It’s 3pm California time. My son is about to pitch for his high school baseball team. I’m in the parking lot watching warm ups. Ordinarily I’d be chugging a half pint of vodka. For the first time in all his high school games, I’m sitting here sober. Drove by so many liquor stores on my way here. Tempted me all the way. Must have drove by 10 liquor stores. Instead I threw on this video and I made it here sober. 4th day sober. Thanks bro. Your videos are really helping me jump start this journey. See you next video bro.
That’s amazing brother you’re doing the right thing and also think how much that will mean to your son one day if you stay off the booze. 4 days is epic, keep pushing forward brother. Don’t give in to that little voice, keep me updated man 🙏🙏
I was drinking an entire fifth every single night dude for years. I can count on 1 hand the amount of sober days i had in the last 10 years and then this past november a lightbulb went on and the switch flipped. Today is 5 months for me. Keep doing your thing with the videos. You are definitely helping people.
That is incredible man, congratulations. I understand how hard that is and how huge that is, so again congrats. That’s the mission brother, I want to spread awareness about this subject and help as many as I can. I appreciate the comment and keep going on the path you’re on 🙏✊🏻
@@Slayer-7373 I can't tell everyone enough how much better my life has gotten. I am actually present with my family and I remember the good times we have. No more brain fog or hangovers. Alcoholism puts life on hard mode. When you are ready people, you'll know. And it will be the best choice you'll ever make. Slayer, thanks to creators like you and LD, I relate and tune in and feel like in part of something. Thank you. You've helped save my life.
"Time capsule" is such a great metaphor for alcohol and other drugs. I pretty much lost a decade to addiction, and after getting clean I watched a lot of my friends being stuck in the same vicious cycle, unable to move forward. I had to distance myself from a lot of them (my ex included) and I can only hope they're doing better now. I can totally relate to the desperation: I call it ABS or Anything But Sober (english is not my first language, but I think this is a pretty good euphemism). I huffed, drank cough syrup etc. Makes me shudder now, but thank God it's a thing in the past. As you get more time of sobriety under your belt, the desperation will be left farther behind until it's a distant memory. A disturbing one, but far away.
Yes I love that metaphor, when I finally woke up out of my alcoholism and tried to get sober I realized just how far behind I was, I noticed everyone left me behind for their own sake and you can’t blame them, real sad when you look around and you’re all alone. Life and people have moved forward and you’re still exactly where you were. Congratulations on putting that behind you, you’re extremely strong for that. It does get better over time, thanks so much for the comment 🙏🙏
Fellow addict here, subscribed. Keep up the good fight brother, I still struggle and videos like this inspire me. Great job on sobriety, it’s the hardest thing a person can do, to reprogram your own addicted brain. Stay strong, dude.
It is one day at a time, as a mother , I just want to say how happy to see you excited to be sober , I wish this for so many young men , thank you for your channel , I’m sure it will help someone your helping me have hope , thank you for your channel ,
Thank you, I really appreciate that. It really is one day at a time, I say one minute at a time if you need it to be. Alcohol has taken so much from me, a lot of my family are addicts and I’ve seen what it’s taken from them as well. Being sober is absolutely the best route to go, again thank you 🙏
Thank you brother, this is exactly why I make videos, to help others. I’m really glad they are helping, makes me feel warm inside, thanks so much for the comment brother 🙏
You are talking bro love the honest truth, The thing that stuck out to me in this video was when you were talking about the morning struggles and knowing you had to get alcohol back in my system to take away the shakes the pounding heart and the clouded mind. And yes I would do the same thing My first shot or two I would have to throw it back up but after that I could hold it down and I felt "normal" again which is so not normal. I am so happy that you have broken away from that so have I and hopefully a lot of your subscribers and viewers are or can get past that because there is such a better life. Alcohol's just a temporary feeling and it's steals everything from you. Love it bro keep it coming! 🎯💯
✊🏻 my homeboy Luke, thanks man. Also yes I think all of us major alcoholics got to that point of the morning struggles, it’s no way me, you or anyone else should be living. We are better than that. Also I hope so too man I really do, I want to try and help as many as I possibly can. It’s so cool hearing feedback from you and others. Much love brother thanks for the comment 🙏💯
What you said about alcohol being like a time capsule… that is incredibly true. For years I was stuck and angry everyone in my life left and was thriving. Glad I finally quit. 129 days sober. Thanks for sharing and congrats on your sobriety. It’s such a beautiful thing. ❤️
Could I ask you what finally made you throw in the towel my friend? Were you sick and tired of being sick and tired?? I’m glad you’ve made that decision to quit, 129 days Is incredible if nobody else has said it. That’s beautiful as well!! Please keep me updated! 🙏🏻🖤 best of luck.
