As I held my husband’s hand, I had the thought that if we did not appear as separate, God would not experience the joy of the feeling of holding another person’s hand. In that moment all striving to feel at one with everything ceased for me, and I just appreciated what was appearing right now. How simple.
Exactly. Duality is not a curse... it is the greatest gift God has ever created for itself. Without it, experience would not be possible. The trick is to recognize the game of Maya for what it is and then play it with new found love and appreciation for this divine gift of form that we are so infinitely blessed with. ☯️☸️🕉
Yes I had a similar thought, we have to be this, to experience this We have to seem separate to see the constantly changing kaleidoscope "in front" of us.
😂 As soon as you stated “how enjoyable it is..” the mind immediately started saying “oh I wish that were the case now, I can’t wait till that happens!” - I knew exactly what you were going to say about the drawbacks of mentioning that!
How deep the shadow is and the part about discomfort really resonated strongly. The discomfort can be so difficult but resisting it only makes the situation far worse. I also felt the part about everything feels new too. I was travelling while the sun was rising this morning and I was observing the colours changing in the sky and feeling into the moment like it was the very first time. I can't even try to explain how it felt into words! For me, one thing I'd like to add to is the energy I feel pulsing everywhere around my body. It's like my body has its own version of tinnitus but instead of ringing, it's a vibrational energy. 🤷🏻♀ Again, it's hard to explain and doesn't really feel necessary to describe it beyond that!
A part of me is terrified of even sitting down to inquire because I’m 100% aware of how uncomfortable this will get. I’ve done shadow work about core toxic shames and it nearly led me to suicide. So many distractions stop me from sitting and I watch them distract me with increasing frustration and lack of control
I was just here a few days ago, still working through it but happy to be in it now. Do it, don't be afraid to react however it is you need to. I've cried, yelled, laughed till I couldn't breathe. You are your own blacksmith, Blacksmithing is no joke.
If you are afraid to inquire, I recommend Stephen Wolinsky. Just listen actively to his videos Again and again The shadow is deep, but it's not like you have to battle against dragons. It is more like everything in your body and mind loosens and then, one day, suddenly, a false identity like shame pops up. You just look at it and it loosens it's power. In fact, it disappears and never comes back.
Movement is stillness. ❤ sitting here with my right ankle resting on my left knee flexing my right foot while listening to you when you made the comment. Yes. Movement is stillness. Watching the movement with the “immediacy” awareness and can see it is stillness.
I feel like the endless unknowing is swallowing anything seems to be known. It's very paradoxical yet very fresh as you said Angelo. What seems to be real is unreal!! As if it has been known and felt beyond the familiar 5 senses. I don't know how but it is!!!
After many years of work, I had an experience that seems like non dual about a month ago. It was just as you describe; and for me, I was so comfortable. That was the first thing I noticed. Instant relief into full comfort. Of course I want to say body and mind but in the moment there was no body/mind separate from anything else. It was a glimpse I guess. Im back to before but with a different knowledge. I’m doing the practices in your videos which help. There’s a surrender now in the face of the contrast of what is and what I (and we) experience/d for my whole life before now. I’m humbled and know I’ll/we’ll be ok. I could never thank you enough ❤
Absolutely...it has been so helpful hearing you talk about it. So many spiritual teachers still do not even mention it a bit and one thinks I must be on the wrong "path"...I have come in contact with the darkest for years...and lateley I found a constellation therapist who is also a psychiatric with whom some of my deep, deep attachment to suffering and my family came to the light in a way I never seen it (although I have done lots of emotional work)...plus inter-generational stuff... so thank you Angelo for being real with your followers...
You've done so much with your interviews, in regards to helping us stop comparing our experience to others - to see how each person has a unique way of experiencing these things put my own doubts at ease.
