I started using Crack at 21. I got off Crack at about 35 by switching to meth. I stopped after my 40s. Now I'm 46, I have a 5 month old baby girl. And I'm getting married next month. I bought my first house a year ago. There hope for us all.
Old man here .. got clean 4 months ago. No one in my life . Just needed a victory. Work. Pay rent . By groceries. Having a clear mind feels good. It's hard as hell to quit.
Bro..... 8 years clean here. You're so right about appreciating the small shit, like paying bills, buying groceries etc.... i remember exactly how important that gratitude was for me in my early recovery. Congrats man.... Love ya brother
One more year or two then check again. Hard drugs like that, stress, bad diet, consistent lack of shelter will change all that. She still puts makeup on in the right general areas, clothes still look somewhat alright, just give it one or two more years.
I’m a 70 year old woman who started smoking pot 55 years ago. I went to college and spent most of my time either drunk or tripping on acid or smoking weed. I’ve gone through short stages of using speed, cocaine and downers. My childhood was the typical middle class 1960’s dysfunctional BS. I never did any really hard drugs because of the consequences. So was I just lucky or was I smart enough to get my act together? This girl is stunning, intelligent, ethereal and young. I hope she kicks the satanic drugs she’s addicted to and has a beautiful productive life.
I think it's partially dependent upon how strong the inner desire of each person is to need to suppress the conscious and subconscious memories of their traumatic past.
I’m married to a recovering addict. Sadly, it’s difficult for me to believe what these interviewees say while in that chair. I read others’ comments expressing hope, seeing the good in the people in the videos, and finding depth, wisdom and knowledge in their words. Me, I look for the elusive facts because the barrage of lies fired at the viewer makes them tricky to identify. She’s a drug addict who has given up her children and is having a progressively more difficult time obtaining and maintaining employment. Robust statistics tell a bleak story of this young woman’s future. It is indeed sad because I, like many others here, see a glimmer of potential in her. Without the will there is no way. It seems like right now she merely has the will to rely on the “kindness of others” but trust me that as the years go by and her appearance and disposition suffer, she will see the kindness fade and the indifference (and even cruelty) of human beings begin to surface. It’s hard out there. Good luck.
I was with a recovering addict for a long time. One of the things he used to tell me when he relapsed (I didn't know he had at that point), was that he was struggling and needed my car to go meet his sponsor. It was all a lie to get drugs. I doubt there was even one time he actually went to a meeting or talked to someone. He even gave his drug dealer a fake name in his phone so when the call came it looked like it was from the "sponsor". It's so easy to believe them in those first months, in his case the better part of a year, before the job is lost, the stealing begins and their personality changes completely.
@@AgentBlueCanary Hi Tracie. I completely understand what you went through, and unfortunately I can relate, too. I stood by my wife through similar deceptions. She did eventually go to long-term treatment (it was for a year) and it seems to have stuck this time. She's clean 4 years now. However, if she hadn't gone there's no doubt in my mind that we'd be divorced and she would likely be dead or worse (yes, I believe there are worse things than death for an addict). The awful thing about it is that, despite her recent track record of recovery, I will forever have that tiny kernel of doubt resting somewhere in the recesses of my mind just waiting to whisper in my ear and cause me to question everything about her. I am (we are) working on it.
I saw so many like her while living in California. People think the entertainment industry is just one big party and it may be for the actors but on the technical side, it is tough grueling work. You've got to have the stamina to out perform everyone else that wants your job. Being addicted to drugs entirely removes you from that competition.
@@AB-kq9xm That would be your decision and mine, but Quinn was able to see that she couldnt provide and there may have been suffering for her children. I also think that took a lot of courage to choose Open Adoption.
I THINK SHE SOLD HER KIDS........HAPPENS WITH ADDICTS ALL THE TIME. ON THE SLY NO ORGANIZATION INVOLVED. I KNOW OF THIS HAPPENING OFTEN...........HAVING A KID CAN MAKE YOU A COUPLE OF THOUSAND BUCKS.
It's possible to turn this round, IF she wants to. I was an addict for years, I 'faced' it when I was 40, all by myself, went to university, graduated, got one teaching job then got headhunted for another post, got that one too! Just moved in to a 2 bed apartment with a garden 2 months ago. I'm 49 now and enjoying my 1st summer break as a music teacher. IF she wants it. Good luck to you Quinn, you can do this chick, you really can.
@@Theirtherethere. You always see these sorts of stories on here. Things such as "I used to be a homeless addict, now I'm a homeowner with a good job/thriving business" etc etc. They're (intentionally) leaving out a whole chunk of information in-between. You can't go from homeless to homeowner/business owner without a lot of help, and even then. I know people who aren't addicts, who consistently work and who can't afford to go to university or buy property.
@@charlottetaylor4471 I truly think people who say things like "you can do it IF you really want to change" or those who say "it's all in your mind" are stupid and probably haven't ever done real drugs or have had real addiction. Drugs are no joke, they are literally engineered to make you addicted and give you tons of pain once you become dependant on it. It's like telling a prisoner, "hey, you can escape guantanamo bay, IF you really want to" it's stupid and ignorant and just a way to brush your hands and conscious clean from the guilt that comes with seeing someone who needs help but people don't want to stick a hand out or actually just even realize that the drug epidemic is real and more dangerous than most people realize. Even if she does get better, that won't change the root drug problem and the people who invent these tools for slavery, while they get beyond rich and wealthy while common people live hell on earth. It's a shame.
@@charlottetaylor4471 Pell grants and loans....and scholarships is how I went to school. Nobody helped me. I worked hard. So its not impossible. I'm a recovering addict and basically if you want something badly enough you can work three jobs and save to get what you want.
Receiving pictures from the adoptive parents of your child is very important. I’m grateful I had that. Three decades ago there was no one hour photo processing. It was 2 weeks. In that time you start to forget what your baby looks like. That was hard. To be cut off from receiving any pictures/correspondence would be devastating. My heart goes out to you ❤️ 🙏🏻 🤗
Her optimism about her future makes me think she doesn't comprehend the harsh reality of her addiction and the situation she has put herself in. She doesn't seem to understand that she may well overdose and die any time.
She’s not buying blues on EBT or the kindness of others. She’s a working girl. Addicts who aren’t prostituting don’t dress how she’s dressed. I’m not judging prostitutes; I think it should be legalised. That’s not the point. This woman is living in denial of how bleak are her circumstances.
A few minutes later she mentioned having all the sex that she wants. So it's fair to assume to support addiction to drugs she's taking money for all that said sex.@@JaimeMesChiens
There is so much more to her story before this video and also the future. I hope that she heals and gets to have a good relationship with her girls again. So much sadness and hurt behind this ladies eyes.
29 is still young, if she *stopped the drugs* she could still try to do those things she wants.... Dang, I wish I was 29 again, would feel like my whole life is still ahead of me!
I felt drawn to this interview. Her explaining herself came across as someone with Borderline PD. For me it was the same searching for love and turning to drugs the constant battle with ego and self worth. Many self destructive tendencies. With the right self realization she can begin to bring herself back to finding purpose in her life again. She is brilliant and well articulated. I think she is just unaware of how to begin the healing process. UA-cam has been a wonderful resource for myself to find answers and understanding of who I am and why I am the way I am.
Sameeee, recovering opiate addict w/ BPD myself. Assuming you meant you’ve unfortunately had to struggle w/ it too, then I most def feel for you & also def agree.💯🖤 my heart is w/ her as well & beyond hoping she can someday finally have that epiphany moment that will “release” her from that “darkness”.🥺 ofc it’s always easier said than done, but by no means whatsoever is it impossible.💓
Every young adult should watch your series for so many reasons. To realize how easy it is to fall. To see they are not so different than these people and they are PEOPLE, and most of all to hopefully instill empathy and get people -of all ages- involved in helping instead of ignoring. i want to hug this girl so bad and tell her that her family still loves her. I moved back home and moved in with my Dad. I will always welcome my children back home. I am a mother for life.. Going back home is not failure. It's a new beginning.
You still young ng woman in this world first love yourself problem doent solve problem you atill have hope you can you still can have good man is not have tobr beautiful good looking is just not the man nly thing in life you can live here n a cage and meet a good ugly fat men it doent mad just look in people soul go a church get help money isnt the only thing weight is just a number but if you still health everybody can be perfect remember there is a rainbow of vilor snd that how prople dont get me wrong i dint want to judge ism not there for it get yourself together life e your lfe you born only and nude and you eill dead only forget the past live the furture for yourself and remember you only live once be proud of yourself and doent make other happy make your happy get good your dourrend and if they pay bad still move on you are very intelligent will sproke
"But what are the standards for deserving?" "All I want is give love but it's hard because I have been met with a lot of hate." "I want to say I regret start using drugs but I don't at the same time because I so badly want it to be the reason... I want so badly for it to be part of the story." The look on her face while she's saying this is heartbreaking.
