Diagnosed...✅.. They has to deal with me.. whatever😬☺️. People either like you.. or like you NOT..thats what I/We has to deal with..🥴.. Thank you for nice vid❣️👏🏼
fish kwok my doctor said that if it makes you too anxious and like your heart is gonna get out your chest, you probably need to treat anxiety first and it’s not for you..that was my case. Adhd and anxiety
You describe it so perfectly! I always have a hard time finding the words to share what the experience is like. I always have to find videos then save those videos just so I can explain it to my friends and family. It's so stressful having ADHD and it doesn't help that I'm a girl because no one expects it from a girl.
The worst thing is that you are SO painfully aware of the fact that you could do more, could do better. You KNOW that you’re capable but you can’t seem to get there
@@natalydaniela8641 it’s something else, I am very motivated but feel like some things are just bareeely out of reach and that reaching out just that little distance to get what you want is excruciating and depleting. In my case anyways.
Wow, that's it, I've been diagnosed a week ago, after procrastinating the visit to the psychiatric clinic for 2 months. And I just feel like I could be doing more if I just got up and started it. But I simply cannot start it, and this is eating me alive. I had this hope that confirming would somehow make things better and maybe easier, but they are not, and telling my psychologist that I haven't accomplished anything every week makes me feel awful, and explaining why some of those things weren't accomplished makes me feel so ashamed and I'm not sure if it's a problem of compatibility with the psychologist or the rejection sensibility
@@nigelkelly2286 this comment made laugh 😂😂😂. I understand exactly what you're saying! ADHD is a paradox... no real way to solve it. All we can do is try our best to implement strategies in order to combat it 😅
When it takes till 43 to find out, you are just a very tactical expert in evading all effort and potential change or disruption, once you have had about 40 jobs no sense in looking for another one. Not until getting diagnosis and treatment anyway
as a 32 year old, you will slowly start to learn the first layer of activity and enthusiasm that is commonly felt when you are about to mess things up. in learning this hard lesson over and over again you will start to doubt everything and especially yourself and your abilities. I'm in that stage now of not enjoying anything that i used to because "it must be these damned games, subject, activity that prevents me from finally..." yet it's all pointless. you will mess things up continually and it will never end. if your like me you will become addicted to anything that gives you even the slightest hit of joy (in my case drugs) and realise every few years that you need to quit for good this time as it's ruining everything again. If you're like me you will try to find a low end job where they will just barely accept your flaws because you will do what is asked of you to the point of detriment just so you don't have to try and find a "real job". You may have luck with love and you may not, but if you're partner is normal they will always be aggravated with something you've done or more often than that something you haven't. ADHD looks like a slight impairment when your 20, an insidious one when your 30, and by your 40's or 50's? I'm terrified to find out. we operate in the dark, our buffers only a third of a normal persons if we are lucky, desperately scrying for a piece of guidance that if we just do these 17 simple steps we can finally accomplish... but alas we just couldn't remember to not forget.
This is literally me down to a science, it's hard for me to accept it. But everything you've described is how I feel on a day to day basis. Which has led to chronic depression. I'm now I'm my late 20s with no kids or wife. I just feel lost. Somedays I still wonder if it'd be better if I wasn't here because society doesn't accept or understand that I function differently. I hope one day I find happiness in things asides from the dopamines of video games or other hobbies I'm passionate about. Scared ill never make it as functioning normal human being in society. I doubt anyone will read this. But thank you for making this video gives me comfort to know I'm not the only person who deals with this everyday.
Randomly stumbled upon this video today. I can relate. I recently read in a book that not only does thinking shape behavior, but behavior shapes thinking. Changing habits has helped me a lot - less video games, less social media, less isolation; exercise, reading (without my phone or desktop nearby), and more relationships. Of course, I do relapse sometimes. But typically when I follow those basic new habits, I can see a drastic change in my mood and mind! Hope this helps
Same I also love video games lol I think it’s just best we honestly just do the best that we can and follow our hearts . Society probably will never understand what we deal with or experience day to day
brother, who cares if people accept you or not, youre alive, youre probably smart as fuck, dig your own way, you dont have to follow their road, there are unlimited roads in this life thatll take you where you want to be, so chose the one that fits, and there isnt one yet, MAKE A ROAD. dont expect anything, dont wait for people to read you or accept you, do it urself, accept urself, and if people cant read you, then speak out loud so they can listen to you
I loved that the video got blurry while he was at work. It's like when your eyes glaze over and you're not really focusing on anything. It's just not stimulating enough. Instead, your mind is on a million other things but your autopilot (which is so heavily trained because it's almost always engaged) is just running through your life. You only sort of see it. Just like it's as if the lens was blurred. But then some background noises disrupt your daydreaming, like the car horns, and you snap back to reality to focus on the first thing in front of you. He focused on his female coworker and seamlessly transitioned to a new train of thought. It made him think about having a family and if he'd be good at it. The camera then snaps back to a close up on him and goes slightly blurry as he considers it... No longer looking at the coworker. It was perfect. An accurate depiction of life in my head. Seamlessly, the thoughts flow like a river one into the other. Occasionally, I notice reality around me and engage with it, but often that immediately starts a new river of thoughts. My autopilot all the while leading around my everyday life. It drives me to work, holds conversations, performs tasks. Occasionally, it calls on me to be creative or deal with something unfamiliar, but mostly I'm just away in my mind thinking about more interesting things. Not by choice; I'm a prisoner. I'd love to turn off autopilot and do what I know how to do myself, but I don't really get that choice, do I?
@@holliisixx Am I doing something for the first time? If yes, this doesn't usually happen (depends on recent sleep levels, etc). If no, then it's usually this. It can be very difficult living with this every day; it seriously impairs my ability to function the way I know I can. The one respite from this state is video games. I tell people I play them to de-stress after a long day. However, the truth (which can be hard for them to understand, and thus the fib) is kind of more the opposite. I play them so that I can use my head properly. I can think and make decisions more clearly with them. It's like a fun break from some of the more impairing symptoms of my disability. Plus you can learn a lot from them. (but I'm going to stop here or I'll end up ranting about how weird it is that something that is essentially television with more interactivity is more stigmatized by society than television)
@@danreyn so novelty and high-intensity high-speed decision making (i.e. action-y video games; sorry i don't know examples im not really a gamer) force you to live in the moment enough to focus? From your experience what are the worst activities for a person with ADD or ADHD?
@@danreyn I feel this. I need the games to free my mind. To use my mind fully, to feel something in the present moment or to stay present in the moment. Im 38 and am still gaming. I just read your comment and just wanted to say I get it.
That part where the calendar went from September to January.. omg It's Feb 24th on mine, and I'm writing this on Aug 3rd. I live in a small town in Poland, currently battling for even the possibility to get assessed.
