everytime I think Im getting ahead in my emotional growth.. I have days like today where Im just overhwlmingly sad.. this life feels pointless and I dont want to kill myself but Im screaming to the universe from my soul to bring me back. this isnt a place I want to be anymore.
Hi Caroline, this is normal, it happens until you can get where you are wanting to be. Its universal as well, the sun comes up, the sun goes down, just like many things, including the weather. Its ok to feel sad, because its showing you that there is a deep sadness in life everywhere. You are picking up on the message. Another thing when you are growing in consciousness and awareness, you will pick up on energy. For instance, you may feel very sad, but ring round a few of your mates and family just to check in and see, if its coming from some one close to you. Do this before you take it all personally. T
I also feel like i keep going back but u are actually moving forward we will always have events that make us depressed or sad but realize it is part of life and as we move forward we can deal with these situations in a different light! I love u!! U are loved!!💖💖
@@muntahayacoub7724 I’m sorry ☹️ life is just so crazy and sometimes its so hard to piece together any kind of reasoning that makes sense for all of this madness. The ONLY thing that keeps me going when I feel down like that is the fact that I am not immortal and I KNOW this isn’t forever for me.. so I just keep waking up and playing along and trying to create me own little world that i can live in until its over. Keep your head up 💕
These talks were like oxygen to me in 2017 when I was in an 18 month depression/anxiety situation. Seeing depression as a state of painful (unchosen) transformation, shedding the illusion and the ponderous weight of the past, has helped me immensely, and there is remarkable magic in the process. Trevor - your work, publishing your wisdom, is both comforting and inspiring. Gratitude!!
I already have been awakened listening to Eckhart Tolle, but listening to this have enhanced my awareness so much that I am sitting here crying of joy with love and peace in my heart that I just want to share with everyone.I AM. Thank you for this.
Fuuuuuck this was some gorgeous, divine, necessary TRUTH. Thank you Trevor!!!! So inspiring and life-changing. Your videos are speaking to me directly and galvanizing me.
I cannot thank you enough for generously creating and sharing this. It's so eloquently put and also so comprehensive. It's very soothing to hear this perspective that resonates deeply with me. Also your voice is so soothing and feels like a good friend talking to you. My gratitude to you, Trevor. :)
Hi Kristine. Thank you for your beautiful comment. Let me share this with you. For years I wondered about what was the gift and did I have one. After many years when I lost everything, I thought, what have I got left. The answer came, it was the gift of voice. We all have this gift, it's a gift not many have recognized. It's an instrument that only we have control over. I decided to know how to use this gift, this I feel is the key to communication. If you can find your voice and use it in the way that it teaches you to know who you are, then you will know how to speak with your inner self. T.
Thanks for sharing that, Trevor. I'm at the point where 10 times back, I thought I'd lost everything and turns out there was a whole lot more to lose. The frustrating thing I'm finding is that I have no problem giving up my money, my career, identities and therefore much ego, but I've also lost my health in what appears to be an irreversible way. So I've been bedridden for 3.5 years and declining faster than I can keep up with to creatively find ways I can contribute/find a reason to be alive. Is a number of serious but apparently mysterious illnesses so I'm at the end of the road as to having any hope for improving. It's upsetting to have learned SO MUCH during 7 years of Dark Night of Soul, to then be so sick that you're not going to get to USE it to help and give back and become that butterfly. After logging so many years of Dark Night suffering, it's hard to accept that it just end here. I want fly dammit! I want to put what I've learned to use and give back and feel how good that feels. So...a really long way of saying that it's hard to feel like none of the things I read or listen to apply to me like they would for most people because naturally they are geared towards people who actually HAVE a future. I figure all I can do is try my hardest up until the very end to make some little difference somewhere and I guess find a way to be satisfied with that. No need to respond...I'm just venting. ;) It's an especially lonely place to be because come to find out, long hopeless-seeming health struggles make family and friends too uncomfortable and the very people you thought you could lean on if such a situation were to arise, can only handle whatever they can handle. A couple new friends have appeared though. The "human beings" show what they are (or aren't) made of and you ARE left with a couple special "BeMe-ings", so there's a little silver lining. I'm trying to become/get back to being a BeMe being, so thanks so much for your help in that regard! It's made me feel less alone. :)
Hi kristine wells I hear you. As for you don't have a future, you do, but not in the way you would love to. I believe so much in the after life, which means, you sure do have a future. You have between here and now, and then. Still a future, until the psychical leaves. This for sure will happen to all of us. I would love to know what is this mysterious illness that's kept you in bed. T.
+kristine wells Hey Kristine do you remember a time when you were really happy? I'm sure you do! when you remember those happy times feel the joy and run with it as long as you can! leave your head and feel the joy in your heart of whatever happy moments that makes you smile in the present and those mysterious illnesses are a product of your thoughts so.Please leave the head and ascend to Your Heart! love and light to all of Us and that means You Too CHRISTINE
You’re gonna look back on this time and be thankful that you never gave up. Powerful transformation is underway and what’s coming is so beautiful.. trust the process
Your voice is so soothing. Thank you for sharing I'm currently going through the dark night of the soul..,, so tough my head is so heavy and my soul so sad
I'm 56 years old and I think that my whole life has been a dark night of the soul. And I feel like it's never going to end. I hope that watching your channel helps because I am so alone that I feel like I can't take it much longer. Everyone who was in my life is gone and we are in the middle of this damn pandemic. I just want out.
I’m battling with getting off medication and drugs.. It’s so Brutal. Anyone that comes across this message : never take any type of addictive medicine. I have been numb for my entire 20’s and currently am. But i am starting to feel like I’m almost out of this dark phase. I can literally feel the end of this. I just want to be able to be enough for myself for once. But also, if I never got into drugs I honestly don’t think I would be as wise as I am now. I have to keel going no matter how bad I want to give up. It’s hard to be positive when I’m alone and with no friends. I have family but I would like a real friend.
Went through this transition in 2011 including one night of terror. People laugh when I tell them. It was a battle of good and evil with sound, exhaustion and then total peace.
