Intense, awesome journey. The courage to not only peruse these needs but to share your raw humanity with the world is truly inspirational. Forever loving your videos and looking forward to working with you in the near future!
the part where you break down from anxiety was really touching and amazing because it helped me be okay with my emotions pre-surgery as well. i had a lot of similar emotions. anyways, i also went to Dr. G and new beginnings! thanks for sharing your story.
I was recently told that I can't have too surgery or T shots because I suffer long term illness and I had a heart attack at 26. So there is literally no hope for me at all, but it makes me feel really good to see when other people get to do that. I can kind of live what it must be like through other people and you know... you think it would make someone in my situation butter or jealous. Well, I AM jealous. Insanely jealous. Who wouldn't be? But it's hard to explain. It's like... at least SOMEONE can. There was a time, none of us could and it makes me no different than all the people who couldn't for thousands of years... as far back as people exist. So my story isn't extraordinary, but I guess I am just super gap oh for those who can and the hope that this will expand and access will increase for future generations us pretty amazing. Just wanted to share.
Thank you for sharing this!! I just got My referral for Top surgery to the University of Washington in Seattle. I wanted to see Garramone, but that is not going to happen. I have been on T for almost 3 years, however I have been out much longer than that. I can't wait to have this done!!!!
I'm 16 and I'm starting T soon and I can't wait. After a year of being on T I get to get top surgery and I was really nervous but this helped me a lot. :)
@Animal Lives Matter More lmao thanks for asking! I'm now almost three years post op and doing great. insurance was a bitch and made me wait until I was 18 to get the surgery, so it sucked that I had to wait. I'm now almost 21, four and a half years on T, and finally happy with how masculine I look!
Congratulations I love this video it's so touching it's unreal I cried pretty much all the way through I wish you so much luck with the future I love you :)
when i get top surgery, i want to cover my scars so hopefully i'll be able to tattoo over them. i have the perfect idea too, "Everyone is Equal" written in evlish because lotr has helped me through so much (depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc.) and it means a lot to me. idk just an idea ;)
ah man i was emotional the whole video but i started crying when you said this video was for the "little trans guys who just came out who thinks he'll never be able to have top surgery" i'm 17 but i've known i'm not cis since i was 13(and probably would have sooner if i knew it was an option) and its so inspirational to see you and how happy you are and i just know that my future is going to be so worth the wait and i'm going to be so much happier, so thank you for this video, for your story, for your whole channel
this video made me so unbelievably happy, I've been thinking about top surgery a lot over the past couple months and this video is the most inspiring thing I have ever watched. your videos make me so happy, they cheer me up every time and I really look up to you and know I will be there someday. thank you chase, for making these videos for yourself and for everyone who needs them. thank you!
I teared up so many times watching this.. mostly for the joy on your face once you saw your chest for the first time.... one day, that will be me.... ONE DAY.
Top surgery saved your life, but you saved mine. I realised I was Trans last year while watching your videos. Watching you, going back and seeing how far you have come, made me so happy and pulled me from my depression. I'm 16 this year, but hopefully I will soon be going on T. And it's all thanks to you. Thank you so, so much. :)
Oh my goodness. I just checked on my calendar. The day you posted this video is the day that I came out to my mum. Thank you. You gave me the courage for that day.
"For the little guy who just came out who's 13 and thinks he will never get surgery" I'm 15, but that really hit me, this whole video really hit me. I've tried to come out 3 times and nothing has happened still. My mom treats it like it's nothing or doesn't understand and it's really hard, but this video gives me hope. I'm happy for you.
watching this video 4 days post op and i relate to everything you're saying. it's so weird and amazing to look in the mirror and actually see my chest. i can see myself. i feel whole and complete and it's such a relief. i know that i am incredibly lucky to be able to say that and i hope everybody who needs top surgery gets to have it soon. it is so worth the wait.
Look at all of these people who cried over this, myself included. You are my hero. I cried for you and I cried for myself, you are an amazing person who does amazing things, and I appreciate you so much.
My Underworks binders have brought such stamina and stronger stride in my walk. But as u showed how that binder, u no longer had to wear, I just teared up! I can't wait to look at all these binders that I have; to thank them for giving me such courage but to also say goodbye to them, as I start a new life. It won't be til 2017 (This is my biggest goal) until my top surgery. I want to thank you for being so raw and vulnerable to your followers but also to strangers like me; that is def not an easy task! This is one of my fav videos that I've added to my FTM playlist. God Bless You!
I actually cried of happiness watching this I'm a transgender male and to think that this is going to happen to me I will finally be able to be in the body I was supposed to be born with and i won't be so dysphoric so much around my chest area Thankyou chase for making this video!
