The idea of a ‘small and neat bump’ is so peculiar haha - it’s the last thing that should be aestheticised, it’s a baby in it’s home. Brilliant video as always Meg ❤️
I'm so so proud of you Meg! I've been with your channel since the beginning and you have influenced me so much! I'm now fully recovered, moved away from home with a full time job and my own flat. I'm so happy I've managed to kick my ED's butt and prove I don't need to be skinny to be happy! Love ya ❤
Meg, you’re my favorite channel on UA-cam!! Your videos are so helpful, honest, and positive. I never feel like I’m watching someone put on a show. You’re very real and relatable 💜
Bringing the glucose drink to our attention is so important, so thank you for that Meg - what you say about it being a routine medical procedure is something to remember and can be applied to other medical circumstances too. Thank you for sharing your meals, snacks and wardrobe with us, these things are surprisingly helpful! x
@@megsyrecovery191 Oh for sure! As elements of anorexia - the thought processes, the behaviours - are pretty similar for everyone with it, we will likely react the same way in similar circumstances! So it is good to be mentally prepared :) especially as during our lives we will likely encounter scenarios, whether it is a medial test, giving blood or something else, that requires us to consume something that will set ED off!
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences. So much of what you shared is relatable. I am currently 16 weeks pregnant with my first child, and I too have a history of an eating disorder. It helps to see someone who is further along. Keep up the fantastic work. Your baby is lucky to have you
Samantha Hewitt hope the videos help. It can be a difficult time with so much body change, but also biggest reason ever to surrender to our bodies & let them do their thing 🥰👶🏼
My sis is pregnant and she DOESN’T have an ED, yet she is still stressed that because she’s curvy, she’s not going to have that cute pregnant girl figure where they look “skinny all over with just a perfectly cute basketball in front.” It’s crazy how prevalent these expectations are in women’s minds
Being obsessed with wellness and health for the baby is how I relapsed during my third trimester with my second pregnancy. Thank the Lord my baby is healthy and happy (and almost a year old! Wow) Diet/wellness culture is a snake that gets praised by the masses. I wish my physician had been as concerned with my lack of weight gain as she would have been had I gained “too much” weight. ♥️ you are a blessing for speaking on this topic and I hope it helps young moms who need it!
Mommy Dearest I can so see how it would happen. I’m going to hypnobirthing class this week & one of the ore exercises is diet & exercise planning. I’m like WHY?!?!? Get out of my nutrition, you don’t know my situation 🤣 hope you are both doing well now 😘😘😘😘
First, I love your videos. You are such an inspiration, and have so many positive ways of looking at very challenging situations. I can not tell you how many times I have said to myself.... "Food is just food, Food is just food". Following you has been a huge inspiration for me. I have been in and out of recovery for the last 7 years, and anorexic for for over 15 years. I was very sick with my last pregnancy, and had my daughter very early at 30 weeks. She was tiny and stayed in the hospital for a very long time, but is a very healthy, happy 10 year old now. Cheers to you, I love watching your strength and dedication to being recovered. And now it's not only for you, but your little blessing too. Thanks for the encouragement you give, without even knowing who it helps.
You are SUCH a blessing. Are you sick of me saying that yet haha. I really needed this-I usually do-but lately I’ve found myself obsessing about wellness because of some health issues that have sprung up. The hard thing is once you go down that road of restricting a food group or creating a new “rule” OMG is it hard to get away-just after TWO days. Saw my psychologist yesterday and your wisdom keeping me on track-going right back to challenging these behaviors.
Thank you so much for doing pregnancy videos! I've been in a rather bumpy recovery for 2 years and my husband and I really want to have a baby next year and I have been so triggered by wanting to have a "prefect" pregnancy, which I know literally doesn't exist! Anyway, to prepare I am slowly replacing all of my clothes with clothes that I can wear before I am pregnant, while I am pregnant, and after I am pregnant so that I don't get triggered by weight gain or weight loss. Growing in or out of clothes has always been my biggest trigger.
It is Friday evening and Im winding down with just listening you talking. It is so nice. I am going to see my doctor in a week and I am stressed so this really helps. Hope to see more videos!
