"You cant hate me more than i hate myself" I can relate to this. I hate who i was and i hate who i am, even if i change i'd just end up hating myself again.
Reol Deidre I do the same I hate everything about me ...my friend sometimes tell me that I shouldn’t ... she tries to help me not to but it’s hard not to hate myself . So I understand how your feeling and I’m sorry that you have to feel that way about yourself . But just now that your amazing .
@@aprillloyd2299 thanks for the message. I wish i could have said that to myself then maybe I could have avoided a lot of situations. Have a good day 😊
I used to be happy. I dont remember when I started feeling always sad. School is a burden for the social part. I put myself down on a regular basis. I'm irrelevant. Dump me out. I think it was about 3rd grade. I have to be perfect. Make sure I'm wearing a smile. Make sure you send hints of depression. Make sure no one can hear you.
I started when I was getting bullied in first grade for ugly I am how dumb I started to believe it. My friends are always jealous of me because I so happy and funny yet they don't know how it feels like to be alone now I have four friends yet I never say how I feel because I now they won't understand I always will feel so worthless
They speak to my soul and allow me to scream in my own mind what I’m feeling. Even if I’m never able to vocalize it, I can finally find the words for my pain.
My parents don’t even know I’m depressed They don’t know when I’m in pain They don’t understand me They always laugh or shrug it off like I don’t matter I just wAnt this pain gone
i told one of my friends that i was suicidal, and she told a teacher who told the principal. my principal read through the texts between me and her, and just her reading the things that i typed made me cry. the part that made the most was when she read “i’m not living, i’m just existing”
I want to SCREAM THIS OUT EVERYDAY EVRY MINUTE OF EVERYDAY IM HURTING I WANNA SCREAM ALL THOSE WORDS OUT EVERYONE THINKS THEY KNOW WHAT I FEEL WHAT I NEED no one UNDERSTANDS ME!!!!!!!
You what my little sister said to me when I told her how I feel. She said “no you don’t because if you did you tell someone who can help” so from then on I kept it inside me and if someone suspected something wrong I smile a little hard and tell them ‘I’m fine’. I’M NOT FINE...and I with someone could read my mind because at this point I don’t think I could tell anyone but at the same time I hope they never find out. I hope they Believe you leave. I hope never fine the knife I hide next to my bed, that I keep there just in case I want to hurt myself again. I don’t think I will ever be fine again. I can’t remember a time when I was fine but I know at some point I was.
"I'm just scared." Me: I'm more than scared, I'm alone, I'm worthless, I'm dead inside, I'm crying, I'm stupid, I'm NOTHING! No one in my life will ever understand the pain. "I can't fail again' Me: I can't do it again, because I'm always failing. I'm just a joke, I want to DIE, I should DIE, and I think that everyone knows that... I'M STUPID! LIFE IS STUPID! I WAS BORN TO BE A JOKE! I WAS BORN TO BE LAUGHED AT! I'M A FOOL! I SMILE, JUST TO LOOK MORE UGLY THAN I ALREADY AM!!! I'M STUPID!!! I'M DEFORMED, A UGLY CLOWN OF A MONSTER, THAT'S WHAT I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE!!!
Hey... love.. why do you hate yourself so much😔 I think you're a great person. People hurt you before havn't they.. doesn't mean you should do the same to yourself. You matter. You don't have to be alone...❤
I feel that 1000% everyday... You how ever are not anything near that you are perfect just the was you are. My best friend always tells me dont feel down because of what people say they are either jealous or maybe they are going through something that makes them act that way. Just remembrer nobody is the same we are all special in out own way. Have a beautiful blessed day. I hope this somewhat helped. 😊. (Gee I really am better at this in person 😅😬). Im always here if you need help. ❤️
I feel the same I sit in the corner of my room crying hitting myself until I scare myself and stop crying life is all fun when ur a baby but as you grow up it gets harder everyone starts hating you blaming you using you it's annoying I know but just keep trying it's not okay for them to do that they don't know how much pain they put us threw if only they could see it and see how we are at night when no one is around crying slowly losing and losing love for everything sleeping all the time I know I have been threw it I wish my parents would say they love me they call me ugly fat whore stupid mistake instead I'm slowly losing my sanity and love for everything I might not be here soon 😁and I hope they will understand that I tried
i dont even know you but i want to say i feel the same way and you arent nothing we all do stupid bad things but i know inside that heart of yours is an amazing person people like us that feel empty void of trust and emotion need to stick together i feel like i have to tell you this ......... you matter very much
I have been so scared because my parents want to put me on meds for my depression and I am scared because depression has been all I have known since I was 7 and I am 13 now. It is like my comfort zone.
Boom Dead same I’ve know depression since I was six I’m now fifteen...I keep it from my mom so she doesn’t know because if she does I know that she will take me to doctors and they’ll give me pills .
