UPDATE 16/06/2024: Sign up for this newsletter, so when I launch the support forum/group (working on it now), you can join: mailchi.mp/1d1a816d7c89/inner-researcher - - - - 02/06/2024: Question to you all lovely humans going through the Dark Night of the Soul. A viewer made a good point in the comments, asking if there are any support groups for this journey & mentioning that it would be nice to have people to talk to that are/have shared this experience. *I would like to create a support community*, even if it starts as a forum where we can talk to each other, get support/tips/advice, and such. If you would be interested: can you please let me know underneath this pinned post? Thank you! ❣
Hi, I would be interested in being part of that group. I live in Sweden, so if there are some people in European Time Zone we could even create one for that zone, otherwise I can adapt to a North American Time Zone. I am 47 year old, and I have gone through this process(es), and it feels apt to be of support of others. We all have different backgrounds and entries into spiritual development, I understood my process via Jungian Psychoanalysis practices in combination with Gnostic wisdom, thus I could be of support to anyone who feels comfortable with those topics. Thanks for these videos and looking forward to be of support!
Bless you James, I thought it was just me - I am stuck in stage one, currently end of year 3, starting the 4th year 😭. Definitely had spiritual emptiness, separation, lack of motivation, lost, ego death and tested. It does not feel temporary! Not sure I will make it to 70 at this rate 🙈. You are loved James, take care and I hope you come through the other side soon xx
I'm just emerging out of my own first dark night. Shook me to the core of my being. The most amount of suffering I've ever experienced. But very transformative as well. Even wrote a book about spiritual crisis which I'm gonna publish soon. Thanks for this video ❤
Can there be periodic dark night of the soul ? I had one period at the start of last year and I am going through one again now almost same as last year
I had a conversation with my family last night about finding the purpose in life and I asked many existential questions about our lives. They just want me to follow the typical norm of getting a degree, find a job, make a living for life. Recently, I had a spiritual awakening and everything I believed is crumbling down. I just feel like nothing even matters to me anymore. I just want to disassociate from the society to live in peace and be aligned with my true authentic self. Everybody calls me crazy. Eventually, the conversation turned into a heated argument, It was literally so depressing that I ended up leaving the room in tears. Later, I ended up spending the rest of the night alone in my room and spent a long time doing meditation to release the negativity. Deep down, I do trust the process. It is all a part of the transformation for the greater good, if somebody can relate to this, I just want to say keep moving forward, the universe will reward those that dares to follow their hearts! Peace! 🙏
I can sooooo relate to this!!! And you are not crazy and not alone. Don’t follow the norm. It’s actually funny because this morning i shared exactly these same reflections as yours on my instagram. Time to move away from “reality” and “the norm”. 🙏🏻 you got this!!!!! Youre having this experience for a reason.
I went through this from 2012 to about 2020. It was AWFUL! I questioned everything. I wanted to go home but I didn't know where home actually was! I started getting lots of downloads and couldn't make sense of it. How it started was by being abused by a church pastor. It made me so lost and confused. And when I say it is difficult...it is traumatizing but not meant to hurt. It brings clarity. I no longer and religious. I do not go to church and will never again. My relationship with source is so amazing now! I looked for therapist for this but I found nothing.
OMG!!! I am exactly exactly exactly at the same place , thoughts of being done with this life are cropping up. I simply cannot live a typical life of society pleasing and looks like whatever I do, I keep ending up at a place where I am forced to do something that is soooo not me, now I am at a place where either I am supposed to produce a child or leave my marriage. I am torn apart, I want a peaceful life of spiritual growth and not a child who is causing pain and suffering to the world.
With 3 years of experience the dark night of the soul and still going on, I can say that anyone who enters these stages will never, ever want to back to previous version. And what really calmed me sometimes was prayer. God bless you.
Spiritual pain is gruelingly painful, but I wish you all not to give up. The freedom that comes from disconnecting from the ego releases you from the chains of suffering. Once you become aware that you are able to stop thoughts at will and that you are more than your thoughts, you will free yourselves from the false idea that your ego is your identity. You are so much more!
Yes. The thought you’re more than your ego is essentially the same thing as saying the identity making up my body is finite but I’m infinite since I have a spirit. Like that’s Christianity in a nut shell. Similar but different.
But here’s the dichotomy I suppose. If I’m assuming I have no identity or ego and am a mere traveler through this journey of life why care? Some Asians I’ve listened to said you don’t get sad if you don’t get attached. Well I’ve Stopped being attached to most things but there are side affects. You can then wake up at 2 in the afternoon or not care to do even the basic things you used to enjoy in life like spend time in nature. Why spend time doing old things that used to be enjoyable when it’s attached to the ego? If you’re without ego you might as well just perish or disappear into the abyss as you remove attachments from your life why even live in the first place as you remove ego and identify and destroy your life? Really if you aren’t the old person anymore why do anything if you’re nothing? It’s like death seems like the logical thing if your life has ended already and you’ve disassociated with your old life. This idea of the dark night of the soul reminds me of the idea of the sorrowing of the damned where humans mourn in life devoid of any desire. The talk according to the desire of the heart by Neal a Maxwell I heard years ago talks about that idea. His use of English is also very poetic.
@@koltoncrane3099You could try letting go of the idea that it's "Your Life". Allow something deeper to live you. This might help what you "Do" to be more intuitive and harmonious. 🙏
The point about the process being non-linear is very important; one may feel that they've completed the process, only to be surprised by another 'peeling back' of inner layers. Thanks for making this.
Thank you for saying this. I felt like I went in my dark night and came out so quickly. Now I’m having more things stirring up and I was frustrated because I thought it was over. I needed to hear this too
12 years in and started with a divorce, loss of my home then my second home, loss of my friends, my career, my beloved dogs, you name it. I was down to a couple of friends and living with my mom. That a couple of years of really stupid decisions and finally got down to business. I feel like I’m stage three for sure.
Wow very intense ❤ holy fire and purification, I had things similar happen. In astrology if you have major Capricorn placements you would have also dealt with the Pluto transit which is generally h*ll…🕊🕊🕊 prayers for restoration and renewal
Mine was triggered 8 years ago the day I decided a paradigm shift in my life, I wanted change. It resulted in divorce, abandonment, job lost, houses, cars, friends...It's been a journel in Hell. I thought I was cursed. No delivrance or prayers could help. Until I started surrendering and now I feel a tremendous peace and I can feel that the light is coming...
Thanks a lot for this video. 6 years of intense grief and trauma via many channels left me in a smoking crater that was once my life. Been on a real ride ever since and have found myself almost appreciating the challenges life threw at me. Your video has helped greatly as I’ve unknowingly been in the internal ‘push pull’ of stage 3 without realising it and at times it’s been very confusing. Gaining confidence in my new path. Thanks again, your video has helped me keep faith that I’m doing the right things.
My dark night of the soul probably started when I was 11 years old. I'm now in my mid thirties and I'm finally beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. This road has been rough, but the intense bliss that I'm now open to feeling is amazing, nothing prior in my life can compare to it. I still get days of intense difficult emotions, but because my heart is more open than ever and I rely on my intellect far less, I can now be with the powerful feelings and trust that something good is happening.
Im sure mine started also at 10/11… now I’m 32, female.. this 2 past years have been daark dark. I’m feeling I’m transforming into a new human and still not sure at all who I am.
I am experiencing dark night of soul from my spiritual practices. Which is also accompanied by what in Hinduism is called Anahata Nad (unstruck sound heard in the ears). When long forgotten memories came to my conscious. I was at first confused what I was suppose to do with those memories. Then something inside told me all I have to do is witness the feelings from those memories again. Just witness the sadness, fear or confusion of those memories. Don't let the mind try to relive or resolve those memories. Because the memories themselves are no longer valid in the NOW. Its only the feelings from the memories that need be dissipated.
