Therapist 2 times a week and starting antidepressants sounds like you’re taking the best steps possible ! I’m glad you’ve caught this sooner than later !
Thank you!! I feel like I maybe should have been going to the therapist earlier on when I first started having depression, but I’m glad that I have that rescource now
@@Jwool.mp3hey Jwool, I’ve been having the same thought but you can’t dwell on that! All that matters now is putting your recovery first. I’ve been wishing I reached out to a therapist 17 years ago instead of this year but that thinking isn’t too helpful 😅 be proud of yourself for getting help now:)
Bro because of you I'm starting Accepting Who I am For 3 years I've been fighting Depression Feel like I was being judged by others Because of me having disability Because of your video I'm starting to see the light You're awesome keep up the great work
As a person who’s struggled with depression for 8 years, I relate to everything you say. It might take awhile to get better, with medication changes, creating routine and goals, and such. I promise you it WILL get better. I know that everyone says those same words ‘it’ll get better’ but it’s true. One random day your gonna realize that your not carrying a sadness everywhere you go anymore, your love for your hobbies, sports, or whatever you used to like, will come back and be enjoyable again, you will finally feel at peace because it will be the feeling you’ve been searching for this entire time. Recovering from depression isn’t a simple task, and it looks different on everyone. it consists of a lot of trial and error, like your going in circles, but over time you’ll realize the things that were working and weren’t working for you to get better, and you’ll learn from those experiences and use it to get better. When I say better it doesn’t mean happy like a lot of people think recovery is, better means being able to live a life where you can be sad sometimes and you can be happy a little more than sometimes but for the majority of the time neutral. Not numb, not slightly sad, but neutral. Sometimes it’s hard to see the progress in yourself and give up, so something I suggest you could do if you wanted to is journal a year in pixels. Look up ‘year in pixels’ and you’ll see what I mean. It helped me keep track of progress in my life, and if you wanted to you can try it as well. If your not interested in journaling I suggest keeping track of your progress in some other way because it’s a lot more helpful than you would think. Again I will say things will get better, lots of love 💚💚💚
Hello, thank you so much for this comment!! I know it will get better eventually and I am hopeful. Staying neutral is a good thing to aim for. Neutral is good. As long as I’m not sad so much. But yeah, things are only temporary and I’m hoping this medication will do good for me
Hang in there bud. I am 77 and have been fighting it as long as I have been alive. I didn't get meds until I was 45 and they made a world of change. Not a cure but it did make existing much more logical and enjoyable. You have so much time ahead of you and regardless of what path you take in life, you will have some extraordinary adventures ahead of you. If my first attempt had succeeded I would not have given birth to 7 wonderful sons, never met the love and soulmate, and never been there to save the lives of so many people, including my own mom and dad. Its an adventure and no matter how hard you think you got it figured out? A surprise comes out of nowhere and makes it more adventurous.
Depression and unaliving thoughts are hard to go through, u do not deserve to be going through that. You are the most honest and kindest guy I’ve ever seen. I really do hope you regain happiness again. May god have mercy upon ur soul (sorry if ur not religious)
We love you brother. You are stronger than you realize and you WILL get through this! Keep believing that a blessed and prosperous future is in your sight❤
ADHD and depression often go together. Sometimes as one gets better the other one improves too. You only have to do this one day at a time. Things will get better. Please follow your plan. You are worth it.
I was diagnosed with major depression when I was around 20. The meds helped, but a lot of my depression was, and has been, situational. And depression exacerbates any ADD symptoms. As I evolved, my depression became somewhat less overwhelming. Being in love, having a job I liked a lot, really helped. And the less stress the better. Sometimes I talk myself down from a serious episode. Isolation makes things worse. When my longtime boyfriend died, I lost my apartment, my parents also passed, everything came flooding back like I was 20 again. I relapsed in my addiction. But over the last couple years I've been trying to feel better again I hope you will soon feel better. There's no single cure; I had to work on several different layers, therapy, meds, sleep meds, having friends to laugh with, books, music are all important for me. Thanks for this video I really hope you are on the right path😊 PS. What helped a lot is knowing what gives me joy and emotional nourishment. Also challenging my most negative thoughts.
You are so brave to make this video and are helping so many others by being so open and honest…my meds same exact thing-first few days are brutal with drowsiness and being light headed and all
You are so smart and courageous for seeking the help you need. I guarantee you that you will get better because you are doing all the right things. Also, thank you for sharing this video. I’m sure it will help many others! Cheers, mate!
Please stay healthy, do what you have to do to have a good mindset. We all appreciate your honesty and your stories. You are helping so many people.Thank you
Glad to hear you have some answers from the psychiatrist. Undiagnosed ADHD really messes with your mind (I know from experience) so it sounds like you're on the right track now to start taking back some control. Take it easy
From Randy in Chattanooga, Tennessee: Hello young man. That WAS a milestone for you , being able to swallow your medication. Don’t let anyone tell you any different. Take care and God bless. I’m praying for you.🙏🙏🙏
I have never dealt with depression, but I sure feel for what you're going through. No-one here can solve your problems, but I CARE; I'm pretty sure WE ALL CARE. Thank you for sharing your feeling with us; I hope it brings you some relief to talk about it, James. Good luck.
I dealt with heavy depression for a very long time (many years) and worked with a doctor to find a medication that would work for me. But no real results until a friend recommended Wellbutrin (we had similar symptoms) and finally I found a medication that worked for me. I have been largely depression free (mostly) for years now. Wellbutrin really changed my life. I also take a low dose of an anti anxiety medication for panic attacks which I mention because of the pill swallowing problem you talked about and I also experienced which for me was anxiety related (in my opinion). Anyway, it took time to figure out what worked for me but once I did, my life changed dramatically for the better. Please keep working thru it. I know how hard it is but you can do it!
I'm so impressed by your strength, intelligence, openness, and especially your resilience! I'm 58 and have been fighting this fight for a LONG time. I have good days and bad days, too. With medication and counseling, we get through. And that's enough. Just get through!
Please hang in there James. I love you man. Keep working at it. It will get better. Love your vids. You are so brave and honest. You are an inspiration to me.
