A Warrior's Awakening
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When I was 17-18, I started self inquiring without knowing I was doing it. “What is this? “ was the question that spontaneously appeared in my mind. Nothing around me felt authentic, I felt like me and everybody else were actors in a play. Every time I thought about it, I felt a shiver in the back of my head, and I didn’t know what it was. That was 1991,92. I had nobody to talk to. Until one day when I had something happening in my visual field, some detachment, I had no idea what happened at that time. Now I see it was probably some glimpse of awakening. My life went downhill from that. That was when I had to go to college, but nothing seemed important to me. I had less and less interest in anything. The inquiry and the glimpse almost vanished from my memory, so I knew something was missing in my life, but I didn’t know where to look. I spend the next 30 years with depression, trying to fit in society, with a deep desire to find a way out. Of course I had suicidal thoughts. Until the moment when, in the middle of 2021, I watched a video of Angelo talking about awakening. A flame immediately ignited inside of my chest. Nothing had made me feel like that before, it was like something finally made sense. I had always been an atheist, so I never thought anything like that could possibly be true. I started reading Angelo’s book and also “The Power of Now”, but before I finished it, six months after knowing about awakening, I had the first (or second) shift. Everything has changed, and has been changing since then.
Sorry for the long post, I don’t even know if anyone will read it, but I felt compelled to share.
Wow what a journey eh?
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Yes! And in the last five years before I heard about awakening, life started to fall apart: I got divorced after 17 years, I lost my job, lost my savings, started and failed a small business, “lost” my mom to dementia. It’s like life was preparing me to this. When suffering seemed unbearable, that was when I surrendered totally, without even knowing what I was doing. Today, my situation has never been worse (looking from the outside, from other people’s perspective), but I never felt more still or more peaceful. And “I” am fading little by little, it’s quite obvious. Lots of crying, grieving… but I don’t feel I’m heading anywhere, it’s just now. It’s so beautiful. Even the toughest shadow work, the most painful moments of looking inside, it has been so beautiful and light and authentic.
Thank you so much for everything, I feel your words are the ones guiding me through this. ✨
I read it 😉
Thank you for sharing your experience, it's always heartwarming to read a beautiful story ❤
@@BostjanZ 🙏🏼😊✨❤️
“I did my best…”
My biggest trigger has been my mum’s statement about her parenting (I wanted her unequivocal responsibility for the shit I carry today).
Now, thanks to this interview, I see, I feel, her innocence, and mine too.
She actually did her best.
Me too.
😊😊😊
Thats great. Don't take it at face value though. Go deeply into this for a bit. Explore it further in writing , meditation, inquiry . The mind will tell "oh good , now Ive solved this and I can put it in a box and say its done". Go deeper and you''ll find out it permeates several things in your life and if you can get deeper and see it more clearly it can free you in other aspects of your life you may not even be aware of.
I am 27. I have been stuck for two years doing whats "organic". There's lot of social pressure to do something (asian family) and make a name. But it feels more like compulsion rather than conviction. I feel caving in to society will be adding another story line. When all they have done is reinforce the ego. It's lonely man. But its frustrating. I am not sure what is right and what is wrong. Synchronicity provides relief at times. But it's hard man.
I feel you. Keep at it, things will fall into place as realization deepens
27 y/o Indian this side. I feel ya! Going through the exact same thing. Infact I have a PhD interview tomorrow, idk why I am even doing it. I feel the hollowness in academia, especially this neurosis to amass intellectual knowledge that is so self-enclosed. Never have I felt such resistance and dissonance. Somedays it feels like there's no other way to reconstruct your life beyond the voices you've grown up with. This cultural conditioning, generational trauma runs deep man! Hope we will integrate this soon ❤
In my view Gabor Mate in "The myth of normal" takes a good & thorough look at the unacknowledged dysfunction of the entire "system" of modern society.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Thank you for verbalising what we've always felt. You've been of tremendous help during this time though.
