Take all the time you need beautiful one. It’s important for you to look after yourself. Mental health care is absolutely paramount. I totally understand where you’re coming from and I hope you manage to feel better soon. Remember you are a precious, irreplaceable jewel and you deserve to be mentally and physically well. Do what you need to do. We will all be waiting for you. We want what’s best for you.
Ouch. That's rough. It's incredible brave on expressing such things to us. What matters right now is to focusing feeling better and yourself as a person. As you said: *It's okay, not feeling okay.* Accepting help is the first step to feel better, take it slowly and never rush. We support you. You are loved. Thank you for being human yet so brave. Even if you don't believe it. Feel better.
Thanks for sharing. Incredibly brave of you. I'm in bad shape myself. After almost 30 years in the work force,I have applied for disability because I'm mentally broken. I simply can't function any more. I've been locked away in my bedroom for almost two years now. You and people like you are my only real contact with the world. I don't comment much but I watch and appreciate you and all you do. Please take care of yourself. In my case,at least I've worked long enough that I'm going to be ok financially but I'll have to be ok alone. The drugs and counselling/therapy is helping. I hope you get back to a good place. Prayers to you ;)
Hey El, Honestly I almost cried at this video. I can understand exactly how you’re feeling. Obviously my situation is different to yours but everything you said in this video... I could relate to it so much. To be honest I’m going through it now. The only thing holding me together is my UA-cam channel, it’s one of the only things making me happy. But outside of UA-cam, I do pretty much feel like my life is going nowhere and everything is pointless. I went through depression years ago as well so I know how it feels. I’m sorry you’re going through this, girl. I wish I could come give you a big hug, *hugs*. As you said, it is temporary. Sending you all my love. I’m here if you ever need to reach out. You’ve always been there for me in the past.
Hello Nuka, i want to say, and you need to know that accept that is the first step. Personally, i are though depression years ago, i grow up with a "friend" that made my head a junk about myself, saying bad things about me, and made me a perfeccionist anxiet about life, without any self-esteem. Then after it i maked new real friends that put me on top with love and care and i slowly go off depression. I admit that i have little issues today, but gez, i am new. There a light in the end, never give up. Probably you need to take your time, format your brain from bad habits/thinkings and you will be good again. You are adorable person, sincere, kind, sweet, emotional (And this is one of the best things a human can be) true, beautiful, very beautiful. Try to forget the past, we living in the present, only! Know that probably you are going in bad because of bad persons actions in your life, and you need to transcend this, because bad people ever exist. Bad people are relative. I remember, Jimmy Broadbent (Racing simulator english youtuber) years ago are though depression too, they made a video saying about this, and a year later he is a total good. Just take your time. We are together, Nuka.
I have also had a depression. It can Look Like It's almost impossible to get through, but you will get through it. We All love you Brown Eyes ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I suffered from a deep depression for 2 years in my late teens. You WILL get through it even when you have days when you think it's not gonna happen. We are here for you. Thinking of you❤️❤️
I know what you are going through. I've been struggling with chronic depression almost 20 years now and it's hard. Best thing is to talk about it, even though it feels overwhelming, with friends, family (if you have one) and with professional people who can help you. Medication can help but it doesn't really "fix" this difficult disorder. Thing that has helped me a lot has been my wonderful supportive girlfriend, exercise (Force your self outside. Even little walks in the near by park/forest makes wonders. My salvation when i was alone and very bottom was my dog who made me force my self to go out. It really helped.) and believe or not good and healthy food. And remember: You are not alone, there are people who really care for you and you matter. And even though you feel that everything is "dark" there is light in the end of the tunnel. *PowerHug*
I like it, its like you are a leader of us people with similar problems. I have been suffering my whole life and and undtreated for almost 20 years. finally since last year been seeking help again. Glad you are active upbeat and getting help and not suffering in silence.
So sorry you are experiencing this. My daughter is experiencing postpartum depression and has been for a year. But as long as you know what you need to do, you'll do okay. You Tube will always be around, and so will all us mini-nukes.
If you have to take a break I completely and totally understand I've lately been watching your previous series every night before I go to bed because I missed out on some of the games that you played beforehand
I had the "I'm not okay" talk with a friend nearly a month ago. A different situation than this one, but, man, saying it out loud (well, in text) was such a relief. To quote PhilosophyTube, for anyone out there struggling: I understand how you feel. Peace and love to all of you.
I’m sad for you....I have experienced depression and eventually PTSD....I’ve had your signs and symptoms and feel that you’re on your way to getting better....it’s absolutely doable....take as much time as you need....we’ll still be here. You’re so sweet and my hugs go out to you....
You are not alone in this. I have been struggling with depression for a very long time. Talking helps an awful lot and I heartily recommend therapy/counselling. Sending my love. A lot of people think the world of you.
I’ve been feeling depressed most of the time lately and everything seems so pointless. I hope you find happiness soon. You’re one of my favorite UA-camrs. Sending you much love.
Your channel and message today " will" help some people. Probably more than you think. That alone proves your life is meaningful. Your doing the right thing by sharing. You'll get through it. Take a break, and care of yourself.
I do not know if you will answer or even if you will read me, but keep your head up, all the bad moments have an end and chained on much better prospects. Do not forget your goals, remember all that you have already gone through and accomplished. You are strong, capable and you will rise even more radiant after this bad pass. I can not wait to get you all smiles and hear the famous "Hello mininuk's, and welcome back to ..." With a lot of affection and all my support, A French mininuk'
No one is useless in this world who lightens the burdens of another. Charles Dickens Don't underestimate the impact you have on people; via the channel and I'm sure outside of it. Your life is far from pointless. I'm sorry to hear about your struggles, I'm happy to hear you're getting help. Hang in there, I hope things change for the better real soon. xx
I have been in the same state for six months and even more I was in deep depression, I left a country where I should have been staying, I gained weight, breakup with my girlfriend and stopped being a social individual, I lost many friends. Even if i had a good job and with a good Income my life still felt pointless. I wanted to end this and I was having bad crazy thoughts. But something magical happened when I got terribly sick and recovered by taking medecines, hitting the gym and making new friends and true people I can rely on, I also reinforced my belief in God and now I want to thrive as I completely recovered. I have a new way of life and I know that I will reach all the goals I setup no matter what. Am catching up on time and am having my world looking great again even if I encounter some hardships from time to time. Well this is life we are only passengers on a starcraft flying across the universe. So live your life to the fullest and be proud that you have been gifted with life in the first place. Life is precious and so are you Nuka ;)
Trust me on this talking about your mental health or any problems, either on here or to your friends or family will make it easier to cope. I’ve had depression now for what seems like forever, some years are ok some can be the worst especially this year, but personally I found having someone I can trust whole heartedly to talk to about it or anything in general really helps. Now I won’t get into details or anything like that but just know you are not alone feeling like you do. I have to work nights and part time just because I can’t deal with people/public in general on a daily basis it is very draining for myself so I’d rather just lift weights and play video games, listen to my favourite bands or draw when I’m on my own. That said going to a 24hr gym at night or exercise in general helps keep my mind busy at the worst of days so maybe try that? I say this seriously too is do not turn to anti depressants or similar medications, all the people I knew who had them turned out a lot worse and more dependent on them. What helps me also sometimes is think when you were little or 10 years ago when your happiest memories were. Just to remind myself of what it felt like when those emotions of happiness were at their strongest. That’s the best advice I can give and I never really comment but I felt I had to here.