Watching the part about him leaving and having to go back inside because he’d forgotten something I was like “oh my god that’s me every single fucking time”
I just got diagnosed. This is what it feels like. And this painful struggle in trying to do better, but never achieving the goals I set for myself. It's soul-crushing.
The calendar going from September/October to January is such an underrated moment. Excellent voicing too, especially that first line. Hopefully about to be diagnosed. This is my life. Love to all the community - we’re in this together and we’ve all got a superpower💚
I honestly didn’t even notice that the first time. But you’re absolutely right right now it’s June 2022 and the last month that I can remember is February. It’s insane how fast everything moves. I feel like I can’t keep up. But when I’m doing things people tell me I’m too fast. Idk anymore
I can relate to these issues. They tested me for ADD when I was 15, before that I had never thought about me having ADD. I just thought I was stupid. I had cognitive therapy for a year combined with medication. Now, 3 years later, I'm working for a startup and I've finished my first year on a university. I'm learning to deal with the side-effects of medication and ADD in general better every day, it's a struggle but it's the only thing I can do. On the flip side, having ADD has some great advantages for some, like creativity, insight, and analytical thinking.
@@__g.l.u___7756 I went to the family doctor who sent me to a psychologist. There they took tests and I had some conversations with psychologists. Sometimes it's hard to determine the side effects of medication. Depends on dosage and consistency and a lot of other factors. In my experience the rebound is bad, because you just feel sad and tired. Another side effect is overworking yourself because although your mind and body are tired, you often don't feel it. But for me the pros weigh out the cons.
that little car horn segment that causes the break in focus, I felt that. I immediately lose train of thought anytime I have the tiniest break of focus and have to re-establish myself like i'm starting all over again.
The accuracy is real! Going back to house because I forgot something. The jaw clenching...motivation for bigger tasks is my biggest battle. I beat myself up everyday over it.
Seeing this makes me realize my symptoms are far more severe. At almost 30 years old I'm going in for a diagnosis and treatment. I was told from a young age that I process things differently because I have a higher IQ. While there may be truth in this, it does not explain behavioral problems that I suffer with. Procrastination (often times with simple tasks that require very little), inability to sleep, higher emotional response to scenarios on average, doom piles, and the list goes on. Not only do these things get in the way of finding success in my pursuits but they also make relationships difficult. To some I seem flaky and unreliable. To others I seem inattentive. I also find myself hyper fixated on tasks that have minimal benefit. I hope that I can find a treatment that restores balance to the fold.
Acceptance is the key. Accept the neurotic symptoms of ADHD and they will go from being apart from you, to a part of you. The things that cause you trouble now, will become that which propels you in the future. Inconsistency becomes flexibility. Procrastination becomes creativity. Immaturity becomes soulfulness. To any young person reading this, I am 35. ADHD hurt me a lot when I was younger but through continued acceptance, I have come to see it as a gift. I am now a husband, father. I have a career. You WILL have these things too.
Yes! I was fortunate enough to be diagnosed young, so while elementary school was torture, I managed to learn my needs and capabilities. ADHD became less of a problem and more, well, me. I've been on the honor roll multiple years in a row, and I am taking advanced math. My ADHD really helped with that because I knew I had to take extensive notes and do homework right away.
This is the video that convinced me to seek out a diagnosis in my late twenties. I still can’t watch it without almost choking up at the part about whispering in bed at night. That’s the point when it hit me like a ton of bricks: this is me. I felt like someone had read my mind. It was immensely comforting, as if someone was giving me a hug and saying, it’s okay. You’re not alone, and you’re not a failure.
I'm 61, just got diagnosed, so bitter sweet, finally, I can stop beating myself up, I now understand, I can try and release all the shame. If only I'd known about it, what could my life had been? So many feelings, anger, relief, sadness, loss.
I wish there was a video like this but a non-ADHD person instead. This video is scarily accurate. I just don't know what it's like on the other side of life.
Important to note, none of it is a choice. That's something neurotypical people seem to never understand. It's a disability, a neurodevelopmental disorder, meaning it's something we cannot, ever, control. We can take medication, which helps alot for alot of us, but it doesn't take away the disability. It makes it somewhat easier in some ways to live in a society that isn't built to include us.
The many times of saying “why do I do this to myself” and “when am I going to learn” as well as go back in my house to get something I left is unfathomable. 😖
My daily life expressed through a video. Literally. My daily life is just like this, and the worst thing is that I actually realize that what I have to do isn't really that complex nor hard. but I hardly manage to do it on time. I felt this has gotten worse over time, and most of the time I just tell myself, someday I'll get all this stuff done on time without getting distracted by other things.
Last Saturday i was going to run errands at the supermarket. I went out to wait for the bus, at the station I realized I forgot my Transportation Card, went back home to get it, walked around for a while, completely forgot about it, went out again. Halfway, realized again I forgot my Card, went back again to get it, walked around the house and almost completely forgot about the Card. I missed 3 buses that morning. ADHD is hard 😢. Good luck to us. I don't wish it on anyone.
The worst part of add and ADHD is getting in a relationships with people who will never understand and makes you feel bad about the one thing you hate most about yourself.
This video summed up my thoughts on what I've been experiencing my entire life. When I turned 14 I was diagnosed with ADHD, although it should have been far earlier because the signs were very much present in my years through elementary and middle school. I am now 17 and am absolutely terrified of becoming an adult because the responsibility seems all too much too bear. It is just like this video has stated, I've always known what I need to do, but something deep inside of me prevents me from wanting to pursue it. I have the ambition, I have the knowledge, and I know I can do incredible things if I ever put in present effort. All my life I've just been wondering why I will not do any of the things I wanted to pursue when the time to pursue them comes. It's like when I schedule a plan to do something in the future. IOt sounds so easy. I'll do my project, or I'll make another video, or I'll go in for the new job interview.. But when the future becomes the present it's almost like a switch in my head that just destroys my drive. I really did assume this was normal. I keep saying it will get better and.. it just doesn't. I've been meaning to clean my room for a week and a half now but instead I will say I'll clean it tomorrow and when tomorrow comes I'll opt out for a quick rush of dopamine
1:42 The condition of that bed is a perfect metaphor for my life. I have a perpetual pile of junk that I shift from the chair to the bed, depending on which one I want to occupy. My whole life I thought I was normal and everyone else was crazy because of the things that they want to get done like raising a family or holding down a career, or even maintaining a romantic relationship. Now that I'm learning that there's always been something wrong with ME and everyone else is normal I don't know what to do. It talk incessantly about things and causes that I think everyone on the planet should be behind but that's only a symptom of my condition. Now that I know that I don't know what to value anymore. If it's only important to me, is it actually important at all??? I felt better when I thought I was normal and I was looking down from my mountaintop on all the others running the rat race. Now I want nothing more than to be in that race with the other rats!
