My Transition Journey So Far
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- Опубліковано 5 жов 2024
- I'm getting bottom surgery very soon. Here's the story so far.
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The confidence you have to show is what you looked like pre transition is insane. That dark makeup phase was something
Hahaha for real XD
YES FOR REAL SMH ALICE @@aliceinwonder1and
"In despair that I would never look like a woman" this quote is currently my entire existence three months into hormones.
Seriously though as someone who is very early in there transition and still looks incredibly masc, I really appreciate this video. Both for the hope it gives me for my own transition, and for your encouragement to keep going cuz I really needed that, cuz patience is kinda hard to have right now(plus my is brain stupid and like to compare all the time)
Hope that the surgery went well, or goes well, or that no matter what stage you are in, that it all goes well.
Thank you. I hope things go well for you also
Same as me. I'm not on HRT yet but I feel like i would never be able to pass because I'm not super skinny "femboish" type and starting it at 29 as diabetic sound scary.
@@WillowGreenheartyou can absolutely do this!!!
You go girl!
Many find pre-transition pictures uncomfortable, but I really love seeing how far people have progressed. If they are open to sharing of course ☺
Thank you, I thought this could be valuable
I grew up as a boy and also thought I was comfortable in my identity but recently I've had more intense feelings about becoming a girl and it's realllyyyy difficult, but seeing your journey is such an inspiration!
Seriously! Been going through that myself this year. Prepare for a lot of "I saw no signs." and "are you sure?". At least for me... Feel invalid sometimes.
Yup. I have a very similar build and facial structure. I was always underweight due to my metabolism. HRT really filled my face out. I was pretty gaunt pre-HRT.
I didn't start HRT til my mid 30's. I was balding pretty badly. Defined M shape, and thin on top. Between finasteride, minoxidil, microneedling, and HRT, it's all filled back in. Absolutely amazing how unrecognizable I am.
Hrt is great!
As someone who is 20 and is already balding quite badly this feels good to hear!
It's amazes me to see transitions of younger people. It works well in older people, but it is amazing how well it works the younger you are. How fast things works definitely slows down the older you get...and you truly do have to have patience. I transitioned in my later 40's, and now being 56, things are still changing. Took 4'ish years before I started having confidence that I was passing. (It came, but took much longer...) I struggled since 4 years old, but I grew up in time that was much different than yours. Not diminishing anything, the struggle to go through the process and the experience you have knows no age boundary. Kudos to you for going through and being open to share it! Good luck with your bottom surgery! Been there done that! You won't regret it!
I appreciate how honest you are in this video. It's not easy to show your pre-hrt photos to the world and even less talk about what makes you feel insecure. I can see myself in some of the things you talk about and I really like that about you and these videos.
Aw you’re welcome
They were accepting after a month? It's been over 3 years and it's still "too soon."
I’m sorry ☹️
It’s been 4 for me and they’ve only become more radicalized.
Someone's gotta say it. I think your profile passes without the glasses. You're beautiful, and I wish you all the luck!
October will make 6 months since I started, and I have never been happier with my body. You gave me hope that things can/will continue to improve. Thank you for sharing
Thanks, good luck
I was questioning my self for few months now but first 2 minutes of this video I now I know I'm trans. Thank you.
Thank you so much for this video! Your story of realization is similar to how I found out, and it's really validating to hear you explain. Your facial structure pre-transition is also pretty similar to mine right now, so seeing your changes gives me so much confidence.
You’re welcome!!
i thought i was the only one who "forgot halloween was over". the similarities in realization are astounding. keep up the great work :3
Bahahaha sounds like a common thing from what I’ve heard
this is video just helped me with my doubt to much more than anything else! Thank you so much for all of your fantastic vids Alice!!! 😁
I'm really happy that you are so happy and so proud! ☺👍
Thank you for sharing you expirience! 💖
i've just recently got to the point of finding pre-trans photos decent to look at and even to share how far I've come (6mo blockers 4mo hrt.. i've gotten the effects really fast so far despite low dosages!)
seeing how far you've come in these years makes me so excited for my future too!
we're all so proud of you! go get em, cheetah~ ♡
Thank you Eva!!