Truly sorry to hear that. Physical exercise really helps taking your mind off things, plus it releases endorphins and all sort of goodies into your system. Hope it helps. *hugs*
I'm very very sorry to hear that El I been depressed too more or less like that and i think you need to think a little bit about the people who love you: your family your friends. It doesn't matter if you don't have many of them you only have to care about the true ones and your fans too! All the good moments with them that should make you a bit happy and lucky, lucky to have people that care about you and love you! And your life isn't exactly pointless you are just going trough some mental sh*t that everyone has or will feel the same and it's rough. (Excuse my language) But truly you will get out of there and make it i'm sure about that i am confidence that your a strong and pretty girl and soon you'll get out
I hope you take time to make sure your mental health is ok. Don’t be afraid to ask for help via parents, professionals etc. you’re a beautiful soul. Get well soon
I hope you get well as soon as you can, but don’t be in a rush or prop yourself up on distractions. Focus on yourself :) I’ve been back in this boat myself this year. It sucks. It’s awful to know you’re suffering, but if there’s ANY positivity to take from it, it’s knowing we’re not alone. Granted, that’s a stretch, but when your mind does this you have to reframe your view of the world and find light in the darkness. And holy crap does it get dark sometimes. Real dark. I’ve been on and off with this since since my late teens (I’m now in my thirties) but I’m at peace with it. For all the torment, I know I’m stronger for it and I’ve dealt with a few life catastrophes like water off a ducks back because, by comparison, that was easier than living with this and I know without it, I’d have crumpled at those events. (See what I mean about reframing your view, it’s almost like I’m saying this has been a blessing). Life is a rollercoaster and the past 3 years have been a complete rush but at the same time burned me out completely and now I’m just ‘recharging’. Sorry I don’t mean to go in about myself, but I kinda felt I should put my thoughts out there, you never know who’s reading. Anyway, take care of yourself, go at your own pace, feel your feet on the ground and don’t burn yourself out. That goes for all of you in the community, not just Nuka-Ele. We’re all in this together :)
As someone who hasn't experienced actual depression since middle school/early high school (I'm 20 now) I still identify with videos like this or people who echo these sentiments bc of my anxiety problem. I feel it's mainly rooted in fear especially now more than ever with this transition into adulting my life has taken with such a long road of choices/events ahead of me. When I was younger I'd always be shy or nervous around people, sometimes even getting claustrophobic in tight groups leading to shortness of breath or nausea. It held me back from creating long term friendships with people or pursuing anything productive, really. Now it's all catching up with me because while I have made the decision to get out of my comfort zone & try new things, I have no surefire way of securing my future & there's still that extreme insecurity and lack of faith/self esteem that never seems to go away. It interferes with even the most menial tasks that seem to take no effort like this video described. I guess it brings me comfort that people who bring me joy such as the few friends I have or my favorite UA-camrs/artists go through almost the same thing I do even if it is a slightly different scenario on a different level. It gets even more relieving when I realize just how many people I can go to with these feelings I have to vent whether it's a comment section on a video or my online friends, really means much 🖤
Been there. Everything felt hollow and meaningless. Absolutely nothing brought me joy, and I spent days mostly sleeping and playing gamble-esque games. Which were a fine band-aid for a while, as they help you escape the real life. I'm happy you sought out help in time. It can really difficult to open up, you don't want to spread the 'bad atmosphere' or ruin people's moods with it. It took me over a year, but I got better after talking with a psychiatrist and such. You need to get that stone off your chest. The fact that you managed to make this video is an extremely good sign. You have the strength and you will get over it. It won't happen overnight, but a year or so from now, your current state will feel like a bad dream.
Hi Nuka. I myself am depressed most of the time. I spend a lot of time thinking life is pointless. So I know how you feel. Thank u for sharing your feelings. It was very brave of you and it makes me feel like I'm not alone. I'm sure you know by now that I love you. So the thought of you going through any kind of pain breaks my heart. Your health is the most important thing. So please take all the time you need. Do what you have to do to get better. And know that I love you. You mean so much to me and I will be thinking of you always.
Sorry to hear things aren't going so well, Ele. I hope you get back to your normal self soon. I'm sure you will. You know I'm here if you need a chat, anytime!
Thank you for being genuine and having this real talk. I can appreciate your wisdom especially right now living in the world of pandemic where social life suffers tremendously for everyone. Watching your recent videos, you seem holding up quite well yourself, keep up being strong!
More help, more real human interaction, change of lifestyle/job. As someone that is approaching 40, if you change nothing, nothing will change. The rut only gets deeper if you dont get out.
I am in my head way too much and have been for a while, but 2018 has been the worst year of my life. Lost my mom back in May after she fought a very tough battle with alzheimers, then had to have my cat (who was my best friend for nearly 15 years) euthanized after he was starting to suffer from some issues. Also got involved in a relationship and it has now unexpectedly ended and I didn't see that coming at all. I've had to fight and fight to keep my head up and try to stay positive. Sorry to hear that you are dealing with some similar issues but I'm glad you are seeking help and getting better! Don't let it take you over!
I feel like I've been depressed and had anxiety for so long that I don't even realise it anymore. It's like the norm to me now. I just sort of got used to it. Except when I have super bad anxiety, that shit is unbearable at times. But yeah I'm completely with you with the whole life feeling pointless thing. I mean not to be super edgy or bleak, but it kind of is. I think the people who are happiest in life manage to trick themselves into thinking that there is a reason to wake up everyday, or to work all day for money to pay for things just to keep you living longer. I've come to terms with this stuff and have realised that I might as well just try to have fun while I'm here. That's really all I can do. All we are is dust in the wind, after all. I realise this probably isn't the most encouraging comment you'll ever read, but I feel like telling you how I've come to terms with these things may help you and there's no real point in sugarcoating it. Life is bleak at times. Finding a purpose for it all can be a struggle. So really what I'm saying is, try to stop trying to find a purpose. Just live, have a laugh and a good time. Enjoy it while you're here, because one day you wont be. I don't even tend to watch letsplay channels like yours here on UA-cam, but when I was watching one of your reactions to Shadow of the Colossus, something about you drew me in. Straight away I could tell you were just the sweetest person ever and I popped down a comment expressing as much. It wasn't even the game, or your reaction to it, but you. It made me genuinely happy for a brief moment seeing your authentic emotion to something that you were in love with, and I feel like I instantly understood what you were about. So many people here on UA-cam (or even in real life) put out videos of themselves not being exactly that, themselves. But you were incredibly endearing. You're for sure a lovely person, and I want that to come across as sincerely as I possibly can because I'm really not just trying to make you feel good about yourself. That really was, and still is, how I felt.
We love you NukaEle and we are all in your corner to support you. You’re absolutely beautiful and your videos are great. I know that you will feel much better with time.
I o ly just found your channel and have been binging your content... I'm sorry to hear that you aren't feeling OK.. And it's ok to feel so sometimes. I'm glad you're getting help.. I hope they do help cause your mental state is important. Take your time... Take care of yourself.. And come back when you can..
A traditional American Indian story features a young Cherokee boy who once became annoyed that another boy had done him some injustice. After returning home, the young boy expressed his frustration to his grandfather. The old Cherokee chief said to his grandson, “I too, at times, have felt a great hatred for those who have taken so much with no sorrow for what they do. “Hatred wears you down, and hatred does not hurt your enemy. Hatred is like taking poison and wishing your enemy would die. I have struggled with these emotions many times. “It’s as though a fight is continuously going on inside me. It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. “One wolf is good and does no harm. He is filled with joy, humility, and kindness. He lives in harmony with everyone around and does not take offense when no offense was intended. He will only fight when it is right to do so and in the right way. “The other wolf is full of anger, envy, regret, greed, and self-pity. The littlest thing will set him into a fit of temper. He fights everyone all the time and for no reason. When blinded by his anger and hatred, he does not have a sound mind. It is helpless anger, because his anger will change nothing. “It is hard to live with these two wolves inside me. These two wolves are constantly fighting to control my spirit. “Young man, the same fight is going on inside you and inside every other person on this earth.” The grandson thought about it for a moment and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win inside you, grandpa?” The old Cherokee chief smiled and replied, “The one I feed.”
