I really really feel for you Julia. During my child bearing years I was pregnant 7 times and had only 2 babies (now 27 and 28 years old). Although I STILL sometimes think about the children I didn't have, the lives of my 2 healthy daughters have far far eclipsed any shadow of the losses. I know that probably doesn't help now... Also... the bloodwork with my first healthy live birth (very high AFP levels) indicated she would have spina bifida or anencephaly or some other similar condition. I continued to carry her and although she was born at 30 weeks she was healthy, and even breathing on her own, with no medical issues at all. That tiny preemie is now a doctor. Keep taking care of yourself. Beautiful tablecloth btw ;)
Julia, I find it so amazing how in tune you are with your body. I miscarried about 2.5 years ago when you shared a video on your previous miscarriage and haven’t been able to conceive since. I admire your courage to share your story with us and your vulnerability. The thing you said about being fearful of death resonates with me as well, so I appreciate your vulnerability in that too. Sending peace and love your way ❤
I mentioned this in the last video … pregnancy related or not Julia is amazing at listening to and actively advocating for her health … it’s so wonderful and reassuring x
I really wish people would just watch the whole video before commenting. You are so strong, Julia! Sending you lots of love and positive energy during this time. 🩷🙏🏽
Hey Julia, I've dealt with an ectopic pregnancy before. It's super scary, but if you caught it early, you can go in the ER for methotrexate -- so it's a less invasive procedure (only 2 shots). The most anxiety inducing thing is just waiting on your bloodwork results, and making sure the medicine is working. Your tubes aren't in the red zone until 3 months in (approx.), but hopefully your OBGYN fast tracking whatever care you need next. If it's caught early, it also doesn't necessarily affect your fertility if you're planning to have more kids in the future. Praying that this pregnancy was caught early, and I wish you the best of luck so that you have the easiest recovery possible!
While I agree with you on watching the whole video before commenting, I think the creator makes misleading/unspecified titles intentionally (to get views?). All it takes if to re-phrase the title and such comments will stop.
@@ewelina3479Respectfully, I think the title of this video is extremely accurate regarding how I feel and what is actually going on right now. I’m not worried about comments and don’t feel upset by them - positive or negative. I appreciate everyone thinking about me though and wanting to safeguard my feelings. ❤
@@itsblitzzz I think just adding "ectopic" to the title would make it extremely accurate... Nonetheless, this is still your channel and your video and you can do whatever you wish with it (just as we can state our opinions on it). hope my comment did not upset you in this already difficult time. I wish you get well soon and hope you recover from this traumatic experience.
@@ewelina3479 The pregnancy was not 100% confirmed as an ectopic when I filmed this and has still not been. I have noted this in the video (clarified in on-screen text towards the end of the video). There are many factors that are still uncertain currently. Unfortunately there are not always concise or clear answers in medicine especially with pregnancy. I am sharing what I believe is factual and if nothing else, I am simply sharing my experience.
Look at those lashes with a touch of mascara! So cute with and without makeup! I love your openness and honesty. Best wishes for you and your journey here.
One of my favorite relationships on youtube is Julia & Fruit~ the way the fruits are selected handled cut presented w/love & care on plates in bowls on platters on boards~ it is a divine dream 💗
@@internetcultured Thank you. So blood work is needed for these levels. I only recall her mentioning pregnancy tests. Hopefully she will see her doctor soon.
You are actually amazingly stoic and your intuition is truly serving you very well. I hope that you may soon be past the intervention that is needed to help you and that will be a fast recovery - both physically and emotionally. ❤
When I was pregnant with my oldest daughter, I was told the pregnancy might not happen & that she wasn't growing properly. Fast forward 26 years & she just graduated from Georgetown Law & is the oldest of 3 kids. Hoping all goes well, but trust your body!
Hello, internet friend. I am thinking of you. Thank you for sharing your story. I waited until the end to comment (because I saw the other comments saying to wait), and now that I have watched the whole video, I am curious what symptoms you were experiencing that gave you such strong feelings that something was off? I am really proud of you for being so in tune with your body and advocating for yourself! I am just curious what made you so certain? I feel like that could be useful information ONLY if you feel like sharing it, of course. Sending you lots of love and healing vibes as you process this loss. ❤
Hearing you speak on your experiences is so insightful as I have never been pregnant before. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this, but also thank you so much for sharing 🤍
I have a thing going on with my health right now that is going to be ok but is also stressful and scary. Seeing this reminded me that I am so not alone. Thank you for the perspective. I hope you get through this soon and in good health ❤️
omg julia i’m so glad you’ll be okay, this is awful. it also makes me unbearably angry and sad that women where i’m from and live (vast majority of the south) will be denied care for something as dangerous as this
Im sorry you’re having to go through this. Having recently had two failed pregnancies in as many years I really really feel for you. And ugh the waiting game is awful but you will be ok. I also have one child who I adore and I really feel lucky in that respect. Sending love ❤
Julia~ I'm giving you the biggest hug in the world. I've been watching you for years now, from ASMR, to your pregnancy vlogs, and it's been a joy to see Honor grow up. I've loved your candid thoughts on the many things you discuss on youtube and IG and your honesty as well. Thank you for trusting your audience and sharing something so deeply personal (that you had every right to keep private). I'm thinking of you, Nick, and Honor
I'm so sorry ur going thru this! I had a pregnancy and the embryo stopped growing at 5 weeks 4 days. My levels continued to rise, which gave everyone around me false hope, but I knew in my heart what was to come. My doctor handled everything so poorly I finally canceled all appointments and stop going to that practice. At 10 weeks I finally passed the embryo naturally. I still mourn that baby but I know I'll meet him (my gut tells me it was a boy) someday in heaven. ❤ I pray u come thru this with peace. Honor is such a beautiful baby girl!! BTW mine was not ectopic but because the embryo was still in there my hormone levels continued to rise like a healthy viable fetus.
Julia, I want to thank you very much for sharing such vulnerable moments surrounding pregnancy and loss. We don’t always have people in our lives who can share their experiences that we can learn from. We rarely get to see the parts of pregnancy and trying to get pregnant that are more difficult or not always so clear cut. When I ask women in my life who’ve had children, they rarely share about the experience of pregnancy but more often about their experience of being a parent. On behalf of everyone who wants children but is scared or confused about pregnancy and what it all looks like when trying, thank you thank you thank you! You have shared such valuable information and insight and you make me feel like it will all be okay even if I find myself in this situation someday. At this point you’re my internet big sister and I am so glad you’re here and willing to let us into your life this way. Sending you lots of love Julia, you are a wonderful person ❤
I'm sorry you're going through this, you're incredibly resilient. ❤ I would be interested in hearing about your thoughts on fear of death, as I'm currently experiencing the same thing. It's been horrible on my mental health. Thank you for sharing.
You‘re really brave for sharing all of this with the world! Even though I can‘t really relate, I still love listening to you and getting little glimpses into your life. Wishing you all the best! ❤ Also I would love to see your pile of new books 😊
I assume it’s because hCG tends to be lower and rise more slowly over time with an ectopic pregnancy compared to a viable pregnancy. When she got her blood drawn, both hCG readings were low. Since her levels are rising, it could be ectopic. A chemical pregnancy would likely have dropping hCG.
