Peter, When your accident happened, I cried. I prayed. I prayed for you, Alex, your family, the family of the other vehicle, everyone involved. I have never been through something like that, but I can only imagine how hard the last 2 yrs have been. You are strong. You are brave. You are a huge inspiration to so many. Thank you for always being honest with how you are doing. Sending lots of love to you💙🫶🏼
peter the work in therapy you’re doing is incredible. i cannot imagine how hard it is to work through the trauma. you’re so strong and inspiring every day
I have watched Peter since he started here on youtube. I applaud him for consistently putting himself out there. He makes me think and evaluate my life. I'm so grateful.
I’m sorry you are continuing to struggle with everything. Sending you strength and positivity to work your way through it all with your therapist, friends, and family. Selfishly, I’m so glad you decided to return to UA-cam. You are one of the favorite parts of my daily routine.
Oh Peter. I’m so proud of you. You have been a shining light in my life and recovery so long. Thank you for being an example of how to move through hard things.
I'm a very rare commenter, but thank you so much for sharing this with us. It has helped me so much by hearing your story. Now may not be the right time (I'm personally going through it myself and it's affecting my motivation generally), but it may be helpful to try to do something meaningful regarding your accident (adding positivity to your life as opposed to only removing things, like not driving (which I GREATLY admire your selfless decision!)). This can help replace your guilt with positive emotions like meaning and gratitude (as you always do!). For instance, you do so much for those with addiction issues which brings so much joy to your life (as opposed to feeling guilty for people you have hurt while you were using). I'm wondering if doing something meaningful regarding your accident might also remove a lot of the guilt weighing you down (guilt and shame are the worst!). Maybe doing something meaningful to the person who passed away (helping a cause he or she cared about), towards epilepsy/seizure associations, or anything you find inspirational! Much love to you. I get a lot of inspiration from you. Thank you.
This is great advice!! I totally understand the feeling of guilt but it's a very negative emotion and can really affect the quality of life. It is ok to move past guilt. I tend to allow myself to feel the negative emotions but then I allow myself to not dwell on it and move on with my life. Not saying I completely cut myself off from a certain consequence of an action, the thoughts come and go and that's ok but to live in that guilt or regret is a huge disservice to a person's quality of life.
I took your great advice and really felt the sadness I was feeling and it really helped me to let some of it pass through and I feel so much better today. I tend to unconsciously resist these "negative" emotions, which makes them stick around even longer. Thanks so much to your great advice!!@@Lizzypoohxo
I’m so very proud of you for doing this hard work to help make sense of it all and to help guide you go through this. You were also a victim in this accident and deserve to live a full, happy and meaningful life Peter. ❤
I totally agree. It sounds like Peter has trouble with not wanting to make himself a victim in this situation, but he really is a victim as well. Just because the seizure happened to his body, doesn't mean he's not a victim of a tragedy also. I feel for him so much 😥 Its so unfair this happened to him, he's such a wonderful shining example of a human being.
The only thing you “don’t have the right to do” is not get better. You’re doing everything in power to move through this and become more and more okay as time passes. You are an inspiration to everyone who has gone through severe trauma. Thank you for being so vulnerable. It’s so important for humans to watch other humans heal themselves. With help, of course. Bravo, Peter, bravo. 💙
I love you Peter. U have gone thru such an incredible trauma & I can't even imagine how hard it's been. Just know that u have been a great example of a human going through the hard times in life with grace, vulnerability, courage & love. I commend u for how much u share with us & I am sending u the biggest & tightest of hugs as u navigate the deeper levels of what u have gone through.
I went through the media circus too it was awful tv anchors calling to interview me as we were the same religion, the article on the front page of the Kansas City Star, our whole family was under a microscope. It was the lead story on the news for over a week. I am sorry that I brought up you driving it was not my place I respect your decision. I could not drive for a year after they found the epilepsy. Love you always, I hope you can find a peace you can live with.💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
Im going to save this video for another time when I'm mentally healthier and approach it with my therapist. Im worried I will go through these questions and spiral with my own past trauma. But I am interested in your journey and hope you can find healing through this. Much love Peter.
