Duality of a Schizoaffective Disorder Life
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- Опубліковано 12 сер 2020
- Hey, Hi, and Hello Dear Friends,
I hope, very much so, that each of y'all have managed to stay as safe and as healthy as humanly possible.
I'm sorry that I have been so absent of
late. I have been dealing with some pretty intense difficulties and was simply mentally incapable of putting out any video updates. Between the physical ailments that seem to have followed me, dangerously close and chomping at my heels, ever since I left the hospital; and the steady growth in the intensity and frequency of the constant assaults on my thoughts and mental health….
By the unspeakable monsters that come from the deepest depths of my subconscious horrors …..
Because of these seemingly unstoppable forces being hurled at me with deadlier and more viscous intent with each passing
hour, there was a rapid regression in my quality of life, and I managed to quickly and efficiently begin to self-destruct.
I keep going back over it in my head, asking myself, what the hell happened?
When and where is the exact moment that I finally lost my grip on things, and started to realize that I had truly and utterly failed?
Sitting here now, I know the truth that I never ACTUALLY lost….
I can see that I never REALLY failed….
But at some point I allowed the voices and painted emotions to CONVINCE me that I had lost; and that there was little point in continuing to swim if I was drowning already.
And what is so shocking to me, is how out of left field my total and dangerous self destruction came from.
One minute I was in control and making positive steady progress in reaching a balance, between both the dark and the light, in my life…..
I was moving forward.
But then my life was turned upside down, violently and without warning.
After the hospital it was taking every single damn ounce of will and strength I had…..
Not to just completely break down sobbing in public every minute of every day.
My life had taken on a strange duality.
There was the before…..
And now there was the after.
It all came to a head one night when I felt something break inside me.
And luckily, there were some forces at work that not only somehow kept me relatively unharmed and safe, but also forced me to get some much needed help.
And that is where I am today.
I am now under the care of people who seem to genuinely want to help me stabilize and get better.
And even though the road is stifling lonely and difficult, I hold onto the last surviving hope I have, that life CAN and WILL get better.
I'm a very slow learner, and often excruciatingly stubborn in my inability to open up to those who love me and ask them for help.
I'm slow…..
But I am trying like hell to learn to trust others again.
Because the truth is, this is just too big for me alone this time.
It's too heavy for me to make it back to my feet again, on my own.
At some point, in each of our individual and incredible lives, we are all going to find ourselves facing down something so vast and colossal, that we are incapable of grasping the full scope of its potential impact on us
And eventually, we will need to understand and accept that no amount of pure will or effort is enough for us to conquer the darkness on our own.
Sometimes we have to understand and accept that there are situations that we all will encounter where no amount of self will, effort, or good intent….on our own….will be enough to conquer
When that time does come…
When the beautifully shaded clouds of despair descend upon you and threaten the very fabric of your existence….
When it threatens your most true and basic understanding of the world around you, and the life you've crafted over every single breath of life taken….
Please.
Reach out and ask for some understanding and help.
Reach out and keep breathing.
I wish I could hug you and make you feel so unequivocally loved.
He has so many people from all over the world that absolutely adore him, myself included. What a cruel world where his mind can't give just even a fraction of that to him.
You bring so much insight and speak so much truth! Thank you! Please feel hugged and loved and appreciated ❤❤❤ I am truly looking forward to your question answering video! If it is OK I would also like to know more about Georgie and your other plushy or furry companions (I have two myself) but that could be a whole other video 🤗......
Same here. I really wish I could bring him comfort
Truly. He is obviously a good, wise person. I wish I could take away everyones mental or physical illnesses.
Me too .
He is the sweetest human being
Hey, Daniel. I’ll have you know that I’ve been watching UA-cam for a long time and haven’t left a single comment until here today. I too have schizoaffective disorder and I know the hell of psychosis, delusions, and hallucinations. I have made almost a complete recovery from my illness via therapy, medications, and most of my family members support. I know that some people aren’t as lucky to have those supports and people to rely on. But I wanted to offer you a resource in case you ever want to anonymously vent to a mental health community that cares. It’s called HeartSupport and they have a forum that I visit frequently at forum.heartsupport.com . I’m praying for you brother and know you can make a full recovery.