I wonder why it takes so long for a doctor to figure out a woman has an ectopic pregnancy to the point where it actually ruptures because the woman doesn’t even know she has one. Can someone explain?
@lottepepplinkhuizen9220 sometimes the tone of her videos just doesn't warrant the serious titles she gives them. serious titles that imply something big happened
15:34 - I had nothing wrong with my pregnancy or symptoms. I took some castor oil the day I was due and went into labor. I don’t know what I would have done if I hadn’t gone to the hospital because after 10 hours I wouldn’t dilate past 2 cm, and my girl was sunny side up. Had they not done a c-section I would have lost her. I encourage those who want to utilize midwives or other alternative care but for my I’m blessed I had the care I did.
Thank you for sharing this tough stuff ❤ as a woman who has had 2 miscarriages, I think it’s really important to have these conversations because it really is so common and comforting to those who have had these experiences to have a community of others who have also experienced this
Scary that in a number of Republican states you would need to wait for a surgical intervention as medical treatment is considered an abortion. Vote people!
I hope your treatment goes okay, Julia ❤ I used to think my pregnancies were ectopic. I had a mild pain in my side with my first pregnancy and my mind went straight to that. I also have a very conscious fear of death. I suffer from health anxiety or at least had a huge episode a year ago. I’d find a video on that topic relatable.
Thank you for sharing your story and I'm so sorry for your loss 💔 I'm so thankful medicine has advanced from the dark ages, but I'm so worried for you still. A woman in my state (Missouri) had to sue a Missouri hospital because they refused to provide life saving treatment due to my state's anti-abortion laws. I hope you are in a safe state that protects our rights 💔
Oh thank GODD I just watched your latest video where you mentioned being in California. I thought some time ago you had moved out of state, maybe I'm just tripping lol. Glad you are safe, and sending all my love and healing 🫶
@@ashleymarie.27i'm late to this, but I think that perhaps you think about that Julia and the baby girl was at her parents for a while, in another state.
You are such an incredible mom! I am so sorry for what you’re going through, and your strength really shines through as you talk about it. I feel it is important for me to speak truth into your fear of death. When it comes to this fear, it stems from not knowing where or what happens when you die. In people who have not accepted Jesus this of course is a very valid fear. I feel I would be doing you a disservice to not tell you this. Too often, Christians tell people about Jesus in a condemning way and this is purely out of love and compassion. I have so much hope for my future and to spend the rest of my days with Jesus as someone who has been saved by Him and my personal relationship with Him grows daily. There is no one like Him. He is the Way the Truth and the Life. Love you and your videos, and I pray for Jesus‘s hand to be on your situation, and for the outcome to be as good and even better than you imagined it could be. 🩵 God can do ALL things. He’s still a miracle working God.
Hugs and much love to you Julia . I am not sure how to say this, but you are; my best internet friend. I really enjoy listening to you and catching up on your news. One day you will eventually have another healthy baby and you will be as you are right now, the best mother ever.
Thank you for sharing this and being so candid. The fear of dealth (especially after kids) resonates with me so hard and I would love it if you could talk about that a little (if you are open to sharing). I feel like that fear is hardly talked about and it feels so isolating and terrifying. Lol and I also went to therapy for it :) Sending you ai much love and we are here with you through this journey. I had 2 losses before my first baby as well and at that time no one spoke about it.
I wanted to comment on the last video too, what is a non viable pregnancy ? And how can you discover that ? What are the symptoms or the signs to know this ?
Wishing you the best health of your life and bliss ❤ I have been learning about gratitude practices lately and I loved how you found gratitude, even if only for the resources that can help. Gratitude practices can help improve future trauma responses and past trauma effects, while strengthening brain health, among other benefits. But only when it is genuine. It really struck a chord for me, explaining a lot about how I have managed to be as resilient as I feel, after what I have been through. I am actually very grateful for all of your videos and your candid sharing about your experiences. Btw wow that vase for your flowers!!! Love the design!
My mother had a tubular pregnancy back when I was in high school (from what I can remember, she got pregnant, the fertilized egg continued developing as normal, but it stayed in the tube and never moved down to the uterus). For about a week, she kept mentioning how bad the side of her stomach was hurting, and one time when we were in the grocery store, she actually doubled-over in pain. I asked her to please go to the doctor and check it out, because it didn't seem to be getting any better. She went the next day, and they gave her a pregnancy test just out of precaution, and I think she was like 2 months pregnant. They gave her meds for pain, and then the next night she went to the hospital for the surgery (they had to take the whole tube out). That was an emotional roller coaster to go from thinking you had an upset stomach to two nights later finding out you are pregnant and have to have the baby and the tube removed. It didn't hit me about how serious it was until my mom had to spend the night in the hospital, and when we talked about it after she got home from the hospital. I don't know if this will encourage you or anyone else who might read this, but I just wanted to share her story. Wishing all the best for you and your family 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️❤️
That happened to me a couple of years ago. I lost my left ovary and tube. Thankfully it didn’t rupture but if I would’ve waited another 30 minutes, I would be dead.
I’m so taken by how well you know your body. I realize this has come has a result of your losses and difficulties with your health, and I’m sorry for that.
The fear of ectopic pregnancy is another reason I’m scared to ever try to get pregnant - my mum had one and I’m afraid the same will happen to me. I’m already bad with medical stuff and it would take a lot to even go through a pregnancy so I cannot imagine this. I hope you can get treatment soon! Thanks for sharing
Sending love to you Julia, I had 6 miscarriages between my two children. After my first loss I was devastated and asked the universe to send me a sign I would have another baby and that night I had a dream I was singing happy birthday to a baby girl( my first living child is a boy)and singing her name. I held faith that I would meet that baby girl and my 8th pregnancy from the minute I was pregnant it just felt different to my 6 miscarriages that had been before it and now my sweet baby girl is about to turn 1. Hold faith ❤️❤️ my first miscarriage was also a pregnancy of unknown location so I was monitored really closely, but was not an ectopic pregnancy in the end, just took 3 months for my hcg to return to 0 though.
This is so so difficult. About 9 months ago I suffered through a non viable blighted ovum pregnancy, which is when the embryo implants, a gestational sac forms, and your beta levels rise giving you pregnancy symptoms, but the embryo never develops. My OB made me wait out several agonizing weeks hoping to see some development which I knew would never happen because my hormone levels were already so high. Once they reach a certain level and you have no fetal pole or yolk sac you know you're out. So I had to wait and wait with this emptiness inside of me before having a d&c. I know some women go through multiple miscarriages before having success and I am endlessly impressed by that strength because my one non-viable pregnancy really traumatized me. Now I'm 23 weeks along with a (so far) successful pregnancy, but that fear never really leaves you. I'm sorry you're going through this and I wish you all the best things moving forward.
