My Life with an Eating Disorder & Body Dysmorphia * how it ruined my favourite thing in the world*
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- Опубліковано 25 вер 2024
- Hey guys!
Today’s video is very difficult for me to share and I’ve thought about uploading it for a very long time.
I’m sharing part of my story with my eating disorder & body dysmorphia and not realising that I was dealing with a mental illness framed by my story with ballet which was my hobby for many years.
This video is very long and it’s still not the entire story. I just have to keep some things private.
I’m sharing this for awareness. I don’t want to cause any harm, so please check the trigger warnings in the beginning of the video.
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Name: Victoria
Birthday: 21.02.2002
Age: 20 🕰
What I am studying: Teaching (subjects: English & History) at the LMU 📚
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this is the first time i see a "my eating disorder story" video by someone with atypical anorexia and i feel seen. i also always felt like i was "failing" at having an eating disorder and actually hearing someone else say that makes me feel a lot less alone. i hope you are in a better place mentally by now
Thank you so much for this comment. I really am in a better place mentally. Completed my therapy 2 months ago and I feel very positive about the future in those aspects
Your 13-year-old you was sooo pretty, really (all of your child pics). I just want you to know that you're a real role model for how to deal with it for everyone who will see this video. I know you don't need and want compassion, but I love how straight-forward you are and I feel soo sorry (like it really hurts my soul to see) that you kind of missed how beautiful you were/are just because of some stupid disorder. I hope you'll go trough this as soon as possible and as stronger as ever xx
Just halfway through: that teacher.... even IF he thought you are bragging too much... would it have hurt him to just ignore it or to kindly tell you directly, that you could change your attitude? I mean... getting someone "off" their high horse is sometimes needed (if and only IF that person is really damn arrogant)... but it's not needed to crush those people down.
Especially not teenagers as they still develope...
I have met so so many people in my life and almost every single one of them got bullied at least once from one of their teachers. Happened to me as well... it really causes damage well until adulthood... thank you for sharing your story
You're soo brave for sharing your story and you really can be proud of yourself
Thank you so so much
I was so invested in this whole story, I cried along with you. I relate to this on such a deep level. Losing so much of my life because of a fucking eating disorder. Grieving what I couldn't have and coming to terms with it. I am 23 right now and sometimes it helps me to know that the life I still have ahead of me is so much more than my darkest years. Someday they will belong to a far past that I might barely even remember. We can always start again, re-invent our lives and embrace every part of it even if we come from a very dark place. I think going through such mental health issues have enabled me to emphasize and connect with others on levels I could not before. You lose a lot, but through all the misery, you also become a person with a much richer understanding of the world, someone who knows what it means to hold boundaries now. Maybe in the end we are more free than the ones who have no idea what it's all like ❤
This is really interesting. Our stories align a lot. I also started puberty around 11, and despised my changing body and I gained weight during that time. I would do the summer thing where I would think "this summer I'm gonna eat so healthy and exercise and lose weight" and of course, never did. I wanted to act, but the same thoughts of "I'm too ugly to ever be hired" stopped me from truly pursuing. I also danced and had acne on my back and wearing leotards was so shameful for me because of that and my perceived "fatness". The difference is, while I deal with a major anxiety disorder and still deal with low self-esteem and body image issues, I never did develop anorexia, nor body dysmorphia. It's interesting how two similar journeys lead to different outcomes. Thank you for opening up and being vulnerable. I think you'll help a lot of people
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It means a lot to know that I’m not alone in my struggles. It‘s been almost 2 years since this video and I‘ve come very far since then. I believe you can too and I‘m sending lots of love, strength and hope for your journey. We can all get better. Thank you again for your comment
I hope you heal!! sending all good energy and praying tonight
thank u so much. I feel much better nowadays
wow wow wow, what an incredible video. you are so strong! i relate so much to your story and i feel so seen, thank you so much. i started ballet at 4 years old and lost touch with it at 15 and had to quit for the same reason. i never explained it to my instructor, whom i greatly liked and had the entire time i danced. she pushed me to be the best i could and gave me fun roles and i did jazz and hip hop and contemporary, but then i quit and it was all gone. i held onto all the good memories and spoke about them, but never answered why i quit when ppl would ask. before i quit i started going less and showed less enthusiasm and was losing my strength. i wish i told my instructor why i left and how amazing she was for all those years. it is very difficult to experience this but you are such an inspiration just by telling your story. i know this came out two years ago, but i personally found it at the right time. thank you for making this, i never comment on youtube videos but this deserves a big thank you.
Seeing this makes me so sad and I'm so angry to myself that I didn't realise what was going on. I should have noticed.. I am very proud of for sharing this and I'm sure you will find your happy place again
I love you❤ D
Danke, dass du deine Geschichte mit uns teilst
Danke dir für deinen lieben Kommentar und fürs gucken. Bedeutet mir sehr sehr viel
Thank you for sharing! Sending love to you
you have so much insight and our extremely self reflective! I have no doubt that as you become older, you’ll be able to handle whatever life throws at you. I thought I was strong but in my early 40s, I developed anorexia nervosa for the first time in my life. It took all those years of pretending I could cope.
wow, I am so incredibly proud of you for sharing this. You are so brave and strong and one of the most amazing people I ever got to meet. Lots of love !!!
You're so strong!! Thank you for sharing your story, you are beautiful inside and out ❤
Thank u so much ❤️
Won me as a subscriber. I think it’s very brave of you to pour out your heart the way you did on this video 🌸🌸🌸
Very strong to share the whole story!!
That's exactly the video I needed to watch. It will change my life.
Thank you so much, Tulia ❤️
take care
That makes me so happy to hear❤️ I wish you all the strength in the world ❤️
Im so proud of you 🥺Thank you for sharing and good luck for your journey from now on :)
So strong, thank you for sharing
Felt it so deeply, thanks for sharing your story
Danke fürs teilen ✨
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12 is not early for a period
You kind of look like sofía vergara
Warum sprichst du englisch ohne Akzent???
She does have an accent, it’s in certain word pronunciations.