of people that have your back and are here and ready for your new content. 🫡💚
@@LiamKillen oh snap! that's great news! could you do a small tutorial on how to use the roll feature on the TR-6S? i see the word "roll", but I can't figure out how to use it... Also, a good topic id love your take on is using a drum machine in the place of a drummer, and what you would use for gear. the TR-6S is not really easy to use as a programmable drum machine to play along to "songs" that aren't linear electronic builds and drops, but it's what I'm using. it's kind of annoying to try and do as you have to go thru the whole song and changing variations and fills, and even another pattern because of the cap of variations per each.. id love if you made a video demanding Roland put a 'song mode' on the TR-6S! ... and also customizable colors for all modes. I'm tired of the light blue for my variation colors... and unrealistic, but prolly possible, make it so there are 12 tracks that you can shift between, one set and another set of 6 tracks on the TR-6S 😅.. sorry for the long reply, but just throwing out some content (and update ☺️) ideas for the TR-6S. Glad to have you back, brother!
Hi Liam. I’ve always enjoyed your channel and approach, since I first started experimenting with music on pocket operators. I always like to hear your take on things. Wishing you all the best with your health and I’m sure this community will be around for whatever you choose to do. And judging by your following and friends here I’m sure you’ll get much support from here. Rich London
Sorry to hear this, dude. It did hurt putting myself in your shoes. You come across as a really nice guy and it sucks seeing you suffer. Hope they can adjust the medication so you will find exactly the one that suits you. All the best man
My older brother suffered a head injury as a child and has battled seizures ever since. It's a huge pain in the ass, but hopefully you'll get things sorted out and get that confidence back. Thank you for sharing.
Liam your channel is mega, keep up the awesome work. All your content is really interesting and inspiring. My Mum passed away from a seizure 7 years ago, it’s very scary so I can relate. Sending loads of positive vibes dude.
@@LiamKillen no worries man, looking forward to what you come up with next. I've just ordered a Push 3, was surprised to not see it any of your videos ha. I'm looking to create a standalone hybrid DJ setup with it to play tracks as well as my own productions. Trying to figure out if it'll work or if another controller is needed. Feels like we're still all on the hunt for the holy grail of functionality and portability haha.
Thinking about you and hoping you're able to get some relief and more answers soon. I know very little about epilepsy, so I won't chime in there, but anxiety is something I'm more familiar with than I wish. You described some aspects of anxiety so I thought I'd recommend the thing that helped me manage it more than anything else; meditation. If you're already doing that, then I'd say keep it up. If not, I can't recommend it enough. It's not a quick fix , you gotta keep at it, and may not have much impact on the epilepsy, but could help with the feelings that surround it at least. I was having regular panic and bad anxiety attacks where the fear of how I felt during them increased their frequency. It wasn't until I was able to overcome the fear through meditation that I was able to reduce the frequency. Now it's more rare. Hope this helps in some way. ❤
❤ is all I can send over but be assured we all wanna Support you and will never stop learning Fr m your Videos. Please stay strong and continueing getting help and beeing talkative about such topics. I myself am going through a panic disorder since almost one year now and I also got Bad and dark days where everything stops making sense. Without my loved one, my one and only wife and things like music I wouldnt be able to write this comment.
Bummed to hear those news man but on the brighter side I think you will pull through. You have a really positive character and and with a little help from the divine you will manage this situation. Stay strong bro. Keep it up love your work 🙏🙏
I also have a mysterious, but less serious, health issue, so I know how frustrating it can be to not know what the cause or solution are. Good luck to you.
Damn, didn't know.. I've had kids in school with epilepsy and it was scary as hell, had to be like a soccer goalie a few times. I hope you find answers and meds that works. All the best 👊❤
As someone who just got diagnosed with a serious blood disorder out of the blue last year, I totally feel you. One week I'm totally normal, the next I was in the ER, and still in and out of hospitals. I also can't find a medication that agrees with me and doesn't give me side effects. Thank you for all the videos, you really helped my OP1 learning curve. You're not alone, we will all figure this out!
