What growing up in a CULT taught me
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- Опубліковано 28 сер 2024
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Hi Amanda. I always lived my life to try to make others happy and it never worked I was always miserable until I decided I was tired of being miserable and I came out as being gay and I've been happy on and off since then. Once I got married I can say I was always happy till I lost my wife in October
I agree and I felt the same way when I was constantly trying to live a life to please everyone other than myself. I am so proud of you for choosing you 💜 you deserve happiness. I am sorry to hear that you lost your wife :( that must have been so difficult 😔
around the 11:00 min mark when you mention the idea of having children in the cult and perpetuating the abuse was what made you leave is really making me wanna cry on this mother’s day. it’s so sad bc to me the opposite side of that feeling is, why didn’t someone feel this way about you as a child and i wanted to break down. i don’t even have kids of my own yet but that’s also because of the fear of raising them in the same kind of environment i was. im so happy that we have your voice and that you are speaking out 💗
You've literally been the best therapy for me ❤ I used to be so shy and I have been firmly and respectfully standing up for myself lately to my family who i used to people please and it feels so good ❤❤
You got this 💗
@@amandacamposrodriguez9971 awwww thanks ☺️
Amanda I'm so proud of you for learning this and knowing this in your heart.❤ You are HEL0ING SO MANY PEOPLE. Thank you so much, 💓 😊. I'm a 71 yr old grandma and it took me Years to understand this . To your OWNSELF BE TRUE❣️❣️
Great video. ❤ I didn’t grow up in a cult, but this video touched me, I’m learning who I truly am as an almost 38 year old woman with past trauma.
Thank you for this! It feels in line with the book I’ve been reading and working through. It’s called The Artist’s Way and it’s made me face some really deep truths about standing in my own way
A surprising, but fun place to glean this wisdom is Rupaul's Drag Race. Rupaul is a very wise man.
Hi Amanda & everyone!
Just to check in after missed the later than expected live last Sunday.
Still kinda reeling from the 3 deaths in very close proximity, but am doing ok. Although we were not able to make it the 950ish miles to go to the funeral for our 20 yr old niece that was murdered, we WERE able to donate $100 (amongst many other donations) to help fund it.
My husband & I are both just trying to remember the good times with each between my friend, our niece, & my brother passing & trying to keep busy to have some type of normalcy in the sadness.
On a good note, I was able to order a Valiant Unicorn box for my Mom for Mother's Day (THANK YOU VAL SNOW!!!) & it arrived a day early. We're planning to meet up with my mom (with Valiant Unicorn box & 2 dozen roses) to take her out for lunch on Sunday.
I think my mom just likes it I'm willing to give her roses now without going out & cutting them off her rose bushes as I'm not a kid 10 miles from the nearest town anymore. 🤣
That is a lot on your plate :/ *hugs* hope your mom loves the box I think the candle smells great ❤
@@denisepace3229 I hope she does too. I need to remember to tell her to put it all up to save it until we're past Spring. Her nose is so freaking plugged up from allergies. Every year, I always remind her "at least it's not as bad as at the ranch & have to get shots in your sinuses too!" on top of allergy pills & nasal spray. She loves stuff like homemade soaps, candles, & such.
Great video! As usual 😍 I wonder if you have considered going to school for some kind of counseling/ psychology. You would be an amazing therapist ( actually, in my opinion you already are) the journey continues ❤️
Amanda Rae, you are really
so wise. I'm not sure how you managed to get such a good understanding of all of this stuff when you were brought up where you were. You must have done a lot of hard work. Good for you!!! You go girl!!!
I love this concept. We can all be stuck in our own programming and not be able to move up and out!! It's always worth self examination and a good re-evaluation of what is working!! It's so clear that's something that You have done (and probably continue to do). Thanks for the video!!!
I haven’t been in a cult but have been in and out of Catholic and Christian churches but for some reason I connect to many of the ideas you speak on. I appreciate you sharing your truths and experiences! Keep up the amazing videos and talks! 💖💖
Absolutely ❤❤❤❤ love you so much!!!!!!
Ah the church of Amanda Rae, praise!!!
Amanda the last minutes of this video especially spoke to me! Thank You!
Great video, very meaningful to me!
Love this video! I agree 100% that you need to live your life for you, take personal accountability or you’ll be miserable. Define yourself, don’t let others define you. Thank you, Amanda!
I really appreciate your advice even though I didn't grow up in polygamy. It's really eye opening
Thank you for this Amanda ❤
Man so called bio father use to call me a hoe n other words and yet i did not sleep with any man till i was 18 then he always breated me also like that so called man who gave me life. When i finally gave up that ghost, then i learned i am who im meant to be. i also know I don't need someone to tell me my value. l can be me without hearing all that but if i hear it gives me more help with learning. I'M the best at my life.
