UPDATE 16/06/2024: Sign up for this newsletter, so when I launch the support forum/group (working on it now), you can join: mailchi.mp/1d1a816d7c89/inner-researcher - - - - 02/06/2024: Question to you all lovely humans going through the Dark Night of the Soul. A viewer made a good point in the comments, asking if there are any support groups for this journey & mentioning that it would be nice to have people to talk to that are/have shared this experience. *I would like to create a support community*, even if it starts as a forum where we can talk to each other, get support/tips/advice, and such. If you would be interested: can you please let me know underneath this pinned post? Thank you! ❣
Hi, I would be interested in being part of that group. I live in Sweden, so if there are some people in European Time Zone we could even create one for that zone, otherwise I can adapt to a North American Time Zone. I am 47 year old, and I have gone through this process(es), and it feels apt to be of support of others. We all have different backgrounds and entries into spiritual development, I understood my process via Jungian Psychoanalysis practices in combination with Gnostic wisdom, thus I could be of support to anyone who feels comfortable with those topics. Thanks for these videos and looking forward to be of support!
I'm just emerging out of my own first dark night. Shook me to the core of my being. The most amount of suffering I've ever experienced. But very transformative as well. Even wrote a book about spiritual crisis which I'm gonna publish soon. Thanks for this video ❤
Can there be periodic dark night of the soul ? I had one period at the start of last year and I am going through one again now almost same as last year
Bless you James, I thought it was just me - I am stuck in stage one, currently end of year 3, starting the 4th year 😭. Definitely had spiritual emptiness, separation, lack of motivation, lost, ego death and tested. It does not feel temporary! Not sure I will make it to 70 at this rate 🙈. You are loved James, take care and I hope you come through the other side soon xx
I had a conversation with my family last night about finding the purpose in life and I asked many existential questions about our lives. They just want me to follow the typical norm of getting a degree, find a job, make a living for life. Recently, I had a spiritual awakening and everything I believed is crumbling down. I just feel like nothing even matters to me anymore. I just want to disassociate from the society to live in peace and be aligned with my true authentic self. Everybody calls me crazy. Eventually, the conversation turned into a heated argument, It was literally so depressing that I ended up leaving the room in tears. Later, I ended up spending the rest of the night alone in my room and spent a long time doing meditation to release the negativity. Deep down, I do trust the process. It is all a part of the transformation for the greater good, if somebody can relate to this, I just want to say keep moving forward, the universe will reward those that dares to follow their hearts! Peace! 🙏
I can sooooo relate to this!!! And you are not crazy and not alone. Don’t follow the norm. It’s actually funny because this morning i shared exactly these same reflections as yours on my instagram. Time to move away from “reality” and “the norm”. 🙏🏻 you got this!!!!! Youre having this experience for a reason.
I went through this from 2012 to about 2020. It was AWFUL! I questioned everything. I wanted to go home but I didn't know where home actually was! I started getting lots of downloads and couldn't make sense of it. How it started was by being abused by a church pastor. It made me so lost and confused. And when I say it is difficult...it is traumatizing but not meant to hurt. It brings clarity. I no longer and religious. I do not go to church and will never again. My relationship with source is so amazing now! I looked for therapist for this but I found nothing.
OMG!!! I am exactly exactly exactly at the same place , thoughts of being done with this life are cropping up. I simply cannot live a typical life of society pleasing and looks like whatever I do, I keep ending up at a place where I am forced to do something that is soooo not me, now I am at a place where either I am supposed to produce a child or leave my marriage. I am torn apart, I want a peaceful life of spiritual growth and not a child who is causing pain and suffering to the world.
Spiritual pain is gruelingly painful, but I wish you all not to give up. The freedom that comes from disconnecting from the ego releases you from the chains of suffering. Once you become aware that you are able to stop thoughts at will and that you are more than your thoughts, you will free yourselves from the false idea that your ego is your identity. You are so much more!
Yes. The thought you’re more than your ego is essentially the same thing as saying the identity making up my body is finite but I’m infinite since I have a spirit. Like that’s Christianity in a nut shell. Similar but different.
But here’s the dichotomy I suppose. If I’m assuming I have no identity or ego and am a mere traveler through this journey of life why care? Some Asians I’ve listened to said you don’t get sad if you don’t get attached. Well I’ve Stopped being attached to most things but there are side affects. You can then wake up at 2 in the afternoon or not care to do even the basic things you used to enjoy in life like spend time in nature. Why spend time doing old things that used to be enjoyable when it’s attached to the ego? If you’re without ego you might as well just perish or disappear into the abyss as you remove attachments from your life why even live in the first place as you remove ego and identify and destroy your life? Really if you aren’t the old person anymore why do anything if you’re nothing? It’s like death seems like the logical thing if your life has ended already and you’ve disassociated with your old life. This idea of the dark night of the soul reminds me of the idea of the sorrowing of the damned where humans mourn in life devoid of any desire. The talk according to the desire of the heart by Neal a Maxwell I heard years ago talks about that idea. His use of English is also very poetic.
@@koltoncrane3099You could try letting go of the idea that it's "Your Life". Allow something deeper to live you. This might help what you "Do" to be more intuitive and harmonious. 🙏
The point about the process being non-linear is very important; one may feel that they've completed the process, only to be surprised by another 'peeling back' of inner layers. Thanks for making this.
Thank you for saying this. I felt like I went in my dark night and came out so quickly. Now I’m having more things stirring up and I was frustrated because I thought it was over. I needed to hear this too
With 3 years of experience the dark night of the soul and still going on, I can say that anyone who enters these stages will never, ever want to back to previous version. And what really calmed me sometimes was prayer. God bless you.
My dark night of the soul probably started when I was 11 years old. I'm now in my mid thirties and I'm finally beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. This road has been rough, but the intense bliss that I'm now open to feeling is amazing, nothing prior in my life can compare to it. I still get days of intense difficult emotions, but because my heart is more open than ever and I rely on my intellect far less, I can now be with the powerful feelings and trust that something good is happening.
Im sure mine started also at 10/11… now I’m 32, female.. this 2 past years have been daark dark. I’m feeling I’m transforming into a new human and still not sure at all who I am.
12 years in and started with a divorce, loss of my home then my second home, loss of my friends, my career, my beloved dogs, you name it. I was down to a couple of friends and living with my mom. That a couple of years of really stupid decisions and finally got down to business. I feel like I’m stage three for sure.
Wow very intense ❤ holy fire and purification, I had things similar happen. In astrology if you have major Capricorn placements you would have also dealt with the Pluto transit which is generally h*ll…🕊🕊🕊 prayers for restoration and renewal
Mine was triggered 8 years ago the day I decided a paradigm shift in my life, I wanted change. It resulted in divorce, abandonment, job lost, houses, cars, friends...It's been a journel in Hell. I thought I was cursed. No delivrance or prayers could help. Until I started surrendering and now I feel a tremendous peace and I can feel that the light is coming...
I suppose sudden death of finance, diagnosis of a chronic illness, loss of career and house, as well as financial stability is all the stuff I needed. And I have not gotten to the end, but I have moved through so much of this and changed a lot. I believe I have gone through the purification part.. but I am stuck at the end, sort of not paralyzed mentally, but unable to literally act to make changes so needed. I was a therapist , and that is one thing I am thinking about doing now, because having to move through to action can be very hard. Yes.. I am absolutely in that stage of the push and pull in making moves to commit to my self, I can’t go back, no way, but it is hard to go forward.. thus.. a bit stuck.
Thank you so much for this. My dark night of the soul started as a teenager in the early 90's. It has been the most confusing, disturbing journey and I thought I was losing my mind sometimes. I felt isolated and alone for many years, not realising that it is a normal thing that many people go through. I feel if I had videos like this to help back in the 90's, I would have gotten through this quicker but of course there was limited access to Internet and no UA-cam back then. I feel this video and your channel is helping so many people now to navigate their experiences. Thank you for all your hard work and research Gabie 🙏❤️
I think of it as God's induced fasting from the feeling of his presence and protection. You are in the Trial of Job. The feeling of absence of a higher power is profoundly painful and empty. But ultimately necessary and beautiful. This is only the feeling of, He is never truly gone. Much like a father that lets his child learn on their own. Pieces of you are meant to fall away. It is a marathon, it is a graduation, it is enlightenment. You will then turn to him and say, "I get it now, thank you" and are ultimately grateful.
I am experiencing dark night of soul from my spiritual practices. Which is also accompanied by what in Hinduism is called Anahata Nad (unstruck sound heard in the ears). When long forgotten memories came to my conscious. I was at first confused what I was suppose to do with those memories. Then something inside told me all I have to do is witness the feelings from those memories again. Just witness the sadness, fear or confusion of those memories. Don't let the mind try to relive or resolve those memories. Because the memories themselves are no longer valid in the NOW. Its only the feelings from the memories that need be dissipated.
Thanks a lot for this video. 6 years of intense grief and trauma via many channels left me in a smoking crater that was once my life. Been on a real ride ever since and have found myself almost appreciating the challenges life threw at me. Your video has helped greatly as I’ve unknowingly been in the internal ‘push pull’ of stage 3 without realising it and at times it’s been very confusing. Gaining confidence in my new path. Thanks again, your video has helped me keep faith that I’m doing the right things.