Sorry to sound so cliche here, but using what affects you as an "opportunity" to rethink the format of your videos is a good move and definitely brings some (further) value to the channel! The collabs are a great idea; it really helps to see other people's setups and workflow. Looking forward to the next one. Get well soon!
thanks for sharing, i hope you can find ways to keep the seizures under control. i have epilepsy too and it's maddening how little insight we can get about what exactly is causing it or why we start having breakthrough seizures when we do. take care
Sorry to hear about your health problems and I hope you'll get better! Just wanted to share that my herniated discs always seem to happen around November/December…safe to say, I don't like this time.
Goodness. Sorry to hear about this latest chapter in challenges with your health. Super grateful for you speaking up and making space for others to do the same!
@@LiamKillen You’re welcome, Liam! Anytime. Ottawa’s good thanks (very welcoming arts community) and I’ve been continuing to work in Montréal, too… mostly session work and creative/grant projects, as well as some gigging and some teaching at Concordia. Definitely miss getting to hang with all of you as much, but I’ll reach out about meeting-up when I get some downtime in Mtl. Great idea about having folks come to you for both work and hangs! Gonna checkout those videos.
Glad you are putting your health first! Your channel has been so inspiring as I’ve recovered from a kidney transplant and dived into live techno. Hang in there!
The not getting any answers that you can act on after loads of medical tests is the worst part. I went through something a few years ago that required tons of mris, x-rays, scans, ultrasounds, and even a lumbar spinal tap and they never found anything other than a very high blood pressure. I saw a half dozen specialists at multiple hospitals and no one could figure anything out. The answer finally came from my ophthalmologist, surprisingly, when a scan of the inner eyes showed swelling around my optic nerve. It's mostly all treated now but it still cost waay too much money and time. The likely theory is that it was caused by the position I hold my head when using a computer at work. Not being able to know for sure the cause and make changes is aggravating. Anyways, take care care of yourself and know we are all supportative.
Hi liam, i also grew up in mtl pq. 77 to 82. Hate to hear that a music brother is suffering. But i want to wish you much strength and speedy recoveries. They are never easy. Bonne chance mon amie. Oui je suis bilingue.
Oh man this are tough news. I wish you all the best and I hope you will find a good way of dealing with it. Also mentally. I can refer to that winter depression thing a lot. I started doing light therapy in the morning and it definitely helps. I ordered a special light with 10 000 lux and use it in the morning for half an hour and do meditations while using it. It helps for a better start in the morning. I would say I feel 5-10% better after using it. Maybe light therapy could help your mental health as well. 🌞
I'm glad to hear that you're changing your activities to prioritize your health! You're channel is great regardless of what you end up doing and how often you're able to post. Everyone is going through something and a lot of people push themselves past a healthy limit, but you're setting an example for how best to live with whatever life gives us.
Thanks for sharing this. I think we are about the same age and as I also have some pretty crippling health issues that I’ve been fighting for years, can relate to some extent. Part of my struggle is related to anxiety and depression. My most important stress reliever is physical exercise. I like powerlifting personally, but imagine any tough exercise will have similar effects. Also have good experience with cold exposure and breathing exercises (à la Wim Hof). Better check that cold shock won’t trigger a seizure though. If it’s safe for you I think it would be good. Build up tolerance over time so you don’t get badly stressed at the prospect of a cold shower or plunge. Best wishes
You’re brave as all hell man! It’s also a pretty genius pivot to focus on other live artist’s setups. Not only does it take stress off your shoulders, but it adds a lot of variety to your videos for us viewers to enjoy! Keep up the great work.
I hope things rebalance for you quickly Liam. I was diagnosed with epilepsy in 2007, but I only have seizures in my sleep so I'm completely unaware of the experience. I had seven years of chaos at the beginning. I've broken bones and bitten my lip off. I've woken up being resuscitated in hospital and had ambulance crews in the bedroom. For the last decade I've been seizure free (controlled) and the thing that terrifies me more than anything in life is having a breakthrough seizure like you've been experiencing. Thanks for sharing your experiences. This will help a lot of people understand this condition more. You mention November and possible lack of daylight as a trigger - do you think there could be a relationship with Vitamin D/K2? I'm no medic just someone who takes it through the winter. Thanks for the advice on Gingko Biloba as well, I was not aware of that risk. Here's to putting the spectre back in the jar.
I’m so sorry to hear this, Liam. I’m a long time lurker on your channel since your early K.O. 33 days and want you know that I really appreciate what you do. Both the videos and the music you make is amazing. I really hope you can find a way to get better. Take care, peace from Scotland
Liam - keep going. As I've said before, bringing in guest artists is your secret superpower. Time will help and this will settle down. We all have things to adjust to. Keep going.
