UA-camrs like yourself and others talking about spiritual awakening are helping people to wake up.I am greatful that youtube doesnt ban you guys.Thanks Stephanie xx
I had a spiritual awakening seven years ago. ,one year ago I left all my toxic people in my life, it’s me and Jesus, and my dog now I’m finally finding healing peace and freedom hallelujah!!!
1 Feeling like crazy 2 Dark night off the soul 3 something in side pull you to other side 4 Learning 5 Detaching from the old to new you 6 you will see the world definitely
I’m so grateful🙏🏻 I guess, I have this dark night of the soul now. I feel scared… sometimes I feel like nothing is going to help me and something terrible is happening to me. But then I get some inner knowledge that I’m on the right path and need to go on! I pray, meditate or do anything to take care of myself. Though it sometimes feels like I’m alone in the world. Thank you and love many blessings to you and to everyone 🌸🙏🏻
Love following you. My Spiritual Awakening came 42 years ago when I was 25. The pain led me to God. Jesus came into my life and became my life. I believe this is the only True Spiritual Awakening. Keep up your great work 👍
There are many conscious beliefs I had that were challenged during the dark night, which was technically a dark almost two years. There is a massive difference between "knowing" and "understanding". Once I understood the things i (thought) I knew, it opened my eyes to a very different reality.
For myself, it was recent. After my five year relationship with my ex. It was the one relationship that literally brought me down to my knees. I didn't know anything about narcissism, empaths, my own wounds/triggers, and attachment theories until this relationship made me so confused. I'm still in it but each day is easier. It truly is dark night of the soul stage. Extremely painful.
I feel you.....all I can tell you is it gets easier. Time truely is a healer. It can feel extremely lonely and you will feel really misunderstood and like everyone thinks ur going off ur head but once you get that toxic bad apple out of your life you will heal. Just as a wound in your skin heals. Stay strong if your still going through it 💪 you got this and it may feel like the darkest loneliest time of your life but I assure you.m..when you come out the other end you will feel liberated xx
TY, My awakening taught me that gaslighting is when someone calls me selfish for practicing self care. How you treat yourself is an example to teach others how to treat you. I learned that most fear that I had was simply projections from external people. I just had to let it go. My awakening taught me that there is no room for apologies for saying NO and practicing self care. I have been through a few awakenings. The last one was latter part of 2019, I wouldn't be alive if I wouldn't have learned No and self care. It helped me release myself from codependency and being in all types of relationships where people wanted me to be dependent on them. I have always been a questioner. Many people would make me feel guilty for it. Many many circumstances led me to different types of awakenings. I'm thankful for now feeling comfortable being authentically myself and feeling fully comfortable in my own body. There was so much programming that I didn't agree with. I had to just release it. It didn't resonate with my core authentic self. Now, I can recognize patterns and work on them. Now, I am comfortable feeling all my emotions, so I can release them. Now, I recognize gaslighting and no longer allow others to make me feel inferior or that I have to acquiesce to their demands. I acknowledge and accept where they are and just let them be where they are. I'm not one who desire to control others. I desire them to make their own life choices. However, I do remove myself from abusive situations or one-sided activities that causes stagnation. I absolutely love to he rebuilding stage. I'm enjoying and excited about learning more about myself daily. Namaste 🕊️Peace🤸 Shalom 🐵
break up - seeking answers - knowing I am an empath - codependency - learning boundaries - understanding me and my negative beliefs- trauma bonds - becoming mindful - an addiction to learn about these new things - feeling awake - her journey has been the same as mine. Wow.
Every moment of unhappiness in our lives is asking us to change . Allow that change to happen. When we transform, we grow -- Maitreya Dadashreeji Love, peace and joy to everyone reading my comment❤️❤️❤️
This describes my journey the past two years! And it all started when I found your channel Stephanie and began working through my past, my toxic relationships and healing and growing. Different person completely now and so grateful for all of it! To anyone just starting out in this process..keep going, its so worth it!❤
You guys, to anyone who found this video because of the pain you felt needed explaining, you’re on your journey. I’ve reached the end, 5 years of being awoken, and I can tell you your soul DOES HEAL. I feel nostalgic watching a video like this again because I had no idea what narcissistic abuse was 5 years ago. No idea that I was an empath and my sensitivity was actually a GIFT. You will have to face your demons, that’s just unavoidable, but don’t be afraid of them. They’re demons of regret, remorse, hurt. Show them love and I GUARANTEE you’ll heal a part of yourself you forgot even existed. Live in Love Lights. ❤️
Thanks Stephanie! Thanks for your transparency! My spiritual journey was extremely dark! I realized I had nobody the whole time aside from my Mom. Hard but rewarding journey.
I've been following you since the start of my healing journey... End of 2020 & your content has been significantly impactful along the process!! I absolutely love your teachings!! ♥️♥️♥️ Forever grateful 🙌🏼
Hi Stephanie, thank you for your videos. I had a spiritual awakening about 7 years ago and I fell into a dark night of the soul about 5 years ago. My marriage fell apart and lost my dad just recently. The pain I’m going through and the traumas I keep processing feels never ending. I have so much sadness in my heart and sometimes I feel I will never feel happy again. I’m so unbelievably broken. Thank you for putting these videos out it certainly helps me feel not so lonely.
How should we go about teaching our children mental and emotional intelligence? I know parenting is a case by case situation but some tips would help. Thank you for this video Stephanie 💗
Hi Cassie, I found it helps to practice becoming honest with ourselves, it not only helps us navigate our situations, it provides the insight to help others. A way to practice this is to choose a common situation that we find ourselves in, for example - being a people pleaser, so when these situations arise, put a list of questions to yourself. Such as, how does this serve me, is this something I need to adjust, how does this affect my day, my mood? Keep asking ourselves, and encourage those you hope to influence, to stop and question their feelings and actions. All practice! Hope this helps!
I work on breathwork and affirmations with my children. Also a big believer in conscious parenting. From a young age working with my children to not project their pain or truth and not personalize another’s.
My divorce process was the catalyst for my spiritual awakening. The growth and manifestations have never stopped since. It’s like an obsession now. It is so difficult to live life with an awakened mindset after learning the truth. The key to staying positive after rising spiritually is to keep working until you accept the truth.