This is so helpful. Didn’t know how to formulate a question about what’s occurring or where to begin to find words. Somehow this rings true and is reassuring in a way that can’t be explained. Thank you
it creates the opposite problem when no guru or teacher talks about the later stage stuff and you're there and there is literally, nearly 0 information about this stuff that was written down for the past 100 years. i asked my teacher why it is, and he said it's because everyone has to go through their own adventure. you kind of have to go find someone in the world to help guide you through it, as it's a total mindfuck, and in my case, left me basically incapacitated for nearly a year as i had a lot of shadow to work through with a therapist. it really does not make sense to talk about it, because #1, everyone goes through it differently, and #2 as you said, it just creates more possible traps for mind identification and that's not the purpose. the only purpose is to realize what you are beyond the mind, and that's it really. and until then, your only focus should be investigating if you believe yourself to be a separate person (or not)
There's a process of confronting and addressing trauma, coming to terms with some horrible/terrifying events of the past and making peace with that. The act of finally letting go of all the trauma could be interpreted as a form of realisation, or perhaps a catalyst that allows one to reach a higher state. In the same way that often a religious experience (like a complete and sudden conversion to god or to a cult) is often accompanied by a traumatic event. But I don't think that trauma is necessarily a requirement for realisation, it's just one of the pathways I often see. People who have undergone great suffering are often the people who are unsettled and prompted to search for meaning.
The peace you speak of gives me hope, that reality ultimately is not bad. I don’t know if hope is actually bad as it may enhance the state of seeking. However I’m already seeking and at least I don’t feel as bad as before when there were thoughts of no chance of improvement at all, but still resisting…
I recently had the thought that time and space are also just off the mind and are dualistic qualities, i havent yet felt that in experience though, i think at least.
Hi, Angelo, thank you for this video. I'd like to share a video with, what I think, exceptional directions for the AUM meditation. It just came out on the healthy gamer channel titled, Why Having ADHD Makes You Better At Meditating.
For the first time I clearly see and feel that i dont need to catch a moment like a snippet in a horizontal timeline. I‘m not moving at all and those are just stupid thoughts in me😂 nothing has ever happend outside the thoughts i am holding right now. I‘m very curious if thoughts come up again and somehow will be able to convince me otherwise…
Is it fair to say, in light of what you have shared, that for someone who really wants to diminish their suffering in the short to medium term, improve their mental health and develop better coping skills, then this path may be the exact opposite of what they are looking for?
Hi Anjelo, in self inquiry I simply try to feel the "I" sense and when it disappears or starts fading I try to find it in my experience again and again. Am I doing it right ?
Sometimes I can see my avoidance mechanism at play, but at some point, if I am avoiding stuff I don't even know is there because it is so hidden, I can I know I am avoiding it? Do I simply assume there is still stuff (I guess I can sense it) and then I inquire to find it? Thank you 🙏
That sounds like doubt, try to inquire into that. Why is it there? What's it doubting exactly? Is it projecting anything unto the future? Is it referencing the past?
As I held my husband’s hand, I had the thought that if we did not appear as separate, God would not experience the joy of the feeling of holding another person’s hand. In that moment all striving to feel at one with everything ceased for me, and I just appreciated what was appearing right now. How simple.
Exactly. Duality is not a curse... it is the greatest gift God has ever created for itself. Without it, experience would not be possible.
The trick is to recognize the game of Maya for what it is and then play it with new found love and appreciation for this divine gift of form that we are so infinitely blessed with.
☯️☸️🕉
Yes I had a similar thought, we have to be this, to experience this We have to seem separate to see the constantly changing kaleidoscope "in front" of us.
@rickyf3448 the greatest gift is consciousness itself. Without consciousness no experience is possible.
@lynlavalight Pure consciousness without form is no experience. Only through (apparent) duality becomes God visible to itself.
Beautiful ❤
I'm having the strangest dreams full of intense emotions.
😂 As soon as you stated “how enjoyable it is..” the mind immediately started saying “oh I wish that were the case now, I can’t wait till that happens!” - I knew exactly what you were going to say about the drawbacks of mentioning that!
