Growing Up Without a Father-Eric

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  • @SoftWhiteUnderbelly
    @SoftWhiteUnderbelly  3 роки тому +118

    For the past year Eric has been working with a writer on a book based on his life story. Here’s the link: www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B09MYXVJCF/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0_nodl?ie=UTF8&qid=1638736718&sr=8-4

    • @lowxrain
      @lowxrain 2 роки тому +4

      I hope they add his playlist!

    • @vhead612
      @vhead612 2 роки тому +6

      Yes I’m happy to hear and looking forward to reading it. Best wishes for him. I relate to his story so much but you’d never know. Good for him he deserves a good life.

    • @dnf7778
      @dnf7778 2 роки тому +3

      My books in the mail, can't wait. Love you Eric

    • @amber76OH
      @amber76OH 2 роки тому +1

      Buying it. 🤍🖤🤍🖤

    • @marquitashiver6141
      @marquitashiver6141 2 роки тому

      Just placed my order! So exciting!

  • @limegreenninja9228
    @limegreenninja9228 4 роки тому +2012

    Childhood is the shortest part of our life but the most crucial

  • @tasha1206100
    @tasha1206100 4 роки тому +535

    Imagine just starting your life over at 53 years old. It’s never too late. I wish the best for him he seems very genuine.

    • @johnrod9449
      @johnrod9449 4 роки тому +1

      Wzup with u gurl

    • @tasha1206100
      @tasha1206100 4 роки тому

      John Rod hey lol

    • @tasha1206100
      @tasha1206100 4 роки тому

      John Rod awe thank you!! Lol where is your photo?

    • @johnrod9449
      @johnrod9449 4 роки тому

      Imma send one too your email....I don't really know how work this UA-cam site....

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +5

      Thank you

  • @ermfine2
    @ermfine2 4 роки тому +704

    Poverty damages a kids self esteem. They don’t ever feel worthy like other kids and other kids are mean.

    • @ms.chellylumpkins1143
      @ms.chellylumpkins1143 4 роки тому +4

      Facts!!!

    • @Jzessinthal
      @Jzessinthal 4 роки тому +50

      Poverty is also a good motivator to become successful.

    • @Namine01
      @Namine01 4 роки тому +37

      @@Jzessinthal Don't come in with that boot strap mentality. That's not what this comment was shining light on.

    • @dontbelongherefromanother
      @dontbelongherefromanother 4 роки тому +2

      They are viewed as different

    • @sskiddles31081
      @sskiddles31081 4 роки тому +10

      Poverty either Makes you or Break you!!!
      Sadly, most become the product of their environment.

  • @sweetneecy
    @sweetneecy 4 роки тому +381

    Stability is SO IMPORTANT to a child's upbringing.

    • @NaturallyGifted77
      @NaturallyGifted77 4 роки тому +2

      Yes

    • @severalpiece7105
      @severalpiece7105 4 роки тому +2

      Thank you

    • @LadyParis-xu2ri
      @LadyParis-xu2ri 4 роки тому +2

      Exactly... some black females failed to comprehend this real message, that Eric speak. Some females are focused on Eric features and not on his mindset or what is coming out of his mouth. That's all what they got out of his out cry message, his feature.

  • @Rakshasa1986
    @Rakshasa1986 4 роки тому +394

    "I've been listening to punk rock since 1984"
    You have my respect, sir.

    • @annn9917
      @annn9917 4 роки тому +11

      OG cali punk rocker
      👍👍👍👍

    • @pheena_michelle
      @pheena_michelle 4 роки тому +4

      Ohh hell yes, that’s when I hopped on the scene. 36 in this piece!!

    • @sunkissed38queen89
      @sunkissed38queen89 4 роки тому +14

      Black punk music is very popular these days. Not so much back then.

    • @XWoodbineX
      @XWoodbineX 4 роки тому +3

      Rakshasa i know. I was like. What a lad!

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +18

      Till the day i die.
      My favorite band is
      Leatherface and my
      favorite song is" Box Jellyfish"

  • @imvuraimvura8017
    @imvuraimvura8017 4 роки тому +279

    “Victim of circumstance? No I was an active participant” self awareness and responsibility on a different level. This brother is beyond smart
    God bless this man

  • @pudddingpie
    @pudddingpie 4 роки тому +403

    As a parent it’s so important to tell your child everyday that they can achieve anything they work hard for and desire, praise them, speak to them with respect and to show them unconditional love everyday!

    • @amydee7064
      @amydee7064 4 роки тому +19

      Our pastor was talking about daughters and he says we tell them all the time how beautiful they are but we need to tell them 10xs more how smart they are, what an impact they make in others lives, etc. Not just the physical. Therefore when looking for a man, she will want one that sees her for her inner self even more so than the outward.

    • @pudddingpie
      @pudddingpie 4 роки тому +15

      Amy Dee how crazy I just told my 5yr old daughter aww your so pretty then I instantly followed it with and intelligent as my subconscious kicked in and said you don’t want her growing up just thinking thats all she is pretty! My son is constantly being told he’s intelligent I don’t want her growing up thinking that he was always told that and she was always told she’s pretty it has a long lasting affect, everything we say to our children is so important!

    • @ecvdub07
      @ecvdub07 4 роки тому +7

      Even not as a parent, I go to friends houses and spend more time with their kids, just conversating, showing interest, listening to them and creating bonds with them that make their parents jealous and step up their parenting because of it. Feels so good because I know that what happens during our childhoods heavily impact us, kids are very special and need to know it. We all are but lose it as life breaks us all. I believe love is the strongest thing and its almost systematically being taken away from us. We all need to show each other more love but especially children.

    • @pudddingpie
      @pudddingpie 4 роки тому +4

      Ethan Cropp I completely agree x

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +3

      I have nothing but love for you.
      Thank you

  • @reaper7actual135
    @reaper7actual135 4 роки тому +413

    I swear I cried when he was describing how he felt when he went to his friends house. I felt the same way when I visited my friend’s house. I didn’t hear gunshots, helicopters, or sirens during the entire sleep over. Just watching my friend interact with his father made me feel like a piece of trash. I never spoke to my father, it really created a self driven individual who doesn’t make excuses. If I fail at something, I figure it out knowing I don’t have safety nets or resources. I’m grateful that I grew up in a single parent home. Always look at the positives if you’re reading this and you’re coming from a single parent home, YOU MATTER!!! Don’t let the shortcomings define you! Life will move on and you just have to keep your head up. It’s ok to cry, but you have to have a long view.

