@MsAgnostica Goes Quantum try improving when and what you eat helped me without a doubt! You got this and if you don't eh,you will next time right🌝🌹💝 love you.💜
My dark night involved becoming homeless. This went on for years. Although I was blessed with understanding WHY I was going thru this so it kept my head above water. I had ZERO family and friends to talk to. I can only say Im so much stronger in an invisible way. I am now 64 years old and can say Im seeing the Light again. And yes I still get reminders, but I've NEVER FELT SO BLESSED & GRATEFUL in my entire life. I cry at times just feeling SO THANKFUL ! Life is awesome and it continues to become more beautiful & full. Thank you with all my Heart for the work you do for all Souls. Much Love ❤.... Kristin 👣 👣 👣
Hiii... I, can relate to you on being homeless mine was Chronic &, over 20 years off &, on... Dark, Definitely!!! But, Humbling, Crafting me into Myself daily, Would Not trade my years &, tears for Anything... Here &, STRONGER... NEXT‼️🌬️🩵
In reference to coming out of The Dark Night faster; One thing that helps me a lot, that I want to share, was that I made a physical list of all the people in my life that I felt wronged me in some way. (It was long, even some from my childhood.) One by one I visualized a face to face conversation where I told them I forgive them (specifically for what they did) and asked them to forgive me (specifically for how I reacted) and then I virtually wished them love and peace, gave them a hug and sent them on their way. I repeated this until I no longer felt that they owed me an apology. Now when their faces come up in my memory I feel peace and forgiveness for them. It was hard at first--. I can't tell you how many people I virtually slapped in my mind but eventually my heart softened and I dropped the burden of hateful baggage. Wonderfully, some I have been able to tell in person. I still have to practice sometimes but it's such a relief to get rid of the anger, self-pity and the "woe is me" attitude from being wronged. Do it for you, not for them. I love myself a lot more now because the dark was eating me up. You can forgive their humanity and make more room in your heart for the light. It doesn't mean you condone what they did or the hurt they caused. It just means that you don't have to carry it everywhere you go. You have to PRACTICE forgiveness. I find that now, I am much quicker to forgive rather than holding it in. We are all a collective. The Universe hears your thoughts and does reward your positive intent! Hope this helps!
I’m very happy you were able to get out of the Dark Night. Your story is almost similar to mine, I thank you for sharing how you’re able to find Peace and Happiness with yourself. Love your technique, going to try it myself. S.S
1) feel low in energy. Depressed 2) feeling no purpose in life 3) feeling completely disconnected from God and source energy 4) You have no energy 5) Not knowing what to do with your life 6) You don't know who you are 7) You don't know what you want in life 8) You don't know what you want to do 9) Things you like to do before you no longer like. 10) Some passions disappear Top symptom:- Your life turns meaningless Tips to come out of dark night 1) Surrender Mantras:- "I surrender to life" "I surrender to my soul's will" "I drop resistance to my process" 2) Reframing 2.1) Use mantra 2.2) Gratitude 3) Energy cleansing 36:15 Sit in meditation, close your eyes, imagine bright light coming from heaven, Mantra "It is my intention to..."
Horrible horrible feeling. Maybe mine is anger, jealousy, outrage, loneliness, confusion. I feel all of these and very depressed. I cannot stop crying. Thankyou for this video. Your words have helped.
I'm not understanding what I'm going through when I lay down im feeling something in my body it moves all over within me like its crawling within me its so scary can't sleep my bed feels like it's lightly shaking but its not its within me it feels like it's feeling me it starts rising through my ankles up my legs and it keeps rising it does this repeatedly hope you have a answer to this
@@lizperez5625Anxiety shows up in weird ways in the body. For me it's a physical sense of burning in my abdomen upon waking. Then it spreads out to my extremities. Doctors can't explain it.
Some physical relievers to note too: Cold showers! Breathwork (I love Wim Hof's-clears the mind calms the body) Music (life saver) Hug a tree, walk barefoot, get away from the cars and the people for a moment. This could especially be important for empaths. This was a great video. Mantras, affirmations/gratitude, and visualizing will be my focus now!
Shedding your skin was a good analogy because i feel detached from the things that use to interest me. The hardest part of the dark night is the lonelyness and not being able to express my feelings. It feels like death. And i think people notice my disconnect.
Tiffany, I have always been an outsider. At times through conscious choice. Mostly through unconscious choice. Your message, gave me a aha moment. THANK YOU :D
I’m going through this now and couldn’t understand why I was losing people “close” to me. You feel so isolated and alone but still like something deeper is keeping you going.
My own isolation was almost a forced rescue. My life relationships fell apart in every area of my life, then I was injured and could not walk for a month. During that time I was forced to sit down so I searched on-line for answers, scouring so many sources, until I found Christina Lopes. I hovered over the exit button for the first few moments and with each moment her voice and words sank into me and hooked. Thank goodness. I am now moving forward into a new me and a new life, gradually while hungrily devouring the manna I have needed for recovery.
My biggest challenge right now is to face the fear of ego dying and letting go. I'm in that between place where I cannot go back but also don't know how to go forward, I'm scared of what I will become when I let go of my identity, but I feel it's releasing anyway bit by bit.
Mother died of cancer when I was 17. 3 years of drug abuse after that cause I couldn’t face the reality, the accumulation of pain in my body so big that I couldn’t breathe after 5-6 years of deep intense pain everyday, I’m feeling a bit better but nowhere in balance yet. But man have the pain changed me... suffering humbles you, but it’s hard to keep going. One of the things that help is knowing that it’s an evolution of your soul that’s taking place, is really helpful. To anyone going through this I feel you out there. Stay strong.
Thank u for sharing. How did u overcome your addiction? What type or shall I ask what was your DOC? I had childhood trauma (alcoholic, drug addict, violent to my mom and sisters, emotionally and mentally abusive, manipulative), trauma as an adult (son almost died at age 7, broken marriage, ex-husband murdered, grandma diagnosed with Alzheimer’s, and hit by at SUV that broke my left leg, caused me to move, loss of work/finances/job on 2 different occasions, COVID ....all these things in 7 yrs.& turned to opiates at first for a few months in 2013 when son seized 4 hrs straight and went into a coma..and then again the last 2-3 yrs around death of ex husband. I’m struggling. Any advice? Thanks!!
Yes the same thing has happened with me. Everyone I loved other than my parents are away from me now. I have also dropped a lot of friends. I had a best friend for like 8 yrs but I had to let her go cuz of the mental pain she was causing me. I have been feeling all the symptoms of the dark night and I am lost cuz I am like only 18 and a student. Studying right now is really important for me but everyday I feel so tired. I feel exceptionally drained and everyday chores is just a big task for me. I feel like I am in a huge black hole or something. Nothing absolutely nothing is going right in my life. My friends are lost, the guy I loved is lost, my relationship with my parents is a little bit odd, my grades have fallen.
@@nandinisingh5786 A lot of times they return new and improved. My bestie returned after 2 years apart. She made sweeping changes. Sometimes you have to create loss, to create change.
I’m going through this now and couldn’t understand why I was losing people “close” to me. You feel so isolated and alone but still like something deeper is keeping you going.
I'm deep in this, it's been the hardest most painful 4 months of my life. Anxiety and depression, disconnection from myself and the world around me (like I'm in a dream sometimes), irritable and angry, crying a lot. Thank you for your video.
@@kenanidhyaikapratiwi6776 Yes. Let it be there. Try your best to accept it, don't resist it or deny it. You're going through it, it's happening. Accept it, embrace it. Meditate and try to still your mind. Pray and set positive intentions for becoming happier, healthier, stronger and more at peace. Know that the universe is on your side. Identify your biggest fears, accept them and then deal with them with courage. Don't worry about things, just work on things. Allow yourself the time and space that you need. Realise that this experience is a gift as it is providing a massive opportunity for you to grow, learn and become a better person. You are strong.
THE MIRROR THING IS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. I have been going threw my dark nights of the soul for over half a year now and when I looked into the mirror, I would have to remind myself ‘this is your face, this is your face, this is your face’ and it got to the point where even other people became a blur. This has been incredibly difficult because I have always felt a profound connection to God and source my entire life and so having that stripped away left me cram long to find my breath for months. I am just beginning to feel that connection again, but now in a much more intense manner. God is good and I am thankful for my journey 🙏🙏🙏💖💖
I can't wait for that reconnection with God. I miss Him, but I am even losing all my preconceived, immature ideas about who I believed Him to be and what faith is supposed to look like. I find myself cringing at all the Christian in-group virtue signalling I hear and used to participate in. Bring on this ego death; I want to know the true promised abundant life!
U said it correctly '" Ego doesn't die it transform itself into its new divine form " . I had gone through all these and now I m just witnessing miracles happening around me knowing the fact that I m pure consciousness.
Yes i'm going through the dark night of the ego. My biggest fear is propably that this isn't going to pass and that i don't have enough of strenght to work myself through this.
As I was sinking into a depressive state, for me it was definitely a must to change daily habits to support me through the dark night, it made the whole process far more peaceful and smooth. 1) Practicing Hatha Yoga daily 2) Changing to a plant based diet, with as much fresh veggies and fruit as possible. Avoiding processed foods. 3)Starting Intermittent Fasting 4) Listening to music to help me process emotions and go through the hardest moments ( I remember there were a couple of months when I kept listening over and over again "Head Above Water" from Avril Lavigne, it became like a mantra 😅 5) Journaling the process 6) Looking into my past to proactively heal old wounds 7) Finding few moments of stillness every single day, to stop the mental process and contemplate: just enjoying the sun, or the breeze or just taking the time to seep in the beauty of a tree 8) Practicing gratitude every single day I learned the hard way that it is essential to support our bodies and minds throughout the process, it really changes the game. People around me kept asking "But why are you changing all your habits when you are so healthy? What is going on with you?". I couldn't really answer because I would sound crazy to them, so I just said "Nothing special, just in the mood to try something new" 😂😂😂 The truth is that I was completely desperate but I would just hide everything behind a smile (not anymore, learned the hard way again that it's a really toxic behaviour). But I am glad that it didn't discourage me from keeping doing it, because after a couple of months started paying back and I felt stability and peace in the middle of it, my anxiety finally receded. I wish the best to all of you going through it 🙏💖💖💖
Absolutely amazing. You perfectly described my life for the last 9 months.. I feel like I was dying, going crazy and everyone around me not validating me and not feeling supported AT ALL. I’ve felt so alone and in despair but I realized I’m the only one who can help myself. I always wanted to be protected and rescued but now I understand why I had to go through all of this… I will never abandon myself ever again from here on and I will only live life MY WAY. My heart is still in a million pieces but the more I put it together, the stronger I become..
First dark night of the soul is truly shattering. My ego woke up. I was in an extraordinarily abusive situation, it was like remembering my self. Because my self was spiritual to begin with, I lost my ego to abuse at first. I had to rebuild it knowing how helpless I had made my self. I found my purpose in life, I started working 24x7 to help survivors of abuse.
I've been going through the dark night for a year now. It's been painful. Dissociation, hopelessness, loneliness, anger, depression, fear, guilt, grief, you name it. I'm still in it but I feel the ending. It's so close. Almost as though I could reach my arms out and touch it. This will definitely help me to finally step into the light that I've been longing to be apart of for so long. Thank you for your guidance 🙏🏻❤️
I lost my husband and Daddy within a year. Husband, sudden car accident. My Daddy heart failure. I'm self medicating and wanting inside, needing to break out of the day to day sedation. I also have 3 little wild boys under 8. 7, 6 and 3. So that's a whole bunch of love and mental stress. So I continue to do my yoga, listening to the encouraging videos and knowing this won't last forever. Love and light to y'all wonderful folks.
So sorry. You never know what another is going through. I have experienced no physical death from close family members yet, but yet still experience at least a little of this confusion and exhaustion. Bless you. Stay strong. I've talked to my mom about how I will be when she is gone and she said "YOU WILL BE STRONG."
I just went through a year of a spiritual awakening mixed with bliss, connection and at times fear. Now I am at the dark night which I feel I have gone through small episodes of this since childhood. I just want to be able to love myself, to heal and to know who I am. I've sobbed through this whole video, I've sobbed for days now. The pain is so deep. Spirit please guide me through this darkness 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I am going through that right now. And it is freaking my husband out. I'm feeling disconnected from source and from him. And I'm hoping it will pass with the relationship in tact. I explained to him at the beginning of this journey that I want him to come along but I understand if he doesn't. I also explained that I can't stop the transition. It's happening in waves right now and I've experienced the bliss, then rage, now emptiness. I've been in communication with others on their spiritual journey and one tried to shame me for not blaming this experience on a 'demonic' presence. At the time I hadn't heard the term 'dark night of the soul' but I do understand demonic to be a human construct. So that didn't work out so well for them. I'm glad to better understand it is an ego affliction and I now have the vocabulary to help the Mr through what I'm going through. I knew it would pass because I've been going through these bouts my entire life. I didn't realize the tools to help me through until this video. So, thank you for that. Sending light and love your way.
