Hey guys … I’m Diamond from The video … I had no idea it was uploaded until a friend of mine told me thank you for being open and honest about my story it helped her out… Mark thank you for giving me a voice it was all I ever wanted in my life. I love you so much for caring enough to do a piece on me. I love all of you in the comments it’s been giving me life again. I now understand I’m not alone. You guys just became my family. 🤍 I’m happy to be apart of the soft white underbelly family. Thank you . Blessings. 🤍🤍🤍 If anyone ever want to talk comments open.
You sought help; showed up & shared your voice. Now you inspire & help others that resonate with you! Truth is, most people have been used and abused/traumatized -- yet society says don't talk about that. Yet, thru Marks' platform & your hearts desire = you have begun to create a tsunami of other wounded birds ready to up & fly!! Didn't you know that Diamonds shine most under pressure?! Never quit!❤
Diamond. You're not alone. I feel your pain. But I was always made to feel that my feelings were invalid or fake. I was always to blame. I wished that I understood by the person that I love the most. In order to make that person feel better and not get emotionally attacked by them but wanted to feel validated. I continued to blame myself. Because of them. Loving myself is the hardest thing in the world. I'm still learning everyday on how to try my best to love myself. It's one of the hardest things to do. Because I don't ever think or feel that I could ever truly love myself. But I fight everyday because deep down I know I have people out there that do love me and care for me. However, seeing my own value and self worth is so hard to do.
I just want Diamond to know she is a special person that needs to be here. You have others who want to hear your voice, the words you want to write. You can tell us your tales. I hope she can heal and learn that she is loved. I hope she doesn't give up. Please stay strong Diamond.
Aww I love her. I am a guy who lives with BPD and it really is a tricky situation. It makes you go from zero to one hundred within seconds, it makes you see only the bad in people at times and you're constantly searching for something external to make you not feel as horrible about yourself as you do. Diamond, don't give up! Find a really good therapist and keep working on improving yourself. You are worth it.
We cant get a therapist either. And insurance dorsnt cover personality disorders. Diamond im 50. I got diagnosed last year. Im so happy you know now and can atleast know that you arent making it up. Everything you feel is real. We dont have dreams. With bpd. We only dream of a day we dont feel empty sad lost hollow . We arent crazy enough to be crazy Yet we are no where near "normal " Thats the hardest part. Looking normal being expected to maintain adult lives while inside we are in sheer torment and confusion and constant panic underneath. You dont have fears when you live in hell everyday Your brain is the scariest thing on earth..nothing compares
Not Sure What Kind of Insurance You Have That Doesn't Cover Mental Health or Disorders... I Have Medicaid Been Hospitalized Multiple Times Gone through Rehab Several Times and I Have Been in Counseling and Therapy for Decades... You Need to Call Your Insurance 😩🤷🏽♀️
I was diagnosed with this too and relate to everything she says. It's debilitating. I think it needs to be renamed as Complex PTSD though, as that's literally what it is. There's nothing inherently disordered with your personality. You're just acting in the ways that kept you safe or gave you escape as a child. This route helps to treat the actual cause, too.
@@Fudebichew1900actually the two are intrinsically linked. People with BPD always have trauma. It's not genetic and one is not born with it. BPD is usually linked to attachment trauma and or sexual abuse. I'm a therapist specializing in complex PTSD for the last 16 years
I agree. You bring up a very interesting point. There are quite a lot of overlaps between BPD and Complex PTSD symptoms and characteristics. People with BPD like “tendencies” that have a fluctuation of characteristics through their lives could easily be considered to have Complex PTSD as well.
What do you actually feel? Like what stops you from doing normal things? Does it make you violent towards people or yourself i feel like she made her emotions clear but no one really states the symptoms other than that surreal tendancy
BPD head too. Thank you Diamond for speaking your reality. You ARE heard and you made me feel not alone. All of the misdiagnoses, being over heard, under validated feelings, pushed aside, nothing is real, can’t escape in that OPEN BOX, family and friends aren’t really there because you’re so misunderstood. And all of the suicidal thoughts! So intrusive and it’s like a permanent home in your brain where it’s a constant reminder of “you aren’t really here. You’re not a real human” even when you’re genuinely laughing…there it is. I’m turning 33 and there’s others (like me) who are in your spot and I didn’t know any of this until last year! You are so far ahead and you are going to go so far baby girl! Keep working on you, it’s going to be scary but we got this ❤
Thank you for telling your story. I have multiple chronic illnesses, depression, anxiety and was just diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. Thank you for making me feel less alone by sharing your story. You are beautiful, unique and so amazing! Best wishes 🤍
She’s an intelligent young lady and very self aware. Sending ❤ & 🙏🏽. Seeing her trying to hold back her tears and not show how painful her experiences have been is heartbreaking. I love her❤❤
Her description of her experience and how she feels and perceives things is about as close to a textbook description of borderline personality disorder as you will probably ever find. Many of her descriptors have technical clinical names, and many are traits listed in the dianostic criteria for BPD, though diagnostic criteria (especially the ones for the DSM personality disorders) are not a great standard to go by. Psychodynamically she has described mood lability, emotional disregulation, depersonaliztion, Identity instability/disturbence, de-realization, perceived feelings of abandoment (separation insecurity), instense unstable relationships, external locus of control, she describes a favorite person (a borderline construct), dissociation, recurrent suicidal behavior, chronic feelings of emptiness. When she talks about what she thinks are multiple personalities (different roomates on her head), what she describes are alternate self-states. Alternate personalities in dissociative personality disorder do not have shared mental access between them. Having multiple self-states is commonly misinterpreted as mutiple personalities, but it's the consequence of a lack of an internal self-concept rather than a splitting of the self. When she talks about feeling as though people aren't there when she's not around them, she is describing introject instability--the inability to maintain internal object relations. It is one of the hallmarks of bprderline personality disorder. When she says "I wish I could be who I am," it is possibly the thing most representational of borderline personality (whether it reaches the level of disorder or not) that one could say. Unless she's misrepresenting something in some way, though it does not seem as though she is on the face of it, BPD is almost certainly an accurate diagnosis, though it almost never occurs on its own, so she will likely have a a secondary comorbitiy, or possibly her BPD is secondary, though it doesn't sound like it judging by this interview, but it is nonetheless possible. If she is not already underatking it, she would be well advised to seek dialectical behavioral therapy (DBT). It has an incredible success rate in treating and managing BPD, with over 70% or patients no longer meeting the diagnostic criteria for borderline personality disorder after anywhere from 1-5 years, depending on the study (though every study indicates similar success rates).
She hasn't spoken enough here for all you've written. I have BPD also, and the testing and trait indicators are extensive. I can relate to what she's saying, but even I know that a Dr would have her for many hours to check off boxes. The fact that she can source anything of SELF is a separator from Bi Polar (chemical related). I'm not going to go on and on, but yes DBT AND CBT are great therapies for the disorder. The best? What she's doing rn. Understanding, and just an ear is such a soothe
@@PancakeDiariesyou’re right I didn’t get to speak enough because that second I had just went through a episode right before seeing mark who was very nice. I was trying to hold myself together and plus I’m more of a writer than a talker. I can talk but writing the truth feels better. Trust me it’d had been easier to write a book than to speak. If it didn’t help you then that’s okay everyone wasn’t meant for it but please don’t talk down towards another just thanking me for speaking my own peace. Blessings 🙏 and fight on
Diamond is an absolute badass for being strong enough to break the cycle in her family. Keep going, Diamond. You are a treasure and are so incredibly important.
