God Bless you, sweetheart! He will keep you!❤ She IS ETERNALLY FINE! When my brother died, I had an awake vision from Jesus and my brother told me, "This is my buddy, right here!" He was talking about Jesus! He also came to me in dreams right after he died. Just like your Baby girl! She is more fine than we can even imagine! And you will see her again! May Christ Keep you strong and comforted. ❤
I'm a white male and high school junior from Colorado Springs who happened to stumble across your videos out of the blue. I don't really "fit the mold" of the typical demographic on this channel, but your message has resonated with me all the same. I can honestly say your channel is a hidden gem. You serve as such a beacon of inspiration to strongly-willed women all across the country. I really respect your level-headed temperament and analytical tone. Out of all people, you really didn't deserve this to come your way. But tragedy finds cunning ways of targeting our weaknesses. And ultimately, life is filled with ebbs and flows. Though you may have reached a temporary ebb, your daughter's life will eternally flow through those closest to her. I'm a non-believer in organized faith, but truly, god bless you and thanks for being a wonderful person!
Mc Farlin Hello, my friend! I can’t believe you’re just a junior! The way you articulated your sentiments was way beyond your stated age. Thank you for your comments. Even people who don’t “fit the mold” are welcome here. Peace and love.
I couldn’t hold back the tears again, listening to this update. This time I had to respond. What a strong woman you are among many other things. It all shows through when you speak. I’m glad you’re doing ok, “one breath at a time.” And your lifestyle and uploads have helped me and countless others I’m sure. Most specifically you helped me on my path with MS. I know Courtney was blessed to have you as a mom. Thank you for YOUR words of encouragement. And I will continue to hold you and your family up in prayer.
I think that the scholarship program you have enacted is a great idea. I also like that the deserving students have to achieve a certain criteria in order to get one; this will help to keep it special, desirable, and will be more appreciated than just receiving a standard "participation medal" type of scholarship. Your daughter's dreams will now help others to achieve their own.
We all love you, Fiona. You inspire us all. You're not alone in your pain and we all lament for you. We are all praying for you and want to remind you that you are loved and there is much to be learned from this difficult situation. I'm optimistic for your future, Courtney's legacy lives on, you still have a beautiful family here with you on this earth, and the outpouring of love has been huge! Here's to add to it: Sending peace a love! Always reach out if you need support because we will be here to support you. Sending love to Courtney too!
She was so beautiful. Thanks for sharing that dream with us. It made me a cry a bit, but I am so happy she reached out to you to console you. Sending BIG hugs to you darling.
I lost the love of my life 5 years ago. After he died, a friend of mine told me a few things that helped me so much. The first was that it doesn't get better, it always hurts as much as it does now, but somehow, you get use to it. That thing where it hits you again that they are gone and your heart has that terrible ache, never goes away, but it becomes a kind of comfort, because it reminds you of how much love is there, still there, still real. The second thing is that the first year is hard, and the second year is harder. There is no away around it, only through it, so do what you need to, do what you have to. Don't judge yourself and try not make sense of something senseless. It's hard to be without them, but there are other people who need you and that will help keep you going, it is all that saved me. I am so sorry. Love, love, love to you.
What a wonderful gift she gave you when she visited you on Saturday morning! Thank you so much for updating us. It is our honor to be your friend. We love you! You are a strong and beautiful person!
I want to let you know that you are an inspiration to me. I am young 14 year old girl, but your videos always enrich my day. Whether it's funny or serious, I hear your voice and it makes me happy. Peace and love.
My God, your strength is breathtaking. I cannot imagine the pain of losing a child, but I do know loss and grief and total and absolute helplessness and the fact that you are already able to find peace in the not-do-obvious signs speaks volumes of your character as a mother. My heart breaks for you and your entire family. It’s obvious that you know our Savior and that your daughter is being held tightly in His grip. Your dream, alone, shows that. I pray for your continued healing and understanding at the darkest moments in your journey.
Your focus on love and positivity during this difficult time is inspiring. It seems that your daughter wishes you the same peace and love that you wish all of us.
Fiona, your daughter will always be with you. Missing the physical side of her is hard, but she’ll always be with you. It’s very hard though. God bless you x
You are an extraordinary woman and PERSON, (not just because of this video... I have followed your commentaries for some time). Extraordinary as is your precious Courtney whose stellar achievements are also a testimony to your personhood and parenthood. I refuse to say "WAS" when we transition... because it is just that... a transition... not moving OUT from existence, but from one place to another. Tantamount to having one of my loved ones move to the other side of the earth to some lush paradise - where they would continue to live, exist and just "BE" - happily, and in peace; where my only contact would be a possible phone call every so often, leaving me with the task of being thankful and happy that they have discovered life in a better place; but just as equally coping with the loss of their presence and the hole it will have left. I am a believer that your experience was far more than a dream, because as I said... we merely "transition"... we do not disappear. My mother has come to me as I slept several times since her transition... and it was no dream and of great comfort to me. You are loved by many out here in the cyber world... and I have little doubt, out there in the "real world". My prayers are ever with you, and I continue to ask friends and family to pray for you and your family. Take care... and again...PLEASE, in the midst of comforting others, DO NOT forget YOURSELF. Grieve as you must, and in your unique way... the way in which only YOU can know and become familiar. Don't give a care what others may, say, think, or feel about your way of grieving... just rest in the understanding that it is YOUR way, unique to you and based upon the way the creator constructed you individually. Love, honor, peace and respect to you. Continue to take care. We are with you out here.
Good Lord, I couldn’t figure out how to comment when I watched your last video. I wish you peaceful moments strung together, and I am blessed to be able to witness your beauty and strength and vulnerability. Thrilled your Courtney visited you in the dream state to let you know she is with you. Love and light to you. Prayers. ❤️🙏🏼❤️
May God and your precious daughter stay near to you ✨ Our prayers are with you. I have lost loved ones and it takes a long time but God is watching over you Dear Friend 🕊🙏
I have such a profound respect for you. You are such a delightful person, which is why I subscribed to your channel. The day I watched your devastating news video I was utterly shocked. I just sat here and cried for you because I knew what pain you and your family were experiencing. My first grandchild was stillborn. I waited in the hallway outside my daughter's hospital room while she gave birth to her deceased first child. That was three years ago. The pain is still there but more manageable, at least for me. I cannot speak for my daughter. My only solace is knowing the soul of that little two-pound boy is in heaven and I will meet him one glorious day. In the meantime we must press on and draw encouragement and hope from the Lord. It's so easy to 'trust' Him when things are going 'good', but when they are not good- that's when unbelievers and skeptics really watch us to see if this 'faith' is really 'real'. I cannot imagine experiencing the death of a precious child while not having a relationship with God. How do they do it? Where is their hope? We know the God of all Comfort and He does just that- comforts our tired, weary, and hurting hearts. May God sustain you and your family through this terrible trial and I pray it strengthens you and will ultimately be used for His glory.
