I spent my whole life not knowing I was suffering from maternal narcissism abuse. I spent hours upon hours in counseling since I was 19 and not one single therapist ever mentioned parental narcissism. I had a breakdown at the age of 22 from complex ptsd. I didn't find out what I was dealing with until I reached the age of 45. Ugh! This is by far the most difficult thing to overcome.
Finally a professional therapist that "understands". Almost all therapists I've talked to do not know what narcissism really is and yet they think they do because they are professionals. Unfortunately, unless you've lived through dealing with a narcissist, you do not understand. And, I will say not all narcissists are exactly the same. Some have higher degrees of narcissism and some are milder narcs. There are also different kinds of narcs. The more you educate yourself by watching all the UA-cam videos, etc., the more you can protect yourself from future abuse moving forward. I will also say beware because there are narcissists posing as healers on the internet, pretending to help narcissist survivors. There are so many narcs out in the world. Awareness is key. Stay away from them at all costs.
I think it could do more harm than good to go to a therapist that doesn’t understand narcissism. Just like trying to talk about it with the people I love most made me feel worse instead of better. If they don’t understand, their words can hurt you. I felt victimized for being a victim. Just the words get over it, move on, and everyone goes through heartbreak seem like salt in the wound. I’m only speaking from experience, not from a professional aspect. So my words are just my thoughts, and heart just cares.
I can relate to so much of this, especially the exhaustion, I thought I was dying towards the end of the relationship. I was going from doctor to doctor trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I took sleep tests etc..., I realized it was the narc when my energy started to come back after we split. I haven't been able to stop searching the internet and reading book on the subject of narcissism and narcissism.
it hurts to watch them hurt you, it hurts even more to watch them move on as if you never existed. Toss you away like trash. A year ago I was involved in relationship with a antisocial psychopath. He feed on my worst fears, he tore open my past wounds and feed on me like a vampire. he made me so weak that I developed cancer. a gift from God. I was useless to him and no longer served a purpose. so our engagement ended. the veil was lifted and all the things I tried to hide about him from myself, came flooding in like a Damm broke open. I am healing. I am cancer free. 4 surgeries in a year. l lost my beautiful long hair. now I am reborn. free to do anything I desire. yet I still struggle. but I am happy. a year since I been abused. getting better everyday. I saw your video and your still hurt. I just want you to know it only gets better from here. I am not alone and neither are you. you have family, friends and life. she has nothing. just a false sense of being and a deep void where a heart should be. pray for them they know no better. for if they had a belief in a higher power they would know the spirit of mercy. let's show mercy as if we need mercy from our Creator. the best revenge is living well.
Haven’t heard of this until recently. I still live with my narc parents so I go through different cycles. However, these past couple weeks, I’ve felt 99% of these symptoms. Constantly crying, feeling soulfully depressed, constantly engulfed by noises, lights, and people. I dont have friends, because they all ditched me during quarantine. So every day i draw further and further into isolation. Been dealing with this for going on 21 years now. I’m so unbelievably exhausted, my body hurts everyday, my brain is always waiting and ready to just be shut off. This video was very enlightening, I know one day I’ll truly be able to heal away from the constant exposure.
you nailed it perfectly.. To know some one else has experienced the horror and agony.. Its been a year for me and still have not been able to get over this fully.. tears streaming now.
Thank you so much for this video. I've left my Narcissist twice, the second time was yesterday. The 1st time I suffered severe PTSD for 5 months and was hospitalised 3 times. Thank you for raising awareness on the hell these people unleash. Melanie Tonia Evans is amazing, I'm glad you mentioned her. Her videos on stopping the blame and stopping yourself from being a victim and looking within for change are life changing.
I had terrible Amnesia, completely forgot who I am, my name, identity, parents, religion, memories, all those years of life.... just gone for a few seconds and had severe panick attack, feel terrible when I remember that moment. I felt as if I was gonna die or go psycho or something at that moment. my world was shattered into pieces. later that month I suffered from Depression.
hey donna I'm a mental health therapist..this is called gas lighting (when your abuser tells you you are crazy) i have a video i made about this on my channel...your not crazy.
For all those people out there wondering whether they have been narcisstically abused remember this - Did you ever go in search of answers with any other break up? I believe not and that is the way that you know you have been narcisticaly abused. Sending everyone love and hugs
I have all 50 of your symptoms. I'm so glad you can confirm for me that I'm not crazy for staying away from mainstream therapy. As I've told you before, I've read way too many books hoping and praying that I could find someone who could connect to how I feel, what I have been going through and give me some help in healing from this nightmare. Thank you for Jennifer. We will be discussing your latest 2 videos on narcissistic abuse syndrome.
hi peggy r u saying the most therapist do not understand covert narsicist abuse...this one has to be the most demonic...38 years with my covert narsicist Jezebel wife...wtf ...im have dead with autoimmune disease and more...
I am four plus years out of that kind of relationship and I do believe, as does multiple therapists, that I am damaged for life not because I'm broken but because I have learned compassion and my heart just can't take anyone being hurt or taken advantage of. I defend the helpless and hopeless. I will speak out...LOL...no one can shut me up! I am full of love and so very much joy. MsRhuby! Star Diamond
Best and most helpful abuse video I've EVER come across!! I truly can't thank you enough ... just wrote all 50 down - every single one resonates true, for me. I so appreciate your openness and vulnerability. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart!!
wow. I started watching this video and the first symptom "a whole bunch of crying" your heart feels like it was shattered...and I started crying. I can relate to all of these symptoms and I just really believed I am unlovable and that I fail at everything. I stay alone as much as I can and make myself as numb as possible. Thank you because I feel there is someone out there that might understand me..
All the symptoms I've been experiencing since I separated her, this kind of people are no joke, they seriously mess you up, I was avoiding facing all these issues because I didn't want to feel like the victim but it wasn't until I found all of these videos and people with my own problems that I felt identified and relieved. Thanks
My physically, mentally and emotionally abusive ex that I have not spoken to is back in town and I haven’t talked to or seen him since 2013. He crushed my soul, I am still a shell of the person I was even here in 2021. It was from ages 19-26 & it messed me up. It ruined me. I had a 4.75 gpa at DU. I dropped out bc I was so depressed from the abuse and I never finished my last two years of college. Now he is back and I am falling apart. At least he wasn’t nearby before and I was still soooooooo affected by it. Now he is back here. I am devastated. Flashbacks nonstop ;-(
My name is Mark Stasz. I was a chiropractor, I am a father to an amazing son, and I am a victim of Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome. Each and Every one of these 50 symptoms is exactly what I was and am going thru. But not much longer.
God, Christ uses "different" help and healing aids for different people. He knows what we will heed to better based on our faith in Him. I'm just so happy you are RECOVERING and HELPING others!