IMO it’s probably a good thing that you don’t remember anything about the accident. I feel you would be constantly traumatized reliving it over and over again. I think that is Gods way of protecting you to not remember. Hugs to you Peter ❤❤
I totally understand not being able to put words to feelings. I’ve been through some traumatic issues just in the last two years. Thank you for sharing your story.💙
im 23 and will never drive due to visual hallucinations (bipolar schizophrenia). i live in Australia but we have a similar culture around driving, some people just really don't know how to take it that i am choosing not to drive and i find it really hard when people question me also.
You can just say "it's a personal choice" , or "personal preference" and they ask again and you can say again "its personal." I feel like when I use the word personal about something people don't really question things like they do otherwise. Like when I had to take a leave from my job everyone was prying (I went to treatment) and I end up just saying "a personal leave" or something along those lines and people left it alone Really it's no one's business why but your own. No one has the right to know unless you want them to. Try not to let them make you feel bad. To each their own and I wish you well!!
I totally understand how massively transformative a car accident can be to life--I too had an accident caused by a medical emergency and have not driven since, and am still too scared to do so even six years after. Fortunately, I was the only one injured and it was only minor, but it still traumatized me. I cannot imagine how much more intense it must be for you given what happened with your accident, and I feel for you so much. You are so strong and brave to keep moving forward and the respectful way you handle the situation is very, very admirable. SO much love to you, Peter! P.S. I used to live in Fishers! My childhood until age 12 was there, and it's so cool to know that you're from the same area! I moved away back in 2007 and the area has changed so much since then, I hardly recognize it anymore. Have you ever eaten at Tijuana Flats? I miss that place SO SO SO MUCH, and if you have never been there, you HAVE to go!
I've done something similar to this with my trauma therapist. I don't know if it necessarily "helped" me but i do know what it's like to go through something very traumatic and have little recollection. My 💙goes out to you Peter and thank you for your honesty and vulnerability💙ODAAT
you went leaps and bounds toward healing just by posting this video. thank you for being vulnerable with us 🤍 you deserve peace & you will soon have the energy to embrace the time it takes to process everything to get to that peace. you are such a light to so many.
Thank you for being so vulnerable with us, Peter. I hope being able to talk it out feels therapeutic and helpful to you and working through all this. It absolutely makes sense that you wouldn't want to drive again. I see you repeating the boundaries around your choice and how you want people to respect that. I respect you and your decision. I'm really proud of you, and so happy you are still here to share your light with us. I know this is so hard for you. Of course it would be. I love and support you 100%. 💙⚘
Sending you sooo much love. 💗 Although I had subbed to and watch all your videos for like the last 5 months or so. I am so grateful for you and glad you’re still here. I wish there were more people like you in this world 🌍 because your honesty and heart are so important and refreshing. 🩷🩷🩷 You matter and you are loved and worthy.
Wow thank you for being so open and honest 💙 I had a brain injury in November 2017 and I really struggle with not remembering what happened that day and getting different answers from different people. I also struggle with how my life looks now and how it will be in the future. Just know Peter that you have the right to feel how you feel, it’s not your fault that it happened and you are a victim too
As hard as this must be for you, I believe it will do you good to get it out. It will also help others process feelings and thoughts along with you. Thank you for sharing your process, Peter!
