Thrilled to see you back creating videos again! Despite having some political differences with you, I have a great respect for your reasoning and analysis. I'm glad that you're getting through this difficult time and have found someone who loves you. Having come from an emotionally neglectful home myself (and relatively recently having gotten into therapy, though not with the success you've had), I empathize and I wish you the best.
I have been following and enjoying your channel for a while now. I can only do this with people who are somewhat like me. The others are just boring to me (No disrespect, just a fact). I also know for a while now that I am different and I recognise people who are different like me. Even reading the title of your video made a bang boom in my head. It was a mixture of "I knew it" and "no, not again". I needed a few hours to brace myself for what was to come. Now that I watched your video I want first to thank you. You inspired me. I think your are brave, very brave to do such a thing. I can say this because my attempts to communicate with my surrounding people about my autism led almost in every case to nothing - or less. Like you I am not a typical autistic person. I am highly empathetic, intelligent and I desire close human contact (not with everybody). At an appointment for consultations for autistic people, where I felt the most understood, the counsellor told me (I am a straight male in Germany): "No offense, but you will have a hard time getting a diagnosis because you are functioning and your way of thinking is more like a female autistic person." I nearly laughed at that because it was so true. I don't want this comment to be too long but I wanted to try and express how your video touched me. I would estimate that 90% of what you said, could also be said by me. Even details like using comments for social interaction because there seems to be so little possibilities otherwise. I hope I can use this for a new try at therapy which can help me. I hope sincerely that you continue to find a better way to live a happy life. I also look forward to future videos of yours. It's very nice that you are back. And if I may: I like it when you are unapologetic with your criticism of things. This all from a Iranian "friend", living in Germany and currently on vacation in Greece.
This was a big share. And I definitely feel you on feeling like you're never the one your friends would call up to go do stuff. But you have almost 3,000 people just on this channel that are glad you are here!
Thank you so much for sharing - we all have problems and knowing that others struggle is a help. Also, I look forward to your reviews of the fantasy productions: your commentary is excellent!
Thank you for your video. It made me somewhat emotional as I recognized an eerie amount of what you said in myself. Forgive me for making it about me there. Congratulations on your revelations and continued persistence for self-betterment. If you weren't already aware, Amber of Sword and the Pen has recently started challenging herself to put out more casual content including live streams that engage her viewers. Maybe something like that would be interesting for you, when you feel ready. (Sorry if I'm overstepping.)
Thank you for your video. The internet can be a nasty place so I really appreciate you putting yourself out there for us! Sometimes to present as vulnerable is a strength. Everyone needs someone who shares experiences with them to look up to. It shows is there is a path to what for us seemed unattainable. And I'll keep supporting you in whatever content you choose to make. Enlightening as always. Lots of love and support from Belgium!
❤ Thanks for sharing yourself with us. And thanks for the insight about myself. A lot of what you described about your autism diagnosis seems to describe me. And I’d never have guessed. Glad to have you back 😊
I cannot watch your video right now. It will make me think about my things and I don't want to this evening. I know that you did this for yourself but I think it will help me also. So, thank you!
Thanks for sharing your experiences. I'm undiagnosed, but I meet a lot of the criteria for autism and have had many of the same difficulties, including having a lot of cluster B personalities in my family. A lot of people have cut me out of their lives because of a bad habit I have of complaining a lot and unintentionally embarrassing them in public.
Glad you're back and thanks for being so honest! I understand that perfection problem so if you ever find tips to get over it, make a video about that in a year or two as an update lol.
