I went to a small graphic arts school in the early 80's and became addicted to freebasing coke. My life spiraled and I became mixed up in bad things. Got clean for 10 years. Am now a functional alcoholic and my life is horribly stunted from things in my past and choices I've made. Please do not waste your opportunity like my younger self did.
Stay the hell away from them. It might seem glamorous at first, or you might justify it by saying it makes you more creative. It doesn’t. I’ve been there, and I chose the wrong path. It has taken me 15 years just to get back to a place where I can say I’m a productive member of society. Just set your goals and every day ask yourself “is what I’m doing helping me achieve my goal(s).
Hi Mark, been trying to get your attention for a while now:) I'm Richard from Ghana, West Africa. I've been a fan of your channel for years. Not only did you inspire me to start a non-profit in Ghana, you also inspired me to make videos with Africans that address unspoken issues in Africa like you do. In a nation where marginalised persons and issues are antagonised and ignored, it's truly inspiring to me and the VOIICE Community to do what you do. I hope you see the stories we are sharing too.
This guy is so likable and smart and talented. I really hope he doesn’t give up on himself. Life is really hard sometimes, but I hope he finds a way to sustain happy.
"Life has fucking comedy built into it" Its beautiful when a person can look at all of their life, the good, bad.. straight up weirdness of it all and say these words with an embracing attitude. Justin, thank you so incredibly for sharing your story. You really touched at least one person, here. Ive written quite a few of the things you said down, as they feel like an aid for moving forward in my own struggle with life, or rather with myself ... in it. Thank you for being you.
Sheesh people got mad at me for taking 10 minutes to get to my addiction story...I’m 24 minutes in and this guys explaining how he stayed at the dorms the whole summer for the second time 😂 I’m hooked though can’t wait to hear how this pans out
You had you 15 seconds, F'n B! Quit trying to hang on nobody gave a shit about what you have to say because your lying anyway! Your a dork and no matter what you do or say that will never change! Da!
He's still struggling. He's uses the language of recovery but he's not yet there. Like another commenter stated, there is nothing former crack addict about this guy ...
Wow. And you know this using the immense knowledge and experience you have gained through the years and with the confirmation bias off of some other idiots comment. I swear, the comment section is sometimes more interesting than the content.
AMEN!! My father has been an addict all my life. He is a 71-year-old crackhead (drug choice) and alcoholic. I allowed him to move in with my family in another city in a country setting w/o a close bus line. Good for him, right? Do you know that within 2 months, he was walking to the store 5 miles away to get a beer? Next, he went to my bedroom in my closet and started drinking the liquor. I hid away (he saw me have a drink, figured I had some, and searched my house while we were out). He became belligerent and insulting, and his biggest complaint was not being able to travel when wanted and where wanted (to seek drugs). Therefore, he said he wanted to go back to our hometown. It took 6 months, and when I say he was anxious to get to that crack, it was crazy. He sat in the garage with all his crap in trash bags (2 hours early), waiting for the arranged ride we got for him to come. Check this! He stole all our meat in the garage's deep freezer on his way out. ONCE A CRACKHEAD, ALWAYS A CRACKHEAD.
That’s it... we all have a choice about the narrative we choose to tell about ourselves or anything for that matter... I was addicted to drugs for 20 years and it wasn’t until after I got clean I realised there was a narrative I chose to continue telling people about myself that needed to be left behind.... create your now and future!
Omg!!😂 so funny!! I just shouted my partner he better ring his mum...no no no!!! Then...h any on...we already did this didn't we??!! Googled to make sure I'm not mad...yup...it's March 27th in the UK!!😂 happy day to you though!!!!😂
In the next days when you get completely sober. Don’t go to the club. Don’t go out. Just stay home and chill. Go find new hobbies to do. Go get busy after work at home.
All I do is sit at home, drives me mad...I get your good intention tho...I lack motivation to do anything apart from staying sober which is boring but I know its for the best
It's SO awesome to hear him admit that a big part of his success is/was his FAMILY. Its a foundation even if it isn't positively functional. It really does make a difference & there arent many ppl who truly realize that unless they "didn't/don't" have any (family).
I had a late ADHD diagnosis and I just felt so strongly about this interview. I didn’t get that deep with drug abuse but so many of the behaviors felt so familiar to me. The social awkwardness, the boredom, the need for intensity at all times, the wildly emotional relationships and the self medication to feel better somehow even if you don’t know why you are really repeating this cycle. It’s a very strong underlying feeling because we mask “so well” on the outside but within the feelings of inadequacy are still there. My hyperactive/hyper focused behaviors were just so intense that I kept putting my own safety and freedom at risk, the other huge factor is having an new hobby/obsession of the moment (even if just for the night) that gets you out of track over and oVer again. ADHD is not the curse but not understanding what is going on within and constantly masking is exhausting. I am not a doctor and I can’t affirm that you have ADHD but it’s just so important to create awareness because there is so many adults out there that don’t know that is a thing. Sending you good vibes to keep the sobriety strong!
He is unmistakably so. The way he speaks and all the different hats he's worn in life, substance abuse, creativity. I just got diagnosed at 28 with inattentive ADHD. Learning about it through the medical professionals I spoke to and watched on UA-cam has not only made me understand and love myself better but other people affected by it as well. I totally agree with you, it's not a curse, it does come with limitations but it also comes with benefits. Knowing how it works can help ourselves understand the origin of self doubt, depression, substance issues, and risk taking, and help navigate life on our own terms. Keep spreading awareness, I would still be on the self-loathing train if a random person on the internet didn't spark the idea of talking to my doctor about it.