I think of it as God's induced fasting from the feeling of his presence and protection. You are in the Trial of Job. The feeling of absence of a higher power is profoundly painful and empty. But ultimately necessary and beautiful. This is only the feeling of, He is never truly gone. Much like a father that lets his child learn on their own. Pieces of you are meant to fall away. It is a marathon, it is a graduation, it is enlightenment. You will then turn to him and say, "I get it now, thank you" and are ultimately grateful.
i resonate with a lot of things you mentioned. it’s comforting to know there is other people that feel the same way! my dark night of the soul started about three years ago and it’s been rough. i am really proud of myself for the progress i made tho!
For the last two years I’ve had nothing but trauma. Lost everything, ended up broke. Relationship crumbled and left me in the most excruciating state. I cannot explain the feelings I went through it was like anxiety, depression, dissociation combined with insomnia. It forced me to wake up and question my whole existence. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now as I am close to the other side. Question 🙋 did anyone experience like an uncomfortable feeling in the solar plexus all the way up to the throat chakra ?? Been dealing with this very uncomfortable sensation I have tried to unblock it through reiki however it just seems to stay there I’m thinking it’s something I just have to sit with and allow the gestation period. On another note I have changed as a person and I have become a light to family and friends, I’ve developed strength and character and understanding of the connectedness of the universe. I wish you all love and light through your dark period ❤
wow. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing this & being so open. I can relate to absolutely eeeeeverything that you just described. In regards to your question: experiencing an uncomfortable feeling in the solar plexus all the way up to the throat chakra -- yes OH YES. For a period of time. I also did energy work and such, but really it started going away when I started standing up for myself, not betraying my own needs, and stepping into my own vision/values/what was important to me. So much of the uncomfortable feeling that I experienced was when I was stuck in this sad "victim" mode, putting myself behind everyone else, and tooootally abandoning my own needs and priorities. Thank you so much for sharing & there absolutely is a light at the end of the tunnel. my dark night of the soul was excruciatingly painful & difficult, but now that i'm on the other side, I can see it was the biggest gift & transformation... ❤
@@theanonymoushelpline7248 racing fearful thoughts almost feels like an understatement hah. I had a raceful fearful obsessive mind. 24/7. I felt like someone else was ruling my mind and i couldn't escape it. but yes, fear and distress and anxiety 24/7, so painful... just thinking back makes me want to hug my past self really tightly. it was awful...
Thank you. This video is on time. I heard about this many years ago but didn't think much of it. After this video I realize I've been bouncing through this since childhood. The last 2 years excruciating, I would often say if I didn't know myself, I would be convinced I was on drugs.
I went through this on a twin flame journey since beginning of April, i really needed this to change ,i am so thankful for all that i went through this journey 🙏 🙏 🙏 ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
This is sublime. I never really contextualised any of these experiences and soldiered through the hardest times simply accepting the pain and letting go of what I had to but this gives a different perspective to it all! Thank you, you are a beam of light 😇🙏💛
I'm grateful you advised that this is not a linear experience, I started questioning how long this has actually been going on, but no matter how long, it didn't seem to line up with a linear approach. -- Thank you for this video!!
I guess I'm still stuck in the first stage it's been years and years. All I want to do is sleep. I haven't felt happy or excited in probably 8 years. I lost my two beautiful dogs who were like my children and my abusive parents. I divorced from a man similar to my parents years ago. I just feel numb.
I'm glad you talked about the variety in length and the jumping between stages. I'm 32, 14 years deep and I was stuck for a good 10 years. the last 4 I have jumped between stages and am now starting to come through the other side. Love the video, all the best from New Zealand ☺
I needed this video! 6 years in, im still on stage 2, sometimes switching to stage one. My journey was triggered by meeting my Twin flame and feelings of oneness and union first.
Same. It’s like a non ending inner fluctuation with moments of incredible clarity, moments of confusion, massive emotional pain, peace, terror, clarity again.. hope, terror.. yes very excruciating
I'm so sorry to hear and i agree. My process as well was excruciating & i couldn't make sense of it all. it's such deep and intense pain. but we must persevere... there' is a reason we're going through this.
I’m experiencing the dark night of the soul right now as I am going through a financial crisis. It doesn’t mean that I lose the ability to work and earn. Rather, I actually can have a stable income and enjoy a kind of nice life as a school teacher. Yet I quitted. I started a small business. And now I suddenly lose the motivation to keep doing all of these. As I found that the old game I am playing doesn’t make any sense to me any more. I have bill to pay yet I dont have enough financial support as my business is stuck, and yet I dont want to go back to teach in school, even though my family think that I am crazy. I just kind of feel like I am floating in the dark emptiness without knowing the direction to go to. But somehow I am glad to finally figure out that the stage I am going through now is called the dark night of the soul. I guess there are also some people are experiencing this like me. I sincerely wish that these people out there can find a way out someday and live a new life with stronger meaning and power, so do I.
Hang in there, the more you hold to the old ways more difficult it becomes It’s a house of cards falling apart, it’s the best version and truly you opening space to transform your life and boy, it’s gonna challenge all your believes but you’re claiming for this change for so long and it’s here, the process is brutal for some like me but it’s sublime in the end ❤
Great content 🥳 Breathwork(with facilitators like Sandy in UA-cam) helped me a lot during the dark times. Keep going, keep showing up for yourself. They're accumulating in a way that helps you along the Journey
Thank you for shedding some light on the illumination stage. I was so happy to leave the dark night and enter this New World, but there’s still confusion as a search for the right path and try to clarify my true purpose. I keep turning to the Lord for guidance as I navigate, thankful for the entire journey and for all the love.
When arriving at stage 4 life becomes so easy, peaceful and clear. It took me 4 years to get through, however there is no way to push or accelerate this process. Ashtanga yoga, meditation, Eckhart, and just letting go my ego helped a lot. Letting go the ego self was the most scarying thing for me as it was strongly entangled with painful childhood trauma. My spiritual guide once said to me: 'forget the story about yourself'. This was an eyeopener for me, as by mind was stuck in a story, hindering my true self to see the beauty around me in the present. Love to all of you! ❤
Ive never heard of this until a few days ago, but Its so relieving to hear other people experience it and have it for years. It has been so incredibly hard to go through this but i am happy to have a name for it and feel relieved that i can come out of it better.
I’m so glad to hear this resonated & perhaps connected some of the dots. It’s a transformative experience (which is hard), but it’s rewarding long-term..
Great video. Thank you for sharing! Two words for this....Shadow Work. Bringing love to your fears and doubts feels intense but you are greater than them and that becomes the liberation you seek. You are being set up for greater joy and expansion, but it just feels like pain right now. God/Divine/Source/Universe isn't here to help you get around life, but THROUGH life...the light and the dark! Just coming out of a 2 year dark night myself. Hit me unexpected. Always have been a person of unbreakable faith, but life changes and some 3D "failures" and a health challenge called it all into question. Felt disconnected from my effortless faith and power to manifest...felt unworthy and inadequate. To anyone reading, practice shadow work. There are some great books on this. Debbie Ford's "The Dark Side of The Light Chasers" is a great start. Helped me recalibrate. Also,, Dr. Joe Dispenza's work.