For what it's worth, I been watching your stuff off and on for a few years (since the WoT disaster started), and i never pegged you as being neurospicy in any kind of bad way. I'd invite you to the barbeque
Hi Amy. Your comments about your mother are so eerily similar to my own experience. Narcissists are simply not capable of admitting (even to themselves) that they are wrong. As well, the emotional neglect that you experienced might unfortunately be generational, and something she herself experienced. Regardless of the cause though, it is not your responsibility to maintain a relationship with someone that is so toxic and emotionally abusive, even if they are of your blood. I tried for decades to "fix" my mother, and in the end, i realized that the only path to true happiness was to cut her out of my life, and to ensure that I did not expose my own children to that type of abuse. The awareness that our generation has, self-reflection, access to such broad information via the internet, and increasing social acceptance of therapy, mean that we have so many advantages that our parents did not have. Unfortunately, it is too late for them - our brains do have physical limits, and someone who is so damaged and aging might not be actually capable of change. It is a sad realization, certainly. But none of the books we read and love are solely sunshine and rainbows, either. Our lives are full of adversity, and it is amazing how we, and especially you here, can overcome it. Sorry for the meandering, so I'll close with this: I'm proud of you, Amy. And your channel is awesome. And your personal growth is amazing. Thank you for being so brave, and sharing your story with others. Perhaps it will open someone else's eyes, and help them out in their own situation.
@@mandrid Thank you so much! This is so validating. It is so tough because I really love my mother. I want to support her and my dad and be a loving family. But she can't seem to self reflect, apologize, or treat me like a person with feelings deserving of love and respect. I wish I could say cutting her out of my life has made me happier but it doesn't really, or not yet. It's so tough. I really do hope that you are right and future generations will break through abusive patterns.
Good for you that you got the help you needed at a comparatively fairly young age still. And while I would value your insights on various topics, that's why I initially subscribed to your channel, I'd rather you found your way in life than struggle with a need to put out more content. I am sure the core of your audience will engage with anything you choose to publish. However much or little it is. For you obviously share(d) insightful and meaningful views towards conversations.
I found this video fascinating. Ordinarily I can't abide people on UA-cam talking about their personal issues - among other things, it often leaves the impression such people are experts in nothing but themselves - but you speak with clarity and authority. I zoned out only when you related your interaction with your mother during a holiday - otherwise, I was riveted as much as when, quite a while ago, I stumbled across a TV Guide article about Michael Landon's childhood. Are you familiar with Muriel the Purple Bookwyrm? She's also a brilliant critic on UA-cam, and autistic as well. She blocked me after we discussed abortion - hailing from Belgium, she believed the European media when it mendaciously claimed Roe v. Wade's overturn would criminalize abortion in America - and after I quoted the English Book of Common Prayer ("Marriage is a holy estate and therefore not one intended for the satiation of base carnality in the manner of the beasts, which have no understanding..."), but it didn't diminish my regard for her talent. PS: I've written some new songs during your extended absence, and I've been told that my SONG OF HIAWATHA is a little masterpiece, as hypnotic as a peyote ritual, and with a finale worthy of Broadway. (There are two versions on my channel - the one with the live voices is a little longer but features an incredible soprano solo. The singer flawlessly hits a note one full tone higher than the infamously high one in the national anthem.) PPS: The kittens are all grown up? 🙂
@@waltergold3457 The kittens are a year old! They get big fast. I am pro choice, but I grew up in the church under purity culture and remember what it was like to be pro life and indoctrinated in sexism, misogyny and homophobia. I am both sensitive to and extremely critical of Bible informed viewpoints on women's rights. I also think animals have quite a lot of understanding and take umbrage with any position that glorifies humans as the only thinking, feeling creatures. It is simply not true. I cannot write music and cannot critique it but it is lovely to hear you are exercising creative talent.
@@amys0482 Thank you. It caused me to reflect as I feel similarly about friendships and group situations. I'm going to follow you. Very interesting content.
Thrilled to see you back creating videos again! Despite having some political differences with you, I have a great respect for your reasoning and analysis. I'm glad that you're getting through this difficult time and have found someone who loves you. Having come from an emotionally neglectful home myself (and relatively recently having gotten into therapy, though not with the success you've had), I empathize and I wish you the best.
Your mind is a gift. I've followed you starting with your commentary on The Wheel of Time. Thanks for sharing.
I'm glad you're back. Just in time for Rings of Power season 2. 😊
working on something for this!
@@amys0482 Looking forward to your perspective even if I'm not looking forward to the show anymore. Or maybe if the reviews are good I'll watch again.