@@boredchubbypanda hey man. I feel exactly the same relating to the academia. I too have done mbbs. Even that is very hollow, just random things masqueraded as facts. I am from uttar Pradesh btw.
Wow. Tony’s way of describing his struggle and liberation is so personal, relatable and powerful. He’s going to help so many people
Thank you, hope so
This was so touching and helpful. My narrative is very similar to Tony’s…Southern Baptist upbringing, lots of violence and trauma, a life of debilitating depression and desire to just not be here, a power unexpected glimpse and now 4 years of desperate seeking. This has given me so much hope and renewed my trust. Thank you Tony and Angelo for this beautiful talk! 🙏
I'm glad it helped. Really look closely at that desperate seeking. Deconstruct those beliefs around it any way you can. You may find some relief there and energy to keep looking.
So much transmission from direct raw experience without the flavors of secs of religion. So RAW. So helpful to those on the brink of full liberation. Especially those who have had big shifts working through the last "stages" of waking up. I want to thank both of you for your time and compassion towards these matters. Merry Christmas my brothers of ONE. I love you both from the only place that love IS.
28:16. “The narrative that you think you are can never ever victimise itself enough for what you really are to give a shit.”
The worrier is the warrior.
OMG😂😂😂
" You see someone, something, you don't like, you don't have to like em... be kind, and get the F away!!!"
You have NO CLUE HOW HARD I'VE TRIED TO LOVE EVERYONE 😅😅😅
Bust that! Love the kingdom Within ❤
I am so grateful to have stumbled, found this exact conversation. Thank you BOTH❤❤❤
“Nothing concrete ever happened” that right there:)
Thanks!
🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 thank you Tony and thank you Angelo.
Wow! What a conversation. Tony, thank you for being so open with your story and for sharing your moments of suffering and pain. Which I can only imagine and can try to relate to my own suffering and pain. Oddly related, my sister and I came across a dead body when we were 7 and 8 years old (I think, it was in the late 70’s or early 80’s) My mother suffered from severe depression so we had a very dysfunctional childhood. Our discovery of the body was similar to yours. No big reaction, just seeing the body floating in a reservoir and deciding we needed to tell the police. We were on our way downtown already to buy some candy and soda with our allowance and cut through the cemetery and found some workers there on a break and told them what we discovered. They didn’t believe us at first so we had to show them and then they called the police. After the police arrived they asked us a few questions and we were sent on our way. We walked downtown and got our treats and went home and told my mum, who was on the phone at the time. And there wasn’t really any impact from that.
I’ve been committed to seeking over the last two years. Prior to that it was two years of curiosity. Looking back over my life I recall wondering why we were here and how we got here from about age ten but could not get any answers from any religious (Christian based) people that I knew and respected.
Watching and listening to this conversation has made me realise that I do have shadow work to do and I’ve been doing anything I can to avoid it. It’s time to get it done now because what’s the point in avoiding it?
Logically I can see there is only awareness and that my identification with “Karen” is a mental construct of beliefs/conceptions.
❤ anyways thank you both so much. It’s finally time to release the repressed pain/sadness/anguish/guilt/shame et al.
Thank you Angelo for your wisdom on acknowledging and welcoming emotions as they come up. I’ve been putting that into practice and it’s funny how when I become aware of feeling or emotion or state of being and I address it and welcome it and give it “permission” to be present that it seems to dissipate very quickly. ❤❤
You're welcome. Pretty surreal to find a dead body isn't ? Yes don't avoid the shadow work. Go straight at it. Look out for distractions that will keep you from going towards it. Mind loves distractions. I reccomend Sherpawithin and Scott Kiloby for good shadow work resources.
he's a great teacher
Just the best! As someone who has been turning toward depression again and again for 6 years, it was so reassuring and inspiring to hear Tony speak to the emptiness and lack of intrinsic power depression has in this moment, and how depression can be such a wonderful, accelerated path to clear seeing! We are doing this alone together, waking up together 🙏
Depression can feel extremely powerful when its happening. Its really about avoiding emotions mostly mixed with thoughts about the past or future. When there is a yes towards emotions and dropping the labels it looks like a huge dark storm cloud that looks dangerous but when you reach out towards it you can put your hand right through it and with clear seeing it will burn away quickly
So encouraging to hear your experience. I’m really feeling more clear as I learn. I have suffered in this life too. I’ve done healing work since 17 years old and I’m finally awakening at 68 years old. It feels so right even though it was tough and still hard days. Thanks you!
