STRUGGLING TO STAY ON TRACK & SAYING GOODBYE TO STEWIE | VLOG [tw: ed]
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- Опубліковано 30 вер 2024
- My name is Tammy. I struggle with too many mental issues, lol, but don't we all? On this channel I document most of my struggles. I'm not that open in real life and UA-cam helps me to be able to vent and talk about whats going on.
I'm not promoting any kind of (eating) disorder, I'm just documenting my life.
I'm very hapy to have you Little Lemons accompany me. Thank you SO much!
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I'm sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is one of the most difficult challenges of life. Rest in peace Stewie. 🙏
You gave him the ultimate gift, regardless of your feelings. You eased his pain and suffering, and that matters so much. And give yourself some grace, you’ve had a very rough couple of weeks. It’s ok to fall off the wagon, but don’t run the wagon into the woods and set it on fire!
Appreciate you sharing his burial with us and that montage was beautiful and well edited. Take care of yourself.
Sorry about Stewie:(( But i think he had best person near him and he lived a really happy life❤️
Mondays video will be a weigh in! (Edit. I meant to say: Tuesdays video!)
Great attitude after ur binge. 🥰Don't give up on yourself specially after a binge. U r stronger than u think u r👊 u got this 💪
Only if you feel that is something you really want to do 😊
We have 16 indoor rescue kitties and I’ve lost 3 in the last 2 years and I feel your grief and heartbreak ❤️🩹
I’m 62 and didn’t have children and my kitties are my babies🐾🌸♥️
This was a beautiful tribute to Stewie and thank you for sharing your honest journey. The Amberlynn's voice coming in had me ded
Stewie's burial made me so emotional. 😢 but you did the right thing and it was a beautiful memorial. Thanks for sharing the ups and downs of your journey. ❤
I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss 💛💛💛 What a beautiful tribute to him. RIP sweet Stewie 🙏🏼❤️❤️
Even I teared up, R.I.P Stewie I think the binge u had was expected with the loss but can get back up and keep going
Have you tried forcing yourself to actually walk to the grocery store if you’re feeling a binge? So you at least get some physical activity to offset some of the binge
Tammy, I watch every video and all I can see is a kind and gentle person who is trying their hardest. The word you were looking for was deconstruct 😊please be kind to yourself, don't punish yourself for your binge, just go back to normal eating patterns and just continue doing what you're doing. Stewie was such a beautiful cat and you gave him the gift of love by taking him in as a stray. You're allowed to mourn. You can do this! xx 🤗
I’m sorry for your loss, my kitty is my emotional support baby and he’s 19 years old! My first pet/baby and I can’t imagine saying goodbye. You’re very strong to be able to say goodbye. Sending much love. ❤
Tammy I am so sorry for your loss. Making the decision to say goodbye to our fur babies breaks our heart but with our love for them we can't let them suffer. You gave Stewie peace. Sending love and hugs to you and your fur babies!
Goodbye Stewie 💔 I’m sure he was a great friend and you did so much for him to make his life as happy as possible. He spent his last days being loved
We treat animals more humanely than people. We take away the animals suffering yet we let humans suffer. It's awful. I put down 3 pets when it was time, but I watch my parents suffer and pray for death daily. You did the right thing.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is really hard. ❤ the footage you included of him was so lovely!
I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is the worst pain to experience. Jackson Galaxy made a video about how cats see spirits/ghosts and I am sure that one day, we'll be reunited with our fur babies 🖤🖤🖤
I just love your personality. You did so much for Stewie. You are a wonderful person
I lost my cat in a similar way due to sudden liver failure last year, it still hurts to think about her. My condolences, stay strong!
You should shower and change clothes everyday it's good for mental health . I cried at stewie funeral that touched me 🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹
Rest well sweet Stewie. Thank you for letting us be a part of his life
So sorry for your loss. Stewie had a wonderful life with you 💞
Hey Tammy!
Self pampering is essential. I take extra long warm baths with leftover homemade kefir. So soothing. I hope Tammy takes your suggestion and makes a video with it.