Right there with you with the MDD & ADHD as well as thoughts. Keep up with the meds. It might take trying different ones and dosages to find the ones that work best for you. You’ve got this and never forget that you are loved.
James, you are certainly doing the right thing about getting good health care. Also, don't forget to ask God for help as well. I will be praying for your total success in your treatment! James
This is so weird. I'm a 62 year old boomer. But UA-cam algorithm recommended your videos about depression and suicide. I was a generally happy kid and teenager. No depression during that period of my life. But in my late 30's I did start suffering from panick attacks in 2000. I was put on an antidepresant/antiansialitic. Then when I was in the middle of all that, my mom fainted in the middle of the night while getting up to use the restroom and ended up spending 19 days in the hospital. I had to travel by plane to be with her and that was the longest 3 hours of my life. After a few days in the hospital with my mom, the meds kicked in and I felt so calm and good. My mom was released and I spent another week with her before returning home. That was in January 2001. She passed away in March of that year from a massive heart attack. The panick attacks turned to depression and I just didn't want to be around anymore. But the thing about depression is, in most cases, it will pass. With therapy and meds, you can get better. I admire you for reaching out for help. That was really brave of you and really smart. And please know that even though I don't know you, I will be very sad if you're no longer on this Earth. Big virtual hug.
Hey James! So happy to see this update, my friend! I've said this before, but it is so awesome that you are so transparent in sharing your life with us! Sharing your experience, day by day, is giving so many people (way more than you realize) encouragement and hope. I want you to think about that every day! Continue doing the right thing and fighting hard, because others are gaining strength through you! Love ya, bro!
aside from doing all you're doing, make someone else happy. Do something super nice for someone and it has a residual effect that makes you feel good too. Best of life to you. Everyone on this comment section is rooting for you and loves you - that's why we're all here!
Keep making content and talking to people about your feelings. Work with your docs and your meds. You will get better and you will help others!! Thank you for this content. You’re very brave!!
@@donaldewert2332 I have a psychiatrist and a therapist who is very helpful, and I have a wonderful girlfriend. I’m grateful for all those things and they really do help
We're here to support you James. The best thing you did was talk to a therapist, and to tell people about it .i have known people who did not tell anyone about it and they were not able to get out of bed. So glad you are on the right track.
I feel for you. This is a tough fight of mind self doubt. I have meds that are my tool/backup for when my anxiety gets high. Time and therapy helped me from my 20’s and now I relate it to my life now. Hang in J. There is a future to behold. 😊
You concentrate so well with ADD doing these videos-well done! Hang in there buddy-it takes a few weeks for the medicine to really get in your system don’t give up-we are thinking of you and lots of people have trouble swallowing pills
I don’t know if this is going to help anything but I just wanted to tell you my story. So pretty much since sixth grade I’ve been hurting myself and just couldn’t feel happiness. 7th grade was worse and my parents somehow never knew. In 8th grade i attempted on my life and I was passes out and my dad was screaming at me being stupid saying I had a good life and stuff. But they took me to the ER and then the hospital and then I was taken to the mental hospital. It sucked and I got diagnosed with MDD. Got put on the biggest meds I’ve ever seen and the side effects sucked and they didn’t make a difference. I got a new therapist that I actually like and she listened and put me on new meds I still have the thoughts but I’m less likely to ever act on them because of what happened. Point is I get it everyone says it gets better but sometimes it really does just make you feel lighter. But I’m proud of you for even just reaching out that’s more than I ever did and so many others ever did. We’re all rooting for you and proud of you!!! Sorry if this didn’t help I talk about myself to prove u get it sometimes 😢
If you ever think about unaliving yourself, one of the things I'd suggest is to think about the devastation that would bring to your loved ones. I've been through a rough couple of years, but thinking about my friends' and parents' support always took my mind off of hurting myself. Not everyone is fortunate enough to have a loving family, a girlfriend, and thousands of subscribers who care about your well-being. Anyways, I'm glad to hear you're doing better Jwool!
That's a form of "addressing the symptom and not the disease." That may prevent the physical act, but the problem is the DESIRE to unalive, which doesn't go away just by thinking about how others will feel about it.
That’s a good idea, and big part of the reason I haven’t done it at dark times. I wish I could be magically removed from the world without hurting anybody, but since that’s not the case, I gotta stay here and be myself for my parents friends and gf
@@Jwool.mp3 here's a really cruel thing I used to think: I didn't want the world to feel sorry for the person who made me think my dark thoughts. it made me angry to think of them getting sympathy, so i'd spend hours crying the pain. Also, my brother, he'd probably understand, but he'd also feel like a huge failure. With this said, over time I learned not to feel guilty for my thoughts and even got to the point where i could tell him. he was upset. not for himself, but because i was in pain. i could literally call him 24/7/365 and he'd be there
I'm glad that you are getting better, albeit it slowly, but better nonetheless. It brings a smile to my face knowing that you are getting that help even if you might not see any significant progress at first, but it as time goes one, you will look back at the first bit and see huge improvement that has come, trust me. And as someone who also is struggling with depression for the past 8 years, something that has helped me and might help with your depression, along with the medication, is just simply doing minor things such as opening up any windows and letting natural light in as well as just getting dressed for the day even though you might not be going anywhere for the day.
We are all hoping that you are doing well! Hope the side effects (like tiredness) aren't that bad now. We all want you to try your best. Personally, I know that in the beginning of recovery, it is really hard to be very positive, and you don't have to explain that you only felt 3 out of 5 good days. I never liked doing that myself, at least. What I'm trying to say is that the road to recovery is never easy, but it is totally worth it. After years of s______dal ideation, and medication, etc. I'm finally able to not hurt myself. There are still struggles every day, but I'm so much better, and I'm so happy my life didn't end. And we all want that for you too! We are so happy that you are getting the help you need! And to anyone reading this, it is alright to have bad days. Or bad years. It's okay. 💪
Taking the initiative to seek and accept help is hard. You succeeded with that. Meds may need changing as you go and grow. Backing you on this journey! Blessings to you.👍🙏😁
Celebrate the accomplishments no matter how small they are.......I read somewhere.....don't focus on your past adventures but look forward to the adventures that have yet to happen! Stay strong....you are strong.....important and matter!