Thank you for explaining so well what happens when we begin to awaken to our true selves. I had no idea at the time what was happening but I knew that it was something very unique and I gave into it. At the time I was told I had six months to live. That was nine years ago, my body and mind healed and I went from forgetting my grandchildren’s names to I going through college and getting my bachelor degree in psychology. If you are having trouble getting through it just give in and let it happen. The one who relaxes most wins. 🙏❤️🙏
This is so informative! A year ago I had my dark night of the soul and I can safely say I am now in union. I can’t see life the same. I never ever thought I was going to see 2024, it was that bad! But I have worked hard. I wouldn’t say I’m out of the woods yet but anything is better than the first 2 stages
Can you talk about the void stage in relation to the dark night of the soul? When the intensity has slowed down after a rough year+ but nothing has shifted in your external?
I’m experiencing the dark night of the soul right now as I am going through a financial crisis. It doesn’t mean that I lose the ability to work and earn. Rather, I actually can have a stable income and enjoy a kind of nice life as a school teacher. Yet I quitted. I started a small business. And now I suddenly lose the motivation to keep doing all of these. As I found that the old game I am playing doesn’t make any sense to me any more. I have bill to pay yet I dont have enough financial support as my business is stuck, and yet I dont want to go back to teach in school, even though my family think that I am crazy. I just kind of feel like I am floating in the dark emptiness without knowing the direction to go to. But somehow I am glad to finally figure out that the stage I am going through now is called the dark night of the soul. I guess there are also some people are experiencing this like me. I sincerely wish that these people out there can find a way out someday and live a new life with stronger meaning and power, so do I.
Hang in there, the more you hold to the old ways more difficult it becomes It’s a house of cards falling apart, it’s the best version and truly you opening space to transform your life and boy, it’s gonna challenge all your believes but you’re claiming for this change for so long and it’s here, the process is brutal for some like me but it’s sublime in the end ❤
Tears are good. They contain salt...the physical representation of suppressed emotions. In spiritual alchemy, salt is the body. Get that crap out of you! You can do this. Have faith.
I'm glad you talked about the variety in length and the jumping between stages. I'm 32, 14 years deep and I was stuck for a good 10 years. the last 4 I have jumped between stages and am now starting to come through the other side. Love the video, all the best from New Zealand ☺
I guess I'm still stuck in the first stage it's been years and years. All I want to do is sleep. I haven't felt happy or excited in probably 8 years. I lost my two beautiful dogs who were like my children and my abusive parents. I divorced from a man similar to my parents years ago. I just feel numb.
Thank you. This video is on time. I heard about this many years ago but didn't think much of it. After this video I realize I've been bouncing through this since childhood. The last 2 years excruciating, I would often say if I didn't know myself, I would be convinced I was on drugs.
Same. It’s like a non ending inner fluctuation with moments of incredible clarity, moments of confusion, massive emotional pain, peace, terror, clarity again.. hope, terror.. yes very excruciating
I'm so sorry to hear and i agree. My process as well was excruciating & i couldn't make sense of it all. it's such deep and intense pain. but we must persevere... there' is a reason we're going through this.
One must shed the old skin without caution and realize who you will be when it’s over, is unknowable. Lean in like learning to dive into water, speak in public, or entering a haunted house. This too shall pass. Don’t fight it. Let yourself n ego die bcuz it needs to perish - to be reborn. Love you. Peace ✌️
Thank you for shedding some light on the illumination stage. I was so happy to leave the dark night and enter this New World, but there’s still confusion as a search for the right path and try to clarify my true purpose. I keep turning to the Lord for guidance as I navigate, thankful for the entire journey and for all the love.
For the last two years I’ve had nothing but trauma. Lost everything, ended up broke. Relationship crumbled and left me in the most excruciating state. I cannot explain the feelings I went through it was like anxiety, depression, dissociation combined with insomnia. It forced me to wake up and question my whole existence. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now as I am close to the other side. Question 🙋 did anyone experience like an uncomfortable feeling in the solar plexus all the way up to the throat chakra ?? Been dealing with this very uncomfortable sensation I have tried to unblock it through reiki however it just seems to stay there I’m thinking it’s something I just have to sit with and allow the gestation period. On another note I have changed as a person and I have become a light to family and friends, I’ve developed strength and character and understanding of the connectedness of the universe. I wish you all love and light through your dark period ❤
wow. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing this & being so open. I can relate to absolutely eeeeeverything that you just described. In regards to your question: experiencing an uncomfortable feeling in the solar plexus all the way up to the throat chakra -- yes OH YES. For a period of time. I also did energy work and such, but really it started going away when I started standing up for myself, not betraying my own needs, and stepping into my own vision/values/what was important to me. So much of the uncomfortable feeling that I experienced was when I was stuck in this sad "victim" mode, putting myself behind everyone else, and tooootally abandoning my own needs and priorities. Thank you so much for sharing & there absolutely is a light at the end of the tunnel. my dark night of the soul was excruciatingly painful & difficult, but now that i'm on the other side, I can see it was the biggest gift & transformation... ❤
@@theanonymoushelpline7248 racing fearful thoughts almost feels like an understatement hah. I had a raceful fearful obsessive mind. 24/7. I felt like someone else was ruling my mind and i couldn't escape it. but yes, fear and distress and anxiety 24/7, so painful... just thinking back makes me want to hug my past self really tightly. it was awful...
I went through this on a twin flame journey since beginning of April, i really needed this to change ,i am so thankful for all that i went through this journey 🙏 🙏 🙏 ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I needed this video! 6 years in, im still on stage 2, sometimes switching to stage one. My journey was triggered by meeting my Twin flame and feelings of oneness and union first.
I'm grateful you advised that this is not a linear experience, I started questioning how long this has actually been going on, but no matter how long, it didn't seem to line up with a linear approach. -- Thank you for this video!!
Thank you for this vid... I've been in The Dark Night Of The Soul for 25yrs and I think i'm finally entering stage 2 now. Hopefully, I'll come out the other side before I die of old age.
It's a process that many spend a lifetime going through, I find Dr Carl Jung's Red Book experience very insightful, its difficult to articulate to yourself the experience of going into the depths of ones self and face your shadow. I think anyone who does, should journal the experience like Dr Jung, he called it a great work. I find painting and or writing these inner turmoils in a journal of great help. Thank you for you insights.
i've journaled daily, sometimes twice daily since the very beginning. very grateful that I did because it accelerated the processing and resolution of my lessons
When arriving at stage 4 life becomes so easy, peaceful and clear. It took me 4 years to get through, however there is no way to push or accelerate this process. Ashtanga yoga, meditation, Eckhart, and just letting go my ego helped a lot. Letting go the ego self was the most scarying thing for me as it was strongly entangled with painful childhood trauma. My spiritual guide once said to me: 'forget the story about yourself'. This was an eyeopener for me, as by mind was stuck in a story, hindering my true self to see the beauty around me in the present. Love to all of you! ❤
"To live in the eternal present there must be death to the past, to memory. In this death there is timeless renewal." J. Krishnamurti "You are the world and the world is you." J. Krishnamurti
Great video. Thank you for sharing! Two words for this....Shadow Work. Bringing love to your fears and doubts feels intense but you are greater than them and that becomes the liberation you seek. You are being set up for greater joy and expansion, but it just feels like pain right now. God/Divine/Source/Universe isn't here to help you get around life, but THROUGH life...the light and the dark! Just coming out of a 2 year dark night myself. Hit me unexpected. Always have been a person of unbreakable faith, but life changes and some 3D "failures" and a health challenge called it all into question. Felt disconnected from my effortless faith and power to manifest...felt unworthy and inadequate. To anyone reading, practice shadow work. There are some great books on this. Debbie Ford's "The Dark Side of The Light Chasers" is a great start. Helped me recalibrate. Also,, Dr. Joe Dispenza's work.
This is sublime. I never really contextualised any of these experiences and soldiered through the hardest times simply accepting the pain and letting go of what I had to but this gives a different perspective to it all! Thank you, you are a beam of light 😇🙏💛
Thank you very much for this video. 4 years ago I woke almost completely blind in one eye. It was traumatizing and I still wake up and live in fear that I will lose vision in my one good eye. My bad eye never got better and is permanent. The first two years were hell. 4 months after my eye blew out i moved 600 miles away to be closer to my daughter but away from all family, friends and support. It’s been a very dark night and hearing this breakdown has made feel better and understand more of what I’m going thru. It is not linear. The last year has been purification with some walks in illumination and glimpses from afar at union. Everything I look at is distorted, I can’t judge distance and can’t drive at night. But I have a 7 year old daughter. I am so alone and no one is aware of the struggle I live with every waking moment. I don’t say this for sympathy I say this so that anyone that reads may choose love over hate or understanding instead of judgement. No one knows the struggles others live with. Live gracefully, help each other. The only way out of hell is thru it. Many times I’ve stopped walking and just let myself sit in the fire. You don’t know how long the walk with the devil is but the more you stop the longer it will be. Know what you love and walk toward its light.
thank you for this explanation. My event was the bank crash of 2008. Lost Business, Marriage and Home. Just found out about the Dark Night Of The Soul over the past few month. I am so grateful to have gone through all four stages without prior knowledge.
