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  • @khadijasenghor286
    @khadijasenghor286 Рік тому +191

    Your video essays are amazing and articulated in a way that contextualises the topics you talk about brilliantly. Your art is absolutely fucking gorgeous. Thank you so much for posting, I get a burst of happiness every time you do.

    • @jackieliuart
      @jackieliuart  Рік тому +14

      you are so kind imma cry 🥲 thank you so so much ❤️

  • @nur5239
    @nur5239 Рік тому +135

    I’ve been seeing this painting on your instagram and low key been falling in love with the composition. Very excited to see the backstory behind another amazingly executed piece

  • @royalewren
    @royalewren Рік тому +81

    I recently flew out from Kansas to visit Stanford (i’m a junior looking for colleges for applications next year). The whole tour I was secretly scanning crowds in hopes of catching a glimpse of you. I look up to you not just as a person, but as an artist, a writer, and a videographer. There is so much talent in your person, and this painting serves as a beautiful reminder. If you ever open up an exhibit, I’ll be first in line!

    • @jackieliuart
      @jackieliuart  Рік тому +14

      WOW i am beyond flattered 😭 you are so kind, thank you so so much ❤️❤️

    • @royalewren
      @royalewren Рік тому +1

      @@jackieliuart ❤

  • @ZayneYeager
    @ZayneYeager Рік тому +46

    I usually don’t leave comments but I just wanna say that this painting really really hit home for me. I live in a very homogenous white suburban community, so hearing how you beautifully articulate all the things I’ve been feeling is so validating and comforting. Your painting is haunting yet gorgeous and this is something that’s really going to stick with me. Thank you Jackie!

  • @prexytheartist
    @prexytheartist Рік тому +9

    The painting looks amazing and you told your story amazingly well. It really feels weird to be detached from a culture, it's like an identity was stolen and replaced with clichés and gross understatements. Instead of people looking beyond our race, we are reduced to society's stereotypes.

  • @mandilu4914
    @mandilu4914 Рік тому +19

    I don't comment on videos often, but every time I see one of yours, I always am so blown away that I feel like it'd be a crime to not tell you how fantastic and perfectly executed the video, the painting, and the topic overall is. Your videos articulate the nuances of the topic so well, as do your paintings. You are such an inspiration Jackie.

  • @BlueSpadesArt
    @BlueSpadesArt Рік тому +18

    Aw man, I gotta be honest, this video really got to me. Although I don’t share all of your experiences (I wish you luck cultivating your own life, for yourself) I can understand being and feeling isolated because of the way you look. I’m mixed race, so really no matter where I go I’m not exactly anyone’s type. I won’t go on a rant about my personal experience, but I do want to say that you will never be alone with this. In the long term, you just have to be true to who you are, and your own life events.
    Good luck and Happy New Year

  • @lyssasletters3232
    @lyssasletters3232 Рік тому +8

    Your writing skills are admirable! I love your use of poetic prose (alliteration, uncommon verbs, etc), and the CONTENT of what you write is deeply profound and important! I wish everyone could watch this video. I’m grateful that I have come across your UA-cam channel. You teach me a lot by sharing your own experiences in a historical context with lots of primary sources! Thank you!!!!

  • @brad_bohannan2121
    @brad_bohannan2121 Рік тому +10

    ive never heard someone be able to articulate their feelings so well, with words and paint and brush. so beautiful❤️

  • @navaafriat9424
    @navaafriat9424 Рік тому +5

    If I were to try and explain to someone what the purpose of art is, I would send them straight to your channel. The perfect example of art as a window into someone's individual experience of life, as a tool of conveying a message that resonates. A case where (incredible) talent truly rests safely in the right hands. Keep doing what you're doing Jackie, the world needs more art like yours x

  • @marciaharvey9533
    @marciaharvey9533 Рік тому +18

    This was amazing. I appreciate your capacity to keep sharing parts of yourself with us all. Very thankful for you. Thanks Jackie! ❤❤

    • @jackieliuart
      @jackieliuart  Рік тому +2

      that means so much to me thank you 🥺💕

  • @tianshuili870
    @tianshuili870 Рік тому +5

    your Chinese name is beautiful and unique, not assimilated in popular formulas of creating Chinese names. And I've always felt similar when my name is pronounced incorrectly that I suddenly dislike it. love your creativity and thoughtfulness!!