    • @ThePlutoandMarsEffectofTarot
      @ThePlutoandMarsEffectofTarot 4 роки тому +10

      Exactly. And YOU matter too, my Friend. Much love to you. ❤🌞

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +9

      Thank you for your honesty

    • @jesagreene
      @jesagreene 4 роки тому +3

      Thank you for sharing your story. I am glad you were able to overcome your circumstances. Much love

    • @csjr9
      @csjr9 4 роки тому +7

      Similar stories Reaper. Glad you were able to find a way to utilize the anger and pain as fuel. Man, the part about living life without a safety net or resources truly resonated with me. I too have utilized the experience to break generational cycles of ignorance and continually strive to become the best version of myself. It's ok to cry, but cry to keep going fam! Blessings to you Reaper... #100

    • @anitaknight3915
      @anitaknight3915 4 роки тому +7

      I agree!! I'm aware that it creates a void in your soul and self worth growing up without the love & guidance of a father. I agree it made me very driven, motivated, self sufficient being raised in a single parent household without a dad and limited resources.

  • @Ms.Francis
    @Ms.Francis 4 роки тому +350

    I don´t think we all understand the impact of having ´dad´. Sometimes you will have the absolute best mother in the world and she will play both roles but sometimes that void left by dad never leaves.

    • @seedofabraham0149
      @seedofabraham0149 4 роки тому +33

      A mother could never play the role of a father. That's the problem with that mentality.

    • @amydee7064
      @amydee7064 4 роки тому +23

      This is fact and being one of those moms it hurts like hell hearing this but I know this is Fact. There is an unfilled void because the lord meant for a man to fill that roll.

    • @EmpatheticEmpress
      @EmpatheticEmpress 4 роки тому +24

      pantsongrnd what about the children from generations ago before the nails, tattoos and fake hair? This isn’t some new phenomenon. This has been going on for some time now .... also those physical things does not define someone to make their character. “Trash” is more than tattoos fake hair and fake nails lol

    • @autobotdiva9268
      @autobotdiva9268 4 роки тому

      i do think it is important but i couldnt care less growing up and as a adult

    • @dipikagami9521
      @dipikagami9521 4 роки тому +10

      Fatherless children have a hole in there soul

  • @rachel0202
    @rachel0202 4 роки тому +237

    My husband never EVER knew his father. He even has done his ancestry to figure it out & still no hope in finding him. Being low income, being raised by his narcissistic toxic drug addicted single mother, being ran over by a drunk driver when when he was 5 & almost dying!!!, domestic violence, witnessing his sister being raped by a family member, being molested by his babysitter, having guns in face, drug addict stepfathers & being homeless, and ever after all that...
    My husband is an AMAZING FATHER, not a drug addict, not an alcoholic, a gentle giant, an amazing partner, if you met him you would’ve never thought he went through all that shit he went through. I asked him one day if he wished he was raised with a father & he can never give me an answer, all I know is our sons will never be neglected by my husband because his sons are his life & says he never ever wants his sons to ever feel like he abandoned them or never were loved by him. I’m so proud of the man he’s become. Sometimes being raised with a terrible parent is like being raised without a parent.

    • @lebohangrufino6837
      @lebohangrufino6837 4 роки тому +5

      Rachel :0 Wow sister may God bless u for ur appreciation for him

    • @jasminelopez8358
      @jasminelopez8358 4 роки тому +8

      My fiancé was raised by a single mother. His dad was drug addict, in n out of my fiancé’s life. My mother in law raised 4 kids by herself. My mother in law always
      “I didn’t need a man to raise my kids.” I love her ! The dad was verbally & physically abusive. My fiancé helped take care of his siblings..I never understood his struggles because I grew up in a 2 parent house hold but I finally sat down with him & it clicked. I asked my fiancé if he wished he had a dad around...he said “My mom taught me how to be man,she taught me everything. ,my mom and You taught me how to love.I don’t need my so called dad babe” My fiancé was scared to get married,date because he didn’t want end up divorced like his parents. He was scared to be a dad because he didn’t want to make the mistakes his “dad” did.
      I waited til he was ready to move forward on anything.
      Now we have been together for almost 6 years, planning everything. patience & understanding goes a long way💕 I’m also very happy for husband ☺️

    • @Virtuouswoman78
      @Virtuouswoman78 4 роки тому +3

      Praise GOD

    • @shaundolynortiz2655
      @shaundolynortiz2655 4 роки тому +3

      Rachel :Amen

    • @morenabonita8834
      @morenabonita8834 4 роки тому +3

      ❤️

  • @khadijahmuwakkil8502
    @khadijahmuwakkil8502 4 роки тому +562

    Beautiful black man, God stay with him.

    • @michelejordan4115
      @michelejordan4115 4 роки тому +1

      Yes.

    • @PrettyEnigma7
      @PrettyEnigma7 4 роки тому +1

      🙏🏽

    • @tiffanydavis3903
      @tiffanydavis3903 4 роки тому

      Khadijah Muwakkil yes he is ❤️🙏🏾

    • @bumitaiwo8233
      @bumitaiwo8233 4 роки тому +4

      I dont know about you but he has a beautiful smile with good genies. Hope my husband looks like this at the age of 53 or is it 55

    • @LadiesLoveCoolTay
      @LadiesLoveCoolTay 4 роки тому

      @chaniqua smith 😭😂😂😂

  • @aubreyreeves8845
    @aubreyreeves8845 4 роки тому +346

    Poverty crushes some children and makes other children strong as steel...

    • @yotoulminville8705
      @yotoulminville8705 4 роки тому +6

      Its make u are break u

    • @ismailasha5494
      @ismailasha5494 4 роки тому +2

      Soooooooo true 😭

    • @conniecage3424
      @conniecage3424 4 роки тому +4

      Yu gotta be built for this shit I’ll murk any body😭

    • @livefastdiequick
      @livefastdiequick 4 роки тому +12

      Connie Cage you won’t do shit Bitch

    • @boutabag2831
      @boutabag2831 4 роки тому +2

      Live Fast Die Quick i think he meant it’ll but lmaooo💀💀

  • @onekabennschwartz3009
    @onekabennschwartz3009 4 роки тому +675

    What a gorgous man, he just needed to talk. What a sweet spirit.