I have been following and enjoying your channel for a while now. I can only do this with people who are somewhat like me. The others are just boring to me (No disrespect, just a fact). I also know for a while now that I am different and I recognise people who are different like me.
Even reading the title of your video made a bang boom in my head. It was a mixture of "I knew it" and "no, not again". I needed a few hours to brace myself for what was to come. Now that I watched your video I want first to thank you. You inspired me. I think your are brave, very brave to do such a thing.
I can say this because my attempts to communicate with my surrounding people about my autism led almost in every case to nothing - or less. Like you I am not a typical autistic person. I am highly empathetic, intelligent and I desire close human contact (not with everybody). At an appointment for consultations for autistic people, where I felt the most understood, the counsellor told me (I am a straight male in Germany): "No offense, but you will have a hard time getting a diagnosis because you are functioning and your way of thinking is more like a female autistic person." I nearly laughed at that because it was so true.
I don't want this comment to be too long but I wanted to try and express how your video touched me. I would estimate that 90% of what you said, could also be said by me. Even details like using comments for social interaction because there seems to be so little possibilities otherwise.
I hope I can use this for a new try at therapy which can help me.
I hope sincerely that you continue to find a better way to live a happy life.
I also look forward to future videos of yours. It's very nice that you are back. And if I may: I like it when you are unapologetic with your criticism of things.
This all from a Iranian "friend", living in Germany and currently on vacation in Greece.
This was a big share. And I definitely feel you on feeling like you're never the one your friends would call up to go do stuff.
But you have almost 3,000 people just on this channel that are glad you are here!
@@lazerbungalow And another 3000 on LinkedIn!
Thanks for this - very glad you're back.
Glad you're back, than you do much for sharing this experience
Thank you so much for sharing - we all have problems and knowing that others struggle is a help. Also, I look forward to your reviews of the fantasy productions: your commentary is excellent!
I commend you for sharing, it will help others. I really enjoyed your past reviews. You are awesome.
Thank you for your video. It made me somewhat emotional as I recognized an eerie amount of what you said in myself. Forgive me for making it about me there. Congratulations on your revelations and continued persistence for self-betterment.
If you weren't already aware, Amber of Sword and the Pen has recently started challenging herself to put out more casual content including live streams that engage her viewers. Maybe something like that would be interesting for you, when you feel ready. (Sorry if I'm overstepping.)
Thank you for your video. The internet can be a nasty place so I really appreciate you putting yourself out there for us! Sometimes to present as vulnerable is a strength. Everyone needs someone who shares experiences with them to look up to. It shows is there is a path to what for us seemed unattainable. And I'll keep supporting you in whatever content you choose to make. Enlightening as always. Lots of love and support from Belgium!
What an amazing video! Thanks a lot for sharing your story with us. I think I just learned a few things about myself :).
❤ Thanks for sharing yourself with us. And thanks for the insight about myself. A lot of what you described about your autism diagnosis seems to describe me. And I’d never have guessed. Glad to have you back 😊
I cannot watch your video right now. It will make me think about my things and I don't want to this evening. I know that you did this for yourself but I think it will help me also. So, thank you!
Thanks for sharing your experiences. I'm undiagnosed, but I meet a lot of the criteria for autism and have had many of the same difficulties, including having a lot of cluster B personalities in my family. A lot of people have cut me out of their lives because of a bad habit I have of complaining a lot and unintentionally embarrassing them in public.
So inspiring. Thank you for sharing.
Glad you're back and thanks for being so honest! I understand that perfection problem so if you ever find tips to get over it, make a video about that in a year or two as an update lol.
For what it's worth, I been watching your stuff off and on for a few years (since the WoT disaster started), and i never pegged you as being neurospicy in any kind of bad way. I'd invite you to the barbeque
Welcome back!
Appreciate the video. Especially the matter of fact approach on the presentation. Opened my mind a little even with a little brother with autism
can you elaborate on how your mind was opened?