So did I... but kind of a mixture of sad and happy tears because I know this is possible for me, but still so far away and I'm going to loose my family in the process
Dylan WV Dr. Garramone. His technique, manners and results are so incredible that people all over the world are paying out of pocket to have him do their top surgeries, including me. I'm all the way up in canada, he's in florida
Made me cry. I am gonna be getting top surgery within 1-3 months. I am so happy for you. It's great to see people able to be themselves. Keep on being you!
Hey Chase. I just literally cried watching this video. I broke down in tears at the part when you first got your bandages off and you looked at yourself i the mirror. You looked so, so happy and I was so happy for you that I just started bawling. I just recently came to a realization that I am FTM too. Watching your videos give me so much hope for my future. You literally are my idol. Thank you for being you and thank you for giving me hope. Lots of light and love to you!
I knew I was in the wrong body when I was 3 years old and didn’t start my transition until I was 63. Six months later I had top surgery. I don’t know how I made it. Congratulations.
It's so amazing. I feel like the moment before the bandages came of, I couldn't just see your excitement but really FEEL it! I'm sitting here, crying. I so wanted to climb though the screen and hug you. But this video is 3 years old. And climbing through the screen is impossible. So I'll send you a VIRTUAL HUG!
Chase, I cried during this entire video. When he was taking off the bandages I was bawling my eyes out. Your chest looks amazing. Thank you for making videos. I love them. I watch them when I'm upset or feel like nobody gets it, but you get it. You're such an amazing person. Thank you.
I'm not trans, but my boyfriend is, so I kinda know what it's like for you. This video made me cry. I'm really happy for you and I hope you continue to be happy. I'm from the UK, so I couldn't really ask how to go about my bf getting it, but this has helped so much. I've done so much research and this has by far helped a lot. Thank you and we'll done! Continue being happy with yourself! ^_^
Every time I'm watching this video, I cry like a little girl hoping that someday I will get my surgery done and became myself, at last. Thank you, Chase, for giving me hope.
Did you pay for your surgery,since it was outside of Canada? If so how much,If you don't mind me asking,or like an around likeable 2-3 thousand ? Or 3+?
Thank you so much. This is so wonderful and inspirational. Im FtM Transgender aswell. Im still pretty young, but I've been thinking about my future a lot. I want to do everything in my power to; as you said; feel like my body is mine. I hope that one day I can be happier with myself, as you are. Again, thank you so much. You and your videos inspire me to keep working for who I want to be, for in the end, it will be worth the wait. ❤️🙂
You made me cry! But you also made my day... Thanks for sharing such an emotional moment in your life! I'm looking forward to my own top surgery I hope I will have this year and I know it will be great...
Hey Chase! So I will be getting top surgery in two months and I'm just wondering what you did to stay busy/for entertainment while you were recovering from top surgery? I'm a fairly active person and I know that it's going to be difficult for me to stay entertained. I already have some movies and shows that I plan to watch, but was there anything you were able to do physically without being too strenuous? Thanks for your help!
As soon as I learned that this was something you could do, I started waiting for it. I've been waiting for 4 and 1/2 years now.I honestly don't know if I'll ever be able to have surgery. I doubt I'll ever be able afford it, but I can hope. I hope I don't spend my whole life waiting for something that will never come to fruition
I'm a new subscriber. I'm sorry If my english is not the best, I'm native spanish speaker. I cried the whole video. I'm enjoying so much this channel. And Im loving the fact that Im learning a lot about ftm, since Ive been having some issues with my identity. Love your channel Chase
I remember I watched this video when I was about 13 and I sat on my bed crying like an idiot. I had no idea why it made me so emotion at that point but now I know why I cried so much. I knew top surgery was what I needed before I even knew I was trans. I don't think my family will ever understand though, especially my mom, (she's basically morally against any kind of elective surgery or medical treatment, don't ask, it's a long story, I wish she was more opened to it but this is just the way it is for now) right now I'm just waiting until I'm maybe, 19 and I have money saved up and my own home and I'm all set to go have surgery. But that's 4 years, and honestly, if I was able to snap my fingers and have my chest gone by tomorrow I would, and who knows if I'll even have money by the time I'm 19 (I'm poor as shit right now I can't even buy a binder) but I hope I will. I fucking need surgery, I don't give a shit if my mom says it's just superficial, I want to fucking live.
