I was widowed at 31 with 3 small kids youngest being 6 weeks old and zero family to help me! Boy can I relate. I didn't clean up for about months, it was just overwhelming. One of my friends came over and got a few more friends to do a cleaning intervention 😅😅! It got me out of my slump and woke me up !Grief is hard! Now at 64,I have been diagnosed with the same as Jenny, stage 3a adenocarcinoma left lung mediastinal node involvement. I'm actually up now getting ready for my second chemotherapy and day 7 of radiation. I pra😢that I have the same grace and courage that Jenny had during her fight!
So sorry to hear yr unwell. We are the same age. I wish you all the very best with yr treatment & you beat this insidious thing that seems to attack our bodies in every organ nook & cranny. It's dreadful. Kick its ass sister.
I know Ashley doesn't like to be on camera (neither do I) but what an amazing sister and aunt she is to do Winnie's hair every morning, I just have so much respect for her.
Yes so wonderful that Jen’s sister is there to fill some mommy time moments. As the kids grow up they will learn to appreciate all the little things that Ashley and Mike helped them through❤❤
You’re busy but as the kids get older they won’t need as much help. It’s hard to believe nearly a year has slipped by since Jen became an angel. Time goes by so fast. Her sister is a sweetheart to come and help Winnie every morning. That’s love.
@@debraweikel4521 Everyone grieves in their own way and time. I hope you can join a grief group. Jen, wanted you to move forward as you can. When the kids see you happy, they will become happier. As far as your wedding band, that’s your choice too.
Kyle your beautiful wife and fantastic mother is not in your past, she's in your future. You will see her again. Your love has not died. Your family will be restored. This is our only hope.
I LOVE this thought Susan Hillard... I never thought of the death of a loved one as "In the future"... YES!!!! as a Christian I should think of it this way & never thought of it this way, But rather mourn their loss... THANK YOU for sharing Susan... GBY & Your Beautiful Family 🙏❤️🤗✝️
That faith is what has sustained me for 28 yrs, since losing my one and only love. I believe that I will see him, again. That helps me to live in the moment at hand. Otherwise, without faith, I don't know how I'd survive it all.
Just have to say Jen is much more than a memory. She is the love that continues to push you all to keep going and live your best lives. Her life well lived has and will continue to shape the lives and decisions of others. ❤
Donna, your comment shattered me, I am truly so sorry for your pain. I have a 15 year old son who is my little soul twin (even HE agrees on that!) and we have such a blast. He tells me everything about his life (even the bad stuff). We ride our E-bikes together, go for drives & listen to music, lots of travel during the summers & ski trips during the cold months, and are just so close. We say “I love you” many times a day, and he often tells me I’m the best mom. I’m so very thankful for our relationship, but since he turned 15 I find myself grieving his childhood and dreading the day he leaves home. Your comment slapped me in the face, how dare I feel anything but grateful for what I have. My heart is with you 🩷
@@Rachel_Ryder Lovely story to read. My “kids” have had so many struggles because of their dad’s decisions (for the most part). Trust me there is parental agony far greater than the typical transitions like kids going off to college. 😥 My eldest son is forever 44… suicide by drowning. 😫
@@Grammichal I am so, so sorry to read this. I can’t fathom the heartache. I will think of you & Donna whenever I start to feel sad about “losing” my lil partner to adulthood. I need to be grateful and nothing more.
Dearest Kyle, I'm a 69 y.o. Retired Hospice Nurse. I've been watching you & your precious family since a few months before Jenny died. I LOVE every single video you make! Because YOU are Absolutely one of the most HONEST people I know. Recently, I was feeling a lot of anxiety because of family issues. My thoughts: I want/ need to hear from Kyle. Whether you're having a rough day or a good day, you're just so DANG HONEST. In my yrs of working with Hospice patients & their loved ones/ caregivers, I've NEVER known ANYONE to address their grief & their feelings in such a raw, open, & honest way as you do. It's SO Healthy, IMO. And the way you deal with your grief spills over into Winnie's & Ellis' lives. And that is a GREAT Thing! I ❤❤❤ the way you & Jenny parent. The kids are allowed to FEEL their feelings & talk about them. Do you realize how rare that is?! It's a Beautiful thing to see! I'll say bye for now. I feel like we're old friends. Much love to you & the kids. ❤❤❤
Such an amazing sacrifice, for her Aunty to make her a prioritiy, and ensure Winnie's hair is styled appropriately everyday. 🥰 Such an amazing and selfless thing to do, bravo, Aunty!!! 👏❤🎉
Jenny is missed, her smile, her laughter, her clothes style, her kindness, and just being there to love you, and the kids. We, your subscribers do love and care about you and the kids, and miss Jenny, especially when we see lady bugs. My grandchildren get excited every time they see one in the house. They holler “Grandma come see Jenny”. Kyle big hugs to you for taking such amazing care of all that was important to Jenny. On that note as you are also important to Jenny, I have noticed your face being red a lot, I hope you will take this as me caring for Jenny’s love of her life and your kids father. Please go have your heart and arteries checked for any blockages possibly beginning. If you already have that’s great. I have had ones that I love have heart issues that were caught after noticing the same symptoms.
My beautiful 48 year old wife, my soulmate was just lost to lung cancer. She was following this story during our battle, and I’m so sorry for what you are going through. I can truly say I understand. This just happened to us sept 14th, we found out 11/30/23 and less than one year later she is gone. I don’t know which is more difficult, watching her waste away for the last few months, or the aftermath of loneliness I feel with her gone. I love her so much, and will never be ok.
Kyle. Here in Australia, kids get showered before going to bed. So in the morning, the just get to clean up the face, have breakfast and brush their teeth. That helps lots with time in the morning for the whole family 🥳. Try that. Sending you lots of hugs and love ❤️
In Hawaii we bathe at night also. It hets the grime of the day off, lends to a better sleep, and the morning is a face wash and off into the day! I never understood skipping the evening bath and bathing in the morning.
Kyle, you are crushing it. Single parenthood is TOUGH, especially when your heart is heavy with grief. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and doing what you’re doing. You are so far ahead of the pack. Hugs to you and the kids.
The waves of grief are so real. And as you get closer to her passing date. They come harder and more often. I lost my grown son (47) , unexpectedly in July 2021. As June ends and July approaches the heavy grieving and crying start. Give yourself some grace and grieve harder at this time. It is what we have to do. Keep the faith, Jenny would be SOOOO proud of how you are doing at being such a GREAT Dad. Praying for you as the date gets closer.
One of the things I love about you and Jenny was your sweetly silly sense humor when goofing around. You are doing all you can at this time so just do what gets you through the days. I admire your ability to stay strong for your children, family and yourself(important).
