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I was angry when I clicked on this. Only took about 5 minutes of listening for the anger to completely dissipate. Thank you for taking the time to explain things in an understanding way.
I recently lost a very valuable relationship due to my anger and blow ups. They couldn't take it anymore and I have so much regret. Saying "I'm sorry" means nothing when you have had to say it a hundred times, even if you are genuinely truly sorry. Sometimes losing something so important to you is what it takes to finally make a change in your life. This video was great.
One of the best things I've been doing is take a 30min or 1 hour or longer walk - while listening to healthy audiobooks. I do this every morning, and it sets me up right for the rest of the day.
I’m in tears watching this because at this moment I feel like I’m losing myself. Today I said things to my mother and husband that I’ve never said before. My episodes have never been this bad.
M̤̈Ë̤Ë̤Z̤̈ C̤̈Ḧ̤Ë̤Ë̤S̤̈Ë̤ I’m glad I saw this comment. A Very warm welcome to my channel. Don’t feel bad about being in tears… That just means that you had a profound realization. I’ve had many of those and they’ve been a bittersweet part of my journey. You are absolutely not alone in this experience. If you’d like more support or to talk to me about this personally, consider checking out my community on Patreon. For about the price of a cup of coffee each month, you can send me direct messages and get access to a lot more personal content that I don’t post on UA-cam. It’s pretty rare that I respond to UA-cam comments because of how many I get now. I always read most of them and noticed your comment. My hheart went out to you because I’ve really been there my friend. And you know I’m not just saying that LOL. Take gentle care of yourself and stop by the channel anytime🤗😊 -Rob
Even if nobody hears or sees my rage, I have massive guilt. Self-forgiveness is a huge issue for me, as is self-loathing. It's been compounded by isolation. I fear getting close to anyone because of what I'm capable of.
Rob, I don't know how someone can be angry with you. Your one of our greatest advocates. Please keep doing what your doing. Your more of a help of a help then you know.
I clicked on this video after my wife (4th) told me that she could not remain with me if I didn't some way to manage my anger. My mother was bipolar, and I've avoided a bipolar diagnosis and treatment for over 20 years, telling myself that I was just a "moody" and "high strung" person because of my career path. I always knew there was something "off" about the way I felt things and the way my mood changed. I recognized so many things you talked about in this video (and others since). I immediately started a mood journal, cut out caffeine and extra sugar from my diet, and immediately looked up a local psychologist. That was 4 weeks ago, but we've already seen an amazing change from just those few steps. Recognizing, admitting I had a problem, and actively seeking to alter my behavior have made a huge difference. I know there's a long, hard road ahead - therapy, meds, working with my wife and family. But I cannot thank you enough for this work you are doing and the time you've put in to help others. This thing has robbed me of so much in my life. I can honestly say that I feel an optimism about the future that I've never felt before. Thank you so much.
11:40 Self awareness and self dialogue 13:40 Don't chase the mania 15:40 Don't get near the Keyboards 16:50 Mania rage - without some kind of Outlet, it comes out 19:00 what about coping skills ready for anger attacks 20:40 Triggers 22:10 Medication can help reduce agitation 24:50 Keep journals always with you 26:00 Don't choose wrong coping strategies 26:25 Observation and feedback from others are Huge
My partner of 15yrs finally convinced me to see doctor after going through a series of hyper-rage, depression, hyper-mania phases during several weeks. After seeing the doctor for several months, she diagnosed me as ultra-ultra rapid cycle bipolar 1 with extreme manic rages/creativity. The medications that I am on have helped me some but we are still working on getting the right combinations and amounts. Your videos have helped me figure out things and gain better control over my mood shifts. One thing I have started to do is to clinch my fist when an anger mood starts. This makes me more aware of the growing anger in me. Most cases I remove myself from the situation or try to see other the other side. I sometimes channel my rage into writing about what trigger me. then I go back later and read it.
Drew Herbert - glad you got some treatment! I’m just regular rapid cycling, but with a mixed state. I see your picture is a wolf? My spirit animal used to be a wolf, because I felt like I changed into a fucking werewolf due to my anger! 😁
I've seen psychologist for 50 or so years. I've been diagnosed with bipolar and have taken every medication you can imagine. I'm still hoping that some prescription will work. Your presentation regarding anger is 100% me. The things I've said and done over the years are horrific. I've been through one marriage. The son I had during that marriage will not speak to me anymore and has changed his last name to his stepfathers name. I've had challenges in all relationships weather at work or elsewhere. My psychologist tells me considering what he knows about me that he is amazed that I'm still employed, my wife hasn't left me and I'm still alive. My wife and children in this, my second marriage are incredibly forgiving. My wife says she sees a good side in me. There's times I want to walk away and not put my family through my mood swings. At the same time I'd hate to lose them. Interestingly enough I still have a problem trying to determine whether I'm bipolar or just an a-hole. I don't blame my actions on bipolar I take full responsibility. After 50 some years of dealing with this I'm convinced I won't be cured so I try to manage it. I'm understandably tired of the whole thing. I fall down then I fall down then I get up and then I fall down. Quite enjoyable. Thanks for your UA-cam presentation.
I am 67 years old and was just diagnosed with bipolar 2, something present for many years. Such 4a clear, straightforward, and helpful video 👍. In watching your videos and some others plus reading and reading I finally understand myself . I was diagnosed with MDD in my early forties with symptoms clearly present even as a child. After a traumatic physical and emotional event as a young teenager the symptoms progressed through the years. Now 45 years of marriage, motherhood, a medical career, a grandmother I don’t quite understand how I am still alive to write this!. I am quite sure I have had bipolar 2 for many years but was only treated for the MDD. I too have harmed and lost many relationships due to the nature of these stormy crashes and I thought I was just truly crazy or mean spirited when in between I wasn’t. I am grateful to be at a place in my life where I can keep my stress at a low level and demands minimal. I truly admire your younger generation for speaking out about mental illness. My generation has been unfortunately pretty silent on the issue. For us such a shameful thing. And for this we have suffered greatly, in silence, as untreated mental illness has tossed us like the ocean waves on a rocky coast. Never at peace inside our minds, just chaos and pain. The subject matter of your videos is enlightening and so informative. And with knowledge comes power to manage this thing. The tone of your voice draws one to listen to what you have to say. Thanks for your time and efforts in putting these videos out there. 👏👏👏
I’ve walked out on jobs and family gatherings before because I’ve got angry about something but not been able to pinpoint it on anything. I never realised this was part of a mental illness.
Thank you so much again for your informative information. My hubs and I had a horrible weekend due to these really confusing issues. I'll be donating to your cause. You've probably saved my marriage numerous times now with your information and helping me understand his illness better.💚
Felice G. First off, I’m just so glad that I could help your relationship. That’s exactly what I’m here for. Thank you so much for even considering donating. No pressure or obligation at all. I do this out of love 😊☀️
Felice G. - my marriage is in the tank as are most of my personal relationships. I really want to save my marriage. Congrats to you. I know you posted this a year ago, how are things got no?.. ❤️🙏
Exactly getting into debates, not wanting to stop talking and end it until the person agrees. Hard to stop when you feel you’re so right. But it’s not getting you anywhere and you’re just getting more and more agitated. Like you said need to step out of the situation stop yourself. Very hard though but definitely necessary.
Jaden Humphries - hi Jaden, I recently got diagnosed with Bi-Polar 2, with rapid cycling, with a mixed state. I’m now on Geodon and it is helping a lot! I’m not totally sane yet, I can still get triggered by shit, but not by every thing all the time! Good luck friend!