Two things can be true at once. That thought has helped me when feelings of guilt come up. There’s always three experiences in anything, yours, theirs, and combined. All of those feelings are valid. I can’t speak for anyone else but I know that there are deep feelings of guilt when someone else is hurt. I tend to disregard my feelings because my actions or circumstances led to whatever this is, so not allowed to feel for me. Problem is I can’t seem to heal from anything because I don’t give myself the grace I’d give others. The exercise I do when I feel this happening is separate myself from the scenario, even imagine someone else’s face and give them the advice unbiased. Record yourself or write it down and get used to hearing yourself be kind and take the advice. We’re kinder to others than we are to ourselves, sometimes without even realizing it. It’s ok to feel guilt and hurt for the man that died, but it’s also ok to feel compassion and forgiveness to you as well. They can coexist ❤ I don’t mean forgiveness as in you did something wrong, just forgiveness in the sense that it happened and can’t be changed. Just my thoughts but I hope they find you well. ❤
Hey Peter I always wondered, what exactly was your back injury? Did you herniate your discs along with the vertebrae? I’m STILL trying to heal after 2 herniated discs 8months later. It’s so painful and slow. 😔 How’d you get through it? I’m struggling. 😢
Love you always, say whatever you need to we are here for you. Have a great day and evening, enjoy tv and relaxing. Stay safe, take care and stay warm. Hope Tanya loved her birthday. Love you too Boo and Alex.💙💙💙🐶🐶🐶🐶🧢🧢🧢☕️☕️☕️🥤🥤🥤🕯️🕯️🕯️🧸🧸🧸🥰🥰🥰😴😴😴🫎🫎🫎🦌🦌🦌📖📖📖💙💙💙💙💙
You will find the other side of this in time. You were right to make the decision you did about driving don't let everyone else opinion about it trigger you they just haven't been through it so they don't get it. That this ain't a horse you can get back on. You are a awesome man don't let no one make you feel less then. 😊
This video will help so many people who have also gone thru trauma and I hope it also helps you as you continue down the path of healing. I think that it's honorable that you have so much respect for the other family who's lives have been effected by the accident and I hope that someday you can accept the fact that you also were a victim. A medical emergency caused the accident. You did not cause the accident. There are things in life that are completely out of our control. You have a seizure disorder. You didn't choose to have this disorder and even when well controlled, a person with a seizure disorder can still have breakthrough seizures at any time. I've worked in Healthcare for 33 years. I have seen many seizures in my career. I've seen the toll a seizure takes on the body and I have not met even one person who would say they would choose having to experience those seizures. I know you said that you often ask yourself "why not me". I'm sorry that there was a fatality from the accident. I'm also glad that you are a survivor. You make a positive difference in the world
I didn’t get my license until I was 30. And then I moved to cali when I was 35 and didn’t drive for 3 years. I can only go A to B and I take the long way everywhere. I feel like I’m going to pass out on the freeway. I’m anxious being a passenger . I have family and friends that don’t understand at all. My heart goes out to you bc I can’t imagine you going through what you do and people still not respecting your boundaries. Thanks for sharing
I'm 36 and don't even have a licence. Never have. Only a learner's permit for like a month when I turned 16. It honestly has always terrified me and I never wanted to do it. People think I'm crazy but it's honestly so stress free
Me too! I got my permit when I was 28 😂 but I'm also TERRIFIED to drive! I'm 30 now and still have no license because it freaks me out. My husband has tried to reach me how to drive but omg, five minutes and I'm panicking.
My sister in law didn't get her DL until she had kids and she only drives in town to take them to and from school and the grocery store. She's 40 and still won't drive on a freeway.
Do you guys take a lot of ubers or rides from people? I really hate feeling like I'm causing people an inconvenience so I feel like that would be so stressful (asking friends or family to drive me).Yet driving scares me too after totaling 2 cars in the last year after people t boning me :(
I’m 51, never had the desire to drive. I could be the safest driver in the world, but other people aren’t. That’s too much of a risk. My life hasn’t suffered.
@@mjnewsdigest2300 exactly. My eldest son is a great driver. He's 20 and has been driving since he could reach the pedals. He doesn't get on his phone, he's constantly aware of everything and everyone around him, but other people scare me.
Peter, I love you. I know you don't know me but I wish I could offer my friendship to you. I've been watching you since 2016. You've always made me laugh and just made me feel like here was a person with so much in common to me, who shares a love of books and dogs, and appreciates so many of the little things in life. I loved your genuine and caring personality. Two years ago I remember noticing that I hadn’t seen any videos from you for a while and feeling worried. Then I heard about the accident and at first I didn't know whether you were alive or had passed away. Thankfully you're still with us. I'm so thankful for that and I know many people feel the same way! For me it is hard to imagine you with few friends, kind of living a quiet life. I have talked to my mom before about your channel and how you'd be such an ideal friend to me. She knows you by name at this point. 😂 Anyway, you are thought about and cared for and what happened to you was the fault of no one. Sometimes terrible things happen in this life and we can't prepare for them. I can sympathize with your feelings of grief and guilt, however. You give so much joy to people, including me, and I want you to know it, my dear! I don't want to be a weirdo but I would love to meet you someday, were that ever possible. Just a truth! Sending love and well wishes, Peter. ❤😊
You've been doing a stellar job facing your trauma 💙 Remember you can be greatful to be alive and still have damage needing fixing from the same incident. You honor him by living your life to the fullest and going through this hard work, because you are greatful to be alive, and to value the life you were so lucky to walk away with is honoring him. Keep up the good work!
