Fentanyl Addict interview-Amanda
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- Опубліковано 27 вер 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Amanda, a fentanyl addict on Skid Row.
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I think she sought it out to understand her brother's death, and process it, and rationalize it. This is grief. She doesn't understand why he didn't love her enough to quit. And if she quits that means he could have. She needs to forgive him and recover. That is the way she can still save him.
this needs to be pinned and get to Amanda
Couldn't have said it better ourselves!
this is possible. the way she talks about being sick tho imo you’re right about why she seeked it out but once you start you’re trapped. you’re using so you aren’t sick and if you’re predisposed to the disease genetically that’s another layer
Wow beautiful!! 💯
Absolutely spot on
She reminds me so much of my story… I got clean after about 4 years of addiction.
I’ve been clean for 3+ years now!
I hope you’re able to heal your pain and find a way off of the hard stuff ❤
Congratulations on your sobriety 🎉
You're doing well, and I'm rooting for you. Please stay on course, and God Bless!
❤❤❤
I'm on subs but I take benzos with them so I'm not clean
Awesome. Keep up the good work and stay determined. Staying away from people and environments that are a temptation. Helping others by sharing your story is helpful too.
Amanda,
I listened. I hear you. I heard many things in your interview but what struck me the most is that you had someone in your life, your brother, that was "there for you", always. I feel that in some way, you are mirroring his behavior and subconsciously this makes you feel closer to him. I'm not saying this to be accusatory or mean. I've spent quite a few years on the topic of Death & Dying, which hopefully explains my words.
Your brother is still around you and you can learn how to align yourself with his energy. I am sure he would not want you to destroy yourself with substances. I think you should reach out for some help with the grief from the loss of your brother. Best of luck to you and please do not wait too long. 💜
how would you advise her to align with his energy?
Amanda, hold yourself accountable and get help. You can do it.
Exactly….Hold Yourself Accountable,No more excuses. Been there Done that its possible, your girls need you 🙏🏽
i lost my wife to drug addiction 10 years ago. I say lost, not in relation to life or death, but she stopped being in a relationship with me and our sun. First it was oxycodone, then heroin, followed by fentanyl and then crack finally drove a wedge between us, all of us, including her son. She finally left us for a crack head who would provide her with her drug of choice. I think my son and I did our best for her, but it wasn't really about us. I'm hopeful that she figures out her self worth one day. She is one heck of a lady, she just doesn't realize it. The thing is that she needs to figure it out for herself. I can't solve her issues for her, neither can our 15 year old son Christopher. We love her and will be there for her, regardless if she decides to return to our family unit. I'm from Los Angeles, specifically Glendale, but now live in Pittsburgh. I miss her presence so very much. God bless her and you all!
Sending hugs ❤❤❤
Very hard story that. Stay in Pittsburgh for a bit away from it all. Christopher doesn't need to be around that. Maybe one day his lovely mammy will come back. Greetings from Dublin Ireland ☘️
Ur a stand up person to love her regardless of what she’s done to ur family unit. And to still have nice things to say about her is definitely not the norm but I guess it’s better to not bash her to ur son
U sound like a sweetie pie. I’m sorry for all the hurt. She can decide to get better. You all deserve it
This is a different story. It is interesting how she just woke up one day and decided to become a user. - I can hear the fent. It is so lethal. - She knows what to do. It is hard to save someone from themselves.
Im wondering what you mean by “ I can hear the fent.” Do you mean that raspy voice of hers,bc I wondered if it affects your respiratory system.? I’ve heard it in quite a few people who are users. Wow, this fentanyl is the devil straight up!!
@@494ava I thought they meant she’s high during the interview
@@494ava not literally, although she is raspy. It is the mindset. Watch a few of Mark's videos and there are traits of how this drug "sounds". It is also the choice of words, such as "medicine". They tend to drift in thought in odd spots as if they are falling asleep. There is deep mental thought, yet at any moment you are still in the same conversational circle. There are patterns that you can hear and see. - I know drugs in general create these changes, I just see some specific traits in fent. Once in a great while you will hear Mark mention specific characteristics.
@@rainrabbit9209 Great perspective!
@@John-Doe-Yoyeh that could mean that too
So sad for her daughters. Her worst fear is causing them trauma and pain. She has already done that and continues to.
Right ! And she thinks just because she talks about it that she’s being a good mom. Truly disgusting!!