Thank you so very much for the video! I have ADHD, PTSD and I am bipolar. I am going to DBT and it helps a great deal with the PTSD and panic attacks but the bipolar side is rarely addressed. I was so angry today over stupid things that I Finally decided to look it up on UA-cam. You were the first video I clicked on and I was thrilled to realize you were talking about bipolar syndrome. I can’t wait to see the rest of your videos!
At about 20 I was diagnosed with it and I just ignored it all and carried on my life as normal because I was so angry about being labelled "crazy". I was determined to beat it and used myself as a guinea pig for years. I conducted health experiments on my body and mind and what I learned about how to handle my own manifestations of the condition is astounding. Though it may not work as well for others. To control bipolar, I control other key aspects of my life eg diet,exercise, social and physical environment, how I use my time, degree of light/darkness, colours, sounds etc. What I discovered is amazing! I feel so proud of this achievement.
When I was terribly manic and didn’t sleep for 8 days/ nights ( wasn’t taking my depakote BAD idea!!) I took it out on my sister.. sent her probably the worst message I could’ve sent to someone who has been there through my hardest times. We are just getting our relationship back… I’m a work in progress and I’m taking all of my medicine. I just joined a bipolar support group with NAMI hoping that will help me with my bipolar and stay on my medicine. And thank you for these videos… they are life saving!
I was diagnosed at 14 with bipolar. After having a major depressive episode followed by a violent episode. It has caused me alot of issues over the years. But I have been able to notice the changes better over the last few years and have learned what triggers the up and downs. I have learned when I am really angry to type a letter and then print it out and just hold on to it for a couple of days then toss it.
I really enjoy this channel; most people just brush people off and label them as "crazy" when they find out you have it; to the point that you can start to believe it yourself. I have learned a lot. It makes me wonder why some doctors don't take the time to discuss these issues. thanks
I'm always in wild rage mode all the time. Just by listening to this video, I understand what I need to do in order to control that rage. Thank you for explaining this in detail and showing me the steps to stop it.
Thank you so much for that feedback! It means a lot to me as a mental health advocate. Hope you have a wonderful weekend and stop by the channel anytime :-) Rob
Bipolar without medication has been some of the shittiest years of my life. I feel my depressive modes getting a ton worse and the anger along with it being channeled and directed towards the wrong people. I wish I was able to express the words that you’ve shared within the first few minutes without sounding as if I’m letting my illness define me.
Don't let a few unsimpathetic people that just don't understand what we go through deter you from continuing these very supportive, and informative information! It is terrific to see that you are posting these videos not only for others but especially for you. I think it is amazing how you are able to communicate your own experiences in such an organized calming manner. I am trying to organize my own thoughts and experiences to share due to my brain constantly racing. Thankfully that I am getting 3 combinations of anxiety and mood stabilizers for me to cut back on a few of the extreme behaviors. Like what u shared about what you are still struggling and working on, I too still deal with these setbacks. Medication alone obviously not a cure. I don't think there is an actual cure, right?
@@PolarWarriors A lot of people feeling thankful for this channel . you are taking your time to educate it another people whom are suffering from mental illness that is Priceless . Thank you so much
I’ve lost countless jobs over my anger I know I’m bi polar man I just turned 30 I’ve always blamed and made it up in my mind it’s not my fault I hope I can get control of my anger
I can totally relate Jesse, it sounds like you have great self awareness now and that's half the battle right there! Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member Rob: I really need your help to keep a good thing going here... PLEASE consider supporting Polar Warriors work on Patreon. Even just $1 a month makes a huge difference. Thank you so much
Im new to all this and didnt know much at all. My therapist recommended I look up youtube videos to help me understand better. When I came across your page I knew id find help, and help you have done. Love this video so much, I needed tips and tools to help me navigate through this. Thank you so much for your knowledge and kindness. I appreciate you!
Thank you for this video, you have described my world precisely and made me feel less “crazy” and taught me not to blame or hate myself, it’s the bipolar making me act or feel certain ways. I really appreciate your candidness. ❤️
Rob, thank you SO very much for this brilliant video! I suffer from anger, rage, etc, especially with mania. I've been diagnosed as having manic dysphoria. So, this information is perfect for me! Many blessings upon you for giving 150% of yourself in preparing, researching and producing your lifesaving videos! You have changed my outlook and life! And, that's an understatement! Much love...
I listen to soothing music 2 take long walk 3 do breathing exercises 4 self affirmation assuring myself that everything would be okay 5 exercises 6 last but not lest yoga
I am about 90% sure I am bi-polar. I told my Dr this and she asked me about 10 questions, to which I answered yes to 7, and then she said I’m not bi-polar. I’m going to get a second opinion because I am angry about 80% of every day. I can’t live like this any more. Thanks for this video. So much.
Rob has a video about a questionaire he co-created with Julie Fast. I believe you can find the checklist on polarwarriors.com. Yes, a second opinion might be a good idea! Keep searching! Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds On Patreon, you can message Rob directly, get a phone/video call, watch videos that are more personal in nature, and access a great community. www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
wow I just learned so much from this, and I feel like finally someone understands what goes on in my head. Ive never been diagnosed with anything, never even attempted to get help. This has been so eye opening, THANKYOU for this
Hi Suzanne! Rob is very appreciative to all kind words about his work. You can talk to him directly on patreon if you want. Also, please consider joking a support group, you are NOT alone! Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds On Patreon, you can message Rob directly, get a phone/video call, watch videos that are more personal in nature, and access a great community. www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I was probably one of the best for you as you've done man that really brought attention to my anger and everything frustration when I have a problem going on with my family so I mean heck you're doing one heck of a job will continue to be there to watch your videos and be a willing supporter
Thank you for your knowledge, and helping me feel like I'm not the only one with this illness. It's a rough road for most. Since my proper diagnosis, and treatment thereof, I'm 100% better. My anger especially, has been easier to manage. The ability to let things go, and to bury the hatchet, is something I'm still working on. With the proper connections along with therapy has been the life saver for me. Having someone to look out for you, or advocate for your rights is crucial for a patient with any mental health issues. These tips are great and I'm so happy there's someone out there trying to help people that would normally be hospitalized or imprisoned.
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. For the month of July he is offering free phone calls to patrons. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! Take gentle care! 🙏 Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
There are two types of cannabis that I am aware of. Sativa and indica. Also there are hybrids which are a mixture of the two types. I have type 1 bipolar and I use cannabis as a way of treatment. I developed ways of coping through cannabis. I have frequent "rage episodes" where it is exactly like you explained. What i have discovered is that if I notice the aggitation is happening and I am not feeling right, i try to medicate with the indica type for it is high in CBD. The calming effect is enough to calm the rage and allow me to center myself. I don't believe medicating with cannabis is a wise thing to do if you aren't aware of your disorder yet. Because you don't know what you are treating and don't know if it is depression or mania. That's where self awareness is key to any kind of treatment for any form of bipolar disorder. Great video! Bipolar rage isn't something we like to talk about 😕
Completely and absolutely relatable. For myself, one thought that makes me "chase the mania" is when I sit and think and reflect on everything I've been and what I am now. If I had the choice to erase my existence, I would... But that's how I feel currently (depressed phase for about a week now for over socializing and analysis paralysis, I'm an unhealthy "INTP" (MBTI) I've studied and have practiced to understand my unconscious emotional rushes, while I casually try to keep my composure, "reflecting" in other words. I sometimes drag myself within a rabbit hole. Genuinely speaking, I know ill never get better in the form I'd like do to other effects in live as well. I've gain more control and more "access" to things I would consider. What I used to be is disappointing. I've done a lot of things I wouldn't change though. If I change my father's death as a kid, than I'd never have specific "lenses" or view of perceptions I have gained now. I mean i could study sure, but I've been in environments that have made me open. I wish the best for everyone going threw this. I'm still here currently, but only thing we can do is just keep swimming and study and practice mindfulness (i like the Cognitive triangle I've noticed quite a bit, but I don't base my life on it. Sorry for the rant. I'm going into work and anxious as all hell, this calms me🤷♂️🤷♂️ "Anything worth doing, is worth doing Badly"
Your channel has been helpful to me in the past few months. It encouraged me to get my mental health evaluated and I was told I am now or should say have always been a Polar Warrior. I have a lot of fears moving forward.