@@Juan-dm6ps Jesus, I've done that for the past 15 years. I have no friends even though there's plenty of people who want to be friendly with me and hang out but I just never feel like it. In my mind taking time with other people takes time away from what I want to do. Add to that the fact that I almost never enjoy a single conversation I have. I just can't wait for them to shut up so I can start talking. It's like I'm always at cross purposes when it comes to a conversation. I constantly try to derail what someone else is talking about so we can swing the subject to what I want to talk about. I don't want to hear anything anyone else says but I expect them to wait with baited breath, hanging on to my every word. Like what I have to talk about is any more important than listening to Bobby tell me about the stew he cooked last night lol. It's just that there's a constant undercurrent of aggravation when I have to listen to someone else talk. I feel like I have no common ground with anyone.
I came across this channel in my attempt to learn more about concerta. While our experience with the med has not been the same, this video right here is the closest to explaining what I experience. I'm not even able to explain this myself and I will be using this video if ever I feel the need to divulge my struggles with anyone.
I got diagnosed with ADHD 23 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting ADHD. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma
Yes he's Dr.benfungi.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
Never felt more understood or related to anything else like with this video. Pretty much describing exactly my life, how i feel and how i think, fucking crazy.
OMG - when my kids were teenagers and I was leaving the house, I'd say "bye! . . . .Hey, aren't yall gonna say bye to me? I'm leaving for the day." They would answer, we'll tell you when you come back in to get what you forgot. You'll be back at least once." . . . and for years I've stayed up until I'm ready to pass out, then I'll go lay down and maybe, maybe go to sleep. I can so relate.
I’m a energy projector in Human design and a lot of the characteristics of that is the same of adhd. I’m not diagnosed professionally but I do feel like in my heart that I have it.
As a 19 year old with ADHD I can relate to this big time. However we know our struggles, that’s amazing. Now we can work on them, just because we have these characteristic doesn’t mean it’s our faith. It’s not like other people have loads of motivation or willpower. You’ll have to face your demons and fight them, as this is your life and your only one. How much energy it may take, fight for the life that you want. Don’t wish you’d be different, embrace it, I love that I have these weaknesses and I can fight them. I love it when I get the things done and do things consistently. You might have setbacks, but everyone has that, we owe it to ourselves to make a great life. You can do the things you’re thinking about or postponing, thinking isn’t going to bring you there, actions will. Do it!
This video makes me feel so called out lol. My thought was 'I wish I knew what it was like to be normal'.... also 'what's it like to wake up not tired'.
Another thing I’ve noticed is even when I do get through a day of school/work I’m so drained that I can’t do anything else. Even the things I enjoy because just getting through that day took everything out of me.
LOOOOL OMG, the phone scene at the workplace … it obviously only happens to us… how comes I’m so good at doing my job and the one moment I want to check something on the phone, the manager walks in and thinks I’m always on that … omg I can relate so badly
Oh man totally every single step of the day- night. People said that they feel better knowing about their ADHD, I was much happier thinking that my issues were caused by my zodiacal sign chart 😂 or because my mum called me Alice and my realm belonged to the 'wonderland'. But I grew a lot over time working on my improvement... now I am feeling ADHD is my identity, and medication have a time duration. But one thing I am glad of is having a community of ADHD fellows that know know fucking hard is and make me feel less lonely in this battle. Keep strong everyone :) Love your video man very real!
"I wish I could just switch off". I thought this to myself many, many times, probably a decade before my diagnosis or even considering that it was on the table.
ive been diagnosed with add/adhd since the age of 7... im 35 in july of 2022, its nowhere near as bad now as when i was younger and i can manage shit alot better, the most annoying thing about it is people asking me to do funny shit or play up like its a performance. the annoying thing and probably most discusting thing is that i work with a few people now that like to BRAG about the fact they have add/adhd like its a cool thing . it makes me so angry. this video is a really good depictation of what shit building up etc looks like i guess no ones really gonna know cause everyones different. what im trying to say i guess my dude is thankyou for the vid and keep strong anyone first or still dealing with this shit
Omg this video is me often. I often have insomnia often run through conversations and possible scenarios in my head unable to quiet my mind. Finding a criticism or the tiniest of details I may have overlooked. I realise that often my concentration level for work often doesn't kick in until around 3.30pm when I finally have the ability to gather my thoughts and apply myself to get things done (this is the thing I struggle with most) - I've often thought this was because I had something wrong with my sugar levels like low grade diabetes or a sleep disorder. And the bit about often being in a bubble at work as I just need to concentrate on staying focused. It's a bit better now I'm in a quieter office. But I need to get up from my desk often and I need lots of breaks to chat or go online and look things up. My organisation skills aren't so bad (I think!) but I often feel overwhelmed. I'm so much at ease with things I've done before starting new things is very difficult. I feel like I'm going round I circles like a Swan paddling but never getting anywhere! Everything is so much easier if it's to do with something that really interests me- I am interested in many things which helps! I have a degree in a subject I found very interesting but got a lower grade because I handed my dissertation days late after staying up all night and after having completely lost all the data graphs I had produced for it which I then had to stay up all night and re-do. As a student I was always perplexed why everything took me so much longer than others even just taking notes. I often found questions really easy that others found difficult and vise-versa. Other students would comment their surprise but I didn't get it! Ive always had a bad reputation for being late-especially in the mornings. So I'm recently suspecting that I may have it (at the age I'd 43!) but possibly at a milder level I have no idea if I should actually do anything about it yet maybe I just need to find strategies to manage it but having a diagnosis may actually make life easier. Maybe I should just worry and procrastinate on it for a while!! At what point is it personality rather than a disorder, at what point do you need to seek a medical diagnosis and at what point do you try to mange it yourself?
What I saw here is to 1000% a biopic of me and my struggle with AD(H)D. It really helps to see that I'm not the only one who is like that. And yes, I'm writing this during my work.
My whole life! Not diagnosed until I was 44 because I was never externally “hyper” enough like my brother to make anyone suspect I, too, might have ADHD, so instead I was treated for anxiety and depression since high school…helped some things but definitely my entire life remained highly problematic. I just thought I was fundamentally broken.
Shit dude, the part about supporting a family especially hit home. I was always terrified of being a father, because what if one day I wake up and just, can't do it anymore? Even things you love feel ephemeral, and I've learned to let it come and go without resentment, but I couldn't do that.
After a dozen years of believing there was something wrong with me. I thought I had depression and anxiety. A new therapist thought I mind be ADD. I thought it was a kid thing. I thought it was hyperactivity and frenetic energy! But now that I am being treated and learning about it I cannot believe how much I am all these things. All the strategies and stress and worry was the ADD symptoms. I thought everyone was like this. I would work so hard to manage and cope that I would burn out and sink into deep depressions. I am actually feeling hopeful for once and my new medication has made me feel like someone turned on a "normal" switch in my head.