Meds aren’t necessarily a bad thing. I’m on zoldaft and it’s actually helped me quite a bit. I’m learning to get out more, be invested in things not like I was before I took them. Sometimes it’s not what you want, but what you need
Does anyone ever feel like you’re the least important friend? The one that’s always left out? The one that no one talks to first? The one that’s never apart of ANY conversation. The one that just stares and smiles, while watching the rest of their friends laughing and doing anything a friend group should do? Because, if anything, it’s all me. I’m ‘the one’. No one understands me. When people say ‘you’re not alone’, I AM alone. That’s what I’ve been for practically all my life. I just want to be happy, and not cry every day like it’s part of my routine...
In my whole elementary school I wanted to die my whole class except my friends hated me, the only reason I didn't leave was because I had people that would be sad if I died.
My old ELA teacher made us say “I am something.” She made us say it, but I don’t feel like anything. I help out and all, but I still am nothing in the end. What am I really, a piece of trash? Probably.
if i need to walk through life, i might as well trip, stumble, fall, fly, trudge, run, jog, drag myself, and crawl to the end of life, but if for one second i stop.. I might as well be nothing because i gave up for a second.
I'm used to being numb. But it hurts. All the memories. Betrayed. Mentally abused. Mentally and physically abusing myself. Everything hurts. But it's OK.
if anyone want to talk im here, I´ve been broken two the difference is that there was nobody helping me get over it i did it by myself so i can tell you that it will pass im here if anyone want to talk dont be scare, shy like me
It sucks that life is a challenge all the time because one day you win and another it just rips you up into little tiny pieces,and sometimes it just beats you into a whole you feel you can’t get out of.
It's getting bad again, I stay up late at night desperately searching for something that explains how I feel. I can't be depressed, my life is amazing. I have everything I want, amazing parents, loving boyfriend, people to talk to. Yet I still feel.. down... and i don’t have the courage to say what's wrong, or when i get hurt because i don’t want to blame people. i'm so used to being called, selfish, lazy, and being called out for blaming others, that now i blame myself, do too much for others and nothing for myself. I guess I am lazy, i just, don't want to get up.
These audio relates perfectly how i feel since a long time. I feel so alone , there is nobody that really understand all that shit that happend in my life
Kris Cyveil Centinales I felt the same ... I still feel that way ... but I have this one friend that helps me through it . Maybe you should go to yours and tell them how you feel and if that doesn’t work you can come to me if you need to talk my instagram Aprillloyd9255
People say that I’m not alone, and I’m pleased they are trying to comfort me. But it dosent matter if I’m not alone, I feel alone. I feel alone even when I know someone cares. And my brain just make me believe that no one loves me. But I also know that my father does, but my brain pushed that thought out of my body like it does when someone tells me I matter. It’s complicated and dumb because when I get a complement my brain doesn’t hold on to it, neither does my feelings. But when someone says that my ears are to small or that my face is ugly or that I look like I need to lose weight... it stays in my brain for weeks, sometimes months. And I don’t know how to stop it and I just want it to stoppp
People always have a sad story, I just hate myself and I can’t change it. I got a therapist, I tried talking to people, nothing works. It’s just how it’s meant to be
"My entire life, people have always told me that I was stupid and after a while, I started to believe them." I used to act stupid in order to make my dysfunctional family laugh once in a while. They'd obviously say I was stupid, maybe, probably without thinking too much about it. But I believed them. My diary was full of insults I told myself. "Stupid" "Just die already" "You're worthless" "No one cares" "No one would miss me" 'I'm such an Idiot" ... Out of all my siblings (I'm the youngest of fourth), I am the first to have gone to university and the first to have finished it. To this day, I still have a difficult time believing in my worth. A part of me still believes I am stupid, worth nothing. I know it's not true, but... I just can't help thinking it.
It's hard always pretending to be fine but it's harder when no one bothers to ask how your doing no one asks how I am how I'm doing if I'm okay and I'm not because everyday is something worse it gets worse and worse nothing good happens it's constant disappointment. Nothing good has happened to me sense the day I was born 13 years and nothing happens
Its just i can't stare at the mirror for even 1 second it makes me feel weak , I remember how vulnerable i am I wonder what i am going to do in the future ,I don't know what Im good at ,I am just soo exhausted from everyone telling that i will make it out ... But i fear i won't fast long
I just don’t want to live. I don’t want anything anymore. I have to pretend I’m not like This.. For real happiness But no matter what I do my sadness overcomes me. Even if you gave me a puppy I couldn’t feel as much happiness as I used too. Am I even normal Am I even suppose to be here? See you again next time UA-cam.
I was in sixth grade and I was very suicidal because every day I was picked on because of my weight and what I did in school I had nobody I even lied to my friend that he prevented me from killing myself but honestly he didn't help out in fact no one did I cried when I got home I even said one of my friends wasn't my friend because I felt like I didn't deserve friends or have fun I did repress these nightmares but I remembered them and I still feel suicidal and even one of my friends is also suicidal and we acknowledge that fact and do whatever we can to keep are spirits up
I literally just came here to browse the comments to see if anybody noticed cause I never noticed until now cause I binge watch doctor who all the time and I’m onto the episode where he says this rn😂
How is it that u give everyone everything of u but its still not good enough and your just not good enough for anybody. No one truly understands u until they get to know how it feels to be you!!💔😿
Everyone's someone, you aren't worthless, a failure and you'd be surprised at how I've felt every single emotion that's described, I've been there, I do know how it feels, I am scared about things to, I'm sorry if I made you feel worthless because you're not a failure, even if u hate me 4ever, I am very proud of what you've accomplished for yourself
I feel completely blessed that I'll be able to pass with a smile on my face. It's truly been a journey of highs and lows. More lows than highs but it's okie. I'm content in my eventual final choice.