Mother of the year.
@@leanneadams2549 ayo cool off, don’t watch shit literally documenting the lifestyles of addicts if you’re gonna shit on them for being an addict. at least try to understand the disease
@Tina Tijerina .. pretty ignorant. of course it’s selfish but you have to understand how much disease takes away peoples’ power to control their lives. some more than others, but that’s what it does to everyone. she obviously cares deeply for her children but it’s a such a sickness
@@leanneadams2549 she definitely doesn’t think she’s a good mom. she has a disease & needs help. you obviously wouldn’t ever understand because your not an addict so don’t go calling anything disgusting. your a grown woman.
This was another great interview. Raw & real. My prayers go out to you , to help heal your pain so you can move forward and get treatment
There has to be way more to her story that she didn't share. Being 40 and having a 24 year old; being married for 22 years. A lot of masking major issues IMO. Bless her.
Of course, her marriage and kids were her whole life/identity and it was stripped away, people often kill themselves in similar situations, it's not easy.
absolutely, but this is HER turn to share her story. she’s put on the spot to air out her trauma to thousands of people, she’s already so incredibly vulnerable and gets to decide WHAT she shares. she’s already so so brave for sharing ANYTHING at all.
As a person who’s been on methadone for 23 yrs, who’s husband just overdosed and had a fetynal habit on top of the methadone… this shit is scary.
Sorry for you loss Hon 💜 This Fentanyl stuff is so damned scary.
So sorry for your loss @BooBooSchmitt!! Sending you love and strength 🙏🏽🫶🏽
@@494ava thank you! Means the world! ❤️
Congrats on your recovery and so sorry for your loss 🤍
@@phoebeb.332 thank you, I really appreciate that. It’s been so hard but appreciate the ❤️
Just because you're honest with your kids doesn't mean that it makes things better. I do applaud you for having the courage to tell them but at the end of the day you're passing on trauma that they didn't ask for. I hope you can turn this around for them if not for yourself. Best of luck.
It's almost like ovetsharing an addiction with the ones who love you so much appears to be an attempt to gain addiction acceptance imo.
I have trauma and kids and I always wish I could tell everyone to work on their trauma before they have kids
I immediately thought this too - “I want to honor and respect my kids by being honest with them”. It doesn’t ease their distress or suffering in any way to know more information. Giving them too much information that they have no control over surely only increases their distress
@@ingrowntownail1882 well aren’t we accept everything now? It seems the way society has/is become.
She needs to get honest with herself. All she does is make excuses...
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Here in chicago and im drunk asl. Blessings to yall
Watching this at 3:14am from Cali!
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Woe to the children and loved ones of an addict.
all the time you spend avoiding pain is far worse than just feeling it & releasing it.
So true!!
Amanda is so intelligent and has so much insight and yet, this drug is so powerful, she feels like she can't get out. Great interview. I hope Amanda finds her way out of this destructive cycle.
It’s crazy how she is still coherent and functional. Ppl who do hardcore drugs very often become balloon heads
I sure do love my momma, she’s amazing. Thank You for your kind words.
@@amayaclarke I'm so glad she has you in her life. It takes an amazing daughter to weather such a storm. Much love to you sweetie.
One of the more annoying videos on here. She seems very proud of her addiction. Too bad for those who actually care. It must be super irritating for her kids. She needs to grow up.
This video triggered me. I turned into a meth addict at the age of 41 and she reminds me of myself. I’ve been clean for 3 years though. And I’m clean because I don’t want to hurt my daughters (21 & 16) AGAIN. It’s so weird that hearing her story makes me want to go down that road again. Geesh. What a strange feeling. I obviously need therapy. 🤦🏼♀️ i have faith in her though. She’s going to get clean. Please keep us updated on her.
I think just hearing about it can trigger us!! I hope you fought threw ! But if not you know what it takes and what it’s like to be clean !!! Your a much better mother than this thing !! I pray your doing well!!!
Please get the help you need to stay on the path you’re on for yourself and your children! Blessings 💗
My heart hurts so bad for her, as a 24 year old woman who’s been an opiate addict for almost 12 years… for her to have went half of her life without being addicted to opiates… it’s sad. I think she sought out to see what took her brother from her, and got hooked on the feeling (or lack thereof) for all of you talking shit about her being honest with her children, as a child with addict parents I wish they would’ve been honest with me, regardless. I pray she finds the strength to walk away from this, find the help she needs and to mend her relationship with her daughters and family. ❤❤
Losing your identity as a mother and wife can lead you to feeling lost and empty. It appears that she needs to work on her identity as a person so that she can find her purpose.
