Heartbroken And Hungry

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  • Опубліковано 17 вер 2024
  • Hey guys, I'm sorry if I shocked you with this video. Two weeks have already passed and I feel a lot better. The last couple of videos have been a lot more personal and I shared things online that I wouldn't even share with people close to me. I usually don't cry in front of others, let alone share my inner feelings, thoughts and show this much vulnerability. Although I'm scared of posting this video, I do it helps someone who might be going through the same thing .
    Also, I hope that you enjoy the vlog format as there will be more of this kind of content in the future. Anyways, thank you for watching! Love u guys.
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  • @justinwilliams7290
    @justinwilliams7290 8 місяців тому +9

    So weird that this popped up in my feed and I clicked it and watched it because I just cried in the car on the way to work because I broke up with someone during the holidays last year and the memory of it was difficult. You will move on but may never fully get over the person and that is ok. Love is permanent, at least to me. That being said, the thoughts and pain will subside and you will find someone else if you want to but I have had a great year alone and I'm grateful.

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому

      Heyy I‘m so sorry to hear that, I think the holidays can be a difficult time sometimes, especially when you remember that you used to spend it with people that are not in your life anymore or when you broke up with them during that time :( love is a tricky thing, we might never recover from losing someone we love. But I hope you’re gonna be okay again! And thanks for watching and sharing your story!

  • @jamesnock5572
    @jamesnock5572 8 місяців тому +3

    Some relationships can be very difficult and challenging and after such a relationship i learnt to respect myself again and value my alone time and take care of my own needs after draining my energy trying to please someone who it was impossible to please. You are very brave for sharing your feelings and emotions so openly and you are stronger than you know. Dont cut your beautiful hair short🙋‍♂️

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому

      This is such a wise comment and it’s 100% true!! This is why we should always put ourselves first and take just as much care of ourselves as we do for others. Thank you for your words and for sharing a part of your own story 🩷

    • @jamesnock5572
      @jamesnock5572 8 місяців тому

      @@Begibouim glad your video popped up on to my feed yesterday as i love healthy tasty food😃. You are a talented creative cook and i look forward to watching more of your excellent content. Thank you🙋‍♂️

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому +1

      @@jamesnock5572 wow thank you so much!! Now I'm more excited than ever to make videos :)

  • @zijing9548
    @zijing9548 8 місяців тому +3

    I usually lay down on my bed and scroll on shorts for hours, this is the first time I clicked on a 20 minute long video and didn't get distracted after the first 2 or 3 minutes.
    Thank you for posting this, I'm also a very lonely person with no close friends, and it felt like hanging out with a friend to watch your video.
    And also all the public anxiety and awkwardness was very relatable and made me feel not so alone.
    I really hope things get better for you soon my friend ♡
    And ps, I think I'd look very chic if you cut your hair short:)

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому +1

      Omg thank you for saying that 🩷🥺 It really helps to share these videos to feel less lonely and it makes me really happy to hear that people like you feel like they have some company by watching my videos. I‘m sorry to hear that you don’t have close friends either. It can be really tough and you deserve the very best! 🩷 also thanks for suggesting the hair cut, I will truly consider it now hahah

  • @fujidenzo_kid4147
    @fujidenzo_kid4147 8 місяців тому +1

    Thank you for posting this. I lost someone last Dec as well and I keep telling myself that this year's Dec will be different. It's been a roller coaster, there are days in this month that I am hopeful and cheerful and brave and there were days that I felt really low and didnt know what to do or didnt have any energy at all, but I tell myself everyday to "make an effort" and that makes the day a little bit better.

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому

      Wow I’m so sorry to hear that.. 😞 I know the feeling of being really strong and hopeful one day, just to feel absolutely devastated the next. It really makes you realize that healing is not linear but rather filled with ups and downs. I really really hope you’ll be okay though ❤️

  • @bookies5904
    @bookies5904 8 місяців тому +2

    okay this is normally something I would NEVER watch but, I currently have Covid so I have time... You are very brave. I do hope you continue to be strong and get through this. I am in a long-time relationship and I am happy but, I do get wanting to be alone and enjoy my time to myself every now and then. I hope you find something to occupy your time and distract you from this. For me, it's always been music. There's so many different types of genres out there. It makes me feel like I'm not alone (even when I am,) it helps with my social anxiety, and it's the best way for me to just let loose and feel good. That's just me though... Anyways... I hope you get through this and wish you all the best. Always be true to yourself and keep on pushing! Good luck!