Hope you get to feeling better. I understand the never ending feeling of pointless-ness. 20+ years of feeling it sucks. I admire the courage and strength it took to make a video like this.
I've suffered from depression, and it's clear you have a good idea of what you're dealing with. Awareness is a huge step in getting yourself better. Your attitude, and your honesty, are admirable. FWIW you have my respect and my best wishes.
I'm not a person of many words but I hope you get better as time goes on, we are all here for you even the people who don't comment or you don't know of here, we still care, your not alone
All my support, thank you for this touching video filled with integrity. We are at once all unique but so connected. Stay rad too ELe 😘 A brother from France.
In my own experience, what you describe does sound like depression. But I'm glad you recognize you are not alone. And you are being proactive about seeking help. I've been there: that defeatist weight on your shoulders that prevents you from even getting out of bed. It's tough. But please take care of yourself. You're very thoughtful to consider your followers. There are few people on UA-cam whom I've seen exhibit such empathy as you have. Thanks for the enjoyable content. I'm sure I can speak for most here that I'll still be here when you're ready to post again.
"It's okay not to be okay, Chloe Price" Life is strange Before the storm. You are so brave telling us about this 😢 So much to say, so hard to find the right words. just take care of yourself 💕
It most likely is depression. If you're struggling to do what you love and you're constantly unhappy it's depression. It's great to hear that you're getting help I'm considering to major in therapy/counseling to help people that have these issues because I understand how you're feeling. You'll overcome it's human nature and in some cases animals go though the same.
I've heard of New Orleans blues but not New York blues. I hadn't noticed any slowdown or lack of Nukeness but it does help to know. Yes, your genuineness is one of the greatest strengths of your channel. I appreciate your integrity. It is OK not to be OK. I'm glad you're getting help, and it's helping. Thanks for sharing and creating a community - no-one can spend every hour of the day just with themselves. PS. No quitting!
Hey nuka,my name is John I'm from Brazil and I discovered about your channel in the start of this year and I love it and here I am, loving your gameplay,your sensitive about the games like the last guardian,the last of us, shadow of the Colossus,you cry Whit me in all of them(yeah I watched them all) and I am sure that we all here loves you💙🖤❤️...stay strong, I hope you overcome this bad feels...LOVE U NUKA❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I wish there was a universal "it´s going to end eventually" button, because thats the number one thing leading to even more misery, thinking its neverending. It´s so relatable, feeling this feeling of hopelessness. And it´s merely in your head, thats the sad part. It´s great that you share with us and especially that you help others while you suffer yourself! Don´t let anyone tell you that you are worthless, because you are so much better than so many people in this world, I myself value that highly and I´m sure plently of others do too! Get well soon :)
i know you how you feel. I think I have a bit of Seasonal Affective Disorder, maybe you’re going through that as well. The hopelessness is overwhelming and then I also feel fear for no reason. Its weird and scary.
It’s good to recognise how you feel and work through it, when I was younger I didn’t and self medicated instead, which I think many people do, because it was easier. Suffice to say getting help is key!
Thank you for sharing your story. I do really enjoy your videos and all your reactions to games I personally love. And it's okay if you don't know what it is, whatever you're feeling is valid nontheless. I think the majority of us will still be here whenever you decide to start posting again. And props on getting help for it. That's honestly a lot more than a lot of people. Thank you for speaking about this issue and hopefully reaching someone who might not have the courage or ability to get help.
It's depression. Once you randomly stop dreading the stuff you use to love, is most likely depression. I hope you get better. It happens to a lot of us as well.
I know I'm pretty late to this, but I just came across your channel, saw this video and just wanted to say something. You seem so incredibly nice and lovely. It's okay to not be okay. I think most of us have gone through difficulties regarding our mental health. I just hope you're much better today. I'm sending a big hug and much love! Glad to have stumbled across your channel. It feels good be here. I think I'll stay! :)
If you stay late at night playing games and if you not eating well and enough thats why you feel ill and depressed !! Just eat well and sleep well especially at night, take a rest and dont think too much, breath fresh air and if you can just do sport it helps you a lot. I am feeling you because i've been like you in the past, PLZ NukaEle do what i told you and you will be ok very soon. Stay safe and take good care of yourself, and if you need any advice just contact me ok. Dont worry its normal and you will be ok. Wish you will get well and be in good health very soon . PEACE .
it is. but as someone who has had depression, i can say that sometimes eating well and sleeping well are not enough. and exercise, for me, i didn't have enough motivation to do any. i didn't have enough motivation to get out of bed sometimes.
I am sorry good people have to go through things like this Nuka. I know how hard it is to talk about, and can completly relate to what your saying. Just stay strong Ele, and take as much time as you need. We are all standing beside you.
Stay strong Nuks. Incredible brave to share. This is just real life. We have ups and downs. I don't know the situation exactly, but you are a strong person. Sometimes we have to tell ourselves these things.
This took mad bravery to come out with. I’ve struggled with similar things, and I can count how many people I’ve opened up to about it on one hand - with half its fingers amputated lol. And personally, I’ve always felt like I wasn’t alone and even, idk, safer(?) when I’ve heard people come out about it. You’ve probably helped quite a few people just by posting this. Dealing with it is a process of learning how to cope with - not cure - things. I don’t know you, but I’m somehow proud of you for being honest with yourself, not to mention with others, and seeking out help.
Hey Nuka, Take all the time you need. We go all through good and bad times and after the rain allways comes the Sun ! You where my "therapy" during the last few weeks and I enjoyed to decompress looking at your videos. I'm already looking forward to see you back again on this channel. Take care my dear...
Hey! Kind of newer to your channel but thought I'd just chime in if it'll help. Honestly it sounds like you're going through a lot of the same thoughts that I am currently... I'm making my own progress trying to get better too but I just wanted you to know that you're not alone, and it isn't easy to figure that stuff out but you talking about it and making an effort to change these feelings says a lot about you as a person. I teared up watching this because it really hit home for how I've felt the last year too and in a way I think it inspired me. I don't have quite the following you do but I hope some random guy telling you this may pay it forward and inspire you too. You seem like an awesome person and take the time you need to make yourself happier!
Honey, it may be depression, it may not be, but the fact is you are going through something and the fact that you recognize it is incredibly self aware. You seem like an amazing person, and you are obviously loved by all of us that subscribe to you. You're wonderfully amazing, and a beautiful person inside and out. I've been where you are, maybe not identical, but I've been there. You will pull through and we are all here for you if you need us!!! I know you don't know us, but we know you through these videos. We love you and take the time you need to be alright with yourself.
So brave of you to be so honest about what's going on. Take all the time you need to feel better. We'll all be here when you're back to being your usual, rad self 💚
I have depression and I now how bad and scary can be.Just go help yourself you are important and you matter.We are here for you if you need help.I wish you the best really.Becuse of many reason this weak, I promesed to myself I will search for help and I wish we'll be ok.
New sub here and I'm glad I stumbled along your channel, love the playthroughs. Just know that you are not alone, millions of people, including myself, go through the same mental struggles as you. I finally decided to get help when I started spending entire weekends in bed, it got so rough I couldn't even get myself out of bed. I also made the mistake of talking to the wrong people, people who just don't understand what I'm going through because they don't have depression. Keep your head up, look for the little things in life that make you happy and keep chugging along, things will get better.
I hope you can recover soon from all that NukaEle! I subscribed when you started playing Detroit Become Human! and I loved your reactions, your sensitivity and your way of narrating. You know that from a distance we will support you and that you are not alone, even when you think you are. Try to clear your mind by going out to the street or somewhere where those negative thoughts can not be generated or increased.