@Carla Burgos I AGREE 1000% I had my children very young & when my youngest left for College I was lost... 😔 Similar to post partum depression I think?
Fentanyl doesn’t care how old you are and neither does your drug dealer
Good morning SWU Family!! It’s 6:07am in Florida and we’re enjoying another great video from Mark!! Blessings to All!! Pray for the addicted and those that love them ❤
👋🤓 Good Morning from Brooklyn NY.
It’s 7:19 am in Miami Fl
Good morning from Houston,Texas. 6:30 am
Watching from Edmonton, Alberta. Canada. 👍🇨🇦😊 It's 5:30 am here.
Wow great morning from Los Angeles were everyone is so peachy.
I feel like she can be a bodybuilder or into fitness, she is built well. My bestfriend was completely addicted to fent and opiates he is now completely into fitness and health. Replaced one addiction with another. The difference is it's a much healthier addiction
Yes!!!! This is exactly what I was going to say. If she can redirect her energy into something positive she has the perfect physique to get into fitness or even be a trainer.
Totally agree! I have been training for years and my triceps don't compare! If she trained for just a year she would have incredible athletic ability and exercise is a healthier addiction than fentanyl.
Fight to learn what the disconnect is! You have more power within you to create change, walk towards healing ❤️🩹 Amanda!
Addiction is such a tricky animal. Best of luck. Thank you Mark and Guest
The level of self awareness she has will either be what saves her or her downfall. I pray she can get out of this. She could possibly help people see this addiction in a different more introspective way. But like she said she can’t always rely on a drug as her exit plan or safety net.
Right especially at 3 years into her addiction. At 3 years at mine I loved getting high and didn't think anything I was doing was wrong. It took 6 years total for me to get sober. At 32 I'm sober and caught 3 felonies within those 6 years it ruined me but I will not let it hinder me in life I'll keep living and sober life fine
Trump spoke on it numerous times taking it serious but you guys didn’t take him aerious
@@visualreaction9738 chill out Bradley
@@visualreaction9738 again this is not a political issue, trump obviously made the problem worse and not helped it. @SmarterThanTheApp ... Sorry to inform you that this issue is not politically based, China, Japan, India and Pakistan are some of the few countries shipping directly to both American dealers and Canadian dealers whom are cutting into this in their own home based labs now, do you expect America to stop all shipments from these countries coming in? With both fentanyl coming in across both the Mexican and Canadian borders now is a wall going to be successfully built on the Canadian side as well unlike trump's failed promise on building the wall at the Mexico border completely during his term in office and now many of you are blaming Biden for trump's failed promise that he said was completed before he left office in which as everyone sees it was never completed at all. Hell parts of it could not even stand up to winds which was proven on video by shady construction. But is America going to put up borders on both the Mexican and Canadian borders now? Of course not. how about the narcotic called "Pyro" spreading through the UK now and starting to spread into other EU coming countries? Much deadlier than fentanyl, is America going to stop all packages coming in from Europe as well. Think before you make another political comment that is not caused by democrats alone. How about you study the 2016 CDC guidelines that Melania trump suggested and Donald placed into law that stopped many doctors from issuing opioids only to have dealers see the opportunity to make money unfortunately while taking lives in the process to fill the gap to those suddenly cut off their own scripts
@@erickiyoshiphillips2323 I admire your dedication to being sober bc it’s not at all easy! Keep kicking Addiction’s Ass,bc you got a team out here who will help you! Love blessings and strength my friend! You got this!💪🏼🫶🏽
the sad thing is if she OD's and dies then someone else who loves her will feel that debilitating pain that she feels. Addiction breeds narcissim! .
Wow, what a horrible mother. Shame on you. Your kids deserve better.
Explain to the audience how someone can overdose 10x and still….Incredible way to ask a question to help her see😢
Being "New" in addiction doesn't mean you can easily stop. That's when I was at my worst. That fire exploded inside me and the beginning is when it burned the brightest.
