sometimes I feel.... fake happy? I guess that is what you could call it. I convince myself that I am happy, but then I realize that I have to fake smile, and now its just normal for me.
I used to be a bright and happy child when I was young... and 11 years later here I am starving myself, trying to fit in, acting like I care, crying myself to sleep, cutting myself and loving dark colors.....
Chalyssa Forever same thing when i was your age but you will get over it just stop trying to fit in, eat, smile, dont hurt yourself, and think every single Day you will get over it
xAly_XoXox Forever my mom thinks she can just pull me out of this " Phase " But it's no a phase its depression and she won't take me to her help so it's just get worse
@@mirandanubbynubnub1497 waking up numb and wanting to feel. Bored out of your mind, and then you go to bed.... Just to wake up and feel the exact same. Differwnt events but the same feel.
1: Hey 2: Yeah..? 1: Do you cry most of the time? 2: No. 1: Do you feel okay? 2: Always. 1: Ever have any suicidal thoughts? 2: No, not one. 1: Do you have any friends? 2: So many i cant even count them. 1: Do you have any scars of cutting yourself? 2: What? No, of course not. 1: Did you feel any love this year? 2: Yeah, a lot. 1: Did you lost people? 2: No, they never left. 1: Did your depressed feelings ever went away? 2: Yeah, they did. 1: Did people ever threatened you 2: ... Everybody that reads this...this is my story but upside down. It's an original one, i wrote this. I hope you like it.
"We all have our little private traps." Some of us are lucky to get out... Some of us die in the process... But being stuck in a trap slowly kills you...
I smile with no reason I cry with no tears Im scared with no emotions Im jealous for someone who wouldn’t do anything for me There is no point so i just give up and let everyday just be another day. Waking up is a nightmare that came true. There is no point of anything. No matter how hard i try, i just end up hurting myself more everyday. Its like a continuous cycle that will never end unless i find something worth living for then maybe i will be happy. Knowing it will not last long.
You know what I think? I think that,,, we're all in our private traps Clamped in them And none of us can ever get out Some times we deliberately step into those traps I was born in mine, I don't mind it anymore I will give everything I have, or will ever have just to feel pain again I can't feel anything We think that pain is the worst feeling It isn't How can anything be worse than this eternal silence inside me I used to not eat for days, or eat like crazy and then stick my fingers down my throat Now no matter how much I binge, I can't fill this hole inside me What do you care what I think anyway I don't even count, right? I could disappear forever, and it wouldn't make any difference Don't you ever, _EVER_ compare yourself to me Ok? You got everything, and I got shit "how did it feel, to be the most beautiful girl in the world?" It was wonderful, The most joyous thing you could ever imagine And it was never enough "wash that smut off your face!" "No! I wanna be a pretty girl!" "Well your NOT a pretty girl! And you know it!" "But I wanna be!" "The answer to feeling unattractive, isn't to make yourself even uglier!" Please! You can't leave me now! Not after what they've done to me! I'm sorry I'm sorry IM SORRY It's a reason to lose weight To fit in the red dress It's a reason to smile It makes tommorow alright ITS NOT ABOUT YOU! And I can't do it anymore! I can't do it anymore! I hate everything! I hate pretending! You don't even now me, okay, you don't know me _nobody knows me_
It's even worse when you just sit in your room alone and feel that giant weight on your chest and you just feel like you need comfort, but you don't have anyone to call, and the people around you would never understand what you're going through so you just sit there not knowing what to do. Every single god damn night it gets harder as you feel that you have no reason to get up in the morning and serve any purpose in someone's life.
"I used to not eat for days or eat like crazy and then stick my fingers done my throat. Now no matter how much I binge I can't fill this hole inside me." This hit me so hard I burst out crying and I can't stop
Idk where else to vent. I can't hold back anymore. I show people a positive caring girl who just wants to see everyone happy to make my own self happy. But really, I'm feeling more and more pain inside of me as the days go by. Right now, Im starting to lose sight of myself. Im starting to become less of my joyful giddy self. Im starting to become more and more empty. I'm really tired of everything. Of life. Of people's expectations. I'm surrounded by plenty of caring friends, I'm glad for that, but I'm thinking they're all going to leave. Even my best friend.. shes been through all my moody moments.. why hasnt she left. Why hasnt she found a better friend who doesnt have these kinds of problems... why wont she leave like I expected... I wanna leave.. i wanna no longer exist. Its the only way. Its the only way to make others happy. Others happiness makes me happy remember? Im so broken. Im starting to fall apart and the only person keeping those pieces together is my best friend.. but I just wanna go. Im tired of life. Please... please take me away from this life...
I know this was 5 months ago but you are valid. You’re best friend stays because they love you. For who you are. Please don’t go. Reply so I know you’re okay. Please.
Hey I hope you are doing okay after these 6 months. Your life is precious, I can't imagine how hard it is for you, but I can see that you're loved and cared for, so please stay strong and encouraged, these pieces fell apart so they can fall back in place, a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor. I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.
i can relate to this whole paragraph and i guess it's sad because i want to make others happy but how can i when this empty void inside my mind is consuming me? utterly and fully with no escape? it seems as if death is the only escape and it is inevitable.
We may not know each other but I can say that it will make a difference, in the life of those who love and care about you, cause you're loved. Stay strong, I'm here for you.
You should see this mom. You should see how I feel now and it's your fault and you wouldn't even know it. comment this a year ago. I feel so much worse now. nothing helps. even tried getting help. It doesn't help.