I'd l0ve to talk to anyone of you that are serious with these problems I'm only 32 with PTSD depression an the entire book of mental an physical health problems and I have so much in my mind that doesnt make sense but I've also managed myself over the last 6years anbom just always looking for understanding yet I go in to isolation periods an never talk about these issues so bless all hope to find me a weed cure all to help with apple symptoms such as you said Daniel I can create u a Kong smoke special towards your issues call it OGFrankenstein hahah. I think there so much help out there that's covered up by our medical monopoly of the world that Pharmaceuticals tend too be all that we push instead of socializing an natural herbs which can correct these issues
Idk I'm a fucked up dude so I just ramble but I feel the pain man it's real cuz I use to have so many friends I couldn't get a free minute now I'm isolating myself for months at a time losing days an an perception of the outside world cuz I'm afraid to open to others an it's a crushing problem that many ppl wont get unlessbur under the same distress. But I'm proud of ppl like u who speak up wen race riots are burning down city building yet homeless vets get displaced an ignored I just wish we could act as one society under a common goal specially for us who sacrificed to protect the land an get mistreated but its Kong Smoke an always @#LuvHuman
Thanks for sharing your story
Who hath ears to hear, let him hear.[Matthew 13:9-16 KJV] I come with a message to tell everyone that even though times are hard, and it seems endless as though at times it never shall pass, these like other things shall pass and these to shall come to pass, and a new beginning shall arise for you. May God bless anyone who is is in need or is in turmoil in the blood of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior, and king of kings, and Lord of Lords amen right now, for God is a merciful God. Call on God and he will not be deaf but God will listen for he loves you no matter the circumstance for we are all his children from those whom accept his son Jesus Christ and the gift of salvation bestowed upon us by God through the vessel and blood bought sacrifice of him Christ Jesus whom he the father almighty God hath sent in him Christ Jesus in that of his and our fathers name, know to this even if you doubt it or are uncertain or even yet too feel unworthy at times due to what had happened or the events in your life for it is written! He will not abandoned those in distress but bless the ones who mourn! Accept God and Gods son Jesus Christ by believing in him Christ Jesus whom is our Lord and our Savior, and king of kings, and Lord of Lords and you shall receive the gift of eternal life and be renewed with that of the abundance in that of the Holy Spirit now and forevermore! Have a wonderful day/night everybody, and farewell!(Share the message around the world!)....,........
May the Lord your God bless you all with the gift of salvation and eternity through the Son Christ Jesus!
"Our brain is our greatest adversary, but it is also our greatest tool."
I don't think I will ever forget that quote. Thanks, Daniel!
Maybe you like this one too: " The mind is a good assistant, but a cruel master. " my Translation is not too good
Maybe you like this one too: " The mind is a good assistant, but a cruel master. " my Translation is not too good
Maybe you like this one too: " The mind is a good assistant, but a cruel master. " my Translation is not too good
That was my same thought. Daniel, you are so battered, but also so incredibly hopeful. You are infinitely stronger than I am.
Infinitely. You are amazing.
Yea that was a great quote. I think that’s why I try to smoke wed and drink sometimes because my mind teens to become an adversary and I want a brake from it so I try to turn it off but then I’m constantly trying to keep it off. Some days I’m able to speak back to the negative voices, stay sober and use my mind as a tool, but it’s difficult. Our mind is a tool from the divine so it makes sense to ask for divine help to use it as a tool instead of it being an adversary.
You're one of the kindest souls I've ever encountered.
You make more sense than everyone I’ve talked to in the last month. You’re a true warrior, and your beautiful video descriptions really show that. Keep fighting, we’re with you however dark it gets.
The descriptions are spot on
exactly
THIS.
SOOOOO VERY MUCH.❤️
This man is beautiful
"I don't make any sense"..
No, you make perfect sense and I find your perspective very valuable and I always appreciate listening to you talk.
You keep on fighting and keep facing your fears and worries even though your life is so difficult and painful and I have tremendous respect for that. Overcoming our fears is the most difficult thing one can do. Few people even try. I'm proud of you and you should be, too. Keep on going, friend. You're doing well!
I can also relate with your words. You say wise things
Nobody hates you. They just don’t understand. You’re inspiring brother✊🏽
I didn't know he had a you tube. This guy is one of my customers I've been so worried be cause I haven't seen him in awhile
Guard this man with your life ❤️
Maybe you think you’re just sharing your story, maybe you’re just trying to bring awareness... but I need you to know you’re doing more than that. You’re putting good out into the world that is greatly needed. This came at a perfect time for me. That all consuming, terrifying darkness was creeping back in. I needed to hear, “So that we can continue to fight, even if it feels like a losing battle.” No, the brain doesn’t fight fair, I too have been standing on that edge and for the first time in my life have reached out for help and I want you to know you were a HUGE part of that. Am I better? No. Some days feel worse than ever, but I have something I didn’t have before reaching out for help and that is hope. Something I hadn’t experienced in as long as I can remember. Also, every time you say “I’m not making sense” I’m always shaking my head furiously arguing, “no! You make perfect sense! Someone finally gets it!” It’s so nice to feel I’m not alone. So thank you, thank you, thank you! For just being you.
Well said!
Wonderfully said!
So beautifully said!