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. For the month of July he is offering free phone calls to patrons. Take gentle care! 🙏 Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I really appreciate your honest and vulnerability. I have family members with Bipolar disorder, and I have learned a lot from your videos. Thank you so much!
I first discovered this channel a few days ago. I can’t believe how many of my behaviours and experiences that I thought were unrelated to bipolar disorder were actually typical for people with this illness.
15 years ago a very bad tragedy happened to our family and my wife seemed to change over night. She always had emotional and mental issues but they were very mild compared to now. She was diagnosed Bipolar 1 and PTSD. It has been a terrible 15 years she suffers from crushing depression to euphoric mania to explosive anger. Shes been to many doctors and went through many, many pills just to get where she is now. I see her suffer everyday and I know sometimes she just wants to die but she believes that dying is easy living is a much deserved punishment and she wants to suffer and hurt everyday. Everything now is so much sadder and darker and the nightmare just never helps. Be gentle with yourself if you can you have worth.
Just want to say thank you for the videos. They have helped me a lot to understand my daughter. It has been a struggle for a very long time and I wish I had seen these videos about seven years ago to have better help my daughter.
Was feeling 😠 about life this morning, stuck in vicious cycles can't seem to catch a break... Failing at everything right now. But I'm acknowledging the problem and willing to work even harder.
This is wild. I knew I had an anger problem but hearing you talk about your experience and realizing that it is exactly what I deal with, I'm starting to think I'm bipolar. It's a word people tend to throw around so I ignorantly never took it seriously.
I definitely have anger management issues. I try to channel that anger into something positive. When I'm feeling like that I workout and play my piano. It doesn't always help. But anger can be put to good use of you can manage discipline. But that can take months to get rid of that feeling. Yesterday I was irate over something small. I listened to 48 laws of power. Law 39 helped, I saw the error of my ways and how it can be used against me. There is no cure, but I consider myself a work in progress.
I'm so glad Rob's video has been so helpful to you! He always appreciates hearing that. If you'd like to help support Rob in what he does with Polar Warriors I'd encourage you to consider joining him on Patreon. He posts exclusive content there and is able to reply to direct messages through that platform. There's also a wonderful little support community in the community section. I'll include the link so you can check it out! I hope you've been having a great week so far :) -Rachel (Polar Warriors team member) www.Patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I struggle hard with this. I am self aware, but it's the overwhelming thought of "this will make me feel better" when I know it only causes more problems that make me feel worse. I have to sometimes physically stop myself from opening my mouth and saying stupid things by eating something, breathing deeply, getting up and walking away from the situation. Etc. Thank you for posting videos!
5 minutes into video and I need to comment already.I have watched loads of videos on Bipolar,depression and so on and I am more positive now than ever before I have Bipolar.I had a doctor do a "test" once years ago after a run in with the law and he said I am pretty sure you have Bipolar. I was medicated and it worked a treat but I had to stop the meds as I was suddenly made a single parent and the meds made me too drowsy at the time. Years have passed with many problems so I asked doctor.....a different one to before....and she says "Oh you need to be diagnosed by a specialist now before we can give you those meds again"..ok there goes that idea as I cannot get a specialist appointment here.Sorry for my rant but I needed to vent. That rage you mention is so very strong and as you say it's also very embarrassing to me and those around me...Sorry
pinay addiction General practitioners can give you a diagnosis also. Check out my video about bipolar diagnosis, The one I did that talks about reasons why people quit taking medication, and the top 10 signs of bipolar disorder. Make a list so you are prepared and the doctor can see it very clearly in black-and-white. You’ve got this! A very warm welcome to the channel. Stop by anytime :-)
pinay addiction I get it. I have been off meds for months because my previous provider, a psych med management clinic, made it very difficult to make an appointment. They refused to communicate. I can’t find another provider. Even the behavioral physician at my therapist’s office refused to take me as a patient because I have multiple diagnosis. The one therapist that my ob-gyn recommended doesn’t take insurance.
I’m so sorry you all are running into these problems. I was lucky enough to find a psychiatrist that took my insurance and believed I’m bi polar. I would be in your boat if not, and I would be frustrated and pissed off as well! Well wishes going out to you guys in your journey!
Amazing timing finding this. Literally walked away from a potential fight to smoke and chill when UA-cam suggested this, yes THC helps me. Benzos leave me too hungover feeling and I hate that. One thing I did stop to notice after being medicated: 0/0 things have been broke due to a brief flight from my rage. 😂 Also, you know how we tend to have a weird superpowers when channeling some of our bipolar qualities? I literally just realized it was my rage energy from wanting to find the absolute truth and moral position in debates that helped me finish my degree in political science. Strangly enough, I don't get emotional discussing politics because I channel that energy into philosophical and policy research. When debating, my pleasant demeanor gets under an otherwise calm person's skin, because most people actually do get emotional and rageful when discussing politics. It is gratifying to win by logical reasoning, but I'd be lying to not admit how amusing it is to watch their emotion. God I'm so f'd up. 😂Really glad I found this channel. It's super hard to practice any philosophy when you haven't the slightest idea about the affects of your own mental handicap. Thank you x100000
That last part hit me, it’s hard to practice philosophy when you don’t know yourself well enough due to this mental illness. Very philosophical my dude! 🤘🏼😁
thank you so much. Its not overselling it to say that this video among few others has saved my life. I was always shamed so bad by my narcissistic mother to the point where I was too ashamed of getting help with my anger or even the courage to youtube videos about it like now. Im so glad i finally did it. anger was/is completely compromising me and it scares me alot. The rest is up to me. Knowing all this new stuff is already helping me out alot! I know how to deal with it now. Thank you!
I truly appreciate your kind words! It means a lot to know that my videos resonate with you and provide some understanding. Your journey is important, and I'm honored to be a part of it. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Thank you so much not only for the help but for the hope too, I didn't knew anyone that had to go through bipolar disorder as myself and that felt really lonely but thanks to your channel I am able to listen to your advise and see there's people that have to go through exactly the same things I go through and are able to live happy lives.
Marcos Marín I am so glad that you found my channel and you are very welcome here! It is a horrible feeling to feel alone and go through something like this. I will have lots more videos to come, so stop by anytime :-)
I did an outpatient stay that focused on CBT and mindfulness. It made such a difference in how I behave. I highly recommend it as well. It has a lot to do with exactly what you stated in the beginning of this video "Awareness".
Complexity explained with clarity is quite rare and definitely valuable. Thank you sir for reaching out 🙏. This man's words are very well thought out. Definitely impressed with his depth of thinking things through. I am going to subscribe.
Hello. My wife was just diagnosed. It has been a struggle. I'm bipolar 2. And she is bipolar 1. We are both trying to learn about each others diagnosis and your videos have been extremely helpful. Thanks
Thank you so much for your time on this video. I’m trying the self help method. I have not been the greatest to my significant other and children. Thank you for your time!!!