We love you and you know that if you need to be heard, apart from your family. You have us, 12 thousand people who know that you are very valuable and that you will have the strength to overcome all this. 12 thousand people who will listen to you. 12 thousand hearts where you managed to enter. 12 thousand extra reasons why you feel proud. 12 thousand friends giving you a hand 12 thousand feelings of joy, that will crush those feelings of sadness. 12 thousand souls distributed in the world, who know that your life has all the sense of the world because we are not worse or better than others. We are different and that makes us special. There will never be anyone like us. 12 thousand voices that tell you: WE LOVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE AND FOR WHAT YOU ARE NOT. BECAUSE THAT IS THE HUMAN BEING, AND THAT IS WHAT MAKES US PERFECT. Español --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Espero que puedas recuperarte pronto de todo eso NukaEle! me suscribi cuando empezaste a jugar Detroit Become Human! y me encantaron tus reacciones, tu sensibilidad y tu manera de narrar. Sabes que desde lejos te apoyaremos y que no estás sola, incluso cuando creas que lo estas. Trata de despejar tu mente saliendo a la calle o algún lugar donde esos pensamientos negativos no logren generarse o incrementarse.
Te queremos y sabes que si necesitas ser escuchada, aparte de tu familia. Nos tienes a nosotros, 12 mil personas que saben que eres muy valiosa y que tendrás la fortaleza de poder superar todo esto. 12 mil personas que te escucharán. 12 mil corazones donde lograste entrar. 12 mil razones extras por las que sentirte orgullosa. 12 mil amigos dándote la mano. 12 mil sentimientos de alegría, que aplastarán esos sentimientos de tristeza. 12 mil almas repartidas en el mundo, que saben que tu vida tiene todo el sentido del mundo porque no somos peores ni mejores que otros. Somos diferentes y eso nos hace especiales. No habrá jamás nadie como nosotros. 12 mil voces que te dicen: TE QUEREMOS POR LO QUE ERES Y POR LO QUE NO ERES. PORQUE DE ESO SE TRATA EL SER HUMANO, Y ES LO QUE NOS HACE PERFECTOS.
Sorry to hear you're going through this. It is definitely depression. The good news that you are doing all the right things. Friends of mine who have gone to doctors with depression speak highly of both counselling, CBT therapy and in some cases anti depressants to kickstart getting brain chemicals back to where they should be. I wish you the best and always remember every step you take is a good one, even if it may not seem it at the time, all the little things you do to try and improve yourmindset add up over time. And yes, talking about it is an important step as well, and props for not being afraid to share and hopefully inspiring other people to take action themselves or open up if they feel the same way x
You are an amazing lovely person ❤ Take your time and do things you want to do!
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If you need, taking a break is always good for refreshing ;) I didn't leave any comment to date, but kept watching all the videos. You're really good at this and do what you need to do. We will be waiting for your return ;)
Hi Nuka! You have all the support the all people that follow you! Take all your time that you need it to recover! Te esperamos con la mejor energía 🔋 Blesses ♥🇵🇪✌
No one can say we know how you feel, but we get a little idea of what are you feeling. Been there, actually I'm still kind of that state too. Depression is dangerous if not dealt with, Im glad you are taking helps. Please take care. Don't stay up very late at night, wake up early morning and jog, it helps alot. Stay with family or friends or whomever you love to be with. Set a target in your life. Set small targets and go get it to it girl :) Know that this small family of yours of 12k people really loves you and care about you. Stay strong. You did the right thing to make a video and share with us. I hardly comment in your videos, but needed to write this. You are a beautiful woman, beautiful person. You can do it :)
I had a pretty rotten last few days. I remember a few weeks ago I curiously looked up my biorhythms and saw that a fair number of my primary curves would be at their lowest today. And, it's been a rough last couple of days. A mood can drive thoughts, thoughts can drive moods, my responses to those thoughts can drive moods, and how things actually happen around me, and don't actually happen around me, can cause moods. When you get caught in a regular cycle, sometimes, it's good to introduce or re-introduce a variety of things. I was at my happiest in life when I was living at home, taking care of the yard, working at the drug store, and at the college as a tutor, attending college, learning music, loving movies, visiting family and friends, writing adventures for DnD, playing video games. When you find something you love and keep doing it, though, some of the other activities fall out. And we start losing some things we didn't realize we needed. It's good to keep all the cups filled if you can. I stepped away from things because I was convinced what I was looking for was somewhere else. I haven't found it yet. But I'm not interested in going back, either. I don't regret leaving. I just regret not having found what I was looking for and for what fell out of my life and how hard that makes things. But NukaEle, if you're getting a sense that some things you were doing before would make you happy again, by all means, do more of that again. If you feel like socialization would lighten and even things out, get more of that. We sometimes hinder ourselves by looking backwards through the wrong lens. I think you're lovely and I hope you get better.
Hi Ele, it saddens me to hear that you are going through the same thing I have been dealing with for over 20 years, but you sound like you have a great support structure going on. Keep strong, keep realizing that no matter what, people are out here who will help you, and that you are special. You definitely can do this.
So lovely and wonderfully courageous to talk about it. I don't know if you are aware that being conscious of that and taking actions about it and accepting help is sssooooo positive and you can be optimistic that you 'll manage it. Focus on yourself, never hesitate to ask for help, be sad, be happy, be so-so, cry, laugh, touch and order your hair, be nice, be mean, be wonderful, be average, never mind, just be :).
you are pure , fabulous and honest , it makes me sad 😞😞😞 that you are not okay I was actually born with Autism , Asghbugers a.k.a ADHD Disorder sometimes I think of just losing my mind and go completely insane and dark , dark thoughts , but I personally know that I will be alright , and so will you
You make a difference in the world. You matter. You are a positive influence in the lives of nearly 13,000 people here, and I know you touch the lives of others outside of this space, because everyone does. Here’s a big hug from an internet friend who has spent a lot of time where you are. If you ever need to talk to someone who has zero connection to anything in your life, feel free to reach out (that goes for anyone else reading this as well). Save your spoons and come back to make videos when you have more of them to give. We’ll be here.
Take all the time you need beautiful one. It’s important for you to look after yourself. Mental health care is absolutely paramount. I totally understand where you’re coming from and I hope you manage to feel better soon. Remember you are a precious, irreplaceable jewel and you deserve to be mentally and physically well. Do what you need to do. We will all be waiting for you. We want what’s best for you.
Ouch. That's rough.
It's incredible brave on expressing such things to us. What matters right now is to focusing feeling better and yourself as a person. As you said: *It's okay, not feeling okay.* Accepting help is the first step to feel better, take it slowly and never rush.
We support you. You are loved. Thank you for being human yet so brave. Even if you don't believe it.
Feel better.
Thanks for sharing. Incredibly brave of you. I'm in bad shape myself. After almost 30 years in the work force,I have applied for disability because I'm mentally broken. I simply can't function any more. I've been locked away in my bedroom for almost two years now. You and people like you are my only real contact with the world. I don't comment much but I watch and appreciate you and all you do. Please take care of yourself.
In my case,at least I've worked long enough that I'm going to be ok financially but I'll have to be ok alone. The drugs and counselling/therapy is helping. I hope you get back to a good place. Prayers to you ;)
Hey El,
Honestly I almost cried at this video. I can understand exactly how you’re feeling. Obviously my situation is different to yours but everything you said in this video... I could relate to it so much. To be honest I’m going through it now. The only thing holding me together is my UA-cam channel, it’s one of the only things making me happy. But outside of UA-cam, I do pretty much feel like my life is going nowhere and everything is pointless. I went through depression years ago as well so I know how it feels. I’m sorry you’re going through this, girl. I wish I could come give you a big hug, *hugs*. As you said, it is temporary. Sending you all my love. I’m here if you ever need to reach out. You’ve always been there for me in the past.