Kyle, sweetheart, jenny is not just a memory, she is there with you everyday as she lives through your winnie and Ellis, you will never be alone as they will remind of her, they look like her, especially winnie, they both walk like jenny. It's still early days so be kind to yourself ❤❤❤
You will see jenny again..in heaven....but til this dont forget to live...me time,friends...you are a great father...and you do this like a champ....love from vienna
I lost my wife to brain cancer almost 4 years ago. She was 57. I've watched your channel for a long time, and I'm always hoping things are well for you, and the kids.
Thankyou Kyle for letting us come along with you to see the day in the life of you and your children. Your children are truly blessed to have such a loving caring dad as you.
Jennys life will never be a "just" anything, Thriving on in good faith allows our loved ones to be very active in our daily lives, JUST through OUR heartbeats of survival. PEACE
I wish I could trade my life for Jenny's in order to alleviate your pain. My husband is already waiting for me on the other side. It's been eight years since I lost my husband to cancer. The line that made me weep - "I can't believe she is only a memory". Although that is true (in the physical sense), Jenny lived and loved more in her short life than many others do. She will always be a presence in your life and Winnie and Ellis's lives too. As the pain softens with time, you will retain all of the memories you made with Jenny as you move forward in life. Sending hugs from one who knows. 💙
Wow, what an amazing selfless comment. I’m so sorry for your loss of your husband. All the comments I’ve read are just heartbreaking. It’s so unfortunate that we eventually will all feel this pain whether it’s a spouse, parents, sibling, etc. Very few people are spared from this long never ending journey of grief. Prayers and a big hug to you.🫂
Jenny fought hard and proud, all the way to her entrance into Heaven. God bless you, for sharing these intimate and difficult moments. You are so greatly loved.❤️🙏🏻🕊️✝️
Kyle, I truly cannot imagine what you are going through. I started watching you a few months before Jenny passed and I have been a silent viewer ever since. I think you are doing AMAZING with your kids. They are so blessed to have a dad like you. And they are so blessed that they had such a sweet mama that they WILL see again. Lean into Gods promises and trust Him. He will restore all things and this life is but a mist. The only piece of advice I have for you is to let yourself rest. I know you want to get all the things done, but sleep is so important for all aspects. My mind feels so much darker when I haven’t had enough sleep. And I really do think that not sleeping enough could be contributing to your overwhelming thoughts. I truly believe God has given us sleep as a gift, even He rested on the 7th day (even though He didn’t need to) to be an example to us. Sending love to you and your family 🤍
It's amazing how the human mind can be in such grief one moment and filled with joy the next. Kyle, you are doing such a courageous and amazing work. Sending prayers and blessings for rest when you need it. Sending prayers and blessings for your whole supportive network. I was blown away when you said Auntie comes over to do Winnie's hair everyday. Bless you Auntie!
This came to my heart when you were sharing about Jenny being a memory. Her life will come through your kids and live on. Her smile, laughter and character will be in them. Praying for comfort for you.
Oh Kyle, my heart hurts for you and the kiddos. You are such an amazing human. Jenny might just be a memory but those memories are blessings. They fill the heart. She will forever be apart of you and the kids. Keeping you in my thoughts.
My husband died three years ago after a hard fought fight with pulmonary fibrosis. I still have days, moments, when the waves of grief hit and they are so painful. I just miss him being here so much, especially in the evenings, nighttime. I am not sure that ever truly stops happening, but in many ways I think I would miss those feelings if they were not coming. I agree, one more hug would be so very amazing.
Hey I have not been doing good either. Lost my momma a little over a month ago to cancer. She wasn’t feeling good in February. We took her to the dr on Feb 28th. Found out it was cancer and all over her body in March and she was gone by July 8th. God help me I feel so lost and alone. She was never even sick. I’m 43 and she was healthy. I remember her having the chicken pox when I was 10 but other than that noting. Not even Covid. I’m just so mad and sad and don’t know how to get though this. I’m sorry this feels like a safe space for me to post my comment. I love Jenny and watched her videos for years. She was so strong and so kind. I’m praying for you Kyle and your baby’s. You’re such an amazing dad and person. God bless you all.
So sorry to hear this. I want to send my love and support from a concerned friend in the UK. I lost my beautiful Mum in 2019 after a short but aggressive illness . I will never get over losing her but I do manage now to look at lovely photos and smile at my memories of being so lucky to have had her as my Mum. You will get there too but it is very early days. Give yourself grace and take your time to breathe each day.....one day at a time.. Janice x
"Just" a memory diminishes that beautiful lady's presence in your lives. Focus on the positive fact that these memories are beautiful, precious and continue to provide much comfort. Your vulnerability is hear warming. Sending a warm comforting hug from Canada.
She was and will forever be the woman of your dreams. The realization will take an unknown amount of time for you to metabolize. Beautiful children, living in her honor just like you are....I wish SO much it were different for you but unfortunately since it can't be, please know people are with you every step of the way even when we can't see you. You are so loved and cared for Kyle, just as Jenny was.
I found it helpful when my son was 7 (Winnie might be 2 young still) get a small laundry basket outside their room, and let them put away their own clothes in morning while getting ready,etc . Helps u out, saves time,teaches him/ them some chores/responsibility! I have a feeling that Winnie might want to start doing hers if Ellis is doing his ;-) just a thought I remember doing it with my son and he took to it in about 2 days and he was too short to hang up the stuff in the closet so I did that kind of stuff but it really did help me out and it taught some small responsibility because those kids are going to have chores over the next couple of years don't ever think that you have to do everything for them. They are wonderful capable well-raised well-mannered smart kids and can handle more than you think I baby my kids so much and it was not doing them a service once I decided to give more responsibility like taking out the garbage when he got older etc it makes them feel goodand if you want to reward them with 50 cents a week or whatever you decide bribing them is one way lol but make it fun whatever you have to do but I think your kids have the personalities of being willing to do whatever you ask! You and Jenny raise those kids to be wonderful human beings and I can't wait to see them grow up Much love is always, Daria❤
Kyle.. It's the realization of loss and what that truly means,that keeps us from moving forward sometimes...like,"just a memory" from now on. And while that's true in many ways,it's also true that every time one of the kids laugh like her,looks like her,walks,talks, and acts like her-she's back. I know it's not "JEN" in the way you need,but it is her. I pray that knowledge will continue to bring you comfort. All of us at some point in our lives will be the ones saying goodbye either by being the one who leaves or being the one who stays. We all will experience this loss. You are paving the way for SO many to find a place to sort through all those feelings.. you and Jen both have by letting your lives be viewed on this channel. I know God will bless you both for your giving hearts. You're not alone, Kyle. We love you and we love Jen and we love the kids. Memories are precious-needed and cherished-however we get them in our lives. 🙏💛💛🙏
It is so sobering that on this world Jenny is just a memory. So hard to fathom. Thanks to UA-cam, even those of us who didn’t know her personally have memories. How amazing is it when you contemplate how many Jenny memories there are around the world. In the meantime, praise Jesus that in another place she exists once more. Forever grateful for the gift of eternity. Your day was lovely. Thank you for sharing.