THANK YOU!! 🙏 You and this message is a godsend. I just hit one of the lowest times of my life last night... and woke up this morning with the same painful feelings. I can’t deny that I am amazed that you showed up when you did... I haven’t been online looking up anything much lately, so the sophisticated algorithms and everything can’t be used to explain this. Whatever the case, I am extremely thankful. 💖💖💖🦋
Oh my!!! I'm speechless. Have felt guidance. It all brings it back to myself. This is an awesome video thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you
I've only gotten through about an hour of your work, and it's already GOLD. I stumbled upon this 'coincidentally' after I recently realized that I running from it wasn't the way out (didnt even realize that's what I was even doing) ...it simply didn't work after years of giving it all I got. Only in deciding to understand it and listen to it, did I finally make some progress. I was wanting a little more guidance with it and then you showed up. THANKS. ♥
Going through the dark night of the soul, watching your videos and hearing your voice brings me comfort and warmth, i can feel you have been through it
Once again ,Trevor, you tok my anxiety away... Just by listening of your truth and reminding my self about it just makes the energy flowing again and relief is there. Just peaceful and calm feeling of acceptance. Tank you so much! You are a life saver. 🙏
Hello trevor I am a person who awakened during the time you made this channel . And today in 2020 I remember how I was a caterpillar love u my awakened friend.
I was raised around healers and mediums but i've never heard any explain perfectly what and how my journy works until you, and I only found you because I was lost after a serious down turn and I searched youtube for something to listen to to get my mind out of a very dark place. So thank you.
Thank you again. Very good explanation that people need to be awaken and find there higher self. Also a nice voice and good music. Thanks again for this superb message
Thank you Virginio, it means so much to me after all the years I have tried to connect with people. Its beings like yourself that are giving me the need to carry on knowing that beings are now wanting to listen to my message. Thank you. T
Trevor is my new Guru. :) I going to schedule my appointment to speak to him one on one and possibly touch the hem of his garment. Heheheeee, I've been telling my Son's school counselor about Trevor. Forget the doctors, I recommend Brother ILesley. Keep Shining and Becoming Better Love.
I have been in the cocoon stage for about 11 years now. Life has been a struggle for sure during this time. This explains everything. My "old self" wants to fight what you say, deny it is true. I keep telling myself that I want to go back to the way I was before, the way things use to be but that feeling completely dissolved when you stated, "Why do you want to go back to your old self when it was your old self who put you in this position in the first place?" I am paraphrasing but it's close to what you said. And I laughed out loud at your statement, not because it was a funny thing for you to say, but how asinine it is for me to want to go back to my former self. THAT'S CRAZY!!! No wonder I am feeling depressed. Talking about an "Ah Ha" moment. Anyway, thanks again for your amazing video's, they are helping me break out of this cocoon I have been in for 11 years.
I had the very same Ah-Ha ! You're sad because you are stuck and your Soul wants you to move forward. It's waiting,Life is waiting. God it seems so clear when it hits ya. Thank you for this video Trevor.
I am so pleased to hear this Pastrami Salami. I have so much more to give, and the dark night identity is only the beginning. Once i know where people are, my teachings will all be about leading people out of the dark night, as my soul got me through. I went through my 17 years ago, and throughout all this time, i kept on writing a formula that took me from a life of unconsciousness into a life of many possibilities of amazing healing abilities. Once you understand this process, you will see that your first part of life was actually quite boring, with no meaning and purpose. There is so much to who we are. My soul brought to me, Bemeism, a new identity to who we are as a species. It will be very interesting to discover what is lurking inside the awakening birthing healers that are going through the dark night. Bemeism will help unlock what is inside you. I cant wait to hear the stories of a new bread of humans as they pull away from the herd of slavery and control. T
One of my major ailments i was feeling was the lack of direction, the lack of people who thought on the same frequency as me. Often times going out of their way to belittle me for breaking out of my programming. Life for me has been so out of whack like so many others. Over time i almost gave up on searching for inner peace with the perception of "maybe its just a phase" Or "maybe its just time to grow up and accept our reality for what it is" My only true friend was my teacher of sorts when i first started awaking a few years ago after highschool. I noticed the rat race in human society and how sick and twisted the whole system is. How somebody would kill someone else for money/do igregious acts upon humanity. how we're all enslaved to a piece of paper that is worthless, So many people think working nine to five for a piece of paper their whole functioning life is somehow human. My friend broke down the system and taught me a great deal on meditation/clearing your mind but there was still so much left to learn,He had a mental breakdown at his house breaking windows/tv's anything of value, he was institutionalized for three months and now takes lithium carbonate and some other kind of anti depressant. He is now no longer the person i used to love so dearly. Seeing him spiral downwards coupled with other traumatic instances in my life really sent me to a dark place. Everyone around me just keeps reiterating the need to take anti depressants to balance out my brain if you will. Recently broke up with a girlfriend i have had for five years since i was seventeen who'm i had no spiritual connection with.My dog passed away and right after i broke two toes on my foot jumping over a fence. For no other reason then i had nothing left to lose i started to meditate again. After my breakdown the meditation process would hurt me so deeply, having to face the pain i never wanted to feel again,that I stopped all together for a year and half maybe more. Then im scrolling through the comments on one of the meditation video's and i saw someone mention dark night of the soul. Something told me to look it up, and i found you. I couldn't be more grateful either. Listening to someone who can enunciate the pain of a hurt soul brought much ease to me almost instantly.You're a true teacher, you're a true messenger. My only goal at this moment is to heal myself enough to help heal others .To one day spread this wonderful knowledge that could potentially save someone else and the story goes... I look forward to learning everything you have to offer. From the bottom of my heart, Thank You
Trevor my friend. Your dark night of the soul series was able to explain to me so much of what I am going through. My aunt sent me it at the perfect time and I have been putting off a message to you out of fear of change. Something very powerful connected your words and I resonate strongly with so much of your tapes I believe you spoke to me. My egocentric self is making me crazy but let's talk more when the time is right.