It is key to decide that we are ready to put our time and energy into the next layer of our growth. It forces us to take it seriously, and to plan an approach. A good entry point into the next breakthrough, is to spend time each day, asking ourselves questions - how will this serve me now, am I running away from something, am I afraid of opening up other possibilities for my life - THEN ALWAYS - do our best to answer these as honestly as we can.
Wow !!! I had the same experience for 2 or 3 years!!! I read tons of books and watched hundreds of videos!!! I had no idea that experience even had a name ! I analyzed so many factors of my past experiences… I agree! That’s hard, but you will be rewarded 💕💕💕
Thank you! I am in the closure phase, after that rebuilding. I am looking forward to that! Behind me are the most intense and hurtful two years of my life...sometimes it is really good not to know what is ahead of you, but every moment was worth the outcome. I am thankful to Jesus! Your videos helped me through the final phases! Now I understand....be blessed, Stephanie, beyond measure :)
I have been going through all of this and it is exactly as you have described it . I Thank you for your work, help and support from the bottom of my heart.
def going thru this. there are certain people, places and things that are no longer welcome in my life. i no longer find these things attractive or intriguing. i just want peace and to be surrounded with what is best for my life and growth.
I've faced that toxic relationship & i really felt that something isn't right & ultimately I broke up because I couldn't handle more pain emotionally. And now I'm on healing path. 🌼 I hope that everyone learn from these kind of situations. 🌻
This video is so positive and encouraging. This is exactly what I have been going through and this has encouraged me that I am so close to the fun bit. There is hope. Thank you 💜
My siblings stopped speaking to me 3 years ago because of a lifestyle choice. I believed that I was worthless for a long time. I found your video about self-soothing and I have not stopped learning since that day. I am so grateful for you and for the content you share. ❤
Seeking to understand things sometimes gets in the way of the lesson - as sometimes there is nothing to understand - but there is alway a lesson, so I like to ask "what is this here to teach me - what do I need to learn" ... it is with that perspective that helped me get out from underneath a bully at work and it gave me the power to step in and stand up for myself in new ways that actually had an impact! Such a powerful tool to look through the experiences as lessons
Very profound, thank you Stephanie. I am in my spiritual awakening currently. I have embraced it and am learning all the lessons that comes with it. It is not easy but this is proof that it is not a curse just a life transforming event.
So intetesting for you to use the term 'curse'. I was thinking I must be cursed based on on the constant grind of so much angst that I am currently experiencing.
When you get trought your spiritual awakening congratulate yourself because that is a taugh journey it won't be pain free but will free you from your limits. Live fully, Tatoo it for a daily reminder that YOU can overcome more than you think. Good luck yall 💓.
Thank you so much, Stephanie! I'm not sure if it was ever intended, for us to evolve spiritually, without doing the hard work to get there! The signs are many but it's what we do with the signs! It is inspirational for me to hear what you have done! 💞🙏
I needed this so much I’ve been feeling this way exactly for the past cpl months been watching so many of you videos thinking something was wrong with but no matter how depressed I’ve been I keep pushing forward knowing it’ll get better
Excellent video that brings more understanding... I was able to identify where I am at, between stages 3 & 4. Stephanie, thank you for being real in sharing some of your journey. I can easily connect with someone when they are authentic about their own life. I believe that is where true connection takes place. I was in denial about my dysf for years and didn't even know it. Knew on a deep level things didn't feel right, but the overwhelming sense of guilt (raised Catholic - "The Guilt Church") made it impossible for me to give myself permission to challenge the programming I received. I also didn't have the skills, tools as you mentioned The guilt was so strong it would push down any little awareness I might have had. But with events that happened in the course of my life, caused me to ask those deeper very important questions. When you get a taste of true freedom there is no going back, only a desire to stay on the path to be our freer, fuller more expansive selves. AND I want to add the importance of surrounding ourselves with the right people who support our level of freedom and truly applaud our progress and who encourage us too! Vitally important the company we keep
for me it was (and still is to some extent) the biggest state of confusion i have ever been in. i cannot explain any of it. cannot explain why i feel the way i do. i am (currently) detaching from long time friends-- friends who have done no wrong to me! i view them in a new light- a light i do not want to have anything to do with! now i am reading, searching for information. beginning to see some light and understand. so glad i found this channel!
Stephanie a few years back during lockdown I went through my own troubled time. My narcissistic wife up and left and I was in a pretty dark place… it took a while but I learnt a lot about npd and even did your online programme to help heal as well as a bunch of therapy etc. during the therapy I learnt I too am a highly sensitive person and an empath and about a year and a half ago I underwent a spiritual awakening , learning a lot and as part of this journey have also undertaken a pathway into reiki healing where I’m a reiki master and practitioner. I feel like I understand so much more about this life, our energy, our power and the power to shift and change. If it hadn’t have been for the disasterous experience I wouldn’t have been open to delving into understanding the power of thought, energy- instead all my energy would have been put into keeping my narcissistic partner ‘happy’, with no time to explore or nurture myself. Good to see you do a video on your experience. Thank you.
Having had 3 brain traumas (4 if you include a table fallen on my head at 3yrs old), I knew that I was made of stronger stuff on why I wasn’t healing and was becoming mentally sicker. It turns out that, I had been suffering with cognitive dissonance/ptsd/ and un-diagnosed adhd. The cognitive dissonance was brutal and far worse than any head trauma(s). Trust me on that. My spiritual awakening began a month or so before the brutal discard of 20yrs together. I have only told one person this and it sounds far out there. The discard was mid-afternoon, however, on that morning when I had lost my very-being and broken beyond repair, I noticed on the conservatory roof a yellow canary going mental. It must have gotten out of someone’s house. It was there for over 20minutes and it always stuck with me. Months later, when I googled ‘yellow bird meaning’ it literally took my breath away. On the very morning pre-discard! Fast forward two years and all the low energy, toxic people have all been blocked and kicked into touch. I have tapped into meditation and the work of Joe Dispenza and can feel most people’s vibrations when I am near them. I never realised how exhausting people can be! mostly narcissists. Yuk. If you are going through any kind of awakening, then you are extremely fortunate to have been chosen and that higher consciousness will blow your socks off at times! All the best.