NF put it perfectly “the truth is i need help but I just can’t imagine who I’d be if I was happy, been this way so long it feels like somethings off when I’m not depressed”
2 years ago... was the hardest year of my life.. my demons consumed me... my life was so empty... I had friends but I never was myself.. after that year.. I got better. Made new and closer bonds to those who really cared about me.. now I'm falling back to that dark place. I'm fighting hard.. and I'm sorry for all those struggling too. We got this, let's just keep going
Alot of people talk about how they always feel horrible and will start crying out of ni where for no reason. But does anyone feel like me, like you have gotton so used to disappointment that you want to cry so bad but it just wont come out and you feel trapped.
thank you, this helped me cry a bit, which is something my psyche tries to fight every time I feel bad and it makes it feel like my head is about to explode all the time
"Nobody knows me" That hit hard. I have so many good friends but none of them know the true me, the empty me, that lives inside me, silently. They all know my quirky side, the side in front of the facade, sure one of them knows I am depressed but I wouldn't call it depression anymore, I just feel empty, like nothing really matters anymore. I think before quarantine I busied myself into oblivion just so I wouldn't notice but because of the quarantine I can sense it, I have no emotions. Sure I cry and laugh, but it's what I taught myself to do and what my body does on its own. I don't feel anything on the inside and I think that's why I can't explain to anyone how I feel, because I don't.
don't ever say those words. you're deserve in this world, maybe u just haven't find it, I know there's someone out there who would make your life turn into happiness, i believe that. don't ever think about those words anymore, OK?
Those of you who still have still the ability to feel, even if it's sad. you're luckier than those who just can't feel anything anymore. Feeling sad is better than not feeling anything, being so empty and numb inside that you don't even know what it feels like to be sad. At least those of you who are sad, can feel the sadness, can let it out. this emptiness, there's nothing to let out. So, please if you're sad find a way to get better, find a way out of your sadness because trust me if you stay in there too long it'll become this emptiness that is far worse than sadness.
right!! and u just dont know what to do anymore and u feel like its the death of you nothing can ever beat this emptiness like u feel like this emptiness is gonna last forever no matter how much u try💔
Its a reason to smile, we don’t want people around us always wanting to know why we cry, why we never smile. We want no one but ourselves to get hurt because we know how it feels.
5 stomach burning pills with a strong black coffee on empty stomach when I can't even bear it but now all these combined feel so good like I can finally feel something even if it's a bad feeling, better than scar keeping cuttings
“And it was never enough” That hits. ......I’ve realized all my life I’ve been trying to watch sad things, and try everything I can to make me burst out crying or to make me feel pain but whenever I do start crying it suddenly stops as I start. I don’t want to die I just want to get relief although sometimes I feel like that’s the only way to relief
I have hated myself since I was 10 I have been doing self harm I cut scars all over my arm in just one night, I don't eat for days, I did anything to keep my best friend safe, I am depressed,I have anxienty, I feel so empy, I feel worthless,I can't meet my dad who means everything to me even if he took drugs he have a place in my heart,I fake smiles all the time and it feels like no one REALLY knows me...I had a best friend he maybe didn't understand me but he still meaned everything to me...I have gotten punched down to keep him safe,When his dad was drunk (He was drunk very often because hes was an alcoholic) his dad would scream at me and him he would try to hurt him but I wouldn't let that happen but he sadly died because of his dad punched him til he died...I loved him he wasn't just a friend but hes gone forever and hes NEVER coming back I miss you like crazy and you didn't deserve to die 😞💔 sorry for my bad english
You know when you’re crying but yet the only feeling inside of u is the tears flowing down you’re cheeks, I might be happy around others but as soon as I make it in my room the reality of life sinks in and I sit in silence listening to music like this because it makes me feel normal and like I’m actually a real thing....
i cant cry anymore. i used to cry every day for hours i stoped sleeping because i just count stop crying but now for the past 3 weeks i haven't cried and its not because im better im just over it, over everything, im over life. i just cant do this anymore
sometimes i catch myself feeling great, like i could never be better. But then when i realize i have nothing to be happy for, it makes me feel horrible. that’s when it all just goes back to normal and repeats.
If anybody is reading this right now please if there is any time that you have to hear this or at least read this, I'm speaking from a history of suicide attempts and a history of dark moments that I never thought I could ever get out of. I promise you Jesus Christ is the only way the only truth and the only life that will take away that empty eternal feeling you try so hard to let go of and get rid of out of your life. You try so many things to fill it you try so many ways you try so many places you try so many people you try so many things over and over and nothing helps and I'm here to tell you today that the more you plug into Jesus Christ and his word and start talking to him and praying to him and listening to what the pastor says and stay around godly people in the church even though nobody's perfect we all make mistakes but it's better for us to be around godly people than it is for us to be around ungodly broken people. I've lost too many people in my life and I just lost my girlfriend to drug overdose and she was very serious about Jesus but she was also very broken during her recovery as a recovering addict of 10 months in recovery and she was holding in a lot that I didn't know. Ladies and gentlemen there's a lot that we hold in that hardly anybody knows about and that's the very thing that will kill us if we keep holding it in and not give it to Jesus. Jesus said for us to cast our cares upon Him because he is near to the brokenhearted and crushed in spirit. I am praying for everyone who reads this. I pray that there's at least one person that comes to Jesus after reading this and is hungry for him and tired of everything they've been trying to fix in their life. Because I'm tired too
"What do you care what i think anyway? I don't even count, right? I could disappear forever and it wouldn't make any difference" Its such a goosebump cause I said almost these exact words to my ex and all she said was 'i'll find another guy who is more emotionally strong, not like you". I was so so devastated, broken and destroyed. (unfortunately, i still am shattered). It hurts like hell. People say move on, but i cant, i just cant !!!!!!