I can't kill myself... cuz I love my parents...and they love me... Even tho I was no good to 'em... Even tho I've never made them proud of me....and now ima live just for these guys cuz I cant unsee their hardwork and love for me...even tho im treated like a trash by everyone else...#FuckTheBitchyWorld #stillWithDepression But imma become a fighter and a survivor...imma fight for my parents... Peace to all.
For everyone hurting there It´s gonna get better. I promise. It will. Maybe it doesn´t seem like it, but it will get better. You are brave, you are beautiful, you are smart and an amazing person that deserves happiness and only happiness. Don´t give up. Love you
We are all just nothing... The difference its that some of us know it, while the others are just clueless about it... So what if we are nothing... Just use your time however you want before it runs out... Me... I've no particular interests so... Im just waiting death...
“I’ve never been so scared in my life” when my father left “You can’t hate me more than I hate myself” I understand this so well it’s sad “You think I wanted this” you think i asked for all the hate in my life because I don’t
Whoever is going through stuff or just feel something negative, I'm not gonna give you people sappy words because it won't fix anything, normally never dose. But I will say that Stop, look around, take deep breaths. Because the world waits for nobody to fix their problems. You have to fix them while moving. Shit gets hard I know but, just push through, I won't tell you you'll live happy ever after but I will tell you, you're wasting your time hating on yourself and/or degrading yourself , you'll look back if you make it through and realise you fucked up. Take my sister and mom for example. My mom, when she was growing up she had negative thought about herself and when she kept looking back every once and a while she'd say "oh I was pretty" when she thought she wasn't. My sister, is sadly following her footsteps but she's getting kinda better. I'll be real with you, this might seem rude but life isn't so nice either hence why some people have depression, in this life it is hard to deal with many negative thoughts, and Im not gonna pretend I have depression or had a negative thought about myself. Because I didn't, why? I realised at a young age that, Life ain't fair, so you'll have to get by all these obstacles while the track is moving backwards. Ps: I wish you all god speed at recovering.
Everyday my case gets worse. I don’t know what’s happening to me. This video is so touching ( at least to me) I’m passing through a phase where I cry everyday for no reason and it’s getting worse and worse💔
I really am nothing. I have nothing to live for. At this point, I know I have to spread positivity because my friends are surrounded by negativity. I’ve hidden my bigger emotions for so long, that it’s hard to even talk about anymore. I can’t even tell what I’m feeling. My parents tell me they are proud of me. I know they are lying. My grades have dropped. They have no reason to be proud of me. I can barely keep up with my school work, hygiene, or my social life. If I were to disappear only a few people would care. But at the max of two days, they wouldn’t care and finally realize I was worthless. Last year I was told i helped my friends. That I helped them talk about their emotions. Why can’t I do that any more? Why can’t I have a purpose? Why do I feel as if the only way to feel better is to harm? Why can’t I find the motivation to do my school work? Why can’t I pay attention in class? Why do I have to be this annoying? Why do I have to be me?
I am a 13 year old who feels worthless i am invisible i am not here for anyone everything i do is a mistake everytime i do something which i think is funny I get death glares i am the school joke of the whole school district i am worthless, lonely, and a mistake i was not built for this world i am nothing and i always will be nothing for the rest of my life
My friend told me to change but I physically can’t change I try and try but get nowhere she has left me multiple times but somehow I manage to get her back, we have had countless fights over nothing. I’m depressed physically and emotionally I try to tell her and my other friend but they never believe me and that’s what hurts the most, I’ve been depressed my whole life I am currently 12 almost 13 but no matter how hard I try to run away from the darkness anxiety and depression they always come back sometimes I feel that the pain, darkness, anxiety and depression is my friend. I’m depressed because I’m my family we have had so many deaths it’s ridiculous and my father he hurt his back bad I mean it’s bad he had to go in for surgery countless times for screws and plates in his back he is soon going to be paralyzed from the waist down. My mom almost died in a car accident couple years back but I can’t tell them I’m depressed because just like all the others they will never believe me. I also have been bullied half of my life and I feel like I still am being bullied by my friends, I don’t deserve to live I don’t even deserve friends I shouldn’t have even been born my I entire existence on this so called earth is a mistake. Anywhere I go no matter how far I am, I always feel depressed there’s no hope for me left in this world every day I go to school or out with my parents I have to put on masks and change my entire personality just to make them think that there’s nothing wrong with me I have tried to kill myself so many times but I’m still here and I’m SCARED of LIVING to me death seems like nothing nobody will remember me nobody will ever care about me I’m just useless, never good enough, always screw things up, always get yelled at, but that will change if I just block the world out I’m better off by myself in the world, and to whomever is reading this I appreciate you people for realizing the pain I’m going through but I hope you all find your happy ending goodbye...