    • @Virtuouswoman78
      @Virtuouswoman78 4 роки тому +17

      Amen I was thinking the same thing

    • @JG-mt3rp
      @JG-mt3rp 4 роки тому +18

      IKR, he looks like a movie star but he's carrying a tremendous burden on his heart.

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +18

      Thank you sweetheart I feel much love from you.

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +6

      @@Virtuouswoman78 Thank you sugah. Back at cha

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +4

      Bless you sugah.
      Thank you

  • @yemayaoceano2398
    @yemayaoceano2398 4 роки тому +503

    Eric. That is my son's name. I cried as I watched you. Thank you, Thank you, Thank, you, Thank you for the gift of YOU. Thank you, for sharing and being so transparent. You are an inspiration, sir. A million Thank you's will NEVER be enough. You are a gift to us all.

    • @edumadzequansah
      @edumadzequansah 4 роки тому +6

      @Alysha Smith so true, many will turn their lives around through him. God richly bless him.

    • @Sabrina-cu1ry
      @Sabrina-cu1ry 4 роки тому +5

      Bless him.

    • @brittaolson6550
      @brittaolson6550 4 роки тому +5

      Eric is the name of my first cousin I was very close to, who died of a heroin overdose.

    • @elpanchosancho2314
      @elpanchosancho2314 4 роки тому +2

      Give him some dollars if you really care

    • @marciamartinez3395
      @marciamartinez3395 4 роки тому +4

      Damn this broke my heart

  • @drkrutz
    @drkrutz 4 роки тому +314

    He could be on broadway doing a one-man show - just talking about his life. He is so powerful in his expression.

    • @11940ful
      @11940ful 4 роки тому +7

      It's because he is high, that's why

    • @muokindaka2496
      @muokindaka2496 4 роки тому +3

      Daphnee D. Damn. You’re evil.

    • @HandbagDiva
      @HandbagDiva 4 роки тому +3

      drkrutz he’s very narcissistic

    • @lobo3928
      @lobo3928 4 роки тому +3

      I agree with you 100%. He’s a powerful speaker.

    • @Alex10daysago
      @Alex10daysago 4 роки тому +9

      Some of you guys watched the whole story and still react negatively. Must be nice to be the people who deal with you on a daily basis.

  • @Patsy_Parisi
    @Patsy_Parisi 4 роки тому +148

    The three interviews with Eric are probably the three most worthwhile things available online. Fascinating and intelligent man.

    • @name8794
      @name8794 3 роки тому +2

      Then you definitely have to watch the fourth one from a month ago mike😊. Shared that one to a few ppl

    • @learntobake2023
      @learntobake2023 2 роки тому +1

      He really explains what it was like coming up in the time of the start of integration in American schools, and the crack cocaine epidemic (which was dropped off in the poor black neighborhoods by the Feds) and the punk scene and club life. Wanting to find a way out, whether it was through sports or drugs or family members who were better off.

    • @vicshrily
      @vicshrily 2 роки тому

      I count 10 interviews here..assuming 1:18:30 interview from 2 yrs ago as the first?..yes, Eric is a “Godsend”..not necessarily religiously but ykwim..

    • @r5ndom551
      @r5ndom551 2 роки тому

      He has like 5 or so now.

  • @thequeenofhope4006
    @thequeenofhope4006 4 роки тому +154

    I could listen to this man talk for hours......he’s special in all the best ways. He just needs to be needed

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +12

      You put a smile on my heart

    • @jholden0
      @jholden0 4 роки тому

      @@ericportis1845 is this you in the video?

    • @jholden0
      @jholden0 4 роки тому +7

      It is you! If you read this for what it's worth, you should look back and realize that you should be proud, not ashamed of yourself. I have never been more inspired in such a short period of time. You are somebody. You have a lot to be proud of.

    • @aaronkelly8544
      @aaronkelly8544 3 роки тому +3

      I wish I knew this man personally. I could listen to his stories for hours.

    • @tamaraslay
      @tamaraslay 3 роки тому

      @@ericportis1845 i love you, eric! god bless you forever and ever amen

  • @MichelleSid
    @MichelleSid 4 роки тому +113

    I feel so sad for him when he talks about his friend never talking to him again after seeing how poor he was. Especially saying that it's still with him.

  • @katmilan2137
    @katmilan2137 4 роки тому +40

    Wow this man is Amazing. He is a product of his environment. As an African American male growing up without a father is detrimental. Once he accepted himself and realized he was the reason his life was going down despite his childhood trauma he took accountability and put action behind his words. You are so inspiring. I hope one day you make it to platform where millions of people can learn from your experience. Thank you for this. I want you to win we all do. Eric I wish you well sir.

  • @weirdone8784
    @weirdone8784 4 роки тому +59

    I just learned recently that alcohol addiction is often rooted in social anxiety/not feeling as though you belong! Praying for you ❤

    • @tankebrott7563
      @tankebrott7563 Місяць тому

      Yes, that's exactly how I felt. No belonging. social anxiety - found it hard to talk to people, hard to get friends etc. Alcohol "helped" me with that. For a while, until I started drinking more and several times a week. In my early 20s I found opioids, that "helped" even better than alcohol. Stopped drinking and only used opioids (and other drugs every now and them) for like 12 years+.

  • @Paperkutzncards
    @Paperkutzncards 4 роки тому +53

    All he needed was some love and guidance from the right people as a child.

    • @damutae612
      @damutae612 4 роки тому +4

      Yup... Because he was very intuitive and sensitive to the touch(spiritual physical ect.).... I can tell.. Unfortunately the devil loves to attack yoy when your young ao by the time your an adult your at war with yourself and u feel your "just doin you"....no...thats what the enemy wants us to think....

  • @missbritt288
    @missbritt288 4 роки тому +126

    Hes reliving it as hes telling it .... you can see it in his eyes , like a PTSD flashback

    • @okaminess
      @okaminess 3 роки тому +1

      Right?

    • @r5ndom551
      @r5ndom551 2 роки тому

      Prolly never talked about it, since.