I actually have a lot of mental control so I CAN do things that I really don't want to do. it just really hurts because my brain keeps trying to get out. I can also shut off my thoughts but making them go nowhere and they just turn into some kind of buzz. But I can only do that when I'm actually tired and it still takes a long time to fall asleep. I definitely won't work in an office or anything where I need to have a consistent amount of energy to do things.
I was diagnosed with ADHD right before the pandemic, and I was only properly medicated a few months ago. The diagnosis was an answer to a question I didn't know I was meant to have- I thought everyone was like me, I was just worse at existing, at doing what I knew I needed to do but that I didn't know how to and every answer was insufficient. The medication helped, but it made my insomnia worse, so every time I sit down to do something - whether my meds haven't kicked in yet, or they've run out, or even if they're 'working' but they *aren't.* It's a lifelong thing. I can't get rid of it. Most of the people I know don't have it, and my sister, who does, presents as more hyperactive rather than a combination of both- no one is the same. And I think that's hard. I can't look to someone and go "oh, you're exactly like me, how do you do this" because no one is exactly like me and knows how to make me do things. I sit here, tired, and I haven't done shit today. I feel like I should write a 'but' here, but (haha) there isn't one for me. Thats the end. I haven't found something that works for me, and I don't know whether this is as good as I can get. this is the end of my ability to make sense in words today. theres so much more, but i cant describe it. if you read this, thanks. have a hug
For me the worst part is being so forgetful. Even for Adhd im below average. Sadly the meds dont improve my memory and now that im taking them i seem to be even more aware of that. Its driving me crazy
Oh my goodness! I've never heard my life experience described so eloquently by another person! Beautiful film, and I really feel that how you describe it is spot on 💯
the one-man conversation, that is the cause of this! for real! I thought I was just really weird. seriously! I'm not diagnosed. I was told to make an appointment after venting about my distractions having distractions. the only time I can stay on task is in Minecraft cause I have an in-depth system based off of what I know of the scrum organization system that was mentioned in silicon valley
i have had the exact experience's you describe in your video which was extremely well worded and formulated and been struggling with it for 18 years I first realized I might have signs of ADHD a few months back and have realized how much it has affected my life I haven't been diagnosed yet but I'm planning to go see a doctor about it
This sounds like me when I was in college. I knew I needed more time to complete things when I would get easily distracted by my phone and computer. When all your assignments needed to be completed on the computer. I stay at library really late and be drinking a lot of caffeine and extremely cold. I always be so exhausted.
One thing I've found to help clear my mind is something called "Deep Brown Noise." It's super relaxing and just feels like it turns something on in my brain that makes my ADHD less insufferable. Highly recommend.
@@rosykindbunny1313 Gladly! If you search on here "Deep Brown Noise 12 hours" you'll find a video with the thumbnail being 3 shades of brown. The noise itself is reminiscent to time of peace and quiet: such as a quiet drive home when everyone's tired from whatever fun was had, or it's like when you're on an airplane and feel the relaxing hum as you fly. It's like a static noise that rewires your brain to just... be relaxed and clear. The best thing I've found to do is playing it full volume on my phone with my fan also on in the background. Literally makes me feeling like I'm floating on a cloud.
Great video. This is very relatable for me. I was officially diagnosed last week, at the age of 40. I thought a life like this was normal. Now that I have tried meds, I see how diff it is. I am also 1.5 years out of a failed marriage and see how the ADHD contributed to that. Not the main issue, but didn't help. Thanks for making this
4-6 hrs of sleep big cup of coffee and a job that leaves me with my own way to accomplish goals lets me get things done. adhd means you need to experiment and use your mind, feed it and let it grow.
I actually feel like things are into reach but there’s like a small wall stopping me from doing it! I have the motivation too but just when it comes to actually doing it I get stuck
This is literally my life to a T. As the days go on I become more and more aware of when it kicks on but feel helpless in combating it. 27 years of this bs. Lately I've been trying to focus on being myself and accepting it. Hard to do knowing that will end alot of my goals but what other options are there? Learning to be happy with less and content with my imperfection seems like the happier life to lead. I will still bust my butt to get what I want but I won't be mad if I never make it as far as I know I should have without adhd.
finally going through process of geri f diagnosed and finding out no doctors on my insurance plan are taking new patients they no longer take my insurance.... it will take me another 6 months to call my insurance to see where i go from here.
"I thought this was normal" - If I had a penny for every time I received this comment I'd be rich 😂 NO IT'S NOT!
Diagnosed...✅.. They has to deal with me.. whatever😬☺️. People either like you.. or like you NOT..thats what I/We has to deal with..🥴.. Thank you for nice vid❣️👏🏼
agree.i am keep taking the pills which will make me have a heart attack and i am typing my sad live at 4 am. kill me
fish kwok ooh🥺...maybe downsize your dose?😬..or take it early in morning.. hope you find your way👋🏼😊🤝👌🏼
fish kwok my doctor said that if it makes you too anxious and like your heart is gonna get out your chest, you probably need to treat anxiety first and it’s not for you..that was my case. Adhd and anxiety
You describe it so perfectly! I always have a hard time finding the words to share what the experience is like. I always have to find videos then save those videos just so I can explain it to my friends and family. It's so stressful having ADHD and it doesn't help that I'm a girl because no one expects it from a girl.
The worst thing is that you are SO painfully aware of the fact that you could do more, could do better. You KNOW that you’re capable but you can’t seem to get there
you spoke my heart out
it hurts me alot knowing i could do so much more
Exactly
Just lacking that motivation
@@natalydaniela8641 it’s something else, I am very motivated but feel like some things are just bareeely out of reach and that reaching out just that little distance to get what you want is excruciating and depleting. In my case anyways.
Wow, that's it, I've been diagnosed a week ago, after procrastinating the visit to the psychiatric clinic for 2 months. And I just feel like I could be doing more if I just got up and started it. But I simply cannot start it, and this is eating me alive. I had this hope that confirming would somehow make things better and maybe easier, but they are not, and telling my psychologist that I haven't accomplished anything every week makes me feel awful, and explaining why some of those things weren't accomplished makes me feel so ashamed and I'm not sure if it's a problem of compatibility with the psychologist or the rejection sensibility
As a 23 year old with ADHD, the amount of times I have asked myself: “when am I going to learn” is far too many to count
@@nigelkelly2286 this comment made laugh 😂😂😂. I understand exactly what you're saying! ADHD is a paradox... no real way to solve it. All we can do is try our best to implement strategies in order to combat it 😅
When it takes till 43 to find out, you are just a very tactical expert in evading all effort and potential change or disruption, once you have had about 40 jobs no sense in looking for another one.