Londyn Pellerin I know how you feel and I get it my friends left me so many times because they say I’m being too depressing but please whatever you do don’t end your life because then your letting the depression win and your friends that’s bullying you win please keep fighting and if you need a friend I’m here my instagram aprillloyd9255 and my Snapchat is alloyd642
Londyn Pellerin and I care and I may not know you but I’ll miss you because I’ll keep wondering if only I had seen your comment ... because trust me you ending your life is not going to make it better your going to miss out of life on your sixteen birthday of everything.
April Lloyd thank you for taking your time to read my comment I left behind I really took advice on what you said...and you have helped me through so much by what your comment said. My friends they left me behind because they think it’s fake...that I just want attention but the truth is I want someone to notice me and accept me for who I am. Thank you so much I hope I will see you again sometime, you really changed how I see things today. I will still always feel this way but thank you...
Ninja Gamer the comment or the audio (probably the audio) but thank you also for coming across my comment and taking the time to read it. I still feel unwanted but that’s okay some day someone will notice me like you have noticed me I really appreciate you commenting on my comment it means the world to me that 2 other people comment on my comment thank you so much, I also hope to see you around sometime
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"You cant hate me more than i hate myself" I can relate to this. I hate who i was and i hate who i am, even if i change i'd just end up hating myself again.
Reol Deidre I do the same I hate everything about me ...my friend sometimes tell me that I shouldn’t ... she tries to help me not to but it’s hard not to hate myself . So I understand how your feeling and I’m sorry that you have to feel that way about yourself . But just now that your amazing .
Reol Deidre Be strong baby just know that someone loves you.
Reol Deidre I feel the same way. I fight with this Everyday and I just hate myself and I’m tired of people telling me how to feel.
@@aprillloyd2299 thanks for the message. I wish i could have said that to myself then maybe I could have avoided a lot of situations.
Have a good day 😊
@@doritobag759 I do know but thank you for reminding me. I wish I could've loved myself too
I used to be happy. I dont remember when I started feeling always sad. School is a burden for the social part. I put myself down on a regular basis. I'm irrelevant. Dump me out. I think it was about 3rd grade. I have to be perfect. Make sure I'm wearing a smile. Make sure you send hints of depression. Make sure no one can hear you.
@My Secret Account I really hope you go to hell
@My Secret Account that shit is so damn bad for you, and don't fucking comment that on every single comment💀
What does happy mean?
I started when I was getting bullied in first grade for ugly I am how dumb I started to believe it. My friends are always jealous of me because I so happy and funny yet they don't know how it feels like to be alone now I have four friends yet I never say how I feel because I now they won't understand I always will feel so worthless
These audios make feel like... I'm not alone..
You are definitely not, I feel the same💕
Pikachu me too..
we’re all depressed
@@TheArtOfNovalea you're definitely not alone
They speak to my soul and allow me to scream in my own mind what I’m feeling. Even if I’m never able to vocalize it, I can finally find the words for my pain.
My parents don’t even know I’m depressed
They don’t know when I’m in pain
They don’t understand me
They always laugh or shrug it off like I don’t matter
I just wAnt this pain gone
feels the same way even when im out with my friends i still feel empty
CHRISTIANblackTIBEY are you OK? You need someone to talk to??? DM me on ig... @kealohikekumumarino
Same
@@KM-rj6cx me
Same... sadly
The bravest thing I've ever done is live when i wanted to die
Maeann Parker probably the same thing here
Same
Same
scrolling threw comments while watching this💔
The bravest thing i have ever done is nothing.
i told one of my friends that i was suicidal, and she told a teacher who told the principal. my principal read through the texts between me and her, and just her reading the things that i typed made me cry. the part that made the most was when she read “i’m not living, i’m just existing”
Hey.. It's been a year, how are you doing sweetheart?
Sweetie, are u alright???
Are you still here dear
Hey, wherever you are, I hope you are doing fine, I love you freind:) I know I am a Stranger, I am suffering like you, but don't give up for me..
I want to SCREAM THIS OUT EVERYDAY EVRY MINUTE OF EVERYDAY IM HURTING I WANNA SCREAM ALL THOSE WORDS OUT EVERYONE THINKS THEY KNOW WHAT I FEEL WHAT I NEED no one UNDERSTANDS ME!!!!!!!
@My Secret Account shut the fuck up
i feel you so damn much
You what my little sister said to me when I told her how I feel. She said “no you don’t because if you did you tell someone who can help” so from then on I kept it inside me and if someone suspected something wrong I smile a little hard and tell them ‘I’m fine’. I’M NOT FINE...and I with someone could read my mind because at this point I don’t think I could tell anyone but at the same time I hope they never find out. I hope they Believe you leave. I hope never fine the knife I hide next to my bed, that I keep there just in case I want to hurt myself again. I don’t think I will ever be fine again. I can’t remember a time when I was fine but I know at some point I was.