So I unfollowed you like a year ago because I struggle with binge eating and your food posts were triggering to me. Today I missed you and looked you up. In the lapse of 10 minutes I found out you were pregnant and I was so so happy to hear that... and then I see you lost your beautiful baby boy. I almost cannot believe it... like... I am so so very sorry Megs, I wish you strength and love.
I think you're really strong. The thoughts of the ED will pull you down, but you keep yourself and the babies health at first place and those are the most important things. Out of my view, I don't think you really gained weight. Yes, on the scale it looks like you did, but in reality I think those pounds are a lot of liquid and water. The baby needs a bed of water around it to keep it save against external actions to your body. And you will also have some more liquid in your own body so you're save against the world yourself. Your body really wants you two to be protected. It's natural. And after the baby is born, you will lose a lot of water, but also keep some to give breastmilk. Those pounds you've 'gained' aren't fat. It's all prepared to be a good and healthy mom to give life to her baby.
Romy Thuy yep, combination of baby, fluids, & also fat because that’s what your body needs for a healthy pregnancy. This is just my pregnancy bod & it’ll help a healthy happy baby to grow 🕺
Thank you Meg for a wonderful video. I wish I could’ve watched this when I was pregnant with my babies. It’s so helpful and insightful. You’re going to be a fantastic Mum! I love your outfits too! Take care dear, D xx
I restricted when I was pregnant. I remember that I literally just given birth and I refused the tea and toast because I thought of the calories. That’s so so rubbish and so sad
Kate Spalding bless you. Such a good example of how an ED feels like what you need to do at the time, but then you look back & think what was I thinking!!?!
hey meg just a tip with iron - consume it with lots of vitamin c to help absorption and try not to mix it with calcium sources as it inhibits iron absorption!
Just been watching a video from over a year ago so will be interested to see the progress in your mindset and attitude to food and your body etc as the video I watched you were struggling with the weight gain and calories in fluid and reasons not to run back to anorexia as a quick fix. I would say being pregnant is so much more important than being skinny again 🤗❤️ Bertie is so cute!! Urgh why do people feel it's their right to comment on the size of the bump 🙈 really hope you don't get the urge to compare with your work colleague!! Be strong. You've worked so hard for this 💪 #lifegoals So glamorous even in your maternity gear, bless you xx you looked pretty in the dress you wore for brunch ❤️ I don't tend to comment on appearance as I don't know how helpful it is. I just did because you showed us your outfit xx I honestly think that you are rationalising things out so well. I can imagine the triggers are such a nightmare and can imagine there's so many. Keep strong Meg. Watching your recovery journey is so so helpful ❤️❤️❤️
Clare Watt really glad it can help. & yes, I guess there’s triggers all over the place in life. I try to think it’s ok to find something triggering (we can’t be wrapped in cotton wool), but it’s not ok to act on it 😘😘
@@megsyrecovery191 yes that is so so true. We need to be exposed to triggers and make the choice not to act on it!! ❤️❤️❤️ Also in my initial comment I meant to say that being pregnant is more important than being TOO skinny again, as that is what you were talking about in the video from a year ago. About wanting to run back to being 'a skinny mini in skinny jeans. But reading my comment back just now it sounded kinda insensitive out of context, I'm so sorry!! 🙈🙈🙈
Love you so much and i am struggling so hard recovering (5 days in) from my current relapse and having severe refeeding syndrom and i literally binge watch your videos every single day for hours and have been for 2 months nkw because its the only thing that helps amd everyone else around me is so ingrained in diet culture and/or are on diets so thank you so much💞💞💞 also something that may helo you with gaining pregnancy weight is not just for a helthy baby but for stronger anf healthier you so your body can handle labor and child birth!💞 so much love to you 💞💞 and again THNAK YOU💞💞
I actually lost my insurance recently and (very similar to your story) the specialized treatment i need is hours away from me. And my husband won't allow me to go into the level of treatment they will only take me in, which is residental. But your videos and experts on IG are actually SO helpful so i am going about this on my own and i was hospitalized in the exact same way you were when you were 15 (it shook me how similar our stories are) and the dr told me i was going to die no matter what they could do for me. And since then I've done so much research and i believe i have every tool i need to have a succesful recovery because of you and Jennifer Rollins on IG💞 (sorry for the "waffle"😉😋)
I remember having some gastrointestinal tests and had to eat a radioactive omelette and a glass of orange juice for one (gastric emptying test) and a fortisip for another one (where they were measuring different pressures in my stomach during digestion and whether I had normal digestive cycles) I had the same panic as the glucose drink experience. However managed to stop the trigger going further and recognise it was for medical reasons!!!! (so hard though)
Hi Meg! Thanks soo much for the video, it was very helpful as always! I was just thinking, if you have time, could you talk about how to move away from exchanges (if you had any) on a meal plan without getting restrictive? I struggle so much with that because I feel like I have to follow exactly the number of items on my mp (which is NOT a nice way to eat) or else I don’t know how to eat. PS: what’s the name of the lovely guitar music around 7 minutes ? Always makes me so happy and emotional when I hear it. Thanks xx
I'm not even pregnant but the phlebotomist made me have the glucose drink because I was faint after a blood test. Had the exact same reaction to you and felt so tempted not to drink it haha. But you gotta do what's right for your bod hey.