@@sarahalbers5555 no Ms Sarah, u don’t know her so with that being said. Mind your business. Weird ass defending 💩. U sit behind that phone screen and sulk at the fact that you’re wrong and hopefully u learned how to mind your business. 🥹🙏🏽
One of the most powerful videos I've watched on this channel in 2 years of watching! Diamond the voice you have is there and it's loud! I think your purpose is to be a light to others who are going through the same thing ❤ there's no telling how many others who will watch this and not feel alone and feel heard because of you! Sending love girl ❤
Just goes to show the power of community and the sense of belonging, feeling understood and heard which is missing for so many people on here (and those not here, I might add). I think what Mark is creating here is a sense of community which would help many. In my own head, I already have thoughts about building and expanding on this to make it even more impactful.
I appreciate this platforms’s coverage on BPD which I have seen more frequently lately. It helps immensely to ease the stigma BPD has and to understand and see its people as humans navigating the challenges it comes with. I hope we continue to see a shift in the narrative of BPD. Thank you.
@@Donpicassowe aren’t related at all … blood between us means nothing to someone who can’t care about their blood at all … I hope wherever you are you are happy and doing well for yourself. I don’t hate your anger just actions you portray such as this one. Lying against someone you are “related” to .
@@Diamond-LaBeija Your hating ass wished I got evicted lmaoo and fucked people that I was cool with. But I kinda forgive u in a way cus the God’s dem are blessing me with opportunities. Ya gonna try to make it seem like it’s me and don’t get me wrong, I play a part but the shit u done is more wild than anything else and your “friend” who I said ya was gonna fall out cus I know how ya are 😭😭 showed me this video that was sent to her by your lil sister who said she don’t even fuck with u and just using u. Shit is funny and I feel like ya gotta figure that out as I’m figuring out myself. Ya made it weird for me and now I just gotta stay on my side. U changed your last name, that’s cool. That don’t got shit to do with me.
I hope she feels better. Bpd is such a challenge to live with. Almost every time I see someone with this disorder speak, I'm relieved to know I'm not alone and someone else understands. At the same time, to know anyone else has experienced such low points breaks my heart. Don't give up Diamond! You're not alone. We're in this together and I'm cheering you on! Just gotta take it one day at a time ❤️
You are seen. My best friend had BPD and she told me everyone always told her she was hard to love and asked me if it was hard to love her I said yes sometimes but it’s totally worth the effort. The best things don’t always come easy.She was one of the best things. She gave up on life and left a huge hole in my heart and my life, I miss her every day. Please hang in there. ✨💖✨ Thanks for sharing your story.
I was diagnosed with BPD about 7 years ago plus i have anxiety and depression since i was 10 years old. My counselor told me to start a journal which I did. I dont take medicine for any of it. So I turned to other outlets music which helps I have a husband that makes me laugh which helps . I get where you are coming from, I seen you on here and I had to watch, you literally said exactly how i think and feel moat of the time. I hear you when you said you felt alone, thank you so much for sharing your story, it helps me understand I dont feel alone so much.
Dearest Diamond, you are spectacularly unique, like a beautiful unicorn. I am so grateful that you have shared your thoughts with us. My Niece was living with BPD. Sadly she lost the battle. Back when she was finally diagnosed there wasn't enough support or knowledge out there to help her. Things have progressed in the area of BPD and what I have learned is that there are two areas of support that seem to make the most sense; Dialectic Therapy and also being a member of a guided BPD Group Therapy environment. Living with BPD is possible with the right structure and support as well as your desire to participate. There will be days you don't participate, and that is 100% ok, just try and stick around for another day. I wish you peace and love and am sending you the most positive and tranquil vibes from Ireland. XOX
What a an absolutely beautiful comment, it's like a gift to another person the way you word yourself. I may be a bit unstable today but your comment made me shed quite a few tears. You're just a genuine beautiful person! Having support from someone like you must feel great. Stay true, don't change anything about how you approach people. Thank you for being you and caring about others 🩷 Love from Norway.
I doubt I'm fully BPD, but I have some of the symptoms? What I do actually have is C-PTSD. I tend to get irritable because I easily get overloaded, mentally and emotionally, with severe anxiety. I also have a lot of concentration problems that may be trauma related. (Or undiagnosed ADHD) Just noting. I used to be a lot more dissociated- mentally tuned out, spaced out, numb. I like people, but I'm afraid they'll hurt me. My dad was severely abusive, so I've experienced someone I loved tremendously just destroying me when I was a little kid.
I can relate so much!! From wanting to die everyday, to being fragmented, isolated, depressed, no voice, not feeling like your alive or seen from preeschool age. Feeling like your the only one experiencing this is the hardest thing. Im 46 and i want you to know i no longer feel like this 24 hours a day. I too grew up alone with no real attachments or bonds. After intensive therapy 3 days a week for 3 years i feel 95 percent better!! I havent wanted to die in 8 years. I can't remember a time i didn't. Your on the planet for a reason. You are important, you are cared about and you dont have to always feel this way!! Cognitive therapy in particular was really helpful to me!! Keep going!! We are rooting for you!!❤❤❤🤗🤗🙏🙏
So happy for you, Diamond, that you reached out to Mark and were selected for an interview. Thank you for sharing your life with us today. I can just see you reading through your comment section, you will find MUCH support and encouragement in Mark's community. AND YOUR JOYFULNESS DOES SHINE THROUGH. It is also an integral part of whom you are and how you present to the world. Since you like to write, have you ever considered blogging? It would be something you can own yourself and work from home. It takes a while to produce money, but it can grow nicely if you hang in there with it. All the best to you and your bf. He sounds special and understanding. {{{{{Big hugs}}}}} from NH and God Bless! ❤❤❤
I think this interview is probably the best one yet on BPD. She summarizes it in feelings. This disorder is serious. Research has shown approximately 70 percent of people with borderline personality disorder will attempt suicide at least once in their lifetimes. About 10 percent complete the act. This suicide rate is higher than any other psychiatric disorder. I'm hoping you can interview someone who has had therapy and in remission. It can happen. Hope is there!
Such a sweet, sweet woman aww. I loved when she called her bf her spouse “this whole time” that’s just adorable. I hope they both find better environments to live their lives to the fullest! People like her are so close to greatness but without proper social resources they’re left to horrible institutions
“I’m not really good at keeping things. I think that’s part of the disorder. Like keeping a job, etc…” that part in this video really resonated with me. Personally as someone who’s had BPD for 7 years now I have not been able to hold down anything or anyone for very long. It’s like my moods are constantly changing and I’m so prone to splitting that I lose everyone and everything. I can relate.
You made me feel less alone. Thank you. When he asked if you had been through mental struggles and you laughed...I felt that laugh in my soul. I know that laugh. I react that way too. Keep up the fight, and thanks for being brave enough to do this.