Chris H Chris, thank you for such heartfelt and inspiring words. It’s been 4 weeks exactly since my beloved Courtney departed this earth, and I’m getting used to this unfathomable pain. I know it’s a pain that I’ll have to just learn to exist with, bc it will never go away. Thank you for sharing your personal story with me also. We rest in the confidence that we will see our loved ones again one day. God bless you.
Dr Fiona, the dream was real and it was your beautiful daughter comforting you. After my father died, I was inconsolable and a monarch butterfly landed on his grave and stayed there. For the entire summer (I visited every day), the butterfly was always hovering around his grave. Every time I see a butterfly, my heart is overwhelmed with happiness. Your precious daughter will continue to send you little signs and appear in your dreams. I hope you find comfort and peace. One day at a time and take all the time you need. May you find peace and comfort in the days ahead. God bless you
I pray for ur peace. This world is tough. Please know how much I enjoy ur videos. Ur absolutely amazing and gorgeous! Please dont stop! U are are necessary here on yt! ♥️
I raise Monarch butterflies as a summer hobby and will think of your daughter as I release my next butterfly tomorrow. My heart goes out to you. I am happy to hear you found comfort from the dream. I believe with all my heart that dreams are heavens visiting hours.
Your daughter is SO very BEAUTIFUL. The turn out she got from her university, high school, her brother who created scholarships in her name and from all of you shows that she's beautiful within as well; she's very loved and its clear she touched so many lives. I use the present tense when writing about her because as your dream shows you, she's FINE, she's THERE with all of you, she's just existing in another realm. You will miss her presence as you are used to her but you will learn to honor her new form of how she is. So you are not alone from your daughter, she's right there. The beautiful Yellow butterfly... she's right THERE! Hugs. I didn't want to email you because I felt you needed concentrated amount of messages from those who experienced what you have instead of having sifting though a lot of mail. Blessings to you and yours.
I love that you found her in your dreams. I believe that once people pass they visit us in our dreams. I believe she visited you to let youknow she is OK where she is. Look for the butterflies, she sent them to you. **thinking of you**
what a great thing seeing your beautiful daughter in the dream reassuring you that she is fine. A great reminder to all of us who have lost loved ones, that they are well and their love surrounds us. Thank you for sharing.
We are your UA-cam community committed to helping you in any way shape or form 24/7. On a supernatural level, the butterfly and dream eerily solidify the fact that Courtney is very much present and participatory in your life. Rest, and feel the comfort and peace that surrounds you. God bless✝️
You and Miss C are reminders to us all...live Everyday the best you can. That being said, I made a comment on your Turn Down Service video and you replied that your daughter loves The McRib as I do....so in fun memory, I am going to buy two McRibs, one for each of you. Some people toast (a drink) in remembrance of those who made an impace in their lives. Those sandwiches don't come that often but from here on out, they will forever have Special meaning for me. So many thoughts and condolences, I just wanted to bring a little smile to you and your family. So HERE'S TO MISS C....BRING ON THE MCRIB 😘
Cindy, how kind of you to reach out in this way! She LOVED those sandwiches, and the rest of us would just sit and roll our eyes as we watched her scarf them down! Thank you for committing to remembering her in this way. You're a testament to the fact that there are some really kind and thoughtful people in the world.
You've been run over by a truck. It takes time to heal. It takes as long as it takes. You will know that you are healing, when you can think of your daughter with happiness, rather than with shock and grief. Embrace happiness. Turn away from the sad memories that will haunt you. There is no virtue in sadness. It is a false kind of loyalty, that your daughter would not want.
Dr. Fiona, your daughter was an extraordinary person( I saw her Facebook page). I want to reassure you that that was no dream . Your Courtney's spirit was there to comfort you and give you courage and strength in this difficult time. A lady I have known for many years had the same experience of an actual hug after her son passed away unexpectedly I think the children want their parents to know they are safe with the Lord and to not grieve too long. Now live your life with the grace that you live it. God bless you and your family👍💕
I am so sorry for your great loss, I pray your strength to live with and accept this, with each day. My mother was staying with me. She called to me and asked if I was alright but I am usually cranky when I wake up so I snapped at her, yes. Feeling bad about that, I went to her room to chat. I found my mother making this weaseling sound and trying to breath, I called the paramedics and I tried to resuscitate her but she died a little later at the hospital. For weeks I couldn't really eat, sleep or think about anything but my mom passing. Then she came to me in a dream, she was young, happy, washing her hair the getting ready to party, before she left out the door, she told me that she was alright. I believe it was more than a dream and that she was telling me to let go of my sorrow and start living again.
Terry Howard Terry, I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m glad that your mother came to you and freed you from the guilt. The dream I had not only comforted me, but freed me from my guilt of not having an urge to go into her room earlier. I kept telling myself that if I had only woken up maybe 30 mins earlier, I would have been able to save her. She helped me let that go. I know God speaks to me, and I have had to accept that if God had wanted me in her room earlier, he would have led me there. I have to accept what God allows. Peace and love, my friend.
What can I say that hasn't been said already by these wonderful heartfelt viewers. Your daughter can now tell everyone up in heaven looking down that Yep! That's her the greatest mother on earth.
Dr. Blair, My family loves you so much! You have been our doctor forever. I just found out about your baby while volunteering at a pantry. I was shocked. We love you! I don't know how difficult this is for you, but we have been praying for you all. You continue to be an inspiration to us all. I am so happy that she visited you to give you comfort. Much love.❤️
carla breedlove Hello! It’s so good to hear from you! Thank you for your sentiments. Yes, this has been an extraordinarily tough time, but we’ve been buoyed by the thoughts and prayers of our family and friends. God bless you!
Still praying for you and your family. I can't even imagine what y'all must be going through. What an amazing and powerful experience, your explaining it brought me to tears. Your beautiful Daughter looks just like her beautiful Mother! You are always a very sincere person, that's so refreshing and appreciated. Peace and love.
Bless you and bless you and I say again bless you. What a beautiful grace the God granted for you to see her, for we of faith know that like Joseph being bidden to Egypt in a dream, God can and does send messages to us in this manner. I was struck immediately by how lovely your daughter was, and as you describe her I know that her lovely smile reflected a lovely soul within. I am sorry that I have not known her in this world, but I do hope to meet her on judgement day, when we will all stand together , bright shining as the sun. You and yours are in my prayers
What a beautiful way Courtney showed that she will always be with you, and is ok. I wept with tears of joy, knowing that you and your family will be ok. This was a terrible tragic loss, however life will go on, and you will always have her in your heart. Much love to you and your family, Richard Reader, Fort Wayne, Indiana.
I am soooooo happy to hear this praise report. Happy that you saw your beautiful baby and, most importantly, that you got to hold her and hear her say, "mommy, I'm fine." I feel like shouting for you. Wonderful.
Anointed Actress Yes, Sis, go ahead and play the shouting music, bc it brought me such peace! God answered my prayers. He changed the scene playing in my head, gave me the ability to sleep, let me talk to her and hug her one more time, and put my soul at ease, knowing that Courtney is resting in His bosom.
