I've experienced severe extreme delirium tremens 4 or more times, twice hospitalized. I heard my neighbor plot to kill me and try to kick the door down, but when I checked there was nobody there. I saw my carpet come to life. My best friend appeared beside me and vanished more than once. I could see font and images in my vision for 3 days. My inner monologue reinvented itself into an evil alter ego that said everybody hates me and wouldn't stop talking to me for days. I stayed alone with the air conditioning on full blast, paced in agony until I recovered. I've been sober for a long time now and I'll never go back. The human mind going through withdrawal is a very surreal and frightening experience. I hope you're doing well. God bless
Keep strong, seek good friends a lots of help to never relapse ever again! You said something very telling, you heard your neighbor plotting to kill you and try to kick down your door. See, in those circumstances delirium can also lead to go and kill that neighbor, frightening as it is those things can and do happen. Please, never drink again, blessing to you my dear friend life is tooooo short to waste it in self destruction. God bless you and me too I need help too.
Do you realize something? This could be a plot of an Edgar Allan Poe tale or an horro movie that would sell for millions of dollars! Again, when you are tempted to relapse bring to the fore all those horrible experiences you've had to not do it again.
I still go back to your old alcohol series a lot to remind myself why I stopped. They’ve helped me so much, I really didn’t know I was the only one who went thru DTs and had these supernatural evil experiences. I’m spiritually sensitive so it makes sense, but the feeling of alcohol withdrawal it feels like you died and went to hell. The feeling is so dark it feels like it’s eating my soul and it’s a feeling so pure helplessness. It’s unexplainable. And I’m around alcohol all the time, I go to these videos to remember even tho I’ve seen all the old videos over and over. I have to ground myself sometimes and remind myself the dark side of this demonic horrific addiction. I don’t drink anymore, but I still have that little part of my Brian that is diseased. So thank you for continuing to make these videos as reminders
100% and thank you for sharing your story. I’m 4 years sober from alcohol and it was a living hell to get through and get where I’m at now. It’s an experience I never want or will experience again.
I've met guys in prison that never been in trouble ever,but got behind the wheel killing someone after drinking.. I was in for a DUI,my second time in prison, it was an eye opener for me.. im proud to say,I've put that bottle down and don't ever touch it..
As an alcoholic in Recovery, who now works in the Recovery field, your videos are extremely valuable. I completely agree, there is a malevolent intelligence involved with alcoholism and acute withdrawal. I am utterly convinced there is a non physical malevolence/ intelligence directly involved with alcoholism and Delirium Tremens. Keep up the good work, it’s probably saving lives.
I went thru the exact same thing. Pacing and terrible thoughts and sweating in bed for days. And this happened to me 5 times in two years. I finally had enough and suffered thru it. Over 2 weeks sober now.
You know how long it is going to take. THat is the hell. You've done it before and you know that no matter what you do it is going to be 2-3 days of hell and you did it to yourself. Throwing up acid and bile every 15 minutes- making yourself throw up for a measure of relief. Drink water knowing it will barely warm up before you throw it back up. Cant lay down cant sit down and dont want to walk around. Cant tell anyone what is going on because you feel like a disaster. FInally you can keep some water down and you lose 2-3 hours of passed out sleep and you know you wont die this time- but you might next time.
I've quit drinking after having been on binges before but this time it was different. Scared the hell out of me! I just wanted to stay under the covers and hide from the world. I don't want to ever experience that feeling again! 😳
Alcohol = AL-KUHL or AL-GAWL - Arabic term meaning "Body eating spirit." Another reason why its called "spirits" or "boo-ze" and 'Gin and tonic' / "Jinn" and tonic.
Been there too. Id pick up pennies on the ground if I spotted one. Just to make sure I can get to next weeks paycheck and not withdrawal. Could barely keep my hand still trying to insert my debit card 😢
My oldest brother almost died from it. Stayed up all night with him and watched over him with my other brother in the hospital. Watching him suffer was terrible. Sadly wasn't the last time he went through it, but after the next time he went to rehab and has been sober almost two years. Remarkable.
My husband did die of alcohol poisoning at the age of 60 after being an alcoholic on beer since he was a teenager. His brain was gone years before he died and he was a violent vicious dangerous drunk 6 feet 5 in + 275 lbs all muscle
Actually witnessed the same withdrawals, where i just have multiple dreams at once and it feels like I’m in the dream and when you wake up you realise how scared you are. It feels like someone is calling from and isn’t the case. All of this is so scary, I literally told myself I am dying. Alcohol has made me do a lot of stupid things and I’ve lost everything from relationships as well as some valuables. I do believe that now is the right time to be some I’m just tired of going through the same cycle and just being a disappointment. Five years from now I will look back to this comment with a smile
Thanks for the video. I am still struggling with it. Years ago when I took mushrooms and I tried to drink a glass of liquor I couldn't get the glass past my lips. The mushrooms told me it is "pure molten evil" Those are not words I would normally use.
i have experienced the closed eye visuals too. very scary, i could see vivid images of stuff i almost had no control over, often violent or sexual in nature. only with closed eyes. Worst part of withdrawel for me is the nightmares though, absolutely insane. the most scare part about my nightmares is that they are always happening just where i sleep, in my bed, so there is this confusion about if im actually awake or sleeping.
While withdrawing I had a nightmare that I was watching my brothers baby and I took my eye of him for just a second. Somehow he had gotten to the balcony and I caught his leg as he was falling off. This tiny baby seemed to weigh a ton and He’s dangling off this very high balcony. I’m screaming my lungs out for help.I look back and my brother, his dad is just watching with zero emotion. Just staring at me blankly as his child slips from my grasp. I woke up in sweats. The nightmares are one of the worst parts of withdrawal and they are EXTREMELY vivid.
I would have music in my head SO LOUD that it was like I had headphones in my ears, but instead of the full song it would be maybe 1 verse and a chorus on loop. It was torture. And I would shut my eyes and see as plain as you sit and watch TV, movies and images behind my eyes. Like you, very violent or sexual images.
Always appreciate your videos. I have to agree, going through DT's was the scariest thing I've ever experienced in my life and I have done some pretty crazy doses of psychedelics. I literally thought I was going to die. Just wanted to thank you for your words and your videos...I literally watched your channel nonstop while I was detoxing for the last time. They really helped me so much I cannot thank you enough. Still sober and embracing life at my full potential. Thank you brother! Much love.
I also want to say that your alcohol DT story really made me cry when I came across it, it was the first video that got me hooked on your channel, after years of being horrified at what I’d seen in my 6 day delirium tremens at only 21 years old, I finally felt like someone understood and it was a weight off my shoulders. I’ve never connected with a channel so much in my entire life, on every topic, everything I thought my whole life pretty much and thought was “crazy” or delusional was being covered by you and I then knew I wasn’t crazy the world around me was crazy and I then could accept and relax
Sounds like you are lucky to be alive. Thank you for sharing your story, and also for strongly advising folks to seek medical advice when coming off of alcohol or drugs. ❤️ 🙏
i had a dream where a demon with wierd skeletal arms with part flesh still on them, came out from behind me where i slept and started grapping me, i could literally feel myself getting pushed into the bad and i kept trying to see what it was, wasnt able to. the hands just kept almost groping me while i screamed. i woke up so scared that i had to call my mom at 3 am (im a 32 year old male ) mostly to make sure that it was actually a dream and not a hallucination. dont tell me that, that isnt demonic.
Had something similar happen to me about 11 years ago. A demon manifested behind my bed and tried crushing my chest. I was able to lift my left arm but soon after the entity zapped my arm. I was in another realm. I heard what sounded like thousands or maybe even millions of souls yelling and crying. When all of a sudden a voice came to my right ear and said "Cry out to Jesus!" And I exclaimed "JESUS CHRIST!" and everything immediately stopped. I got up and turned on the lights and just sat there in disbelief. I couldn't sleep in the dark for 2 years after that.