You cant hate me anymore then I hate myself.
I don't hate u I just hate the people that I love
Truegamer 175 thank you
Depression is taking over my body... Please make it stop 😣
GOD BLESS YOU HOPE YOU ARE alive bcuz i m going through it and dont know i will live or not
Nicole Holtery Give it to god
Please don't watch this video if it triggers u😔
@Ryan Till mhm
No one understands my pain everything is crushing on me everyone says "oh ur overreacting or oh ur just dramatic
@My Secret Account fuck off
My "best" friend said this exact two word to me and it broke me because I never open to ppl and this time I did and I feel stupid now😭
"I'm just scared."
Me: I'm more than scared, I'm alone, I'm worthless, I'm dead inside, I'm crying, I'm stupid, I'm NOTHING! No one in my life will ever understand the pain.
"I can't fail again'
Me: I can't do it again, because I'm always failing. I'm just a joke, I want to DIE, I should DIE, and I think that everyone knows that...
I'M STUPID! LIFE IS STUPID! I WAS BORN TO BE A JOKE! I WAS BORN TO BE LAUGHED AT! I'M A FOOL! I SMILE, JUST TO LOOK MORE UGLY THAN I ALREADY AM!!! I'M STUPID!!! I'M DEFORMED, A UGLY CLOWN OF A MONSTER, THAT'S WHAT I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE!!!
Hey... love.. why do you hate yourself so much😔 I think you're a great person. People hurt you before havn't they.. doesn't mean you should do the same to yourself.
You matter. You don't have to be alone...❤
I feel that 1000% everyday... You how ever are not anything near that you are perfect just the was you are. My best friend always tells me dont feel down because of what people say they are either jealous or maybe they are going through something that makes them act that way. Just remembrer nobody is the same we are all special in out own way. Have a beautiful blessed day. I hope this somewhat helped. 😊. (Gee I really am better at this in person 😅😬). Im always here if you need help. ❤️
I want to cheer you up so bad
But looking at me right now
How i hate me and my life, i just don't have the nerve
Maybe we are the same person
I feel the same I sit in the corner of my room crying hitting myself until I scare myself and stop crying life is all fun when ur a baby but as you grow up it gets harder everyone starts hating you blaming you using you it's annoying I know but just keep trying it's not okay for them to do that they don't know how much pain they put us threw if only they could see it and see how we are at night when no one is around crying slowly losing and losing love for everything sleeping all the time I know I have been threw it I wish my parents would say they love me they call me ugly fat whore stupid mistake instead I'm slowly losing my sanity and love for everything I might not be here soon 😁and I hope they will understand that I tried
+1 every day of my life i feel like a dead with no feelings because..i am broken 💔
emily 001 this is the young thing talking behalf of him in acting in his recording studio
i dont even know you but i want to say i feel the same way and you arent nothing we all do stupid bad things but i know inside that heart of yours is an amazing person people like us that feel empty void of trust and emotion need to stick together i feel like i have to tell you this ......... you matter very much
This is me everyday and I’m tired ! I honestly just wanna cut already and die 💔
The bravest thing anyone can do is survive when they want to die the most.
I have been so scared because my parents want to put me on meds for my depression and I am scared because depression has been all I have known since I was 7 and I am 13 now. It is like my comfort zone.
Boom Dead I am going to the doctors… I probably will end up on meds. It's been my comfort zone too. Don't worry
Same life different houses
Boom Dead same I’ve know depression since I was six I’m now fifteen...I keep it from my mom so she doesn’t know because if she does I know that she will take me to doctors and they’ll give me pills .
Me too
Meds aren’t necessarily a bad thing. I’m on zoldaft and it’s actually helped me quite a bit. I’m learning to get out more, be invested in things not like I was before I took them. Sometimes it’s not what you want, but what you need
I feel so empty inside but this makes me feel I’m not alone.
I just wanna die.
I'm a mistake.
My happiness isnt here anymore.
Just a fake laugh and smile.
*But what if no one cares if I die..?*
I will care if you die so don't die you are not a mistake don't ever think of taking your life make yourself happy stay strong
•kimi • I felt this, and I don’t know you,but I care
Does anyone ever feel like you’re the least important friend? The one that’s always left out? The one that no one talks to first? The one that’s never apart of ANY conversation. The one that just stares and smiles, while watching the rest of their friends laughing and doing anything a friend group should do? Because, if anything, it’s all me. I’m ‘the one’. No one understands me. When people say ‘you’re not alone’, I AM alone. That’s what I’ve been for practically all my life. I just want to be happy, and not cry every day like it’s part of my routine...
In my whole elementary school I wanted to die my whole class except my friends hated me, the only reason I didn't leave was because I had people that would be sad if I died.
" don't you get it I'm nothing" yes I've been nothing and no one sees it
Truegamer 175 your not nothing your everything to your friends and family .
April Lloyd no I don't everyone hates me
Truegamer 175 that can’t be true why would anyone hate you ? You seem like a great person .
Truegamer 175 and if that’s true not everyone hates you because I don’t hate you .