It's a process that many spend a lifetime going through, I find Dr Carl Jung's Red Book experience very insightful, its difficult to articulate to yourself the experience of going into the depths of ones self and face your shadow. I think anyone who does, should journal the experience like Dr Jung, he called it a great work. I find painting and or writing these inner turmoils in a journal of great help. Thank you for you insights.
i've journaled daily, sometimes twice daily since the very beginning. very grateful that I did because it accelerated the processing and resolution of my lessons
One must shed the old skin without caution and realize who you will be when it’s over, is unknowable. Lean in like learning to dive into water, speak in public, or entering a haunted house. This too shall pass. Don’t fight it. Let yourself n ego die bcuz it needs to perish - to be reborn. Love you. Peace ✌️
You have helped me clearly understand what I have been going through over the past 5 years or more. I have gone through some very dark events and am now experiencing truly beautiful personal wonders. I have struggled with making sense of it all. This video shed light and helped me see the bigger picture of how I have changed and grown spiritually. I feel inspired to get this all into a journal in order to map out my personal journey. I cannot thank you enough.
Thank you SO MUCH for sharing this with me. I'm so glad to hear the video resonated & helped you make sense of your experience. Journaling on this is a great idea. Sending you a huge huge hug!
Thank you for this video, helped make sense of a very confusing 4 year long gruelling process that I’ve been going through. It has been incredibly messy, confusing, excruciatingly painful. So grateful to hear it’s not linear and varies in length as I tend to get hard on myself when I feel pulled back or that it’s taking “so long” to get through. I feel I’m in between stage 3-4 now.
This happened to me 9 years ago. It lasted 9 months at the time because of my resistance to change. Now I am experiencing it again for the second time but in a different way, the first time was about a relationship. Now it’s about my spirituality and my path. Things I thought I was certain about it now I am not. I am in the middle of it trying to answer the big questions again about what is my path. It’s much less intense than the first but still challenging and full of doubts and confusion, but I’m telling myself this is temporary and soon things will be clear 🙏
Thank you for sharing. It’s absolutely temporary & the most important thing is to keeeep moving through it and not get stuck (or seduced/accustomed) to being stuck in suffering. Pain & suffering are 2 different things! 🙏🏻
On my illumination stage, i’m so confused when I experienced my new self and my old self fighting for each other. I’m experiencing two different habit. Now i want to surrender it to my higherself. Jay shambho
thank you for this explanation. My event was the bank crash of 2008. Lost Business, Marriage and Home. Just found out about the Dark Night Of The Soul over the past few month. I am so grateful to have gone through all four stages without prior knowledge.
Appreciate the video. I was lucky to have my parents to talk to about my experience so I didn't go crazy or what not. Took almost a year for me to go through all of this... Came and went in waves... Super cool, super confusing... Good to have family to talk to.
I’m passing through this experience now. I was on a spiritual high and a relationship with a woman who turned out to be a fraud. She was a man who hoodwinked me out of some money. And I fell for it because I was lonely and an alcoholic and wanted to help another alcoholic who was as it turned out a grifter and I suffer the loss still. But I will survive I see it all as a learning experience in this life. Wisdom comes with a price.
Thank you for this vid... I've been in The Dark Night Of The Soul for 25yrs and I think i'm finally entering stage 2 now. Hopefully, I'll come out the other side before I die of old age.
@@InnerResearcher I'm a screenwrirer and this idea comes up all the time. Most people don't get it, but you clearly do, so I will direct people to this video!
Interesting. I have a second Dark Night now. I had my first one with 20, after losing my first love and got betrayed by some "friends". The first one took me over a year. Usually the night of the soul is a result of a deep traumatic experience. Now with 37, my world view, trust and everything good i believed in got shattered to the core. It took me 3 years to realize that im in another dark night and that i went trough hell, because it slowly creeped in this time. When i woke up out of this nightmare, i knew what i was facing and where i went wrong and from where the poison came from. Because this time, i wasn't the source.
You have done a excellent job of bringing this whole process to the light. So much wisdom you expressed and in a manner that is easy to Relate to if you are genuinely going through this Transformation. Thank You very Much. 💜💯✌🏻
Thank you, that's very enlightening! According to your description, I've been having various personality aspects of mine in different stages for over 2 decades. It's nauseating, to be frank. But at least now I know what these stages are.
I went through all 4 and that lead me to make so many changes in my life and set boundaries with people. I went to University to pursue my dream career and I have been exposed to so many fears and challenges and fully felt like I went in to regression. It’s good to know I’m just in another stage of purification and illumination
@@WarriorNurturer-vg8fd no, when someone is violent for 5 years and wont take accountability, setting boundaries is not ego resistant. Its saying that ive had enough and its a necessary act of self-care and self-protection. Its dangerous to throw around accusations before understanding the premises of someones decision. You are invalidating peoples decisions and realities, so be careful of what you say because you could be harming innocent people...
Mine started in childhood and ended the day after the April eclipse of this year. Things are so different, so vibrant. Like I walked into another dimension
thank you darling! it was a wonderful journey through a series of known experiences and states 😊 btw your smile is one of the most exquisite beauty of this fleeting world ❤
Thank you so much for this! I like how you said that the experience is not linear. It's been a long haul for me, 15 or so years. Love the comments too❤
"To live in the eternal present there must be death to the past, to memory. In this death there is timeless renewal." J. Krishnamurti "You are the world and the world is you." J. Krishnamurti
@@InnerResearcher let me add, I think it is really great, that you mentioned, that this process is a bit chaotic and not always pleasurable. That’s the truth. I can tell you with my experience (54), it never stops. You think, you made it through this phase and you enjoy the results. Than you notice your strength and the responsibility, that goes along with that. You realize, you could reach higher goals, if you work on yourself. And all starts all over again. 😁
Been a couple of years I start to worry this will never end … I feel stuck sometimes and sometimes going back and forth … some days I despair and feel I will never see the other side … or may be there is something wrong with me … I wish there was somebody to even talk to … oh well … keep going
I went through all this on my own not understanding initially,I’d never heard of a twin flame.I learnt very quickly.She ran after six weeks,she knew what it was but didn’t tell me.all this has changed my life completely.everything about me altered I gained emotion,also other people’s emotions even from a distance.I wouldn’t want my children to go through this.Im so glad I went through this because my twin flame,she would have really struggled.I get sudden waves of sadness where I would cry normally only last a very short period.DNOTS can be lonely.
I relate very much to the jumping process between the stages. In my case, I feel like a struggle btw illumination and purification, with some glimpses of Union. Thanks for sharing your knowledge and experience dear sister! Love from Brazil!!
Screaming at the window Watch me die another day Hopeless situation Endless price I have to pay A sickened mind and spirit The mirror tells me lies Could I mistake myself for someone Who lives behind my eyes? Will he escape my soul Or will he live in me? Is he trying to get out Or trying to enter me? Voices in the darkness Scream away my mental health Can I ask a question To help me save me from myself? [Chorus] Enemies fill up the pages Are they me? Monday till Sunday in stages Set me free, oh - diary of a madman Ozzy osbourne i've been this way been ten years to the day “I still see things that are not here. I just choose not to acknowledge them. Like a diet of the mind, I just choose not to indulge certain appetites; like my appetite for patterns; perhaps my appetite to imagine and to dream.” - John Nash
Dear Gabie, Thank you for this video💌 (popped up in my feed🙏). As someone going through the Dark Night (likely stage 3/4) this felt reassuring. The "losing your mind" bit was so funny because it resonated with my experience😅. I've had a spiritual practice for about 15 years. Beginning 2020, Saturn started its 7.5 year transit across my natal moon (called Sade Sati in sidereal Vedic astrology). Career, relationships, self-belief & spirituality tested to the breaking point (& beyond😇🥰). Still only half-way through the transit... whoop-de-doo😋. Anyhow, no matter what, you fall into ❣Love💋 itself.