Thank you. Not only are you helping people who struggle like you but also counselors and social workers who work with people who go through some of the same things. That’s like teaching the teachers and you can have so much impact on others. Just by being you. You are doing very well expressing what you’re going through. We choose to be here to listen it’s our choice so you are not imposing whatsoever. You are helping people will be kinder to others who are in your position. You are putting a human face on a very challenging situation and I personally appreciate your honesty. Take care.
Sir, personally you could never be a disappointment. People will never understand how strong you have to be to continually find the willpower to endure.
Enduring is so very important, we know, but it isn't for the lazy or faint of heart. I have multiple chronic illnesses as well as mental health issues. I can't say I understand your particular journey but I can 100% empathize and support.
You are so very emotionally intelligent, sharp of wit and sweet. Those are the first things I see of you in every video. That might sound ridiculous but it's absolutely the case.
Stay strong and keep afloat, friend. 💜
Well said ♥️
I whole heartedly agree with you. I am the same with many chronic illnesses n metal health issues. It is a hard fight everyday. I love this handsome chap what a pure heart he has x
how do we help.
Do you have family? a place to stay. how do or how can I support you. help me so I can help you brother. breaking my heart
Your not Frankenstein, you are a good man, a veteran, and we all love you through life’s ups and downs. I speak Life to you and your family
"I may not know where I will be in the future, and I might not even be clear where I`ve been in the past...but, I will tell you what im going to do right now, and that is to enjoy that *points at the beautiful sky*"
I smiled
Thank you for sharing your story with us Daniel, you’re so handsome and I wish you the absolute best.
he’s a very handsome man for sure & such a sweet soul!💛
We haven't heard from you in a long time and i started to worry. Man, you're such a prescious guy. How is that possible that i don't even know you, but somehow i feel this special connection with you and I really hope that you feel our support, you read our love comments when things gets harder and that we are able to help you even just a little bit. Keep your chin up :)
love your comment reno nv
The clip of you crying and saying sometimes you don’t wanna be around and sometimes you don’t understand.....
Dude!! I am crying my eyes out!!!! I know those feelings so well from battling mental health myself. Just know, I sincerely hope you do stick around and keep sharing your life with us. You are an inspiring and beautiful person.
Love you!! 💜💜
@chicken tenders I'm sorry that you have to go through that. I am sure it is a major struggle and pain in the ass.
I was diagnosed with BPD about 16 years ago. Then about 8 years ago, out of nowhere, got major anxiety. Used to have lots of friends and go out all the time. Now I dont have any friends, and only leave the house when I hace too. Have only left once since July of last year. Have wssted almost all my 30s indoors. My brain fucking sucks sometimes lol.
I wish you the best 🌻
@@emilyann8086 Thank you for sharing all that ❤. I was in an abusive relationship for some time. My son's father broke in 10 years ago, and beat me for a few hours infront of our son. Got 8 loose teeth from it still. Just a mess. Luckily, we haven't heard from him in 8 years...piece of shit.
I workout 6 days a week, and do lots of crafts and stuff to help me deal with things. Helps keep the negative thoughts down, and the brain juicy LOL
I wish you the best and lots of love 🌻
I only leave the house a few times a year when necessary. Haven't left since July of last year. On those times I have to leave, I always get in the car with one of my stuffed animals or my little blanket. I need them.
Thank you for your videos.
@chicken tenders Not a weird question to me.
I have one that is part pig part unicorn named Timothy, cat named Pickles, frog named Hercules, elephant named Richard, a Llama named Jeffrey, and an owl named Henry. I have two security blankets. One I just call Purple Squish, and the other one is Cubby.
@chicken tenders I'm more of a cat person than dog. We own a German Shepard though. His name is Voodoo.
My owl stuffed animal is a bit fat, so I named him Henry after King Henry viii LOL
@chicken tenders Cats are my favorite....next to llamas but I don't have one of those lol. I just have my one cat, her name is Cow. I've had her for about 14 years.
I used to be super social, but then something switched off in my brain, and I stopped. I only talk to people on UA-cam or family members. I can't even walk down to check my mail....worried someone will say hi to me. I know deep down that I am being a little ridiculous, but that doesn't make the feelings go away. If I am going to go outfront to do my watering, I have to give myself a couple days to mentally prepare, and make sure that no neighbors are out....my bushes are starting to die lol.
One day I hope to be "normal" again, but for now, this is me 💁
@chicken tenders I cheetah would be cool! They deserve to be wild and free though....like in a jungle. Is that where they live? LOL I don't know. My dream to is to live on a small ranch, with a few llamas, and apple orchard, and a couple mimi horses. I am scared of regular sized horses too. When I was 10, I was running a horse, and fell off. I fractured my skull and broke my arm in 3 places. All I remember, is dropping the reins, reaching for them, and then waking in the hospital. Had the whole right side of my head shaved and my arm was a mess. Regular sized horses can go to hell 😂
I used to be on Effexor XR 75mg. First got on it in highschool. Then after I turned 19, my insurance was gone and I stopped it. Then went back on at 28, and took it for a year at 150mg. It helped me with many things including selfharm. My drinking got super bad, so I stopped taking ir cold turkey....never a good idea. So I just turned 38 last week, and have been off of it for a long time. I want to go back on it, but now with my going places and being around peolle anxiety, I have to get ot together and be brave enough to go. Also, I have to go when my husband can watch my son, because my son has special needs, and I can't take him with me or just leave him at home. So right now I just deal with my head stuff by trying to keep busy so I don't think much.