I can see the innocence in your eyes. Sending positive vibes. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Hello Nuka, i want to say, and you need to know that accept that is the first step.
Personally, i are though depression years ago, i grow up with a "friend" that made my head a junk about myself, saying bad things about me, and made me a perfeccionist anxiet about life, without any self-esteem.
Then after it i maked new real friends that put me on top with love and care and i slowly go off depression. I admit that i have little issues today, but gez, i am new.
There a light in the end, never give up. Probably you need to take your time, format your brain from bad habits/thinkings and you will be good again.
You are adorable person, sincere, kind, sweet, emotional (And this is one of the best things a human can be) true, beautiful, very beautiful.
Try to forget the past, we living in the present, only!
Know that probably you are going in bad because of bad persons actions in your life, and you need to transcend this, because bad people ever exist. Bad people are relative.
I remember, Jimmy Broadbent (Racing simulator english youtuber) years ago are though depression too, they made a video saying about this, and a year later he is a total good.
Just take your time.
We are together, Nuka.
Sorry to hear about what your going through, and hope you can feel better soon. I will keep you in my prayers.
I have also had a depression. It can Look Like It's almost impossible to get through, but you will get through it. We All love you Brown Eyes ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I suffered from a deep depression for 2 years in my late teens. You WILL get through it even when you have days when you think it's not gonna happen. We are here for you. Thinking of you❤️❤️
I know what you are going through. I've been struggling with chronic depression almost 20 years now and it's hard. Best thing is to talk about it, even though it feels overwhelming, with friends, family (if you have one) and with professional people who can help you. Medication can help but it doesn't really "fix" this difficult disorder. Thing that has helped me a lot has been my wonderful supportive girlfriend, exercise (Force your self outside. Even little walks in the near by park/forest makes wonders. My salvation when i was alone and very bottom was my dog who made me force my self to go out. It really helped.) and believe or not good and healthy food. And remember: You are not alone, there are people who really care for you and you matter. And even though you feel that everything is "dark" there is light in the end of the tunnel. *PowerHug*
I like it, its like you are a leader of us people with similar problems. I have been suffering my whole life and and undtreated for almost 20 years. finally since last year been seeking help again. Glad you are active upbeat and getting help and not suffering in silence.
Feel better Nuka.
I recently discovered your channel through Alien Isolation and I'm now working my through your videos. Love it all.
So sorry you are experiencing this. My daughter is experiencing postpartum depression and has been for a year. But as long as you know what you need to do, you'll do okay. You Tube will always be around, and so will all us mini-nukes.
If you have to take a break I completely and totally understand I've lately been watching your previous series every night before I go to bed because I missed out on some of the games that you played beforehand
I had the "I'm not okay" talk with a friend nearly a month ago. A different situation than this one, but, man, saying it out loud (well, in text) was such a relief.
To quote PhilosophyTube, for anyone out there struggling: I understand how you feel.
Peace and love to all of you.
I’m sad for you....I have experienced depression and eventually PTSD....I’ve had your signs and symptoms and feel that you’re on your way to getting better....it’s absolutely doable....take as much time as you need....we’ll still be here. You’re so sweet and my hugs go out to you....
So sorry to hear you aren’t doing well!!! Take all the time you need and hope you feel better soon. Take care of yourself
You are not alone in this. I have been struggling with depression for a very long time. Talking helps an awful lot and I heartily recommend therapy/counselling.
Sending my love. A lot of people think the world of you.
I’ve been feeling depressed most of the time lately and everything seems so pointless.
I hope you find happiness soon. You’re one of my favorite UA-camrs. Sending you much love.
Your channel and message today " will" help some people. Probably more than you think. That alone proves your life is meaningful. Your doing the right thing by sharing. You'll get through it. Take a break, and care of yourself.
I do not know if you will answer or even if you will read me, but keep your head up, all the bad moments have an end and chained on much better prospects.
Do not forget your goals, remember all that you have already gone through and accomplished.
You are strong, capable and you will rise even more radiant after this bad pass.
I can not wait to get you all smiles and hear the famous "Hello mininuk's, and welcome back to ..."
With a lot of affection and all my support,
A French mininuk'
No one is useless in this world who lightens the burdens of another.
Charles Dickens
Don't underestimate the impact you have on people; via the channel and I'm sure outside of it. Your life is far from pointless. I'm sorry to hear about your struggles, I'm happy to hear you're getting help. Hang in there, I hope things change for the better real soon. xx
Whatever it is. It’s so important to do something immediately. Talking to close ones can be really relieving.
That's ironic. Because at the same time your let's play videos are being therapy to people who struggle with heavy depression, like me.
I have been in the same state for six months and even more I was in deep depression, I left a country where I should have been staying, I gained weight, breakup with my girlfriend and stopped being a social individual, I lost many friends. Even if i had a good job and with a good Income my life still felt pointless. I wanted to end this and I was having bad crazy thoughts. But something magical happened when I got terribly sick and recovered by taking medecines, hitting the gym and making new friends and true people I can rely on, I also reinforced my belief in God and now I want to thrive as I completely recovered. I have a new way of life and I know that I will reach all the goals I setup no matter what. Am catching up on time and am having my world looking great again even if I encounter some hardships from time to time. Well this is life we are only passengers on a starcraft flying across the universe. So live your life to the fullest and be proud that you have been gifted with life in the first place. Life is precious and so are you
Nuka ;)
Trust me on this talking about your mental health or any problems, either on here or to your friends or family will make it easier to cope. I’ve had depression now for what seems like forever, some years are ok some can be the worst especially this year, but personally I found having someone I can trust whole heartedly to talk to about it or anything in general really helps. Now I won’t get into details or anything like that but just know you are not alone feeling like you do. I have to work nights and part time just because I can’t deal with people/public in general on a daily basis it is very draining for myself so I’d rather just lift weights and play video games, listen to my favourite bands or draw when I’m on my own. That said going to a 24hr gym at night or exercise in general helps keep my mind busy at the worst of days so maybe try that? I say this seriously too is do not turn to anti depressants or similar medications, all the people I knew who had them turned out a lot worse and more dependent on them. What helps me also sometimes is think when you were little or 10 years ago when your happiest memories were. Just to remind myself of what it felt like when those emotions of happiness were at their strongest. That’s the best advice I can give and I never really comment but I felt I had to here.
Truly sorry to hear that.
Physical exercise really helps taking your mind off things, plus it releases endorphins and all sort of goodies into your system.
Hope it helps.
*hugs*
Narcotic pain pills mixed with alcohol also help.
I'm very very sorry to hear that El I been depressed too more or less like that and i think you need to think a little bit about the people who love you: your family your friends. It doesn't matter if you don't have many of them you only have to care about the true ones and your fans too! All the good moments with them that should make you a bit happy and lucky, lucky to have people that care about you and love you! And your life isn't exactly pointless you are just going trough some mental sh*t that everyone has or will feel the same and it's rough. (Excuse my language) But truly you will get out of there and make it i'm sure about that i am confidence that your a strong and pretty girl and soon you'll get out
I hope you take time to make sure your mental health is ok. Don’t be afraid to ask for help via parents, professionals etc. you’re a beautiful soul. Get well soon
I hope you get well as soon as you can, but don’t be in a rush or prop yourself up on distractions. Focus on yourself :) I’ve been back in this boat myself this year. It sucks. It’s awful to know you’re suffering, but if there’s ANY positivity to take from it, it’s knowing we’re not alone. Granted, that’s a stretch, but when your mind does this you have to reframe your view of the world and find light in the darkness. And holy crap does it get dark sometimes. Real dark. I’ve been on and off with this since since my late teens (I’m now in my thirties) but I’m at peace with it. For all the torment, I know I’m stronger for it and I’ve dealt with a few life catastrophes like water off a ducks back because, by comparison, that was easier than living with this and I know without it, I’d have crumpled at those events. (See what I mean about reframing your view, it’s almost like I’m saying this has been a blessing). Life is a rollercoaster and the past 3 years have been a complete rush but at the same time burned me out completely and now I’m just ‘recharging’. Sorry I don’t mean to go in about myself, but I kinda felt I should put my thoughts out there, you never know who’s reading. Anyway, take care of yourself, go at your own pace, feel your feet on the ground and don’t burn yourself out. That goes for all of you in the community, not just Nuka-Ele. We’re all in this together :)
You are an honest person I hope that it does not take too much, just be strong and you will sure go through all the support.