Let’s see where do I start, thank you so much for helping me through hard times and just life, I feel like I have been in the caccoon stage for months and I got tired of that feeling and somehow someway find myself here again, I first watched your video when I was going through hard times before too and you did help me than and now it’s time to grow again, I do find myself asking a higher being for answers and help and advice but it’s all within me. It’s time to change and start living life
i would love to share the knowledge i have as you resonate with the things i have discovered and found on my journey but that is not my path but this is your path and thank you for the honest and if more people thought like you then we could all heal each other,,, you need to get out there and start public speeches as start a workshop as i am sure there would be many that would listen and follow your advice as you help people to think for themselves and not your way,,, that is what i like as you give the truth and honest opinion and we all have our journey in life but many are being distracted by material things and learned behaiviour and brainwashed by media,,, it is time we all woke up to our true nature and this is a daily fight for your soul,,,
I really enjoy your content. I especially appreciate that you go into great depth about these topics. This has helped me to understand much better. It takes a special kind of individual to understand the dark night of the soul and they are not your everyday type of people (who usually look at me as if I am crazy). I would love to see you on Quora. I really feel you would be an excellent contribution to many on the platform. In a delicate area of knowledge that is much in need. Thank you for sharing your wisdom!
Sharing your message, your gift, everywhere brother...still sharing my message, and it's always being redefined as well. ALL fears fall away. So grateful I was led to you, my brother warrior...for we are warriors. I've felt it and tried to make more sense of it since my earliest memories. A knowing.."I have a mission...I have a purpose...what did I come here to do again?" Ahhh that's it!!! I got it!!!!
If I ever get the chance or enough people interested, I would love to do a seminar in holland. I would love to share my message, and teach others my formula. Let's lut the thoughts out there. T.
I have so much burning and churning pain in my body (chest, stomach, rectum) ... no one knows what it is. It is triggered worse when I'm angry or nervous. It has dominated my experience for four years. Ouch. Yes, suicidal thoughts. Lonely. Divorce. Custody battle. Grew up Christian. Have moved back towards that culture because of comfort and fears of hell. I'm battling. 🙏🏻❤️️😇
It seems these ailments are due to the fact you are scared Ryan Swain. Also I think love has been difficult and I also think to many people have kicked you up the arse for what ever reason. I'm guessing your trust levels also don't exist. Your first 4 chakra points are blocked. Seems like you have had a time time right from the beginning. T
Trevor Ilesley I would say you are most likely right on the money in your assessment. Tons of anxiety in my body. Was shoved into a very small emotional box from birth and exploded out at 35 years old. Awakening has been fast and furious and led to divorce and custody battle and an intense spiritual crisis that has me existing in tons of blocked energy/pain/grief. Not sure what to do but this pain is killing me. Hard to be fully present with my kids and friends. Lonely lonely lonely. No one gets it. I welcome any and all input/help/insight.
Also I was numb until I awakened and had what seemed like a great and happy and successful life until the awakening spiraled me down into this dark night. Ouch. Ouch. I resonate with your videos very much. Very much feel like in a cocoon. Scared of hell and Being separated from God. I see the thoughts. I know they aren't me but I live in them.
Ryan Swain I can truly relate to you. I am also going through hell. I feel so unhappy and worthless. I am also depressed and suicidal. I hope things get better for you.
You've just described precisely what I'm going through at the moment, Trevor. I fear everything. There's a feeling of utter dread when I wake up each morning. The things that used to bring me joy - even springtime - make me feel sad. I feel as if I've lost everything. Nothing makes sense anymore. Thank you so much for your wise words of comfort during this awful phase I'm going through. 🥲🙏
Fabulous😋✨ 👌✌🙏👏🙌 a post which sums of awakening journey at it best with whole lot of positivity. Because without a positive message it is utterly miserable to walk in the deadly journey. UA-cam is the only place where I see hope otherwise my daily living is like existing in an stranded island with no escape. Life a death sentence a severe punishment.
This is f@&king amazing. Thank you so much for your videos. Everything you say is bang on for what I’m going through. I don’t know anything about anything I thought I knew everything about. Love from Canada❤️
sacred truths my friend, well done. I wish you ALL peace, contentment and most of all, self-love on ur path. Indeed, the dark night is transformative if we allow it to be and trust that the divine feminine of earth wants us to be well and happy. Aho.
Hey Trevor, I just wanna thank you. Right now I really feel a deep inner sadness. Part of me wants to avoid going into it. Unfortunately the only way out is through, right? But I feel so grateful, that I am not alone in this process. Patience is also a important teacher in all of this....
Wow you give me Enlightenment of knowing where I'm at and where I'm going thank you that you can read deep into my soul I know now that I am in the right track and listening to you I have been turning journaling my life story to now
I knew my purpose of my life when I was 7 because I started asking myself questions that early I always knew I was suppose to live my life purpose and that I would I even went through depression a few times but I never knew it was called the dark night of the soul u help me to understand that thank u 😊
Thank you s....o much🙏, for the s....o beautiful explanatoins💕🙏, i was passing by the dark night of the soul 🙏, trying to live it the way it comes, knowing and feeling, that it would make me bett....er person ✌, and you helped me understand that it's a period that everyone can experience 🙋♀️.
I am astonished about the mention of the Jesus dreams. I have been having a lot of cave dreams lately so wasn't so surprised about the opening gambit. But in the dream - Jesus disclosed a tiny fraction of his shoulder to me and it irradiated the entire grubby flat that I was milling about in during my dream. This video is an amazing piece of work.
Amazing stuff . Thank you so much . I have one wish on this planet earth , and that is to achieve the confidence like you to be able to express myself . Lots of Love I send to you through my thoughts , you naturally are a wonderful beautiful soul . May Life bless and love you till eternity . What an amazing god gifted voice you have , I pray to one day with your teachings , I can achieve this also .
Dear Trevor, Thank you for your contribution to our understanding of what this time is truly about. I'd appreciate knowing your understanding of what part addictions play in our lives and how we can be delivered from them.
Hi Trevor thanks for the video I understand alot of what you are saying...I was on deaths door several years ago and over a period of a year or so I detoxed from all medications and started learning how to heal myself. to me I couldn't have made it without that soul connection..the dark night of the soul brought me back to the light. it was in darkness that I felt most connected to God and started writing and keeping journals of everything which helped me tremendously. do you have a facebook page?
oh........................ This is like listening to my own mind and receiving the answers, you are clarifying the second voice in my head ( if that makes sense) the conversations I have with myself are like this but so often I get confused, thank you for you xxx I am excited :)
P.S ......................you feel like an old friend, voice soothing and familiar, I have listened to you for hours, only found you by mistake (not) tonight!