I always had so much fun in school. My husband and I met when we were in middle school, and had classes altogether through highschool. He likes to joke and make fun of me that I used to be mad when I didn't have homework LOL
@chicken tenders I stopped drinking in 2011 or 2012. Not a drop since. I had to quit. I was getting really bad. It was making my mental shit a million times worse, and I was blacking out. I would turn super slutty or super violent. I don't want to be that kind of person.
Meditation is not for me at all. I don't have the ability to stay still and be calm like that. Not to mention my 12 year old son has nonverbal autism, and he is the loudest person in the world LOL ❤
I don't drink caffeine. Soda is gross and coffee is pure ass. I only drink water 😃
Do you have little hobbies you do to help you out? Any crafts or anything?
hope you know how beautiful you are. I've been to dark places and come back and lost myself again but every time you may have a hard day could also be a good day so we just have to keep letting our days come and find something to appreciate if it's a sunset or a good cup of coffee or a shower that felt good hang on to that good thing and hope for more tomorrow. you are a good looking introspective sweet hearted man and you are going to be ok. please be ok because the world needs you. hang on for that new favorite song that may come or favorite movie you may see. good luck friend.
"Sometimes we have to change the way we fight the battle because the battle is no longer being fought the same against us." I understand that all too well. Stay strong 💕
Daniel you are so strong and when you make these videos you share that strength with everyone. I love you, man. I have borderline personality disorder and severe recurring depressive disorder. Everyone's battles are different, and the Mind is a bastard, and never plays fair. I'm filled with so much strength and happiness when I see your amazing courage on full display. Thank you for doing what you do. You are a blessing.
Our challenges do not define us
We are not the sum of our faults
Keep fighting the good fight, Captain.
Your Brother in arms,
E
Daniel you are precious and I rebuke the enemy that attacks you in the name of Jesus! I will be praying for you tonight and every night untill you are delivered from it.. Remember God Loves you, turn to him he is faithful. I love you too. 🙏💕
You're more normal than most people I know.
You're closer to the truth than most people I know.
You're inspirational and awesome. You're *NOT* a disappointment!
I love you and your videos so much. Every month or so I tend to check up on you and send you happy vibes but I knew I needed to respond to this one. you are so fuckin courageous and strong for being so outspoken about your good days and bad days. you are one of the main people in my life who have made me seek mental health help and to be honest and real about my Schizoaffective disorder. Hugs hugs hugs I’m always here for u
last night, i came across your channel & i watched all of your videos.
and then i prayed.
something i haven’t done in years.
in 2008 my mind turned on me & it was no longer my own, i eventually gave up on my faith & on God. nothing made sense anymore. especially praying to a God i felt i could no longer trust. i mean...
it has taken me a really long time to feel somewhat normal again.. according to what i remember anyhow. and i have since reinstalled my faith. in God & in myself. somehow in some miraculous way i had to trust in a process i never fully understood. today i am thankful for not giving up on myself.
and i am thankful for you.
i was extremely happy to see this new video pop up today. your words and your wisdom are incredibly powerful. you radiate positivity in such a profound way. keep shinin boy! you are beautiful. 🦋
Black Widow No she isn’t.
PLEASE go away. Seriously stop. Just STOP.
@@nscott2590 who is that reply to? The original comment?
Jeef Squaa Yes. So damn sick of hearing about God when people are suffering.
oh, nathan. i am sorry you feel this way. however, i will never be ashamed of a God that can remove suffering. also, i would never tell someone to go away or stop spreading hope & positivity. that’s just silly, don’t cha think? peace & love to you dear.
Holy crap this guy has a ton of talent, he should be famous, I’m glad you desided to upload your life, it’s very humbling, your an amazing person, I wish you the best of luck in life, we could all use a little luck right now
I don't want him anywhere near famous. These people today will be ruthless to him. I don't want him to be crush.
Love you Daniel. From a guy struggling.
We need to stop being such a separated society. You are not a disappointment, and you are not hated. Those who love you need to start telling you so. Do they watch these videos? Do you talk to them about it? Better communication is key.