Oh, if you don't laugh about losing your mind through this experience, i'm not sure you'd get through it hah! There were many times where i was crying and laughing at the same time. Thank you for sharing!
Really good vid and it made a lot more sense to me after hearing you say the process is not at all linear. I kicked off the awareness stage about 4 months ago with what I think was a pretty intense ego death (and a heavy spiritual experience to go along with it) and I feel like I've spent most of my journey so far in purification.
My divorce. Dark night of the soul. Fetal position. Deep bellows, Many years later, I’m a better soul. Clear. Available. Open. It was the worst part of my life. However, I’m grateful for lessons learned.
I'm travelling in this dark night of the soul process for about 5 years or more. I've been illuminated twice or more already, but once I reach the light, I feel I go even deeper into the dark than I went before. The illumination in me lasts about two days or less, and so I go for months or even years into the dark. I guess my actual purification process is almost over, since I've found almost all answers I was looking for. Now I guess I can wait for another awakening, as usual, but more comfortably than before, since I'm conscious that it may come at any moment. One point I emphasize is that we can't think the dark night of the soul is a process which ends. As the day, so the night. It comes and goes. St. John was one of the founders of Carmelites, and one of the principles of the order talks about being an eternal student. So we need to be always mind and heart opened to learn more and more, as the Infinite shows us things we previously didn't perceive even in the tiniest things. Beware, and eyes opened.
I introspected about the two sides that fight within us. I saw a positive and negative system which create emotion as energy for day to day interactions. If they are fighting we lose. The key is in balance. Befriend these systems.
Thank you. Yes, it has been circular, cyclical and simultaneous for me, too. At times, I wanted to die. But, I also know that I’m changing, becoming stronger, more “me.” Old habits resurface at times, but I am more aware of toxic patterns and have released toxic relationships, especially with my family and friends. Don’t give up. You are not alone. Metamorphosis is painful but liberating.
I am in the stage where every thing is amazing and I am so present and I am being callled to do selfless acts all the time I have no attachment to outcome or thought I get insights all the time I feel one and my ego has collapsed
Mine started with a nervous breakdown it took me a month to recover enough to go back to work. Lost 6 kg and it was tough as I suffered cripling anxiety for weeks... it's almost a year and I am getting stronger. It brought me back to God... Jesus and Buddhist teachings were also very helpful as was stoic philosophy for me. I now see it as a positive thing. But it has been a tough experience.
Buddhist teachings are helpful indeed. And yes - it’s a very difficult and painful experience but once you get through the hardest, indeed you see it in a positive light. For me the 3 years were awful and painful but i would not take it back. I am forever changed!
St. John of the Cross' Dark Knight of the soul is the deepest book I've ever read. Some people think they are in a dark night but its more of a mental health thing.
I've been on this road for over thirty years. Buddha went through years of searching before he found the path. Eckhart Tolle suffered from depression for most of his life until the night he asked himself a question. Read his first book to get the exact story or find his video description of it. Essentially he said to himself that he couldn't live with himself anymore. That statement made him ask the question "Who am I". He went to bed and awoke enlightened with no more suffering. My latest problem is that I want to let go of lots of possessions. Yet when I examine them, almost every thing in the boxes are things I sometimes use. Some more often than others. Everything I own fits in my rented bedroom, except for my motor scooter. So I don't have a lot of possessions. My fantasy is to live like the fictional characters Kwai Chang Caine of Kung Fu or Jack Reacher. All that they own is what they carry with them. My version wouldn't be as austere.
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02/06/2024: Question to you all lovely humans going through the Dark Night of the Soul. A viewer made a good point in the comments, asking if there are any support groups for this journey & mentioning that it would be nice to have people to talk to that are/have shared this experience. *I would like to create a support community*, even if it starts as a forum where we can talk to each other, get support/tips/advice, and such. If you would be interested: can you please let me know underneath this pinned post? Thank you! ❣
Thank you. I’m interested to participate in related support group
What if this cycle keep going?
Yes, please create a support group. It would save lives! God does not want us to go through this alone. Thank you.
Hi, I would be interested in being part of that group. I live in Sweden, so if there are some people in European Time Zone we could even create one for that zone, otherwise I can adapt to a North American Time Zone.
I am 47 year old, and I have gone through this process(es), and it feels apt to be of support of others. We all have different backgrounds and entries into spiritual development, I understood my process via Jungian Psychoanalysis practices in combination with Gnostic wisdom, thus I could be of support to anyone who feels comfortable with those topics.
Thanks for these videos and looking forward to be of support!
Yes this group sounds great!
Cool. 8 years of stage one. Should be done by the time I’m 70.
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Some of us won't pass stage 1. That's just the way it goes
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I read the law of one books and Seth speaks , it really helped .
Bless you James, I thought it was just me - I am stuck in stage one, currently end of year 3, starting the 4th year 😭. Definitely had spiritual emptiness, separation, lack of motivation, lost, ego death and tested. It does not feel temporary!
Not sure I will make it to 70 at this rate 🙈.
You are loved James, take care and I hope you come through the other side soon xx
I'm just emerging out of my own first dark night. Shook me to the core of my being. The most amount of suffering I've ever experienced.
But very transformative as well.
Even wrote a book about spiritual crisis which I'm gonna publish soon.
Thanks for this video ❤
Ohhh I so hear you. The most amount of suffering i’ve experienced, too… thank you for sharing & congrats on the book! ❤️
Can there be periodic dark night of the soul ? I had one period at the start of last year and I am going through one again now almost same as last year
@@sonya9478it goes on for years
@@sonya9478 absolutely!
Shook to the core. So true
I had a conversation with my family last night about finding the purpose in life and I asked many existential questions about our lives. They just want me to follow the typical norm of getting a degree, find a job, make a living for life.
Recently, I had a spiritual awakening and everything I believed is crumbling down. I just feel like nothing even matters to me anymore. I just want to disassociate from the society to live in peace and be aligned with my true authentic self. Everybody calls me crazy. Eventually, the conversation turned into a heated argument, It was literally so depressing that I ended up leaving the room in tears. Later, I ended up spending the rest of the night alone in my room and spent a long time doing meditation to release the negativity.
Deep down, I do trust the process. It is all a part of the transformation for the greater good, if somebody can relate to this, I just want to say keep moving forward, the universe will reward those that dares to follow their hearts! Peace! 🙏
I can sooooo relate to this!!! And you are not crazy and not alone. Don’t follow the norm. It’s actually funny because this morning i shared exactly these same reflections as yours on my instagram. Time to move away from “reality” and “the norm”. 🙏🏻 you got this!!!!! Youre having this experience for a reason.
Are there any support groups for this journey? It would be nice to have people to talk to that are/have shared this experience
Good you family. Wish I had one. My parents died & I have no kids no wife
I went through this from 2012 to about 2020. It was AWFUL! I questioned everything. I wanted to go home but I didn't know where home actually was! I started getting lots of downloads and couldn't make sense of it. How it started was by being abused by a church pastor. It made me so lost and confused. And when I say it is difficult...it is traumatizing but not meant to hurt. It brings clarity. I no longer and religious. I do not go to church and will never again. My relationship with source is so amazing now! I looked for therapist for this but I found nothing.
OMG!!! I am exactly exactly exactly at the same place , thoughts of being done with this life are cropping up. I simply cannot live a typical life of society pleasing and looks like whatever I do, I keep ending up at a place where I am forced to do something that is soooo not me, now I am at a place where either I am supposed to produce a child or leave my marriage. I am torn apart, I want a peaceful life of spiritual growth and not a child who is causing pain and suffering to the world.
That feeling when a stranger describes your most vulnerable experience. Thank you.