Mark last night on the live stream i mentioned how you were the first person to tell me what i was going through. This is the video. i got emotional with you when you started to cry. you literally saved me and i am not joking at ALL. i went 5 months without knowing was going on with me. I am so thankful for you and your making of this video. I havent had a good cry or scream. after seeing this i felt such relief. Thank you so much. I love your channel. You are so helpful! Much love to you and all you do for us 💙💙💙
24 years later, I still bear the emotional scars from the soulless young man who did this to me. Thankfully I have found a wonderful husband and my children make my life complete, but I wish I had never met the narcissist! I don't think the damage ever leaves 100%. Spot on video. Thank you.
when you think you have no power, that's when you have the most power because that's when you've had enough and no matter what the narc wants, you may be hurt, but you are still you and you have your life. get away from that narc, they don't deserve you.
Hello, you've named the symptoms really well. I worked with Melanie Tonia Evans and have come out the other side of a 25 year marriage to a Narcissist. Because I didn't get out earlier, (because I didn't know anything different), I believe the distress caused by this marriage I was diagnosed with cancer three years ago. Melanie's work saves life and I can't recommend it enough to turn your life around. Come and join her in a free webinar to discover how you can heal from this.
My heart breaks for you. I can identify with much of what you have said. No joy in life, sensitive to sounds, lights, lack of appetite. Startled by sudden sound or someone walking in unexpected. It's extreme physical pain. You feel caged, you feel hopelessness. You must have had a terrible experience. Your horrible loss and experience will make you the best counsellor there is.
there needs to be more awareness of the epidemia that is known as narcissist abuse. I suffered PTSD from a terrible abusive sociopath. my only safe haven, was to move as far as possible and NO CONTACT. Self esteem issues got me there in an abusive relationship that was the first place and you cannot heal while being traumatized. for anyone feeling suspicious you are in an abusive relationship with a narcisst, GET OUT!!
+Josephine Elizabeth Romeo I AGREE ON THIS BEING THE ONLY SURE WAY OUT OF THIS HELL and btw i think people should avoid getting themselves in relationships when they still aren't themselves after abuse you need time to reprogram our mind and heal
My father is a DANGEROUS narcissist. Going on 23 years of age and am just now finding this information of narcissistic abuse and I feel sick with relief. I still cannot find help, however. I live in Arizona and the few I can find who do specialize in the study, they don't contact me back. Not going to give up. I can't live like this anymore.
I've been involved with a narcissist for the past year and a half. This video and others are helping me to finally see them for what they are. It really does make you crazy, and so much of this is true. Thank you.
This list was so familiar but it helped to hear it come out of someone else's mouth. The chest pain has been an issue for me for about three years now and is what started the process of me slowly coming away from my narcissist because I honestly thought I was dying and it scared me. I had a number tests run by my doctor; when the results all came back without any sicknesses, the doctor suggested I go to therapy because he said it sounded anxiety-related. The pain isn't as bad or daily now but it still hurts intensely when I AM triggered. It feels like someone's shoved a frozen pole through my chest, like a cold burn of fear. It's very hard for me to relax and I've avoided crowded or busy places and felt guilty every time. Hearing you give the example of crossing the street when someone's behind you made me feel less ashamed as I've done this several times myself. I don't know what to do with my fear sometimes when it surfaces so suddenly like that. :\ Hearing about claustrophobia helped. I had no idea that's what it was, I just felt like I was being choked (either because of too much physical stimulus or feeling emotionally engulfed, like you said). Damn it.
wow! thank you for this! I have all symptoms. .my biggest one is chest pain and my heart skips around. I'm healing thank goodness. ..but it's rough! this video gives me more peace in my soul. ..God Bless you
i really needed to see this video!! I have had several experiences (including childhood)with narsisism and psycopathic personalities. And right now going through and leaving this hell/nightmare. I can cope with every single syndrome, so this information helps a lot! To understand myself and have A LOT of compassion and support and love for me 💜💜💜 From the bottom of my heart, thank you! I pray for us all 🙏💜💜
Oh my God! 28 !!! it was not the first time my heart was boken in my 37 years, but this one is really KEY, that feeling of physical pain in my chest and belly, of course I have been sad and lonely before, I may even say depressed ... but I never experienced anything like that in my other break ups! That wrenching feeling of pain in my chets! I am just beginning to discover the fact that I dated a narcissist for a year and a half ... I am staring to find some relief in all these wonderful videos and comments ... thank you so much, this really helps!
Would fantasizing about murdering your abusers count as the fantasizing vengeance thing? I used to have fantasies about slashing and violently attacking my abusers as a way of coping with my situation. There was never any real attempt at the violence I envisioned it was just to satisfy the need to strike back.
Noctwa I had and still have these fantasies. Quite frankly, I think killing them should be classed as justifiable homicide. The world would be a better place without these kind of scum in it!
My mother is a narc. 3 of my ex gf's were sociopaths. Yes, there's an obvious pattern here.. I still fantasize about that, yes.. And it's actually normal and much more healthy than to forgive them!
I cut my narc parent off and since then the thought of even being near him again makes me feel completely and physically sick. That has made it now impossible to think like that again because I’m so disgusted by his existence and every little thing about him. I don’t know if I’m the only one who feels that or a lot of people who are able to cut off and move away feel it.
Thank you so much for validating what many of us have lived. The brokenness is indescribable unless you have experienced the pain and confusion of a narcs spell. I am grateful for the awareness that came with healing amidst the exhaustion.
You just described everything I am feeling after being abused baby a narcissist, especially rage. Thank you a million times for speaking out. This changed my life
you just set me free and break my existence. I star watching this becouse of my boyfriend and it's even bigger. my mom looks like have same behaviour. I am 30 years of age and feel from long time ago I have a problems that no matter what I change or do just didn't go. I am speachless. have a lot to think right now
Are you Russian? anyway, I also have realized I have issues of this with my bf.. and without a doubt see my mom as a perfect example of one of these parents. I feel like Russians are even more cruel than the Americans. email me if you wanted to share your experience annadushka@gmail.com
hey arena...your not alone. If you need more info on this subject i post on it as well on my channel and i am a mental health therapist looking to help support people with their self esteem and wellbeing
Thank you so much for making this video, it was like walking down the memory lane of my healing process. Very accurate, very valuable. I'm sure many people will benefit from this video, it makes things make sense. Thank you!
I want to thank you for this video and I also want to break down and cry because I recognized nearly every symptom. I feel broken and beyond repair. No one has ever understood what I've been going through, least of all therapists. Your video is the first time I've ever seen any understanding or compassion for something I've never been able to articulate or explain. Unfortunately, I've lived with a narcissist for so long they are forever hooked into my life. I fear I'll never be able to recover.
+Yukon Wolf Too long with no end in sight. I have work problems too. It feels like psychological torture. Everyday is like walking through a minefield.