Seth btw the book that he mentioned is the best book I have ever! read.
53:54 purpose of distraction is to “remind me who I am” - hits the nail on the head !!!
❤ it!! Your wording is SO helpful!
Wow, this helped me so much: confirming my experiences. Can see how it all served my realization. It’s so innocent in the end. Had a dream in my 40s (I’m 69) amidst the worst memories of my life coming to light. A woman levitating on a lotus flower, all white and glowing and still. A peace I’d never known. She said”I’m sorry to wake you.” Variations of her appeared , helping me for a few years till I tried to run the ‘show’ again. So much deep shadow work. Now a shift that seems minor but I can see is big. From being pulled by things or people or thoughts, I’m now being pulled by presence; like it’s always just here. Thank you all! What a ride!
From the depth of my heart I am filled with gratitude for your willingness to share your experience so openly and authentically. Thank you Angelo for this wonderful interview. These "examples" of awakening are so helpful.
What a profound and beautiful exploration! Both of you are able to describe very common areas of confusion in such a nuanced way.
Particularly how extreme early trauma, Hypervigilance and derealization can block or derail deepening of an initial awakening.
This story is similar to a friend David Thomas who used to be a spiritual teacher. Not sure where he went but it would be a similar fascinating interview….
Thank you both! What a gift❤️🩹💝
I heard something new in this one. The sword of clear seeing. Thank you so much!
Grateful for the insight you two have been graced with and share with us 😊
[07:58] Yes, the elevator situation was exactly a barrier kind of koan! Regular function of every-day mind disrupted (hit, striked) by unusual event so its basic identification was destabilized for a short moment, and this great doubt was enough to reboot the whole thing. Nice!
Whoa! This is incredibly helpful, and very clear. I can definitely relate to the pocket consciousness, and it’s freaking exhausting. I appreciate you sharing, Tony!
This channel has the best guests! So helpful... thanks both
Thank you, Tony and Angelo! Much appreciated!
Wow, this was so powerfully inspiring. Thank you both❤ 🗡️See you at the online retreat in a couple of days.
Thank you Angelo and Tony for this conversation. Super interesting and insightful!
30 mins in, this conversation is awesome. I really like Paul. Can totally relate to the disassociation. That transition into feeling was very difficult for me. I had to actually go so far as completely reorient my life and change jobs away from thinking based work into a job which was manual labor. That helped A LOT. And working with a mentor, similar to what Paul said, who basically helped reorient my entire psyche in a fundamental way. Eternally grateful for that. Wild ride this whole thing.
**Tony** sorry. Paul's great too I'm sure ,😂
Tony did mention Paul Hedderman so maybe that’s where “Paul” came from 😂❤🎉
Wow that sounds fascinating. I'm a very "in my head" person too and it's so hard to get out of my head and create this distance Tony talks about in this video as well. I guess I'll try meditating more but I've often felt quite attracted to the idea of switching jobs to something that isn't also just sitting behind a computer and using my head. I guess I'm not the only one.
What did you do before and what do you do now?
You don't want to be "creating distance". You want to be getting closer and more intimate with your sensations. That's why somatics work is very helpful.
Thank you. You can call me Paul if you want haha.
Wow! So great to see Tony on here. This man was pivotal in recognizing a shift on my fb posts and was a great resource and guide for me when needed, directing me to resources during my initial shift in 2021. It is so helpful to be able to have someone make themselves available, especially when initially trying to make sense of whats happening. So thankful to this soul more than I can express. 🙏 With love and gratitude,
Rosina Marie
Thanks you Rosina. You're doing so well lately
a fist opening up...that's how it feels, thanks a lot for this
This stirred my shit big time. YIKES! And thank you both!!!!