I 💯% get your decision not to drive, again. In 2019, I remember my dad was coming home from church and he said he thought he had hit something with his mirror……so he drove around the block to check. He said he didn’t see anything. Later, that year he fell so we took him to the emergency room; we found out he had brain cancer (he passed in 2022) and it affected his peripheral vision, so he could never drive again. He said he NEVER missed it. 💙💙💙💙💙
IDK why this video wasn’t recommended to me until now, as you know I watch your vlog channel. I’m curious if there’s anything that you couldn’t do because you didn’t recall it, like did you remember you were a UA-camr and every channel you had etc. Did you know and remember what your favorite things were, that PP had died stuff like that? I’m referring to initially after you woke up. I also wondered if you had actually been somewhere and gotten things, like were groceries or whatever in your car at the time of the accident or were you going somewhere you didn’t make it to?
Anyone who thinks this is something you would choose... that you would have chosen to get behind the driver's seat that day if you knew what would happen, are sick in the head. Love to you and everyone affected 💙
Thank you for sharing this deeply personal and sensitive subject with us Peter. I can’t imagine what you’re going through in your mind on a daily basis. The fact that you are self deprecating shows that you are torn up by the accident and what happened. I will pray that you are kinder to yourself so you can be happier in life. ✝️🙏🏻🩷
Don't you live in a big city Peter? Its not necessary to drive, especially if you live in a big city! There's so many options these days, plenty of car services, delivery services, etc., its just really not necessary anymore. Unless you live out in the country and the closest stores are like an hour away, but even then there's usually someone that collects lists and money from the community and runs errands once a week. Usually a few people will take turns doing it. Thats how it is where i live (not necessarily my area but the areas around us) there's about 4 or 5 people that rotate turns going to the next county to go to the liqour store, fill oropane tanks, get meats, go to the oharmacy, etc.
For what it’s worth, I think you made the right decision not to drive. I’m curious if you are or have been in contact with the family of the man that passed, and if that could or does impact things now?
"I pray for your healing... that circumstances would change. I pray that the fear inside would flee in Jesus name!!! I pray that a breakthrough would happen today! I pray miracles over your life in Jesus name". 🙏🙏🙏🙌🙌🙌 I love you Peter ❤❤❤❤ I pray for your healing.
You are being to hard on yourself. You have to remember that man also made a decision to get in the car as well and when you decide to get in a car the likelihood of having a fatal accident is astronomical. While I completely validate your feelings you have to see that the other person has accountability as well. Accidents happen and everyone takes that risk when we get into a vehicle. I hope this was not to harsh it's just reality.
Not allowing yourself to drive is a form of punishment. If you are punishing yourself it means you haven’t forgiven yourself and without forgiveness you will not ever heal. If you have asked God for forgiveness and we know from His promises that He has, why have you not yet forgiven yourself?
Thank you for sharing this even when you don't have to share such a personal struggle ❤ I really want to go to therapy but its not covered by my insurance and I dont have the money for it. Wishing the best for you as you work through this incredibly difficult situation 🩵
Peter, i thought you had posted this today, and it gave me hope bc i am stuck on something from my past. It made me feel good to know other people were struggling with moving on. Either way, I'm sure you can relate. 🫂
Peter,
When your accident happened, I cried. I prayed. I prayed for you, Alex, your family, the family of the other vehicle, everyone involved. I have never been through something like that, but I can only imagine how hard the last 2 yrs have been. You are strong. You are brave. You are a huge inspiration to so many. Thank you for always being honest with how you are doing. Sending lots of love to you💙🫶🏼
peter the work in therapy you’re doing is incredible. i cannot imagine how hard it is to work through the trauma. you’re so strong and inspiring every day
I have watched Peter since he started here on youtube. I applaud him for consistently putting himself out there. He makes me think and evaluate my life. I'm so grateful.