I followed her train of thought the whole ride; she thinks incredibly deep and I'm sure most tune-out as most don't think deep in our current society; it's deemed a waste of time.
The Challenge The Effort. (aka, resilience, endurance, suffering, and sacrifice) This is what matters in life. Not success or failure. Not meaning or purpose. There is no such thing as winning or losing. You are free from both of those traps. No self illusions of identity or achieving goals that end up a mirage. The challenge and the effort is means everything.
@@BeatdownBabylon You just summed up my sense of isolation. There is no such thing as overthinking, only underthinking. That’s my feeling but, hey, nobody asked me! 😂. I do really appreciate your sentiment. ❤️
@@sciencenotstigma9534 💯. This is the main issue right now with most people. They’ve stopped thinking. Especially independently and critically. Very important quality to possess. 🎯
She’s got a special quality, quite captivating, that empathy she has could definitely be channeled into acting. I hope she frees herself and finds the love she deserves.
@@btnhl I get having to start with a curtsy....ya get on these channels and nobody can take real criticism and everyone expects glad-handing willful hookers, drug addicts, thieves and degenerates. Janet, her goal was to switch from meth to fent so she would stop picking herself...
Not a bad thing to have hope and see positive attributes in anyone. If more people shared positivity instead of judgement our world wouldn’t been in such bad shape.
“When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing how I had been living, they asked me why, but there's no use in talking to people who have a home. They have no idea what its like to seek safety in other people. For home to be wherever you lie your head.” -Lana Del Rey
I kinda feel bad because I watch these while cleaning, which I have always hated. But these videos make me realise how lucky I am the be able to clean MY house, have a stable environment and financial situation. Even though my teen years and family situation have not been perfect, it's far better than some of those people's. I feel sad because of that, life is a lottery
I’m disappointed in some of the hateful comments by the viewers. I would say they are addicted to hate, especially themselves. Go ahead and judge but this girl is a wonderful mirror for insecure people that feel they have no control of their lives. Her honestly is refreshing and appreciated.
I dont think it's hate or addiction to hate its REALITY and reality is hard& it suxs monkey balls ppl accuse me of being negative but I'm real I've never lived in la-la land I say real facts about humans they are both horrible and good and tht can be in the same person DEPENDING ON THE MOMENT and wht person they are dealing with she's right WE SPEND 2 MUCH ⏳️ CHASING the image of ❤(the hallmark version) artists are often the most sensitive ppl around we are very observers & my nieces daughter is in an open adoption I hope she comes looking for me when she turns 18
@@Jenny-uv4dl no rose colored glasses here, my mother is an addict and for many years her behavior felt personal. I believe being a victim can be addictive as much as a drug. Once a person can separate themselves emotionally and see most behavior isn’t personal and stop assuming or judging then their mouths will follow. So when I see people putting hateful remarks it has nothing to do with the beautiful person opening up to us, it has to do with the commenters personal journey. Thank you for your comment.
Your very right you can become ADDICTED TO BEING A VICTIM "poor me I can't get to work on time my moms an addict/severly mentally ill" a thousand more excuses etc my moms drug of choice was religion (it really can become a "drug") I come frm a severely dysfunctional to put it mildly home I COULD CHOOSE TO BE A VICTIM I don't I went on to mostly OVERCOME growing up in thar environment but I hold my mom 100% responsible for certain things I HAVE ZERO PITY FOR HER she made her extremely bad choices but in my day 2 day life the very best REVENGE I CAN HAVE AGAINST HER IS TOO THRIVE& GROW and do the complete OBSOLETE of wht ever she would do
When she says "people come from all over to be homeless in California", it really says a lot. California is enabling people to live like this. They are encouraging it. Some of these folks really need the help, but others are just enjoying the lifestyle. If the "help" went away...many would get jobs and get better.
Geeeeeeeeeeeeezus!!! H you let beauty is intoxicating and your strength and will power to come on this huge platform and speak your truth. I’m a heroin addict actively using. I came from Dallas to the bay thinking I was gonna get clean and start over but it’s been a year and I’m still using. I don’t have family or friends here so it gets lonely and this channel hand the interviews help me when I’m up feeling sad and lonely. I can count on mark uploading a video at 3am. Thankfully because that’s usually the time I’m feeling most down. So thank you thank you thank you Mark.
Quinn is just real for lack of better words. The raw honesty, in these interviews, is invaluable to others who would want to truly begin understanding the realities, US citizens face every day.☮️
I've heard a few people express the same thing--Skid Row seems freeing at first. You can do drugs and no one judges you, you're free to be a wandering soul. Then they inevitably end up beaten, raped, hospitalized, jailed, etc., except now they're trapped. Quinn can get out at this point still and I hope she does, but it does seem bleak.
Hi Quinn! I hope you see your worth. You CAN make changes, you CAN fight for your sobriety and be rewarded with peace and clarity. The biggest love you need is for yourself. Sending out hope, love and strength.
She reminds me of an old black and white film star I wish her only the best I think she made a good decision about adopting out her children if you can conquer fentanyl and get back on the path I hope your journey is blessed with nothing but peace you are a beautiful soul Quinn
@@lh9761 Me too: she spoke a similar view as to how I perceive humanity & overall existence. Earth can fing suck for some contestants, like addicts of any type...🤔and... PEDOS! Yes yes we all hate them bc duh what they do when they do... But did you ever think about how miserable your existence must be every single day when God programmed your brain to be attracted to kids?! WTF (pick a god, any god)! THERE IS NO GOD and that is proof-positive for me. Why the fuck would the make pedos and sociopaths. I think I remember thinking this when I was like 20 watching To Catch a Predo lol. Just busting out some sophomoric philosophizin' in your comment territory my man, I come in peace and with good intention. But that sleep depriv. has me all slow witted n' giddy... It's fun 😏
Quinn I think your decision to give them up for adoption was very brave and unselfish, it takes such strength and love for them to do that. Blessing to you.❤
@@chupalia admitting you are in no condition mentally or physically to do so takes strength. Deluded and grandious ideas of handling things she cannot handle wouldve caused much more trauma for her child. She at least gave the children a chance....as in did not have an abortion... She also gave a family with means a child they truly wanted .
There's a difference between supporting a person and supporting poor behaviour. Your comment not only does the latter but it actually celebrates poor decision making, which involves two innocent lives.
Wow a normal person on drugs. She’s not crazy(yet), isn’t telling obvious lies, very self aware, and honest. Great interview. I hope she gets the help she needs. Although never homeless, I was using blues up until a year ago…. We can all make it if we really want to…
There’s plenty of “normal” people who are users. High functioning addicts are a thing. Not everyone stops caring about their appearance, career, social life, relationships, and morals.
I’ve known people who have been using drugs daily for over a decade and are still completely sane intelligent people but they also were able to hold down decent jobs to support a “normal” life as well as their habits. I think a lot of the mental illness comes from living rough on the streets or having to do regretful things for money. All it does is cause more trauma and most people who use daily already have a shit ton of trauma or they wouldn’t be using in the first place.
@@terry10tnj exactly this, couldn’t have said it better myself. People think that all addicts have the same face/story. You can’t judge a book by its cover because you never know a person’s story.
I have so much respect for this chick for being *selfless* enough to give her babies up for adoption to a family that can’t have children of their own and that will give these girls a wonderful life. So many women don’t make that decision and their kids are dragged through hell and back as a result. Putting your baby up for adoption is the most selfless thing a woman can ever do. Godspeed Quinn.
Respect for doing drugs, getting kids and leaving them to adoption? Wow your standards of a good person is really low. But im European not American.. I guess it's an american thing.
I have no respect for her. She chose to give up her children, give up working, give up on her own dignity in order to get high. How does she pay for her drugs? Use your imagination. There’s plenty of free programs available for her to get off drugs. She chooses not to use them.
Ellie Vegan.... If she was so "selfless", she would of given up the drugs, in order be able to take care of her own children! So "selfless", that she continued to have children, knowing that she wouldn't or couldn't take care of them, then on top of it, states that she has no regrets & refuses to realize what kind of trauma, that her children will go thur now. Yeah that's real "selfless"! Your thinking as well as your own standards, are so fuked up!
@@LordOfSweden Sorry that you're too ignorant to think that all Americans live by this standard! You are a fool, if you believe that this same thing isn't happening in your own country, as well as all over the world.