Thank you Liam for sharing your journey in such a transparent way .. as you have come to learn you are not alone .. with a network that loves and supports you ... There is nothing to hide or be ashamed of .. as we all have our challenges in this life .. In being so open you have created a safe haven for others .. as they have been infused with the courage to come out of the shadows and speak openly about their situation... Your articulation as well as your connection with your feelings resonates .. as awareness is the impetus to making change .. You are an inspiration Liam ... allowing others to take your lead .. as they too come into the light with the strength and confidence to speak their truth alongside of you .. You are... " A man for others " ..
Sorry to hear about the health issues. I’m glad to hear you’re on the right track and getting things managed. The fear and anxiety must be uncomfortable and I can relate to that. Thanks for sharing your story. You’ll adjust, adapt and push forward.
Sorry to hear that, Liam! Really brave of you to come out with this. There's nothing to hide, but I understand it's not easy to talk about it. Please always have your health as your number 1 priority, definitely a way to go. Take it slow. You're a great guy and already did plenty of things for the community!
Be strong Liam! Your health is a priority. Being a follower of your channel for some years and beyond your great content you are really a great human being and an inspiration for many people. I would suggest also some kind of therapy, once you are better. It seams that stress or anxiety is part of the triggers you have being having. As you said your body is telling you something. Wish you a great recovery, good health and positive energy! We will be here supporting and sending you good vibes! Just do what makes you happy at your own pace!
Praying for you during this difficult time, your videos have been a joy to watch for educational and entertainment. blessings towards you in this stressful period of time.
Liam, much love, brother. You have been a big inspiration and your videos are gold. You are appreciated. I hope this increase is only temporary and soon it will be controllable again. I look forward to whatever new videos you bring out.
Thank you for sharing this. I understand how scary something like this can be to deal with but I'm hoping it's just a matter of time and finding the right tools to help you feel more confident again. I live in Cleveland so I feel you about the lack of sunshine. I struggle with it every winter too. You make great music and I've already learned so much from watching you. Keep your chin up. We're here for you.
Bringing the local electronic music scene to ME! Here's some collabs that i've already done:
►DAWLESS Minimal House Approach: ua-cam.com/video/5scq1YMT4yg/v-deo.html
►DAWLESS Improvised Techno Approach: ua-cam.com/video/PzpirC45nvo/v-deo.html
@liamkillen. Welcome a board my friend. All will be ok.
We share this in common with love of good gear and good music. Be strong.
Hey Liam, sorry to hear you’re going through this rn. Love your content and wanted to share something with you that might help. Have you ever looked into earthing/grounding as a remedy for your epilepsy? I’m sure you have a decent enough understanding of electrical current to know what happens when our equipment isn’t grounded. Well the same thing happens to our bodies! And epilepsy specifically sounds like it could be caused by electricity/energy that isn’t being discharged properly. There’s some solid documentaries here on the tube. Check it out when you get a chance! Hope you feel better 💫
So sorry to hear that. Take care buddy.
Dang Liam, sorry to hear that g. Take care of yourself, just know the community appreciates you and your health is far more important. ❤
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Totally agree and understand. I wish you the best bro 🙏
Liam put yourself first and focus on your health and self confidence. We all understand and the most important thing is you. The community will always be here and work at your pace. Best wishes and thank you for sharing ❤
Of course - but also i'm learning that life must go on. These seizures have a mind of their own either way.
All I know is you come across as a great guy, and I'm glad you're mindfully finding ways to try to manage the issue somewhat- and trying to look after yourself.
You're not alone...the community cares about you.
Bringing in the local live musicians has been super insightful, ty
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Keep on keeping on! You seem like a great guy - be nice to yourself and allow yourself to feel sad about your situation. Take care, dude!
❤️ thank you
Thanks for taking the courage to share this. Stay strong, brother. Love your channel.❤
One day at a time :-)
Thank you for sharing. Stay strong!
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It takes courage to let yourself be vulnerable, thank you for doing so. I am wholly unqualified to speak about your condition but since you've concluded that having an open discourse about it may be a helpful means of navigating this struggle, I support that and once again commend you for choosing not to shrink before what must be a fearful time in your life. We are often unaware of the obstacles those around us face, and I think in the broader sense, fostering a culture of empathy, which I believe to be what you are now doing, is healing for all of life in this mortal coil. God speed!