My mom's first pregnancy was an ectopic one. She was unlucky enough to have an asshole of a doctor, who neglected her and didn't do anything when she told him something was not right, and that led her to lose one of her "tubes" at the age of 22/23. I don't know what happened to the doctor, but my parents were very young and naive (their words), and they didn't sue him, so I only wonder if he's still practicing medicine today. Luckily, everything ended well. She went on to have my brother the year after and myself at the age of 29. But you're obviously in good hands. You're being vigilant and you and your doctors seem to be on top of your case, so everything will be ok!
As someone who opted to have an out of hospital birth I just want to emphasize that I am in no way advocating that people avoid seeking medical help for medical problems. Obviously I can’t speak for others, but of all the people I know who have done out of hospital birth, none of them would advocate for that either. An ectopic pregnancy is a medical problem, that should be cared for in the medical setting. This is not something that midwifery can treat or assist with. Any midwife who discovers an ectopic pregnancy in a client would immediately refer her to the hospital to seek treatment there. Midwifery care and out of hospital birth are designed to care for and support pregnancies that are uncomplicated or minimally complicated. Conditions such as severe preeclampsia, preterm labor, intrauterine growth restriction, etc are outside the scope of midwifery. Also, no hate to anyone who chooses a hospital birth with an uncomplicated pregnancy❤
I’m so thankful that you are sharing your experience. I had an IUD and had an ectopic pregnancy that resulted in a ruptured tube. I had kidney stones before so I thought the pain I was experiencing was just another kidney stone and because of the IUD, I didn’t think I was pregnant. It was also Christmas Eve and I was so focused on powering through so I wouldn’t ruin my kids Christmas. Due to the rupture, I lost half of my blood into my abdomen and almost died. It was a complete nightmare and I’m just more mindful of what my body is trying to tell me.
Just want to reinforce for you what you said, Honor is ok. You are still a kick ass mama and being understandably slightly distracted is ok. I promise she hasn’t noticed. I greatly admire and appreciate you sharing what you’re going through for the benefit of other women. Sending you all the good vibes!
Thinking of you Julia, sending my love 💖 you are so in tune with your body I also had a very similar feeling when i was going through a missed miscarriage it was 12 weeks before we had a difinitive answer. The unknown and being worried about what could happen is so mentally draining. I am so glad you are speaking about this. My mum also suffered an ectopic pregnancy and was not believed she almost died due to medical negligence. I'm so glad you are seeking and getting the correct care 💖
Hi Julia! I’m excited to watch right now. I was watching some of your old videos from years ago. I think I started following you in 2016? 🤔 you’re still my fave UA-camr! My mom had an a topic between my brother and I. That’s why we’re 8 years apart. Hugs to you and Honor. ♥️♥️♥️
Thank you, Julia, for sharing your experience. its mean a lot. I also agree that in many times people says that pregnancy is easy. Even in my country old generation says that prengancy cure you from everething( you depressde? - get pregnant. having aknee - get pregnant and atc). even some doctors can say that. and im not joking. But in realite everysing its not so simple Hope you will be fine
So so proud of you. I can see you've grown so much in your pregnancy journeys. You and I were both pregnant at the same time, due in the same month when you had Honor. I loved following along with you. I am currently unexpected pregnant about 13 weeks. I thank you for educating the world on these so so important topics that are rarely talked about. ❤
Sending you good thoughts!! I had an ectopic pregnancy that resulted in a miscarriage and while that was a good thing because I didn't die or need any surgery, it was devastating because it was a very wanted pregnancy. A few months later I was able to conceive my daughter who is an energetic, curious, healthy, happy 2 year old. What you are going through is hard, so please reach out if you need support. Much love to you and your family.
Your intuition about your body is amazing. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this crazy stressful situation and trying to still be a mom while trying to deal with everything. You’re strong, powerful, and wonderful and I wish all the best for you and your family. Also love your advocating for proper medical care no matter the situation. Also - as a fellow tall girl, please spill the details on the best finds. I love sezane but sometimes find their clothing proportions to be hit or miss and the misses are crushing because it’s always something really cute and high quality that I love the idea of
Hi Julia! Glad you have Nick and Honor to help you through this time. I'm not sure if you've ever had an MA but it isn't the most pleasant. However numerous women including myself who have had are glad that they did. I'm sorry you're going through this! It will get better and you will soon feel at ease.. just have to get over this hump. Sending love & I wish that we could be friends because you're super cool and super chill!!
I've been watching your videos for years now and I can easily say, there is no way your child could ever assume she isn't loved by you so don't be so hard on yourself, accept help when you have it and go easy on yourself, you can't be there for your family if you don't look after yourself first. I hope things get easier for you and they're able to help you asap with a speedy recovery
So sorry to hear this. Thanks for sharing a topic that’s got to be difficult to go through.The flowers omg how gorgeous! And the “homeless man” comment lmao. Good comedic relief.
I'm so sorry Julia. And you're right, you were advocating for yourself, caught the issue early and YOU WILL be okay. Sending you all the hugs 🤗 Side note: All of the women in my family that went through childbirth have a horror story to tell about how they nearly died from related complications. Luckily there was always a family member/spouse/friend there to raise hell when they didn't have the strength to advocate for themselves.
Hi! Been w/ u for many years, OG baltimore girl in Chicago. This exact scenario happened to me in 2001, 5minths after my 1st born May 2001:); ultrasounds could only REALLY c what was going on around 10wks; had Hcg tested every 3 days- kept increasing, but not like normal pregnant-same waiting game(Elsa & Elsa&Barron you tube, just posted months ago SIMILAR,& she gave me MY answer .. for 10 I didn’t know, baby? Ectopic? Why Hcg going up? Fear of ectopic SUCKED;at 10wk ultrasound saw unviable pregnancy/sac was there,& “ tissue”, but wasn’t viable,&on ultrasound clear,& grateful was NOT ECTOPIC! Chose D&C b/c 11wks there was growth of an u healthy embryo though… the d&c was hard ofc; but recovered quickly; had a 6mth baby & husband…. & but later got OG easily,& all went well, 2nd born September 2003:) Hinir will Have an older sibling,& you are a true Mom, you have the fight & will to fight u til this is settled, & I know you will Recover..& I know our love & support for u Nick & Honor will be felt.. plus your amazing family! Sorry I wrote a novel- thx for reading!!!!🫶😇🎶☀️💪🙏
I also have a big fear of death. It’s one of the main reasons I haven’t wanted to get pregnant. The whole idea of it seems so terrifying. My husband is an Ultrasound Tech so I hear it all. I hope you get through this period safely ♥️
Hun I had an ectopic pregnancy I didn’t have a rupture because it was caught in time. I knew something was wrong I had weird cramps and dizziness. It was scary. I got two methotrexate shots to terminate my pregnancy. It’s a process. Try to rest as much as possible my body was exhausted after the situation mostly because I had to keep getting blood drawn to make sure my HCG levels were dropping. You’ll be fine take your time with your emotions. Love you channel💕💕💕
Hi Julia, when I was 39 years old, I had an ectopic pregnancy that I didn’t know about. It was in my fallopian tube and it did rupture. I had a lot of pain and I fainted. MY husband called 911 and it was during a blizzard! In the ER, whenever I sat up, I would feel like passing out because I was bleeding internally and my brain was not getting perfused. They did an ultrasound, both regular and transvaginal, and said I had lost the pregnancy. I was heartbroken! My doctor did not operate until 5 hours later, I guess because he was delivering babies. I had a 7 year old daughter and I was not able to get pregnant again.