Stephanie Brown I am the complete opposite at you. I’m watching my husband go through it and it’s been almost 4 years. We also have a 2 year old. He’s told me many times over the years to leave and let him be but I never wanted to. Now I’m finding it become impossible to be around him and he is very upset with me for this that I did not leave sooner.
@@dbonanno89 I'm going through a similar experience. I know it this is weird and personal but are you still with your husband? I don't want to leave...😢
You are on the path, woman, just keep going! I've been going through the same thing. Well, similar, uh... Places?? Trust your intuition, and your genius heart! I've been listening to an amazing, truly wonderful teacher lately, here on you tube and on her website, her name is gangaji. She will help guide you to profound breakthroughs, so gracefully. Truly an incredible woman. I hope you look her up, and much love and blessings to you on your journey ⚓
Hello, It is so good to know that I am not going crazy. I have been experiencing constant headaches and migraines for 5 years already- still going on, plus nerve pain, mysterious different ailments in my body, chronic issues, severe constant eye strain, sinus issues..relationships issues... Went to so many doctors, did so many tests, scans, maneuvers, healings, teachings, exercises, techniques... no help at all, just pain, pain, pain, physical, emotional.. This caused anxiety, fear, depression...I feel broken, very weak, lost... started blaming myself for everything, feel enormous guilt and regrets for many things I have done in the past while not living consciously. I fear future... I think this is how the rest of my life will also be, cause I do not see how this all would end. A few days ago I signed up for Transcendental Meditation course hoping that this meditation can calm me down a bit and help me live with this. My ego must be enormous according to my experience of the "dark night"! Or, maybe, I am not spiritually awakening at all, it is just my life that sucks! Anyway, thank you Tina so much for your videos and help and hope I got from watching!
I'm almost 53. My first dark night was Sept. '84 when I was 16. Anyone else in this group suffer that far back? It's hard to get help or even understand what's happening when the world treats you like you have 3 heads. Lol Panic attacks and extreme anxiety disorder were constant companions from ages 16-30! I took no meds. I worked through it the hard way, but I wouldn't change it for anything.
March Campbell, my first Dark Night happened when I was 7. Teenage Dark Nights are fairly common. It's surprising shrinks haven't thought about this before. I was acting out what Mom tried to keep secrets in hopes of finding help for both of us, but I was the one considered insane. Life accepted. I made the best of it and lived well despite expectations.
I've watched quite a few of your videos today. As you speak about the Dark Night, I honestly feel like I've been stuck in it for many years. As I say it, "I keep recycling my life and I don't know how to move forward." I'm hoping to gain more control to grow through this and finally be at peace. Thank you for your insights!
Yes, Christina, I've been through several Dark Night of The Souls throughout my lifetime (I'm now 70). They do get easier or at least I can reside in a space of peace even though my outer reality is swirling and twirling and I still may be feeling sad, stressed, whatever. And the little ego does die more with each one as the Healthy Big Ego (Universe, God, Jesus,) grows more and more. A grateful Human!!!! :)
I feel like I have been going through this for a few months. It is the most challenging experience I have ever had. It feels like I am in between two worlds. My old world which used to make sense to me and an unknown world where I just don't seem to be quite there yet or fully understand its allure. I feel forsaken or abandoned at times and wake up to dark thoughts. I felt better this morning and I am not sure if this is temporary or a turning point. I keep letting go of things that used to be of utmost importance to me. Control has been the most difficult illusion for me to release, but I keep surrendering to the Universe. About a week ago I had no idea what I was experiencing, but then i watched Aaron Abke's video on Spiritual depression. It helped tremendously knowing that this is part of the process. I appreciate your video. Thanks 🙏
25 year old here! I know I shouldn’t be counting months or how long I’ve been in this phase but god these 7 months have been grueling agony. I’ve lost connections with my friends and family but honestly for the best, things are starting to appear in the light which I’m very grateful for, however there’s a part of me that longs for connection but afraid of showing vulnerability to people that ultimately are energy suckers and there are a lot of people who are not aware of that. I must say that this video has been a life line when I’ve been consumed in darkness and dispair. I remember waking up ultimately knowing a HUGE change is about to work my life. Although it’s been a rollercoaster from birth up until now, words cannot fathom how extremely honored I feel to experience this in this lifetime thank you for the light Christina ✨
My awakening was triggered by serious trauma that made my heart ache and throat throb. I used chanting as a way to quite the mind and get my voice back. I journal daily as a way to remain aware and reduce mental clutter. I also do yoga and meditation to connect to my body. Sometimes I cried threw all these processes and sometimes I was angry for the things that I did not understand. But I know that’s ok and every day gets better. Just being able to put a video out like this is a blessing, Thank you so much Christina! XO!
I am going through the dark knight of the ego. I feel lost, no purpose, confused, hurting a deep pain in my heart. No desire to be in the moment to get out of bed. I feel heavy like my body is always weighted and sluggish, sick, out of myself yet deeply consumed and trapped by my skin. There's glimpses of a sense of spiritual peace I feel a vibration centered in my shins that is intense there but lightly throughout the rest of my body. My heart though is blocked like this darkness has its grasp around it keeping it within it's depths unable to feel fully the peace of my spirit and hear what my soul is trying to speak.
Feeling exactly this…grateful to have come action items to try. Trying to feel grateful for the small things is so hard when I feel this awful but have to try.
I am beyond grateful for your videos during this incredibly difficult time! As someone with an educational background in psychology, I thought I was losing my mind especially when I began experiencing symptoms of "not knowing who I was anymore" or a "deep sense of meaninglessness" and "profound emptiness". I'm currently trying to take it day by day but the feelings of depression have been so debilitating (partially because my ego has been resisting the ascension process). Having a conceptual understanding of the dark night of the soul really helped me make sense of it all. Truly appreciate all that you do. Thank you so much! 🧡
So happy this topic is discussed and recognized alot more nowadays. Very hard process to go through and many just think I am depressed and being dramatic when I cry every day. The little things good or bad make me cry. Thank you for the channel and everyone going through it, you all are badass and will get through it! The world is a beautiful place with our beautiful souls healing
Wish I found this video before haha. I am just getting out of this. I know i was getting rid of the shit in my mind as i used to call it. All my childhood traumas, past mistakes, wrong perceptions and mental disfuncioning that was so exhausting for 40 years were finally coming to surface fast and more furiously these last 4 months. Oh, I wish I have anticipated this. Before that, I was feeling a sense of relief. I thought the worst was over but no. I really needed time alone but I wasn't alone. Now that I think about it, for me, it was necessary to go through this. I was for sure kicking and screaming. Going against it. All my negative narratives and victim mentally would just not want to leave. I was the one looking to understand what was happening to me. Searching, desceminating, over analyzing and trying to make sense of it. Blaming others for what I was feeling and somehow I came to surrender. Sadly on my way out of it. I shared what I was going through and I hurt someone. I wish I knew this before. Dont do that. Just be still, have this time for yourself. Because no one will understand. You will see that at the end of this dark night you will feel glad that you finally got rid of that old story of yours. You will find that you need to forgive yourself and others in a way you havent forgiven before. That forgiveness is so important. Do it well, let go. You will find that "most" of the pain will sease (at doing that) and your will forget the negative feelings! I said it, It is not that you will act as if nothing has ever happened, you will act as if everything has already happened! It's done and gone. And you will want to ask for forgiveness as well, dont do it until you truly know what you are apologizing for, let your heart guide you. It's is important to take responsibility for what you have said and done in the past when you were hurt. We all have a share and so honor yourself and authentic about it. Part of the process of letting the ego die is to get courage to take a positive action. Dont be sad if people dont forgive you. Just know that in your heart you mean to heal yourself and others. Just be what you were meant to be. Love. That's it. You are the source of love. Love will heal itself. And once you are healed, you will be able to heal others. Know that everything that your soul is getting rid of is not allowing you to be that (love). So let it go so you can find bliss and peace in your life. For that you must let your old and sick ego die. It's being three long years for me with 3 very dark nights, with the last one being the worst and the best... and today I know that I will be ok. I know that this is a good thing and so I have decided to run with it. Reframing like she said was key. Changing your paradigm... not so easy when you have to discover what it was before. Scary to actually meet my old true self. Or was it me all this time? Was I just a puppet of my hurt ego? Surrender and stop resisting. Letting it all come to surface and being kind to yourself will help you accept with grace what you couldn't before. Remain still. Do not react to it. See things as they are and not as you think it should be, it's ok. And if your mind takes you to where you dont want to go, let it be, you are not your mind. Watch it and bring your awareness to what's important. Little by little you will find meaning and will to focus on what's really important. It is all good. Revelations will come to you. You are not crazy. You are almost there and for now, Just be there. Thank you for this video!! ❤
Im sure have been led here by my soul.. onto the treadmill im watching this as i walk..i have this image of a cord frm my heart leading me 2 just simply walk forward,as lately ive felt frozen im so grateful 2 you for this explaination..this has helped alot..im literally losing my mind..&changing..🙏💕
I have been crying for 4 months seemingly for no reason. Not just getting teary a few times a day, but gut-wrenching sobbing half of the day, when not sobbing feeling flat, so tired and frustrated with the knowledge I know there is more but I can't seem to pick a direction to go. I found information on the dark night of the soul it helped me to know it might something else other than depression/anxiety. Thank you for these practices. I will certainly try them, anything to move this process along would be most welcomed!
Again another fantastic and easy to understand the “dark night of the ego”…. Love this expression far more palatable for me anyway…releases the negativity of the soul❤
I've been going through it of and on for years... and i've survived it every single time. I was diagnosed as bipolar and been put on medications wich were horrible. I am still a bit in it but it's bareable now and i won't let it get to me anymore. I started painting and discovered unexpected talents on myself by creating art, wich gave my life meaning again. You have to find things that bring you joy and leave the old you behind. It's a very difficult process, because i really wanted to die and end my life. My cats were my guardian angels and kept me from ending my life. I needed to live for them, and they saved me. It's actually a very good process because it shows you where you went wrong in life. Now i feel a lot better but i am still struggling with the last bits of it.
I've been ten thousand miles in the mouth of a graveyard, I've been to the depths of the deepest dark forest, I've been out in the middle of a dozen dead oceans....
I've felt this way my whole life. It definitely came in waves where sometimes I was okay around people, but once I was alone my true emotions could come out. I think I am undoing generations of ancestral trauma. I am the "responsible" person in my family. Going to college was my way to escape but once I got there I started feeling even more helpless. I felt disconnected from that space (as Black woman who grew up poor in a white private liberal arts school) while knowing I needed it to be able to get a job and be able to support myself and my family. I am 25 and as I get older I just want to run away from myself but I know there are people who would be hurt if I did that. Knowing that people I love depend on me makes me want to heal. Heal so I can show my loved ones that it is possible and help them on their journey. I cant help anyone if I can't help myself.
I’m in the beginning stages but it’s heavy. I’m going through this now and couldn’t understand why I was losing people “close” to me. You feel so isolated and alone but still like something deeper is keeping you going.
I've never had the bliss stage but I do feel like during this period of the Dark Night I am starting to have random moments of bliss and connection to everything. This video was so helpful, you explain everything so slowly and well that I'm getting addicted to your videos. Thank you so much for this, I suddenly feel less lost and even slightly excited about this process.
How long does it take? Until you learn the lesson. i.e. going back to that abusive relationship, job, habit, place, you don't want to let go. Let him go! Let her go! Move forward. The Universe has all the time in the world. Just waiting for you to learn the lessons. Thank yo so much for your time! ♡♡♡
I'm away to leave my mentally abusive partner I went through the dark knight for a year with him he won't leave me even though I've told him to I went through the dark knight for a year it must of been my soul needing to rid myself of this horrible, distructive person out of my life
I had a whole “perfect storm” of things happen all at once. I had a work injury that ended my nearly 15 year career that I was going to retire in, the relationship with my brother fell apart, I ended an 8+ year relationship, and several other things. It spurred on a spontaneous spiritual awakening. I venture to say almost close to a kundalini, but I’ve never spoken with anyone who really knows about that stuff. I struggled with it. BAD. I didn’t know what was happening. And then I allowed myself to fall out of it. Then I went through a very dark period. And even that part came in waves. But, lately, I seem to be on the cusp of another awakening. I’m excited and can’t wait to see what god/universe has in store for me.
I'm in the dark night and my struggle is identifying my repressed pain and trauma from childhood. This video will help me, I just need to follow my soul's lead, no resistance, surrender to the process. Thank you beautiful soul!