Justin is speaking TRUTH. You gotta figure it out by yourself.....but when you dont know how- you can go down the wrong road because you have blind faith in people.... and some people are evil. I love how he told his story! Not just the story- but how he felt, and the way it went..... Thanks Justin !!! And you WILL find someone to build the rest of your life with! She wasnt good for you- or she wouldnt have left.... The Universe will bless you once again !! You have earned it my friend.
Am I the only one who would like to see Patrick get strong and sober and be a friend for Justin.??? They would be a great force ....if they could kick the demons candy and life. Both smart good looking dudes.
This dude seems to be addicted to the drama of it all. Hope he stays with the program; but many times if you can't let go of the drama you can easily relapse. All the best to him though.
Even how he phrases his stories, and what he chooses to include in them, makes me feel like much of his persona is based solely on drugs and the drama that surrounds them.
So I hate to be THAT person, but I have serious doubts as to whether or not Justin is abstaining from all drugs completely. (He did admit to practicing "California sobriety.") While his story is overall interesting and compelling at times, his tone is worrisome. When I did 10 months in rehab for alcoholism, my counselor accused me of intellectualizing. That's when you take forever to get to the point and use every fancy word in your vocabulary in order to deflect. That way you can still blame others, romanticize your substance abuse, and refuse to take full responsibility. Anyone else catch Justin repeating, "I've seen people do..." and, "What they did was some messed-up shit," etc.? He IS those "people," and HE is doing all that shit. I'm sorry, but he sounds like he's still in quite a bit of denial. I hope the best for him, though. The first step is changing his playmates, playgrounds, and play things. You can't get sober hanging out on skid row, drinking beers, and befriending car thieves and women who really want to be with your so-called friends.
@@JohnDoe-sp3dc , not really. I think I got right to the point. I just had a lot of points to make. In addition, I've been sober for almost 15 years.... TRULY sober. I don't have to take as long as this guy did to try to convince anybody of that (or myself).
Ten minutes in, I was like “no way in hell this dude’s sober unless he’s experiencing bipolar mania…” Im no expert, just a nurse who’s seen a lot. But Justin needs more help and support of some type, no matter which is true.
"California sobriety" is so dangerous for our recovery community. For people in early stages on recovery it's a terrible idea...Some people are capable of it after mannnnnny years in recovery, a very select few...
His speech really causes me to question if he’s sober in this interview. Perhaps that’s the residual effect of hard drug use in the past? I enjoyed the interview and really want the best for him- but genuinely wondering. Hang in there, Justin. We’re rooting for you! 💙
I want to thank you very much for posting this interview in my opinion he is a really decent person. I'm aware that he did absolutely terrible things to friends and family members. I think he is the most honest drug addict that you have ever interviewed. This interview takes you into the mind of a junkie. The most honest interview ever concerning drugs. I hope he's doing well now❤🙏😊
I'm in recovery, and I hope I'm wrong but I don't think homie is clean?I'm an addict and I know your either sober or not, black and white. You can't drink a little or dable. So if he still drinks and other things he's not sober. Idk maybe I'm wrong? But when you quit your proud of doing it and won't change the subject or move on to a different subject. It seems like when mark asked him about sobriety he dodges the question or answers vaguely. No judgment brother falling off is part of it dont beat yourself up. We aren't perfect so don't think people expect you to be, good luck.
You can be off of hard drugs and still dabble with booze or weed lets say. Its not a good idea, but if hes staying off of the hard drugs that are his main problem then good for him. Just because hes not as sober as you "black and white " doesn't mean you need to try to even correct his phrasing. Everyones journey is different and getting better looks different for everyone. Sounds pretty judgemental for someone not trying to judge.
GREAT fucking work marc, letting this guy talk and define his addiction was as good or better than any doctor or therapist could hope to achieve in their careers understanding
I couldn’t deal tonight. Must be my mood. Dude spoke for ages and said nothing. OMFG Get to the points. All I’ve managed : Small town guy, moves to the big city , goes to College. Works his ass off while there while drinking, getting laid and doing blow. That sums up several hundred people I have known in their 20’s. Was Attractive, weren’t we all in our youth. He IS right if you are Really attractive it helps a ton. It’s a cliche, but true: It’s who ya know or who ya blow. I’ll try to watch the rest when I feel better. Maybe he becomes more succinct.
He did repeat himself a lot, but I wasn't sure if that was the result of years of drug abuse or what. I'm still trying to get through the video. 🤗 Does he say what is wrong with his legs? Or am I seeing something that's not what I think it is?
Damm Justin I'm in recovery 5 yrs.Drugs really ruin my life 39yrs old and I'm still trying to figure out balance.Its the hardest shit I've ever been through..keep it up and REMEMBER KEEP SHADY PEEPS OUT UR LIFE. B From Seattle,wa
Helps you get high and not feel like shit maybe? Think harder smooth brain. Has the question of the human condition gone unanswered in your shallow mind? There's obviously a fucking reason we have an drug pandemic in this world.
@@olivierm2888 I get your sentiment but smoking crack does feel like shit. If you've never vomited and shit your pants at the same time from the anxiety of having to drive back home to smoke, if you've never sat there sweating puddles, if you've never thought you were about to die of a heart attack then you just don't know lol. And if you do know, you're fucking reaching here lol. Having burnt lips fucking sucks. Having a mini stroke and being partially paralyzed fucking sucks. Inhaling a scolding hot piece of brillo pad into your throat fucking sucks. Not drinking enough water for days at a time and the resultant kidney pain fucking sucks.
@@AdaptiveApeHybrid Bro I know about all that, I literally suffer from anxiety and still smoked rock. I was the one in the group most sensitive to nausea from good crack. I've been clean for awhile, and I wasn't even answering you btw. I was answering OP. So don't get your panties in a twist here. It's the taste and the rush that people get addicted too.. not the side effects lmfao. If that was the case I would never need suboxone if I was soooo addicted to the nausea I'd get off the first few times of H and fent.
