You hit the nail right on the head. You experience a reality you feel is true, then you need to reintegrate by living the concepts again and figuring out how that will fit into your new world view. In a crazy way, I'm so blessed to have gone through my psychosis. It's brought me a lot of true wisdom. Not the fluffy, fake, egoistic wisdom.
Thanks for sharing. I am also grateful for my experiences and feel like it has brought me some wisdom I would not have had otherwise. The fluffy stuff becomes more clear I think after having gone through something like psychosis. Or that's how I feel at least.
Thanks for the video. It is still hard for me to not feel like everyone is trying to trick me or feeling like people are watching me. I know when I was experiencing psychosis I was extremely paranoid but it makes it easier to keep reminding myself that was never really happening. Trying hard to stay in the real world.
You brought up playing a trumpet to awaken the world. I remember having a similar delusion of playing my ocarina to stop the moon from falling. Fascinating that we both used a musical instrument in a psychotic state to act on a delusion.
@@justbeinghayden9451 yea thanks mate it's been a long road it's hard to find information on the subject but you have good insight and made me realize what happened to me happenes to other people as well I'm sure you know all to well how alone you feel when your going through it wish you all the best
This past Friday marked 4 years since my first episode. When I think about reintegration I think about how I wasn't allowed to take my time to fully recover. I was at university and right after the first episode I went back to my studies. Same thing with the second episode where I was working and they gave me only 15 days off. In a certain way, it speeded up this process, and by engaging in such activities where I was constantly dealing with people around me, it contributed for me to feel grounded again. In other way, not taking time to proper address my feelings about it made me feel uncertain of some situations where I thought I was being played by when my perception of reality was dubious. Today, after psychoanalysis and being in peace with taking my meds, I feel like I can have a critical view of the time I was experiencing the positive symptoms of psychosis. I still feel a bit of the stigma of living with a mental illness though, not being able to engage in love relationships and having a hard time envisioning a future career. Thank you for this platform.
Thank you for sharing. I'm sorry to hear you were not given adequate time after your experiences to readjust to reality. I am glad you are getting the care you need now though I hope that helps to you make sense of your experiences a little better. As far as relationships and careers go there is hope. I am currently in a relationship and its going great. Just because you have had psychosis doesn't mean you can't have relationships anymore and I don't have a career, but I have spoken with older adults who have psychosis and they were able to live a normal life and pursue a career. Just wanted to let you know that those are not off the table. :) Wishing you the best! Thanks again for sharing and it means a lot when I know I'm making a difference.
Thank you soooo much Hayden! Your videos have been so enlightening and valuable! My 32 year old son with schizoaffective disorder is coming out if psychosis and I play your videos so he can hear them. At this time he does not want to get anymore professional help but it's okay for us at this time. Your information helps my husband and I in understanding what my son is experiencing and helps guide our care and interactions with him. I believe he is in stage 2 of psychosis recovery. He barely speaks to us so I've been having a difficult time knowing what he's experiencing and I don't want to make to many assumptions. Your information is very caring and insightful! He does move closer to the Bluetooth speaker when I play them.😀
Thank you for your sweet message. I'm glad the videos have been helpful for your family! It means a lot to me when I hear how my videos and experience have had an impact on other people, so thank you for sharing that. Feel free to reach out to me if you have any questions! Wishing you all the best and thank you for being proactive in his recovery as well, that is always nice to see!
Same here... I thought i was the only one. The delusion lonerism has been eating at my soul. Also my psychosis and panic attacks was drug induced. I thought that my guitar playing will make the whole apartment complex raise its frequency.
You are definitely not alone. I also thought that playing the trumpet would raise the frequency. Thank you for sharing. Hope you are doing better now. Happy Christmas Eve!
Thank you for your videos! Someone I love more than anything else is going through the first psychotic episode which has now lasted for 6 weeks with 2 recoveries and cannabis-induced relapses and hospitalisations in between. Please, can you talk about what sort of things could be helpful from the point of view of someone who cares about the person going through an early stages of recovery?