Can’t imagine how hard random thoughts are for you. I started crying when you said Jen is just a memory now…And then I said BUT WHAT A WONDERFUL MEMORY…AN EVERYDAY MEMORY❤!!! I know I didn’t know her personally but I miss her…loved her laughter and sense of humor, her wisdom, love for you , Ellis and Winnie and her family and Mel’s family. But I love that she made her UA-cam family feel loved and special to her at some of her hardest moments. She was so brave and strong…An inspiration to everyone in so many different ways. I just miss the heck of not seeing new videos of her just talking. So hard watching her fighting but her joy of life was overwhelming. As many people feel…she will forever be a part of my life and heart. Thanks Jen for being you and for spending time with your UA-cam Fam (by the way Kyle is nailing it on UA-cam.. You would be so proud of him and Ellis and Winnie are awesome on UA-cam also😊)!!! It is hard that the year is coming up…I don’t know why but it is so hard…to make myself feel a bit not so sad I think how Jen isn’t in pain anymore and she is truly watching over her family and friends…I really believe that…I think she is even watching over her UA-cam Fam. Miss you Jen! Kyle you are really making tons of touchdowns with your routine through the week…so proud of you ❤️! As part of the UA-cam family I am always praying and supporting you (try to keep up sending little things here and there…glad you liked Winnie’s glow in the dark blanket for camping)…Just know we are still here for you Ellis and Winnie…always to listen anytime 24/7 365!!! Have a great rest of the week…thanks for sharing!!🙏🏻❣️
What a wonderful job your doing Kyle...I'm I Scotland and I think your a wonderful dad...Ellis & Winnie are incredibly fortunate to have you when they've lost Jenny...total respect to you. xx
Ellis is such a natural scholar. So confident, too. Winnie, you are doing so well with your homework. It looks like your children are part of an incredible school district.👍🏻
Jenny is not just a memory although I know what you mean, as she is not physically present in your lives. She is alive and well in the spirit realm and you will see her again one day. I'm sorry for the pain of missing her.
Music triggers emotions like nothing else. I lost my mum 6 weeks ago and I can be doing ok and a song comes on the radio in the car and it crushes me (even happy songs but you know she loved that one) You are a great dad Kyle and Jenny will be so proud of you ❤
Brilliant Kyle, you are doing wonderful, im delighted im finding videos of Jen that i havent seen, i was on holiday 4 days, eventful, the trailer got stuck, satnav took us to a road, 6 feet wide, luckily 3 heroes came, reversed the smoking Jeep compass, clutch and all, finally got there but all i wanted was to go to my mum tell her how stressful it was, like dogs ran away, got them back, water wouldn’t work, finally fixed, new van, mum is gone, and the grief, youre short vid of “NOT HAVING THAT SPECIAL PERSON TO TALK TO”, I cried my heart out, i understand, she made everything better, only family member, who never let me down, i miss her so much, . Love to you ❤❤❤xxx
You’re doing a great job. Everything you have to do in a day is a lot, but you are doing it all with such grace. Thank you for sharing the good, bad, and ugly.
always love your videos sir Kyle, but I really just want to make a personal comment about what you brought up in regards to posting pictures of Jenny at the later parts of her life, to remind you of why I am a proud member of your beautiful little community. I fell in love with Jenny, your caretaking skills, your family AS A WHOLE and your videos when she was sick; I only have known of her as sick. Of course I watched all of your families videos AFTER, but her beauty, grace, humor, love, empathy, and vulnerability, including all of your families, is why I fell in love with you guys. I have commented many times, and always bring up that I am a therapist, but it is because your family and a few others have made me a better therapist by sharing this journey with us. it must be harder than i will ever know to post those picture, but thank you eternally for sharing your familys journey with us. It has made me a better therapist and I know a better person.
I lost my Mum, then Dad and then found my younger brother last year. He had choked on food which made the loss and trauma even more horrific. Grief is awful and living with a broken heart is so hard 💔. You are doing Jenny proud xx
OMG I've heard so many sad stories, but you used the perfect word "horrific". I am endlessly sorry for all of your losses and the PTSD I imagine you must be going through on a daily basis I hope you're getting counseling I hope you have some support around you, other family close friends etc. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family I can't even imagine what you must be going through bless your heart.
I’m Depressed lost my dad feb 14 then 6 months later my son he was a concrete worker good construction worker I have a problem with the dishes now I leave them in sink like not in a hurry my son is gone because he bought cociane and they put fentanyl in it so we’re all devastated I’ve been watching u and your wife before she passed I’ve got a rock just need to send for u and kids god bless I fill your pain
Totally normal grief feelings. Almost 3 years since my significant other died. It's almost like you do all this grief work and then you realize it's not gonna get any better than that. Of course I know he's gone but still there are days when it feels so simply unbelievable that he is gone and is never coming back this side of heaven. Thanks for expressing this aspect of grief that doesn't get a whole lot of attention.
Praying for you Kyle to have strength as you take care of everything at home and go out to work also. Praying God blesses you and your family. You were a wonderful husband Kyle to Jenny and your a fantastic dad. God bless...
I am loving these day in the life videos!!! Makes my heart happy to see you smiling, dancing in the kitchen even though you have dishes to do and lunches to pack for Ellis & Winnie...but your still smiling! You are such an inspiration to me Kyle, such an amazing person and father to Ellis & Winnie! Never stop smiling!!! ❤
Your babies and you are doing so fabulous Kyle! Oh I see so many expressions of Jenn’s in their beautiful faces! You are getting through so good. I hope the pain and loneliness lessens and you and the kids find more and more joy in your days. You are a trooper! 😊
Kyle: I haven’t been on in a while, but you are an amazing person and I’m sure it was a comfort to Jenny knowing you were there taking care of the kids. God bless you. ❤❤❤
Being just a memory is something I can’t understand either!! Sending you hugs because parts of grief just don’t make sense! I feel like I say that often…”this just doesn’t make sense “
Thank you Kyle, sharing your grief, sharing how you are coping, it is so helpful to those of us grieving too, you are not alone. Jenny is part of you all, her love and beautiful soul are part of you all. Sending love x
Great job Kyle! A calm, organized morning is so helpful to starting the day off right, especially for the kiddos. I started having my son make his own lunch when he was around 11, it’s great for independence, and taking a few tasks off of your list! He’s 16 now and a football and lax player and meal preps for his whole week. It’s amazing when they start taking off and doing things on their own. I saw your post of Jenny yesterday, it was beautiful! Thank you for sharing that, no matter what her state I’m always happy to see her gorgeous smile again❤
Kyle, you are stronger than you think! The love you have for Jenny won't ever go away. Grief doesn't end, it only changes it's form. Keep her memory alive. You are a great dad, and she's smiling down and missing you all just as much. You all are in my prayers always!
Kyle, you are such a loving man. Jen was the luckiest woman to have had you. 🥰🥰 These children are blessed to have you as their father. From afar, you are like a virtual friend to me. I enjoy listening. Thank you.