Medication can be another tool just like therapies, journaling, self care, working out…sometimes you need a floor to the feelings and when you’ve tried everything else, medication can sometimes be that tool. I’m a trauma therapist and I use an antidepressant as a tool for myself when I know I’m in the place where I need a floor. Last time I took it for about 8 months and things shifted and I was able to taper off. And I know of I get in that place again, I have a great tool (med) to bring in that can help me. Just wanted to offer that perspective 💛
When things look down or your day is problematic, you can always draw strength from possibilities that tomorrow will bring. You can have so many days of absolute shite, then suddenly everything changes in a day and you couldn't ask for better. Be patient, be ready for shite to happen along the way and keep looking on the bright side of life because you will eventually get where you want to go. Stay strong.
i’m so glad your doing a little better and i’m really proud of you for swallowing the pills I gotta honest and I can’t swallow pills at all I never swallowed a pill in my life
Hang in there!! You may benefit by becoming a volunteer where you can be part of a team and help others. I am a volunteer at a aviation museum. We have over 70 antique airplanes outdoors. I was spending hours repairing lawn sprinklers and pulling weeds. I am responsible for pulling weeds around 1 plane and washing it. When I am working on the grounds, visitors come to me and ask questions. Sometimes I take visitors around in a golf cart. There is joy in helping others and being part of a team. Some of our museum volunteers also volunteer for Habitat for Humanity. This organization builds and remodels houses for low income people and they operate thrift stores that sell donated building material. There is probably a Habitat for Humanity in your community and there are probably 1 or more museums that need tour guides and maintenance people. Being a volunteer might do you a lot of good. You might make a top notch volunteer for big brothers and be a role model for a kid with no dad! Volunteering should build your feeling of self worth and accomplishment and take away the depression.
Hey there James: Life can be really tough sometimes, and it’s important to give yourself grace. Reach out to someone you trust, whether it’s a friend, family member, or a counselor. Sharing your feelings can be a big step towards feeling better. Remember, you’re not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help. Take things one day at a time, and be kind to yourself. You matter more than you realize. Praying your new medications begin to make a difference. Take care!
I just found your site. You are an amazing young man. One warning, when you feel good, don’t think you are better. Keep on your meds. I deal with individuals with my issues, depression, bipolar etc. so many feel better and stop taking their meds and end up back sliding. Don’t do it. Stay with therapy too
I can totally relate to your struggles and concerns. Just understand things do get better. You are taking all the right steps. You’re young smart good looking and have your whole life ahead of you. One day at a time.
I hope he realizes that all those meds are bad for you. I hate to be negative Nancy by saying that I just like to warn people about things when I know somethings bad, especially if he felt suicidal because a lot of those meds will make you feel that way I’m trying to prevent him from doing anything bad.If I live near him, I could help him, but I’m sure I live far away.
I never had much luck with medication. Sometimes it made my problems worse. Sometimes it worked but I would just end up chasing the dragon of feeling ok. Psychiatry gave me many addictions. I can’t do that stuff anymore. Talking is the best solution I’ve found. I go to group therapy because one-on-one with a stranger makes me uncomfortable. And these groups are so real. The people there understand and even when they don’t, they make a genuine effort to understand. I found the root of many of my problems was a lack of community that can understand me. That’s what it’s been for me, addressing the roots. And I was blind to the roots for so long. Keeping a journal has helped me find the negative patterns in my life that need to be addressed. Writing helps me keep authorship of my life. Find what makes you happy and go after it :) Never be ashamed to ask for help. There are people out there that really do understand and care. Life can be too painful to not feel the love!
Top tip: when the antidepressant does kick in at 2 weeks and you start to progressively feel better you get to a point where you feel much, much better. At that point there is a temptation to stop taking the meds because you feel good - do NOT stop - you need to continue for at least 6 months from the point you feel better and even then only under the expert guidance of your psychiatrist.
From Canada here , stay strong you are so much needed in this world , and with this video you are helping peaple that you dont even know plus hoping your helping your self . Stay strong my friend
Good for you man! I’m currently feeling the same ways you are with depression and suicidal thoughts due to the absence of my father for the past 3 years. I wonder if I should take medication myself or if it should be more of a last resort. Praying both of us get better
I've been through depression and sh, luckily never had to go to the psychiatrist. But I did it and I'm letting you know it is possible to get through this. You CAN do this. Praying for you, man
Good on you for seeking out help, it took me until I was put in a mental hospital to get help . I hope you get better; SSRIs helped me a lot, but it also took a lot of other changes. I’m glad you’re trying to get better
God Bless you, man! You have no idea what a beautiful human you are! James, if you have trouble swallowing pills, take them with applesauce. It will work, and you HAVE to take these meds ... and KEEP talking. The world NEEDS you, James. 😍🤩
DUDE! J- I have been there. Back in Jr/Sr High I was bullied. I used drugs to try and cope. I hope you are doing better. I want you to succeed. I want you to do better. I want you to thrive.
I am 62. I still have problems swallowing my heart meds and my diabetic meds. I still have problems swallowing my bronchitis meds. Don't give up, J. There is peace and hope and a better future. PLEASE don't give up. We are pulling for you and cheering for you. Don't quit.
STAY STRONG. I'm glad you reached out for help before anything bad happens. I am also diagnosed with deep depression. I am also taking two medications for this, one starts with a 'C' and the other an 'A'. As you were talking I was nodding my head in agreement. One thing that I've noticed, and I've been taking these for years, is a near complete loss of the ability to express emotions. I can still think something is funny, or I can get angry, but it takes a LOT for it to bubble to the surface. Stay safe. I'm happy you took these steps.
the thing about pills is so relatable, i got put of fluoxetine (anxiety) at 15, and i had never been able to swallow pills, whenever i got sick id use the kids liquid medicine. when i first did it i felt silly because of how easy it actually was. im now 16 so i do fully remember the feeling and im glad theres someone else that couldnt do it, i felt so weird for it too.