I’m so happy to hear from you Daniel, keep strong and please keep sharing your journey. My mental health has taken a very bad turn as of late but seeing you posting and sharing helps, takes me out of my bubble of hatred for a moment I’m sure it does for many others too. We love you Daniel x
You're not a monster, furthest thing from it, you are deeply loved by Jesus, and by me 🥰💚💖
I have schizoaffective disorder and when I realized I wasn't thinking right for the first time, it shattered me. I felt so alone and vulnerable and lost and confused, but most of all, horrified. That lasted for about 5 hours before I snapped back into my old thoughts because I couldn't deal with the reality. I had another moment like that 2 years later, and after that, I've been sort of aware of the fact that I am frequently 100% delusional, which has led me to do some very strange things. It's the most terrifying thing in the world: to realize just how little control you have over your mind. I can't tell anyone because I'm so ashamed and terrified. I can't even tell my psychiatrist because I am so embarressed.
There's a strength in showing your complete vulnerability, unfolding yourself to the world.. it's powerful, your life has meaning. Thanks for sharing.
I cant imagine the daily struggles you have to endure. It looks exhausting. You are inspiring to others even if you dont think so, such an articulate and caring soul 💖
I understand you,
I see you,
You are not alone.
Daniel, thank you for your honesty and your vulnerability. You are my inspiration to be honest with myself. And you are my inspiration to fight myself, for myself. Everytime I see your videos, I am thankful you are here. We are here too, and we see you. You are loved, even on the worst days. If you have doubts about that, all you have to do is reach out for lovely Miss little Scout and her love for you will shine.
Thank you Daniel, I think I can speak for all of us who watch your videos: I hope to see you again soon!
(Also, I have a little polar bear named Calvin and a bunny rabbit named Parker who help ground me when things get fuzzy and dreadful.)
You're an incredible man, so inspirational, so breath-taking, a hero! I wish you so much happiness!
You describe things so poetically. I think your perspective is so unique, you are like an artist. Your description of a seed of self loathing that grows into a death wish really spoke to me. I suffer from BPD so I often times feel like my emotions are in charge. Thanks for sharing your story!
He is a poet, quite literally. :) His book of poetry was released yesterday or today.
Question for next video:
Was there a trigger in childhood/adulthood that caused your schitzoaffective disorders? What causes your PTSD? Was it from your time in the army? What happened?
You can't possibly know how much we love you Daniel and worry about you. You are IMPORTANT and your life has more value than you can comprehend so take ALL the help you can get, because you, my friend, deserve every single part of it.
Steph.
Those might not be topics he'll want to talk about. Don't know if you've seen Daniel's interview on SBSK, but he was having a really good day on the day of that interview and he was asked the same questions you just asked but he still didn't feel comfortable answering them.
@@karmakameleon113 thats fine, he is free to answer or ignore whatever he wants, no judgement but he told us to ask, so I did.
you are amazing,you are special,you have humor,you are inteligent,you are strong!!!!i love you and your goodhearted spirit!!!your poetry is amazing!!!God bless you!!!!
My Mental Illness is crushing my Life! I feel you on so many levels! I desperately try to change but it is super hard! I’d give anything for a normal or more normal brain! And we Your Fans/Friends Love you! Please know this always! Feel free to find me on other social media platforms! God Bless!
You seem like such a sweet guy with a positive outlook on the world. I can never imagine what life with schizophrenia is like but I understand that the world aren't always too kind to you and that makes me really sad. I hope that you have the possibility to surround yourself with people that care about you and that you never have too feel like you're the subject of other peoples disappointment. Stay strong Daniel.
I adore your sloths! I'm glad they bring you so much comfort! Thank you for sharing your story. A lot of people don't understand what it can be like living with schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorders, coupled with all these other disorders and comorbidity. You are a good voice for understanding in the community. Thank you! I love your videos.
Mental disorders are so unbelievably hard to deal with. You're an inspiration to everyone dealing with these problems. Stay safe.
I don't think you're a disappointment, Daniel. I think you're amazing. Because you're going through something most people can't even fathom yet you're here, sharing with us. You're not a disappointment at all, you're an inspiration. I wish you the best.
I'll say two things:
1. your accordeon made my day
2. I'll do something I haven't done in a really long time and you'll be the first to have it. You deserve it more than anyone I know
Are you speaking on prayer?
I like the way you edit your videos with music and Instagram filters. Good job. Nice to watch 👌🏻
I used to work at a gas station where you would come in all the time your the sweetest man. We loved seeing you
I can feel the pain in your eyes and in your actions as you walk through this journey. And while i am inexperienced with your suffering, I want you to know that your story touched my heart. I know it sounds cheesy, but I'm sure you've inspired plenty of other people who are going through similar experiences. I wish I could help you in any way that i can, but theres one thing I'm certain of... You're strong and brave. The fact that you go at of your way to address your issues, whether it be through music, walks or video diary's, is amazing. I wish I had half the resilience that you do. This might not sound like much, but I genuinely do wish you find the serenity that you crave. Keep fighting Daniel, I know you'll get there.