I’m right there with both of you. I want out so bad but he literally sabotaged me in every way to the point I have no way out. It’s been twenty years. I finally almost got free when he held me down and I got pregnant. Now I have a two year old on top of all the other links to him. I am so grateful for her but feel so sorry she was born Into this. It’s just so sad.
great video!!! went through every single one of these symptoms & survived & thrived!!! thanx very much for your words..will surely help lots of victims..God bless♡♡♡
Thank you so much for putting your video on you tube. I have nearly all the syptoms and am suffering really bad at the moment with depression. I've just cried constantly listening to your video. It's so good to know there is someone out there who does understand what you are going through. Its torture. Lynne.
You just described completely how I have slowly eroded over 20 years with an abusive narcissist. I am at the point where I can't even remember who I was anymore and have just completely shut down...so much so to where I have cut all ties with family, friends (long ago), and where I am so exhausted and lost that I feel if I chose to simply lie down and die, I literally would, without having to harm myself in any way. I can't feel anymore. I don't know what to do, and if I did, I doubt I would even have the motivation to do it.
It's been a little over a year since my "relationship" ended. I had no idea what was going on with me, I thought I was experiencing a nervous breakdown. thank you for this video I feel less alone and less crazy.
I can't make it through the whole videos because its very GOOD, but very HARD to digest all at once. I've started to have the final pieces to the past I never thought I'd find. At last, I'm starting to feel free. I can't tell you how grateful I am to find your channel, and be able to pass them on to my community via other social connections. Thankyou!!! *high five*
I'm so sorry to see you've been victimized by a Narcissist. It's changed the tone of your videos so much. It seems these things come in cycles. A not so fun childhood, relationships with Narcissists in adulthood, shaking up the healing process. At least you can use the experience to help others. I hope things even out soon.
He HATED my crying. Started early in the marriage. He thinks he's normal. Says I'm a drama freak. My family noticed how quickly I un- became myself. He truly enjoyed talking about himself EVERY day of 2 1/2 yrs. Old stories from his past. Never tried to relate to me. We have been apart over 3 months. No contact( court order). His mom and pastor tell me how much he loves me and wants me back. I'm still a wreck. He needs to hook up with one of the women he enjoyed being flirty with.
Thank you for this video! After 11 years and almost all of those symptoms the hardest part for me right now is not being able to find joy in anything and feeling completely lost.
A profoundly moving and honest account of N A S by Mark Smith. A brave and touching journey into his pain and trauma. All caused when encountering a deeply flawed and cruel human being who's callous and heartless abuse of another human beings vulnerability and trust to meet their own twisted need to control and feel power through enslavement of another. I applaud you Mark for your honesty and courage and pray your recovery and soul's healing to be able to trust and love once again. God Bless you Mark.
The best description I've heard! Thank you so much. You mentioned "soul murder" and I think that's how I'd describe my 38 yrs of marriage partner...soul murderer! ^i^
You are 100% right! I to went through that! And I had so much energy flowing through me! It was like a tiger was chasing me! I walked, and walked to almost work! And the ups and downs were out of this world! But! Now I'm leveling out! So to speak! It was spiritual, physical, and mental experience. And I never want to go through that again, but thanks for shares
i complete agree with every sign, i had a relationship that was narcissistic it last for over 20 years. it was hard it leave. believe me it took lots of trys. thank so much for sharing. your not alone
Wish my narc would leave.. he won't let me go.. and I don't seem to be able to walk away... sometimes I want out so bad I could just jump out of my own skin!!
I’m 4 1/2 yrs out & I still have flashbacks, sadness, & major trust issues. Most of the rage, confusion, pain is gone. The pain I feel now from it is for my boys. I lost my oldest 1 yr 4 mo ago but the youngest has to still deal with his dad. My boys were grown when his discard via affair occurred. I also shook. My whole body shook from the rage for a year! I was nearly admitted to the psych ward. Oh! You’re absolutely correct about the suicidal thoughts! It had nothing to do with him...... I wanted the pain to end. I couldn’t do the pain anymore. I ended up using music to release the pain. My self worth is slow in returning. The moment I’d have a sliver of it , it was stripped from me. Things were very dark for me the first year separated. But it was a final lie that helped me strip him of control over me. Not long after that I realized he murdered every single thing good & the love I had for him. All was dead. It wasn’t until 2 months into my new marriage that I learned about narc abuse. I had a short time of self loathing for being suckered in by him. The more I learned the less self loathing I had. I could hate him so easily but I pity him instead. No love, no hate just pity. I wouldn’t believe anything he’d have to say to me today! I dread the day we have to have contact of any kind but we do have a grown son. I will be civil for my son. To me, ex is a stranger I wouldn’t acknowledge on the street. He had 26+ yrs to do his damage. He did a good job of mind fucking me.
Hello Mark, well, I am so vindicated...thank you so much for the video. It is everything, including feeling numb that I have experienced. I knew that I needed to find out for myself what I was suffering from, as I was diagnosed with a "Displacement disorder", this is far more involved than that. I am facing my perpetrator in my Property Settlement and my diagnoses is paramount...as Ive been stripped of everything already, and its just more lies that I need to defend again. Thank you so much.
+familytreecounseling I could tell you a story that would make the hairs on the back of your neck stand up, suffice to say I have very little faith in most people these days, they wear you down over the years.
***** When the penny first drops that your whole life has been manipulated and twisted by 3/4 individuals to suit their petty, twisted and ultimately stupid vision of the world, life was pretty daunting and scary. You get up, it's a new day and you know if you try and are mindful,you can beat them a little more most days.
Thankyou for such a wonderful vid....i have a Narcissist parent and have always wondered why i am the way i am...and all of your symptoms are very familiar to me. I am 45 and still struggle with alot of issues although to the outside world im quite normal, i feel like a child alot of the times. Your videos are helping me understand my Mum and myself...thankyou so much.
Thank you for this heartfelt video. You are a lovely and caring person. My brother-in-law survived for years in a narcissistic relationship. He could not even get their therapist to give her an accurate diagnosis. The abuser is so manipulative, they will con the therapist into thinking it's everyone else's problem. Anyway, he finally had a massive heart attack and died young. I looked up broken heart syndrome and his symptoms fit. If you are in this type of relationship, find help, and run for your life. Remember, the narcissist is toxic and tries to pull everyone into their web. So, if you won't do it for yourself, do it for your children and other family members. This woman psychically attacked my daughter and she literally had PTSD, panic attacks, chest pains and was in bed to over a month. Don't walk, run for the nearest exit, take everyone near and dear to you, and get the heck out, and never look back. Take the same action like the building is on fire. You grab your loved ones with the clothes on your back and get out. It is that serious. Do what is legally necessary to not allow yourself or your loved ones near this person ever again.