Also I get that head spinning thing as well, not bc of meds tho. It used to happen a lot. Like for weeks most times I stood up, the room started spinning. One time it happened it was quite bad in the morning. I'd just got out of bed and was going to feed my fish, nearly fell and had to hold on to my desk for support. Other times, (more recent) it just happens randomly. Like one time I was at a shopping centre and everything went blurry and I couldn't see anything. It's weird tho bc as it starts, I realise that and my brain immediately goes, "okay, wall there, person there, hear people behind me, just grab her if I fall".It sometimes also happens after I put cold water on my forehead. Like I'll be doing rep netball training, which is more intense than regular, go to the bathroom, do my thing, then wipe cold water on my forehead bc I'm hot. Then when I've gotten back, immediately wave of dizziness. It's really hard to do sport when everything is so blurry infront of you for a few seconds to the point where you can't see anything. Anyway that was long lol
I got diagnosed with autism, social anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder and got told I might have adhd (I've done a lot of research and I'm sure I have it) but they told me I can't get tested until I grow out of the depression (because one of the symptoms of it are the lack of focus and finding it hard to concentrate), the thing is that my adhd traits are impacting my life in a very bad way so I hope I can grow out of this depression as soon as possible
Thanks for sharing man. I’ve been taking anti depressants for years and I wish people would talk more openly about it. Glad to hear they’re slowly kicking in for you. ❤
You did the right thing. Good for you! I was very depressed a few months ago. I finally forced myself to go to my family doctor. (They know my history.) I had been off all my meds, including my SSRI antidepressant, for about a year. I was desperate but NOT hopeful. But in less than a week I felt like a new person. Thank God for 40 mg/ day of Prozac! That's a lot faster tho than most meds work, generally it can take weeks for the meds to really begin to lift the depression. It looks like you're responding to your new meds and your therapy. Hang in there!🤗
Good for you , many do not recognize that they need help and allow others to guide them through the depression. Patience as the road is bumpy at times and you may not always see or feel your progress. You definitely project a positive vibe and honesty. The fact you were able to complete this video is your victory , good for you !
They've got me on max dose of effexor and just started me on buspirone. Hoping it'll help. The buspirone is like what you're describing lol. So tiny and sometimes I can't tell if I even swallowed it. I'm walking a similar path with ya,brother. Stay strong
You are doing all the right things. Let your Psych Doc know of your side effects. Finding what is the right anti-depressant for you can sometimes take trying a few different ones - until you get one that works and doesn't have bad side effects. And indeed, most are subtle and it takes awhile before you look back and realize that you're doing better than a few days before. Also, if swallowing pills becomes an obstacle, ask your Dr. whether a compounding pharmacy could put the drug into a liquid form. It's more expensive but can be done with many (but not all) drugs.
It does take a little time to really know if this is the right medication for you. They also start with the smallest dosage possible and adjust until the correct levels are achieved for you. this also makes adjusting to side effects easier, or let you and them know based on any side effects if these are the correct meds for you. It both socks but is worth going through the journey of getting on the right meds and of course getting counseling. The only thing I heard you say that was a little concerning was your therapist was feeling your shoulders and letting you know you felt less tense? Normally therapists/counselors don't go hands on with patients (especially minors). However, I'm glad you're getting the help you need, and I'm always thinking positive thoughts about you brother..
Hey. The feedback from the psychiatrist seems to fit from what I see... You kinda look better - and it's not just the lighting. Keep going. Keep fighting... You even smile :)
Being proud of something small while in depression is good, really good. Hold on to these good days. There are more coming for you! ❤ I am proud of you!!
I am glad that you are getting the help that you need and I am happy that it appears to be slowly working to help you. I am glad that you realize that this is going to take time. You have a lot of people around you and thousands following you on youtube that care about you and are pulling for you. Thanks for the update and try to stay positive!
I hope the best for you. I have been on meds for along time now. It takes about 2 weeks to get in your blood and they maybe change the dosages depends on how your brain reacts.
in case anyone needs to hear it. you are loved you are important you are smart you are worthy you are loved by God you are special you are good enough you are funny you are kind you are caring you are pretty/handsome i hope everyone is doing good, and is having a great summer!
I'm age 21 and don't have experience with depression with me or someone I know (as far as I know). I don't know what you're going through. But for pills and swallowing I do know something. The best thing I do is put the pill in my mouth and just start drinking water and the pill goes with the flow. I'm sure you hear it a lot already but I'll say it too--hang in there and keep moving forward. It sounds like you have people in your life that care. That is huge. I'm still working on that myself. My best to you.
Access to the best psychiatric care-- and having the patience to find the right medication-- has saved my life. I'm rooting for you!
Yeah!
wtf tay zonday!!!! chocolate rain!!! you're a legend!!!
hey man thats awesome youre supporting james its so sweet
Thank you Tay!! I hope this medication will work out for me
@@Jwool.mp3 i hope, too
Therapist 2 times a week and starting antidepressants sounds like you’re taking the best steps possible ! I’m glad you’ve caught this sooner than later !
Thank you!! I feel like I maybe should have been going to the therapist earlier on when I first started having depression, but I’m glad that I have that rescource now
@@Jwool.mp3hey Jwool, I’ve been having the same thought but you can’t dwell on that! All that matters now is putting your recovery first. I’ve been wishing I reached out to a therapist 17 years ago instead of this year but that thinking isn’t too helpful 😅 be proud of yourself for getting help now:)
Bro because of you I'm starting Accepting Who I am For 3 years I've been fighting Depression Feel like I was being judged by others Because of me having disability Because of your video I'm starting to see the light You're awesome keep up the great work
Aww I’m really glad my videos could help. You deserve to be yourself and to love doing it. I hope you stick around this channel, thank you :)
James keep talking about your feelings. Not easy for guys, but healthy for you. Avoid shutting down and you will be ok!😊
As a person who’s struggled with depression for 8 years, I relate to everything you say. It might take awhile to get better, with medication changes, creating routine and goals, and such. I promise you it WILL get better. I know that everyone says those same words ‘it’ll get better’ but it’s true. One random day your gonna realize that your not carrying a sadness everywhere you go anymore, your love for your hobbies, sports, or whatever you used to like, will come back and be enjoyable again, you will finally feel at peace because it will be the feeling you’ve been searching for this entire time. Recovering from depression isn’t a simple task, and it looks different on everyone. it consists of a lot of trial and error, like your going in circles, but over time you’ll realize the things that were working and weren’t working for you to get better, and you’ll learn from those experiences and use it to get better. When I say better it doesn’t mean happy like a lot of people think recovery is, better means being able to live a life where you can be sad sometimes and you can be happy a little more than sometimes but for the majority of the time neutral. Not numb, not slightly sad, but neutral. Sometimes it’s hard to see the progress in yourself and give up, so something I suggest you could do if you wanted to is journal a year in pixels. Look up ‘year in pixels’ and you’ll see what I mean. It helped me keep track of progress in my life, and if you wanted to you can try it as well. If your not interested in journaling I suggest keeping track of your progress in some other way because it’s a lot more helpful than you would think. Again I will say things will get better, lots of love 💚💚💚
Hello, thank you so much for this comment!! I know it will get better eventually and I am hopeful. Staying neutral is a good thing to aim for. Neutral is good. As long as I’m not sad so much. But yeah, things are only temporary and I’m hoping this medication will do good for me
@@Jwool.mp3 truth
@@Jwool.mp3I subscribe to your UA-cam channel you are a good person i support you jwool
Meds have to build up in your system to work. Please don't skip them or they will not build up. That's why they said two week kick-in point.