It is so sad how womens bodies are always up for discussion but especially during pregnancy people think they can comment on it even more than normal and it is just so horrible.
Please help I just drank the WRONG soda!!!! I didn’t see that it was a regular coke I thought it was a Diet Coke and I had the whole bottle and now I feel fat and disgusting and I’m panicking because I feel like it was a waste of calories, please help how do I cope with this
Courtney you will be okay, take some deep breathes, write how you feel and listen to a relaxing meditation. Don’t dwell on it, I’m sorry that happened and you panicked. You will not blow up or become “big” you are still you ❤️ you’re still alive and healthy, I promise
Don't compensate, the feeling will pass. The more you listen to that ed voice the stronger it will get and you HAVE to fight it so you can focus on more exciting things that won't hurt your body
I’ve done that before: thing is what do you think about me drinking a real coke? Fine right? Or your friends. It’s no different for you! & when you look back on your life cans of coke won’t be what’s important. Don’t let the anxiety get to you now. If anything go & have another bottle; & another tomorrow, & the next day, & prove to yourself that nothing bad happens. It’s only fear in your head!!
It's very personal....and what if she feels that she doesn't have anymore an ed because her behaviors and thoughts and feeling have improved so so much and she's doing good since more than 2 years. She can decides how she express herself.
@@oripii I totally agree and Meg helped me tremendously through my journey. I feel like she's one of my best friends, and this illness didn't leave me much friends so it takes even a bigger place in my life, but still, for me personally, saying ed history when she has an ed is really triggering.
@@DOdO-_ I agree. Meg is the only one deciding how to Express herself, and I by no means trying to say she should do things differently but for me its triggering.
For a lot of people (and me) saying you have an eating disorder can keep the narrative open in your head that relapse is still an option that will happen again in the future and shutting that down is another way to stay safe. For me those behaviours belong in my history, not my present. I guess everyone has different perspectives but part of ed recovery is finding ways to tolerate the things that trigger you without acting on them, until they stop triggering you emotionally.
Yeh guess everyone is different looking at these comments. Thing is I don’t really feel fully anorexic now. I did for months, but that label doesn’t feel like it fits any more. I’ll ALWAYS have to be conscious of it & never go back to restricting. But yeh I don’t feel anorexic now (I mean in my head too, not physically)
The idea of a ‘small and neat bump’ is so peculiar haha - it’s the last thing that should be aestheticised, it’s a baby in it’s home. Brilliant video as always Meg ❤️
Ally yep, I don’t think Instagram & social media helps. People just love to comment on your bump, & it’s size 🙈
I'm so so proud of you Meg! I've been with your channel since the beginning and you have influenced me so much! I'm now fully recovered, moved away from home with a full time job and my own flat. I'm so happy I've managed to kick my ED's butt and prove I don't need to be skinny to be happy! Love ya ❤
Madeline Wilson awwww well done you!!! That’s amazing. Sounds like life has opened up so much for you! Keep living it & ignoring the ED niggles 😘😘
Meg, you’re my favorite channel on UA-cam!! Your videos are so helpful, honest, and positive. I never feel like I’m watching someone put on a show. You’re very real and relatable 💜
Brooklyn Beyer aww thanks pal. There’s nothing fun about recovery, so hopefully the videos reflect that but also show it’s possible 😘😘
Bringing the glucose drink to our attention is so important, so thank you for that Meg - what you say about it being a routine medical procedure is something to remember and can be applied to other medical circumstances too. Thank you for sharing your meals, snacks and wardrobe with us, these things are surprisingly helpful! x
H ahh good. It’s hard to know what to put into these vids & I know everyone’s experience is so different. Hopefully there’s something relatable though
@@megsyrecovery191 Oh for sure! As elements of anorexia - the thought processes, the behaviours - are pretty similar for everyone with it, we will likely react the same way in similar circumstances! So it is good to be mentally prepared :) especially as during our lives we will likely encounter scenarios, whether it is a medial test, giving blood or something else, that requires us to consume something that will set ED off!