You have helped me clearly understand what I have been going through over the past 5 years or more. I have gone through some very dark events and am now experiencing truly beautiful personal wonders. I have struggled with making sense of it all. This video shed light and helped me see the bigger picture of how I have changed and grown spiritually. I feel inspired to get this all into a journal in order to map out my personal journey. I cannot thank you enough.
Thank you SO MUCH for sharing this with me. I'm so glad to hear the video resonated & helped you make sense of your experience. Journaling on this is a great idea. Sending you a huge huge hug!
On my illumination stage, i’m so confused when I experienced my new self and my old self fighting for each other. I’m experiencing two different habit. Now i want to surrender it to my higherself. Jay shambho
Ad 5:09 "You can start building something new and very, very different" - based on my experience, this is a recipe for the next dark night of the soul in the future. The state of just being gives my mind more inner peace than when it tries to build anything.
I’m passing through this experience now. I was on a spiritual high and a relationship with a woman who turned out to be a fraud. She was a man who hoodwinked me out of some money. And I fell for it because I was lonely and an alcoholic and wanted to help another alcoholic who was as it turned out a grifter and I suffer the loss still. But I will survive I see it all as a learning experience in this life. Wisdom comes with a price.
Thank you for this video, helped make sense of a very confusing 4 year long gruelling process that I’ve been going through. It has been incredibly messy, confusing, excruciatingly painful. So grateful to hear it’s not linear and varies in length as I tend to get hard on myself when I feel pulled back or that it’s taking “so long” to get through. I feel I’m in between stage 3-4 now.
Ive never heard of this until a few days ago, but Its so relieving to hear other people experience it and have it for years. It has been so incredibly hard to go through this but i am happy to have a name for it and feel relieved that i can come out of it better.
I’m so glad to hear this resonated & perhaps connected some of the dots. It’s a transformative experience (which is hard), but it’s rewarding long-term..
*** THANK YOU THIS WAS VERY HELPFUL*** Wow!!! I’m only in the dark night of the soul stage, I wasn’t spiritual or religious and have some personality flaws and core traits… I really appreciate this video. I have been reading about similar topics and had a good idea that I was experiencing something like this. But you did such a great job of explaining and laying it all out. I have ADD and more often times than I realize read or watch videos and completely zone out into different thoughts while watching. But as you explained it, it was fascinating, and I broke into tears when you explained the Dark Night of the Soul in the beginning. *** AGAIN THIS WAS VERY HELPFUL*** for my journey ahead.. I heard a man talk about this once on a UA-cam channel a few years ago, which was the beginning of my awakening and I didn’t realize. Much of my lessons had to be learned the hard way eye for and eye so to speak. I needed to personally experience what I had done to others in the past. My ego was BIG AF .. I’m a total” CHAD “so ego death taking 4 Ever… lol no seriously I’m very conscious of this character here on earth moving forward in Life. PS also a big thanks to mushrooms and LSD for opening my mind in ways I had closed off from society’s norms… I truly believe if not for theses phycodelics that my brain would not have began this shift in consciousness. 🍄
I went through all 4 and that lead me to make so many changes in my life and set boundaries with people. I went to University to pursue my dream career and I have been exposed to so many fears and challenges and fully felt like I went in to regression. It’s good to know I’m just in another stage of purification and illumination
@@WarriorNurturer-vg8fd no, when someone is violent for 5 years and wont take accountability, setting boundaries is not ego resistant. Its saying that ive had enough and its a necessary act of self-care and self-protection. Its dangerous to throw around accusations before understanding the premises of someones decision. You are invalidating peoples decisions and realities, so be careful of what you say because you could be harming innocent people...
Screaming at the window Watch me die another day Hopeless situation Endless price I have to pay A sickened mind and spirit The mirror tells me lies Could I mistake myself for someone Who lives behind my eyes? Will he escape my soul Or will he live in me? Is he trying to get out Or trying to enter me? Voices in the darkness Scream away my mental health Can I ask a question To help me save me from myself? [Chorus] Enemies fill up the pages Are they me? Monday till Sunday in stages Set me free, oh - diary of a madman Ozzy osbourne i've been this way been ten years to the day “I still see things that are not here. I just choose not to acknowledge them. Like a diet of the mind, I just choose not to indulge certain appetites; like my appetite for patterns; perhaps my appetite to imagine and to dream.” - John Nash
Appreciate the video. I was lucky to have my parents to talk to about my experience so I didn't go crazy or what not. Took almost a year for me to go through all of this... Came and went in waves... Super cool, super confusing... Good to have family to talk to.
i resonate with a lot of things you mentioned. it’s comforting to know there is other people that feel the same way! my dark night of the soul started about three years ago and it’s been rough. i am really proud of myself for the progress i made tho!
This happened to me 9 years ago. It lasted 9 months at the time because of my resistance to change. Now I am experiencing it again for the second time but in a different way, the first time was about a relationship. Now it’s about my spirituality and my path. Things I thought I was certain about it now I am not. I am in the middle of it trying to answer the big questions again about what is my path. It’s much less intense than the first but still challenging and full of doubts and confusion, but I’m telling myself this is temporary and soon things will be clear 🙏
Thank you for sharing. It’s absolutely temporary & the most important thing is to keeeep moving through it and not get stuck (or seduced/accustomed) to being stuck in suffering. Pain & suffering are 2 different things! 🙏🏻
Thank you. Yes, it has been circular, cyclical and simultaneous for me, too. At times, I wanted to die. But, I also know that I’m changing, becoming stronger, more “me.” Old habits resurface at times, but I am more aware of toxic patterns and have released toxic relationships, especially with my family and friends. Don’t give up. You are not alone. Metamorphosis is painful but liberating.
After spending the last 35yrs in horrible states of depression I never thought the dark night of the soul could be so so so much worse....I cant say I have come out with any new identity or plan for anything....just more confusion and shock as to why I fallen so terribly low at this stage in my life after constantly fighting to cure myself...to see everyone else's lives around me play out while I can't make a damned thing work in my own has been the most devastating....I think now that a very small percentage of people will never make their way out of the hole not matter what.....just now cling on the hope that maybe there is a purpose for me in the next life
Mine started in childhood and ended the day after the April eclipse of this year. Things are so different, so vibrant. Like I walked into another dimension
I'm travelling in this dark night of the soul process for about 5 years or more. I've been illuminated twice or more already, but once I reach the light, I feel I go even deeper into the dark than I went before. The illumination in me lasts about two days or less, and so I go for months or even years into the dark. I guess my actual purification process is almost over, since I've found almost all answers I was looking for. Now I guess I can wait for another awakening, as usual, but more comfortably than before, since I'm conscious that it may come at any moment. One point I emphasize is that we can't think the dark night of the soul is a process which ends. As the day, so the night. It comes and goes. St. John was one of the founders of Carmelites, and one of the principles of the order talks about being an eternal student. So we need to be always mind and heart opened to learn more and more, as the Infinite shows us things we previously didn't perceive even in the tiniest things. Beware, and eyes opened.
@@InnerResearcher I'm a screenwrirer and this idea comes up all the time. Most people don't get it, but you clearly do, so I will direct people to this video!
Thank you so much for this! I like how you said that the experience is not linear. It's been a long haul for me, 15 or so years. Love the comments too❤
Interesting. I have a second Dark Night now. I had my first one with 20, after losing my first love and got betrayed by some "friends". The first one took me over a year. Usually the night of the soul is a result of a deep traumatic experience. Now with 37, my world view, trust and everything good i believed in got shattered to the core. It took me 3 years to realize that im in another dark night and that i went trough hell, because it slowly creeped in this time. When i woke up out of this nightmare, i knew what i was facing and where i went wrong and from where the poison came from. Because this time, i wasn't the source.
the thing that you call: "dark night of the soul" is actually a dark night of the mind and emotions. The soul has no dark nights, it religiously and carefully follows the line of light. The mind and emotions, on the other hand, do not always manage to contain the stages and they therefore experience a lack or excess of stimulation or understanding. The emotions and the mind must receive an experience in a certain way and at a certain speed. If the soul takes us through a sharp, fast transition, and with too high an intensity of emotions, for example as in a birth canal, we experience emotional and cognitive darkness, a kind of overload (Kind of like passing out during high G in flight), until the flow of information synchronizes with our abilities. There are signs before its going to happen, so as soon as a person realizes that he is about to go through such a process, he must simply release his mind and emotions and surrender to the process. If he succeeds, the process will be much more faster (enjoyable/conscious?), but when it ends, like on a roller coaster, the person will just get up immediately and continue with his "new" life.
No. We must turn our back on everything of this world and put every ounce of our faith, trust, and hope in our Lord and Lady. We must rely solely on God.
@InnerResearcher The purpose of detachment, though, is total. Not partial. If we have earthly support, then we are not completely detached. I, too, have gone through the dark night. The unintentional wrong support of others would get into the way of what our Father is trying to work. We came into this world alone, and we will leave this world alone. And alone, we will be accountable. Therefore, in order to accomplish the Will of the Father that no one else can know, we must also go through this alone as uncomfortable and hard as it may be. Jesus suffered so much more, and we can offer our tears and sufferings up for Heaven to use. Our Father wastes nothing. May God bless you abundantly.
