I think its natural that it it comes up more when things in life go wrong because its been our coping /numbing mechanism for so long! Whenever a hard situation arises my old ED thoughts/DVD starts almost by default now! Youre doing amazing and so inspiring! I hope your family member is okay x
This is such a helpful concept, thank you so much!! I came across your channel a couple of weeks ago and since then I have had such a big mental switch and actually feel like these are going to get better, cannot thank you enough!! I hope the family member is recovering well💛
Your videos are always so helpful! I’ve needed them in my life. I’ve been struggling to maintain my healthy weight & there have been a lot of stressers lately. It’s hard for me still to not run back to my ed. I wish at a healthy weight my brain would rewire and be normal
I literally just refreshed my subscriptions because I thought to myself I wonder if Megs video is up. It is fate! The fact that you were able to go home and be PRESENT with your family is crucial. That is when your family need you. Super proud of you. Keep fighting the good fight. X
Thank you so much! I just watched this video whilest eating lunch. And after about half of my lunch, the "DVD" started screaming at my that I should save the rest for Dinner, so I can have 2 "meals" for the amount of just one. This video came at the exact right time
Maggi Messer that’s such a classic disorder voice!! & thing is you’ll be trapped in that temptation forever if you don’t go against it!!! You can’t help getting the thoughts, but you don’t need to act on them!
Just wanted to say that I’m traveling abroad for the first time and struggling immensely to keep up with my recovery but your videos have been encouraging me and pushing me to challenge ED and enjoy the amazing foods that this world has to offer. Thank you for sharing your experiences, journey, and advice ❤️
Oh Meg, I am sorry you are going through this right now. This was a brilliant topic and right on cue! What you said about deciphering thoughts which is difficult as they are so close to our 'normal' thoughts and so deeply ingrained, and believing they are absolute truth really resonated. The dialogue you described between your reason and the AN reason is exactly what has been going on in my head these past few weeks! Keep battling xxx p.s. I'm exactly the same before I am weighed! Why can this anxiety take up a whole week of our life! Just for a number which will 'be' regardless of whether we know what it is or not!
Really pleased to see you back. Such helpful advice yet again, thank you so much. I agree with some others regarding blind weighing. I don’t find scales helpful and we have survived 1000’s of years without scales so why do we have to have them now!!
I’m so sorry to hear about your family and glad you were there for them. I relate 100% to the DVD that plays, and for me it comes out automatically when anxiety comes into my life. It’s like, the DVD is trying to protect me, my emotions, by preoccupying my mind with food and weight thoughts. Sometimes I don’t even realize the DVD is back on and I fall into some old restrictions. Then, once the anxiety situation is passed, my lightbulb comes on and I’m like, WTF! What am I doing!?! So much of my ED is mental. I loved how you stop the DVD thoughts! “Feel shit and do it anyways!” So good to see you back!! 😁💕
It’s good to have you back Megsy. You are headed in the right direction in challenging yourself with opposite actions!! Go girl go!! Please be careful about weighing yourself next week. In my opinion it does more harm than good. What good will benefit you from knowing your weight? If necessary do a blind weigh in. If that dvd is playing in your head then you don’t want to give it any more ammunition/power to keep playing. I have learned a lot from your journey thank you for being open and sharing
Accidentally, I just discovered the thing you're talking about and I totally agree with you! Going through your ED mindset and ignore this is hard, but in long term it will be better and give you more happiness and positivity. What helps me to go against my thoughts is to do some activity to relax my body, like yoga or go outside for a walk. Because my body is relaxing, my mind is full of thoughts and every attention goes to my head. It'll give the ED all time and space to let me know what he/she wants me to do or don't. I let those thoughts go through my head, just when I give rest to my body. And then when I'm done or I come back home, that's where I want to finish the thoughts and I say to my head "OK, ED, I've heard all you've been graving for and all the demands you throw in my face. But, I'm not gonna do that'. Besides, I really think you're a wonderfull and beautiful woman. I like to see those sparkles in your eyes and I love to listen to you and watch your channel