She would never be forgotten just like my husband of 40 years. He’s going on seven years and he is the father of my three kids eight grandkids two great grandbabies that he didn’t meet his two great grandbabies, but you’re doing a good job sometimes it’s hard but just the way it is, oh and I like your dance have a blessed Tuesday❤❤
Kyle, being a single parent is very stressful and hard, but you are doing very well. Your sister-in-law Ashely is very kind to go to the house and do Winnie's hair and you get in touch with your brother-in-law Mike.
Your proposal video and wedding video came up in my feed. The proposal video is the most caring loving video ive ever seen. You gave jenny her fairytale life. You did it right for her. ❤
Thank you for allowing us all to get to know your beautiful wife. She is and always will be an inspiration to many. A kind soul. She gave you two beautiful gifts. Two beautiful Angel's. Ellis and Winnie. You're a wonderful man. God bless you and your beautiful little Angel's.🙏❤️❤️❤️
And what a beautiful memory she is for all of us in your community, Kyle. Imagine that…total strangers that were made to feel like family! You’re doing a fantastic job. 💕🐞💫💕
Kyle, you’re doing so well! All of you. I think the need to tell the sorrow part of her story will subside in time. Because she’s so much more. Her courage can be memorialized wo the parts that tear you up. My boyfriend died 14 yrs ago. He was beyond d awesome and beloved. I stop some days and can’t wrap my head around the fact he vanished !!!!!! How could that profound life just disappear? Death is a great mystery even with strong faith. You’re still processing and cycling thru the steps of grief . It overwhelms some days. I after yrs and years slowly packed jerry away because I had to live in the present wo him. He’s forever in my heart I carry him everywhere . But it’s no longer painful. The cycling round the seasons and closing the circle on one year is a lifting of heaviness - the grieving lightens up a bit you’ll feel it changes . She’s still present but it’s not so darned sad all the time and heavy . You and your children are doing so well.
Dearest Kyle,, That old clichè,, life is not fair,, is so very true.. My daddy used to say, whenever we drove pass graveyards,, "Do you see all them markers out there,, those people are not coming back up,, and the markers are just a memory now,, so we must find ways to honor them, and keep their memories alive." One day we'll be memories too.. It's extremely hard to wrap the mind around that thought. It's just mind boggling,, and too hard to comprehend, or accept at times.. Grief is a beast that nobody is ever ready to battle, no matter.. Take care,, you're doing an awesome job being a single parent, Dad!! Sending Love, Light, and Hugs, to Winnie, Ellis, and You.. ♡♡♡♡
Kyle, Jenny's never ever JUST a memory. Jenny is a memory... a way to keep her with u all the time; to warm ur heart n soul; to remind u that ur worthy of that gift. GBU xx
What you are experiencing is all apart of grief. Especially because her one year anniversary is coming up. It does get easier to cope with your grief after the first year. Grief truly never goes away. Try making lunches right after dinner since you are already in the kitchen and set your coffee up too. It won't be like this forever. As your kids grow up they will be able to help you cook and clean 😊❤. Kyle, you really are doing a great job. And your kids are amazing ❤
Hello Kyle - it's been quite a few weeks since I last tuned in and goodness what a difference. You have moved forward into a very intuitive, caring, patient, parent. A grown up Kyle - because of course you have no choice. Both you and your wonderful children need you to adapt to your circumstances just the way you have - with love and good grace. You may not see this yourself or even feel the transition but it couldn't be clearer. I hope you never lose these vlogs you have made, especially during the time since Jenny died, the change is astonishing almost twelve months on. Please make sure to back up all your vlogs. We know from experience how difficult it is when just on a whim you press the wrong button and precious precious films are accidentally deleted. Peace and love Kyle, peace and love
My husband passed 1 month ago also from lung cancer that spread to the brain , our children are grown he was 64 I have silently followed you all for a while you and your wife inspired us many days to keep going and know you are still , I appreciate your videos very much. Thank You
Sending love to you and the kids. I now have brain cancer so it’s going to be a long battle. Thanks to sweet Jenny for allowing us to see what we may be going through❤❤❤❤
You got my tears flowing again, Kyle. I saw your insta post and commented about the cold hands and how it's those little details that stab you in the heart out of the blue. Seeing you in the truck tear up while waiting for the kids got me. My mom passed in June, and only 5 people came to her funeral, so she's just a memory to most people, but I like to think she's videos and photos and I have her ashes. I talk to them. You have so much of Jenny around you that she'll never be just a memory ya know.
I was widowed at 31 with 3 small kids youngest being 6 weeks old and zero family to help me! Boy can I relate. I didn't clean up for about months, it was just overwhelming. One of my friends came over and got a few more friends to do a cleaning intervention 😅😅! It got me out of my slump and woke me up !Grief is hard!
Now at 64,I have been diagnosed with the same as Jenny, stage 3a adenocarcinoma left lung mediastinal node involvement. I'm actually up now getting ready for my second chemotherapy and day 7 of radiation. I pra😢that I have the same grace and courage that Jenny had during her fight!
You got this. Stay strong.
Praying for you!❤
Sending up prayers for healing🙏. Stay positive and something my mom always did when she badeled cancer, make your bed everyday ❤
So sorry to hear yr unwell. We are the same age.
I wish you all the very best with yr treatment & you beat this insidious thing that seems to attack our bodies in every organ nook & cranny. It's dreadful. Kick its ass sister.
Stay strong!! ❤️
I know Ashley doesn't like to be on camera (neither do I) but what an amazing sister and aunt she is to do Winnie's hair every morning, I just have so much respect for her.
Yes so wonderful that Jen’s sister is there to fill some mommy time moments. As the kids grow up they will learn to appreciate all the little things that Ashley and Mike helped them through❤❤
Yes I agree!!
So important, for so many reasons. 😍
Jenny’s DNA lives on in her babies. She will always be with you and the kids.
Absolutely
You’re busy but as the kids get older they won’t need as much help. It’s hard to believe nearly a year has slipped by since Jen became an angel. Time goes by so fast. Her sister is a sweetheart to come and help Winnie every morning. That’s love.
@@debraweikel4521 Everyone grieves in their own way and time. I hope you can join a grief group. Jen, wanted you to move forward as you can. When the kids see you happy, they will become happier. As far as your wedding band, that’s your choice too.
It's gotta be good for Winnie to have a little feminine energy in her routine.
Kyle your beautiful wife and fantastic mother is not in your past, she's in your future. You will see her again. Your love has not died. Your family will be restored. This is our only hope.
Amen! Hold on to that hope ❤
Best comment. ❤
I LOVE this thought Susan Hillard... I never thought of the death of a loved one as "In the future"...
YES!!!! as a Christian I should think of it this way & never thought of it this way, But rather mourn their loss...
THANK YOU for sharing Susan...