Hey there ! Rob is available on patreon. You can message him, text or even have a call with him there. For a very limited time he is offering free support phone calls for all patrons right now in which he can lend an ear, give advice or answer questions. Take gentle care. Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds On Patreon, you can message Rob directly, get a phone/video call, watch videos that are more personal in nature, and access a great community. www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Well, that explains why I screamed at a co-worker. It has puzzled me for months on end as to what was that all about. Not only did I scream at him, I took it up with two managers. A couple of days later and I asked him about his attitude. His response was: “you yelled at me,”! Why was I so surprised? In the last several months I’ve begun to notice a ramping up of mood swings. I don’t recommend this but I took myself off one med. it had a lot to do with a major depression. After several weeks I told my.doctor and was put on another med. As you note, being aware is a major key. And, removing yourself from a potential bomb site is priceless!
This is a brilliant vid and you are a very knowledgable guy - thanks for this - I am working to combat my rage but I very often get blindsighted by emotion as you pointed out and will just keep getting angrier and angrier until i punch my desk and shout like I am on a battle field
I never even recognized my aggressively angry behavior until a year ago and I've been looking for some advice on tools and coping skills to manage it. Thank you soooo much for this video I now have some relief and hope in tackling this symptom.
I’m really glad I found these videos. You have made more sense and are more informative than any psych Dr.. I feel totally helpless at this point. Bipolar, constant insomnia, misophonia and the movement (?) phobia. So, my fight or flight feels constant and overwhelming.
Hey there ! Rob is available on patreon. You can message him, text or even have a call with him there. He is offering free support phone calls for all patrons right now. I think you may benefit from that. Take gentle care. Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds On Patreon, you can message Rob directly, get a phone/video call, watch videos that are more personal in nature, and access a great community. www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
My cycles are always the same; depression most of the time, then I get irritated, anxious and agitated with the smallest thing triggering me into rage. After 4 1/2yrs of quitting my meds cold turkey and the last two years my partner has been my target for my rage, hurtful words, abuse and watched me harm myself. My "rage" episode literally go 4 days straight. After a recent episode I had harmed myself badly and hearing my bf say, "I can't do this with you anymore. I knew I needed help for quiet sometime but didn't want to go back and start all over. I made an appointment and waited 2 months, have had two appointments and my psychiatrist listened and put me back on lamotrigine when I shared that was what I use to take and was also put on an anti depressant just recently. I'm noticing a difference but I know that things will take time and a lot of work on my part to keep myself stable.
Holly Lewis How brave if you to talk about these things! I abused my husband with my anger and rage. I even threw objects AT him. It was so difficult for me to admit to my Dr that I was this "terrible monster." So, I greatly admire you for posting this!
Missi Gee Times in my past I never told any psychiatrist about what was really going on. I told myself that this time I will be completely honest, for that will be the only way I'm going to get the proper treatment. I'm very grateful that I have a man who loves me, for me and my flaws. My bf delt (still deals with minor problems by me) with so much bs that I feel he should have left two yrs ago. Since I just began seeing a psychiatrist I have not made any effort on fixing all the holes in our house. I have broke many objects, including a glass ashtray that sent me to the ER last summer and I had stitches inside and outside of the palm of my hand. I'm scared of the possible side effects from medications and most of all knowing that I am going to have to change a lot of things in my life and possibly leave ppl whom I love and care about.
Holly Lewis it sounds as if we are pretty much in the same boat here. My husband should have left me about 5 years ago. Actually, I've never treated him as well as I should have. More power to you with your fixing your house and, possibly, some relationships? I know I have many people to which I need to apologize! All the best to you! And, I too have fears about meds. I had to quit reading about my medication.
Missi Gee The moodstablizer I'm on (also took in the past) doesn't cause weight gain and doesn't effect your libido. Which only being 28yrs old is not a fun way to live. That's cool your last name is Lewis.
I recently had a situation at work during a day that was high stress in general. I didn’t expect myself to literally let out all my anger on a coworker who I wasn’t on good terms with due to something I didn’t agree with. My boss (who is naturally upbeat and able to stay upbeat most of the time) insensitively told me to keep my composure and remain professional. Smh. Meanwhile my other coworkers congratulated me on having the balls to stand up to someone I’m front of everyone like how I did.
Wow when I listen to you I feel like someone really understands you have more insight and knowledge than any dr I’ve spoken too also you wouldn’t believe how many loved ones I hurt and said a hundred sorrys
I started watching this because I sometimes struggle with being easily frustrated, I felt like it was coming more from a place of anxiety but I do have Bipolar 1 and PTSD dx so I figured maybe it would help. I've also known for a while now that Bipolar runs on my moms side of the family (though most would never admit it or have dx I did recently learn that my great grandmother DID have a dx) but this video just opened my eyes much more fully to something I've suspected a time or two and that is that my dad fits this type of Bipolar perfectly. You just described him to the T. Sudden outbursts of anger that didn't really make sense, issues with insomnia and then extreme-sleeping (which I too do) everyone walking on eggshells then deer in headlights. This will be in my discussion with my therapist last week since me trying to understand and relate to my family and stop being hurt by them is a common theme. Thanks for this video!
you make the most informative videos. honestly i relate so much unfortunately im not even sure if this is what im dealing with because the psychiatrist that i saw didnt even try to understand a thing i was saying and after my therapist put bipolar in her notes, i got the blame for it and ever since ive been a complete wreck on no meds, nothing. i dont think ill be alive within the next few years because i have nothing but thank you for your videos they are so professional and well put together.
Makaelee_Anne I am so glad that you found my channel and you are very welcome here. You are absolutely not alone with the way you feel. I would strongly suggest finding a different therapist. From what you described, it sounds like they are definitely not qualified to treat someone who has bipolar. I have seen a lot of crappy doctors and my time, before I found a very precious few who truly got it. Don’t quit… This illness takes so much from us, and you can’t let it take the ultimate thing we have, which is our life. Don’t let it win! 😊🤗 -Robert www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
i didnt think i was bi polar until i watched this video. i came here for advice on my anger. my brother and sister were both diagnosed bi polar. im almost certain my eldest sister is, just undiagnosed. but i never once thought i could be too, until this video. i have anger issues. and almost every line of this video described me to a tee. i was angry with my partner when i opened this video, now im sitting alone with my jaw dropped. im stunned. thank you for this. seriously, thank you
Ouch. This is one of your videos where I hate to admit, your right! I've watched this one twice already and my anger is sometimes unbearable inside my head. Then, after battling it alone, I often just simply blow up, yelling, swearing, and just throwing a tantrum. I'm alone, so it does no good, but I cant control it sometimes.
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I was angry when I clicked on this. Only took about 5 minutes of listening for the anger to completely dissipate. Thank you for taking the time to explain things in an understanding way.
Don't get angry, you are too cute for that.
Agreed
I felt it too, a sense of calm.
I wasn't angry, but he gave me a sense of calm hearing what they go through. I'm a caregiver for a bipolar person. Society is so behind.
If this made your anger dissipate in 5 minutes then you weren't angry. You were probably just too entitled or ignorant
I recently lost a very valuable relationship due to my anger and blow ups. They couldn't take it anymore and I have so much regret. Saying "I'm sorry" means nothing when you have had to say it a hundred times, even if you are genuinely truly sorry. Sometimes losing something so important to you is what it takes to finally make a change in your life.
This video was great.