THANK YOU. Most insightful and wonderful video. I am a moderator on What Mia Did Next's forum and we love your content over there. This video is VERY helpful for those struggling in recovery. I'll be passing it on. Thank you Megsie! xoxoxox
So good to see you back. I have literally been worried as to why there had been no you tube videos!! So sorry to hear that your dad is unwell. Thank you so much for the helpful advice!!! Xx
Just had a takeaway pizza for dinner and despite craving and wanting something sweet, my head has been screaming at me telling me all sorts of nasty things. Watching this video was so helpful and reminded me that just because I may be having these thoughts, it doesn't mean that I have to give in to them. Thank you for continuously setting me straight in my recovery and encouraging me to chase after what I really want in life, freedom. xxx (p.s - i'm off to get some chocolate right away)
I am happy you are back here posting video for us, may be for your self too. You are doing well. I wish everything is ok in your family. Today, I was proud of me as yesterday, my parents told me - hey, it is going to be nice sunny day tomorrow, what about going to our Cottage with us? First I told no....(DVD - oh, we are going for lunch to restaurant, oh, they will controll me, oh there is going to be coffee and mums cake later in the garden, and oh, I can only sit in the garden without moving at all as I have to walk with crutches (because of my leg ache)....but then I decided to go...And it was nice, I enjoyed the day, I managed lunch (dinner in our country is served at noon) in the restaurant and tea in the afternoon. I nearly spent the sunny day at home only because the fear of food and reactions of the others.....Which is what DVD and ED want, but not me...:-)
Anyway...I also have to think about....where it the border between "ill" and "healthy" thinking? I mean it is normal, among healthy people, that they feel full, bloated, or only feel discomford as they gained 3 kgs recently...and they have only light salad, or joghurt, or some fruit just to feel ok again and it is as normal as overeat sometimes. I wonder, if it is not also normal for former ED people? Or does it mean that I have no right having only salad for lunch or miss breakfast sometimes? Does it mean that I can never try to loose weight if I gain 5 kgs during X- mass time and dont feel good with them?....I mean I want to be free in all directions. To eat, sleep, read, laugh, cry more or less if I want....what do you thing about this?
Love your videos! It really helps me in recovery, to see that other people have the same thoughts as me, and how they deal with it. Did you find your ring back?
Sometimes you have to let your ED thoughts speak and be unconditionally present and loving with them and let these thoughts unravel and reveal the true insecurities behind them, the insecurities and shadows that it was trying to protect. It's good to focus positively but sometimes when you completely resist and deny and push those thoughts away you push them into your subconscious, and they end up coming out in the sneakiest of ways and you can end up relapsing again. Of course you need to be in a right state of mind and a right place in your recovery to start to dive back into those thought patterns and uncover what's behind them without letting them trigger you. But just sitting down and asking yourself "Alright, I'm listening, what is it that you are protecting? Why are you afraid?" Your ED thoughts are literally parts of you that are terrified and scared. It's a part of you that's like a child who just wants security and comfort and you're pushing it away and so it's trying to get your attention in the most nastiest of ways. At some point you need to face your ED head on and with love, really listen and be compassionate with it and take it as part of yourself, because it is just a part of yourself. When you can do that it won't have a reason to seek that control and power over you any longer.
Really helpful video. I keep forgetting to do opposite actions in the moment. My brain tricks me like "oh it isn't really restriction, you're just not hungry right now" and then it snowballs into more restriction :/
I am exactly struggling with the same problem. One day it's fine, but the following even worse. ..:/ the Videos always helping me to think about my handlings and what i am actually fighting for. :) lots of love and energy! !
I think the idea of “monitoring” for my DVD helped me, & that step one of IDENTIFY when it’s playing. Which is so hard because it just feels like reality, doesn’t feel like ED thoughts. Like you say you just think “I’m not that hungry” or whatever; but it’s thoughts & behaviours like that that keep you trapped in your ED for years!!!