Thank you so much for this video , I need to hear those things much Love to you and ALL creations great and small seen and unseen in ALL Universes In All dimensions known and unknown, ALWAYS Be
I have been so much on my defenses about this phenomenon , as I am a very facts and evidence person. And often (and I still do) think that what IF, this, the dark knight of the soul, light-workers, spiritual path are just a way we HOPE it there, to being able to coop with our inner self..what IF we simple just are here, to be here, but we don't actually really have a higher purpose... But I think I have come to the conclusion that I really want to believe in this, for the alternative... the darkness that I find myself in now, is simple to horrible for me to go threw, if I cant believe there is a meaning with it. Trevor, I have listened to so many of your thoughts, and I want to believe that you are right.. but man I still struggle with it. And the fact person in me, screams that "HOW DOES HE KNOW THIS.. wheres are his words and claims coming from, and where is the prof"... but with all my heart and soul.. I hope it is the truth and, this could be my path in life.. Love and Light from a dark caterpillar
I am going tho the dark night of the soul and I am waking up thank you for your videos they are helping me I can relate to what you are saying in your videos and what you said about visions looked like a projection .
I've never heard this guy before never been here before but I found myself the other day talking just like this but only in my head. I want to say its strange but nothing is strange anymore.......nothing.
I lost my dream life from a wrong decision. It was in my hand and I lost everything. 3 years of depression and I woke up in 2019-in 2021 started abusing drugs and was incarcerated for 3 months but in 2024 from boredom I abused worse drugs and lost everything AGAIN and was incarcerated 6 months this time. I am depressed again and craving drugs again now out of jail. No interest in anything and just stay in bed. This world sucks
Had depression n suicidal thoughts just last week, then 3rd of this month I had a massive rush of energy in my whole body ... But could not move.... A lot of high frequencies in my ears for ages n still going through it. Still going through wat I need to do
this is a sign from my master that I must listen to you I received a card from a friend two days ago a normal Christian lady what the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly by Richard Bach this is th e message I was wanting and asking for definitely life will get better for me I can see it now
I'm scared to become, almost everyday I have to push myself. It has become strenuous challenge to communicate with others and go places where there's large groups of people. Haven't been like that in the past but the last 3 or 4 years it has. Overall I think you for sharing all of your videos much respect and love. I would like to reach out..
Oh god no molly clock. Darkness, is your own darkness. There's no such thing as Satan. Satan comes from the planet Saturn. People use to worship Saturn. Many still do. Hell was first created by a man named Zoroaster who created the first religion. Lucifer which we have been taught is the devil, or fallen angel, when in fact lucifer morning star is the planet Venus. Lucifer is Latin for the bright star Venus, hence the morning star, which is the first star to be seen at night. The word Satan was used to control people. Dark spirit is an un healed spirit. Many people today are dark spirits because of their lives. Darkness as I speak of, reminds you to heal, if not, you will feel darkness all your life. It's not until you really find your light of being, that you then realize many have lived their lives in darkness. What does the word lucifer mean? It’s a Latin word derived from the roots lux (light) and ferre (to carry). It means “light bearer” or “light bringer,” and it was not originally used in connection with the devil. Instead, it could be used multiple ways. For example, anybody carrying a torch at night was a lucifer (light bringer).
“The old you...That person was the person that got you depressed in the first place” so very true wow I needed this
Thank You...I am convinced that when the student is ready the teacher will appear...
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Amen
Yup
I’m convinced 1/3 of the planet needs to die of something worse than AIDS
everytime I think Im getting ahead in my emotional growth.. I have days like today where Im just overhwlmingly sad.. this life feels pointless and I dont want to kill myself but Im screaming to the universe from my soul to bring me back. this isnt a place I want to be anymore.
Hi Caroline, this is normal, it happens until you can get where you are wanting to be. Its universal as well, the sun comes up, the sun goes down, just like many things, including the weather. Its ok to feel sad, because its showing you that there is a deep sadness in life everywhere. You are picking up on the message. Another thing when you are growing in consciousness and awareness, you will pick up on energy. For instance, you may feel very sad, but ring round a few of your mates and family just to check in and see, if its coming from some one close to you. Do this before you take it all personally. T
Trevor Ilesley. thank you
I also feel like i keep going back but u are actually moving forward we will always have events that make us depressed or sad but realize it is part of life and as we move forward we can deal with these situations in a different light! I love u!! U are loved!!💖💖
You nailed it! 😩🥺 you describe exactly what I feel right now 👁
@@muntahayacoub7724 I’m sorry ☹️ life is just so crazy and sometimes its so hard to piece together any kind of reasoning that makes sense for all of this madness. The ONLY thing that keeps me going when I feel down like that is the fact that I am not immortal and I KNOW this isn’t forever for me.. so I just keep waking up and playing along and trying to create me own little world that i can live in until its over. Keep your head up 💕
These talks were like oxygen to me in 2017 when I was in an 18 month depression/anxiety situation. Seeing depression as a state of painful (unchosen) transformation, shedding the illusion and the ponderous weight of the past, has helped me immensely, and there is remarkable magic in the process. Trevor - your work, publishing your wisdom, is both comforting and inspiring. Gratitude!!
This is like alchemy. To create something better, first you need to destroy what already is.
NeonFluffyCakes its like all human growth. It is thwarted by neurosis. repression of creativety results from clinging to useless burdens.
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I think the 40 days & nights that Jesus spent in the wilderness was a ' Dark Night of the Soul'.
I already have been awakened listening to Eckhart Tolle, but listening to this have enhanced my awareness so much that I am sitting here crying of joy with love and peace in my heart that I just want to share with everyone.I AM. Thank you for this.
Hi Jan Mortensen. I just added a little something else to the mix, that's easy to understand
Jan Mortensen same!
Fuuuuuck this was some gorgeous, divine, necessary TRUTH. Thank you Trevor!!!! So inspiring and life-changing. Your videos are speaking to me directly and galvanizing me.