Even in your videos Stewie was always close by. I'm so sorry for your loss and his pain. 💕 Rest easy Stewie
It's so difficult to help a pet leave us when the time comes. It's our burden when we love them. Hugs from a fellow cat mom.💙
Not Amber with the dehumanizeen 😂😂😂
Thank you for sharing Stewie’s burial. That was so lovely. And then you sent that dehumanizing curveball and had me from crying to laughing. You’re such a joy.
im so sorry to hear that..but remeber he had had a great life with u and im sure he always will love u ♥ he was such a cute kitten
How do you get your bills paid? Are you on disability or government assistance? Not sure how it all works in your country. Just always been curious. Thanks in advance to anyone who answers this for me! Xoxo
I’m so sorry for your loss 🙏🏻
Have you ever thought you don’t feel like starting your day because you have the option ? I don’t have that option. I need to go to work, I need to make money , I need to study, so not wanting to start my day is not an option for me . Being busy and productive would do so much difference in your life. Any activity ? Just any.
HI TAMMY may STEWIE R I P WE WILL MISS HIM ! LOVE AND KISSES (BAKERSFIELD GIRL CLAUDIA)
I'm a newbie here. Love you videos. So sorry for your loss girl. Can I ask who Stefan is?
RIP beautiful Stewie 💛
RIP Stewie 💕 He had a wonderful life with you
So sorry for your loss. It's so hard. I cried watching. It's so sad. I have a rescue cat we adore and I can't imagine being without him. Time heals. He's in a better place. You're an amazing human. ❤❤❤
Covid tests might not show up positive 5-10 days after being around an affected person. I got sick from my dad and 2 days after I was sick my test was negative. I still isolated and 4 days later my test showed positive.
Not me sobbing over poor little Stewie. I love writing lists of things to do, it makes yourself accountable in a way to have a physical schedule in front of you, and chatting to us about it would help to :) rooting for you Tammy!
My observation you didn't have time for a shower today but you had time to edit youtube videos in which you explain that you have not showered today it took you longer to explain that you havnt had a shower and your reasons why than it would of actually taken to have the shower .
Come on, if you don't know how it feels on depression things can go easily an other things don't, please be quiet. by the way she cleaned a lot.
@@Darkforest123 Lola Bear has a good point. Self care is essential even and especially for someone who suffers from depression.
Constructive comments might br hard to hear especially for the person they are intended for but caring comments should be made. Sometimes they serve as reminders, nudging, information, or just plain someone sees it differently and does give a damn.
@@Darkforest123 I am on anti depressants , I know how it feels and not showering for 3 days is really not going to help it's important to respect yourself and take care of yourself that should be number 1 priority tammy deserves to feel fresh and clean for herself not for anyone else come on a shower takes 5 minutes there is always time in a day to take a shower.
Disassemble? 🙂 Take care of yourself ♥️
i'm so sorry about stewie, but i commend you for making the right decision for your cat, and being there for him until the end. it's what a responsible owner should be doing, and while i'm sorry you had to go through this, i'm glad that stewie had such an awesome person take care of him. may his memory be a blessing 💜
don't be too hard on yourself rn. you've just gone through a traumatic experience and are grieving the loss of a dear friend. that's a lot for anyone to go through. it's great you're trying, but you deserve gentleness and... idk, 'break' is the wrong word, but maybe, leniency? anyone else who tells me they spend the day in bed eating ice cream, after the week you've had? totally understandable. 💜 but it's good to hear you're self-aware and know that punishing yourself for your binge won't help. i hope you can catch a break soon and feel a bit better.
I subscribed today, Tammy. Love you. So sorry about Stevie. Oh, it’s so hard to let them go! You keep seeing them in their own places, and you keep listening for their voice.
Your tribute to Stewie was beautiful Tammy.....thank you for sharing. You will be missed sweet Stewie🌻
I've started saying BRRROKJES?! instead of TREATS?! & my cat is already picking up on it, I JUST love when you say it ( yes, I only speak english lol )
I will be holding my dog a little tighter tonight. R.I.P sweet Stewie
Loved the pictures of Stewie … he was a special 🐈.