@@olivierm2888 hey, you're the one with twisted panties, don't project your negative feelings onto me. You're the one being emotional and lashing out for your own validation. I'm glad to hear things are better for you now. Take care.
1:02:02 and I am still wondering the same thing.. appears this dude has a lot on his chest he wants to get off and can't seem to get all three things off
Wow this man i hope he encourages people who are struggling. This is really amazing interview. Justin your a good man and you have a gifted tallent. Thanks for shareing your experience.
just one more thing, this guy has no idea how he help/inspire people around the world. I'm sure about. If someone sees him please thank him from me. I stopped consuming since 2 days already because I understood how peace of mind is impossible when you don't have clarity.
Well done Justin! It’s really hard to come to terms with working so hard to boot addiction, to only find our sober life is often vert pain as well. Don’t forget that your a highly adaptive being with much to offer!
He speaks the truth. It's a choice to quit and pull your head out of your ass. I have 6 years clean and sober. I hope everyone can have the courage to change their mindset.
I hate when people say they died, when they are sitting in front of someone, alive and chatting. Overdosing can kill, but only when the heart stops COMPLETELY.
Hope he really gets clean and learns from his past. I’m not one to say if he is or isn’t truly sober but he has a good heart and he is working in the right direction and that’s a start. I think living in skid row is not a productive environment for keeping his sobriety going. Best of luck. A lot of people are rooting for you.
My life couldn't be more different than the life of this man. I grew up in the smallest town ever. I didn't even get in to the second year of high school. I've never been around famous people. Yet there are so much I recognised in his story. I also was very awkward during my younger years. I was good academically. I didn't do much Exept for sit in classes, yet I got good grades. But socially I was a wreck. I hated the breaks between classes because then I had to interact with the other students and I didn't know how to. I still to this day struggle big time socially. I can't read people faces or feelings. I don't understand the social games and rules. Everything I want is for people to say what they mean and mean what they say. Another thing he said is that he did what his parents told him. So did I. After tenth grade my Mother decided that I should go to, what's that called in English, a kind of farming school. Why she wanted me to go there? Because I love animals. If you think about it, that's actually totally fucked up, because, yes, I LOVE animals. Actually, I was a vegetarian back then, too. I didn't wanna eat animals because I felt sorry for them. And then I'm sent to this school where there are pigs, sheeps and cows. And why are those animals there? They are there because they are going to be meat! Obviously there were other classes too, like we were in the woods to cut down threes. But since I was the awkward person I was, I didn't want to be laughed of, so I didn't use the chain saw. I was watching the fire pit, drinking cocoa. And we planted seeds, grew potatoes, carrots and tomatoes. Point being my Mother decided and I went. And apparently she didn't know me very well. I've never thought about that fact before now, actually. The last thing in his story is him running away. That's been a thing with me, too. I ran away a lot. Now I'm alone so I don't have to run from people and situations like that no more.
I am learning SO MUCH from this channel!!! Thank u God for these people who step out & step up to share their lives, their secrets & deepest insecurities! I'm fortunate to have access thru UA-cam! Good job Mark-its really a great legacy, ty!
His eyes tell a different story than what his mouth tells. Only wanting the best for this man, it just seems like there's a disconnect between things he might say and things he might be thinking/his actual reality. His eyes indicate he hurts still. Like he really hurts still.
Justin seems like a really nice guy. He's a great storyteller. But it also seems like he's had a lot of chances and burned a lot of bridges. It gets harder to come back from that as you age. I admire him for telling the truth.
The song Maggie Mae is playing while he is talking.A good looking guy an older woman.Late September he should be back in school.I enjoyed listening to him.
It is so amazing to see the patterns that define us. and to hear this story that has been told time and time again in the rooms of recovery. This story can have a happy ending just like many others...............I have lived it and seen it and I know one thing.......IT WORKS TO SURRENDER TO SOMETHING DIFFERENT
It is SHAMEFUL the way that America wastes good men -- in unnecessary wars, in prisons, in poverty. What a tragic waste of potential of our American men.
Bro, crack is a demon. I appreciate your story and all the shit you went through. But truth is it's not all on your shoulders. You feel the pain and rightly so but the curse was put on you, you didnt chose this shit. Sending love for you bro. You are the fucking best, one of the very few to get out. Be proud dont feel no shame. Huge respect and love
I'm no crack head but I can relate to this guy. The real issue is underneath all of this. Family is the most important thing otherwise find your community/tribe. People can say anything they want, can't do it by yourself. This is the first video that really helped me to see clearly.
he is brutally honest and is trapped with being either successfully straight or keeping his drug addiction and blanking out. he knows what's right for him but adores his blank out modes
the 2 things that Justin said and are bang on are ACCEPTANCE!! and DESIRE!! you have to WANT it,that’s easy to say but a lot of people think they want/are ready when it’s 90+% of the time not the case😐,but hopefully people 1 day you will say I’M DONE and actually mean it but more importantly RECOGNISE it then you have a fighting chance to get out and start the journey to where you need to be 🙂,good luck to you Justin
Very interesting man. So true about what you learn in college is a base and maybe 10% of what will make you a success in your job. 90% is learned on the job and by connections. Good luck to you, from one artist to another.
@@PrismosPicks Each of us have much to learn. What you've experienced with addiction is important knowledge! Hold on to it. Apply it for your wellbeing.
Is there such a thing as a former crack addict? Or any addict for that matter? I feel as if there are only addicts who have either realized their path and become sober and those who have not. Addiction for people like this is a lifelong, never ending struggle.