Oh Diamond, keep trying girl. I know some days you feel like your walking through quicksand, but keep walking! You'll figure it out! Glad you've got a therapist that SEE'S you right now...Thanks from all of us that needed to hear you today. Love of yourself is powerful. And you're so right, It doesn't matter what people think. Just know that we hear you and you are Worthy! 💙🌎
Stay strong, Diamond. You have a kind & gentle nature that shines through. I’m sure you could be an amazing therapist. Wishing you peace and strength. I hope this experience is the reinforcement you need. ✨💖✨
Diamond, I'm SO proud of you for having the courage to come speak on this channel. God put you on this earth for a reason, that is the God given truth. Don't give up on yourself girl. 💞
@@Donpicassoyou’re that miserable ? It eats you up inside that I can speak the truth ? Bro go worry about taking your next benedryl pilll or sipping Hennessy with it. Bullying was never cool.
The world is a better place with Diamond in it sharing whatever she feels compelled to share. I love your story, Diamond. Not because it is a joyful, positive, feel-good story, but because I connected with it and through it with you. It's more real to me than most anything I hear or see out here in my life-raft on the ocean of bits and bytes begging for my attention. That's also what I love about this channel.
Oh, beautiful Diamond, I’m so sorry for everything you’ve been through. But look at you, you’re still here and I’m so incredibly proud of you! I too have BPD, so I understand you. You are not alone, ever. Sending you all my love ❤️
You are loved. Keep pushing through. A good friend told me the other day there’s purpose in not belonging, it’s really allowed me to see things differently.
Diamond, you are a beautiful person inside and out. Thank you for sharing your story. My husband struggles with mental health. We thought he had BPD, but he's now being treated for bi polar. We are still working on a proper diagnosis. By sharing your story you are helping so many people so thank you
Diamond you are not alone. I was raped by a family member and was told to never talk about or tell anyone - it took me a long time to find my voice too. You bring intelligence, beauty and insight into this world and help others feel like we are not alone in the world too. Thank you. 🙏🏻
I can relate to alot of wht Diamond 💎 is saying especially the feeling invisible at times and just wanting to be heard and understood..but as a guy I've had to suppress it all the time which isn't healthy either and being misdiagnosed,given the wrong medications,facing judgment and isolation etc..anyways thanx for being brave enough to tell ur story I and many others appreciate u for doing this and can relate to wht ur going through..now u found ur voice I wasn't going to watch this one but really glad I did...funny thing is I've considered being on SWUB too but ur a strong woman keep ur head up...like they say pressure makes Diamonds🤙
Diamond, you are such a beautiful person! Please don’t give up the good fight, Darling. Life is so tough but in the end it will be worth it. You are going to touch so many people in your life through sharing your story. Continue to push through your writers block and pursue those books on your Google drive. You can and will make a difference. Just from watching this I can say, I love you. Keep being who you are because you are so special. ❤
This young lady is a shining example of people you may or may not know who smile through pain every day. Never assume you know someone based on what you see.I wish you all the best Diamond.
Wishing I could give you a big hug. We see you even when it’s hard to see yourself. You are alive. You deserve to be here. I want you to be here. Hang on mama.
Persistent suicidal ideation is a common trait for BPD sufferers. Feeling like you have several people in your head telling you what to do is also another trait. That comes from the dysfunction in a family unit. I deal with this crap every day of my life, making decisions is difficult to say the least. I hope Diamond keeps getting the care she needs ❤❤
@@Fudebichew1900 not true. I don’t hear voices, this is very different. Growing up in a dysfunctional family means there are many people telling you how to handle things in different ways. When it’s up to you to make the decisions which person (voice) do you listen to (mom, dad, uncle, yourself maybe?). How do you know which one is right? When you’ve had so much dysfunction your decision making is all screwed up. Please educate yourself before passing around diagnoses
I recommend the book „Building a Life Worth Living“ by Marsha Linehan. Marsha has borderline personality disorder herself and went through hell with it. When she made it out she became a scientist and developed the most successful therapy for people with BPD, the dialectical-behavioral therapy. Marsha and her story is truly inspiring
Mark, thank you for giving Diamond the opportunity to be heard. Diamond, I hear you. I cannot imagine getting raped and not only not being believed but being made fun of. I totally get the humor as a coping mechanism and I hope you are able to get the help you need. You would make an amazing therapist and I wish you all the best.
Great interview Diamond!you're so brave too! My boyfriend has BPD and he struggles with alot of the same things you mentioned. You did such a great job with.your interview
So sorry no one believed you or was there for you in your darkest times. I get that your life is extremely difficult dealing with different conditions, but please know that you are valuable and worth it. You’re still here for a reason. Thank you for reaching out and sharing your story. Praying things get better.❤
Beautiful soul. You have no idea how much your story will help so many people dealing with the same issues. Without realizing, you are being the helping person to others that you yourself have been searching for. Keep speaking because someone is finding hope because of your story. ❤❤
sending you love diamond. ❤ i am dealing with depersonalization and derealization lately, i was told that was a symptom that bpd has. you sharing your story is so helpful, i hear you.
Diamond l used to suffer from loop thoughts and suicidal thoughts. All my life! I’m now 53. I don’t get it anymore. You’re right medication doesn’t work for BPD. For me getting out in nature, writing and gardening really helped. I also microdosed on mushrooms. That was a game changer. I also an a carer. I could never hold down a job until I started looking after people with disabilities. I’ve now done it for 13 years. You don’t have to be “ fixed” you are perfect how are. There is no such thing as “ NORMAL’. 98 % of people are “ weird “ or struggle. I find having an attitude of gratitude helps. Even if it’s a few things like grateful for being alive- for your partner, for being a survivor and grateful for your ability to express yourself so well. You are so young, things do get easier sweetheart
Dear Diamond! I loved listening to you, your voice and your story! I was just diagnosed with BPD and I'm 54 ( and I felt so relieved ) so your trying and your bravery helps me a lot! The box analogy is so true! Sweetheart try DBT ( dialectical behavior therapy) meditation, mindfulness. Your interview is amazing and the first one that made me write a comment in Marc's channel. I thank YOU! ❣️
Diamond if you are seeing this then you are heard. Thank you so much for this interview. I feel like I can relate to everything you’ve said. Stay strong, I love you ❤
As a therapist, Borderline Personality Disorder is a difficult disorder to live with; however, it can be treated with Dialectical Behavior Therapy, which teaches individuals how to emotionally regulate, and it's evidence based. Finding a therapist that the best therapeutic fit for treatment will make a tremendous difference. Help is available, and a good life is possible.
She has Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ,...because of the cross over in symptoms people frequently end up with the label Borderline Personality Disorder
We see you & hear you Diamond! Thank you for being vulnerable and authentic with us. You said you want to help others, but feel like you can’t because you are stuck…but the reality is that you ARE helping others just by allowing yourself to be seen and giving others a chance to relate & not feel alone with BPD. My heart goes out to you. & Thank you Mark for this channel & reaching so many ❤️
Sending light & love to Diamond 💎. I concur that BPD is often misrepresented, misdiagnosed,,and misunderstood! Personally, when I'm on a downturn, it feels more like PTSD. Keep up.the great work Mark!