5:46 is it just me or does pre-transition Alice look like a girl cosplaying a male character (and still looking good ngl) or maybe it's just because I've seen so much of current Alice my brain refuses to see anything else idk
Hahahahahah
Thank you for sharing! I've never seen such an in depth look at someone's journey, and it really is amazing to hear how the egg cracks for people.
You’re welcome!! Just wanted to share!!
This is so inspiring. I've only come out to my partner, siblings, and some close friends so far, I'm dreading telling my parents and in-laws. This video is really helping me take that plunge. Keep up the good work!
Aw you’re welcome. Good luck!!
I couldn't watch passed the point about your parents. It's been 3 years for me and my dad still doesn't use my name. I don't want that to be the main point of my comment though so I just wanted to say, I'm so proud of you and I hope you all the best! I think I've been following you forever at this point and yeah, it's nice to see you find this great joy you've built for yourself
I’m sorry, that sucks
@@aliceinwonder1and eh, it's how it goes sometimes, at least your case proves him wrong 😊 hope you recover quickly xx
I hope surgery / recovery goes smoothly for you Alice, and I cant wait to here about your experience. ❤
Yea!!
You give me so much hope for the future, thank you
I've only known about my trans-ness for two weeks, and in that time, you've become my comfort creator. This video definitely affirms that I'm trans, and I'm super excited for when I can pass!
😊
....really, really late commenting here, but I've just randomly realised who you are - back when you were posting those first properly fem/passing pics on reddit, I was a grubby, hairy, closeted mid 30's mechanic in a small north island town, in the midst of yet another failed attempt at committing to transition, spending far too much time living in my trans fantasy online ie: reddit & grindr) and nothing at all IRL.
to be completely honest, I was pretty much equally inspired and utterly jealous of your progress in such a short time-frame, even before I learned you were from NZ too.
A few years later now, Im a year on HRT and finally starting to see some results 🎉.....and you're f***'ing incredible ❤ I can't think of a way to explain how impressed i am without sounding like a chaser, so my apologies 😊😂
Having just spent a few hrs going thru your vids after it dawned on me where I'd seen you before, I just wanted to say you're awesome 😊 lol. thanks for documenting your life on here, its really neat.
(...no idea if you'll see this comment or not....but hey, its the thought that counts 😅)
Honestly ive been stuck to this channel for awhile now. Ive been loving the content and I especially love this video. If I was able to, id donate. Im personally still pre-hrt and somewhat able to pass when I have a massive hoodie to cover up a lot of my features. Im honestly insanely dysphoric but not able to get on hrt yet thanks to legal reasons that will come to end in about half a years time. Im starting on the opposite end when it comes to weight and working towards that middle point. Seeing you being proud of how far you've come gives me hope to look and feel right. Youre an inspiration and I cant wait to hear how your surgery goes. Stay safe Alice. You've got influence now.
Good luck xx
What an amazing journey so far! I'm just now coming up to about 1 year on my own, and you showed me there's so much still I have to look forward to :D
Awww thank you xx
Iv always been on the fence about transing. I want to but i always feel weird about trying things that im not use to.
I know I'm a bit late to the party, but it feels good to know that there's someone else out there who didn't just know when they were younger. I wish I did, but I didn't until a couple months ago and that's just how things turned out. Thinking on my life now, there are absolutely signs. Growing up in a red state in the US, there wasn't really any LGBTQ+ talk, so it was never a thought. Once I accepted myself, I decided I wanted to speed run the start to my journey and started HRT about 3 weeks after I came out xD
I absolutely love your style. Before and after transition, your fashion style is so damn cool. ❤️
Amazing how HRT took you from 5'11" to 7'6", such a glow up!
I know right?!
I hope it's not rude to say, but there is something kinda sad in your eyes in the first few photos. You seem so much happier now! Congratulations on your surgery and good luck!