I cannot thank you enough for generously creating and sharing this. It's so eloquently put and also so comprehensive. It's very soothing to hear this perspective that resonates deeply with me. Also your voice is so soothing and feels like a good friend talking to you. My gratitude to you, Trevor. :)
Hi Kristine. Thank you for your beautiful comment. Let me share this with you. For years I wondered about what was the gift and did I have one. After many years when I lost everything, I thought, what have I got left. The answer came, it was the gift of voice. We all have this gift, it's a gift not many have recognized. It's an instrument that only we have control over. I decided to know how to use this gift, this I feel is the key to communication. If you can find your voice and use it in the way that it teaches you to know who you are, then you will know how to speak with your inner self. T.
Thanks for sharing that, Trevor. I'm at the point where 10 times back, I thought I'd lost everything and turns out there was a whole lot more to lose.
The frustrating thing I'm finding is that I have no problem giving up my money, my career, identities and therefore much ego, but I've also lost my health in what appears to be an irreversible way. So I've been bedridden for 3.5 years and declining faster than I can keep up with to creatively find ways I can contribute/find a reason to be alive. Is a number of serious but apparently mysterious illnesses so I'm at the end of the road as to having any hope for improving.
It's upsetting to have learned SO MUCH during 7 years of Dark Night of Soul, to then be so sick that you're not going to get to USE it to help and give back and become that butterfly. After logging so many years of Dark Night suffering, it's hard to accept that it just end here. I want fly dammit! I want to put what I've learned to use and give back and feel how good that feels.
So...a really long way of saying that it's hard to feel like none of the things I read or listen to apply to me like they would for most people because naturally they are geared towards people who actually HAVE a future. I figure all I can do is try my hardest up until the very end to make some little difference somewhere and I guess find a way to be satisfied with that.
No need to respond...I'm just venting. ;) It's an especially lonely place to be because come to find out, long hopeless-seeming health struggles make family and friends too uncomfortable and the very people you thought you could lean on if such a situation were to arise, can only handle whatever they can handle.
A couple new friends have appeared though. The "human beings" show what they are (or aren't) made of and you ARE left with a couple special "BeMe-ings", so there's a little silver lining. I'm trying to become/get back to being a BeMe being, so thanks so much for your help in that regard! It's made me feel less alone. :)
Hi kristine wells I hear you. As for you don't have a future, you do, but not in the way you would love to. I believe so much in the after life, which means, you sure do have a future. You have between here and now, and then. Still a future, until the psychical leaves. This for sure will happen to all of us. I would love to know what is this mysterious illness that's kept you in bed. T.
+kristine wells Hey Kristine do you remember a time when you were really happy? I'm sure you do! when you remember those happy times feel the joy and run with it as long as you can! leave your head and feel the joy in your heart of whatever happy moments that makes you smile in the present and those mysterious illnesses are a product of your thoughts so.Please leave the head and ascend to Your Heart! love and light to all of Us and that means You Too CHRISTINE
Oh wow same words here lol
You’re gonna look back on this time and be thankful that you never gave up. Powerful transformation is underway and what’s coming is so beautiful.. trust the process
Robyn Gray thank you beautiful being. I love you. ❤️ from my heart to yours.
Child Joseph I love you
"Time to wake up... to discover the true meaning of life."
You were the beginning of my healing .. I am healed. I can never forget you! I always share you with others
Can you go into detail? I am just going thru this process now. Making headway a year and a half in. Would love to hear back from you. Thank you
Your voice is so soothing. Thank you for sharing I'm currently going through the dark night of the soul..,, so tough my head is so heavy and my soul so sad
I'm 56 years old and I think that my whole life has been a dark night of the soul. And I feel like it's never going to end. I hope that watching your channel helps because I am so alone that I feel like I can't take it much longer. Everyone who was in my life is gone and we are in the middle of this damn pandemic. I just want out.
I LOVE YOU
@@cliffkonkle3467 thank you. Much love to you.
How are you now my friend? 3 years later?
I’m battling with getting off medication and drugs.. It’s so Brutal. Anyone that comes across this message : never take any type of addictive medicine. I have been numb for my entire 20’s and currently am. But i am starting to feel like I’m almost out of this dark phase. I can literally feel the end of this. I just want to be able to be enough for myself for once. But also, if I never got into drugs I honestly don’t think I would be as wise as I am now. I have to keel going no matter how bad I want to give up. It’s hard to be positive when I’m alone and with no friends. I have family but I would like a real friend.
The key to The truth I know how u feel ...me too... It's hard work! But we are survivors and gonna figure it out
The key to The truth want to be high without a substance,. U know?
Holly Ann yes Exactly
I am YOU You Are ME I was taking lots of medication and painkillers. I was able to get off all of them. They were slowly killing me
Nice to know I'm not losing my mind like I thought I was
Went through this transition in 2011 including one night of terror. People laugh when I tell them. It was a battle of good and evil with sound, exhaustion and then total peace.
THANK YOU!! 🙏 You and this message is a godsend. I just hit one of the lowest times of my life last night... and woke up this morning with the same painful feelings. I can’t deny that I am amazed that you showed up when you did... I haven’t been online looking up anything much lately, so the sophisticated algorithms and everything can’t be used to explain this. Whatever the case, I am extremely thankful. 💖💖💖🦋
Oh my!!! I'm speechless. Have felt guidance. It all brings it back to myself. This is an awesome video thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you
100 % Gail!
thank you... you have the perfect voice to explain this night of the soul wish you love and light
Thank you Ada Luca
Trevor Ilesley you are effin amazing..let us join together and B*ME..🙇🙏🏼💚
I love how blunt you are. That voice you speak of is scared of this video but my soul is touched by it. Thank you so much❤
I've only gotten through about an hour of your work, and it's already GOLD. I stumbled upon this 'coincidentally' after I recently realized that I running from it wasn't the way out (didnt even realize that's what I was even doing) ...it simply didn't work after years of giving it all I got. Only in deciding to understand it and listen to it, did I finally make some progress. I was wanting a little more guidance with it and then you showed up. THANKS. ♥
Going through the dark night of the soul, watching your videos and hearing your voice brings me comfort and warmth, i can feel you have been through it
Once again ,Trevor, you tok my anxiety away... Just by listening of your truth and reminding my self about it just makes the energy flowing again and relief is there. Just peaceful and calm feeling of acceptance. Tank you so much! You are a life saver. 🙏
Hello trevor I am a person who awakened during the time you made this channel . And today in 2020 I remember how I was a caterpillar love u my awakened friend.