I had a dream there was a watermelon sized black widow with a human skull for a head. Then there was a coral reef snake behind it and they both chased after me. It was terrible. I've never done acid but I think that's what it might be like to have a bad trip.
i got chills listening to your video because I'm going through the same thing... Hearing demonic voices and seeing a million random images going through my vision whether my eyes are shit or open... i feel like I'm about to die
I don't think alcohol wants to kill me, it just wants to torture me for a seeming eternity.... GREAT Video!!!! LOVED IT gonna watch again! I've been through this torture you describe TOTAL PANIC, hearing music in the distance, the blackness is literally moving, wanna sleep but gasping for air, heart pounding like it's gonna explode as it's made of hot lava... and initially could just start with a socially acceptable "Fun" bottle of beer on a whim.... BANG!!! your back in the madness! :)
I’m a binge drinker. I can stay sober for weeks and months at a time. My longest was 10 months. I’ve recently came off a 5 day bender. The withdrawal isn’t a game and I don’t wish this on anyone. Tomorrow is finally my 72 hours of going through it. I’m lucky I’m not an everyday alcoholic. I do get nightmares, insomnia, sweats while I’m shivering. I can’t eat or hold food down, I get diarrhea. All the while feel an impending doom in my head. Of all the stupid things I did while on my binge. Humiliation and anxiety engulfed my mind. This is literally suicide. If you drink like how I do or worse, you don’t love yourself. It’s only going to get worse and there’s no going back. I finally realized why I drink and I have to work on my mental health. I’ve wasted 15 years of my life on this. I honestly can’t do this anymore. This is many rock bottom to hit my soul.
If you are a daily or heavy drinker and want to quit GO TO HOSPITAL or YOUR DOCTOR and explain what's been happening and that you want to quit. If you just stop cold turkey the withdrawals can kill you. My wife and I are both a year and a half sober and only ever drank on weekends for years but in the year before we quit she was drinking 3 bottles of vodka Friday night - Sunday night and I was drinking from Friday night through to Sunday morning, no sleep, no food, no water. We decided to quit after a holiday away and the next day she had an alcohol withdrawal seizure, it was terrifying. She went to hospital in an ambulance and was discharged a few hours later and for the next few days she was like a zombie - had no idea what happened, didn't know that she was at home, kept forgetting things. She had hallucinations one night, in our sleep she heard chanting outside, saw spiders, shadow people. It was horrible to witness, she was terrified and we both knew it was alcohol withdrawal and it wasn't 'real' but it still didn't make it any less terrifying. A few days later she was 100% normal, had all of her memory and was her normal self again. She could have died at age 37. Stay strong everyone, alcohol KILLS.
I’m on day 5 withdrawal. Thanks for this video. I really needed to hear someone with solidarity tell me to knock it the fuc off. I can only watch vids of people who know what I’m talking about. God bless the companies trying to get clients/help people but I can’t stand hearing about it from a clinical perspective. I need just what you gave. If I want to live I’ve got to knock this sh*t off. Thank you.
I was a few weeks away from death and I did not know how to stop. I got on my knees and looked at the ceiling and begged God for help. I did not know if i had believed in God or not but i wanted him to exist so much. I was heared and God stepped in and took over my addiction. I am sober 3 years and a few months and i am so grateful. God saved my life when i could not. It hasn't been a walk in the park but its been a lot easier than I thought. I wish anyone who's going to try all the love in the world xx If i can do it, anyone can. God bless x
@@marknewton6984how long were you drinking? How was the first few days cold turkey? I had no idea i was in trouble until the first day without... and that first night. Whoa
@@marknewton6984sounds a bit like my case. I've been drinking all of my life and for the past 20-30 years it has been pretty much every day. It started off just wine because I felt successful and I felt I could afford it. When I couldn't afford it so well because I lost my job I still kept drinking because it made me feel like I was being rewarded for something. As time went on I found more and more economical ways of drinking. And yet.... I have no trouble giving up because I was lucky enough never to become physically addicted. Some people do become physically addicted and that is when the symptoms of withdrawal can actually be dangerous and then it's best to cut down gradually or at least take very good care of yourself doing cold turkey. Psychological addiction can be quite bad but it's not the same as physical addiction, where the body has actually started to think that alcohol is food.
The same goes for beer too if you drink enough of it regularly for long periods of time. When I went through alcohol withdrawals it was some of the most terrifying shit I’ve ever experienced. I mean horror movie shit. Let’s just say Now I know why they call it “spirits”. Alcohol is by far the worst drug to withdraw from.
I watched that video you linked a lot when this came out and some of your videos multiple times too. I was definitely one of the people also watched this. I watched lots of videos on dts and withdrawls because it interested me but also helped me. videos on sobriety aswell. I'll be 6 months sober in 3 days. longest I've even been.
Same started waking up with pain where my liver is definitely need to stop. Going through a case and a half of tall boys Friday - Sunday. Been doing that for years.
Its crazy how different people's bodies are. I know a guy who's been drinking a 30 pack a day for many many years and he's still kickin. His job has to force him into retirement because he refused to stop working and never missed a day. Sometimes I wonder if he's human
Great video man you should definitely do more videos on the subject of alcohol and I know that feeling being at the local shop at 6am the second they open feeling like a alcoholic, tho when you're an alcoholic all you want is that bottle so you can relax and sleep for a few hours just to wake up and carry on with the vodka
I found you from your detox videos because I went through my alcoholism withdrawal, relapse, and eventual recovery and your videos helped me when I was not doing so well. I want to be specific about this, but you can't just quit cold turkey. I went through rehab and what's going to happen is that you're going to puke up your guts. The approach is typically is using Librium and Zofran which help to stop drinking and stop throwing up. I hate to say it but it will be unpleasant for a couple of days. I hated all of it and couldn't eat other than crackers and water, sweating constantly when I wanted to sleep, so on and so on. Just fix yourself before you can't fix it because cirrhosis and kidney problems are serious.
I remember this. My eyes were open and all the colours would move in front of me like a watercolour. My eyes would be wide open and I would also see nothing (like being blind). I also thought there were other people in the room partying with me but I was all alone, going through psychosis. The nightmares were unreal. And the night sweats and palpitations. Good advice, get advice if detoxing! It can kill you. Over one year sober now! Never going back. It’s the best thing I’ve ever done.
Those feelings you described when you first experienced your WD symptoms were EXACTLY the same for me! You just caused a flashback within me lol. I love the way you describe it, trapped between two realities. I was laying in bed, hungover, and I felt really weird. I felt tingling in my entire body. And whenever I stopped moving my entire body started to go numb. I thought I screwed up my central nervous system. But at the same time I thought these are WD symtoms. And whenever I felt my body go numb I got intense panick attacks, heart started beating fast, I got insanely hot, I jumped out of bed fearing I was dying, walked back and forth or ran out of the house like a maniac...and it got worse day by day, at some point I could be completely drunk and still experience this hell. I always had withdrawal symptoms no matter how drunk I was. I was shaking and had panick attacks all the time. Alcohol is no joke, and I was only drinking for a little more than a year. But it escalated extremely fast to the point where I was basically blackout drunk from waking up till passing out for weeks on end
Hell is real isn't it? That horrible restlessness, the panic, knowing there's no escape and that we have no hope and we're just stuck in that feeling for hours/days.
@@EdwinHeijmans-rn6fb thanks for asking! 🫶 I've been sober since July 2020, I haven't had a drink in over 4 years. My addiction shifted though. Unfortunately I picked up a new "habit", I'm taking Kratom at the moment and it's pretty hard to quit. Although the side effects are far less severe. What about you, are you sober or struggling?
Oh wow I have a video exactly like this - our experiences are so similar that I even hit a lot of the same beats in mine. I wish I'd seen this earlier. Nice work.