  • @lobo3928
    @lobo3928 4 роки тому +42

    What a beautiful man with an even more beautiful heart. I just want to hug him and not let go. So much pain, and he only wanted so very little. The worst part is that our system is STILL failing the sweet little boys like him. Thank you for opening up and sharing this with all of us, I’m sure it wasn’t easy but you’re having a positive impact on everyone who sees this. You need to be a public speaker.

    • @r5ndom551
      @r5ndom551 2 роки тому

      Hug all the pain away.

  • @reaper7actual135
    @reaper7actual135 4 роки тому +59

    It really takes a strong mother to raise a child on her own. I credit everything to my mother, she was tough as hell and kind at the same time. The worst part about my childhood was that my father spent time with my older brother and even had my brother live with him. I never spent any time with him. That feeling of being the child that your father doesn’t want is just deflating. I got my strength from my mother and basically imitated everything she did. She worked two jobs and took classes on the side and still had the energy to do homework with me and talk to me. I’m 30 years old now. I escaped poverty and the Southern California neighborhood that I grew up in. Joined the Army at 17 and never looked back. If I didn’t have my mother, I would be dead or doing life in prison. To this day, I only speak to my mother from my family. No one else cared about me growing up, why should I waste my time with them now? I have been married for eight years and we are parents to my awesome son. I take pride that I will be able to teach him and prepare him for the real world.

    • @thematriarchy2075
      @thematriarchy2075 4 роки тому +1

      Beautiful.

    • @lunagalvan2985
      @lunagalvan2985 3 роки тому

      God Bless You your words 😭😭hit me hard I know mama is very proud of you power to her 💪🤗

    • @wanZ...
      @wanZ... 3 роки тому

      Much love to you😘😘😘 I'm happy you persevered. So happy you made it 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

    • @rehamibrahim3437
      @rehamibrahim3437 2 роки тому

      And that's the most valuable and big prize you could giver her .afterall what she wanted is to see u doing good and safe .good for u. she did great 👍

    • @marquitashiver6141
      @marquitashiver6141 2 роки тому

      Sorry about how ur dad treated you. U have accomplished a lot and I'm sure ur mom is proud. I tell my children blood or not, if someone is toxic or makes u feel unwanted cut them all. It's hard and it hurts but ur mental health is everything.

  • @marlinalford3122
    @marlinalford3122 4 роки тому +61

    I remember you Eric. I remember You from Supermax In LA County I think the year was 97. We were in the same dorm. U look the same. I watch this so yeah I watched it a few times because it reminds me so much of my own story.

    • @CMoore8539
      @CMoore8539 3 роки тому +3

      You did county time with him? Wow! It’s a small world.💘

    • @angeldorsey296
      @angeldorsey296 3 роки тому

      WOW!..HEAVY.....

  • @JG-mt3rp
    @JG-mt3rp 4 роки тому +24

    It broke my heart when he seemed to be saying he felt ashamed of being poor and black. That breaks my heart. Bless this man, he is a quality person with a very regal bearing, born into terrible circumstances.

  • @Judah9mm
    @Judah9mm 4 роки тому +252

    "Growing up I was poor, black & in real trouble"

    • @snowyskylar8821
      @snowyskylar8821 4 роки тому +10

      Don't bring race into it. I'm white, and brought up poor. But lucky enough to have had a very orthodox Catholic father and home. Makes a huge difference.

    • @ajack1312
      @ajack1312 4 роки тому +86

      Snowy Skylar Don’t act like race doesn’t affect things, it absolutely does. Just because it offends your delicate sensibilities doesn’t change reality.

    • @IAintY0M0mma
      @IAintY0M0mma 4 роки тому +33

      @@snowyskylar8821 Race isn't brought into it, that's what it is !!! He was Black poor.and not lucky enough to have a father as you were. Being white , poor and a father in your life is NOOOOOOO COMPARISON to the early life struggles, desires,.depression amd too often abuse mentally and physically for being born. So many negatives to fight through before being able to claim Black Strong amd Proud because your not born that way. You have to be loved enough and guided enough by the RIGHT family members. Sadly that's not your single parent all the time. All childhoods are not "childhoods".

    • @Judah9mm
      @Judah9mm 4 роки тому +20

      @@snowyskylar8821 No one asked

    • @Judah9mm
      @Judah9mm 4 роки тому +34

      @@IAintY0M0mma Apparently they didn't watch the video, just wanna talk shit. Some people just get triggered when they hear the word "black"

  • @claudiagrover-cofield2776
    @claudiagrover-cofield2776 4 роки тому +25

    This shows how each person is different. My father had a very traumatic childhood also. However, he overcame it and is a very successful black man.

  • @tier1solutions28
    @tier1solutions28 4 роки тому +381

    Not having a stable father at home is one of the most destructive things a child can experience. That is not an opinion nor a feeling, but a statistical fact.
    I don't know why people smear you as a racist when you point this out since it is universal across all Races of people. All communities need to step up and men should stay, and women should give them every reason to aside from the child.

    • @thetruth2509
      @thetruth2509 4 роки тому +11

      This applies to both white and blackchildren. Not only that, but those raised in less than par neighborhoods withou fathers are in an even worse situation. I do think that a father can still be in the child's life even if they do not stay together with the mother.

    • @dayshawnbrown9303
      @dayshawnbrown9303 4 роки тому +14

      Facts I found my biological father at 28 we’re supposed to meet next week for the first time I just wonder how my life would’ve turned out if I knew him growing up

    • @yotoulminville8705
      @yotoulminville8705 4 роки тому +8

      @@dayshawnbrown9303 wish you the best ...

    • @wolcowboi9341
      @wolcowboi9341 4 роки тому +2

      @@dayshawnbrown9303 dont let it get u down. Be happy u can have a relationship w him 💯

    • @ML-rb5vz
      @ML-rb5vz 4 роки тому +4

      Who smeared them as racist?

  • @jessicavalencia5842
    @jessicavalencia5842 4 роки тому +11

    GENUINE! His life is expressed so nicely that I forgot Mark was there! 53 years is still a good start...wish you well Eric- THANK YOU for sharing your story!! You make me want to hug you & tell you that everything will now be ok! God Bless you sir!!