Same here
I’m sorry you are continuing to struggle with everything. Sending you strength and positivity to work your way through it all with your therapist, friends, and family. Selfishly, I’m so glad you decided to return to UA-cam. You are one of the favorite parts of my daily routine.
Oh Peter. I’m so proud of you. You have been a shining light in my life and recovery so long. Thank you for being an example of how to move through hard things.
I’m so glad you came back to UA-cam. Love you Peter. So sorry you’re going through this.
I'm a very rare commenter, but thank you so much for sharing this with us. It has helped me so much by hearing your story. Now may not be the right time (I'm personally going through it myself and it's affecting my motivation generally), but it may be helpful to try to do something meaningful regarding your accident (adding positivity to your life as opposed to only removing things, like not driving (which I GREATLY admire your selfless decision!)). This can help replace your guilt with positive emotions like meaning and gratitude (as you always do!). For instance, you do so much for those with addiction issues which brings so much joy to your life (as opposed to feeling guilty for people you have hurt while you were using). I'm wondering if doing something meaningful regarding your accident might also remove a lot of the guilt weighing you down (guilt and shame are the worst!). Maybe doing something meaningful to the person who passed away (helping a cause he or she cared about), towards epilepsy/seizure associations, or anything you find inspirational! Much love to you. I get a lot of inspiration from you. Thank you.
This is great advice!! I totally understand the feeling of guilt but it's a very negative emotion and can really affect the quality of life. It is ok to move past guilt. I tend to allow myself to feel the negative emotions but then I allow myself to not dwell on it and move on with my life. Not saying I completely cut myself off from a certain consequence of an action, the thoughts come and go and that's ok but to live in that guilt or regret is a huge disservice to a person's quality of life.
I took your great advice and really felt the sadness I was feeling and it really helped me to let some of it pass through and I feel so much better today. I tend to unconsciously resist these "negative" emotions, which makes them stick around even longer. Thanks so much to your great advice!!@@Lizzypoohxo
Your story consistently lifts me up and helps me keep the faith. Thank you for that and for sharing. You have my upmost respect!
I’m so very proud of you for doing this hard work to help make sense of it all and to help guide you go through this. You were also a victim in this accident and deserve to live a full, happy and meaningful life Peter. ❤
I totally agree. It sounds like Peter has trouble with not wanting to make himself a victim in this situation, but he really is a victim as well. Just because the seizure happened to his body, doesn't mean he's not a victim of a tragedy also. I feel for him so much 😥 Its so unfair this happened to him, he's such a wonderful shining example of a human being.
The only thing you “don’t have the right to do” is not get better. You’re doing everything in power to move through this and become more and more okay as time passes. You are an inspiration to everyone who has gone through severe trauma. Thank you for being so vulnerable. It’s so important for humans to watch other humans heal themselves. With help, of course. Bravo, Peter, bravo. 💙
I love you Peter. U have gone thru such an incredible trauma & I can't even imagine how hard it's been. Just know that u have been a great example of a human going through the hard times in life with grace, vulnerability, courage & love. I commend u for how much u share with us & I am sending u the biggest & tightest of hugs as u navigate the deeper levels of what u have gone through.
Thank you for sharing. Sending prayers, love, & hope for the future, Peter. 🙏🏼💙
Thank you for doing and sharing the things most of us don't or cant. I hope you can continue to share and heal.
I went through the media circus too it was awful tv anchors calling to interview me as we were the same religion, the article on the front page of the Kansas City Star, our whole family was under a microscope. It was the lead story on the news for over a week. I am sorry that I brought up you driving it was not my place I respect your decision. I could not drive for a year after they found the epilepsy. Love you always, I hope you can find a peace you can live with.💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
Thank you for sharing all of that. I appreciate the work you’ve done, continue to do, and the choices you’ve made.
Im going to save this video for another time when I'm mentally healthier and approach it with my therapist. Im worried I will go through these questions and spiral with my own past trauma. But I am interested in your journey and hope you can find healing through this. Much love Peter.