I’m not sure if this is the best way to ask this question, but how do you learn? Over the years I’ve noticed that know quite a lot about medical information and what’s going on in your body. I want to educate myself as well but I don’t even know where to start. Do you have any favorite websites/books/etc? Love your videos and sending you positive vibes! 🤍
I have had two ectopics, Wishing you the best. My first wasn't classic and wasnt caught for months, it ruptured and walled itsself off I hemorrhaged -I lost my tube and ovary- The other I was way more on it and demanded treatment -they are able to give you a shot to stop cell growth. Aftercare, I would try castor oil packs to move the scar tissue/inflammation .
I wish you the best Julia. You are so strong. And the best thing that you do is listen to your body. Thank you for sharing your experience and talking about it, because you are so right about getting care. If you are in a massive amount of pain, if you have a feeling something is not right- do not wait. No one will ever say to you: “Why are you here?” The worst thing would be: “Why did you wait?” Keep those 4 words close- and act sooner than later. And you are right about being implanted somewhere else in the body. My Mom taught a student who actually implanted outside the uterus, outside the fallopian tube- which is so so rare, but possible! I wish you every good thing, Julia.
I had an ectopic pregnancy in 2021 and was very lucky to catch it early because I was having severe symptoms. Nothing ruptured but even still I was in the ER for two nights and racked up about 3k in medical bills. I was treated with two shots of methotrexate, which is normally used as a cancer treatment as it attacks rapidly dividing cells. If your doctor chooses that route, please be very careful and mindful of your mental health after injection and for up to 2 months afterwards! It sent me straight into such intense mania that I didn't sleep for 3 days which I have NEVER done before. It saved my life but was not a fun time.
I can share my experience but I wouldn’t want it to be triggering for anyone. There’s the emotional processing that I recommend only after you’re physically healing. You’re right to want to focus on the scientific aspect of this. Please have your doctors resolve this before week 8. Only if Julia wants to hear my story will I share for her and others.
When I was 46 I got pregnant, shockingly. I wanted it so bad but there was no heartbeat. I decided not to get an abortion and wait but I had to go to the Cannes Film Festival and report on it -- I did this while feeling pregnant the whole time, though knowing when I got back there would be either a miscarriage or an abortion. Sure enough, the miscarriage came but it was so bad that I had to go to the hospital anyway for a D&C. The whole thing was such an ordeal. You are so good with your health so I don't worry about you but take good care...
I had a blighted ovum (empty sac pregnancy), I had a gut feeling something wasn’t right, I went to my first ultrasound and they attempted to give me false hope that it jsut needed a couple weeks to show up and I actually messaged my doctor and told her that I thought it was a blighted ovum and she said she wasn’t sure yet, but two weeks later she told me that I was indeed correct. Listen to your gut, annoy your doctors because you deserve to be heard!! 💓
I had an ectopic pregnancy. I was pretty far along, but because my doctor knew, I was very lucky that they caught this before the tube ruptured. I think that you are in a good place with your doctor. Also, know that you are so totally allowed to grieve this baby. It does not matter how long you are pregnant, the loss is still there.
Hi Julia, I have gone through an ectopic pregnancy too but mine wasn't caught early. My tube actual ruptured and I was rushed to the hospital and underwent surgery right away. I remember what that all felt like and its something I will never ever forget. I was extremely lucky per what my doctors told me on follow up visits. They just kept saying I was lucky to be alive because it was a very bad situation when I got the ER. I am so so sorry to hear this is the outcome for you. Absolutely listen to your body and get yourself to a ER asap if something starts to feel off. I didn't wait. I actually woke up to severe pains and have an ambulance come get me from him bc my bf at the time was at work. Scary shit but my heart and positive vibes go out to you! I will be thinkin about in the coming days and just hope your experience to be on the less life threatening side and that you recover well. Def take time for yourself and be patience with your body, which tbh, I feel like you are far more in tune with yourself than I have ever been. I love your channel ♥
Very difficult topic to share. Thank you. I had two miscarriages & I knew each time something was wrong plus I’ve had two babies now teenagers and I knew each time they were ok. Sorry for this difficult time you’re facing. 🌸
I love you so much! Last July I had a blightend ovum. I didn’t know at first..I felt the pregnancy symptoms but wasn’t as severe as my first. on the US the gestational sac was empty…and my hcg levels were not rising. My heart broke and I broke but with my families support and lots of praying I did mentally recover. Miscarriage is so common but something that def should be talked about. Thank you for sharing your story! I am now 9 weeks pregnant and the anxiety is real but I just got a scan today and the baby is there and happy 💜 my prayers and positive thoughts go out to all the women who are going through this.. you are not alone and so loved! ❤
Thank you so much for being so transparent with these type of topics! I recently suffered a miscarriage at 22 years old my baby was 8 weeks 5 days on January 1st…not how I thought I would start the new year off but things happen for a reason…maybe I wasn’t ready but it’s difficult I keep blaming myself for losing my first baby.
I love how real and vulnerable you’re allowing yourself to be in front of so many people, Julia. You’re such a strong person!
I really really feel for you Julia. During my child bearing years I was pregnant 7 times and had only 2 babies (now 27 and 28 years old). Although I STILL sometimes think about the children I didn't have, the lives of my 2 healthy daughters have far far eclipsed any shadow of the losses. I know that probably doesn't help now...
Also... the bloodwork with my first healthy live birth (very high AFP levels) indicated she would have spina bifida or anencephaly or some other similar condition. I continued to carry her and although she was born at 30 weeks she was healthy, and even breathing on her own, with no medical issues at all. That tiny preemie is now a doctor.
Keep taking care of yourself. Beautiful tablecloth btw ;)
Very curious how you knew its not a viable pregnancy from the beginning?
Separately - trying the vinegar rinse on berries!
Reproductive freedom is SO IMPORTANT
"Nothing wrong with the unhoused" LOLL NICK
(Wishing you so much strength, Julia. I love your whole perspective on this. It's really inspiring.)
Julia, I find it so amazing how in tune you are with your body. I miscarried about 2.5 years ago when you shared a video on your previous miscarriage and haven’t been able to conceive since. I admire your courage to share your story with us and your vulnerability. The thing you said about being fearful of death resonates with me as well, so I appreciate your vulnerability in that too. Sending peace and love your way ❤
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I mentioned this in the last video … pregnancy related or not Julia is amazing at listening to and actively advocating for her health … it’s so wonderful and reassuring x
I really wish people would just watch the whole video before commenting.