Amazing video as always. Have you ever read the book life without ED By Jenni Schaefer. In her book she talks abit about what you have explained. She describes it as disagree and disobey. So if you have the eating disorder thoughts you should disagree and disobey what it tells you to do. It is a good read and sounds like it may resonate with you by what you say in this video. Xxx
But the thing is that it is so much easier to give into the E.D thoughts. I have moments during the day where I’m all in for recovery and I make myself food and eat it then feel good about it. Then later on I think about the food and think about the actions I took and feel so guilty. It’s like my body wants to recover to get back to where I was. But my mind is so freaking attached to it. It’s my best friend. I don’t want to loose my best friend
I get the whole body image triggering fear ! I do not want to know my weight when I have weighs in s however just the act of facing the scale throws me! Do you actually know your weight when you go ? I wonder how many others are like me and afraid of being told the number
Thanku meg but i do have a question. I have been restricting for like 2 days as in eating nothing then ill get up during the middle of the night and eat all the wrong food ice-cream cheesecake pastries. I have been doing this for a couple of weeks. I have been in recovery for just over 12months and i am at a healthy weight and i am so scared of gaining more weight. Please any advice?
Plus sweets topic - I have something sweet every single day - usually for afternoon snack. I do not know, but I just feel I need energy during afternoon, I do not feel like having dark bread with cheese and salad...I prefer ice cream, buisquits, chocholate, sweet pudding or at least granola. Sources in magazines or internet say - you should only have sweet e-g once a week as a "cheat day" ..but I hate "cheat day" expression as it sounds like having chocolate is something sinful and worth of regret. But I thing it is "shit-claim", If I eat regularly, mostly proper varied food, then to eat a small part of it "unhealthy" (what is unhealthy??) is not problém. And what is more, it makes me happy, gives me energy and pleasure, which is definitelly super healthy :-)
사랑해Kim Jisang I cant really comment on individual cases because I’m not medically trained & don’t know you. Hope you can go to a doctor for some medical advice 😘
It is much more common than once thought for people to never lose their period whilst in their ED (even at extremely low weights) and to have return of menses whilst still very underweight. This is why amenorrhoea is no longer one of the diagnostic criteria for anorexia nervosa. I hope this helps xx
I find that instead of blocking thoughts, which seems to make me focus on them more making them stronger, I try to just acknowledge them and let them go. I found this to be super helpful - imagining yourself placing them on a leaf and watching them float away down a stream ua-cam.com/video/vjKltKKSur8/v-deo.html
Oh and you could consider not looking at your weight Monday? So like standing on the scale backwards for example. Not knowing it can also be uncomfortable, but I know seeing my weight can really trigger me. Good luck anyway! Whatever your weight is, you are doing the right thing!!!!
haha, I go to my doctor on Monday too and he will control my weight too :-))) I gained 6 kgs from January, but I am happy with it as I was sickly underweight. But to be honest, as I am gaining more and more, I start to look at me in the mirror to touch my belly fat and thinking of what if I will gaining forever. Anyway, I also want to know how I weight, I just feel mature enough or self confident, simply I want to be ok with my weight. I would feel like insane not knowig it..
I hope you don't mind me offering my opinion on your current situation..? Have you considered the biological underpinnings of your increased ED thoughts (naturally, a psychologist would not point these out or even be aware of them, but if you watch Tabitha Farrar's videos, she explains this really well)? Did you unintentionally restrict when travelling back to England (this can happen so easily, especially when experiencing higher than normal levels of stress)? If so, the recent escalation in food preoccupation could be a result of calorie deficit while you were away (which has not yet been made up). Also, you often mention that you're at a "healthy weight" but (and I'm pretty sure you're aware of this) the BMI scale is bullshit! Whilst I agree that it takes time for the old DVD to quieten down after years of it ruling your mind, I also know that, if your body is not yet at the weight that it healthy for YOU, your brain will still be a slave to food thoughts. Lots of love xx
Yep, agree with BMI bullshit. I’m “healthy” but not necessarily where my body wants to be. I really like Tabitha & my psychologist recommended her to me, but the biological migration thingy doesn’t really resonate that well with me. Movement has never been a thing for me for example. But otherwise I find her perspective great!