A beautiful girl living the world But yet cant have the life But yet cant have that beautiful Wonderful life she wanted The black dress she spotted As beautiful as a broken rose And yet she didnt eat Yet she didnt talk She just fell apart...
I am the kind of person who makes people happy. The girl who everyone turns to when they're having problems and being in their worse time in their lives. The girl who seems to have a happy nd joyous life. The girl who has no major problem in her life. I am that girl. Little did everybody know, I'm not real. That girl they rely on, is just an act. I've pretended to be a person who I'm notn that I don't even know myself anymore. I don't know who I really am. My life is fucked up and no one knows that. My parents, they both cheat. My dad has other families. I found out about it last year. I met a girl named carmen at a camp. We became very close because we had so much in common. Our dads were absent in our lives even when he was there, but we never felt his presence. On the last day of the camp, she showed me her family photo and saw my dad in it. That day, I knew that my dad didn't only cheat on my mom, but on his children too. When I confronted him about it, which was last month, he confessed the truth. My mom didn't care. It sucks. All of my siblings are depressed. My parents abused us too... verbally, physically. My mom often beat us up and my dad always say harsh words to us. It just sucks, a lot. I want this to end. And I was molested when I was 4 years old, I lost my virginity. It was a horrifying memory. My mom's brother molested me. He died in a car crash after his engagement party. I did said to him that i hoped for him to never get married. And it happened. I feel guilty about it, until now. My mom kept blaming me for his death. I hate this. I feel so fucking worthless. So fucking useless. I just want to die. Can I please just die? I'm tired of being someone I'm not. Every night I'd cry myself to sleep. Nobody was there to make me feel better. My sister was the one who made me feel better when I feel like shit. But now, she's far away from me. She's in college now... and it's so far away from here. I just feel like ending everything. It could not get better. It will never get better. Because, just when I thought things were getting better, it ends with a disaster. Since then, I've never had high expectations out of everything. I don't want to look forward to anything. Because all of those are just temporary. I had good times in my life, but I never get to enjoy those times fully. When I'm in those times, I just know that when it ends, everything will turn back to how it used to be. Bad and sad. I'm just over reacting... Maybe it's not as worse as I thought. I'm just another whiny "depressed" bitch who's looking for attention, I guess. Because that's what everybody thinks that I am when I tell them this. It just makes me hate myself more. Because I think they're right. They're fucking right. I should just fucking die and not exist at all.
Hey you, my friends You dont know me You never have You only know what i let you know And even then...its not great Do you realize that i am a stranger to you?
I cant even cry... I have to say how happy I am to those who are around me because they will say "you're just pretending to be liked" and its killing me
*LOVE* What is that name that we made up and it does not exist anymore feel like people doesn't take it seriously anymore which they shouldn't and their life should depend on love but nowadays they treat it like it's nothing it's trash if somebody give their trust in you would heart you break them but why why does the word have to be like this *I will not say it until you* *see for yourself*
Idk why i try to hurt myself , but when i do it feel's so nice . It feel's like i'm letting go something that i don't know , but it just feel like something precious that i don't want to keep . I know it sound's confusing , but i hope you know what i mean if your reading .
I hate when people say they understand and they feel depressed too, they neve understand and their meaning of depressed isn't the same. It's not like feeling the never-ending amount of emptiness or that sadness that never disappears. It twists your mind into thinking that your nothing and just another piece of useless flesh put onto the Earth that no one cares about.. and I believe it every-time. I can't help but feel that bottomless pit inside of me and try to be genuinely happy, when that happiness seemed to not come with the package at all. We can't stop the way we feel but we try to do things about it but it gives time, and telling us you relate when you don't or you understand but still continue to tell us to just lighten up doesn't make it any easier. I'm 12 years old and the feeling is unbearable, it's annoying how girls in my school make anxiety and depression a 'trend' when it's something serious that most people go through.
“How can anything be worse than this eternal silence inside of me” This describes my feelings so much omg..i got hurt so often that im just numb inside.. i want to be sad..i want to cry but i cant..it is just the worst feeling.
i used to sit in my room.. doing nothing.. and i would just start crying out of nowwhere i didn't know why like.. it was so messed up i remember being confused and tell myself: 'huh.. why am i crying lol' like the numbness that took over me and didn't let me feel anything but emptiness a hollow soul with nothing inside but pure nothingness
"I can't feel anything" I've felt like that before, but I've never really felt it. I have never truly felt numb, the pain is always there. I have never been devoid of emotion. I wish I was. But I'm so emotional, I can't just stop feeling. No one sees it. No one can tell how much pain I'm in. I'll hide, drowning in my tears, wishing it would end. I'd hide in my closet, tying and re-tying a noose. And whenever the pain is to much, I'll find something to tie. Over and over and over again. Knowing I would never have the strength to end my suffering. I'll just keep crying, and ruining lives. Because that's all I do. Maybe my mom is right, I'm not actually sad, I just want to be disrespectful, and put everyone else in a bad mood. Or maybe I'm just slipping slower into insanity. Wanting to believe the worst. Maybe I'm just broken. But you can fix something if it's broken, so does that mean I'm not? Is this who I am, or am I so broken that you can't put me back together? I'll never know. Because no one knows me. If they did, maybe I'd be fixable. Maybe I wouldn't be broken in the first place. But no one cares. Why would they?
i literally can’t feel, there will be times when i’m crying my eyes out and i think, i notice, i don’t actually feel anything like i used to. when i’m laughing so hard i can’t breathe, i don’t feel anything. i don’t feel joy or happiness. it’s weird, it’s miserable. it’s not nice to feel dead, literally.