Hi Amy. Your comments about your mother are so eerily similar to my own experience. Narcissists are simply not capable of admitting (even to themselves) that they are wrong. As well, the emotional neglect that you experienced might unfortunately be generational, and something she herself experienced. Regardless of the cause though, it is not your responsibility to maintain a relationship with someone that is so toxic and emotionally abusive, even if they are of your blood. I tried for decades to "fix" my mother, and in the end, i realized that the only path to true happiness was to cut her out of my life, and to ensure that I did not expose my own children to that type of abuse.
The awareness that our generation has, self-reflection, access to such broad information via the internet, and increasing social acceptance of therapy, mean that we have so many advantages that our parents did not have. Unfortunately, it is too late for them - our brains do have physical limits, and someone who is so damaged and aging might not be actually capable of change. It is a sad realization, certainly. But none of the books we read and love are solely sunshine and rainbows, either. Our lives are full of adversity, and it is amazing how we, and especially you here, can overcome it.
Sorry for the meandering, so I'll close with this: I'm proud of you, Amy. And your channel is awesome. And your personal growth is amazing. Thank you for being so brave, and sharing your story with others. Perhaps it will open someone else's eyes, and help them out in their own situation.
@@mandrid Thank you so much! This is so validating. It is so tough because I really love my mother. I want to support her and my dad and be a loving family. But she can't seem to self reflect, apologize, or treat me like a person with feelings deserving of love and respect. I wish I could say cutting her out of my life has made me happier but it doesn't really, or not yet. It's so tough. I really do hope that you are right and future generations will break through abusive patterns.
Thanks a lot for sharing. I feel for you and you made me reflect on my own issues as well.
You seem like a good friend, even considering all these issues.
Love the content!!
Thank you for this video.
Good for you that you got the help you needed at a comparatively fairly young age still.
And while I would value your insights on various topics, that's why I initially subscribed to your channel, I'd rather you found your way in life than struggle with a need to put out more content. I am sure the core of your audience will engage with anything you choose to publish. However much or little it is. For you obviously share(d) insightful and meaningful views towards conversations.
Thank you for sharing🙏🏾
Amy Stewart MUST be protected at all costs! para-socialites unite.
Heartfelt greetings fro a internet stranger!
I found this video fascinating. Ordinarily I can't abide people on UA-cam talking about their personal issues - among other things, it often leaves the impression such people are experts in nothing but themselves - but you speak with clarity and authority. I zoned out only when you related your interaction with your mother during a holiday - otherwise, I was riveted as much as when, quite a while ago, I stumbled across a TV Guide article about Michael Landon's childhood.
Are you familiar with Muriel the Purple Bookwyrm? She's also a brilliant critic on UA-cam, and autistic as well. She blocked me after we discussed abortion - hailing from Belgium, she believed the European media when it mendaciously claimed Roe v. Wade's overturn would criminalize abortion in America - and after I quoted the English Book of Common Prayer ("Marriage is a holy estate and therefore not one intended for the satiation of base carnality in the manner of the beasts, which have no understanding..."), but it didn't diminish my regard for her talent.
PS: I've written some new songs during your extended absence, and I've been told that my SONG OF HIAWATHA is a little masterpiece, as hypnotic as a peyote ritual, and with a finale worthy of Broadway. (There are two versions on my channel - the one with the live voices is a little longer but features an incredible soprano solo. The singer flawlessly hits a note one full tone higher than the infamously high one in the national anthem.)
PPS: The kittens are all grown up? 🙂
@@waltergold3457 The kittens are a year old! They get big fast.
I am pro choice, but I grew up in the church under purity culture and remember what it was like to be pro life and indoctrinated in sexism, misogyny and homophobia. I am both sensitive to and extremely critical of Bible informed viewpoints on women's rights.
I also think animals have quite a lot of understanding and take umbrage with any position that glorifies humans as the only thinking, feeling creatures. It is simply not true.
I cannot write music and cannot critique it but it is lovely to hear you are exercising creative talent.
Recently married, eh... talk about shattering dreams ;)
@@takanobaierun 😅
Some of these traits sound similar to introversion
@@crippsuniverse There's definitely crossover and that is what I thought I was for a decade, but it didn't explain everything.
@@amys0482 Thank you. It caused me to reflect as I feel similarly about friendships and group situations. I'm going to follow you. Very interesting content.