Yeah I’ve been sticking to it every day. I’ll keep doing it until it makes me feel better 🙏
@@Jwool.mp3 usually if they dont work within a month to two months they might not be the right fit, or meds might not be for u
Hang in there bud. I am 77 and have been fighting it as long as I have been alive. I didn't get meds until I was 45 and they made a world of change. Not a cure but it did make existing much more logical and enjoyable. You have so much time ahead of you and regardless of what path you take in life, you will have some extraordinary adventures ahead of you. If my first attempt had succeeded I would not have given birth to 7 wonderful sons, never met the love and soulmate, and never been there to save the lives of so many people, including my own mom and dad. Its an adventure and no matter how hard you think you got it figured out? A surprise comes out of nowhere and makes it more adventurous.
Depression and unaliving thoughts are hard to go through, u do not deserve to be going through that. You are the most honest and kindest guy I’ve ever seen. I really do hope you regain happiness again. May god have mercy upon ur soul (sorry if ur not religious)
Thank you so much, I really appreciate it. Also, im not religious but I don’t mind stuff like that at all :)
We love you brother. You are stronger than you realize and you WILL get through this! Keep believing that a blessed and prosperous future is in your sight❤
ADHD and depression often go together. Sometimes as one gets better the other one improves too. You only have to do this one day at a time. Things will get better. Please follow your plan. You are worth it.
I was diagnosed with major depression when I was around 20. The meds helped, but a lot of my depression was, and has been, situational. And depression exacerbates any ADD symptoms. As I evolved, my depression became somewhat less overwhelming. Being in love, having a job I liked a lot, really helped. And the less stress the better. Sometimes I talk myself down from a serious episode. Isolation makes things worse. When my longtime boyfriend died, I lost my apartment, my parents also passed, everything came flooding back like I was 20 again. I relapsed in my addiction. But over the last couple years I've been trying to feel better again
I hope you will soon feel better. There's no single cure; I had to work on several different layers, therapy, meds, sleep meds, having friends to laugh with, books, music are all important for me. Thanks for this video I really hope you are on the right path😊
PS. What helped a lot is knowing what gives me joy and emotional nourishment. Also challenging my most negative thoughts.
You are so brave to make this video and are helping so many others by being so open and honest…my meds same exact thing-first few days are brutal with drowsiness and being light headed and all
You are so smart and courageous for seeking the help you need. I guarantee you that you will get better because you are doing all the right things. Also, thank you for sharing this video. I’m sure it will help many others! Cheers, mate!
Please stay healthy, do what you have to do to have a good mindset. We all appreciate your honesty and your stories. You are helping so many people.Thank you
Good for you, James … keep it up! Don’t loose hope. You have a wonderful life in front of you!
Glad to hear you have some answers from the psychiatrist. Undiagnosed ADHD really messes with your mind (I know from experience) so it sounds like you're on the right track now to start taking back some control. Take it easy
Proud of you ! Please don’t ever give up. Life can get better if you are alive. Life can be great. You have a new friend here. Good luck young man.
From Randy in Chattanooga, Tennessee: Hello young man. That WAS a milestone for you , being able to swallow your medication. Don’t let anyone tell you any different. Take care and God bless. I’m praying for you.🙏🙏🙏
Thanks for sharing your story. You're not alone, and you're helping a lot of people, hopefully yourself, too!
You are so articulate and obviously bright. Push through...there is so much more to live for...just push through and believe in yourself.
I have never dealt with depression, but I sure feel for what you're going through. No-one here can solve your problems, but I CARE; I'm pretty sure WE ALL CARE. Thank you for sharing your feeling with us; I hope it brings you some relief to talk about it, James. Good luck.
Thanks for update, you're taking good steps & hope you continue to feel ok Jwool bro, you got tons of love & support!
I dealt with heavy depression for a very long time (many years) and worked with a doctor to find a medication that would work for me. But no real results until a friend recommended Wellbutrin (we had similar symptoms) and finally I found a medication that worked for me. I have been largely depression free (mostly) for years now. Wellbutrin really changed my life. I also take a low dose of an anti anxiety medication for panic attacks which I mention because of the pill swallowing problem you talked about and I also experienced which for me was anxiety related (in my opinion). Anyway, it took time to figure out what worked for me but once I did, my life changed dramatically for the better. Please keep working thru it. I know how hard it is but you can do it!
I'm so impressed by your strength, intelligence, openness, and especially your resilience! I'm 58 and have been fighting this fight for a LONG time. I have good days and bad days, too. With medication and counseling, we get through. And that's enough. Just get through!
Please hang in there James. I love you man. Keep working at it. It will get better. Love your vids. You are so brave and honest. You are an inspiration to me.
Be proud of yourself for having the courage to share your journey and helping others ❤
Right there with you with the MDD & ADHD as well as thoughts.
Keep up with the meds. It might take trying different ones and dosages to find the ones that work best for you.
You’ve got this and never forget that you are loved.
We are all rooting for you - hang in there. All the very best to you.