Golden nuggets I picked up in my spiritual journey with my king, JESUS: 💎 THE WAGES OF SIN IS DEATH 💎 DON'T DEPEND ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING TRUST IN THE LORD 💎 THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE 💎 PRUDENT SEES TROUBLE COMING AND HIDES OR RUNS BUT THE SIMPLETON STAYS, GETS INJURED AND REGRETS IT 💎 LOVE YOUR ENEMIES 💎 FORGIVE THOSE THAT CAUSE YOU PAIN AND SUFFERING 💎 SAY NO TO REVENGE THE LORD SAYS HIS IS THE VENGENCE
YT recommended your channel to me about 2 weeks ago. I had to hit the subscribe button, and I haven't stopped watching your vids since then. With therapy and your channel combined, my healing and awakening has been less painful. It all makes sense now. All I can do Is pray that God continues to give you all that you desire Stephanie. You are a gift to this world. Thank you. ❤️
My awakening Started a year before my stroke, I have since then learned about empaths, Narc's and the like. As far as the awakening part is concerned, I prefer calling it the "Dark night of the soul", and I still have much smaller versions of crisis now, but each time seems to be less severe in how it manifests in it's affect on me. Truthfully, I have learned so much over the last 7 yrs and the experiences have been better to have gone through them than to have avoided them. I would have to give up more than I am willing and the losses would be unacceptable for me. Love the deep questions to self. Doctor said I could have died that night that I went in to the hospital.
Thankyou for putting this in actual words Stephanie. Going through all of this right now and this validates that I’m on the right path. You’re amazing!
I enjoyed this video. I didn't know what I was going through, and every step you have mentioned, I went through. I'm currently on number 4. I thank you for your time 🙏. ❤❤❤❤. This video helped me a lot
This is exactly what I’ve been experiencing I just didn’t know it had a name, it’s been a natural progression and it feels amazing to be past the dark period and in the learning phase / getting comfortable with detaching and moving forward to whatever else happens in the future. I can truly begin to appreciate my life again after living in a narcissistic abusive marriage for 6 yrs with a 3 yr old (when I left). little girl that I knew deserved better and so did I. I have my freedom and hope for the future and you just don’t realize how precious those two things are until they are gone and your living a nightmare you can’t believe your in. Everything is so bright and fresh each day now and I’m so grateful.
When you said the first sign I burst out laughing and immediately I knew that this was going to be uplifting and validating because wow did I feel "coocaloo" a couple of months ago. Thank you for this video! I am now in the self development phase and working towards setting healthy boundaries with the toxic people in my life. It doesn't happen overnight and I know this next phase will be both a relief and a battle.
Omg! My life right now. Just left my narcissistic husband and thru trauma therapy so many childhood traumas are coming out. Narc hoovering has been soooo intense but something in me knows he’s not where I should be. The “old” Amy would have went back just to make the pain stop. I’ve been unsure of what that is as I’ve ALWAYS done anything possible to make pain going away. Wow. Just wow !!!
Thank you Stephanie! You helped me so much in this video. I went through a divorce and it seemed like all of my childhood “stuff” and every possible issue that could cause me pain was happening all at once. I kept asking myself why am I having such a hard time with this ? Why can’t I sort any of it out? I felt like every coping skill I had in the past was gone and I felt like I was losing it. I felt alone, depressed, anxious and ended up in the hospital. I’m in phase 3 right now it seems. I can look at the issues and actually have a dialogue, where before I would just be blank and cry. Thank you for moving me forward towards healing and authenticity. You just made my morning! God bless❤️
Mine happened over time and over years so it I didn't really pay much attention to it. But I know exactly when it started; it started when I was 13 and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I started to...not thoroughly pay attention to...but become a little more self aware and empathic towards others whereas ya know most teenagers at that age are mostly looking out for themselves and their little world. When I was 15 I lost a friend to suicide and it shook my world so much and that's when I actually became a lot more well aware (for that age) of mental health (of me as well as of my friends). Fast forward to when I was 24 and I was coming out of a relationship with a narcissistic ex fiance who essentially abandoned me and my friends and nieces, and his niece too (he says they were his too but let's face it if they were he wouldn't have deserted them). That's when I had...what I consider a mental breakdown...and really started questioning myself and what my purpose in life was and realizing okay I need to get a better grip of my life. Fast forward to 26 and I actually ended up with a septic gallbladder and was in a coma for 9 days, on a vent for 11 and in the hospital for 2 weeks. During the course of those 9 days I actually had a NDE. After that I was never the same. I became VERY emotionally attuned, highly sensitive (I remember one day in particular there were some newborn squirrels that fell out of a tree and were so far gone that my dad decided the best thing to do for them was to put them out of their misery...I have always understood this and been okay with it but when he told me I was FURIOUS and actually didn't talk to him for two weeks 🤣) and I just recently discovered I developed something called claircognizance that I didn't have before I came out of my coma. Fast forward to when I was 30 and family problems shook my world. I've been trying to understand and wrap my brain around the world of mental health, narcissism and spiritual awakening ever since cause honestly I thought I was the one who'd lost my mind. I'm pretty much obsessed with your and Dr. Ramani's videos.
This is eye opening, I didn't even realise I was suppressing my trauma, I thought I needed to focus on something else as I've been conditioned to not look at my past pain.
Thanks you so much... I've gained so much clarity through this video about what I should do next and the general direction of my life 💛 you should be proud of yourself 🙌
Woooh 🎈🙏🙏🙏. So Awesome 🙏🙏🙏. I am at the last Point,, where I am now feeling better, prepared to leave the toxic relationship, the work. All this is what also happened to me 🌹🌹🌹 Thank You 🌹🌹🌹🙏🙏🙏💞💕💕
12:45...Yes ma'am. The music that was healing me wouldn't stop in my head. I called a crisis counselor and finally set up an appointment. My younger sister went with me. When i explained to the counselor all the things id been doing, the meditation, the study and so on she simply said something like ..."maybe you haven't been in this deep before". Once she said that i realized it had happened. I was able to tell her i would be able to work through it, and i did.
Mind body connection with being spiritual. When you get old, you get more spiritual being focused on your body breaking down. Spiritual I take it like fluids. Breathe in the healthy fluids and breathe out the unhealthy fluids. You pick up on your habits in your head which is the subconscious. Like the habit of smoking. Now there is called an ego death and be a total different person where your get insight seeing things you never were aware of. Usually recommended for divorce to be a totally different person with ego death seeing the marriage you mourn the old person you use you be and start off fresh.
this just happened to me, and i am 35. it was mindblowing and took me a while to grasp the whole thing and its like the flashback of my entire life from childhood until now just occured within my head. very painful and freeing experience at the same time, it is hard to put into words, i guess one needs to experience it to fully understand what the spiritual awakening feels like.