Diamond, if you end up reading this, I want you to know that you are far beyond your years. An old soul. I don’t think you realise how smart, intelligent pretty and ‘sarcastically’ funny you are when you laugh at yourself. You’re awesome. And whoever gets the chance to be in your life is a lucky person. I’m at 34 yr old, pale white, first generation Greek to be born in Melbourne, Australia. Yet I feel you’re another me out there. We’re not alone, we are few but we’re out there who have the same mental health or physical health conditions. We suffer, hurt and have fear but we can also overcome whether on our own or by seeking help for it. We got this! You’ve got this! Thank you ❤
It is the lonliest existence and everyone thinks you are exagerating. Or lying. Or want attention. Or wont "just be" or just live or jyst snap out of it" Being gaslit your whole life makes you miserable and drives you insane I hate that i am this Its a horrible life And people who love you Think you create it. I too had SA brushed off by my mother its worst feeling you can have. We are treated inhumanly And are more human than anyone. Diamond please know that youve made it through tge worst time You made it through that place and rape and i am so sorry you know how this feels . Ty for doing this interview Diamond. This Chanel helps us alot mark No one hears anything people with BPD say. Or believes. Its the lonliest existence you can imagine
This is the only place where I see raw authentic people. I am always surprised at how REAL they are. (You can tell the ones that are BSing.). She deserves love. Such a beautiful interesting soul.
Mark, you need to rent a room where these people can meet up and talk about things. Diamond, girl you keep going and your not alone. Your beautiful, funny and have a lot to offer. Your loved more than you know.
I love your honesty Diamond. Thank you for speaking to us about the difficulties you and many others have with mental illness. I believe you are strong and you do have hope now. Don’t give up… we love you being yourself today 💛🙏🏼
Thank you for sharing your story. It touched my heart but you really got me in my feelings when you said you just wanted to be heard and seen. I feel you. And I agree, Mark’s channel helps me, too. I hope you find peace and happiness. 😊
I thought she was in her 20s. She’s very smart, self aware and poised. I hope someone helps her heal whether it be a psychiatrist, Mark, friend or a combo of all.
As a borderline myself, this video hit home for me. Everything you say is either similar or exactly the same as my experience. I hope this posts finds everyone healthy and well. I appreciate you sharing your experience. All the best
Diamond you are a beautiful soul, please know you are not alone. Thank you for sharing your story. It's powerful and will help others. Your courage to break the cycle is amazing and I wish you so much love x
I hear you loud & clear & I understand. Gosh you’re so beautiful! Head full of hair beautiful milky skin face card not declining even crying lol🥰 I’m rooting for you!! I hope your doing well thank u sir for this interview 🙌🏾
Thank you so much for sharing I related to SO MUCH.. I’m so grateful for this channel finding others who struggle in the same way. I have ADD and BPD but havnt told anyone about bpd for fear of stigma.. I too watch this till I go to sleep. You are such a genuine, intelligent, likeable, gentle thoughtful soul.. valuable qualities in this world.. this world needs people like you. I can see why people talk to you. I hope you find meaning and happiness and some more good people in your life, you deserve it! ❤
Mark, i love your videos & i never comment on them usually but i felt the need to for this one. Diamond, i feel like i relate to you so much. I admire you coming up here to tell your story & to be heard. i am rooting for you!
Diamond, you have a great laugh & smile! You come across as a warm, endearing, resilent human. :) Your words have power & thank you for sharing your story. I can see it helping others & helping you! It makes me sad thinking how people w mental health struggles are sometimes treated when they are in crisis. Mental health care can be wonderful & life changing but also can be scare and lacking. I do hope good mental health care is accessible to all soon. Wishing you the very best life has to offer. You deserve it. :)
It's so fucking hard with this disorder we don't understand at times why we do things we do but we have the biggest hearts. We are individuals trying to be seen and be worthy of love.
My brother has BPD and Narcissism. He's a mess. He's his own worst enemy and has burnt lots of bridges. No one wants to be around him. I dont know how to help him. I dont think the meds help much. She wants help and thats huge most people have no idea they have mental issues. If they know they fight it and dont want help. Good luck to her. Keep fighting.
Hey guys … I’m Diamond from
The video … I had no idea it was uploaded until a friend of mine told me thank you for being open and honest about my story it helped her out… Mark thank you for giving me a voice it was all I ever wanted in my life. I love you so much for caring enough to do a piece on me. I love all of you in the comments it’s been giving me life again. I now understand I’m not alone. You guys just became my family. 🤍 I’m happy to be apart of the soft white underbelly family. Thank you . Blessings. 🤍🤍🤍 If anyone ever want to talk comments open.
Can we talk is there a way I can contact you or email you
Hope your doing better wish I can speak to you wish you many blessings
You sought help; showed up & shared your voice. Now you inspire & help others that resonate with you! Truth is, most people have been used and abused/traumatized -- yet society says don't talk about that. Yet, thru Marks' platform & your hearts desire = you have begun to create a tsunami of other wounded birds ready to up & fly!! Didn't you know that Diamonds shine most under pressure?! Never quit!❤
Diamond. You're not alone. I feel your pain. But I was always made to feel that my feelings were invalid or fake. I was always to blame.
I wished that I understood by the person that I love the most.
In order to make that person feel better and not get emotionally attacked by them but wanted to feel validated.
I continued to blame myself.
Because of them.
Loving myself is the hardest thing in the world.
I'm still learning everyday on how to try my best to love myself.
It's one of the hardest things to do. Because I don't ever think or feel that I could ever truly love myself.
But I fight everyday because deep down I know I have people out there that do love me and care for me.
However, seeing my own value and self worth is so hard to do.
This one hit hard, I’m in tears, this is me exactly, I have bpd ptsd and eupd, it’s a horrible disease of the mind, you seem lovely ❤ you got this ❤
I just want Diamond to know she is a special person that needs to be here. You have others who want to hear your voice, the words you want to write. You can tell us your tales. I hope she can heal and learn that she is loved. I hope she doesn't give up. Please stay strong Diamond.
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Stop simping.
Bless You Sweet Lady❤❤❤
Sending positive thoughts and prayers to you amazing Diamond✨️💖✨️🙏🏾✨️💎✨️
You got all that worked out in 20 min
Aww I love her. I am a guy who lives with BPD and it really is a tricky situation. It makes you go from zero to one hundred within seconds, it makes you see only the bad in people at times and you're constantly searching for something external to make you not feel as horrible about yourself as you do. Diamond, don't give up! Find a really good therapist and keep working on improving yourself. You are worth it.
We cant get a therapist either.
And insurance dorsnt cover personality disorders.
Diamond im 50.
I got diagnosed last year. Im so happy you know now and can atleast know that you arent making it up. Everything you feel is real. We dont have dreams. With bpd. We only dream of a day we dont feel empty sad lost hollow .
We arent crazy enough to be crazy
Yet we are no where near "normal "
Thats the hardest part.
Looking normal being expected to maintain adult lives while inside we are in sheer torment and confusion and constant panic underneath.
You dont have fears when you live in hell everyday
Your brain is the scariest thing on earth..nothing compares
Not Sure What Kind of Insurance You Have That Doesn't Cover Mental Health or Disorders... I Have Medicaid Been Hospitalized Multiple Times Gone through Rehab Several Times and I Have Been in Counseling and Therapy for Decades... You Need to Call Your Insurance 😩🤷🏽♀️
“Sometimes I watch your channel till I fall asleep” - SAME
I watch this channel every night till I drop my phone because I've fallen asleep too.