You are so strong, Julia! Sending you lots of love and positive energy during this time. 🩷🙏🏽
Hey Julia, I've dealt with an ectopic pregnancy before. It's super scary, but if you caught it early, you can go in the ER for methotrexate -- so it's a less invasive procedure (only 2 shots). The most anxiety inducing thing is just waiting on your bloodwork results, and making sure the medicine is working. Your tubes aren't in the red zone until 3 months in (approx.), but hopefully your OBGYN fast tracking whatever care you need next. If it's caught early, it also doesn't necessarily affect your fertility if you're planning to have more kids in the future. Praying that this pregnancy was caught early, and I wish you the best of luck so that you have the easiest recovery possible!
Please watch the full video before leaving comments, people.
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While I agree with you on watching the whole video before commenting, I think the creator makes misleading/unspecified titles intentionally (to get views?). All it takes if to re-phrase the title and such comments will stop.
@@ewelina3479Respectfully, I think the title of this video is extremely accurate regarding how I feel and what is actually going on right now. I’m not worried about comments and don’t feel upset by them - positive or negative. I appreciate everyone thinking about me though and wanting to safeguard my feelings. ❤
@@itsblitzzz I think just adding "ectopic" to the title would make it extremely accurate... Nonetheless, this is still your channel and your video and you can do whatever you wish with it (just as we can state our opinions on it). hope my comment did not upset you in this already difficult time. I wish you get well soon and hope you recover from this traumatic experience.
@@ewelina3479 The pregnancy was not 100% confirmed as an ectopic when I filmed this and has still not been. I have noted this in the video (clarified in on-screen text towards the end of the video). There are many factors that are still uncertain currently. Unfortunately there are not always concise or clear answers in medicine especially with pregnancy. I am sharing what I believe is factual and if nothing else, I am simply sharing my experience.
Look at those lashes with a touch of mascara! So cute with and without makeup!
I love your openness and honesty. Best wishes for you and your journey here.
One of my favorite relationships on youtube is Julia & Fruit~ the way the fruits are selected handled cut presented w/love & care on plates in bowls on platters on boards~ it is a divine dream 💗
How do you know that you have a non-viable pregnancy, if you haven't seen a doctor or had imaging yet?
slower to rise levels of hCG hormone would be indicative
@@internetcultured Thank you.
So blood work is needed for these levels. I only recall her mentioning pregnancy tests. Hopefully she will see her doctor soon.
@@cecescooter8951she's says at the beginning that she had 2 blood tests
You are actually amazingly stoic and your intuition is truly serving you very well. I hope that you may soon be past the intervention that is needed to help you and that will be a fast recovery - both physically and emotionally. ❤
How do you know you’re going to miscarry? I’m curious
When I was pregnant with my oldest daughter, I was told the pregnancy might not happen & that she wasn't growing properly. Fast forward 26 years & she just graduated from Georgetown Law & is the oldest of 3 kids. Hoping all goes well, but trust your body!
Hello, internet friend. I am thinking of you. Thank you for sharing your story. I waited until the end to comment (because I saw the other comments saying to wait), and now that I have watched the whole video, I am curious what symptoms you were experiencing that gave you such strong feelings that something was off? I am really proud of you for being so in tune with your body and advocating for yourself! I am just curious what made you so certain? I feel like that could be useful information ONLY if you feel like sharing it, of course. Sending you lots of love and healing vibes as you process this loss. ❤
I am very curious to understand this too.
Sending you hugs, really hope you find relief soon 💕
wait but how do you definitively know that it isn't a viable pregnancy? just curious!!! wish you well
Hearing you speak on your experiences is so insightful as I have never been pregnant before. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this, but also thank you so much for sharing 🤍
I have a thing going on with my health right now that is going to be ok but is also stressful and scary. Seeing this reminded me that I am so not alone. Thank you for the perspective. I hope you get through this soon and in good health ❤️
omg julia i’m so glad you’ll be okay, this is awful. it also makes me unbearably angry and sad that women where i’m from and live (vast majority of the south) will be denied care for something as dangerous as this
THIS. Abortion is healthcare!!!
How do you know your pregnancy isn’t viable? I feel like I wouldn’t know unless I was actively bleeding
Im sorry you’re having to go through this. Having recently had two failed pregnancies in as many years I really really feel for you. And ugh the waiting game is awful but you will be ok. I also have one child who I adore and I really feel lucky in that respect. Sending love ❤
Julia~ I'm giving you the biggest hug in the world. I've been watching you for years now, from ASMR, to your pregnancy vlogs, and it's been a joy to see Honor grow up. I've loved your candid thoughts on the many things you discuss on youtube and IG and your honesty as well. Thank you for trusting your audience and sharing something so deeply personal (that you had every right to keep private). I'm thinking of you, Nick, and Honor
I'm so sorry ur going thru this! I had a pregnancy and the embryo stopped growing at 5 weeks 4 days. My levels continued to rise, which gave everyone around me false hope, but I knew in my heart what was to come. My doctor handled everything so poorly I finally canceled all appointments and stop going to that practice. At 10 weeks I finally passed the embryo naturally. I still mourn that baby but I know I'll meet him (my gut tells me it was a boy) someday in heaven. ❤ I pray u come thru this with peace. Honor is such a beautiful baby girl!! BTW mine was not ectopic but because the embryo was still in there my hormone levels continued to rise like a healthy viable fetus.
Julia, I want to thank you very much for sharing such vulnerable moments surrounding pregnancy and loss. We don’t always have people in our lives who can share their experiences that we can learn from. We rarely get to see the parts of pregnancy and trying to get pregnant that are more difficult or not always so clear cut. When I ask women in my life who’ve had children, they rarely share about the experience of pregnancy but more often about their experience of being a parent.
On behalf of everyone who wants children but is scared or confused about pregnancy and what it all looks like when trying, thank you thank you thank you! You have shared such valuable information and insight and you make me feel like it will all be okay even if I find myself in this situation someday.
At this point you’re my internet big sister and I am so glad you’re here and willing to let us into your life this way.
Sending you lots of love Julia, you are a wonderful person ❤
This is so true. I *really* appreciate the honesty. X
I'm sorry you're going through this, you're incredibly resilient. ❤ I would be interested in hearing about your thoughts on fear of death, as I'm currently experiencing the same thing. It's been horrible on my mental health. Thank you for sharing.
My thoughts are with you. ❤
Women go through so much!!!! Ugh!! 💔 Thanks for sharing Julia!
This happen a month after it happened to me. My heart goes out to you. I however had no idea I was 10 weeks and miscarried. 😢 Be kind to yourself.
You‘re really brave for sharing all of this with the world! Even though I can‘t really relate, I still love listening to you and getting little glimpses into your life. Wishing you all the best! ❤
Also I would love to see your pile of new books 😊
Praying for you, Julia! (:
Why do you think it is an ectopic pregnancy?
I assume it’s because hCG tends to be lower and rise more slowly over time with an ectopic pregnancy compared to a viable pregnancy. When she got her blood drawn, both hCG readings were low. Since her levels are rising, it could be ectopic. A chemical pregnancy would likely have dropping hCG.