Megsy Recovery Agree. I take what I find fitting from Tabitha and leave the rest. Remembering it’s not black and white and she’s also not a therapist or a registered dietician.
PSQ: Meg saves lives. Love you! You help so much and have amazing tools for recovery. Thank you thank you thank you!
I think its natural that it it comes up more when things in life go wrong because its been our coping /numbing mechanism for so long! Whenever a hard situation arises my old ED thoughts/DVD starts almost by default now! Youre doing amazing and so inspiring! I hope your family member is okay x
This is such a helpful concept, thank you so much!! I came across your channel a couple of weeks ago and since then I have had such a big mental switch and actually feel like these are going to get better, cannot thank you enough!! I hope the family member is recovering well💛
Laina Langridge awww so glad they can help hun 🤗
The concept of the ED DVD sums in up perfectly! You've been such an inspiration for me in my own personal recovery, thank you so much!
What is dvd?
Your videos are always so helpful! I’ve needed them in my life. I’ve been struggling to maintain my healthy weight & there have been a lot of stressers lately. It’s hard for me still to not run back to my ed. I wish at a healthy weight my brain would rewire and be normal
she's baaaaaacccckkkk!! with an awesome video. I needed this! Thankyou lovely girl xx
I literally just refreshed my subscriptions because I thought to myself I wonder if Megs video is up. It is fate!
The fact that you were able to go home and be PRESENT with your family is crucial. That is when your family need you.
Super proud of you. Keep fighting the good fight. X
Madison Killer thanks lovely 💛💛💛
yes, i got so excited when Meg posted! I've been checking for a new video for a while, im so happy its arrived! thank you so much meg :)))))
Thank you so much! I just watched this video whilest eating lunch. And after about half of my lunch, the "DVD" started screaming at my that I should save the rest for Dinner, so I can have 2 "meals" for the amount of just one. This video came at the exact right time
Maggi Messer that’s such a classic disorder voice!! & thing is you’ll be trapped in that temptation forever if you don’t go against it!!! You can’t help getting the thoughts, but you don’t need to act on them!
@@megsyrecovery191 Yes, so true! That's why I'm eating a dessert on top now! :D
Just wanted to say that I’m traveling abroad for the first time and struggling immensely to keep up with my recovery but your videos have been encouraging me and pushing me to challenge ED and enjoy the amazing foods that this world has to offer. Thank you for sharing your experiences, journey, and advice ❤️
Oh Meg, I am sorry you are going through this right now. This was a brilliant topic and right on cue! What you said about deciphering thoughts which is difficult as they are so close to our 'normal' thoughts and so deeply ingrained, and believing they are absolute truth really resonated. The dialogue you described between your reason and the AN reason is exactly what has been going on in my head these past few weeks! Keep battling xxx p.s. I'm exactly the same before I am weighed! Why can this anxiety take up a whole week of our life! Just for a number which will 'be' regardless of whether we know what it is or not!
Really pleased to see you back. Such helpful advice yet again, thank you so much.
I agree with some others regarding blind weighing. I don’t find scales helpful and we have survived 1000’s of years without scales so why do we have to have them now!!
I'm so happy you posted a video because I've relapsed lately and I need a little push to get back on my recovery track
I’m so sorry to hear about your family and glad you were there for them. I relate 100% to the DVD that plays, and for me it comes out automatically when anxiety comes into my life. It’s like, the DVD is trying to protect me, my emotions, by preoccupying my mind with food and weight thoughts. Sometimes I don’t even realize the DVD is back on and I fall into some old restrictions. Then, once the anxiety situation is passed, my lightbulb comes on and I’m like, WTF! What am I doing!?! So much of my ED is mental. I loved how you stop the DVD thoughts! “Feel shit and do it anyways!” So good to see you back!! 😁💕
What is dvd? Like an actual movie?