My dad said similar things about me and I felt a lot of shame and it took SO LONG to finally realize him acting like that had NOTHING to do with me and EVERYTHING to do with how miserable he was.
@AmandaLovesRachel now that he's in prison I won't let that man have validation over who I am I can say hi my name is Patricia Nichole Kellermyer and I'm blessed to have my life and my family
A great topic as always, and I gotta say I love your blazer!!
I just want to tell you that I know exactly what you’re saying and I’m 38 years old and I’m just now for the first time taking the steering wheel. I’m so terrified but something told me there’d be something on your channel that would make me feel less scared. I’m on day three in my own place (just renting a room) with my son.
Honestly, you kick ass! Freakin' wise words that take most people a lifetime to learn.. (if they learn it at all)
Amanda, I love your story!!!!
Mm feel this
Holy shit Amanda. This video hiiits this morning. I have to save it to rewatch
eminds me of the philosophy of John Stuart Mill: 'Human nature is not a machine to be built after a model, and set to do exactly the work prescribed for it, but a tree, which requires to grow and develop itself on all sides, according to the tendency of the inward forces which make it a living thing.' He also says that when you suppress alternative opinions and believe what you believe simply because you have learned it and never challenge it, even true beliefs have no value, as you are no longer connected to the 'why.' That is when you are not living a life that is truly yours.
I’ve truly learned so much from you Amanda and I genuinely thank you. ❤
I hope I’m not too far out of place asking how you feel about the new Worthy Up that MB is trying to get off of the ground. Money aside, do you feel it may be a harmful platform for ppl needing a mental health outlet?
I’m not perfect, but had to find sobriety on my own (grew up w an LDS father & most of the extended family I never felt comfortable around; a lot of relatives and ancestors were afflicted by addictions), it took and still does take a lot of hard work and introspection. I learned long ago when someone said something triggering to me, that it contained an element of truth I needed to look at and work on to improve myself, behaviors and thinking.
I’m srsly concerned abt others who may think her new venture will help whatever ails them.
Thanks for your straight talk on being a victim to survivor to success. I hope others who are struggling with individuality will listen and learn from you & your channel.
I was raised fundie Evangelical. What you say here is very, very accurate.
It's all about external validation and approval of your life, which is a never-ending battle, because you're YOU, not THEM.
Great video! Thank you
Thanks!
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You are amazing inside and out.
Your mind blows mine.
Im not good with people over valuing me. Its too much to live up to. I can only be who i am, and i am far from perfect. But i see what your saying
WOW! What a brilliant video ! I am from England and i really am amazed at how much you have grown over the months and months i have been watching your videos :) Pat yourself on the back Amanda because everything you spoke about in this video is 100% correct ! Once you give your control over to someone else then you have lost the game ! The thing is Religion has been miss interpreted and especially what Jesus was all about ! He didn't want people to follow him so he could control their minds ,he wanted them to learn off his mind so they can then go off and spread his words ! Basically he broke everything the Church believed was true and blew it into a million bits ! You don't need to believe in God to respect what Jesus said ,because he was a human ,who was a Preacher regardless of whether you believe he did miracles, this is where the Church and religion has lost its way !
Hi, what ah excellent video! You should be proud of yourself and I hope *TEDx* picks up on how fantastic you are and.
Respectfully, Grace 🩰
Sorry, HELPING 😮❤
💯 Amanda Rae Rae, I have a moment in almost every dating relationship when I ask how did I get here and the answer is always bc I was a passenger in the relationship.
Hi Amanda,
Looking beautiful as always! Can’t wait to watch later!
I have a quick question. I know your aunts have passed away in the order. Were the siblings that left allowed to attend their funerals?
awww thank you💜💜💜💜
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Your all brains, humor, and beautiful why haven't I met you! Fml your in my city and i'm living in the area that used to be yours! Fml god must be mad at me for something .....smh
Did you see profiling evils video about the flds cave. It’s very interesting.
Why are there thousands of views on this and other videos of yours but few likes? Are there 1000s of cult members viewing your videos and leaving stunned and inanimate or down-voting?
Hi
Your So Beautiful 🥰
So according to you, if your love language is words of affirmation... then you're mentally unwell and have no self confidence??
Please look into who wrote that book and why. What she's talking about is intrinsic value, meaning you may like people to say nice things to you and it feels good, but you already know that they are true because you are a beautiful human being.