Not until getting diagnosis and treatment anyway
Also popular,"Why am I like this??"
@@levityoflonging22 mine is "you are a fucking idiot" to myself
as a 32 year old, you will slowly start to learn the first layer of activity and enthusiasm that is commonly felt when you are about to mess things up. in learning this hard lesson over and over again you will start to doubt everything and especially yourself and your abilities. I'm in that stage now of not enjoying anything that i used to because "it must be these damned games, subject, activity that prevents me from finally..." yet it's all pointless. you will mess things up continually and it will never end. if your like me you will become addicted to anything that gives you even the slightest hit of joy (in my case drugs) and realise every few years that you need to quit for good this time as it's ruining everything again. If you're like me you will try to find a low end job where they will just barely accept your flaws because you will do what is asked of you to the point of detriment just so you don't have to try and find a "real job". You may have luck with love and you may not, but if you're partner is normal they will always be aggravated with something you've done or more often than that something you haven't. ADHD looks like a slight impairment when your 20, an insidious one when your 30, and by your 40's or 50's? I'm terrified to find out. we operate in the dark, our buffers only a third of a normal persons if we are lucky, desperately scrying for a piece of guidance that if we just do these 17 simple steps we can finally accomplish... but alas we just couldn't remember to not forget.
This is literally me down to a science, it's hard for me to accept it. But everything you've described is how I feel on a day to day basis. Which has led to chronic depression. I'm now I'm my late 20s with no kids or wife. I just feel lost. Somedays I still wonder if it'd be better if I wasn't here because society doesn't accept or understand that I function differently. I hope one day I find happiness in things asides from the dopamines of video games or other hobbies I'm passionate about. Scared ill never make it as functioning normal human being in society. I doubt anyone will read this. But thank you for making this video gives me comfort to know I'm not the only person who deals with this everyday.
Randomly stumbled upon this video today. I can relate. I recently read in a book that not only does thinking shape behavior, but behavior shapes thinking. Changing habits has helped me a lot - less video games, less social media, less isolation; exercise, reading (without my phone or desktop nearby), and more relationships. Of course, I do relapse sometimes. But typically when I follow those basic new habits, I can see a drastic change in my mood and mind! Hope this helps
I feel you
i do read you
you are not alone. a lot of us are in this mindset. it can be hell. much love to you.
Same I also love video games lol I think it’s just best we honestly just do the best that we can and follow our hearts . Society probably will never understand what we deal with or experience day to day
brother, who cares if people accept you or not, youre alive, youre probably smart as fuck, dig your own way, you dont have to follow their road, there are unlimited roads in this life thatll take you where you want to be, so chose the one that fits, and there isnt one yet, MAKE A ROAD. dont expect anything, dont wait for people to read you or accept you, do it urself, accept urself, and if people cant read you, then speak out loud so they can listen to you
"I'd like to keep to myself to preserve my mental energy" I felt that
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I loved that the video got blurry while he was at work. It's like when your eyes glaze over and you're not really focusing on anything. It's just not stimulating enough. Instead, your mind is on a million other things but your autopilot (which is so heavily trained because it's almost always engaged) is just running through your life. You only sort of see it. Just like it's as if the lens was blurred. But then some background noises disrupt your daydreaming, like the car horns, and you snap back to reality to focus on the first thing in front of you. He focused on his female coworker and seamlessly transitioned to a new train of thought. It made him think about having a family and if he'd be good at it. The camera then snaps back to a close up on him and goes slightly blurry as he considers it... No longer looking at the coworker. It was perfect. An accurate depiction of life in my head. Seamlessly, the thoughts flow like a river one into the other. Occasionally, I notice reality around me and engage with it, but often that immediately starts a new river of thoughts. My autopilot all the while leading around my everyday life. It drives me to work, holds conversations, performs tasks. Occasionally, it calls on me to be creative or deal with something unfamiliar, but mostly I'm just away in my mind thinking about more interesting things. Not by choice; I'm a prisoner. I'd love to turn off autopilot and do what I know how to do myself, but I don't really get that choice, do I?
This comment feels like something written by my alter ego, lol.
Maybe daily life is just too boring to pay attention to most of the time? Or does the mind do this wherever u go and no matter what u do w/ur life?
@@holliisixx Am I doing something for the first time? If yes, this doesn't usually happen (depends on recent sleep levels, etc). If no, then it's usually this. It can be very difficult living with this every day; it seriously impairs my ability to function the way I know I can. The one respite from this state is video games. I tell people I play them to de-stress after a long day. However, the truth (which can be hard for them to understand, and thus the fib) is kind of more the opposite. I play them so that I can use my head properly. I can think and make decisions more clearly with them. It's like a fun break from some of the more impairing symptoms of my disability. Plus you can learn a lot from them. (but I'm going to stop here or I'll end up ranting about how weird it is that something that is essentially television with more interactivity is more stigmatized by society than television)
@@danreyn so novelty and high-intensity high-speed decision making (i.e. action-y video games; sorry i don't know examples im not really a gamer) force you to live in the moment enough to focus? From your experience what are the worst activities for a person with ADD or ADHD?
@@danreyn I feel this. I need the games to free my mind. To use my mind fully, to feel something in the present moment or to stay present in the moment. Im 38 and am still gaming. I just read your comment and just wanted to say I get it.
That part where the calendar went from September to January.. omg
It's Feb 24th on mine, and I'm writing this on Aug 3rd.
I live in a small town in Poland, currently battling for even the possibility to get assessed.
Bloody brilliant mate, you captured ADHD so well. I'd love to see more of these!
He really freaking nailed it!
Hi I want to do one also as being diagnosed and in psychology major also.
Watching the part about him leaving and having to go back inside because he’d forgotten something I was like “oh my god that’s me every single fucking time”
Wow he really did
He did an amazing job👏👏 All of it was so spot on that it hurt!😂
I just got diagnosed. This is what it feels like.
And this painful struggle in trying to do better, but never achieving the goals I set for myself. It's soul-crushing.
The calendar going from September/October to January is such an underrated moment. Excellent voicing too, especially that first line. Hopefully about to be diagnosed. This is my life. Love to all the community - we’re in this together and we’ve all got a superpower💚
That detail was so unexpected it's really hilarious
It's so true 😭
I honestly didn’t even notice that the first time. But you’re absolutely right right now it’s June 2022 and the last month that I can remember is February. It’s insane how fast everything moves. I feel like I can’t keep up. But when I’m doing things people tell me I’m too fast. Idk anymore
I can relate to these issues. They tested me for ADD when I was 15, before that I had never thought about me having ADD. I just thought I was stupid. I had cognitive therapy for a year combined with medication. Now, 3 years later, I'm working for a startup and I've finished my first year on a university. I'm learning to deal with the side-effects of medication and ADD in general better every day, it's a struggle but it's the only thing I can do. On the flip side, having ADD has some great advantages for some, like creativity, insight, and analytical thinking.