I just wanted to let you know that your videos really help me. I've known that I'm not "a girl" since I was 6 years old, but I always tried to deny it. I started wearing bras in 3rd grade, and by 5th grade, when I started my period, I had developed an eating disorder to try to stop my body from changing. Around March 2015, I started coming to terms with my feelings and realized that I am nonbinary transgender. I don't really have anyone to talk to about it, or anyone who really understands, or very many people that support me, so your videos have been a lifeline for me, helping me trudge through my gender dysphoria. I am 20 years old now, and I understand what you mean about "your body not belonging to you." Thank you for everything you do.
Jesus, such a moving video. Thank you again for being so open and honest, sharing so much of yourself, and being vulnerable. You are an amazing person and this is just what I needed to see. Thank you!
Aw Chase. This was perfect for me because iv been experiencing alot of chest dysphoria lately and I cant wait for the day to "experience my body." For it to actually be mine and not ashamed of hiding my chest because im carrying something that...isn't me. Watching this made me feel like we shared a moment and for a couple of minutes I felt like my body was mine...if even for a moment. Thank you
this is the most beautiful hopeful thing ive ever seen. it's honest, wonderful, and joyful. i am inspired by this. right now im waiting to even get a gender therapist and im anxious about surgery (which i hope to obtain withing 2.5 years), and this gives me so much hope that im like moved to tears. cudos upon cudos to you for making this wonderful video.
It was must a truly amazing feeling not remembering what it was even like having "them" there. That's how you know you've moved on to something much better.
I'm glad I found this video, wanted to see how it went for you. I've had a breast reduction, but they wouldn't take them completely off, I felt half better at the time but I know I still need mine GONE too. My only worry is nipper grafts twice. I know I can get nipples tattooed on, but nothing beats the real thing. And nothing beats how great it will be when I get to where you are :-)
Hey Chase! I'm one week post op DI and your videos have really helped me out. I can totally relate to the feeling of your body finally being your own after surgery. You have gotten me through a lot of hard times. Thanks for sharing your journey.
So I'm getting my top surgery on Friday and I'm literally freaking out. Watching this video made me realise how through these years I've struggled so much but I'm wearing my binder for my final hours. It's such a weird thought. I can't wait until this is me because it's so close to being me.
This, i dont cry. But this brought me to tears. You are my inspiration. I look at this and think. This can be me. I can be happy. Your transition (and others) makes me feel like I'm not so alone. I saw this. And i felt this rush. Time flies. I may be young now but in a short time ill be where you were. Im really nervous. I some times doubt getting surgery because im so scared and feel so alone. But watching this gives me a feeling of strength. Thank you.
I needed to watch this right now, today. Thank you for being so brave and vulnerable and sharing so much of your journey. It helps me and others more than you can guess. Big admiration and gratitude. And yes. I cried through most of the video.
I've watched all of your videos and this one, by far, is the one I most related to. Three days ago i had top surgery and I can't tell you how amazing I feel. Thanks for sharing your experience with all of us.
This was really amazing to watch. I'm literally taking the first steps in my own transition and top surgery is something I know I'll need. It's hard to get answers about something like this because it's different for everybody, but being able to watch someone else go through a journey like this, it helps me understand what it is I'll have to face and what I will be going through. I had to pause this so many times because I didn't want my family to see me balling my eyes out. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
since I was a kid I wondered and asked myself why am I trapped in the wrong body ..I always find myself daydreaming if I was in the right body..I always imagine myself being married with the girl of my dream but ending up sad..thanks to the technologies we have right now.hoping that one day I could get operated like you too..you are such an inspiration to our brothers out there..keep inspiring us bro! we wish you all the best in life...
Oh my god this just makes me so happy I can't even It's *great* you got top surgery and you're happy and I literally am just sitting here waiting for that to happen to me one day but I can't even think about that a lot because I'm so happy I don't think I'm making much sense but I think some of you may feel me. I don't know. But oh my god I can't even in a good way, you know?
Im in public and, i almost started to tear up. watching this guy. Hes making me feel really brave about getting top surgery and this video is helping me with my anxieties.
This was hard to watch but also very enlightening. I can't imagine wearing one of those binders. Feeling you had to and the restrictions it placed on you. It must have been horrible and this surgery was obviously a great relief for you. I'm cis and happy with my breasts but the first thing I take off when I get home is my bra. I feel that it is too restrictive - can't even fathom what you endured. I'm very happy you are happier and feel more yourself now.
You've really inspired me, Chase... Really. I feel so much more confident about myself and you almost made me cry, to be honest. To be able to actually compare to someone and know what you're talking about... To be able to say, “Yes. That's exactly how I feel. I want to be as free as him.” Is just.. Great. Fantastic, even. I love all your videos, you've taught me, you've inspired me, and you helped me. I don't know what I'd do without your videos. Congratulations on the full transition. You deserve it.