We’re all rooting for you, dude. You’re an amazing, strong, brave person, and you deserve so much happiness
I understand how you feel Daniel. I also struggle with mental health issues and people just dont understand how hopeless we can feel sometimes. I know how strong you have been. I hope you get relief soon. It's funny how much we appreciate the simple things in life that most people might not or might take for granted, because when we feel stable and normal mentally we are just so happy. You are not alone. Xoxox. I love your critters.
I wish I could kick butt to ever left 11👎! Wow I don't understand because this man is amazing! Don't leave a comment unless it's good! He doesn't need and negative crap in is life anymore than he already does! I love you Daniel! Keep on keeping on sweetie! I always root for you and filling better!!!😥🤐😕
ur fucking worth it, its not a losing battle it is a winning one please remember there are people who love you and this all isn't going to last forever
Every cloud isn’t always rain, it can be light or it can be there- Accompanying you when you need it the most. (Just a small dumb poem to lift your spirits. You’re very inspirational. Hard for me not to smile at your greetings and feel alive again)
I feel your pain. I've had a painful life since I was 14 yrs old.
I love you Damiel! Thanks for being real man! You are one of the realist people I've had the pleasure of seeing in a very long time..
When I watch your videos all I want to do is hug you. I wish I was close to you to help. I wish I could make you happy. To show you love. And be able to keep things safe for you. Your so strong in so many ways you may not see it. But you are so strong!!
I can see life in you. Not existence, but life! Are you finally looking forward tomorrow, not just surviving today?
You should be so proud of yourself .
Hugs xxx
Your very handsome
DANIEL YOU ARE AMAZING AND STRONG! Thank you for sharing your story and know that you are LOVED and CARED by many! 💙
Sometimes people spend their whole lives ignoring the monsters in their mind. You have low lows but you also are able to appreciate life’s joys so much better than so many people I know. I hope you know even in the low times that you are good and kind and so very very talented. Please continue to share your talents and thoughts with us your words are poetry. ♥️
Love ya dude.
Thanks for being so vunerable and honest with the world.
Many blessings.
I love you.
You are amazing.
Even in the darkness.
...... And You DO make sense!
I'm soooooo glad I found you.
Like, I needed you months ago glad, maybe even years ago, and I just didn't know it.
Now I'm here. 😊
Thank you.
I really like your harmonica playing :)
I only just saw this video tonight, its from a few years ago,and it breaks my heart that you have thought that you are so unloved. I see this beautiful, amazing man with so much to offer, andyou were at a point where you were so broken and legit thought nobody loved you, and dealing with kinds of hell I couldn't possibly understand. Daniel, if you read this comment, please know, accept, and BELIEVE ME in the deepest depths of your heart and soul that I DO love you. I wish I had a way to show you that I mean it, I wish I lived closer so I could be physically present for you and hold you when you are at your worst. I can handle more than you would be able to believe, so please, never hesitate to reach out to me.
i admire your deeply rooted strength, i have PTSD, anxiety, depression, an eating disorder, panic attacks,
and issues with dissociation. i am barely hanging on myself, i can only imagine what you are going through.
You have such a beautiful way of speaking and writing. I see your soul
You're a great person.
Its beautiful how truthful and real you are. Perfect strangers care about you and are rooting for you. I'm rooting for you. I wish my words could say more and meant more. I hope you stay strong and I hope you find peace. You deserve that.
Everything you had to say was mending my own emotional battle so I thank you.
Daniel, I have never seen your videos before today. I never watch the ‘stories’ that pop up on UA-cam, but today I was called to click on yours and immediately I was drawn to you and your energy. I hope you’re doing well and I appreciate your words, your bravery, your strength, your videos and YOU. Keep pushing Daniel were supporting you
Hey Daniel, any chance you have a Patreon? I'd love to give back to you for this beautiful content.
I needed to know I'm not alone today and this gave me the strength to not.. do something that won't help anything. Please let me know 😊
Thank you so much for your kindness and for wanting to help. I unfortunately do not have a patreon set up yet. Right now we are trying to get medical bills covered with paypal ot gofundme donations.
My paypal is
paypal.me/DNepveux
And the gofundme me is www.gofundme.com/f/help-give-daniel-a-fighting-chance
Thank you for asking and for wanting to help.
I too would give to this one and only one person on UA-cam!💖✌🙏Great idea let's make sure we get this going somehow!🤞🤗🙏
I consider you a close friend... we are all here for you. Much love ❤
Our brain is our greatest adversary, but it is also our greatest tool. That is so very true.
May god keep u under his wing, they say he never gives us more than we can handle. I have to try and believe that myself. You are such a poet and beautiful soul. You have a beautiful mind, it may not feel that way but those of us on the outside can see your light, please fight with all you’ve got you are definitely worth it. You are an inspiration and one day you will feel it. You are loved! Oh and I have the exact same sloth buddy as you, the bigger one .
