Disempowering Depression | #8 | Escapes
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- Опубліковано 19 лип 2024
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For me one of my escapes is sleep. Another is watching my favorite sitcoms or funny UA-cam videos or even just cuddling with my favorite bear and sweater blankets. Or sometimes when I'm feeling depressed and alone I seek out a friend to talk to. I haven't really had many problems with depression lately though (aside from that one bit a few weeks ago).
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Exercise, particularly running, has helped get me through depression. Took me a while to see this, but seeing how it helped me I try to be consistent with running. Also, I enjoy UA-cam videos. Sometimes just visiting with my family and friends helps me escape.
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yeah, i have various forms of escapes, drawing, reading, watching youtube videos, playing video games or when all else fails sleep. i know not all of them are healthy, but at some point i just say fuck it, I'm going to live through a lonely miserable life anyway. and some of my escapes i just can't live without. mostly i look for things to distract or occupie my mind so i don't have time to think to be depressed.
exercize was my escape, just running aimlessly but cannot do that since hurting my leg. helping others is a nice escape for me, and sometimes, when it is only mild, chocolate helps.
I have also used exercise as an escape before too! I used to over-exercise from time to time which was rather problematic.
What are your thoughts on humor? I've heard too many people bitch at me for making an offensive joke. I get tired of it and I feel like they are missing the point that jokes are offensive, the absurdity is what makes it funny. They have probably also laughed or made an offensive joke. So, the hypocrisy goes both ways. Humor is also built on tragedy just like satire and parody is.
I can name a few examples:
1) Donald Duck in Nutzi Land
2) Jonathan Swift's "A Modest Proposal"
Do you think humor can be perceived as a form of escapism?
I think it can be used as a form of escape, but I've rarely ever known it to be a severe escape since it rarely has the tendency to hurt people. But I suppose anything in excess can become severe right?
Donny Winter Barely anyone wants to be the victim, there are a minority in every community that selectively use their trauma to get sympathy. There are a wide variety of why that happens and does need to be addressed.
Molestation and child sex abuse for me was a problem. I was pretty horny and outrageous as a kid.
At preschool, a teacher noticed that I was masturbating. Of course, that can be normal, but my stepdad had to be cleared by police. However, through out my childhood, I had some incidents where I would hold an eight year old boy's hand and proclaim him my boyfriend. It wasn't just him but pretty much all the boys in my class and some outside. I was too stubborn and stupid to understand that.
Then there was the incident where I went into the woods and pretty much messed around with a sixteen year old boy at just eleven or twelve for the second time of meeting while my younger half sister watched from afar, the guy told her to go wish on some magic rocks. She only saw me take my pants down. My mom lost trust for me and tried to get me under control especially since I acted out of line with her co-worker who I was told was gay. He got really uncomfortable with my flirting. My mom said I touched his hair, which might have happened. I got justifiably grounded when I should have been arrested. My mom's late ex boyfriend was furious that my mom let me get away and even come to this guy's Halloween party, especially with that retarded SpongeBob homophobic joke that I made in which Patrick Star and SpongeBob have the hots for each other, despite SpongeBob being possibly asexual or whatever. The joke made the guy uncomfortable.
I also probably did pull a prank on my cousin with kissing him, which my uncle (a few years older and I was eleven or twelve or some early teens at the time) thought was funny and probably got me involved in the prank in the first place. It likely wasn't that big of a deal since preteens and teens do that stuff more often than once and even more worse, right? However, I am a creep that should be in jail!
Not to mention that I have a troll account, is an instigator that rightfully got beaten up because of said bullying, refuses advances from guys that actually like me, and I am generally a stuck up bitch that uses her autism whenever it suits her. No wonder why mom wanted to put me in a group home!
Yes, self-blame or metaphorically crucifying myself on a pretty much daily basis. I have been compared and have compared myself to Jeffrey Dahmer due to how out of control and rebellious that we are towards our parents. My stepdad believed that homosexuality was a mental illness whereas my mom believed the opposite yet she stuck with him despite his generational beliefs and drug abuse and he and I were very similar.
I had a bias towards lesbians and didn't understand two guys being together due to being a Jesus freak.
I didn't get homophobic till I met my mom's co-worker. My pastor was vague on his definition on homosexuality and I did read the Bible and came to the stupid conclusion that homosexuality only applies to males because pretty much all of the verses in the Old Testament being male centered. Then I blamed God when I was with my mom and her ex boyfriend. I was accused of wanting to be with my mom's boyfriend's son (an adult and same age as me), because I supposedly said that I wanted to marry him, despite him already being with someone. That might be true because the son and his girlfriend reported it to my mom and his father.
I am never to be trusted. History is always doomed to repeat itself! I am a horrible human being that deserves to be beaten up.
I try to do good and do try to change but I am always to blame. The guy in the woods was my first kiss and I have joked about it, but I do realize that I was likely sexually abused. I still question myself of what I could have done differently or if my mom was right in punishing me.
I also did get cohearsed by a female neighbor (preteens and same age) into kissing her. So, yes, trauma and misunderstandings can lead to a lot of conflicts within family, religion, school and etc.
I hope I am not a bad person. Why should I let my past and past relatives and friends dictate if I am a good person.
Donny Winter Sorry about all that!