Meg, you're going to be an amazing mum!
ClandestineGirl16X awww thanks, I’m so excited for it 😘
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences. So much of what you shared is relatable. I am currently 16 weeks pregnant with my first child, and I too have a history of an eating disorder. It helps to see someone who is further along. Keep up the fantastic work. Your baby is lucky to have you
Samantha Hewitt hope the videos help. It can be a difficult time with so much body change, but also biggest reason ever to surrender to our bodies & let them do their thing 🥰👶🏼
My sis is pregnant and she DOESN’T have an ED, yet she is still stressed that because she’s curvy, she’s not going to have that cute pregnant girl figure where they look “skinny all over with just a perfectly cute basketball
in front.” It’s crazy how prevalent these expectations are in women’s minds
Being obsessed with wellness and health for the baby is how I relapsed during my third trimester with my second pregnancy. Thank the Lord my baby is healthy and happy (and almost a year old! Wow) Diet/wellness culture is a snake that gets praised by the masses. I wish my physician had been as concerned with my lack of weight gain as she would have been had I gained “too much” weight. ♥️ you are a blessing for speaking on this topic and I hope it helps young moms who need it!
Mommy Dearest I can so see how it would happen. I’m going to hypnobirthing class this week & one of the ore exercises is diet & exercise planning. I’m like WHY?!?!? Get out of my nutrition, you don’t know my situation 🤣 hope you are both doing well now 😘😘😘😘
Blah! I’m sorry to hear that. And, Thank you! All is well. 😊
You are doing fabulously. You're a normal human being who is trying so hard for the health of your baby & in deed, yourself. Much love. Alison xx
First, I love your videos. You are such an inspiration, and have so many positive ways of looking at very challenging situations. I can not tell you how many times I have said to myself.... "Food is just food, Food is just food". Following you has been a huge inspiration for me. I have been in and out of recovery for the last 7 years, and anorexic for for over 15 years. I was very sick with my last pregnancy, and had my daughter very early at 30 weeks. She was tiny and stayed in the hospital for a very long time, but is a very healthy, happy 10 year old now. Cheers to you, I love watching your strength and dedication to being recovered. And now it's not only for you, but your little blessing too. Thanks for the encouragement you give, without even knowing who it helps.
You are SUCH a blessing. Are you sick of me saying that yet haha. I really needed this-I usually do-but lately I’ve found myself obsessing about wellness because of some health issues that have sprung up. The hard thing is once you go down that road of restricting a food group or creating a new “rule” OMG is it hard to get away-just after TWO days. Saw my psychologist yesterday and your wisdom keeping me on track-going right back to challenging these behaviors.
Thank you so much for doing pregnancy videos! I've been in a rather bumpy recovery for 2 years and my husband and I really want to have a baby next year and I have been so triggered by wanting to have a "prefect" pregnancy, which I know literally doesn't exist! Anyway, to prepare I am slowly replacing all of my clothes with clothes that I can wear before I am pregnant, while I am pregnant, and after I am pregnant so that I don't get triggered by weight gain or weight loss. Growing in or out of clothes has always been my biggest trigger.
It is Friday evening and Im winding down with just listening you talking. It is so nice. I am going to see my doctor in a week and I am stressed so this really helps. Hope to see more videos!
So I unfollowed you like a year ago because I struggle with binge eating and your food posts were triggering to me. Today I missed you and looked you up. In the lapse of 10 minutes I found out you were pregnant and I was so so happy to hear that... and then I see you lost your beautiful baby boy. I almost cannot believe it... like... I am so so very sorry Megs, I wish you strength and love.