Aww thank you haha. I’ve come a long way
I'm about to hit one year and see this makes me so hopeful for what is to come. I already feel like I'm somewhat passing but this really helps to know that I haven't plateaued. Thank you so much.
ALICE HASN'T HAD FFS??? Girlies it might not be over for me
Im actually pretty curvy pre-hormones. Im excited to see what kind of magic that they start.
Aww hahah good luck
Every time I watch your videos I feel more confident about my own future. You are an amazing girl and I hope I can pass as well as you one day. Keep on being our favorite kiwi trans girl. May the odds be ever in your favor.
Awww thank you so much. I’m rooting for you
Holy flipping heck this has given me hope for when I am finally out and proud. I have a few people in my life who know and are supportive and others who are trying to tell me its just a phase. You are an amazing human and the glow up is fab
You are so welcome, thank you haha
I'm proud of you that you've come this far!! Keep up the awesomeness ^-^
Thank you so much
@@aliceinwonder1and you're very welcome!! ^-^
Starting HRT initial intake process in 13 days. I was unable to hide it growing up except from my parents and family, they were the last figure it out. Thank clinical paranoia about anything that showed individuality, because I knew what would show through. Made it to my 30s can't hide it anymore. My mind and emotions finally broke under the strain. Button pressing time been sitting on my hands to avoid pressing it for too long.
Alice... you give me hope... you look SUPER CUTE and a strong jawline is BEAUTIFUL on you... I also have a strong jawline soooooo we'll see how life goes
I hope that your transition is going well and that you are happy in yourself! It sounds like all is going well with you, and I hope that continues!
It’s been great!!
@@aliceinwonder1and yay!
Thanks Alice, great video. Good luck and cheers! :)
Thank you
Jeez this puts into perspective how slowly I've been taking my transition, I'm super impressed with the speed and skills you've honed in such a short time, as expected of someone who'll lead us into battle
(I know that's fine and all to be slow but trust me it's not by choice I'm just serial procrastinator to a pretty unhealthy degree and doing/learning new things causes me to delay and/or immediately fold)
Awww. I’m still rooting for you. You’ve got this
@@aliceinwonder1and Thank you so much
I can relate with you so fuckíng much. I realized i was trans roughly at the same time as alice, but i have 8 months in hormones, no experience in makeup, and forgot to take my testosterone blockers for 2 months, so my body must be super fucking confused. Anyways, side tangent aside. This video inspired me to pick up the pace. Can't go into battle with the queer army with my looks rn
This is crazy i started HRT in march 2021and litterly felt like you where reading my story
Congratulations, you're a huge inspiration! Hopefully I'll be as successful in my journey too!
I’m rooting for you!!
Amazing... have not found any transphobe in the comments.
Great Job!
Thank you hahah
Oh my gosh Alice, those photos warmed my heart so much! In my transition, it took me 13 months before I was able to get a photo of myself that really looked feminine and where I didn't look like a guy in a dress. I've also found that glasses make me look more feminine, plus they're just cute as heck.
I had been following you on Reddit for a while but I stopped using Reddit back in June. Congrats on the surgery and best wishes for a speedy recovery! My surgery is still at some unspecified date in the future.
Aw thank you Hahha
Isn't every surgery a bottom surgery if you're a bottom🤔
SHUT UP!!
Thank you for this video. I’ve been watching you in reverse order, newest to older videos and this is such a gem. I’m 3 weeks on Estradiol and the extra reminder that it all takes time is enormous. I’m no where near passing and my breast already started to change. I’m happy but a little nervous that come spring I’m just going to look like a middle aged man with moobs.
I wish you all the best for your surgery ^^
Thanks you xx
Baby mtf trans here. Thank you for your amazing content. Keep being awesome!
You’re super welcome!!
Ugh, trying not to get too overwhelmed watching this. I very nearly came out when I was just a little older than you, but that was a LONG time ago when things weren't like what they are now. So instead I panicked and suppressed things and it ended up taking me till almost 40 before I actually came out. Needless to say, hormones aren't quite as magical at this age. Sure they help but at 18 months plus I find it hard to see much of any changes. Seeing your transition really makes me think "What if I hadn't repressed back then?" and honestly it kinda hurts. I'm not saying don't keep making these videos I'm super proud of you and you look amazing. I just kind of wish I could have had the same sometimes.