@@louisebrooks4044 thank you for your explaination
I wonder why it takes so long for a doctor to figure out a woman has an ectopic pregnancy to the point where it actually ruptures because the woman doesn’t even know she has one. Can someone explain?
i love how real you are, you’re a breath of fresh air when you post! ❤
I’m so sorry Julia 💖 sending you strength x
you're my all time favorite youtuber but why so many clickbait titles lately :(
Clickbate titles...?
@lottepepplinkhuizen9220 sometimes the tone of her videos just doesn't warrant the serious titles she gives them. serious titles that imply something big happened
Her channel
It's annoying. I agree
Shits wack
You can get a sonogram now because it will show there
15:34 - I had nothing wrong with my pregnancy or symptoms. I took some castor oil the day I was due and went into labor. I don’t know what I would have done if I hadn’t gone to the hospital because after 10 hours I wouldn’t dilate past 2 cm, and my girl was sunny side up. Had they not done a c-section I would have lost her. I encourage those who want to utilize midwives or other alternative care but for my I’m blessed I had the care I did.
Thank you for sharing this tough stuff ❤ as a woman who has had 2 miscarriages, I think it’s really important to have these conversations because it really is so common and comforting to those who have had these experiences to have a community of others who have also experienced this
Scary that in a number of Republican states you would need to wait for a surgical intervention as medical treatment is considered an abortion. Vote people!
I hope your treatment goes okay, Julia ❤ I used to think my pregnancies were ectopic. I had a mild pain in my side with my first pregnancy and my mind went straight to that.
I also have a very conscious fear of death. I suffer from health anxiety or at least had a huge episode a year ago. I’d find a video on that topic relatable.
Thank you for sharing your story and I'm so sorry for your loss 💔 I'm so thankful medicine has advanced from the dark ages, but I'm so worried for you still. A woman in my state (Missouri) had to sue a Missouri hospital because they refused to provide life saving treatment due to my state's anti-abortion laws. I hope you are in a safe state that protects our rights 💔
Oh thank GODD I just watched your latest video where you mentioned being in California. I thought some time ago you had moved out of state, maybe I'm just tripping lol. Glad you are safe, and sending all my love and healing 🫶
@@ashleymarie.27i'm late to this, but I think that perhaps you think about that Julia and the baby girl was at her parents for a while, in another state.
You are such an incredible mom! I am so sorry for what you’re going through, and your strength really shines through as you talk about it.
I feel it is important for me to speak truth into your fear of death. When it comes to this fear, it stems from not knowing where or what happens when you die. In people who have not accepted Jesus this of course is a very valid fear. I feel I would be doing you a disservice to not tell you this. Too often, Christians tell people about Jesus in a condemning way and this is purely out of love and compassion. I have so much hope for my future and to spend the rest of my days with Jesus as someone who has been saved by Him and my personal relationship with Him grows daily. There is no one like Him. He is the Way the Truth and the Life. Love you and your videos, and I pray for Jesus‘s hand to be on your situation, and for the outcome to be as good and even better than you imagined it could be. 🩵 God can do ALL things. He’s still a miracle working God.
Hugs and much love to you Julia . I am not sure how to say this, but you are; my best internet friend. I really enjoy listening to you and catching up on your news. One day you will eventually have another healthy baby and you will be as you are right now, the best mother ever.
thank you for sharing Julia, I really wish things go as well as possible
Thank you for sharing this and being so candid. The fear of dealth (especially after kids) resonates with me so hard and I would love it if you could talk about that a little (if you are open to sharing). I feel like that fear is hardly talked about and it feels so isolating and terrifying. Lol and I also went to therapy for it :)
Sending you ai much love and we are here with you through this journey. I had 2 losses before my first baby as well and at that time no one spoke about it.
I wanted to comment on the last video too, what is a non viable pregnancy ? And how can you discover that ? What are the symptoms or the signs to know this ?
Wishing you the best health of your life and bliss ❤ I have been learning about gratitude practices lately and I loved how you found gratitude, even if only for the resources that can help. Gratitude practices can help improve future trauma responses and past trauma effects, while strengthening brain health, among other benefits. But only when it is genuine. It really struck a chord for me, explaining a lot about how I have managed to be as resilient as I feel, after what I have been through. I am actually very grateful for all of your videos and your candid sharing about your experiences. Btw wow that vase for your flowers!!! Love the design!
My mother had a tubular pregnancy back when I was in high school (from what I can remember, she got pregnant, the fertilized egg continued developing as normal, but it stayed in the tube and never moved down to the uterus). For about a week, she kept mentioning how bad the side of her stomach was hurting, and one time when we were in the grocery store, she actually doubled-over in pain. I asked her to please go to the doctor and check it out, because it didn't seem to be getting any better. She went the next day, and they gave her a pregnancy test just out of precaution, and I think she was like 2 months pregnant. They gave her meds for pain, and then the next night she went to the hospital for the surgery (they had to take the whole tube out). That was an emotional roller coaster to go from thinking you had an upset stomach to two nights later finding out you are pregnant and have to have the baby and the tube removed. It didn't hit me about how serious it was until my mom had to spend the night in the hospital, and when we talked about it after she got home from the hospital. I don't know if this will encourage you or anyone else who might read this, but I just wanted to share her story. Wishing all the best for you and your family 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️❤️
That happened to me a couple of years ago. I lost my left ovary and tube. Thankfully it didn’t rupture but if I would’ve waited another 30 minutes, I would be dead.
I’m so taken by how well you know your body. I realize this has come has a result of your losses and difficulties with your health, and I’m sorry for that.
The fear of ectopic pregnancy is another reason I’m scared to ever try to get pregnant - my mum had one and I’m afraid the same will happen to me. I’m already bad with medical stuff and it would take a lot to even go through a pregnancy so I cannot imagine this. I hope you can get treatment soon! Thanks for sharing
Sending love to you Julia, I had 6 miscarriages between my two children. After my first loss I was devastated and asked the universe to send me a sign I would have another baby and that night I had a dream I was singing happy birthday to a baby girl( my first living child is a boy)and singing her name. I held faith that I would meet that baby girl and my 8th pregnancy from the minute I was pregnant it just felt different to my 6 miscarriages that had been before it and now my sweet baby girl is about to turn 1. Hold faith ❤️❤️ my first miscarriage was also a pregnancy of unknown location so I was monitored really closely, but was not an ectopic pregnancy in the end, just took 3 months for my hcg to return to 0 though.
wow you rock! the resilience you showed is jaw dropping. you are an amazing mom and a very strong woman. sending you lots of love ❤
This is so so difficult. About 9 months ago I suffered through a non viable blighted ovum pregnancy, which is when the embryo implants, a gestational sac forms, and your beta levels rise giving you pregnancy symptoms, but the embryo never develops. My OB made me wait out several agonizing weeks hoping to see some development which I knew would never happen because my hormone levels were already so high. Once they reach a certain level and you have no fetal pole or yolk sac you know you're out. So I had to wait and wait with this emptiness inside of me before having a d&c. I know some women go through multiple miscarriages before having success and I am endlessly impressed by that strength because my one non-viable pregnancy really traumatized me. Now I'm 23 weeks along with a (so far) successful pregnancy, but that fear never really leaves you. I'm sorry you're going through this and I wish you all the best things moving forward.