The best part about this is watching transguys who aren’t super macho. I thought I couldn’t be trans for a long time because I’m not into things like watching sports.
i know this video is really old. but i know exactly how you felt, i've had top surgery last tuesday and i have my checking appointment in exactly a week. although i have to wear a compression vest instead of bandages, i can understand the greasyness, actually same here, i have never felt greasier hahaha! xD but i am glad i am atleast able to wash my hair. and with the pain after the surgery it's nearly the same for me too lol, i have a lot of pain on my left side, the right barely or only sometimes hurts. anyways, i am happy you made this video because it leaves me a lot of insights on how other people (or well.. you) felt before and after surgery, and that i am not the only one who feels the same. ^^
I could just die. You are so genuine and I feel so fucking identificated with you. I've been seriously starting to consider taking T since I found out transitioning it's an actual option, but I'm having my really bix anxiety moments, and this video really helped, like all the others. However I feel like we could really get along and I need someone who has been through this who can...guide me or who I can questions to. Would you help me with that? I'd be incredibly grateful. I admire you and I the way you speak and your personality gets through me more than I can possibly explain. I'll be looking forward for your answer. If you don't consider you can help me or you don't want to or whatever I still thank you. Your videos are literally changing my life.
seeing videos like this make me so sad that I might not have a chance to tell my family what I'm feeling inside. I'm having mixed feelings of what I should do to make me feel comfortable in my own body. I'm so depressed most of the time. I don't know what to do.😟😟
Chase, I am so, so happy that you made it. I am so glad that you made this video. How long have I been away from UA-cam? And you caught me up in half an hour. Thank you.
I get a lot of anxiety over operations too and though I'm years off I'm quite worried already. Your video has really helped me Chase as well as all your others :) thank you
Post-surgery depression also has to do with the affect of anesthesia. Important topic, but you did cover it elsewhere. Funny I had surgery 7 months ago, and I can't remember them either. Nipple sensation (erotic) is not really something to expect after surgery. I think it is an active imagination (I don't mean in a bad way) of being able to tie up the touch of sensation with "that should feel amazing" and it does.
Oh my god. This video is amazing. The feels. Your journey was amazing to watch thank you so much for sharing it. I cant wait till the day I dont have to bind anymore
I cannot even explain how gorgeous you are! You are a strong person, I wish you would be a strong one in the future too. Enjoy every day of your wonderful life with the ones that you love Chase💕
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Intense, awesome journey. The courage to not only peruse these needs but to share your raw humanity with the world is truly inspirational. Forever loving your videos and looking forward to working with you in the near future!
I literally cried. It's an awesome video. I'm so proud of you.
That moment when you saw your chest at the doctors for the first time where you stared in the mirrow forever, I cried my balls out.
the part where you break down from anxiety was really touching and amazing because it helped me be okay with my emotions pre-surgery as well. i had a lot of similar emotions. anyways, i also went to Dr. G and new beginnings! thanks for sharing your story.
I was recently told that I can't have too surgery or T shots because I suffer long term illness and I had a heart attack at 26. So there is literally no hope for me at all, but it makes me feel really good to see when other people get to do that. I can kind of live what it must be like through other people and you know... you think it would make someone in my situation butter or jealous. Well, I AM jealous. Insanely jealous. Who wouldn't be? But it's hard to explain. It's like... at least SOMEONE can. There was a time, none of us could and it makes me no different than all the people who couldn't for thousands of years... as far back as people exist. So my story isn't extraordinary, but I guess I am just super gap oh for those who can and the hope that this will expand and access will increase for future generations us pretty amazing. Just wanted to share.
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"I feel like I've always had this body but it never belonged to me until I had top surgery."
Thank you for sharing this!! I just got My referral for Top surgery to the University of Washington in Seattle. I wanted to see Garramone, but that is not going to happen. I have been on T for almost 3 years, however I have been out much longer than that. I can't wait to have this done!!!!
I'm 16 and I'm starting T soon and I can't wait. After a year of being on T I get to get top surgery and I was really nervous but this helped me a lot. :)
@Animal Lives Matter More lmao thanks for asking! I'm now almost three years post op and doing great. insurance was a bitch and made me wait until I was 18 to get the surgery, so it sucked that I had to wait. I'm now almost 21, four and a half years on T, and finally happy with how masculine I look!