Im so sorry for your loss Tammy
handsome boi! I think he would've looked very cute in a tux 🐈
@@smartiesmcflurry6755 He certainly wouldve!!!! Also hi smarties
@@phantomx6988 hi!! recognized you hehe 👨🦯
Rest in peace and power Stewie. It was lovely getting to know you.
Rip Stevie❤ .. girl you probably binged because you did just experienced a traumatic event of losing a beloved pet. Glad to see you going strong, you’re amazing🔥🙏 lovee youu!
She binges if she breaks a nail
Maybe if you restrict calories and walk a bit you can cancel out the 4000 cals
Komm gut über die Regenbogenbrücke kleiner Mann 🙏
Amber Lynn reference was hilarious 💀
I find it helps to have a sort of schedule for keeping everything clean. And personal hygiene is priority no.1.
Absolutely. Routine and a schedule also help us take care of ourselves, our housemates (including pets), and our house itself.
When I say schedule, I mean like a routine that applies enough pressure to get things done, but not so much that there is stress. So, for example I am committed to cleaning the whole flat within a two week window that repeats. I do as much washing up as I can straight after dinner each night and always finish the washing up before cooking the next evening meal. The (morning and evening) washing and the bath routine are non-negotiable tho. Imo it's not OK to bath or shower less than every other day.
Oh Tammy I’m so sorry for your loss. I know this has been so hard on you and the other cats babe but I just want to send you some ((Hugs)) thank you for sharing your and your pets lives with us. I appreciate you so much. ❤
P.S. I have a hard time getting up and out of bed after a binge too. It just puts me into a depression spiral sometimes worse than other times but I’m praying for you. I hope you feel better and begin to heal from this grief in the best way for you. Whatever that may be. I’m so proud of you! You accomplished so much today. Great job.
That was a beautiful tribute to Stewie. I sat and cried with his buried but it was very beautiful. He will always be in your memories and heart. Sending you love.
RIP, sweet Stewie ❤
I'm so so sorry for your loss, Tammy. Sending you hugs and love❤️❤️❤️
I cried watching this video my heart breaks for you and your kitty. Praying for peace. Take care of yourself your lem fam 💜 you. Hugs 🫂
I‘m terribly sorry about Stewie, but glad you‘re coping so well. My cat Lucky (15) was diagnosed with cancer in his mouth a few weeks ago, and sadly there‘s nothing we can do about it. He‘s eating less each day now, and seeing him salivate so much makes me so sad. I love him so much, he is the child I never had. Losing him will hurt like hell and I can‘t bear the thought. I admire your strength, Tammy.
Dismantle!!...damn that took me awhile to remember the word you were looking for when you were talking about your table lol xx
P.S dont you already have a table that looks similar in your storage room Tams?
I think the added stress of losing Stewie has hit you harder than you realize. Your Stewie was your comforter and loyal to you and loved you immensely. Bingeing makes sense because it fills that emptiness and gives comfort. Bingeing is a part of what happens to us with mental illness, some choose drugs, others alcohol and us, food. The good thing is when we have more binge free days. I have a binge once a week but when I lost my husband it was like everyday until I would literally pass out. Now it's once a week but so not so bad I pass out like before. My hope is to have one binge every two weeks, then three until I can go a whole month without one. But every day I wake up missing my husband. Everyday. Keep it up Tammy. We will eventually have fewer and fewer binges!! I just know it.
Damn sorry about your cat. I know the feeling, it sucks.