@@jay-easy311 I agree with you, Jay. A whole lot of "I,me, my..." and then she lets it slip that she has two children that she has given up to the system. She was most likely on drugs when she gave birth to them, and God knows the price those children have paid. And then she jokes about being on welfare and spouts meaningless word salads about love.
@@marymckenna6482 Word salad is stringing words together with no recognizable grammatical structure, usage, or mental organization. That’s not an issue for her, at least not here. Forgive me if the term has some kind of popular culture definition I’m not aware of…I have ASD, and am always the last to know. 😬
I feel for this woman, but she is not her daughters "real mom". She is their birth parent. The real "moms" are the women who are raising the girls on a day to day basis. I do commend Quinn for placing the children with families who will provide a stable environment.
I really hope you can get yourself together. You are an amazing speaker and very articulate, honest and an open book. You are right to never live your life under anyone else´s constraints...but you seem to be living a sad life under your own constraints and the drug addiction. Put your passion, pain, sadness in your art!!!
Take it from someone with ten years of sobriety, the best thing you could do is kick the drugs no matter how difficult it is. Good luck to you, wishing you the best.
Working hard and earning financial security will also give freedom, but without the consequences. Getting life together and loving your children helps you love yourself because they're parts of you. Not being there for them, even if not able to raise them, will give far more life regrets than not getting a movie role.
She is more in tune with the Absolute Truth( GODS TRUTH)then you will EVER be. You live in a fake world, and try to convince yourself everyday that it is the real one. Money is FAKE.
Hey Quinn: I understand everything you're saying, it's like I wrote your interview from a flow a consciousness & without thought it sounded so much like my mental struggles and history with love & hating self. Goddamn, it's really bugging me out, right down to being a horrible judge of character and not trusting bc of it to just recently 1st time losing someone extremely close to me. HMU. I got off the fett; you can too.
I feel you so much. 43 years old and I've kicked just about every drug. I hate/love myself. Too empathetic. Too trusting. I'm still working on myself. My heart is broken. All my love. 💚💔😢🤟✌️
@@jaimelovemac88 Much love 💞 Hear you loud and clear. Only a year difference too, ha. Anyone that brags about being an empath IS NOT an empath. Its a rough life.
PS: nope, i didn't think you were braggins 😉 I thought you'd relate is what I meant by bragging about being an empath; I hear it more than I would like to from the mask-wearers vying for my attention and energy.
Sad to see lost souls...and I'm sure unfortunately it's a dangerous environment for her. I'm in recovery 60 days now. One of my rea izations that I try to keep up front was why didnt I treat myself better when you see how many people in the world have terrible circumstances when I was doing it to myself. If I drink it triggers the phenomenon of craving and the obsession comes back. I tried thousands of ways to drink in moderation finally taking my last beating. Our dilemma as addicts is being powerless over the substance and having a support group because if willpower alone was enough millions would have stopped. I'm not trying to sound like an expert. I watch the videos and it's sad. The elevator to rock bottom doesn't have to be taken all the way down. If possible -- very much preferred--do detox and 28day program. Get time and distance from people,places and things that were bad for you and then stay distanced as much as practical-possible. Thanks for listening and love to ALL.
She's so beautiful. She reminds me of the old Hollywood actresses. If she wants to she could get well with a drug program and some mental health support. LA has a lot of programs. It's a huge city known for rehabs. It would allow her to then get into her art which she loves and that which can be so therapeutic. She's so insightful into her emotions. I wish her success. I really hope Mark helps her find help and success. She has so much potential.
I had a job my whole entire life. Your 29! Your life has just started. Follow your dreams your very aware of yourself more then most. You can make your dreams come true, your dreams may change tomorrow so don't be so hard on yourself if you take a different path. You know what you have to do.
Drug treatment should also include a weight management component . I could see it being a deal breaker for a lot of woman hoping to get off substances , especially if they've had a history of eating disorders .
One thing I hope you know Quinn is you are very self aware. You have more insight than you give yourself credit. If you turn all that LOVE you have towards yourself anything you want can be.
Fentynal hasn't numbed her yet. She feels so deeply, it's beautiful yet so hard to watch bc I can feel her hurting just watching. ❤️ prayers she gets to live the life she dreams of, clean and on her terms of happiness and good self worth.
Giving your kids a chance for better life is nothing to feel bad about. If they are good families, she made a right choice. A gift for those who want to be parents and better life for her children.
"Deserve's got nothing to do with it." She's clearly at a crossroad in life and can choose what direction is best for her. Consider setting some goals and get out of California. Nice footwear btw. Always interesting, thanks!
i lost my mom to an accidental overdose of meth and fentanyl this past april. idk why but i’m watching these videos to try and understand, it breaks my heart to see so many suffer from fentanyl addiction. i wish the best for all of these poor souls chained by addiction. my mom overdosed and died a few times before she actually passed away and i just can’t believe it was never a wake up call. but addiction is a nasty, nasty demon and i’m hoping all of you can thrive and prosper. i wish i could do more to help, other than just donating 😓
I recognize the unique person that you are, Quinn. You're an Old Soul. I gave birth to one of those types. WHEW! What a Motherhood that was and still is. I picture you connecting with an older woman, an artist type like yourself...someone that enjoys your brain, self-awareness and creativity. Every young girl needs an older woman in her corner. A mentor, someone that would inspire you to keep focused on good choices. I have family in LA and SD. LA is definitely the belly of the beast. Hollywood and the worshipping of celebrities ruins it all. I lived in SD in the 80s, got married out there, owned 2 businesses. For such a beautiful place, nice weather etc., So. Cal can be really rough for a sensitive soul. Take care, Quinn. The world is better with you in it. Please reach out for help.
Bless you for giving your children away. I’m sure that’s gotta be a really hard hit for you but very selfless and admirable. And you’re right LA is a very hard city to live with spiritually. Stay in the light sister
I like this woman. I absolutely relate to 98% of what she's said, about herself, her family and not wanting to be a burden/that I'm a failure especially in my stepdad's eyes and to my deceased real Dad's eyes. She's so smart and is completely transparent about everything. I know a she'll reach her goals! I'll be sending good vibes her way.
Your not a failure. Everyone copes with life differently on a soul level theres no good or bad, it's just earth experiences. Be kind to yourself, only person that needs to love you is you. You don't need anyone else's approval.just be you, love yourself. 🥰
Youll get there. When your ready your soul will help motivate you out that lifestyle. You don't have to be perfect. Everything is a soul lesson. Life is rough for most of us. Love yourself into healing.
I've watched so many of these, always appreciated the pure interview quality of these, this is the first and only time I've actually wanted to talk to the person, she's very smart and philosophical, self-critical, which is a good quality, but id love to talk to her, challenge some of her thoughts, hear more of her thoughts, etc
I live in Lakeland, where she’s from. This one hits home for me, plus I have children around her age. She breaks my heart. Sounds like she’s got a caring stable mom at least. I wish she’d consider rehab . Best wishes , Sweetheart !
“What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them goes astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine and go to the mountains to seek the one that is straying?” Matthew 18:2 I wish I could say this to her with the most love in and compassion in my heart 💓
Quinn you are a beautiful person and deserve to be happy, healthy and free from your addiction! I've been fighting addiction/alcoholism for a long time myself and was finally able to get clean with the help of suboxone and lots of love and support from my long time boyfriend who is also in recovery, my family and friends. I know you must feel hopeless being on the streets of L.A. but if you really want to turn it all around, you can! You just gotta want it bad enough and be sick and tired of being sick and tired! Sending you lots of love, positive vibes and hugs!
Congratz on your road to recovery! I to am on the road to recovery, with the help of suboxone, some people just don't understand... I am on the path of self healing, it sounds like u are as well. Blessed be to you my friend! Continue to stay strong and be happy!
@@wildeninja2836 You are not an adult apparently. Still judging folk for no reason on the internet eh? How interesting and unique of you! My gripe with @hwoods9583: pink clouds are nice: i can see you're floating along in one. Not everyone has such an amazing support system as yourself; there's a lot more to it than 'wanting it bad enough'. I wish you the best of luck in your recovery, please focus on yourself as you're not ready to help others yet.
@@kerizmamoon7958 thank you! :) I'm glad you're in recovery too! Suboxone saved my life and I don't care what anybody says about it or claims "you're not clean". Their OPINIONS shouldn't matter to us because we are no longer chasing a high all day long because our disease is being treated by a medication just like any other disease is treated. And don't even get me started on the people who don't think addiction isn't a disease. It's a medical FACT it is a disease. It's been classified as a disease since the mid 1950's. How we deal with addiction as a society still really sucks though. There is still so much stigma around things like suboxone or methadone when they save people's lives everyday.