😅 oh my gosh I love this honesty. Samezies 😄
"A koan that continuously breaks itself open" Beautiful Angelo. 🎉
Man, the background sounds are so wholesome 🤣. Great pointers! Thanks. 🤙🏽
You bet!
How deep the shadow is and the part about discomfort really resonated strongly. The discomfort can be so difficult but resisting it only makes the situation far worse. I also felt the part about everything feels new too. I was travelling while the sun was rising this morning and I was observing the colours changing in the sky and feeling into the moment like it was the very first time. I can't even try to explain how it felt into words! For me, one thing I'd like to add to is the energy I feel pulsing everywhere around my body. It's like my body has its own version of tinnitus but instead of ringing, it's a vibrational energy. 🤷🏻♀ Again, it's hard to explain and doesn't really feel necessary to describe it beyond that!
I can relate ❤️
A part of me is terrified of even sitting down to inquire because I’m 100% aware of how uncomfortable this will get. I’ve done shadow work about core toxic shames and it nearly led me to suicide. So many distractions stop me from sitting and I watch them distract me with increasing frustration and lack of control
Well, 100% is a manner of speaking
The present moment sounds like a prison
I was just here a few days ago, still working through it but happy to be in it now. Do it, don't be afraid to react however it is you need to. I've cried, yelled, laughed till I couldn't breathe. You are your own blacksmith, Blacksmithing is no joke.
It can be valuable to develop a practice of compassion prior to and while doing shadow work. Metta meditation practice may help here.
If you are afraid to inquire, I recommend Stephen Wolinsky.
Just listen actively to his videos
Again and again
The shadow is deep, but it's not like you have to battle against dragons. It is more like everything in your body and mind loosens and then, one day, suddenly, a false identity like shame pops up. You just look at it and it loosens it's power. In fact, it disappears and never comes back.
Your eyes are beautiful 💙🔵
Movement is stillness. ❤ sitting here with my right ankle resting on my left knee flexing my right foot while listening to you when you made the comment. Yes. Movement is stillness. Watching the movement with the “immediacy” awareness and can see it is stillness.
I feel like the endless unknowing is swallowing anything seems to be known. It's very paradoxical yet very fresh as you said Angelo. What seems to be real is unreal!! As if it has been known and felt beyond the familiar 5 senses. I don't know how but it is!!!
Beautiful insight!
That’s happening for me now! It’s so much better than the old way of being but it’s taking me time to get used to it.
After many years of work, I had an experience that seems like non dual about a month ago. It was just as you describe; and for me, I was so comfortable. That was the first thing I noticed. Instant relief into full comfort. Of course I want to say body and mind but in the moment there was no body/mind separate from anything else. It was a glimpse I guess. Im back to before but with a different knowledge. I’m doing the practices in your videos which help. There’s a surrender now in the face of the contrast of what is and what I (and we) experience/d for my whole life before now. I’m humbled and know I’ll/we’ll be ok. I could never thank you enough ❤
It never stops being surprising 🙈.
“…that realization changes everything. Um, well… also changes nothing”
😆🎯
Absolutely...it has been so helpful hearing you talk about it. So many spiritual teachers still do not even mention it a bit and one thinks I must be on the wrong "path"...I have come in contact with the darkest for years...and lateley I found a constellation therapist who is also a psychiatric with whom some of my deep, deep attachment to suffering and my family came to the light in a way I never seen it (although I have done lots of emotional work)...plus inter-generational stuff... so thank you Angelo for being real with your followers...
You've done so much with your interviews, in regards to helping us stop comparing our experience to others - to see how each person has a unique way of experiencing these things put my own doubts at ease.