Thank you for sharing. Yeah sure I would love to make a video about that, I am sure you are not the only. Sorry to hear about your loved one, it is definitely not a fun process, but I hope the best for you both! Maybe this will be the topic of my next video.
@@justbeinghayden9451 Thank you! I do wonder if you think that Risperidone and therapy are helpful at all? What other things could be helpful; there were some articles about alternative treatments, including religion ( both Christianity and Buddhism in what I found)...Some suggest that taking a gap year on a farm worked magic ...Can you perhaps talk about what helped you to start your recovery? I am having some doubts about residential treatment although that is probably the safest place for someone who has just had a psychotic episode. Thanks so much again! Watching your videos is giving me hope!
how do you know some of your experience from your psychosis are pure and true? because in my experience, it's sort of mix between genuine spiritual experience and delusion. Now I'm confused.
That is something you have figure out for yourself. Every life experience is a spiritual experience in my opinion. There are clearly delusions during psychosis, but there were some experiences that had value and meaning to me. You have to decide what you want to keep and move forward with and what you leave behind.
You hit the nail right on the head. You experience a reality you feel is true, then you need to reintegrate by living the concepts again and figuring out how that will fit into your new world view. In a crazy way, I'm so blessed to have gone through my psychosis. It's brought me a lot of true wisdom. Not the fluffy, fake, egoistic wisdom.
Thanks for sharing. I am also grateful for my experiences and feel like it has brought me some wisdom I would not have had otherwise. The fluffy stuff becomes more clear I think after having gone through something like psychosis. Or that's how I feel at least.
Thanks for the video. It is still hard for me to not feel like everyone is trying to trick me or feeling like people are watching me. I know when I was experiencing psychosis I was extremely paranoid but it makes it easier to keep reminding myself that was never really happening. Trying hard to stay in the real world.
Thanks for sharing. Sorry to hear you are struggling. Wishing you well. I hope you have the support you need!
its a tightrope mate and grounding is key. thanks for the info - very informative and helpful! cheers
The whole thing is groundless in that we can't prove anything is true even if we get feedback telling us it is.
You brought up playing a trumpet to awaken the world. I remember having a similar delusion of playing my ocarina to stop the moon from falling. Fascinating that we both used a musical instrument in a psychotic state to act on a delusion.
Thanks for sharing. That is really interesting! We have a lot of parallels in our experiences.
Your videos have been very useful. Keep doing what you're doing.
Thanks for sharing mate nobody's really talking about this stuff. you helped me to understand what happened a bit better
Glad the video was helpful for you 😊
@@justbeinghayden9451 yea thanks mate it's been a long road it's hard to find information on the subject but you have good insight and made me realize what happened to me happenes to other people as well I'm sure you know all to well how alone you feel when your going through it wish you all the best
thank you so much. god bless you. can you speak more about post hospital recovery right after?
yes please make that video soon for family and friends to help please thank you and what doesn't help. is it possible ptsd?
This past Friday marked 4 years since my first episode. When I think about reintegration I think about how I wasn't allowed to take my time to fully recover. I was at university and right after the first episode I went back to my studies. Same thing with the second episode where I was working and they gave me only 15 days off. In a certain way, it speeded up this process, and by engaging in such activities where I was constantly dealing with people around me, it contributed for me to feel grounded again. In other way, not taking time to proper address my feelings about it made me feel uncertain of some situations where I thought I was being played by when my perception of reality was dubious. Today, after psychoanalysis and being in peace with taking my meds, I feel like I can have a critical view of the time I was experiencing the positive symptoms of psychosis. I still feel a bit of the stigma of living with a mental illness though, not being able to engage in love relationships and having a hard time envisioning a future career. Thank you for this platform.