James, you are certainly doing the right thing about getting good health care. Also, don't forget to ask God for help as well. I will be praying for your total success in your treatment! James
Ay we’re rooting for you dude!! You aren’t alone. You’re gonna get through this ❤❤
This is so weird. I'm a 62 year old boomer. But UA-cam algorithm recommended your videos about depression and suicide. I was a generally happy kid and teenager. No depression during that period of my life. But in my late 30's I did start suffering from panick attacks in 2000. I was put on an antidepresant/antiansialitic. Then when I was in the middle of all that, my mom fainted in the middle of the night while getting up to use the restroom and ended up spending 19 days in the hospital. I had to travel by plane to be with her and that was the longest 3 hours of my life. After a few days in the hospital with my mom, the meds kicked in and I felt so calm and good. My mom was released and I spent another week with her before returning home. That was in January 2001. She passed away in March of that year from a massive heart attack. The panick attacks turned to depression and I just didn't want to be around anymore. But the thing about depression is, in most cases, it will pass. With therapy and meds, you can get better. I admire you for reaching out for help. That was really brave of you and really smart. And please know that even though I don't know you, I will be very sad if you're no longer on this Earth. Big virtual hug.
Thank you for the update. And it is one step and day at a time. You are in my prayers James.
Hey James! So happy to see this update, my friend! I've said this before, but it is so awesome that you are so transparent in sharing your life with us! Sharing your experience, day by day, is giving so many people (way more than you realize) encouragement and hope. I want you to think about that every day! Continue doing the right thing and fighting hard, because others are gaining strength through you! Love ya, bro!
aside from doing all you're doing, make someone else happy. Do something super nice for someone and it has a residual effect that makes you feel good too. Best of life to you. Everyone on this comment section is rooting for you and loves you - that's why we're all here!
Keep making content and talking to people about your feelings. Work with your docs and your meds. You will get better and you will help others!! Thank you for this content. You’re very brave!!
A psycotherapist along with a psychiatrist helped me, mostly the therapist but you have to have one who you feel truly cares about you!!
@@donaldewert2332 I have a psychiatrist and a therapist who is very helpful, and I have a wonderful girlfriend. I’m grateful for all those things and they really do help
I'm praying for you dude. I'm 85 years old but I can remember feeling like you at your age. Praying a powerful prayer for you.
We're here to support you James. The best thing you did was talk to a therapist, and to tell people about it
.i have known people who did not tell anyone about it and they were not able to get out of bed. So glad you are on the right track.
I feel for you. This is a tough fight of mind self doubt. I have meds that are my tool/backup for when my anxiety gets high. Time and therapy helped me from my 20’s and now I relate it to my life now. Hang in J. There is a future to behold. 😊
You concentrate so well with ADD doing these videos-well done! Hang in there buddy-it takes a few weeks for the medicine to really get in your system don’t give up-we are thinking of you and lots of people have trouble swallowing pills
I don’t know if this is going to help anything but I just wanted to tell you my story. So pretty much since sixth grade I’ve been hurting myself and just couldn’t feel happiness. 7th grade was worse and my parents somehow never knew. In 8th grade i attempted on my life and I was passes out and my dad was screaming at me being stupid saying I had a good life and stuff. But they took me to the ER and then the hospital and then I was taken to the mental hospital. It sucked and I got diagnosed with MDD. Got put on the biggest meds I’ve ever seen and the side effects sucked and they didn’t make a difference. I got a new therapist that I actually like and she listened and put me on new meds I still have the thoughts but I’m less likely to ever act on them because of what happened. Point is I get it everyone says it gets better but sometimes it really does just make you feel lighter. But I’m proud of you for even just reaching out that’s more than I ever did and so many others ever did. We’re all rooting for you and proud of you!!! Sorry if this didn’t help I talk about myself to prove u get it sometimes 😢
If you ever think about unaliving yourself, one of the things I'd suggest is to think about the devastation that would bring to your loved ones. I've been through a rough couple of years, but thinking about my friends' and parents' support always took my mind off of hurting myself.
Not everyone is fortunate enough to have a loving family, a girlfriend, and thousands of subscribers who care about your well-being. Anyways, I'm glad to hear you're doing better Jwool!
it's good advice, but it can also leave us feeling guilty, and even more depressed
That's a form of "addressing the symptom and not the disease." That may prevent the physical act, but the problem is the DESIRE to unalive, which doesn't go away just by thinking about how others will feel about it.
That’s a good idea, and big part of the reason I haven’t done it at dark times. I wish I could be magically removed from the world without hurting anybody, but since that’s not the case, I gotta stay here and be myself for my parents friends and gf
@@QuantumVoid-ro3hiagreed. For me it would stop me from doing it but not feeling it
@@Jwool.mp3 here's a really cruel thing I used to think: I didn't want the world to feel sorry for the person who made me think my dark thoughts. it made me angry to think of them getting sympathy, so i'd spend hours crying the pain. Also, my brother, he'd probably understand, but he'd also feel like a huge failure. With this said, over time I learned not to feel guilty for my thoughts and even got to the point where i could tell him. he was upset. not for himself, but because i was in pain. i could literally call him 24/7/365 and he'd be there
I'm glad that you are getting better, albeit it slowly, but better nonetheless. It brings a smile to my face knowing that you are getting that help even if you might not see any significant progress at first, but it as time goes one, you will look back at the first bit and see huge improvement that has come, trust me.
And as someone who also is struggling with depression for the past 8 years, something that has helped me and might help with your depression, along with the medication, is just simply doing minor things such as opening up any windows and letting natural light in as well as just getting dressed for the day even though you might not be going anywhere for the day.
We are all hoping that you are doing well! Hope the side effects (like tiredness) aren't that bad now. We all want you to try your best. Personally, I know that in the beginning of recovery, it is really hard to be very positive, and you don't have to explain that you only felt 3 out of 5 good days. I never liked doing that myself, at least. What I'm trying to say is that the road to recovery is never easy, but it is totally worth it. After years of s______dal ideation, and medication, etc. I'm finally able to not hurt myself. There are still struggles every day, but I'm so much better, and I'm so happy my life didn't end. And we all want that for you too! We are so happy that you are getting the help you need! And to anyone reading this, it is alright to have bad days. Or bad years. It's okay. 💪
I appreciate your openness. I hope things improve.