What a blessed dream! Like you I am a Christian, and you know, a lot of Christian writers try to tell us "oh Heaven is going to be like this or that." When my non-Christian friends ask me what I think Heaven is like, I always say, "I have no idea, except for the fact that Jesus will be there, and I will be there, and at last, *everything will be all right.* And that's what He and your daughter want you to know. All shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well. You'll see her when you get Home. I hope to see you There, too, some day.
I have just stopped crying myself. It's never easy to know what to write or say. You have genuinely been in my thoughts and prayers ever since your last post. Your daughter is beautiful and gifted in many ways. From what you said it is clear that she was held in high regard by many; as parents and as a family you all did a great job in raising her. She will never be forgotten. Her name and memory lives on, through you and your family and the scholarship. The scholarship is a fitting tribute to her and a prefect embodiment of what she achieved. I am pleased that the UA-cam community have reached out to you and yours in order to help in your time of need. I am sure the support will continue. Your daughter will always be with you and the family, l truly believe that. Wishing you all the best and l will continue to pray for you all.❤
Always here for you big sis! You raised Courtney to help and support others just as you have done your entire life and all of that undoubtedly has to return to you during this difficult time. God has given me the best sister a girl could ever have and I publicly vow to ensure that you will make it through this valley unscathed. ❤️
Truly I have learned to like you so much not just because of your daughters passing. You're such a good person & I'm sure your Daughter will be with her maker forever. You're daughter is so beautiful. I say "is" because she somewhere better
What a blessing that she was so loved and she'll live on thru the students touched by her scholarship as well as everyone who loved her! My heart aches each time I think of you. Take your time grieving. We love you.
That was a great story. It reminded me of when my husband died when I was only 20 years old. I had a baby to care for and it was hard missing him. Over the course of years I would see him occasionally in my dreams. He would tell me he was ok. We would spend some time together and when I woke up, I felt at peace. At time went on, I dreamed of him less and less. I knew he was ok and so was I. Your daughter sounds so wonderful and it must have been an amazing tribute to have so many people celebrate her life.
You are such a wonderful human being. It's incredible, how you handle this devastating situation. And I'm very touched to see and hear how your faith fills you with comfort and consolation and affirmation. This is faith at its best, and you show it in every video you make. Faith makes you love other people, no matter how many flaws they might have, no matter, how imperfect we all are. And now your faith and love show you, that you're not alone and that your daughter is with you. I wish you all the best and hope that you will be able to continue your videos and share your wonderful views and thoughts with us. But take your time. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
I’m so happy that she was able to offer some comfort in your dream and that it helped you get through the day. I know the days ahead will be hard but I also know that you have a strong support network and that you’ll get through it. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.
Of course I will keep you and your daughter and your family in my prayers! :) All of you stay together and give love to each other, which is the most beautiful thing we can experience in life. Thank YOU for sharing something so important and personal with us. Your dream was so touching. Your daughter will now look upon you and protect you, and live you. God bless ya
Dr. Blair, you are such a beautiful person. You’ve helped so many people, and make the world a better place for all. So very sorry to hear what you are going through now..
I love your videos and appreciate that you share your life with us, even the difficult parts. I lost my sister 8.5 years ago to cancer and seeing my mom move through that devastating loss is so hard. And what do you call someone who's lost a sibling? There's no word for that either. But right after she passed I would hear all these songs from the '70s that we grew up with - some "one-hit wonders" that you just don't hear anymore - and it would make me think of her. Your daughter was so beautiful! Keep sharing her story, keep talking about her, keeping looking for those moments that remind her of her. You are in my prayers.
It's so wonderful that you felt her spirit and that she helped you through her Celebration of Life service. I often wonder about our souls as they pass from this life to the next and where they go and how we'll feel in that different place. I do feel that place is a different dimension that we'll get to. I'm so glad she reached out to comfort you at your most vulnerable time and to know that her love for you hasn't ended at all, that her love is still 'right here', as she comforted you in your dream. My prayers are still with you and will be for quite some time. I'm so glad you showed a picture of her; she is a beautiful girl! Take care and God bless you and your family. Much love, Carolyn
Its so good to hear that your daughter was sent to comfort you and you're doing better. She's as beautiful as I imagined, she will be in my heart and you'll always be in my prayers. :)
I think of the pain as if it is a large soft stone in the clear water of a fast moving river. You can see it, it is there, and the water gently smooth's the edges. You don't notice the edges being rounded at first. But one day, you do notice. You can feel the smoothness with your hand. And though your stone is ALWAYS there, it's smoothness gives you comfort. My girl was 10 years old. She would be 39 now. My stone is smooth now, but never far away. :-)
I’m not religious or overly interested in psychic phenomena, but I think dreams can reveal information/ideas unexplainable any other way. It’s not just the brain working things out or coping with trauma.
People will tell you it's going to be alright & it won't be. Cry from the depths of love in your soul whenever you feel the need to. I know you're professionally trained to contain your emotions but this isn't about your profession it's about trusting in God to direct your path. He's restoration is at hand & you're being seasoned/prepared for who you're about to become. Matthew 22:36-40
I believe she came to you, This is what God does for those that are grief stricken. She is with God, No one can hurt her, She will be waiting for you. take care of yourself. I am truly sorry you are going through this. We all will have to someday.
Oh my Lord Dr. Fiona my heart breaks for you and your family. You are in my prayers. I dreaded opening your last video because of it's title, but I did this morning. It hit me very hard. My best friend lost her son this past October. I watched this young man grow up and would counsel him to not be so reckless with his life. But in the end he was more afraid of living than in dying. We are still wading through bad stuff, at times getting called at one a.m. and talking with her through the rest of the night because she cannot sleep. If you have close friends like this please don't feel that you are a burden, we are here to help carry you when you need us.
Bonnie Valdez - I hear you. A close friend just lost her husband to suicide. She found him. So many out there with their own judgement of how she is dealing. I worry so much that she yearns to be with him. I do not know how she gets through it everyday. I wish she would call at one a.m. You are a great friend obviously, when others may simply disappear. It can be too hard on some because of their own fears that they too are vulnerable to such a loss. The pain can just be too much to walk though with another. So that shows just how special you are.
Kat W. Thanks, Kat. I had a bad day yesterday. A wave of grief hit me like a tsunami. I pretty much cried all day. I guess that’s to be expected. At least that’s what all the members in this “club” tell me. Thanks for thinking about me.
You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers dear one. She will always remind you that she is still there with a beautiful butterfly until you see her again. My parents remind me often with cardinals. They've been so close at times I could touch them. Keep breathing. 🌹
Look at all your child has left this mortal world with. Amazing. She LIVES! And your strength to continue to give to others...through your own pain. Wow! I can't help but think someone raised you, as well as you have raised your own. What a success story. Odd words to say at this time perhaps, but you are gifted and clearly you passed that to her. Blessings sweet woman. We all wish we could take your pain, perhaps our collective prayers can take just a bit for you.
God Bless You! My Mom recently passes and she sent me birds, all sorts of birds would do strange things around me. It brought me tons of comfort and even some laughter. May your daughter Rest in Peace and may you find Peace.