Perfect all inclusive description. My daughter and I moved from our home, we are no contact with the narc who bought soul crushing experiences with the help of others. She says, before we didn't believe in bad people, now we know they exist...Thank you sir for coming forward
Thanks for this video. I wish I had seen it 20 years ago when I had most of these 50 symptoms and thought I was going crazy. After a few years, I learned about narcissists. I knew then my ex-husband was definitely a narcissist and he was at the high end of it the scale. I think these video will really help others out there. Best of luck you and hope you continue to recover from your abuse.
as a musician I like to remind everyone very strongly, mind/hand connection. Idle hands are very troublesome, Knit, play instrument, puzzle, feed stray animals, do anything you can to keep hands and mind busy. Idle hands are the devils play ground.
Hope you feel more and more healed everyday. We (been through very similar things) are survivors and your videos are very inspirational and also informative. You help very much to raise awareness to others about these topics. Take care and keep healing.
I felt like crying when you talked about life's joy and fullness being stolen from you. Because that's me. I'm slowly purging this person from my life. I'm finally to the point where I'm recovering from the damage. Thanks for sharing this. It has helped me know there are others who feel exactly as I do
UA-cam, about a month ago, suggested videos "out of the blue" on Narcissism. I had recently realized that I had a serious issue with my former boss, (or me,) so I checked the videos out. I have come to realize though, I am a victim of my mother as well. I have had a long journey (25+ yrs) trying to heal myself with books and videos. I always knew there was something not "normal" about me but with the love of friends I now call family, I realized I was "damaged" and it was not cultural. With your video, I realized I have had (and still have most) nearly all of the 50 (45 really) symptoms. Since my mother's passing last year, nearly all the symptoms are back and I am desperately trying not show these to the people I love around me, especially my husband of 5 years. Thank you for giving me the answer I have been seeking for so long as to what was and is "wrong" with me. Knowing is power and with this new found knowledge I hope to close this long book and slam it shut! God Bless you and yours. (You are right, some people don't get it but I had no answers before and now I do.) Thank you.
Thanks for giving us an open, honest look at the results of narcissistic abuse. Most of the symptoms hit home with me. Especially the cognitive dissonance. I just can't seem to make a decision because I have been so wrong. Sigh.....
Mr. Smith I'm so sorry that you had to endure this pain. I can't tell you how much I appreciate that you shared your experience. Every single one of these 50 symptoms are so spot on. I'm so glad that you are in the process of healing & I'm so grateful that I found your channel:-) Thank you
I was married to a covert narricistic man for 30 years and never knew what was wrong l finally left for good and am getting councilling and doing research to help me to keep living it is so so hard as we are in business together which has also been a nightmare and have just gone on the sick to try and do no contact this is the first time I have come across your site and these 50 symptoms you talk about are about 99 percent how I feel but couldn't explain and felt I was loosing my mind thank you so so much if there was a reason why you had to experience your own pain it was because you could help others in the same boat. Many thanks Linda. Nothernireland
Number 51 Validation. A huge one for me was validation for losing my mind, some people enjoyed my demise and trying to explain the phenomenon was harder than convincing people about alien life or ghosts.
Good for you, it is a life lesson x 10 incarnations. It was great to listen to your experience and I have book marked it for future reference if needed. I'm thinking about doing a counseling course myself. I used Melanie's program to move on from the experience and feel I have gained some life skills that I could add to counseling, maybe specializing in Narcissistic abuse myself.
Thank you so much for sharing this..I am a survivor of narcissistic abuse TO THE LETTER..I have had every one of these symptoms.Things are a bit better thanks to people like you who show others this is REAL!..That is the only thing that I want is validation
Thanks, Mark, for sharing your experience with narcissism. WOW. I went through all fifty symptoms with a Narc husband, father, mother and three brothers. I ended up in the hospital with mono. I am happy to say, thanks to people like you who are willing to share their stories, I am beginning a shift toward wellness in every way. It has been tough to figure out but I'm finally freed by the truth!
Also I am starting to realize that both of my parents had narcisism to a degree but my mother was also very empathetic towards certain people or situations but usually did not want me to ever vent or say anything that was not positive. I wish I didnt feel like such a mess but I have to overcome addiction and stay on antidepressants. The depressive episodes that I have are horrible but I dont really feel like it is ever gone completely for years. I can relate to all 50 of these in some way or another. I wish I knew what to do and how to overcome these feelings as well as my addiction.
tears... all the way through this. Thank you... Thank you for validating me. I am NOT crazy.. And I have the right to say what happened to me.
I spent my whole life not knowing I was suffering from maternal narcissism abuse. I spent hours upon hours in counseling since I was 19 and not one single therapist ever mentioned parental narcissism. I had a breakdown at the age of 22 from complex ptsd. I didn't find out what I was dealing with until I reached the age of 45. Ugh! This is by far the most difficult thing to overcome.
Finally a professional therapist that "understands". Almost all therapists I've talked to do not know what narcissism really is and yet they think they do because they are professionals. Unfortunately, unless you've lived through dealing with a narcissist, you do not understand. And, I will say not all narcissists are exactly the same. Some have higher degrees of narcissism and some are milder narcs. There are also different kinds of narcs. The more you educate yourself by watching all the UA-cam videos, etc., the more you can protect yourself from future abuse moving forward. I will also say beware because there are narcissists posing as healers on the internet, pretending to help narcissist survivors. There are so many narcs out in the world. Awareness is key. Stay away from them at all costs.
I think it could do more harm than good to go to a therapist that doesn’t understand narcissism. Just like trying to talk about it with the people I love most made me feel worse instead of better. If they don’t understand, their words can hurt you. I felt victimized for being a victim. Just the words get over it, move on, and everyone goes through heartbreak seem like salt in the wound. I’m only speaking from experience, not from a professional aspect. So my words are just my thoughts, and heart just cares.
@@shellyrhazeleur6029 I totally agree.
I can relate to so much of this, especially the exhaustion, I thought I was dying towards the end of the relationship. I was going from doctor to doctor trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I took sleep tests etc..., I realized it was the narc when my energy started to come back after we split. I haven't been able to stop searching the internet and reading book on the subject of narcissism and narcissism.
it hurts to watch them hurt you, it hurts even more to watch them move on as if you never existed. Toss you away like trash. A year ago I was involved in relationship with a antisocial psychopath. He feed on my worst fears, he tore open my past wounds and feed on me like a vampire. he made me so weak that I developed cancer. a gift from God. I was useless to him and no longer served a purpose. so our engagement ended. the veil was lifted and all the things I tried to hide about him from myself, came flooding in like a Damm broke open. I am healing. I am cancer free. 4 surgeries in a year. l lost my beautiful long hair. now I am reborn. free to do anything I desire. yet I still struggle. but I am happy. a year since I been abused. getting better everyday. I saw your video and your still hurt. I just want you to know it only gets better from here. I am not alone and neither are you. you have family, friends and life. she has nothing. just a false sense of being and a deep void where a heart should be. pray for them they know no better. for if they had a belief in a higher power they would know the spirit of mercy. let's show mercy as if we need mercy from our Creator. the best revenge is living well.