Glad to hear it resonated. You’re not alone in this ❤️
I was gonna write a 100K word comment. But I feel too exhausted right now. So, instead, I'm just gonna say thank you.
Sending you love and gratitude.
Lots of love back ❤️
With 3 years of experience the dark night of the soul and still going on, I can say that anyone who enters these stages will never, ever want to back to previous version.
And what really calmed me sometimes was prayer.
God bless you.
Yes yes yes!! Amen to this 🙏🏻
Spiritual pain is gruelingly painful, but I wish you all not to give up. The freedom that comes from disconnecting from the ego releases you from the chains of suffering. Once you become aware that you are able to stop thoughts at will and that you are more than your thoughts, you will free yourselves from the false idea that your ego is your identity. You are so much more!
Absolutely 👏🏻
Yes. The thought you’re more than your ego is essentially the same thing as saying the identity making up my body is finite but I’m infinite since I have a spirit. Like that’s Christianity in a nut shell. Similar but different.
But here’s the dichotomy I suppose. If I’m assuming I have no identity or ego and am a mere traveler through this journey of life why care? Some Asians I’ve listened to said you don’t get sad if you don’t get attached. Well I’ve Stopped being attached to most things but there are side affects. You can then wake up at 2 in the afternoon or not care to do even the basic things you used to enjoy in life like spend time in nature. Why spend time doing old things that used to be enjoyable when it’s attached to the ego? If you’re without ego you might as well just perish or disappear into the abyss as you remove attachments from your life why even live in the first place as you remove ego and identify and destroy your life? Really if you aren’t the old person anymore why do anything if you’re nothing? It’s like death seems like the logical thing if your life has ended already and you’ve disassociated with your old life.
This idea of the dark night of the soul reminds me of the idea of the sorrowing of the damned where humans mourn in life devoid of any desire.
The talk according to the desire of the heart by Neal a Maxwell I heard years ago talks about that idea. His use of English is also very poetic.
@@koltoncrane3099You could try letting go of the idea that it's "Your Life". Allow something deeper to live you. This might help what you "Do" to be more intuitive and harmonious. 🙏
You will never “stop thought at will” it’s a foolish game. Instead try not identifying and unlock from the story.
The point about the process being non-linear is very important; one may feel that they've completed the process, only to be surprised by another 'peeling back' of inner layers.
Thanks for making this.
Absolutely!!
This is why many people feel they've been through more than one "Dark Night" event throughout their lives.
Thank you for saying this. I felt like I went in my dark night and came out so quickly. Now I’m having more things stirring up and I was frustrated because I thought it was over. I needed to hear this too
Yes that’s me … as soon as I think oh wow at last … I get hit with another round …
Exactly 👍🏻
12 years in and started with a divorce, loss of my home then my second home, loss of my friends, my career, my beloved dogs, you name it. I was down to a couple of friends and living with my mom. That a couple of years of really stupid decisions and finally got down to business. I feel like I’m stage three for sure.
Thank you for sharing. Sounds like a very big "purification" stage. You got this!
we are not our story it's just a soap opera....
Wow very intense ❤ holy fire and purification, I had things similar happen. In astrology if you have major Capricorn placements you would have also dealt with the Pluto transit which is generally h*ll…🕊🕊🕊 prayers for restoration and renewal
Mine was triggered 8 years ago the day I decided a paradigm shift in my life, I wanted change. It resulted in divorce, abandonment, job lost, houses, cars, friends...It's been a journel in Hell. I thought I was cursed. No delivrance or prayers could help. Until I started surrendering and now I feel a tremendous peace and I can feel that the light is coming...
I feel you lol.
Thanks a lot for this video. 6 years of intense grief and trauma via many channels left me in a smoking crater that was once my life. Been on a real ride ever since and have found myself almost appreciating the challenges life threw at me. Your video has helped greatly as I’ve unknowingly been in the internal ‘push pull’ of stage 3 without realising it and at times it’s been very confusing. Gaining confidence in my new path. Thanks again, your video has helped me keep faith that I’m doing the right things.
My dark night of the soul probably started when I was 11 years old. I'm now in my mid thirties and I'm finally beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. This road has been rough, but the intense bliss that I'm now open to feeling is amazing, nothing prior in my life can compare to it. I still get days of intense difficult emotions, but because my heart is more open than ever and I rely on my intellect far less, I can now be with the powerful feelings and trust that something good is happening.
Wow. Thank you for sharing & wonderful to hear that the bliss you feel is nothing you can compare it too. Beautiful!!
@@InnerResearcher :)
Im sure mine started also at 10/11… now I’m 32, female.. this 2 past years have been daark dark.
I’m feeling I’m transforming into a new human and still not sure at all who I am.
@@Starstorm111 My heart goes out to you, :).
@@RitamBuchwaldthankyou❤
I am experiencing dark night of soul from my spiritual practices. Which is also accompanied by what in Hinduism is called Anahata Nad (unstruck sound heard in the ears). When long forgotten memories came to my conscious. I was at first confused what I was suppose to do with those memories. Then something inside told me all I have to do is witness the feelings from those memories again. Just witness the sadness, fear or confusion of those memories. Don't let the mind try to relive or resolve those memories. Because the memories themselves are no longer valid in the NOW. Its only the feelings from the memories that need be dissipated.
Does the sound heard in the ear resemble a very high pitched beeeeeeepppp.... ? And goes away after few seconds?
@@asmitachatterjee4229 The sound is more or less constant.
I think what you wrote was the perspective I needed to hear right now. Thank you for sharing!
I recommend you to read some material of and about Gurdjieff
I think of it as God's induced fasting from the feeling of his presence and protection. You are in the Trial of Job. The feeling of absence of a higher power is profoundly painful and empty. But ultimately necessary and beautiful. This is only the feeling of, He is never truly gone. Much like a father that lets his child learn on their own. Pieces of you are meant to fall away. It is a marathon, it is a graduation, it is enlightenment. You will then turn to him and say, "I get it now, thank you" and are ultimately grateful.
i resonate with a lot of things you mentioned. it’s comforting to know there is other people that feel the same way! my dark night of the soul started about three years ago and it’s been rough. i am really proud of myself for the progress i made tho!
For the last two years I’ve had nothing but trauma. Lost everything, ended up broke. Relationship crumbled and left me in the most excruciating state. I cannot explain the feelings I went through it was like anxiety, depression, dissociation combined with insomnia. It forced me to wake up and question my whole existence. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now as I am close to the other side.
Question 🙋 did anyone experience like an uncomfortable feeling in the solar plexus all the way up to the throat chakra ?? Been dealing with this very uncomfortable sensation I have tried to unblock it through reiki however it just seems to stay there I’m thinking it’s something I just have to sit with and allow the gestation period.
On another note I have changed as a person and I have become a light to family and friends, I’ve developed strength and character and understanding of the connectedness of the universe. I wish you all love and light through your dark period ❤
wow. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing this & being so open. I can relate to absolutely eeeeeverything that you just described. In regards to your question: experiencing an uncomfortable feeling in the solar plexus all the way up to the throat chakra -- yes OH YES. For a period of time. I also did energy work and such, but really it started going away when I started standing up for myself, not betraying my own needs, and stepping into my own vision/values/what was important to me. So much of the uncomfortable feeling that I experienced was when I was stuck in this sad "victim" mode, putting myself behind everyone else, and tooootally abandoning my own needs and priorities.
Thank you so much for sharing & there absolutely is a light at the end of the tunnel. my dark night of the soul was excruciatingly painful & difficult, but now that i'm on the other side, I can see it was the biggest gift & transformation...