How did you get diagnose ? and what’s the side effects of it
@@__g.l.u___7756 I went to the family doctor who sent me to a psychologist. There they took tests and I had some conversations with psychologists. Sometimes it's hard to determine the side effects of medication. Depends on dosage and consistency and a lot of other factors. In my experience the rebound is bad, because you just feel sad and tired. Another side effect is overworking yourself because although your mind and body are tired, you often don't feel it. But for me the pros weigh out the cons.
I hate being lonely but I hate when coworkers try to talk to me when I’m simply trying to remember wtf I’m doing in the first place
that little car horn segment that causes the break in focus, I felt that. I immediately lose train of thought anytime I have the tiniest break of focus and have to re-establish myself like i'm starting all over again.
“Ah, meds start to kick in” Most relatable thing I’ve read this week
The accuracy is real!
Going back to house because I forgot something. The jaw clenching...motivation for bigger tasks is my biggest battle. I beat myself up everyday over it.
Man you had me in tears with the “starting a family.” Feel that, I really do.
Running back and forth to the car is too real
Seeing this makes me realize my symptoms are far more severe. At almost 30 years old I'm going in for a diagnosis and treatment. I was told from a young age that I process things differently because I have a higher IQ. While there may be truth in this, it does not explain behavioral problems that I suffer with. Procrastination (often times with simple tasks that require very little), inability to sleep, higher emotional response to scenarios on average, doom piles, and the list goes on. Not only do these things get in the way of finding success in my pursuits but they also make relationships difficult. To some I seem flaky and unreliable. To others I seem inattentive. I also find myself hyper fixated on tasks that have minimal benefit. I hope that I can find a treatment that restores balance to the fold.
Acceptance is the key. Accept the neurotic symptoms of ADHD and they will go from being apart from you, to a part of you. The things that cause you trouble now, will become that which propels you in the future. Inconsistency becomes flexibility. Procrastination becomes creativity. Immaturity becomes soulfulness.
To any young person reading this, I am 35. ADHD hurt me a lot when I was younger but through continued acceptance, I have come to see it as a gift. I am now a husband, father. I have a career. You WILL have these things too.
Yes! I was fortunate enough to be diagnosed young, so while elementary school was torture, I managed to learn my needs and capabilities. ADHD became less of a problem and more, well, me. I've been on the honor roll multiple years in a row, and I am taking advanced math. My ADHD really helped with that because I knew I had to take extensive notes and do homework right away.
Thank you for this video. Means a lot to understand what part of my life is still influenced by my ADHD.
Yo, i'm gonna be the asshole that says it... "Why has this got so few views?" cracking quality on the production, good general message and tone.
This is the video that convinced me to seek out a diagnosis in my late twenties. I still can’t watch it without almost choking up at the part about whispering in bed at night. That’s the point when it hit me like a ton of bricks: this is me. I felt like someone had read my mind. It was immensely comforting, as if someone was giving me a hug and saying, it’s okay. You’re not alone, and you’re not a failure.
I'm 61, just got diagnosed, so bitter sweet, finally, I can stop beating myself up, I now understand, I can try and release all the shame. If only I'd known about it, what could my life had been? So many feelings, anger, relief, sadness, loss.
Well said! Love this. Also you’re super handsome :)
Simp
I wish there was a video like this but a non-ADHD person instead. This video is scarily accurate. I just don't know what it's like on the other side of life.
Important to note, none of it is a choice.
That's something neurotypical people seem to never understand.
It's a disability, a neurodevelopmental disorder, meaning it's something we cannot, ever, control.
We can take medication, which helps alot for alot of us, but it doesn't take away the disability. It makes it somewhat easier in some ways to live in a society that isn't built to include us.
Stops working and at the same time amplifies anxiety to melt-down level.
I can relate to ALL of this . I’m going to save this video to share to family and friends. Great explanation and examples. Thank you .
Great channel. It can be a daily struggle but we’ve got this !
The many times of saying “why do I do this to myself” and “when am I going to learn” as well as go back in my house to get something I left is unfathomable. 😖
My daily life expressed through a video. Literally. My daily life is just like this, and the worst thing is that I actually realize that what I have to do isn't really that complex nor hard. but I hardly manage to do it on time. I felt this has gotten worse over time, and most of the time I just tell myself, someday I'll get all this stuff done on time without getting distracted by other things.
Last Saturday i was going to run errands at the supermarket. I went out to wait for the bus, at the station I realized I forgot my Transportation Card, went back home to get it, walked around for a while, completely forgot about it, went out again. Halfway, realized again I forgot my Card, went back again to get it, walked around the house and almost completely forgot about the Card. I missed 3 buses that morning.
ADHD is hard 😢. Good luck to us. I don't wish it on anyone.
The worst part of add and ADHD is getting in a relationships with people who will never understand and makes you feel bad about the one thing you hate most about yourself.
This is literally me and im only realizing at 30 how bad my adhd is and how much im being held back
Well that last line nailed it..."I wish I could just switch off".
Too real and relatable for comfort
This video summed up my thoughts on what I've been experiencing my entire life. When I turned 14 I was diagnosed with ADHD, although it should have been far earlier because the signs were very much present in my years through elementary and middle school. I am now 17 and am absolutely terrified of becoming an adult because the responsibility seems all too much too bear. It is just like this video has stated, I've always known what I need to do, but something deep inside of me prevents me from wanting to pursue it. I have the ambition, I have the knowledge, and I know I can do incredible things if I ever put in present effort. All my life I've just been wondering why I will not do any of the things I wanted to pursue when the time to pursue them comes. It's like when I schedule a plan to do something in the future. IOt sounds so easy. I'll do my project, or I'll make another video, or I'll go in for the new job interview.. But when the future becomes the present it's almost like a switch in my head that just destroys my drive. I really did assume this was normal. I keep saying it will get better and.. it just doesn't. I've been meaning to clean my room for a week and a half now but instead I will say I'll clean it tomorrow and when tomorrow comes I'll opt out for a quick rush of dopamine
1:42
The condition of that bed is a perfect metaphor for my life. I have a perpetual pile of junk that I shift from the chair to the bed, depending on which one I want to occupy. My whole life I thought I was normal and everyone else was crazy because of the things that they want to get done like raising a family or holding down a career, or even maintaining a romantic relationship. Now that I'm learning that there's always been something wrong with ME and everyone else is normal I don't know what to do. It talk incessantly about things and causes that I think everyone on the planet should be behind but that's only a symptom of my condition. Now that I know that I don't know what to value anymore. If it's only important to me, is it actually important at all??? I felt better when I thought I was normal and I was looking down from my mountaintop on all the others running the rat race. Now I want nothing more than to be in that race with the other rats!