Totally related to the part about feeling trapped between wanting to stop vs needing to continue drinking to battle the withdrawal. Just an utter feeling of helplessness. And the hallucinations are like a nightmarish version of a lucid dream.
powerful share thank you, yes you are right they don't call alcohol spirits for nothing, when you drink you open the door and invite them into your body where they take over hence forming an addiction. Addictions are entities that have a hold on your body. most of the souls have had crazy supernatural experiences. please if you have more supernatural experiences would love to hear them
In Utah you cannot buy hard alcohol at grocery stores. The only thing you can buy is low alcohol content beer. If people want regular beer with the regular alcohol content they have to drive to Wyoming to get it. Thus, Utah has a lower alcoholic rate than other state and a lower divorce rate than other states
New job almost lead me to relapse after a year sober. I refuse. So looking to God to keep this clarity n remember these days of my life. It gets worse when the insomnia hits. But that's when I see I'm triggered deeply. Learn your triggers and know your resets.
Wow thank you for sharing. I had no idea it could get that crazy. I've been drinking every single night before bed for the last 2 months . 3 or 4 beers nightly just to try and sleep peacefully. I'm going through a divorce and it's been hard. Anyway this is definitely an alarm for me to find healthier coping mechanisms. Thanks for sharing🙏
I was wondering if that experience of alcohol withdrawal was before or after your Kundalini awakening. I have been trying the last 4 years to achieve a real Kundalini awakening. I've kind of given up. I have had Kundalini activations, but it wasn't the full blown experience. And when I say giving up, it's not really that, it's just accepting that I don't get to chose when and if it happens and letting go. I hope I do get to experience it one day, I am ready and have done so much inner work
This happened to me. I know these two demons. I was laying in the hospital, dying. My mother was there with me and I kid you not-- these two demons were not allowed to talk about her in their plot to drive me insane. They would try, and test their boundaries, but when they crossed the line a third voice would scold them. But this will really cook your noodle. I believe I'm alive today because I revealed them. The voice I heard was the voice of a hispanic girl I knew who spoke both beautiful English and beautiful Spanish. She was doing a "bit" in her tormenting where she was reading everything that I was reading to prove that she was inside my head. When she got to the Spanish poster, her voice was clearly not any human language. I was like "hold up lol, go back?" and me and the other demon were like "lmao he figured you out, NERD" like I had just figured out a hilarious hole in her planning by only knowing Spanish as well as i do-- not as well as the person she appears to be. After that point we had a hilarious time together. We looked at reddit on my phone and made fun of the headlines. Check my history I'm just a normal-ass dude lol. No fucking shot this is unrelated.
I remember those rookie days hyperventilating not knowing wtf was goin on. But after years and years of hospitalizations, detoxes, over doses intubations, major health complications and death defying kicks I finally smartened up.. Kickin booze, benzos and fentanyl in the ICU with Sepsis, pneumonia, 2 pe clots, and a bacterial infection is not a place anyone ever wants to be. And like the OP said, theres so much more to a story relating to visual and auditory hallucinations while kicking, that shit gets so crazy theres no way anyone whos never been there could relate. . And everyone handles their substances differently, so saying you have a problem and youre only drinking wine or a 12 pk of beer don't make you a Mary, it could easily progress into much worse. Wish all you addicts the best, the woman who drink wine and the vikings on the vodka. Be brave and fight the bug!
i've been doin a fifth a day for about 2-3 yrs and i quit and went thru that withdrawal a couple times this year. first time i stayed sober for 3 months and actually felt like myself again. then i relapsed twice more with about 2 weeks on 2 weeks off. Last wednesday i decided its time to properly stop because to be honest. Its not fun anymore when youre just worrying the whole time about your liver. I gotta say, this withdrawal wasn't the worst but at the same time it is. I haven't drank at all in 3 days cuz b4 that i slowly cut down ( from 750 - 550 - 375 - about 4 beers - then zero). That experience is such garbage and I'm still scared because the depersonalization is still active. I don't feel like myself anymore, I'm mentally not even ok to leave the house without my mind racing. I remember the last couple withdrawals I was so excited and hyped to finally become normal again without that demon eating me away but this time it's different. I'm terrified I might've seriously screwed up my liver beyond repair. I'm over here freaking out and checking my eye color 100 times a day to make sure they haven't turned yellow. I'm always looking at my stomach and I feel something in my liver area. I just wanna go back to those days of only hitting bowls and giggling at people who pay loads of money to get drunk which is the inferior drug. Now it's just awfully embarrassing that I can't even smoke up w the bois without rampant fear of getting some kind of panic attack or getting paranoid cuz weed will exaggerate your emotions. When i first started the fifth a day thing (it grew up to that point in previous years) I was a person people wanted to be around cuz I was chill n funny but as the years went on I turned into a demented angry and paranoid nuisance. My group is getting sick and tired of my shit where I either can't go out or when I do I can't go anywhere without a bottles worth of vodka. During that longest time I was sober I was able to socially or casually drink no more than 3 beers a day and I felt fine, but as soon as I picked up the vodka bottle it was game over. Back to what it used to be because the inner alcoholic in me deemed it to be "fine". Literally I have an alternate personality and it's scaring me because that personality hasn't left in my current 3 days sobriety.
oh yea and the biggest difference this time is that even 1, 2, 3+ beers didn't solve my withdrawal symptoms for the short period of time I'd like. That's what scared the piss outta me. I probably had to get absolutely shitfaced for it to start subsiding and the other times it's never been like that.
Stop drinking my friend. Have you seen my other videos on alcohol & recovery? I have over 10 hours of cotent regarding the subject and you might find them helpful. You can always email me at Bgingerelli@gmail.com if you need some one-on-one advice. Brandon
@@SacredSerpent thanks very much brother, and yes I've seen a few of your other videos. I'll keep you posted on my recovery I'm going to write down your email, thanks man.
Hey my friend. I have been drinking a bottle of Bourbon everyday for 2 weeks straight. I was sober for two months but then relapsed. It’s 2am where I am and i going through the exact same thing. My last drink was about 10 hrs ago but now my mind is racing right now and I can’t stop chain smoking at the moment. Alcohol withdrawal is the scariest of the bunch
Yes. Everything you said is exactly how I was feeling!!! A few differences here and there but pretty much exactly the same nightmare!!! Correction. Your experience was way more insane and psychedelic. I could hear chanting voices behind the airconditioner but they sounded distant. Almost like if they were in another dimension. But your experience was much worse and surreal.
I had withdrawals from pounding whiskey everyday for months on end in Daly city in South San Francisco and after hundreds of 10ft tall creatures with death in the black pools of hate they had for eyes started coming out of the ground next to a potter's field of all places I blacked out and had a grand mall seizure and almost chewed my tongue off, boy did that suck! Do you think it made me stop? Not a goddamned chance, I didn't stop till I was almost dead, I been clean and sober now 25 years, no AA or anything just didn't wanna die the way my mother did...my heart goes out for real to anyone suffering in the throes of addiction...
i drink from 20 years, every days...i have stopped totally since one week, and i have 0 withdrawal, no delirium tremens, any suffering...iam depressed, but that's normal for me i have always been depressed since i was a child...i thought it would be horrible and i would suffer...but no...its maybe because i take benzo (i have read it helps to cope alcohol withdrawal, but not stop it totally) so i don't know, maybe i was no so alcoholic i thought...i never drank the morning, but every evening, i can't remember only one day in 20 years i didn't drink alcohol...i must be lucky...
I was in ICU with DT’s. I was hallucinating at the rehab center and was rushed to the ER. The Ammonia levels in my body was 5 times the normal amount. They almost put me in the psych ward. I’m now 3 years sober. Been to hell and back. 36 years drinking.
Alcohol was my substance at first, but my last substances were benzos, weed, and gambling. I drank when I could somewhat control my alcoholism(I couldn't today), but the benzo withdrawls is the worst thing I have gone through.
In one experience I saw my own cursive handwriting on my wardrobe door, a single black spider centipede hybrid looking bug crawling up my wall, shadows at the windows & thought I was gonna get arrested or someone was about to bang down my door. Running the gamut of symptoms over 3-5 days & the recovery time after that is like taking a holiday in hell. The fear of going to sleep & sinking into the bed, the disembodied voices, couldn't close my eyes because of the rapidly flashing images. Kept seeing my phone alert that someone was calling me when I wasn't even looking at my phone. Total paranoia that terrible things were about to happen. Doctors were not much help, the only things that's helped me in these times is constant distraction & talking to other people in recovery.