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Hi yes feel the same sensation from solar plexus to the throat chakra. It’s good to know it’s a thing! ❤
@@InnerResearcherDid you have racing fearful thoughts?
@@theanonymoushelpline7248 racing fearful thoughts almost feels like an understatement hah. I had a raceful fearful obsessive mind. 24/7. I felt like someone else was ruling my mind and i couldn't escape it. but yes, fear and distress and anxiety 24/7, so painful... just thinking back makes me want to hug my past self really tightly. it was awful...
Thank you. This video is on time. I heard about this many years ago but didn't think much of it. After this video I realize I've been bouncing through this since childhood. The last 2 years excruciating, I would often say if I didn't know myself, I would be convinced I was on drugs.
I can very much relate to “if i didn’t know myself i’d be convinced i was on drugs’…
Good stuff. I went through my own dark night. Couldn't afford therapy though. UA-cam videos have helped a lot.
I'm bawling my eyes right now with so many emotions, I'm a mess
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Me too... Going through deep shit... From all Quarters. Hugs for You.
I went through this on a twin flame journey since beginning of April, i really needed this to change ,i am so thankful for all that i went through this journey 🙏 🙏 🙏 ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Beautiful!! Once you get to the other side & have transformed, you can’t imagine now having gone through this!! ❤️❤️
This is sublime. I never really contextualised any of these experiences and soldiered through the hardest times simply accepting the pain and letting go of what I had to but this gives a different perspective to it all! Thank you, you are a beam of light 😇🙏💛
I'm grateful you advised that this is not a linear experience, I started questioning how long this has actually been going on, but no matter how long, it didn't seem to line up with a linear approach. -- Thank you for this video!!
Happy to help!
I guess I'm still stuck in the first stage it's been years and years. All I want to do is sleep. I haven't felt happy or excited in probably 8 years. I lost my two beautiful dogs who were like my children and my abusive parents. I divorced from a man similar to my parents years ago. I just feel numb.
I'm sorry. Going through a lot of loss too.
How are you doing today? Hope you're on a path to feeling better :) sending you lots of love
I'm glad you talked about the variety in length and the jumping between stages. I'm 32, 14 years deep and I was stuck for a good 10 years. the last 4 I have jumped between stages and am now starting to come through the other side. Love the video, all the best from New Zealand ☺
I needed this video! 6 years in, im still on stage 2, sometimes switching to stage one. My journey was triggered by meeting my Twin flame and feelings of oneness and union first.
My first time hearing of this concept. I finally understand what is going on with me right now! Thank you for the insightful video!
Glad to hear it resonated 🙏🏻
Excruciating. That's how I'd describe it all. To me, every stage is happening at the same time. I keep on going back and forth through it all.
Same. It’s like a non ending inner fluctuation with moments of incredible clarity, moments of confusion, massive emotional pain, peace, terror, clarity again.. hope, terror.. yes very excruciating
I'm so sorry to hear and i agree. My process as well was excruciating & i couldn't make sense of it all. it's such deep and intense pain. but we must persevere... there' is a reason we're going through this.
@@Starstorm111I hear ya it’s been a month! I can’t stop crying
@@nicolelang3109keep going.. let it all out..
This is how it’s felt for me… excruciating, messy, confusing, all happening at once, and back & forth between all the stages... Almost 4 years now.
Thank you for taking such a highly abstract subject and presenting it in a clear and direct way.
Thank you for the kind words & glad to hear it resonated 🙏🏻
I’m experiencing the dark night of the soul right now as I am going through a financial crisis. It doesn’t mean that I lose the ability to work and earn. Rather, I actually can have a stable income and enjoy a kind of nice life as a school teacher. Yet I quitted. I started a small business. And now I suddenly lose the motivation to keep doing all of these. As I found that the old game I am playing doesn’t make any sense to me any more. I have bill to pay yet I dont have enough financial support as my business is stuck, and yet I dont want to go back to teach in school, even though my family think that I am crazy. I just kind of feel like I am floating in the dark emptiness without knowing the direction to go to. But somehow I am glad to finally figure out that the stage I am going through now is called the dark night of the soul. I guess there are also some people are experiencing this like me. I sincerely wish that these people out there can find a way out someday and live a new life with stronger meaning and power, so do I.
Hang in there, the more you hold to the old ways more difficult it becomes
It’s a house of cards falling apart, it’s the best version and truly you opening space to transform your life and boy, it’s gonna challenge all your believes but you’re claiming for this change for so long and it’s here, the process is brutal for some like me but it’s sublime in the end ❤
@@Ladykrypto thank you🙏🏻
Great content 🥳 Breathwork(with facilitators like Sandy in UA-cam) helped me a lot during the dark times. Keep going, keep showing up for yourself. They're accumulating in a way that helps you along the Journey
Good job. The dark night of the soul whether realized or not in a time / space context, in reality, is a life long process.
absolutely :)
A necessary process to realize the enormity of God s love. ❤️❤️
Thank you for shedding some light on the illumination stage. I was so happy to leave the dark night and enter this New World, but there’s still confusion as a search for the right path and try to clarify my true purpose. I keep turning to the Lord for guidance as I navigate, thankful for the entire journey and for all the love.
I so hear you! And glad the video resonated 🙏🏻
When arriving at stage 4 life becomes so easy, peaceful and clear. It took me 4 years to get through, however there is no way to push or accelerate this process. Ashtanga yoga, meditation, Eckhart, and just letting go my ego helped a lot. Letting go the ego self was the most scarying thing for me as it was strongly entangled with painful childhood trauma.
My spiritual guide once said to me: 'forget the story about yourself'. This was an eyeopener for me, as by mind was stuck in a story, hindering my true self to see the beauty around me in the present. Love to all of you! ❤
"forget the story about yourself" - powerful!!
Ive never heard of this until a few days ago, but Its so relieving to hear other people experience it and have it for years. It has been so incredibly hard to go through this but i am happy to have a name for it and feel relieved that i can come out of it better.
I’m so glad to hear this resonated & perhaps connected some of the dots. It’s a transformative experience (which is hard), but it’s rewarding long-term..
Great video. Thank you for sharing! Two words for this....Shadow Work. Bringing love to your fears and doubts feels intense but you are greater than them and that becomes the liberation you seek. You are being set up for greater joy and expansion, but it just feels like pain right now. God/Divine/Source/Universe isn't here to help you get around life, but THROUGH life...the light and the dark! Just coming out of a 2 year dark night myself. Hit me unexpected. Always have been a person of unbreakable faith, but life changes and some 3D "failures" and a health challenge called it all into question. Felt disconnected from my effortless faith and power to manifest...felt unworthy and inadequate. To anyone reading, practice shadow work. There are some great books on this. Debbie Ford's "The Dark Side of The Light Chasers" is a great start. Helped me recalibrate. Also,, Dr. Joe Dispenza's work.
Thank you. And I absolutely agree - shadow work is very important!
Thank you. This helped me with my own Dark Night of the Soul experience.
I’m glad to hear it was helpful 🙏🏻
It's a process that many spend a lifetime going through, I find Dr Carl Jung's Red Book experience very insightful, its difficult to articulate to yourself the experience of going into the depths of ones self and face your shadow. I think anyone who does, should journal the experience like Dr Jung, he called it a great work. I find painting and or writing these inner turmoils in a journal of great help. Thank you for you insights.