I think you're really strong. The thoughts of the ED will pull you down, but you keep yourself and the babies health at first place and those are the most important things. Out of my view, I don't think you really gained weight. Yes, on the scale it looks like you did, but in reality I think those pounds are a lot of liquid and water. The baby needs a bed of water around it to keep it save against external actions to your body. And you will also have some more liquid in your own body so you're save against the world yourself. Your body really wants you two to be protected. It's natural. And after the baby is born, you will lose a lot of water, but also keep some to give breastmilk. Those pounds you've 'gained' aren't fat. It's all prepared to be a good and healthy mom to give life to her baby.
Romy Thuy yep, combination of baby, fluids, & also fat because that’s what your body needs for a healthy pregnancy. This is just my pregnancy bod & it’ll help a healthy happy baby to grow 🕺
Your skin is glowing! You look great!
I wish this had been around when I had my babies
Brilliant, wise and sensitive video as always. Thank you x
Kate Spalding thanks; I’m sure I missed loads of things. But it’s just based on my own experience
Thank you Meg for a wonderful video. I wish I could’ve watched this when I was pregnant with my babies. It’s so helpful and insightful. You’re going to be a fantastic Mum! I love your outfits too! Take care dear, D xx
I restricted when I was pregnant. I remember that I literally just given birth and I refused the tea and toast because I thought of the calories. That’s so so rubbish and so sad
Kate Spalding bless you. Such a good example of how an ED feels like what you need to do at the time, but then you look back & think what was I thinking!!?!
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hey meg just a tip with iron - consume it with lots of vitamin c to help absorption and try not to mix it with calcium sources as it inhibits iron absorption!
Love you and you look GLOWING 😍😍😍 amd beautiful. You are so smart and strong. Sending virtual hugs
Rita Kryczka aww thank you. I looked like a zombie for MONTHS 😂 so it’s nice to feel a bit better 🙌
Just been watching a video from over a year ago so will be interested to see the progress in your mindset and attitude to food and your body etc as the video I watched you were struggling with the weight gain and calories in fluid and reasons not to run back to anorexia as a quick fix. I would say being pregnant is so much more important than being skinny again 🤗❤️
Bertie is so cute!!
Urgh why do people feel it's their right to comment on the size of the bump 🙈 really hope you don't get the urge to compare with your work colleague!! Be strong. You've worked so hard for this 💪 #lifegoals
So glamorous even in your maternity gear, bless you xx you looked pretty in the dress you wore for brunch ❤️ I don't tend to comment on appearance as I don't know how helpful it is. I just did because you showed us your outfit xx
I honestly think that you are rationalising things out so well. I can imagine the triggers are such a nightmare and can imagine there's so many. Keep strong Meg. Watching your recovery journey is so so helpful ❤️❤️❤️
Clare Watt really glad it can help. & yes, I guess there’s triggers all over the place in life. I try to think it’s ok to find something triggering (we can’t be wrapped in cotton wool), but it’s not ok to act on it 😘😘
@@megsyrecovery191 yes that is so so true. We need to be exposed to triggers and make the choice not to act on it!! ❤️❤️❤️ Also in my initial comment I meant to say that being pregnant is more important than being TOO skinny again, as that is what you were talking about in the video from a year ago. About wanting to run back to being 'a skinny mini in skinny jeans. But reading my comment back just now it sounded kinda insensitive out of context, I'm so sorry!! 🙈🙈🙈
Love you so much and i am struggling so hard recovering (5 days in) from my current relapse and having severe refeeding syndrom and i literally binge watch your videos every single day for hours and have been for 2 months nkw because its the only thing that helps amd everyone else around me is so ingrained in diet culture and/or are on diets so thank you so much💞💞💞 also something that may helo you with gaining pregnancy weight is not just for a helthy baby but for stronger anf healthier you so your body can handle labor and child birth!💞 so much love to you 💞💞 and again THNAK YOU💞💞
Recovery Warriorette good luck for your recovery!! Hope you’re getting some good help 😘😘
I actually lost my insurance recently and (very similar to your story) the specialized treatment i need is hours away from me. And my husband won't allow me to go into the level of treatment they will only take me in, which is residental. But your videos and experts on IG are actually SO helpful so i am going about this on my own and i was hospitalized in the exact same way you were when you were 15 (it shook me how similar our stories are) and the dr told me i was going to die no matter what they could do for me. And since then I've done so much research and i believe i have every tool i need to have a succesful recovery because of you and Jennifer Rollins on IG💞 (sorry for the "waffle"😉😋)
I remember having some gastrointestinal tests and had to eat a radioactive omelette and a glass of orange juice for one (gastric emptying test) and a fortisip for another one (where they were measuring different pressures in my stomach during digestion and whether I had normal digestive cycles) I had the same panic as the glucose drink experience. However managed to stop the trigger going further and recognise it was for medical reasons!!!! (so hard though)
Radioactive omelet???