I haven’t really been laughing or smiling lately but I can’t cry and feel sad..... I’m either pissed off and mad or empty. I laugh and smile to make sure no one knows that I feel empty......
sometimes I feel.... fake happy? I guess that is what you could call it. I convince myself that I am happy, but then I realize that I have to fake smile, and now its just normal for me.
this is me almost every day of my life
Same
I feel the same
That's me every day
Same..
I cry but I don’t really feel pain. It’s like my body is responding to what I should be feeling but I can’t actually feel it.
same
My tears flow for no reason sometimes and I don't understand why
This is exactly me, are you still feeling like this or did your situation get better?
I relate so much to this omg
You guys must be hurt so much that you don't even feel it anymore or got numb to it. I think I'm wrong tho but wherever you are I hope the best for u
Even when I’m happy I just walk into a room by myself and burst into tears
you are not alone, it is not happiness, it is emty sadness
Alexis Brianna me too you are not alone
Alexis Brianna same
Alexis Brianna I feel exactly the same
I feel like same too
"I hate pretending." Me too..
You don't need to be pretending! Be yourself ❤️
@@Izabella.N that's hard
@@kaizley2748 I know it is Hard, but you don't need to pretend you are someone else, Try to be yourself
@@Izabella.N thanks.. (:
Please try to be yourself
"I want to be a pretty girl!"
"Well you're not a pretty girl and you know it!"
That, that hit me so hard that I legit burst into silently crying.
Same OoOf
i had this same argument with my mother
@@rachelpfile2660 I feel sorry for everything everyone is going through
@@alyssaary3455 thank you
@@rachelpfile2660 your welcome 🙃 I'm going through a lot too but life with get better I promise!
I used to be a bright and happy child when I was young... and 11 years later here I am starving myself, trying to fit in, acting like I care, crying myself to sleep, cutting myself and loving dark colors.....
Chalyssa Forever same here I’m only 11
Chalyssa Forever same thing when i was your age but you will get over it just stop trying to fit in, eat, smile, dont hurt yourself, and think every single Day you will get over it
I’m only 11 and. Pretend I’m happy but when I’m alone and cry and wonder why I’m still here
xAly_XoXox Forever my mom thinks she can just pull me out of this " Phase " But it's no a phase its depression and she won't take me to her help so it's just get worse
xAly_XoXox Forever
"I cant feel anything"
Well i feel everything.
Nazly Ghoneim I used to feel the same but now I can't feel anything
I feel everything then feel absolutely nothing...
Feeling everything is the road to feeling nothing..
Nazly Ghoneim I wish
It's been 6 months since your comment, I hope your okay
I cant feel anything some days but other days I feel everything at oncr
erianna that’s probably the most relatable thing I’ve ever read
Story of my life summed up in one sentence
Same but mostly I don’t feel anything...it’s so fuckin annoying
@@mirandanubbynubnub1497 waking up numb and wanting to feel. Bored out of your mind, and then you go to bed.... Just to wake up and feel the exact same. Differwnt events but the same feel.
So true
"Y O U D O N ' T E V E N K N O W M E"
"N O B O D Y E V E N K N O W S M E"
Your pic make u look drunk xD
i totally forgot i commented on this
@@urmom-kb8jf xD please don't hate but you just look drunk
please watch my videos and subscribe to me well in not lol
@@urmom-kb8jf ok lol no hate
1: Hey
2: Yeah..?
1: Do you cry most of the time?
2: No.
1: Do you feel okay?
2: Always.
1: Ever have any suicidal thoughts?
2: No, not one.
1: Do you have any friends?
2: So many i cant even count them.
1: Do you have any scars of cutting yourself?
2: What? No, of course not.
1: Did you feel any love this year?
2: Yeah, a lot.
1: Did you lost people?
2: No, they never left.
1: Did your depressed feelings ever went away?
2: Yeah, they did.
1: Did people ever threatened you
2: ...
Everybody that reads this...this is my story but upside down. It's an original one, i wrote this. I hope you like it.
I read it From the bottom to the top
No Name oh .. woah
So how long did it take you to make this?
Same with me
I didn't realize I relate to a lot of ppl 😒😔
"We all have our little private traps."
Some of us are lucky to get out...
Some of us die in the process...
But being stuck in a trap slowly kills you...
everyone I know thinks they know me
But I am the greatest actor ever and no one knows it
I can relate 100%
I knew that
Yeah I think ik someone that’s exactly like that.
Same
I can’t relate *insert sarcasm*
I'm crying, but I feel so numb. I dont even feel the reason why I'm crying.
same, but update do you feel better now?