*The hacky, heavy handed neo-Shakespearean brooding prose, the cost of being earnest in a post-ironic milieu, is meant to, at once, speak to you earnestly and to, at my own expense, hopefully, give you a chuckle at what a pretentious dweed I sound like. As is my excessive, wholly unnecessary use, of, commas. Did it work???? I made it worse, huh?
Yeah that point about shrinking is something that I can already sort of feel happening and i'm very aware of it.
Praying for you 🙏
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So sorry to hear about this challenge. What a PITA! I’ve enjoyed your videos over the years 👍🏻 Take it easy and keep it fun and stress free!
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Sorry to hear you’re going through that! 😢One day at a time! Hang in there Liam.
Exactly...one day at a time.
Here with you man.
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I am so sorry to hear this. Very brave of you to open up about your health issues. All the comments here show that it was the right thing to do. You have an appreciative and understanding community here and that speaks volumes about you and your channel.
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Liam I’m truly sorry to hear about this. I had two tonic clonic seizures in 2021, preceded by partial seizures, which were undiagnosed. The seizures then caused a mental health crisis due to medications, stress etc. Now things, thankfully, are under control.
Seizures are scary and suck, period. So I feel you and my heart goes out to you. For me stress is a big trigger, packing my schedule, not taking care of myself. So I think taking time off is a great move.
Thanks so much for sharing and making music it is a huge inspiration. 💪
I'm sorry you had to go through that. Yeah the mental aspect is by far the most challenging thing for me. Just taking it day by day.
Thank you for watching :-)
Thanks for sharing. I hope things it gts better soon and you get well.
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Thank you for sharing this! Very courageous man! Keep it up!!! 👏
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Sending good vibes, Liam. Rough stuff.
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I got diagnosed in my 30s, it's been about 8 years since I had a grand mal. My auras are huge deja vu and feeling like someone is in the room with me when there is no one there. Last seizure I was running away from no one before I blacked out. It's funny, I've had this experience in my youth but never had an actual seizure so thought it was just interesting, confusing, but interesting.
Seizures terrify me, I completely black out and it takes me weeks to physically and mentally recover. Several of my vertebrae have been crushed by my convulsions, and my shoulders pop out.
I too have nothing on MRIs, and EEGs. I'm not light sensitive. It's a mystery. I for sure abused diphenhydramine (Gravol) for sleep which I found lowers seizure threshold and I ascribe that to my episodes.
I fear having another seizure, share the same emotional despair I can see in you in this video. I've sobbed in front of my neurologist, had long term anxiety because you never know when it will come back.
I am going to heed your experience and cut out caffeine again. I also have ADHD and started taking stimulants, so that plus caffeine is probably asking for trouble.
Obviously cut out the alcohol entirely. Get good sleep, and maybe try and find a therapist to talk to. I had PTSD for a long time after my last seizure, it helps to talk it out. I was left with an existential crisis after my post ictal experience. It was horrible, terrifying, and just destroyed my faith in reality.
If you ever want to chat it out with a stranger let me know. I hope your medication adjustment works out ❤
oh god - that sounds very intense - sorry to hear about all this.
My life has shrunk a lot since this problem popped its head and i'm still working on finding the resources to deal with it - sounds cliche but one day at a time.
Praying for you!! Love your channel!!
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I would love to see this channel developing into the direction of you introducing artists to your audience. I allready liked the last videos like that a lot :)
More coming!
Sorry to hear. Best of luck and God bless. 👊🏾
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It sounds like you are thinking and doing everything that you should be. Keep on this path!
Always!!
Wishing you well and as with all our obsticles in life what Ive learned to manage is to just take it one day at a time.
That’s my best approach as well 😊
@@LiamKillen On Real BrothafromanothaMother. (I put the er on mother cuz u Canadian and I got Spect) LOL
Had no idea. It sounds tough dude. Wishing you strength, peace and comfort.
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Brave... take your time and take care of yourself. Big hook! 🤗
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You may take a closer look at your heart, my partner's brother (epileptic since 17) only at 47 found he had one heart valve debit, less than usual. A Chi meridian/channel goes from the heart to the brain. God Bless.
I’ll def be taking a look at this - thank you!