Wow, thank you SO MUCH, Stephanie, for this video and for ALL your work!!! You are AMAZING and you've helped me so much. The Pandemic, I think, has been the biggest 'push' for me to be going thru this Spiritual Awakening (& I'm in my 50's!!). But, I feel excited to be moving forward. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! 😊🦋🕊💜💞🙏
I love this video and I will always come back to it. I'm at the detachment stage right now and I'm so excited to finally shed the old skin🌼😊❣️ it's been a roller coaster these past few months and I've experienced everything you mentioned. Now I'm here and I'm so thankful for that experience. Not everyone has got the chance to go through awakening which make me want to teach other people about it too. 🥰
I think cookaloo is one of the best words I've ever heard. Thank you for that Stephanie. And for the message. Thank you for that as well. Always amazed
This is just powerful. Going through a separation after a 14 year marriage in hell. I have been through most of your phases and looking forward to the last. Awesome video and thank you
The Dark Night of the Soul. This is my first time hearing it but it scared me how accurate this was in my own journey. The moments before my awakening, my darkness was the most palpable. I envisioned a white room in my psyche where I would go and slaughter myself in the most horrific ways possible. The parts of me I thought everyone hated, the parts that I wanted to do without. It was mind destroying…. I fully believed it’s what I deserved, but one day during meditation, I found myself back in that room without trying, but it was different. The other me’s accepted the slaughter, for the first time they didn’t fight back. I broke down after a while of killing them and I accepted myself. I truly accepted me for me and started to heal my wounds, attach limbs back, wipe blood off the other me. We all stood hands held and became One Me. Then I was able to leave. That moment was my awakening but I’ll never forget the darkness that I had to face and accept. It changed me forever and I’ve been able to move on my own, be successful with a career, and my anger issues are a thing of the past l, I still get frustrated and have my moment of severe depression and loneliness, but I’m healed and have the skills and knowledge to COPE.
Mine started last Aug. After my husband became sober(in May) after being married for 27 years. I had a melt down. Thats when I learned I was HSP/empath and that there is more that I have yet to discover. I have develope a lot of health issues. My mom is an HSP(multiple nervous breakdowns after my brother died at 29), my dad is a narcissist.
4:41...i was about 42 ...('07) ...there were multiple dozens of things that fed into it. Yes i had an awakening. It was like a huge natural high from about May 20th to early October of that year. I think it was basically, i was ready to embrace accept and face head on all the toxic shit that had happened in our family as i grew up. By oct i had quit my job and decided to live on some money i had saved. I did yoga through '08 and pretty much nothing else but purge all the stuff i had hoarded over the years. Id take it out into the yard and burn it. In '09 in the summer i decided to go homeless and got on a bus and headed to Oregon (traveling from Maine) I checked into a homeless shelter and ive been working in this organization for the second time since '14. (I went back to Maine summer of '10 through '14) I'm so glad mine happened to me. We aquire so many ideas that are not ours in the time we grow up. For me it took a lot of tedious peeling back of those 'onion like' layers one by one till i was finally free enough to reject all the bullshit. The cobra finally straightened up my spine and it's hood spread open across my crown. It was an amazing experience. I have no words to describe it. Most wouldn't believe it even if i could find the words. At times it was scary. Other times it was blissful. Other times i thought i would kill myself. At times it was literally hour by hour that i held on. My desire for alcohol disappeared like flipping off a switch about two nights before it happened. Thanks. 👍
A year ago I had my spiritual awakening which was triggered after I was romantically connected with my Twin Flame. Now I am able to see that I behaved in a codependent way all my life and I can go back and observe how this played out in different cases. What a revelation! I always thought there was sth wrong with me! I had no sense of self! Thank you Stephanie for your support! 🙏 ❤️
@@irene2081 but i am living my life as usual ....that's why I'm afraid....i don't want my twinflame but want to know my true self...everyone else having experiences but i am living as before since 6 months not grown or guided spiritually....don't know what to do
UA-camrs like yourself and others talking about spiritual awakening are helping people to wake up.I am greatful that youtube doesnt ban you guys.Thanks Stephanie xx
I had a spiritual awakening seven years ago. ,one year ago I left all my toxic people in my life, it’s me and Jesus, and my dog now I’m finally finding healing peace and freedom hallelujah!!!
Good job!!
Amen, may the peace of Christ be with you always!!
That's wonderful! Congrats on your healing. Toxic people are hard to get away from!
So what are you saying that EVERY person you knew was toxic? Pretty much all humans just suck the soul of a person?
1 Feeling like crazy
2 Dark night off the soul
3 something in side pull you to other side
4 Learning
5 Detaching from the old to new you
6 you will see the world definitely
I love you girl you are so cool!
I’m so grateful🙏🏻
I guess, I have this dark night of the soul now. I feel scared… sometimes I feel like nothing is going to help me and something terrible is happening to me. But then I get some inner knowledge that I’m on the right path and need to go on! I pray, meditate or do anything to take care of myself. Though it sometimes feels like I’m alone in the world.
Thank you and love many blessings to you and to everyone 🌸🙏🏻
Love following you. My Spiritual Awakening came 42 years ago when I was 25. The pain led me to God. Jesus came into my life and became my life. I believe this is the only True Spiritual Awakening. Keep up your great work 👍
I am going through spiritual awakening right now. It is incredible. I wish it had came 20 years ago, but, hey, that's life!
There are many conscious beliefs I had that were challenged during the dark night, which was technically a dark almost two years.
There is a massive difference between "knowing" and "understanding". Once I understood the things i (thought) I knew, it opened my eyes to a very different reality.
For myself, it was recent. After my five year relationship with my ex. It was the one relationship that literally brought me down to my knees. I didn't know anything about narcissism, empaths, my own wounds/triggers, and attachment theories until this relationship made me so confused. I'm still in it but each day is easier. It truly is dark night of the soul stage. Extremely painful.
Here with you😩💔
I feel you.....all I can tell you is it gets easier. Time truely is a healer.