🙂
Aswe
U don't even know me, nobody knows me🙂💔
I smile with no reason
I cry with no tears
Im scared with no emotions
Im jealous for someone who wouldn’t do anything for me
There is no point so i just give up and let everyday just be another day. Waking up is a nightmare that came true. There is no point of anything. No matter how hard i try, i just end up hurting myself more everyday. Its like a continuous cycle that will never end unless i find something worth living for then maybe i will be happy. Knowing it will not last long.
I wish I could sleep forever
Never wake up sounds so good
Me too
I feel the same way 😥😥
I feel the same...💔
You know what I think? I think that,,, we're all in our private traps
Clamped in them
And none of us can ever get out
Some times we deliberately step into those traps
I was born in mine, I don't mind it anymore
I will give everything I have, or will ever have just to feel pain again
I can't feel anything
We think that pain is the worst feeling
It isn't
How can anything be worse than this eternal silence inside me
I used to not eat for days, or eat like crazy and then stick my fingers down my throat
Now no matter how much I binge, I can't fill this hole inside me
What do you care what I think anyway
I don't even count, right?
I could disappear forever, and it wouldn't make any difference
Don't you ever, _EVER_ compare yourself to me
Ok?
You got everything, and I got shit
"how did it feel, to be the most beautiful girl in the world?"
It was wonderful,
The most joyous thing you could ever imagine
And it was never enough
"wash that smut off your face!"
"No! I wanna be a pretty girl!"
"Well your NOT a pretty girl! And you know it!"
"But I wanna be!"
"The answer to feeling unattractive, isn't to make yourself even uglier!"
Please! You can't leave me now!
Not after what they've done to me!
I'm sorry I'm sorry IM SORRY
It's a reason to lose weight
To fit in the red dress
It's a reason to smile
It makes tommorow alright
ITS NOT ABOUT YOU!
And I can't do it anymore! I can't do it anymore!
I hate everything!
I hate pretending!
You don't even now me, okay, you don't know me
_nobody knows me_
I
.. relate to the very last one most of all...
Every single piece of this was relatable
That end reminds of a song by Mewithoutyou, very powerful, but can't remember which one
You forgot "it's a reason to we wake up in the morning" before "it's a reason to lose weight"
I’m only 11 but I still relate.
That moment when you realize most of this stuff is from American Horror Story
Jenna Pullum YESSSS
🙁
Omg yesss
Jenna Pullum omg my fav show
Sameeeeee
It's even worse when you just sit in your room alone and feel that giant weight on your chest and you just feel like you need comfort, but you don't have anyone to call, and the people around you would never understand what you're going through so you just sit there not knowing what to do. Every single god damn night it gets harder as you feel that you have no reason to get up in the morning and serve any purpose in someone's life.
it's been a year since then, I hope you're feeling better now
"I used to not eat for days or eat like crazy and then stick my fingers done my throat. Now no matter how much I binge I can't fill this hole inside me."
This hit me so hard I burst out crying and I can't stop
"I don't feel sad. I don't feel anything" -tate
SO SAD AND AT THE SAME TIME SO GOOD
What i wanna scream every day
Valerie Burgers me too...
Same
My depression wants to scream and my anxiety in my head whispers to me :"what's the point of screaming? No one's listening anyways."
Do it then baby do wht u need to do my love i love yous to so very deeply ans always wnted and loved no matte rwhat
Idk where else to vent. I can't hold back anymore. I show people a positive caring girl who just wants to see everyone happy to make my own self happy. But really, I'm feeling more and more pain inside of me as the days go by. Right now, Im starting to lose sight of myself. Im starting to become less of my joyful giddy self. Im starting to become more and more empty. I'm really tired of everything. Of life. Of people's expectations. I'm surrounded by plenty of caring friends, I'm glad for that, but I'm thinking they're all going to leave. Even my best friend.. shes been through all my moody moments.. why hasnt she left. Why hasnt she found a better friend who doesnt have these kinds of problems... why wont she leave like I expected... I wanna leave.. i wanna no longer exist. Its the only way. Its the only way to make others happy. Others happiness makes me happy remember? Im so broken. Im starting to fall apart and the only person keeping those pieces together is my best friend.. but I just wanna go. Im tired of life. Please... please take me away from this life...
Erica Meow I hope your doing okay
I know this was 5 months ago but you are valid. You’re best friend stays because they love you. For who you are. Please don’t go. Reply so I know you’re okay. Please.
Hey I hope you are doing okay after these 6 months. Your life is precious, I can't imagine how hard it is for you, but I can see that you're loved and cared for, so please stay strong and encouraged, these pieces fell apart so they can fall back in place, a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor. I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.
Erica Meow what ever is going on you will get through it
i can relate to this whole paragraph and i guess it's sad because i want to make others happy but how can i when this empty void inside my mind is consuming me? utterly and fully with no escape? it seems as if death is the only escape and it is inevitable.
If you’re reading this...
✨hi love, I’m here for you ✨
But you're not really here, are you?
I'm always alone... Even tho I have "friends"
Dont worry i cant feel pain or anything not even love its an empty feeling just imagine being relaxed but all the time
@@downtoast14 not being able to cry at the right times and random breakdowns and crying at the wrong times huh
you don't even know me?
i could disappear forever and it wouldn't make any difference 😓that's how i feel everyday
We may not know each other but I can say that it will make a difference, in the life of those who love and care about you, cause you're loved. Stay strong, I'm here for you.
+Phoebe Dilaurentis thank u so much it's mean so much for me 😢😢 could u please contact me ? because I need help 💔
@@tofix3308 Yes of course, do you have Twitter or any other social medias?