Thank for writing your comment, unfortunately my situation is almost the same, except she hasn't left.....yet.
This video is very informative.
Going through the exact thing right now. Everything i said and did just came out wrong.
One of the best things I've been doing is take a 30min or 1 hour or longer walk - while listening to healthy audiobooks. I do this every morning, and it sets me up right for the rest of the day.
I love this idea!
@@CheleBadoo still doing this btw, 2 years later :-)
Thanks for sharing
It’s kinda like a form of meditation
Nice idea
I’m in tears watching this because at this moment I feel like I’m losing myself. Today I said things to my mother and husband that I’ve never said before. My episodes have never been this bad.
M̤̈Ë̤Ë̤Z̤̈ C̤̈Ḧ̤Ë̤Ë̤S̤̈Ë̤ I’m glad I saw this comment. A Very warm welcome to my channel. Don’t feel bad about being in tears… That just means that you had a profound realization. I’ve had many of those and they’ve been a bittersweet part of my journey. You are absolutely not alone in this experience. If you’d like more support or to talk to me about this personally, consider checking out my community on Patreon. For about the price of a cup of coffee each month, you can send me direct messages and get access to a lot more personal content that I don’t post on UA-cam. It’s pretty rare that I respond to UA-cam comments because of how many I get now. I always read most of them and noticed your comment. My hheart went out to you because I’ve really been there my friend. And you know I’m not just saying that LOL. Take gentle care of yourself and stop by the channel anytime🤗😊
-Rob
You weren’t angry, you were just emotional.
I get more understanding from listening to you than my therapist. She helps in other ways, but you help me actually understand what is going on.
Even if nobody hears or sees my rage, I have massive guilt. Self-forgiveness is a huge issue for me, as is self-loathing. It's been compounded by isolation. I fear getting close to anyone because of what I'm capable of.
Thank for your comment, it sumrises my nature.
l have trouble with self loathing and self forgiveness as well as self guilt.
I'm exactly the same way. It's a very difficult and painful way of living.
Difficult, indeed. I hate myself, people I know, and strangers too. Hate, anger, rage, these are familiar and my ONLY friends.
I keep trying to run away.
Rob, I don't know how someone can be angry with you. Your one of our greatest advocates. Please keep doing what your doing. Your more of a help of a help then you know.
Thank you so much!! 🙏 💖
- Rob
He kind of pisses me off, but that’s most things. Funny/not funny
I clicked on this video after my wife (4th) told me that she could not remain with me if I didn't some way to manage my anger. My mother was bipolar, and I've avoided a bipolar diagnosis and treatment for over 20 years, telling myself that I was just a "moody" and "high strung" person because of my career path. I always knew there was something "off" about the way I felt things and the way my mood changed. I recognized so many things you talked about in this video (and others since). I immediately started a mood journal, cut out caffeine and extra sugar from my diet, and immediately looked up a local psychologist. That was 4 weeks ago, but we've already seen an amazing change from just those few steps. Recognizing, admitting I had a problem, and actively seeking to alter my behavior have made a huge difference. I know there's a long, hard road ahead - therapy, meds, working with my wife and family. But I cannot thank you enough for this work you are doing and the time you've put in to help others. This thing has robbed me of so much in my life. I can honestly say that I feel an optimism about the future that I've never felt before. Thank you so much.
11:40 Self awareness and self dialogue
13:40 Don't chase the mania
15:40 Don't get near the Keyboards
16:50 Mania rage - without some kind of Outlet, it comes out
19:00 what about coping skills ready for anger attacks
20:40 Triggers
22:10 Medication can help reduce agitation
24:50 Keep journals always with you
26:00 Don't choose wrong coping strategies
26:25 Observation and feedback from others are Huge
THANK YOU!!! 🙏
@@PolarWarriors yes! Without an outlet it comes out!
My partner of 15yrs finally convinced me to see doctor after going through a series of hyper-rage, depression, hyper-mania phases during several weeks. After seeing the doctor for several months, she diagnosed me as ultra-ultra rapid cycle bipolar 1 with extreme manic rages/creativity. The medications that I am on have helped me some but we are still working on getting the right combinations and amounts. Your videos have helped me figure out things and gain better control over my mood shifts. One thing I have started to do is to clinch my fist when an anger mood starts. This makes me more aware of the growing anger in me. Most cases I remove myself from the situation or try to see other the other side. I sometimes channel my rage into writing about what trigger me. then I go back later and read it.
Drew Herbert - glad you got some treatment! I’m just regular rapid cycling, but with a mixed state. I see your picture is a wolf? My spirit animal used to be a wolf, because I felt like I changed into a fucking werewolf due to my anger! 😁
What meds do you take? Do they help you? I have the same as you, nice to know I'm not alone
I’d bet money I have the same thing you do just not on any meds, mostly my anger fits are when I’m alone thankfully
@@diazfan5986 I take 900mg of Seroquel.. Even that barely holds the line. There is talk of adding lithium to the mix.
@@jd7338 fortunately until recently mine were in isolation as well
I understand why self awareness is so important. We create our own reality.
I've seen psychologist for 50 or so years. I've been diagnosed with bipolar and have taken every medication you can imagine. I'm still hoping that some prescription will work. Your presentation regarding anger is 100% me. The things I've said and done over the years are horrific. I've been through one marriage. The son I had during that marriage will not speak to me anymore and has changed his last name to his stepfathers name. I've had challenges in all relationships weather at work or elsewhere. My psychologist tells me considering what he knows about me that he is amazed that I'm still employed, my wife hasn't left me and I'm still alive.
My wife and children in this, my second marriage are incredibly forgiving. My wife says she sees a good side in me. There's times I want to walk away and not put my family through my mood swings. At the same time I'd hate to lose them. Interestingly enough I still have a problem trying to determine whether I'm bipolar or just an a-hole. I don't blame my actions on bipolar I take full responsibility. After 50 some years of dealing with this I'm convinced I won't be cured so I try to manage it. I'm understandably tired of the whole thing. I fall down then I fall down then I get up and then I fall down. Quite enjoyable. Thanks for your UA-cam presentation.
Thanks so much for sharing your story Tom! I am so glad that you have some great supports in place, you are worth it friend! 🙏
Wish I could help you, but I am in the same loop medications don't help, so F... Frustrating I end up giving up on the medications
I am 67 years old and was just diagnosed with bipolar 2, something present for many years. Such 4a clear, straightforward, and helpful video 👍. In watching your videos and some others plus reading and reading I finally understand myself . I was diagnosed with MDD in my early forties with symptoms clearly present even as a child. After a traumatic physical and emotional event as a young teenager the symptoms progressed through the years. Now 45 years of marriage, motherhood, a medical career, a grandmother I don’t quite understand how I am still alive to write this!. I am quite sure I have had bipolar 2 for many years but was only treated for the MDD. I too have harmed and lost many relationships due to the nature of these stormy crashes and I thought I was just truly crazy or mean spirited when in between I wasn’t. I am grateful to be at a place in my life where I can keep my stress at a low level and demands minimal. I truly admire your younger generation for speaking out about mental illness. My generation has been unfortunately pretty silent on the issue. For us such a shameful thing. And for this we have suffered greatly, in silence, as untreated mental illness has tossed us like the ocean waves on a rocky coast. Never at peace inside our minds, just chaos and pain. The subject matter of your videos is enlightening and so informative. And with knowledge comes power to manage this thing. The tone of your voice draws one to listen to what you have to say. Thanks for your time and efforts in putting these videos out there. 👏👏👏
I’ve walked out on jobs and family gatherings before because I’ve got angry about something but not been able to pinpoint it on anything. I never realised this was part of a mental illness.