@@Slayer-7373 over the years I have always tried to quit but failed. I think this time around I was actually seriously 100% sober curious and I had actual solid reasons to quit and that created the drive to wake up and go to bed sober. Also videos like yours just talking about the subject are super helpful cause I would never go to AA. Always thought about it but never had the courage. I have really bad social anxiety so it’s nice to be in this online space.
@@kawaiicatprince I believe in you 🖤🙏🏻, also absolutely. That’s why I make these videos, I get comments all the time saying people don’t like AA or have the money for some big program, but these online videos do even more for them. That makes me smile, that makes me happy. I just want to get this and I want all of y’all to get it with me. We are all on a journey. Much love my friend 🙏🏻
So glad I found your channel. I'm in my first year of sobriety. I need these videos. Thank you! I love waking up not the coming to accompanied with anxiety. I thought I was always having a heart attack also.
Wow Slayer ! Sounds horrible… You & LD really do have a lot in common. Despite your age differences.. so glad that you are doing better now. ❤❤keep it up buddy !!1
Feel ya 💯. I was the same way! Barely remember my 30s. Tried to kill myself a couple times over that shit. Last two years gotten some real help and have been sober more times than drunk but still dealing with it. 52 days sober today and going to give it my all to never touch that shit again. I can’t, I don’t know if I have a next time left. You’re inspiring and keep it up 🫂🫂
Us alcoholics can always relate, our stories are never too far apart it seems. 52 days is fkin incredible man ✊🏻💯!!, congrats. Keep pushing forward and do whatever you’ve been doing for these last 52 days because it’s working! Good luck on your Journey brother!
Thank you brother I really appreciate that. Do you mind me asking is that you in your shorts? I like to check out my subscribers videos. I’m not sure if that’s you or maybe your son? But if that is you wow, you’re so young. It hurt my heart a bit because I was rather young when drugs and alcohol started to influence and take over my life. Again not sure if that was you or not but either way prayers go out to you man. It’s one day at a time, remember that. Focus on what you can do today. Tomorrow will come when it comes. Much love and good luck, please keep me updated!! 🙏🏻
Keep strong man, if you were 'that bad' and have been sober for months now you should be past the 'hard part'. No one can live that way. I'm a year and a half sober and absolutely thriving. I only ever drank on weekends but I was a complete alcoholic all weekend, then a hungover mess for 2 days and would be normal about Wednesday and start the whole cycle 5pm Friday.
Yo Slayer are you improvising these? Your speaking is excellent. Well structured, articulate and the way you describe your experiences is so coherent and relatable. The time capsule analogy is so true. Those years are GONE. Groundhog Day all over again until you learn to transcend the cycle. Or not 💀 Blackouts are so scary. Especially when you get to the point that you cant remember entire evenings or days. I once traveled from NorCal to NM on a roadtrip where I was washing Atavan down with liquor the entire time. It was 4 days because we stopped over in LA for 2. I remember none of it except departing NorCal and then arriving in Santa Fe (I was not driving thankfully). Much respect to you, it is so hard to be vulnerable like this. Thank you for sharing and helping.