Taking the initiative to seek and accept help is hard. You succeeded with that. Meds may need changing as you go and grow. Backing you on this journey! Blessings to you.👍🙏😁
Celebrate the accomplishments no matter how small they are.......I read somewhere.....don't focus on your past adventures but look forward to the adventures that have yet to happen! Stay strong....you are strong.....important and matter!
Good luck on your recovery man 😔 we're here for you
Medication can be another tool just like therapies, journaling, self care, working out…sometimes you need a floor to the feelings and when you’ve tried everything else, medication can sometimes be that tool. I’m a trauma therapist and I use an antidepressant as a tool for myself when I know I’m in the place where I need a floor. Last time I took it for about 8 months and things shifted and I was able to taper off. And I know of I get in that place again, I have a great tool (med) to bring in that can help me. Just wanted to offer that perspective 💛
When things look down or your day is problematic, you can always draw strength from possibilities that tomorrow will bring. You can have so many days of absolute shite, then suddenly everything changes in a day and you couldn't ask for better. Be patient, be ready for shite to happen along the way and keep looking on the bright side of life because you will eventually get where you want to go. Stay strong.
Hope you can get the help you need.We’ll always be here for you man 🤝
We’re here for you man. You got this
Hey Man, I’m glad you are getting help and hope everything works out for you. Because you can do it.
i’m so glad your doing a little better and i’m really proud of you for swallowing the pills I gotta honest and I can’t swallow pills at all I never swallowed a pill in my life
Great to hear you're doing better, wishing you the best 🙏
Thank you man
Hang in there!! You may benefit by becoming a volunteer where you can be part of a team and help others. I am a volunteer at a aviation museum. We have over 70 antique airplanes outdoors. I was spending hours repairing lawn sprinklers and pulling weeds. I am responsible for pulling weeds around 1 plane and washing it. When I am working on the grounds, visitors come to me and ask questions. Sometimes I take visitors around in a golf cart. There is joy in helping others and being part of a team. Some of our museum volunteers also volunteer for Habitat for Humanity. This organization builds and remodels houses for low income people and they operate thrift stores that sell donated building material. There is probably a Habitat for Humanity in your community and there are probably 1 or more museums that need tour guides and maintenance people. Being a volunteer might do you a lot of good. You might make a top notch volunteer for big brothers and be a role model for a kid with no dad! Volunteering should build your feeling of self worth and accomplishment and take away the depression.
Hey there James:
Life can be really tough sometimes, and it’s important to give yourself grace. Reach out to someone you trust, whether it’s a friend, family member, or a counselor. Sharing your feelings can be a big step towards feeling better. Remember, you’re not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help. Take things one day at a time, and be kind to yourself. You matter more than you realize. Praying your new medications begin to make a difference. Take care!
You definitely look more relaxed that was my first thought from the beginning of the video. I hope the side effects end up not being so bad soon.
Glad to hear you are starting to feel a little better, keep staying strong.
its good you're doing good man, and that you're accepting of help keep going this way
I was over 18 when I started swallowing pills! Congrats for you celebrate even the little wins! good job, one day at a time and focus on each win!
Thank you for this video and your words. You're doing a good job, keep going. Your loved, send u a big hug 🫂
I just found your site. You are an amazing young man. One warning, when you feel good, don’t think you are better. Keep on your meds. I deal with individuals with my issues, depression, bipolar etc. so many feel better and stop taking their meds and end up back sliding. Don’t do it. Stay with therapy too
I can totally relate to your struggles and concerns. Just understand things do get better. You are taking all the right steps. You’re young smart good looking and have your whole life ahead of you. One day at a time.
I hope ur okay Jwool! im here for u
I hope he realizes that all those meds are bad for you. I hate to be negative Nancy by saying that I just like to warn people about things when I know somethings bad, especially if he felt suicidal because a lot of those meds will make you feel that way I’m trying to prevent him from doing anything bad.If I live near him, I could help him, but I’m sure I live far away.
I never had much luck with medication. Sometimes it made my problems worse. Sometimes it worked but I would just end up chasing the dragon of feeling ok. Psychiatry gave me many addictions. I can’t do that stuff anymore.
Talking is the best solution I’ve found. I go to group therapy because one-on-one with a stranger makes me uncomfortable. And these groups are so real. The people there understand and even when they don’t, they make a genuine effort to understand.
I found the root of many of my problems was a lack of community that can understand me. That’s what it’s been for me, addressing the roots. And I was blind to the roots for so long. Keeping a journal has helped me find the negative patterns in my life that need to be addressed. Writing helps me keep authorship of my life.
Find what makes you happy and go after it :) Never be ashamed to ask for help. There are people out there that really do understand and care. Life can be too painful to not feel the love!
Top tip: when the antidepressant does kick in at 2 weeks and you start to progressively feel better you get to a point where you feel much, much better. At that point there is a temptation to stop taking the meds because you feel good - do NOT stop - you need to continue for at least 6 months from the point you feel better and even then only under the expert guidance of your psychiatrist.
From Canada here , stay strong you are so much needed in this world , and with this video you are helping peaple that you dont even know plus hoping your helping your self . Stay strong my friend
Good for you man! I’m currently feeling the same ways you are with depression and suicidal thoughts due to the absence of my father for the past 3 years. I wonder if I should take medication myself or if it should be more of a last resort. Praying both of us get better
Ty Mr Jwool you help thousands by sharing your story ❤
I've been through depression and sh, luckily never had to go to the psychiatrist. But I did it and I'm letting you know it is possible to get through this. You CAN do this. Praying for you, man
Good on you for seeking out help, it took me until I was put in a mental hospital to get help . I hope you get better; SSRIs helped me a lot, but it also took a lot of other changes. I’m glad you’re trying to get better
God Bless you, man! You have no idea what a beautiful human you are! James, if you have trouble swallowing pills, take them with applesauce. It will work, and you HAVE to take these meds ... and KEEP talking. The world NEEDS you, James. 😍🤩
DUDE! J- I have been there. Back in Jr/Sr High I was bullied. I used drugs to try and cope. I hope you are doing better. I want you to succeed. I want you to do better. I want you to thrive.
I am 62. I still have problems swallowing my heart meds and my diabetic meds. I still have problems swallowing my bronchitis meds. Don't give up, J. There is peace and hope and a better future. PLEASE don't give up. We are pulling for you and cheering for you. Don't quit.