Awww I’m sorry. I hope you hormones kick ass for you soon
This video means a lot.
I‘m like the same weight as you and I cannot gain anymore weight.
This made me relieved about starting HRT!
Good luck!
@@aliceinwonder1andthank you so much!
Wishing you the best with your recovery!
I wanna start HRT bc at the moment I‘m in dysphoria limbo.
holy shit we realised we were trans at the same time!!! its amazing that youre so much further along in your journey then I am
You look like that in only 2.5 years!? I suddenly am a lot more hopeful for my future.
I hope ur surgery goes welllllll!
Me too!!
The new vid is awesome, you can see the confidence growing!!
Thank you haha
Why she gripping the phone like that 😂
On a serious note- you have given me so much confidence and inspiration in my future transition ❤❤ keep being amazing!!
Hahaha
lol this video has shown a bit late considering I have watched your videos re surgery :D Anyway I really really appreciated that [surgery vid] insight into what you have gone through and how you cope with adversity while following your joy. How many people can do that, show youtube their rawest moments and THRIVE from thereon after?
I cannot describe how much hope, happiness and excitement I feel after watching this video. I thought I would have to get facial surgery, but this video has made me think that maybe that's not needed? I saw your picture on r/trans a while back and immediately went "Woahhh I wanna look like that, I wonder what surgeries she used" because i didnt know hormones made that dramatic of a change to your face. Finding your youtube channel got me really excited. I cannot thank you enough for sharing your process with the world and I wish you the absolute best of luck on the next step of your journey! Also congrats on getting bottom surgery!!!
Thank you :)
I didn't know your age was so close to mine, this gives me a lot of motivation for maybe transitioning in the (near) future 🤍
You can do it!
You’ve done an amazing job. I want to say I’m happy for you, but I’m just depressed. I’ve been on HRT for almost three years now, and I don’t pass for shit. I’m 6’4” and balding. I gained a lot of weight, but I have no feminine figure at all. I’m just a big, fat, ugly monster in women’s clothes who has to constantly ask my supportive coworkers and family members to fight their instincts and stop calling me sir every fucking day. It’s not working. Three years in, it’s like I never started. My psychologist can’t help. My doctor can’t help. The waitlist for surgery is years long-there’s nothing to do, I’m just stuck like this. Trapped. No way out.
I’m sorry
Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I’m 8 months on HRT as of today and this was so encouraging and reassuring to watch 🙏🏳️⚧️
You’re welcome!!
So excited for you!!! I cant wait until ive been on hrt long enough to start getting work done, and i hope your recovery goes / is going well
Thank you xx
Absolutely wonderful video!
Found your channel after your cameo with Planarwalk and recognising you from Reddit :)
Absolutely smashing it and wishing you all the best for the surgery, I know what a gamechanger that can be from our eldest son who is the same age as you and got his TS back in 21'
Awww thank you hahaha
"As you can see though here I don't pass yet." Huhhhhh???? What are you talking about?????? You pass so well in so many of these pictures!!
omg this is like the most amazing advert for hrt and i'm totally falling for it
Hahahaha lmfao HRT is pretty good
fr 😭
following from reddit. congrats on your surgery and i hope you have a speedy recovery. i also hope you live the happy life you deserve.
Thank you!!