One thing I learned was never run out of money. At least if you can get Amazon to deliver you can let yourself down easy. Well it wasn't easy but I managed to wean myself off and have stayed off ever since. This was after a 2 week bender with at least a litre plus of whisky a day.
Came off of a 8 year long drinking habit AND a 3 year long oxycontin addiction at the same time. Torture to say the least. I was crying and puking in bed for days on end, hallucinations from literal hell. Similar thing with phenibut I was on 5 grams for almost a year straight, damn near identical to alcohol withdrawal only phen catches up to you much quicker as do the benzos.
@@SacredSerpent unfortunately I relapsed on it along with alcohol not long ago I've been on these videos again because they've always helped me get introspective about demons and they aren't generic AA bogus. I have cold turkeyed phenibut many times, it is the only thing that can compare to alcohol withdrawals in my experience...very similar anxiety, shakiness, intense Insomnia, impending doom and worst of all hallucinations that don't align with this world at all in my opinion. I love your vids man I can't tell you how many times I come back and revisit, I'm a chronic relapser. Luckily no more Opiates in a very long time, but I'd honestly rather deal with that than this alcoholism trash again and especially this phenibut trash again. I go long periods sober and then go back, have for years now unfortunately. But videos like this is what helps me get out of this bogus, along with substituting some of this trash with things like Kava and ashwaganda when I get real out of hand those 2 herbs help me a lot. I'm big on herbs to my man, and if anything it seems like I go more into my Herbal regimens and healthy lifestyle in general once I kick booze. Booze bring out the worst inner loser ever in me and I get to the point where I don't care about anyone and anything.
So true man. The devil uses alcohol as a door to hell. And that's terrifying. I would hear "Brad!!" "Hey!..Brad!" And my heart would race. I would wash my bedding three times a week because of me sweating from detox. Thought I was having a heart attack and couldn't catch my breath. Telling myself "I'm okay....I'm okay....I'm okay! " Called 911 and they helped me. Love paramedics! But....It's staying sober when you fell better.
I'm about to be at 24 hours after binging the last week and I'm certainly worried as well as feeling really weird. I became an alcoholic in 2019 during the pandemic. I lost two great jobs back-to-back for drinking. I never thought that I'd be in this position. If you pray consider giving me a second of consideration. I'm scared I might not be here in a few days but. I'm remaining optimistic but withdrawal symptoms are like a twisted abnormal freak show.
Always go to the ER or A&E (UK) if you run out of cash and feel trapped. People will always be willing to help. They can give you Valium or similar gaba drugs.
One time my cousin posted on Facebook that he was so sick it felt like he was dying, that he couldn’t even keep a drop of water down. We all thought “oh, must be norovirus or stomach flu” or whatever. “Poor guy.” A few years later, he died of alcohol poisoning. I wonder if that sickness was another one of his attempts to get sober.
This is spot on the ugly, demonic feeling when detoxing bad. I have suffered many seizures during detox. First the weirdest visions so real then what is known as the Aura just before full seizure. BEST ADVICE is go to the hospital for withdrawal. It's very dangerous like in this vid.
I don't mean to post as a "light weight" here, but I have a question. I'm drinking a large bottle of wine every day. I don't drink in the morning. But I do combine with pain killers and I'm 60 years old. Terrible back pain combined with unresolved trauma. I'm not sure I can do this alone, yet I feel alone because only a few people know. Any advice would be much appreciated. Thanks for sharing your story, brother.
I literally just went through this 3 day binge of heavy drinking. The withdrawals were HORRIBLE. night terrors, insomnia, shakes, cold sweats, vomitting, and dehydration. I just made it through it. The night terrors were so horrible because everything I dreamt about was demon related it was tough and making me consider nevr to drink again.
Had 6 seizures, my last one started seeing stars couldn't breathe, half my body went numb, feet and hands curling up. It wasn't my time ... Went to detox, headed off to treatment for 120 days.
my cousin went through something like that......... his "buddies" all sexually abused him through his struggle with alcohol..... it could always be worse man. my "cousin" is me of course
Man, how i am not missing that😅.... Now its kind of a funny, but its not. That kind of experiance i had after not sleeping for 3 days, having halucinations hearing voice and thankfully my doctor prescribed me sleeping piills. Yeah i needed to hear this to remember what kind of hell i also went through.... You know what, being sober plus sorting your life..... Its the greatest alcohol you need... Great Job..... It is possible! 😊
would have been more interesting to hear about your experiences regarding the supernatural in reference to your withdrawl full on truth. . . no fear of judgement
I've mixed alcohol with benzos like Ativan and Librium and it was always a terrible idea. It's not something I wanted to do, but the addict in me just didn't care. Id leave the ER after being treated for withdrawals and go straight to the liquor store. Apparently I would wander my neighborhood and drop by coworker's houses and shit, fall down on the sidewalk, sleep in parks, get picked up by the cops and not remember any of it... Id just have to take people's word for it.
I switched jobs right before my 1st true withdrawal happened to me.. now my only hope is to taper so i dont get to DT stage until my new benefits kick in later this month. Tapering for me is zero hard liq. Less and less light beer every day. Down to about 4 beers before bed..
I've experienced severe extreme delirium tremens 4 or more times, twice hospitalized. I heard my neighbor plot to kill me and try to kick the door down, but when I checked there was nobody there. I saw my carpet come to life. My best friend appeared beside me and vanished more than once. I could see font and images in my vision for 3 days. My inner monologue reinvented itself into an evil alter ego that said everybody hates me and wouldn't stop talking to me for days. I stayed alone with the air conditioning on full blast, paced in agony until I recovered. I've been sober for a long time now and I'll never go back. The human mind going through withdrawal is a very surreal and frightening experience. I hope you're doing well. God bless
Keep strong, seek good friends a lots of help to never relapse ever again! You said something very telling, you heard your neighbor plotting to kill you and try to kick down your door. See, in those circumstances delirium can also lead to go and kill that neighbor, frightening as it is those things can and do happen. Please, never drink again, blessing to you my dear friend life is tooooo short to waste it in self destruction. God bless you and me too I need help too.
Do you realize something? This could be a plot of an Edgar Allan Poe tale or an horro movie that would sell for millions of dollars! Again, when you are tempted to relapse bring to the fore all those horrible experiences you've had to not do it again.
I'm 11 months sober. Started watching your videos right before I got help. So glad I found your early videos on alcoholism.
I still go back to your old alcohol series a lot to remind myself why I stopped. They’ve helped me so much, I really didn’t know I was the only one who went thru DTs and had these supernatural evil experiences. I’m spiritually sensitive so it makes sense, but the feeling of alcohol withdrawal it feels like you died and went to hell. The feeling is so dark it feels like it’s eating my soul and it’s a feeling so pure helplessness. It’s unexplainable. And I’m around alcohol all the time, I go to these videos to remember even tho I’ve seen all the old videos over and over. I have to ground myself sometimes and remind myself the dark side of this demonic horrific addiction. I don’t drink anymore, but I still have that little part of my Brian that is diseased. So thank you for continuing to make these videos as reminders
100% and thank you for sharing your story. I’m 4 years sober from alcohol and it was a living hell to get through and get where I’m at now. It’s an experience I never want or will experience again.
I've met guys in prison that never been in trouble ever,but got behind the wheel killing someone after drinking.. I was in for a DUI,my second time in prison, it was an eye opener for me.. im proud to say,I've put that bottle down and don't ever touch it..
your such a mess...you could have killed innocent family
Good for you man! Keep it up!