I think my kitty passed on the same day. My Gracie was also 11. I know what your feeling. Thinking of you ❤
Stewie 💙
You gave Stewie 11 years of unconditional love and care and he brought fun and joy to your life...giving him a peaceful end is your final act of love ❤
Your handling the loss of your kitty very well. I'm over here bawling my eyes out and he's not even my kitty. I got attached just watching your videos. I enjoy your videos very much. Makes me realize we all struggle with something in life. I hope you get better and don't struggle with food anymore
I cried so hard when you put up the tribute to Stewie. I feel that is coming in the next year or so for my sweet kitty and I hate that we have to endure that in life. I'm sorry, Tammy. I'm so proud of you for progressing mentally and emotionally with food around life, even when tough crap happens. You're such an inspiration!! 💝
I was all teary eyed watching Stewie’s burial and then you hit me with an Amberlynn Reed audio clip 🙈🤣
nooo stewie 😭😭😭
I'm SO grateful that I don't have any delivery options where I live, I can't drive rn, and my partner works full time, so I only go to the grocery store twice a week. I have horrible impulse control, so im super grateful I can't order ice cream when I crave it, ice cream is definitely my problem, so im glad I only have to resist buying it twice a week, and not every day all day long, ya know?
My parents had to euthanize my childhood cat last autumn. It was a difficult decision, but I’m happy they made it because she had been suffering with an illness for quite some time. My heart goes out to you during your time of mourning!
I layed with my dog Sasha and cried for u. Stewie was a pleasure. Sorry Tammy 🙏😞🎀
RIP Stewie, he had a great life with you Tammy and your other cats will miss him too xx
I love the Ben and Jerry troll. Keep at this. You're doing great.
So sorry about Stewie. Your a beautiful girl stop beating yourself up. I'm trying keto its working because I can eat till I'm full. After severa weeksl I stopped craving carbs.
Quality of Life comes first with our fur babies!
We are so Blessed to be able to be able to be with them when it’s time🕊
We cremate all of our pets so that we can all be placed together when our time comes……
Our covid tests are two lines is positive u sure u don’t have it ? Sorry about Stewie😢 x
Good on you for taking the humane option. Sorry for your loss :(
I'm crying for a cat I never met 😢 RIP dear little Stewie.
I am always writing lists and carrying over the stuff I failed to do, to my next list. Sigh. I decided that making the lists shorter helps....for example write just 3 things that are not too overwhelming and if I manage those then it's a bonus and makes me feel better.
That's a very smart thing to do! Thanks for the idea! I'll definitely consider it since it makes the list less overwhelming ☺️
@@TammyLemon. Good luck Tammy....you can do it.
Aww so sorry.. I came here mainly to check on Stewie!
Hi Tammy. I’m so very sorry about Stewie 😢 poor little darling. On Friday my cat passed away also and I am absolutely heartbroken 💔 I feel so sad. I have lost my precious little friend. She meant so much to me and my family. My condolences for you and I hope you are coping alright with your loss xoxo
I'm very sorry for your loss too! I hope you'll be able to cope alright too! 😢 ❤️
@@TammyLemon. that’s very kind of you, thankyou ❤️ 🥺it’s tough at the moment as I’m sure it is for you also. it’s so sad saying goodbye to our little friends ☹️
Maybe Stewie was in good spirits at the vet as a way to thank you for seeing his pain and helping him. You set him free out of love, no matter how hard it was for you to let go you chose to love him more and ease his pain. He let you know it was okay and that you were making the right choice. That’s beautiful. ❤ Sleep in blissful peace Stewie.
I really hope you read this Tammy . Stop the protein drinks. You need to consume food not a smoothie . Your drinking the calories and its not satisfying you and causing your binging. Have you considered treating the depression with medication? I know the feeling of laying in bed and not being productive and that behavior is sooo negative. I literally would FORCE MYSELF TO GET UP AND IN THE SHOWER. set a timer and for example say in 20 minutes im getting in the shower. Then continue in 10 minutes im cleaning my bedroom. Baby steps yes. If you give in to the depression its bleak and a lonely place to be. When you push through it no matter how hard it is a huge accomplishment and you feel better about it all. Taking pride in your appearance and hygiene and self care helps with the eating disorders as well. If you begin to love yourself in outward appearances you continue with your health. Walking after a meal increases endorphins. It takes 6 weeks to develop a habit healthy or bad. So push yourself and say after breakfast i will walk even if its 5 min each day increase it . The endorphins produced help fight the depression. But some of us need antidepressants and if you are in that situation its no shame to get on meds. It is lifesaving in some situations. It can be discouraging because it takes a month to see results from it and the 1st medication might not work. But it is worth it to pursue if the depression is deplitating and controlling your life.