Thank you for sharing. I'm sorry to hear you were not given adequate time after your experiences to readjust to reality. I am glad you are getting the care you need now though I hope that helps to you make sense of your experiences a little better. As far as relationships and careers go there is hope. I am currently in a relationship and its going great. Just because you have had psychosis doesn't mean you can't have relationships anymore and I don't have a career, but I have spoken with older adults who have psychosis and they were able to live a normal life and pursue a career. Just wanted to let you know that those are not off the table. :) Wishing you the best! Thanks again for sharing and it means a lot when I know I'm making a difference.
what meds have worked?
@@dreamznaspiratons7064 Risperidone
Thank you soooo much Hayden! Your videos have been so enlightening and valuable! My 32 year old son with schizoaffective disorder is coming out if psychosis and I play your videos so he can hear them. At this time he does not want to get anymore professional help but it's okay for us at this time. Your information helps my husband and I in understanding what my son is experiencing and helps guide our care and interactions with him. I believe he is in stage 2 of psychosis recovery. He barely speaks to us so I've been having a difficult time knowing what he's experiencing and I don't want to make to many assumptions. Your information is very caring and insightful! He does move closer to the Bluetooth speaker when I play them.😀
Thank you for your sweet message. I'm glad the videos have been helpful for your family! It means a lot to me when I hear how my videos and experience have had an impact on other people, so thank you for sharing that. Feel free to reach out to me if you have any questions! Wishing you all the best and thank you for being proactive in his recovery as well, that is always nice to see!
JUST EXPERIENCE THIS LAST NIGHT. THANKS SO MUCH FOR SUPPORT AND WILL SHARE TO THE WORLD 🌎🌱🌻
Can you make a video about things that help you in recovering .
Same here... I thought i was the only one. The delusion lonerism has been eating at my soul. Also my psychosis and panic attacks was drug induced. I thought that my guitar playing will make the whole apartment complex raise its frequency.
You are definitely not alone. I also thought that playing the trumpet would raise the frequency. Thank you for sharing. Hope you are doing better now. Happy Christmas Eve!
Thank you for your videos! Someone I love more than anything else is going through the first psychotic episode which has now lasted for 6 weeks with 2 recoveries and cannabis-induced relapses and hospitalisations in between. Please, can you talk about what sort of things could be helpful from the point of view of someone who cares about the person going through an early stages of recovery?
Thank you for sharing. Yeah sure I would love to make a video about that, I am sure you are not the only. Sorry to hear about your loved one, it is definitely not a fun process, but I hope the best for you both! Maybe this will be the topic of my next video.
@@justbeinghayden9451 Thank you! I do wonder if you think that Risperidone and therapy are helpful at all? What other things could be helpful; there were some articles about alternative treatments, including religion ( both Christianity and Buddhism in what I found)...Some suggest that taking a gap year on a farm worked magic ...Can you perhaps talk about what helped you to start your recovery? I am having some doubts about residential treatment although that is probably the safest place for someone who has just had a psychotic episode. Thanks so much again! Watching your videos is giving me hope!
"Come to your senses." I think psychosis happens when we identify and give too much attention to our thoughts.
I definitely agree, focusing on the body and the senses can be a helpful way to ground for sure.
I have the same tapestry from amazon haha. I really like your channel
Haha nice! Yeah I love the tapestry, also got it from amazon. Thank you I appreciate it! Thanks for the support :)
trauma and cptsd is the basis of many mental health issues
I think it's a way to disassociate and heal trauma
how do you know some of your experience from your psychosis are pure and true? because in my experience, it's sort of mix between genuine spiritual experience and delusion. Now I'm confused.
That is something you have figure out for yourself. Every life experience is a spiritual experience in my opinion. There are clearly delusions during psychosis, but there were some experiences that had value and meaning to me. You have to decide what you want to keep and move forward with and what you leave behind.
So, have you taken medication or take any?
I take 0.5 mg of risperidone. That's all I've ever taken. I've tried other but this one seems to be the only one that works for me.
@@justbeinghayden9451it's small dosage, I think. Thanks for your answer.