It’s good to have you back Megsy. You are headed in the right direction in challenging yourself with opposite actions!! Go girl go!!
Please be careful about weighing yourself next week. In my opinion it does more harm than good. What good will benefit you from knowing your weight?
If necessary do a blind weigh in.
If that dvd is playing in your head then you don’t want to give it any more ammunition/power to keep playing.
I have learned a lot from your journey thank you for being open and sharing
Accidentally, I just discovered the thing you're talking about and I totally agree with you! Going through your ED mindset and ignore this is hard, but in long term it will be better and give you more happiness and positivity.
What helps me to go against my thoughts is to do some activity to relax my body, like yoga or go outside for a walk. Because my body is relaxing, my mind is full of thoughts and every attention goes to my head. It'll give the ED all time and space to let me know what he/she wants me to do or don't. I let those thoughts go through my head, just when I give rest to my body. And then when I'm done or I come back home, that's where I want to finish the thoughts and I say to my head "OK, ED, I've heard all you've been graving for and all the demands you throw in my face. But, I'm not gonna do that'.
Besides, I really think you're a wonderfull and beautiful woman. I like to see those sparkles in your eyes and I love to listen to you and watch your channel
Whoever doesn’t eat something eat something sweet after each meal (specially chocolate!)is no human 😂 so proud ♥️
Mariam Piruz 😂😂 agree!
Mariam Piruz I HAVE to have something sweet after a meal!!
THANK YOU. Most insightful and wonderful video. I am a moderator on What Mia Did Next's forum and we love your content over there. This video is VERY helpful for those struggling in recovery. I'll be passing it on. Thank you Megsie! xoxoxox
Bins Q ahhh good for you!!! Love her back 💛 hope it can help xxx
So good to see you back. I have literally been worried as to why there had been no you tube videos!! So sorry to hear that your dad is unwell. Thank you so much for the helpful advice!!! Xx
Awww hope all is OK with your family meg god bless them❤So glad you have posted this today thank you so much meg xx 😙
Just had a takeaway pizza for dinner and despite craving and wanting something sweet, my head has been screaming at me telling me all sorts of nasty things. Watching this video was so helpful and reminded me that just because I may be having these thoughts, it doesn't mean that I have to give in to them. Thank you for continuously setting me straight in my recovery and encouraging me to chase after what I really want in life, freedom. xxx (p.s - i'm off to get some chocolate right away)
Hannah Graham exactlyyyyy!! You’ve got it. You can’t help getting the thoughts, but you don’t need to act ok them xxx
Missed you. Happy to see you back and omg. Yes. That stupid DVD. Same!
Love whatmiadidnext too! You're both so awesome and great examples of recovery! Could you explain the "bones" part of your mantra?
Really helpful - lovely to have you back Meg xx
I am happy you are back here posting video for us, may be for your self too. You are doing well. I wish everything is ok in your family. Today, I was proud of me as yesterday, my parents told me - hey, it is going to be nice sunny day tomorrow, what about going to our Cottage with us? First I told no....(DVD - oh, we are going for lunch to restaurant, oh, they will controll me, oh there is going to be coffee and mums cake later in the garden, and oh, I can only sit in the garden without moving at all as I have to walk with crutches (because of my leg ache)....but then I decided to go...And it was nice, I enjoyed the day, I managed lunch (dinner in our country is served at noon) in the restaurant and tea in the afternoon. I nearly spent the sunny day at home only because the fear of food and reactions of the others.....Which is what DVD and ED want, but not me...:-)
Anyway...I also have to think about....where it the border between "ill" and "healthy" thinking? I mean it is normal, among healthy people, that they feel full, bloated, or only feel discomford as they gained 3 kgs recently...and they have only light salad, or joghurt, or some fruit just to feel ok again and it is as normal as overeat sometimes. I wonder, if it is not also normal for former ED people? Or does it mean that I have no right having only salad for lunch or miss breakfast sometimes? Does it mean that I can never try to loose weight if I gain 5 kgs during X- mass time and dont feel good with them?....I mean I want to be free in all directions. To eat, sleep, read, laugh, cry more or less if I want....what do you thing about this?