Really good vid and it made a lot more sense to me after hearing you say the process is not at all linear. I kicked off the awareness stage about 4 months ago with what I think was a pretty intense ego death (and a heavy spiritual experience to go along with it) and I feel like I've spent most of my journey so far in purification.
Dearest daughter, the problem with shadow work is that it never ends. We can’t really work on it because it is well hidden so it has to show itself first. In My experience without grace there’s no clarity or lasting happiness. I can only imagine that you have had grace. Most people don’t experience Grace. It could be a never-ending ego chasing itself unfortunately. Without grace I wish everyone, grace. 💞
Thank you, that's very enlightening! According to your description, I've been having various personality aspects of mine in different stages for over 2 decades. It's nauseating, to be frank. But at least now I know what these stages are.
I introspected about the two sides that fight within us. I saw a positive and negative system which create emotion as energy for day to day interactions. If they are fighting we lose. The key is in balance. Befriend these systems.
I've been on this road for over thirty years. Buddha went through years of searching before he found the path. Eckhart Tolle suffered from depression for most of his life until the night he asked himself a question. Read his first book to get the exact story or find his video description of it. Essentially he said to himself that he couldn't live with himself anymore. That statement made him ask the question "Who am I". He went to bed and awoke enlightened with no more suffering. My latest problem is that I want to let go of lots of possessions. Yet when I examine them, almost every thing in the boxes are things I sometimes use. Some more often than others. Everything I own fits in my rented bedroom, except for my motor scooter. So I don't have a lot of possessions. My fantasy is to live like the fictional characters Kwai Chang Caine of Kung Fu or Jack Reacher. All that they own is what they carry with them. My version wouldn't be as austere.
My divorce. Dark night of the soul. Fetal position. Deep bellows, Many years later, I’m a better soul. Clear. Available. Open. It was the worst part of my life. However, I’m grateful for lessons learned.
Great content 🥳 Breathwork(with facilitators like Sandy in UA-cam) helped me a lot during the dark times. Keep going, keep showing up for yourself. They're accumulating in a way that helps you along the Journey
Another thing I would like to mention is in studying Psychology a person can easily change there Mental condition by simply FOCUSING on How they actually Want to Feel. Your Thoughts influence your Feelings, so by Simply THINKING you want to Feel better, if you know that Focusing on Setting Goals for example, you can immediately put yourself into the State that you are Defining as "Purificaton". By Setting Goals, you start thinking about all the Possibilities. If you are too Depressed to set Goals, if you Meditate or Pray for an Hour, this is going to give you Hope, which will put you in a More Receptive State of Mind to begin to Set Goals which will make you Dream and Focus on all the Possibilities, maybe you can move into manefestation practices to further this effert at this point which will also give your Hope for the Future. My Point is we Control what we THINK about, What We Think about Influences how we Feel, which Influences our Actions, which in turn Influences our Beliefs. To sell and Idea or Concept that something is HAPPENING to you that is beyond your Control, is going to add to hopelessness and Depression. As soon as you accept that YOU ARE IN CONTOL, the you have the power to Control how you Think and How you Feel, which will change everything else in your Life Automatically. Attitude is Everything.
I went through all this on my own not understanding initially,I’d never heard of a twin flame.I learnt very quickly.She ran after six weeks,she knew what it was but didn’t tell me.all this has changed my life completely.everything about me altered I gained emotion,also other people’s emotions even from a distance.I wouldn’t want my children to go through this.Im so glad I went through this because my twin flame,she would have really struggled.I get sudden waves of sadness where I would cry normally only last a very short period.DNOTS can be lonely.
You have done a excellent job of bringing this whole process to the light. So much wisdom you expressed and in a manner that is easy to Relate to if you are genuinely going through this Transformation. Thank You very Much. 💜💯✌🏻
Mine started with a nervous breakdown it took me a month to recover enough to go back to work. Lost 6 kg and it was tough as I suffered cripling anxiety for weeks... it's almost a year and I am getting stronger. It brought me back to God... Jesus and Buddhist teachings were also very helpful as was stoic philosophy for me. I now see it as a positive thing. But it has been a tough experience.
Buddhist teachings are helpful indeed. And yes - it’s a very difficult and painful experience but once you get through the hardest, indeed you see it in a positive light. For me the 3 years were awful and painful but i would not take it back. I am forever changed!
St. John of the Cross' Dark Knight of the soul is the deepest book I've ever read. Some people think they are in a dark night but its more of a mental health thing.
I relate very much to the jumping process between the stages. In my case, I feel like a struggle btw illumination and purification, with some glimpses of Union. Thanks for sharing your knowledge and experience dear sister! Love from Brazil!!
Been a couple of years I start to worry this will never end … I feel stuck sometimes and sometimes going back and forth … some days I despair and feel I will never see the other side … or may be there is something wrong with me … I wish there was somebody to even talk to … oh well … keep going
thank you darling! it was a wonderful journey through a series of known experiences and states 😊 btw your smile is one of the most exquisite beauty of this fleeting world ❤
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02/06/2024: Question to you all lovely humans going through the Dark Night of the Soul. A viewer made a good point in the comments, asking if there are any support groups for this journey & mentioning that it would be nice to have people to talk to that are/have shared this experience. *I would like to create a support community*, even if it starts as a forum where we can talk to each other, get support/tips/advice, and such. If you would be interested: can you please let me know underneath this pinned post? Thank you! ❣
Thank you. I’m interested to participate in related support group
What if this cycle keep going?
Yes, please create a support group. It would save lives! God does not want us to go through this alone. Thank you.
Hi, I would be interested in being part of that group. I live in Sweden, so if there are some people in European Time Zone we could even create one for that zone, otherwise I can adapt to a North American Time Zone.
I am 47 year old, and I have gone through this process(es), and it feels apt to be of support of others. We all have different backgrounds and entries into spiritual development, I understood my process via Jungian Psychoanalysis practices in combination with Gnostic wisdom, thus I could be of support to anyone who feels comfortable with those topics.
Thanks for these videos and looking forward to be of support!
Yes this group sounds great!
I'm just emerging out of my own first dark night. Shook me to the core of my being. The most amount of suffering I've ever experienced.
But very transformative as well.
Even wrote a book about spiritual crisis which I'm gonna publish soon.
Thanks for this video ❤
Ohhh I so hear you. The most amount of suffering i’ve experienced, too… thank you for sharing & congrats on the book! ❤️
Can there be periodic dark night of the soul ? I had one period at the start of last year and I am going through one again now almost same as last year
@@sonya9478it goes on for years
@@sonya9478 absolutely!
Shook to the core. So true
Cool. 8 years of stage one. Should be done by the time I’m 70.
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Some of us won't pass stage 1. That's just the way it goes
hahaha
I read the law of one books and Seth speaks , it really helped .
Bless you James, I thought it was just me - I am stuck in stage one, currently end of year 3, starting the 4th year 😭. Definitely had spiritual emptiness, separation, lack of motivation, lost, ego death and tested. It does not feel temporary!
Not sure I will make it to 70 at this rate 🙈.
You are loved James, take care and I hope you come through the other side soon xx
That feeling when a stranger describes your most vulnerable experience. Thank you.
Glad to hear it resonated. You’re not alone in this ❤️
I had a conversation with my family last night about finding the purpose in life and I asked many existential questions about our lives. They just want me to follow the typical norm of getting a degree, find a job, make a living for life.
Recently, I had a spiritual awakening and everything I believed is crumbling down. I just feel like nothing even matters to me anymore. I just want to disassociate from the society to live in peace and be aligned with my true authentic self. Everybody calls me crazy. Eventually, the conversation turned into a heated argument, It was literally so depressing that I ended up leaving the room in tears. Later, I ended up spending the rest of the night alone in my room and spent a long time doing meditation to release the negativity.
Deep down, I do trust the process. It is all a part of the transformation for the greater good, if somebody can relate to this, I just want to say keep moving forward, the universe will reward those that dares to follow their hearts! Peace! 🙏
I can sooooo relate to this!!! And you are not crazy and not alone. Don’t follow the norm. It’s actually funny because this morning i shared exactly these same reflections as yours on my instagram. Time to move away from “reality” and “the norm”. 🙏🏻 you got this!!!!! Youre having this experience for a reason.
Are there any support groups for this journey? It would be nice to have people to talk to that are/have shared this experience
Good you family. Wish I had one. My parents died & I have no kids no wife
I went through this from 2012 to about 2020. It was AWFUL! I questioned everything. I wanted to go home but I didn't know where home actually was! I started getting lots of downloads and couldn't make sense of it. How it started was by being abused by a church pastor. It made me so lost and confused. And when I say it is difficult...it is traumatizing but not meant to hurt. It brings clarity. I no longer and religious. I do not go to church and will never again. My relationship with source is so amazing now! I looked for therapist for this but I found nothing.
OMG!!! I am exactly exactly exactly at the same place , thoughts of being done with this life are cropping up. I simply cannot live a typical life of society pleasing and looks like whatever I do, I keep ending up at a place where I am forced to do something that is soooo not me, now I am at a place where either I am supposed to produce a child or leave my marriage. I am torn apart, I want a peaceful life of spiritual growth and not a child who is causing pain and suffering to the world.