Was enlightened at the age of 7 walking in our garden. Then I have had drugs placed in my cola and raped 3 times woke up twice from the roofies almost died once all these in a matter of 3 years once under age. A decade later my mother was diagnosed with a rare cancer. I was the main caregiver unless she had to be in hospital then I would sleep on the floor as they allowed me. After she passed my dad had a cancer even more rare; took care of him at home the entire time-there was nothing for them to do so I watched and did things I shouldn’t have with no help. This was a total of 13 years back to back not including my furry babies that was about to hit me. I sought a dr to talk to made things worse and I refused medications. Three years later 3 of my furry babies, I had for over 20 years, all were ill and going to die. Again I was there with them as I was for my parents with the most 4 hours of sleep. I lost everyone in my life and not a soul called me to see if I was alive or needed to talk. All my friends disappeared, all my parents friends disappeared on me. Being the only child and so emotionally attached to them all I actually said out loud to myself, “I am free now, there is no one else to die on me” and I felt so numb, so lost I did not speak for weeks. I was told I was a nurse in past lives and I never believed it till those times. I use to do this odd healing where I would extract black matter out of bodies and expel it to the universe then flood the body with white light. I still can not find out what this type of healing is called but it works till there is so much matter that I can not. The only time I understood it was in a movie I saw called The Green Mile. Except my black matter comes out of my other hand as one vacuums it out. I don’t know what kind of healing his is called either. I wish I knew. One day after a year of seeing a psychiatrist for a year to no avail he told me off the clock, “I don’t understand how you have not committed suicide “. I looked at him and told him I have furry babies at home that need me and never went back again. It’s been since 2016 since the loss of my last furry babie and just last year around this time I felt bliss. I felt I was “allowed” to live again. Unfortunately I called an ex boyfriend from my college years and he dismissed me quickly and hung up on me. I actually called him to see if he was ready to reconnect as I believed we were meant to do good on this earth together. My bliss left me and a mini dark night still holds on to it’s finality. I am realizing how alone I have been for so long and I am still here. It sounds sad but it really is not. I do have a friend who lives in another city in which he heard a lot of what went on in my past. He is a kind and caring soul who wants to help me but this is my battle not his. Why burden someone and bring them down when you can elevate them to vibrate at a higher level. But I now understand people die yes. It is painful yes but, it is part of life; just wish it was so traumatic for my loved ones or for me either. All I know now is that I need to be somewhere in order to do my life’s purpose. I am almost there. I have not seen anything else since that walk in the garden at 7 years old. I am now 51 and know when the time is right I will be there. Thank you for sharing your words with us Christina. Apologies for this mess of message but if anyone reads it please know you can get through it. I believe in you. Thank you for reading dear souls. 🤍
incredible story, no human should be suffering and certainly not a child. I feel we should take more care for one another. love and hugs to you, thinking of you, you are not alone in this, we are connected through yr experience touching my heart
This is the best explanation for this phenomenon. Im going through this currently and there have been days i don't know how i got through it. I'm still in the thick of it. I do see how your ego melts away, as I'm not the person i used to be, and that's ok. I'm 67 yrs old, I'll never be the same. I sometimes wish i was no longer on this earth. I'll accept this suffering if i come out on the other side an improved human. Thank you so much for this episode, you have helped more than you know.❤
During spiritual awakening and dark night of the soul I would highly recommend to have some spiritual healer, helper, teacher. They can help you to understand it and go through the process with love.
I felt disconnected and detached from everyone. I wanted to run away from everything because I felt so ashamed as to how I felt. I went from a state of bliss one day to physical ailments and sadness, disconnection from source and my community the next day. I am still going thru this phase. I still have physical ailments and I cry everyday because of the sadness I experience but I’m taking it one day at a time. Nature helps a lot, gratitude, music, and surrendering to people loving and supporting me. My friends, family and partner have showed up in immense ways. I will forever be grateful
I'm currently going through the same thing I'm getting triggered by everything thing I've thought I've healed are coming back up I'm lost and confused I'm also crying everyday I'm an empath and have a high sensitivity so its alot scary things happening in my body negative thoughts resurfacing after doing so much inner work I feel so alone I'm not close with family and the ones I live with don't understand I'm just trying to stay positive...we will get through this sending you some much love❤❤❤❤
@@melanitebeauty403 thanks for sharing your story. Makes me feel less lonely. Sending you lots of love and blessings and healing on your journey. We got this ❤️
I think I'm currently in the dark night of the soul. I can't go to sleep it feels like I can't breathe. I sometimes wake up in panic because it feels like I'm choking. I don't know what to do, I feel so disconnected to everyone. It feels like they're living in a bubble and I disconnect from them and go all alone somewhere else. But I don't know where. This video helped me so much to understand what it is. I feel depressed but I still have my positive thoughts, that's such a weird feeling but now I see why I have it and what's it all about.
"I am safe" has also helped me so much, especially before bed when Im thinking about all of this. Positive affirmations are a big help. Talking to yourself like you are a young child helps, I know it sounds silly, but I know I feel like a little lost child when I'm going through it. Also, remind yourself that you're not doing it wrong, I know I keep thinking its about over and then its not and i beat myself up and tell myself Im not doing any of it right. This is when surrounding helps, and telling yourself that you are being guided with love through all of it. Acceptance helps too, I will accept that I feel like crap and I have no idea what's going on and I just need to trust it will work out. It's okay to feel horrible and take care of yourself. We are human.
I am going through it. We have so much in common. I wish there was a Zoom meeting to go to and talk to other people and share. I am reading others' comments that I am not alone. Love to hear more and share.
I am going through a dark night of the soul and I am now gaining insight on why I feel this way... Somewhere along the line I stopped loving myself. That is why I am stuck here right now and why everything is so painful. This is new for me. I've always loved myself so much.
I am in the middle of one right now....with anxiety like I’ve never known before, insomnia, my meditations suck, and I feel so lost, a far cry from the wonderful place I was a year ago. Thank u so much for these tips!!! ♥️♥️ I really love your channel. The things u post have been very very helpful! 🙏🏼
My ego is saying all types of crazy thing's and I kept feeling a sense of floating away like a balloon...I feel anxiety and scared, fear of I don't know what, unsure, sad, a deep depression, off and on anger or aggravation...But I will be fine, just didn't know this was a real thing lol. I will keep praying and meditating. Thank you for your video's, I wanted to cry because I needed help with this... ❤
14yrs. It's affected my health, I have zero motivation, lost all sense of inspiration. I wonder how people do the things they do, how they get themselves to move with energy. I'm isolated and have been for years, any potential of new friendships have fizzled out before they've properly started. I often feel adrift, lost in a vast ocean, often panic, terror and deep sense of dread in the pit of my stomach. I feel pointless, without purpose, like nothing has any meaning or point to it. Disconnected even though I cognitively understand the true nature of the universe and energy etc. I'm not feeling it, not embodying that knowledge as I have in the past. Spaced out, disconnected also from the human world, physically heavy, everything is such a huge effort and I have no patience with people.. especially when I'm being lied to. I have adhd which could be making things worse because of the inability to keep focus clear. Watching this video has made me realise how much I need to feel in control of events and the way they happen...Fear,lots of fear and perhaps worst of all, definitely the biggest challenge is the level of demand avoidance that's going on.. I struggle to get myself to do even things I know I like and want to do. It's such a bizarre battle to deal with. Anyone else have that? Something has changed tho, I felt a big shift at the beginning of the year. Lots of realisations and shifts in my patterns but still that numbness and it feels so slow.. there's that need for control again! I want to feel again but need to get to the point where it feels safe to do so I guess. This work is so intense but does it have to be? I've gained deep, deep levels of insight into myself but feel so self absorbed. Anyway I'm very glad to have found this video and to you for making it, thank you 💜
Going through it right now. I figured I have so much resentment inside me. I did a Reiki course and the white light visualisation is part of the practice. But most days I can barely get myself to practice it. After watching your video I know that I’m resisting because of my ego and I need to surrender. Thank you so much for this video and your channel. I’m so grateful for you and for my very supportive husband and my tabby baby that keeps me smiling with his antics through this time.
Thank you so much, I'm currently on my first Dark night of the soul journey. The mantras are helping me, i find it difficult to meditate sometimes because my mind is so busy. I'm happy when you use I surrender mantra because this is exactly my daily mantras even before I've seen your video. Maybe i was meant to see this message that my guides are sending me through you. Thank you so much for this beautiful explanation. I affirm that i am closer to the light. I'm ready. I surrender to the universe.
I just started my dark night.. a week in and Im glad I came across your video. as a medium who channels the Neteru, I can verify everything you've said is bang on! But with my mojo miss firing as my ego dies, I have doubted my own gifts. You have in one video restored all this. You are amazing and I'm grateful you took the time to post this video. Blessings to you xx
I am bawling my eyes out right now. This is so... hard. So very hard. I feel like I am fighting against myself. I am feeling so much. Memories popping off everywhere. And I feel so very alone. I want to be free.
I had covid 8 months ago ! In the struggle it was an awakening in me , since then, it has been ups am downs , depression, panic attacks , feel in disconnected etc , but thanks to your videos and guidance it's helping me to acknowledge and assimilate what's happening to me ! It makes me feel stronger and capable to continue in my journey so when I get out of it I can also share my experience and it may help some Body else .God bless you ! So you can keep helping people ! Gracias ! Alma hermosa !
I'm so grateful I found you, because You're helping me to go through my process easier and understand things that are happening and are so weird that even my closest friends have difficulties with dealing with this with me. But I see that light im my eyes too and in other peoples eyes also, so it's so relieving for me to hear that everything I'm going through is just a part of my healing process and creating my whole new beautiful life I've ever wanted and waited for, since childhood. I feel like my whole life was a spiritual awakening, believing in myself in childhood, then losing it and now coming back. Thank you for just being here ❤❤
I really had no idea what I was going through. I felt this gap between myself, all my actions and words. I don't know who I am or what I want anymore. I am struggling to make decisions in my life. I feel uncomfortable with myself. This video was very helpful. Thank you. 🌼
My life before spirituality for ab 14 years was severe depression, I discovered these spiritual truths and felt them so deeply it lit me up I found a way to shift into bliss. Bliss- when before I never even thought it was possible for me to feel happiness. I was so grateful. I made bad choices during this blissful period bc I thought it was untouchable, I thought I would feel that way for the rest of my life and for the first time I wanted to socialize, I wanted to help people feel the way I did. I didn't know that these choices would eventually cause me to abandon my dedication to my connection. I've now been depressed again for the last 3 years.. I don't think it's a dark night of the soul.. I can't find a path back to that blissful place. I cant feel elevated emotions. It hurts so much. I don't blame anyone not even me for my ignorance but I just don't know how to get out of emotions of suffering and resistance. I'll never stop trying.. I know how good it's possible to feel and I am so grateful for that awareness.
So true…I’m happy I came across this video because this is a scary and different experience to be going through, especially alone. Even reading these comments is making me kinda nervous lol. The best thing is to remind ourselves constantly when we start to lose grip of ourselves and our sense of purpose/ meaning, we need to tell ourselves it’s just a phase and it will pass eventually.
This video is exactly what I needed today. Saved me 😮 I have been ill with flu symptoms since Dec so I became very isolated whilst resting at home. 7 of my piano students left over 3 months, I became totally disconnected and felt so alone fearing I would have no money to live on. But I don't want to do that work anymore. I can't believe how I feel. Yes I do relate to not wanting to get up and start the day. I thought it was me being lazy but now I see why. I will be kinder to myself from now on. This is my 2nd dark night.. Yes it's not so intense but still awful. It feels like I've died. All the life force has drained away. I will use the 3 tips. So helpful. Thank you Christine for this video. Thank you all for sharing.
And here “I am “. I opened UA-cam and your video was playing, with sound (never does that). I’ve been dragged down through this for 10 months minimum and it’s excruciating and Ive lost everything and begging for the end. Yesterday I believe it was your video about communication with our spirit guides and working with the arch angels and it was the first night in a long time I actually slept. I was born seeing and hearing and it makes this process no easier. In fact I think it’s harder because for the most part Ive been disconnected from the gifts and it’s been oh so very difficult and the most lonely experience I’ve ever had. I know that source and angels are bringing me to you, and this gave me comfort yesterday but even more so right now when when this video was playing and I need the insight and understanding and mostly just feeling not abandoned by my angels anymore. You are light being and your gift is teaching us and guiding us through the process but more importantly, the healing.
I‘ve been through this dark night of the soul two years ago. It lasted for a few months. And it was a frightening but also fulfilling experience. Now after diving into my shadow and healing some major wounds I feel like the old me is starting to disintegrate. At least my core beliefs are turned upside down. It feels like I‘m walking with a blindfold. Although I can see everything with my eyes, I can only live on by feeling into my heart and following my intuition. In these past years I‘ve made major decisions and cut lots of people out of my life forever. I am changing. Now it‘s only me or me. My soul doesn’t allow me to pause anymore :) Spirit knows what it wants and it‘s directly telling me which steps to take. So I‘m grateful for that 💜✨
I’m binging on your fabulous channel! 😊 Thank you, I just realised, every time I go into DNOS, it’s always triggered by rejection! I’ve been researching and yes, rejection is a Big factor. I’m sure all my life’s rejections have lead to this, the most painful possible. The DNOS carried on for 18 months, but I’m here, out of the darkness, accepting what is, working through, coming out of grief, learning at last, allowing the Universe. ❤️
Gratitude and long conversations with God/myself….gratitude….more conversations with God. I speak to my ego, my higherself, the trees, my cells, the wind, the birds, the building, all who and that is listening ….recharges me every time ❤️ knowing i’m not alone gets me out of those “negative” feelings all the time . it’s all perfect, the plan and design is all perfect.