Omg you're the first person I heard of that 'died' just like my sister did. She's alive and well but I found her like that. I feel like I experienced my sister actually dying. Because I did. It's pretty much a miracle the doctors got her to come back. Her muscles had started to decompose. Idk how a person can come back from that and not have a vegetable brain. Anyways for her it was fentanyl patches. A prescription and sleeping meds and something else. Oxy I think. A suicide attempt. She's living her life and is doing ok.
It is me too. Extremely rare. I am usually Addicted to these. I could not watch it all in one sitting. I’ll try the rest tomorrow. It’s probably my attitude today, more than him. Not to mention he is bookended with the one before who raped a 4 year old, tortured and mutilated a friend and followed by a gal who had her husband killed. Makes “misspent youth” pale in comparison. Guy has 50 more years to choose a straight life .... or not. Whatevs
@@annieseaside yes me too I can usually binge watch these interviews on a rainy afternoon or whatever. I've also been thinking alot about other things today so maybe I don't have my usual focus. Idk could be many things including the fact its 2:30 in the morning and my alarm for work is 5 am. 🙄😌😲
@@vonderloo3184 I've seen many painters. Never seen someone with what looks like extremely red rashed knees though. Obviously it's some kind of pants under his shorts but it looks odd.
Morning coffee and soft white underbelly, happy Mother’s Day all!
Im 24, just graduated art school. This is happening to me. I won't let this happen to me. Thank you Justin.
Always look at this video and make your decisions as to LIFE OR DEATH.
I went to a small graphic arts school in the early 80's and became addicted to freebasing coke. My life spiraled and I became mixed up in bad things. Got clean for 10 years. Am now a functional alcoholic and my life is horribly stunted from things in my past and choices I've made. Please do not waste your opportunity like my younger self did.
Stay the hell away from them. It might seem glamorous at first, or you might justify it by saying it makes you more creative. It doesn’t. I’ve been there, and I chose the wrong path. It has taken me 15 years just to get back to a place where I can say I’m a productive member of society. Just set your goals and every day ask yourself “is what I’m doing helping me achieve my goal(s).
you are capable. you're good enough
just saying... things dont happen to you mate. we make decisions and we create our own world.
Hi Mark, been trying to get your attention for a while now:) I'm Richard from Ghana, West Africa. I've been a fan of your channel for years. Not only did you inspire me to start a non-profit in Ghana, you also inspired me to make videos with Africans that address unspoken issues in Africa like you do. In a nation where marginalised persons and issues are antagonised and ignored, it's truly inspiring to me and the VOIICE Community to do what you do. I hope you see the stories we are sharing too.
Thanks so much I'll check you out do you have a Mother Day?
You need to email Mark.
That's awesome
Email Mark at soft_white_underbelly@yahoo.com
@@MoonChild-po9du wtf kind of question is that? Lol.
That hour flew by. Justin is a smart guy hope he keeps it together. Rooting for him
Like a bird
This guy is so likable and smart and talented. I really hope he doesn’t give up on himself. Life is really hard sometimes, but I hope he finds a way to sustain happy.
You can tell he’s a really sweet guy despite his addiction. Stay strong Justin 👊🏽
Yeah, so was Ted Bundy
@@aspartamekillsyaknow9019 classic false-equivalence logical fallacy
Im early in the video - but does he ever address his universe leggings? I’ve been distracted trying to figure out if it was his legs.
@Lindsay Roman. lol, me too!
I waited for the full photo up and down shot. Followed those leggings down to the boots 🙌
Same! Haha
i fast forwarded to see wat was wrong with his legs
@@mirriamvalentin8634 😂😂😂😂
What a nice genuine guy, I hope he stays strong and keeps his head up!
"Life has fucking comedy built into it"
Its beautiful when a person can look at all of their life, the good, bad.. straight up weirdness of it all and say these words with an embracing attitude.
Justin, thank you so incredibly for sharing your story. You really touched at least one person, here. Ive written quite a few of the things you said down, as they feel like an aid for moving forward in my own struggle with life, or rather with myself ... in it. Thank you for being you.
That’s a great T-shirt idea. 😊
God has a sense of humor
Sheesh people got mad at me for taking 10 minutes to get to my addiction story...I’m 24 minutes in and this guys explaining how he stayed at the dorms the whole summer for the second time 😂 I’m hooked though can’t wait to hear how this pans out
Don’t worry about what people think or say! I was fine with your story. Who cares what some say
You had you 15 seconds, F'n B! Quit trying to hang on nobody gave a shit about what you have to say because your lying anyway! Your a dork and no matter what you do or say that will never change! Da!
@@sjc7773 You're****
@@Danimal77 read ! His comments on the last two SWU. Then see what you think of him?
Hey man, really enjoyed your interview. Hope your doing well.
He's still struggling. He's uses the language of recovery but he's not yet there. Like another commenter stated, there is nothing former crack addict about this guy ...
Wow. And you know this using the immense knowledge and experience you have gained through the years and with the confirmation bias off of some other idiots comment. I swear, the comment section is sometimes more interesting than the content.
You ha
AMEN!! My father has been an addict all my life. He is a 71-year-old crackhead (drug choice) and alcoholic. I allowed him to move in with my family in another city in a country setting w/o a close bus line. Good for him, right? Do you know that within 2 months, he was walking to the store 5 miles away to get a beer? Next, he went to my bedroom in my closet and started drinking the liquor. I hid away (he saw me have a drink, figured I had some, and searched my house while we were out). He became belligerent and insulting, and his biggest complaint was not being able to travel when wanted and where wanted (to seek drugs). Therefore, he said he wanted to go back to our hometown. It took 6 months, and when I say he was anxious to get to that crack, it was crazy. He sat in the garage with all his crap in trash bags (2 hours early), waiting for the arranged ride we got for him to come. Check this! He stole all our meat in the garage's deep freezer on his way out. ONCE A CRACKHEAD, ALWAYS A CRACKHEAD.