@@BeatdownBabylon I am on no “pink cloud”. You don’t know my story nor anything about me other than I’m on suboxone. I haven’t stuck a needle in my arm for 8 years and am no longer destroying my life chasing a high like I once was and I haven’t had a drink of alcohol in a Year and 8 months so you can take your “pink cloud” and shove it!
so much love to you Quinn. I see you & I hear you. I understand. Take care love. You deserve happiness. You are different than a lot of folks out here. You're so aware & carry your pain with a lot of strength without losing it. I hope to somehow hear one day you are doing better and are making it honey. All that love and strength in your heart is not comparable to many. Keep going girl. You are a magnificent truth. A ready spirit. I can hear it in the way you speak. My heart goes out to you. -Kovah🌲🕊🧬✨❤️🔥⚡️🌈⚓️🌻🌲
If Quinn can walk away from drugs I feel she could continue to pursue an acting career and be successful. She just needs to make up her mind and stick with it. Best of luck to her!
Quinn, you are beautiful and have so much life ahead of you, if you can find the strength to pull yourself up and out of this. You look like a modern Clara Bow and have that same magnetic energy. This period does not have to define you- it can be an experience that shapes you in the best possible way and gives you compassion for all people who suffer. The life you were meant to live is out there waiting for you, if you want it…
Girl, you need to "fill your cup" and NOT with drugs. The drugs are holding you back. Move away from lala land. Get a regular job, rent a room for a while, eat well, sleep well, find a hobby. You DO deserve better. Better doesn't equal extravagance. You need to get your basic needs met first. Sending you love.
Wow, that was amazing as well the way that you can relay to someone else even if you’re not going through the harder drugs but as an addicts it’s just amazing I just want to thank you Mark for doing this and follow your channel every day from Columbia thank you so much. peace ✌️
Every time I watch one of these and the addict says "I have two daughters" or "I have a son" my heart breaks. Tragic. That's how powerful this drug is. Also if an addict has kids they should be prioritised and given grade A treatment and resources to get them clean and healthy, it's not just their future in jeopardy, every day that goes by the kids are suffering too and they ARE the future. Having healthy birth parents around for them is so important.
For me, it's not when they say they have children, it's when they say they abandoned their children. I know plenty of strung out people who still had the decency to raise their children. I just can't sympathize with people who ditch their children.
@@brandonavery133 yeh I feel like we only get videos with the people whos lives are in extreme trouble, I guess because Mark gets his subjects from Skid Row. I'm sure there are plenty of addicts out there who raise their kids and try to live normal lives, but those people are less likely to appear in these videos for several reasons I guess.
I’m an addict I’m clean presently but have worked my whole life and own a successful business and my kids are 11 and 17 and have never been away from me accept for a sleepover. I’ve provided them a nice living home and they have no idea except for being honest with my oldest who has mental health issues so it’s so important he knows how easy it would be to use drugs so I make sure he never goes that road and do everything to get him any and all help he needs to break free. His father both their father is a severe alcoholic who is homeless. He left when they were 5 and 11 and he had to see what his father did and became. He’s brilliant my son and so is my other they are the force that keeps me from ever giving up and giving in. Even though I’ve been in active addiction most there lives I tried my hardest to never let it get fully ahold of me and I was on mat for their pregnancies so I was never actively using. I’ve got clean for years at a time and then relapse because my own trauma. I’ve never laid a hand on my kids have never yelled and give them all the affection they can stand lol. They are my boys and nothing would ever keep me from being their rock despite my own shit. I’m 40 now and clean and I hope I can stay that way. I’m also celibate as I refuse to bring another man in their lives. I will stay alone until I meet a person deserving of all of us. It would be nice to hear more stories of ppl similar to myself as there are lots of us. I have a past but it doesn’t define shit.
I find it sad that so few of them ever used a serious form of birth control. I wasn’t an addict but I was definitely completely unprepared to be a mom when I was younger. Birth control helped me be a mom when I was ready.
Once again, so sad! People need mental care health. She has so many underlying conditions that are obviously contributing to her drug use. ADHD, generalized anxiety disorder etc. if only we had a better mental healthcare system. So sad. I sincerely hope she gets the help she needs.
@jumpdirty hi, she mentions that she feels she has ADHD. Speaking from experience, I see some traits, the constant fidgeting, being socially awkward, etc. I’m not a professional so I am not sure. I feel bad for her & hope she gets all the help she needs.
You can see how beautiful and creative she is with her style but mostly because of her perspective and outlook... I hope she finds the theater again someday ❤
I started using Crack at 21. I got off Crack at about 35 by switching to meth. I stopped after my 40s. Now I'm 46, I have a 5 month old baby girl. And I'm getting married next month. I bought my first house a year ago. There hope for us all.
Much praise to your sobriety, brother 🙏
Good job. Yes!! Everything can change life still tuff. But alot better living sober
Have nice day thnx
Well done. Wonder why some people can't get off it
Awesome
Congrats from Nashville Tennessee 👏 🙌
Old man here .. got clean 4 months ago. No one in my life . Just needed a victory. Work. Pay rent . By groceries. Having a clear mind feels good. It's hard as hell to quit.
Well done cliff
That's great Cliff, keep going.❤
Well done you!😊very proud of you 👍 I’m sober now 3 years, thanks to the grace of God go I, you can do it too 👍
Congratulations! That’s huge. Keep fighting the good fight!!
Bro..... 8 years clean here. You're so right about appreciating the small shit, like paying bills, buying groceries etc.... i remember exactly how important that gratitude was for me in my early recovery. Congrats man.... Love ya brother
She’s such a classic beauty, like a Hollywood actress from long ago. I pray for her safety and well-being, and recovery.
She sort of looks like Christina Applegate.
Indeed
She’s like a red haired Betty Boop!!! Just stunning!!!!
Yes! Very pretty
One more year or two then check again. Hard drugs like that, stress, bad diet, consistent lack of shelter will change all that. She still puts makeup on in the right general areas, clothes still look somewhat alright, just give it one or two more years.
I’m a 70 year old woman who started smoking pot 55 years ago. I went to college and spent most of my time either drunk or tripping on acid or smoking weed. I’ve gone through short stages of using speed, cocaine and downers. My childhood was the typical middle class 1960’s dysfunctional BS. I never did any really hard drugs because of the consequences. So was I just lucky or was I smart enough to get my act together?
This girl is stunning, intelligent, ethereal and young. I hope she kicks the satanic drugs she’s addicted to and has a beautiful productive life.
Wow Rebekah..!
No judgments on the pot use, it happen ds to not agree with me, but In college I saw a lot of smat people go down the drain abusing pot.
I think it's partially dependent upon how strong the inner desire of each person is to need to suppress the conscious and subconscious memories of their traumatic past.
Cocaine and speed are hard drugs lol. Good for you, though, wish you the best. Some people know how to control their use but others don't.
AMEN!!
Making the sacrifice of putting your children first and giving them a good home shows how much you love them ❤️
Sadly not a lot of people see , she is one strong women for that
Addiction is stronger than love
Now that's a sin
I’m married to a recovering addict. Sadly, it’s difficult for me to believe what these interviewees say while in that chair. I read others’ comments expressing hope, seeing the good in the people in the videos, and finding depth, wisdom and knowledge in their words. Me, I look for the elusive facts because the barrage of lies fired at the viewer makes them tricky to identify.
She’s a drug addict who has given up her children and is having a progressively more difficult time obtaining and maintaining employment. Robust statistics tell a bleak story of this young woman’s future. It is indeed sad because I, like many others here, see a glimmer of potential in her.
Without the will there is no way. It seems like right now she merely has the will to rely on the “kindness of others” but trust me that as the years go by and her appearance and disposition suffer, she will see the kindness fade and the indifference (and even cruelty) of human beings begin to surface.
It’s hard out there. Good luck.
WoW so poetic
@@dawnmartinez5344 thank you.
So, so true
I was with a recovering addict for a long time. One of the things he used to tell me when he relapsed (I didn't know he had at that point), was that he was struggling and needed my car to go meet his sponsor. It was all a lie to get drugs. I doubt there was even one time he actually went to a meeting or talked to someone. He even gave his drug dealer a fake name in his phone so when the call came it looked like it was from the "sponsor". It's so easy to believe them in those first months, in his case the better part of a year, before the job is lost, the stealing begins and their personality changes completely.