Self medicating is a normal response to trauma ... It's not mystical it's medical .. I really appreciate you talking about your experience
As an alcoholic in Recovery, who now works in the Recovery field, your videos are extremely valuable. I completely agree, there is a malevolent intelligence involved with alcoholism and acute withdrawal. I am utterly convinced there is a non physical malevolence/ intelligence directly involved with alcoholism and Delirium Tremens. Keep up the good work, it’s probably saving lives.
I went thru the exact same thing. Pacing and terrible thoughts and sweating in bed for days. And this happened to me 5 times in two years. I finally had enough and suffered thru it. Over 2 weeks sober now.
Are you still sober ? Im on day 1 and it's horrific
Hit the nail on the head!! Alcohol withdrawal is no joke! Scary as hell! Thank you for sharing
You know how long it is going to take. THat is the hell. You've done it before and you know that no matter what you do it is going to be 2-3 days of hell and you did it to yourself. Throwing up acid and bile every 15 minutes- making yourself throw up for a measure of relief. Drink water knowing it will barely warm up before you throw it back up. Cant lay down cant sit down and dont want to walk around. Cant tell anyone what is going on because you feel like a disaster. FInally you can keep some water down and you lose 2-3 hours of passed out sleep and you know you wont die this time- but you might next time.
Oh man .preach brother I been there
I've quit drinking after having been on binges before but this time it was different.
Scared the hell out of me!
I just wanted to stay under the covers and hide from the world.
I don't want to ever experience that feeling again! 😳
I couldn’t even tell you how many times I’ve watched this video. I think it’s fascinating/terrifying. Great video thank you for sharing Brandon.
Glad the video has been useful to you Eric. Thanks for watching
I’ve been there before. Everything you say I’ve experienced it.
Alcohol = AL-KUHL or AL-GAWL - Arabic term meaning "Body eating spirit." Another reason why its called "spirits" or "boo-ze" and 'Gin and tonic' / "Jinn" and tonic.
Jinn and tonic lol make mine a large one 🤭
@Roc Towerhug It absolutely can ruin lives and whole families ..
That's crazy thank u for helping me never drinking again I hate demons
@@scottjohnson2401beer is best friend 😂🎉
I just looked that shit up that's wild. I believe it tho . I did an ibogaine treatment for opiates I definitely experienced the spirit world
I bought liquor with Pennie’s a few times lol, so embarrassing.
Ive been there too.
Been there too. Id pick up pennies on the ground if I spotted one. Just to make sure I can get to next weeks paycheck and not withdrawal.
Could barely keep my hand still trying to insert my debit card 😢
I always said that alcohol is the worst of the worst. Here in South Carolina we can't smoke weed but can buy gallons of liquor.
My oldest brother almost died from it. Stayed up all night with him and watched over him with my other brother in the hospital. Watching him suffer was terrible. Sadly wasn't the last time he went through it, but after the next time he went to rehab and has been sober almost two years. Remarkable.
I’m so happy he’s alive and sober ❤my partner suffers from alcohol addiction. Do you have any advice on how I can help him to quit drinking?
My husband did die of alcohol poisoning at the age of 60 after being an alcoholic on beer since he was a teenager. His brain was gone years before he died and he was a violent vicious dangerous drunk 6 feet 5 in + 275 lbs all muscle
Actually witnessed the same withdrawals, where i just have multiple dreams at once and it feels like I’m in the dream and when you wake up you realise how scared you are. It feels like someone is calling from and isn’t the case. All of this is so scary, I literally told myself I am dying. Alcohol has made me do a lot of stupid things and I’ve lost everything from relationships as well as some valuables. I do believe that now is the right time to be some I’m just tired of going through the same cycle and just being a disappointment. Five years from now I will look back to this comment with a smile
10.00 sounds like your first panic attack. Alcohol puts your mind in hell.
Thanks for the video. I am still struggling with it. Years ago when I took mushrooms and I tried to drink a glass of liquor I couldn't get the glass past my lips. The mushrooms told me it is "pure molten evil" Those are not words I would normally use.
i have experienced the closed eye visuals too. very scary, i could see vivid images of stuff i almost had no control over, often violent or sexual in nature. only with closed eyes.
Worst part of withdrawel for me is the nightmares though, absolutely insane. the most scare part about my nightmares is that they are always happening just where i sleep, in my bed, so there is this confusion about if im actually awake or sleeping.
Shit scared me so bad
While withdrawing I had a nightmare that I was watching my brothers baby and I took my eye of him for just a second. Somehow he had gotten to the balcony and I caught his leg as he was falling off. This tiny baby seemed to weigh a ton and He’s dangling off this very high balcony. I’m screaming my lungs out for help.I look back and my brother, his dad is just watching with zero emotion. Just staring at me blankly as his child slips from my grasp. I woke up in sweats. The nightmares are one of the worst parts of withdrawal and they are EXTREMELY vivid.
@@uPSIDEdOWN577 i totally get what you saw, with your dad with no emotions. i had a similar dream once, very demonic.
I would have music in my head SO LOUD that it was like I had headphones in my ears, but instead of the full song it would be maybe 1 verse and a chorus on loop. It was torture. And I would shut my eyes and see as plain as you sit and watch TV, movies and images behind my eyes. Like you, very violent or sexual images.
@@uPSIDEdOWN577Damn that’s crazy at least the baby didn’t fall!
Always appreciate your videos. I have to agree, going through DT's was the scariest thing I've ever experienced in my life and I have done some pretty crazy doses of psychedelics. I literally thought I was going to die. Just wanted to thank you for your words and your videos...I literally watched your channel nonstop while I was detoxing for the last time. They really helped me so much I cannot thank you enough. Still sober and embracing life at my full potential. Thank you brother! Much love.
Brandon I’ve come back to these videos many times in my struggles with alcohol as well
Matt, How are you doing? Are you sober? Hang in there!
@@kateroth7154 unfortunately, no
I also want to say that your alcohol DT story really made me cry when I came across it, it was the first video that got me hooked on your channel, after years of being horrified at what I’d seen in my 6 day delirium tremens at only 21 years old, I finally felt like someone understood and it was a weight off my shoulders. I’ve never connected with a channel so much in my entire life, on every topic, everything I thought my whole life pretty much and thought was “crazy” or delusional was being covered by you and I then knew I wasn’t crazy the world around me was crazy and I then could accept and relax
Sounds like you are lucky to be alive. Thank you for sharing your story, and also for strongly advising folks to seek medical advice when coming off of alcohol or drugs. ❤️ 🙏
i had a dream where a demon with wierd skeletal arms with part flesh still on them, came out from behind me where i slept and started grapping me, i could literally feel myself getting pushed into the bad and i kept trying to see what it was, wasnt able to. the hands just kept almost groping me while i screamed. i woke up so scared that i had to call my mom at 3 am (im a 32 year old male ) mostly to make sure that it was actually a dream and not a hallucination. dont tell me that, that isnt demonic.
Had something similar happen to me about 11 years ago. A demon manifested behind my bed and tried crushing my chest. I was able to lift my left arm but soon after the entity zapped my arm. I was in another realm. I heard what sounded like thousands or maybe even millions of souls yelling and crying. When all of a sudden a voice came to my right ear and said "Cry out to Jesus!" And I exclaimed "JESUS CHRIST!" and everything immediately stopped. I got up and turned on the lights and just sat there in disbelief. I couldn't sleep in the dark for 2 years after that.
I had a dream there was a watermelon sized black widow with a human skull for a head. Then there was a coral reef snake behind it and they both chased after me. It was terrible. I've never done acid but I think that's what it might be like to have a bad trip.
i got chills listening to your video because I'm going through the same thing... Hearing demonic voices and seeing a million random images going through my vision whether my eyes are shit or open... i feel like I'm about to die
I don't think alcohol wants to kill me, it just wants to torture me for a seeming eternity.... GREAT Video!!!! LOVED IT gonna watch again! I've been through this torture you describe TOTAL PANIC, hearing music in the distance, the blackness is literally moving, wanna sleep but gasping for air, heart pounding like it's gonna explode as it's made of hot lava... and initially could just start with a socially acceptable "Fun" bottle of beer on a whim.... BANG!!! your back in the madness! :)
Nailed it. Nothin worse than the second you close your eyes, get the most absolutly insane racing visuals. Crazy times lol.