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому +1

      Even though it’s not the type of content you typically watch, I do appreciate that you took your time to leave such a detailed comment and gave such good advice 🥰 I think I‘m really gonna try it out with listening to music and trying to stay busy. Thanks! 💕

  • @Alinidie
    @Alinidie 8 місяців тому +3

    You are very strong, i know that sometimes or mostly all the time you want to have somebody to talk or Just laugth with someone, but i think that those person maybe they were to be in your life Just that time, when you are alone you learned how to be happy on your own, but sometimes thats sad :( i Just hope that you can see that you are your hero and with your videos you Make happy People that are alone and want some company 💗 dont change your personality for others! Btw i like your long hair dont cut it 😭😭😭

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому +1

      Omg I don’t know what to say 🩷 you really took the time to leave such a long and kind comment. I had to read it over and over again because I couldn’t believe how nice and beautiful your words were! And yes, I really do think that you can be happy by yourself too, this is what I‘m trying to show :) 🩷

  • @gravy2973
    @gravy2973 6 днів тому +1

    I stumbled across your channel.....what a beautiful spirit you are ....stay well stay strong !

  • @HAppytobeHer
    @HAppytobeHer 8 місяців тому +1

    11:17 all these sentiments I had the same feeling so many times in my life. Living abroad, I just had my first baby after a loss and finally I feel like I am someone who is never going to leave… even though one day my baby will grow up and undoubtedly leave me to be alone again. Anyways I’m not sure why your video came to me but I’m glad I watched ❤ sending a hug

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому

      I‘m so sorry to hear about your loss, especially with a newborn whilst living abroad. I really wish you a lot of strength for the next year! It’s hard when you realize that you will be alone at some point again.. but life will go on and I‘m sure we will find some beautiful moments in it. And I‘m glad you enjoyed the video ❤️

  • @Maya-Hayden
    @Maya-Hayden 8 місяців тому +8

    What you need to do is you need to invest $5000 into a TFSA, then use that as proof of finances and register a non profit organization, go ahead and apply for a huge government loan, reinvest half of it into your preferred charity for tax credits and also proof of legitimacy. This is the part where you have to listen very carefully, with the other half you’re going to move to a South American country for a summer vacation, you’ll meet a nice person, it will lead to a sizzling romance and you’ll have a beautiful family. But you’ll eventually be caught for fraud when your non profit is audited by the IRS, you’ll end up in jail but you will never be lonely ever again.

    • @Maya-Hayden
      @Maya-Hayden 8 місяців тому +1

      This is purely from experience, I’m not someone that will tell you to do something that I’m not certain will work, I have integrity.

    • @byronic0967
      @byronic0967 8 місяців тому +3

      Wtf is wrong with people...the amount of crazy is just .....

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому +2

      All I got was the South African romance part, but I’ll take it!

    • @sadiemakesmesmile
      @sadiemakesmesmile 7 днів тому +1

      @@Begibousouth American lol

    • @justindot4887
      @justindot4887 4 дні тому

      ​@@Begibouhahahha nice one!

  • @sarahtakesnotes
    @sarahtakesnotes 8 місяців тому +2

    "forget everything i said, my pizza arrived and i feel a lot better" so relatable hahah

  • @MTran0708
    @MTran0708 19 днів тому +1

    Dont ever think youre behind in life, everyones journey will start and end at different times ☺

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  18 днів тому

      Aww thank you 🥺 I realized that the best thing to do is to not compare yourself

  • @CriminalFinds.
    @CriminalFinds. 8 місяців тому

    I’m so sorry! :( I’m praying for happiness & healing for you beautiful💖

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому

      Aw that’s so sweet, thank you! 🩷🩷🥺

  • @rajmathew6220
    @rajmathew6220 7 днів тому

    I always hate commenting on beauty, but you are one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen. Honestly hurt a bit to see you cry, but also glad this was many months ago and I hope you're doing much better today.

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  6 днів тому

      That’s so sweet of you, thank you! I’m doing really good relationship wise, I have processed everything and don’t feel that pain anymore! 🥰

  • @CupMonkey
    @CupMonkey 8 місяців тому +4

    Please keep trying, there's always someone out there...