Usually they are off the top of my dome brother, I have notes once and a while. That’s really awesome of you to say, comments like these really make my day. Thank you!!!
Yes the world 100% promotes alcohol, glamorizes and more! It’s insane. That’s why I makes these videos to show people the true nature of it. Thanks so much for the comment 🙏🙏
I have struggled with addiction with alcohol and opiates for many years. I dont really drink very often anymore...the hangovers are so bad (especially the older you get). When I got cut off from the opiates that my doctor prescribed I went into horrible withdrawals. At that time I was researching like crazy to see what, if anything would help. Thats when I discovered kratom. And I have to admit, it worked extremely well. But that was about 8 years ago and now I take kratom every singlr day and I hate it! I have tried tapering down, but being ab addict I was never any good at that. I pray to God that I can get over this. The only thing that comforts me is the fact that kratom is a much better alternative than being on pills. I know deep down its still not good, but I find myself trying to justify this in my mind. Maybe some day I will be able to stop, but man I just dont know at this point
I have friends who are in the same exact position as you man, I remember when kratom first came to the scene. Everyone was saying it cured their opiate addiction, but what many don’t know is kratom is an opiate itself and highly addictive. So even tho kratom is less harmful then let’s say herion or fentanyl, it’s still damaging over time. Sorry you are going through this brother, try looking up some different ways to get through the kratom withdrawal. I tried tapering myself with alcohol and it never worked UNLESS I had someone giving me the alcohol. You could try giving a close friend or loved one your kratom and tell them to taper you off. It’s a tricky situation man, addiction sucks. I wish you luck brother! Keep me updated please 🙏
You’re 100% right Zeus it’s an awful feeling. It doesn’t feel like a normal drunk either, it’s like you’re drunk but feel like garbage. Thanks for the comment brother. 🙏
Went on a binge last couple days…… the hangxiety and shame is awful….. I don’t want to die young bcuz of this stupid poison…. I want to drink again tonight….. pray for me
if somebody would have pushed you to leave alcohol during your deepest alcohol time what could somebody do or say to a full blown alcholic to get them to wake up. its a struggle to deal with a full blown addict or alcoholic you feel hopeless trying to help them
Sadly if you want the truth there isn’t much you can say, all you can do is try to point them in the right direction. It is all up to the addict, it really is a choice and till the addict is ready to put the substance down, nothing will change. I wish you luck my friend, keep me updated!
It’s 3pm California time. My son is about to pitch for his high school baseball team. I’m in the parking lot watching warm ups. Ordinarily I’d be chugging a half pint of vodka. For the first time in all his high school games, I’m sitting here sober. Drove by so many liquor stores on my way here. Tempted me all the way. Must have drove by 10 liquor stores. Instead I threw on this video and I made it here sober. 4th day sober. Thanks bro. Your videos are really helping me jump start this journey. See you next video bro.
That’s amazing brother you’re doing the right thing and also think how much that will mean to your son one day if you stay off the booze. 4 days is epic, keep pushing forward brother. Don’t give in to that little voice, keep me updated man 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373 first game I didn’t have to piss every other inning 😆
@@OscarMartinez-rw1bc that alone is a blessing brother 😂, I’m proud of you tho man good job. ✊🏻🙏
4 days is a huge accomplishment! Keep it up bro you got this! Your son will be so grateful.
Oscar my friend how are you doing?? Everything going okay?
I apologize for the poor lighting in this one guys!!
Maybe have an interior light on next time. Love your videos though. I used to black out too, scary stuff.
@@destroyrebuild good idea brother, also black outs yes they are terrifying. Thank you for the comment 🙏💯
Bro don’t apologize for anything. You’re giving us great content for free. We are appreciative.
@@caesar349 thank you brother 🙏
I was drinking an entire fifth every single night dude for years. I can count on 1 hand the amount of sober days i had in the last 10 years and then this past november a lightbulb went on and the switch flipped. Today is 5 months for me. Keep doing your thing with the videos. You are definitely helping people.