I hear you!
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Same! Just thought I was a Type A personality or whatever the hell.
Thank you so much again for your informative information. My hubs and I had a horrible weekend due to these really confusing issues. I'll be donating to your cause. You've probably saved my marriage numerous times now with your information and helping me understand his illness better.💚
Felice G. First off, I’m just so glad that I could help your relationship. That’s exactly what I’m here for. Thank you so much for even considering donating. No pressure or obligation at all. I do this out of love 😊☀️
Polar Warriors Too late! Already did😉 Its a little thank you for all you do to help each off us. 💕
Felice G. - my marriage is in the tank as are most of my personal relationships. I really want to save my marriage. Congrats to you. I know you posted this a year ago, how are things got no?.. ❤️🙏
J BatPack Hi how are you?
J BatPack - hows it going? Did your marriage survive?
Exactly getting into debates, not wanting to stop talking and end it until the person agrees. Hard to stop when you feel you’re so right. But it’s not getting you anywhere and you’re just getting more and more agitated. Like you said need to step out of the situation stop yourself. Very hard though but definitely necessary.
Until I was medicated, I knew 2 emotions: angry and not angry. I had no idea it was coming from me. Thanks for this video.
I have only 2 emotions as well. angry or not. What medicine did you take if you dont mind sharing.
A person cut from the same cloth as me! Yes! 😂
Jaden Humphries - hi Jaden, I recently got diagnosed with Bi-Polar 2, with rapid cycling, with a mixed state. I’m now on Geodon and it is helping a lot! I’m not totally sane yet, I can still get triggered by shit, but not by every thing all the time! Good luck friend!
Thank you so very much for the video! I have ADHD, PTSD and I am bipolar. I am going to DBT and it helps a great deal with the PTSD and panic attacks but the bipolar side is rarely addressed. I was so angry today over stupid things that I Finally decided to look it up on UA-cam. You were the first video I clicked on and I was thrilled to realize you were talking about bipolar syndrome. I can’t wait to see the rest of your videos!
I have a really hard time being present in the moment, my brain is speed racing through every thought I’ve ever had.
How do i make it stop
For me it’s working out and definitely having some top shelf indica.
same here :( it's really fucking exhausting :(
At about 20 I was diagnosed with it and I just ignored it all and carried on my life as normal because I was so angry about being labelled "crazy". I was determined to beat it and used myself as a guinea pig for years. I conducted health experiments on my body and mind and what I learned about how to handle my own manifestations of the condition is astounding. Though it may not work as well for others. To control bipolar, I control other key aspects of my life eg diet,exercise, social and physical environment, how I use my time, degree of light/darkness, colours, sounds etc. What I discovered is amazing! I feel so proud of this achievement.
Idk what I'd do without you. You've helped me so much since my family doesn't care at all❤
When I was terribly manic and didn’t sleep for 8 days/ nights ( wasn’t taking my depakote BAD idea!!) I took it out on my sister.. sent her probably the worst message I could’ve sent to someone who has been there through my hardest times. We are just getting our relationship back… I’m a work in progress and I’m taking all of my medicine. I just joined a bipolar support group with NAMI hoping that will help me with my bipolar and stay on my medicine. And thank you for these videos… they are life saving!
I was diagnosed at 14 with bipolar. After having a major depressive episode followed by a violent episode. It has caused me alot of issues over the years. But I have been able to notice the changes better over the last few years and have learned what triggers the up and downs. I have learned when I am really angry to type a letter and then print it out and just hold on to it for a couple of days then toss it.
That's a great idea, I'm going to give it a try.
I really enjoy this channel; most people just brush people off and label them as "crazy" when they find out you have it; to the point that you can start to believe it yourself.
I have learned a lot. It makes me wonder why some doctors don't take the time to discuss these issues.
thanks
I'm always in wild rage mode all the time. Just by listening to this video, I understand what I need to do in order to control that rage. Thank you for explaining this in detail and showing me the steps to stop it.
Thank you so much for that feedback! It means a lot to me as a mental health advocate. Hope you have a wonderful weekend and stop by the channel anytime :-)
Rob
Bipolar without medication has been some of the shittiest years of my life. I feel my depressive modes getting a ton worse and the anger along with it being channeled and directed towards the wrong people. I wish I was able to express the words that you’ve shared within the first few minutes without sounding as if I’m letting my illness define me.
Don't let a few unsimpathetic people that just don't understand what we go through deter you from continuing these very supportive, and informative information! It is terrific to see that you are posting these videos not only for others but especially for you. I think it is amazing how you are able to communicate your own experiences in such an organized calming manner. I am trying to organize my own thoughts and experiences to share due to my brain constantly racing. Thankfully that I am getting 3 combinations of anxiety and mood stabilizers for me to cut back on a few of the extreme behaviors. Like what u shared about what you are still struggling and working on, I too still deal with these setbacks. Medication alone obviously not a cure. I don't think there is an actual cure, right?
Thanks again for sharing your broad knowledge I personally have learned more about bipolar from you than any of the psychiatrist ive been treated by.
Joann Rivera thank you so much for saying that! I’m so glad I started this channel.❤️
@@PolarWarriors A lot of people feeling thankful for this channel . you are taking your time to educate it another people whom are suffering from mental illness that is Priceless . Thank you so much
I’ve lost countless jobs over my anger I know I’m bi polar man I just turned 30 I’ve always blamed and made it up in my mind it’s not my fault I hope I can get control of my anger
I can totally relate Jesse, it sounds like you have great self awareness now and that's half the battle right there!
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Become an entrepreneur. I have quit almost every job I have had. You will be much happier. I'm 34 BTW.
that’s 100% me i have destroyed jobs destroyed friendships and my loved ones
You are not alone. I’m 44 and just now realizing it. You have plenty of time to fix it
Im new to all this and didnt know much at all. My therapist recommended I look up youtube videos to help me understand better. When I came across your page I knew id find help, and help you have done. Love this video so much, I needed tips and tools to help me navigate through this. Thank you so much for your knowledge and kindness. I appreciate you!
I cannot wait to see the cannabis video. Im trying to quit because everyone says it messes with my meds so id really like to know if thats true.
Thank you for this video, you have described my world precisely and made me feel less “crazy” and taught me not to blame or hate myself, it’s the bipolar making me act or feel certain ways. I really appreciate your candidness. ❤️
Rob, thank you SO very much for this brilliant video! I suffer from anger, rage, etc, especially with mania. I've been diagnosed as having manic dysphoria. So, this information is perfect for me! Many blessings upon you for giving 150% of yourself in preparing, researching and producing your lifesaving videos! You have changed my outlook and life! And, that's an understatement! Much love...
I listen to soothing music 2 take long walk 3 do breathing exercises 4 self affirmation assuring myself that everything would be okay 5 exercises 6 last but not lest yoga
I am about 90% sure I am bi-polar. I told my Dr this and she asked me about 10 questions, to which I answered yes to 7, and then she said I’m not bi-polar. I’m going to get a second opinion because I am angry about 80% of every day. I can’t live like this any more. Thanks for this video. So much.
Rob has a video about a questionaire he co-created with Julie Fast. I believe you can find the checklist on polarwarriors.com. Yes, a second opinion might be a good idea! Keep searching!