Haven’t heard of this until recently. I still live with my narc parents so I go through different cycles. However, these past couple weeks, I’ve felt 99% of these symptoms. Constantly crying, feeling soulfully depressed, constantly engulfed by noises, lights, and people. I dont have friends, because they all ditched me during quarantine. So every day i draw further and further into isolation. Been dealing with this for going on 21 years now. I’m so unbelievably exhausted, my body hurts everyday, my brain is always waiting and ready to just be shut off. This video was very enlightening, I know one day I’ll truly be able to heal away from the constant exposure.
you nailed it perfectly.. To know some one else has experienced the horror and agony.. Its been a year for me and still have not been able to get over this fully.. tears streaming now.
Identity erosion. He chipped away at the core of who I was for 15 years and I never knew how to explain it. What a perfect explanation.
Thank you so much for this video. I've left my Narcissist twice, the second time was yesterday. The 1st time I suffered severe PTSD for 5 months and was hospitalised 3 times. Thank you for raising awareness on the hell these people unleash. Melanie Tonia Evans is amazing, I'm glad you mentioned her. Her videos on stopping the blame and stopping yourself from being a victim and looking within for change are life changing.
I had terrible Amnesia, completely forgot who I am, my name, identity, parents, religion, memories, all those years of life.... just gone for a few seconds and had severe panick attack, feel terrible when I remember that moment. I felt as if I was gonna die or go psycho or something at that moment. my world was shattered into pieces.
later that month I suffered from Depression.
Crying right now but it's a nice relief to know I'm not crazy. Been told it's me and my fault for so long
yeah donna they cant admit that they are wrong about anything. Thing is they are and none of this is your fault
Hugs Donna. I wish we didn't have to suffer through so many years under this very misconception :(
hey donna I'm a mental health therapist..this is called gas lighting (when your abuser tells you you are crazy) i have a video i made about this on my channel...your not crazy.
For all those people out there wondering whether they have been narcisstically abused remember this - Did you ever go in search of answers with any other break up? I believe not and that is the way that you know you have been narcisticaly abused. Sending everyone love and hugs
wow..good point!
You have hit the nail on the head with this. Thank you this is so helpful
Indeed.
I was married to one. To him a conscience was an inconveience.
I have all 50 of your symptoms. I'm so glad you can confirm for me that I'm not crazy for staying away from mainstream therapy. As I've told you before, I've read way too many books hoping and praying that I could find someone who could connect to how I feel, what I have been going through and give me some help in healing from this nightmare. Thank you for Jennifer. We will be discussing your latest 2 videos on narcissistic abuse syndrome.
hi peggy r u saying the most therapist do not understand covert narsicist abuse...this one has to be the most demonic...38 years with my covert narsicist Jezebel wife...wtf ...im have dead with autoimmune disease and more...
I am four plus years out of that kind of relationship and I do believe, as does multiple therapists, that I am damaged for life not because I'm broken but because I have learned compassion and my heart just can't take anyone being hurt or taken advantage of. I defend the helpless and hopeless. I will speak out...LOL...no one can shut me up! I am full of love and so very much joy. MsRhuby! Star Diamond
Best and most helpful abuse video I've EVER come across!! I truly can't thank you enough ... just wrote all 50 down - every single one resonates true, for me. I so appreciate your openness and vulnerability. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart!!
+Nicole Uhler
AGREEEE
wow. I started watching this video and the first symptom "a whole bunch of crying" your heart feels like it was shattered...and I started crying. I can relate to all of these symptoms and I just really believed I am unlovable and that I fail at everything. I stay alone as much as I can and make myself as numb as possible. Thank you because I feel there is someone out there that might understand me..
All the symptoms I've been experiencing since I separated her, this kind of people are no joke, they seriously mess you up, I was avoiding facing all these issues because I didn't want to feel like the victim but it wasn't until I found all of these videos and people with my own problems that I felt identified and relieved. Thanks
My physically, mentally and emotionally abusive ex that I have not spoken to is back in town and I haven’t talked to or seen him since 2013. He crushed my soul, I am still a shell of the person I was even here in 2021. It was from ages 19-26 & it messed me up. It ruined me. I had a 4.75 gpa at DU. I dropped out bc I was so depressed from the abuse and I never finished my last two years of college. Now he is back and I am falling apart. At least he wasn’t nearby before and I was still soooooooo affected by it. Now he is back here. I am devastated. Flashbacks nonstop ;-(
My name is Mark Stasz. I was a chiropractor, I am a father to an amazing son, and I am a victim of Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome. Each and Every one of these 50 symptoms is exactly what I was and am going thru. But not much longer.
I have never have heard of this until about 2 weeks ago I am studying like never before in my life I thank JESUS FOR the truth coming out !!!!
God, Christ uses "different" help and healing aids for different people. He knows what we will heed to better based on our faith in Him. I'm just so happy you are RECOVERING and HELPING others!
Mark last night on the live stream i mentioned how you were the first person to tell me what i was going through. This is the video. i got emotional with you when you started to cry. you literally saved me and i am not joking at ALL. i went 5 months without knowing was going on with me. I am so thankful for you and your making of this video. I havent had a good cry or scream. after seeing this i felt such relief. Thank you so much. I love your channel. You are so helpful! Much love to you and all you do for us 💙💙💙
24 years later, I still bear the emotional scars from the soulless young man who did this to me. Thankfully I have found a wonderful husband and my children make my life complete, but I wish I had never met the narcissist! I don't think the damage ever leaves 100%. Spot on video. Thank you.
Emma Willmott,So sad to hear your story,you deserve better
@@lioydwilliams1850 Ah thank you! I found much much better, everything happens for a reason :)
@@emmawillmottpiano you are welcome my dear.I am Lioyd from the States.You?
@@emmawillmottpiano which country are you from?
when you think you have no power, that's when you have the most power because that's when you've had enough and no matter what the narc wants, you may be hurt, but you are still you and you have your life. get away from that narc, they don't deserve you.
Hello, you've named the symptoms really well. I worked with Melanie Tonia Evans and have come out the other side of a 25 year marriage to a Narcissist. Because I didn't get out earlier, (because I didn't know anything different), I believe the distress caused by this marriage I was diagnosed with cancer three years ago. Melanie's work saves life and I can't recommend it enough to turn your life around. Come and join her in a free webinar to discover how you can heal from this.
I couldn´t stop crying whilst I was listening you, so so so true!...thank you.
I went from 126 pounds to 86 pounds with no idea until i found your video. Thank god for such an amazing person like you mark! Xoxo
My heart breaks for you. I can identify with much of what you have said. No joy in life, sensitive to sounds, lights, lack of appetite. Startled by sudden sound or someone walking in unexpected. It's extreme physical pain. You feel caged, you feel hopelessness. You must have had a terrible experience. Your horrible loss and experience will make you the best counsellor there is.
you missed a symptom. Loss of creativity
That could probably go with loss of identity?