Hey, Fiona. Yes, your daughter IS okay! You tears, your pain, and your suffering are about you and your sense of loss. It's at once selfish and totally natural. Even the devoutest of the devout selfishly cling to their loved ones, even knowing full well that they are going to God and to paradise. It's what we do! I used to watch a show called, I Survived: Beyond and Back" which chronicled the so-called "Near-Death Experiences" (NDEs) of people who truly DID DIE (not "nearly" die!) and came back to tell their tales. The INTERESTING thing about their stories is that ... 1. Some do not conform to Biblical accounts of God and Jesus, heaven, warmth, love, the bright light, etc. I call them "secular" experiences. THESE I don't care about! 2. A few of the stories recount people who went to HELL and came back! (I got some great insights about what hell must be like from these accounts.) 3. The classic "God is real" stories of people's visits to heaven. Individual stories are available for free on UA-cam as well as through HULU and possibly other places too. Here's a link to the UA-cam stories. If you choose to watch, I pray that they bring you comfort to hear among other things the peace and love those people felt and the anger and resentment they felt having to come back to their earthly lives. God be with you, friend! ua-cam.com/play/PLpYgXrdsP3H9NAi4ZXbLLtcp1p5HTXxPI.html
I'm so happy for you that she appeared in your dream. As a non religious person I don't know how to explain that, but I'm sure it was your girl and that she's fine. I'll pray for you and your family. Huge hug from italy.
I've watched your videos for years, probably never commented, but you've always had my love and respect. I just learned about your loss and am heartbroken. You can't help but to make this tragedy into something positive, somehow, some way. The world is a better place because you are in it...
I know your pain is very real and very raw, however, you have been so blessed to have your daughter in your life and when your pain gets to unbearable, think of your daughter and all the wonderful memories she gave you. That will most assuredly make you smile once more. I am truly sorry for your loss and I do believe, without a doubt, she is with God in Heaven watching over you.
I heard a great story today about a couple who lost their 12 year old son to Mersa in less than 2 weeks. Familylife.com played part one of two . The book "A Grace Disguised" is in their store to help ppl who have lost a child. Hope this helps
When my grandpa died I was torn. He was everything to me. I had a dream of him and I hand in hand walking down a long hall with the family walking beside and behind us. He was young again and I was a little girl. I never knew him as a young man. He was much older. Then after that I always had a reaccuring dream of him every so often and always in the dream he would be there for a few minutes then put his arms out for a hug then I would hug him and he would vanish from my arms. I would always cry. One dream he did that and I said no because I knew he would vanish just like he always did in past dreams but he insisted so I said ok and he vanished as always. When I was pregnant with my now 12 month old he came to me but he turned Into a young boy in one dream and then the next dream he came inside with my father he put his arms out to me and I knew it.....but this time he hugged me and stayed and whispered in my ear..."its ok I am here with you now and I'm not going anywhere." Then we went with the family. I woke up in disbelief. I had my daughter a few months later in the month that he died...July. and the day he was born 6. I thought maybe she was him but then I realized he is her guardian angel. Now I have dreams of him helping us around the house and living with us... your daughter sounds like she was so smart. I could only dream of being like her. I hope my daughter can be as smart as your was. God bless you! Hugs from all of us.
If I ever drive through Stone Mountain, I will contact you first to make sure you'll be at church when I visit, which of course won't be for quite awhile. I just took a virtual tour of your beautiful town and read as much as I can about Courtney. To me, there's something about her accomplishments that make this all the more devastating. But from a glance of Voices Of Faith congregation, it seems like you have a huge network of support. And your perspective from a pediatrician's view of other parents losses as well as your own- I'm very tired & loopy so I'd better stop here. Again, my deepest heartfelt condolences. Good night.
Thank you. I wanted to say more last night but when I'm tired I occasionally say the right thing in the wrong way, resulting in misunderstanding. Even though Dr. Blair is probably the type to say 'I know what you meant,' I still worry. But thanks for the complement.
I can relate! Something I will always regret is how absent I was for my darling cousin during her miscarriage. I was a lot younger and more naive and was terrified of saying something wrong. With little life experience and not much understanding of what she was going through, I said little to nothing and I apologized to her years later for it and she totally understood. I still feel guilty, though. I know what it's like to hold back at a sensitive moment for the fear of saying something wrong. Damn, I didn't expect a damn life-story, but what you said brought me back. But yeah, I had to stop by and compliment your sweet message. It warmed my heart.
Brianna Bayon - Your cousin forgave you, now forgive yourself. You said nothing wrong. Don't be afraid you will say something wrong. You most obviously have a sweet heart of your own, so share it! The world desperately needs to hear more sweet words, don't hide yours. We need your words.Keep talking girl!
Honestly.. I have no words that you have not heard before.. I really don't know what else I can add... When your email is not notifying you..when your phone is not ringing...That is Us! Just thinking about you! Be sure to rest up..because we will need you again tomorrow!
I've been thinking of you everyday...( i'm sure everyone here has). You are much loved. Keeping you and your family in my prayers Ms. Fiona. ❤️
God Bless you, sweetheart! He will keep you!❤ She IS ETERNALLY FINE! When my brother died, I had an awake vision from Jesus and my brother told me, "This is my buddy, right here!" He was talking about Jesus! He also came to me in dreams right after he died. Just like your Baby girl! She is more fine than we can even imagine! And you will see her again! May Christ Keep you strong and comforted. ❤
Thanks Marie Lynn!
I'm a white male and high school junior from Colorado Springs who happened to stumble across your videos out of the blue. I don't really "fit the mold" of the typical demographic on this channel, but your message has resonated with me all the same. I can honestly say your channel is a hidden gem. You serve as such a beacon of inspiration to strongly-willed women all across the country. I really respect your level-headed temperament and analytical tone. Out of all people, you really didn't deserve this to come your way. But tragedy finds cunning ways of targeting our weaknesses. And ultimately, life is filled with ebbs and flows. Though you may have reached a temporary ebb, your daughter's life will eternally flow through those closest to her. I'm a non-believer in organized faith, but truly, god bless you and thanks for being a wonderful person!
Mc Farlin Hello, my friend! I can’t believe you’re just a junior! The way you articulated your sentiments was way beyond your stated age. Thank you for your comments. Even people who don’t “fit the mold” are welcome here. Peace and love.
I couldn’t hold back the tears again, listening to this update. This time I had to respond. What a strong woman you are among many other things. It all shows through when you speak. I’m glad you’re doing ok, “one breath at a time.” And your lifestyle and uploads have helped me and countless others I’m sure. Most specifically you helped me on my path with MS. I know Courtney was blessed to have you as a mom. Thank you for YOUR words of encouragement. And I will continue to hold you and your family up in prayer.
Thank you!
I think that the scholarship program you have enacted is a great idea. I also like that the deserving students have to achieve a certain criteria in order to get one; this will help to keep it special, desirable, and will be more appreciated than just receiving a standard "participation medal" type of scholarship. Your daughter's dreams will now help others to achieve their own.
We all love you, Fiona. You inspire us all.
You're not alone in your pain and we all lament for you. We are all praying for you and want to remind you that you are loved and there is much to be learned from this difficult situation.