Sorry not sorry Lol
@@tonyt1551 😃
His descriptions in the intro really grabbed me. Really reminds me of my spontaneous glimpses in my early twenties. Loved this interaction
I feel so very privileged to hear this. So very beautiful. Thank you. ❤
So insightful, cheers
Hi Angelo,
The context of this interview motivates me to share a little childhood experience.
I must have been around 14-15 years old when I was in bed thinking and wondering about 'life questions'.
At one point, I was pounding really hard on a certain question which arose:
~ If I am experiencing a personal ‘I’ feeling, and everyone else is experiencing essentially the same ‘I’ feeling as well, then why am I my specific ‘I’ and not the other person's ‘I’? ~
At one point my brain just ‘glitched’ for a sec and for a brief moment I could just ‘feel’ the answer to the question, or something.
However, after that split second, I have never been able to reproduce the exact question or that feeling again, but the feeling tone of that moment remains with me until today. Upon reading your book (and especially the paragraph about childhood experiences like these) I wondered if that whole experience falls in the same field as what you are pointing to. Maybe I found myself some sort of ‘koan’ ;-)
Well, thought it would be nice to share. And would love to dive again (and deeper) into this.
Any feedback is more than welcome!
Just ordered your book Angelo 🙏❤️ loved this video with Tony
Gratitude ! This is so powerful.
Mic Drop! Thank you Angelo and Tony!
Great conversation. Thanks guys.
Wow…..what an awesome conversation…..so many pointers as to where I can dig deeper…..Angelo and Tony thank you so much 🙏🏻✨❤🌟🤩
So helpful, thanks Tony and Angelo
Our pleasure!
I want to know more about this clear seeing. It seems like its exactly what i need.
Ive been changing jobs and careers constantly for the last 20 years. Never satisfied. Always stressing, believing i need to be somebody to be respected, to not be destitute. I only get temporary relief from this struggle. It helps to hear when you say that everything is fundamentally ok. But id like to see it for myself.
One of the most direct descriptions of what is "actually" happening and how we construct the narrative moment to moment. I can't thank you each enough for opening the door to what I have been chasing most of my life. A rare direct transmission of just this, how LOVE and innocence binds all of it.
You're welcome and thanks
Wow, this is good. Thank you.
Holy moly. Thank you both for this. Have been asking “what the hell is this?” from a young age and lately been a bit lost in emptiness somehow and getting the sense that I’ve been disassociating more - it’s confusing - which is a story too - but this helped me see how to approach the ways that I’ve been avoiding my avoidance. Thank you. ❤️
Would be interesting to see some content discussing some of the aspects of parenting during or after awakening. Further, how awakening may inform parenting strategies (or remove the need for rigid strategies).
I second this
So so good 👌so much in this talk ! blew my mind !! Thank you❤️
Thanks for sharing!
This was beautiful ❤🙏
I have adapted so many beliefs about how my life should be and how I should be along with a lot of other beliefs, ways of thinking, it's really hard to deprogram this
Yes it can feel that way. The good news is you don't really have to do anything because you're not actually in control . Your only job is to keeping seeing a clearly as possible and those processes when truly seen to be harmful will fall away on their own.
Absolutely amazing.
Very many thanks guys! That was great.
Brilliant!
I’ve always been confused with the “nothing has ever happened” and figured I’d see that at some point to understand
Same!! The mind has been obsessed with this concept of time; past and future and the nature of reality. Sweet, innocent mind will never know ❤
This conversation was awesome.
Around 1:29:38 that's what I experienced too. Going more deeply into the present and feeling all the energy and some physical pain and not having any foothold, the thought came up: "This is potentially overwhelming". And this seemed like a good enough reason not to go all the way. Until it hit me: "well it's just a thought. And there is no evidence for it being true."
Hell yea ,keep going
Super relatable interview - big thanks to both of you! 👻💥
So good.