  • @hoodswan166
    @hoodswan166 3 роки тому +18

    Mark you’re such a good listener! I love how you allow people to express themselves! This story was riveting

  • @kageexpress1627
    @kageexpress1627 3 роки тому +25

    I tell my daughter everyday that I love her, give her a long hug and kiss on the forehead. Even if that's all I did she hopefully she will carry that memory with her for the rest of her life.

  • @zachthegunguy
    @zachthegunguy 4 роки тому +98

    That’s horrible man. I love you man. Your a great man you have a good heart.

    • @rosemariefrusteri4087
      @rosemariefrusteri4087 4 роки тому +4

      He's a Warrior!!!Hair of the dog !!!! Humble, I love listening to him own it!!
      TRUTH
      Alot of internal work, held up the mirror!! Strong!!
      Its wild how much healing hurts
      God Bless Eric

  • @alik843
    @alik843 4 роки тому +19

    Wow it is sad that children have to feel so ashamed about things that are beyond their control. This interview was therapeutic for him to do. Much love to him

  • @tapatvde
    @tapatvde 4 роки тому +9

    Wow! I'm 58 now and i'm sober from drugs for more than 28 years. What an amazing ride it was for me to listen to the story of his life and how he finally made a change. He really should write a book! I would buy it! If you ever get to see him again, tell him i send a hello from Germany and that i hope he stays strong!

  • @09artgirl
    @09artgirl 4 роки тому +77

    I "get" this guy and his fast-spoken desperate story. He's thought abought it in his own mind a million times before this inteview ever happened. I wish for him enough TIME in a PEACEFUL STATE to find direction for his talents. He is one of the special ones....

    • @Rxlabeleddrugs
      @Rxlabeleddrugs 4 роки тому +1

      What Yu tryna say

    • @traceylau2850
      @traceylau2850 4 роки тому +3

      I believe she's saying an enlightened soul. I see it as well.

    • @rosemariefrusteri4087
      @rosemariefrusteri4087 4 роки тому +3

      NO DOUBT;)

    • @154angel154
      @154angel154 4 роки тому

      @@traceylau2850 I Hope!

    • @CMoore8539
      @CMoore8539 3 роки тому +3

      The sad thing is he doesn’t even realize that he is extremely talented.

  • @labdanum-i4v
    @labdanum-i4v 4 роки тому +47

    Wow Mark, this was my favorite interview! I love this man, Eric! He is amazing! Thanks!
    from Budapest/HUngary

  • @mimimckenna6878
    @mimimckenna6878 4 роки тому +3

    Eric's childhood resonates strongly with me. I was so ashamed of being poor. The same thing happened to me, I bought a kid from school home one day, this friend cried openly for me (cried because she was sad) when she saw my house. Thank you for sharing such raw honesty. It takes immense courage and bravery to address life's circumstance but not let it define us! keep growing spiritually Eric-everything else will fall into place

  • @holdoncaulfield5297
    @holdoncaulfield5297 4 роки тому +11

    Man I've watched many of these videos. This one made me want to cry. Thankfully I had my father for the first 20 years old until the day I found him dead of a fentanyl overdose. I find myself being more than grateful for having had a strong man by my side. To this day I ask him for knowledge from beyond the grave. I hope that Eric continues to find his path in life and do great things for himself.

  • @joygernautm6641
    @joygernautm6641 3 роки тому +7

    My son grew up without a father. He graduated, works hard, is not an addict. Also had a job at 16 that he did great at. Not every man that grows up without a father struggles like this. I feel he’s a victim of poverty more than a victim of “no father”. I’m fortunate that despite being a single parent I had a well paying job. That really is the game changer.

  • @kathyh4804
    @kathyh4804 4 роки тому +32

    Mark you were hilarious at the end when you said “there’s better ways to make money than that”! Thank you for your openness and honesty

  • @heavensent2651
    @heavensent2651 3 роки тому +6

    Guess what Eric, those kids from that store, are STILL watching you.
    We admire you!
    And poor little Chris, ......he hadn’t ANY idea what a jewel of a friend he had. I’ve messed up childhood relationships myself, & thinking about it as I grew.
    Thank you Eric for you. You inspire constructive, positive change in those who listen to you.
    You are pretty awesome man!SHHHHIIIIID!👍🏽✨👍🏽✨💕💕

  • @najahbutler7840
    @najahbutler7840 4 місяці тому +1

    I love the passion when he speaks. U can tell he’s full of humility for life ❤

  • @laceyelizabeth816
    @laceyelizabeth816 4 роки тому +182

    He's gorgeous to be honest

    • @rlee1231
      @rlee1231 4 роки тому +16

      Yes he is! I was looking at those arms before he said he went to the gym. I knew it! Lol. He does look nice at the age of 53, and even though he had a hard life.

    • @zuzannasymonowicz1752
      @zuzannasymonowicz1752 4 роки тому +16

      He could be a model.

    • @Slacker_Elizabeth7702
      @Slacker_Elizabeth7702 4 роки тому +3

      Right ?!! I’m like: “u sure u an addict???” This dude is beautiful.

    • @NaturallyGifted77
      @NaturallyGifted77 4 роки тому +1

      He sure is!

    • @NaturallyGifted77
      @NaturallyGifted77 4 роки тому +2

      @@Slacker_Elizabeth7702 I said the same thing! I am not going to say what I am thinking. Lord forgive me!

  • @MoMoneyMoses
    @MoMoneyMoses 4 роки тому +70

    Mark give us your story, where you grew up, how you’re life was, and etc

    • @Mollie45
      @Mollie45 4 роки тому +4

      JUICY BUTTERCUPZ ...there ya go! Yea mark we wanna hear from you?

    • @sunkissed38queen89
      @sunkissed38queen89 4 роки тому +3

      Yea MARK!

    • @daltondenun858
      @daltondenun858 4 роки тому

      no, art school kids life stories ain't usually that interesting.

    • @graemelea8518
      @graemelea8518 4 роки тому +3

      Yeah mark tell us your story

  • @sophiakrisel1197
    @sophiakrisel1197 4 роки тому +28

    This guy loves to talk and is very entertaining....what a shame he hated himself from a young boy..growing up without a father is a tragedy.....you Did good eric..keep your head up and keep working out....that is definitely your gift at 53👍👍

  • @choppingitupw_sammie6008
    @choppingitupw_sammie6008 4 роки тому +7

    Listening to him speak with so much passion is inspirational. He has so much purpose I pray he’s blessed!!!