Hearing her entire story has really broke my heart. I am a active addict myself now but off only my own scripts in which is enough for me never to turn to the streets ever and prior to this, I was married to another addict before I realized what it was truly like being addict and I had no clue how wrong it was, she had dragged us both down totally in every way imaginable prior to her prison sentence and death. I totally have been in both Amanda shoes and her boyfriends shoes alike now of days and understand how this impacted both of their lives. Amanda I feel is a amazing person though and I do not feel like she is bad in anyway. I hope now that she only works on her recovery, herself and her children without turning back to her old ways.
Amanda, check out Gabor Mate. Also, check out iboga centers for healing from the addiction. Iboga is plant medicine of the Bwiti people. At a basic level it's used as a stimulant for hunting. But it's a powerful plant ally, a Spirit of reconnecting. Addiction is disconnection. I'm 41. We are young. We have a whole life to live ahead of us. You got this. The wounded healer archetype is strong in you. Be brave.
She doesn't seem as bad off as some. I pray she gets help before it's to late
I have a bad feeling she's not going to look this good in 2 months if she doesn't change.
I’m hysterical. Amanda describes her brother exactly how mine is/was. We were so close. A piece of me has died, with him. I know exactly how she feels. To the T.
What a lovely woman. I don’t have addiction in my family, but the last few years I often thank God that opioids are not easily available to me, because I get why people take them.
She said alot of words without saying much. I still have no idea exactly what major trauma drove an upper middle-class suburban 37-year old to hang out in the hood, looking for heroin which she knew nothing about. My ADD kicked in, so maybe I missed the details.
Her divorce, her brother died of overdose and they were close and she has a family history of addiction, 3 triggers there she outlined. I’m her age, I went through divorce recently, 2 kids and my dad died also recently. I’m isolated from my family because of my abusive ex husband. I could turn to drugs, but I won’t. I have had many childhood trauma, sexual abuse. I don’t do drugs, drink. I try to focus on coping mechanisms that will help me. I feel like my one addiction is sex addiction, but it’s not like I sleep around, I get addicted to a sex partner and I fear they will leave me. I have BPD
I agree . She said a whole lotta nothing. I’m surprised Mark let her ramble on so long.
@@wilson8979I'm a man in a very similar situation. I wish you all the love and happiness that life can bring and I hope you have a beautiful day sweetheart.
@@wilson8979 I hear you but I think she blew smoke so she could leave out major details. Usually opiate addiction stems from childhood trauma or Rx drugs. If family history had such a big effect, it wouldn't lay dormant for 37 whole years. Divorce and death of a sibling happens to ppl everyday and most don't jump on heroin. Her story just seemed incomplete.
@@wilson8979 thank you for your honesty .. my heart is full of good energy for you love , I love you I hope you can love yourself my darling xoxo
From personal experience, an honest rehab that provides full mental health care (providing access to a psychiatrist) along with MAT is your best chance. Also, go home. You think you're saving your family by staying away, but that's just the addiction speaking to you.
I hope you find the will. It takes so much. But you can do it, I truly believe you can.
Anyone can get clean. Staying clean is what's hard. It's easier to escape reality than to deal with it
MAT is horrible too lol
Please seek out an NA meeting while you are in L.A. I think things might become clearer in your mind and you will meet amazing people. Good Luck and God Bless you.
I am sorry bc this is going to be an unpopular opinion...the only thing that I think of her is SELFISH!! She has kids that she is responsible for and who love and need her! We all have had some major trauma in our lives and our first thought in our late 30's is NOT to actively seek out heroin!! Esp after she knows the pain of losing her brother to an OD!! She has even admitted to OD'ing at least 10x. She doesnt think about her kids at all. Not before actively seeking out the drug and not now! She is not a mother in my eyes, she is just a selfish woman! If she has no coming skills at 37...go to therapy and learn them!!
Also to add, as someone who just battled a very aggressive firm of cancer that will likely come back some day, it really irks me that she said it is a disease!! Yes I know that ince your brain is hard wired differently due to drug usage, it is classed as a disease. BUT she knew that going in when she actively sought out this 'disease'. She saw it first hand with her brother and unless she lives under a rock and/or is braindead, she knew all about the opioid crisis all around her at the age of 37!!!
She wants to manipulate and control her “treatment” yet she isn’t in control of anything
I like her. She remind me of myself A LOT. I too lost my little brother to this too. In September. Ive been clean 8YRS thank God. Wish he could’ve got to this point 😔 🙏♥️
Take care of yourself Amanda. Thank you for sharing your story.