IMO it’s probably a good thing that you don’t remember anything about the accident. I feel you would be constantly traumatized reliving it over and over again. I think that is Gods way of protecting you to not remember. Hugs to you Peter ❤❤
I totally understand not being able to put words to feelings. I’ve been through some traumatic issues just in the last two years. Thank you for sharing your story.💙
Thank you for sharing ❤🙏
im 23 and will never drive due to visual hallucinations (bipolar schizophrenia). i live in Australia but we have a similar culture around driving, some people just really don't know how to take it that i am choosing not to drive and i find it really hard when people question me also.
You can just say "it's a personal choice" , or "personal preference" and they ask again and you can say again "its personal." I feel like when I use the word personal about something people don't really question things like they do otherwise.
Like when I had to take a leave from my job everyone was prying (I went to treatment) and I end up just saying "a personal leave" or something along those lines and people left it alone
Really it's no one's business why but your own. No one has the right to know unless you want them to. Try not to let them make you feel bad. To each their own and I wish you well!!
I love you, Peter. ❤
I totally understand how massively transformative a car accident can be to life--I too had an accident caused by a medical emergency and have not driven since, and am still too scared to do so even six years after. Fortunately, I was the only one injured and it was only minor, but it still traumatized me. I cannot imagine how much more intense it must be for you given what happened with your accident, and I feel for you so much. You are so strong and brave to keep moving forward and the respectful way you handle the situation is very, very admirable. SO much love to you, Peter!
P.S. I used to live in Fishers! My childhood until age 12 was there, and it's so cool to know that you're from the same area! I moved away back in 2007 and the area has changed so much since then, I hardly recognize it anymore. Have you ever eaten at Tijuana Flats? I miss that place SO SO SO MUCH, and if you have never been there, you HAVE to go!
I've done something similar to this with my trauma therapist. I don't know if it necessarily "helped" me but i do know what it's like to go through something very traumatic and have little recollection. My 💙goes out to you Peter and thank you for your honesty and vulnerability💙ODAAT
Sending love & light 💙🐺💙
Thank you for sharing with vulnerability. This is such a hard tender situation. May peace be with you and the gentlemen’s family
you went leaps and bounds toward healing just by posting this video. thank you for being vulnerable with us 🤍 you deserve peace & you will soon have the energy to embrace the time it takes to process everything to get to that peace. you are such a light to so many.
Thank you for being so vulnerable with us, Peter. I hope being able to talk it out feels therapeutic and helpful to you and working through all this. It absolutely makes sense that you wouldn't want to drive again. I see you repeating the boundaries around your choice and how you want people to respect that. I respect you and your decision. I'm really proud of you, and so happy you are still here to share your light with us. I know this is so hard for you. Of course it would be. I love and support you 100%. 💙⚘
Thanks for sharing, Peter. I know this wasn't easy. We support you.
Great video Peter. The effort you put in to working through things and being vulnerable is really admirable.
Sending you sooo much love. 💗 Although I had subbed to and watch all your videos for like the last 5 months or so. I am so grateful for you and glad you’re still here. I wish there were more people like you in this world 🌍 because your honesty and heart are so important and refreshing. 🩷🩷🩷
You matter and you are loved and worthy.
Love you Peter! Thank you for sharing 💛
Thank you for sharing such a personal story. I’m sure it must be very difficult for you.❤
Wow thank you for being so open and honest 💙 I had a brain injury in November 2017 and I really struggle with not remembering what happened that day and getting different answers from different people. I also struggle with how my life looks now and how it will be in the future. Just know Peter that you have the right to feel how you feel, it’s not your fault that it happened and you are a victim too
Love you, Peter. You are a wonderful person example to us all. ❤️
As hard as this must be for you, I believe it will do you good to get it out. It will also help others process feelings and thoughts along with you. Thank you for sharing your process, Peter!