  • @myre4975
    @myre4975 Рік тому +11

    I'm not Asian but I'm a black man and no matter what gender or race you are i still see you as human,they shouldn't have done that but that's the world we live in,alots of people feel in titled thinking they can do and say what they want to people but what we can do is forgive and pray for them because that is evil and messed up,they need to change

    • @eviearthur1282
      @eviearthur1282 Рік тому +4

      i agree completely, the world needs to change. there is too much hate in this world. people need to wake up, educate themselves and change, because it does not cause any good in the world, only pain, suffering and resentment.

  • @estrellasjournal
    @estrellasjournal Рік тому +7

    i’m in awe of your videos and have no idea how you have time to paint, edit and post videos every week

  • @BEe-hi4my
    @BEe-hi4my Рік тому +4

    We hear your writing rather than seeing the words, but I just wanted to say, you’re a beautiful writer. The way ypu set up ideas; the twists; the pacing; the imagery. You’re very observant and very skilled.

    • @angelwings7930
      @angelwings7930 Рік тому

      She’s a self-pitying infant. Everyone should treasure their heritage but this was a bit of a silly pity party.

  • @eviearthur1282
    @eviearthur1282 Рік тому +1

    thank you for your words, they are incredible heartbreaking, cutting, beautiful and need to be heard by so many

  • @TheOffspringg
    @TheOffspringg Рік тому +2

    I love this video.Hearing a little of your past history and the Chinese storys.Its like hearing a book on tape,with pictures.You have amazing skills.Keep up the awesome work.

  • @khadijaali7388
    @khadijaali7388 Рік тому +2

    This is so beautiful. I dont know how you explained everything to amazingly and your painting is just gorgeous. Your poeticness has like had a effect on me that I cannot explain.

  • @gw7911
    @gw7911 Рік тому +9

    Your videos always inspire me and make me think, I love them so much.

  • @lyroycaupain9885
    @lyroycaupain9885 Рік тому

    i really love the way you contextualize your paintings with engaging storytelling🙌🏽😩

  • @marlontalks
    @marlontalks Рік тому

    this video essay is soo relatable!! I can’t believe we both had similar experiences growing up (I’m Filipino Chinese). I’m researching how to write identity based college essays and your use of metaphors and figurative language is super intuitive.

  • @thebrokelife6168
    @thebrokelife6168 Рік тому +1

    breathtaking painting, honestly just amazing.

  • @Charcoal_Dave
    @Charcoal_Dave Рік тому +1

    Amazing piece of work Jackie, very much enjoyed the info :)

  • @marnisenicoleart
    @marnisenicoleart Рік тому +5

    I love your video essays! I always take away something new watching your videos and actually just take the time to sit and take in ur work.

  • @TheMouseandTheWall
    @TheMouseandTheWall Рік тому +4

    Hello, Jackie. I don't have much to add to the conversation which you presented in the video other than my own personal experience and viewpoint on the matter. I am by definition 'Asian-American,' who also happens to be an immigrant to this country. Being an 'Asian-American' often entails being confused as to where you belong, and on many occasions that confusion will lead to an identity crisis. The fact that we are physically distinct from the rest of the American population means that we cannot assimilate and live in American society without acknowledging that we are of an Asian background, which goes without saying, can feel... 'othering.' Most Asian-American youth grow up with this strange dichotomy between feeling different from other people because of how we are perceived, but also being young and wanting to fit in. At a young age I fully accepted myself as an American, and I don't every really associate myself with my home country anymore. The term 'Asian-American' feels ill-fitting when describing myself, which I guess saved me from having to deal with issues relating to my identity, LOL. Anyways, you show such creative and technical skill in your art like always. Will always show love to another young artist.

  • @stilllearning498
    @stilllearning498 Рік тому +3

    I was literally wondering if you will post soon 😭😭😭
    It's so good as usual 🥺😭

  • @erilovegrove1622
    @erilovegrove1622 Рік тому +1

    Girl you have done it again 🙌🏼💕

  • @stellaisafrooog
    @stellaisafrooog Рік тому +2

    This painting is absolutely breathtaking. I admire the way u are able to turn such complex and beautiful emotions and feelings into even more complex and beautiful pieces of art. You seem like such a beautiful and kind soul:) never stop being you

  • @doyoumindmyinterruption
    @doyoumindmyinterruption Рік тому

    omg you are so so underrated!!!
    I wish more people saw your channel because the way you speak, it is so eloquent and you are so so educated on the matter!!!
    I really admire you as a person🥰🥰🥰

  • @sora1498
    @sora1498 Рік тому +1

    i just want to say, the way you paint is just so mesmerising, and the way u make skin look so REAL is really inspiring, youre truly so talented! keep it up! ❤

  • @Cooper-fe2zj
    @Cooper-fe2zj Рік тому +3

    Thank you for sharing!!