I’m a binge drinker. I can stay sober for weeks and months at a time. My longest was 10 months. I’ve recently came off a 5 day bender. The withdrawal isn’t a game and I don’t wish this on anyone. Tomorrow is finally my 72 hours of going through it. I’m lucky I’m not an everyday alcoholic. I do get nightmares, insomnia, sweats while I’m shivering. I can’t eat or hold food down, I get diarrhea. All the while feel an impending doom in my head. Of all the stupid things I did while on my binge. Humiliation and anxiety engulfed my mind. This is literally suicide. If you drink like how I do or worse, you don’t love yourself. It’s only going to get worse and there’s no going back. I finally realized why I drink and I have to work on my mental health. I’ve wasted 15 years of my life on this. I honestly can’t do this anymore. This is many rock bottom to hit my soul.
If you are a daily or heavy drinker and want to quit GO TO HOSPITAL or YOUR DOCTOR and explain what's been happening and that you want to quit. If you just stop cold turkey the withdrawals can kill you. My wife and I are both a year and a half sober and only ever drank on weekends for years but in the year before we quit she was drinking 3 bottles of vodka Friday night - Sunday night and I was drinking from Friday night through to Sunday morning, no sleep, no food, no water. We decided to quit after a holiday away and the next day she had an alcohol withdrawal seizure, it was terrifying. She went to hospital in an ambulance and was discharged a few hours later and for the next few days she was like a zombie - had no idea what happened, didn't know that she was at home, kept forgetting things. She had hallucinations one night, in our sleep she heard chanting outside, saw spiders, shadow people. It was horrible to witness, she was terrified and we both knew it was alcohol withdrawal and it wasn't 'real' but it still didn't make it any less terrifying. A few days later she was 100% normal, had all of her memory and was her normal self again. She could have died at age 37. Stay strong everyone, alcohol KILLS.
I’m on day 5 withdrawal. Thanks for this video. I really needed to hear someone with solidarity tell me to knock it the fuc off. I can only watch vids of people who know what I’m talking about. God bless the companies trying to get clients/help people but I can’t stand hearing about it from a clinical perspective. I need just what you gave. If I want to live I’ve got to knock this sh*t off. Thank you.
How you doing?
I was a few weeks away from death and I did not know how to stop. I got on my knees and looked at the ceiling and begged God for help. I did not know if i had believed in God or not but i wanted him to exist so much. I was heared and God stepped in and took over my addiction. I am sober 3 years and a few months and i am so grateful. God saved my life when i could not. It hasn't been a walk in the park but its been a lot easier than I thought. I wish anyone who's going to try all the love in the world xx If i can do it, anyone can. God bless x
I quit drinking cold turkey. Drank every day. Not as hard as I thought. It was time.
@@marknewton6984how long were you drinking? How was the first few days cold turkey? I had no idea i was in trouble until the first day without... and that first night. Whoa
I drank for 30 years. Been sober 7 mo. Wish me luck. 😮
@@marknewton6984sounds a bit like my case. I've been drinking all of my life and for the past 20-30 years it has been pretty much every day. It started off just wine because I felt successful and I felt I could afford it. When I couldn't afford it so well because I lost my job I still kept drinking because it made me feel like I was being rewarded for something. As time went on I found more and more economical ways of drinking. And yet.... I have no trouble giving up because I was lucky enough never to become physically addicted. Some people do become physically addicted and that is when the symptoms of withdrawal can actually be dangerous and then it's best to cut down gradually or at least take very good care of yourself doing cold turkey. Psychological addiction can be quite bad but it's not the same as physical addiction, where the body has actually started to think that alcohol is food.
The same goes for beer too if you drink enough of it regularly for long periods of time. When I went through alcohol withdrawals it was some of the most terrifying shit I’ve ever experienced. I mean horror movie shit. Let’s just say Now I know why they call it “spirits”. Alcohol is by far the worst drug to withdraw from.
I watched that video you linked a lot when this came out and some of your videos multiple times too. I was definitely one of the people also watched this. I watched lots of videos on dts and withdrawls because it interested me but also helped me. videos on sobriety aswell. I'll be 6 months sober in 3 days. longest I've even been.
I damn near died drinking beer. It's not just the "hard stuff ".
That's what destroyed my liver.
That’s my issue, I have been drinking 6-10 beers every night. I’m 5 days sober currently.
@@hbrotha1866I hope you’re doing well 💜
Same started waking up with pain where my liver is definitely need to stop. Going through a case and a half of tall boys Friday - Sunday. Been doing that for years.
Its crazy how different people's bodies are. I know a guy who's been drinking a 30 pack a day for many many years and he's still kickin. His job has to force him into retirement because he refused to stop working and never missed a day. Sometimes I wonder if he's human
Great video man you should definitely do more videos on the subject of alcohol
and I know that feeling being at the local shop at 6am the second they open feeling like a alcoholic, tho when you're an alcoholic all you want is that bottle so you can relax and sleep for a few hours just to wake up and carry on with the vodka
I found you from your detox videos because I went through my alcoholism withdrawal, relapse, and eventual recovery and your videos helped me when I was not doing so well. I want to be specific about this, but you can't just quit cold turkey. I went through rehab and what's going to happen is that you're going to puke up your guts. The approach is typically is using Librium and Zofran which help to stop drinking and stop throwing up. I hate to say it but it will be unpleasant for a couple of days. I hated all of it and couldn't eat other than crackers and water, sweating constantly when I wanted to sleep, so on and so on. Just fix yourself before you can't fix it because cirrhosis and kidney problems are serious.
I remember this. My eyes were open and all the colours would move in front of me like a watercolour. My eyes would be wide open and I would also see nothing (like being blind). I also thought there were other people in the room partying with me but I was all alone, going through psychosis. The nightmares were unreal. And the night sweats and palpitations. Good advice, get advice if detoxing! It can kill you. Over one year sober now! Never going back. It’s the best thing I’ve ever done.
Loving the beard brother
Those feelings you described when you first experienced your WD symptoms were EXACTLY the same for me! You just caused a flashback within me lol. I love the way you describe it, trapped between two realities. I was laying in bed, hungover, and I felt really weird. I felt tingling in my entire body. And whenever I stopped moving my entire body started to go numb. I thought I screwed up my central nervous system. But at the same time I thought these are WD symtoms. And whenever I felt my body go numb I got intense panick attacks, heart started beating fast, I got insanely hot, I jumped out of bed fearing I was dying, walked back and forth or ran out of the house like a maniac...and it got worse day by day, at some point I could be completely drunk and still experience this hell. I always had withdrawal symptoms no matter how drunk I was. I was shaking and had panick attacks all the time. Alcohol is no joke, and I was only drinking for a little more than a year. But it escalated extremely fast to the point where I was basically blackout drunk from waking up till passing out for weeks on end
Hell is real isn't it? That horrible restlessness, the panic, knowing there's no escape and that we have no hope and we're just stuck in that feeling for hours/days.
How are you now? Recovered?
@@EdwinHeijmans-rn6fb thanks for asking! 🫶 I've been sober since July 2020, I haven't had a drink in over 4 years. My addiction shifted though. Unfortunately I picked up a new "habit", I'm taking Kratom at the moment and it's pretty hard to quit. Although the side effects are far less severe. What about you, are you sober or struggling?
Oh wow I have a video exactly like this - our experiences are so similar that I even hit a lot of the same beats in mine. I wish I'd seen this earlier. Nice work.
Totally related to the part about feeling trapped between wanting to stop vs needing to continue drinking to battle the withdrawal. Just an utter feeling of helplessness. And the hallucinations are like a nightmarish version of a lucid dream.
Well said
Not easy being human ...thanks for sharing .
I can see in the background that you keep your home tidy. Very nice!