That is incredible man, congratulations. I understand how hard that is and how huge that is, so again congrats. That’s the mission brother, I want to spread awareness about this subject and help as many as I can. I appreciate the comment and keep going on the path you’re on 🙏✊🏻
Hardcore af
@@sumshine928 November 11th will be one year for me! Staying the course slowly but surely making progress everyday!
@@richardking2489 keep up the amazing work man!!! 👏💯🙌
@@Slayer-7373 I can't tell everyone enough how much better my life has gotten. I am actually present with my family and I remember the good times we have. No more brain fog or hangovers. Alcoholism puts life on hard mode. When you are ready people, you'll know. And it will be the best choice you'll ever make. Slayer, thanks to creators like you and LD, I relate and tune in and feel like in part of something. Thank you. You've helped save my life.
"Time capsule" is such a great metaphor for alcohol and other drugs. I pretty much lost a decade to addiction, and after getting clean I watched a lot of my friends being stuck in the same vicious cycle, unable to move forward. I had to distance myself from a lot of them (my ex included) and I can only hope they're doing better now.
I can totally relate to the desperation: I call it ABS or Anything But Sober (english is not my first language, but I think this is a pretty good euphemism). I huffed, drank cough syrup etc. Makes me shudder now, but thank God it's a thing in the past.
As you get more time of sobriety under your belt, the desperation will be left farther behind until it's a distant memory. A disturbing one, but far away.
Yes I love that metaphor, when I finally woke up out of my alcoholism and tried to get sober I realized just how far behind I was, I noticed everyone left me behind for their own sake and you can’t blame them, real sad when you look around and you’re all alone. Life and people have moved forward and you’re still exactly where you were. Congratulations on putting that behind you, you’re extremely strong for that. It does get better over time, thanks so much for the comment 🙏🙏
Slayer I think this was your best video yet, I felt this one to the core. Thanks for being outspoken.
Thank you Jeff, I appreciate that more than you know.
Fellow addict here, subscribed. Keep up the good fight brother, I still struggle and videos like this inspire me. Great job on sobriety, it’s the hardest thing a person can do, to reprogram your own addicted brain. Stay strong, dude.
Much love my friend. 🙏
It is one day at a time, as a mother , I just want to say how happy to see you excited to be sober , I wish this for so many young men , thank you for your channel , I’m sure it will help someone your helping me have hope , thank you for your channel ,
Thank you, I really appreciate that. It really is one day at a time, I say one minute at a time if you need it to be. Alcohol has taken so much from me, a lot of my family are addicts and I’ve seen what it’s taken from them as well. Being sober is absolutely the best route to go, again thank you 🙏
appreciate your honesty and taking the time to share your experience
🙏 thank you my friend.
These videos can help people with many types of addictions. Thanks for spreading inspiration to live healthy
Thank you brother, this is exactly why I make videos, to help others. I’m really glad they are helping, makes me feel warm inside, thanks so much for the comment brother 🙏
drink to forget wakeup to regret-
Keep it up my man. Great job doing this.
I will brother, because of comments like this. Thank you so much man and thank you for the comment 🙏
Only found your channel this week. I appreciate you. Thank you for sharing. Wishing you all the best from the UK.