  • @unokatjioungua459
    @unokatjioungua459 Рік тому +1

    This was amazing baba, so proud of you for sharing this amazing video essay. I’m sure it will inspire so many people who feel the same way and are still learning to accept themselves for who they are 👏🏾♥️

  • @PirosmaniArt
    @PirosmaniArt Рік тому +1

    Phenomenal artwork ❤❤🎉wow girl much appreciated!!! I am in love Art genuinely

  • @yllanew
    @yllanew Рік тому +1

    i had the exact same experience with my middle name :,) like i didn't even experience much racism growing up yet i was still sooo embarrassed of my "weird" chinese middle name that I refused to say it out loud till like high school. hearing your story made me tear up a bit -- i love your work.

  • @firelordOzai3
    @firelordOzai3 Рік тому

    This was amazing, Jackie.

  • @DrawJam
    @DrawJam Рік тому +1

    This was beautiful and all too relatable. Thank you.

  • @Audion
    @Audion Рік тому

    You are loved Jackie! 🎨🖼️🖌️

  • @lyssasletters3232
    @lyssasletters3232 Рік тому

    Wait, I totally forgot to mention that your painting is exquisite!!!!

  • @rasman1876
    @rasman1876 Рік тому +1

    I appreciate you as an artist. I enjoy your work and what you have to say. You inspire me! Keep up the good work!

  • @taylorkrajnik9819
    @taylorkrajnik9819 Рік тому +4

    On my lunch break and I’m so happy you posted this at the perfect time. Beautiful and profound as always🫶

  • @kirahsmiley
    @kirahsmiley 7 місяців тому

    ❤❤ loved every word. Thx for sharing. Learned lots.

  • @pomurephi6880
    @pomurephi6880 Рік тому +3

    Who are you..?
    You are; A constant transformational evolving evolutionary indigenous being to all there is.
    Your mind wanders constantly,
    Your innate senses of birth allows you to feel everything you see,
    Don't be ashame, or fearful of who..
    And what you are,
    You do yourself injustice trying to fit in,
    One of the hardest things I've had to come to terms with..
    Is realizing that there is knowone else like me,
    Once I did.. I realized what I am..
    Is truly a gift, let it flow,
    Be proud of who.. and what you are,
    Spread your invisible wings,
    And fly high above the clouds.

  • @nanami266
    @nanami266 Рік тому +2

    beautiful beautiful words and painting

  • @Fatemokhtar
    @Fatemokhtar Рік тому +1

    It grately intelligent to find a way to express your emotions and thoughts and pains and sorrows and transform it into something so stunning and beautiful
    It’s amazing to know you❤️

  • @Wetthamm
    @Wetthamm Рік тому

    Amazing video. I needed to see this

  • @martikyRE
    @martikyRE Рік тому +1

    I share the opinion already comented here by lots of your fans that your videos, essays, art is always beautiful and goes directly to your heart. I don't want to be repetitive so I simply wanted to thank you for sharing your experiencies, you are an inspiration. I got into drawing a few months ago and someday I would like to do something meaningul as well but the idea to share my most personal feelings and traumas it causes me anxiety just to imagine since I'm a very introvert and reserved person. You have motivated me to be a bit more open and recently I felt more comfortable sharing my draws wich might not seem like a big deal. I hope one day I'll get there and probably you won't even see it you will be partially responsible for that.
    Finally, although I love your videos and I don't know you personally, every time I see the thumbnail of a new video I'm a bit worried that it will be a traumatic video. I hope you can deal better with all these issues and your pieces one day transmit your happines and the things you genuenly enjoy in life.
    Thank you again and have a good day.

  • @emilyosullivan6770
    @emilyosullivan6770 Рік тому

    I really liked this video. Thank you, Jackie.

  • @tanya-s
    @tanya-s Рік тому

    god i love your art so much

  • @Alex_Millan
    @Alex_Millan Рік тому

    This brought tears to my eyes 👏🏽 I’m first generation Mexican American…. I relate to your story in so many ways. Lovely artwork with such deep meaning! Bravo ❤

  • @ririmclife
    @ririmclife Рік тому

    this is so amazing!!

  • @fuzzydragons
    @fuzzydragons Рік тому

    you and what we are, questions that we really cant get final solid answer of. who you identify as, will always be changing as you grow as a person. im your typical irish/hungiarian canadian, but the longer i stay in scotlnd, i really do need to evaluate if I still consider myself canadian or scottsh

  • @bak3456
    @bak3456 Рік тому

    Amazing work!