I'm optimistic for your future, Courtney's legacy lives on, you still have a beautiful family here with you on this earth, and the outpouring of love has been huge!
Here's to add to it: Sending peace a love! Always reach out if you need support because we will be here to support you.
Sending love to Courtney too!
Thank you!
She was so beautiful. Thanks for sharing that dream with us. It made me a cry a bit, but I am so happy she reached out to you to console you.
Sending BIG hugs to you darling.
I lost the love of my life 5 years ago. After he died, a friend of mine told me a few things that helped me so much. The first was that it doesn't get better, it always hurts as much as it does now, but somehow, you get use to it. That thing where it hits you again that they are gone and your heart has that terrible ache, never goes away, but it becomes a kind of comfort, because it reminds you of how much love is there, still there, still real. The second thing is that the first year is hard, and the second year is harder. There is no away around it, only through it, so do what you need to, do what you have to. Don't judge yourself and try not make sense of something senseless. It's hard to be without them, but there are other people who need you and that will help keep you going, it is all that saved me. I am so sorry. Love, love, love to you.
Davy Thomas Love to you too, Davy. Thanks for your comments.
What a wonderful gift she gave you when she visited you on Saturday morning! Thank you so much for updating us. It is our honor to be your friend. We love you! You are a strong and beautiful person!
It's wonderful that every time you see a butterfly you will be reminded of your daughter's beautiful spirit and feel that she is there with you.
I want to let you know that you are an inspiration to me. I am young 14 year old girl, but your videos always enrich my day. Whether it's funny or serious, I hear your voice and it makes me happy. Peace and love.
Aw, so sweet!
ribsAndDust Awwww, thank you, my dear.
My God, your strength is breathtaking. I cannot imagine the pain of losing a child, but I do know loss and grief and total and absolute helplessness and the fact that you are already able to find peace in the not-do-obvious signs speaks volumes of your character as a mother. My heart breaks for you and your entire family. It’s obvious that you know our Savior and that your daughter is being held tightly in His grip. Your dream, alone, shows that. I pray for your continued healing and understanding at the darkest moments in your journey.
Diana Prickett Thanks Diana.
Your focus on love and positivity during this difficult time is inspiring. It seems that your daughter wishes you the same peace and love that you wish all of us.
I think that is why they live such a blessed life, its the constant positivity. With positivity, there is a silver lining in all things.
Fiona, your daughter will always be with you. Missing the physical side of her is hard, but she’ll always be with you. It’s very hard though. God bless you x
Brian O'Neill Thanks, Brian.
A truly beautiful vision. I'm choked up over here. God Bless
May the Lord comfort and keep.
Bless your heart ... what an amazing beautiful dream...I believe it was totally real...and she gave you just what you needed for strength and comfort.
You are an extraordinary woman and PERSON, (not just because of this video... I have followed your commentaries for some time). Extraordinary as is your precious Courtney whose stellar achievements are also a testimony to your personhood and parenthood. I refuse to say "WAS" when we transition... because it is just that... a transition... not moving OUT from existence, but from one place to another.
Tantamount to having one of my loved ones move to the other side of the earth to some lush paradise - where they would continue to live, exist and just "BE" - happily, and in peace; where my only contact would be a possible phone call every so often, leaving me with the task of being thankful and happy that they have discovered life in a better place; but just as equally coping with the loss of their presence and the hole it will have left.
I am a believer that your experience was far more than a dream, because as I said... we merely "transition"... we do not disappear. My mother has come to me as I slept several times since her transition... and it was no dream and of great comfort to me.
You are loved by many out here in the cyber world... and I have little doubt, out there in the "real world". My prayers are ever with you, and I continue to ask friends and family to pray for you and your family. Take care... and again...PLEASE, in the midst of comforting others, DO NOT forget YOURSELF. Grieve as you must, and in your unique way... the way in which only YOU can know and become familiar. Don't give a care what others may, say, think, or feel about your way of grieving... just rest in the understanding that it is YOUR way, unique to you and based upon the way the creator constructed you individually.
Love, honor, peace and respect to you. Continue to take care. We are with you out here.
Thank you so much!
Good Lord, I couldn’t figure out how to comment when I watched your last video. I wish you peaceful moments strung together, and I am blessed to be able to witness your beauty and strength and vulnerability. Thrilled your Courtney visited you in the dream state to let you know she is with you. Love and light to you. Prayers. ❤️🙏🏼❤️
So sorry for your tremendous loss. My heart breaks for you. Hugs...❤
May God and your precious daughter stay near to you ✨ Our prayers are with you. I have lost loved ones and it takes a long time but God is watching over you Dear Friend 🕊🙏
Amazing that you have been seeing her in your dreams. I some cultures the butterfly represent the soul. Peace and love all I wish for you.
I have such a profound respect for you. You are such a delightful person, which is why I subscribed to your channel. The day I watched your devastating news video I was utterly shocked. I just sat here and cried for you because I knew what pain you and your family were experiencing. My first grandchild was stillborn. I waited in the hallway outside my daughter's hospital room while she gave birth to her deceased first child. That was three years ago. The pain is still there but more manageable, at least for me. I cannot speak for my daughter. My only solace is knowing the soul of that little two-pound boy is in heaven and I will meet him one glorious day. In the meantime we must press on and draw encouragement and hope from the Lord. It's so easy to 'trust' Him when things are going 'good', but when they are not good- that's when unbelievers and skeptics really watch us to see if this 'faith' is really 'real'. I cannot imagine experiencing the death of a precious child while not having a relationship with God. How do they do it? Where is their hope? We know the God of all Comfort and He does just that- comforts our tired, weary, and hurting hearts. May God sustain you and your family through this terrible trial and I pray it strengthens you and will ultimately be used for His glory.
Chris H Chris, thank you for such heartfelt and inspiring words. It’s been 4 weeks exactly since my beloved Courtney departed this earth, and I’m getting used to this unfathomable pain. I know it’s a pain that I’ll have to just learn to exist with, bc it will never go away. Thank you for sharing your personal story with me also. We rest in the confidence that we will see our loved ones again one day. God bless you.
God bless you!
She is absolutely beautiful. She looks just like you! Still praying for you and your family. Awesome about the scholarship!
Dr Fiona, the dream was real and it was your beautiful daughter comforting you. After my father died, I was inconsolable and a monarch butterfly landed on his grave and stayed there. For the entire summer (I visited every day), the butterfly was always hovering around his grave. Every time I see a butterfly, my heart is overwhelmed with happiness. Your precious daughter will continue to send you little signs and appear in your dreams. I hope you find comfort and peace. One day at a time and take all the time you need. May you find peace and comfort in the days ahead. God bless you
I pray for ur peace. This world is tough. Please know how much I enjoy ur videos. Ur absolutely amazing and gorgeous! Please dont stop! U are are necessary here on yt! ♥️
I raise Monarch butterflies as a summer hobby and will think of your daughter as I release my next butterfly tomorrow. My heart goes out to you. I am happy to hear you found comfort from the dream. I believe with all my heart that dreams are heavens visiting hours.
kittygirl What are beautiful thought!