Two things can be true at once. That thought has helped me when feelings of guilt come up. There’s always three experiences in anything, yours, theirs, and combined. All of those feelings are valid. I can’t speak for anyone else but I know that there are deep feelings of guilt when someone else is hurt. I tend to disregard my feelings because my actions or circumstances led to whatever this is, so not allowed to feel for me. Problem is I can’t seem to heal from anything because I don’t give myself the grace I’d give others. The exercise I do when I feel this happening is separate myself from the scenario, even imagine someone else’s face and give them the advice unbiased. Record yourself or write it down and get used to hearing yourself be kind and take the advice. We’re kinder to others than we are to ourselves, sometimes without even realizing it. It’s ok to feel guilt and hurt for the man that died, but it’s also ok to feel compassion and forgiveness to you as well. They can coexist ❤ I don’t mean forgiveness as in you did something wrong, just forgiveness in the sense that it happened and can’t be changed. Just my thoughts but I hope they find you well. ❤
Hey Peter I always wondered, what exactly was your back injury? Did you herniate your discs along with the vertebrae? I’m STILL trying to heal after 2 herniated discs 8months later. It’s so painful and slow. 😔 How’d you get through it? I’m struggling. 😢
Thank you sharing
Love you always, say whatever you need to we are here for you. Have a great day and evening, enjoy tv and relaxing. Stay safe, take care and stay warm. Hope Tanya loved her birthday. Love you too Boo and Alex.💙💙💙🐶🐶🐶🐶🧢🧢🧢☕️☕️☕️🥤🥤🥤🕯️🕯️🕯️🧸🧸🧸🥰🥰🥰😴😴😴🫎🫎🫎🦌🦌🦌📖📖📖💙💙💙💙💙
You will find the other side of this in time. You were right to make the decision you did about driving don't let everyone else opinion about it trigger you they just haven't been through it so they don't get it. That this ain't a horse you can get back on. You are a awesome man don't let no one make you feel less then. 😊
This video will help so many people who have also gone thru trauma and I hope it also helps you as you continue down the path of healing. I think that it's honorable that you have so much respect for the other family who's lives have been effected by the accident and I hope that someday you can accept the fact that you also were a victim. A medical emergency caused the accident. You did not cause the accident. There are things in life that are completely out of our control. You have a seizure disorder. You didn't choose to have this disorder and even when well controlled, a person with a seizure disorder can still have breakthrough seizures at any time. I've worked in Healthcare for 33 years. I have seen many seizures in my career. I've seen the toll a seizure takes on the body and I have not met even one person who would say they would choose having to experience those seizures. I know you said that you often ask yourself "why not me". I'm sorry that there was a fatality from the accident. I'm also glad that you are a survivor. You make a positive difference in the world
I didn’t get my license until I was 30. And then I moved to cali when I was 35 and didn’t drive for 3 years. I can only go A to B and I take the long way everywhere. I feel like I’m going to pass out on the freeway. I’m anxious being a passenger . I have family and friends that don’t understand at all. My heart goes out to you bc I can’t imagine you going through what you do and people still not respecting your boundaries. Thanks for sharing
I'm 36 and don't even have a licence. Never have. Only a learner's permit for like a month when I turned 16. It honestly has always terrified me and I never wanted to do it. People think I'm crazy but it's honestly so stress free
Me too! I got my permit when I was 28 😂 but I'm also TERRIFIED to drive! I'm 30 now and still have no license because it freaks me out. My husband has tried to reach me how to drive but omg, five minutes and I'm panicking.
My sister in law didn't get her DL until she had kids and she only drives in town to take them to and from school and the grocery store. She's 40 and still won't drive on a freeway.
Do you guys take a lot of ubers or rides from people? I really hate feeling like I'm causing people an inconvenience so I feel like that would be so stressful (asking friends or family to drive me).Yet driving scares me too after totaling 2 cars in the last year after people t boning me :(
I’m 51, never had the desire to drive. I could be the safest driver in the world, but other people aren’t. That’s too much of a risk. My life hasn’t suffered.
@@mjnewsdigest2300 exactly. My eldest son is a great driver. He's 20 and has been driving since he could reach the pedals. He doesn't get on his phone, he's constantly aware of everything and everyone around him, but other people scare me.