@@Juan-dm6ps Jesus, I've done that for the past 15 years. I have no friends even though there's plenty of people who want to be friendly with me and hang out but I just never feel like it. In my mind taking time with other people takes time away from what I want to do. Add to that the fact that I almost never enjoy a single conversation I have. I just can't wait for them to shut up so I can start talking. It's like I'm always at cross purposes when it comes to a conversation.
I constantly try to derail what someone else is talking about so we can swing the subject to what I want to talk about. I don't want to hear anything anyone else says but I expect them to wait with baited breath, hanging on to my every word. Like what I have to talk about is any more important than listening to Bobby tell me about the stew he cooked last night lol. It's just that there's a constant undercurrent of aggravation when I have to listen to someone else talk. I feel like I have no common ground with anyone.
I came across this channel in my attempt to learn more about concerta. While our experience with the med has not been the same, this video right here is the closest to explaining what I experience. I'm not even able to explain this myself and I will be using this video if ever I feel the need to divulge my struggles with anyone.
I needed this. I'm so thankful that you made this.
I got diagnosed with ADHD 23 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting ADHD. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Yes he's Dr.benfungi.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
Never felt more understood or related to anything else like with this video. Pretty much describing exactly my life, how i feel and how i think, fucking crazy.
That’s the cleanest ADHD bedroom I’ve ever seen.
amazing video! great representation of the day to day for us adhders! Love this so much!
OMG - when my kids were teenagers and I was leaving the house, I'd say "bye! . . . .Hey, aren't yall gonna say bye to me? I'm leaving for the day." They would answer, we'll tell you when you come back in to get what you forgot. You'll be back at least once." . . . and for years I've stayed up until I'm ready to pass out, then I'll go lay down and maybe, maybe go to sleep. I can so relate.
I’m a energy projector in Human design and a lot of the characteristics of that is the same of adhd. I’m not diagnosed professionally but I do feel like in my heart that I have it.
As a 19 year old with ADHD I can relate to this big time. However we know our struggles, that’s amazing. Now we can work on them, just because we have these characteristic doesn’t mean it’s our faith. It’s not like other people have loads of motivation or willpower. You’ll have to face your demons and fight them, as this is your life and your only one. How much energy it may take, fight for the life that you want. Don’t wish you’d be different, embrace it, I love that I have these weaknesses and I can fight them. I love it when I get the things done and do things consistently. You might have setbacks, but everyone has that, we owe it to ourselves to make a great life. You can do the things you’re thinking about or postponing, thinking isn’t going to bring you there, actions will. Do it!
When you drove off, only to drive back to grab something, I related to that so much.
This video makes me feel so called out lol. My thought was 'I wish I knew what it was like to be normal'.... also 'what's it like to wake up not tired'.
This is crazily relatable.
Another thing I’ve noticed is even when I do get through a day of school/work I’m so drained that I can’t do anything else. Even the things I enjoy because just getting through that day took everything out of me.
LOOOOL OMG, the phone scene at the workplace … it obviously only happens to us… how comes I’m so good at doing my job and the one moment I want to check something on the phone, the manager walks in and thinks I’m always on that … omg I can relate so badly
Oh man totally every single step of the day- night. People said that they feel better knowing about their ADHD, I was much happier thinking that my issues were caused by my zodiacal sign chart 😂 or because my mum called me Alice and my realm belonged to the 'wonderland'. But I grew a lot over time working on my improvement... now I am feeling ADHD is my identity, and medication have a time duration.
But one thing I am glad of is having a community of ADHD fellows that know know fucking hard is and make me feel less lonely in this battle.
Keep strong everyone :)
Love your video man very real!
"I wish I could just switch off". I thought this to myself many, many times, probably a decade before my diagnosis or even considering that it was on the table.
You call it distracted,
I call it aware.
ive been diagnosed with add/adhd since the age of 7... im 35 in july of 2022, its nowhere near as bad now as when i was younger and i can manage shit alot better, the most annoying thing about it is people asking me to do funny shit or play up like its a performance. the annoying thing and probably most discusting thing is that i work with a few people now that like to BRAG about the fact they have add/adhd like its a cool thing . it makes me so angry. this video is a really good depictation of what shit building up etc looks like i guess no ones really gonna know cause everyones different. what im trying to say i guess my dude is thankyou for the vid and keep strong anyone first or still dealing with this shit
Omg this video is me often. I often have insomnia often run through conversations and possible scenarios in my head unable to quiet my mind. Finding a criticism or the tiniest of details I may have overlooked. I realise that often my concentration level for work often doesn't kick in until around 3.30pm when I finally have the ability to gather my thoughts and apply myself to get things done (this is the thing I struggle with most) - I've often thought this was because I had something wrong with my sugar levels like low grade diabetes or a sleep disorder. And the bit about often being in a bubble at work as I just need to concentrate on staying focused. It's a bit better now I'm in a quieter office. But I need to get up from my desk often and I need lots of breaks to chat or go online and look things up. My organisation skills aren't so bad (I think!) but I often feel overwhelmed. I'm so much at ease with things I've done before starting new things is very difficult. I feel like I'm going round I circles like a Swan paddling but never getting anywhere! Everything is so much easier if it's to do with something that really interests me- I am interested in many things which helps! I have a degree in a subject I found very interesting but got a lower grade because I handed my dissertation days late after staying up all night and after having completely lost all the data graphs I had produced for it which I then had to stay up all night and re-do. As a student I was always perplexed why everything took me so much longer than others even just taking notes. I often found questions really easy that others found difficult and vise-versa. Other students would comment their surprise but I didn't get it! Ive always had a bad reputation for being late-especially in the mornings.
So I'm recently suspecting that I may have it (at the age I'd 43!) but possibly at a milder level I have no idea if I should actually do anything about it yet maybe I just need to find strategies to manage it but having a diagnosis may actually make life easier. Maybe I should just worry and procrastinate on it for a while!! At what point is it personality rather than a disorder, at what point do you need to seek a medical diagnosis and at what point do you try to mange it yourself?
This is exactly how I feel. All of the time. Thank you so much for putting it into words
What I saw here is to 1000% a biopic of me and my struggle with AD(H)D. It really helps to see that I'm not the only one who is like that. And yes, I'm writing this during my work.
My whole life! Not diagnosed until I was 44 because I was never externally “hyper” enough like my brother to make anyone suspect I, too, might have ADHD, so instead I was treated for anxiety and depression since high school…helped some things but definitely my entire life remained highly problematic. I just thought I was fundamentally broken.
I related to everything you said surprisingly. Also the Jazz music made me feel sad
The funniest part is that I have no memory of watching this video yet it is fully in my watch history.