As someone who hasn't experienced actual depression since middle school/early high school (I'm 20 now) I still identify with videos like this or people who echo these sentiments bc of my anxiety problem. I feel it's mainly rooted in fear especially now more than ever with this transition into adulting my life has taken with such a long road of choices/events ahead of me. When I was younger I'd always be shy or nervous around people, sometimes even getting claustrophobic in tight groups leading to shortness of breath or nausea. It held me back from creating long term friendships with people or pursuing anything productive, really. Now it's all catching up with me because while I have made the decision to get out of my comfort zone & try new things, I have no surefire way of securing my future & there's still that extreme insecurity and lack of faith/self esteem that never seems to go away. It interferes with even the most menial tasks that seem to take no effort like this video described. I guess it brings me comfort that people who bring me joy such as the few friends I have or my favorite UA-camrs/artists go through almost the same thing I do even if it is a slightly different scenario on a different level. It gets even more relieving when I realize just how many people I can go to with these feelings I have to vent whether it's a comment section on a video or my online friends, really means much 🖤
I am on the same boat sailing in and out of them dark storms with you and everyone else
Been there. Everything felt hollow and meaningless. Absolutely nothing brought me joy, and I spent days mostly sleeping and playing gamble-esque games. Which were a fine band-aid for a while, as they help you escape the real life.
I'm happy you sought out help in time. It can really difficult to open up, you don't want to spread the 'bad atmosphere' or ruin people's moods with it.
It took me over a year, but I got better after talking with a psychiatrist and such. You need to get that stone off your chest. The fact that you managed to make this video is an extremely good sign. You have the strength and you will get over it. It won't happen overnight, but a year or so from now, your current state will feel like a bad dream.
Hi Nuka. I myself am depressed most of the time. I spend a lot of time thinking life is pointless. So I know how you feel. Thank u for sharing your feelings. It was very brave of you and it makes me feel like I'm not alone. I'm sure you know by now that I love you. So the thought of you going through any kind of pain breaks my heart. Your health is the most important thing. So please take all the time you need. Do what you have to do to get better. And know that I love you. You mean so much to me and I will be thinking of you always.
Sorry to hear things aren't going so well, Ele. I hope you get back to your normal self soon. I'm sure you will. You know I'm here if you need a chat, anytime!
Thank you for being genuine and having this real talk. I can appreciate your wisdom especially right now living in the world of pandemic where social life suffers tremendously for everyone. Watching your recent videos, you seem holding up quite well yourself, keep up being strong!
More help, more real human interaction, change of lifestyle/job. As someone that is approaching 40, if you change nothing, nothing will change. The rut only gets deeper if you dont get out.
Be brave you are not alone in this and never will be, speak your mind whenever u want and know that things will get better
Just came across your channel 15 minutes ago and I'm immediately loving the content. Send you the best energy.
I am in my head way too much and have been for a while, but 2018 has been the worst year of my life. Lost my mom back in May after she fought a very tough battle with alzheimers, then had to have my cat (who was my best friend for nearly 15 years) euthanized after he was starting to suffer from some issues. Also got involved in a relationship and it has now unexpectedly ended and I didn't see that coming at all. I've had to fight and fight to keep my head up and try to stay positive. Sorry to hear that you are dealing with some similar issues but I'm glad you are seeking help and getting better! Don't let it take you over!
Also, thank you very much, this video made my day better, I dunno why, but I felt so well listening to your words ♥️
I feel like I've been depressed and had anxiety for so long that I don't even realise it anymore. It's like the norm to me now. I just sort of got used to it. Except when I have super bad anxiety, that shit is unbearable at times. But yeah I'm completely with you with the whole life feeling pointless thing. I mean not to be super edgy or bleak, but it kind of is. I think the people who are happiest in life manage to trick themselves into thinking that there is a reason to wake up everyday, or to work all day for money to pay for things just to keep you living longer. I've come to terms with this stuff and have realised that I might as well just try to have fun while I'm here. That's really all I can do. All we are is dust in the wind, after all.
I realise this probably isn't the most encouraging comment you'll ever read, but I feel like telling you how I've come to terms with these things may help you and there's no real point in sugarcoating it. Life is bleak at times. Finding a purpose for it all can be a struggle. So really what I'm saying is, try to stop trying to find a purpose. Just live, have a laugh and a good time. Enjoy it while you're here, because one day you wont be. I don't even tend to watch letsplay channels like yours here on UA-cam, but when I was watching one of your reactions to Shadow of the Colossus, something about you drew me in. Straight away I could tell you were just the sweetest person ever and I popped down a comment expressing as much. It wasn't even the game, or your reaction to it, but you. It made me genuinely happy for a brief moment seeing your authentic emotion to something that you were in love with, and I feel like I instantly understood what you were about. So many people here on UA-cam (or even in real life) put out videos of themselves not being exactly that, themselves. But you were incredibly endearing. You're for sure a lovely person, and I want that to come across as sincerely as I possibly can because I'm really not just trying to make you feel good about yourself. That really was, and still is, how I felt.
We love you NukaEle and we are all in your corner to support you. You’re absolutely beautiful and your videos are great. I know that you will feel much better with time.
I o ly just found your channel and have been binging your content... I'm sorry to hear that you aren't feeling OK.. And it's ok to feel so sometimes. I'm glad you're getting help.. I hope they do help cause your mental state is important. Take your time... Take care of yourself.. And come back when you can..
I'm mentally ill, I've been diagnosed 2 decades. It's a tough ride, but you have heart. If people offer a hand, it's ok to take it.
I hope everything works out for you. It's never a simple problem to tackle. All the best
Thank you for being so fucking honest with us. I know lots of us can relate. Good luck on getting help
A traditional American Indian story features a young Cherokee boy who once became annoyed that another boy had done him some injustice. After returning home, the young boy expressed his frustration to his grandfather.
The old Cherokee chief said to his grandson, “I too, at times, have felt a great hatred for those who have taken so much with no sorrow for what they do.
“Hatred wears you down, and hatred does not hurt your enemy. Hatred is like taking poison and wishing your enemy would die. I have struggled with these emotions many times.
“It’s as though a fight is continuously going on inside me. It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves.
“One wolf is good and does no harm. He is filled with joy, humility, and kindness. He lives in harmony with everyone around and does not take offense when no offense was intended. He will only fight when it is right to do so and in the right way.
“The other wolf is full of anger, envy, regret, greed, and self-pity. The littlest thing will set him into a fit of temper. He fights everyone all the time and for no reason. When blinded by his anger and hatred, he does not have a sound mind. It is helpless anger, because his anger will change nothing.
“It is hard to live with these two wolves inside me. These two wolves are constantly fighting to control my spirit.
“Young man, the same fight is going on inside you and inside every other person on this earth.”