  • @alannaferguson8443
    @alannaferguson8443 4 роки тому +27

    All the best to you Eric. You’re doing a great job...keep learning and growing....never compare yourself to others.

  • @gailstaples5462
    @gailstaples5462 4 роки тому +12

    Notice how focused he is on his only good memories.... even though he is shadowed by his up bringing, he put his energy into his happy places

  • @stephenn8366
    @stephenn8366 4 роки тому +52

    Hes drowning in anger, heartache and regret.
    Its NOT good to stop meetings.
    His grandiosity is a red flag.
    Best of luck.

    • @cathygray9092
      @cathygray9092 4 роки тому +5

      I also heard that loud and clear, RED flag, he doesn't need the meetings now. Sad.

    • @DRLEWIS
      @DRLEWIS 4 роки тому

      I don't do meetings right now due to coronavirus? I'm more Christian. I will take church over a meeting but my practical coping skills come from AA. I am looking forward to the halls being reopened.

  • @Mollys-lips
    @Mollys-lips 4 роки тому +17

    "Soft spoken with a broken jaw
    Step outside but not to brawl and
    Autumn's sweet we call it fall
    I'll make it to the moon if I have to crawl and with the birds I'll share this lonely viewin',with the birds I'll share this lonely view"-Scar tissue

  • @michelejordan4115
    @michelejordan4115 4 роки тому +14

    My brother has spoke at some NA meetings. You can tell. And his story is inspirational and relatable.

  • @HeyTwinTv
    @HeyTwinTv 4 роки тому +62

    Amazing story! Enjoyed listening! Good luck Eric!

  • @keishaqueenb1
    @keishaqueenb1 4 роки тому +4

    I leaned in listening to Eric’s story. Thanks for owning and accepting all of you and sharing your story with us. Incredibly heartbreaking and redemptive at the same time. God bless you my brother. 🙏🏽.

  • @ashleyf1114
    @ashleyf1114 4 роки тому +13

    This man has soo much self hate it saddens me. he didn’t have a father or father figure in his life to tell him he was and will be somebody. But may god bless you and be with you keep fighting

  • @tejaynem2292
    @tejaynem2292 4 роки тому +26

    i didn't have a good relationship with my mom sadly but im blessed to have a father in my life because its alot of people grew up without a father. i don't know where would i be at if my dad wasn't in my life.

  • @GrabinGears
    @GrabinGears 4 роки тому +95

    Wow this is a smart guy.....I enjoyed this one a lot he's very articulate.

  • @charlotteseijerlin5973
    @charlotteseijerlin5973 4 роки тому +14

    Wow, what an amazing speaker. So much respect for what he has accomplished. Truly inspiring story, he definitely should write his book! Keep it up!

  • @ManuelHernandez-ek4nw
    @ManuelHernandez-ek4nw 4 роки тому +8

    I relate to his story very well but in my case my father was incarcerated throughout my childhood, I'm 25 now. Though that piece of seeking a father figure when I needed him the most still hurts as I was always looking for guidance. My dad is now released and well I forgive him. God forgives and I hope this man continues to inspire the fatherless youth..

  • @diannaodman2847
    @diannaodman2847 4 роки тому +105

    he is a sensitive soul

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +8

      God bless you

    • @diannaodman2847
      @diannaodman2847 4 роки тому +2

      @@ericportis1845 right back at you Eric , i have had an very interesting life and have done well for myself, love hearing from all people, you have a good attitude , stay close to God talk to him every day

  • @cj635
    @cj635 4 місяці тому +2

    I am a white male who grew up poor with a younger brother and sister living in a constant domestic violence situation; we lived in a two-bedroom/one-bathroom mobile home. My parents were divorced when I turned twelve; my mother moved away with my brother and sister, and I was left with my severely abusive alcoholic father for three years until my grandparents took custody.
    I never let this define me; I never turned to drugs or alcohol. I am now a successfully retired professional in a loving, long-term marriage, and I have three adult sons with successful careers.
    “Never let your past keep you from your future.”

    • @HuLee-z9j
      @HuLee-z9j 3 місяці тому

      Nice story with zero energy man ,

  • @SarcasticaleeXP
    @SarcasticaleeXP 4 роки тому +5

    Man a blessing to hear ya. He reminds me of a man that was 40 years on the street, he shared with me his whole story. Now he has his own rehabilitation center and has been in a couple of movies. The way they talk is so similar, you don't wanna interrupt them.

  • @ronbk1177
    @ronbk1177 4 роки тому +45

    I have about 18 cousins none of us had fathers we all turned out ok no prison no gangs about 12 college graduates and now about 8 of us are fathers our self’s

    • @islandgirl5382
      @islandgirl5382 4 роки тому +7

      Congrats Mr. Mayo
      You and your family members beat the ODDS!
      It is MY opinion that Our Lives are Destined!
      Over the years coming up, saw many associates; 1 or both parents a Physician, Dentist, Ph.D etc. They had more financially, some ended up on drugs, embarrassment to their families, drained their family bank acts.
      I have seen both sides. Some people go thru the perfect path, others detour for whatever reason, and then those that had nothing 'Rise to the Occasion'!!

    • @msdanet31
      @msdanet31 4 роки тому

      ❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🏾💪🏽

    • @shemeher3380
      @shemeher3380 4 роки тому

      Great

    • @cedarmcdaniels1538
      @cedarmcdaniels1538 4 роки тому +5

      You never know the variables.....one support....ie....a teacher, a friend can make a difference....this isn’t a competition....he is sharing his story...

    • @angeldorsey296
      @angeldorsey296 3 роки тому

      B.L.A.K!..FACTZ!...IT IS IN OUR HISTORY!...IM GLAD FOR U GUYS..THAT IT WORKED OUT THAT WAY.. BLESSINGS....

  • @ecvdub07
    @ecvdub07 4 роки тому +22

    Being human isnt easy, we are products of our environments, lets all do our part to make a better world because humanity can be very beautiful.