GIRL I HAD THAT EXACT SAME HAIRCUT BEFORE I TRANSITIONED 😭
I'm convinced that it's a babytrans dysphoria haircut now xD
Lol same
Sucked to grow them out though xD Having a mix of shoulder long hair and a few mm long hair is something
Thabk you for sharing your journey. Im not trans myself, I am bisexual and am currently happily married 😊 I always thought I was open minded about most things until my best friend of 30 years came out to me as trans. We were inseparable and to me they were the blood brother I never had. I went through a major grieving process afterwards and struggled with accepting their new identity, this surprised me so much because like I said before I had always thought of myself as very open minded but the reality of being in this sort of a situation was a lot harder. I felt like being on the outside I was obligated to force myself to be okay, to rush myself through the acceptance process but it was all moving so quickly. I wanted to be supportive but I also felt I was hurting, and part of me hated myself for hurting. I never let on to them just how much didficulty i was having because I could see that they were happy going through their journey and becoming who they always saw themselves to be. But on the side I felt like I had lost my brother and best friend, and the fear i felt at communicating thay struggle made it so much harder to go through the process properly. A year on she has moved to Canada with her wife, and I am still processing the whole thing. Having that space has given me room to properly feel the emotions i was supressing and work through them. Watching your video today has also been a helping step in understanding how she has been feeling so thank you for that. I want to be a good brother to her still and i feel like hearing somebody else's story is able to create a separation for me that cant easily be created due to the vast time and memories and emotional attachments to my new sister and still best friend ❤
very beautiful video, very relatable too ;) You frigging slay girl. I've seen you on reddit plenty of times and its really a nice experience to see you in a video. I am thinking of making something like this too in the future.
Good luck with your recovery and I hope everything goes well!
Aw thank you
That outfit is so cute, I want it
You and you sharing your story thus far is pretty inspiring. Thank you for that and I wish you a successful surgery!
Awww you’re super welcome. Thank you for the well wishes
Damn, Skrillex really got a glow-up!!
Thank you for this video, it made me feel a lot better about my own path ahead of me. And good luck with the surgery!
You’re welcome!!
Alice is like the titan
I am big
I meant the underwater boat@@aliceinwonder1and
This video means a lot to me. I have been questioning my gender for a while and I am probably transfem at this point, but all of my worries about transitioning are the exact same things that you also had pre-transition. And now you are pretty and would 100% be my transition goals.
Only I am even more skinny than you were, and probably had a few more signs from younger in my childhood.
Thanks, Ruby. (probably)
I'm currently about 65kg and 6'1. You're giving me hope that I can pass. I plan to try to gain more weight, and get to something I think would be more comfortable for me. I am finally going to be seeing an endocrinologist at 10am today!
I feel I have a defined jaw and eyebrows as well and now I have some things to test down the ride!!
Yes!! Good luck girl
Hey Alice! Just wanted to wish you good luck with the surgery! And your transformation is amazing, congrats!
Thank you so much!!
You're amazing! P.S. I love your dump truck!
Thank you 🍑
Love the alice and all that u have gone threw and proud to call u a close friend
Thank you xx
welcome and get better soon so we can attack OHIO
@@aliceinwonder1and
Hey hun! Just seen your Reddit post and came across your channel. Best of luck w surgery! You’re doing amazing :) x
Thank you xx
So proud of you girl!!!! Where I live they recently banned hrt until the age of 18 so I have some waiting to do before I can begin transitioning but I have come out to a few people
The courage you have to come out to your parents is immense! Level 100 mafia boss stuff right there
Bastards!! Good luck xx
thank you for sharing you answered a number of questions that i had regarding m-f transitioning
Amazing video, but got damn, you had one of those gym coma builds :D
I'm more trying to go in the opposite direction and become stronger after (mostly) transitioning (no surgery yet).
Hey I came out to my sister first to! Sister first gang!
Woooo!!!
Halfway through the video, and honestly I'm excited. Seeing how far you've come makes me excited to see where I'll end up over my next six months on hormones. I've only been on hormones just under six months, and I started breast development after my first week, but I was afraid that my body wasn't feminizing otherwise just yet. I just realized earlier this week just how much more effeminate my face and body is now. Seeing how much more I have to gain makes me very happy. Congratulations on making it this far, and thank you for sharing your progress so far. It makes me so much more hopeful about how my journey will continue.
Also thank you for the heads up about dark makeup. I was probably gonna go more pastel anyway but I would've definitely experimented with it had I not watched this video.
You’re welcome xx
Thank you this video made me feel valid.
This might sound irrelevant but your earrings are so pretty!!!❤️
Thank you!!