@@angelfiyah wow!!!
@angelfiyah wow. That is sad and I am sorry that this has been the situation for you. You are great child ❤️
it is so interesting to me to see what story people choose to tell about who they are...
Yeah... 😊
Do you know him? Just a question, not a defensive one.
That’s it... we all have a choice about the narrative we choose to tell about ourselves or anything for that matter... I was addicted to drugs for 20 years and it wasn’t until after I got clean I realised there was a narrative I chose to continue telling people about myself that needed to be left behind.... create your now and future!
@@Dyl3n.Wallac3 Congrats on overcoming your battle.💜
@@Dyl3n.Wallac3 congrats!
Hey everyone! Happy Mother’s Day to all the mommies out there! Much love from Houston! ✌🏾🤘🏾
Omg!!😂 so funny!! I just shouted my partner he better ring his mum...no no no!!! Then...h any on...we already did this didn't we??!! Googled to make sure I'm not mad...yup...it's March 27th in the UK!!😂 happy day to you though!!!!😂
@@ktcooki276 really?! I had no idea! When is Father’s Day there??
💙🗻💚Happy Mothers Day Misty and all the Mommas and the Poppas being a Momma.💙💙💙💙💙
@@PrismosPicks Truth!
Another Happy Mother's Day from Michigan!
@@PrismosPicks Oh, wow! What a compliment. Thank you. I think it's all about getting old. As the years go by we tend to learn a few things.😊💖
In the next days when you get completely sober. Don’t go to the club. Don’t go out. Just stay home and chill. Go find new hobbies to do. Go get busy after work at home.
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WELL SAID.........IME STARTING THAT AGAIN TODAY ......THANKS MICK FROM UK
All I do is sit at home, drives me mad...I get your good intention tho...I lack motivation to do anything apart from staying sober which is boring but I know its for the best
It's great to see ppl using their recovery to better not only their lives, but to help others going thru similar things!
It's SO awesome to hear him admit that a big part of his success is/was his FAMILY. Its a foundation even if it isn't positively functional. It really does make a difference & there arent many ppl who truly realize that unless they "didn't/don't" have any (family).
I had a late ADHD diagnosis and I just felt so strongly about this interview. I didn’t get that deep with drug abuse but so many of the behaviors felt so familiar to me. The social awkwardness, the boredom, the need for intensity at all times, the wildly emotional relationships and the self medication to feel better somehow even if you don’t know why you are really repeating this cycle. It’s a very strong underlying feeling because we mask “so well” on the outside but within the feelings of inadequacy are still there. My hyperactive/hyper focused behaviors were just so intense that I kept putting my own safety and freedom at risk, the other huge factor is having an new hobby/obsession of the moment (even if just for the night) that gets you out of track over and oVer again. ADHD is not the curse but not understanding what is going on within and constantly masking is exhausting.
I am not a doctor and I can’t affirm that you have ADHD but it’s just so important to create awareness because there is so many adults out there that don’t know that is a thing. Sending you good vibes to keep the sobriety strong!
He is unmistakably so. The way he speaks and all the different hats he's worn in life, substance abuse, creativity. I just got diagnosed at 28 with inattentive ADHD. Learning about it through the medical professionals I spoke to and watched on UA-cam has not only made me understand and love myself better but other people affected by it as well. I totally agree with you, it's not a curse, it does come with limitations but it also comes with benefits. Knowing how it works can help ourselves understand the origin of self doubt, depression, substance issues, and risk taking, and help navigate life on our own terms. Keep spreading awareness, I would still be on the self-loathing train if a random person on the internet didn't spark the idea of talking to my doctor about it.
Excellent self awareness. Sometimes that's half the battle towards treatment and recovery
You should look into what bad gut bacteria has to do with your adhd
Move your lymphatic system
Adhd is exactly what i was thinking was his issue. Not being able to organize or stay on track for any length of time.
Justin is speaking TRUTH. You gotta figure it out by yourself.....but when you dont know how- you can go down the wrong road because you have blind faith in people.... and some people are evil. I love how he told his story! Not just the story- but how he felt, and the way it went.....
Thanks Justin !!! And you WILL find someone to build the rest of your life with! She wasnt good for you- or she wouldnt have left.... The Universe will bless you once again !! You have earned it my friend.
Love how often you roll these out!! ❤️
Am I the only one who would like to see Patrick get strong and sober and be a friend for Justin.??? They would be a great force ....if they could kick the demons candy and life. Both smart good looking dudes.
They definitely remind me of one another
Aptly said; and yes.
thiz is what i thought when i saw thiz
Totally!!! They seem similar. I also find them the most personally relatable...
Ur literally in la la land. Who thinks that childishly.
This dude seems to be addicted to the drama of it all. Hope he stays with the program; but many times if you can't let go of the drama you can easily relapse. All the best to him though.
Exactly
Yep, it's said that if the drugs & alcohol don't get you, the lifestyle will.
Agreed. Of all the places he could likely live and have studio space he chose skid row.
Even how he phrases his stories, and what he chooses to include in them, makes me feel like much of his persona is based solely on drugs and the drama that surrounds them.
He has quite a big impression of himself, lots of name dropping.
So I hate to be THAT person, but I have serious doubts as to whether or not Justin is abstaining from all drugs completely. (He did admit to practicing "California sobriety.") While his story is overall interesting and compelling at times, his tone is worrisome. When I did 10 months in rehab for alcoholism, my counselor accused me of intellectualizing. That's when you take forever to get to the point and use every fancy word in your vocabulary in order to deflect. That way you can still blame others, romanticize your substance abuse, and refuse to take full responsibility. Anyone else catch Justin repeating, "I've seen people do..." and, "What they did was some messed-up shit," etc.? He IS those "people," and HE is doing all that shit. I'm sorry, but he sounds like he's still in quite a bit of denial. I hope the best for him, though. The first step is changing his playmates, playgrounds, and play things. You can't get sober hanging out on skid row, drinking beers, and befriending car thieves and women who really want to be with your so-called friends.