The box analogy is absolute perfection.
I didn’t know how to describe it and as a writer I can write it better 🤍
I was diagnosed with this too and relate to everything she says. It's debilitating. I think it needs to be renamed as Complex PTSD though, as that's literally what it is. There's nothing inherently disordered with your personality. You're just acting in the ways that kept you safe or gave you escape as a child. This route helps to treat the actual cause, too.
@@Fudebichew1900thank you they truly are Teo different disorders...I suffered greatly either bpd😢
@@Fudebichew1900actually the two are intrinsically linked. People with BPD always have trauma. It's not genetic and one is not born with it. BPD is usually linked to attachment trauma and or sexual abuse. I'm a therapist specializing in complex PTSD for the last 16 years
@@Fudebichew1900 CPTSD is different to ptsd my friend
I agree. You bring up a very interesting point. There are quite a lot of overlaps between BPD and Complex PTSD symptoms and characteristics. People with BPD like “tendencies” that have a fluctuation of characteristics through their lives could easily be considered to have Complex PTSD as well.
What do you actually feel? Like what stops you from doing normal things? Does it make you violent towards people or yourself i feel like she made her emotions clear but no one really states the symptoms other than that surreal tendancy
BPD head too. Thank you Diamond for speaking your reality. You ARE heard and you made me feel not alone. All of the misdiagnoses, being over heard, under validated feelings, pushed aside, nothing is real, can’t escape in that OPEN BOX, family and friends aren’t really there because you’re so misunderstood. And all of the suicidal thoughts! So intrusive and it’s like a permanent home in your brain where it’s a constant reminder of “you aren’t really here. You’re not a real human” even when you’re genuinely laughing…there it is. I’m turning 33 and there’s others (like me) who are in your spot and I didn’t know any of this until last year! You are so far ahead and you are going to go so far baby girl! Keep working on you, it’s going to be scary but we got this ❤
Xxx same girl
It’s CAP 🤦🏽♂️
Thank you for telling your story. I have multiple chronic illnesses, depression, anxiety and was just diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. Thank you for making me feel less alone by sharing your story. You are beautiful, unique and so amazing! Best wishes 🤍
You aren’t alone … we aren’t alone … the only ones alone is the other side. We can live though if we choose. We can win the war.
She’s an intelligent young lady and very self aware. Sending ❤ & 🙏🏽.
Seeing her trying to hold back her tears and not show how painful her experiences have been is heartbreaking. I love her❤❤
Absolutely nothing in this video indicates she’s intelligent, stop the bs.
Thank you so much … I actually was experiencing an episode right before seeing Mark … I didn’t expect to talk much but he helped make it easy 🤍
Stop the cap. Sympathy points ain’t getting u nowhere Lebeja
Her description of her experience and how she feels and perceives things is about as close to a textbook description of borderline personality disorder as you will probably ever find. Many of her descriptors have technical clinical names, and many are traits listed in the dianostic criteria for BPD, though diagnostic criteria (especially the ones for the DSM personality disorders) are not a great standard to go by. Psychodynamically she has described mood lability, emotional disregulation, depersonaliztion, Identity instability/disturbence, de-realization, perceived feelings of abandoment (separation insecurity), instense unstable relationships, external locus of control, she describes a favorite person (a borderline construct), dissociation, recurrent suicidal behavior, chronic feelings of emptiness. When she talks about what she thinks are multiple personalities (different roomates on her head), what she describes are alternate self-states. Alternate personalities in dissociative personality disorder do not have shared mental access between them. Having multiple self-states is commonly misinterpreted as mutiple personalities, but it's the consequence of a lack of an internal self-concept rather than a splitting of the self. When she talks about feeling as though people aren't there when she's not around them, she is describing introject instability--the inability to maintain internal object relations. It is one of the hallmarks of bprderline personality disorder. When she says "I wish I could be who I am," it is possibly the thing most representational of borderline personality (whether it reaches the level of disorder or not) that one could say. Unless she's misrepresenting something in some way, though it does not seem as though she is on the face of it, BPD is almost certainly an accurate diagnosis, though it almost never occurs on its own, so she will likely have a a secondary comorbitiy, or possibly her BPD is secondary, though it doesn't sound like it judging by this interview, but it is nonetheless possible. If she is not already underatking it, she would be well advised to seek dialectical behavioral therapy (DBT). It has an incredible success rate in treating and managing BPD, with over 70% or patients no longer meeting the diagnostic criteria for borderline personality disorder after anywhere from 1-5 years, depending on the study (though every study indicates similar success rates).
She hasn't spoken enough here for all you've written. I have BPD also, and the testing and trait indicators are extensive. I can relate to what she's saying, but even I know that a Dr would have her for many hours to check off boxes. The fact that she can source anything of SELF is a separator from Bi Polar (chemical related). I'm not going to go on and on, but yes DBT AND CBT are great therapies for the disorder. The best? What she's doing rn. Understanding, and just an ear is such a soothe
@@PancakeDiariesyou’re right I didn’t get to speak enough because that second I had just went through a episode right before seeing mark who was very nice. I was trying to hold myself together and plus I’m more of a writer than a talker. I can talk but writing the truth feels better. Trust me it’d had been easier to write a book than to speak. If it didn’t help you then that’s okay everyone wasn’t meant for it but please don’t talk down towards another just thanking me for speaking my own peace. Blessings 🙏 and fight on
Diamond is an absolute badass for being strong enough to break the cycle in her family. Keep going, Diamond. You are a treasure and are so incredibly important.
Thank you 🤍
She’s cappin
You keep saying that. Please stop.
@@sarahalbers5555 no Ms Sarah, u don’t know her so with that being said. Mind your business. Weird ass defending 💩. U sit behind that phone screen and sulk at the fact that you’re wrong and hopefully u learned how to mind your business. 🥹🙏🏽
One of the most powerful videos I've watched on this channel in 2 years of watching! Diamond the voice you have is there and it's loud! I think your purpose is to be a light to others who are going through the same thing ❤ there's no telling how many others who will watch this and not feel alone and feel heard because of you! Sending love girl ❤
absolutely agree!
Thank you 🤍
Means a lot to me
It’s CAP 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️
Just goes to show the power of community and the sense of belonging, feeling understood and heard which is missing for so many people on here (and those not here, I might add). I think what Mark is creating here is a sense of community which would help many. In my own head, I already have thoughts about building and expanding on this to make it even more impactful.
This!!!!!🫶🏽
Thank you a Mark for giving her a place to share her story and us to hear her voice
I appreciate this platforms’s coverage on BPD which I have seen more frequently lately. It helps immensely to ease the stigma BPD has and to understand and see its people as humans navigating the challenges it comes with. I hope we continue to see a shift in the narrative of BPD. Thank you.
@@Donpicasso :(
Thank you for listening 🤍 it is hard to deal with
@@Donpicassowe aren’t related at all … blood between us means nothing to someone who can’t care about their blood at all … I hope wherever you are you are happy and doing well for yourself. I don’t hate your anger just actions you portray such as this one. Lying against someone you are “related” to .