@@wigsnatched4038 do u have instagram?
@@tofix3308 Yes, you can give me yours and I'll follow you:)
I've been hurt so many times I can't feel anything and when I do feel something it's just a faint feeling ...
Russian metal fuels me I get you. I never feel any pain anymore. I havnt cried In a couple of years and I’m 16
It's like I feel *nothing* for a really long time and one day I feel *everything* all at once...
You should see this mom. You should see how I feel now and it's your fault and you wouldn't even know it.
comment this a year ago. I feel so much worse now. nothing helps. even tried getting help. It doesn't help.
satanic unicorn I know how you feel.. 😔
Hey are you doing better now? I hope you are. I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.
Hey I know how you feel I am going through the same exact thing so if you ever need to talk I am here for you
U can’t blame others for your problems that’s just an excuse
Austin Anderson yes you can. you don’t know what they’re going through.
I was sad and this was kind of relatable. Until John from The Breakfast Club started talking. Then I just smiled.
Canis Katsuki I thought I was crazy but I guess I was right😂
Isn't it sad that nobody knows you but whats worse is that you don't know who u are
yep, same
Dad: So, you have to care and love yourself, so nobody does
Me: *sitting in silence bc i can't since 4 years*
I don't get this
It just me the only one that feels sad but I can't burst into tears anymore like the feeling is there but no water is seen in my eyes
Same...
“nobody knows me..”
This hit real hard...
...😞☠️I wish I had someone to be close to and wish I could I could SPEAK with them, you know.........
Kulsum Abrahams I wish for the same.
Hey guys, we may not know each other but I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to, I'll be glad to help :)
Phoebe Dilaurentis will u talk to me ?
You can talk to me i'll be here, if you need me..
neera ramadhiniary hello are u dere ??
This is absolute beautiful 😭😘😍
Sometimes I just feel lost, like I might not ever regain any of my strength. Then I'll just be there, feeling numb and empty.
This is BEAUTIFUL. STUNNING job.
i love the feeling of pain bc sometimes that's all i can feel.. that's why i self harm. bc i feel the pain
I swear I don’t feel happy I constantly have this like sad feeling, sometimes not that noticeable but it’s always there
Katie Lloyd talk to someone, it will get better i promise
I smile when everyone is watching but cry when I'm alone
NF put it perfectly “the truth is i need help but I just can’t imagine who I’d be if I was happy, been this way so long it feels like somethings off when I’m not depressed”
"I would give everything I have, or I will ever have just to feel pain again." that's like SO me.
same
2 years ago... was the hardest year of my life.. my demons consumed me... my life was so empty... I had friends but I never was myself.. after that year.. I got better. Made new and closer bonds to those who really cared about me.. now I'm falling back to that dark place. I'm fighting hard.. and I'm sorry for all those struggling too. We got this, let's just keep going
Alot of people talk about how they always feel horrible and will start crying out of ni where for no reason. But does anyone feel like me, like you have gotton so used to disappointment that you want to cry so bad but it just wont come out and you feel trapped.
thank you, this helped me cry a bit, which is something my psyche tries to fight every time I feel bad and it makes it feel like my head is about to explode all the time
I love the darkness and night times because its like the room I'm trapped in.......but it feels safe
It's lovely when you realize you only exist when people need you
I don’t care about anything anymore
Same
"Nobody knows me"
That hit hard. I have so many good friends but none of them know the true me, the empty me, that lives inside me, silently. They all know my quirky side, the side in front of the facade, sure one of them knows I am depressed but I wouldn't call it depression anymore, I just feel empty, like nothing really matters anymore. I think before quarantine I busied myself into oblivion just so I wouldn't notice but because of the quarantine I can sense it, I have no emotions. Sure I cry and laugh, but it's what I taught myself to do and what my body does on its own. I don't feel anything on the inside and I think that's why I can't explain to anyone how I feel, because I don't.
I wish i wass neverr bornn im so sorry every bady 💭
*everybody
*Same*
don't ever say those words. you're deserve in this world, maybe u just haven't find it, I know there's someone out there who would make your life turn into happiness, i believe that. don't ever think about those words anymore, OK?
I wish for myself too🙇🏻♀️
Those of you who still have still the ability to feel, even if it's sad. you're luckier than those who just can't feel anything anymore. Feeling sad is better than not feeling anything, being so empty and numb inside that you don't even know what it feels like to be sad. At least those of you who are sad, can feel the sadness, can let it out. this emptiness, there's nothing to let out.
So, please if you're sad find a way to get better, find a way out of your sadness because trust me if you stay in there too long it'll become this emptiness that is far worse than sadness.
right!! and u just dont know what to do anymore and u feel like its the death of you nothing can ever beat this emptiness like u feel like this emptiness is gonna last forever no matter how much u try💔
Always respect your pillow it's the only one who will catch your tears.
Its a reason to smile, we don’t want people around us always wanting to know why we cry, why we never smile. We want no one but ourselves to get hurt because we know how it feels.