STAY STRONG. I'm glad you reached out for help before anything bad happens. I am also diagnosed with deep depression. I am also taking two medications for this, one starts with a 'C' and the other an 'A'. As you were talking I was nodding my head in agreement. One thing that I've noticed, and I've been taking these for years, is a near complete loss of the ability to express emotions. I can still think something is funny, or I can get angry, but it takes a LOT for it to bubble to the surface. Stay safe. I'm happy you took these steps.
Hey Jimmy, we are all here for you, brother.
the thing about pills is so relatable, i got put of fluoxetine (anxiety) at 15, and i had never been able to swallow pills, whenever i got sick id use the kids liquid medicine. when i first did it i felt silly because of how easy it actually was. im now 16 so i do fully remember the feeling and im glad theres someone else that couldnt do it, i felt so weird for it too.
Also I get that head spinning thing as well, not bc of meds tho. It used to happen a lot. Like for weeks most times I stood up, the room started spinning. One time it happened it was quite bad in the morning. I'd just got out of bed and was going to feed my fish, nearly fell and had to hold on to my desk for support. Other times, (more recent) it just happens randomly. Like one time I was at a shopping centre and everything went blurry and I couldn't see anything. It's weird tho bc as it starts, I realise that and my brain immediately goes, "okay, wall there, person there, hear people behind me, just grab her if I fall".It sometimes also happens after I put cold water on my forehead. Like I'll be doing rep netball training, which is more intense than regular, go to the bathroom, do my thing, then wipe cold water on my forehead bc I'm hot. Then when I've gotten back, immediately wave of dizziness. It's really hard to do sport when everything is so blurry infront of you for a few seconds to the point where you can't see anything.
Anyway that was long lol
I got diagnosed with autism, social anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder and got told I might have adhd (I've done a lot of research and I'm sure I have it) but they told me I can't get tested until I grow out of the depression (because one of the symptoms of it are the lack of focus and finding it hard to concentrate), the thing is that my adhd traits are impacting my life in a very bad way so I hope I can grow out of this depression as soon as possible
Wool man I hope your okay we’re all here for you!
Thanks for sharing man. I’ve been taking anti depressants for years and I wish people would talk more openly about it. Glad to hear they’re slowly kicking in for you. ❤
You did the right thing. Good for you! I was very depressed a few months ago. I finally forced myself to go to my family doctor. (They know my history.) I had been off all my meds, including my SSRI antidepressant, for about a year. I was desperate but NOT hopeful. But in less than a week I felt like a new person. Thank God for 40 mg/ day of Prozac! That's a lot faster tho than most meds work, generally it can take weeks for the meds to really begin to lift the depression. It looks like you're responding to your new meds and your therapy. Hang in there!🤗
i hope you are Okay Jwool i am here for you
I'm proud of you! I'm here for you if you ever need a friend
Good for you , many do not recognize that they need help and allow others to guide them through the depression. Patience as the road is bumpy at times and you may not always see or feel your progress. You definitely project a positive vibe and honesty. The fact you were able to complete this video is your victory , good for you !
They've got me on max dose of effexor and just started me on buspirone. Hoping it'll help. The buspirone is like what you're describing lol. So tiny and sometimes I can't tell if I even swallowed it. I'm walking a similar path with ya,brother. Stay strong
You are doing all the right things. Let your Psych Doc know of your side effects. Finding what is the right anti-depressant for you can sometimes take trying a few different ones - until you get one that works and doesn't have bad side effects. And indeed, most are subtle and it takes awhile before you look back and realize that you're doing better than a few days before. Also, if swallowing pills becomes an obstacle, ask your Dr. whether a compounding pharmacy could put the drug into a liquid form. It's more expensive but can be done with many (but not all) drugs.
I've had Adhd since age 6 and been taking pills since then now I'm almost 41. Keep it up it helps.
It does take a little time to really know if this is the right medication for you. They also start with the smallest dosage possible and adjust until the correct levels are achieved for you. this also makes adjusting to side effects easier, or let you and them know based on any side effects if these are the correct meds for you. It both socks but is worth going through the journey of getting on the right meds and of course getting counseling. The only thing I heard you say that was a little concerning was your therapist was feeling your shoulders and letting you know you felt less tense? Normally therapists/counselors don't go hands on with patients (especially minors). However, I'm glad you're getting the help you need, and I'm always thinking positive thoughts about you brother..
Jwool keeping sharing your story, you have no idea how many youth your video is impacting. God bless you.
Thanks for the update
Well done 👏
Just take it one day at the time enjoy the little things in life and stay positive and don't forget to smile 😊
Hey. The feedback from the psychiatrist seems to fit from what I see... You kinda look better - and it's not just the lighting. Keep going. Keep fighting... You even smile :)
Being proud of something small while in depression is good, really good. Hold on to these good days. There are more coming for you! ❤ I am proud of you!!
I am glad that you are getting the help that you need and I am happy that it appears to be slowly working to help you. I am glad that you realize that this is going to take time. You have a lot of people around you and thousands following you on youtube that care about you and are pulling for you. Thanks for the update and try to stay positive!
Keep pushing forward you CAN get through this!!!!!! ❤🙏
I hope the best for you. I have been on meds for along time now. It takes about 2 weeks to get in your blood and they maybe change the dosages depends on how your brain reacts.
I listened carefully. You talk fluently and concisely, so it was easy to follow you. That's definitely a strength you can rely on. Regards - Martin
in case anyone needs to hear it.
you are loved
you are important
you are smart
you are worthy
you are loved by God
you are special
you are good enough
you are funny
you are kind
you are caring
you are pretty/handsome
i hope everyone is doing good, and is having a great summer!
Be strong and positive brother. Always remember those closest to you love you and need you in their life.
I'm age 21 and don't have experience with depression with me or someone I know (as far as I know). I don't know what you're going through. But for pills and swallowing I do know something. The best thing I do is put the pill in my mouth and just start drinking water and the pill goes with the flow. I'm sure you hear it a lot already but I'll say it too--hang in there and keep moving forward. It sounds like you have people in your life that care. That is huge. I'm still working on that myself. My best to you.