Your daughter is SO very BEAUTIFUL. The turn out she got from her university, high school, her brother who created scholarships in her name and from all of you shows that she's beautiful within as well; she's very loved and its clear she touched so many lives. I use the present tense when writing about her because as your dream shows you, she's FINE, she's THERE with all of you, she's just existing in another realm. You will miss her presence as you are used to her but you will learn to honor her new form of how she is. So you are not alone from your daughter, she's right there. The beautiful Yellow butterfly... she's right THERE! Hugs. I didn't want to email you because I felt you needed concentrated amount of messages from those who experienced what you have instead of having sifting though a lot of mail. Blessings to you and yours.
I love that you found her in your dreams. I believe that once people pass they visit us in our dreams. I believe she visited you to let youknow she is OK where she is. Look for the butterflies, she sent them to you. **thinking of you**
She looked just like you! And i love the idea of starting a scholarship in her name
what a great thing seeing your beautiful daughter in the dream reassuring you that she is fine. A great reminder to all of us who have lost loved ones, that they are well and their love surrounds us. Thank you for sharing.
We are your UA-cam community committed to helping you in any way shape or form 24/7. On a supernatural level, the butterfly and dream eerily solidify the fact that Courtney is very much present and participatory in your life. Rest, and feel the comfort and peace that surrounds you. God bless✝️
Thank you!
I love you Dr. Blair we will continue to pray for you and your family!
You and Miss C are reminders to us all...live Everyday the best you can. That being said, I made a comment on your Turn Down Service video and you replied that your daughter loves The McRib as I do....so in fun memory, I am going to buy two McRibs, one for each of you. Some people toast (a drink) in remembrance of those who made an impace in their lives. Those sandwiches don't come that often but from here on out, they will forever have Special meaning for me. So many thoughts and condolences, I just wanted to bring a little smile to you and your family. So HERE'S TO MISS C....BRING ON THE MCRIB 😘
Cindy, how kind of you to reach out in this way! She LOVED those sandwiches, and the rest of us would just sit and roll our eyes as we watched her scarf them down! Thank you for committing to remembering her in this way. You're a testament to the fact that there are some really kind and thoughtful people in the world.
You've been run over by a truck. It takes time to heal. It takes as long as it takes.
You will know that you are healing, when you can think of your daughter with happiness, rather than with shock and grief.
Embrace happiness. Turn away from the sad memories that will haunt you. There is no virtue in sadness. It is a false kind of loyalty, that your daughter would not want.
Jon Lenihan Thank you so much, Jon.
@@fblairmd66 Your daughter had a good life. Only, it was too short.
Dr. Fiona, your daughter was an extraordinary person( I saw her Facebook page). I want to reassure you that that was no dream . Your Courtney's spirit was there to comfort you and give you courage and strength in this difficult time. A lady I have known for many years had the same experience of an actual hug after her son passed away unexpectedly I think the children want their parents to know they are safe with the Lord and to not grieve too long. Now live your life with the grace that you live it. God bless you and your family👍💕
Thank you, Cathy.
I am so sorry for your great loss, I pray your strength to live with and accept this, with each day. My mother was staying with me. She called to me and asked if I was alright but I am usually cranky when I wake up so I snapped at her, yes. Feeling bad about that, I went to her room to chat. I found my mother making this weaseling sound and trying to breath, I called the paramedics and I tried to resuscitate her but she died a little later at the hospital. For weeks I couldn't really eat, sleep or think about anything but my mom passing. Then she came to me in a dream, she was young, happy, washing her hair the getting ready to party, before she left out the door, she told me that she was alright. I believe it was more than a dream and that she was telling me to let go of my sorrow and start living again.
Terry Howard Terry, I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m glad that your mother came to you and freed you from the guilt. The dream I had not only comforted me, but freed me from my guilt of not having an urge to go into her room earlier. I kept telling myself that if I had only woken up maybe 30 mins earlier, I would have been able to save her. She helped me let that go. I know God speaks to me, and I have had to accept that if God had wanted me in her room earlier, he would have led me there. I have to accept what God allows. Peace and love, my friend.
What can I say that hasn't been said already by these wonderful heartfelt viewers. Your daughter can now tell everyone up in heaven looking down that Yep! That's her the greatest mother on earth.
Dr. Blair, My family loves you so much! You have been our doctor forever. I just found out about your baby while volunteering at a pantry. I was shocked. We love you! I don't know how difficult this is for you, but we have been praying for you all. You continue to be an inspiration to us all. I am so happy that she visited you to give you comfort. Much love.❤️
carla breedlove Hello! It’s so good to hear from you! Thank you for your sentiments. Yes, this has been an extraordinarily tough time, but we’ve been buoyed by the thoughts and prayers of our family and friends. God bless you!
Still praying for you and your family. I can't even imagine what y'all must be going through. What an amazing and powerful experience, your explaining it brought me to tears. Your beautiful Daughter looks just like her beautiful Mother! You are always a very sincere person, that's so refreshing and appreciated. Peace and love.
*=) I TOLD YOU that you would feel the energy of your daughter. Thanks for sharing with everyone
Continued prayer for your journey. May God's grace, peace and comfort be your portion for the rest of your life!!!!
Bless you and bless you and I say again bless you. What a beautiful grace the God granted for you to see her, for we of faith know that like Joseph being bidden to Egypt in a dream, God can and does send messages to us in this manner.
I was struck immediately by how lovely your daughter was, and as you describe her I know that her lovely smile reflected a lovely soul within. I am sorry that I have not known her in this world, but I do hope to meet her on judgement day, when we will all stand together , bright shining as the sun. You and yours are in my prayers
stwalstan Thank you so much!
The scholarship is a beautiful way to honor your beautiful daughters memory. What an amazing strong woman you are!!!!
Dalea Nolan amen
What a beautiful way Courtney showed that she will always be with you, and is ok. I wept with tears of joy, knowing that you and your family will be ok. This was a terrible tragic loss, however life will go on, and you will always have her in your heart. Much love to you and your family, Richard Reader, Fort Wayne, Indiana.
3713msg Thank you, Richard.
I am soooooo happy to hear this praise report. Happy that you saw your beautiful baby and, most importantly, that you got to hold her and hear her say, "mommy, I'm fine." I feel like shouting for you. Wonderful.
Anointed Actress Yes, Sis, go ahead and play the shouting music, bc it brought me such peace! God answered my prayers. He changed the scene playing in my head, gave me the ability to sleep, let me talk to her and hug her one more time, and put my soul at ease, knowing that Courtney is resting in His bosom.
fblairmd66 Hallelujah. God bless you.
What a blessed dream! Like you I am a Christian, and you know, a lot of Christian writers try to tell us "oh Heaven is going to be like this or that." When my non-Christian friends ask me what I think Heaven is like, I always say, "I have no idea, except for the fact that Jesus will be there, and I will be there, and at last, *everything will be all right.* And that's what He and your daughter want you to know. All shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well. You'll see her when you get Home. I hope to see you There, too, some day.
Anna Inspain Thank you, Anna.