@@AgentBlueCanary Hi Tracie. I completely understand what you went through, and unfortunately I can relate, too. I stood by my wife through similar deceptions. She did eventually go to long-term treatment (it was for a year) and it seems to have stuck this time. She's clean 4 years now. However, if she hadn't gone there's no doubt in my mind that we'd be divorced and she would likely be dead or worse (yes, I believe there are worse things than death for an addict). The awful thing about it is that, despite her recent track record of recovery, I will forever have that tiny kernel of doubt resting somewhere in the recesses of my mind just waiting to whisper in my ear and cause me to question everything about her. I am (we are) working on it.
“Food was my first addiction.” That one statement is so powerful.
I saw so many like her while living in California. People think the entertainment industry is just one big party and it may be for the actors but on the technical side, it is tough grueling work. You've got to have the stamina to out perform everyone else that wants your job. Being addicted to drugs entirely removes you from that competition.
Giving your daughters a stable and loving home was a good decision. God bless and good luck!
Maybe putting them first and looking after them was the right decision
@@AB-kq9xm That would be your decision and mine, but Quinn was able to see that she couldnt provide and there may have been suffering for her children.
I also think that took a lot of courage to choose Open Adoption.
@@AB-kq9xm maybe not having them in the first place would have been the best one
@@0161GHM evil thing to say.
I THINK SHE SOLD HER KIDS........HAPPENS WITH ADDICTS ALL THE TIME. ON THE SLY NO ORGANIZATION INVOLVED.
I KNOW OF THIS HAPPENING OFTEN...........HAVING A KID CAN MAKE YOU A COUPLE OF THOUSAND BUCKS.
It's possible to turn this round, IF she wants to.
I was an addict for years, I 'faced' it when I was 40, all by myself, went to university, graduated, got one teaching job then got headhunted for another post, got that one too!
Just moved in to a 2 bed apartment with a garden 2 months ago. I'm 49 now and enjoying my 1st summer break as a music teacher.
IF she wants it.
Good luck to you Quinn, you can do this chick, you really can.
How did you afford to go to uni after years of being a drug addict?
@@charlottetaylor4471 I was gonna ask that too ..
@@Theirtherethere. You always see these sorts of stories on here. Things such as "I used to be a homeless addict, now I'm a homeowner with a good job/thriving business" etc etc. They're (intentionally) leaving out a whole chunk of information in-between. You can't go from homeless to homeowner/business owner without a lot of help, and even then. I know people who aren't addicts, who consistently work and who can't afford to go to university or buy property.
@@charlottetaylor4471 I truly think people who say things like "you can do it IF you really want to change" or those who say "it's all in your mind" are stupid and probably haven't ever done real drugs or have had real addiction. Drugs are no joke, they are literally engineered to make you addicted and give you tons of pain once you become dependant on it. It's like telling a prisoner, "hey, you can escape guantanamo bay, IF you really want to" it's stupid and ignorant and just a way to brush your hands and conscious clean from the guilt that comes with seeing someone who needs help but people don't want to stick a hand out or actually just even realize that the drug epidemic is real and more dangerous than most people realize. Even if she does get better, that won't change the root drug problem and the people who invent these tools for slavery, while they get beyond rich and wealthy while common people live hell on earth. It's a shame.
@@charlottetaylor4471 Pell grants and loans....and scholarships is how I went to school. Nobody helped me. I worked hard. So its not impossible. I'm a recovering addict and basically if you want something badly enough you can work three jobs and save to get what you want.
Receiving pictures from the adoptive parents of your child is very important. I’m grateful I had that. Three decades ago there was no one hour photo processing. It was 2 weeks. In that time you start to forget what your baby looks like. That was hard. To be cut off from receiving any pictures/correspondence would be devastating. My heart goes out to you ❤️ 🙏🏻 🤗
Her optimism about her future makes me think she doesn't comprehend the harsh reality of her addiction and the situation she has put herself in. She doesn't seem to understand that she may well overdose and die any time.
True!..............Thanks for shedding some light on all the idealization of a destructive lifestyle.
She’s not buying blues on EBT or the kindness of others.
She’s a working girl.
Addicts who aren’t prostituting don’t dress how she’s dressed.
I’m not judging prostitutes; I think it should be legalised.
That’s not the point.
This woman is living in denial of how bleak are her circumstances.
A few minutes later she mentioned having all the sex that she wants. So it's fair to assume to support addiction to drugs she's taking money for all that said sex.@@JaimeMesChiens
There is so much more to her story before this video and also the future. I hope that she heals and gets to have a good relationship with her girls again. So much sadness and hurt behind this ladies eyes.
She has such an old fashioned beauty look. I could picture her on the silver screen, for sure!
29 is still young, if she *stopped the drugs* she could still try to do those things she wants.... Dang, I wish I was 29 again, would feel like my whole life is still ahead of me!
How old are you now?
@@ClayMastah344 33
I felt drawn to this interview. Her explaining herself came across as someone with Borderline PD. For me it was the same searching for love and turning to drugs the constant battle with ego and self worth. Many self destructive tendencies. With the right self realization she can begin to bring herself back to finding purpose in her life again. She is brilliant and well articulated. I think she is just unaware of how to begin the healing process. UA-cam has been a wonderful resource for myself to find answers and understanding of who I am and why I am the way I am.
Sameeee, recovering opiate addict w/ BPD myself. Assuming you meant you’ve unfortunately had to struggle w/ it too, then I most def feel for you & also def agree.💯🖤 my heart is w/ her as well & beyond hoping she can someday finally have that epiphany moment that will “release” her from that “darkness”.🥺 ofc it’s always easier said than done, but by no means whatsoever is it impossible.💓
Every young adult should watch your series for so many reasons. To realize how easy it is to fall. To see they are not so different than these people and they are PEOPLE, and most of all to hopefully instill empathy and get people -of all ages- involved in helping instead of ignoring. i want to hug this girl so bad and tell her that her family still loves her. I moved back home and moved in with my Dad. I will always welcome my children back home. I am a mother for life.. Going back home is not failure. It's a new beginning.
So much sadness....hope she is able to get therapy and support. 29 is still so young. You can turn this around.
I don’t think she wants to
You still young ng woman in this world first love yourself problem doent solve problem you atill have hope you can you still can have good man is not have tobr beautiful good looking is just not the man nly thing in life you can live here n a cage and meet a good ugly fat men it doent mad just look in people soul go a church get help money isnt the only thing weight is just a number but if you still health everybody can be perfect remember there is a rainbow of vilor snd that how prople dont get me wrong i dint want to judge ism not there for it get yourself together life e your lfe you born only and nude and you eill dead only forget the past live the furture for yourself and remember you only live once be proud of yourself and doent make other happy make your happy get good your dourrend and if they pay bad still move on you are very intelligent will sproke
@@stuff1784 i really think she wants to. she does have somewhat of a vision she would like to achieve.
As Quinn's drug dealer.... I disagree.... 🤨.... jk JK ... I hope she gets better
@@soniamartinez5591 I really love the enthusiasm and positivity you expressed for Quinn! But as a reply to another user... 🤦🏽♂No me Gusta!
"But what are the standards for deserving?"
"All I want is give love but it's hard because I have been met with a lot of hate."
"I want to say I regret start using drugs but I don't at the same time because I so badly want it to be the reason... I want so badly for it to be part of the story." The look on her face while she's saying this is heartbreaking.
I followed her train of thought the whole ride; she thinks incredibly deep and I'm sure most tune-out as most don't think deep in our current society; it's deemed a waste of time.
The Challenge
The Effort. (aka, resilience, endurance, suffering, and sacrifice)
This is what matters in life. Not success or failure. Not meaning or purpose. There is no such thing as winning or losing. You are free from both of those traps. No self illusions of identity or achieving goals that end up a mirage.
The challenge and the effort is means everything.
@@BeatdownBabylon You just summed up my sense of isolation. There is no such thing as overthinking, only underthinking. That’s my feeling but, hey, nobody asked me! 😂. I do really appreciate your sentiment. ❤️
@@sciencenotstigma9534 💯. This is the main issue right now with most people. They’ve stopped thinking. Especially independently and critically. Very important quality to possess. 🎯
@@sciencenotstigma9534 My current world as well... I appreciate your words ♥
She’s got a special quality, quite captivating, that empathy she has could definitely be channeled into acting. I hope she frees herself and finds the love she deserves.
I'm thinking you made this astute observation as she said her goal was to act...May you Thrive, Quinn
@@btnhl I get having to start with a curtsy....ya get on these channels and nobody can take real criticism and everyone expects glad-handing willful hookers, drug addicts, thieves and degenerates.
Janet, her goal was to switch from meth to fent so she would stop picking herself...
The acting industry is notoriously toxic…. not sure why you would suggest that for her when she’s already an addict. She would drown😕
Not a bad thing to have hope and see positive attributes in anyone. If more people shared positivity instead of judgement our world wouldn’t been in such bad shape.