@@Diamond-LaBeija Your hating ass wished I got evicted lmaoo and fucked people that I was cool with. But I kinda forgive u in a way cus the God’s dem are blessing me with opportunities. Ya gonna try to make it seem like it’s me and don’t get me wrong, I play a part but the shit u done is more wild than anything else and your “friend” who I said ya was gonna fall out cus I know how ya are 😭😭 showed me this video that was sent to her by your lil sister who said she don’t even fuck with u and just using u. Shit is funny and I feel like ya gotta figure that out as I’m figuring out myself. Ya made it weird for me and now I just gotta stay on my side. U changed your last name, that’s cool. That don’t got shit to do with me.
Same one that told me u got videos on twitter of u fucking, made a onlyfans and shit. U know someone named Eli? 🤦🏽♂️
I hope she feels better. Bpd is such a challenge to live with. Almost every time I see someone with this disorder speak, I'm relieved to know I'm not alone and someone else understands. At the same time, to know anyone else has experienced such low points breaks my heart.
Don't give up Diamond! You're not alone. We're in this together and I'm cheering you on! Just gotta take it one day at a time ❤️
I'm also diagnosed with BPD and I just want to let you know that you are not alone. sending lots of love your way ❤
We got this. Thank you for caring 💐🤍
A lot of those teen residential programs are horrible. The one Diamond went to clearly retraumatized her.
You are seen. My best friend had BPD and she told me everyone always told her she was hard to love and asked me if it was hard to love her I said yes sometimes but it’s totally worth the effort. The best things don’t always come easy.She was one of the best things. She gave up on life and left a huge hole in my heart and my life, I miss her every day. Please hang in there. ✨💖✨ Thanks for sharing your story.
I was diagnosed with BPD about 7 years ago plus i have anxiety and depression since i was 10 years old. My counselor told me to start a journal which I did. I dont take medicine for any of it. So I turned to other outlets music which helps I have a husband that makes me laugh which helps . I get where you are coming from, I seen you on here and I had to watch, you literally said exactly how i think and feel moat of the time. I hear you when you said you felt alone, thank you so much for sharing your story, it helps me understand I dont feel alone so much.
Wow I was diagnosed with BPD before my 40th birthday. I couldn't get out of bed. The only outlet I had was writing and recording music.
Wow, did u know that she’s lying in this video???
It hurts my soul knowing that others deal with my same pain... Thank you for sharing your story with us. I'm so glad you're still here.
Your story brings me to tears. You are seen. Please know that you are beautiful and your life matters.
Dearest Diamond, you are spectacularly unique, like a beautiful unicorn. I am so grateful that you have shared your thoughts with us. My Niece was living with BPD. Sadly she lost the battle. Back when she was finally diagnosed there wasn't enough support or knowledge out there to help her. Things have progressed in the area of BPD and what I have learned is that there are two areas of support that seem to make the most sense; Dialectic Therapy and also being a member of a guided BPD Group Therapy environment. Living with BPD is possible with the right structure and support as well as your desire to participate. There will be days you don't participate, and that is 100% ok, just try and stick around for another day. I wish you peace and love and am sending you the most positive and tranquil vibes from Ireland. XOX
What a an absolutely beautiful comment, it's like a gift to another person the way you word yourself.
I may be a bit unstable today but your comment made me shed quite a few tears.
You're just a genuine beautiful person!
Having support from someone like you must feel great.
Stay true, don't change anything about how you approach people.
Thank you for being you and caring about others 🩷
Love from Norway.
I doubt I'm fully BPD, but I have some of the symptoms?
What I do actually have is C-PTSD.
I tend to get irritable because I easily get overloaded, mentally and emotionally, with severe anxiety.
I also have a lot of concentration problems that may be trauma related.
(Or undiagnosed ADHD)
Just noting.
I used to be a lot more dissociated-
mentally tuned out, spaced out, numb.
I like people, but I'm afraid they'll hurt me. My dad was severely abusive, so I've experienced someone I loved tremendously just destroying me when I was a little kid.
I hope you can find some peace. Bless you ❤
That sounds about right . I pray you have peace I’m always here if you want to talk.
@@Diamond-LaBeija
Thanks, added.❤️
I can relate so much!! From wanting to die everyday, to being fragmented, isolated, depressed, no voice, not feeling like your alive or seen from preeschool age. Feeling like your the only one experiencing this is the hardest thing. Im 46 and i want you to know i no longer feel like this 24 hours a day. I too grew up alone with no real attachments or bonds. After intensive therapy 3 days a week for 3 years i feel 95 percent better!! I havent wanted to die in 8 years. I can't remember a time i didn't.
Your on the planet for a reason. You are important, you are cared about and you dont have to always feel this way!! Cognitive therapy in particular was really helpful to me!! Keep going!! We are rooting for you!!❤❤❤🤗🤗🙏🙏
God bless you,ask for ability it will help❤🙏🏿
I’m so happy to hear this .
So happy for you, Diamond, that you reached out to Mark and were selected for an interview. Thank you for sharing your life with us today. I can just see you reading through your comment section, you will find MUCH support and encouragement in Mark's community. AND YOUR JOYFULNESS DOES SHINE THROUGH. It is also an integral part of whom you are and how you present to the world.
Since you like to write, have you ever considered blogging? It would be something you can own yourself and work from home. It takes a while to produce money, but it can grow nicely if you hang in there with it. All the best to you and your bf. He sounds special and understanding. {{{{{Big hugs}}}}} from NH and God Bless! ❤❤❤
I think this interview is probably the best one yet on BPD. She summarizes it in feelings. This disorder is serious. Research has shown approximately 70 percent of people with borderline personality disorder will attempt suicide at least once in their lifetimes. About 10 percent complete the act. This suicide rate is higher than any other psychiatric disorder. I'm hoping you can interview someone who has had therapy and in remission. It can happen. Hope is there!
Such a sweet, sweet woman aww. I loved when she called her bf her spouse “this whole time” that’s just adorable. I hope they both find better environments to live their lives to the fullest! People like her are so close to greatness but without proper social resources they’re left to horrible institutions
I thought spouse just meant your other half too 🤷🏼♀️ pretty sure it does 😂
Lmfao I really thought it meant boyfriend lol no one taught me … thank you for this message it means a lot to me 🤍
She’s CAPPIN 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️
Mom’s gonna get the belt 😂😂😂
“I’m not really good at keeping things. I think that’s part of the disorder. Like keeping a job, etc…” that part in this video really resonated with me. Personally as someone who’s had BPD for 7 years now I have not been able to hold down anything or anyone for very long. It’s like my moods are constantly changing and I’m so prone to splitting that I lose everyone and everything. I can relate.
Don’t get me wrong sometimes the job can push your limits but sometimes the disorder self sabotages .. most times it’s hard to differentiate.
I hope you remain well 🤍 we got this
You made me feel less alone. Thank you. When he asked if you had been through mental struggles and you laughed...I felt that laugh in my soul. I know that laugh. I react that way too.
Keep up the fight, and thanks for being brave enough to do this.
Thank you for sharing this Diamond 💛 You are a light & you have so much empathy!
