DPDR hit me when I was like 12, what triggered it is the thought "Am I really here? Is everything around me really real? What if I would have never be born? What would there be in that case?". These thoughts went so deep causing me extreme anxiety with a feeling of a force sucking me into deep nothingness. I didn't know what this was all about I didn't even know what anxiety means back then, I only knew that I am damn scared. My mother took me to a psychiatrist and after a week evaluation they said that there is nothing wrong with me. So I was trying to live my life with this crap and by the age of 15 I managed to completely burry this feeling so it no longer bothered me. Now 7 years later (it was last year, at 22) damn it awakened again, but it was ten times stronger than before, like I was just sitting doing nothing and my whole body was shaking from anxiety. This state lasted for several weeks. There was this deep fear of nothingness made me feel like I was burning alive. Then suddenly at an evening a kind realisation replaced all of this: that me is actually not a separate entity from this nothingness I was afraid of. More like I am this nothingness itself and this body and the anxious thoughts I had are just and offspring of that. This nothingness I was running away my entire life is not something to be afraid but it is love itself. We are that. The day after everything has become so peaceful and joyful at the same time. I was ecstatic even small things that bored me to death before. Made me see what it really means to be just alive. My only advice I can give is just let life flow. If you constantly analyze things with your logic you are only creating more separation. I mean yes do think, but if you are feeling miserable and you try to solve it by analyzing stuff that won't work for sure you'll only get lost. So all we have to do is just let go and that will give you a high no drug can ever give.
you really are wise beyond your years, it's refreshing to see. it's been the same way for me btw, i've always had trouble with an over active imagination, which sometimes produces interesting or beautiful things, and other times the complete opposite, or i just lose touch with the physical world altogether. i think it's something to do with not having the same filters that other people seem to have, so i just get influenced by everything and everyone, and my nervous system is dialed up to 11 all the time. sometimes i forget that that isn't normal, and then i have to bring myself back constantly in order to function, while other times it's pretty easy to be calm and collected. it's a daily struggle, but i feel like it has made me a more well-rounded and interesting person overall, and i'm able to handle it a lot better than i used to. it's hard out there, but it doesn't always have to be
I just want to say thank you for this. Hearing words like it’s okay ur healthy and everything is subjective. Just like u said I needed to hear this and I send my love and gratitude for that to you 🤍
What eased me up was recognizing we are not the sensation and thoughts,it’s all just showing up within awareness…we sometimes get tangled with it causing us to identify with it. Seeking also plays a harsh part because it’s basically says something is wrong with you when you keep seeking for knowledge. RELAX 🧘 Everyone will heal ❤
Thanks For this content girlll❤ Being a guy from Syria how is forced to go to the army (and getting k!lled u know .. its battle field like in your country Ukraine) makes me get all kind of mental issues.. but your channel and your videos just always come on point for me .. and gives me temporary heal to pass my last 300 living days on earth with you guys .. Tnx again.. don't stop pls
Meditation is a natural involvement of consciousness in all living things. It develops through 3 stages. 1.concentration 2.REFLECTION (absorbing details) 3.presence (existence) So nature exists with much concentration and reflection
Yes, I believe that scars do not disappear, but rather we are the ones who constantly grow and flourish. Pain forces the individual to take the opposite path. ... Only sometimes what I want is not to live a fake persona at the expense of my truth. I want a strong, beautiful harmony between the two. This is what I like to verify, not to recover. ... As you said, this understanding requires time, patience, and enjoying the path itself. ... Thanks, great video as usual.
Science technology biology chemistry where my way to find a kind of stable view on reality, so I became a self taught inventor, and tried to better myself, by having a reference frame that supports me. I sometimes experience things that are like processing an enormous amount of feelings or experiences so I get through it.