"very empathetic"
she has two daughters in adoption and says she lives that way because it feels free and she can have sex with whoever she wants
“When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing how I had been living, they asked me why, but there's no use in talking to people who have a home.
They have no idea what its like to seek safety in other people.
For home to be wherever you lie your head.”
-Lana Del Rey
People come from other states to California to be homeless. That says a lot.
And oregon, and washington
I kinda feel bad because I watch these while cleaning, which I have always hated. But these videos make me realise how lucky I am the be able to clean MY house, have a stable environment and financial situation. Even though my teen years and family situation have not been perfect, it's far better than some of those people's. I feel sad because of that, life is a lottery
I’m disappointed in some of the hateful comments by the viewers. I would say they are addicted to hate, especially themselves. Go ahead and judge but this girl is a wonderful mirror for insecure people that feel they have no control of their lives. Her honestly is refreshing and appreciated.
I dont think it's hate or addiction to hate its REALITY and reality is hard& it suxs monkey balls ppl accuse me of being negative but I'm real I've never lived in la-la land I say real facts about humans they are both horrible and good and tht can be in the same person DEPENDING ON THE MOMENT and wht person they are dealing with she's right WE SPEND 2 MUCH ⏳️ CHASING the image of ❤(the hallmark version) artists are often the most sensitive ppl around we are very observers & my nieces daughter is in an open adoption I hope she comes looking for me when she turns 18
I agree with you
@@Jenny-uv4dl no rose colored glasses here, my mother is an addict and for many years her behavior felt personal. I believe being a victim can be addictive as much as a drug. Once a person can separate themselves emotionally and see most behavior isn’t personal and stop assuming or judging then their mouths will follow. So when I see people putting hateful remarks it has nothing to do with the beautiful person opening up to us, it has to do with the commenters personal journey. Thank you for your comment.
Your very right you can become ADDICTED TO BEING A VICTIM "poor me I can't get to work on time my moms an addict/severly mentally ill" a thousand more excuses etc my moms drug of choice was religion (it really can become a "drug") I come frm a severely dysfunctional to put it mildly home I COULD CHOOSE TO BE A VICTIM I don't I went on to mostly OVERCOME growing up in thar environment but I hold my mom 100% responsible for certain things I HAVE ZERO PITY FOR HER she made her extremely bad choices but in my day 2 day life the very best REVENGE I CAN HAVE AGAINST HER IS TOO THRIVE& GROW and do the complete OBSOLETE of wht ever she would do
@@Jenny-uv4dl I’m sorry your couldn’t be what you needed. Sending love.
She has a totally unique look that could have landed her contracts for sure. I HATE DRUGS.
She's very cute
@Aspen Two One how much money do use spend on that?
Lots of beautiful people in California
She looks like aggitha Hannigan (the mean orphanage matron) in Annie. Not being an asshole either just automatically reminded me of her.
Agreed. She's a doll. 😊
That’s a lot of words for “I just want to do whatever I want.” Poor kids.
this is an uncharitable and reductive takeaway that just betrays your own deficit of empathy
When she says "people come from all over to be homeless in California", it really says a lot. California is enabling people to live like this. They are encouraging it. Some of these folks really need the help, but others are just enjoying the lifestyle. If the "help" went away...many would get jobs and get better.
Geeeeeeeeeeeeezus!!! H you let beauty is intoxicating and your strength and will power to come on this huge platform and speak your truth. I’m a heroin addict actively using. I came from Dallas to the bay thinking I was gonna get clean and start over but it’s been a year and I’m still using. I don’t have family or friends here so it gets lonely and this channel hand the interviews help me when I’m up feeling sad and lonely. I can count on mark uploading a video at 3am. Thankfully because that’s usually the time I’m feeling most down. So thank you thank you thank you Mark.
I think she seems very intelligent and reflective. Hope she can make it out of the drugs. Should move away from LA maybe.
She's great. Intelligent, beautiful, imaginative. An artist who needs to find her medium.
Breaks my heart. Quinn is a sweet soul, and I hope she can somehow get out of her addiction. She clearly has a good heart.
Quinn is just real for lack of better words. The raw honesty, in these interviews, is invaluable to others who would want to truly begin understanding the realities, US citizens face every day.☮️
I've heard a few people express the same thing--Skid Row seems freeing at first. You can do drugs and no one judges you, you're free to be a wandering soul. Then they inevitably end up beaten, raped, hospitalized, jailed, etc., except now they're trapped. Quinn can get out at this point still and I hope she does, but it does seem bleak.
Very insightful, Quinn! I hope you find the love you give the world in your life. You deserve it.💖
Laura Lee...is that you neighbor?..
Keeps saying she doesn't want to have regrets... Irony of that
Hi Quinn! I hope you see your worth. You CAN make changes, you CAN fight for your sobriety and be rewarded with peace and clarity. The biggest love you need is for yourself. Sending out hope, love and strength.
She reminds me of an old black and white film star I wish her only the best I think she made a good decision about adopting out her children if you can conquer fentanyl and get back on the path I hope your journey is blessed with nothing but peace you are a beautiful soul Quinn
It is stated that she's an addict; it's how obvious her self awareness is paining her that tears me up
Tear- rip
Not tear, watery eye
I understand her
Both work either way tho
@@lh9761 Me too: she spoke a similar view as to how I perceive humanity & overall existence. Earth can fing suck for some contestants, like addicts of any type...🤔and... PEDOS! Yes yes we all hate them bc duh what they do when they do... But did you ever think about how miserable your existence must be every single day when God programmed your brain to be attracted to kids?! WTF (pick a god, any god)!
THERE IS NO GOD and that is proof-positive for me. Why the fuck would the make pedos and sociopaths. I think I remember thinking this when I was like 20 watching To Catch a Predo lol.
Just busting out some sophomoric philosophizin' in your comment territory my man, I come in peace and with good intention. But that sleep depriv. has me all slow witted n' giddy... It's fun 😏
Quinn I think your decision to give them up for adoption was very brave and unselfish, it takes such strength and love for them to do that. Blessing to you.❤
Brave and unselfish? I think it's quite the opposite.
Actually, it takes love and strength to raise them.
@@chupalia admitting you are in no condition mentally or physically to do so takes strength. Deluded and grandious ideas of handling things she cannot handle wouldve caused much more trauma for her child. She at least gave the children a chance....as in did not have an abortion... She also gave a family with means a child they truly wanted .
There's a difference between supporting a person and supporting poor behaviour. Your comment not only does the latter but it actually celebrates poor decision making, which involves two innocent lives.
The terms you used, i.e. brave, unselfish, strength and love would only apply if she took action to address her drug dependence.
Wow a normal person on drugs. She’s not crazy(yet), isn’t telling obvious lies, very self aware, and honest. Great interview. I hope she gets the help she needs. Although never homeless, I was using blues up until a year ago…. We can all make it if we really want to…
There are addicts with a moral code, they’re rare though
There’s plenty of “normal” people who are users. High functioning addicts are a thing. Not everyone stops caring about their appearance, career, social life, relationships, and morals.
I’ve known people who have been using drugs daily for over a decade and are still completely sane intelligent people but they also were able to hold down decent jobs to support a “normal” life as well as their habits. I think a lot of the mental illness comes from living rough on the streets or having to do regretful things for money. All it does is cause more trauma and most people who use daily already have a shit ton of trauma or they wouldn’t be using in the first place.
@@terry10tnj exactly this, couldn’t have said it better myself. People think that all addicts have the same face/story. You can’t judge a book by its cover because you never know a person’s story.
What are blues ? Twice today I heard of it
I have so much respect for this chick for being *selfless* enough to give her babies up for adoption to a family that can’t have children of their own and that will give these girls a wonderful life.
So many women don’t make that decision and their kids are dragged through hell and back as a result.
Putting your baby up for adoption is the most selfless thing a woman can ever do. Godspeed Quinn.
I feel like kids will always feel like “my mom was addicted to drugs and gave me up” and they end up on drugs anyway
Respect for doing drugs, getting kids and leaving them to adoption? Wow your standards of a good person is really low. But im European not American.. I guess it's an american thing.
I have no respect for her. She chose to give up her children, give up working, give up on her own dignity in order to get high. How does she pay for her drugs? Use your imagination. There’s plenty of free programs available for her to get off drugs. She chooses not to use them.
Ellie Vegan....
If she was so "selfless", she would of given up the drugs, in order be able to take care of her own children!
So "selfless", that she continued to have children, knowing that she wouldn't or couldn't take care of them, then on top of it, states that she has no regrets & refuses to realize what kind of trauma, that her children will go thur now.