The grandson thought about it for a moment and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win inside you, grandpa?”
The old Cherokee chief smiled and replied, “The one I feed.”
hernan godoy yañez thank you for sharing this very profound story
Hope you get to feeling better. I understand the never ending feeling of pointless-ness. 20+ years of feeling it sucks. I admire the courage and strength it took to make a video like this.
I've suffered from depression, and it's clear you have a good idea of what you're dealing with. Awareness is a huge step in getting yourself better. Your attitude, and your honesty, are admirable. FWIW you have my respect and my best wishes.
I'm not a person of many words but I hope you get better as time goes on, we are all here for you even the people who don't comment or you don't know of here, we still care, your not alone
All my support, thank you for this touching video filled with integrity. We are at once all unique but so connected.
Stay rad too ELe 😘
A brother from France.
In my own experience, what you describe does sound like depression. But I'm glad you recognize you are not alone. And you are being proactive about seeking help. I've been there: that defeatist weight on your shoulders that prevents you from even getting out of bed. It's tough. But please take care of yourself. You're very thoughtful to consider your followers. There are few people on UA-cam whom I've seen exhibit such empathy as you have. Thanks for the enjoyable content. I'm sure I can speak for most here that I'll still be here when you're ready to post again.
And your sincerity is unparalleled. Know that you mean a lot to your friends, family, and this community.
"It's okay not to be okay, Chloe Price" Life is strange Before the storm. You are so brave telling us about this 😢 So much to say, so hard to find the right words. just take care of yourself 💕
It most likely is depression. If you're struggling to do what you love and you're constantly unhappy it's depression. It's great to hear that you're getting help I'm considering to major in therapy/counseling to help people that have these issues because I understand how you're feeling. You'll overcome it's human nature and in some cases animals go though the same.
I've heard of New Orleans blues but not New York blues. I hadn't noticed any slowdown or lack of Nukeness but it does help to know. Yes, your genuineness is one of the greatest strengths of your channel. I appreciate your integrity. It is OK not to be OK. I'm glad you're getting help, and it's helping. Thanks for sharing and creating a community - no-one can spend every hour of the day just with themselves.
PS. No quitting!
Hey nuka,my name is John I'm from Brazil and I discovered about your channel in the start of this year and I love it and here I am, loving your gameplay,your sensitive about the games like the last guardian,the last of us, shadow of the Colossus,you cry Whit me in all of them(yeah I watched them all) and I am sure that we all here loves you💙🖤❤️...stay strong, I hope you overcome this bad feels...LOVE U NUKA❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Sorry your going through this Nuka.. but we all know you'll overcome it because your a strong individual💪🙏😉
I wish there was a universal "it´s going to end eventually" button, because thats the number one thing leading to even more misery, thinking its neverending. It´s so relatable, feeling this feeling of hopelessness. And it´s merely in your head, thats the sad part. It´s great that you share with us and especially that you help others while you suffer yourself! Don´t let anyone tell you that you are worthless, because you are so much better than so many people in this world, I myself value that highly and I´m sure plently of others do too! Get well soon :)
i know you how you feel. I think I have a bit of Seasonal Affective Disorder, maybe you’re going through that as well. The hopelessness is overwhelming and then I also feel fear for no reason. Its weird and scary.
I noticed you not posting as much, love you videos just because of how real you are and chill you are.
Hope you feel better soon 😊
It’s good to recognise how you feel and work through it, when I was younger I didn’t and self medicated instead, which I think many people do, because it was easier. Suffice to say getting help is key!
Thank you for sharing your story. I do really enjoy your videos and all your reactions to games I personally love. And it's okay if you don't know what it is, whatever you're feeling is valid nontheless. I think the majority of us will still be here whenever you decide to start posting again. And props on getting help for it. That's honestly a lot more than a lot of people. Thank you for speaking about this issue and hopefully reaching someone who might not have the courage or ability to get help.
It's depression. Once you randomly stop dreading the stuff you use to love, is most likely depression. I hope you get better. It happens to a lot of us as well.
Thank you for sharing. We're all here for you and we love you. You deserve to be happy. It will get better, keep your head up. ❤️
I know I'm pretty late to this, but I just came across your channel, saw this video and just wanted to say something.
You seem so incredibly nice and lovely. It's okay to not be okay. I think most of us have gone through difficulties regarding our mental health.
I just hope you're much better today. I'm sending a big hug and much love!
Glad to have stumbled across your channel. It feels good be here. I think I'll stay! :)
I understand what you're going through. I've accepted it as normal. The lack of energy thing is called 'Psychomotor Slowing' and it sucks.
baby feel good i have been there it's important that you push every day and you will be in that state of feeling just perfect i promise
If you stay late at night playing games and if you not eating well and enough thats why you feel ill and depressed !! Just eat well and sleep well especially at night, take a rest and dont think too much, breath fresh air and if you can just do sport it helps you a lot. I am feeling you because i've been like you in the past, PLZ NukaEle do what i told you and you will be ok very soon.
Stay safe and take good care of yourself, and if you need any advice just contact me ok.
Dont worry its normal and you will be ok.
Wish you will get well and be in good health very soon .
PEACE .
King Mus Yes, the sleep argument is so true.... sleep is extremely important for mental health
it is. but as someone who has had depression, i can say that sometimes eating well and sleeping well are not enough. and exercise, for me, i didn't have enough motivation to do any. i didn't have enough motivation to get out of bed sometimes.
Take THAT many time how you need to get well Nuka. we will wait, im not going anywhere
I am sorry good people have to go through things like this Nuka. I know how hard it is to talk about, and can completly relate to what your saying.
Just stay strong Ele, and take as much time as you need.
We are all standing beside you.
Stay strong Nuks. Incredible brave to share. This is just real life. We have ups and downs. I don't know the situation exactly, but you are a strong person. Sometimes we have to tell ourselves these things.
This took mad bravery to come out with. I’ve struggled with similar things, and I can count how many people I’ve opened up to about it on one hand - with half its fingers amputated lol. And personally, I’ve always felt like I wasn’t alone and even, idk, safer(?) when I’ve heard people come out about it. You’ve probably helped quite a few people just by posting this.
Dealing with it is a process of learning how to cope with - not cure - things. I don’t know you, but I’m somehow proud of you for being honest with yourself, not to mention with others, and seeking out help.
Hey Nuka,
Take all the time you need. We go all through good and bad times and after the rain allways comes the Sun ! You where my "therapy" during the last few weeks and I enjoyed to decompress looking at your videos. I'm already looking forward to see you back again on this channel. Take care my dear...
Hey! Kind of newer to your channel but thought I'd just chime in if it'll help. Honestly it sounds like you're going through a lot of the same thoughts that I am currently... I'm making my own progress trying to get better too but I just wanted you to know that you're not alone, and it isn't easy to figure that stuff out but you talking about it and making an effort to change these feelings says a lot about you as a person. I teared up watching this because it really hit home for how I've felt the last year too and in a way I think it inspired me. I don't have quite the following you do but I hope some random guy telling you this may pay it forward and inspire you too. You seem like an awesome person and take the time you need to make yourself happier!
Honey, it may be depression, it may not be, but the fact is you are going through something and the fact that you recognize it is incredibly self aware. You seem like an amazing person, and you are obviously loved by all of us that subscribe to you. You're wonderfully amazing, and a beautiful person inside and out. I've been where you are, maybe not identical, but I've been there. You will pull through and we are all here for you if you need us!!! I know you don't know us, but we know you through these videos. We love you and take the time you need to be alright with yourself.
So brave of you to be so honest about what's going on. Take all the time you need to feel better. We'll all be here when you're back to being your usual, rad self 💚
I have depression and I now how bad and scary can be.Just go help yourself you are important and you matter.We are here for you if you need help.I wish you the best really.Becuse of many reason this weak, I promesed to myself I will search for help and I wish we'll be ok.