I’m so sorry.
I'm sorry for your loss. Hugs.
Sorry about Stewie. May he RIP
My love for my fur babies is stronger than it would ever be for any human being. I cried so hard watching this.. I hope your other babies had a chance to say goodbye as well and aren't left behind, confused about where their buddy is. Stay strong! Groetjes!
Cried so much 😢
Poor Stewie :(
Rest in peace stewie❤
New subscriber here. You had a tough week of processing all those sad and difficult emotions. I know what it’s like. The good thing is that you followed your binge by a day of positivity and accomplishments and a new mindset….yay!
I lost my shit at the Amber "dehumanizing" voice over lmao
Im so sorry for your loss😔❣️ about the health/diet/eating: i was a binger too for ca 30 years,and morbide obese as well. What helped me and gave me a New life a few month ago: to REALLY deep dive in the health aspect of my eating habits. Really inform about insulinresistance, Diabetes, the liver,the Pankreas and the gallbladder. ... REALLY inform me,what These exzessive suagergerbinges do to my body, that this things DESTROY my dody AND my soul. I saw another Video from you,where you mentioned that you dont wanna go low carb. I dont wanna Missionare you, but i would say you from my heart,that keto ist a really really helpful Tool to stop the binges. Wish you all the best
I just want to say that I also am on a weight loss journey. My heaviest was almost 450, but I am slowly losing. It's definitely baby steps! Try not to be too hard on yourself. If you mess up all you can do is try to do better next time. It's hard, but all you can do is your best 😊 I'm praying for you! 💜
Sending loads and loads of love your way for the loss of Stewie. You did the right thing by him!
I found the way you spoke about the binge/restrict cycle so refreshing, which is perhaps selfish of me. When I was a teenager, I had an EDNOS and would not eat for several days to save up for a binge. It was awful, but I was able to recover (though disordered thoughts around food and weight linger long after recovery). You articulated the thought cycle so clearly and I'm so sorry that you feel it too. I really believe in you and, again, am sending so much love and support your way. You've got this!
PS - I love your 'need to do' vs. 'want to do' list!
I'm so sorry Tammy , I'm Sarah I am 25 and I just moved to Norway and I've been binge eating from the age of 7 and understand the struggle. I'm currently 230lbs which is my new lowest but everyday is a struggle not to numb my emotions with food ... tomorrow is a big day for me as I am taking my elderly rabbit to the vets and I'm afraid the news won't be good ..and I'm scared I'll binge because of that but discovering your channel and watching you is helping me know I'm not alone in this struggle and I'm happy to find you .
What notes App do you use? I live off of lists
On my laptop I use google keep and Memo notepad ( don't really use my phone though google keep syncs to it) If I'm honest I prefer the old fashioned way of either pen and paper or those boards you can write on and wipe it off. I'm 61 lol .....we only had a pen and paper "back in the day" 😂😂
Sorry about Stewie, but you did the right thing for him. No one should suffer and you were a good and very loving 'mom' to him. Liebe Grüße
Rest In Paradise Stewie. Hope your kitty angel wings fly high buddy. 💕🕊️
New to your channel here. So sorry about your kitty but you made a avery kind and compassionate decision. Its a hard choice but he is now at peace ♡
I know you've been having a hard time with food and weight in general but you got this! Just keep on keeping on. YOU control your life, good doesn't.
You need to find a Ben and Jerries substitute. There are also some Ben & Jerries that are lower in calories. I can eat 1500 calories of Ben and Jerries in a day, sometimes with 5k calories of food, so i have some binge experience. I think the coffee flavour is lower in calories, but I'm not too sure. It's still like 1k a container I think.