Wow I know a lot about this "dark knight of the soul" and have experienced it quite often in my life. This has to be the best sum of it I've ever herd. Very simplified in terms anyone can understand. Amazing thank you for your insights.
The dark night has been hitting me hard the last couple of days and this video brought me to tears. i did everything you recommended to do and i feel a bit ligter. thank you for spreading your knowledge Christina! today im feeling really disconnected and its a relief to read that there is so many others out there going through the same as me. i believe we have invisible nets of love and support between us and that we are going to move into the new earth together. much love to all you brave beautiful souls out there
Completely lost sense of friendship,meaning of connection,sense of self.I’ve been going through a lot of anxiety which sometimes even feels like dying,but this helped me a lot,it feels like my inner self has been searching for some type of reassurance like this,thank you and god bless you.
My dark night (purge stage) lasted a little over 5 years. I didn't realize my ego was in constant battle with my soul. If I had known earlier that I was going through the dark night, I would try to let my ego give up. I am very happy my ego surrendered and I am currently a few weeks in the Void phase.
My second week in my dark knight … thanks for your videos, these have always been crucial moments in my life that I was unaware of… I know of the darkness ….
I am starting this video and this is the first thing about this that has made sense to me! My spirit guide is still giving me information and I was told this was going to take months Looking foward to the rest of the video.
Thank you for this beautiful video. I feel like I've been born into this "dark night of the soul" for reasons. This is a great help, sending you lots of love and light sister.
Thank you Christina. This was incredibly helpful. I came in feeling overwhelmed and after watching the video I feel a sense of peace. I am so grateful to you. You have been one of my favorite go to leaders for 5+ years. Deep gratitude for you. ❤
O MY SWEET!!! IM A NEWBIE ON YOUR CHANNEL..THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR PUTTING THIS "WHAT EVER NEGATIVE THING" A LABEL..LOL..IM 61..EXTREMELY EMPATHETIC..AND COMING INTO OLD ABILITIES I HAD AS A CHILD..AND IVE SPENT MOST OF MY LIFE ALONE AFTER BEING A PUNCHING BAG FOR THIS MAN WHO HAS CROSSED OVER IN 92..I BELIEVE I HAVE JUST PASSED THROUGH THE SECOND ONE" THAT FASE" AND I BELIEVE IM GETTING IT. WHAT USED TO GET ME AND IS STILL LINGERING A BIT..IS I CAN FORGET WHEN THE EGO BEAST AS I CALL IT..TRIES TO COME AND RECK MY PLANS OR GOALS THAT I HAVE SET FOR MYSELF..BUT IM HITTING IT..SO THANK YOU FOR THOSE BEGINNER MONTRAS..THAT TO WILL HELP. YOUR CHANNEL WILL HELP ME SO MUCH. I JUST A FEW MONTHS AGO DECIDED TO GIVE LIFE A CHANCE. MAYBE MEET SOMEONE. IM IN THE MIDDLE OF STARTING OVER AFTER LOSING EVERYTHING. BUT IM BETTING ON MY GUIDES AND THE UNIVERSE TO GUIDE ME. WISH ME LUCK..OR JUST A BLESSING WILL DO. SO MUCH LOVE AND LIGHT! 🙏😊✌💖💖🤩😘
Your story resonated with me so much!! My situation was a little different (I'm divorcing my narcissist husband) but like you, I was a punching bag. I feel compelled to tell you to research healing from the Narc, C-PTSD & EMDR therapy. UA-cam has hundreds of helpful videos on all of that stuff. Some of it might be helpful & if not that's ok too. I just felt lead to share! Regardless of that, I pray that this next phase of your life is filled with blessings of joy, love & laughter!! 🌈☀️💕
It’s taken me 16 years of being lost terrible, terrible, years. I was never suicidal but certainly did not want to not be here and hoped I didn’t wake in the morning. Still here. I think I’m through it, feeling now so much better. Hope it never comes back. I was 62 years when it started. I’m now 79 years. Amen. My darling niece committed suicide going through the Dark Night. God Bless Her Soul.
I've gone through cycles of this over the years. It lasts a couple of months up to a couple of years, and then went into the void. Went back and forth for about 15 years. Recently started feeling more grounded, and started moving into a place of peace with myself
I went through Dark night not really understanding what was happening, but because of my faith walk, at the time of the 10yr episode, even if I felt separated or abandoned by God, I knew better. I remember going to sleep, so weak, yah, this thing blew me up, by faith I knew I was not forsaken, and even if I couldn't hear The Voice, the truth was...I would never be abandoned and I was never really alone and I had a grip on these truths that had become ingrained into every cell of my beingness. I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have that. I remember feeling buried alive, so to speak, and all I could do was whisper, Does anybody know I'm here? What a deep and amazing experience that caused sink deeper into those everlasting arms, and trust. In myself, I was helpless but again, to know at my heart, when I'm weak I'd be made strong, I rested in it, going with the flow. I'd already learned to fly like the Eagle, so as I was being pressed, squeezed out, being destroyed, I knew, even if I was being destroyed, it would somethow all work to my good! I guess I had mantras not knowing that's what they were at the time...and these like I say were grounded at my core. Gosh, how many times now I've saiW to God...whatever needs to be torn from my flesh, Do it! I will not draw back. Yup, it's been an amazing walk and at 64, I'm still here to talk about it? Yay:) Hehe, and now I have even more understanding and I thank you:) xo
I slept a lot, cried a lot, and received messages of what my life was and had to look at and dispose of those images and forgive myself as they are washed away from my own ego's identification as suffering, doubt and BS that fuk-ed me up for years. I feel released, yet there is always some reminder that" aw look at this, what is is, remember this?", I used it now. I like when that happened, I am loved. Some of I laugh at 2, so. I've been thru the worse now. I mean the very worse. Carry water, chop wood. Love the last time I cried, after that iit became easier, the Feminine with ease. For me about 2 months. With residue. I pray a lot.
Thank you so much! I have been going through the Dark Night of the Soul for week now! Your advice has lifted me up and given me hope. I have felt so depressed, lost and hopeless, and I've had to fight off suicidal thoughts. Bu you are absolutely right when you say it's actually the Dark Night of the Ego! Transformation is painful, but before we can fly, we have to shed our cocoon!
The ego part really makes sense, ego goes against spirit so there ya go. In the span of 4 years I lost all of my clients. I felt more alone than I ever have. I didn't know who I was, I was crying all the time, I was depressed, I felt unappreciated, invisible and dismissed. I released held emotions, I also got through the loss of 3 pets in 6 months (which was devastating), but I got stronger and found me. Yes, I think we need an ego but not a selfish one, not one at all costs, not one that interferes with spirit, a softened ego. One thing that helped me was St. John's Wort capsules.
I agree with you in regards to new ego. I feel the dark night of the soul is like the Phoenix rising from the ashes. I’ve gone through it a few times in the last few years. I’ve learned that when most aspects of my life collapses within the same time frame it’s a huge indicator that my ego is about to go through another transformation.
This sounds like my whole life I’ve always been this way not wanting to get out of bed, depressed, no purpose in life, I’ve always liked being alone and isolated myself from everybody. I’ve always felt different like I don’t fit in don’t have no friends the only friends I have are pets I don’t really talk to nobody I’ve always had anxiety and been a introvert but this time it feels a little different my sleep schedule is off my face is breaking out but most of it is what I’ve always gone through
I started crying tears of joy at this video. Thank you. It’s been years for me, and the way I’ve thought of it, it was like I recognized the spiritual awakening at one point and then I “fell back asleep for awhile” but now I realize this was the ego freak out. It’s happened in different stages for me, I began asking myself the question 3 years ago, who am I? I had lost interest in everything I used to love, and it hit me especially hard when I realized I couldn’t answer any single question about myself: what’s my favorite color, what’s my taste in decor or fashion, what’s my favorite music? I felt like I didn’t know who I was. I also had the mirror thing happen, looked into my bathroom mirror one night and it’s not that I didn’t recognize my reflection but that I was suddenly...different. I really LOOKED, into my eyes the way you said you did, and I saw my soul in there too. It was a really powerful moment. It’s not that I didn’t know these concepts already, for the past year I’ve been very slowly moving myself through these things, but something about this video just really resonated with me and I found a lot of joy in that. Thank you so much for sharing.
I am going through a dark night and have for some time and while it’s scary....it’s also very exciting because I don’t want to be that old person that everyone comes to...to tell me their problems - I’m having to distance myself from friends that just want take from me (consciously or unconsciously) and so that is hard.....Thank you for sharing - this helps me reaffirm that what I’ve been doing is on track.
Kellie Morgan I feel empathy can be abused a little. I shut myself away....it’s difficult for people to understand that we go quiet because we allow ourselves to think of situations that bother us. I don’t know how to focus on me.....to know my own self purpose....
After going through this dark night, we have no tolerance for BS! Lol I prefer to be in my own company. I've had so-called 'friends' fall away left and right but it's all good. I am also spending less time on social media.
Thank you Christina ! You have explained it so well … It was extremely painful but in a way liberating as well….…for the FIRST time in my life , I understood ‘ ME ‘ and my life’s relationship pattern . It was a self discovery journey that needed to happen in order for me to heal all my childhood abandonment issues , wounds that I had not even known existed ..
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7 years of hell. Dissociating, hospitalizations, seriously suicidal all the time.
All gone! In 5D love and bliss.
Glad to hear there's hope! I hope I get out of this soon, it's been going on for 10yrs and it's driving me crazy!
How did you do it? We're eager to hear!
when you come back here searching again, remember you are strong and I love you
@MsAgnostica Goes Quantum try improving when and what you eat helped me without a doubt! You got this and if you don't eh,you will next time right🌝🌹💝 love you.💜
Please elaborate. 😁
My dark night involved becoming homeless.
This went on for years. Although I was blessed with understanding WHY I was going thru this so it kept my head above water.
I had ZERO family and friends to talk to.
I can only say Im so much stronger in an invisible way.
I am now 64 years old and can say Im seeing the Light again.
And yes I still get reminders, but I've NEVER FELT SO BLESSED & GRATEFUL in my entire life. I cry at times just feeling SO THANKFUL !
Life is awesome and it continues to become more beautiful & full.
Thank you with all my Heart for the work you do for all Souls.
Much Love ❤....
Kristin 👣 👣 👣
Hiii... I, can relate to you on being homeless mine was Chronic &, over 20 years off &, on... Dark, Definitely!!! But, Humbling, Crafting me into Myself daily, Would Not trade my years &, tears for Anything... Here &, STRONGER... NEXT‼️🌬️🩵
In reference to coming out of The Dark Night faster; One thing that helps me a lot, that I want to share, was that I made a physical list of all the people in my life that I felt wronged me in some way. (It was long, even some from my childhood.) One by one I visualized a face to face conversation where I told them I forgive them (specifically for what they did) and asked them to forgive me (specifically for how I reacted) and then I virtually wished them love and peace, gave them a hug and sent them on their way. I repeated this until I no longer felt that they owed me an apology. Now when their faces come up in my memory I feel peace and forgiveness for them. It was hard at first--. I can't tell you how many people I virtually slapped in my mind but eventually my heart softened and I dropped the burden of hateful baggage. Wonderfully, some I have been able to tell in person. I still have to practice sometimes but it's such a relief to get rid of the anger, self-pity and the "woe is me" attitude from being wronged. Do it for you, not for them. I love myself a lot more now because the dark was eating me up. You can forgive their humanity and make more room in your heart for the light. It doesn't mean you condone what they did or the hurt they caused. It just means that you don't have to carry it everywhere you go. You have to PRACTICE forgiveness. I find that now, I am much quicker to forgive rather than holding it in. We are all a collective. The Universe hears your thoughts and does reward your positive intent! Hope this helps!
I followed that process and I had a glimpse of Jesus.
I'm proud of you
Karma Rules I love this idea. I’m going to do this today.
I’m very happy you were able to get out of the Dark Night. Your story is almost similar to mine, I thank you for sharing how you’re able to find Peace and Happiness with yourself. Love your technique, going to try it myself. S.S
Your comment was pivotal to my process of forgiveness. Thank you for sharing your knowledge and experiences.
1) feel low in energy. Depressed
2) feeling no purpose in life
3) feeling completely disconnected from God and source energy
4) You have no energy
5) Not knowing what to do with your life
6) You don't know who you are
7) You don't know what you want in life
8) You don't know what you want to do
9) Things you like to do before you no longer like.