I was gonna write a 100K word comment. But I feel too exhausted right now. So, instead, I'm just gonna say thank you.
Sending you love and gratitude.
Lots of love back ❤️
Hang in there broski it gets better
Spiritual pain is gruelingly painful, but I wish you all not to give up. The freedom that comes from disconnecting from the ego releases you from the chains of suffering. Once you become aware that you are able to stop thoughts at will and that you are more than your thoughts, you will free yourselves from the false idea that your ego is your identity. You are so much more!
Absolutely 👏🏻
Yes. The thought you’re more than your ego is essentially the same thing as saying the identity making up my body is finite but I’m infinite since I have a spirit. Like that’s Christianity in a nut shell. Similar but different.
But here’s the dichotomy I suppose. If I’m assuming I have no identity or ego and am a mere traveler through this journey of life why care? Some Asians I’ve listened to said you don’t get sad if you don’t get attached. Well I’ve Stopped being attached to most things but there are side affects. You can then wake up at 2 in the afternoon or not care to do even the basic things you used to enjoy in life like spend time in nature. Why spend time doing old things that used to be enjoyable when it’s attached to the ego? If you’re without ego you might as well just perish or disappear into the abyss as you remove attachments from your life why even live in the first place as you remove ego and identify and destroy your life? Really if you aren’t the old person anymore why do anything if you’re nothing? It’s like death seems like the logical thing if your life has ended already and you’ve disassociated with your old life.
This idea of the dark night of the soul reminds me of the idea of the sorrowing of the damned where humans mourn in life devoid of any desire.
The talk according to the desire of the heart by Neal a Maxwell I heard years ago talks about that idea. His use of English is also very poetic.
@@koltoncrane3099You could try letting go of the idea that it's "Your Life". Allow something deeper to live you. This might help what you "Do" to be more intuitive and harmonious. 🙏
You will never “stop thought at will” it’s a foolish game. Instead try not identifying and unlock from the story.
The point about the process being non-linear is very important; one may feel that they've completed the process, only to be surprised by another 'peeling back' of inner layers.
Thanks for making this.
Absolutely!!
This is why many people feel they've been through more than one "Dark Night" event throughout their lives.
Thank you for saying this. I felt like I went in my dark night and came out so quickly. Now I’m having more things stirring up and I was frustrated because I thought it was over. I needed to hear this too
Yes that’s me … as soon as I think oh wow at last … I get hit with another round …
Exactly 👍🏻
With 3 years of experience the dark night of the soul and still going on, I can say that anyone who enters these stages will never, ever want to back to previous version.
And what really calmed me sometimes was prayer.
God bless you.
Yes yes yes!! Amen to this 🙏🏻
My dark night of the soul probably started when I was 11 years old. I'm now in my mid thirties and I'm finally beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. This road has been rough, but the intense bliss that I'm now open to feeling is amazing, nothing prior in my life can compare to it. I still get days of intense difficult emotions, but because my heart is more open than ever and I rely on my intellect far less, I can now be with the powerful feelings and trust that something good is happening.
Wow. Thank you for sharing & wonderful to hear that the bliss you feel is nothing you can compare it too. Beautiful!!
@@InnerResearcher :)
Im sure mine started also at 10/11… now I’m 32, female.. this 2 past years have been daark dark.
I’m feeling I’m transforming into a new human and still not sure at all who I am.
@@Starstorm111 My heart goes out to you, :).
@@RitamBuchwaldthankyou❤
12 years in and started with a divorce, loss of my home then my second home, loss of my friends, my career, my beloved dogs, you name it. I was down to a couple of friends and living with my mom. That a couple of years of really stupid decisions and finally got down to business. I feel like I’m stage three for sure.
Thank you for sharing. Sounds like a very big "purification" stage. You got this!
we are not our story it's just a soap opera....
Wow very intense ❤ holy fire and purification, I had things similar happen. In astrology if you have major Capricorn placements you would have also dealt with the Pluto transit which is generally h*ll…🕊🕊🕊 prayers for restoration and renewal
Mine was triggered 8 years ago the day I decided a paradigm shift in my life, I wanted change. It resulted in divorce, abandonment, job lost, houses, cars, friends...It's been a journel in Hell. I thought I was cursed. No delivrance or prayers could help. Until I started surrendering and now I feel a tremendous peace and I can feel that the light is coming...
I feel you lol.
I suppose sudden death of finance, diagnosis of a chronic illness, loss of career and house, as well as financial stability is all the stuff I needed. And I have not gotten to the end, but I have moved through so much of this and changed a lot. I believe I have gone through the purification part.. but I am stuck at the end, sort of not paralyzed mentally, but unable to literally act to make changes so needed. I was a therapist , and that is one thing I am thinking about doing now, because having to move through to action can be very hard. Yes.. I am absolutely in that stage of the push and pull in making moves to commit to my self, I can’t go back, no way, but it is hard to go forward.. thus.. a bit stuck.
Thank you so much for this. My dark night of the soul started as a teenager in the early 90's. It has been the most confusing, disturbing journey and I thought I was losing my mind sometimes. I felt isolated and alone for many years, not realising that it is a normal thing that many people go through. I feel if I had videos like this to help back in the 90's, I would have gotten through this quicker but of course there was limited access to Internet and no UA-cam back then. I feel this video and your channel is helping so many people now to navigate their experiences. Thank you for all your hard work and research Gabie 🙏❤️
I'm glad to hear it was helpful ❤️ thank you for the kind words
I think of it as God's induced fasting from the feeling of his presence and protection. You are in the Trial of Job. The feeling of absence of a higher power is profoundly painful and empty. But ultimately necessary and beautiful. This is only the feeling of, He is never truly gone. Much like a father that lets his child learn on their own. Pieces of you are meant to fall away. It is a marathon, it is a graduation, it is enlightenment. You will then turn to him and say, "I get it now, thank you" and are ultimately grateful.
I am experiencing dark night of soul from my spiritual practices. Which is also accompanied by what in Hinduism is called Anahata Nad (unstruck sound heard in the ears). When long forgotten memories came to my conscious. I was at first confused what I was suppose to do with those memories. Then something inside told me all I have to do is witness the feelings from those memories again. Just witness the sadness, fear or confusion of those memories. Don't let the mind try to relive or resolve those memories. Because the memories themselves are no longer valid in the NOW. Its only the feelings from the memories that need be dissipated.
Does the sound heard in the ear resemble a very high pitched beeeeeeepppp.... ? And goes away after few seconds?
@@asmitachatterjee4229 The sound is more or less constant.
I think what you wrote was the perspective I needed to hear right now. Thank you for sharing!
I recommend you to read some material of and about Gurdjieff
Thanks a lot for this video. 6 years of intense grief and trauma via many channels left me in a smoking crater that was once my life. Been on a real ride ever since and have found myself almost appreciating the challenges life threw at me. Your video has helped greatly as I’ve unknowingly been in the internal ‘push pull’ of stage 3 without realising it and at times it’s been very confusing. Gaining confidence in my new path. Thanks again, your video has helped me keep faith that I’m doing the right things.
Thank you for explaining so well what happens when we begin to awaken to our true selves. I had no idea at the time what was happening but I knew that it was something very unique and I gave into it. At the time I was told I had six months to live. That was nine years ago, my body and mind healed and I went from forgetting my grandchildren’s names to I going through college and getting my bachelor degree in psychology. If you are having trouble getting through it just give in and let it happen. The one who relaxes most wins. 🙏❤️🙏
This is so informative! A year ago I had my dark night of the soul and I can safely say I am now in union. I can’t see life the same. I never ever thought I was going to see 2024, it was that bad! But I have worked hard. I wouldn’t say I’m out of the woods yet but anything is better than the first 2 stages
Im glad this helped & indeed… anything is better than first 2 stages 😅
Good stuff. I went through my own dark night. Couldn't afford therapy though. UA-cam videos have helped a lot.
Can you talk about the void stage in relation to the dark night of the soul? When the intensity has slowed down after a rough year+ but nothing has shifted in your external?
I’m experiencing the dark night of the soul right now as I am going through a financial crisis. It doesn’t mean that I lose the ability to work and earn. Rather, I actually can have a stable income and enjoy a kind of nice life as a school teacher. Yet I quitted. I started a small business. And now I suddenly lose the motivation to keep doing all of these. As I found that the old game I am playing doesn’t make any sense to me any more. I have bill to pay yet I dont have enough financial support as my business is stuck, and yet I dont want to go back to teach in school, even though my family think that I am crazy. I just kind of feel like I am floating in the dark emptiness without knowing the direction to go to. But somehow I am glad to finally figure out that the stage I am going through now is called the dark night of the soul. I guess there are also some people are experiencing this like me. I sincerely wish that these people out there can find a way out someday and live a new life with stronger meaning and power, so do I.
Hang in there, the more you hold to the old ways more difficult it becomes
It’s a house of cards falling apart, it’s the best version and truly you opening space to transform your life and boy, it’s gonna challenge all your believes but you’re claiming for this change for so long and it’s here, the process is brutal for some like me but it’s sublime in the end ❤
@@Ladykrypto thank you🙏🏻
I'm bawling my eyes right now with so many emotions, I'm a mess
XXX
Me too... Going through deep shit... From all Quarters. Hugs for You.