Dude this hit me so hard. I'm crying. I can't wait to someday go through what you went through and finally be happy in my body
same man
Congratulations I love this video it's so touching it's unreal I cried pretty much all the way through I wish you so much luck with the future I love you :)
when i get top surgery, i want to cover my scars so hopefully i'll be able to tattoo over them. i have the perfect idea too, "Everyone is Equal" written in evlish because lotr has helped me through so much (depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc.) and it means a lot to me. idk just an idea ;)
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dont cuver ur scars! i think that when trans guys leave there scars its cool ♥
+DJ RYU! but does hd care what you like
ah man i was emotional the whole video but i started crying when you said this video was for the "little trans guys who just came out who thinks he'll never be able to have top surgery" i'm 17 but i've known i'm not cis since i was 13(and probably would have sooner if i knew it was an option) and its so inspirational to see you and how happy you are and i just know that my future is going to be so worth the wait and i'm going to be so much happier, so thank you for this video, for your story, for your whole channel
this video made me so unbelievably happy, I've been thinking about top surgery a lot over the past couple months and this video is the most inspiring thing I have ever watched. your videos make me so happy, they cheer me up every time and I really look up to you and know I will be there someday. thank you chase, for making these videos for yourself and for everyone who needs them. thank you!
I teared up so many times watching this.. mostly for the joy on your face once you saw your chest for the first time.... one day, that will be me.... ONE DAY.
Top surgery saved your life, but you saved mine. I realised I was Trans last year while watching your videos. Watching you, going back and seeing how far you have come, made me so happy and pulled me from my depression. I'm 16 this year, but hopefully I will soon be going on T. And it's all thanks to you. Thank you so, so much. :)
Oh my goodness. I just checked on my calendar. The day you posted this video is the day that I came out to my mum. Thank you. You gave me the courage for that day.
"For the little guy who just came out who's 13 and thinks he will never get surgery" I'm 15, but that really hit me, this whole video really hit me. I've tried to come out 3 times and nothing has happened still. My mom treats it like it's nothing or doesn't understand and it's really hard, but this video gives me hope. I'm happy for you.
When I saw your face when you first got the bandages off, I started crying. You just looked so happy and amazed. It really gives me hope.
oh god im literally sobbing, youve come so far and i cant wait until i get that far
watching this video 4 days post op and i relate to everything you're saying. it's so weird and amazing to look in the mirror and actually see my chest. i can see myself. i feel whole and complete and it's such a relief. i know that i am incredibly lucky to be able to say that and i hope everybody who needs top surgery gets to have it soon. it is so worth the wait.
congrats ! :)
Thank you for sharing your journey. I'm proud of you!
(If it's not too personal)Do u have sensation in ur nipples? Just asking because I'm planning on having top surgery
Look at all of these people who cried over this, myself included. You are my hero. I cried for you and I cried for myself, you are an amazing person who does amazing things, and I appreciate you so much.
My Underworks binders have brought such stamina and stronger stride in my walk. But as u showed how that binder, u no longer had to wear, I just teared up! I can't wait to look at all these binders that I have; to thank them for giving me such courage but to also say goodbye to them, as I start a new life. It won't be til 2017 (This is my biggest goal) until my top surgery. I want to thank you for being so raw and vulnerable to your followers but also to strangers like me; that is def not an easy task! This is one of my fav videos that I've added to my FTM playlist.
God Bless You!
you've made me feel like life is worth it because one day I will have top surgery and it will let me live life as me
Every time I watch those mirror moments (5:45) it brings me to tears. Every time. i cant wait until I'm in the same position.
I cried tears of joy for you because you're such a big inspiration to me and then I cried tears of sadness because I am so far away from this
Awwww the smile on his face when he's looking at himself in the mirror after the surgery is beautiful
I literally cried throughout the whole video
I'm sat here grinning like an idiot.
I actually cried of happiness watching this I'm a transgender male and to think that this is going to happen to me I will finally be able to be in the body I was supposed to be born with and i won't be so dysphoric so much around my chest area Thankyou chase for making this video!
So did I... but kind of a mixture of sad and happy tears because I know this is possible for me, but still so far away and I'm going to loose my family in the process
Who the hell did your surgery? It looks amazing!
Dylan WV Dr. Garramone. His technique, manners and results are so incredible that people all over the world are paying out of pocket to have him do their top surgeries, including me. I'm all the way up in canada, he's in florida
Made me cry. I am gonna be getting top surgery within 1-3 months. I am so happy for you. It's great to see people able to be themselves. Keep on being you!
Sid Drees So how'd it go?
***** well I am still here with a not flat chest and I will be getting surgery by the end of the year
Sid Drees what happened that you didn't get it earlier?
***** money happened and I wasn't ready. Now I have enough saved and I feel ready.
Sid Drees Ah alright. Good luck man!