Yup... I concur... He’s definitely still using...
It's hilarious because you're doing the very thing you're accusing him of doing. Isn't that ironic?
@@JohnDoe-sp3dc , not really. I think I got right to the point. I just had a lot of points to make. In addition, I've been sober for almost 15 years.... TRULY sober. I don't have to take as long as this guy did to try to convince anybody of that (or myself).
Ten minutes in, I was like “no way in hell this dude’s sober unless he’s experiencing bipolar mania…” Im no expert, just a nurse who’s seen a lot. But Justin needs more help and support of some type, no matter which is true.
"California sobriety" is so dangerous for our recovery community. For people in early stages on recovery it's a terrible idea...Some people are capable of it after mannnnnny years in recovery, a very select few...
His speech really causes me to question if he’s sober in this interview. Perhaps that’s the residual effect of hard drug use in the past? I enjoyed the interview and really want the best for him- but genuinely wondering. Hang in there, Justin. We’re rooting for you! 💙
agree
He is... He is not sober in this video, and his body language and appearance showed up and showed out.
@@angelfiyah Nah he’s sober. Quit pretending you know tings.
Self sabotage, frantic telling his story all over the place , Sadly I don’t believe he’s sober, he’s in his own way !
Some people just aren’t the best storyteller’s and I can’t imagine what it’s like getting videoed while you’re telling your story .
@@virginiasantillan2267 theyre comfortable in front of the cameras with the listening man there.
Dude is intelligent. Seems to lack sincere accountability
This is really good. Every 30-year old needs to watch this one. Excellent.
The women's lives in these videos are always so much more traumatic than most of the men who are interviewed.
What great insight this man now has in his sobriety. And a kind heart.
I want to thank you very much for posting this interview in my opinion he is a really decent person. I'm aware that he did absolutely terrible things to friends and family members. I think he is the most honest drug addict that you have ever interviewed. This interview takes you into the mind of a junkie. The most honest interview ever concerning drugs. I hope he's doing well now❤🙏😊
I'm in recovery, and I hope I'm wrong but I don't think homie is clean?I'm an addict and I know your either sober or not, black and white. You can't drink a little or dable. So if he still drinks and other things he's not sober. Idk maybe I'm wrong? But when you quit your proud of doing it and won't change the subject or move on to a different subject. It seems like when mark asked him about sobriety he dodges the question or answers vaguely. No judgment brother falling off is part of it dont beat yourself up. We aren't perfect so don't think people expect you to be, good luck.
The hands are a good indicator too
@@MissFunkyH He works in a shop, probably doing intensive labour and work with his hands. It could just be from that
I wish you well. Godspeed 🙏👍
You can be off of hard drugs and still dabble with booze or weed lets say. Its not a good idea, but if hes staying off of the hard drugs that are his main problem then good for him. Just because hes not as sober as you "black and white " doesn't mean you need to try to even correct his phrasing. Everyones journey is different and getting better looks different for everyone. Sounds pretty judgemental for someone not trying to judge.
Yes i understand, that's why i said correcting his phrasing. He still comes off judgmental to me
GREAT fucking work marc, letting this guy talk and define his addiction was as good or better than any doctor or therapist could hope to achieve in their careers understanding
1:01:22 "I was being selfish with my spirit" ~that's deep. Too much of anything is bad.
Justin seems great but also high
You think so?🤨
Yeah... He repeats himself a lot. 🤷♀️
He's definitely high...
I couldn’t deal tonight. Must be my mood. Dude spoke for ages and said nothing. OMFG Get to the points. All I’ve managed : Small town guy, moves to the big city , goes to College. Works his ass off while there while drinking, getting laid and doing blow. That sums up several hundred people I have known in their 20’s. Was Attractive, weren’t we all in our youth.
He IS right if you are Really attractive it helps a ton. It’s a cliche, but true: It’s who ya know or who ya blow.
I’ll try to watch the rest when I feel better. Maybe he becomes more succinct.
He did repeat himself a lot, but I wasn't sure if that was the result of years of drug abuse or what. I'm still trying to get through the video. 🤗 Does he say what is wrong with his legs? Or am I seeing something that's not what I think it is?
Damm Justin I'm in recovery 5 yrs.Drugs really ruin my life 39yrs old and I'm still trying to figure out balance.Its the hardest shit I've ever been through..keep it up and REMEMBER KEEP SHADY PEEPS OUT UR LIFE. B From Seattle,wa
I know the feelin’… 40 yrs old, I’m at a very important crossroad. I’ve stopped smoking soooo many times but i can’t keep it up.
BEST LINE EVER!!!! "smoking crack did not help at all" my thought : SINCE WHEN DOES CRACK HELP ANYTHING?
Helps ya get the bubble guts
Helps you sweat alot
Helps you get high and not feel like shit maybe? Think harder smooth brain. Has the question of the human condition gone unanswered in your shallow mind? There's obviously a fucking reason we have an drug pandemic in this world.
@@olivierm2888 I get your sentiment but smoking crack does feel like shit. If you've never vomited and shit your pants at the same time from the anxiety of having to drive back home to smoke, if you've never sat there sweating puddles, if you've never thought you were about to die of a heart attack then you just don't know lol.
And if you do know, you're fucking reaching here lol. Having burnt lips fucking sucks. Having a mini stroke and being partially paralyzed fucking sucks. Inhaling a scolding hot piece of brillo pad into your throat fucking sucks. Not drinking enough water for days at a time and the resultant kidney pain fucking sucks.