My mom's first pregnancy was an ectopic one. She was unlucky enough to have an asshole of a doctor, who neglected her and didn't do anything when she told him something was not right, and that led her to lose one of her "tubes" at the age of 22/23. I don't know what happened to the doctor, but my parents were very young and naive (their words), and they didn't sue him, so I only wonder if he's still practicing medicine today.
Luckily, everything ended well. She went on to have my brother the year after and myself at the age of 29.
But you're obviously in good hands. You're being vigilant and you and your doctors seem to be on top of your case, so everything will be ok!
As someone who opted to have an out of hospital birth I just want to emphasize that I am in no way advocating that people avoid seeking medical help for medical problems. Obviously I can’t speak for others, but of all the people I know who have done out of hospital birth, none of them would advocate for that either. An ectopic pregnancy is a medical problem, that should be cared for in the medical setting. This is not something that midwifery can treat or assist with. Any midwife who discovers an ectopic pregnancy in a client would immediately refer her to the hospital to seek treatment there. Midwifery care and out of hospital birth are designed to care for and support pregnancies that are uncomplicated or minimally complicated. Conditions such as severe preeclampsia, preterm labor, intrauterine growth restriction, etc are outside the scope of midwifery. Also, no hate to anyone who chooses a hospital birth with an uncomplicated pregnancy❤
I’m so sorry because this is a real baby who died. A real living soul and I hope you can meet them in heaven someday
fetus not baby. no soul either it’s literally cells
I’m so thankful that you are sharing your experience. I had an IUD and had an ectopic pregnancy that resulted in a ruptured tube. I had kidney stones before so I thought the pain I was experiencing was just another kidney stone and because of the IUD, I didn’t think I was pregnant. It was also Christmas Eve and I was so focused on powering through so I wouldn’t ruin my kids Christmas. Due to the rupture, I lost half of my blood into my abdomen and almost died. It was a complete nightmare and I’m just more mindful of what my body is trying to tell me.
Just want to reinforce for you what you said, Honor is ok. You are still a kick ass mama and being understandably slightly distracted is ok. I promise she hasn’t noticed. I greatly admire and appreciate you sharing what you’re going through for the benefit of other women. Sending you all the good vibes!
Thinking of you Julia, sending my love 💖 you are so in tune with your body I also had a very similar feeling when i was going through a missed miscarriage it was 12 weeks before we had a difinitive answer. The unknown and being worried about what could happen is so mentally draining. I am so glad you are speaking about this. My mum also suffered an ectopic pregnancy and was not believed she almost died due to medical negligence. I'm so glad you are seeking and getting the correct care 💖
So sorry you are going through this. Wishing you peace and comfort through this.
Hi Julia! I’m excited to watch right now. I was watching some of your old videos from years ago. I think I started following you in 2016? 🤔 you’re still my fave UA-camr! My mom had an a topic between my brother and I. That’s why we’re 8 years apart. Hugs to you and Honor. ♥️♥️♥️
Thank you, Julia, for sharing your experience. its mean a lot. I also agree that in many times people says that pregnancy is easy. Even in my country old generation says that prengancy cure you from everething( you depressde? - get pregnant. having aknee - get pregnant and atc). even some doctors can say that. and im not joking. But in realite everysing its not so simple
Hope you will be fine
Can we send you stuff to your PO Box?
So so proud of you. I can see you've grown so much in your pregnancy journeys. You and I were both pregnant at the same time, due in the same month when you had Honor. I loved following along with you. I am currently unexpected pregnant about 13 weeks. I thank you for educating the world on these so so important topics that are rarely talked about. ❤
Sending you good thoughts!! I had an ectopic pregnancy that resulted in a miscarriage and while that was a good thing because I didn't die or need any surgery, it was devastating because it was a very wanted pregnancy. A few months later I was able to conceive my daughter who is an energetic, curious, healthy, happy 2 year old. What you are going through is hard, so please reach out if you need support. Much love to you and your family.
I had 3 ectopic pregnancies... all presented a little different
i used methotrexate for all 3 btw .. was able to be caught early because we were trying to get pregnant so i was texting early
why do you think it's not viable? if you've been bleeding or cramping, it might just be due to the embryo implanting. hopefully everything works out.
@@internetcultured She asked a question, no need to be rude:)
❤❤❤❤ I love you 🎉🎉🎉❤❤
Could it possibly end up ending well? I’m so sorry, I know it’s a hard time. Sending positive vibes ❤
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Julia you are the realest creator on the internet. I aspire to be as authentic and comfortable with yourself as you are. Thank you ❤
Your intuition about your body is amazing. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this crazy stressful situation and trying to still be a mom while trying to deal with everything. You’re strong, powerful, and wonderful and I wish all the best for you and your family. Also love your advocating for proper medical care no matter the situation.
Also - as a fellow tall girl, please spill the details on the best finds. I love sezane but sometimes find their clothing proportions to be hit or miss and the misses are crushing because it’s always something really cute and high quality that I love the idea of
Thank you for sharing and being so personal with us, Julia. I appreciate your raw openess❤
Julia, Sending prayers, love ❤️ and light sweetheart.
Hi Julia! Glad you have Nick and Honor to help you through this time. I'm not sure if you've ever had an MA but it isn't the most pleasant. However numerous women including myself who have had are glad that they did. I'm sorry you're going through this! It will get better and you will soon feel at ease.. just have to get over this hump. Sending love & I wish that we could be friends because you're super cool and super chill!!
Why can't you just say what it is - a medical abortion? There is absolutely nothing wrong or shameful about any kind of abortion.
I've been watching your videos for years now and I can easily say, there is no way your child could ever assume she isn't loved by you so don't be so hard on yourself, accept help when you have it and go easy on yourself, you can't be there for your family if you don't look after yourself first. I hope things get easier for you and they're able to help you asap with a speedy recovery
Thank you for sharing this Julia
So sorry to hear this. Thanks for sharing a topic that’s got to be difficult to go through.The flowers omg how gorgeous! And the “homeless man” comment lmao. Good comedic relief.
I'm so sorry Julia. And you're right, you were advocating for yourself, caught the issue early and YOU WILL be okay. Sending you all the hugs 🤗
Side note: All of the women in my family that went through childbirth have a horror story to tell about how they nearly died from related complications. Luckily there was always a family member/spouse/friend there to raise hell when they didn't have the strength to advocate for themselves.
I also use my wine key for packages! I have the same one from like 15 years ago when I started serving.
Ayyyyyy 🔑🙏🏻
I had an ectopic pregnancy....