Good to hear :)
This is so helpful. Didn’t know how to formulate a question about what’s occurring or where to begin to find words. Somehow this rings true and is reassuring in a way that can’t be explained. Thank you
This was great, and perfect timing ❤❤❤
it creates the opposite problem when no guru or teacher talks about the later stage stuff and you're there and there is literally, nearly 0 information about this stuff that was written down for the past 100 years. i asked my teacher why it is, and he said it's because everyone has to go through their own adventure. you kind of have to go find someone in the world to help guide you through it, as it's a total mindfuck, and in my case, left me basically incapacitated for nearly a year as i had a lot of shadow to work through with a therapist. it really does not make sense to talk about it, because #1, everyone goes through it differently, and #2 as you said, it just creates more possible traps for mind identification and that's not the purpose. the only purpose is to realize what you are beyond the mind, and that's it really. and until then, your only focus should be investigating if you believe yourself to be a separate person (or not)
There's a process of confronting and addressing trauma, coming to terms with some horrible/terrifying events of the past and making peace with that. The act of finally letting go of all the trauma could be interpreted as a form of realisation, or perhaps a catalyst that allows one to reach a higher state. In the same way that often a religious experience (like a complete and sudden conversion to god or to a cult) is often accompanied by a traumatic event. But I don't think that trauma is necessarily a requirement for realisation, it's just one of the pathways I often see. People who have undergone great suffering are often the people who are unsettled and prompted to search for meaning.
Thanks for this video
The peace you speak of gives me hope, that reality ultimately is not bad.
I don’t know if hope is actually bad as it may enhance the state of seeking. However I’m already seeking and at least I don’t feel as bad as before when there were thoughts of no chance of improvement at all, but still resisting…
thank you 🙏 the mantra really hit home for me
This is helpful, thank you
You're welcome!
I recently had the thought that time and space are also just off the mind and are dualistic qualities, i havent yet felt that in experience though, i think at least.
so much resonance, thank you
Welcome
Thanks for sharing truth. 🎯♥😶 🙏☮ Happy Holidays to everyone
Hey mate, deep gratitude and loving kindness
Same to you!
Hi, Angelo, thank you for this video. I'd like to share a video with, what I think, exceptional directions for the AUM meditation. It just came out on the healthy gamer channel titled, Why Having ADHD Makes You Better At Meditating.
I also saw this! I resonated a lot with his description of the highly sensitive mind.
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Well said
Did you look at what Nargis posts lately?
For the first time I clearly see and feel that i dont need to catch a moment like a snippet in a horizontal timeline. I‘m not moving at all and those are just stupid thoughts in me😂 nothing has ever happend outside the thoughts i am holding right now. I‘m very curious if thoughts come up again and somehow will be able to convince me otherwise…
Awesome!
I didnt know the dead could talk until i found this channel
what is deep self realisation without knowlege…..there is…❣️
Can all these 5 things happen at the same time or overlap they all sound very familiar
Is it fair to say, in light of what you have shared, that for someone who really wants to diminish their suffering in the short to medium term, improve their mental health and develop better coping skills, then this path may be the exact opposite of what they are looking for?
Hi Anjelo, in self inquiry I simply try to feel the "I" sense and when it disappears or starts fading I try to find it in my experience again and again. Am I doing it right ?
Sure, but also let go of the I thought, very important. If the sense remains so be it if it disappears so be it.
Hi Angelo, thank you. How deep is this realization stage?
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Sometimes I can see my avoidance mechanism at play, but at some point, if I am avoiding stuff I don't even know is there because it is so hidden, I can I know I am avoiding it? Do I simply assume there is still stuff (I guess I can sense it) and then I inquire to find it? Thank you 🙏
@@Bernd05 the "part" that sees it? It is consciousness that sees it, isn't it?
That sounds like doubt, try to inquire into that. Why is it there? What's it doubting exactly? Is it projecting anything unto the future? Is it referencing the past?
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What breed of dog is Kamora ?
Basenji
☸️ 🪷 😊
Really weird things happend to and around your face during this video😅
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