Hang in there. Sending love. XOXO
Tears are good. They contain salt...the physical representation of suppressed emotions. In spiritual alchemy, salt is the body. Get that crap out of you! You can do this. Have faith.
I'm glad you talked about the variety in length and the jumping between stages. I'm 32, 14 years deep and I was stuck for a good 10 years. the last 4 I have jumped between stages and am now starting to come through the other side. Love the video, all the best from New Zealand ☺
I guess I'm still stuck in the first stage it's been years and years. All I want to do is sleep. I haven't felt happy or excited in probably 8 years. I lost my two beautiful dogs who were like my children and my abusive parents. I divorced from a man similar to my parents years ago. I just feel numb.
I'm sorry. Going through a lot of loss too.
How are you doing today? Hope you're on a path to feeling better :) sending you lots of love
Good job. The dark night of the soul whether realized or not in a time / space context, in reality, is a life long process.
absolutely :)
A necessary process to realize the enormity of God s love. ❤️❤️
Thank you. This video is on time. I heard about this many years ago but didn't think much of it. After this video I realize I've been bouncing through this since childhood. The last 2 years excruciating, I would often say if I didn't know myself, I would be convinced I was on drugs.
I can very much relate to “if i didn’t know myself i’d be convinced i was on drugs’…
Excruciating. That's how I'd describe it all. To me, every stage is happening at the same time. I keep on going back and forth through it all.
Same. It’s like a non ending inner fluctuation with moments of incredible clarity, moments of confusion, massive emotional pain, peace, terror, clarity again.. hope, terror.. yes very excruciating
I'm so sorry to hear and i agree. My process as well was excruciating & i couldn't make sense of it all. it's such deep and intense pain. but we must persevere... there' is a reason we're going through this.
@@Starstorm111I hear ya it’s been a month! I can’t stop crying
@@nicolelang3109keep going.. let it all out..
This is how it’s felt for me… excruciating, messy, confusing, all happening at once, and back & forth between all the stages... Almost 4 years now.
One must shed the old skin without caution and realize who you will be when it’s over, is unknowable. Lean in like learning to dive into water, speak in public, or entering a haunted house. This too shall pass. Don’t fight it. Let yourself n ego die bcuz it needs to perish - to be reborn. Love you. Peace ✌️
Spot on! Shed the old skin - perfectly said 🙏🏻
Thank you for shedding some light on the illumination stage. I was so happy to leave the dark night and enter this New World, but there’s still confusion as a search for the right path and try to clarify my true purpose. I keep turning to the Lord for guidance as I navigate, thankful for the entire journey and for all the love.
I so hear you! And glad the video resonated 🙏🏻
For the last two years I’ve had nothing but trauma. Lost everything, ended up broke. Relationship crumbled and left me in the most excruciating state. I cannot explain the feelings I went through it was like anxiety, depression, dissociation combined with insomnia. It forced me to wake up and question my whole existence. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now as I am close to the other side.
Question 🙋 did anyone experience like an uncomfortable feeling in the solar plexus all the way up to the throat chakra ?? Been dealing with this very uncomfortable sensation I have tried to unblock it through reiki however it just seems to stay there I’m thinking it’s something I just have to sit with and allow the gestation period.
On another note I have changed as a person and I have become a light to family and friends, I’ve developed strength and character and understanding of the connectedness of the universe. I wish you all love and light through your dark period ❤
wow. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing this & being so open. I can relate to absolutely eeeeeverything that you just described. In regards to your question: experiencing an uncomfortable feeling in the solar plexus all the way up to the throat chakra -- yes OH YES. For a period of time. I also did energy work and such, but really it started going away when I started standing up for myself, not betraying my own needs, and stepping into my own vision/values/what was important to me. So much of the uncomfortable feeling that I experienced was when I was stuck in this sad "victim" mode, putting myself behind everyone else, and tooootally abandoning my own needs and priorities.
Thank you so much for sharing & there absolutely is a light at the end of the tunnel. my dark night of the soul was excruciatingly painful & difficult, but now that i'm on the other side, I can see it was the biggest gift & transformation...
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Hi yes feel the same sensation from solar plexus to the throat chakra. It’s good to know it’s a thing! ❤
@@InnerResearcherDid you have racing fearful thoughts?
@@theanonymoushelpline7248 racing fearful thoughts almost feels like an understatement hah. I had a raceful fearful obsessive mind. 24/7. I felt like someone else was ruling my mind and i couldn't escape it. but yes, fear and distress and anxiety 24/7, so painful... just thinking back makes me want to hug my past self really tightly. it was awful...
I went through this on a twin flame journey since beginning of April, i really needed this to change ,i am so thankful for all that i went through this journey 🙏 🙏 🙏 ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Beautiful!! Once you get to the other side & have transformed, you can’t imagine now having gone through this!! ❤️❤️
I needed this video! 6 years in, im still on stage 2, sometimes switching to stage one. My journey was triggered by meeting my Twin flame and feelings of oneness and union first.
I'm grateful you advised that this is not a linear experience, I started questioning how long this has actually been going on, but no matter how long, it didn't seem to line up with a linear approach. -- Thank you for this video!!
Happy to help!
Thank you for this vid... I've been in The Dark Night Of The Soul for 25yrs and I think i'm finally entering stage 2 now. Hopefully, I'll come out the other side before I die of old age.
It's a process that many spend a lifetime going through, I find Dr Carl Jung's Red Book experience very insightful, its difficult to articulate to yourself the experience of going into the depths of ones self and face your shadow. I think anyone who does, should journal the experience like Dr Jung, he called it a great work. I find painting and or writing these inner turmoils in a journal of great help. Thank you for you insights.
Absolutely. I've journaled about the whole experience as well & it helped me get through it as well.
i've journaled daily, sometimes twice daily since the very beginning. very grateful that I did because it accelerated the processing and resolution of my lessons
When arriving at stage 4 life becomes so easy, peaceful and clear. It took me 4 years to get through, however there is no way to push or accelerate this process. Ashtanga yoga, meditation, Eckhart, and just letting go my ego helped a lot. Letting go the ego self was the most scarying thing for me as it was strongly entangled with painful childhood trauma.
My spiritual guide once said to me: 'forget the story about yourself'. This was an eyeopener for me, as by mind was stuck in a story, hindering my true self to see the beauty around me in the present. Love to all of you! ❤
"forget the story about yourself" - powerful!!
"To live in the eternal present there must be death to the past, to memory. In this death there is timeless renewal." J. Krishnamurti
"You are the world and the world is you." J. Krishnamurti
beautiful!
Great video. Thank you for sharing! Two words for this....Shadow Work. Bringing love to your fears and doubts feels intense but you are greater than them and that becomes the liberation you seek. You are being set up for greater joy and expansion, but it just feels like pain right now. God/Divine/Source/Universe isn't here to help you get around life, but THROUGH life...the light and the dark! Just coming out of a 2 year dark night myself. Hit me unexpected. Always have been a person of unbreakable faith, but life changes and some 3D "failures" and a health challenge called it all into question. Felt disconnected from my effortless faith and power to manifest...felt unworthy and inadequate. To anyone reading, practice shadow work. There are some great books on this. Debbie Ford's "The Dark Side of The Light Chasers" is a great start. Helped me recalibrate. Also,, Dr. Joe Dispenza's work.
Thank you. And I absolutely agree - shadow work is very important!
This is sublime. I never really contextualised any of these experiences and soldiered through the hardest times simply accepting the pain and letting go of what I had to but this gives a different perspective to it all! Thank you, you are a beam of light 😇🙏💛
Thank you for taking such a highly abstract subject and presenting it in a clear and direct way.
Thank you for the kind words & glad to hear it resonated 🙏🏻
Thank you very much for this video. 4 years ago I woke almost completely blind in one eye. It was traumatizing and I still wake up and live in fear that I will lose vision in my one good eye. My bad eye never got better and is permanent. The first two years were hell. 4 months after my eye blew out i moved 600 miles away to be closer to my daughter but away from all family, friends and support. It’s been a very dark night and hearing this breakdown has made feel better and understand more of what I’m going thru. It is not linear. The last year has been purification with some walks in illumination and glimpses from afar at union. Everything I look at is distorted, I can’t judge distance and can’t drive at night. But I have a 7 year old daughter. I am so alone and no one is aware of the struggle I live with every waking moment. I don’t say this for sympathy I say this so that anyone that reads may choose love over hate or understanding instead of judgement. No one knows the struggles others live with. Live gracefully, help each other. The only way out of hell is thru it. Many times I’ve stopped walking and just let myself sit in the fire. You don’t know how long the walk with the devil is but the more you stop the longer it will be. Know what you love and walk toward its light.
Thank you for sharing. Sending you lots of love.
thank you for this explanation. My event was the bank crash of 2008. Lost Business, Marriage and Home. Just found out about the Dark Night Of The Soul over the past few month. I am so grateful to have gone through all four stages without prior knowledge.
You have helped me clearly understand what I have been going through over the past 5 years or more.