Yeah that's real "selfless"!
Your thinking as well as your own standards, are so fuked up!
@@LordOfSweden
Sorry that you're too ignorant to think that all Americans live by this standard! You are a fool, if you believe that this same thing isn't happening in your own country, as well as all over the world.
I'm from Lakeland fl. This hits hard when its somebody from your community.
Truthful and self aware. Not telling made up stories. Good interview.
Did we watch the same video? She just spewed a bunch of generalities and excuses the whole time
Made up story...Hollywood cast...professional make-up...
I think you saw something else
@@jay-easy311 I agree with you, Jay. A whole lot of "I,me, my..." and then she lets it slip that she has two children that she has given up to the system. She was most likely on drugs when she gave birth to them, and God knows the price those children have paid. And then she jokes about being on welfare and spouts meaningless word salads about love.
@@marymckenna6482 Word salad is stringing words together with no recognizable grammatical structure, usage, or mental organization. That’s not an issue for her, at least not here. Forgive me if the term has some kind of popular culture definition I’m not aware of…I have ASD, and am always the last to know. 😬
Hi Mark and swu fam, blessings from New Zealand 12.30am Monday nyte. Thank you for sharing your story Quinn. I hope you make it through.
I feel for this woman, but she is not her daughters "real mom". She is their birth parent. The real "moms" are the women who are raising the girls on a day to day basis. I do commend Quinn for placing the children with families who will provide a stable environment.
“I feel for this woman, BUT…”
Imagine leaving a comment like this. Touch some grass 🤡
Tell me you’ve never been thru anything in life without telling me you’ve never been thru ANYTHING in life.
Yes
Looks like she stepped out of a silent movie.
I hope she doesn't get swallowed-up by LA monsters lurking in the shadows.
I really hope you can get yourself together. You are an amazing speaker and very articulate, honest and an open book. You are right to never live your life under anyone else´s constraints...but you seem to be living a sad life under your own constraints and the drug addiction. Put your passion, pain, sadness in your art!!!
Its funny how falling feels like flying ....for a little while.
Poetic
This comment is DEEP.
Makes me think; it's a twisted feeling isn't it..
“I like to indulge”
sums it all up with those words
Take it from someone with ten years of sobriety, the best thing you could do is kick the drugs no matter how difficult it is. Good luck to you, wishing you the best.
Working hard and earning financial security will also give freedom, but without the consequences. Getting life together and loving your children helps you love yourself because they're parts of you. Not being there for them, even if not able to raise them, will give far more life regrets than not getting a movie role.
She is more in tune with the Absolute Truth( GODS TRUTH)then you will EVER be. You live in a fake world, and try to convince yourself everyday that it is the real one. Money is FAKE.
Hey Quinn: I understand everything you're saying, it's like I wrote your interview from a flow a consciousness & without thought it sounded so much like my mental struggles and history with love & hating self. Goddamn, it's really bugging me out, right down to being a horrible judge of character and not trusting bc of it to just recently 1st time losing someone extremely close to me.
HMU. I got off the fett; you can too.
I feel you so much. 43 years old and I've kicked just about every drug. I hate/love myself. Too empathetic. Too trusting. I'm still working on myself. My heart is broken. All my love. 💚💔😢🤟✌️
@@jaimelovemac88 Much love 💞 Hear you loud and clear. Only a year difference too, ha. Anyone that brags about being an empath IS NOT an empath. Its a rough life.
PS: nope, i didn't think you were braggins 😉 I thought you'd relate is what I meant by bragging about being an empath; I hear it more than I would like to from the mask-wearers vying for my attention and energy.
Sad to see lost souls...and I'm sure unfortunately it's a dangerous environment for her. I'm in recovery 60 days now. One of my rea
izations that I try to keep up front was why didnt I treat myself better when you see how many people in the world have terrible circumstances when I was doing it to myself. If I drink it triggers the phenomenon of craving and the obsession comes back. I tried thousands of ways to drink in moderation finally taking my last beating. Our dilemma as addicts is being powerless over the substance and having a support group because if willpower alone was enough millions would have stopped. I'm not trying to sound like an expert. I watch the videos and it's sad. The elevator to rock bottom doesn't have to be taken all the way down. If possible -- very much preferred--do detox and 28day program. Get time and distance from people,places and things that were bad for you and then stay distanced as much as practical-possible. Thanks for listening and love to ALL.
I love the fact that she doesn't have tattoos all over her body she's so beautiful!! God bless her and keep her safe out there.
Quinn, I am wishing you well. I want you to pull through and continue your story and your journey with good health and with happiness. 🌺🌸🍄
She's so beautiful. She reminds me of the old Hollywood actresses. If she wants to she could get well with a drug program and some mental health support. LA has a lot of programs. It's a huge city known for rehabs. It would allow her to then get into her art which she loves and that which can be so therapeutic. She's so insightful into her emotions. I wish her success. I really hope Mark helps her find help and success. She has so much potential.
I had a job my whole entire life.
Your 29! Your life has just started. Follow your dreams your very aware of yourself more then most. You can make your dreams come true, your dreams may change tomorrow so don't be so hard on yourself if you take a different path. You know what you have to do.
This is so beautiful / what a beautiful human - so much smarter than she probably believes.
Drug treatment should also include a weight management component . I could see it being a deal breaker for a lot of woman hoping to get off substances , especially if they've had a history of eating disorders .
Thanks for doing what you do! I hope she is able to get clean and pursue her dreams.
One thing I hope you know Quinn is you are very self aware. You have more insight than you give yourself credit. If you turn all that LOVE you have towards yourself anything you want can be.
Fentynal hasn't numbed her yet. She feels so deeply, it's beautiful yet so hard to watch bc I can feel her hurting just watching. ❤️ prayers she gets to live the life she dreams of, clean and on her terms of happiness and good self worth.
Giving your kids a chance for better life is nothing to feel bad about. If they are good families, she made a right choice. A gift for those who want to be parents and better life for her children.
Exactly
Such an honest person. That’s an attribute very hard to find. Best of luck and blessings for you.
Mark never sleeps
"Deserve's got nothing to do with it." She's clearly at a crossroad in life and can choose what direction is best for her. Consider setting some goals and get out of California. Nice footwear btw. Always interesting, thanks!
i lost my mom to an accidental overdose of meth and fentanyl this past april. idk why but i’m watching these videos to try and understand, it breaks my heart to see so many suffer from fentanyl addiction. i wish the best for all of these poor souls chained by addiction. my mom overdosed and died a few times before she actually passed away and i just can’t believe it was never a wake up call. but addiction is a nasty, nasty demon and i’m hoping all of you can thrive and prosper. i wish i could do more to help, other than just donating 😓
Just listening and caring helps. As does being open minded. Sorry for your loss. I bet she was an amazing human being.
Sorry about your lost. Gods Bless u n your family 🙏🏾
So sorry,hugs xxoo
She is very compelling and has a classic beauty. I hope to god she gets clean and channels her beauty into the things she really wants.
I recognize the unique person that you are, Quinn. You're an Old Soul. I gave birth to one of those types. WHEW! What a Motherhood that was and still is.
I picture you connecting with an older woman, an artist type like yourself...someone that enjoys your brain, self-awareness and creativity. Every young girl needs an older woman in her corner. A mentor, someone that would inspire you to keep focused on good choices.
I have family in LA and SD. LA is definitely the belly of the beast. Hollywood and the worshipping of celebrities ruins it all. I lived in SD in the 80s, got married out there, owned 2 businesses. For such a beautiful place, nice weather etc., So. Cal can be really rough for a sensitive soul.
Take care, Quinn. The world is better with you in it. Please reach out for help.
Bless you for giving your children away. I’m sure that’s gotta be a really hard hit for you but very selfless and admirable.
And you’re right LA is a very hard city to live with spiritually.
Stay in the light sister
She said she wants to fall in Love SHE NEEDS TO FALL IN LOVE WITH HER SELF ..Beautiful young Lady fine your self
Bless her heart...she is nostalgic. She remembers better times.
Thank you for the interview Quinn & SWU
Amazing interview! If I can get clean, anyone can. We do recover Quinn!
I like this woman. I absolutely relate to 98% of what she's said, about herself, her family and not wanting to be a burden/that I'm a failure especially in my stepdad's eyes and to my deceased real Dad's eyes. She's so smart and is completely transparent about everything. I know a she'll reach her goals! I'll be sending good vibes her way.
Your not a failure. Everyone copes with life differently on a soul level theres no good or bad, it's just earth experiences. Be kind to yourself, only person that needs to love you is you. You don't need anyone else's approval.just be you, love yourself. 🥰
@@celticwarrior777 Thank you for your kind words and encouragement. ❤️
Youll get there. When your ready your soul will help motivate you out that lifestyle. You don't have to be perfect. Everything is a soul lesson. Life is rough for most of us. Love yourself into healing.