  • @thequeenofhope4006
    @thequeenofhope4006 4 роки тому +24

    He broke my heart seriously so much pain in his voice 💔

    • @TheAvaExperience
      @TheAvaExperience 4 роки тому +2

      That was a very beautiful interview! I am so happy for him to have had a space where he was able to just get things off his chest. I will pray for his lasting recovery, inner acceptance, joy in all things, & a good companion😊😉. He is a very intriguing man, I'm sending positive vibes his way. Thanks for sharing. I pray during his journey he falls in love with Jesus Christ, as well🙏🏾❤️

  • @HelloLve
    @HelloLve 4 роки тому +30

    I feel like I’m listening to my uncle 😂💗 he’s someone that I could listen to for a while. He’s so passionate about what he’s been through.

  • @jerritredford2783
    @jerritredford2783 4 роки тому +1

    Mark, I have watched almost all of the videos that you have produced for your soft white underbelly series and the three videos with Eric are absolutely the most poignant and compelling of them all. You are performing an indispensable service for ALL Americans (and,in fact,the world) that forces us all to really contemplate ourselves,our society,and what is truly important in the big picture and the totality of our legacy. Thank you very much!
    Eric, you are extremely gifted with an ability to convey sincerity and with an articulation that is unparalleled. You are an inspiration that we ALL need...now,more than ever!

  • @annn9917
    @annn9917 4 роки тому +49

    That's cool he admits he was scared.

  • @MsTygame
    @MsTygame Рік тому +3

    I didn’t have a dad but I wasn’t destined to be an addict or land in jail. There are millions of children who didn’t have a dad and haven’t gone down that road. Take responsibility for your actions as an adult or keep blaming others and stay where you are.

    • @elsugga3736
      @elsugga3736 Рік тому

      I agree with you, but it’s difficult to want a better life when you see it nowhere around you. People need examples of what they want for themselves

  • @Bessbeauty
    @Bessbeauty 4 роки тому +11

    I can’t believe I sat for an hour and listen to this man! His story is breathtaking! I wish him nothing but the best 🙏🏾

  • @garimosa86
    @garimosa86 4 роки тому +19

    I had to come back to see the difference in this video and the recent one he is still a beautiful man I hate my people had to endure so much pain I wish I can erase my childhood the worst part of my life I was doomed at birth

  • @mitzivaughn1482
    @mitzivaughn1482 4 роки тому +12

    Wow! Even though we’re extremely different, he articulates feelings as a youngster from a poor family and without a father that I know all too well. I understand his intensity and I know that rush to get out words ....I completely understand. I hope he’s ok.

  • @Cannarozzi1234
    @Cannarozzi1234 Рік тому +1

    Eric is captivating, honest and his light shines bright

  • @user-yt8rv9se6p
    @user-yt8rv9se6p 4 роки тому +102

    He's incredibly handsome & those hands (wow) would never think by looking at him, he was that tormented

    • @jazmynbrown6820
      @jazmynbrown6820 4 роки тому +9

      Yes, he's gorgeous.

    • @CMoore8539
      @CMoore8539 4 роки тому +12

      @Jazmyn Brown He has a lot going for him. I hope he makes it out of there. I grew up very poor too, but I never let it define me. If it ever sinks inside of a person, it can destroy them.

    • @ladyofthecentury
      @ladyofthecentury 4 роки тому +7

      However his mannerisms, body movements and the way he talks indicates he does have some serious issues.

    • @AnotherLosttSoul
      @AnotherLosttSoul 4 роки тому +1

      A beautiful man & even more beautiful inside

    • @AfricanGirl
      @AfricanGirl 4 роки тому

      @@ladyofthecentury hm. & how do you know??

  • @raysmith6930
    @raysmith6930 Рік тому +2

    Your such a smart intelligent guy... I like when you say how you knew right from wrong and that you take responsibility of your actions... The truth sets us free in life...I wish you all the Best 🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆👍👍

  • @ImaDayGo88666
    @ImaDayGo88666 4 роки тому +14

    I'd be in prison or dead without a father.
    And that's fact. This man is very intelligent and articulate, I'm sure like most of us, hes done his dirty deeds, but I can't help but see the light in him.
    That's my humble opinion.
    AND!!!...hes a punk rock kid!!!!

  • @kylemchynn9376
    @kylemchynn9376 4 роки тому +71

    Poetry in motion as told by this beautiful black man.

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +1

      Hey hey hey

    • @bjohnson9131
      @bjohnson9131 4 роки тому +1

      Sobering and heartbreaking reality for paths taken by black males with absent fathers. It's not to late for you Eric. Time to try a different path using everything you've learned. Take a chance and change your environment...move!!!!

    • @michellethewhoreatthelake936
      @michellethewhoreatthelake936 4 роки тому +2

      Hahaha! He's a crackhead rambling on and on and in and on

  • @ericajkain
    @ericajkain 4 роки тому +6

    My heart ❤️ and prayers go out to this brother. His level of honesty and how genuine he was with his emotions in honorable. I pray he finds the love God has for him within hisself and someone to love him unconditionally

    • @lise-annedore8935
      @lise-annedore8935 4 роки тому +1

      Yes, amen.

    • @lise-annedore8935
      @lise-annedore8935 4 роки тому

      @Stephen Murphy Oh man... that's tough stuff..
      So sad. Hopefully found the love we all need.

  • @darrenivak4536
    @darrenivak4536 6 місяців тому +2

    Sounds like somebody woke up❤❤❤ three hearts for you my brother, eyes open my friend,

  • @theoriesandscience468
    @theoriesandscience468 4 роки тому +48

    why do people have kids if they’re going to treat them like that ..? & do parents realize that bs sticks with the child for the rest of their lives ??

    • @imshe1049
      @imshe1049 4 роки тому +5

      Abortion or adoptions is the only option. Religion guilts them on Abortion and Who is adopting young black babies..... So they have them...

    • @AfricanGirl
      @AfricanGirl 4 роки тому +4

      Facts. where do I begin?

    • @CMoore8539
      @CMoore8539 3 роки тому +3

      I don’t think that some parents care about anyone but their self.

    • @wanZ...
      @wanZ... 3 роки тому

      Because there's an invisible cycle...some people realize it and correct it. Some people are delusional and can't see the forest for the tree's.

  • @violetbeauregard6364
    @violetbeauregard6364 4 роки тому +2

    Dear Eric. You have people who believe in you. You are a gift to this world. Please believe this!