  • @PunOverlord
    @PunOverlord Рік тому

    Whoa. The whole smart/pretty thing hit harder than i expected it to. Amazing video however!

  • @pretentioussystem
    @pretentioussystem Рік тому +3

    Great painting! 🙂🙂🙂
    Many thanks for sharing the deeply moving story behind it.
    Though I only experience/d a way milder form of group rejection I can fully relate to your well articulated experiences and the underlying oppressive nature of other local people.
    Happy New Year! I wish you all the best!
    Here is a little digital🧧 for the 22nd for you 😃

  • @pomurephi6880
    @pomurephi6880 Рік тому +1

    My eyes are intensified
    Luring you to acknowledge all that you try to deny,
    My smile is subtle,
    But inside... Screams outloud
    Could it be...
    My painted rosie cheeks...
    Or the smallness of my feet,
    Could it be the cracks in my face
    From years of tears and sadness..
    And left feeling ashamed,
    Could it be the color of my skin..
    That I'm left to defend,
    Who ami..
    Iam a cultural treasure,
    And my talent knows no end.

  • @-WANZ
    @-WANZ Рік тому

    this was beautiful

  • @ish4638
    @ish4638 Рік тому +3

    This was so beautiful, and really well phrased. One question: was your reference to the "broken telephone" game an intentional play on it being yet another example of something that isn't truly Asian being stereotyped as and called "Chinese"? Where I live, that game is called Chinese whispers, but I don't know if it's the same in the States. If it was intentional then that's really clever, and if not then it's an interesting coincidence :)

  • @Blandde_Arts
    @Blandde_Arts Рік тому

    Cerita tentang krisis identitas orang Asian di Amerika itu sangat menginsfirasi. Semoga Tuhan selalu merahmatimu.🌹🌿.....

  • @snugglyduck6534
    @snugglyduck6534 Рік тому +3

    Amazing work. There was a popular thing to call America in the past which I see in a more sinister light now when I hear these stories: a melting pot (diversity). But if you imagine crayons to identities, kinds, types, throwing them into a pot and melting them, it's like erasure and loss of identity. The shape of my nose was the target for most scorn, but ridicule is oft just a power play by those that seek leadership/superiority. America is ripe for that, the loss of civility for the gain of frivolity which leads to cruelty, the merry amusement of imps and narcissists. Most comedy is just veiled bullying, threats, and protecting a superiority, in most cases a white supremacy. And your coach was definitely someone who used his authority to be sexist and racist at the same time, hurray. My sister who had red hair was called bird dog in front of the class by her 5th Grade teacher because he had an Irish Setter, but everyone loved him - he was so fun and funny.🙄Nothing like an authority figure like your coach and my sister's teacher dog whistling your classmates that racism and bullying is a-okay - it's "just a joke." Just remember, you have every right to your heritage, and I always look to what calls to me, like my Scottish heritage as well as my Saxon roots, and just research them - the foundation. And the best guide based on my experience is music - I noticed that Celtic music just did something in me, made me nostalgic, made me want to go home. Even when it's used in Anime soundtracks (love that), the influences that do spread out across the earth reveal there is some interconnection in us, that somehow we are all family, just I want to disown and disavow the majority because man, can people set the bar any lower for their own dignity? Edit: And I'll add I always hated the term Asia or Asian because it's a made up name and it's a large continent - a huge land mass. I'm always, can you narrow it down just a tad. All of our places are imagined, just names put on territories (areas), meaning we're supposed to uphold, so I always laugh when someone with their DNA results say they're a percentage German and I'm like, "Germany is newer than America" - it was Saxony, until Charlemagne reigned terror over what is now Europe, so I take those references with a grain of salt and just go back as far as I can to see if my ancestors are directing me/calling to me.

  • @palesamagonare
    @palesamagonare Рік тому

    Damn. This is beautiful

  • @mlot4470
    @mlot4470 Рік тому

    wow 👏👏👏

  • @francoispierrejr
    @francoispierrejr Рік тому

    I love this

  • @lucassanchez4938
    @lucassanchez4938 Рік тому +3

    UKMMMMMMM WHAT HAPPENED TO THE GRAPHITE SLANDER

  • @Urbexion
    @Urbexion Рік тому +2

    look , I wish was there when you littler I and native American and Asian I know what it means to feel like you are you only one, and feel objectified I hope you can be at pace. ( I love your vids and you make my day all the better thanks ~ ) and happy new year if no one will I will say it .