I have gone through some very dark events and am now experiencing truly beautiful personal wonders.
I have struggled with making sense of it all.
This video shed light and helped me see the bigger picture of how I have changed and grown spiritually. I feel inspired to get this all into a journal in order to map out my personal journey.
I cannot thank you enough.
Thank you SO MUCH for sharing this with me. I'm so glad to hear the video resonated & helped you make sense of your experience. Journaling on this is a great idea. Sending you a huge huge hug!
On my illumination stage, i’m so confused when I experienced my new self and my old self fighting for each other. I’m experiencing two different habit. Now i want to surrender it to my higherself.
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I so understand you. It’s like a push and pull - but at least now there is a NEW self to work/fight towards 🙏🏻 you got this
Ad 5:09 "You can start building something new and very, very different" - based on my experience, this is a recipe for the next dark night of the soul in the future. The state of just being gives my mind more inner peace than when it tries to build anything.
You can be in a place of surrender/peace - and as a result this state builds the next chapter. No need to "force" or "work" towards the building :)
I love my heart mind, body and soul.
Beautiful
8 years in now and feel I'm in stage 3, what a journey 🙏🌌 give thanks for the dark and light 🙏
What a journey indeed!!!
I’m passing through this experience now. I was on a spiritual high and a relationship with a woman who turned out to be a fraud. She was a man who hoodwinked me out of some money. And I fell for it because I was lonely and an alcoholic and wanted to help another alcoholic who was as it turned out a grifter and I suffer the loss still. But I will survive I see it all as a learning experience in this life. Wisdom comes with a price.
Thank you for sharing. You got this 🙏🏻
Thank you for this video, helped make sense of a very confusing 4 year long gruelling process that I’ve been going through. It has been incredibly messy, confusing, excruciatingly painful. So grateful to hear it’s not linear and varies in length as I tend to get hard on myself when I feel pulled back or that it’s taking “so long” to get through. I feel I’m in between stage 3-4 now.
I’m glad to hear it resonated 🙏🏻
Ive never heard of this until a few days ago, but Its so relieving to hear other people experience it and have it for years. It has been so incredibly hard to go through this but i am happy to have a name for it and feel relieved that i can come out of it better.
I’m so glad to hear this resonated & perhaps connected some of the dots. It’s a transformative experience (which is hard), but it’s rewarding long-term..
*** THANK YOU THIS WAS VERY HELPFUL***
Wow!!! I’m only in the dark night of the soul stage, I wasn’t spiritual or religious and have some personality flaws and core traits… I really appreciate this video. I have been reading about similar topics and had a good idea that I was experiencing something like this.
But you did such a great job of explaining and laying it all out. I have ADD and more often times than I realize read or watch videos and completely zone out into different thoughts while watching. But as you explained it, it was fascinating, and I broke into tears when you explained the Dark Night of the Soul in the beginning.
*** AGAIN THIS WAS VERY HELPFUL*** for my journey ahead.. I heard a man talk about this once on a UA-cam channel a few years ago, which was the beginning of my awakening and I didn’t realize. Much of my lessons had to be learned the hard way eye for and eye so to speak. I needed to personally experience what I had done to others in the past. My ego was BIG AF .. I’m a total” CHAD “so ego death taking 4 Ever… lol no seriously I’m very conscious of this character here on earth moving forward in Life.
PS also a big thanks to mushrooms and LSD for opening my mind in ways I had closed off from society’s norms… I truly believe if not for theses phycodelics that my brain would not have began this shift in consciousness. 🍄
Since 2012.1st in 2014 and 2nd in 2020.Thank you..Illuminating Spirit. Most of my life journey dots connected. ❤🙏
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Yup 2012 was a trigger for dark night of the soul for many people! Including me.
I went through all 4 and that lead me to make so many changes in my life and set boundaries with people. I went to University to pursue my dream career and I have been exposed to so many fears and challenges and fully felt like I went in to regression. It’s good to know I’m just in another stage of purification and illumination
Boundaries are not involved. That's ego resistance.
@@WarriorNurturer-vg8fd no, when someone is violent for 5 years and wont take accountability, setting boundaries is not ego resistant. Its saying that ive had enough and its a necessary act of self-care and self-protection. Its dangerous to throw around accusations before understanding the premises of someones decision. You are invalidating peoples decisions and realities, so be careful of what you say because you could be harming innocent people...
@@kim.mie. I never said do not create space through your absence.
Thank you so much for making this video!!
my pleasure!
Screaming at the window Watch me die another day
Hopeless situation Endless price I have to pay
A sickened mind and spirit
The mirror tells me lies
Could I mistake myself for someone Who lives behind my eyes?
Will he escape my soul Or will he live in me? Is he trying to get out Or trying to enter me?
Voices in the darkness
Scream away my mental health
Can I ask a question
To help me save me from myself?
[Chorus]
Enemies fill up the pages
Are they me?
Monday till Sunday in stages
Set me free, oh
- diary of a madman Ozzy osbourne
i've been this way been ten years to the day
“I still see things that are not here. I just choose not to acknowledge them. Like a diet of the mind, I just choose not to indulge certain appetites; like my appetite for patterns; perhaps my appetite to imagine and to dream.” - John Nash
Thanks!
Thank you 🥰
Thank you so much for this video! I’m on phase 3, it’s been 12 painful years!!
Glad it resonated & wishing you all the best on your journey 🙏🏻 there’s a reason you’re going through this!
Appreciate the video. I was lucky to have my parents to talk to about my experience so I didn't go crazy or what not. Took almost a year for me to go through all of this... Came and went in waves... Super cool, super confusing... Good to have family to talk to.
Wow - thank you for sharing! 100% it’s great you had someone like your family to talk to. My mother also supported me a lot and it helped so much 🙏🏻
i resonate with a lot of things you mentioned. it’s comforting to know there is other people that feel the same way! my dark night of the soul started about three years ago and it’s been rough. i am really proud of myself for the progress i made tho!
I’m glad it resonated and you should be proud!!
This happened to me 9 years ago. It lasted 9 months at the time because of my resistance to change. Now I am experiencing it again for the second time but in a different way, the first time was about a relationship. Now it’s about my spirituality and my path. Things I thought I was certain about it now I am not. I am in the middle of it trying to answer the big questions again about what is my path. It’s much less intense than the first but still challenging and full of doubts and confusion, but I’m telling myself this is temporary and soon things will be clear 🙏
Thank you for sharing. It’s absolutely temporary & the most important thing is to keeeep moving through it and not get stuck (or seduced/accustomed) to being stuck in suffering. Pain & suffering are 2 different things! 🙏🏻
This is 100 % accurate for my experience. Mine was five, long years.And looking back, I don't see how I could have made it go faster.
I hear you. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻
This is absolutely spot on and extremely well done.
Thank you!!!
Thank you. Yes, it has been circular, cyclical and simultaneous for me, too. At times, I wanted to die. But, I also know that I’m changing, becoming stronger, more “me.” Old habits resurface at times, but I am more aware of toxic patterns and have released toxic relationships, especially with my family and friends. Don’t give up. You are not alone. Metamorphosis is painful but liberating.
Perfectly said -- becoming stronger, more “me.” ❤ absolutely!
The best and clearest explanation of this experience in life❤
A huge compliment… thank you ❤️
After spending the last 35yrs in horrible states of depression I never thought the dark night of the soul could be so so so much worse....I cant say I have come out with any new identity or plan for anything....just more confusion and shock as to why I fallen so terribly low at this stage in my life after constantly fighting to cure myself...to see everyone else's lives around me play out while I can't make a damned thing work in my own has been the most devastating....I think now that a very small percentage of people will never make their way out of the hole not matter what.....just now cling on the hope that maybe there is a purpose for me in the next life
One of the best videos I’ve seen on the topic
Thank you. This means a lot & i’m glad to hear you could relate. 🙏🏻
My first time hearing of this concept. I finally understand what is going on with me right now! Thank you for the insightful video!
Glad to hear it resonated 🙏🏻
Mine started in childhood and ended the day after the April eclipse of this year. Things are so different, so vibrant. Like I walked into another dimension
A different dimensions indeed!!
I'm travelling in this dark night of the soul process for about 5 years or more. I've been illuminated twice or more already, but once I reach the light, I feel I go even deeper into the dark than I went before. The illumination in me lasts about two days or less, and so I go for months or even years into the dark.
I guess my actual purification process is almost over, since I've found almost all answers I was looking for. Now I guess I can wait for another awakening, as usual, but more comfortably than before, since I'm conscious that it may come at any moment.
One point I emphasize is that we can't think the dark night of the soul is a process which ends. As the day, so the night. It comes and goes.
St. John was one of the founders of Carmelites, and one of the principles of the order talks about being an eternal student. So we need to be always mind and heart opened to learn more and more, as the Infinite shows us things we previously didn't perceive even in the tiniest things.
Beware, and eyes opened.
Eternal student indeed 🙏🏻
Great video! I appreciate your being so vulnerable!
Thank you!
@@InnerResearcher I'm a screenwrirer and this idea comes up all the time. Most people don't get it, but you clearly do, so I will direct people to this video!
So well explained... I'm still in the process. It's definitely not linear and I've found there can be a lot of overlap.
Thank you so much 😊
My pleasure & thank you!!!