It can feel extremely lonely and you will feel really misunderstood and like everyone thinks ur going off ur head but once you get that toxic bad apple out of your life you will heal. Just as a wound in your skin heals. Stay strong if your still going through it 💪 you got this and it may feel like the darkest loneliest time of your life but I assure you.m..when you come out the other end you will feel liberated xx
"The moment I jumped off of it was the moment I touched down" -Alanis Morissette @Stephanie Lyn Thank You!
TY,
My awakening taught me that gaslighting is when someone calls me selfish for practicing self care.
How you treat yourself is an example to teach others how to treat you.
I learned that most fear that I had was simply projections from external people. I just had to let it go.
My awakening taught me that there is no room for apologies for saying NO and practicing self care. I have been through a few awakenings. The last one was latter part of 2019, I wouldn't be alive if I wouldn't have learned No and self care. It helped me release myself from codependency and being in all types of relationships where people wanted me to be dependent on them.
I have always been a questioner. Many people would make me feel guilty for it.
Many many circumstances led me to different types of awakenings. I'm thankful for now feeling comfortable being authentically myself and feeling fully comfortable in my own body.
There was so much programming that I didn't agree with. I had to just release it. It didn't resonate with my core authentic self.
Now, I can recognize patterns and work on them. Now, I am comfortable feeling all my emotions, so I can release them.
Now, I recognize gaslighting and no longer allow others to make me feel inferior or that I have to acquiesce to their demands. I acknowledge and accept where they are and just let them be where they are. I'm not one who desire to control others. I desire them to make their own life choices. However, I do remove myself from abusive situations or one-sided activities that causes stagnation.
I absolutely love to he rebuilding stage. I'm enjoying and excited about learning more about myself daily.
Namaste
🕊️Peace🤸 Shalom 🐵
Overcoming your problems only makes you stronger
Woww thnq so much . This really really resonates so much with me
break up - seeking answers - knowing I am an empath - codependency - learning boundaries - understanding me and my negative beliefs- trauma bonds - becoming mindful - an addiction to learn about these new things - feeling awake - her journey has been the same as mine. Wow.
I went through this too. It was a wild and hard ride. Very painful but very transformative
I feel like I’m in the end stages of a very intense spiritual awakening.
Every moment of unhappiness in our lives is asking us to change . Allow that change to happen. When we transform, we grow -- Maitreya Dadashreeji
Love, peace and joy to everyone reading my comment❤️❤️❤️
Love this! if we can be open to this idea then we can transform our lives
@@tammydunnettleadership Yesss 🤗🤗🤗
Even the unhappy babies who were unhappy while they were being rayped
This describes my journey the past two years! And it all started when I found your channel Stephanie and began working through my past, my toxic relationships and healing and growing. Different person completely now and so grateful for all of it! To anyone just starting out in this process..keep going, its so worth it!❤
YES!!!!!
Thank you💆♀️
You guys, to anyone who found this video because of the pain you felt needed explaining, you’re on your journey. I’ve reached the end, 5 years of being awoken, and I can tell you your soul DOES HEAL. I feel nostalgic watching a video like this again because I had no idea what narcissistic abuse was 5 years ago. No idea that I was an empath and my sensitivity was actually a GIFT. You will have to face your demons, that’s just unavoidable, but don’t be afraid of them. They’re demons of regret, remorse, hurt. Show them love and I GUARANTEE you’ll heal a part of yourself you forgot even existed. Live in Love Lights. ❤️
Thanks Stephanie! Thanks for your transparency! My spiritual journey was extremely dark! I realized I had nobody the whole time aside from my Mom.
Hard but rewarding journey.
I've been following you since the start of my healing journey... End of 2020 & your content has been significantly impactful along the process!! I absolutely love your teachings!! ♥️♥️♥️ Forever grateful 🙌🏼
Hi Stephanie, thank you for your videos. I had a spiritual awakening about 7 years ago and I fell into a dark night of the soul about 5 years ago. My marriage fell apart and lost my dad just recently. The pain I’m going through and the traumas I keep processing feels never ending. I have so much sadness in my heart and sometimes I feel I will never feel happy again. I’m so unbelievably broken. Thank you for putting these videos out it certainly helps me feel not so lonely.
How should we go about teaching our children mental and emotional intelligence? I know parenting is a case by case situation but some tips would help. Thank you for this video Stephanie 💗
This is a really great question! 🙌🏽
Yes I want to know also !
I work with children I would like to know how to teach them these skills too!
Hi Cassie, I found it helps to practice becoming honest with ourselves, it not only helps us navigate our situations, it provides the insight to help others. A way to practice this is to choose a common situation that we find ourselves in, for example - being a people pleaser, so when these situations arise, put a list of questions to yourself. Such as, how does this serve me, is this something I need to adjust, how does this affect my day, my mood? Keep asking ourselves, and encourage those you hope to influence, to stop and question their feelings and actions. All practice! Hope this helps!
I work on breathwork and affirmations with my children. Also a big believer in conscious parenting. From a young age working with my children to not project their pain or truth and not personalize another’s.
My divorce process was the catalyst for my spiritual awakening. The growth and manifestations have never stopped since. It’s like an obsession now. It is so difficult to live life with an awakened mindset after learning the truth. The key to staying positive after rising spiritually is to keep working until you accept the truth.
What a beautiful powerful message! Felt like I was in church. I found myself saying Amen! God bless you. ❤️🤗
It is key to decide that we are ready to put our time and energy into the next layer of our growth. It forces us to take it seriously, and to plan an approach. A good entry point into the next breakthrough, is to spend time each day, asking ourselves questions - how will this serve me now, am I running away from something, am I afraid of opening up other possibilities for my life - THEN ALWAYS - do our best to answer these as honestly as we can.
Excellent video!! Always clear and useful!! Thank you 🌞🌞
Wow !!! I had the same experience for 2 or 3 years!!! I read tons of books and watched hundreds of videos!!! I had no idea that experience even had a name ! I analyzed so many factors of my past experiences… I agree! That’s hard, but you will be rewarded 💕💕💕
Thank you! I am in the closure phase, after that rebuilding. I am looking forward to that! Behind me are the most intense and hurtful two years of my life...sometimes it is really good not to know what is ahead of you, but every moment was worth the outcome. I am thankful to Jesus! Your videos helped me through the final phases! Now I understand....be blessed, Stephanie, beyond measure :)
I’m on the journey of spiritual awakening! Boy does it hurt but this video is so helpful and at least now I know I’m not crazy!