Eh.. That can go both ways. It may even be a source of creative inspiration
Yes creativity goes away because of the endless trauma drama that kills your momentum and sense of self you need to be successful creatively.
there needs to be more awareness of the epidemia that is known as narcissist abuse. I suffered PTSD from a terrible abusive sociopath. my only safe haven, was to move as far as possible and NO CONTACT. Self esteem issues got me there in an abusive relationship that was the first place and you cannot heal while being traumatized.
for anyone feeling suspicious you are in an abusive relationship with a narcisst, GET OUT!!
+Josephine Elizabeth Romeo
I AGREE ON THIS BEING THE ONLY SURE WAY OUT OF THIS HELL and btw i think people should avoid getting themselves in relationships when they still aren't themselves after abuse you need time to reprogram our mind and heal
"Grieving the loss of your innocence. The world is a pretty safe place ...." powerful, yes, one of the most hurtful parts of all of this.
My father is a DANGEROUS narcissist. Going on 23 years of age and am just now finding this information of narcissistic abuse and I feel sick with relief. I still cannot find help, however. I live in Arizona and the few I can find who do specialize in the study, they don't contact me back. Not going to give up. I can't live like this anymore.
Thank you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let the healing begin!!!!!!!! I'm exhausted already!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been involved with a narcissist for the past year and a half. This video and others are helping me to finally see them for what they are. It really does make you crazy, and so much of this is true.
Thank you.
This list was so familiar but it helped to hear it come out of someone else's mouth. The chest pain has been an issue for me for about three years now and is what started the process of me slowly coming away from my narcissist because I honestly thought I was dying and it scared me. I had a number tests run by my doctor; when the results all came back without any sicknesses, the doctor suggested I go to therapy because he said it sounded anxiety-related. The pain isn't as bad or daily now but it still hurts intensely when I AM triggered. It feels like someone's shoved a frozen pole through my chest, like a cold burn of fear. It's very hard for me to relax and I've avoided crowded or busy places and felt guilty every time. Hearing you give the example of crossing the street when someone's behind you made me feel less ashamed as I've done this several times myself. I don't know what to do with my fear sometimes when it surfaces so suddenly like that. :\
Hearing about claustrophobia helped. I had no idea that's what it was, I just felt like I was being choked (either because of too much physical stimulus or feeling emotionally engulfed, like you said). Damn it.
I cried so much, that I cannot even cry anymore. No matter how much it hurts my heart (so bad) to think about it
Thank you Mark. I suffer from 49 out of the 50!!! how did we all get here? It took an insidious 12 years but I am finally waking up. Thank you.
Tisha Efthymiou,you look stunning
wow! thank you for this! I have all symptoms. .my biggest one is chest pain and my heart skips around. I'm healing thank goodness. ..but it's rough! this video gives me more peace in my soul. ..God Bless you
I have no words for how accurate this video is.
i really needed to see this video!! I have had several experiences (including childhood)with narsisism and psycopathic personalities. And right now going through and leaving this hell/nightmare. I can cope with every single syndrome, so this information helps a lot! To understand myself and have A LOT of compassion and support and love for me 💜💜💜 From the bottom of my heart, thank you! I pray for us all 🙏💜💜
Nailed it. Thank you for your courage in sharing about your dance with the devil.
+familytreecounseling Yes, I know. That's how they dance.
Oh my God! 28 !!! it was not the first time my heart was boken in my 37 years, but this one is really KEY, that feeling of physical pain in my chest and belly, of course I have been sad and lonely before, I may even say depressed ... but I never experienced anything like that in my other break ups! That wrenching feeling of pain in my chets! I am just beginning to discover the fact that I dated a narcissist for a year and a half ... I am staring to find some relief in all these wonderful videos and comments ... thank you so much, this really helps!
Would fantasizing about murdering your abusers count as the fantasizing vengeance thing? I used to have fantasies about slashing and violently attacking my abusers as a way of coping with my situation. There was never any real attempt at the violence I envisioned it was just to satisfy the need to strike back.
Noctwa I had and still have these fantasies. Quite frankly, I think killing them should be classed as justifiable homicide. The world would be a better place without these kind of scum in it!
@@BadgerBotherer1 Yep I feel the same thing to this day.
My mother is a narc. 3 of my ex gf's were sociopaths. Yes, there's an obvious pattern here.. I still fantasize about that, yes.. And it's actually normal and much more healthy than to forgive them!
I cut my narc parent off and since then the thought of even being near him again makes me feel completely and physically sick. That has made it now impossible to think like that again because I’m so disgusted by his existence and every little thing about him. I don’t know if I’m the only one who feels that or a lot of people who are able to cut off and move away feel it.
Mark, I'm so sorry that you had to undergo such a traumatic experience with that narc. Wishing you every blessing!
Thank you so much for validating what many of us have lived. The brokenness is indescribable unless you have experienced the pain and confusion of a narcs spell. I am grateful for the awareness that came with healing amidst the exhaustion.
You just described everything I am feeling after being abused baby a narcissist, especially rage. Thank you a million times for speaking out. This changed my life
you just set me free and break my existence. I star watching this becouse of my boyfriend and it's even bigger. my mom looks like have same behaviour. I am 30 years of age and feel from long time ago I have a problems that no matter what I change or do just didn't go. I am speachless. have a lot to think right now
Are you Russian? anyway, I also have realized I have issues of this with my bf.. and without a doubt see my mom as a perfect example of one of these parents. I feel like Russians are even more cruel than the Americans. email me if you wanted to share your experience annadushka@gmail.com
I came from Bulgaria :)) but I believe that slavic people are hard
Irena Petkova mother, grandmother are Macedonian, very cruel
hey arena...your not alone. If you need more info on this subject i post on it as well on my channel and i am a mental health therapist looking to help support people with their self esteem and wellbeing
Thank you so much for making this video, it was like walking down the memory lane of my healing process. Very accurate, very valuable. I'm sure many people will benefit from this video, it makes things make sense. Thank you!
I want to thank you for this video and I also want to break down and cry because I recognized nearly every symptom. I feel broken and beyond repair. No one has ever understood what I've been going through, least of all therapists. Your video is the first time I've ever seen any understanding or compassion for something I've never been able to articulate or explain. Unfortunately, I've lived with a narcissist for so long they are forever hooked into my life. I fear I'll never be able to recover.
+Yukon Wolf Too long with no end in sight. I have work problems too. It feels like psychological torture. Everyday is like walking through a minefield.
I’m right there with both of you. I want out so bad but he literally sabotaged me in every way to the point I have no way out. It’s been twenty years. I finally almost got free when he held me down and I got pregnant. Now I have a two year old on top of all the other links to him. I am so grateful for her but feel so sorry she was born Into this. It’s just so sad.