Absolutely. I've journaled about the whole experience as well & it helped me get through it as well.
i've journaled daily, sometimes twice daily since the very beginning. very grateful that I did because it accelerated the processing and resolution of my lessons
One must shed the old skin without caution and realize who you will be when it’s over, is unknowable. Lean in like learning to dive into water, speak in public, or entering a haunted house. This too shall pass. Don’t fight it. Let yourself n ego die bcuz it needs to perish - to be reborn. Love you. Peace ✌️
Spot on! Shed the old skin - perfectly said 🙏🏻
You have helped me clearly understand what I have been going through over the past 5 years or more.
I have gone through some very dark events and am now experiencing truly beautiful personal wonders.
I have struggled with making sense of it all.
This video shed light and helped me see the bigger picture of how I have changed and grown spiritually. I feel inspired to get this all into a journal in order to map out my personal journey.
I cannot thank you enough.
Thank you SO MUCH for sharing this with me. I'm so glad to hear the video resonated & helped you make sense of your experience. Journaling on this is a great idea. Sending you a huge huge hug!
God loves you.
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Thank you for this video, helped make sense of a very confusing 4 year long gruelling process that I’ve been going through. It has been incredibly messy, confusing, excruciatingly painful. So grateful to hear it’s not linear and varies in length as I tend to get hard on myself when I feel pulled back or that it’s taking “so long” to get through. I feel I’m in between stage 3-4 now.
I’m glad to hear it resonated 🙏🏻
This happened to me 9 years ago. It lasted 9 months at the time because of my resistance to change. Now I am experiencing it again for the second time but in a different way, the first time was about a relationship. Now it’s about my spirituality and my path. Things I thought I was certain about it now I am not. I am in the middle of it trying to answer the big questions again about what is my path. It’s much less intense than the first but still challenging and full of doubts and confusion, but I’m telling myself this is temporary and soon things will be clear 🙏
Thank you for sharing. It’s absolutely temporary & the most important thing is to keeeep moving through it and not get stuck (or seduced/accustomed) to being stuck in suffering. Pain & suffering are 2 different things! 🙏🏻
On my illumination stage, i’m so confused when I experienced my new self and my old self fighting for each other. I’m experiencing two different habit. Now i want to surrender it to my higherself.
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I so understand you. It’s like a push and pull - but at least now there is a NEW self to work/fight towards 🙏🏻 you got this
thank you for this explanation. My event was the bank crash of 2008. Lost Business, Marriage and Home. Just found out about the Dark Night Of The Soul over the past few month. I am so grateful to have gone through all four stages without prior knowledge.
8 years in now and feel I'm in stage 3, what a journey 🙏🌌 give thanks for the dark and light 🙏
What a journey indeed!!!
Thank you so much for this video! I’m on phase 3, it’s been 12 painful years!!
Glad it resonated & wishing you all the best on your journey 🙏🏻 there’s a reason you’re going through this!
Appreciate the video. I was lucky to have my parents to talk to about my experience so I didn't go crazy or what not. Took almost a year for me to go through all of this... Came and went in waves... Super cool, super confusing... Good to have family to talk to.
Wow - thank you for sharing! 100% it’s great you had someone like your family to talk to. My mother also supported me a lot and it helped so much 🙏🏻
So well explained... I'm still in the process. It's definitely not linear and I've found there can be a lot of overlap.
Thank you so much 😊
My pleasure & thank you!!!
I’m passing through this experience now. I was on a spiritual high and a relationship with a woman who turned out to be a fraud. She was a man who hoodwinked me out of some money. And I fell for it because I was lonely and an alcoholic and wanted to help another alcoholic who was as it turned out a grifter and I suffer the loss still. But I will survive I see it all as a learning experience in this life. Wisdom comes with a price.
Thank you for sharing. You got this 🙏🏻
Thank you for this vid... I've been in The Dark Night Of The Soul for 25yrs and I think i'm finally entering stage 2 now. Hopefully, I'll come out the other side before I die of old age.
Great video! I appreciate your being so vulnerable!
Thank you!
@@InnerResearcher I'm a screenwrirer and this idea comes up all the time. Most people don't get it, but you clearly do, so I will direct people to this video!
Interesting. I have a second Dark Night now. I had my first one with 20, after losing my first love and got betrayed by some "friends". The first one took me over a year.
Usually the night of the soul is a result of a deep traumatic experience.
Now with 37, my world view, trust and everything good i believed in got shattered to the core. It took me 3 years to realize that im in another dark night and that i went trough hell, because it slowly creeped in this time. When i woke up out of this nightmare, i knew what i was facing and where i went wrong and from where the poison came from. Because this time, i wasn't the source.
Thank you so much for making this video!!
my pleasure!
Thanks for the video...given me some perspective n understanding on wot im going thru' right now! Thanks
Glad it resonated 🙏🏻
This is absolutely spot on and extremely well done.
Thank you!!!
This was really good! I have the book but takes a long time to go through especially when you are mentally exhausted all the time.
Thank you & i hear you!!
Not a long comment, but this is great for some stuff that I'm experiencing. Greets from Venezuela!
Glad it resonated! greetings (currently) from Cyprus 🙏🏻
You have done a excellent job of bringing this whole process to the light. So much wisdom you expressed and in a manner that is easy to Relate to if you are genuinely going through this Transformation. Thank You very Much. 💜💯✌🏻
I’m so happy to hear this - thank you so much for your kind words!! 🩷
Since 2012.1st in 2014 and 2nd in 2020.Thank you..Illuminating Spirit. Most of my life journey dots connected. ❤🙏
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Yup 2012 was a trigger for dark night of the soul for many people! Including me.
I love my heart mind, body and soul.
Beautiful
Thank you, that's very enlightening! According to your description, I've been having various personality aspects of mine in different stages for over 2 decades. It's nauseating, to be frank. But at least now I know what these stages are.
Thank you for sharing. It’s a challenging experience indeed, but hopefully when you can name it and know what “it” is, it provides some clarity..
I went through all 4 and that lead me to make so many changes in my life and set boundaries with people. I went to University to pursue my dream career and I have been exposed to so many fears and challenges and fully felt like I went in to regression. It’s good to know I’m just in another stage of purification and illumination
Boundaries are not involved. That's ego resistance.
@@WarriorNurturer-vg8fd no, when someone is violent for 5 years and wont take accountability, setting boundaries is not ego resistant. Its saying that ive had enough and its a necessary act of self-care and self-protection. Its dangerous to throw around accusations before understanding the premises of someones decision. You are invalidating peoples decisions and realities, so be careful of what you say because you could be harming innocent people...
@@kim.mie. I never said do not create space through your absence.
Mine started in childhood and ended the day after the April eclipse of this year. Things are so different, so vibrant. Like I walked into another dimension
A different dimensions indeed!!
One of the best videos I’ve seen on the topic
Thank you. This means a lot & i’m glad to hear you could relate. 🙏🏻
thank you darling! it was a wonderful journey through a series of known experiences and states 😊
btw your smile is one of the most exquisite beauty of this fleeting world ❤
Oh you are so kind!! Thank you!!
The best and clearest explanation of this experience in life❤
A huge compliment… thank you ❤️
Thank you so much for this! I like how you said that the experience is not linear. It's been a long haul for me, 15 or so years. Love the comments too❤
Thank you for watching & i’m glad it resonated. I love the comments too! ❤️
"To live in the eternal present there must be death to the past, to memory. In this death there is timeless renewal." J. Krishnamurti
"You are the world and the world is you." J. Krishnamurti
beautiful!
This was freakishly accurate.