GBY & Your Beautiful Family 🙏❤️🤗✝️
❤❤❤❤ I lost my husband and i feel your comment
That faith is what has sustained me for 28 yrs, since losing my one and only love. I believe that I will see him, again. That helps me to live in the moment at hand. Otherwise, without faith, I don't know how I'd survive it all.
She is not just a memory. She is energy and is with God. You will be with her again. She is with you.
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YES!!!! She is energy all around you, Kyle!!!!!
You need your coffee that a good thing l love you being so real floors look great 🤗👏🥰
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Just have to say Jen is much more than a memory. She is the love that continues to push you all to keep going and live your best lives. Her life well lived has and will continue to shape the lives and decisions of others. ❤
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Well said! I agree.❤
I love this!
I’ve felt the same about my son being all a memory. I never hear his name spoken and everyone has moved on. He was my entire world.
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My heart is with you, Kyle. The death of my beloved son has crushed my heart. He's a part of me, not a memory. So it is with Jenny❤
Donna, your comment shattered me, I am truly so sorry for your pain. I have a 15 year old son who is my little soul twin (even HE agrees on that!) and we have such a blast. He tells me everything about his life (even the bad stuff). We ride our E-bikes together, go for drives & listen to music, lots of travel during the summers & ski trips during the cold months, and are just so close. We say “I love you” many times a day, and he often tells me I’m the best mom. I’m so very thankful for our relationship, but since he turned 15 I find myself grieving his childhood and dreading the day he leaves home. Your comment slapped me in the face, how dare I feel anything but grateful for what I have. My heart is with you 🩷
@@Rachel_Ryder Lovely story to read. My “kids” have had so many struggles because of their dad’s decisions (for the most part). Trust me there is parental agony far greater than the typical transitions like kids going off to college. 😥 My eldest son is forever 44… suicide by drowning. 😫
@@Grammichal I am so, so sorry to read this. I can’t fathom the heartache. I will think of you & Donna whenever I start to feel sad about “losing” my lil partner to adulthood. I need to be grateful and nothing more.
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Dearest Kyle, I'm a 69 y.o. Retired Hospice Nurse. I've been watching you & your precious family since a few months before Jenny died. I LOVE every single video you make! Because YOU are Absolutely one of the most HONEST people I know. Recently, I was feeling a lot of anxiety because of family issues. My thoughts: I want/ need to hear from Kyle. Whether you're having a rough day or a good day, you're just so DANG HONEST. In my yrs of working with Hospice patients & their loved ones/ caregivers, I've NEVER known ANYONE to address their grief & their feelings in such a raw, open, & honest way as you do. It's SO Healthy, IMO. And the way you deal with your grief spills over into Winnie's & Ellis' lives. And that is a GREAT Thing! I ❤❤❤ the way you & Jenny parent. The kids are allowed to FEEL their feelings & talk about them. Do you realize how rare that is?! It's a Beautiful thing to see! I'll say bye for now. I feel like we're old friends. Much love to you & the kids. ❤❤❤
She needs to practice her letters. Write those words herself
I’m so proud of the life you’ve built. It was so hard, but you have done it. Jenny wasn’t the only courageous one.
Such an amazing sacrifice, for her Aunty to make her a prioritiy, and ensure Winnie's hair is styled appropriately everyday. 🥰 Such an amazing and selfless thing to do, bravo, Aunty!!! 👏❤🎉
Jenny is missed, her smile, her laughter, her clothes style, her kindness, and just being there to love you, and the kids. We, your subscribers do love and care about you and the kids, and miss Jenny, especially when we see lady bugs. My grandchildren get excited every time they see one in the house. They holler “Grandma come see Jenny”. Kyle big hugs to you for taking such amazing care of all that was important to Jenny. On that note as you are also important to Jenny, I have noticed your face being red a lot, I hope you will take this as me caring for Jenny’s love of her life and your kids father. Please go have your heart and arteries checked for any blockages possibly beginning. If you already have that’s great. I have had ones that I love have heart issues that were caught after noticing the same symptoms.
My face is often red. I have Rosecea.
Jus' sayin'
You are a awesome father❤
My beautiful 48 year old wife, my soulmate was just lost to lung cancer. She was following this story during our battle, and I’m so sorry for what you are going through. I can truly say I understand. This just happened to us sept 14th, we found out 11/30/23 and less than one year later she is gone. I don’t know which is more difficult, watching her waste away for the last few months, or the aftermath of loneliness I feel with her gone. I love her so much, and will never be ok.
I’m so sorry 😢❤
Kyle. Here in Australia, kids get showered before going to bed. So in the morning, the just get to clean up the face, have breakfast and brush their teeth. That helps lots with time in the morning for the whole family 🥳. Try that. Sending you lots of hugs and love ❤️
Many families do that in the States, too.
Same here in WV, USA
In Hawaii we bathe at night also. It hets the grime of the day off, lends to a better sleep, and the morning is a face wash and off into the day! I never understood skipping the evening bath and bathing in the morning.
Kyle, you are crushing it. Single parenthood is TOUGH, especially when your heart is heavy with grief. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and doing what you’re doing. You are so far ahead of the pack. Hugs to you and the kids.
Kyle, Jenny is all around the three of you. She has so much to be proud of.
I pray for you all, each day.
God bless you all.❤️🙏🏻🤦🏻♀️
The waves of grief are so real. And as you get closer to her
passing date. They come harder and more often. I lost my grown son (47) , unexpectedly in July 2021. As June ends and July approaches the heavy grieving and crying start.
Give yourself some grace and grieve harder at this time. It is what we have to do. Keep the faith, Jenny would be SOOOO proud of how you are doing at being such a GREAT Dad. Praying for you as the date gets closer.
That’s one of the hard things about grief. Life goes on when it seems it should stand still. ❤❤❤❤
One of the things I love about you and Jenny was your sweetly silly sense humor when goofing around. You are doing all you can at this time so just do what gets you through the days. I admire your ability to stay strong for your children, family and yourself(important).
Kyle, sweetheart, jenny is not just a memory, she is there with you everyday as she lives through your winnie and Ellis, you will never be alone as they will remind of her, they look like her, especially winnie, they both walk like jenny. It's still early days so be kind to yourself ❤❤❤
You will see jenny again..in heaven....but til this dont forget to live...me time,friends...you are a great father...and you do this like a champ....love from vienna
Oh yes Jesus in
the morning!
Bless you all..❤😊
I lost my wife to brain cancer almost 4 years ago. She was 57. I've watched your channel for a long time, and I'm always hoping things are well for you, and the kids.
I lost my spouse to Glioblastoma brain cancer at 42 about 2.5 years ago. Truly awful as a caregiver to watch the suffering 😰
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You loved her. You'll always love her. She was a special lady!!
Thankyou Kyle for letting us come along with you to see the day in the life of you and your children. Your children are truly blessed to have such a loving caring dad as you.