Great video, Chase! Seeing your experience is powerful. It makes me want to hurry up and get top surgery! Thanks for sharing.
This is beautiful but Febuary 30th?
I worked on it for so many hours that I didnt even notice haha
lets say its for consistency.. ?
This video has given me the courage to commit myself to get the top surgery because....... Tbh....... I was terrified. I still am. But less now.
Hey Chase. I just literally cried watching this video. I broke down in tears at the part when you first got your bandages off and you looked at yourself i the mirror. You looked so, so happy and I was so happy for you that I just started bawling. I just recently came to a realization that I am FTM too. Watching your videos give me so much hope for my future. You literally are my idol. Thank you for being you and thank you for giving me hope. Lots of light and love to you!
Wow, what a powerful video. I'm so happy for you, chase. Thank you for making this video.
Your vulnerability in this video is amazing. I don't think I have seen a post-op video show so much emotion. Thank you for just being you.
I knew I was in the wrong body when I was 3 years old and didn’t start my transition until I was 63. Six months later I had top surgery. I don’t know how I made it. Congratulations.
This is impressive, congrats, Chase. You've come so far, done so well and the journey you've had is quite beautiful in a way. Well done.
It's so amazing. I feel like the moment before the bandages came of, I couldn't just see your excitement but really FEEL it!
I'm sitting here, crying. I so wanted to climb though the screen and hug you. But this video is 3 years old. And climbing through the screen is impossible. So I'll send you a VIRTUAL HUG!
I'm just in tears now because this was so emotional for me. Incredible video, Chase. Really inspirational.
I love you Chase. Thank you for sharing this journey with us. You are so inspiration to many people, and we all love you so much Chase 💖💖💖💖
Chase, I cried during this entire video. When he was taking off the bandages I was bawling my eyes out. Your chest looks amazing. Thank you for making videos. I love them. I watch them when I'm upset or feel like nobody gets it, but you get it. You're such an amazing person. Thank you.
I'm not trans, but my boyfriend is, so I kinda know what it's like for you. This video made me cry. I'm really happy for you and I hope you continue to be happy. I'm from the UK, so I couldn't really ask how to go about my bf getting it, but this has helped so much. I've done so much research and this has by far helped a lot. Thank you and we'll done! Continue being happy with yourself! ^_^
Made me tear up so bad. Can't belive it's already been a year. And I've been watching you since 2012. You're my hero.
I've been in this wrong body for 35 years now.. with 9 and a half years of binding... But I have top surgery in 19 days! Can't wait to feel so free!
Every time I'm watching this video, I cry like a little girl hoping that someday I will get my surgery done and became myself, at last.
Thank you, Chase, for giving me hope.
Did you pay for your surgery,since it was outside of Canada? If so how much,If you don't mind me asking,or like an around likeable 2-3 thousand ? Or 3+?
I'm so happy for you :) What an amazing video! Thank you for posting this despite it being so personal, it's amazing to see this :)
Thank you so much. This is so wonderful and inspirational. Im FtM Transgender aswell. Im still pretty young, but I've been thinking about my future a lot. I want to do everything in my power to; as you said; feel like my body is mine. I hope that one day I can be happier with myself, as you are. Again, thank you so much. You and your videos inspire me to keep working for who I want to be, for in the end, it will be worth the wait. ❤️🙂
You made me cry! But you also made my day...
Thanks for sharing such an emotional moment in your life!
I'm looking forward to my own top surgery I hope I will have this year and I know it will be great...
Wonderful vid Chase. Still Pre-opt here but this gives me hope. Thank you for sharing this with all of us.
Omg :')
This makes me so happy.
Does the "Awesome New Friend" have a UA-cam channel? I'm interested in watching his videos if he has any! 😁
Just around a little less than 2 years till I can even think about surgery. About half a year till Incan start T. THANKS TO MY GENDER COUNCILOR
Hey Chase! So I will be getting top surgery in two months and I'm just wondering what you did to stay busy/for entertainment while you were recovering from top surgery? I'm a fairly active person and I know that it's going to be difficult for me to stay entertained. I already have some movies and shows that I plan to watch, but was there anything you were able to do physically without being too strenuous? Thanks for your help!