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Thank you for gift of who you are
Deepest Love, Prayers & Blessings
Blessings 🙏🏻
Great explanation. Very personal but I was immediately able to apply it to myself ❤
Thank you, very glad to hear 🙏🏻
@@InnerResearcher let me add, I think it is really great, that you mentioned, that this process is a bit chaotic and not always pleasurable. That’s the truth. I can tell you with my experience (54), it never stops. You think, you made it through this phase and you enjoy the results. Than you notice your strength and the responsibility, that goes along with that. You realize, you could reach higher goals, if you work on yourself. And all starts all over again. 😁
Been a couple of years I start to worry this will never end … I feel stuck sometimes and sometimes going back and forth … some days I despair and feel I will never see the other side … or may be there is something wrong with me … I wish there was somebody to even talk to … oh well … keep going
Thank you for all this knowledge. Now I understand what is going on. I actually did not know. Puh! This is great!❤
I’m glad this could help!!
I went through all this on my own not understanding initially,I’d never heard of a twin flame.I learnt very quickly.She ran after six weeks,she knew what it was but didn’t tell me.all this has changed my life completely.everything about me altered I gained emotion,also other people’s emotions even from a distance.I wouldn’t want my children to go through this.Im so glad I went through this because my twin flame,she would have really struggled.I get sudden waves of sadness where I would cry normally only last a very short period.DNOTS can be lonely.
Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻
I relate very much to the jumping process between the stages. In my case, I feel like a struggle btw illumination and purification, with some glimpses of Union.
Thanks for sharing your knowledge and experience dear sister! Love from Brazil!!
I so very much understand your struggle! and my pleasure. Love from Lisbon!
Screaming at the window Watch me die another day
Hopeless situation Endless price I have to pay
A sickened mind and spirit
The mirror tells me lies
Could I mistake myself for someone Who lives behind my eyes?
Will he escape my soul Or will he live in me? Is he trying to get out Or trying to enter me?
Voices in the darkness
Scream away my mental health
Can I ask a question
To help me save me from myself?
[Chorus]
Enemies fill up the pages
Are they me?
Monday till Sunday in stages
Set me free, oh
- diary of a madman Ozzy osbourne
i've been this way been ten years to the day
“I still see things that are not here. I just choose not to acknowledge them. Like a diet of the mind, I just choose not to indulge certain appetites; like my appetite for patterns; perhaps my appetite to imagine and to dream.” - John Nash
Dear Gabie, Thank you for this video💌 (popped up in my feed🙏). As someone going through the Dark Night (likely stage 3/4) this felt reassuring. The "losing your mind" bit was so funny because it resonated with my experience😅.
I've had a spiritual practice for about 15 years. Beginning 2020, Saturn started its 7.5 year transit across my natal moon (called Sade Sati in sidereal Vedic astrology). Career, relationships, self-belief & spirituality tested to the breaking point (& beyond😇🥰). Still only half-way through the transit... whoop-de-doo😋. Anyhow, no matter what, you fall into ❣Love💋 itself.
Oh, if you don't laugh about losing your mind through this experience, i'm not sure you'd get through it hah! There were many times where i was crying and laughing at the same time. Thank you for sharing!
This is 100 % accurate for my experience. Mine was five, long years.And looking back, I don't see how I could have made it go faster.
I hear you. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻
This sounds very familiar- gives me hope. Thanks.
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Really good vid and it made a lot more sense to me after hearing you say the process is not at all linear. I kicked off the awareness stage about 4 months ago with what I think was a pretty intense ego death (and a heavy spiritual experience to go along with it) and I feel like I've spent most of my journey so far in purification.
Im happy to hear the video resonated & wonderful that you’ve been able to reflect it on your own journey! Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻
...a bit like the 5, (I think,) stages of grief. I find acceptance so helpful.
indeed, very helpful (and necessary!)
Great Video with details on the stages and you have Great English, much better than mine hehe :D
Haha, thank you!
My divorce. Dark night of the soul. Fetal position. Deep bellows, Many years later, I’m a better soul. Clear. Available. Open. It was the worst part of my life. However, I’m grateful for lessons learned.
Beautiful. And i feel the same way - worst part but incredibly grateful. 🙏🏻
Bravo, Gabie. This is well written and delivered. Thank you.
Thank you 🙏🏻
Absolutely beautiful and helpful, thanks so much! With much gratitude!
Thank you. My pleasure ❤️
GREAT VIDEO - SUPER HELPFUL!!!
So glad to hear it resonated!!
I'm travelling in this dark night of the soul process for about 5 years or more. I've been illuminated twice or more already, but once I reach the light, I feel I go even deeper into the dark than I went before. The illumination in me lasts about two days or less, and so I go for months or even years into the dark.
I guess my actual purification process is almost over, since I've found almost all answers I was looking for. Now I guess I can wait for another awakening, as usual, but more comfortably than before, since I'm conscious that it may come at any moment.
One point I emphasize is that we can't think the dark night of the soul is a process which ends. As the day, so the night. It comes and goes.
St. John was one of the founders of Carmelites, and one of the principles of the order talks about being an eternal student. So we need to be always mind and heart opened to learn more and more, as the Infinite shows us things we previously didn't perceive even in the tiniest things.
Beware, and eyes opened.
Eternal student indeed 🙏🏻
That was so beautiful and perfectly said!
Thank you 🙏🏻
@@InnerResearcher thank you 😊
I introspected about the two sides that fight within us. I saw a positive and negative system which create emotion as energy for day to day interactions. If they are fighting we lose. The key is in balance. Befriend these systems.
Befriend these systems!!! 🙏🏻
Thank you. Yes, it has been circular, cyclical and simultaneous for me, too. At times, I wanted to die. But, I also know that I’m changing, becoming stronger, more “me.” Old habits resurface at times, but I am more aware of toxic patterns and have released toxic relationships, especially with my family and friends. Don’t give up. You are not alone. Metamorphosis is painful but liberating.
Perfectly said -- becoming stronger, more “me.” ❤ absolutely!
I feel so lucky and blessed.
🙏🏻 beautiful
I am in the stage where every thing is amazing and I am so present and I am being callled to do selfless acts all the time I have no attachment to outcome or thought I get insights all the time I feel one and my ego has collapsed
Thanks for a good explanation of the journey through the night into dawn and the new light
My pleasure ❤️ glad to hear it helped
Mine started with a nervous breakdown it took me a month to recover enough to go back to work. Lost 6 kg and it was tough as I suffered cripling anxiety for weeks... it's almost a year and I am getting stronger. It brought me back to God... Jesus and Buddhist teachings were also very helpful as was stoic philosophy for me. I now see it as a positive thing. But it has been a tough experience.
Buddhist teachings are helpful indeed. And yes - it’s a very difficult and painful experience but once you get through the hardest, indeed you see it in a positive light. For me the 3 years were awful and painful but i would not take it back. I am forever changed!
Good illustration of a crisis in my life -thank you
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I know I went through stage one for sure . That was so scary and I was so confused and sad.
I’m with you… i was just as confused and sad as well
St. John of the Cross' Dark Knight of the soul is the deepest book I've ever read. Some people think they are in a dark night but its more of a mental health thing.
Thanks for the good light on the issue!
I didn't even know this was a thing, but it explains a ton.
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I've been on this road for over thirty years. Buddha went through years of searching before he found the path. Eckhart Tolle suffered from depression for most of his life until the night he asked himself a question. Read his first book to get the exact story or find his video description of it. Essentially he said to himself that he couldn't live with himself anymore. That statement made him ask the question "Who am I". He went to bed and awoke enlightened with no more suffering.
My latest problem is that I want to let go of lots of possessions. Yet when I examine them, almost every thing in the boxes are things I sometimes use. Some more often than others. Everything I own fits in my rented bedroom, except for my motor scooter. So I don't have a lot of possessions. My fantasy is to live like the fictional characters Kwai Chang Caine of Kung Fu or Jack Reacher. All that they own is what they carry with them. My version wouldn't be as austere.