5 stomach burning pills with a strong black coffee on empty stomach when I can't even bear it but now all these combined feel so good like I can finally feel something even if it's a bad feeling, better than scar keeping cuttings
“And it was never enough” That hits. ......I’ve realized all my life I’ve been trying to watch sad things, and try everything I can to make me burst out crying or to make me feel pain but whenever I do start crying it suddenly stops as I start. I don’t want to die I just want to get relief although sometimes I feel like that’s the only way to relief
Even when I’m happy, I begin to bring myself down - “Why are you happy?” “How can YOU be happy?” “You don’t deserve to feel happiness”
"I would give everything I have or will ever have just to feel pain again"🔥
I have hated myself since I was 10 I have been doing self harm I cut scars all over my arm in just one night, I don't eat for days, I did anything to keep my best friend safe, I am depressed,I have anxienty, I feel so empy, I feel worthless,I can't meet my dad who means everything to me even if he took drugs he have a place in my heart,I fake smiles all the time and it feels like no one REALLY knows me...I had a best friend he maybe didn't understand me but he still meaned everything to me...I have gotten punched down to keep him safe,When his dad was drunk (He was drunk very often because hes was an alcoholic) his dad would scream at me and him he would try to hurt him but I wouldn't let that happen but he sadly died because of his dad punched him til he died...I loved him he wasn't just a friend but hes gone forever and hes NEVER coming back I miss you like crazy and you didn't deserve to die 😞💔 sorry for my bad english
You know when you’re crying but yet the only feeling inside of u is the tears flowing down you’re cheeks, I might be happy around others but as soon as I make it in my room the reality of life sinks in and I sit in silence listening to music like this because it makes me feel normal and like I’m actually a real thing....
ANYTHING WITH AMERICAN HORROR STORY I CRY DJALUSOAJDBF.
This type of videos are the perfect start for depression ☺
The eating part gets me the most
i cant cry anymore. i used to cry every day for hours i stoped sleeping because i just count stop crying but now for the past 3 weeks i haven't cried and its not because im better im just over it, over everything, im over life.
i just cant do this anymore
“I can’t fill this hole inside me” Just hit hard:(
sometimes i catch myself feeling great, like i could never be better. But then when i realize i have nothing to be happy for, it makes me feel horrible. that’s when it all just goes back to normal and repeats.
You have things to be happy for, you just can't see it. Everyone does.
This music makes me cry so much and this audio just makes me cry more
I watched this entire thing...without crying 💔🥺 I’m broken.
I feel nothing except emptiness
If anybody is reading this right now please if there is any time that you have to hear this or at least read this, I'm speaking from a history of suicide attempts and a history of dark moments that I never thought I could ever get out of. I promise you Jesus Christ is the only way the only truth and the only life that will take away that empty eternal feeling you try so hard to let go of and get rid of out of your life. You try so many things to fill it you try so many ways you try so many places you try so many people you try so many things over and over and nothing helps and I'm here to tell you today that the more you plug into Jesus Christ and his word and start talking to him and praying to him and listening to what the pastor says and stay around godly people in the church even though nobody's perfect we all make mistakes but it's better for us to be around godly people than it is for us to be around ungodly broken people. I've lost too many people in my life and I just lost my girlfriend to drug overdose and she was very serious about Jesus but she was also very broken during her recovery as a recovering addict of 10 months in recovery and she was holding in a lot that I didn't know. Ladies and gentlemen there's a lot that we hold in that hardly anybody knows about and that's the very thing that will kill us if we keep holding it in and not give it to Jesus. Jesus said for us to cast our cares upon Him because he is near to the brokenhearted and crushed in spirit. I am praying for everyone who reads this. I pray that there's at least one person that comes to Jesus after reading this and is hungry for him and tired of everything they've been trying to fix in their life. Because I'm tired too
Amen, please Jesús guide me the right way.
"I'm tired of pretending. Where's my happy ending?"
"What do you care what i think anyway? I don't even count, right? I could disappear forever and it wouldn't make any difference"
Its such a goosebump cause I said almost these exact words to my ex and all she said was 'i'll find another guy who is more emotionally strong, not like you". I was so so devastated, broken and destroyed. (unfortunately, i still am shattered). It hurts like hell. People say move on, but i cant, i just cant !!!!!!
A beautiful girl living the world
But yet cant have the life
But yet cant have that beautiful
Wonderful life she wanted
The black dress she spotted
As beautiful as a broken rose
And yet she didnt eat
Yet she didnt talk
She just fell apart...
I am the kind of person who makes people happy. The girl who everyone turns to when they're having problems and being in their worse time in their lives. The girl who seems to have a happy nd joyous life. The girl who has no major problem in her life. I am that girl. Little did everybody know, I'm not real. That girl they rely on, is just an act. I've pretended to be a person who I'm notn that I don't even know myself anymore. I don't know who I really am. My life is fucked up and no one knows that. My parents, they both cheat. My dad has other families. I found out about it last year. I met a girl named carmen at a camp. We became very close because we had so much in common. Our dads were absent in our lives even when he was there, but we never felt his presence. On the last day of the camp, she showed me her family photo and saw my dad in it. That day, I knew that my dad didn't only cheat on my mom, but on his children too. When I confronted him about it, which was last month, he confessed the truth. My mom didn't care. It sucks. All of my siblings are depressed. My parents abused us too... verbally, physically. My mom often beat us up and my dad always say harsh words to us. It just sucks, a lot. I want this to end. And I was molested when I was 4 years old, I lost my virginity. It was a horrifying memory. My mom's brother molested me. He died in a car crash after his engagement party. I did said to him that i hoped for him to never get married. And it happened. I feel guilty about it, until now. My mom kept blaming me for his death. I hate this. I feel so fucking worthless. So fucking useless. I just want to die. Can I please just die? I'm tired of being someone I'm not. Every night I'd cry myself to sleep. Nobody was there to make me feel better. My sister was the one who made me feel better when I feel like shit. But now, she's far away from me. She's in college now... and it's so far away from here. I just feel like ending everything. It could not get better. It will never get better. Because, just when I thought things were getting better, it ends with a disaster. Since then, I've never had high expectations out of everything. I don't want to look forward to anything. Because all of those are just temporary. I had good times in my life, but I never get to enjoy those times fully. When I'm in those times, I just know that when it ends, everything will turn back to how it used to be. Bad and sad.