Thanks for sharing :-) love your channel
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Best wishes. Take care of yourself before anything else.
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Lots of love for you here Liam. That sucks. Many years ago I worked in a hospital for kids with very severe epilepsy. It is can be such a debilitating condition. But... there's every chance you'll find a way through this. So many neurological conditions are a medical mystery still, with no easy answers... but it's often the case that a combination of new/different meds plus further diet and lifestyle changes can make a radical difference. Hang on in there. Meanwhile... absolute yes to the collaboration vids, they are awesome and I'd love to see more.
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Big love Liam, you know we’re here for you.
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I found out I had epilepsy 20 years ago on my first date with my wife. After that first grand mal seizure, I had to take it easy for quite a while and change my approach towards music myself. I've home recorded probably a hundred albums since then but I haven't found an easy way to promote my music so I don't have many people check it out. It really changes your priorities when you only make music for yourself. But I have been seizure free for 18 years.
Good for you man - I’m glad it’s not a part of your life anymore
Damn dawg. We don't know you personally in this sort of format, but I always gravitate towards your personality and vibe here on youtube. I really hope you begin to experience healing from taking some rest. I do agree that this is your body sending a message to rest and allow for some recuperation time. My heart goes out to you, man.
Take care of yourself. I'll always be tuning in to check on you, as will many supporters of your great art and perspective.
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You’re doing great! ❤ you’ll get answers one way or another
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I wish you the best that you find a new renovated solution for your problem.
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Brave man, thank you for sharing with us. Wishing you the best moving forward! Thanks for all you share with the world!
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I went through my teen years in Saskatchewan with Epilepsy and the “grand mal” seizures are scary and very painful. I’ve been lucky to go without one for over 20 years but there are times when poor sleep and lots of stress cause that “aura” and that’s a strong warning for me. You’re transparency is inspiring and shows how strong you are. All the best to you as you navigate this and find your way forward.
I’m glad that you’re out of it ! I know all about the aura ! ❤️
I'm sorry it's so hard to control now. Very frustrating. Do everything you can to get it back under control. My brother had it and you are right. Everything about it sucks. Best of luck.
One day at a time - i'm greatful for the support system that I have.
bro, I'm gutted hearing this. My mum has it as well, very familiar with the whole thing. Wishing you all the best dude.
I don’t wish it upon anyone - thx for your support
I'm sorry you have to deal with this. Wishing you all the best Liam!
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I’m sorry LK. I really enjoy your channel and you seem like a genuine person. I wish you good health. You’ve taught me a lot since I subbed to you. Get well brother.
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Thank you for making this. I have a lot of the same problems. Its really frustrating when you're trying to take care of yourself but it gets worse. Stay Strong
Something’s causing it and I’ll find it
Liam - I wish you the best and hope you find more answers soon! I’m sure you know that the community supports whatever time or space you need!!
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I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through such a scary time in your life. It is good to be free of hiding from something that effects your life and is through no fault of your own. It really sucks that shit happens. I will say a prayer for your Liam and I hope you will get to a point where you are seizure free. Remember there are new discoveries being made every day so though it's hard to be positive I hope that you can find a way to be. It seems like you are and it's good to have family and friends support and to know that you are not alone. Keep playing music in one shape or form because music heals too.. Much "luck" in getting completely healthy again!
I’m lucky to have support - I’m already so lucky for that I’m realizing.
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@@LiamKillen life is so crazy. But in times of crises a lot of good can come from it and the people who surround you. Continued blessings to you 🙏
Wish you all the best, Liam.
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Stay strong!❤
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Take care! I have a lot of stones in my kidneys for almost 2 decades now and I know this feeling of always wondering when a renal colic will happen, always looking for signs. I hope you’ll find at least a way to get your issue under control. Sending you good vibes from Sainte-Agathe-Des-Monts.
That sounds terrible!!! Drink shit tons of water!
thanks for everything youve done, brother. not only do you cover an awesome and relevant topics, you make the process feel good and worthwhile in figuring out how we choose to express ourselves sonically. you've got a lot of people that have your back and are here and ready for your new content. 🫡💚
❤️ I'm ready! I'm learning that life must go on. I think that developing strong habits is all i can rely on now.