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому

      Sometimes it doesn’t seem like it.. but you’re right! Thanks for the encouragement :)

  • @lillesoester
    @lillesoester 8 місяців тому +1

    i'm also newly out of a long relationship, it's a weird feeling, and i can totally relate to what you say about ourselves being the only constant in life, for better and for worse. none the less, i enjoy your company in these videos, and i really need to try lotus roots!! looks super yummy

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому

      I‘m so sorry to hear that, I know it’s super hard, especially when you’re freshly out of a relationship and suddenly all by yourself.. but it seems like this is how life is. No matter who comes and goes, we‘ll always have ourselves. Btw thanks for your nice words! And yes you should def try out the lotus roots 🥰

  • @n0therern
    @n0therern 8 місяців тому +2

    you would look great w short hair!! you should def try it out

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому +2

      Aw thanks, I might give it a try then! 😊❤️

  • @Victoria-gq8gt
    @Victoria-gq8gt 8 місяців тому +1

    Darling girl. I pined for someone for 10 years, every day and night. Now I know they didnt love the way I did. I met someone many years later who was kind and it was an adult relationship, not a passionate, yearning and one sided relationship.
    You will have this easier, supportive relationship later.
    They are waiting for you but dont know you yet. Keep your sanity. I lost mine and it made me physically ill. If I could go back in time, I would save myself. The experience of the last relationship helped me heal the deep wound I had.
    You radiate goodness, femininity, grace and nobility. This is why I know there will be the right person in the future, as these qualities will bring your kindred soul to you in time. They will give you freedom in your need to self reflect, as they will be a balanced, mature man. I feel that you will blossom as a mother. Your child will be your true soul mate, and you'll be able to achieve true equinanimous love.
    Hold tight girl.❤❤❤
    P.S. you are giving all the people who watch this your heart by sharing yourself and your life. Thank you so much.

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому

      Wow what a comment! I read it like three times now and I truly have no words for that 😭 from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for your words, they were very much needed ❤️

  • @lous.1196
    @lous.1196 8 місяців тому +1

    Don’t cry.. :( It will get better, I promise!

  • @Leo-lj6vs
    @Leo-lj6vs 19 днів тому

    You are young and I am sure you will find your soulmate at some point in the future. I had similar experiences in my life and I am of an emotional nature. Hope you are enjoying Sydney 🙂.

  • @VanderBastard
    @VanderBastard 8 місяців тому

    You are so pretty and so precious. Your video made me really hungry, too lol. I hope yo get through this fast. All the best! :)

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  8 місяців тому

      Aw that’s so so kind, thank you! 🥰 I really hope so too! And I‘m glad my videos made you hungry hahah!

  • @kimchiquesadilla
    @kimchiquesadilla 3 місяці тому

    17:42 Relationships are wonderful, but they aren't the only measure of success. You have so much to offer the world!

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  3 місяці тому

      You’re so sweet and wise, thank you!! 🥰

  • @michaelcalder9089
    @michaelcalder9089 12 днів тому

    I like that you appreciate music of Bach.

  • @NSTalk
    @NSTalk 19 днів тому

    You can cook very well. You cooked the eggplant and lotus root quite professionally. 👍

  • @justindot4887
    @justindot4887 4 дні тому

    Canada ❤s you!

  • @gavinhuang4521
    @gavinhuang4521 19 днів тому

    Vitamin C for toxic people. Lol i could relate. Must be why I have lemon water every morning to fight the day :)

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  17 днів тому

      Lemon water every morning is top tier! Keep doing that 🙂‍↔️

  • @chathurangamadhawapathirat1933
    @chathurangamadhawapathirat1933 9 днів тому +1

    Try some meditation, for some people that can help to get rid of the loneliness

  • @GodOfTetris
    @GodOfTetris 10 днів тому

    I think she's like Persian? And she's so perfect, i'm in LoVE. She seems hungry all the time, breaks my heart.

  • @sunnydazz7
    @sunnydazz7 3 місяці тому

    ❤️💯

  • @kimchiquesadilla
    @kimchiquesadilla 3 місяці тому

    13:51 Maybe it is TMI, and you want to keep the food focus on your channel, but how is that possible 😭

    • @Begibou
      @Begibou  3 місяці тому

      Hahaha good question, I wish I knew the answer to it! I try to be more selective now and not let toxic people enter my life anymore :)

  • @বিচিত্রবাংলা-ড৬চ

    Hi dear you're so cute