💠 “The spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear and the acceptance of love.”
-Marianne Williamson
Love from Level Up Your Life Channel 💖
Love this ❤️
Thank you! 💚 Soo many of her vids are waaay too long.
I have been going through all of this and it is exactly as you have described it . I Thank you for your work, help and support from the bottom of my heart.
bruh i went through 4 years of this 😭😭😭😭 this was validating.
I am seriously saving for the coaching class. Your videos have saved me so much headache
def going thru this. there are certain people, places and things that are no longer welcome in my life. i no longer find these things attractive or intriguing. i just want peace and to be surrounded with what is best for my life and growth.
I've faced that toxic relationship & i really felt that something isn't right & ultimately I broke up because I couldn't handle more pain emotionally. And now I'm on healing path. 🌼 I hope that everyone learn from these kind of situations. 🌻
You described this so perfectly! It isn’t an easy journey but as my eyes open more and gain awareness I know I’m on the right path 🤞🏼
I have gone through a few awakenings in my life ... and it is truly amazing when we can see the gifts in our traumas
This video is so positive and encouraging. This is exactly what I have been going through and this has encouraged me that I am so close to the fun bit. There is hope. Thank you 💜
Hilarious ending....well heeled in boot camp....great stuff
My siblings stopped speaking to me 3 years ago because of a lifestyle choice. I believed that I was worthless for a long time. I found your video about self-soothing and I have not stopped learning since that day. I am so grateful for you and for the content you share. ❤
Seeking to understand things sometimes gets in the way of the lesson - as sometimes there is nothing to understand - but there is alway a lesson, so I like to ask "what is this here to teach me - what do I need to learn" ... it is with that perspective that helped me get out from underneath a bully at work and it gave me the power to step in and stand up for myself in new ways that actually had an impact! Such a powerful tool to look through the experiences as lessons
Very profound, thank you Stephanie. I am in my spiritual awakening currently. I have embraced it and am learning all the lessons that comes with it. It is not easy but this is proof that it is not a curse just a life transforming event.
So intetesting for you to use the term 'curse'. I was thinking I must be cursed based on on the constant grind of so much angst that I am currently experiencing.
When you get trought your spiritual awakening congratulate yourself because that is a taugh journey it won't be pain free but will free you from your limits. Live fully, Tatoo it for a daily reminder that YOU can overcome more than you think. Good luck yall 💓.
Going thru it now, coming out from the "dark knight of the soul" phase. Went back to school, have a new job, learning more & more...
Thank u much appreciated
Thank you so much, Stephanie! I'm not sure if it was ever intended, for us to evolve spiritually, without doing the hard work to get there! The signs are many but it's what we do with the signs! It is inspirational for me to hear what you have done! 💞🙏
Love how your voice resonates... it heals in and of itself 🙏🏻
I needed this so much I’ve been feeling this way exactly for the past cpl months been watching so many of you videos thinking something was wrong with but no matter how depressed I’ve been I keep pushing forward knowing it’ll get better
This was so validating. Thank you so much ♡
Excellent video that brings more understanding... I was able to identify where I am at, between stages 3 & 4.
Stephanie, thank you for being real in sharing some of your journey. I can easily connect with someone when they are authentic about their own life. I believe that is where true connection takes place.
I was in denial about my dysf for years and didn't even know it. Knew on a deep level things didn't feel right, but the overwhelming sense of guilt (raised Catholic - "The Guilt Church") made it impossible for me to give myself permission to challenge the programming I received. I also didn't have the skills, tools as you mentioned The guilt was so strong it would push down any little awareness I might have had.
But with events that happened in the course of my life, caused me to ask those deeper very important questions.
When you get a taste of true freedom there is no going back, only a desire to stay on the path to be our freer, fuller more expansive selves. AND I want to add the importance of surrounding ourselves with the right people who support our level of freedom and truly applaud our progress and who encourage us too! Vitally important the company we keep
We all appreciate you more then you will know
for me it was (and still is to some extent) the biggest state of confusion i have ever been in. i cannot explain any of it. cannot explain why i feel the way i do. i am (currently) detaching from long time friends-- friends who have done no wrong to me! i view them in a new light- a light i do not want to have anything to do with! now i am reading, searching for information. beginning to see some light and understand. so glad i found this channel!
Thank you for all your videos I definitely need you and your words of wisdom at this time in my life . I'm definitely going through it ❤️❤️❤️
I found this video really helpful and provided really meaning information. Thank you 👍
Stephanie a few years back during lockdown I went through my own troubled time. My narcissistic wife up and left and I was in a pretty dark place… it took a while but I learnt a lot about npd and even did your online programme to help heal as well as a bunch of therapy etc. during the therapy I learnt I too am a highly sensitive person and an empath and about a year and a half ago I underwent a spiritual awakening , learning a lot and as part of this journey have also undertaken a pathway into reiki healing where I’m a reiki master and practitioner. I feel like I understand so much more about this life, our energy, our power and the power to shift and change. If it hadn’t have been for the disasterous experience I wouldn’t have been open to delving into understanding the power of thought, energy- instead all my energy would have been put into keeping my narcissistic partner ‘happy’, with no time to explore or nurture myself. Good to see you do a video on your experience. Thank you.
Having had 3 brain traumas (4 if you include a table fallen on my head at 3yrs old), I knew that I was made of stronger stuff on why I wasn’t healing and was becoming mentally sicker. It turns out that, I had been suffering with cognitive dissonance/ptsd/ and un-diagnosed adhd. The cognitive dissonance was brutal and far worse than any head trauma(s). Trust me on that.
My spiritual awakening began a month or so before the brutal discard of 20yrs together. I have only told one person this and it sounds far out there. The discard was mid-afternoon, however, on that morning when I had lost my very-being and broken beyond repair, I noticed on the conservatory roof a yellow canary going mental. It must have gotten out of someone’s house. It was there for over 20minutes and it always stuck with me.
Months later, when I googled ‘yellow bird meaning’ it literally took my breath away. On the very morning pre-discard! Fast forward two years and all the low energy, toxic people have all been blocked and kicked into touch. I have tapped into meditation and the work of Joe Dispenza and can feel most people’s vibrations when I am near them. I never realised how exhausting people can be! mostly narcissists. Yuk.
If you are going through any kind of awakening, then you are extremely fortunate to have been chosen and that higher consciousness will blow your socks off at times! All the best.