Her story makes me in tears ,you can see the loneliness in her eyes,I hope she will get help, pray for her!
Maybe she’s actually happy. Not unheard of really
Don’t give up home Quinn. Sending love from Miami.
I've watched so many of these, always appreciated the pure interview quality of these, this is the first and only time I've actually wanted to talk to the person, she's very smart and philosophical, self-critical, which is a good quality, but id love to talk to her, challenge some of her thoughts, hear more of her thoughts, etc
I live in Lakeland, where she’s from. This one hits home for me, plus I have children around her age. She breaks my heart. Sounds like she’s got a caring stable mom at least. I wish she’d consider rehab . Best wishes , Sweetheart !
“What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them goes astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine and go to the mountains to seek the one that is straying?” Matthew 18:2
I wish I could say this to her with the most love in and compassion in my heart 💓
Quinn you are a beautiful person and deserve to be happy, healthy and free from your addiction! I've been fighting addiction/alcoholism for a long time myself and was finally able to get clean with the help of suboxone and lots of love and support from my long time boyfriend who is also in recovery, my family and friends. I know you must feel hopeless being on the streets of L.A. but if you really want to turn it all around, you can! You just gotta want it bad enough and be sick and tired of being sick and tired! Sending you lots of love, positive vibes and hugs!
You are not clean on maintenance meds lol.
Congratz on your road to recovery! I to am on the road to recovery, with the help of suboxone, some people just don't understand... I am on the path of self healing, it sounds like u are as well. Blessed be to you my friend! Continue to stay strong and be happy!
@@wildeninja2836 You are not an adult apparently. Still judging folk for no reason on the internet eh? How interesting and unique of you!
My gripe with @hwoods9583: pink clouds are nice: i can see you're floating along in one. Not everyone has such an amazing support system as yourself; there's a lot more to it than 'wanting it bad enough'. I wish you the best of luck in your recovery, please focus on yourself as you're not ready to help others yet.
@@kerizmamoon7958 thank you! :) I'm glad you're in recovery too! Suboxone saved my life and I don't care what anybody says about it or claims "you're not clean". Their OPINIONS shouldn't matter to us because we are no longer chasing a high all day long because our disease is being treated by a medication just like any other disease is treated. And don't even get me started on the people who don't think addiction isn't a disease. It's a medical FACT it is a disease. It's been classified as a disease since the mid 1950's. How we deal with addiction as a society still really sucks though. There is still so much stigma around things like suboxone or methadone when they save people's lives everyday.
@@BeatdownBabylon I am on no “pink cloud”. You don’t know my story nor anything about me other than I’m on suboxone. I haven’t stuck a needle in my arm for 8 years and am no longer destroying my life chasing a high like I once was and I haven’t had a drink of alcohol in a Year and 8 months so you can take your “pink cloud” and shove it!
Her looks are so extraordinary. She really could do anything. I could imagine her as an Oscar winning actress.
so much love to you Quinn. I see you & I hear you. I understand. Take care love. You deserve happiness. You are different than a lot of folks out here. You're so aware & carry your pain with a lot of strength without losing it. I hope to somehow hear one day you are doing better and are making it honey. All that love and strength in your heart is not comparable to many. Keep going girl. You are a magnificent truth. A ready spirit. I can hear it in the way you speak. My heart goes out to you. -Kovah🌲🕊🧬✨❤️🔥⚡️🌈⚓️🌻🌲
No disrespect but she does not look 29 I really thought she was closer to 39 ! God bless hope she gets her help
Drugs age you 100x faster
Actually she looks younger than 29! Ur comment is rude and not necessary
LA is the city where hopes and dreams go to die. I wish more people would realize that .000001% of people actually make it in LA.
If Quinn can walk away from drugs I feel she could continue to pursue an acting career and be successful. She just needs to make up her mind and stick with it. Best of luck to her!
wow shes from my city, what a wonderful woman i hope she finds love and happiness. it is out there waiting for her.
Quinn, you are beautiful and have so much life ahead of you, if you can find the strength to pull yourself up and out of this. You look like a modern Clara Bow and have that same magnetic energy. This period does not have to define you- it can be an experience that shapes you in the best possible way and gives you compassion for all people who suffer. The life you were meant to live is out there waiting for you, if you want it…
Good Morning!👋🤓from 6:00am Brooklyn NY 🇺🇸 to whatever time of day it is wherever in the world 🌎🌍 YOU🫵 are, my SWU family.
4:14 am in colorful Colorado, have a great day my friend!
Good morning from Ohio lol 6:14 am!
Hey, Good Morning fam! 👋🙃
Good morning everyone! Sending love and light from Salt Lake City! (4:21am) 🥰
3:24A.M. here in San Jose Ca. Salute! 🤙 & God Bless! 🙌
She may be taking her freedom a little too far, it's having the opposite effect.
Girl, you need to "fill your cup" and NOT with drugs. The drugs are holding you back. Move away from lala land. Get a regular job, rent a room for a while, eat well, sleep well, find a hobby. You DO deserve better. Better doesn't equal extravagance. You need to get your basic needs met first. Sending you love.
Wow, that was amazing as well the way that you can relay to someone else even if you’re not going through the harder drugs but as an addicts it’s just amazing I just want to thank you Mark for doing this and follow your channel every day from Columbia thank you so much. peace ✌️
Me waiting on him to give a tissue 🤨
Absolutely...took AGES...even stopped focusing on what she was saying at some point to imagine all kinds of scenarios why he wouldn't
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SWU becoming very predictable..also looks like she's from a Hollywood casting call..
She totally is in the right place. She has great looks and a kind heart.
You deserve "it" and you deserve happiness.
Every time I watch one of these and the addict says "I have two daughters" or "I have a son" my heart breaks. Tragic. That's how powerful this drug is.
Also if an addict has kids they should be prioritised and given grade A treatment and resources to get them clean and healthy, it's not just their future in jeopardy, every day that goes by the kids are suffering too and they ARE the future. Having healthy birth parents around for them is so important.
For me, it's not when they say they have children, it's when they say they abandoned their children. I know plenty of strung out people who still had the decency to raise their children.
I just can't sympathize with people who ditch their children.
@@brandonavery133 yeh I feel like we only get videos with the people whos lives are in extreme trouble, I guess because Mark gets his subjects from Skid Row. I'm sure there are plenty of addicts out there who raise their kids and try to live normal lives, but those people are less likely to appear in these videos for several reasons I guess.
@@brandonavery133 Me neither.....
I’m an addict I’m clean presently but have worked my whole life and own a successful business and my kids are 11 and 17 and have never been away from me accept for a sleepover. I’ve provided them a nice living home and they have no idea except for being honest with my oldest who has mental health issues so it’s so important he knows how easy it would be to use drugs so I make sure he never goes that road and do everything to get him any and all help he needs to break free. His father both their father is a severe alcoholic who is homeless. He left when they were 5 and 11 and he had to see what his father did and became. He’s brilliant my son and so is my other they are the force that keeps me from ever giving up and giving in. Even though I’ve been in active addiction most there lives I tried my hardest to never let it get fully ahold of me and I was on mat for their pregnancies so I was never actively using. I’ve got clean for years at a time and then relapse because my own trauma. I’ve never laid a hand on my kids have never yelled and give them all the affection they can stand lol. They are my boys and nothing would ever keep me from being their rock despite my own shit. I’m 40 now and clean and I hope I can stay that way. I’m also celibate as I refuse to bring another man in their lives. I will stay alone until I meet a person deserving of all of us. It would be nice to hear more stories of ppl similar to myself as there are lots of us. I have a past but it doesn’t define shit.
I find it sad that so few of them ever used a serious form of birth control. I wasn’t an addict but I was definitely completely unprepared to be a mom when I was younger. Birth control helped me be a mom when I was ready.
Once again, so sad! People need mental care health. She has so many underlying conditions that are obviously contributing to her drug use. ADHD, generalized anxiety disorder etc. if only we had a better mental healthcare system. So sad. I sincerely hope she gets the help she needs.
@jumpdirty hi, she mentions that she feels she has ADHD. Speaking from experience, I see some traits, the constant fidgeting, being socially awkward, etc. I’m not a professional so I am not sure. I feel bad for her & hope she gets all the help she needs.
You can see how beautiful and creative she is with her style but mostly because of her perspective and outlook... I hope she finds the theater again someday ❤
She is beautiful. Her spirit is beautiful. I pray she grows towards a better life.