My god it's taken me over 10 years to understand all of this .i have been there a nightmare.thanks for sharing very helpful .
Add to your list executive functioning loss from frontal lobe! Thank you so much for your video!
great video!!! went through every single one of these symptoms & survived & thrived!!! thanx very much for your words..will surely help lots of victims..God bless♡♡♡
+Adrianna A.its so empowering to hear this kind of comments congratulations : D....im not yet free but ill try my best !
Thank you so much for putting your video on you tube. I have nearly all the syptoms and am suffering really bad at the moment with depression. I've just cried constantly listening to your video. It's so good to know there is someone out there who does understand what you are going through. Its torture. Lynne.
Lynne Bainbridge, Please be happy and take good care of yourself cause you are you precious!
So right ! Cons & narcssists = confusion, illness, depression, low energy, mistrust.
You just described completely how I have slowly eroded over 20 years with an abusive narcissist. I am at the point where I can't even remember who I was anymore and have just completely shut down...so much so to where I have cut all ties with family, friends (long ago), and where I am so exhausted and lost that I feel if I chose to simply lie down and die, I literally would, without having to harm myself in any way. I can't feel anymore. I don't know what to do, and if I did, I doubt I would even have the motivation to do it.
know the feeling
Wendy braswell, you are too precious to be with a narcissist!
It's been a little over a year since my "relationship" ended. I had no idea what was going on with me, I thought I was experiencing a nervous breakdown. thank you for this video I feel less alone and less crazy.
WE are a work in progress! ;-) keep on keepin' on!
I can't make it through the whole videos because its very GOOD, but very HARD to digest all at once. I've started to have the final pieces to the past I never thought I'd find. At last, I'm starting to feel free. I can't tell you how grateful I am to find your channel, and be able to pass them on to my community via other social connections. Thankyou!!! *high five*
I'm so sorry to see you've been victimized by a Narcissist. It's changed the tone of your videos so much. It seems these things come in cycles. A not so fun childhood, relationships with Narcissists in adulthood, shaking up the healing process. At least you can use the experience to help others. I hope things even out soon.
He HATED my crying. Started early in the marriage. He thinks he's normal. Says I'm a drama freak. My family noticed how quickly I un- became myself. He truly enjoyed talking about himself EVERY day of 2 1/2 yrs. Old stories from his past. Never tried to relate to me. We have been apart over 3 months. No contact( court order). His mom and pastor tell me how much he loves me and wants me back. I'm still a wreck. He needs to hook up with one of the women he enjoyed being flirty with.
Thank you for this video! After 11 years and almost all of those symptoms the hardest part for me right now is not being able to find joy in anything and feeling completely lost.
Heather B, you look stunning
A profoundly moving and honest account of N A S by Mark Smith. A brave and touching journey into his pain and trauma. All caused when encountering a deeply flawed and cruel human being who's callous and heartless abuse of another human beings vulnerability and trust to meet their own twisted need to control and feel power through enslavement of another. I applaud you Mark for your honesty and courage and pray your recovery and soul's healing to be able to trust and love once again. God Bless you Mark.
Maria Richardson, you got a smile that can make the news!
The best description I've heard! Thank you so much. You mentioned "soul murder" and I think that's how I'd describe my 38 yrs of marriage partner...soul murderer! ^i^
great description
Storm Ewald, you are too precious to be with a narcissist!
You are 100% right! I to went through that! And I had so much energy flowing through me! It was like a tiger was chasing me! I walked, and walked to almost work! And the ups and downs were out of this world! But! Now I'm leveling out! So to speak! It was spiritual, physical, and mental experience. And I never want to go through that again, but thanks for shares
i complete agree with every sign, i had a relationship that was narcissistic it last for over 20 years. it was hard it leave. believe me it took lots of trys. thank so much for sharing. your not alone
Judy Counts, you are too precious to be with a narcissist!
Wish my narc would leave.. he won't let me go.. and I don't seem to be able to walk away... sometimes I want out so bad I could just jump out of my own skin!!
you can do it
We are in the same boat . Hope we can both be strong
I feel like you read my mind thank you I don't feel alone about this anymore
Thank you for sharing. I really appreciate the validation I get by hearing other survivor's stories.
Wow. Just wow. Comprehensive list. Experiencing all symptoms. You are a blessing.
I’m 4 1/2 yrs out & I still have flashbacks, sadness, & major trust issues. Most of the rage, confusion, pain is gone. The pain I feel now from it is for my boys. I lost my oldest 1 yr 4 mo ago but the youngest has to still deal with his dad. My boys were grown when his discard via affair occurred.
I also shook. My whole body shook from the rage for a year! I was nearly admitted to the psych ward.
Oh! You’re absolutely correct about the suicidal thoughts! It had nothing to do with him...... I wanted the pain to end. I couldn’t do the pain anymore.
I ended up using music to release the pain. My self worth is slow in returning. The moment I’d have a sliver of it , it was stripped from me.
Things were very dark for me the first year separated. But it was a final lie that helped me strip him of control over me. Not long after that I realized he murdered every single thing good & the love I had for him. All was dead. It wasn’t until 2 months into my new marriage that I learned about narc abuse. I had a short time of self loathing for being suckered in by him. The more I learned the less self loathing I had. I could hate him so easily but I pity him instead. No love, no hate just pity. I wouldn’t believe anything he’d have to say to me today! I dread the day we have to have contact of any kind but we do have a grown son. I will be civil for my son. To me, ex is a stranger I wouldn’t acknowledge on the street. He had 26+ yrs to do his damage. He did a good job of mind fucking me.
Reland McClure, you deserve better
Hello Mark, well, I am so vindicated...thank you so much for the video. It is everything, including feeling numb that I have experienced. I knew that I needed to find out for myself what I was suffering from, as I was diagnosed with a "Displacement disorder", this is far more involved than that. I am facing my perpetrator in my Property Settlement and my diagnoses is paramount...as Ive been stripped of everything already, and its just more lies that I need to defend again. Thank you so much.
Deborah Woods,Be strong ok
You just described the last 4 years of my life with a relative of my husbands.....thank you so much for sharing this information
Corinne Hurlburt,you got a smile that can make the news!
feeling numb is not exactly what I would call relief. the brain continues to chatter and torture your soul.
I felt as if my brain being mashed up.
Abused belittled torn down he took all my years I can't get back
Couldn't get through the whole list, still too raw.
+familytreecounseling I could tell you a story that would make the hairs on the back of your neck stand up, suffice to say I have very little faith in most people these days, they wear you down over the years.
***** When the penny first drops that your whole life has been manipulated and twisted by 3/4 individuals to suit their petty, twisted and ultimately stupid vision of the world, life was pretty daunting and scary. You get up, it's a new day and you know if you try and are mindful,you can beat them a little more most days.