As soon as I learned that this was something you could do, I started waiting for it. I've been waiting for 4 and 1/2 years now.I honestly don't know if I'll ever be able to have surgery. I doubt I'll ever be able afford it, but I can hope. I hope I don't spend my whole life waiting for something that will never come to fruition
I'm a new subscriber. I'm sorry If my english is not the best, I'm native spanish speaker. I cried the whole video. I'm enjoying so much this channel. And Im loving the fact that Im learning a lot about ftm, since Ive been having some issues with my identity. Love your channel Chase
I remember I watched this video when I was about 13 and I sat on my bed crying like an idiot. I had no idea why it made me so emotion at that point but now I know why I cried so much. I knew top surgery was what I needed before I even knew I was trans. I don't think my family will ever understand though, especially my mom, (she's basically morally against any kind of elective surgery or medical treatment, don't ask, it's a long story, I wish she was more opened to it but this is just the way it is for now) right now I'm just waiting until I'm maybe, 19 and I have money saved up and my own home and I'm all set to go have surgery. But that's 4 years, and honestly, if I was able to snap my fingers and have my chest gone by tomorrow I would, and who knows if I'll even have money by the time I'm 19 (I'm poor as shit right now I can't even buy a binder) but I hope I will. I fucking need surgery, I don't give a shit if my mom says it's just superficial, I want to fucking live.
I just wanted to let you know that your videos really help me. I've known that I'm not "a girl" since I was 6 years old, but I always tried to deny it. I started wearing bras in 3rd grade, and by 5th grade, when I started my period, I had developed an eating disorder to try to stop my body from changing. Around March 2015, I started coming to terms with my feelings and realized that I am nonbinary transgender. I don't really have anyone to talk to about it, or anyone who really understands, or very many people that support me, so your videos have been a lifeline for me, helping me trudge through my gender dysphoria. I am 20 years old now, and I understand what you mean about "your body not belonging to you." Thank you for everything you do.
Jesus, such a moving video. Thank you again for being so open and honest, sharing so much of yourself, and being vulnerable. You are an amazing person and this is just what I needed to see. Thank you!
Aw Chase. This was perfect for me because iv been experiencing alot of chest dysphoria lately and I cant wait for the day to "experience my body." For it to actually be mine and not ashamed of hiding my chest because im carrying something that...isn't me. Watching this made me feel like we shared a moment and for a couple of minutes I felt like my body was mine...if even for a moment. Thank you
this is the most beautiful hopeful thing ive ever seen. it's honest, wonderful, and joyful. i am inspired by this. right now im waiting to even get a gender therapist and im anxious about surgery (which i hope to obtain withing 2.5 years), and this gives me so much hope that im like moved to tears. cudos upon cudos to you for making this wonderful video.
It was must a truly amazing feeling not remembering what it was even like having "them" there. That's how you know you've moved on to something much better.
I'm glad I found this video, wanted to see how it went for you. I've had a breast reduction, but they wouldn't take them completely off, I felt half better at the time but I know I still need mine GONE too. My only worry is nipper grafts twice. I know I can get nipples tattooed on, but nothing beats the real thing. And nothing beats how great it will be when I get to where you are :-)
Hey Chase! I'm one week post op DI and your videos have really helped me out. I can totally relate to the feeling of your body finally being your own after surgery. You have gotten me through a lot of hard times. Thanks for sharing your journey.
So I'm getting my top surgery on Friday and I'm literally freaking out. Watching this video made me realise how through these years I've struggled so much but I'm wearing my binder for my final hours. It's such a weird thought. I can't wait until this is me because it's so close to being me.
Well I just did a solid amount of crying. This was a really nice video. I'm so happy for you! I'm really glad to see you're doing well
This, i dont cry. But this brought me to tears. You are my inspiration. I look at this and think. This can be me. I can be happy. Your transition (and others) makes me feel like I'm not so alone. I saw this. And i felt this rush. Time flies. I may be young now but in a short time ill be where you were. Im really nervous. I some times doubt getting surgery because im so scared and feel so alone. But watching this gives me a feeling of strength. Thank you.
I needed to watch this right now, today. Thank you for being so brave and vulnerable and sharing so much of your journey. It helps me and others more than you can guess. Big admiration and gratitude. And yes. I cried through most of the video.
I've watched all of your videos and this one, by far, is the one I most related to. Three days ago i had top surgery and I can't tell you how amazing I feel. Thanks for sharing your experience with all of us.
This was really amazing to watch. I'm literally taking the first steps in my own transition and top surgery is something I know I'll need. It's hard to get answers about something like this because it's different for everybody, but being able to watch someone else go through a journey like this, it helps me understand what it is I'll have to face and what I will be going through.
I had to pause this so many times because I didn't want my family to see me balling my eyes out. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
Very emotional video man, definitely brought tears to my eyes! Very inspiring!
since I was a kid I wondered and asked myself why am I trapped in the wrong body ..I always find myself daydreaming if I was in the right body..I always imagine myself being married with the girl of my dream but ending up sad..thanks to the technologies we have right now.hoping that one day I could get operated like you too..you are such an inspiration to our brothers out there..keep inspiring us bro! we wish you all the best in life...