Oh Diamond, keep trying girl. I know some days you feel like your walking through quicksand, but keep walking! You'll figure it out! Glad you've got a therapist that SEE'S you right now...Thanks from all of us that needed to hear you today. Love of yourself is powerful. And you're so right, It doesn't matter what people think. Just know that we hear you and you are Worthy! 💙🌎
Stay strong, Diamond. You have a kind & gentle nature that shines through. I’m sure you could be an amazing therapist. Wishing you peace and strength. I hope this experience is the reinforcement you need. ✨💖✨
I still come back to watch this knowing we’re in the same city/state and maybe I’ll see her and we can talk because I need people.
I have Borderline ADHD Disorder. I find so much inspiration from listening to these stories. I’m not alone.
Diamond, I'm SO proud of you for having the courage to come speak on this channel. God put you on this earth for a reason, that is the God given truth. Don't give up on yourself girl. 💞
Don’t drink the CAPpuccino
@@Donpicassoyou’re that miserable ? It eats you up inside that I can speak the truth ? Bro go worry about taking your next benedryl pilll or sipping Hennessy with it. Bullying was never cool.
Mark ty for listening to her, just having one person listen and not judge probably has saved her , for a while. Please keep in touch with her
love this. I have also recently been diagnosed with BPD after years of misdiagnosis or just feeling like an outcast.
Welcome 🤍 wish you well in this battle
Diamond I have BPD too and I know soooo many who do also. You are not alone! I love you and see you and most importantly hear you.
The world is a better place with Diamond in it sharing whatever she feels compelled to share. I love your story, Diamond. Not because it is a joyful, positive, feel-good story, but because I connected with it and through it with you. It's more real to me than most anything I hear or see out here in my life-raft on the ocean of bits and bytes begging for my attention. That's also what I love about this channel.
Oh, beautiful Diamond, I’m so sorry for everything you’ve been through. But look at you, you’re still here and I’m so incredibly proud of you! I too have BPD, so I understand you. You are not alone, ever. Sending you all my love ❤️
We battle together 🤍 thank you for watching
Diamond, you are here for so many. Your insights have given me things to think about my own daughter. I am forever grateful to you! You are beautiful.
You are loved. Keep pushing through. A good friend told me the other day there’s purpose in not belonging, it’s really allowed me to see things differently.
I have BPD and I can relate to her so much
Me too 😔
Same!!
I like diamond. We need a part 2. Shes very interesting.
If Mark says okay … I’ll be around 🤍
Diamond, you are a beautiful person inside and out. Thank you for sharing your story. My husband struggles with mental health. We thought he had BPD, but he's now being treated for bi polar. We are still working on a proper diagnosis. By sharing your story you are helping so many people so thank you
Diamond you are not alone. I was raped by a family member and was told to never talk about or tell anyone - it took me a long time to find my voice too. You bring intelligence, beauty and insight into this world and help others feel like we are not alone in the world too. Thank you. 🙏🏻
I’m so sorry for you … you are very special and amazing and you are heard .. thank you for hearing me 🤍
Her laugh and her smile means a lot. I'm going through some hurdles myself and your energy is powerful and lovable
I can relate to alot of wht Diamond 💎 is saying especially the feeling invisible at times and just wanting to be heard and understood..but as a guy I've had to suppress it all the time which isn't healthy either and being misdiagnosed,given the wrong medications,facing judgment and isolation etc..anyways thanx for being brave enough to tell ur story I and many others appreciate u for doing this and can relate to wht ur going through..now u found ur voice I wasn't going to watch this one but really glad I did...funny thing is I've considered being on SWUB too but ur a strong woman keep ur head up...like they say pressure makes Diamonds🤙
Diamond, you are such a beautiful person! Please don’t give up the good fight, Darling. Life is so tough but in the end it will be worth it. You are going to touch so many people in your life through sharing your story. Continue to push through your writers block and pursue those books on your Google drive. You can and will make a difference. Just from watching this I can say, I love you. Keep being who you are because you are so special. ❤
This young lady is a shining example of people you may or may not know who smile through pain every day. Never assume you know someone based on what you see.I wish you all the best Diamond.
Wishing I could give you a big hug. We see you even when it’s hard to see yourself. You are alive. You deserve to be here. I want you to be here. Hang on mama.
Persistent suicidal ideation is a common trait for BPD sufferers. Feeling like you have several people in your head telling you what to do is also another trait. That comes from the dysfunction in a family unit. I deal with this crap every day of my life, making decisions is difficult to say the least.
I hope Diamond keeps getting the care she needs ❤❤
@@Fudebichew1900 not true. I don’t hear voices, this is very different. Growing up in a dysfunctional family means there are many people telling you how to handle things in different ways. When it’s up to you to make the decisions which person (voice) do you listen to (mom, dad, uncle, yourself maybe?). How do you know which one is right?
When you’ve had so much dysfunction your decision making is all screwed up.
Please educate yourself before passing around diagnoses
The joyful part broke me down. I get it, Diamond. Thank you for your courage
This one hit hard, I’m in tears, this is me exactly, I have bpd ptsd and eupd, it’s a horrible disease of the mind, she seems lovely ❤
I recommend the book „Building a Life Worth Living“ by Marsha Linehan. Marsha has borderline personality disorder herself and went through hell with it. When she made it out she became a scientist and developed the most successful therapy for people with BPD, the dialectical-behavioral therapy. Marsha and her story is truly inspiring
Mark, thank you for giving Diamond the opportunity to be heard. Diamond, I hear you. I cannot imagine getting raped and not only not being believed but being made fun of. I totally get the humor as a coping mechanism and I hope you are able to get the help you need. You would make an amazing therapist and I wish you all the best.
Diagnosed for 19yrs now. Watching this at my lowest point right now. Numb is an understatement..
Great interview Diamond!you're so brave too!
My boyfriend has BPD and he struggles with alot of the same things you mentioned. You did such a great job with.your interview
So sorry no one believed you or was there for you in your darkest times. I get that your life is extremely difficult dealing with different conditions, but please know that you are valuable and worth it. You’re still here for a reason. Thank you for reaching out and sharing your story. Praying things get better.❤
Beautiful soul. You have no idea how much your story will help so many people dealing with the same issues. Without realizing, you are being the helping person to others that you yourself have been searching for. Keep speaking because someone is finding hope because of your story. ❤❤
She’s CAPPING TO Y’all
& you know this because?
Thank you so much Diamond, I appreciate you sharing your story with us 🙏
Pressure makes Diamonds! Good things can come from intense situations.
sending you love diamond. ❤ i am dealing with depersonalization and derealization lately, i was told that was a symptom that bpd has. you sharing your story is so helpful, i hear you.
Keep writing. Make that your purpose. Be heard. Thank you for sharing your story.
Diamond l used to suffer from loop thoughts and suicidal thoughts. All my life! I’m now 53.