Jennys life will never be a "just" anything, Thriving on in good faith allows our loved ones to be very active in our daily lives, JUST through OUR heartbeats of survival. PEACE
Your sister in law is so nice to do that. They have to have a woman around them too. Bravo
I wish I could trade my life for Jenny's in order to alleviate your pain. My husband is already waiting for me on the other side. It's been eight years since I lost my husband to cancer. The line that made me weep - "I can't believe she is only a memory". Although that is true (in the physical sense), Jenny lived and loved more in her short life than many others do. She will always be a presence in your life and Winnie and Ellis's lives too. As the pain softens with time, you will retain all of the memories you made with Jenny as you move forward in life. Sending hugs from one who knows. 💙
Wow, what an amazing selfless comment. I’m so sorry for your loss of your husband. All the comments I’ve read are just heartbreaking. It’s so unfortunate that we eventually will all feel this pain whether it’s a spouse, parents, sibling, etc. Very few people are spared from this long never ending journey of grief. Prayers and a big hug to you.🫂
that is a lovely wish for kyle. what a beautiful soul you are! bless'd be.
Jenny fought hard and proud, all the way to her entrance into Heaven.
God bless you, for sharing these intimate and difficult moments. You are so greatly loved.❤️🙏🏻🕊️✝️
Kyle, I truly cannot imagine what you are going through. I started watching you a few months before Jenny passed and I have been a silent viewer ever since. I think you are doing AMAZING with your kids. They are so blessed to have a dad like you. And they are so blessed that they had such a sweet mama that they WILL see again. Lean into Gods promises and trust Him. He will restore all things and this life is but a mist.
The only piece of advice I have for you is to let yourself rest. I know you want to get all the things done, but sleep is so important for all aspects. My mind feels so much darker when I haven’t had enough sleep. And I really do think that not sleeping enough could be contributing to your overwhelming thoughts. I truly believe God has given us sleep as a gift, even He rested on the 7th day (even though He didn’t need to) to be an example to us. Sending love to you and your family 🤍
It's amazing how the human mind can be in such grief one moment and filled with joy the next. Kyle, you are doing such a courageous and amazing work. Sending prayers and blessings for rest when you need it. Sending prayers and blessings for your whole supportive network. I was blown away when you said Auntie comes over to do Winnie's hair everyday. Bless you Auntie!
This came to my heart when you were sharing about Jenny being a memory. Her life will come through your kids and live on. Her smile, laughter and character will be in them. Praying for comfort for you.
Oh Kyle, my heart hurts for you and the kiddos. You are such an amazing human. Jenny might just be a memory but those memories are blessings. They fill the heart. She will forever be apart of you and the kids. Keeping you in my thoughts.
My husband died three years ago after a hard fought fight with pulmonary fibrosis. I still have days, moments, when the waves of grief hit and they are so painful. I just miss him being here so much, especially in the evenings, nighttime. I am not sure that ever truly stops happening, but in many ways I think I would miss those feelings if they were not coming. I agree, one more hug would be so very amazing.
You are an amaZing father. Keep it up sir. We need more men like you in this world
Hey I have not been doing good either. Lost my momma a little over a month ago to cancer. She wasn’t feeling good in February. We took her to the dr on Feb 28th. Found out it was cancer and all over her body in March and she was gone by July 8th. God help me I feel so lost and alone. She was never even sick. I’m 43 and she was healthy. I remember her having the chicken pox when I was 10 but other than that noting. Not even Covid. I’m just so mad and sad and don’t know how to get though this. I’m sorry this feels like a safe space for me to post my comment. I love Jenny and watched her videos for years. She was so strong and so kind. I’m praying for you Kyle and your baby’s. You’re such an amazing dad and person. God bless you all.
So sorry to hear this. I want to send my love and support from a concerned friend in the UK.
I lost my beautiful Mum in 2019 after a short but aggressive illness . I will never get over losing her but I do manage now to look at lovely photos and smile at my memories of being so lucky to have had her as my Mum.
You will get there too but it is very early days. Give yourself grace and take your time to breathe each day.....one day at a time..
Janice x
It is so unfair. 😭 Sending 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽. One step at a time.
I’m sorry about your mom, I lost both my parents in July also, they passed 3 days apart. So hard to not have our parents love and encouragement .
"Just" a memory diminishes that beautiful lady's presence in your lives. Focus on the positive fact that these memories are beautiful, precious and continue to provide much comfort.
Your vulnerability is hear warming. Sending a warm comforting hug from Canada.
You're an amazing father. I respect everything you do to hold your family together.
Please don't apologize for brewing coffee. I always have a cup of coffee when I have insomnia! It helps me relax and go back to sleep.
She was and will forever be the woman of your dreams. The realization will take an unknown amount of time for you to metabolize. Beautiful children, living in her honor just like you are....I wish SO much it were different for you but unfortunately since it can't be, please know people are with you every step of the way even when we can't see you. You are so loved and cared for Kyle, just as Jenny was.
I found it helpful when my son was 7 (Winnie might be 2 young still) get a small laundry basket outside their room, and let them put away their own clothes in morning while getting ready,etc . Helps u out, saves time,teaches him/ them some chores/responsibility! I have a feeling that Winnie might want to start doing hers if Ellis is doing his ;-) just a thought I remember doing it with my son and he took to it in about 2 days and he was too short to hang up the stuff in the closet so I did that kind of stuff but it really did help me out and it taught some small responsibility because those kids are going to have chores over the next couple of years don't ever think that you have to do everything for them. They are wonderful capable well-raised well-mannered smart kids and can handle more than you think I baby my kids so much and it was not doing them a service once I decided to give more responsibility like taking out the garbage when he got older etc it makes them feel goodand if you want to reward them with 50 cents a week or whatever you decide bribing them is one way lol but make it fun whatever you have to do but I think your kids have the personalities of being willing to do whatever you ask! You and Jenny raise those kids to be wonderful human beings and I can't wait to see them grow up
Much love is always, Daria❤
Kyle..
It's the realization of loss and what that truly means,that keeps us from moving forward sometimes...like,"just a memory" from now on. And while that's true in many ways,it's also true that every time one of the kids laugh like her,looks like her,walks,talks, and acts like her-she's back. I know it's not "JEN" in the way you need,but it is her. I pray that knowledge will continue to bring you comfort. All of us at some point in our lives will be the ones saying goodbye either by being the one who leaves or being the one who stays. We all will experience this loss. You are paving the way for SO many to find a place to sort through all those feelings.. you and Jen both have by letting your lives be viewed on this channel. I know God will bless you both for your giving hearts. You're not alone, Kyle. We love you and we love Jen and we love the kids. Memories are precious-needed and cherished-however we get them in our lives.
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It is so sobering that on this world Jenny is just a memory. So hard to fathom. Thanks to UA-cam, even those of us who didn’t know her personally have memories. How amazing is it when you contemplate how many Jenny memories there are around the world. In the meantime, praise Jesus that in another place she exists once more. Forever grateful for the gift of eternity. Your day was lovely. Thank you for sharing.