@@LiamKillen oh snap! that's great news! could you do a small tutorial on how to use the roll feature on the TR-6S? i see the word "roll", but I can't figure out how to use it... Also, a good topic id love your take on is using a drum machine in the place of a drummer, and what you would use for gear. the TR-6S is not really easy to use as a programmable drum machine to play along to "songs" that aren't linear electronic builds and drops, but it's what I'm using. it's kind of annoying to try and do as you have to go thru the whole song and changing variations and fills, and even another pattern because of the cap of variations per each.. id love if you made a video demanding Roland put a 'song mode' on the TR-6S! ... and also customizable colors for all modes. I'm tired of the light blue for my variation colors... and unrealistic, but prolly possible, make it so there are 12 tracks that you can shift between, one set and another set of 6 tracks on the TR-6S 😅..
sorry for the long reply, but just throwing out some content (and update ☺️) ideas for the TR-6S. Glad to have you back, brother!
All the best 👍🏽
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I hope you will be well, best wishes and more videos!! 😊
More to come!!
You did the right thing talking about it. Take care man
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Hi Liam. I’ve always enjoyed your channel and approach, since I first started experimenting with music on pocket operators. I always like to hear your take on things. Wishing you all the best with your health and I’m sure this community will be around for whatever you choose to do. And judging by your following and friends here I’m sure you’ll get much support from here. Rich London
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Sorry to hear this, dude. It did hurt putting myself in your shoes. You come across as a really nice guy and it sucks seeing you suffer. Hope they can adjust the medication so you will find exactly the one that suits you. All the best man
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My older brother suffered a head injury as a child and has battled seizures ever since. It's a huge pain in the ass, but hopefully you'll get things sorted out and get that confidence back. Thank you for sharing.
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Liam your channel is mega, keep up the awesome work. All your content is really interesting and inspiring. My Mum passed away from a seizure 7 years ago, it’s very scary so I can relate. Sending loads of positive vibes dude.
Oh man i'm so sorry to hear that - thank you so much for your support. It makes a difference.
@@LiamKillen no worries man, looking forward to what you come up with next. I've just ordered a Push 3, was surprised to not see it any of your videos ha. I'm looking to create a standalone hybrid DJ setup with it to play tracks as well as my own productions. Trying to figure out if it'll work or if another controller is needed. Feels like we're still all on the hunt for the holy grail of functionality and portability haha.
Thinking about you and hoping you're able to get some relief and more answers soon. I know very little about epilepsy, so I won't chime in there, but anxiety is something I'm more familiar with than I wish. You described some aspects of anxiety so I thought I'd recommend the thing that helped me manage it more than anything else; meditation. If you're already doing that, then I'd say keep it up. If not, I can't recommend it enough. It's not a quick fix , you gotta keep at it, and may not have much impact on the epilepsy, but could help with the feelings that surround it at least. I was having regular panic and bad anxiety attacks where the fear of how I felt during them increased their frequency. It wasn't until I was able to overcome the fear through meditation that I was able to reduce the frequency. Now it's more rare. Hope this helps in some way. ❤
meditation is something that i'm slowly discovering as well and could be something that i'll rely on in the future.
Get well soon
Thank you :-)
It's still a one day at a time situation but things seem to be moving forward and that's what counts right now :-)
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Sorry to hear that. Take care!
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❤ is all I can send over but be assured we all wanna Support you and will never stop learning Fr m your Videos. Please stay strong and continueing getting help and beeing talkative about such topics. I myself am going through a panic disorder since almost one year now and I also got Bad and dark days where everything stops making sense. Without my loved one, my one and only wife and things like music I wouldnt be able to write this comment.
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Bummed to hear those news man but on the brighter side I think you will pull through. You have a really positive character and and with a little help from the divine you will manage this situation. Stay strong bro. Keep it up love your work 🙏🙏
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I also have a mysterious, but less serious, health issue, so I know how frustrating it can be to not know what the cause or solution are. Good luck to you.
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Sorry to hear this news. Take care of yourself.
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Damn, didn't know.. I've had kids in school with epilepsy and it was scary as hell, had to be like a soccer goalie a few times. I hope you find answers and meds that works. All the best 👊❤
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As someone who just got diagnosed with a serious blood disorder out of the blue last year, I totally feel you. One week I'm totally normal, the next I was in the ER, and still in and out of hospitals. I also can't find a medication that agrees with me and doesn't give me side effects.