I was raised around healers and mediums but i've never heard any explain perfectly what and how my journy works until you, and I only found you because I was lost after a serious down turn and I searched youtube for something to listen to to get my mind out of a very dark place. So thank you.
Thank you again. Very good explanation that people need to be awaken and find there higher self. Also a nice voice and good music. Thanks again for this superb message
Thank you Virginio, it means so much to me after all the years I have tried to connect with people. Its beings like yourself that are giving me the need to carry on knowing that beings are now wanting to listen to my message. Thank you. T
TREVOR ILESLEY
had to come back here today.
this,
thing,
i am going through.
is very,
very,
hard.
love, peace, and mercy.
molly
Trevor I’m going through the dark night of the soul. I need your help. I don’t want to die.
Eye freaking love You and I love how you've come to me in the purrrrfect time. Thank you Love! Keep shining!!!!
Vicky Love I feel the same way!!!!
Trevor is my new Guru. :) I going to schedule my appointment to speak to him one on one and possibly touch the hem of his garment. Heheheeee, I've been telling my Son's school counselor about Trevor. Forget the doctors, I recommend Brother ILesley. Keep Shining and Becoming Better Love.
I tell you something Trevor Ilesley, you have spoken right into my core, You truly are awesome, thank you for your resonation.
Incredible,thank you for your assistance,Trevor,so thankful for your message,makes so much sense in my heart ❤🙏
You are so welcome
I have been in the cocoon stage for about 11 years now. Life has been a struggle for sure during this time. This explains everything. My "old self" wants to fight what you say, deny it is true. I keep telling myself that I want to go back to the way I was before, the way things use to be but that feeling completely dissolved when you stated, "Why do you want to go back to your old self when it was your old self who put you in this position in the first place?" I am paraphrasing but it's close to what you said. And I laughed out loud at your statement, not because it was a funny thing for you to say, but how asinine it is for me to want to go back to my former self. THAT'S CRAZY!!! No wonder I am feeling depressed. Talking about an "Ah Ha" moment. Anyway, thanks again for your amazing video's, they are helping me break out of this cocoon I have been in for 11 years.
I had the very same Ah-Ha ! You're sad because you are stuck and your Soul wants you to move forward. It's waiting,Life is waiting. God it seems so clear when it hits ya.
Thank you for this video Trevor.
I can't believe I resonated with all of this, you helped me more than the therapists did.
One of my favorite videos one UA-cam. Always turn to this when I’m in the middle of the darkness and it seems there is no way out
Thank you so much for this.
i could never thank you enough, i've never taken notes for a video until today
I am so pleased to hear this Pastrami Salami. I have so much more to give, and the dark night identity is only the beginning. Once i know where people are, my teachings will all be about leading people out of the dark night, as my soul got me through. I went through my 17 years ago, and throughout all this time, i kept on writing a formula that took me from a life of unconsciousness into a life of many possibilities of amazing healing abilities. Once you understand this process, you will see that your first part of life was actually quite boring, with no meaning and purpose. There is so much to who we are. My soul brought to me, Bemeism, a new identity to who we are as a species. It will be very interesting to discover what is lurking inside the awakening birthing healers that are going through the dark night. Bemeism will help unlock what is inside you. I cant wait to hear the stories of a new bread of humans as they pull away from the herd of slavery and control. T
One of my major ailments i was feeling was the lack of direction, the lack of people who thought on the same frequency as me. Often times going out of their way to belittle me for breaking out of my programming. Life for me has been so out of whack like so many others. Over time i almost gave up on searching for inner peace with the perception of "maybe its just a phase" Or "maybe its just time to grow up and accept our reality for what it is" My only true friend was my teacher of sorts when i first started awaking a few years ago after highschool. I noticed the rat race in human society and how sick and twisted the whole system is. How somebody would kill someone else for money/do igregious acts upon humanity. how we're all enslaved to a piece of paper that is worthless, So many people think working nine to five for a piece of paper their whole functioning life is somehow human. My friend broke down the system and taught me a great deal on meditation/clearing your mind but there was still so much left to learn,He had a mental breakdown at his house breaking windows/tv's anything of value, he was institutionalized for three months and now takes lithium carbonate and some other kind of anti depressant. He is now no longer the person i used to love so dearly. Seeing him spiral downwards coupled with other traumatic instances in my life really sent me to a dark place. Everyone around me just keeps reiterating the need to take anti depressants to balance out my brain if you will. Recently broke up with a girlfriend i have had for five years since i was seventeen who'm i had no spiritual connection with.My dog passed away and right after i broke two toes on my foot jumping over a fence. For no other reason then i had nothing left to lose i started to meditate again. After my breakdown the meditation process would hurt me so deeply, having to face the pain i never wanted to feel again,that I stopped all together for a year and half maybe more. Then im scrolling through the comments on one of the meditation video's and i saw someone mention dark night of the soul. Something told me to look it up, and i found you. I couldn't be more grateful either. Listening to someone who can enunciate the pain of a hurt soul brought much ease to me almost instantly.You're a true teacher, you're a true messenger. My only goal at this moment is to heal myself enough to help heal others .To one day spread this wonderful knowledge that could potentially save someone else and the story goes... I look forward to learning everything you have to offer. From the bottom of my heart, Thank You
Trevor my friend. Your dark night of the soul series was able to explain to me so much of what I am going through. My aunt sent me it at the perfect time and I have been putting off a message to you out of fear of change. Something very powerful connected your words and I resonate strongly with so much of your tapes I believe you spoke to me. My egocentric self is making me crazy but let's talk more when the time is right.
Omg this resonates with me so much, it like I already know what you are saying but I was not aware of it ♥️ so thankful I found u
Let’s see where do I start, thank you so much for helping me through hard times and just life, I feel like I have been in the caccoon stage for months and I got tired of that feeling and somehow someway find myself here again, I first watched your video when I was going through hard times before too and you did help me than and now it’s time to grow again, I do find myself asking a higher being for answers and help and advice but it’s all within me. It’s time to change and start living life
Love self love life these are the two ingredients that you need.
The dark knight of the soul takes you into fear. Yes
Thank you!! You helping me to go through my hard journey right now. Saving my life! Thank you!!