I have just stopped crying myself. It's never easy to know what to write or say. You have genuinely been in my thoughts and prayers ever since your last post. Your daughter is beautiful and gifted in many ways. From what you said it is clear that she was held in high regard by many; as parents and as a family you all did a great job in raising her. She will never be forgotten. Her name and memory lives on, through you and your family and the scholarship. The scholarship is a fitting tribute to her and a prefect embodiment of what she achieved. I am pleased that the UA-cam community have reached out to you and yours in order to help in your time of need. I am sure the support will continue. Your daughter will always be with you and the family, l truly believe that. Wishing you all the best and l will continue to pray for you all.❤
Always here for you big sis! You raised Courtney to help and support others just as you have done your entire life and all of that undoubtedly has to return to you during this difficult time. God has given me the best sister a girl could ever have and I publicly vow to ensure that you will make it through this valley unscathed. ❤️
Thanks Kat!
fblairmd66 ❤
Truly I have learned to like you so much not just because of your daughters passing. You're such a good person & I'm sure your Daughter will be with her maker forever. You're daughter is so beautiful. I say "is" because she somewhere better
Is Az Thank you!
What a blessing that she was so loved and she'll live on thru the students touched by her scholarship as well as everyone who loved her! My heart aches each time I think of you. Take your time grieving. We love you.
Your daughter is beautiful, and YOU are a very beautiful and strong person.
Wishing you all of God's Peace, Love, and Healing. +
That was a great story. It reminded me of when my husband died when I was only 20 years old. I had a baby to care for and it was hard missing him. Over the course of years I would see him occasionally in my dreams. He would tell me he was ok. We would spend some time together and when I woke up, I felt at peace. At time went on, I dreamed of him less and less. I knew he was ok and so was I. Your daughter sounds so wonderful and it must have been an amazing tribute to have so many people celebrate her life.
Patricia Riddle Yes, it was an honor. Thanks for your comments.
You are such a wonderful human being. It's incredible, how you handle this devastating situation. And I'm very touched to see and hear how your faith fills you with comfort and consolation and affirmation. This is faith at its best, and you show it in every video you make. Faith makes you love other people, no matter how many flaws they might have, no matter, how imperfect we all are. And now your faith and love show you, that you're not alone and that your daughter is with you. I wish you all the best and hope that you will be able to continue your videos and share your wonderful views and thoughts with us. But take your time. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Franz Kaern-Biederstedt Thank you for your thoughtful words, Franz.
Courtney is beautiful, just as you are 😘❤
I’m so happy that she was able to offer some comfort in your dream and that it helped you get through the day. I know the days ahead will be hard but I also know that you have a strong support network and that you’ll get through it. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.
Of course I will keep you and your daughter and your family in my prayers! :)
All of you stay together and give love to each other, which is the most beautiful thing we can experience in life.
Thank YOU for sharing something so important and personal with us.
Your dream was so touching.
Your daughter will now look upon you and protect you, and live you.
God bless ya
Dr. Blair, you are such a beautiful person. You’ve helped so many people, and make the world a better place for all. So very sorry to hear what you are going through now..
Just Me Thank you for such kind words. Peace and love to you and yours. Stay healthy!
fblairmd66 - really think the world of you.
Just Me 🤗
Thank you for letting us know how you're holding up. You have my heartfelt condolences, may God continue to comfort you!
I love your videos and appreciate that you share your life with us, even the difficult parts. I lost my sister 8.5 years ago to cancer and seeing my mom move through that devastating loss is so hard. And what do you call someone who's lost a sibling? There's no word for that either. But right after she passed I would hear all these songs from the '70s that we grew up with - some "one-hit wonders" that you just don't hear anymore - and it would make me think of her. Your daughter was so beautiful! Keep sharing her story, keep talking about her, keeping looking for those moments that remind her of her. You are in my prayers.
TheBudgins Thank you Sis. God bless you.
Thinking of you and your family. Happy to hear about the scholarship. Stay strong. She will always be in your heart.
It's so wonderful that you felt her spirit and that she helped you through her Celebration of Life service. I often wonder about our souls as they pass from this life to the next and where they go and how we'll feel in that different place. I do feel that place is a different dimension that we'll get to. I'm so glad she reached out to comfort you at your most vulnerable time and to know that her love for you hasn't ended at all, that her love is still 'right here', as she comforted you in your dream. My prayers are still with you and will be for quite some time. I'm so glad you showed a picture of her; she is a beautiful girl! Take care and God bless you and your family. Much love, Carolyn
Thank you, Carolyn.
Oh Fiona - you're so amazing - and of course she's with you.
Its so good to hear that your daughter was sent to comfort you and you're doing better. She's as beautiful as I imagined, she will be in my heart and you'll always be in my prayers. :)
Black Man Rising Thank you, Brother.
I "cry" for you because I'm "happy" in knowing that your daughter is okay. Rest assured, she's okay. Peace and Love!
You’re loved peace and love 🙏🏼
💗💗💗💗😍much love and prayers to you
I think of the pain as if it is a large soft stone in the clear water of a fast moving river. You can see it, it is there, and the water gently smooth's the edges. You don't notice the edges being rounded at first. But one day, you do notice. You can feel the smoothness with your hand. And though your stone is ALWAYS there, it's smoothness gives you comfort. My girl was 10 years old. She would be 39 now. My stone is smooth now, but never far away. :-)
sc4400 Such beautiful imagery.
Thinking about you and your family, hoping y'all are doing okay. Prayers and love your way.
I’m not religious or overly interested in psychic phenomena, but I think dreams can reveal information/ideas unexplainable any other way. It’s not just the brain working things out or coping with trauma.
People will tell you it's going to be alright & it won't be. Cry from the depths of love in your soul whenever you feel the need to. I know you're professionally trained to contain your emotions but this isn't about your profession it's about trusting in God to direct your path. He's restoration is at hand & you're being seasoned/prepared for who you're about to become. Matthew 22:36-40
may God be with you and your family.....
I believe she came to you, This is what God does for those that are grief stricken. She is with God, No one can hurt her, She will be waiting for you. take care of yourself. I am truly sorry you are going through this. We all will have to someday.
🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 Gods blessings to you and your family in this chapter.
Deborah S Thank you Sis.
Glad you got a chance to hold her. Hugs from me and may God give you comfort at this time.
Peace and love from Canada.
Oh my Lord Dr. Fiona my heart breaks for you and your family. You are in my prayers. I dreaded opening your last video because of it's title, but I did this morning. It hit me very hard. My best friend lost her son this past October. I watched this young man grow up and would counsel him to not be so reckless with his life. But in the end he was more afraid of living than in dying. We are still wading through bad stuff, at times getting called at one a.m. and talking with her through the rest of the night because she cannot sleep. If you have close friends like this please don't feel that you are a burden, we are here to help carry you when you need us.
Bonnie Valdez Thank you Bonnie.