Awe this is awesome, thank you and I’m glad you found the channel. 🙏
You are talking bro love the honest truth, The thing that stuck out to me in this video was when you were talking about the morning struggles and knowing you had to get alcohol back in my system to take away the shakes the pounding heart and the clouded mind. And yes I would do the same thing My first shot or two I would have to throw it back up but after that I could hold it down and I felt "normal" again which is so not normal. I am so happy that you have broken away from that so have I and hopefully a lot of your subscribers and viewers are or can get past that because there is such a better life. Alcohol's just a temporary feeling and it's steals everything from you. Love it bro keep it coming! 🎯💯
✊🏻 my homeboy Luke, thanks man. Also yes I think all of us major alcoholics got to that point of the morning struggles, it’s no way me, you or anyone else should be living. We are better than that. Also I hope so too man I really do, I want to try and help as many as I possibly can. It’s so cool hearing feedback from you and others. Much love brother thanks for the comment 🙏💯
What you said about alcohol being like a time capsule… that is incredibly true. For years I was stuck and angry everyone in my life left and was thriving. Glad I finally quit. 129 days sober. Thanks for sharing and congrats on your sobriety. It’s such a beautiful thing. ❤️
Could I ask you what finally made you throw in the towel my friend? Were you sick and tired of being sick and tired?? I’m glad you’ve made that decision to quit, 129 days Is incredible if nobody else has said it. That’s beautiful as well!! Please keep me updated! 🙏🏻🖤 best of luck.
@@Slayer-7373 over the years I have always tried to quit but failed. I think this time around I was actually seriously 100% sober curious and I had actual solid reasons to quit and that created the drive to wake up and go to bed sober. Also videos like yours just talking about the subject are super helpful cause I would never go to AA. Always thought about it but never had the courage. I have really bad social anxiety so it’s nice to be in this online space.
@@kawaiicatprince I believe in you 🖤🙏🏻, also absolutely. That’s why I make these videos, I get comments all the time saying people don’t like AA or have the money for some big program, but these online videos do even more for them. That makes me smile, that makes me happy. I just want to get this and I want all of y’all to get it with me. We are all on a journey. Much love my friend 🙏🏻
So glad I found your channel. I'm in my first year of sobriety. I need these videos. Thank you! I love waking up not the coming to accompanied with anxiety. I thought I was always having a heart attack also.
I just saw this I’m so sorry!! Hope you are well, I’m glad you found this channel too!
Wow Slayer ! Sounds horrible… You & LD really do have a lot in common. Despite your age differences.. so glad that you are doing better now. ❤❤keep it up buddy !!1
Yes we have tons of similarities, it’s kind of strange haha. Much love thanks Jackie!!! God bless.
Feel ya 💯. I was the same way! Barely remember my 30s. Tried to kill myself a couple times over that shit. Last two years gotten some real help and have been sober more times than drunk but still dealing with it. 52 days sober today and going to give it my all to never touch that shit again. I can’t, I don’t know if I have a next time left. You’re inspiring and keep it up 🫂🫂
Us alcoholics can always relate, our stories are never too far apart it seems. 52 days is fkin incredible man ✊🏻💯!!, congrats. Keep pushing forward and do whatever you’ve been doing for these last 52 days because it’s working! Good luck on your Journey brother!
Slayer man I love your videos they really help me and your very relatable
Hey thanks brother I appreciate that man. I’m glad I’m helping that is awesome 🙏🙏
Keep it up! Let's inspire one another.
I will brother don’t worry and exactly, we need to help each other out. Thanks for the comment 🙏
This is the video that hit the hardest for me Slayer.
I hope it helped my friend. 🙏
much needed motovation. congrats on sobriety man it aint easy
Thank you brother I really appreciate that. Do you mind me asking is that you in your shorts? I like to check out my subscribers videos. I’m not sure if that’s you or maybe your son? But if that is you wow, you’re so young. It hurt my heart a bit because I was rather young when drugs and alcohol started to influence and take over my life. Again not sure if that was you or not but either way prayers go out to you man. It’s one day at a time, remember that. Focus on what you can do today. Tomorrow will come when it comes. Much love and good luck, please keep me updated!! 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373 lol that's my son, he's the reason I quit. he HATES alcohol and thinks it will kill me so I stopped. good thing he never saw me drink
Keep strong man, if you were 'that bad' and have been sober for months now you should be past the 'hard part'. No one can live that way. I'm a year and a half sober and absolutely thriving. I only ever drank on weekends but I was a complete alcoholic all weekend, then a hungover mess for 2 days and would be normal about Wednesday and start the whole cycle 5pm Friday.