Great video thank you Trevor.
i would love to share the knowledge i have as you resonate with the things i have discovered and found on my journey but that is not my path but this is your path and thank you for the honest and if more people thought like you then we could all heal each other,,, you need to get out there and start public speeches as start a workshop as i am sure there would be many that would listen and follow your advice as you help people to think for themselves and not your way,,, that is what i like as you give the truth and honest opinion and we all have our journey in life but many are being distracted by material things and learned behaiviour and brainwashed by media,,, it is time we all woke up to our true nature and this is a daily fight for your soul,,,
I really enjoy your content. I especially appreciate that you go into great depth about these topics. This has helped me to understand much better. It takes a special kind of individual to understand the dark night of the soul and they are not your everyday type of people (who usually look at me as if I am crazy).
I would love to see you on Quora. I really feel you would be an excellent contribution to many on the platform. In a delicate area of knowledge that is much in need.
Thank you for sharing your wisdom!
I have listened so many times I know this by heart. Thank you Trevor.
You 've got a great gift thanks for your video and your voice is beautiful.
Sharing your message, your gift, everywhere brother...still sharing my message, and it's always being redefined as well. ALL fears fall away. So grateful I was led to you, my brother warrior...for we are warriors. I've felt it and tried to make more sense of it since my earliest memories. A knowing.."I have a mission...I have a purpose...what did I come here to do again?" Ahhh that's it!!! I got it!!!!
Sounds like your rocking now origrockart
Check out my vid about the warrior I think you may receive a. Brilliant confirmation origrockart
Thank you my friend, I'll do that now. Thank you for all you do. You are most definitely an amazing being
Fighting with the old self with the new self wow true
I realize that iam the dark night since 2007 when i got depressed
Thank you for your content
I hope you wil give in the future seminars in Holland. Very spiritual and important message you give to us
If I ever get the chance or enough people interested, I would love to do a seminar in holland. I would love to share my message, and teach others my formula. Let's lut the thoughts out there. T.
I recognize everything you say. Been there, felt that. Ten years - a nightmare. And that scares me. Thank you... I think.
I have so much burning and churning pain in my body (chest, stomach, rectum) ... no one knows what it is. It is triggered worse when I'm angry or nervous. It has dominated my experience for four years. Ouch. Yes, suicidal thoughts. Lonely. Divorce. Custody battle. Grew up Christian. Have moved back towards that culture because of comfort and fears of hell. I'm battling. 🙏🏻❤️️😇
It seems these ailments are due to the fact you are scared Ryan Swain. Also I think love has been difficult and I also think to many people have kicked you up the arse for what ever reason. I'm guessing your trust levels also don't exist. Your first 4 chakra points are blocked. Seems like you have had a time time right from the beginning. T
Trevor Ilesley I would say you are most likely right on the money in your assessment. Tons of anxiety in my body. Was shoved into a very small emotional box from birth and exploded out at 35 years old. Awakening has been fast and furious and led to divorce and custody battle and an intense spiritual crisis that has me existing in tons of blocked energy/pain/grief. Not sure what to do but this pain is killing me. Hard to be fully present with my kids and friends. Lonely lonely lonely. No one gets it. I welcome any and all input/help/insight.
Also I was numb until I awakened and had what seemed like a great and happy and successful life until the awakening spiraled me down into this dark night. Ouch. Ouch. I resonate with your videos very much. Very much feel like in a cocoon. Scared of hell and Being separated from God. I see the thoughts. I know they aren't me but I live in them.
Ryan Swain I can truly relate to you. I am also going through hell. I feel so unhappy and worthless. I am also depressed and suicidal. I hope things get better for you.
Cliff Konkle hang in there 🙏🏻
Thank You for the beautiful work Trevor!
You've just described precisely what I'm going through at the moment, Trevor. I fear everything. There's a feeling of utter dread when I wake up each morning. The things that used to bring me joy - even springtime - make me feel sad. I feel as if I've lost everything. Nothing makes sense anymore.
Thank you so much for your wise words of comfort during this awful phase I'm going through. 🥲🙏
Fabulous😋✨ 👌✌🙏👏🙌 a post which sums of awakening journey at it best with whole lot of positivity. Because without a positive message it is utterly miserable to walk in the deadly journey. UA-cam is the only place where I see hope otherwise my daily living is like existing in an stranded island with no escape. Life a death sentence a severe punishment.
This is f@&king amazing. Thank you so much for your videos. Everything you say is bang on for what I’m going through. I don’t know anything about anything I thought I knew everything about. Love from Canada❤️
I so appreciate your openness and clarity. A great help for all. Thank you much.
sacred truths my friend, well done. I wish you ALL peace, contentment and most of all, self-love on ur path. Indeed, the dark night is transformative if we allow it to be and trust that the divine feminine of earth wants us to be well and happy. Aho.
Hey Trevor, I just wanna thank you. Right now I really feel a deep inner sadness. Part of me wants to avoid going into it. Unfortunately the only way out is through, right? But I feel so grateful, that I am not alone in this process. Patience is also a important teacher in all of this....
Learn from the sadness and find wisdom. But when the soul opens it will feel the sadness of the world. Karolyn
Wow you give me Enlightenment of knowing where I'm at and where I'm going thank you that you can read deep into my soul I know now that I am in the right track and listening to you I have been turning journaling my life story to now
Thank You my brother.... You Are Pure Poetry!
I knew my purpose of my life when I was 7 because I started asking myself questions that early I always knew I was suppose to live my life purpose and that I would I even went through depression a few times but I never knew it was called the dark night of the soul u help me to understand that thank u 😊
You giving hope, thank you for messages and explaining. Thank you for saving my soul. Thank you!!! Please continue your mission.
Thank you sharing and words of wisdom. Really hit several chord within me.With much gratitude.
Thanks so much Trevor. I would love for you to upload these lectures in a podcast so I can listen to them on my walks. Much love ❤️
Send me email on what audio you want I will see if I have the audios
Thank you s....o much🙏, for the s....o beautiful explanatoins💕🙏, i was passing by the dark night of the soul 🙏, trying to live it the way it comes, knowing and feeling, that it would make me bett....er person ✌, and you helped me understand that it's a period that everyone can experience 🙋♀️.