Hard, but also looking back totally fine. We both lived to tell the tale 🙌
Hi Meg! Thanks soo much for the video, it was very helpful as always! I was just thinking, if you have time, could you talk about how to move away from exchanges (if you had any) on a meal plan without getting restrictive? I struggle so much with that because I feel like I have to follow exactly the number of items on my mp (which is NOT a nice way to eat) or else I don’t know how to eat. PS: what’s the name of the lovely guitar music around 7 minutes ? Always makes me so happy and emotional when I hear it. Thanks xx
Bren babies bones!!! Ah im so excited for you 💖💖💖💖
Great video
Love this so much💗💗
Great vid! Are you still seeing your psychologist during this time?
Hilary Thomson yes, but only every 2 weeks now. We don’t really have as much to talk about, but I so so so appreciate having her to keep me on track
Meg you look gorgeous in your dress xxx
When you opened the drawer full of striped shirts it was like looking into a mirror- I'm obsessed w stripes too lol
cassie hahahaha love a stripe!!!
Did you say you read Emily Osters book?
You look gorgeous with you dress..
I'm not even pregnant but the phlebotomist made me have the glucose drink because I was faint after a blood test. Had the exact same reaction to you and felt so tempted not to drink it haha. But you gotta do what's right for your bod hey.
Olivia Pirie yep, totally. & we both lived to tell the tale 😉
Did you have the baby yet🤷🏻♀️
It is so sad how womens bodies are always up for discussion but especially during pregnancy people think they can comment on it even more than normal and it is just so horrible.
You are such a good person. Love the dress..I'd wear it not pregnant
Please help I just drank the WRONG soda!!!! I didn’t see that it was a regular coke I thought it was a Diet Coke and I had the whole bottle and now I feel fat and disgusting and I’m panicking because I feel like it was a waste of calories, please help how do I cope with this
Courtney you will be okay, take some deep breathes, write how you feel and listen to a relaxing meditation. Don’t dwell on it, I’m sorry that happened and you panicked. You will not blow up or become “big” you are still you ❤️ you’re still alive and healthy, I promise
Don't compensate, the feeling will pass. The more you listen to that ed voice the stronger it will get and you HAVE to fight it so you can focus on more exciting things that won't hurt your body
I’ve done that before: thing is what do you think about me drinking a real coke? Fine right? Or your friends. It’s no different for you! & when you look back on your life cans of coke won’t be what’s important. Don’t let the anxiety get to you now. If anything go & have another bottle; & another tomorrow, & the next day, & prove to yourself that nothing bad happens. It’s only fear in your head!!
Love you to pieces but most say- It triggers me when you say ed history. That's not history. You still have an ed.
It's very personal....and what if she feels that she doesn't have anymore an ed because her behaviors and thoughts and feeling have improved so so much and she's doing good since more than 2 years. She can decides how she express herself.
@@oripii I totally agree and Meg helped me tremendously through my journey. I feel like she's one of my best friends, and this illness didn't leave me much friends so it takes even a bigger place in my life, but still, for me personally, saying ed history when she has an ed is really triggering.
@@DOdO-_ I agree. Meg is the only one deciding how to Express herself, and I by no means trying to say she should do things differently but for me its triggering.
For a lot of people (and me) saying you have an eating disorder can keep the narrative open in your head that relapse is still an option that will happen again in the future and shutting that down is another way to stay safe. For me those behaviours belong in my history, not my present. I guess everyone has different perspectives but part of ed recovery is finding ways to tolerate the things that trigger you without acting on them, until they stop triggering you emotionally.
Yeh guess everyone is different looking at these comments. Thing is I don’t really feel fully anorexic now. I did for months, but that label doesn’t feel like it fits any more. I’ll ALWAYS have to be conscious of it & never go back to restricting. But yeh I don’t feel anorexic now (I mean in my head too, not physically)