10) Some passions disappear
Top symptom:- Your life turns meaningless
Tips to come out of dark night
1) Surrender
Mantras:-
"I surrender to life"
"I surrender to my soul's will"
"I drop resistance to my process"
2) Reframing
2.1) Use mantra
2.2) Gratitude
3) Energy cleansing 36:15
Sit in meditation, close your eyes, imagine bright light coming from heaven,
Mantra "It is my intention to..."
Thank you I feeling like that now
Thank you 🤍
Yes thank you💙
Thank you Ajay
What to do concrete? Give me an example of surrender? How to surrender? Can anyone please tell me?!!
Horrible horrible feeling. Maybe mine is anger, jealousy, outrage, loneliness, confusion. I feel all of these and very depressed. I cannot stop crying. Thankyou for this video. Your words have helped.
I'm not understanding what I'm going through when I lay down im feeling something in my body it moves all over within me like its crawling within me its so scary can't sleep my bed feels like it's lightly shaking but its not its within me it feels like it's feeling me it starts rising through my ankles up my legs and it keeps rising it does this repeatedly hope you have a answer to this
If you take out jealousy and add lost. That is me. I just started mine. I miss the joy stage.
Yes. It is horrible.
I didn't realize what was going on at first.
@@lizperez5625Anxiety shows up in weird ways in the body. For me it's a physical sense of burning in my abdomen upon waking. Then it spreads out to my extremities. Doctors can't explain it.
I feel the same as you
Some physical relievers to note too:
Cold showers!
Breathwork (I love Wim Hof's-clears the mind calms the body)
Music (life saver)
Hug a tree, walk barefoot, get away from the cars and the people for a moment. This could especially be important for empaths.
This was a great video. Mantras, affirmations/gratitude, and visualizing will be my focus now!
Could not agree with you more- especially about the music! Stay blessed 🌻
100% ive been doing wim’s breathing every morning and taking cold showers for nearly a year now
Thanks brother. Will be trying some of these out. Love you
Thank You. I have been grounding. It helps. 💗
Ha! Great comment! I do all these things! Also, I hugged my first tree today! Felt incredible🦶🏻🌎🌳🤗
Shedding your skin was a good analogy because i feel detached from the things that use to interest me. The hardest part of the dark night is the lonelyness and not being able to express my feelings. It feels like death. And i think people notice my disconnect.
So you experiencing the lack of Vitamin ME.....
Tiffany, I have always been an outsider. At times through conscious choice. Mostly through unconscious choice. Your message, gave me a aha moment. THANK YOU :D
I’m going through this now and couldn’t understand why I was losing people “close” to me. You feel so isolated and alone but still like something deeper is keeping you going.
Yes!! Same! I found difficulty to express myself too! I'm trying dealing with my emotions my writing, punching pillows or meditating
My own isolation was almost a forced rescue. My life relationships fell apart in every area of my life, then I was injured and could not walk for a month. During that time I was forced to sit down so I searched on-line for answers, scouring so many sources, until I found Christina Lopes. I hovered over the exit button for the first few moments and with each moment her voice and words sank into me and hooked. Thank goodness. I am now moving forward into a new me and a new life, gradually while hungrily devouring the manna I have needed for recovery.
My biggest challenge right now is to face the fear of ego dying and letting go. I'm in that between place where I cannot go back but also don't know how to go forward, I'm scared of what I will become when I let go of my identity, but I feel it's releasing anyway bit by bit.
Exactly!! Same here
Same been going through it over a yr
I have a strange feeling if we prove we can let go of ego and identity...we get to keep it.
Same here 😬😬😬😶🌫️! This is SO STRANGE🫠 ( sometimes I EVEN feel DISCONNECTED 🔌 from reality, like an 👽, this is so F*CK up 🫤😕😵💫...🙃🤣😆😂!)
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Mother died of cancer when I was 17. 3 years of drug abuse after that cause I couldn’t face the reality, the accumulation of pain in my body so big that I couldn’t breathe after 5-6 years of deep intense pain everyday, I’m feeling a bit better but nowhere in balance yet. But man have the pain changed me... suffering humbles you, but it’s hard to keep going. One of the things that help is knowing that it’s an evolution of your soul that’s taking place, is really helpful. To anyone going through this I feel you out there. Stay strong.
Wow... thanks for sharing that. Wishing you continued growth and expansion 👊🏾💕👊🏾💕👊🏾💕👊🏾
Stay strong! thanks for sharing that!
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Thank you for sharing sending you lots of ❤❤❤
Thank u for sharing. How did u overcome your addiction? What type or shall I ask what was your DOC? I had childhood trauma (alcoholic, drug addict, violent to my mom and sisters, emotionally and mentally abusive, manipulative), trauma as an adult (son almost died at age 7, broken marriage, ex-husband murdered, grandma diagnosed with Alzheimer’s, and hit by at SUV that broke my left leg, caused me to move, loss of work/finances/job on 2 different occasions, COVID ....all these things in 7 yrs.& turned to opiates at first for a few months in 2013 when son seized 4 hrs straight and went into a coma..and then again the last 2-3 yrs around death of ex husband. I’m struggling. Any advice? Thanks!!
Omg im going through this now. I dropped 4 friends, i feel so isolated yet hopeful. Im changing rapidly
I am scared and in and out of pain.
I'm in it too. We will get out stronger from this. We can make it!
Yes the same thing has happened with me. Everyone I loved other than my parents are away from me now. I have also dropped a lot of friends. I had a best friend for like 8 yrs but I had to let her go cuz of the mental pain she was causing me. I have been feeling all the symptoms of the dark night and I am lost cuz I am like only 18 and a student. Studying right now is really important for me but everyday I feel so tired.
I feel exceptionally drained and everyday chores is just a big task for me.
I feel like I am in a huge black hole or something. Nothing absolutely nothing is going right in my life. My friends are lost, the guy I loved is lost, my relationship with my parents is a little bit odd, my grades have fallen.
@@nandinisingh5786 A lot of times they return new and improved. My bestie returned after 2 years apart. She made sweeping changes. Sometimes you have to create loss, to create change.
@@nutech1810 no in my case I wouldn't want her to return. But I get what you're saying.
I’m going through this now and couldn’t understand why I was losing people “close” to me. You feel so isolated and alone but still like something deeper is keeping you going.
I'm deep in this, it's been the hardest most painful 4 months of my life. Anxiety and depression, disconnection from myself and the world around me (like I'm in a dream sometimes), irritable and angry, crying a lot. Thank you for your video.
How are you doing now Casey? Going through the same.
Same I’ve been feeling this since October it’s now May :(
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do u have any tip? i’m going through the exact thing 😢 never been this depressed & stuck, i also feel like i’m dreaming
@@kenanidhyaikapratiwi6776 Yes. Let it be there. Try your best to accept it, don't resist it or deny it. You're going through it, it's happening. Accept it, embrace it. Meditate and try to still your mind. Pray and set positive intentions for becoming happier, healthier, stronger and more at peace. Know that the universe is on your side. Identify your biggest fears, accept them and then deal with them with courage. Don't worry about things, just work on things. Allow yourself the time and space that you need. Realise that this experience is a gift as it is providing a massive opportunity for you to grow, learn and become a better person. You are strong.
THE MIRROR THING IS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. I have been going threw my dark nights of the soul for over half a year now and when I looked into the mirror, I would have to remind myself ‘this is your face, this is your face, this is your face’ and it got to the point where even other people became a blur. This has been incredibly difficult because I have always felt a profound connection to God and source my entire life and so having that stripped away left me cram long to find my breath for months. I am just beginning to feel that connection again, but now in a much more intense manner. God is good and I am thankful for my journey 🙏🙏🙏💖💖
I can't wait for that reconnection with God. I miss Him, but I am even losing all my preconceived, immature ideas about who I believed Him to be and what faith is supposed to look like. I find myself cringing at all the Christian in-group virtue signalling I hear and used to participate in. Bring on this ego death; I want to know the true promised abundant life!
U said it correctly '" Ego doesn't die it transform itself into its new divine form " . I had gone through all these and now I m just witnessing miracles happening around me knowing the fact that I m pure consciousness.
pure consciousness indicates that your are no longer in your 3D body. That seems like the only viable solution to this.
someone recently told me he was going through what he calls an ego death and I said that it dies but it grows back.
This gives me such hope. I'm excited for my turn. I'm happy to see others celebrating their new life ;)
Yes i'm going through the dark night of the ego. My biggest fear is propably that this isn't going to pass and that i don't have enough of strenght to work myself through this.
I agree with you on the strength part
As I was sinking into a depressive state, for me it was definitely a must to change daily habits to support me through the dark night, it made the whole process far more peaceful and smooth.
1) Practicing Hatha Yoga daily
2) Changing to a plant based diet, with as much fresh veggies and fruit as possible. Avoiding processed foods.
3)Starting Intermittent Fasting
4) Listening to music to help me process emotions and go through the hardest moments ( I remember there were a couple of months when I kept listening over and over again "Head Above Water" from Avril Lavigne, it became like a mantra 😅
5) Journaling the process
6) Looking into my past to proactively heal old wounds
7) Finding few moments of stillness every single day, to stop the mental process and contemplate: just enjoying the sun, or the breeze or just taking the time to seep in the beauty of a tree
8) Practicing gratitude every single day
I learned the hard way that it is essential to support our bodies and minds throughout the process, it really changes the game. People around me kept asking "But why are you changing all your habits when you are so healthy? What is going on with you?". I couldn't really answer because I would sound crazy to them, so I just said "Nothing special, just in the mood to try something new" 😂😂😂 The truth is that I was completely desperate but I would just hide everything behind a smile (not anymore, learned the hard way again that it's a really toxic behaviour). But I am glad that it didn't discourage me from keeping doing it, because after a couple of months started paying back and I felt stability and peace in the middle of it, my anxiety finally receded. I wish the best to all of you going through it 🙏💖💖💖
Thanks for sharing your practices. They sound really helpful.
thank you. extreme fatigue, cold cold legs, lack of energy/fear/lots of crying/emptiness
Jesus said we have to die to really live,he meant the ego
Amen DK
I am not so sure about that. The process of dying is real and of essence. But he didn't mean you have to be dead I am sure.
Love it! All glory to our Lord and Savior 🙏
Amen to that.
Our old ways of thinking must die. Our instilled thought processes... 💖✌
Absolutely amazing. You perfectly described my life for the last 9 months.. I feel like I was dying, going crazy and everyone around me not validating me and not feeling supported AT ALL. I’ve felt so alone and in despair but I realized I’m the only one who can help myself. I always wanted to be protected and rescued but now I understand why I had to go through all of this… I will never abandon myself ever again from here on and I will only live life MY WAY. My heart is still in a million pieces but the more I put it together, the stronger I become..
I resonated with this so much ❤❤
😢 I am going through it and I am also not getting support.
First dark night of the soul is truly shattering. My ego woke up. I was in an extraordinarily abusive situation, it was like remembering my self. Because my self was spiritual to begin with, I lost my ego to abuse at first. I had to rebuild it knowing how helpless I had made my self. I found my purpose in life, I started working 24x7 to help survivors of abuse.
Oh man Good on u.
I’ve never looked at an abusive situation as a situation to wake up your soul, but wow it makes sense.
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@Elena Wilkins You will make it , believe in you !
Same for me
I've been going through the dark night for a year now. It's been painful. Dissociation, hopelessness, loneliness, anger, depression, fear, guilt, grief, you name it. I'm still in it but I feel the ending. It's so close. Almost as though I could reach my arms out and touch it. This will definitely help me to finally step into the light that I've been longing to be apart of for so long. Thank you for your guidance 🙏🏻❤️
Has this stage ended for you yet?
Have you had suicidal thoughts ever during the process?
How are you doing now, Lexxie?
This darkness hit really hard today. Thank You. This is helping
I lost my husband and Daddy within a year. Husband, sudden car accident. My Daddy heart failure. I'm self medicating and wanting inside, needing to break out of the day to day sedation. I also have 3 little wild boys under 8. 7, 6 and 3. So that's a whole bunch of love and mental stress. So I continue to do my yoga, listening to the encouraging videos and knowing this won't last forever. Love and light to y'all wonderful folks.
So sorry. You never know what another is going through. I have experienced no physical death from close family members yet, but yet still experience at least a little of this confusion and exhaustion. Bless you. Stay strong. I've talked to my mom about how I will be when she is gone and she said "YOU WILL BE STRONG."
Dark night of soul videos are so soothing to me. Make me feel sane 😂
lol same
Absolutely.
True, That's Been My New Normal.. 🙂↕️🍃🧘🏼♀️🩵.. Peace &, Blessings along Your Journey.