Please know that there are a lot of us that love you very much! Even though we’ve never met, I love and care about you, I know your life is hard but please know you are loved, try to stay strong, you can do this! Again, I love you.
I’m tired. I know you get tired too, but wow you don’t give up. I needed to see your videos. Keep fighting!
I just found your channel tonight and I am SO grateful! I struggle with chronic physical issues as well as mental illness. It's so hard sometimes. Thank you for having this channel. I don't feel so alone now. It's hard to describe mental illness to someone who doesn't suffer from it. It was really nice to hear from someone who knows the struggle! Thanks!!
Daniel, your interview last year with SBSK brought me to your channel where you've expanded on your life so much more since then. I can't explain the ways that your story has changed me or helped me or made sense to me, but I want you to know that you're very important to so many of us struggling with our own brains. You're brave, probably one of the most courageous people a lot of us have seen in a long time. I hope you continue to strive to be yourself. Just reading these hundreds of comments on your videos reveals how important you really are for so many reasons. Don't feel obligated to us, though; take your time. Just know that whenever you need it, help with be here for you. Take care, brother.
Praying for you. I'm going through the same. It's gets hard, but when you feel alone, one thing I do give my self a big, believing that God arms is always around. Do remember the footprints in the sand how it was only one pair of feet in the sand but it was two people walking you're not alone God is with you and he's holding you love you bro.
Fuck man...I need to hug this dude 🥺 no one hates you , we all love you bro ❤️
Daniel
You have open your inner and outer self to strangers and that is something as big and extraordinary as your courage and humbleness. 🤗🐶💐
You're incredibly strong & far from alone in this. Even when the individual has to fight their own battle there is always someone else fighting that battle too. Fighting alone, together.
Hey homie, I hope you're doing ok man. I saw one of your videos a while back and honestly brother you're an impressive and special man.
I have been struggling with severe depression for about 6 years now, and getting to know you has been a great motivation to keep on going, accepting who i am and embrassing my emotions.
You are an amazing human being and you send one of the most powerfull messages to the world, i listen closely to EVERY word you say, cause for me, those words are gold.
Hello from Lisbon. Thanks for share your light, your thoughts, examples, moments and your fights. We are here next to your side, pushing and sending all our love and energy. Keep swimming you gonna do it!
This video was so beautiful I cried from beginning to end. I needed this so bad, thank you for validating mutual emotions. I appreciate you very much. Sending you love strength and peace. I’ll be forever thankful.
Very happy to see you, thank you for sharing this video! I can see the work you've done, it's incredible. Im not used to writing in English, but I wish you all the best, my support is always with you❤️
Daniel. You make a lot of sense!! I loved how this video was put together. Using the imagery of the sunshine when you were in a good mindset. And lightning when you were in a dark place. The duality in that and you recognize that is beautiful. You also are very aware of how the brain works and how it can be our worst nightmare but also a tool. We all have felt this way. You may have it amplified. But you're processing. Keep going and keep growing.
You sound way more sane then myself. You have a great deal of knowledge. Well educated and are. Wry proactive in your mental health which is very opposite of most with mental health issues. I wish you the best. I will be following your page.
Hey Daniel, i'm new at your Chanel, and I'm already in love with everything about you... Wish all the best. Hugs from your new friend from Brazil :)
First off, i want to say that I love you more than you can ever know. The strength that you have is indescribable because God has been keeping you, the intellect and wisdom that you speak; is absolutely breathtaking, your poems are so profound. Please call upon the name of Jesus, I PROMISE you, that He will rescue you if you call upon His name and believe in Him. Read the bible EVERYDAY, when things get worse, keep enduring, pray ALWAYS, there is BREAKTHROUGH at the end! I pray for you, Daniel.
For those who gave this video a thumbs down please do not! waste your time giving off any negative energy around this precious soul. I would greatly appreciate that thank you.
Hi, thank you so much for your videos. I am 25, I live in Houston, and I have Schizophrenia and Bipolar Disorder and it feels like I am trapped in Hell constantly. Thank you for helping others understand us, the visibility is wonderful. There are so many ups and downs. Solidarity with you.
and some questions for a Q&A
a) how old is your dog?
b) for what are you grateful?
c) could you tell us more about your life? where did you grow up? what did you do after school?
d) what are you doing right now? are you still working? otherwise how do you finance yourself?
e) who is the closest person in your life right now?
f) do you still have contact to your family?
just some suggestions. please share only parts you feel comfortable about.
sending much love!
p.s. even if its really tough right now. you seem to really got further. you are strong! unbeatable.
Girl, you see he has not
Hit you up. Let me tell you why ( to personal) meet him where he's at. Don't interview him, be a friend. Because that's what he needs right now. Not interviewer but a friend. And this love not hate!!!