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wow I just learned so much from this, and I feel like finally someone understands what goes on in my head. Ive never been diagnosed with anything, never even attempted to get help. This has been so eye opening, THANKYOU for this
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I was probably one of the best for you as you've done man that really brought attention to my anger and everything frustration when I have a problem going on with my family so I mean heck you're doing one heck of a job will continue to be there to watch your videos and be a willing supporter
Cleemdalla Radio you and I have become like brothers J. Thank you so much for the kind words my friend!😊🙏
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Thank you for your knowledge, and helping me feel like I'm not the only one with this illness.
It's a rough road for most.
Since my proper diagnosis, and treatment thereof, I'm 100% better.
My anger especially, has been easier to manage.
The ability to let things go, and to bury the hatchet, is something I'm still working on.
With the proper connections along with therapy has been the life saver for me. Having someone to look out for you, or advocate for your rights is crucial for a patient with any mental health issues.
These tips are great and I'm so happy there's someone out there trying to help people that would normally be hospitalized or imprisoned.
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There are two types of cannabis that I am aware of. Sativa and indica. Also there are hybrids which are a mixture of the two types. I have type 1 bipolar and I use cannabis as a way of treatment. I developed ways of coping through cannabis. I have frequent "rage episodes" where it is exactly like you explained. What i have discovered is that if I notice the aggitation is happening and I am not feeling right, i try to medicate with the indica type for it is high in CBD. The calming effect is enough to calm the rage and allow me to center myself. I don't believe medicating with cannabis is a wise thing to do if you aren't aware of your disorder yet. Because you don't know what you are treating and don't know if it is depression or mania. That's where self awareness is key to any kind of treatment for any form of bipolar disorder.
Great video! Bipolar rage isn't something we like to talk about 😕
Or get Pure CBD no THC hemp flower. I get mine from tweedle farms
Thank you
The destruction I've left behind me is mind blowing. I never meant to do that or say what I said.
Completely and absolutely relatable. For myself, one thought that makes me "chase the mania" is when I sit and think and reflect on everything I've been and what I am now. If I had the choice to erase my existence, I would...
But that's how I feel currently (depressed phase for about a week now for over socializing and analysis paralysis, I'm an unhealthy "INTP" (MBTI) I've studied and have practiced to understand my unconscious emotional rushes, while I casually try to keep my composure, "reflecting" in other words. I sometimes drag myself within a rabbit hole. Genuinely speaking, I know ill never get better in the form I'd like do to other effects in live as well. I've gain more control and more "access" to things I would consider. What I used to be is disappointing. I've done a lot of things I wouldn't change though. If I change my father's death as a kid, than I'd never have specific "lenses" or view of perceptions I have gained now. I mean i could study sure, but I've been in environments that have made me open. I wish the best for everyone going threw this. I'm still here currently, but only thing we can do is just keep swimming and study and practice mindfulness (i like the Cognitive triangle I've noticed quite a bit, but I don't base my life on it.
Sorry for the rant. I'm going into work and anxious as all hell, this calms me🤷♂️🤷♂️
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You are not alone in this friend
@@brettbutler4677 how are you friend
So true, thanks for your comment.
Thank you for making this video Rob. It has been a huge eye opner for me.
it'll be ok.
Your channel has been helpful to me in the past few months. It encouraged me to get my mental health evaluated and I was told I am now or should say have always been a Polar Warrior. I have a lot of fears moving forward.
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Im going for a swim, a hot tub and a sauna at the YMCA right now. The YMCA has been a life saver. Thank you ymca.
Robert, as always you put together an informative video. Keep up the great work that you do.GOD be with you and yours.
It is rough. I wake up some days and think to myself, "just don't kill anyone today."
My anger has sabotaged so many relationships. Nothing physical but a lot of passive aggressiveness. I get angry very easily and it’s troublesome
I really appreciate your honest and vulnerability. I have family members with Bipolar disorder, and I have learned a lot from your videos. Thank you so much!
I can not express how grateful I am that I found you and this video.
I first discovered this channel a few days ago. I can’t believe how many of my behaviours and experiences that I thought were unrelated to bipolar disorder were actually typical for people with this illness.
I know right!?
15 years ago a very bad tragedy happened to our family and my wife seemed to change over night. She always had emotional and mental issues but they were very mild compared to now. She was diagnosed Bipolar 1 and PTSD. It has been a terrible 15 years she suffers from crushing depression to euphoric mania to explosive anger. Shes been to many doctors and went through many, many pills just to get where she is now. I see her suffer everyday and I know sometimes she just wants to die but she believes that dying is easy living is a much deserved punishment and she wants to suffer and hurt everyday. Everything now is so much sadder and darker and the nightmare just never helps. Be gentle with yourself if you can you have worth.
Learned on brolic ones get treated nicer than the babymama
Proud of you for sticking by your wife…keep the attitude you have and yall will make it through! She needs your compassion, strength and understanding
Just want to say thank you for the videos. They have helped me a lot to understand my daughter. It has been a struggle for a very long time and I wish I had seen these videos about seven years ago to have better help my daughter.
It feels good to know I’m not alone. Thank you so much for having this channel!!
You are so welcome Amanda!
Was feeling 😠 about life this morning, stuck in vicious cycles can't seem to catch a break...
Failing at everything right now. But I'm acknowledging the problem and willing to work even harder.
dont know how i found this video but im glad i did. self awareness and inner peace are skills that must be mastered
I'm too angry to watch fully. I will return when I calm down.
This is wild. I knew I had an anger problem but hearing you talk about your experience and realizing that it is exactly what I deal with, I'm starting to think I'm bipolar. It's a word people tend to throw around so I ignorantly never took it seriously.
I definitely have anger management issues. I try to channel that anger into something positive. When I'm feeling like that I workout and play my piano. It doesn't always help. But anger can be put to good use of you can manage discipline. But that can take months to get rid of that feeling. Yesterday I was irate over something small. I listened to 48 laws of power. Law 39 helped, I saw the error of my ways and how it can be used against me. There is no cure, but I consider myself a work in progress.
Thank you. This is a huge problem for me.
I’m 3 minutes and 11 seconds in and I’m so grateful to have found this video. Thank you from the bottom of my 💜!!!!
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very glad I found this channel, helps a lot more than I thought possible
I struggle hard with this. I am self aware, but it's the overwhelming thought of "this will make me feel better" when I know it only causes more problems that make me feel worse. I have to sometimes physically stop myself from opening my mouth and saying stupid things by eating something, breathing deeply, getting up and walking away from the situation. Etc. Thank you for posting videos!
5 minutes into video and I need to comment already.I have watched loads of videos on Bipolar,depression and so on and I am more positive now than ever before I have Bipolar.I had a doctor do a "test" once years ago after a run in with the law and he said I am pretty sure you have Bipolar. I was medicated and it worked a treat but I had to stop the meds as I was suddenly made a single parent and the meds made me too drowsy at the time. Years have passed with many problems so I asked doctor.....a different one to before....and she says "Oh you need to be diagnosed by a specialist now before we can give you those meds again"..ok there goes that idea as I cannot get a specialist appointment here.Sorry for my rant but I needed to vent. That rage you mention is so very strong and as you say it's also very embarrassing to me and those around me...Sorry
pinay addiction General practitioners can give you a diagnosis also. Check out my video about bipolar diagnosis, The one I did that talks about reasons why people quit taking medication, and the top 10 signs of bipolar disorder. Make a list so you are prepared and the doctor can see it very clearly in black-and-white. You’ve got this! A very warm welcome to the channel. Stop by anytime :-)
pinay addiction I get it. I have been off meds for months because my previous provider, a psych med management clinic, made it very difficult to make an appointment. They refused to communicate. I can’t find another provider. Even the behavioral physician at my therapist’s office refused to take me as a patient because I have multiple diagnosis. The one therapist that my ob-gyn recommended doesn’t take insurance.