Yo Slayer are you improvising these? Your speaking is excellent. Well structured, articulate and the way you describe your experiences is so coherent and relatable. The time capsule analogy is so true. Those years are GONE. Groundhog Day all over again until you learn to transcend the cycle. Or not 💀
Blackouts are so scary. Especially when you get to the point that you cant remember entire evenings or days. I once traveled from NorCal to NM on a roadtrip where I was washing Atavan down with liquor the entire time. It was 4 days because we stopped over in LA for 2. I remember none of it except departing NorCal and then arriving in Santa Fe (I was not driving thankfully).
Much respect to you, it is so hard to be vulnerable like this.
Thank you for sharing and helping.
Usually they are off the top of my dome brother, I have notes once and a while. That’s really awesome of you to say, comments like these really make my day. Thank you!!!
Brother sorry for your loss
I have also lost many close friends.
This keeps me fighting and sponsoring other men.
I appreciate this comment brother, thank you 🙏🏻
Alcohol is so scary and sad and our world glamorizes it confuses it I glad your free and helping us
Yes the world 100% promotes alcohol, glamorizes and more! It’s insane. That’s why I makes these videos to show people the true nature of it. Thanks so much for the comment 🙏🙏
I have struggled with addiction with alcohol and opiates for many years. I dont really drink very often anymore...the hangovers are so bad (especially the older you get). When I got cut off from the opiates that my doctor prescribed I went into horrible withdrawals. At that time I was researching like crazy to see what, if anything would help. Thats when I discovered kratom. And I have to admit, it worked extremely well. But that was about 8 years ago and now I take kratom every singlr day and I hate it! I have tried tapering down, but being ab addict I was never any good at that. I pray to God that I can get over this. The only thing that comforts me is the fact that kratom is a much better alternative than being on pills. I know deep down its still not good, but I find myself trying to justify this in my mind. Maybe some day I will be able to stop, but man I just dont know at this point
I have friends who are in the same exact position as you man, I remember when kratom first came to the scene. Everyone was saying it cured their opiate addiction, but what many don’t know is kratom is an opiate itself and highly addictive. So even tho kratom is less harmful then let’s say herion or fentanyl, it’s still damaging over time. Sorry you are going through this brother, try looking up some different ways to get through the kratom withdrawal. I tried tapering myself with alcohol and it never worked UNLESS I had someone giving me the alcohol. You could try giving a close friend or loved one your kratom and tell them to taper you off. It’s a tricky situation man, addiction sucks. I wish you luck brother! Keep me updated please 🙏
Νice video brother. You're a good story-teller. Share more stories please.
Thanks Mike, love ya buddy sorry for all the cursing!! I’ll tone it down. 🙏god bless
R.I.P DIRK
ANY ONE NO WHAT HAPPEND TO HIM ?
Waking up drunk.. no worse feeling
You’re 100% right Zeus it’s an awful feeling. It doesn’t feel like a normal drunk either, it’s like you’re drunk but feel like garbage.
Thanks for the comment brother. 🙏
Went on a binge last couple days…… the hangxiety and shame is awful….. I don’t want to die young bcuz of this stupid poison…. I want to drink again tonight….. pray for me
Hey brother how are you doing??
Hanging in there. I ended up drinking last night. Feel so much shame and guilt…. It’s time
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Yes blud
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if somebody would have pushed you to leave alcohol during your deepest alcohol time what could somebody do or say to a full blown alcholic to get them to wake up. its a struggle to deal with a full blown addict or alcoholic you feel hopeless trying to help them
Sadly if you want the truth there isn’t much you can say, all you can do is try to point them in the right direction. It is all up to the addict, it really is a choice and till the addict is ready to put the substance down, nothing will change. I wish you luck my friend, keep me updated!
did u ever steal booze?
@@Ah__ah__ah__ah. unfortunately 😓
Well said my friend. I struggle .........This helps....
I’m glad it helps brother 🙏 one day at a time