I think out of all the people I have seen on this show,this lady has a chance of getting sober and having a real purpose in life
She is so intelligent and has so much to look forward to. She needs someone come along side her and help her.
This reminds me so much of my mother. 🥺 this is heartbreaking I hope and pray she finds the light she needs. 19:00
You deserve so much more! My baby sister passed away from opiate overdose in my house using my stash. I had already lost both parents (dad to overdose also) and I've lost many friends from opiates as well. It was finally Ayahuasca that set me free from the source of the pain, which had led me to self medicate and the 12+ years of opiate dependency. I have been clean close to 2 yrs and have even found old pieces of dope in my home since then. I didn't consider using it. Aya set me free... no programs, no rehabs, no maintenance required. I can't begin to express how much happier and fulfilled I am as a person now. I'd never change what I went through, because all my experiences led me to be the person I am...and I like me. 😊 Plus, now I can empathize with others and hopefully inspire them or at the very least, show them there's hope. Sending love and strength to everyone who struggles. 🤍💪
I know this is older, but as I’m just now seeing it. I am very close to this woman (I don’t wish to disclose how) and would just like to clarify that almost 98% of every word was a lie. I wish she could be honest, and then maybe we could finally see some change.
In November of 2022 my sibling was murdered by police during a psychosis episode - It is the hardest thing I've ever done to not go out and drink and take every drug under the sun. I'll be 5 years clean and sober in March I can't fuck this up now. This ladys story is WAY too fucking close to home for me. Its like looking in a mirror in so many ways it terrifies me to the core.
I am so sincerely sorry for your loss. And so glad to hear that you're still holding on to your sobriety. Big hugs and much love to you, and your brother 🖤🤍✨️
Whoever helped you get sober, or whatever higher power - lead hard on that or them now. My SIL got clean after 30 years and then her daughter died suddenly (from a virus). Her sobriety family lifted her up and miraculously she is still sober.
I love you. Keep up the sobering on. From a stranger. Take care!
No offense but this woman loves the sound of her own voice....and she's just trying to garner sympathy. She loves the sound of her own voice. 🤷
The whole door knocking story....🤔🤔🤔
I don't know
It's hard for a person to remain in a relationship with an addict. The addiction is the most important thing, it comes before everyone and anything else. It's at the center, the core of their lives, and no matter how much they think and say, and cry about how much they care about other things, or family, or children, it's not true. When it comes to their words, they will say anything that allows them to continue in the addiction.
Addiction is the most demanding master of a person.
Wishing you all the best Lovely, I am so sorry for everything you have gone through 💔 You are an amazing strong person and I'm sure your children know this and will be there for you when you have the strength to start your road to recovery. I'm praying for you beautiful, you can do this 🙏 ❤️
Thank You for your kind words. We love our mom so much.
@AmayaClarke That was so awesome to read ❤ She has great taste in names, yours is a really pretty name 😊
I appreciate her willingness to share her story, her vulnerability and honesty with us. I really do hope she gets help. She’s right, life doesn’t have to be so hard. That said, she is in control of that herself right now. Been there, and I recall turning help away, too. So I’m not judging, just being factual.
I identify with this woman 100%. Thank you.
Amanda if you see this it’s not to late I’m sorry for your loss but you have so much to live for you have a loving family and kids that love you and I’m sure your brother would not want you living this lifestyle your kids need they mom don’t give up
From someone who has worked with reoccurring addicts, I know it's hard to watch and a few do recover. Unfortunately, most have a sickness that can't be cured or fixed, you have to let them go, cut them off, and let them do to themselves what they want, until they fix themselves or otherwise.
She's not afraid of dying, she's afraid to live. Actively seeking coping mechanisms to remain numb seems like you are aware of the triggers but afraid to face it.
1.) You have to hate it just a little more than you love it
2.) You have to be sick of your own bullshit
When those 2 things happen you can begin to LIVE again. Only then can you climb out of that dark hole of despair and hopelessness. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Find it very hard to believe at 37 she thought of going after heroin. Not booze, or weed, or some pills. She seems like she is acting.
Mark says they all lie.
Attention seeking.
She is intelligent AF regarding the nuances and truthes of her addiction. If she can get right, she could help a shit ton of folks.
Got to the verrrrrry end with not a tear shed… and then her last three sentences made me bawl ✌🏼
Fentanyl trafficking should be a capital offense.