  • @gretchenmiraglia5178
    @gretchenmiraglia5178 4 роки тому +10

    The most amazing video so far! What an amazing story! Thank you so much for sharing Eric and Mark! Thank you Thank you! You are right it’s never ever too late. I believe in you Eric. I know you will accomplish great things and I’m preordering your book as soon as you start writing it! Hugs!

  • @VeVeJT23
    @VeVeJT23 3 роки тому

    Man, this resonates so much. I grew up poor, but being from New Orleans, I never really knew what that meant. Everyone was poor except my mom’s family. When I was about 10, we moved to lower middle class Maryland. I invited friends over, but we didn’t have a sofa. We never had had one during my lifetime. Then they realized we had boarders in our townhome. That my father was a Black man while I am unintentionally passing. They were the first friends I’d really ever had and most of them were gone in the blink of one visit to our home. It was a real slap in the face about how people are.
    Wishing you the best, Eric. You’re inspiring. ❤️

  • @ladonna9603
    @ladonna9603 4 роки тому +24

    He has so much to say, even through his expression it's hard to get it out. Exhale baby, exhale

    • @sunkissed38queen89
      @sunkissed38queen89 4 роки тому +7

      You can tell this is the first time hes been able to even trust someone enough to speak to them honestly about his life experiences without being judged that hes going 100 miles an hour trying to get all that "Stuff" out. For some of these people these interviews are more like therapy. Its not always about someone telling you what to do or how to do it but it's about letting the other person talk, cry and say whatever they want to say just to get it off their chest. A release is happening in this interview. I bet he feels a ton better about himself after this interview.

    • @damutae612
      @damutae612 4 роки тому +1

      I peeped that too... Them deep breaths say it all

    • @ericportis1845
      @ericportis1845 4 роки тому +4

      Ive been waiting to exhale for the longest time. Finally got to do it
      Oh wee

  • @trennav5107
    @trennav5107 4 роки тому +1

    This dude is an inspiration! Please someone help him to public speak around the world to those that need his kind of inspiration. Honest stories like this can change the world! This is my favorite so far!

  • @lonnieac3
    @lonnieac3 4 роки тому +14

    He is on the right track..good story teller!! I can see him as a motivational & inspirational speaker!! Continued Blessing upon you❣🌞💞💞💞

  • @faithmontaperto4702
    @faithmontaperto4702 4 роки тому

    One of the most eloquent speakers I have ever heard!!! What a powerful story of recovery and strength! 💖 Much love to my brother in recovery!

  • @deemarriott216
    @deemarriott216 4 роки тому +13

    WHAT A BEAUTIFUL HONEST SOUL! GOD SAVE HIM! very articulate and what nice chiseled arms.

  • @SeanLain
    @SeanLain 4 роки тому +4

    Wow, Thank you, Eric. I can relate so much to not knowing who I am/hating "who I am". I'm currently struggling with my past, self-esteem, and depression, and I'm glad I was able to hear your story and relate to you how hearing other people's stories allows you to live their experiences, as well as remind you that you aren't alone. And thank you, SWB for presenting your videos in a way that makes it feel such a personal conversation to the viewer.

  • @erikadavis4696
    @erikadavis4696 4 роки тому +8

    He must have been a king in a past life because the way he speaks is so captivating and encapsulating. He draws you in. Wow! His aura exudes royalty. Thank you for sharing your story, great King. 👑✊🕉😍

  • @e.k.k1819
    @e.k.k1819 4 роки тому +2

    The presence of fathers for children has such a significant impact on their growth and development and emotional wellbeing. Boys need fathers to raise them to become kings and to become sages. I am also called Eric and the meaning is brave everlasting ruler. This man is a true inspiration, takes confidence to share such a difficult childhood.

  • @agatagoldy
    @agatagoldy 4 роки тому +6

    Eric, thank you for sharing. Love yourself and hug that inner Child 🙏

  • @kitwanatyhimba5247
    @kitwanatyhimba5247 4 роки тому +2

    Mark, this interview is incredible ✨❗️ Eric, thank you for your honesty, transparency and good character. Your story is most touching. I found many parallels in our stories. Praying for your joyful, successful and fulfilling journey 💖🙏🏾

  • @farrah139
    @farrah139 4 роки тому +24

    Great video, just because you're poor, doesn't mean you have to have the mentality like your poor, and can't rise above it. Many of my family members, went through poverty growing up in the U.S. too without a father, as visible minorities, but went on to be great athletes and put themselves through College & University.

    • @sunkissed38queen89
      @sunkissed38queen89 4 роки тому +5

      Everybody is not strong mentally to handle certain situations. Only the strong survive!

    • @farrah139
      @farrah139 4 роки тому +1

      @@sunkissed38queen89 This is true, I'm proud of what this man overcame, he is a resilient individual, others aren't so fortunate.

    • @booshank2327
      @booshank2327 Рік тому

      @@sunkissed38queen89 It's also not about merely having it hard. That is too vague and there is no comparison to be made. The devil is in the details. It's an intricate interaction between a given individual, their DNA, their specific environment, the traumas and the timing of when they happened. Whether they had any meaningful positive role models at all in the family or outside of it. There are too many factors to say "this person had it bad too and was fine.".

  • @BTurner6
    @BTurner6 2 місяці тому

    Eric is the best. Love when this dude shares. What a brave and honest soul. Bless his heart, may he find his way and enjoy all that this life has to offer, Amen.

  • @carolsander3470
    @carolsander3470 4 роки тому +10

    This was powerful! All the best! Lots of love from South-America!

  • @acmm3844
    @acmm3844 4 роки тому +2

    This has taken me 3 days to watch. By far the most interesting and most moving interview so far. So many revelations made.

  • @melmak4108
    @melmak4108 4 роки тому +10

    For this man to admit his weakness makes him so strong 💝

  • @sexywolf5574
    @sexywolf5574 4 роки тому +2

    The pain,the anger,the regret,thoses wishes he shoudve had..every word he said..i feel what he felt at those times of his Struggles..my parents seperated when i was in 3rd grade..but i have all my mother's family side support in all ways..i can't imagine my self bein in those pain he gone thru..keeo your head up sir..you have this soul that cant be Beaten by lifes hardship..god will heal those pain..and i wish you have a good and better life from now on..