Im so happy your back Meg! ❤❤❤
Welcome back. Such s great vlog, so helpful and insightful. 😊
this was so helpful, thank you for producing these videos! all the best :)
Your videos are always helpful! thank you very much! I love you girl :)
Love your videos! It really helps me in recovery, to see that other people have the same thoughts as me, and how they deal with it. Did you find your ring back?
Ah this is so helpful!!! I really needed to hear this. Thank you!!!
Sometimes you have to let your ED thoughts speak and be unconditionally present and loving with them and let these thoughts unravel and reveal the true insecurities behind them, the insecurities and shadows that it was trying to protect. It's good to focus positively but sometimes when you completely resist and deny and push those thoughts away you push them into your subconscious, and they end up coming out in the sneakiest of ways and you can end up relapsing again. Of course you need to be in a right state of mind and a right place in your recovery to start to dive back into those thought patterns and uncover what's behind them without letting them trigger you. But just sitting down and asking yourself "Alright, I'm listening, what is it that you are protecting? Why are you afraid?"
Your ED thoughts are literally parts of you that are terrified and scared. It's a part of you that's like a child who just wants security and comfort and you're pushing it away and so it's trying to get your attention in the most nastiest of ways.
At some point you need to face your ED head on and with love, really listen and be compassionate with it and take it as part of yourself, because it is just a part of yourself. When you can do that it won't have a reason to seek that control and power over you any longer.
Thank you for sharing this, Your videos are so helpful! Btw you’re so pretty!☺️💕
Really helpful video. I keep forgetting to do opposite actions in the moment. My brain tricks me like "oh it isn't really restriction, you're just not hungry right now" and then it snowballs into more restriction :/
I am exactly struggling with the same problem. One day it's fine, but the following even worse. ..:/ the Videos always helping me to think about my handlings and what i am actually fighting for. :) lots of love and energy! !
I think the idea of “monitoring” for my DVD helped me, & that step one of IDENTIFY when it’s playing. Which is so hard because it just feels like reality, doesn’t feel like ED thoughts. Like you say you just think “I’m not that hungry” or whatever; but it’s thoughts & behaviours like that that keep you trapped in your ED for years!!!
Saaaaaame!! Always need something sweet after a meal!!🥰
Amazing video as always. Have you ever read the book life without ED By Jenni Schaefer. In her book she talks abit about what you have explained. She describes it as disagree and disobey. So if you have the eating disorder thoughts you should disagree and disobey what it tells you to do. It is a good read and sounds like it may resonate with you by what you say in this video. Xxx
what is the song that you use in the intro to your videos?? also you inspire me so much!! so happy I found your videos :)
Marissa Todd fleetwood mac, everywhere 💛
Megsy Recovery i love fleetwood mac, thank you!!
Yaaaaay she’s back 😊🙌💓
But the thing is that it is so much easier to give into the E.D thoughts. I have moments during the day where I’m all in for recovery and I make myself food and eat it then feel good about it. Then later on I think about the food and think about the actions I took and feel so guilty. It’s like my body wants to recover to get back to where I was. But my mind is so freaking attached to it. It’s my best friend. I don’t want to loose my best friend
I am going to remember this opposite actions on my meal out tonight.... it’s playing on me more than normal xx
Am I dreaming when I thought I read on insta that something happened to once of the cats? Regardless I am happy to see them both happy and healthy!!
I think Beyonce was missing for a few days a while back? Love those cats!
Ella you’re exactly right. We came down one morning & she’d run away over night. Some of the neighbourhood kids found her 💛
I am so glad she is okay and also glad I was not just dreaming about your cats hahahaha. Animals are so precious and the best companions! ❤️
I get the whole body image triggering fear ! I do not want to know my weight when I have weighs in s however just the act of facing the scale throws me! Do you actually know your weight when you go ? I wonder how many others are like me and afraid of being told the number
Thanku meg but i do have a question. I have been restricting for like 2 days as in eating nothing then ill get up during the middle of the night and eat all the wrong food ice-cream cheesecake pastries. I have been doing this for a couple of weeks. I have been in recovery for just over 12months and i am at a healthy weight and i am so scared of gaining more weight. Please any advice?