@@AdaptiveApeHybrid Bro I know about all that, I literally suffer from anxiety and still smoked rock. I was the one in the group most sensitive to nausea from good crack. I've been clean for awhile, and I wasn't even answering you btw. I was answering OP. So don't get your panties in a twist here.
It's the taste and the rush that people get addicted too.. not the side effects lmfao. If that was the case I would never need suboxone if I was soooo addicted to the nausea I'd get off the first few times of H and fent.
@@olivierm2888 hey, you're the one with twisted panties, don't project your negative feelings onto me. You're the one being emotional and lashing out for your own validation.
I'm glad to hear things are better for you now. Take care.
I’m not here to judge nobody cause I have no judging rights but I hope this guy gets help before it’s to late!
He sober
I agree with him. It’s like so many on Instagram do nothing and have millions of followers
Yeah why is that
@@Bebedollie People are taken in by material nonsense that doesn't matter sadly. What a cancer on society the Kardashians have been.
@@Mike-qo3dq Not the Kardashians. They're more of a victim/pawn in this whole issue. The media is the true cancer. All media. Left and Right.
I can't believe his car got stolen and he's so nice about it ! Like what!
20 mins in & I still don't know what his point is.
1:02:02 and I am still wondering the same thing.. appears this dude has a lot on his chest he wants to get off and can't seem to get all three things off
This man reminds me of my narcissistic ex husband. He was a sculptor! He also thought he was a babe magnet!
He even looks exactly like him!
Thank you Mark for another amazing video very interesting
I like him. No self grandeur. Real man. Honest and simple and real.
this seems like what he needed, he just kept letting it out!
@iRAZR YES!!!!!!
Going around in circles
This guy is so so really and sound. Good on you dude, every day is a challenge and you're fking owning it
Wow this man i hope he encourages people who are struggling. This is really amazing interview. Justin your a good man and you have a gifted tallent. Thanks for shareing your experience.
just one more thing, this guy has no idea how he help/inspire people around the world. I'm sure about. If someone sees him please thank him from me. I stopped consuming since 2 days already because I understood how peace of mind is impossible when you don't have clarity.
Well done Justin! It’s really hard to come to terms with working so hard to boot addiction, to only find our sober life is often vert pain as well. Don’t forget that your a highly adaptive being with much to offer!
He speaks the truth. It's a choice to quit and pull your head out of your ass. I have 6 years clean and sober. I hope everyone can have the courage to change their mindset.
I hate when people say they died, when they are sitting in front of someone, alive and chatting. Overdosing can kill, but only when the heart stops COMPLETELY.
I was all in until he said he had died and went into rigor mortis, then woke up the next day 😑
I overdosed twice
Hope he really gets clean and learns from his past. I’m not one to say if he is or isn’t truly sober but he has a good heart and he is working in the right direction and that’s a start. I think living in skid row is not a productive environment for keeping his sobriety going. Best of luck. A lot of people are rooting for you.
He's such a likeable guy. Great interview !
I agree and he is very handsome to me.
If u like people who lie to u constantly
Nice guy, definitely still using though. Anyone that has drugs get a hold on someone they love can tell. Hope he gets better.
When he said he sometimes has a couple drinks, red flags flew for me. If he's in AA, he should know about slippery slopes.
Wow Justin, keep up the good work - you have blown me away with your story.
So much wining. I just can’t
My life couldn't be more different than the life of this man.
I grew up in the smallest town ever.
I didn't even get in to the second year of high school.
I've never been around famous people.
Yet there are so much I recognised in his story.
I also was very awkward during my younger years.
I was good academically. I didn't do much Exept for sit in classes, yet I got good grades.
But socially I was a wreck. I hated the breaks between classes because then I had to interact with the other students and I didn't know how to.
I still to this day struggle big time socially.
I can't read people faces or feelings.
I don't understand the social games and rules. Everything I want is for people to say what they mean and mean what they say.
Another thing he said is that he did what his parents told him.
So did I.
After tenth grade my Mother decided that I should go to, what's that called in English, a kind of farming school.
Why she wanted me to go there?
Because I love animals.
If you think about it, that's actually totally fucked up, because, yes, I LOVE animals. Actually, I was a vegetarian back then, too. I didn't wanna eat animals because I felt sorry for them.
And then I'm sent to this school where there are pigs, sheeps and cows.
And why are those animals there?
They are there because they are going to be meat!
Obviously there were other classes too, like we were in the woods to cut down threes. But since I was the awkward person I was, I didn't want to be laughed of, so I didn't use the chain saw. I was watching the fire pit, drinking cocoa.
And we planted seeds, grew potatoes, carrots and tomatoes.
Point being my Mother decided and I went.
And apparently she didn't know me very well. I've never thought about that fact before now, actually.
The last thing in his story is him running away.
That's been a thing with me, too.
I ran away a lot.
Now I'm alone so I don't have to run from people and situations like that no more.
I am learning SO MUCH from this channel!!! Thank u God for these people who step out & step up to share their lives, their secrets & deepest insecurities! I'm fortunate to have access thru UA-cam! Good job Mark-its really a great legacy, ty!
His eyes tell a different story than what his mouth tells. Only wanting the best for this man, it just seems like there's a disconnect between things he might say and things he might be thinking/his actual reality. His eyes indicate he hurts still. Like he really hurts still.
Justin seems like a really nice guy. He's a great storyteller. But it also seems like he's had a lot of chances and burned a lot of bridges. It gets harder to come back from that as you age. I admire him for telling the truth.
He is not sober
He doesn't sound like he's done honestly.
Disagree
@@FloatingFontagree
I totally got done. He’s done.
I like banana bread
I’m done
The song Maggie Mae is playing while he is talking.A good looking guy an older woman.Late September he should be back in school.I enjoyed listening to him.