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Can’t imagine how hard random thoughts are for you. I started crying when you said Jen is just a memory now…And then I said BUT WHAT A WONDERFUL MEMORY…AN EVERYDAY MEMORY❤!!! I know I didn’t know her personally but I miss her…loved her laughter and sense of humor, her wisdom, love for you , Ellis and Winnie and her family and Mel’s family. But I love that she made her UA-cam family feel loved and special to her at some of her hardest moments. She was so brave and strong…An inspiration to everyone in so many different ways. I just miss the heck of not seeing new videos of her just talking. So hard watching her fighting but her joy of life was overwhelming. As many people feel…she will forever be a part of my life and heart. Thanks Jen for being you and for spending time with your UA-cam Fam (by the way Kyle is nailing it on UA-cam.. You would be so proud of him and Ellis and Winnie are awesome on UA-cam also😊)!!! It is hard that the year is coming up…I don’t know why but it is so hard…to make myself feel a bit not so sad I think how Jen isn’t in pain anymore and she is truly watching over her family and friends…I really believe that…I think she is even watching over her UA-cam Fam. Miss you Jen! Kyle you are really making tons of touchdowns with your routine through the week…so proud of you ❤️! As part of the UA-cam family I am always praying and supporting you (try to keep up sending little things here and there…glad you liked Winnie’s glow in the dark blanket for camping)…Just know we are still here for you Ellis and Winnie…always to listen anytime 24/7 365!!! Have a great rest of the week…thanks for sharing!!🙏🏻❣️
Doing dishes means you have been cooking healthy meals! 👍🏻Good job Kyle
What a wonderful job your doing Kyle...I'm I Scotland and I think your a wonderful dad...Ellis & Winnie are incredibly fortunate to have you when they've lost Jenny...total respect to you. xx
Ellis is such a natural scholar. So confident, too.
Winnie, you are doing so well with your homework.
It looks like your children are part of an incredible school district.👍🏻
Jenny is not just a memory although I know what you mean, as she is not physically present in your lives. She is alive and well in the spirit realm and you will see her again one day. I'm sorry for the pain of missing her.
Amen! Very well said ❤
You are one strong man...keep on dancing
Love you my friend! You are so amazing!
The constant, never ending dishes is definitely relatable ❤
Music triggers emotions like nothing else. I lost my mum 6 weeks ago and I can be doing ok and a song comes on the radio in the car and it crushes me (even happy songs but you know she loved that one) You are a great dad Kyle and Jenny will be so proud of you ❤
Brilliant Kyle, you are doing wonderful, im delighted im finding videos of Jen that i havent seen, i was on holiday 4 days, eventful, the trailer got stuck, satnav took us to a road, 6 feet wide, luckily 3 heroes came, reversed the smoking Jeep compass, clutch and all, finally got there but all i wanted was to go to my mum tell her how stressful it was, like dogs ran away, got them back, water wouldn’t work, finally fixed, new van, mum is gone, and the grief, youre short vid of “NOT HAVING THAT SPECIAL PERSON TO TALK TO”, I cried my heart out, i understand, she made everything better, only family member, who never let me down, i miss her so much, . Love to you ❤❤❤xxx
You’re doing a great job. Everything you have to do in a day is a lot, but you are doing it all with such grace. Thank you for sharing the good, bad, and ugly.
always love your videos sir Kyle, but I really just want to make a personal comment about what you brought up in regards to posting pictures of Jenny at the later parts of her life, to remind you of why I am a proud member of your beautiful little community. I fell in love with Jenny, your caretaking skills, your family AS A WHOLE and your videos when she was sick; I only have known of her as sick. Of course I watched all of your families videos AFTER, but her beauty, grace, humor, love, empathy, and vulnerability, including all of your families, is why I fell in love with you guys. I have commented many times, and always bring up that I am a therapist, but it is because your family and a few others have made me a better therapist by sharing this journey with us. it must be harder than i will ever know to post those picture, but thank you eternally for sharing your familys journey with us. It has made me a better therapist and I know a better person.
I lost my Mum, then Dad and then found my younger brother last year. He had choked on food which made the loss and trauma even more horrific. Grief is awful and living with a broken heart is so hard 💔. You are doing Jenny proud xx
OMG I've heard so many sad stories, but you used the perfect word "horrific". I am endlessly sorry for all of your losses and the PTSD I imagine you must be going through on a daily basis I hope you're getting counseling I hope you have some support around you, other family close friends etc. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family I can't even imagine what you must be going through bless your heart.
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Peace and Light to you and the Children ✌️✨💙💙❤️🧸🧸
I’m Depressed lost my dad feb 14 then 6 months later my son he was a concrete worker good construction worker I have a problem with the dishes now I leave them in sink like not in a hurry my son is gone because he bought cociane and they put fentanyl in it so we’re all devastated I’ve been watching u and your wife before she passed I’ve got a rock just need to send for u and kids god bless I fill your pain
Praying for you from Ohio 🇺🇸🙏God Bless You❤
I’m so sorry for your losses. I think they are still watching over and loving you. ❤
Praying for you from Canada 🇨🇦 Take it a day at a time and when that seems too much take it an hour at a time. They are still with you ❤
I'm so sorry for your losses. All the best from Stockholm Sweden 🇸🇪
So sorry for your losses
Totally normal grief feelings. Almost 3 years since my significant other died. It's almost like you do all this grief work and then you realize it's not gonna get any better than that. Of course I know he's gone but still there are days when it feels so simply unbelievable that he is gone and is never coming back this side of heaven. Thanks for expressing this aspect of grief that doesn't get a whole lot of attention.
She would be proud of you. You’re a great dad. Count your blessings.
Praying for you Kyle to have strength as you take care of everything at home and go out to work also. Praying God blesses you and your family. You were a wonderful husband Kyle to Jenny and your a fantastic dad. God bless...
You are such a wonderful human being and such a great dad! God bless.
I am loving these day in the life videos!!! Makes my heart happy to see you smiling, dancing in the kitchen even though you have dishes to do and lunches to pack for Ellis & Winnie...but your still smiling! You are such an inspiration to me Kyle, such an amazing person and father to Ellis & Winnie! Never stop smiling!!! ❤
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You have two beautiful intelligent kids Kyle! An absolute joy to watch and and a credit to both of you .
Your babies and you are doing so fabulous Kyle! Oh I see so many expressions of Jenn’s in their beautiful faces! You are getting through so good. I hope the pain and loneliness lessens and you and the kids find more and more joy in your days. You are a trooper! 😊
Kyle: I haven’t been on in a while, but you are an amazing person and I’m sure it was a comfort to Jenny knowing you were there taking care of the kids. God bless you. ❤❤❤
That is the sweetest auntie Ashley is amazing!!❤
Being just a memory is something I can’t understand either!! Sending you hugs because parts of grief just don’t make sense! I feel like I say that often…”this just doesn’t make sense “
Thank you Kyle, sharing your grief, sharing how you are coping, it is so helpful to those of us grieving too, you are not alone. Jenny is part of you all, her love and beautiful soul are part of you all. Sending love x
Kyle your doing a great job. Nice routine. Kids look great. Keep up the good work. God bless this family.