Plus sweets topic - I have something sweet every single day - usually for afternoon snack. I do not know, but I just feel I need energy during afternoon, I do not feel like having dark bread with cheese and salad...I prefer ice cream, buisquits, chocholate, sweet pudding or at least granola. Sources in magazines or internet say - you should only have sweet e-g once a week as a "cheat day" ..but I hate "cheat day" expression as it sounds like having chocolate is something sinful and worth of regret. But I thing it is "shit-claim", If I eat regularly, mostly proper varied food, then to eat a small part of it "unhealthy" (what is unhealthy??) is not problém. And what is more, it makes me happy, gives me energy and pleasure, which is definitelly super healthy :-)
Wheres ur top from? Its so nice!!..
I get my period, but im underweight. Can you tell me what it means, please?
사랑해Kim Jisang I cant really comment on individual cases because I’m not medically trained & don’t know you. Hope you can go to a doctor for some medical advice 😘
@@megsyrecovery191 Thank you for answering 💜
It is much more common than once thought for people to never lose their period whilst in their ED (even at extremely low weights) and to have return of menses whilst still very underweight. This is why amenorrhoea is no longer one of the diagnostic criteria for anorexia nervosa. I hope this helps xx
@@rachel.c.p9302 Thank you 💜
@@played_in_minorkeys I am still gaining weight. Thank you for answering 💜
I find that instead of blocking thoughts, which seems to make me focus on them more making them stronger, I try to just acknowledge them and let them go. I found this to be super helpful - imagining yourself placing them on a leaf and watching them float away down a stream ua-cam.com/video/vjKltKKSur8/v-deo.html
Oh and you could consider not looking at your weight Monday? So like standing on the scale backwards for example. Not knowing it can also be uncomfortable, but I know seeing my weight can really trigger me. Good luck anyway! Whatever your weight is, you are doing the right thing!!!!
MHN de Wit yeh I’d kind of like to but my psychologist doesn’t want me to become avoidant of it. It’s a tough one isn’t it 🤷♀️
haha, I go to my doctor on Monday too and he will control my weight too :-))) I gained 6 kgs from January, but I am happy with it as I was sickly underweight. But to be honest, as I am gaining more and more, I start to look at me in the mirror to touch my belly fat and thinking of what if I will gaining forever. Anyway, I also want to know how I weight, I just feel mature enough or self confident, simply I want to be ok with my weight. I would feel like insane not knowig it..
I hope you don't mind me offering my opinion on your current situation..? Have you considered the biological underpinnings of your increased ED thoughts (naturally, a psychologist would not point these out or even be aware of them, but if you watch Tabitha Farrar's videos, she explains this really well)? Did you unintentionally restrict when travelling back to England (this can happen so easily, especially when experiencing higher than normal levels of stress)? If so, the recent escalation in food preoccupation could be a result of calorie deficit while you were away (which has not yet been made up). Also, you often mention that you're at a "healthy weight" but (and I'm pretty sure you're aware of this) the BMI scale is bullshit! Whilst I agree that it takes time for the old DVD to quieten down after years of it ruling your mind, I also know that, if your body is not yet at the weight that it healthy for YOU, your brain will still be a slave to food thoughts. Lots of love xx
Yep, agree with BMI bullshit. I’m “healthy” but not necessarily where my body wants to be. I really like Tabitha & my psychologist recommended her to me, but the biological migration thingy doesn’t really resonate that well with me. Movement has never been a thing for me for example. But otherwise I find her perspective great!
Megsy Recovery Agree. I take what I find fitting from Tabitha and leave the rest. Remembering it’s not black and white and she’s also not a therapist or a registered dietician.