This was an amazing talk Tony and Angelo! The after effects of the time together at Art of Living Retreat continue to give and give. Loved hearing how Tony has settled into it all. So many similar insights have dropped in and the clear seeing IS the key. It becomes quite obvious! Love the revelation of seeing Tony only as a projected Princess Leila type imaginary figure. Yes that’s soooo it!! Slow it down and there it is! Brilliant transmission 🔥✨🔥
Awesome
Amazing 🤩
Beautiful 😍
He mentioned the Mind Illuminated by John Yates, Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha by Daniel Ingram, and Right Concentration: a Practical Guide to the Jhanas. Which one is more suited for non dual awakening? He seemed to really like the Jhanas one.
All of those are geared toward meditation. If you’re new to things I would suggest Mind Illuminated. It also covers jhanas. Right Concentration is only about jhanas. Mastering core teachings is very comprehensive in many areas and dense. Illuminated and Mastering cover awakening but use different maps.
@@tonyt1551 I’ve been practicing for a few years. I am studying Advaita Vedanta and doing a lot of Ashtanga Yoga. I’ve been wanting to mix up my practice though. I’ve heard that default mode network is only deactivated by non dual meditation and not like something like vipassana. I’ve wanted to try shikantaza or dzogchen or rinzai Zen but I’m not sure how to distinguish them from each other or even vipassana.
@@brianrhodes417I like Shikantanza a lot. I do that the most. I suggest Mind Illuminated the most for you. It covers the most ground on the stuff you mentioned
Very cool ❤
[46:28] Crucial point in many stories. I remember being sick as a kid, exhausted after a high feaver, and there were moments when subjectively my mind was "slower" so I could catch events of incoming and outgoing thoughts. The processing must have been actually faster but the feeling of distrupted time for me was like the opposite. Concentration is probably a major factor here, especially calmness and monitoring skill which are the effects of it. I mean concentration as a kind of developed skill, a habit, something we do not train anymore volitionally it the very moment but a kind of muscle that activates when needed (is activated as a response to This).
[55:24] Yeah, the landscape of body-mind. Deeply feeling like that actually develops this "love towards [fluid] substance" which is a kind of bridge between sensual, material stuff and no-name stuff. Merging possible without too much drama or "too early" replacement. Actually, shikantaza has it / causes this too, especially taught by Chan masters who often remind to relax and take in, not oppose bodily sensations.
1:23:00 🔥
[52:58] I'm starting to notice that the "just bear with your mind" approach (a.k.a "let it be bored with thoughts and dreams, don't force them to be gone") can be quite valuable. Even for people with tensions (broadly seen) all over the body-mind what will happen is they become so clear and almost screaming to deal with them. And if someone has the determination to go for it (especially receiving some "dharma candy" in a form of turbo experience [I still cannot quite figure out "why" component of it, a beginners luck?]), it will "clean the pipe" so the life can go throuh it without major resistance. Then, at least for me, starting another "cycle", and using the very same basic methods as before, can be so much different.
Going past boredom without turning to disctraction will show you reactivity, repression and control etc..
[01:21:20] Absolute bodhicitta! :)
Tony, do you do any coaching? I absolutely resonate with your story. Thank you for sharing!
Great interview. I relate to his story a lot. Is he going to mentor anyone?
Maybe someday
Tony mentioned working with someone named Josh, or Eshwar. Is there a way to get into contact with them? Thank you!
Angelo! Have you seen the original UK version of Revolver? It’s way different and so much better than the dummed-down NA version of the film? It’s my favorite movie ever.
Hasn’t heard of it. Google search doesn’t find it :/
Or do you mean the directors cut? Bc yes that’s the one I’ve watched most
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake not the directors cut. They released the movie in the UK. It was a masterpiece. The version they released in North America was a re-sequenced monstrosity. You need to watch the movie before they butchered it.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake see if you can find the region 2 version as opposed to the region 1 version
This talk makes alot of sense! But im still not enlightened :(
Using the "like" word 10 times a minute is very annoying. This is 99% of people you interview. Have you ever noticed?