She has a good friend calling her out and telling her the truth and not enabling her.
but simultaneously profiting from her addiction...
Great to be able to analyze the problem and reasons for it, but without the desire to get well and stay sober, the analysis is of little use. Sometimes we feel guilt because we are guilty... It can be our call to change.
no sympathy for someone who actively looked to use heroin as a 37-year-old mother....after her brother died of an opioid overdose!!?? . and then she had to TRY to get it, she put effort into finding heroin as a sober person??? ... that is so pathetic. i love this channel and all the guests..this is the single one that has made my skin crawl
I think she answered her own question, when she asked if the interviewer had any ideas or advice...previously she said that there was a "disconnect." I sense that her life has not gone the way she wanted it to, and that more importantly she doesn't know what or how to get to that place of knowing what she wants. So she consciously disconnected from that confusion. The drugs are her way of coping with the unknown, that in her, is equivalent to the pain.
Almost all addicts use to cope with pain. They don't want to feel.
Fentanyl ain't no joke. I remember when the Dr gave it to me when I was having a heart attack and I started hallucinating before I went out and woke up to being rolled back to my room. I hear about so many people passing away from it and it breaks my heart. I really hope she gets better and finds a healthy alternate to dealing with the pain. Definitely praying for her and anyone else dealing with any kind of addiction
Synthetic fentanyl is different than what the hospital uses. You're thoughtful and have a lot to offer. Please kick this thing.
Same they gave it to me for aorta stenting, i was repeating the Dr's words & he said go ahead and give her more. Lol
You are correct. They gave it to me during a surgery. I had horrible hallucinations. The same thing happened when they gave been pain pills that were opioids.i decided to use extra strength Tylenol and lots of bed rest. Later I got into physical therapy and I learned stretching techniques that help .. the physical therapist also used therapeutic message. The pain pills I will never use and I have had multiple surgeries
@@carolmcdade4081 all fentynol is synthetic, fentynol is fentynol, street fentynol maybe cut with other drugs, but the fentynol itself is not different, there is such thing as iso-fentynol, but that is a different drug. It's an analog of fentynol.
Hallucinating off opiodes ??? 🤔 Never experienced or heard of that before.
She is very intelligent and self aware. I hope she can escape this
Girl you got kids. Get your shit together. Think about them. Get sober from them.
Your addiction is damaging them. Your addiction is lying to you. You deserve to be free. Please seek help.
Starting off rough. “Almost 100% of the time I’m honest with my kids”. So maybe 99% of the time honest? 1% of the time I’m unfaithful to my partner. Am I unfaithful to my wife since 99% of the time I’m faithful? I think I would be 100% unfaithful.
Just as with any addiction, there are a variety of resources and support levers available if you seek them out. There is no one-size-fits-all and everyone’s recovery journey looks different, but ultimately, recovery is a choice. And it ultimately has to become the choice that outweighs the substance abuse. If and when Amanda is ready, there will be room for recovery and growth and…grief. She will have to grieve her brother and it will be unbelievably hard…but she can choose to hold his memory in her everyday life, in every action she takes, rather than holding onto him through her addiction. I hope and pray she gets the help she needs and knows that her brother lives within her…always.
her brother died because of drugs...so she decided to consciencely (!) ruin her and her kid's lives by starting drugs....sooo stupid
It's great to give these folks a platform. Amazing how most of the comments are positive. It's nothing to applaud. Very hard to even understand anything but a lot of justification. And indulgence. Gets kind of boring!
There didn't seem to be any indication that Amanda wants to be sober. She sought the drugs and the addictions. She has rejected her children and even the caring boyfriend. She is happy to sleep in a pile of dirt. The worst is the pain that she is putting her daughters through. This is a very sad episode because Amanda has lost so much.
I agree that the opioid addiction is a problem BUT the down side is -it's nearly impossible to get a script when needed. There is not a one side fits all solution!
I listened to that whole thing and have no idea what she does for work, what she likes to do, where she's from. It's just all about 'drugs, drugs, drugs' in that annoying junkie voice. She seems like one of those women whose whole identity was based on the man she was with, maybe that is part of the problem.
This is my favorite interview. She is so smart and like everyone else has said, so self aware. I pray She can get out of this rut she's in and be healthy for herself and her daughters. You can tell what a great mom she is
@tinatijerina6353 apparently you do not understand addiction completely like many others only assume they do.