It's nice to see trans experiences similar to mine, the fact that you didn't know until you were in your teens really brings comfort to me
Though I don't need it to be valid, it definitely helps
Super cute, hope your surgery goes well.
Thnx
As someone with incredibly sharp and jagged facial features and this physique of a lanky ghoul (not gonna lie it's scary how much we look alike pre-hrt) this video genuinely gave me a lot of hope. I'm 7 months on E and when changes happen slowly its hard to tell their happening, but it's nice to know they are and it's only a matter of time
Aww good luck
First of all, I wish you all the best with the surgery. Seeing all those photos was eye-opening, and I'd imagine for some trans people that looking back to pre-transition is not easy at all. I had no idea how much the hormone therapy can change and soften facial features - you really do learn something new every day! Not being a trans person, your videos where you speak about your journey are a bit of a window into another world for me. Once again, best wishes and good luck to you. Looking forward to more Kiwi craziness!
You’re welcome!! I glad I got to share something that had an impact on you
Your story is damn near close to mine. Vivid dream about being a girl around 8. Though mine came a lot, leaving me very confused. My parents knew something was up but only confronted me about being gay. My response was, "I'm fairly certain I like girls," and that was that. Played dress up with my sister a few times and got punished when parents found out. Grew up in a pretty toxic masc household, the whole "boys don't cry" type stuff. Dancing was toxic, too. "Men dance like men." it was weird. Fast forward 20 years later, basically during the pandemic, I was bombarded by the dream and just kept reliving my past and how lost I was. The first person I came out to was my wife the day after christmas. That was the most terrifying thing ever. The first thing out of her mouth was, let's go buy you some new clothes then. I am still married to her, I love her so much. My family was the easiest to come out to. My late grandpa's first words were, "I bet you would make a very cute girl." Of all people, establishing the toxic masculine energy my dad gave off, he said that. And I regret coming out to any of my friends. They are no longer in my life. It's great to actually see a story soooo closely related to mine. I'm happy I stumbled on you. Thank you for sharing the things most internet personalities don't want to share. Transitioning alone is hard, so I try to reach out to anyone willing to talk and just say anything that might help guide me in a good direction. Before and afters give me so much hope.
Aww. Im glad your family was supportive
, "I bet you would make a very cute girl." , did he meant having a baby lol?
@@strongindependentblackwoma1887 I'm pretty confident that's not what he meant. Lol
thanks for sharing your inspiring story Alice, you truly are transition goals!! 😍
Atb with the surgery - i hope after this you can finally be the bottom you always dreamt to be 🤗
Aww thank you-
wait HEY!!
Holy crap that snap was impressive 2:06
Oh snap!
Oh you are such a cutieeee and I start HRT IN TWO DAYS MYSELF
Excited to watch your journey
Jelllllyyyyy you got to start early though as I am starting at 32 (I mean I do know i look 24 and I have lost about 20 kg since January)
Awww thank you xx
8:06 For real, I actually love that look on you.
If this make you happy go for it girl
It does!
My best friend transitioned about 7 years ago I think. I didn't meet her until a few years into her transistion about 5 years ago. We met playing a video game. She is a god at video games 😂. I nicknamed her Feli the God in my Discord server even. Anyway, when we met she never used voice chat with anyone because she did not want anyone to know she was trans but for some reason she spoke to me almost right after meeting me. Never really understood why. I don't even remember what her voice used to sound like because a few years ago she got vocal surgery. She is super confident now and is just an amazing person. She is way more popular than me though so I don't get to talk to her all the time but she is always there when I need her. She never gets offended by questions and such and I had a lot of questions because I had never met a trans person before. I think a lot of people just have a hard time relating to people that are not like them. So they assume that everyone is like them and are just pretending to be different or being manipulated to be different. Which is where all this fear and anger against people comes from. If people would just communicate and talk to each other instead of assuming the worst or that they just don't know what they are talking about the world would be a better place I think. Sadly I don't think that will ever happen with a lot of people.
My gawd that is so relatable
💓💕
Whelp i guess that settles it, going on the list soon as