Thank you Liza. Nurturing, gentle, beautiful, insightful and effortless. In the most trying moment in my life. I truely believed I was beyond things like catasphysing, yet is something I am struggling with enormously. Your content is beautiful and valuable,
Nuance--controlling your mind I think is different from Liza’s poetic description of “BEING KIND TO YOUR MIND “- her story about the “let’s talk-you and me -big scary catastrophe-that’s right-I’m Not afraid to dialogue with “the worst”-after all is said and all is done you are just a possibility and right now right here I am in the great big reality you are just a floating phantom in. I was here before you showed up and I will be here when you are gone. Fear is always limited. Only love is all inclusive.” Love your enemy and in that instant you are perfect and eternal and inviting all that is pieces of the emerging whole to the word play sentence forming challenge. --Some “lyrics”inspired from Liza’s MUSEings-Looking back in from future iterations of consciousness I am certain Liza’s vlogs will be understood as nuanced song and dance equivalents
@@lizabashkova super. O kurcze no ja też, widziałem na insta że mieszkasz w Warszawie właśnie. Ale masz taki dobry Angielski że myślałem że nie jesteś Polką xd
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DPDR hit me when I was like 12, what triggered it is the thought "Am I really here? Is everything around me really real? What if I would have never be born? What would there be in that case?". These thoughts went so deep causing me extreme anxiety with a feeling of a force sucking me into deep nothingness. I didn't know what this was all about I didn't even know what anxiety means back then, I only knew that I am damn scared. My mother took me to a psychiatrist and after a week evaluation they said that there is nothing wrong with me. So I was trying to live my life with this crap and by the age of 15 I managed to completely burry this feeling so it no longer bothered me. Now 7 years later (it was last year, at 22) damn it awakened again, but it was ten times stronger than before, like I was just sitting doing nothing and my whole body was shaking from anxiety.
This state lasted for several weeks. There was this deep fear of nothingness made me feel like I was burning alive. Then suddenly at an evening a kind realisation replaced all of this: that me is actually not a separate entity from this nothingness I was afraid of. More like I am this nothingness itself and this body and the anxious thoughts I had are just and offspring of that. This nothingness I was running away my entire life is not something to be afraid but it is love itself. We are that. The day after everything has become so peaceful and joyful at the same time. I was ecstatic even small things that bored me to death before. Made me see what it really means to be just alive.
My only advice I can give is just let life flow. If you constantly analyze things with your logic you are only creating more separation. I mean yes do think, but if you are feeling miserable and you try to solve it by analyzing stuff that won't work for sure you'll only get lost. So all we have to do is just let go and that will give you a high no drug can ever give.
you really are wise beyond your years, it's refreshing to see. it's been the same way for me btw, i've always had trouble with an over active imagination, which sometimes produces interesting or beautiful things, and other times the complete opposite, or i just lose touch with the physical world altogether.
i think it's something to do with not having the same filters that other people seem to have, so i just get influenced by everything and everyone, and my nervous system is dialed up to 11 all the time. sometimes i forget that that isn't normal, and then i have to bring myself back constantly in order to function, while other times it's pretty easy to be calm and collected.
it's a daily struggle, but i feel like it has made me a more well-rounded and interesting person overall, and i'm able to handle it a lot better than i used to. it's hard out there, but it doesn't always have to be
is it the most comfortable place of the internet 😇
Very cool shirt! You are a gorgeous philosopher. Good information!
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I just want to say thank you for this. Hearing words like it’s okay ur healthy and everything is subjective. Just like u said I needed to hear this and I send my love and gratitude for that to you 🤍
Sending you love ❤️❤️
I am afraid to sleep, I choose to be lonely, my self-price is low between two us.
What eased me up was recognizing we are not the sensation and thoughts,it’s all just showing up within awareness…we sometimes get tangled with it causing us to identify with it.
Seeking also plays a harsh part because it’s basically says something is wrong with you when you keep seeking for knowledge. RELAX 🧘
Everyone will heal ❤
Thanks For this content girlll❤
Being a guy from Syria how is forced to go to the army (and getting k!lled u know .. its battle field like in your country Ukraine) makes me get all kind of mental issues.. but your channel and your videos just always come on point for me .. and gives me temporary heal to pass my last 300 living days on earth with you guys ..
Tnx again.. don't stop pls
Oh God ... wishing you all the strength and God's protection 🙏🏻❤️
Meditation is a natural involvement of consciousness in all living things. It develops through 3 stages.