Bonnie Valdez - I hear you. A close friend just lost her husband to suicide. She found him. So many out there with their own judgement of how she is dealing. I worry so much that she yearns to be with him. I do not know how she gets through it everyday. I wish she would call at one a.m. You are a great friend obviously, when others may simply disappear. It can be too hard on some because of their own fears that they too are vulnerable to such a loss. The pain can just be too much to walk though with another. So that shows just how special you are.
Was thinking about you today. Peace to you. ❤
Kat W. Thanks, Kat. I had a bad day yesterday. A wave of grief hit me like a tsunami. I pretty much cried all day. I guess that’s to be expected. At least that’s what all the members in this “club” tell me. Thanks for thinking about me.
This is one of the most beautiful and heartbreaking videos I've seen in a long time. Peace, love and respect.
We are crying with you and rejoicing with you 😭❤️
I've got nothing but love for you and your channel. Like you said, one breath at a time. That's it. Keep doing that.
You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers dear one. She will always remind you that she is still there with a beautiful butterfly until you see her again. My parents remind me often with cardinals. They've been so close at times I could touch them. Keep breathing. 🌹
Look at all your child has left this mortal world with. Amazing. She LIVES! And your strength to continue to give to others...through your own pain. Wow! I can't help but think someone raised you, as well as you have raised your own. What a success story. Odd words to say at this time perhaps, but you are gifted and clearly you passed that to her. Blessings sweet woman. We all wish we could take your pain, perhaps our collective prayers can take just a bit for you.
Thinkfirst Thank you for your kind and uplifting words. Be blessed.
God Bless You! My Mom recently passes and she sent me birds, all sorts of birds would do strange things around me. It brought me tons of comfort and even some laughter. May your daughter Rest in Peace and may you find Peace.
Christy Cramer-Barry Thanks!
I thank God that he is given you what you need.
Hey, Fiona. Yes, your daughter IS okay! You tears, your pain, and your suffering are about you and your sense of loss. It's at once selfish and totally natural. Even the devoutest of the devout selfishly cling to their loved ones, even knowing full well that they are going to God and to paradise. It's what we do! I used to watch a show called, I Survived: Beyond and Back" which chronicled the so-called "Near-Death Experiences" (NDEs) of people who truly DID DIE (not "nearly" die!) and came back to tell their tales. The INTERESTING thing about their stories is that ... 1. Some do not conform to Biblical accounts of God and Jesus, heaven, warmth, love, the bright light, etc. I call them "secular" experiences. THESE I don't care about! 2. A few of the stories recount people who went to HELL and came back! (I got some great insights about what hell must be like from these accounts.) 3. The classic "God is real" stories of people's visits to heaven. Individual stories are available for free on UA-cam as well as through HULU and possibly other places too. Here's a link to the UA-cam stories. If you choose to watch, I pray that they bring you comfort to hear among other things the peace and love those people felt and the anger and resentment they felt having to come back to their earthly lives. God be with you, friend! ua-cam.com/play/PLpYgXrdsP3H9NAi4ZXbLLtcp1p5HTXxPI.html
I'm so happy for you that she appeared in your dream. As a non religious person I don't know how to explain that, but I'm sure it was your girl and that she's fine. I'll pray for you and your family. Huge hug from italy.
I've watched your videos for years, probably never commented, but you've always had my love and respect. I just learned about your loss and am heartbroken. You can't help but to make this tragedy into something positive, somehow, some way. The world is a better place because you are in it...
Bob Mardigian Thank you, Bob. It was so kind of you to send this message. Peace and love.
Stay strong. You still have a great family and many you don't know that care and love you.
Thanks for sharing and I am sorry for your loss.
I know your pain is very real and very raw, however, you have been so blessed to have your daughter in your life and when your pain gets to unbearable, think of your daughter and all the wonderful memories she gave you. That will most assuredly make you smile once more. I am truly sorry for your loss and I do believe, without a doubt, she is with God in Heaven watching over you.
Barb Zylema Thanks Barb.
God Bless you and your family ((hugs))
I heard a great story today about a couple who lost their 12 year old son to Mersa in less than 2 weeks.
Familylife.com played part one of two . The book "A Grace Disguised" is in their store to help ppl who have lost a child. Hope this helps
Oh sweetie... I saw you smiling... God is good!!!
When my grandpa died I was torn. He was everything to me. I had a dream of him and I hand in hand walking down a long hall with the family walking beside and behind us. He was young again and I was a little girl. I never knew him as a young man. He was much older. Then after that I always had a reaccuring dream of him every so often and always in the dream he would be there for a few minutes then put his arms out for a hug then I would hug him and he would vanish from my arms. I would always cry. One dream he did that and I said no because I knew he would vanish just like he always did in past dreams but he insisted so I said ok and he vanished as always. When I was pregnant with my now 12 month old he came to me but he turned Into a young boy in one dream and then the next dream he came inside with my father he put his arms out to me and I knew it.....but this time he hugged me and stayed and whispered in my ear..."its ok I am here with you now and I'm not going anywhere." Then we went with the family. I woke up in disbelief. I had my daughter a few months later in the month that he died...July. and the day he was born 6. I thought maybe she was him but then I realized he is her guardian angel. Now I have dreams of him helping us around the house and living with us... your daughter sounds like she was so smart. I could only dream of being like her. I hope my daughter can be as smart as your was. God bless you! Hugs from all of us.
Sorry to hear about your daughter's passing, fblairmd66. May God continue to strengthen you each day.
All my love to you and your family
If I ever drive through Stone Mountain, I will contact you first to make sure you'll be at church when I visit, which of course won't be for quite awhile. I just took a virtual tour of your beautiful town and read as much as I can about Courtney. To me, there's something about her accomplishments that make this all the more devastating. But from a glance of Voices Of Faith congregation, it seems like you have a huge network of support. And your perspective from a pediatrician's view of other parents losses as well as your own-
I'm very tired & loopy so I'd better stop here. Again, my deepest heartfelt condolences. Good night.
You are ever so sweet.
Thank you. I wanted to say more last night but when I'm tired I occasionally say the right thing in the wrong way, resulting in misunderstanding. Even though Dr. Blair is probably the type to say 'I know what you meant,' I still worry. But thanks for the complement.
I can relate! Something I will always regret is how absent I was for my darling cousin during her miscarriage. I was a lot younger and more naive and was terrified of saying something wrong. With little life experience and not much understanding of what she was going through, I said little to nothing and I apologized to her years later for it and she totally understood. I still feel guilty, though.
I know what it's like to hold back at a sensitive moment for the fear of saying something wrong.
Damn, I didn't expect a damn life-story, but what you said brought me back.
But yeah, I had to stop by and compliment your sweet message. It warmed my heart.
Phoenix Knight Thank you so much, Phoenix.
Brianna Bayon - Your cousin forgave you, now forgive yourself. You said nothing wrong. Don't be afraid you will say something wrong. You most obviously have a sweet heart of your own, so share it! The world desperately needs to hear more sweet words, don't hide yours. We need your words.Keep talking girl!
Hugs
Honestly..
I have no words that you have not heard before..
I really don't know what else I can add...
When your email is not notifying you..when your phone is not ringing...That is Us! Just thinking about you! Be sure to rest up..because we will need you again tomorrow!