Shit dude, the part about supporting a family especially hit home. I was always terrified of being a father, because what if one day I wake up and just, can't do it anymore? Even things you love feel ephemeral, and I've learned to let it come and go without resentment, but I couldn't do that.
After a dozen years of believing there was something wrong with me. I thought I had depression and anxiety. A new therapist thought I mind be ADD. I thought it was a kid thing. I thought it was hyperactivity and frenetic energy! But now that I am being treated and learning about it I cannot believe how much I am all these things. All the strategies and stress and worry was the ADD symptoms. I thought everyone was like this. I would work so hard to manage and cope that I would burn out and sink into deep depressions. I am actually feeling hopeful for once and my new medication has made me feel like someone turned on a "normal" switch in my head.
I actually have a lot of mental control so I CAN do things that I really don't want to do. it just really hurts because my brain keeps trying to get out.
I can also shut off my thoughts but making them go nowhere and they just turn into some kind of buzz. But I can only do that when I'm actually tired and it still takes a long time to fall asleep.
I definitely won't work in an office or anything where I need to have a consistent amount of energy to do things.
The Xaggitin has been a life-saver for me. ASD too, but no medication for that. Just therapy and a hell of a lot of mental effort.
It’s so freeing knowing I’m not the only one
3:59 This is EXACTLY why at 40yrs old, I'm not married nor am I a mother. I'd like to be married one day ... sighhhh. Just scared I'll screw it up.
The relationship bit hits hard. I feel like I'm constantly rejecting people or forgetting them.
I was diagnosed with ADHD right before the pandemic, and I was only properly medicated a few months ago.
The diagnosis was an answer to a question I didn't know I was meant to have- I thought everyone was like me, I was just worse at existing, at doing what I knew I needed to do but that I didn't know how to and every answer was insufficient.
The medication helped, but it made my insomnia worse, so every time I sit down to do something - whether my meds haven't kicked in yet, or they've run out, or even if they're 'working' but they *aren't.*
It's a lifelong thing. I can't get rid of it. Most of the people I know don't have it, and my sister, who does, presents as more hyperactive rather than a combination of both- no one is the same. And I think that's hard.
I can't look to someone and go "oh, you're exactly like me, how do you do this" because no one is exactly like me and knows how to make me do things.
I sit here, tired, and I haven't done shit today.
I feel like I should write a 'but' here, but (haha) there isn't one for me. Thats the end. I haven't found something that works for me, and I don't know whether this is as good as I can get.
this is the end of my ability to make sense in words today. theres so much more, but i cant describe it. if you read this, thanks. have a hug
For me the worst part is being so forgetful. Even for Adhd im below average. Sadly the meds dont improve my memory and now that im taking them i seem to be even more aware of that. Its driving me crazy
Absolutely spot on. The struggle is real!
Oh my goodness! I've never heard my life experience described so eloquently by another person! Beautiful film, and I really feel that how you describe it is spot on 💯
Damn. I feel this on a whole nother level man. I hope that things get better for you and you find a way to maintain whatever it is you got.
This film hits too real
the one-man conversation, that is the cause of this! for real! I thought I was just really weird. seriously! I'm not diagnosed. I was told to make an appointment after venting about my distractions having distractions. the only time I can stay on task is in Minecraft cause I have an in-depth system based off of what I know of the scrum organization system that was mentioned in silicon valley
i have had the exact experience's you describe in your video which was extremely well worded and formulated and been struggling with it for 18 years I first realized I might have signs of ADHD a few months back and have realized how much it has affected my life I haven't been diagnosed yet but I'm planning to go see a doctor about it
This sounds like me when I was in college. I knew I needed more time to complete things when I would get easily distracted by my phone and computer. When all your assignments needed to be completed on the computer. I stay at library really late and be drinking a lot of caffeine and extremely cold. I always be so exhausted.
This is pretty spot on with the adhd side of my traits. What sucks is we are more predisposed to a lot of shit
At least you finish youtube videos. Well done good sir👏
THE SEPTEMBER 2019 TO JANUARY 2020 OH MY GOD that's way too real lmao
great video i feel like we have a very similar lifestyle i hope we can both become the people we want and overcome challenges we face
One thing I've found to help clear my mind is something called "Deep Brown Noise." It's super relaxing and just feels like it turns something on in my brain that makes my ADHD less insufferable. Highly recommend.
Can you elaborate on what it is?
@@rosykindbunny1313 Gladly! If you search on here "Deep Brown Noise 12 hours" you'll find a video with the thumbnail being 3 shades of brown. The noise itself is reminiscent to time of peace and quiet: such as a quiet drive home when everyone's tired from whatever fun was had, or it's like when you're on an airplane and feel the relaxing hum as you fly. It's like a static noise that rewires your brain to just... be relaxed and clear. The best thing I've found to do is playing it full volume on my phone with my fan also on in the background. Literally makes me feeling like I'm floating on a cloud.
@@kinrythium That sounds so peaceful! Thank you so much!
The part about the medication could not be more true! 😭
you sir nailed it
Great video. This is very relatable for me. I was officially diagnosed last week, at the age of 40. I thought a life like this was normal. Now that I have tried meds, I see how diff it is. I am also 1.5 years out of a failed marriage and see how the ADHD contributed to that. Not the main issue, but didn't help. Thanks for making this
Brilliant! This is my life
I was distracted by your good looks. Going to watch again 🫠
I've never been diagnosed with ADHD but man the more I learn about it the more I'm convinced I have to have it. It just fits me too well
4-6 hrs of sleep big cup of coffee and a job that leaves me with my own way to accomplish goals lets me get things done. adhd means you need to experiment and use your mind, feed it and let it grow.
Fuck. THis hits home pretty hard... not even diagnosed with ADHD but damn.. this is exactly me
'Why do I do this to myself' Oh yes that's one of my most used phrases
I actually feel like things are into reach but there’s like a small wall stopping me from doing it! I have the motivation too but just when it comes to actually doing it I get stuck
Everything in this video I can definitely relate too and deal with everyday.
This is literally my life to a T. As the days go on I become more and more aware of when it kicks on but feel helpless in combating it. 27 years of this bs. Lately I've been trying to focus on being myself and accepting it. Hard to do knowing that will end alot of my goals but what other options are there? Learning to be happy with less and content with my imperfection seems like the happier life to lead. I will still bust my butt to get what I want but I won't be mad if I never make it as far as I know I should have without adhd.
finally going through process of geri f diagnosed and finding out no doctors on my insurance plan are taking new patients they no longer take my insurance.... it will take me another 6 months to call my insurance to see where i go from here.
I already got distracted in the beginning 😂
The first thing I did was litterly to read comments
Great work!!! 👏👏👏👏
The calendar going from September/ October to January got me. I just checked and my calendar is still on April, it's now May 26th 😅
Meanwhile me skipping through the video trying to finish it in under a minute