Hi! Been w/ u for many years, OG baltimore girl in Chicago. This exact scenario happened to me in 2001, 5minths after my 1st born May 2001:); ultrasounds could only REALLY c what was going on around 10wks; had Hcg tested every 3 days- kept increasing, but not like normal pregnant-same waiting game(Elsa & Elsa&Barron you tube, just posted months ago SIMILAR,& she gave me MY answer .. for 10 I didn’t know, baby? Ectopic? Why Hcg going up? Fear of ectopic SUCKED;at 10wk ultrasound saw unviable pregnancy/sac was there,& “ tissue”, but wasn’t viable,&on ultrasound clear,& grateful was NOT ECTOPIC! Chose D&C b/c 11wks there was growth of an u healthy embryo though… the d&c was hard ofc; but recovered quickly; had a 6mth baby & husband…. & but later got OG easily,& all went well, 2nd born September 2003:) Hinir will
Have an older sibling,& you are a true Mom, you have the fight & will to fight u til this is settled, & I know you will Recover..& I know our love & support for u Nick & Honor will be felt.. plus your amazing family! Sorry I wrote a novel- thx for reading!!!!🫶😇🎶☀️💪🙏
I also have a big fear of death. It’s one of the main reasons I haven’t wanted to get pregnant. The whole idea of it seems so terrifying. My husband is an Ultrasound Tech so I hear it all. I hope you get through this period safely ♥️
Hun I had an ectopic pregnancy I didn’t have a rupture because it was caught in time. I knew something was wrong I had weird cramps and dizziness. It was scary. I got two methotrexate shots to terminate my pregnancy. It’s a process. Try to rest as much as possible my body was exhausted after the situation mostly because I had to keep getting blood drawn to make sure my HCG levels were dropping. You’ll be fine take your time with your emotions. Love you channel💕💕💕
Hi Julia, when I was 39 years old, I had an ectopic pregnancy that I didn’t know about. It was in my fallopian tube and it did rupture. I had a lot of pain and I fainted. MY husband called 911 and it was during a blizzard! In the ER, whenever I sat up, I would feel like passing out because I was bleeding internally and my brain was not getting perfused. They did an ultrasound, both regular and transvaginal, and said I had lost the pregnancy. I was heartbroken! My doctor did not operate until 5 hours later, I guess because he was delivering babies. I had a 7 year old daughter and I was not able to get pregnant again.
I’m not sure if this is the best way to ask this question, but how do you learn? Over the years I’ve noticed that know quite a lot about medical information and what’s going on in your body. I want to educate myself as well but I don’t even know where to start. Do you have any favorite websites/books/etc? Love your videos and sending you positive vibes! 🤍
I have had two ectopics, Wishing you the best. My first wasn't classic and wasnt caught for months, it ruptured and walled itsself off I hemorrhaged -I lost my tube and ovary- The other I was way more on it and demanded treatment -they are able to give you a shot to stop cell growth. Aftercare, I would try castor oil packs to move the scar tissue/inflammation .
I wish you the best Julia. You are so strong. And the best thing that you do is listen to your body. Thank you for sharing your experience and talking about it, because you are so right about getting care. If you are in a massive amount of pain, if you have a feeling something is not right- do not wait. No one will ever say to you: “Why are you here?” The worst thing would be: “Why did you wait?” Keep those 4 words close- and act sooner than later.
And you are right about being implanted somewhere else in the body. My Mom taught a student who actually implanted outside the uterus, outside the fallopian tube- which is so so rare, but possible!
I wish you every good thing, Julia.
I had an ectopic pregnancy in 2021 and was very lucky to catch it early because I was having severe symptoms. Nothing ruptured but even still I was in the ER for two nights and racked up about 3k in medical bills. I was treated with two shots of methotrexate, which is normally used as a cancer treatment as it attacks rapidly dividing cells. If your doctor chooses that route, please be very careful and mindful of your mental health after injection and for up to 2 months afterwards! It sent me straight into such intense mania that I didn't sleep for 3 days which I have NEVER done before. It saved my life but was not a fun time.
I can share my experience but I wouldn’t want it to be triggering for anyone. There’s the emotional processing that I recommend only after you’re physically healing. You’re right to want to focus on the scientific aspect of this. Please have your doctors resolve this before week 8. Only if Julia wants to hear my story will I share for her and others.
When I was 46 I got pregnant, shockingly. I wanted it so bad but there was no heartbeat. I decided not to get an abortion and wait but I had to go to the Cannes Film Festival and report on it -- I did this while feeling pregnant the whole time, though knowing when I got back there would be either a miscarriage or an abortion. Sure enough, the miscarriage came but it was so bad that I had to go to the hospital anyway for a D&C. The whole thing was such an ordeal. You are so good with your health so I don't worry about you but take good care...
Bring back the cat massage videos
Love you, my “fellow” Baltimore woman. You’re a bad ass! Me too re the constant thinking of death. Love is blind is a good choice as a distraction. ❤
I had a blighted ovum (empty sac pregnancy), I had a gut feeling something wasn’t right, I went to my first ultrasound and they attempted to give me false hope that it jsut needed a couple weeks to show up and I actually messaged my doctor and told her that I thought it was a blighted ovum and she said she wasn’t sure yet, but two weeks later she told me that I was indeed correct. Listen to your gut, annoy your doctors because you deserve to be heard!! 💓
I had an ectopic pregnancy. I was pretty far along, but because my doctor knew, I was very lucky that they caught this before the tube ruptured. I think that you are in a good place with your doctor. Also, know that you are so totally allowed to grieve this baby. It does not matter how long you are pregnant, the loss is still there.
Hi Julia, I have gone through an ectopic pregnancy too but mine wasn't caught early. My tube actual ruptured and I was rushed to the hospital and underwent surgery right away. I remember what that all felt like and its something I will never ever forget. I was extremely lucky per what my doctors told me on follow up visits. They just kept saying I was lucky to be alive because it was a very bad situation when I got the ER. I am so so sorry to hear this is the outcome for you. Absolutely listen to your body and get yourself to a ER asap if something starts to feel off. I didn't wait. I actually woke up to severe pains and have an ambulance come get me from him bc my bf at the time was at work. Scary shit but my heart and positive vibes go out to you! I will be thinkin about in the coming days and just hope your experience to be on the less life threatening side and that you recover well. Def take time for yourself and be patience with your body, which tbh, I feel like you are far more in tune with yourself than I have ever been. I love your channel ♥
Very difficult topic to share. Thank you. I had two miscarriages & I knew each time something was wrong plus I’ve had two babies now teenagers and I knew each time they were ok. Sorry for this difficult time you’re facing. 🌸
Julia, you’re so fancy lol…and I agree, that sweater is very French!
Please share your more recent book faves! I read Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier because of you and absolutely loved it
I love you so much! Last July I had a blightend ovum. I didn’t know at first..I felt the pregnancy symptoms but wasn’t as severe as my first. on the US the gestational sac was empty…and my hcg levels were not rising. My heart broke and I broke but with my families support and lots of praying I did mentally recover. Miscarriage is so common but something that def should be talked about. Thank you for sharing your story! I am now 9 weeks pregnant and the anxiety is real but I just got a scan today and the baby is there and happy 💜 my prayers and positive thoughts go out to all the women who are going through this.. you are not alone and so loved! ❤
Thank you so much for being so transparent with these type of topics! I recently suffered a miscarriage at 22 years old my baby was 8 weeks 5 days on January 1st…not how I thought I would start the new year off but things happen for a reason…maybe I wasn’t ready but it’s difficult I keep blaming myself for losing my first baby.