I'm just over reacting... Maybe it's not as worse as I thought. I'm just another whiny "depressed" bitch who's looking for attention, I guess. Because that's what everybody thinks that I am when I tell them this. It just makes me hate myself more. Because I think they're right. They're fucking right. I should just fucking die and not exist at all.
I'm so sorry
Hey you, my friends
You dont know me
You never have
You only know what i let you know
And even then...its not great
Do you realize that i am a stranger to you?
Why do I relate to this
Sometimes I get some feeling and I don’t recognize it and then it hits me I don’t even recognize when I’m happy anymore 😢🤧
It’s either I feel everything all at once or nothing at all
I cant even cry... I have to say how happy I am to those who are around me because they will say "you're just pretending to be liked" and its killing me
*LOVE*
What is that name that we made up and it does not exist anymore feel like people doesn't take it seriously anymore which they shouldn't and their life should depend on love but nowadays they treat it like it's nothing it's trash if somebody give their trust in you would heart you break them but why why does the word have to be like this
*I will not say it until you* *see for yourself*
Idk why i try to hurt myself , but when i do it feel's so nice . It feel's like i'm letting go something that i don't know , but it just feel like something precious that i don't want to keep . I know it sound's confusing , but i hope you know what i mean if your reading .
I can't feel anything
“I hate everything... I hate pretending... no one knows me” damn my heart sunk cz I felt that
1:15 breakfest club 💓
I hate when people say they understand and they feel depressed too, they neve understand and their meaning of depressed isn't the same. It's not like feeling the never-ending amount of emptiness or that sadness that never disappears. It twists your mind into thinking that your nothing and just another piece of useless flesh put onto the Earth that no one cares about.. and I believe it every-time. I can't help but feel that bottomless pit inside of me and try to be genuinely happy, when that happiness seemed to not come with the package at all. We can't stop the way we feel but we try to do things about it but it gives time, and telling us you relate when you don't or you understand but still continue to tell us to just lighten up doesn't make it any easier. I'm 12 years old and the feeling is unbearable, it's annoying how girls in my school make anxiety and depression a 'trend' when it's something serious that most people go through.
My face trough this video: .__.
Honestly same
I can't feel anything.Neither sadness and neither happiness.And it's the worst ,,feeling" somebody could have.
I can't feel anything... help me
Last line was insane "nobody knows me" it took my heart
When I lost you, I lost myself
“How can anything be worse than this eternal silence inside of me”
This describes my feelings so much omg..i got hurt so often that im just numb inside.. i want to be sad..i want to cry but i cant..it is just the worst feeling.
It's like my body is a prison and the real me sreaming to get out with out of voice
same💔 god will save us! btw update how are you now?
i used to sit in my room.. doing nothing..
and i would just start crying out of nowwhere
i didn't know why
like.. it was so messed up i remember being confused and tell myself:
'huh.. why am i crying lol'
like the numbness that took over me and didn't let me feel anything but emptiness
a hollow soul
with nothing inside
but pure nothingness
the ending is how I feel
"I can't feel anything"
I've felt like that before, but I've never really felt it. I have never truly felt numb, the pain is always there.
I have never been devoid of emotion. I wish I was. But I'm so emotional, I can't just stop feeling. No one sees it. No one can tell how much pain I'm in. I'll hide, drowning in my tears, wishing it would end. I'd hide in my closet, tying and re-tying a noose. And whenever the pain is to much, I'll find something to tie. Over and over and over again. Knowing I would never have the strength to end my suffering. I'll just keep crying, and ruining lives. Because that's all I do. Maybe my mom is right, I'm not actually sad, I just want to be disrespectful, and put everyone else in a bad mood. Or maybe I'm just slipping slower into insanity. Wanting to believe the worst. Maybe I'm just broken. But you can fix something if it's broken, so does that mean I'm not? Is this who I am, or am I so broken that you can't put me back together? I'll never know. Because no one knows me. If they did, maybe I'd be fixable. Maybe I wouldn't be broken in the first place. But no one cares. Why would they?
I’m at the point we’re I can’t feel anything and I don’t care anymore.
i literally can’t feel, there will be times when i’m crying my eyes out and i think, i notice, i don’t actually feel anything like i used to. when i’m laughing so hard i can’t breathe, i don’t feel anything. i don’t feel joy or happiness. it’s weird, it’s miserable. it’s not nice to feel dead, literally.
Don't say that you i think you ahve so many reason to laugh
I ALWAYS BESIDES YOU...I ❤ U..
I lay down sometimes and I just can’t feel anything. I’m always drowning in this eternal silence.
I don’t have any words....
“we think pain is the worst feeling.. it isn’t... how can anything be worse then this eternal silence inside of me?” Hits deep😭
Sometimes it gets so bad I wanna laugh
I haven’t really been laughing or smiling lately but I can’t cry and feel sad..... I’m either pissed off and mad or empty. I laugh and smile to make sure no one knows that I feel empty......