Thank you for all the videos, you really helped my OP1 learning curve. You're not alone, we will all figure this out!
Man...i'm so sorry you're going through that. I understand the feeling and it SUCKS!!
I'm glad you've figured out a way to keep moving forward. Hopefully it won't be too long before you find a revised regimen that works.
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Sorry to sound so cliche here, but using what affects you as an "opportunity" to rethink the format of your videos is a good move and definitely brings some (further) value to the channel! The collabs are a great idea; it really helps to see other people's setups and workflow. Looking forward to the next one. Get well soon!
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thanks for sharing, i hope you can find ways to keep the seizures under control. i have epilepsy too and it's maddening how little insight we can get about what exactly is causing it or why we start having breakthrough seizures when we do. take care
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Sorry to hear about your health problems and I hope you'll get better!
Just wanted to share that my herniated discs always seem to happen around November/December…safe to say, I don't like this time.
The seasons have such an effect on us it’s crazy
yeah, it's ridiculous🤷♂@@LiamKillen
Goodness. Sorry to hear about this latest chapter in challenges with your health. Super grateful for you speaking up and making space for others to do the same!
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Sorry to hear about this evolution, Liam. Scary stuff. Take care and let me know if you want to chat or need help with anything. Big hugs, brother!
Hey Sage thanks for reaching out !! Hope Ottawa is treating you well my friend. Thanks for your support and hopefully see you soon :-)
@@LiamKillen You’re welcome, Liam! Anytime. Ottawa’s good thanks (very welcoming arts community) and I’ve been continuing to work in Montréal, too… mostly session work and creative/grant projects, as well as some gigging and some teaching at Concordia. Definitely miss getting to hang with all of you as much, but I’ll reach out about meeting-up when I get some downtime in Mtl. Great idea about having folks come to you for both work and hangs! Gonna checkout those videos.
Glad you are putting your health first! Your channel has been so inspiring as I’ve recovered from a kidney transplant and dived into live techno. Hang in there!
Wow! Glad you’re in good health!
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Thanks for sharing. Prayers
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The not getting any answers that you can act on after loads of medical tests is the worst part. I went through something a few years ago that required tons of mris, x-rays, scans, ultrasounds, and even a lumbar spinal tap and they never found anything other than a very high blood pressure. I saw a half dozen specialists at multiple hospitals and no one could figure anything out.
The answer finally came from my ophthalmologist, surprisingly, when a scan of the inner eyes showed swelling around my optic nerve. It's mostly all treated now but it still cost waay too much money and time.
The likely theory is that it was caused by the position I hold my head when using a computer at work.
Not being able to know for sure the cause and make changes is aggravating.
Anyways, take care care of yourself and know we are all supportative.
Wow - yeah I’ve heard of so many stories like this where people find the source of the problem is completely different then what’s expected
Collabs are awesome. Take this channel in whatever direction you want. Praying for healing.
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Hi liam, i also grew up in mtl pq. 77 to 82. Hate to hear that a music brother is suffering. But i want to wish you much strength and speedy recoveries. They are never easy. Bonne chance mon amie. Oui je suis bilingue.
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Stay strong mate! It was great getting a 1:1 with you - you helped to answer a lot of questions about my setup and inspired to create more.
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Oh man this are tough news. I wish you all the best and I hope you will find a good way of dealing with it. Also mentally. I can refer to that winter depression thing a lot. I started doing light therapy in the morning and it definitely helps. I ordered a special light with 10 000 lux and use it in the morning for half an hour and do meditations while using it. It helps for a better start in the morning. I would say I feel 5-10% better after using it. Maybe light therapy could help your mental health as well. 🌞
I’m open to anything and it’s to be considered - thank you!
I'm glad to hear that you're changing your activities to prioritize your health! You're channel is great regardless of what you end up doing and how often you're able to post. Everyone is going through something and a lot of people push themselves past a healthy limit, but you're setting an example for how best to live with whatever life gives us.