He's got a great point about college, most of us are not working within the scope of the degrees obtained.
It is so amazing to see the patterns that define us. and to hear this story that has been told time and time again in the rooms of recovery. This story can have a happy ending just like many others...............I have lived it and seen it and I know one thing.......IT WORKS TO SURRENDER TO SOMETHING DIFFERENT
It is SHAMEFUL the way that America wastes good men -- in unnecessary wars, in prisons, in poverty. What a tragic waste of potential of our American men.
Happy Mother's Day to all of our beautiful moms! Much love to all from Washington. ❤❤❤
So proud of you for making this video! ❤❤
Bro, crack is a demon. I appreciate your story and all the shit you went through. But truth is it's not all on your shoulders. You feel the pain and rightly so but the curse was put on you, you didnt chose this shit. Sending love for you bro. You are the fucking best, one of the very few to get out. Be proud dont feel no shame. Huge respect and love
Legend has it that Justin in still talking about new york again lol
I'm no crack head but I can relate to this guy. The real issue is underneath all of this. Family is the most important thing otherwise find your community/tribe. People can say anything they want, can't do it by yourself.
This is the first video that really helped me to see clearly.
Happy Mother’s Day 🥀🦋
Justin is really easy to listen to, enjoying this so far
he is brutally honest and is trapped with being either successfully straight or keeping his drug addiction and blanking out. he knows what's right for him but adores his blank out modes
I keep seeing these right as you upload them and that's often!
Man, this guy speaks the truth. I can SO relate to his testimony. Best of luck to him!
Top bloke. Mad respect. I've been there. You're crushing it bro.
I think this guy might be a lost sheep.. the accounts of Divine intervention in his life are quite amazing.
Are those leggings? Or his legs really look like that 😔
The portrait showed far out leggings. Extremely distracting. Had to cover the screen as he bounced around so much.
the 2 things that Justin said and are bang on are ACCEPTANCE!! and DESIRE!! you have to WANT it,that’s easy to say but a lot of people think they want/are ready when it’s 90+% of the time not the case😐,but hopefully people 1 day you will say I’M DONE and actually mean it but more importantly RECOGNISE it then you have a fighting chance to get out and start the journey to where you need to be 🙂,good luck to you Justin
Yes indeed!!!!
Very interesting man. So true about what you learn in college is a base and maybe 10% of what will make you a success in your job. 90% is learned on the job and by connections. Good luck to you, from one artist to another.
It’s not what you know, it’s who you know.
I absolutely agree with him it's not what you know but who you know
I found your stories quite interesting Justin. Thanks for sharing man!
He’s no ex crackhead
He’s lit now peeps!
He would not be able to sit there for that long and tell his story if he was cracked out.
He's high! C'mon!
@@PrismosPicks He gets a lot more than 50, lol.
His personality may be a lot different than you're used to so that Does Not Mean he's high.
@@PrismosPicks Each of us have much to learn. What you've experienced with addiction is important knowledge! Hold on to it. Apply it for your wellbeing.
Happy moms day! To all the mom's in the world!
Am I the only one who thought he had burned up legs?!?! I only realize he didn’t til I saw the whole black and white pic 😂🙄😂🙄
What an incredible memory wow ! And what an incredible story frfr
I'm not believing all of his story and I think he's doing some "creative" writing.
Your videos need so much more attention.
Is there such a thing as a former crack addict? Or any addict for that matter? I feel as if there are only addicts who have either realized their path and become sober and those who have not. Addiction for people like this is a lifelong, never ending struggle.
I hope you’re wrong, very wrong 😞
Hope he is able to deal with his addiction.
My B.S. meter is going off. The way he tells his story is contradictory at times.
What a nice guy!
I wonder if the person he stole the car from thought so ?
I hope he is doing well.
Former? What's he on now? Speed?
Meth
Omg you're the first person I heard of that 'died' just like my sister did. She's alive and well but I found her like that. I feel like I experienced my sister actually dying. Because I did. It's pretty much a miracle the doctors got her to come back. Her muscles had started to decompose. Idk how a person can come back from that and not have a vegetable brain. Anyways for her it was fentanyl patches. A prescription and sleeping meds and something else. Oxy I think. A suicide attempt. She's living her life and is doing ok.
My sister too when I was around 12. She was 16 yrs older than me. She now has passed forever.
im at 22;04 im just having such a hard time following this dude. does it get any easier ? could be me im not sure.
It is me too. Extremely rare. I am usually Addicted to these. I could not watch it all in one sitting. I’ll try the rest tomorrow. It’s probably my attitude today, more than him. Not to mention he is bookended with the one before who raped a 4 year old, tortured and mutilated a friend and followed by a gal who had her husband killed. Makes “misspent youth” pale in comparison. Guy has 50 more years to choose a straight life .... or not. Whatevs
@@annieseaside yes me too I can usually binge watch these interviews on a rainy afternoon or whatever. I've also been thinking alot about other things today so maybe I don't have my usual focus. Idk could be many things including the fact its 2:30 in the morning and my alarm for work is 5 am. 🙄😌😲
I don’t believe he’s clean.
29:26 crack talk begins
Lol thanks
What's going on with his knees?
leg-coverings/leggings/long-johns. He may be wearing them to hide his knees or injuries. Or maybe hes just cold or likes them. Not sure.
He’s wearing “space pants” under his shorts...
He is an artist, looks to me like its his painting clothes. Even his boots have splashes of paint. Ya never seen a painter? Lol
I was thinking the same thing. If you look closely when he bends his knees, they are definitely pants under his shorts!
@@vonderloo3184 I've seen many painters. Never seen someone with what looks like extremely red rashed knees though. Obviously it's some kind of pants under his shorts but it looks odd.