My old ELA teacher made us say “I am something.” She made us say it, but I don’t feel like anything. I help out and all, but I still am nothing in the end. What am I really, a piece of trash? Probably.
These audios make it feel less painful to hear the thoughts outside of my head....
if i need to walk through life, i might as well trip, stumble, fall, fly, trudge, run, jog, drag myself, and crawl to the end of life, but if for one second i stop.. I might as well be nothing because i gave up for a second.
Every person is special, remember that..
"You can't hate me more than i hate myself" is the realest thing i've heart so far
*..."I'll be honest"*
that's hard...the hardest.
I hope you can overcome these, you.
I'm used to being numb. But it hurts. All the memories. Betrayed. Mentally abused. Mentally and physically abusing myself. Everything hurts. But it's OK.
Ugh. This gets you into the feels so fast
Don't get angry. Don't shout. People are sleeping. I still stay with you. My friend. Don't shout.
if anyone want to talk im here, I´ve been broken two the difference is that there was nobody helping me get over it i did it by myself so i can tell you that it will pass
im here if anyone want to talk dont be scare, shy like me
It sucks that life is a challenge all the time because one day you win and another it just rips you up into little tiny pieces,and sometimes it just beats you into a whole you feel you can’t get out of.
It's getting bad again, I stay up late at night desperately searching for something that explains how I feel. I can't be depressed, my life is amazing. I have everything I want, amazing parents, loving boyfriend, people to talk to. Yet I still feel.. down... and i don’t have the courage to say what's wrong, or when i get hurt because i don’t want to blame people. i'm so used to being called,
selfish, lazy, and being called out for blaming others, that now i blame myself, do too much for others and nothing for myself. I guess I am lazy, i just, don't want to get up.
These audio relates perfectly how i feel since a long time. I feel so alone , there is nobody that really understand all that shit that happend in my life
We all fear dying. ...even when we think and wish we would when desperate. ......
I've been trying to live my life. but its just, everyday, Im just dying.
same
Kris Cyveil Centinales I felt the same ... I still feel that way ... but I have this one friend that helps me through it . Maybe you should go to yours and tell them how you feel and if that doesn’t work you can come to me if you need to talk my instagram Aprillloyd9255
Kris Cyveil Centinales Poor baby please be strong I know it all too well!
"I can't fail again"
You know this moment when you think you evolved but you surprise yourself watching those again after few years
Don't give up, you are worth more than you know.
People say that I’m not alone, and I’m pleased they are trying to comfort me. But it dosent matter if I’m not alone, I feel alone. I feel alone even when I know someone cares. And my brain just make me believe that no one loves me. But I also know that my father does, but my brain pushed that thought out of my body like it does when someone tells me I matter. It’s complicated and dumb because when I get a complement my brain doesn’t hold on to it, neither does my feelings. But when someone says that my ears are to small or that my face is ugly or that I look like I need to lose weight... it stays in my brain for weeks, sometimes months. And I don’t know how to stop it and I just want it to stoppp
Love this mainly because I’ve always loved this song
What is the song name... Plz can u tell me
I just wanna scream, but i cant ....
I just feel empty,, but after i watching this video,, i think, i'm not alone
For a while this girl i like would actually talk to me and smile and blush around me but now she acts like i dont exist now im sorta depressed
Jack richards maybe she’s being shy and if not then it’s her lost .
I addicted with videos like this but i also realize that videos like this make me more sad.
I have the same feeling. I feel I’m worthless and noThing
Everyday is always a worse day for me like waking up with headache, depressed, lonely 😔
I just need someone to talk to..
You can talk to me in my instagram i can help you
Instagram : zebdakhuloud
Hiiii
Me 2😢
Im hear snap:najanive3 im here
Hii
The song in the background is awesome
I'm literally in tears
I just want to sleep and never have to wake up and have to live another day. Im so tired.
People always have a sad story, I just hate myself and I can’t change it. I got a therapist, I tried talking to people, nothing works. It’s just how it’s meant to be
" Sometimes people do the wrong things for the right reasons", I relate to this..
i’m nothing
Yes you are, you're loved.
You are something
You are alot
@My Secret Account wth you're on every comment, plus, they dont help often or much at all
"My entire life, people have always told me that I was stupid and after a while, I started to believe them."
I used to act stupid in order to make my dysfunctional family laugh once in a while. They'd obviously say I was stupid, maybe, probably without thinking too much about it. But I believed them. My diary was full of insults I told myself. "Stupid" "Just die already" "You're worthless" "No one cares" "No one would miss me" 'I'm such an Idiot" ...
Out of all my siblings (I'm the youngest of fourth), I am the first to have gone to university and the first to have finished it. To this day, I still have a difficult time believing in my worth. A part of me still believes I am stupid, worth nothing. I know it's not true, but... I just can't help thinking it.
It's hard always pretending to be fine but it's harder when no one bothers to ask how your doing no one asks how I am how I'm doing if I'm okay and I'm not because everyday is something worse it gets worse and worse nothing good happens it's constant disappointment. Nothing good has happened to me sense the day I was born 13 years and nothing happens
Its just i can't stare at the mirror for even 1 second it makes me feel weak , I remember how vulnerable i am I wonder what i am going to do in the future ,I don't know what Im good at ,I am just soo exhausted from everyone telling that i will make it out ... But i fear i won't fast long
I just don’t want to live.