I had a habit of drinking a couple drinks a night and that is enough to hold you back. I had to stop.
powerful share thank you, yes you are right they don't call alcohol spirits for nothing, when you drink you open the door and invite them into your body where they take over hence forming an addiction. Addictions are entities that have a hold on your body. most of the souls have had crazy supernatural experiences. please if you have more supernatural experiences would love to hear them
I so agree about this too. I was going through sheer hell. Demons are real.
yea, its ike the withdrawls are the reality/responsibility creeping in that we we're attempting to escape with the substance all along.
In Utah you cannot buy hard alcohol at grocery stores. The only thing you can buy is low alcohol content beer. If people want regular beer with the regular alcohol content they have to drive to Wyoming to get it. Thus, Utah has a lower alcoholic rate than other state and a lower divorce rate than other states
It sounds like Utah has come up with a good idea there, a step in the right direction.
Utah sucks irregardless
Isn't that due to the Mormons?
@@michaelsiengo1 Yoo too, looser.
@@michaelsiengo1 said alcoholic
New job almost lead me to relapse after a year sober. I refuse. So looking to God to keep this clarity n remember these days of my life. It gets worse when the insomnia hits. But that's when I see I'm triggered deeply. Learn your triggers and know your resets.
Finnish alcoholic here. Thank you for sharing your experience!
Thanks for watching!
This needs 1M views!! Wow, so many people have no idea about the aftermath caused by alcoHELL.
Agreed !
Wow thank you for sharing. I had no idea it could get that crazy. I've been drinking every single night before bed for the last 2 months . 3 or 4 beers nightly just to try and sleep peacefully. I'm going through a divorce and it's been hard. Anyway this is definitely an alarm for me to find healthier coping mechanisms. Thanks for sharing🙏
I was wondering if that experience of alcohol withdrawal was before or after your Kundalini awakening. I have been trying the last 4 years to achieve a real Kundalini awakening. I've kind of given up. I have had Kundalini activations, but it wasn't the full blown experience. And when I say giving up, it's not really that, it's just accepting that I don't get to chose when and if it happens and letting go. I hope I do get to experience it one day, I am ready and have done so much inner work
This happened to me. I know these two demons. I was laying in the hospital, dying. My mother was there with me and I kid you not-- these two demons were not allowed to talk about her in their plot to drive me insane. They would try, and test their boundaries, but when they crossed the line a third voice would scold them.
But this will really cook your noodle. I believe I'm alive today because I revealed them. The voice I heard was the voice of a hispanic girl I knew who spoke both beautiful English and beautiful Spanish. She was doing a "bit" in her tormenting where she was reading everything that I was reading to prove that she was inside my head. When she got to the Spanish poster, her voice was clearly not any human language. I was like "hold up lol, go back?" and me and the other demon were like "lmao he figured you out, NERD" like I had just figured out a hilarious hole in her planning by only knowing Spanish as well as i do-- not as well as the person she appears to be.
After that point we had a hilarious time together. We looked at reddit on my phone and made fun of the headlines.
Check my history I'm just a normal-ass dude lol. No fucking shot this is unrelated.
I remember those rookie days hyperventilating not knowing wtf was goin on. But after years and years of hospitalizations, detoxes, over doses intubations, major health complications and death defying kicks I finally smartened up..
Kickin booze, benzos and fentanyl in the ICU with Sepsis, pneumonia, 2 pe clots, and a bacterial infection is not a place anyone ever wants to be. And like the OP said, theres so much more to a story relating to visual and auditory hallucinations while kicking, that shit gets so crazy theres no way anyone whos never been there could relate. . And everyone handles their substances differently, so saying you have a problem and youre only drinking wine or a 12 pk of beer don't make you a Mary, it could easily progress into much worse. Wish all you addicts the best, the woman who drink wine and the vikings on the vodka. Be brave and fight the bug!
i've been doin a fifth a day for about 2-3 yrs and i quit and went thru that withdrawal a couple times this year. first time i stayed sober for 3 months and actually felt like myself again. then i relapsed twice more with about 2 weeks on 2 weeks off. Last wednesday i decided its time to properly stop because to be honest. Its not fun anymore when youre just worrying the whole time about your liver. I gotta say, this withdrawal wasn't the worst but at the same time it is. I haven't drank at all in 3 days cuz b4 that i slowly cut down ( from 750 - 550 - 375 - about 4 beers - then zero). That experience is such garbage and I'm still scared because the depersonalization is still active. I don't feel like myself anymore, I'm mentally not even ok to leave the house without my mind racing. I remember the last couple withdrawals I was so excited and hyped to finally become normal again without that demon eating me away but this time it's different. I'm terrified I might've seriously screwed up my liver beyond repair. I'm over here freaking out and checking my eye color 100 times a day to make sure they haven't turned yellow. I'm always looking at my stomach and I feel something in my liver area. I just wanna go back to those days of only hitting bowls and giggling at people who pay loads of money to get drunk which is the inferior drug. Now it's just awfully embarrassing that I can't even smoke up w the bois without rampant fear of getting some kind of panic attack or getting paranoid cuz weed will exaggerate your emotions. When i first started the fifth a day thing (it grew up to that point in previous years) I was a person people wanted to be around cuz I was chill n funny but as the years went on I turned into a demented angry and paranoid nuisance. My group is getting sick and tired of my shit where I either can't go out or when I do I can't go anywhere without a bottles worth of vodka. During that longest time I was sober I was able to socially or casually drink no more than 3 beers a day and I felt fine, but as soon as I picked up the vodka bottle it was game over. Back to what it used to be because the inner alcoholic in me deemed it to be "fine". Literally I have an alternate personality and it's scaring me because that personality hasn't left in my current 3 days sobriety.
oh yea and the biggest difference this time is that even 1, 2, 3+ beers didn't solve my withdrawal symptoms for the short period of time I'd like. That's what scared the piss outta me. I probably had to get absolutely shitfaced for it to start subsiding and the other times it's never been like that.
Amazing video. I quit drinking one year ago, and I can relate with a lot of what you said.
Great video! And nice to see you on the video. I hope you'll make more live videos from now on
I went threw the same exact things you mentioned brother word for word only 4 months ago or so. I need to stop drinking it will kill me if I don't.
Stop drinking my friend. Have you seen my other videos on alcohol & recovery? I have over 10 hours of cotent regarding the subject and you might find them helpful. You can always email me at Bgingerelli@gmail.com if you need some one-on-one advice.
Brandon
@@SacredSerpent thanks very much brother, and yes I've seen a few of your other videos. I'll keep you posted on my recovery I'm going to write down your email, thanks man.
My son was nearly killed by a drunk driver nearly two years ago and STILL she hasn't been charged.
I quit overnight and immediately felt better. Never going back
Same here. 😎
Sobriety is god mode
Sounding and looking well brother. Great share.
Thank you for your story. Definitely an eye opener. I have been drinking very consistently lately and I have been conserned about it.
Hey my friend. I have been drinking a bottle of Bourbon everyday for 2 weeks straight. I was sober for two months but then relapsed. It’s 2am where I am and i going through the exact same thing. My last drink was about 10 hrs ago but now my mind is racing right now and I can’t stop chain smoking at the moment. Alcohol withdrawal is the scariest of the bunch
Yes. Everything you said is exactly how I was feeling!!! A few differences here and there but pretty much exactly the same nightmare!!! Correction. Your experience was way more insane and psychedelic. I could hear chanting voices behind the airconditioner but they sounded distant. Almost like if they were in another dimension. But your experience was much worse and surreal.
Love this black and white video. I can see how it’s addictive.
I had withdrawals from pounding whiskey everyday for months on end in Daly city in South San Francisco and after hundreds of 10ft tall creatures with death in the black pools of hate they had for eyes started coming out of the ground next to a potter's field of all places I blacked out and had a grand mall seizure and almost chewed my tongue off, boy did that suck! Do you think it made me stop? Not a goddamned chance, I didn't stop till I was almost dead, I been clean and sober now 25 years, no AA or anything just didn't wanna die the way my mother did...my heart goes out for real to anyone suffering in the throes of addiction...