I am astonished about the mention of the Jesus dreams. I have been having a lot of cave dreams lately so wasn't so surprised about the opening gambit. But in the dream - Jesus disclosed a tiny fraction of his shoulder to me and it irradiated the entire grubby flat that I was milling about in during my dream. This video is an amazing piece of work.
You are awesome Trevor! Thank you!
What I'm through is just something you understand. Insane. Like going on drugs without being high. Held on late August 2021.
I have just discovered this channel! It´s amazing, exactly what I need now. Thanks!!
Amazing stuff . Thank you so much . I have one wish on this planet earth , and that is to achieve the confidence like you to be able to express myself . Lots of Love I send to you through my thoughts , you naturally are a wonderful beautiful soul . May Life bless and love you till eternity . What an amazing god gifted voice you have , I pray to one day with your teachings , I can achieve this also .
Absolutely brilliant. Thank you ♥️♥️♥️
Dear Trevor,
Thank you for your contribution to our understanding of what this time is truly about.
I'd appreciate knowing your understanding of what part addictions play in our lives and how we can be delivered from them.
Hi Trevor thanks for the video I understand alot of what you are saying...I was on deaths door several years ago and over a period of a year or so I detoxed from all medications and started learning how to heal myself. to me I couldn't have made it without that soul connection..the dark night of the soul brought me back to the light. it was in darkness that I felt most connected to God and started writing and keeping journals of everything which helped me tremendously. do you have a facebook page?
Beautiful message. I felt it. Thank you. 🙏🏼
I tear up every time I get into your speeches, thank you so much for Sharing your vision which is very similar to mine . Peace T
Your videos are remarkable. I feel grateful to have access to your wisdom!
oh........................ This is like listening to my own mind and receiving the answers, you are clarifying the second voice in my head ( if that makes sense) the conversations I have with myself are like this but so often I get confused, thank you for you xxx I am excited :)
P.S ......................you feel like an old friend, voice soothing and familiar, I have listened to you for hours, only found you by mistake (not) tonight!
Hi Trevor your wisdom speaks directly to my ❤ thank you. How can I arrange a reading?
Thank you so much for this video , I need to hear those things much Love to you and ALL creations great and small seen and unseen in ALL Universes In All dimensions known and unknown, ALWAYS Be
I have been so much on my defenses about this phenomenon , as I am a very facts and evidence person. And often (and I still do) think that what IF, this, the dark knight of the soul, light-workers, spiritual path are just a way we HOPE it there, to being able to coop with our inner self..what IF we simple just are here, to be here, but we don't actually really have a higher purpose... But I think I have come to the conclusion that I really want to believe in this, for the alternative... the darkness that I find myself in now, is simple to horrible for me to go threw, if I cant believe there is a meaning with it. Trevor, I have listened to so many of your thoughts, and I want to believe that you are right.. but man I still struggle with it. And the fact person in me, screams that "HOW DOES HE KNOW THIS.. wheres are his words and claims coming from, and where is the prof"... but with all my heart and soul.. I hope it is the truth and, this could be my path in life.. Love and Light from a dark caterpillar
I am going tho the dark night of the soul and I am waking up thank you for your videos they are helping me I can relate to what you are saying in your videos and what you said about visions looked like a projection .
Hi Kim Gee Get my mail of the back of my videos.
As an scorpian lunar position, I looooooove that I've found your channel
Karla Serrano do you know what nakshatra? My moon nakshatra is jyestha, which is Scorpio
I cried while listening...
Your message is poetically beautiful
Hope this helps Jim I drove 10,000 miles and went into the wilds of wyhoming to go thru my dark night of the soul you must be a very special person
My physical pain is easing since I subbed..hour and half ago.
Fear and nightmare are the ones that hit me badly.
I've never heard this guy before never been here before but I found myself the other day talking just like this but only in my head. I want to say its strange but nothing is strange anymore.......nothing.
I lost my dream life from a wrong decision. It was in my hand and I lost everything. 3 years of depression and I woke up in 2019-in 2021 started abusing drugs and was incarcerated for 3 months but in 2024 from boredom I abused worse drugs and lost everything AGAIN and was incarcerated 6 months this time. I am depressed again and craving drugs again now out of jail. No interest in anything and just stay in bed. This world sucks
Thank You so much 🙏🏽💛
Thank you, Trevor
Had depression n suicidal thoughts just last week, then 3rd of this month I had a massive rush of energy in my whole body ... But could not move.... A lot of high frequencies in my ears for ages n still going through it. Still going through wat I need to do
this is a sign from my master that I must listen to you I received a card from a friend two days ago a normal Christian lady what the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly by Richard Bach this is th e message I was wanting and asking for definitely life will get better for me I can see it now
I'm scared to become, almost everyday I have to push myself. It has become strenuous challenge to communicate with others and go places where there's large groups of people. Haven't been like that in the past but the last 3 or 4 years it has. Overall I think you for sharing all of your videos much respect and love. I would like to reach out..
I understand what you say Dex porter
Trevor Ilesley Thanks
@@dexporter5214how are you doing 6 years later?
when i first heard you,
it was like,
you were telling me to love satan himself.
now,
i ,
understand.
thank you.
molly
Oh god no molly clock. Darkness, is your own darkness. There's no such thing as Satan. Satan comes from the planet Saturn. People use to worship Saturn. Many still do. Hell was first created by a man named Zoroaster who created the first religion. Lucifer which we have been taught is the devil, or fallen angel, when in fact lucifer morning star is the planet Venus. Lucifer is Latin for the bright star Venus, hence the morning star, which is the first star to be seen at night. The word Satan was used to control people. Dark spirit is an un healed spirit. Many people today are dark spirits because of their lives. Darkness as I speak of, reminds you to heal, if not, you will feel darkness all your life. It's not until you really find your light of being, that you then realize many have lived their lives in darkness.
What does the word lucifer mean?
It’s a Latin word derived from the roots lux (light) and ferre (to carry).
It means “light bearer” or “light bringer,” and it was not originally used in connection with the devil.
Instead, it could be used multiple ways. For example, anybody carrying a torch at night was a lucifer (light bringer).
This is amazing thank you
Powerful message
Dead nuts on. Fear, yep... working it out and learning. Honesity of the past, past thsts gone to find the peace of it.
Thank you! What’s the background song please? Beautiful.