Golden nuggets I picked up in my spiritual journey with my king, JESUS:
💎 THE WAGES OF SIN IS DEATH
💎 DON'T DEPEND ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING TRUST IN THE LORD
💎 THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE
💎 PRUDENT SEES TROUBLE COMING AND HIDES OR RUNS BUT THE SIMPLETON STAYS, GETS INJURED AND REGRETS IT
💎 LOVE YOUR ENEMIES
💎 FORGIVE THOSE THAT CAUSE YOU PAIN AND SUFFERING
💎 SAY NO TO REVENGE THE LORD SAYS HIS IS THE VENGENCE
YT recommended your channel to me about 2 weeks ago. I had to hit the subscribe button, and I haven't stopped watching your vids since then. With therapy and your channel combined, my healing and awakening has been less painful. It all makes sense now. All I can do Is pray that God continues to give you all that you desire Stephanie. You are a gift to this world. Thank you. ❤️
I’m so glad the videos have helped!!! 🤗💚
My awakening Started a year before my stroke, I have since then learned about empaths, Narc's and the like. As far as the awakening part is concerned, I prefer calling it the "Dark night of the soul", and I still have much smaller versions of crisis now, but each time seems to be less severe in how it manifests in it's affect on me. Truthfully, I have learned so much over the last 7 yrs and the experiences have been better to have gone through them than to have avoided them. I would have to give up more than I am willing and the losses would be unacceptable for me. Love the deep questions to self. Doctor said I could have died that night that I went in to the hospital.
Started to happen to me I'm 26, years old. I now understand so much more.
Thank you! What I needed to hear. Very validating of the experience.
Thank you for this video. I'm feeling today that I really needed it.
Thankyou for putting this in actual words Stephanie. Going through all of this right now and this validates that I’m on the right path. You’re amazing!
I enjoyed this video. I didn't know what I was going through, and every step you have mentioned, I went through. I'm currently on number 4. I thank you for your time 🙏. ❤❤❤❤. This video helped me a lot
Love you. Mibe journey is exactly like yours..i cant believe this!!
Thanks Stephanie - very helpful and encouraging.
This is exactly what I’ve been experiencing I just didn’t know it had a name, it’s been a natural progression and it feels amazing to be past the dark period and in the learning phase / getting comfortable with detaching and moving forward to whatever else happens in the future. I can truly begin to appreciate my life again after living in a narcissistic abusive marriage for 6 yrs with a 3 yr old (when I left). little girl that I knew deserved better and so did I. I have my freedom and hope for the future and you just don’t realize how precious those two things are until they are gone and your living a nightmare you can’t believe your in. Everything is so bright and fresh each day now and I’m so grateful.
Post traumatic growth has been the biggest blessing for me. 💪🏽💃🏽
When you said the first sign I burst out laughing and immediately I knew that this was going to be uplifting and validating because wow did I feel "coocaloo" a couple of months ago. Thank you for this video! I am now in the self development phase and working towards setting healthy boundaries with the toxic people in my life. It doesn't happen overnight and I know this next phase will be both a relief and a battle.
Omg! My life right now. Just left my narcissistic husband and thru trauma therapy so many childhood traumas are coming out. Narc hoovering has been soooo intense but something in me knows he’s not where I should be. The “old” Amy would have went back just to make the pain stop. I’ve been unsure of what that is as I’ve ALWAYS done anything possible to make pain going away. Wow. Just wow !!!
Thank you Stephanie! You helped me so much in this video. I went through a divorce and it seemed like all of my childhood “stuff” and every possible issue that could cause me pain was happening all at once. I kept asking myself why am I having such a hard time with this ? Why can’t I sort any of it out? I felt like every coping skill I had in the past was gone and I felt like I was losing it. I felt alone, depressed, anxious and ended up in the hospital. I’m in phase 3 right now it seems. I can look at the issues and actually have a dialogue, where before I would just be blank and cry.
Thank you for moving me forward towards healing and authenticity. You just made my morning! God bless❤️
You are awesome Stephanie 😉 thank you
This makes so much sense!!! I’m on the end stages of 3 on my way to 4.
I really identify with everything you described and it has helped me to feel more positive. Thank you. Joe. UK
New subscriber here, thanks for talking about spiritual awakening. I learned so much :)
I resonated with every word you said
Mine happened over time and over years so it I didn't really pay much attention to it. But I know exactly when it started; it started when I was 13 and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I started to...not thoroughly pay attention to...but become a little more self aware and empathic towards others whereas ya know most teenagers at that age are mostly looking out for themselves and their little world. When I was 15 I lost a friend to suicide and it shook my world so much and that's when I actually became a lot more well aware (for that age) of mental health (of me as well as of my friends). Fast forward to when I was 24 and I was coming out of a relationship with a narcissistic ex fiance who essentially abandoned me and my friends and nieces, and his niece too (he says they were his too but let's face it if they were he wouldn't have deserted them). That's when I had...what I consider a mental breakdown...and really started questioning myself and what my purpose in life was and realizing okay I need to get a better grip of my life. Fast forward to 26 and I actually ended up with a septic gallbladder and was in a coma for 9 days, on a vent for 11 and in the hospital for 2 weeks. During the course of those 9 days I actually had a NDE. After that I was never the same. I became VERY emotionally attuned, highly sensitive (I remember one day in particular there were some newborn squirrels that fell out of a tree and were so far gone that my dad decided the best thing to do for them was to put them out of their misery...I have always understood this and been okay with it but when he told me I was FURIOUS and actually didn't talk to him for two weeks 🤣) and I just recently discovered I developed something called claircognizance that I didn't have before I came out of my coma. Fast forward to when I was 30 and family problems shook my world. I've been trying to understand and wrap my brain around the world of mental health, narcissism and spiritual awakening ever since cause honestly I thought I was the one who'd lost my mind. I'm pretty much obsessed with your and Dr. Ramani's videos.
This is eye opening, I didn't even realise I was suppressing my trauma, I thought I needed to focus on something else as I've been conditioned to not look at my past pain.
Thanks you so much... I've gained so much clarity through this video about what I should do next and the general direction of my life 💛 you should be proud of yourself 🙌
Woooh 🎈🙏🙏🙏.
So Awesome 🙏🙏🙏.
I am at the last Point,, where I am now feeling better, prepared to leave the toxic relationship, the work.