This was really good! I have the book but takes a long time to go through especially when you are mentally exhausted all the time.
Thank you & i hear you!!
Thank you. This helped me with my own Dark Night of the Soul experience.
I’m glad to hear it was helpful 🙏🏻
Thank you so much for this! I like how you said that the experience is not linear. It's been a long haul for me, 15 or so years. Love the comments too❤
Thank you for watching & i’m glad it resonated. I love the comments too! ❤️
This was freakishly accurate.
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I had no idea this was the beginning of the stages I started in August. Your video was so enlightening, thank you💙💙
Happy to hear it resonated ❤️
Interesting. I have a second Dark Night now. I had my first one with 20, after losing my first love and got betrayed by some "friends". The first one took me over a year.
Usually the night of the soul is a result of a deep traumatic experience.
Now with 37, my world view, trust and everything good i believed in got shattered to the core. It took me 3 years to realize that im in another dark night and that i went trough hell, because it slowly creeped in this time. When i woke up out of this nightmare, i knew what i was facing and where i went wrong and from where the poison came from. Because this time, i wasn't the source.
...a bit like the 5, (I think,) stages of grief. I find acceptance so helpful.
indeed, very helpful (and necessary!)
the thing that you call: "dark night of the soul" is actually a dark night of the mind and emotions.
The soul has no dark nights, it religiously and carefully follows the line of light.
The mind and emotions, on the other hand, do not always manage to contain the stages and they therefore experience a lack or excess of stimulation or understanding.
The emotions and the mind must receive an experience in a certain way and at a certain speed.
If the soul takes us through a sharp, fast transition, and with too high an intensity of emotions, for example as in a birth canal, we experience emotional and cognitive darkness, a kind of overload (Kind of like passing out during high G in flight), until the flow of information synchronizes with our abilities.
There are signs before its going to happen, so as soon as a person realizes that he is about to go through such a process, he must simply release his mind and emotions and surrender to the process.
If he succeeds, the process will be much more faster (enjoyable/conscious?), but when it ends, like on a roller coaster, the person will just get up immediately and continue with his "new" life.
Are there any support groups for this journey? It would be nice to have people to talk to that are/have shared this experience
Ohhh, not that I know of. But honestly… this isn’t a bad idea. I would have love on myself. Should i make a support group? 🤔
Yes. Make a support group.
No. We must turn our back on everything of this world and put every ounce of our faith, trust, and hope in our Lord and Lady. We must rely solely on God.
@@DAIHSSMITH community is essential in healing, especially collective healing :) no man is an island.
@InnerResearcher The purpose of detachment, though, is total. Not partial. If we have earthly support, then we are not completely detached. I, too, have gone through the dark night. The unintentional wrong support of others would get into the way of what our Father is trying to work. We came into this world alone, and we will leave this world alone. And alone, we will be accountable. Therefore, in order to accomplish the Will of the Father that no one else can know, we must also go through this alone as uncomfortable and hard as it may be. Jesus suffered so much more, and we can offer our tears and sufferings up for Heaven to use. Our Father wastes nothing. May God bless you abundantly.
Really good vid and it made a lot more sense to me after hearing you say the process is not at all linear. I kicked off the awareness stage about 4 months ago with what I think was a pretty intense ego death (and a heavy spiritual experience to go along with it) and I feel like I've spent most of my journey so far in purification.
Im happy to hear the video resonated & wonderful that you’ve been able to reflect it on your own journey! Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻
Dearest daughter, the problem with shadow work is that it never ends. We can’t really work on it because it is well hidden so it has to show itself first. In My experience without grace there’s no clarity or lasting happiness. I can only imagine that you have had grace. Most people don’t experience Grace. It could be a never-ending ego chasing itself unfortunately. Without grace I wish everyone, grace. 💞
Shadow work never ends indeed & grace is important too 🙏🏻
Thank you, that's very enlightening! According to your description, I've been having various personality aspects of mine in different stages for over 2 decades. It's nauseating, to be frank. But at least now I know what these stages are.
Thank you for sharing. It’s a challenging experience indeed, but hopefully when you can name it and know what “it” is, it provides some clarity..
I can’t wait until everyone wakes up to themselves… it’s magic
yes yes yes!! absolutely magic!
Are you in that stage?
I introspected about the two sides that fight within us. I saw a positive and negative system which create emotion as energy for day to day interactions. If they are fighting we lose. The key is in balance. Befriend these systems.
Befriend these systems!!! 🙏🏻
I've been on this road for over thirty years. Buddha went through years of searching before he found the path. Eckhart Tolle suffered from depression for most of his life until the night he asked himself a question. Read his first book to get the exact story or find his video description of it. Essentially he said to himself that he couldn't live with himself anymore. That statement made him ask the question "Who am I". He went to bed and awoke enlightened with no more suffering.
My latest problem is that I want to let go of lots of possessions. Yet when I examine them, almost every thing in the boxes are things I sometimes use. Some more often than others. Everything I own fits in my rented bedroom, except for my motor scooter. So I don't have a lot of possessions. My fantasy is to live like the fictional characters Kwai Chang Caine of Kung Fu or Jack Reacher. All that they own is what they carry with them. My version wouldn't be as austere.
My divorce. Dark night of the soul. Fetal position. Deep bellows, Many years later, I’m a better soul. Clear. Available. Open. It was the worst part of my life. However, I’m grateful for lessons learned.
Beautiful. And i feel the same way - worst part but incredibly grateful. 🙏🏻
Great content 🥳 Breathwork(with facilitators like Sandy in UA-cam) helped me a lot during the dark times. Keep going, keep showing up for yourself. They're accumulating in a way that helps you along the Journey
Thank you for gift of who you are
Deepest Love, Prayers & Blessings
Blessings 🙏🏻
Another thing I would like to mention is in studying Psychology a person can easily change there Mental condition by simply FOCUSING on How they actually Want to Feel. Your Thoughts influence your Feelings, so by Simply THINKING you want to Feel better, if you know that Focusing on Setting Goals for example, you can immediately put yourself into the State that you are Defining as "Purificaton". By Setting Goals, you start thinking about all the Possibilities. If you are too Depressed to set Goals, if you Meditate or Pray for an Hour, this is going to give you Hope, which will put you in a More Receptive State of Mind to begin to Set Goals which will make you Dream and Focus on all the Possibilities, maybe you can move into manefestation practices to further this effert at this point which will also give your Hope for the Future. My Point is we Control what we THINK about, What We Think about Influences how we Feel, which Influences our Actions, which in turn Influences our Beliefs. To sell and Idea or Concept that something is HAPPENING to you that is beyond your Control, is going to add to hopelessness and Depression. As soon as you accept that YOU ARE IN CONTOL, the you have the power to Control how you Think and How you Feel, which will change everything else in your Life Automatically. Attitude is Everything.
I went through all this on my own not understanding initially,I’d never heard of a twin flame.I learnt very quickly.She ran after six weeks,she knew what it was but didn’t tell me.all this has changed my life completely.everything about me altered I gained emotion,also other people’s emotions even from a distance.I wouldn’t want my children to go through this.Im so glad I went through this because my twin flame,she would have really struggled.I get sudden waves of sadness where I would cry normally only last a very short period.DNOTS can be lonely.
Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻
Thanks for the video...given me some perspective n understanding on wot im going thru' right now! Thanks
Glad it resonated 🙏🏻
You have done a excellent job of bringing this whole process to the light. So much wisdom you expressed and in a manner that is easy to Relate to if you are genuinely going through this Transformation. Thank You very Much. 💜💯✌🏻
I’m so happy to hear this - thank you so much for your kind words!! 🩷
Mine started with a nervous breakdown it took me a month to recover enough to go back to work. Lost 6 kg and it was tough as I suffered cripling anxiety for weeks... it's almost a year and I am getting stronger. It brought me back to God... Jesus and Buddhist teachings were also very helpful as was stoic philosophy for me. I now see it as a positive thing. But it has been a tough experience.
Buddhist teachings are helpful indeed. And yes - it’s a very difficult and painful experience but once you get through the hardest, indeed you see it in a positive light. For me the 3 years were awful and painful but i would not take it back. I am forever changed!
St. John of the Cross' Dark Knight of the soul is the deepest book I've ever read. Some people think they are in a dark night but its more of a mental health thing.
I relate very much to the jumping process between the stages. In my case, I feel like a struggle btw illumination and purification, with some glimpses of Union.
Thanks for sharing your knowledge and experience dear sister! Love from Brazil!!
I so very much understand your struggle! and my pleasure. Love from Lisbon!
Been a couple of years I start to worry this will never end … I feel stuck sometimes and sometimes going back and forth … some days I despair and feel I will never see the other side … or may be there is something wrong with me … I wish there was somebody to even talk to … oh well … keep going
thank you darling! it was a wonderful journey through a series of known experiences and states 😊
btw your smile is one of the most exquisite beauty of this fleeting world ❤
Oh you are so kind!! Thank you!!
If you are in dark night of the soul you are doing the work you came here to do! I hope knowing that will help you go easy on yourself!
Agreed 🙏🏻
Absolutely beautiful and helpful, thanks so much! With much gratitude!
Thank you. My pleasure ❤️