Thanks bro well done x
i drink from 20 years, every days...i have stopped totally since one week, and i have 0 withdrawal, no delirium tremens, any suffering...iam depressed, but that's normal for me i have always been depressed since i was a child...i thought it would be horrible and i would suffer...but no...its maybe because i take benzo (i have read it helps to cope alcohol withdrawal, but not stop it totally)
so i don't know, maybe i was no so alcoholic i thought...i never drank the morning, but every evening, i can't remember only one day in 20 years i didn't drink alcohol...i must be lucky...
We actually live in an insane world
A patient described the “DT’s” to me. It’s horrifying.
I was in ICU with DT’s. I was hallucinating at the rehab center and was rushed to the ER. The Ammonia levels in my body was 5 times the normal amount. They almost put me in the psych ward. I’m now 3 years sober. Been to hell and back. 36 years drinking.
Do you have symptoms or nothing now? I still have some tingling in the head after stopping alcohol with a DT..does this go away?@@davelanni-wz9xe
Alcohol was my substance at first, but my last substances were benzos, weed, and gambling. I drank when I could somewhat control my alcoholism(I couldn't today), but the benzo withdrawls is the worst thing I have gone through.
This story is so crazy good.
In one experience I saw my own cursive handwriting on my wardrobe door, a single black spider centipede hybrid looking bug crawling up my wall, shadows at the windows & thought I was gonna get arrested or someone was about to bang down my door. Running the gamut of symptoms over 3-5 days & the recovery time after that is like taking a holiday in hell. The fear of going to sleep & sinking into the bed, the disembodied voices, couldn't close my eyes because of the rapidly flashing images. Kept seeing my phone alert that someone was calling me when I wasn't even looking at my phone. Total paranoia that terrible things were about to happen. Doctors were not much help, the only things that's helped me in these times is constant distraction & talking to other people in recovery.
Needed this… thanks
You’re welcome 😊
Anyone still here knows it ... Best wishes to everyone struggling
One thing I learned was never run out of money. At least if you can get Amazon to deliver you can let yourself down easy. Well it wasn't easy but I managed to wean myself off and have stayed off ever since. This was after a 2 week bender with at least a litre plus of whisky a day.
Came off of a 8 year long drinking habit AND a 3 year long oxycontin addiction at the same time. Torture to say the least. I was crying and puking in bed for days on end, hallucinations from literal hell. Similar thing with phenibut I was on 5 grams for almost a year straight, damn near identical to alcohol withdrawal only phen catches up to you much quicker as do the benzos.
Did you cold turkey the phenibut or do a taper ?
@@SacredSerpent unfortunately I relapsed on it along with alcohol not long ago I've been on these videos again because they've always helped me get introspective about demons and they aren't generic AA bogus. I have cold turkeyed phenibut many times, it is the only thing that can compare to alcohol withdrawals in my experience...very similar anxiety, shakiness, intense Insomnia, impending doom and worst of all hallucinations that don't align with this world at all in my opinion. I love your vids man I can't tell you how many times I come back and revisit, I'm a chronic relapser. Luckily no more Opiates in a very long time, but I'd honestly rather deal with that than this alcoholism trash again and especially this phenibut trash again. I go long periods sober and then go back, have for years now unfortunately. But videos like this is what helps me get out of this bogus, along with substituting some of this trash with things like Kava and ashwaganda when I get real out of hand those 2 herbs help me a lot. I'm big on herbs to my man, and if anything it seems like I go more into my Herbal regimens and healthy lifestyle in general once I kick booze. Booze bring out the worst inner loser ever in me and I get to the point where I don't care about anyone and anything.
So true man. The devil uses alcohol as a door to hell. And that's terrifying. I would hear "Brad!!" "Hey!..Brad!" And my heart would race. I would wash my bedding three times a week because of me sweating from detox. Thought I was having a heart attack and couldn't catch my breath. Telling myself "I'm okay....I'm okay....I'm okay! " Called 911 and they helped me. Love paramedics! But....It's staying sober when you fell better.
I'm about to be at 24 hours after binging the last week and I'm certainly worried as well as feeling really weird.
I became an alcoholic in 2019 during the pandemic. I lost two great jobs back-to-back for drinking. I never thought that I'd be in this position.
If you pray consider giving me a second of consideration. I'm scared I might not be here in a few days but. I'm remaining optimistic but withdrawal symptoms are like a twisted abnormal freak show.
Hey! Are you still here? How are you?
You are my Doppelganger homie. I spent 13 days In the Hell of ICU Cardiac Renal Unit. Barely made it back
Always go to the ER or A&E (UK) if you run out of cash and feel trapped. People will always be willing to help. They can give you Valium or similar gaba drugs.
One time my cousin posted on Facebook that he was so sick it felt like he was dying, that he couldn’t even keep a drop of water down. We all thought “oh, must be norovirus or stomach flu” or whatever. “Poor guy.”
A few years later, he died of alcohol poisoning. I wonder if that sickness was another one of his attempts to get sober.
This is spot on the ugly, demonic feeling when detoxing bad. I have suffered many seizures during detox. First the weirdest visions so real then what is known as the Aura just before full seizure. BEST ADVICE is go to the hospital for withdrawal. It's very dangerous like in this vid.
Alcohol is addictive AF!
It is complete hell as uncomfortable as the seizures sweating contortion feeling is the nightmares is what made it the worst for me
What if the demons WEREN'T a hallucination?
I don't mean to post as a "light weight" here, but I have a question. I'm drinking a large bottle of wine every day. I don't drink in the morning. But I do combine with pain killers and I'm 60 years old. Terrible back pain combined with unresolved trauma. I'm not sure I can do this alone, yet I feel alone because only a few people know. Any advice would be much appreciated. Thanks for sharing your story, brother.
I literally just went through this 3 day binge of heavy drinking. The withdrawals were HORRIBLE. night terrors, insomnia, shakes, cold sweats, vomitting, and dehydration. I just made it through it. The night terrors were so horrible because everything I dreamt about was demon related it was tough and making me consider nevr to drink again.
Had 6 seizures, my last one started seeing stars couldn't breathe, half my body went numb, feet and hands curling up. It wasn't my time ... Went to detox, headed off to treatment for 120 days.
my cousin went through something like that......... his "buddies" all sexually abused him through his struggle with alcohol..... it could always be worse man. my "cousin" is me of course
Thanks for sharing your story.
So similar to my withdrawals,, absolutely terrifying experience, this is why when your a heavy drinker its so fucking hard to stop
Man, how i am not missing that😅.... Now its kind of a funny, but its not. That kind of experiance i had after not sleeping for 3 days, having halucinations hearing voice and thankfully my doctor prescribed me sleeping piills. Yeah i needed to hear this to remember what kind of hell i also went through.... You know what, being sober plus sorting your life..... Its the greatest alcohol you need... Great Job..... It is possible! 😊
would have been more interesting to hear about your experiences regarding the supernatural in reference to your withdrawl
full on truth. . . no fear of judgement
I've mixed alcohol with benzos like Ativan and Librium and it was always a terrible idea. It's not something I wanted to do, but the addict in me just didn't care.
Id leave the ER after being treated for withdrawals and go straight to the liquor store. Apparently I would wander my neighborhood and drop by coworker's houses and shit, fall down on the sidewalk, sleep in parks, get picked up by the cops and not remember any of it... Id just have to take people's word for it.
You are lucky you didn't die from mixing Klonopin with a ton of wine. I am glad you survived.
Haven't drank I 2 years , maybe more. But haven't found anything really to fill that time except watch YT video
I switched jobs right before my 1st true withdrawal happened to me.. now my only hope is to taper so i dont get to DT stage until my new benefits kick in later this month. Tapering for me is zero hard liq. Less and less light beer every day. Down to about 4 beers before bed..
I have been through this kind of thing. Hell on earth.
It sure is
Brandon did you also had headaches after withdrawl? For long time ? Or not?
Did you drink water when you were having this sweating espisode?