@@isabellableu97 same to you
I just went through a year of a spiritual awakening mixed with bliss, connection and at times fear. Now I am at the dark night which I feel I have gone through small episodes of this since childhood. I just want to be able to love myself, to heal and to know who I am. I've sobbed through this whole video, I've sobbed for days now. The pain is so deep. Spirit please guide me through this darkness 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I am feeling all these right now - I hope you are now at peace🤗🤗
I am going through that right now. And it is freaking my husband out. I'm feeling disconnected from source and from him. And I'm hoping it will pass with the relationship in tact. I explained to him at the beginning of this journey that I want him to come along but I understand if he doesn't. I also explained that I can't stop the transition. It's happening in waves right now and I've experienced the bliss, then rage, now emptiness. I've been in communication with others on their spiritual journey and one tried to shame me for not blaming this experience on a 'demonic' presence. At the time I hadn't heard the term 'dark night of the soul' but I do understand demonic to be a human construct. So that didn't work out so well for them. I'm glad to better understand it is an ego affliction and I now have the vocabulary to help the Mr through what I'm going through. I knew it would pass because I've been going through these bouts my entire life. I didn't realize the tools to help me through until this video. So, thank you for that. Sending light and love your way.
Stephanie Brown I am the complete opposite at you. I’m watching my husband go through it and it’s been almost 4 years. We also have a 2 year old. He’s told me many times over the years to leave and let him be but I never wanted to. Now I’m finding it become impossible to be around him and he is very upset with me for this that I did not leave sooner.
@@dbonanno89 I'm going through a similar experience. I know it this is weird and personal but are you still with your husband? I don't want to leave...😢
Oh my, sometimes idk if Im feeling my emotions or those of others
You are on the path, woman, just keep going! I've been going through the same thing. Well, similar, uh... Places?? Trust your intuition, and your genius heart! I've been listening to an amazing, truly wonderful teacher lately, here on you tube and on her website, her name is gangaji. She will help guide you to profound breakthroughs, so gracefully. Truly an incredible woman. I hope you look her up, and much love and blessings to you on your journey ⚓
GOD bless you and us all🙏 ❤ 🙌 Amen
Hello, It is so good to know that I am not going crazy. I have been experiencing constant headaches and migraines for 5 years already- still going on, plus nerve pain, mysterious different ailments in my body, chronic issues, severe constant eye strain, sinus issues..relationships issues... Went to so many doctors, did so many tests, scans, maneuvers, healings, teachings, exercises, techniques... no help at all, just pain, pain, pain, physical, emotional.. This caused anxiety, fear, depression...I feel broken, very weak, lost... started blaming myself for everything, feel enormous guilt and regrets for many things I have done in the past while not living consciously. I fear future... I think this is how the rest of my life will also be, cause I do not see how this all would end. A few days ago I signed up for Transcendental Meditation course hoping that this meditation can calm me down a bit and help me live with this. My ego must be enormous according to my experience of the "dark night"! Or, maybe, I am not spiritually awakening at all, it is just my life that sucks!
Anyway, thank you Tina so much for your videos and help and hope I got from watching!
I'm almost 53. My first dark night was Sept. '84 when I was 16. Anyone else in this group suffer that far back? It's hard to get help or even understand what's happening when the world treats you like you have 3 heads. Lol
Panic attacks and extreme anxiety disorder were constant companions from ages 16-30! I took no meds. I worked through it the hard way, but I wouldn't change it for anything.
March Campbell, my first Dark Night happened when I was 7. Teenage Dark Nights are fairly common. It's surprising shrinks haven't thought about this before. I was acting out what Mom tried to keep secrets in hopes of finding help for both of us, but I was the one considered insane. Life accepted. I made the best of it and lived well despite expectations.
I've watched quite a few of your videos today. As you speak about the Dark Night, I honestly feel like I've been stuck in it for many years. As I say it, "I keep recycling my life and I don't know how to move forward." I'm hoping to gain more control to grow through this and finally be at peace. Thank you for your insights!
Yes, Christina, I've been through several Dark Night of The Souls throughout my lifetime (I'm now 70). They do get easier or at least I can reside in a space of peace even though my outer reality is swirling and twirling and I still may be feeling sad, stressed, whatever. And the little ego does die more with each one as the Healthy Big Ego (Universe, God, Jesus,) grows more and more. A grateful Human!!!! :)
Do you follow the teachings of paramahamsha yogananda? I think they'd help you
Nice Aloha. just going through mine now
I feel like I have been going through this for a few months. It is the most challenging experience I have ever had. It feels like I am in between two worlds. My old world which used to make sense to me and an unknown world where I just don't seem to be quite there yet or fully understand its allure. I feel forsaken or abandoned at times and wake up to dark thoughts. I felt better this morning and I am not sure if this is temporary or a turning point. I keep letting go of things that used to be of utmost importance to me. Control has been the most difficult illusion for me to release, but I keep surrendering to the Universe. About a week ago I had no idea what I was experiencing, but then i watched Aaron Abke's video on Spiritual depression. It helped tremendously knowing that this is part of the process. I appreciate your video. Thanks 🙏
25 year old here! I know I shouldn’t be counting months or how long I’ve been in this phase but god these 7 months have been grueling agony. I’ve lost connections with my friends and family but honestly for the best, things are starting to appear in the light which I’m very grateful for, however there’s a part of me that longs for connection but afraid of showing vulnerability to people that ultimately are energy suckers and there are a lot of people who are not aware of that.
I must say that this video has been a life line when I’ve been consumed in darkness and dispair.
I remember waking up ultimately knowing a HUGE change is about to work my life. Although it’s been a rollercoaster from birth up until now, words cannot fathom how extremely honored I feel to experience this in this lifetime
thank you for the light Christina ✨
not sure why, but 25 was tough for me. existentialism, ego death to the fullest!
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I'm going through this right now i feel lost no one to talk to depressed no energy I feel whipped
Same. Going through challenges. If you need to talk, i am here. 💗
Are you okay now?
Hope you are doing well! More Love and Light to you!
How are you now?💛
Nature helps!:)
My awakening was triggered by serious trauma that made my heart ache and throat throb. I used chanting as a way to quite the mind and get my voice back. I journal daily as a way to remain aware and reduce mental clutter. I also do yoga and meditation to connect to my body. Sometimes I cried threw all these processes and sometimes I was angry for the things that I did not understand. But I know that’s ok and every day gets better. Just being able to put a video out like this is a blessing, Thank you so much Christina! XO!
I am going through the dark knight of the ego. I feel lost, no purpose, confused, hurting a deep pain in my heart. No desire to be in the moment to get out of bed. I feel heavy like my body is always weighted and sluggish, sick, out of myself yet deeply consumed and trapped by my skin. There's glimpses of a sense of spiritual peace I feel a vibration centered in my shins that is intense there but lightly throughout the rest of my body. My heart though is blocked like this darkness has its grasp around it keeping it within it's depths unable to feel fully the peace of my spirit and hear what my soul is trying to speak.
You are not alone, hang on it will pass, I’ve been there too,❤️
Feeling exactly this…grateful to have come action items to try. Trying to feel grateful for the small things is so hard when I feel this awful but have to try.
I am beyond grateful for your videos during this incredibly difficult time! As someone with an educational background in psychology, I thought I was losing my mind especially when I began experiencing symptoms of "not knowing who I was anymore" or a "deep sense of meaninglessness" and "profound emptiness". I'm currently trying to take it day by day but the feelings of depression have been so debilitating (partially because my ego has been resisting the ascension process). Having a conceptual understanding of the dark night of the soul really helped me make sense of it all. Truly appreciate all that you do. Thank you so much! 🧡
Omg I kept thinking I'm going crazy, this, everything. Thank you. 💜🙏
So happy this topic is discussed and recognized alot more nowadays. Very hard process to go through and many just think I am depressed and being dramatic when I cry every day. The little things good or bad make me cry. Thank you for the channel and everyone going through it, you all are badass and will get through it! The world is a beautiful place with our beautiful souls healing
Wish I found this video before haha. I am just getting out of this. I know i was getting rid of the shit in my mind as i used to call it. All my childhood traumas, past mistakes, wrong perceptions and mental disfuncioning that was so exhausting for 40 years were finally coming to surface fast and more furiously these last 4 months. Oh, I wish I have anticipated this. Before that, I was feeling a sense of relief. I thought the worst was over but no. I really needed time alone but I wasn't alone. Now that I think about it, for me, it was necessary to go through this. I was for sure kicking and screaming. Going against it. All my negative narratives and victim mentally would just not want to leave. I was the one looking to understand what was happening to me. Searching, desceminating, over analyzing and trying to make sense of it. Blaming others for what I was feeling and somehow I came to surrender. Sadly on my way out of it. I shared what I was going through and I hurt someone. I wish I knew this before. Dont do that. Just be still, have this time for yourself. Because no one will understand. You will see that at the end of this dark night you will feel glad that you finally got rid of that old story of yours. You will find that you need to forgive yourself and others in a way you havent forgiven before. That forgiveness is so important. Do it well, let go. You will find that "most" of the pain will sease (at doing that) and your will forget the negative feelings!
I said it, It is not that you will act as if nothing has ever happened, you will act as if everything has already happened! It's done and gone. And you will want to ask for forgiveness as well, dont do it until you truly know what you are apologizing for, let your heart guide you. It's is important to take responsibility for what you have said and done in the past when you were hurt. We all have a share and so honor yourself and authentic about it. Part of the process of letting the ego die is to get courage to take a positive action. Dont be sad if people dont forgive you. Just know that in your heart you mean to heal yourself and others. Just be what you were meant to be. Love. That's it. You are the source of love. Love will heal itself. And once you are healed, you will be able to heal others. Know that everything that your soul is getting rid of is not allowing you to be that (love). So let it go so you can find bliss and peace in your life. For that you must let your old and sick ego die. It's being three long years for me with 3 very dark nights, with the last one being the worst and the best... and today I know that I will be ok. I know that this is a good thing and so I have decided to run with it. Reframing like she said was key. Changing your paradigm... not so easy when you have to discover what it was before. Scary to actually meet my old true self. Or was it me all this time? Was I just a puppet of my hurt ego? Surrender and stop resisting. Letting it all come to surface and being kind to yourself will help you accept with grace what you couldn't before. Remain still. Do not react to it. See things as they are and not as you think it should be, it's ok. And if your mind takes you to where you dont want to go, let it be, you are not your mind. Watch it and bring your awareness to what's important. Little by little you will find meaning and will to focus on what's really important. It is all good. Revelations will come to you. You are not crazy. You are almost there and for now, Just be there.
Thank you for this video!! ❤
Im sure have been led here by my soul.. onto the treadmill im watching this as i walk..i have this image of a cord frm my heart leading me 2 just simply walk forward,as lately ive felt frozen im so grateful 2 you for this explaination..this has helped alot..im literally losing my mind..&changing..🙏💕
I have been crying for 4 months seemingly for no reason. Not just getting teary a few times a day, but gut-wrenching sobbing half of the day, when not sobbing feeling flat, so tired and frustrated with the knowledge I know there is more but I can't seem to pick a direction to go. I found information on the dark night of the soul it helped me to know it might something else other than depression/anxiety. Thank you for these practices. I will certainly try them, anything to move this process along would be most welcomed!
Again another fantastic and easy to understand the “dark night of the ego”…. Love this expression far more palatable for me anyway…releases the negativity of the soul❤
I've been going through it of and on for years... and i've survived it every single time. I was diagnosed as bipolar and been put on medications wich were horrible. I am still a bit in it but it's bareable now and i won't let it get to me anymore. I started painting and discovered unexpected talents on myself by creating art, wich gave my life meaning again. You have to find things that bring you joy and leave the old you behind. It's a very difficult process, because i really wanted to die and end my life. My cats were my guardian angels and kept me from ending my life. I needed to live for them, and they saved me. It's actually a very good process because it shows you where you went wrong in life. Now i feel a lot better but i am still struggling with the last bits of it.
The Outsider your cats! Me too!✨✨❤️🙏🏻
Dr NOD Warrior Goddess Queen 😪
I've been ten thousand miles in the mouth of a graveyard, I've been to the depths of the deepest dark forest, I've been out in the middle of a dozen dead oceans....
There is no joy. Joy is an illusion to get your mind off of the miserable existence on earth.
@@newlife4646 Yep
I've felt this way my whole life. It definitely came in waves where sometimes I was okay around people, but once I was alone my true emotions could come out. I think I am undoing generations of ancestral trauma. I am the "responsible" person in my family. Going to college was my way to escape but once I got there I started feeling even more helpless. I felt disconnected from that space (as Black woman who grew up poor in a white private liberal arts school) while knowing I needed it to be able to get a job and be able to support myself and my family. I am 25 and as I get older I just want to run away from myself but I know there are people who would be hurt if I did that. Knowing that people I love depend on me makes me want to heal. Heal so I can show my loved ones that it is possible and help them on their journey. I cant help anyone if I can't help myself.
How are you now? 🙂
I’m in the beginning stages but it’s heavy. I’m going through this now and couldn’t understand why I was losing people “close” to me. You feel so isolated and alone but still like something deeper is keeping you going.
I've never had the bliss stage but I do feel like during this period of the Dark Night I am starting to have random moments of bliss and connection to everything. This video was so helpful, you explain everything so slowly and well that I'm getting addicted to your videos. Thank you so much for this, I suddenly feel less lost and even slightly excited about this process.