I’d love to hear more about her life growing up with her younger brother.
Seems like good liar
My experience was, addicted to opiates and alcohol for almost 20 years. I had been in and out of psyche wards, the rooms of AA and NA and none of it worked. It was only when I got down on my knees and surrendered my life to Christ was I able to be lifted out of darkness.
Life is not perfect, but I am grateful for the life I have.
She seems so intelligent and aware of everything I can only hope for the best of her opioids are terrible
I’m an avid fan of yours and this one just put me in a depressed mode I had to leave it. Now I know why you use Better Health. Too bad my insurance doesn’t cover this one. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy your channel. Thank you, Mark.
My daughter's older sister just died from fentanyl OD.. shit is so deadly. So sad.. just a matter of when. Not if.
Surrender Dorothy!! You are not alone. One tiny step at a time.❤️✌🏻🙏
So so sad, she came to LA to go to treatment and now she’s on Fentanyl for 6 weeks.
@9:18 That was YOUR choice to ruin your life by using drugs.
She's actively trying to be an addict. She's seriously searching this out to be a sad addict case.
She has a great family, great kids and she's just throwing it away by choice.
Who else thinks the divorce stems from her addiction and loss of custody. Something doesn’t make sense.
I am at the gym 5 days a week and I still don't have arms like hers. Maybe I should try fentanyl.
No don't do it ! Not once I'm telling you!
Try wildnil, it's even better.
Its from labor working or yard work. I used to have arms like that. My brothers are muscular too.
Lol
Not funny.
I feel so bad for those gripped by opioids. It sounds like a living hell.
I am about to graduate with my master of social work and I am interning at a recovery facility conducting therapy with both residential and outpatient clients. I would caution against focusing too strongly on the genetic component of addiction. There are many factors that influence addiction, and genes are potentially one of them, but bio-social-psychological factors are arguably just as, if not more important. Scientists have not yet been able to isolate specific genes connected to addiction, and although addiction often tends to run in families, the field consensus is that genetics may account for 40-60 percent of likelihood for a person's risk of addiction. And, keep in mind all of the individuals who have suffered from addiction without having long term studies performed on them. So, yes, pay attention to family history, but recognize there is personal accountability and other environmental factors that significantly matter, also.
"When your day is long
And the night, the night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough
Of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go
'Cause everybody cries
Everybody hurts sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go (hold on)
If you think you've had too much
Of this life, well hang on
'Cause everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts
Don't throw your hand, oh no
Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone
No, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life
The days and nights are long
When you think you've had too much
Of this life to hang on
Well, everybody hurts sometimes
Everybody cries
Everybody hurts, sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts"
~R.E.M
You’re not afraid to die but u are afraid of your kids becoming u? If u die, what do u think that would do to them? Look what happened to you after loosing your brother. Pain has to go somewhere. Make the choice, find real help. I know u can. Please
I wonder if she agreed to do this interview in hopes that her family would see it, and thus they would find out about the fib.
An AHA moment is when you learn to cope. Most people never learn how to.
So she begged her brother to get off of it and decided to seek it out and put her kids in the same position? Interesting.
She looks physically strong 💪😋🤩
She's swole.
@@jameskeller8480 💪🤩
You ever wonder that if (or when) the population starts tumbling - will governments and corporations finally realise that people need to be brought up & looked after a lot better than they are now?
And will that window of opportunity even stay open long enough to see through let alone **cough** _capitalise_ on?
You can be sure that if the US government didn't want fentanyl, or heroin to end up on the streets of America, it wouldn't be here. The money that they make off of arrests and fines and jails and probation is beyond any amount, I can even fathom. Entire populations are kept suppressed by these drugs and that is by design. We stopped people from flying on planes for how many months when Covid hit? We could just as easily stop the traveling ,so to speak, of fentanyl from China into Mexico and over the US border.
The government the ones letting the shit flood the street. Im Sure the dirty Cia got their hands in smuggling it in
They realized it long ago, in my opinion. They decided to help themselves and those in their direct social and financial circles, and are leaving the rest to fend for themselves. They could not care any less about the opiate crisis, or any other crisis for that matter, as long as they can continue to thrive.
Yeah cuz we gotta blame the government for being a shittty parent.
So your not honest with your family. Sounds like she's makin excuses to not quit.
She has a lot of work to do. Hopefully, she sees it all out, before too late. 🙏