Thankyou for such a wonderful vid....i have a Narcissist parent and have always wondered why i am the way i am...and all of your symptoms are very familiar to me. I am 45 and still struggle with alot of issues although to the outside world im quite normal, i feel like a child alot of the times. Your videos are helping me understand my Mum and myself...thankyou so much.
Thank you for this heartfelt video. You are a lovely and caring person. My brother-in-law survived for years in a narcissistic relationship. He could not even get their therapist to give her an accurate diagnosis. The abuser is so manipulative, they will con the therapist into thinking it's everyone else's problem. Anyway, he finally had a massive heart attack and died young. I looked up broken heart syndrome and his symptoms fit. If you are in this type of relationship, find help, and run for your life. Remember, the narcissist is toxic and tries to pull everyone into their web. So, if you won't do it for yourself, do it for your children and other family members. This woman psychically attacked my daughter and she literally had PTSD, panic attacks, chest pains and was in bed to over a month. Don't walk, run for the nearest exit, take everyone near and dear to you, and get the heck out, and never look back. Take the same action like the building is on fire. You grab your loved ones with the clothes on your back and get out. It is that serious. Do what is legally necessary to not allow yourself or your loved ones near this person ever again.
Wow. Glad I found this channel. I have experienced all of them except 8,20,24, and 27.
Perfect all inclusive description. My daughter and I moved from our home, we are no contact with the narc who bought soul crushing experiences with the help of others. She says, before we didn't believe in bad people, now we know they exist...Thank you sir for coming forward
Thanks for this video. I wish I had seen it 20 years ago when I had most of these 50 symptoms and thought I was going crazy. After a few years, I learned about narcissists. I knew then my ex-husband was definitely a narcissist and he was at the high end of it the scale. I think these video will really help others out there. Best of luck you and hope you continue to recover from your abuse.
as a musician I like to remind everyone very strongly, mind/hand connection. Idle hands are very troublesome, Knit, play instrument, puzzle, feed stray animals, do anything you can to keep hands and mind busy. Idle hands are the devils play ground.
saved that quote in my notes
Hope you feel more and more healed everyday. We (been through very similar things) are survivors and your videos are very inspirational and also informative. You help very much to raise awareness to others about these topics. Take care and keep healing.
+Jamie Prodger
we all heal one another and ourselves too :)
Jamie Prodger, you look stunning
I felt like crying when you talked about life's joy and fullness being stolen from you. Because that's me. I'm slowly purging this person from my life. I'm finally to the point where I'm recovering from the damage. Thanks for sharing this. It has helped me know there are others who feel exactly as I do
UA-cam, about a month ago, suggested videos "out of the blue" on Narcissism. I had recently realized that I had a serious issue with my former boss, (or me,) so I checked the videos out. I have come to realize though, I am a victim of my mother as well. I have had a long journey (25+ yrs) trying to heal myself with books and videos. I always knew there was something not "normal" about me but with the love of friends I now call family, I realized I was "damaged" and it was not cultural. With your video, I realized I have had (and still have most) nearly all of the 50 (45 really) symptoms. Since my mother's passing last year, nearly all the symptoms are back and I am desperately trying not show these to the people I love around me, especially my husband of 5 years. Thank you for giving me the answer I have been seeking for so long as to what was and is "wrong" with me. Knowing is power and with this new found knowledge I hope to close this long book and slam it shut! God Bless you and yours. (You are right, some people don't get it but I had no answers before and now I do.) Thank you.
Thanks for giving us an open, honest look at the results of narcissistic abuse. Most of the symptoms hit home with me. Especially the cognitive dissonance. I just can't seem to make a decision because I have been so wrong. Sigh.....
@@lioydwilliams1850 thank you, Lioyd. It's getting easier! I'm spending more time with friends and packing to move. Life is looking good again!
@@lioydwilliams1850 USA... Missouri.
@@lioydwilliams1850 unfortunately, no.
@@lioydwilliams1850 If you're trolling for a vulnerable woman, you're too late. My ex already cleaned me out.
Mr. Smith I'm so sorry that you had to endure this pain. I can't tell you how much I appreciate that you shared your experience. Every single one of these 50 symptoms are so spot on. I'm so glad that you are in the process of healing & I'm so grateful that I found your channel:-) Thank you
God bless you. Your pain may help others heal.. such as me. Thank you for this heartfelt video, sir.
I was married to a covert narricistic man for 30 years and never knew what was wrong l finally left for good and am getting councilling and doing research to help me to keep living it is so so hard as we are in business together which has also been a nightmare and have just gone on the sick to try and do no contact this is the first time I have come across your site and these 50 symptoms you talk about are about 99 percent how I feel but couldn't explain and felt I was loosing my mind thank you so so much if there was a reason why you had to experience your own pain it was because you could help others in the same boat. Many thanks Linda. Nothernireland
Number 51 Validation. A huge one for me was validation for losing my mind, some people enjoyed my demise and trying to explain the phenomenon was harder than convincing people about alien life or ghosts.
Good for you, it is a life lesson x 10 incarnations. It was great to listen to your experience and I have book marked it for future reference if needed. I'm thinking about doing a counseling course myself. I used Melanie's program to move on from the
experience and feel I have gained some life skills that I could add to counseling, maybe specializing in Narcissistic abuse myself.
"They set you on fire....." "then folk think you are crazy..." oh my. So true
Thank you. I have/had almost every single one of these symptoms. It is helpful to know I'm not alone.
Larissa Dahroug,you are a precious being,you don't deserve to be that
Thank you so much for sharing this..I am a survivor of narcissistic abuse TO THE LETTER..I have had every one of these symptoms.Things are a bit better thanks to people like you who show others this is REAL!..That is the only thing that I want is validation
I am learning how to survive and part of myself that was stolen causing me anxiety and ptsd
thanks so much, I 'm at 49 on 50 of those, and actually I KNOW I'm not crazy, and it's not my fault for all the bad feelings I'm passing by !!!
Thanks, Mark, for sharing your experience with narcissism. WOW. I went through all fifty symptoms with a Narc husband, father, mother and three brothers. I ended up in the hospital with mono. I am happy to say, thanks to people like you who are willing to share their stories, I am beginning a shift toward wellness in every way. It has been tough to figure out but I'm finally freed by the truth!
+Cynthia Webster
wow all of them were NAR ? you re a herooo
Yes. I finally stopped reeling at fifty-six. I am thankful to live in the truth now.
Thank-You SO Much, I really needed this SO very much!
So very helpful! Goes along with my therapist's help thank you!
Also I am starting to realize that both of my parents had narcisism to a degree but my mother was also very empathetic towards certain people or situations but usually did not want me to ever vent or say anything that was not positive. I wish I didnt feel like such a mess but I have to overcome addiction and stay on antidepressants. The depressive episodes that I have are horrible but I dont really feel like it is ever gone completely for years. I can relate to all 50 of these in some way or another. I wish I knew what to do and how to overcome these feelings as well as my addiction.
You have described every one point I experience. I am not crazy then...