All this is what also happened to me 🌹🌹🌹
Thank You 🌹🌹🌹🙏🙏🙏💞💕💕
Great stuff!… Thank you Stephanie! 🙏🏼
12:45...Yes ma'am.
The music that was healing me wouldn't stop in my head. I called a crisis counselor and finally set up an appointment. My younger sister went with me. When i explained to the counselor all the things id been doing, the meditation, the study and so on she simply said something like ..."maybe you haven't been in this deep before".
Once she said that i realized it had happened. I was able to tell her i would be able to work through it, and i did.
This is a powerful video. Thank you Stephanie, it talks about literally exactly what I am going through
Mind body connection with being spiritual. When you get old, you get more spiritual being focused on your body breaking down. Spiritual I take it like fluids. Breathe in the healthy fluids and breathe out the unhealthy fluids. You pick up on your habits in your head which is the subconscious. Like the habit of smoking. Now there is called an ego death and be a total different person where your get insight seeing things you never were aware of. Usually recommended for divorce to be a totally different person with ego death seeing the marriage you mourn the old person you use you be and start off fresh.
AMAZING Description 👌 Perfect as usual 🥰
this just happened to me, and i am 35. it was mindblowing and took me a while to grasp the whole thing and its like the flashback of my entire life from childhood until now just occured within my head. very painful and freeing experience at the same time, it is hard to put into words, i guess one needs to experience it to fully understand what the spiritual awakening feels like.
Wow, thank you SO MUCH, Stephanie, for this video and for ALL your work!!! You are AMAZING and you've helped me so much. The Pandemic, I think, has been the biggest 'push' for me to be going thru this Spiritual Awakening (& I'm in my 50's!!). But, I feel excited to be moving forward. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! 😊🦋🕊💜💞🙏
I love this video and I will always come back to it. I'm at the detachment stage right now and I'm so excited to finally shed the old skin🌼😊❣️ it's been a roller coaster these past few months and I've experienced everything you mentioned. Now I'm here and I'm so thankful for that experience. Not everyone has got the chance to go through awakening which make me want to teach other people about it too. 🥰
Nailed it.
I think cookaloo is one of the best words I've ever heard. Thank you for that Stephanie. And for the message. Thank you for that as well. Always amazed
This is just powerful. Going through a separation after a 14 year marriage in hell. I have been through most of your phases and looking forward to the last. Awesome video and thank you
The Dark Night of the Soul. This is my first time hearing it but it scared me how accurate this was in my own journey. The moments before my awakening, my darkness was the most palpable. I envisioned a white room in my psyche where I would go and slaughter myself in the most horrific ways possible. The parts of me I thought everyone hated, the parts that I wanted to do without. It was mind destroying…. I fully believed it’s what I deserved, but one day during meditation, I found myself back in that room without trying, but it was different. The other me’s accepted the slaughter, for the first time they didn’t fight back. I broke down after a while of killing them and I accepted myself. I truly accepted me for me and started to heal my wounds, attach limbs back, wipe blood off the other me. We all stood hands held and became One Me. Then I was able to leave.
That moment was my awakening but I’ll never forget the darkness that I had to face and accept. It changed me forever and I’ve been able to move on my own, be successful with a career, and my anger issues are a thing of the past l, I still get frustrated and have my moment of severe depression and loneliness, but I’m healed and have the skills and knowledge to COPE.
Just what I wanted to hear from a couple of weeks. Thanks a ton, Stephanie!
Mine started last Aug. After my husband became sober(in May) after being married for 27 years. I had a melt down. Thats when I learned I was HSP/empath and that there is more that I have yet to discover. I have develope a lot of health issues. My mom is an HSP(multiple nervous breakdowns after my brother died at 29), my dad is a narcissist.
You could be codependent. Usually happens with spouses of addicts. Steph has a lot of videos on that. Check it out
Your spirit guides are communicating with you getting those goosebumps you should listen to what they have to say.
Oh my, I didn't know how to describe what I was going through. This is it!!!! Thank you..
4:41...i was about 42 ...('07) ...there were multiple dozens of things that fed into it. Yes i had an awakening. It was like a huge natural high from about May 20th to early October of that year.
I think it was basically, i was ready to embrace accept and face head on all the toxic shit that had happened in our family as i grew up.
By oct i had quit my job and decided to live on some money i had saved. I did yoga through '08 and pretty much nothing else but purge all the stuff i had hoarded over the years. Id take it out into the yard and burn it.
In '09 in the summer i decided to go homeless and got on a bus and headed to Oregon (traveling from Maine)
I checked into a homeless shelter and ive been working in this organization for the second time since '14. (I went back to Maine summer of '10 through '14)
I'm so glad mine happened to me. We aquire so many ideas that are not ours in the time we grow up. For me it took a lot of tedious peeling back of those 'onion like' layers one by one till i was finally free enough to reject all the bullshit.
The cobra finally straightened up my spine and it's hood spread open across my crown.
It was an amazing experience. I have no words to describe it. Most wouldn't believe it even if i could find the words.
At times it was scary. Other times it was blissful. Other times i thought i would kill myself. At times it was literally hour by hour that i held on.
My desire for alcohol disappeared like flipping off a switch about two nights before it happened.
Thanks. 👍
This is so good! I'm on the 4th step but stuck in the intro of it ... great video👍🏼
A year ago I had my spiritual awakening which was triggered after I was romantically connected with my Twin Flame. Now I am able to see that I behaved in a codependent way all my life and I can go back and observe how this played out in different cases. What a revelation! I always thought there was sth wrong with me! I had no sense of self! Thank you Stephanie for your support! 🙏 ❤️
I am also a twinflame....had the ego death in july this year...but don't know since then what to do start my journey...i'm afraid of the 2nd DNOTS 😢
@@divyanshushukla422 don't think too much and let doing aside... You are spiritually guided and everything will unfold naturally..
@@irene2081 but i am living my life as usual ....that's why I'm afraid....i don't want my twinflame but want to know my true self...everyone else having experiences but i am living as before since 6 months not grown or guided spiritually....don't know what to do
@@irene2081 what you have done in order to your ascension??
@@divyanshushukla422 Do nothing! You ascend by unlearning all the BS you have been fed.. Again, you will be shown the way..
So timely. Thank you.
Thank you for everything you do
I really needed this. It explains alot about what I've been experiencing.