Great job Kyle! A calm, organized morning is so helpful to starting the day off right, especially for the kiddos. I started having my son make his own lunch when he was around 11, it’s great for independence, and taking a few tasks off of your list! He’s 16 now and a football and lax player and meal preps for his whole week. It’s amazing when they start taking off and doing things on their own. I saw your post of Jenny yesterday, it was beautiful! Thank you for sharing that, no matter what her state I’m always happy to see her gorgeous smile again❤
Kyle, you are stronger than you think! The love you have for Jenny won't ever go away. Grief doesn't end, it only changes it's form. Keep her memory alive. You are a great dad, and she's smiling down and missing you all just as much. You all are in my prayers always!
Kyle, you are such a loving man. Jen was the luckiest woman to have had you. 🥰🥰 These children are blessed to have you as their father. From afar, you are like a virtual friend to me. I enjoy listening. Thank you.
You are the greatest Dad in the world and Jenny’s DNA is still physically alive in your beautiful children ❤
Such a good Dad. Jenny would be so proud of you! As always, prayers for you and the kids.
Your doing a great job! Your a great father. JENNY IS LOOKING DOWN FROM heaven sending g alot of love!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
She would never be forgotten just like my husband of 40 years. He’s going on seven years and he is the father of my three kids eight grandkids two great grandbabies that he didn’t meet his two great grandbabies, but you’re doing a good job sometimes it’s hard but just the way it is, oh and I like your dance have a blessed Tuesday❤❤
Such a good Dad!! Jenny is so proud of you all..I know it!!
Kyle, being a single parent is very stressful and hard, but you are doing very well. Your sister-in-law Ashely is very kind to go to the house and do Winnie's hair and you get in touch with your brother-in-law Mike.
Your proposal video and wedding video came up in my feed. The proposal video is the most caring loving video ive ever seen. You gave jenny her fairytale life. You did it right for her. ❤
Thank you for allowing us all to get to know your beautiful wife. She is and always will be an inspiration to many. A kind soul. She gave you two beautiful gifts. Two beautiful Angel's. Ellis and Winnie. You're a wonderful man. God bless you and your beautiful little Angel's.🙏❤️❤️❤️
And what a beautiful memory she is for all of us in your community, Kyle. Imagine that…total strangers that were made to feel like family! You’re doing a fantastic job. 💕🐞💫💕
God bless, Auntie.❤️🙏🏻
Kyle, you’re doing so well! All of you.
I think the need to tell the sorrow part of her story will subside in time. Because she’s so much more. Her courage can be memorialized wo the parts that tear you up. My boyfriend died 14 yrs ago. He was beyond d awesome and beloved. I stop some days and can’t wrap my head around the fact he vanished !!!!!! How could that profound life just disappear? Death is a great mystery even with strong faith. You’re still processing and cycling thru the steps of grief . It overwhelms some days. I after yrs and years slowly packed jerry away because I had to live in the present wo him. He’s forever in my heart I carry him everywhere . But it’s no longer painful. The cycling round the seasons and closing the circle on one year is a lifting of heaviness - the grieving lightens up a bit you’ll feel it changes . She’s still present but it’s not so darned sad all the time and heavy . You and your children are doing so well.
Dearest Kyle,,
That old clichè,, life is not fair,, is so very true.. My daddy used to say, whenever we drove pass graveyards,, "Do you see all them markers out there,, those people are not coming back up,, and the markers are just a memory now,, so we must find ways to honor them, and keep their memories alive." One day we'll be memories too.. It's extremely hard to wrap the mind around that thought. It's just mind boggling,, and too hard to comprehend, or accept at times.. Grief is a beast that nobody is ever ready to battle, no matter.. Take care,, you're doing an awesome job being a single parent, Dad!! Sending Love, Light, and Hugs, to Winnie, Ellis, and You.. ♡♡♡♡
What a great father Kyle is! God bñess and protect him and his children always. So sad jenny has been gone a year already 😢
Essa é a dor do luto.
Infelizmente a vida é assim.
O vazio que a morte nos traz é terrivel
Kyle, Jenny's never ever JUST a memory. Jenny is a memory... a way to keep her with u all the time; to warm ur heart n soul; to remind u that ur worthy of that gift. GBU xx
What you are experiencing is all apart of grief. Especially because her one year anniversary is coming up. It does get easier to cope with your grief after the first year. Grief truly never goes away.
Try making lunches right after dinner since you are already in the kitchen and set your coffee up too.
It won't be like this forever. As your kids grow up they will be able to help you cook and clean 😊❤. Kyle, you really are doing a great job. And your kids are amazing ❤
You are doing such a great job, Kyle. Your kids are a testament to that. Take it moment by moment.
Hello Kyle - it's been quite a few weeks since I last tuned in and goodness what a difference. You have moved forward into a very intuitive, caring, patient, parent. A grown up Kyle - because of course you have no choice. Both you and your wonderful children need you to adapt to your circumstances just the way you have - with love and good grace. You may not see this yourself or even feel the transition but it couldn't be clearer. I hope you never lose these vlogs you have made, especially during the time since Jenny died, the change is astonishing almost twelve months on. Please make sure to back up all your vlogs. We know from experience how difficult it is when just on a whim you press the wrong button and precious precious films are accidentally deleted. Peace and love Kyle, peace and love
We appreciate her journey, whatever you choice to share is precious
"You are strong, you are beautiful, you are loved❤". Hang in there. Jenny is proud of you.
Fabulous dad with fabulous kids n sister in law you make me sad but then make me smile. Keep strong. Xxx
My husband passed 1 month ago also from lung cancer that spread to the brain , our children are grown he was 64 I have silently followed you all for a while you and your wife inspired us many days to keep going and know you are still , I appreciate your videos very much. Thank You
Jenny would be very proud of you😊
Your such a loving caring father your all so blessed with all the lov for each other and love for the doggy’s part of the family so sweet
Sending love to you and the kids. I now have brain cancer so it’s going to be a long battle. Thanks to sweet Jenny for allowing us to see what we may be going through❤❤❤❤
You got my tears flowing again, Kyle. I saw your insta post and commented about the cold hands and how it's those little details that stab you in the heart out of the blue. Seeing you in the truck tear up while waiting for the kids got me. My mom passed in June, and only 5 people came to her funeral, so she's just a memory to most people, but I like to think she's videos and photos and I have her ashes. I talk to them. You have so much of Jenny around you that she'll never be just a memory ya know.
thinking of you ..
Kyle, thank you for posting. This is a great video!
She’s with you always Kyle .Jen is your Guardian Angel .stay strong