Original Description: "I don’t know why I’m still here anymore I often like to think I died long ago & this existence is actually hell itself Some kind of justification for why everything is so fucked up I don’t know what I’m doing or if it even matters if I do it Sitting in my bath of blood & vomit again, not knowing what to do, knowing time is still an endless cycle to nowhere I’ve been trying to keep myself from drowning in my fucked up head again I’ve spoken to multiple doctors & psychiatrists begging for some kind of help, all I got were referrals to some other fuckwit who is horribly incompetent at his/her job as a mental health specialist. being tossed around like a fucking ball. Eventually, it dropped & everyone fucked off. Here is all I know. I’m diagnosed with schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, & borderline personality disorder. I have attempted to kill others & myself multiple times in the past, present, & certainly in the future. I can hear everyone screaming in my head & I can’t crush your fucking face I see them & I cripple I still have not received any actual help for my disorders. I get paid to suffer. In relation to Sadboy Sheldon & the channel, I will no longer be making mashups. This decision is final. However I will be making a compilation album to properly signal the end of Sadboy Sheldon. As for [Redacted for privacy], I will give [Redacted for privacy] permission to archive all the albums I’ve made under the Sadboy Sheldon alias if he wishes to do so. The only reason I even found [Redacted for privacy] to begin with was that I was obsessed with Jenny Wakeman during a very self-destructive time. That was the only reason this channel even exists. However, I am still the same self-destructive person, I burned my bridges & I cannot be fucked to re-build it Someone can go forward this to him or something. Sewerslvt is still ongoing, & all future material will be released independently on this channel & depending on how I feel I may do some other shit with the channel. I just do not know what to do with this shit anymore. Humanity is dust in a vacuum Nothing will ever change You are the same helpless child you have always been I need some alcohol, a cone, a wank, & maybe I won’t try again"
Iirc Sewerslvt made this album right after her failed suicide attempt and expected Interdimentional Snuff Films to be her last album with many of her unfinished tracks. After all that, I hope she's doing alright mentally and physically.
@@Portalime I believe it was a vent song, explaining why it's so dark. The original description was a vent and was desolate as hell, going along with this song
does anyone have the full image of the girl on the laptop? ive seen the same girl on the album cover and im wondering if its just a head, or where its from
Original Description:
"I don’t know why I’m still here anymore
I often like to think I died long ago & this existence is actually hell itself
Some kind of justification for why everything is so fucked up
I don’t know what I’m doing or if it even matters if I do it
Sitting in my bath of blood & vomit again, not knowing what to do,
knowing time is still an endless cycle to nowhere
I’ve been trying to keep myself from drowning in my fucked up head again
I’ve spoken to multiple doctors & psychiatrists begging for some kind of help, all I got were referrals to some other fuckwit who is horribly incompetent at his/her job as a mental health specialist.
being tossed around like a fucking ball.
Eventually, it dropped & everyone fucked off.
Here is all I know.
I’m diagnosed with schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, & borderline personality disorder.
I have attempted to kill others & myself multiple times in the past, present, & certainly in the future.
I can hear everyone screaming in my head & I can’t crush your fucking face
I see them & I cripple
I still have not received any actual help for my disorders.
I get paid to suffer.
In relation to Sadboy Sheldon & the channel, I will no longer be making mashups.
This decision is final.
However I will be making a compilation album to properly signal the end of Sadboy Sheldon.
As for [Redacted for privacy], I will give [Redacted for privacy] permission to archive all the albums I’ve made under the Sadboy Sheldon alias if he wishes to do so.
The only reason I even found [Redacted for privacy] to begin with was that I was obsessed with Jenny Wakeman during a very self-destructive time.
That was the only reason this channel even exists.
However, I am still the same self-destructive person, I burned my bridges & I cannot be fucked to re-build it
Someone can go forward this to him or something.
Sewerslvt is still ongoing, & all future material will be released independently on this channel & depending on how I feel I may do some other shit with the channel.
I just do not know what to do with this shit anymore.
Humanity is dust in a vacuum
Nothing will ever change
You are the same helpless child you have always been
I need some alcohol, a cone, a wank, & maybe I won’t try again"
HOLY FUCK
@plneet! albumble bee
thats deep af
Iirc Sewerslvt made this album right after her failed suicide attempt and expected Interdimentional Snuff Films to be her last album with many of her unfinished tracks. After all that, I hope she's doing alright mentally and physically.
This poem is incredible but the Swans reference at the end makes it even better
imagine finding this laptop out in a bush in wild though
0:29 when you have 4 stars of wanted
I know why she released this song, but it's a certified banger.
why did she release it?
@@Portalime I believe it was a vent song, explaining why it's so dark. The original description was a vent and was desolate as hell, going along with this song
Hope makes the suffering worse. We must imagine Sisyphus happy.
does anyone have the full image of the girl on the laptop? ive seen the same girl on the album cover and im wondering if its just a head, or where its from
Apparently it lolita hen thai (My reply will get removed if I say it probably
@@Mmmcheesecake oh wait wat
@@Mmmcheesecake i think ur talking about the original album cover. miau was referring to the new one which just has a head
@@oldchannel1312 You mean the one with the white outline?
@@Mmmcheesecake the one in this video