Oh my god this just makes me so happy I can't even
It's *great* you got top surgery and you're happy and I literally am just sitting here waiting for that to happen to me one day but I can't even think about that a lot because I'm so happy
I don't think I'm making much sense but I think some of you may feel me. I don't know.
But oh my god I can't even in a good way, you know?
I know this video is really old, but I'm glad you finally became free.
Im in public and, i almost started to tear up. watching this guy. Hes making me feel really brave about getting top surgery and this video is helping me with my anxieties.
This was hard to watch but also very enlightening. I can't imagine wearing one of those binders. Feeling you had to and the restrictions it placed on you. It must have been horrible and this surgery was obviously a great relief for you. I'm cis and happy with my breasts but the first thing I take off when I get home is my bra. I feel that it is too restrictive - can't even fathom what you endured. I'm very happy you are happier and feel more yourself now.
thank you for making videos. they are so helpful and emotional and good
You've really inspired me, Chase... Really. I feel so much more confident about myself and you almost made me cry, to be honest. To be able to actually compare to someone and know what you're talking about... To be able to say, “Yes. That's exactly how I feel. I want to be as free as him.” Is just.. Great. Fantastic, even. I love all your videos, you've taught me, you've inspired me, and you helped me. I don't know what I'd do without your videos.
Congratulations on the full transition. You deserve it.
I love you Chase. You inspire me so much everyday and you keep me going through my transition.
The best part about this is watching transguys who aren’t super macho. I thought I couldn’t be trans for a long time because I’m not into things like watching sports.
I'm so happy for you Chase. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. :)
How long were you on T before you had top surgery? Apologies if you've said this somewhere else.
You are amazing. This video is amazing. I'm so happy for you.
i know this video is really old. but i know exactly how you felt, i've had top surgery last tuesday and i have my checking appointment in exactly a week. although i have to wear a compression vest instead of bandages, i can understand the greasyness, actually same here, i have never felt greasier hahaha! xD
but i am glad i am atleast able to wash my hair. and with the pain after the surgery it's nearly the same for me too lol, i have a lot of pain on my left side, the right barely or only sometimes hurts.
anyways, i am happy you made this video because it leaves me a lot of insights on how other people (or well.. you) felt before and after surgery, and that i am not the only one who feels the same. ^^
I could just die. You are so genuine and I feel so fucking identificated with you. I've been seriously starting to consider taking T since I found out transitioning it's an actual option, but I'm having my really bix anxiety moments, and this video really helped, like all the others. However I feel like we could really get along and I need someone who has been through this who can...guide me or who I can questions to. Would you help me with that? I'd be incredibly grateful. I admire you and I the way you speak and your personality gets through me more than I can possibly explain. I'll be looking forward for your answer. If you don't consider you can help me or you don't want to or whatever I still thank you. Your videos are literally changing my life.
seeing videos like this make me so sad that I might not have a chance to tell my family what I'm feeling inside. I'm having mixed feelings of what I should do to make me feel comfortable in my own body. I'm so depressed most of the time. I don't know what to do.😟😟
Chase, I am so, so happy that you made it. I am so glad that you made this video. How long have I been away from UA-cam? And you caught me up in half an hour. Thank you.
I get a lot of anxiety over operations too and though I'm years off I'm quite worried already. Your video has really helped me Chase as well as all your others :) thank you
I finally have access again to a computer on which I feel safe listening to UA-cams. Hi.
You're amazing. 3 congratulations on your amazing journey
Does being on T make your breasts smaller? Im just curious of if that does happen or not?
Post-surgery depression also has to do with the affect of anesthesia. Important topic, but you did cover it elsewhere. Funny I had surgery 7 months ago, and I can't remember them either. Nipple sensation (erotic) is not really something to expect after surgery. I think it is an active imagination (I don't mean in a bad way) of being able to tie up the touch of sensation with "that should feel amazing" and it does.
im having my surgery consultation in a couple of days and for the first time in ages (thanks T) im fully crying
Oh my god. This video is amazing. The feels. Your journey was amazing to watch thank you so much for sharing it. I cant wait till the day I dont have to bind anymore
Chase, you're making me so emotional too. Such feels at seeing you so happy.
I just have to hug you! oh my god! you're such a sweetie pie and just, you're so strong! I'm so proud of you! I can't wait to be where you are.
I cannot even explain how gorgeous you are! You are a strong person, I wish you would be a strong one in the future too. Enjoy every day of your wonderful life with the ones that you love Chase💕