I don’t want anything anymore.
I have to pretend I’m not like
This..
For real happiness
But no matter what I do my sadness overcomes me.
Even if you gave me a puppy
I couldn’t feel as much happiness as I used too.
Am I even normal
Am I even suppose to be here?
See you again next time UA-cam.
I was in sixth grade and I was very suicidal because every day I was picked on because of my weight and what I did in school I had nobody I even lied to my friend that he prevented me from killing myself but honestly he didn't help out in fact no one did I cried when I got home I even said one of my friends wasn't my friend because I felt like I didn't deserve friends or have fun I did repress these nightmares but I remembered them and I still feel suicidal and even one of my friends is also suicidal and we acknowledge that fact and do whatever we can to keep are spirits up
you're the bravest and strongest if you can hold on till now, knowing that there is still a chance for you
It feels like everything is shattering like glass and the fragments are cutting my skin as I try and hold it all together
YOU USED DOTOR WHO TENTH DOCTOR REGENERATION MY HEART (im 99% sure that was doctor who regeneration)
It wasn’t the regeneration at that point, he was in the cafe talking to wilf, Donna’s grandad, then in the next episode after that he regenerated
I literally just came here to browse the comments to see if anybody noticed cause I never noticed until now cause I binge watch doctor who all the time and I’m onto the episode where he says this rn😂
@My Secret Account can be but you don't have to put that "advice" under avery single comment in the comment section
Time's are hard and life hurt's.
Guess what, it will ease up..
We are all on the journey of life.
You matter we matter .
The man is me when I try to tell someone no one understands me 😭
How is it that u give everyone everything of u but its still not good enough and your just not good enough for anybody. No one truly understands u until they get to know how it feels to be you!!💔😿
The more we try to understand each other, the more we will be exceptional, starting with ourselves foe understanding...
Everyone's someone, you aren't worthless, a failure and you'd be surprised at how I've felt every single emotion that's described, I've been there, I do know how it feels, I am scared about things to, I'm sorry if I made you feel worthless because you're not a failure, even if u hate me 4ever, I am very proud of what you've accomplished for yourself
Everything matters. Is all in your perception. Its what matters to you. Its your happiness
Those audios are so beautiful.....Am i the only one who isn’t sad?
I feel completely blessed that I'll be able to pass with a smile on my face. It's truly been a journey of highs and lows. More lows than highs but it's okie. I'm content in my eventual final choice.
this song is perfect
Daniel Macavei whats the song please
Leila Mella Angel by The Wings - SIA
I can't kill myself... cuz I love my parents...and they love me...
Even tho I was no good to 'em...
Even tho I've never made them proud of me....and now ima live just for these guys cuz I cant unsee their hardwork and love for me...even tho im treated like a trash by everyone else...#FuckTheBitchyWorld
#stillWithDepression
But imma become a fighter and a survivor...imma fight for my parents...
Peace to all.
this hit. Hard.
For everyone hurting there
It´s gonna get better. I promise. It will. Maybe it doesn´t seem like it, but it will get better. You are brave, you are beautiful, you are smart and an amazing person that deserves happiness and only happiness. Don´t give up. Love you
NASHVILLE😍😍
We are all just nothing...
The difference its that some of us know it, while the others are just clueless about it... So what if we are nothing... Just use your time however you want before it runs out... Me... I've no particular interests so... Im just waiting death...
“I’ve never been so scared in my life” when my father left
“You can’t hate me more than I hate myself” I understand this so well it’s sad
“You think I wanted this” you think i asked for all the hate in my life because I don’t
I just feel like I’m dying inside little by little
For those falling...don't give in just yet amigos,I'm with you.
Whoever is going through stuff or just feel something negative, I'm not gonna give you people sappy words because it won't fix anything, normally never dose.
But I will say that
Stop, look around, take deep breaths. Because the world waits for nobody to fix their problems. You have to fix them while moving.
Shit gets hard I know but, just push through, I won't tell you you'll live happy ever after but I will tell you, you're wasting your time hating on yourself and/or degrading yourself , you'll look back if you make it through and realise you fucked up.
Take my sister and mom for example.
My mom, when she was growing up she had negative thought about herself and when she kept looking back every once and a while she'd say "oh I was pretty" when she thought she wasn't.
My sister, is sadly following her footsteps but she's getting kinda better.
I'll be real with you, this might seem rude but life isn't so nice either hence why some people have depression, in this life it is hard to deal with many negative thoughts, and Im not gonna pretend I have depression or had a negative thought about myself.
Because I didn't, why?
I realised at a young age that, Life ain't fair, so you'll have to get by all these obstacles while the track is moving backwards.
Ps: I wish you all god speed at recovering.