New sub here and I'm glad I stumbled along your channel, love the playthroughs. Just know that you are not alone, millions of people, including myself, go through the same mental struggles as you. I finally decided to get help when I started spending entire weekends in bed, it got so rough I couldn't even get myself out of bed. I also made the mistake of talking to the wrong people, people who just don't understand what I'm going through because they don't have depression. Keep your head up, look for the little things in life that make you happy and keep chugging along, things will get better.
I hope you can recover soon from all that NukaEle! I subscribed when you started playing Detroit Become Human! and I loved your reactions, your sensitivity and your way of narrating. You know that from a distance we will support you and that you are not alone, even when you think you are. Try to clear your mind by going out to the street or somewhere where those negative thoughts can not be generated or increased.
We love you and you know that if you need to be heard, apart from your family. You have us, 12 thousand people who know that you are very valuable and that you will have the strength to overcome all this.
12 thousand people who will listen to you.
12 thousand hearts where you managed to enter.
12 thousand extra reasons why you feel proud.
12 thousand friends giving you a hand
12 thousand feelings of joy, that will crush those feelings of sadness.
12 thousand souls distributed in the world, who know that your life has all the sense of the world because we are not worse or better than others. We are different and that makes us special. There will never be anyone like us.
12 thousand voices that tell you: WE LOVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE AND FOR WHAT YOU ARE NOT. BECAUSE THAT IS THE HUMAN BEING, AND THAT IS WHAT MAKES US PERFECT.
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Espero que puedas recuperarte pronto de todo eso NukaEle! me suscribi cuando empezaste a jugar Detroit Become Human! y me encantaron tus reacciones, tu sensibilidad y tu manera de narrar. Sabes que desde lejos te apoyaremos y que no estás sola, incluso cuando creas que lo estas. Trata de despejar tu mente saliendo a la calle o algún lugar donde esos pensamientos negativos no logren generarse o incrementarse.
Te queremos y sabes que si necesitas ser escuchada, aparte de tu familia. Nos tienes a nosotros, 12 mil personas que saben que eres muy valiosa y que tendrás la fortaleza de poder superar todo esto.
12 mil personas que te escucharán.
12 mil corazones donde lograste entrar.
12 mil razones extras por las que sentirte orgullosa.
12 mil amigos dándote la mano.
12 mil sentimientos de alegría, que aplastarán esos sentimientos de tristeza.
12 mil almas repartidas en el mundo, que saben que tu vida tiene todo el sentido del mundo porque no somos peores ni mejores que otros. Somos diferentes y eso nos hace especiales. No habrá jamás nadie como nosotros.
12 mil voces que te dicen: TE QUEREMOS POR LO QUE ERES Y POR LO QUE NO ERES. PORQUE DE ESO SE TRATA EL SER HUMANO, Y ES LO QUE NOS HACE PERFECTOS.
you are the best and you always will be! Thanks Nuka.... ever
Sorry to hear you're going through this. It is definitely depression. The good news that you are doing all the right things. Friends of mine who have gone to doctors with depression speak highly of both counselling, CBT therapy and in some cases anti depressants to kickstart getting brain chemicals back to where they should be. I wish you the best and always remember every step you take is a good one, even if it may not seem it at the time, all the little things you do to try and improve yourmindset add up over time. And yes, talking about it is an important step as well, and props for not being afraid to share and hopefully inspiring other people to take action themselves or open up if they feel the same way x
You are an amazing lovely person ❤ Take your time and do things you want to do!
If you need, taking a break is always good for refreshing ;)
I didn't leave any comment to date, but kept watching all the videos. You're really good at this and do what you need to do. We will be waiting for your return ;)
Hi Nuka! You have all the support the all people that follow you! Take all your time that you need it to recover! Te esperamos con la mejor energía 🔋 Blesses ♥🇵🇪✌
My depression gets so bad that I dont want to eat anything. I understand what you are going through, dont worry; these things work in cycles
Even if You have problems you are never alone your family and your subscribers we support you.
Your only smile 😃
No one can say we know how you feel, but we get a little idea of what are you feeling.
Been there, actually I'm still kind of that state too.
Depression is dangerous if not dealt with, Im glad you are taking helps.
Please take care. Don't stay up very late at night, wake up early morning and jog, it helps alot. Stay with family or friends or whomever you love to be with. Set a target in your life. Set small targets and go get it to it girl :)
Know that this small family of yours of 12k people really loves you and care about you.
Stay strong. You did the right thing to make a video and share with us.
I hardly comment in your videos, but needed to write this. You are a beautiful woman, beautiful person. You can do it :)
I had a pretty rotten last few days. I remember a few weeks ago I curiously looked up my biorhythms and saw that a fair number of my primary curves would be at their lowest today. And, it's been a rough last couple of days. A mood can drive thoughts, thoughts can drive moods, my responses to those thoughts can drive moods, and how things actually happen around me, and don't actually happen around me, can cause moods. When you get caught in a regular cycle, sometimes, it's good to introduce or re-introduce a variety of things. I was at my happiest in life when I was living at home, taking care of the yard, working at the drug store, and at the college as a tutor, attending college, learning music, loving movies, visiting family and friends, writing adventures for DnD, playing video games. When you find something you love and keep doing it, though, some of the other activities fall out. And we start losing some things we didn't realize we needed. It's good to keep all the cups filled if you can. I stepped away from things because I was convinced what I was looking for was somewhere else. I haven't found it yet. But I'm not interested in going back, either. I don't regret leaving. I just regret not having found what I was looking for and for what fell out of my life and how hard that makes things. But NukaEle, if you're getting a sense that some things you were doing before would make you happy again, by all means, do more of that again. If you feel like socialization would lighten and even things out, get more of that. We sometimes hinder ourselves by looking backwards through the wrong lens. I think you're lovely and I hope you get better.
Hope all the best for you ... be strong all the way in both healthy or illness ... all my support for you 💪💪💪👊✌
Hi Ele, it saddens me to hear that you are going through the same thing I have been dealing with for over 20 years, but you sound like you have a great support structure going on. Keep strong, keep realizing that no matter what, people are out here who will help you, and that you are special. You definitely can do this.
I hope you get better soon Nukaele, but please make sure to take all the time you need. We will be her when you are ready to come back.
So lovely and wonderfully courageous to talk about it. I don't know if you are aware that being conscious of that and taking actions about it and accepting help is sssooooo positive and you can be optimistic that you 'll manage it. Focus on yourself, never hesitate to ask for help, be sad, be happy, be so-so, cry, laugh, touch and order your hair, be nice, be mean, be wonderful, be average, never mind, just be :).
Take all the time you need, I love your channel and it takes such great strength to open up about depression and anxiety. Stay strong nuka
Wish you the best while your going through those rough times.
you are pure , fabulous and honest , it makes me sad 😞😞😞 that you are not okay I was actually born with Autism , Asghbugers a.k.a ADHD Disorder sometimes I think of just losing my mind and go completely insane and dark , dark thoughts , but I personally know that I will be alright , and so will you
Hey, you are strong human being and you can do everything you want! Your mental will return and you will feel better :D Keep healthy
You make a difference in the world. You matter. You are a positive influence in the lives of nearly 13,000 people here, and I know you touch the lives of others outside of this space, because everyone does.
Here’s a big hug from an internet friend who has spent a lot of time where you are. If you ever need to talk to someone who has zero connection to anything in your life, feel free to reach out (that goes for anyone else reading this as well).
Save your spoons and come back to make videos when you have more of them to give. We’ll be here.
hang in there hope you feel better soon el stay strong :) we are all here for you :)