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Thanks for sharing this. I think we are about the same age and as I also have some pretty crippling health issues that I’ve been fighting for years, can relate to some extent. Part of my struggle is related to anxiety and depression. My most important stress reliever is physical exercise. I like powerlifting personally, but imagine any tough exercise will have similar effects. Also have good experience with cold exposure and breathing exercises (à la Wim Hof). Better check that cold shock won’t trigger a seizure though. If it’s safe for you I think it would be good. Build up tolerance over time so you don’t get badly stressed at the prospect of a cold shower or plunge. Best wishes
Yeah many people have suggested this - saunas are good too . I’m considering buying a mini home sauna honestly lol - thank you
Thanks for sharing your healing journey
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You’re brave as all hell man! It’s also a pretty genius pivot to focus on other live artist’s setups. Not only does it take stress off your shoulders, but it adds a lot of variety to your videos for us viewers to enjoy! Keep up the great work.
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I hope things rebalance for you quickly Liam. I was diagnosed with epilepsy in 2007, but I only have seizures in my sleep so I'm completely unaware of the experience. I had seven years of chaos at the beginning. I've broken bones and bitten my lip off. I've woken up being resuscitated in hospital and had ambulance crews in the bedroom. For the last decade I've been seizure free (controlled) and the thing that terrifies me more than anything in life is having a breakthrough seizure like you've been experiencing. Thanks for sharing your experiences. This will help a lot of people understand this condition more. You mention November and possible lack of daylight as a trigger - do you think there could be a relationship with Vitamin D/K2? I'm no medic just someone who takes it through the winter. Thanks for the advice on Gingko Biloba as well, I was not aware of that risk. Here's to putting the spectre back in the jar.
That sounds horrible - glad it’s under control now
Thank you so much for sharing. I wish only the best in health and life for you Liam! we are here for you!
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I’m so sorry to hear this, Liam. I’m a long time lurker on your channel since your early K.O. 33 days and want you know that I really appreciate what you do. Both the videos and the music you make is amazing. I really hope you can find a way to get better. Take care, peace from Scotland
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So sorry to hear you’re dealing with this. Really appreciate your openness and vulnerability.
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Much love buddy. 💜 it takes a lot of strength to sharing that so openly - health always comes first and I’m wishing you to get better soon
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Liam - keep going. As I've said before, bringing in guest artists is your secret superpower. Time will help and this will settle down. We all have things to adjust to. Keep going.
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Thank you Liam for sharing your journey in such a transparent way .. as you have come to learn you are not alone .. with a network that loves and supports you ...
There is nothing to hide or be ashamed of .. as we all have our challenges in this life ..
In being so open you have created a safe haven for others .. as they have been infused with the courage to come out of the shadows and speak openly about their situation...
Your articulation as well as your connection with your feelings resonates .. as awareness is the impetus to making change ..
You are an inspiration Liam ... allowing others to take your lead .. as they too come into the light with the strength and confidence to speak their truth alongside of you ..
You are... " A man for others " ..
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Damn just when I thought I had problems. I hope you find a solution. Peace!
We all have something lol
Sorry to hear about the health issues. I’m glad to hear you’re on the right track and getting things managed. The fear and anxiety must be uncomfortable and I can relate to that. Thanks for sharing your story. You’ll adjust, adapt and push forward.
In a way it's making me stronger.
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Thanks for sharing. I wish you the best
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Sorry to hear that, Liam!
Really brave of you to come out with this. There's nothing to hide, but I understand it's not easy to talk about it.
Please always have your health as your number 1 priority, definitely a way to go. Take it slow.
You're a great guy and already did plenty of things for the community!
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Be strong Liam! Your health is a priority. Being a follower of your channel for some years and beyond your great content you are really a great human being and an inspiration for many people. I would suggest also some kind of therapy, once you are better. It seams that stress or anxiety is part of the triggers you have being having. As you said your body is telling you something. Wish you a great recovery, good health and positive energy! We will be here supporting and sending you good vibes! Just do what makes you happy at your own pace!
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Praying for you during this difficult time, your videos have been a joy to watch for educational and entertainment. blessings towards you in this stressful period of time.
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Bro i wish you unlimited health and sending good thoughts your way. You are loved
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Liam, much love, brother. You have been a big inspiration and your videos are gold. You are appreciated. I hope this increase is only temporary and soon it will be controllable again. I look forward to whatever new videos you bring out.
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Thank you for sharing this. I understand how scary something like this can be to deal with but I'm hoping it's just a matter of time and finding the right tools to help you feel more confident again. I live in Cleveland so I feel you about the lack of sunshine. I struggle with it every winter too. You make great music and I've already learned so much from watching you. Keep your chin up. We're here for you.
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