How long does it take? Until you learn the lesson. i.e. going back to that abusive relationship, job, habit, place, you don't want to let go. Let him go! Let her go! Move forward. The Universe has all the time in the world. Just waiting for you to learn the lessons. Thank yo so much for your time! ♡♡♡
I'm away to leave my mentally abusive partner I went through the dark knight for a year with him he won't leave me even though I've told him to I went through the dark knight for a year it must of been my soul needing to rid myself of this horrible, distructive person out of my life
I had a whole “perfect storm” of things happen all at once. I had a work injury that ended my nearly 15 year career that I was going to retire in, the relationship with my brother fell apart, I ended an 8+ year relationship, and several other things. It spurred on a spontaneous spiritual awakening. I venture to say almost close to a kundalini, but I’ve never spoken with anyone who really knows about that stuff. I struggled with it. BAD. I didn’t know what was happening. And then I allowed myself to fall out of it. Then I went through a very dark period. And even that part came in waves. But, lately, I seem to be on the cusp of another awakening. I’m excited and can’t wait to see what god/universe has in store for me.
I'm in the dark night and my struggle is identifying my repressed pain and trauma from childhood. This video will help me, I just need to follow my soul's lead, no resistance, surrender to the process. Thank you beautiful soul!
Was enlightened at the age of 7 walking in our garden. Then I have had drugs placed in my cola and raped 3 times woke up twice from the roofies almost died once all these in a matter of 3 years once under age. A decade later my mother was diagnosed with a rare cancer. I was the main caregiver unless she had to be in hospital then I would sleep on the floor as they allowed me. After she passed my dad had a cancer even more rare; took care of him at home the entire time-there was nothing for them to do so I watched and did things I shouldn’t have with no help. This was a total of 13 years back to back not including my furry babies that was about to hit me. I sought a dr to talk to made things worse and I refused medications. Three years later 3 of my furry babies, I had for over 20 years, all were ill and going to die. Again I was there with them as I was for my parents with the most 4 hours of sleep. I lost everyone in my life and not a soul called me to see if I was alive or needed to talk. All my friends disappeared, all my parents friends disappeared on me. Being the only child and so emotionally attached to them all I actually said out loud to myself, “I am free now, there is no one else to die on me” and I felt so numb, so lost I did not speak for weeks. I was told I was a nurse in past lives and I never believed it till those times. I use to do this odd healing where I would extract black matter out of bodies and expel it to the universe then flood the body with white light. I still can not find out what this type of healing is called but it works till there is so much matter that I can not. The only time I understood it was in a movie I saw called The Green Mile. Except my black matter comes out of my other hand as one vacuums it out. I don’t know what kind of healing his is called either. I wish I knew. One day after a year of seeing a psychiatrist for a year to no avail he told me off the clock, “I don’t understand how you have not committed suicide “. I looked at him and told him I have furry babies at home that need me and never went back again. It’s been since 2016 since the loss of my last furry babie and just last year around this time I felt bliss. I felt I was “allowed” to live again. Unfortunately I called an ex boyfriend from my college years and he dismissed me quickly and hung up on me. I actually called him to see if he was ready to reconnect as I believed we were meant to do good on this earth together. My bliss left me and a mini dark night still holds on to it’s finality. I am realizing how alone I have been for so long and I am still here. It sounds sad but it really is not. I do have a friend who lives in another city in which he heard a lot of what went on in my past. He is a kind and caring soul who wants to help me but this is my battle not his. Why burden someone and bring them down when you can elevate them to vibrate at a higher level. But I now understand people die yes. It is painful yes but, it is part of life; just wish it was so traumatic for my loved ones or for me either. All I know now is that I need to be somewhere in order to do my life’s purpose. I am almost there. I have not seen anything else since that walk in the garden at 7 years old. I am now 51 and know when the time is right I will be there. Thank you for sharing your words with us Christina. Apologies for this mess of message but if anyone reads it please know you can get through it. I believe in you. Thank you for reading dear souls. 🤍
incredible story, no human should be suffering and certainly not a child. I feel we should take more care for one another. love and hugs to you, thinking of you, you are not alone in this, we are connected through yr experience touching my heart
May you experience the light and love of the universe from this day forward ✨️
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This is the best explanation for this phenomenon. Im going through this currently and there have been days i don't know how i got through it. I'm still in the thick of it. I do see how your ego melts away, as I'm not the person i used to be, and that's ok. I'm 67 yrs old, I'll never be the same. I sometimes wish i was no longer on this earth. I'll accept this suffering if i come out on the other side an improved human. Thank you so much for this episode, you have helped more than you know.❤
During spiritual awakening and dark night of the soul I would highly recommend to have some spiritual healer, helper, teacher. They can help you to understand it and go through the process with love.
I felt disconnected and detached from everyone. I wanted to run away from everything because I felt so ashamed as to how I felt. I went from a state of bliss one day to physical ailments and sadness, disconnection from source and my community the next day. I am still going thru this phase. I still have physical ailments and I cry everyday because of the sadness I experience but I’m taking it one day at a time. Nature helps a lot, gratitude, music, and surrendering to people loving and supporting me. My friends, family and partner have showed up in immense ways. I will forever be grateful
I'm currently going through the same thing I'm getting triggered by everything thing I've thought I've healed are coming back up I'm lost and confused I'm also crying everyday I'm an empath and have a high sensitivity so its alot scary things happening in my body negative thoughts resurfacing after doing so much inner work I feel so alone I'm not close with family and the ones I live with don't understand I'm just trying to stay positive...we will get through this sending you some much love❤❤❤❤
@@melanitebeauty403 thanks for sharing your story. Makes me feel less lonely. Sending you lots of love and blessings and healing on your journey. We got this ❤️
@@melanitebeauty403 same
I think I'm currently in the dark night of the soul. I can't go to sleep it feels like I can't breathe. I sometimes wake up in panic because it feels like I'm choking. I don't know what to do, I feel so disconnected to everyone. It feels like they're living in a bubble and I disconnect from them and go all alone somewhere else. But I don't know where. This video helped me so much to understand what it is. I feel depressed but I still have my positive thoughts, that's such a weird feeling but now I see why I have it and what's it all about.
how are you feeling now?
"I am safe" has also helped me so much, especially before bed when Im thinking about all of this. Positive affirmations are a big help. Talking to yourself like you are a young child helps, I know it sounds silly, but I know I feel like a little lost child when I'm going through it. Also, remind yourself that you're not doing it wrong, I know I keep thinking its about over and then its not and i beat myself up and tell myself Im not doing any of it right. This is when surrounding helps, and telling yourself that you are being guided with love through all of it. Acceptance helps too, I will accept that I feel like crap and I have no idea what's going on and I just need to trust it will work out. It's okay to feel horrible and take care of yourself. We are human.
I am going through it. We have so much in common. I wish there was a Zoom meeting to go to and talk to other people and share. I am reading others' comments that I am not alone. Love to hear more and share.
I am going through a dark night of the soul and I am now gaining insight on why I feel this way... Somewhere along the line I stopped loving myself. That is why I am stuck here right now and why everything is so painful. This is new for me. I've always loved myself so much.
I am in the middle of one right now....with anxiety like I’ve never known before, insomnia, my meditations suck, and I feel so lost, a far cry from the wonderful place I was a year ago. Thank u so much for these tips!!! ♥️♥️ I really love your channel. The things u post have been very very helpful! 🙏🏼
I’m in the same boat right now and I feel like I’m losing my mind. Do you have problems with short term memory loss or difficulty concentrating?
Robert DiMauro def had that foggy headed-ness because of the lack of sleep.
Robert DiMauro I have to say once I got my sleep back, things leveled out again, thankfully!
My ego is saying all types of crazy thing's and I kept feeling a sense of floating away like a balloon...I feel anxiety and scared, fear of I don't know what, unsure, sad, a deep depression, off and on anger or aggravation...But I will be fine, just didn't know this was a real thing lol. I will keep praying and meditating. Thank you for your video's, I wanted to cry because I needed help with this... ❤
The only thing I can say is, in order to do a video like this you have to had been there. Blessings to you!❤👊
Elijah Effron when you think you’re alone in these thoughts......places like this make you realise, you’re not alone. Surprising and refreshing
Hayley Clayton ...Thank you I appreciate you. 🤗
14yrs. It's affected my health, I have zero motivation, lost all sense of inspiration. I wonder how people do the things they do, how they get themselves to move with energy. I'm isolated and have been for years, any potential of new friendships have fizzled out before they've properly started. I often feel adrift, lost in a vast ocean, often panic, terror and deep sense of dread in the pit of my stomach. I feel pointless, without purpose, like nothing has any meaning or point to it. Disconnected even though I cognitively understand the true nature of the universe and energy etc. I'm not feeling it, not embodying that knowledge as I have in the past. Spaced out, disconnected also from the human world, physically heavy, everything is such a huge effort and I have no patience with people.. especially when I'm being lied to. I have adhd which could be making things worse because of the inability to keep focus clear. Watching this video has made me realise how much I need to feel in control of events and the way they happen...Fear,lots of fear and perhaps worst of all, definitely the biggest challenge is the level of demand avoidance that's going on.. I struggle to get myself to do even things I know I like and want to do. It's such a bizarre battle to deal with. Anyone else have that? Something has changed tho, I felt a big shift at the beginning of the year. Lots of realisations and shifts in my patterns but still that numbness and it feels so slow.. there's that need for control again! I want to feel again but need to get to the point where it feels safe to do so I guess. This work is so intense but does it have to be? I've gained deep, deep levels of insight into myself but feel so self absorbed.
Anyway I'm very glad to have found this video and to you for making it, thank you 💜
Going through it right now. I figured I have so much resentment inside me. I did a Reiki course and the white light visualisation is part of the practice. But most days I can barely get myself to practice it. After watching your video I know that I’m resisting because of my ego and I need to surrender. Thank you so much for this video and your channel. I’m so grateful for you and for my very supportive husband and my tabby baby that keeps me smiling with his antics through this time.
Thank you so much, I'm currently on my first Dark night of the soul journey. The mantras are helping me, i find it difficult to meditate sometimes because my mind is so busy. I'm happy when you use I surrender mantra because this is exactly my daily mantras even before I've seen your video.
Maybe i was meant to see this message that my guides are sending me through you. Thank you so much for this beautiful explanation. I affirm that i am closer to the light. I'm ready. I surrender to the universe.
I just started my dark night.. a week in and Im glad I came across your video. as a medium who channels the Neteru, I can verify everything you've said is bang on! But with my mojo miss firing as my ego dies, I have doubted my own gifts. You have in one video restored all this. You are amazing and I'm grateful you took the time to post this video. Blessings to you xx
I am bawling my eyes out right now. This is so... hard. So very hard. I feel like I am fighting against myself. I am feeling so much. Memories popping off everywhere. And I feel so very alone. I want to be free.
Vanessa Kershaw deja vu is coming up like crazy
I had covid 8 months ago ! In the struggle it was an awakening in me , since then, it has been ups am downs , depression, panic attacks , feel in disconnected etc , but thanks to your videos and guidance it's helping me to acknowledge and assimilate what's happening to me ! It makes me feel stronger and capable to continue in my journey so when I get out of it I can also share my experience and it may help some Body else .God bless you ! So you can keep helping people !
Gracias ! Alma hermosa !
It will pass. Be patient. Sending you love and light to heal and recover fast. 💖
I'm so grateful I found you, because You're helping me to go through my process easier and understand things that are happening and are so weird that even my closest friends have difficulties with dealing with this with me. But I see that light im my eyes too and in other peoples eyes also, so it's so relieving for me to hear that everything I'm going through is just a part of my healing process and creating my whole new beautiful life I've ever wanted and waited for, since childhood. I feel like my whole life was a spiritual awakening, believing in myself in childhood, then losing it and now coming back. Thank you for just being here ❤❤
I really had no idea what I was going through. I felt this gap between myself, all my actions and words. I don't know who I am or what I want anymore. I am struggling to make decisions in my life. I feel uncomfortable with myself. This video was very helpful. Thank you. 🌼
My life before spirituality for ab 14 years was severe depression, I discovered these spiritual truths and felt them so deeply it lit me up I found a way to shift into bliss. Bliss- when before I never even thought it was possible for me to feel happiness. I was so grateful. I made bad choices during this blissful period bc I thought it was untouchable, I thought I would feel that way for the rest of my life and for the first time I wanted to socialize, I wanted to help people feel the way I did. I didn't know that these choices would eventually cause me to abandon my dedication to my connection. I've now been depressed again for the last 3 years.. I don't think it's a dark night of the soul.. I can't find a path back to that blissful place. I cant feel elevated emotions. It hurts so much. I don't blame anyone not even me for my ignorance but I just don't know how to get out of emotions of suffering and resistance. I'll never stop trying.. I know how good it's possible to feel and I am so grateful for that awareness.