@@dannyduncan1891 he asked for some questions for a Q&A. As I already wrote: these are only some suggestions. he should only share parts he feels comfortable about ;). and i think he's able to decide on his own what he wants to share, or even if he doesn't want to share anything at all. that would be totally fine.. i already wrote that :D
and as you can read in my comment before that my intention is not to be a interviewer
I wrote a comment on one of Your videos a few weeks back, using my old account that those dummies at UA-cam deleted (Rainbow Banana)
yep, I am still here - those YT bastards won't silence me!
I wish You a very nice day today, Daniel
also, what is Your favorite hobby/activity?
Thank you for being so real 🙏🏼 thank you for documenting this and allowing us to glimpse into the your live and the lives of others battling with this problem. Many comments say “I wish I could hug you” that rings so true. Your heart is pure, you show joy, you show trust in yourself, you show us HOPE! This was so beautiful and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you.
You're so wonderful Daniel. To anyone looking to further support daniel, I saw that he shared a paypal on his instagram bio. @danonepveux
He kinda looks like Messi 😂
Daniel, absolutely! Change your methods, throw sucker punches, play dirty. There’s no right way to crack your mind, flip the method on it so you stay one step ahead 😉
You’re a beautiful soul Daniel. Of this let there be absolutely no doubt. None. Love and forgive yourself
Man, I’m heartbroken watching these. I hope you find the help you need, and the space you need,
I would just like to let you and everyone in this comment section know that Jesus Christ is Lord, and that He can set you free from whatever you’re struggling with.
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16) And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free. (John 8:32)
Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. (John 8:36)
Now I already know that some of you may get convicted and tell me to “get my book of fairy tales out of this” or something like that, but you need to understand that the Bible has more proof of authenticity than ANY other book that we have ever had in history, that means that we have manuscripts from thousands of years ago confirming the texts we have today, archeological proof confirming the events recorded in the Bible, secular texts confirming the existence of Jesus and much more scientific evidence that validates the Bible.
We have secular roman, jewish and greek history documents that recorded that a man named Jesus Christ of Nazareth died on the cross for claiming to be the Son of God. Now some of you may say that anyone can claim to be the Son of God and you would be right, anyone can and many have throughout history. But how many have risen from the grave and defeated death? None other than Jesus Christ Himself. There were over 500 eye witness accounts that saw the risen Christ after His horrible death on the cross.
The reason I’m writing this is not for personal selfish reasons but for the sole reason that I and MANY others have been miraculously delivered and transformed by the grace of Jesus Christ and it is nothing short of a miracle and I believe that whoever is reading this right now can be set free too. The stories you hear in the Bible of healing and deliverance is still present today, the Bible says that Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. I’m here asking you to give Jesus a shot, think about how many things you’ve tried in life and if I’m right about Jesus being the way you could’ve just stumbled upon something worth more than any amount of money you could have in this world. And the best part is that there is actually a way that you can know if I’m right or not, and that is to humble yourself, seek Gods face and ask Him to make Himself known to you, a simple prayer with a pure heart will be sufficient. The Bible says taste and see that He is good; (Psalms 34:8)
Had you spoken to me only a year ago I would not have called myself a christian, and I would of spoken to you in a completely different manner. I did not grow up in a religious family and I never cared about religion until I actually started humbling myself, putting aside the things of this world for a moment to ponder the meaning of life and it’s origin.
And when I did that I came to a realization that it’s just illogical, ignorant and down right depressing to believe that there is no God, no purpose for life, that we’re here by accident to live and die and become fertilizer and inevitably cease to exist. What’s the point of having that belief? If you have this mind set you’re going to behave as if life has no purpose. That’s when I realized that even if there is no God (which I’ve now found out with complete certainty that there is) wouldn’t it be better to at least put your chips on God and the afterlife?
Because inevitably if we “christians” are wrong, we’re just going to have lived a morally right and purposeful life and then cease to exist and forget everything. But if you’re wrong you’re going to spend an eternity being separated from God, and who knows what that means, if that is eternal torment or eternal blackness I do not know, but what I do know is that the source of love, joy, peace and every good thing we as humans know about life comes from God, and when we’re absent from God we’ll spend an eternity not having these things anymore, and that is what I believe hell is.
If you’ve read this far I’d like to say thank you for reading and I hope that the Lord Jesus has touched your heart through His Holy Spirit, and I pray that you come to know Him, in Jesus mighty name, Amen.
Amen, brother/sister!
"I don't make any sense." You make a lot of sense. More sense than any psychiatrist I have ever been. I first saw you on SBSK and just noticed you have your own channel. You've gained a subscriber for life. No one can hold a candle to your honesty. You're probably helping more people through hard times than you know. The power of your video brought tears to my eyes. If I'm lucky enough to be 10% of the human you are I'll consider that a success. Thank you, good sir, thank you.