I still feel alone when am with my family and friends😔
Same over here
@@francescapierre3843 ya it's sucks 😔
0:55 damn That hit me hard
I allways hide my dippressed fellings its very pain full 😊 but still a fake smile solves the problem
No one understands this is what I fell but when I think deeply then there is someone
i was fine for not even a month then here i am crying every single night because of my depression corrupting my mind once again.
this sounds like a sad movie trailer.
I keep pretending to be someone I'm not to hide the pain
I am dead inside.Soon I'll be dead for real.
Everyone has a purpose and a destiny.
00:37 - 1:17 literally me...
I am proud of YOU!
I’m on meds for depression and I forgot them and here I am. I probably deserve to feel like this anyway I shouldn’t take them i deserve this.
Everyday my case gets worse. I don’t know what’s happening to me. This video is so touching ( at least to me) I’m passing through a phase where I cry everyday for no reason and it’s getting worse and worse💔
What show or movie is the "dont you see i dont get any kind of happy ever after" part from?
I’m scared 😔 I don’t wanna be here. My parents just don’t understand I hate it here 💔😔💔
After coming here .....i realized...more the population is increasing,more the people are getting alone😩and we cant help it
I really am nothing. I have nothing to live for. At this point, I know I have to spread positivity because my friends are surrounded by negativity. I’ve hidden my bigger emotions for so long, that it’s hard to even talk about anymore. I can’t even tell what I’m feeling. My parents tell me they are proud of me. I know they are lying. My grades have dropped. They have no reason to be proud of me. I can barely keep up with my school work, hygiene, or my social life. If I were to disappear only a few people would care. But at the max of two days, they wouldn’t care and finally realize I was worthless. Last year I was told i helped my friends. That I helped them talk about their emotions. Why can’t I do that any more? Why can’t I have a purpose? Why do I feel as if the only way to feel better is to harm? Why can’t I find the motivation to do my school work? Why can’t I pay attention in class? Why do I have to be this annoying? Why do I have to be me?
I am a 13 year old who feels worthless i am invisible i am not here for anyone everything i do is a mistake everytime i do something which i think is funny I get death glares i am the school joke of the whole school district i am worthless, lonely, and a mistake i was not built for this world i am nothing and i always will be nothing for the rest of my life
i've been called stupid my entire life. and i do believe them. it sucks that i do. but i do.
My friend told me to change but I physically can’t change I try and try but get nowhere she has left me multiple times but somehow I manage to get her back, we have had countless fights over nothing. I’m depressed physically and emotionally I try to tell her and my other friend but they never believe me and that’s what hurts the most, I’ve been depressed my whole life I am currently 12 almost 13 but no matter how hard I try to run away from the darkness anxiety and depression they always come back sometimes I feel that the pain, darkness, anxiety and depression is my friend. I’m depressed because I’m my family we have had so many deaths it’s ridiculous and my father he hurt his back bad I mean it’s bad he had to go in for surgery countless times for screws and plates in his back he is soon going to be paralyzed from the waist down. My mom almost died in a car accident couple years back but I can’t tell them I’m depressed because just like all the others they will never believe me. I also have been bullied half of my life and I feel like I still am being bullied by my friends, I don’t deserve to live I don’t even deserve friends I shouldn’t have even been born my I entire existence on this so called earth is a mistake. Anywhere I go no matter how far I am, I always feel depressed there’s no hope for me left in this world every day I go to school or out with my parents I have to put on masks and change my entire personality just to make them think that there’s nothing wrong with me I have tried to kill myself so many times but I’m still here and I’m SCARED of LIVING to me death seems like nothing nobody will remember me nobody will ever care about me I’m just useless, never good enough, always screw things up, always get yelled at, but that will change if I just block the world out I’m better off by myself in the world, and to whomever is reading this I appreciate you people for realizing the pain I’m going through but I hope you all find your happy ending goodbye...
Londyn Pellerin I know how you feel and I get it my friends left me so many times because they say I’m being too depressing but please whatever you do don’t end your life because then your letting the depression win and your friends that’s bullying you win please keep fighting and if you need a friend I’m here my instagram aprillloyd9255 and my Snapchat is alloyd642
Londyn Pellerin and I care and I may not know you but I’ll miss you because I’ll keep wondering if only I had seen your comment ... because trust me you ending your life is not going to make it better your going to miss out of life on your sixteen birthday of everything.
This shit made me cry bro
April Lloyd thank you for taking your time to read my comment I left behind I really took advice on what you said...and you have helped me through so much by what your comment said. My friends they left me behind because they think it’s fake...that I just want attention but the truth is I want someone to notice me and accept me for who I am. Thank you so much I hope I will see you again sometime, you really changed how I see things today. I will still always feel this way but thank you...
Ninja Gamer the comment or the audio (probably the audio) but thank you also for coming across my comment and taking the time to read it. I still feel unwanted but that’s okay some day someone will notice me like you have noticed me I really appreciate you commenting on my comment it means the world to me that 2 other people comment on my comment thank you so much, I also hope to see you around sometime
god do i know this feeling
this is me everyday
No body knows what "nothing" looks like when they meet me. I am that nothing people talk about so im jus that walking waste of skin.