You are so strong Peter thank you for sharing ❤
Peter, I love you. I know you don't know me but I wish I could offer my friendship to you. I've been watching you since 2016. You've always made me laugh and just made me feel like here was a person with so much in common to me, who shares a love of books and dogs, and appreciates so many of the little things in life. I loved your genuine and caring personality. Two years ago I remember noticing that I hadn’t seen any videos from you for a while and feeling worried. Then I heard about the accident and at first I didn't know whether you were alive or had passed away. Thankfully you're still with us. I'm so thankful for that and I know many people feel the same way! For me it is hard to imagine you with few friends, kind of living a quiet life. I have talked to my mom before about your channel and how you'd be such an ideal friend to me. She knows you by name at this point. 😂 Anyway, you are thought about and cared for and what happened to you was the fault of no one. Sometimes terrible things happen in this life and we can't prepare for them. I can sympathize with your feelings of grief and guilt, however. You give so much joy to people, including me, and I want you to know it, my dear! I don't want to be a weirdo but I would love to meet you someday, were that ever possible. Just a truth! Sending love and well wishes, Peter. ❤😊
You've been doing a stellar job facing your trauma 💙 Remember you can be greatful to be alive and still have damage needing fixing from the same incident. You honor him by living your life to the fullest and going through this hard work, because you are greatful to be alive, and to value the life you were so lucky to walk away with is honoring him. Keep up the good work!
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I 💯% get your decision not to drive, again. In 2019, I remember my dad was coming home from church and he said he thought he had hit something with his mirror……so he drove around the block to check. He said he didn’t see anything. Later, that year he fell so we took him to the emergency room; we found out he had brain cancer (he passed in 2022) and it affected his peripheral vision, so he could never drive again.
He said he NEVER missed it.
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Healing: When you are ready, allow yourself to let it go.
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IDK why this video wasn’t recommended to me until now, as you know I watch your vlog channel. I’m curious if there’s anything that you couldn’t do because you didn’t recall it, like did you remember you were a UA-camr and every channel you had etc. Did you know and remember what your favorite things were, that PP had died stuff like that? I’m referring to initially after you woke up. I also wondered if you had actually been somewhere and gotten things, like were groceries or whatever in your car at the time of the accident or were you going somewhere you didn’t make it to?
Anyone who thinks this is something you would choose... that you would have chosen to get behind the driver's seat that day if you knew what would happen, are sick in the head.
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Thank you for sharing this deeply personal and sensitive subject with us Peter. I can’t imagine what you’re going through in your mind on a daily basis. The fact that you are self deprecating shows that you are torn up by the accident and what happened. I will pray that you are kinder to yourself so you can be happier in life. ✝️🙏🏻🩷
Don't you live in a big city Peter? Its not necessary to drive, especially if you live in a big city! There's so many options these days, plenty of car services, delivery services, etc., its just really not necessary anymore. Unless you live out in the country and the closest stores are like an hour away, but even then there's usually someone that collects lists and money from the community and runs errands once a week. Usually a few people will take turns doing it. Thats how it is where i live (not necessarily my area but the areas around us) there's about 4 or 5 people that rotate turns going to the next county to go to the liqour store, fill oropane tanks, get meats, go to the oharmacy, etc.
For what it’s worth, I think you made the right decision not to drive. I’m curious if you are or have been in contact with the family of the man that passed, and if that could or does impact things now?
He said in his vlog the other day that he has addressed this and for people to stop asking or suggesting it.
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"I pray for your healing... that circumstances would change. I pray that the fear inside would flee in Jesus name!!! I pray that a breakthrough would happen today! I pray miracles over your life in Jesus name". 🙏🙏🙏🙌🙌🙌
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I pray for your healing.
You are being to hard on yourself. You have to remember that man also made a decision to get in the car as well and when you decide to get in a car the likelihood of having a fatal accident is astronomical. While I completely validate your feelings you have to see that the other person has accountability as well. Accidents happen and everyone takes that risk when we get into a vehicle. I hope this was not to harsh it's just reality.
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Not allowing yourself to drive is a form of punishment. If you are punishing yourself it means you haven’t forgiven yourself and without forgiveness you will not ever heal. If you have asked God for forgiveness and we know from His promises that He has, why have you not yet forgiven yourself?
Thank you for sharing this even when you don't have to share such a personal struggle ❤
I really want to go to therapy but its not covered by my insurance and I dont have the money for it.
Wishing the best for you as you work through this incredibly difficult situation 🩵
Peter, i thought you had posted this today, and it gave me hope bc i am stuck on something from my past. It made me feel good to know other people were struggling with moving on. Either way, I'm sure you can relate. 🫂
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