1.concentration
2.REFLECTION (absorbing details)
3.presence (existence)
So nature exists with much concentration and reflection
Your channel will blow up soon, just keep at it!
Thank you so much❤🥹
Yes, I believe that scars do not disappear, but rather we are the ones who constantly grow and flourish. Pain forces the individual to take the opposite path.
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Only sometimes what I want is not to live a fake persona at the expense of my truth. I want a strong, beautiful harmony between the two. This is what I like to verify, not to recover.
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As you said, this understanding requires time, patience, and enjoying the path itself.
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Thanks, great video as usual.
You remind me of myself ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for talking openly about this
Love you dear, aww. Last 1 week I've been watching you & now you are my favorite one😊
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dude you have such a way with words, i love your goofy interjections as well lol we love to hear it
Ahh thank you😭🫶🏻
You're wise...
Science technology biology chemistry where my way to find a kind of stable view on reality, so I became a self taught inventor, and tried to better myself, by having a reference frame that supports me.
I sometimes experience things that are like processing an enormous amount of feelings or experiences so I get through it.
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I like you Liza, you have nice blue eyes and a lot of wisdom 🙂❤️
Great content for your followers from Morocco
Thank you Liza. Nurturing, gentle, beautiful, insightful and effortless. In the most trying moment in my life.
I truely believed I was beyond things like catasphysing, yet is something I am struggling with enormously.
Your content is beautiful and valuable,
I really appreciate this 🙏🏻
This was really heplful.
Amazing 👏
Nuance--controlling your mind I think is different from Liza’s poetic description of “BEING KIND TO YOUR MIND “- her story about the “let’s talk-you and me -big scary catastrophe-that’s right-I’m Not afraid to dialogue with “the worst”-after all is said and all is done you are just a possibility and right now right here I am in the great big reality you are just a floating phantom in. I was here before you showed up and I will be here when you are gone. Fear is always limited. Only love is all inclusive.” Love your enemy and in that instant you are perfect and eternal and inviting all that is pieces of the emerging whole to the word play sentence forming challenge. --Some “lyrics”inspired from Liza’s MUSEings-Looking back in from future iterations of consciousness I am certain Liza’s vlogs will be understood as nuanced song and dance equivalents
Thank you❤
You are my favorite person 😍.really... fristly i watch you vedio after that I falling in you love❤❤..
I do this too, And i have real shizoprehina and i'm still vibing😊
God's Soul is the Universe and We are One with the Universe
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thank you, I really needed this and I'm working on it
You got this!
Thank you for this.
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Appreciate this a lot🤍🤍
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Hey Liza, I found your content really amazing and thought that I could help your channel with video editing
let me know what you think about it!
How Can i contact you i need your help i been going DPDR for 2 years i am Living In hell plz i dont know What hell is wrong with me
Watch my Derealization video hope it helps you❤️ there is nothing wrong with you
@@lizabashkova thank u soo much
WHAT is your lip liner x
hahaha my normal lipcombo is a random brown liner and any lipgloss you can scroll down my shorts theres a little video
And this concrete occasion , this story, we are front oriented, not back right?
Excuse me, so there is a new home (new generations) and it is divided to two stories? Two "holy wars" ?
I got my sister the same mug except it was a panda ❤ also are you Polish?
Cute I got this mug from my sister:) yes
@@lizabashkova super. O kurcze no ja też, widziałem na insta że mieszkasz w Warszawie właśnie. Ale masz taki dobry Angielski że myślałem że nie jesteś Polką xd
@@planettobi mieszkam w Krakowie ale ten tydzien w Warszawie bylam bo matury
@@lizabashkova cooo, dopiero co robisz mature i masz taki sukces na youtube👏 powodzenia z maturą(:
Какая хорошенькая.Ничего не понимаю,но слушаю.
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I thought you were polish but then you said that ukranian`s vibes here, are you ukranian? :)))
Yepp
*I am form India ❤ are you so cute didi🥰*
schizophrenia not real EQ and your cute you forgot to remember how it lookin again tho.