I don’t get it anymore. You’re right medication doesn’t work for BPD. For me getting out in nature, writing and gardening really helped. I also microdosed on mushrooms. That was a game changer. I also an a carer. I could never hold down a job until I started looking after people with disabilities. I’ve now done it for 13 years. You don’t have to be “ fixed” you are perfect how are. There is no such thing as “ NORMAL’. 98 % of people are “ weird “ or struggle. I find having an attitude of gratitude helps. Even if it’s a few things like grateful for being alive- for your partner, for being a survivor and grateful for your ability to express yourself so well. You are so young, things do get easier sweetheart
@softwhitebelly thank you for coming to anew York and Diamond, thank you for sharing
Dear Diamond! I loved listening to you, your voice and your story! I was just diagnosed with BPD and I'm 54 ( and I felt so relieved ) so your trying and your bravery helps me a lot! The box analogy is so true! Sweetheart try DBT ( dialectical behavior therapy) meditation, mindfulness. Your interview is amazing and the first one that made me write a comment in Marc's channel. I thank YOU! ❣️
A beautiful smile and cute laugh. I can't imagine Diamond's pain. I'm so glad she has people that care about her; she's not alone
Sending you love and hugs Diamond it seems as though you are a ball of light I hope things get better for you ❤
Diamond if you are seeing this then you are heard. Thank you so much for this interview. I feel like I can relate to everything you’ve said. Stay strong, I love you ❤
As a therapist, Borderline Personality Disorder is a difficult disorder to live with; however, it can be treated with Dialectical Behavior Therapy, which teaches individuals how to emotionally regulate, and it's evidence based. Finding a therapist that the best therapeutic fit for treatment will make a tremendous difference. Help is available, and a good life is possible.
She has Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ,...because of the cross over in symptoms people frequently end up with the label Borderline Personality Disorder
@jordanlangley407 whatever her diagnosis is, treatment is available if she's willing to commit to healing.
Diamond, you're not alone. Keep talking, we're listening ❤ Please don't ever give up on yourself. The world needs you!
We see you & hear you Diamond! Thank you for being vulnerable and authentic with us. You said you want to help others, but feel like you can’t because you are stuck…but the reality is that you ARE helping others just by allowing yourself to be seen and giving others a chance to relate & not feel alone with BPD. My heart goes out to you. & Thank you Mark for this channel & reaching so many ❤️
Cap
Sending light & love to Diamond 💎. I concur that BPD is often misrepresented, misdiagnosed,,and misunderstood!
Personally, when I'm on a downturn, it feels more like PTSD.
Keep up.the great work Mark!
Diamond, if you end up reading this, I want you to know that you are far beyond your years. An old soul. I don’t think you realise how smart, intelligent pretty and ‘sarcastically’ funny you are when you laugh at yourself. You’re awesome. And whoever gets the chance to be in your life is a lucky person. I’m at 34 yr old, pale white, first generation Greek to be born in Melbourne, Australia. Yet I feel you’re another me out there. We’re not alone, we are few but we’re out there who have the same mental health or physical health conditions. We suffer, hurt and have fear but we can also overcome whether on our own or by seeking help for it. We got this! You’ve got this! Thank you ❤
It is the lonliest existence and everyone thinks you are exagerating. Or lying. Or want attention. Or wont "just be" or just live or jyst snap out of it"
Being gaslit your whole life makes you miserable and drives you insane
I hate that i am this
Its a horrible life
And people who love you
Think you create it.
I too had SA brushed off by my mother its worst feeling you can have.
We are treated inhumanly
And are more human than anyone.
Diamond please know that youve made it through tge worst time
You made it through that place and rape and i am so sorry you know how this feels .
Ty for doing this interview Diamond. This Chanel helps us alot mark No one hears anything people with BPD say. Or believes.
Its the lonliest existence you can imagine
This is the only place where I see raw authentic people. I am always surprised at how REAL they are. (You can tell the ones that are BSing.). She deserves love. Such a beautiful interesting soul.
Mark, you need to rent a room where these people can meet up and talk about things. Diamond, girl you keep going and your not alone. Your beautiful, funny and have a lot to offer. Your loved more than you know.
I love your honesty Diamond. Thank you for speaking to us about the difficulties you and many others have with mental illness. I believe you are strong and you do have hope now. Don’t give up… we love you being yourself today 💛🙏🏼
Thank you for sharing your story. It touched my heart but you really got me in my feelings when you said you just wanted to be heard and seen. I feel you. And I agree, Mark’s channel helps me, too. I hope you find peace and happiness. 😊
I thought she was in her 20s. She’s very smart, self aware and poised. I hope someone helps her heal whether it be a psychiatrist, Mark, friend or a combo of all.
As a borderline myself, this video hit home for me. Everything you say is either similar or exactly the same as my experience. I hope this posts finds everyone healthy and well. I appreciate you sharing your experience. All the best
Diamond you are a beautiful soul, please know you are not alone. Thank you for sharing your story. It's powerful and will help others. Your courage to break the cycle is amazing and I wish you so much love x
I hear you loud & clear & I understand. Gosh you’re so beautiful! Head full of hair beautiful milky skin face card not declining even crying lol🥰 I’m rooting for you!! I hope your doing well thank u sir for this interview 🙌🏾
what a intelligent engaging young lady. and she does have joy in her. I wish she knew that every moment of her life.❤
Diamond, you are helping so many people with your story, thank you so much and to this channel for helping people like us who struggle and feel alone.
Thank you so much for sharing I related to SO MUCH.. I’m so grateful for this channel finding others who struggle in the same way. I have ADD and BPD but havnt told anyone about bpd for fear of stigma.. I too watch this till I go to sleep. You are such a genuine, intelligent, likeable, gentle thoughtful soul.. valuable qualities in this world.. this world needs people like you. I can see why people talk to you. I hope you find meaning and happiness and some more good people in your life, you deserve it! ❤
Mark, i love your videos & i never comment on them usually but i felt the need to for this one. Diamond, i feel like i relate to you so much. I admire you coming up here to tell your story & to be heard. i am rooting for you!
Absolutely beautiful person Diamond! Keep that hope alive my girl. You will find the answers and help you need. Day at a time😘
Diamond you are light and so loved. No matter how dim the light seems hold on. Your voice needs to continue to be heard you will help so many people.
God bless you sweetheart I’m so sorry 😞 for your struggles. You deserve so much more.
This is my favorite SWU portrait. Sweet, lovely soul. You're not alone Diamond ❤
Thank you 🤍
Awe you're welcome ❤@@Diamond-LaBeija
I also use to fall asleep with Mark's videos. I see you and I get you, Diamond🖤
Diamond, you have a great laugh & smile! You come across as a warm, endearing, resilent human. :) Your words have power & thank you for sharing your story. I can see it helping others & helping you!
It makes me sad thinking how people w mental health struggles are sometimes treated when they are in crisis. Mental health care can be wonderful & life changing but also can be scare and lacking. I do hope good mental health care is accessible to all soon. Wishing you the very best life has to offer. You deserve it. :)
Thank you so much 💐 means a lot hearing from you
It's so fucking hard with this disorder we don't understand at times why we do things we do but we have the biggest hearts. We are individuals trying to be seen and be worthy of love.
Soooo Soooo True‼️😩🤷🏽♀️
I hear you Diamond. I understand your struggles very well. Too well. Hugs and hopes of not just surviving but thriving. Hugs.
My brother has BPD and Narcissism. He's a mess. He's his own worst enemy and has burnt lots of bridges. No one wants to be around him. I dont know how to help him. I dont think the meds help much. She wants help and thats huge most people have no idea they have mental issues. If they know they fight it and dont want help. Good luck to her. Keep fighting.
Thank you so much Diamond. You are an inspiration for those of us with BPD.