So true…I’m happy I came across this video because this is a scary and different experience to be going through, especially alone. Even reading these comments is making me kinda nervous lol. The best thing is to remind ourselves constantly when we start to lose grip of ourselves and our sense of purpose/ meaning, we need to tell ourselves it’s just a phase and it will pass eventually.
This video is exactly what I needed today. Saved me 😮 I have been ill with flu symptoms since Dec so I became very isolated whilst resting at home. 7 of my piano students left over 3 months, I became totally disconnected and felt so alone fearing I would have no money to live on. But I don't want to do that work anymore. I can't believe how I feel. Yes I do relate to not wanting to get up and start the day. I thought it was me being lazy but now I see why. I will be kinder to myself from now on.
This is my 2nd dark night.. Yes it's not so intense but still awful.
It feels like I've died. All the life force has drained away.
I will use the 3 tips. So helpful.
Thank you Christine for this video. Thank you all for sharing.
Lots of anger, fear, and headaches, thank you for sharing your insight with us.✌🏻🙏🏻
And here “I am “. I opened UA-cam and your video was playing, with sound (never does that). I’ve been dragged down through this for 10 months minimum and it’s excruciating and Ive lost everything and begging for the end. Yesterday I believe it was your video about communication with our spirit guides and working with the arch angels and it was the first night in a long time I actually slept. I was born seeing and hearing and it makes this process no easier. In fact I think it’s harder because for the most part Ive been disconnected from the gifts and it’s been oh so very difficult and the most lonely experience I’ve ever had. I know that source and angels are bringing me to you, and this gave me comfort yesterday but even more so right now when when this video was playing and I need the insight and understanding and mostly just feeling not abandoned by my angels anymore. You are light being and your gift is teaching us and guiding us through the process but more importantly, the healing.
I‘ve been through this dark night of the soul two years ago. It lasted for a few months. And it was a frightening but also fulfilling experience. Now after diving into my shadow and healing some major wounds I feel like the old me is starting to disintegrate. At least my core beliefs are turned upside down. It feels like I‘m walking with a blindfold. Although I can see everything with my eyes, I can only live on by feeling into my heart and following my intuition. In these past years I‘ve made major decisions and cut lots of people out of my life forever. I am changing. Now it‘s only me or me. My soul doesn’t allow me to pause anymore :) Spirit knows what it wants and it‘s directly telling me which steps to take. So I‘m grateful for that 💜✨
I’m binging on your fabulous channel! 😊 Thank you, I just realised, every time I go into DNOS, it’s always triggered by rejection! I’ve been researching and yes, rejection is a Big factor. I’m sure all my life’s rejections have lead to this, the most painful possible. The DNOS carried on for 18 months, but I’m here, out of the darkness, accepting what is, working through, coming out of grief, learning at last, allowing the Universe. ❤️
Gratitude and long conversations with God/myself….gratitude….more conversations with God. I speak to my ego, my higherself, the trees, my cells, the wind, the birds, the building, all who and that is listening ….recharges me every time ❤️ knowing i’m not alone gets me out of those “negative” feelings all the time . it’s all perfect, the plan and design is all perfect.
Wow I know a lot about this "dark knight of the soul" and have experienced it quite often in my life. This has to be the best sum of it I've ever herd. Very simplified in terms anyone can understand. Amazing thank you for your insights.
The dark night has been hitting me hard the last couple of days and this video brought me to tears. i did everything you recommended to do and i feel a bit ligter. thank you for spreading your knowledge Christina! today im feeling really disconnected and its a relief to read that there is so many others out there going through the same as me. i believe we have invisible nets of love and support between us and that we are going to move into the new earth together. much love to all you brave beautiful souls out there
Completely lost sense of friendship,meaning of connection,sense of self.I’ve been going through a lot of anxiety which sometimes even feels like dying,but this helped me a lot,it feels like my inner self has been searching for some type of reassurance like this,thank you and god bless you.
My dark night (purge stage) lasted a little over 5 years. I didn't realize my ego was in constant battle with my soul. If I had known earlier that I was going through the dark night, I would try to let my ego give up. I am very happy my ego surrendered and I am currently a few weeks in the Void phase.
My second week in my dark knight … thanks for your videos, these have always been crucial moments in my life that I was unaware of… I know of the darkness ….
I'm just coming out of my second, feels like a death experience.
What I'm going through right now
Same
For me it’s like grieving the death of a loved one, that I can’t seem to shake or stop. Never ending grief, that’s exactly how it feels to me.
@@suze6083 Hang in there. All will be well. Thankyou for sharing.💜
I am starting this video and this is the first thing about this that has made sense to me! My spirit guide is still giving me information and I was told this was going to take months
Looking foward to the rest of the video.
Thank you for this beautiful video. I feel like I've been born into this "dark night of the soul" for reasons. This is a great help, sending you lots of love and light sister.
Thank you Christina. This was incredibly helpful. I came in feeling overwhelmed and after watching the video I feel a sense of peace. I am so grateful to you. You have been one of my favorite go to leaders for 5+ years. Deep gratitude for you. ❤
O MY SWEET!!! IM A NEWBIE ON YOUR CHANNEL..THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR PUTTING THIS "WHAT EVER NEGATIVE THING" A LABEL..LOL..IM 61..EXTREMELY EMPATHETIC..AND COMING INTO OLD ABILITIES I HAD AS A CHILD..AND IVE SPENT MOST OF MY LIFE ALONE AFTER BEING A PUNCHING BAG FOR THIS MAN WHO HAS CROSSED OVER IN 92..I BELIEVE I HAVE JUST PASSED THROUGH THE SECOND ONE" THAT FASE" AND I BELIEVE IM GETTING IT. WHAT USED TO GET ME AND IS STILL LINGERING A BIT..IS I CAN FORGET WHEN THE EGO BEAST AS I CALL IT..TRIES TO COME AND RECK MY PLANS OR GOALS THAT I HAVE SET FOR MYSELF..BUT IM HITTING IT..SO THANK YOU FOR THOSE BEGINNER MONTRAS..THAT TO WILL HELP. YOUR CHANNEL WILL HELP ME SO MUCH. I JUST A FEW MONTHS AGO DECIDED TO GIVE LIFE A CHANCE. MAYBE MEET SOMEONE. IM IN THE MIDDLE OF STARTING OVER AFTER LOSING EVERYTHING. BUT IM BETTING ON MY GUIDES AND THE UNIVERSE TO GUIDE ME. WISH ME LUCK..OR JUST A BLESSING WILL DO. SO MUCH LOVE AND LIGHT! 🙏😊✌💖💖🤩😘
Your story resonated with me so much!! My situation was a little different (I'm divorcing my narcissist husband) but like you, I was a punching bag.
I feel compelled to tell you to research healing from the Narc, C-PTSD & EMDR therapy. UA-cam has hundreds of helpful videos on all of that stuff. Some of it might be helpful & if not that's ok too. I just felt lead to share! Regardless of that, I pray that this next phase of your life is filled with blessings of joy, love & laughter!! 🌈☀️💕
My old self died a long time ago, I have changed so much and became a lot stronger,you're right it is scary.
I am not fitting in filling alone and I find myself crying a lot because I feel lost and alone in the universe
It’s taken me 16 years of being lost terrible, terrible, years. I was never suicidal but certainly did not want to not be here and hoped I didn’t wake in the morning. Still here. I think I’m through it, feeling now so much better. Hope it never comes back. I was 62 years when it started. I’m now 79 years. Amen. My darling niece committed suicide going through the Dark Night. God Bless Her Soul.
I’m so sorry for your loss, happy to hear that you are in a better place now✨ love and light to you ❤️
I've gone through cycles of this over the years. It lasts a couple of months up to a couple of years, and then went into the void. Went back and forth for about 15 years. Recently started feeling more grounded, and started moving into a place of peace with myself
I went through Dark night not really understanding what was happening, but because of my faith walk, at the time of the 10yr episode, even if I felt separated or abandoned by God, I knew better. I remember going to sleep, so weak, yah, this thing blew me up, by faith I knew I was not forsaken, and even if I couldn't hear The Voice, the truth was...I would never be abandoned and I was never really alone and I had a grip on these truths that had become ingrained into every cell of my beingness.
I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have that.
I remember feeling buried alive, so to speak, and all I could do was whisper, Does anybody know I'm here?
What a deep and amazing experience that caused sink deeper into those everlasting arms, and trust. In myself, I was helpless but again, to know at my heart, when I'm weak I'd be made strong, I rested in it, going with the flow.
I'd already learned to fly like the Eagle, so as I was being pressed, squeezed out, being destroyed, I knew, even if I was being destroyed, it would somethow all work to my good! I guess I had mantras not knowing that's what they were at the time...and these like I say were grounded at my core.
Gosh, how many times now I've saiW to God...whatever needs to be torn from my flesh, Do it! I will not draw back.
Yup, it's been an amazing walk and at 64, I'm still here to talk about it? Yay:) Hehe, and now I have even more understanding and I thank you:) xo
I slept a lot, cried a lot, and received messages of what my life was and had to look at and dispose of those images and forgive myself as they are washed away from my own ego's identification as suffering, doubt and BS that fuk-ed me up for years. I feel released, yet there is always some reminder that" aw look at this, what is is, remember this?", I used it now. I like when that happened, I am loved. Some of I laugh at 2, so. I've been thru the worse now. I mean the very worse. Carry water, chop wood. Love the last time I cried, after that iit became easier, the Feminine with ease. For me about 2 months. With residue. I pray a lot.
This is so reassuring,reminds me of my actual birth, being dragged into the world kicking, screaming and overdue.
Im not ok , i cant believe it's taken away
@@sunrise52269 hang in there, I know it's tough. I try and connect to a loving spirit guide when I'm in that place. All dill be well.
Thank you so much! I have been going through the Dark Night of the Soul for week now! Your advice has lifted me up and given me hope. I have felt so depressed, lost and hopeless, and I've had to fight off suicidal thoughts. Bu you are absolutely right when you say it's actually the Dark Night of the Ego! Transformation is painful, but before we can fly, we have to shed our cocoon!
The ego part really makes sense, ego goes against spirit so there ya go. In the span of 4 years I lost all of my clients. I felt more alone than I ever have. I didn't know who I was, I was crying all the time, I was depressed, I felt unappreciated, invisible and dismissed. I released held emotions, I also got through the loss of 3 pets in 6 months (which was devastating), but I got stronger and found me.
Yes, I think we need an ego but not a selfish one, not one at all costs, not one that interferes with spirit, a softened ego. One thing that helped me was St. John's Wort capsules.
I agree with you in regards to new ego. I feel the dark night of the soul is like the Phoenix rising from the ashes. I’ve gone through it a few times in the last few years. I’ve learned that when most aspects of my life collapses within the same time frame it’s a huge indicator that my ego is about to go through another transformation.
This sounds like my whole life I’ve always been this way not wanting to get out of bed, depressed, no purpose in life, I’ve always liked being alone and isolated myself from everybody. I’ve always felt different like I don’t fit in don’t have no friends the only friends I have are pets I don’t really talk to nobody I’ve always had anxiety and been a introvert but this time it feels a little different my sleep schedule is off my face is breaking out but most of it is what I’ve always gone through
I started crying tears of joy at this video. Thank you. It’s been years for me, and the way I’ve thought of it, it was like I recognized the spiritual awakening at one point and then I “fell back asleep for awhile” but now I realize this was the ego freak out. It’s happened in different stages for me, I began asking myself the question 3 years ago, who am I? I had lost interest in everything I used to love, and it hit me especially hard when I realized I couldn’t answer any single question about myself: what’s my favorite color, what’s my taste in decor or fashion, what’s my favorite music? I felt like I didn’t know who I was.
I also had the mirror thing happen, looked into my bathroom mirror one night and it’s not that I didn’t recognize my reflection but that I was suddenly...different. I really LOOKED, into my eyes the way you said you did, and I saw my soul in there too. It was a really powerful moment.
It’s not that I didn’t know these concepts already, for the past year I’ve been very slowly moving myself through these things, but something about this video just really resonated with me and I found a lot of joy in that. Thank you so much for sharing.
I am going through a dark night and have for some time and while it’s scary....it’s also very exciting because I don’t want to be that old person that everyone comes to...to tell me their problems - I’m having to distance myself from friends that just want take from me (consciously or unconsciously) and so that is hard.....Thank you for sharing - this helps me reaffirm that what I’ve been doing is on track.
Kellie Morgan I feel empathy can be abused a little. I shut myself away....it’s difficult for people to understand that we go quiet because we allow ourselves to think of situations that bother us. I don’t know how to focus on me.....to know my own self purpose....
After going through this dark night, we have no tolerance for BS! Lol I prefer to be in my own company. I've had so-called 'friends' fall away left and right but it's all good. I am also spending less time on social media.
Thank you Christina ! You have explained it so well … It was extremely painful but in a way liberating as well….…for the FIRST time in my life , I understood ‘ ME ‘ and my life’s relationship pattern . It was a self discovery journey that needed to happen in order for me to heal all my childhood abandonment issues , wounds that I had not even known existed ..