  • @sharongillesp
    @sharongillesp Рік тому +2

    Tried to signup to your Patreon account but it keeps saying “503 Service Unavailable.” ?????

  • @cathie3874
    @cathie3874 Рік тому

    You are a sensitive soul. Good for art.

  • @JCarrera_ll
    @JCarrera_ll Рік тому +3

    Just my thoughts not a real critique🖤 and like i say below it's only up to us until certain extent; "Identity...fictional" like you said it's only what you make of it, there's no need for cultural heritage if you decide that, there's no need for patriotism being from this team, place etc, we're all people in the same world, but yeah let's keep separating each other, all racial terms are (forgot which word you used, flawed or something) not just asian-american, but of course our shit society so we still have those and are being taught and supposed to care for them, ultimately each one of us wether we like it or not, our fault or not, keep perpetuating it, but there must be some things we can do so 🤷‍♂️, just have a nice one🖤

  • @elgracko
    @elgracko Рік тому

    That first song was really relaxing, watching this is like visual Asmr, heheh,
    A lot of what she said seemed like a mind Fk, defining yourself, while concious of yourself, at the same time concious of the artificiality of that autodefinition, like impostor syndrome to the point of pulling the rug from under your own feet,
    all in a cultural context of the objectification of your particular 'other' group in that not hot enough melting pot?
    i'd personally prefer to abandon cultural heritage, to embrace a world citizenship, when you don't belong really anywhere, you can akwardly port your ship everywhere!

  • @chaaangchaaaang
    @chaaangchaaaang Рік тому

    I love your work. May I know how long it took for you to finish this?

  • @OldLadyMapleSeed
    @OldLadyMapleSeed Рік тому

    @AmeliaAshton-rt6lp
    0 seconds ago
    I wish you could have seen a student at my conservative, small-town mentality province high school perform a sword dance in Chinese clothing at our cultural festival while her classmates screamed and clapped for her when you were my age. Nothing will change how you were made to feel growing up, but I thought it might nice to know you much things are changing for many young Asian North Americans.

  • @JCarrera_ll
    @JCarrera_ll Рік тому +1

    🖤👏

  • @uri3135
    @uri3135 Рік тому

    Hi! What app do you use to edit your videos?

  • @knc1111
    @knc1111 Рік тому

  • @bruv790
    @bruv790 Рік тому

    i hate that i relate to this shit

  • @whatsup7064
    @whatsup7064 Рік тому

    Imagine how south Asians feel lmao ☠️

  • @ramooyeido1772
    @ramooyeido1772 Рік тому +3

    you are a lovely butterfly and a beautiful rose
    you are the diamond and the pure gold
    you are the lovely moon in our nights
    you are the radiant sun shining soo bright
    loving you is sooo sweet its the most enjoyable thing
    for you are the paradise for the heart and soul and mind
    Everything about you is sooo unique and attracts the eyes and captivates the mind
    God surely perfected you so glorified is he whom made you too beautiful and made you soo smart/soo bright.

  • @eviearthur1282
    @eviearthur1282 Рік тому

    I feel so ashamed to belong to a race and that has caused and causes so much harm to so many people, cultures and countries. I am so sorry for everything that so many people have faced and still have to face everyday. It is unacceptable. It is shocking that so many people get away with casual racism and abuse. It is absolutely horrifying that someone can cause so much harm to another person and not feel a shred of guilt about what they have done.
    I hope our society changes and becomes more accepting of everyone. From every background. Even from a background with a bad history. I think that the actions of our ancestors were not our own but they still have an impact. It is our job as the current generation to love one another, each and every human on this earth. We are all in the same boat. We have different cultures and backgrounds but we are all human. I hope that humanity can come together and accept that hate and resentment will not save any lives or make life for anyone better. I try my hardest to never judge people, no matter what their past actions are, how they look or what they say, because we all came from somewhere. We were all babies and children once and I think it’s our responsibility to recognise that and give kindness to everyone, even if they may seem to be undeserving. It is also our job to educate, just how this video has educated me and opened my mind and perspective. I will not ignore or put up with racism and abuse. Which is why I belive we must protect those receiving the abuse but also educate the abusers to stop the cycle of hate. The problems will not stop without education and sharing of feelings. This video has certainly made an impact on me and I hope that it reaches many more people.
    Thank you so much for your art, you have the ability change the way people think and I think that is a really incredible thing to be able to do. I am so inspired by you.