I’m so sorry you all are running into these problems. I was lucky enough to find a psychiatrist that took my insurance and believed I’m bi polar. I would be in your boat if not, and I would be frustrated and pissed off as well! Well wishes going out to you guys in your journey!
Excellent I wish everyone knowing someone with this mental disease could hear this over and over thank you so much
Excellent Video! You are a blessing to many. My son struggles and this helps me help him :-)
Amazing timing finding this. Literally walked away from a potential fight to smoke and chill when UA-cam suggested this, yes THC helps me. Benzos leave me too hungover feeling and I hate that. One thing I did stop to notice after being medicated: 0/0 things have been broke due to a brief flight from my rage. 😂
Also, you know how we tend to have a weird superpowers when channeling some of our bipolar qualities? I literally just realized it was my rage energy from wanting to find the absolute truth and moral position in debates that helped me finish my degree in political science. Strangly enough, I don't get emotional discussing politics because I channel that energy into philosophical and policy research. When debating, my pleasant demeanor gets under an otherwise calm person's skin, because most people actually do get emotional and rageful when discussing politics. It is gratifying to win by logical reasoning, but I'd be lying to not admit how amusing it is to watch their emotion.
God I'm so f'd up. 😂Really glad I found this channel. It's super hard to practice any philosophy when you haven't the slightest idea about the affects of your own mental handicap. Thank you x100000
That last part hit me, it’s hard to practice philosophy when you don’t know yourself well enough due to this mental illness. Very philosophical my dude! 🤘🏼😁
It's funny how much your comment resonates with me. 😂
thank you so much. Its not overselling it to say that this video among few others has saved my life. I was always shamed so bad by my narcissistic mother to the point where I was too ashamed of getting help with my anger or even the courage to youtube videos about it like now. Im so glad i finally did it. anger was/is completely compromising me and it scares me alot. The rest is up to me. Knowing all this new stuff is already helping me out alot! I know how to deal with it now. Thank you!
I truly appreciate your kind words! It means a lot to know that my videos resonate with you and provide some understanding. Your journey is important, and I'm honored to be a part of it.
-Rob
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You are the most helpful person on UA-cam to help us with Bipolar.
God Bless brother.. thank you for helping us weirdos out
Not sure about that one. Average people seem to be the weirdos. Their lives are so redundant and boring. Lol
We are not weird! We are sensitive creatures. ♥️
I am so happy I found this channel. Thank you for putting my feelings and experiences into words!
Thank you so much not only for the help but for the hope too, I didn't knew anyone that had to go through bipolar disorder as myself and that felt really lonely but thanks to your channel I am able to listen to your advise and see there's people that have to go through exactly the same things I go through and are able to live happy lives.
Marcos Marín I am so glad that you found my channel and you are very welcome here! It is a horrible feeling to feel alone and go through something like this. I will have lots more videos to come, so stop by anytime :-)
Thank you for all your work on these videos!
rebquist rebquist you are so welcome my dear friend 😊🤗
I'll be joining soon to support your important work.
I did an outpatient stay that focused on CBT and mindfulness. It made such a difference in how I behave. I highly recommend it as well. It has a lot to do with exactly what you stated in the beginning of this video "Awareness".
This one hits close to home. Thanks again.
This info is so valuable. My husband has started paying attention to our topics. He's learning as well! Thanks Rob!
Complexity explained with clarity is quite rare and definitely valuable. Thank you sir for reaching out 🙏.
This man's words are very well thought out. Definitely impressed with his depth of thinking things through. I am going to subscribe.
Hello. My wife was just diagnosed. It has been a struggle. I'm bipolar 2. And she is bipolar 1. We are both trying to learn about each others diagnosis and your videos have been extremely helpful. Thanks
Thank you so much for your time on this video. I’m trying the self help method. I have not been the greatest to my significant other and children. Thank you for your time!!!
My teenage daughter and I both have Bipolar 2. We love watching your videos together.
Hey there ! Rob is available on patreon. You can message him, text or even have a call with him there. For a very limited time he is offering free support phone calls for all patrons right now in which he can lend an ear, give advice or answer questions. Take gentle care.
Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
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Appreciate your covering this topic. Excellent! I have done CBT and agree it is worth taking the classes.
Hey bro. Thanks for your support. You describe me to the dot. I couldn’t stop crying by listening to your video. Thanks man
Glad I could help Amir! You are not alone friend 🙏
Thank you for providing a safe place to talk about this difficult subject.
Well, that explains why I screamed at a co-worker. It has puzzled me for months on end as to what was that all about. Not only did I scream at him, I took it up with two managers. A couple of days later and I asked him about his attitude. His response was: “you yelled at me,”! Why was I so surprised? In the last several months I’ve begun to notice a ramping up of mood swings. I don’t recommend this but I took myself off one med. it had a lot to do with a major depression. After several weeks I told my.doctor and was put on another med. As you note, being aware is a major key. And, removing yourself from a potential bomb site is priceless!
No words to explain how much I needed to hear this to understand myself better. Bless you!!!!
This is a brilliant vid and you are a very knowledgable guy - thanks for this - I am working to combat my rage but I very often get blindsighted by emotion as you pointed out and will just keep getting angrier and angrier until i punch my desk and shout like I am on a battle field
I never even recognized my aggressively angry behavior until a year ago and I've been looking for some advice on tools and coping skills to manage it.
Thank you soooo much for this video I now have some relief and hope in tackling this symptom.
Thank you so much for the video. You are 100% correct. You have definitely helped me by watching. Keep on posting! And thank you. 😊
I’m really glad I found these videos. You have made more sense and are more informative than any psych Dr..
I feel totally helpless at this point. Bipolar, constant insomnia, misophonia and the movement (?) phobia. So, my fight or flight feels constant and overwhelming.
So happy I found your channel. These videos have been so life changing and life saving for me!
Hey there ! Rob is available on patreon. You can message him, text or even have a call with him there. He is offering free support phone calls for all patrons right now. I think you may benefit from that. Take gentle care.
Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
www.crisistextline.org/
teenlineonline.org/talk-now/
Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member
(H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds
On Patreon, you can message Rob directly, get a phone/video call, watch videos that are more personal in nature, and access a great community.
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My cycles are always the same; depression most of the time, then I get irritated, anxious and agitated with the smallest thing triggering me into rage.
After 4 1/2yrs of quitting my meds cold turkey and the last two years my partner has been my target for my rage, hurtful words, abuse and watched me harm myself. My "rage" episode literally go 4 days straight. After a recent episode I had harmed myself badly and hearing my bf say, "I can't do this with you anymore. I knew I needed help for quiet sometime but didn't want to go back and start all over.
I made an appointment and waited 2 months, have had two appointments and my psychiatrist listened and put me back on lamotrigine when I shared that was what I use to take and was also put on an anti depressant just recently. I'm noticing a difference but I know that things will take time and a lot of work on my part to keep myself stable.
Holly Lewis How brave if you to talk about these things! I abused my husband with my anger and rage. I even threw objects AT him. It was so difficult for me to admit to my Dr that I was this "terrible monster." So, I greatly admire you for posting this!
Missi Gee Times in my past I never told any psychiatrist about what was really going on. I told myself that this time I will be completely honest, for that will be the only way I'm going to get the proper treatment.
I'm very grateful that I have a man who loves me, for me and my flaws. My bf delt (still deals with minor problems by me) with so much bs that I feel he should have left two yrs ago. Since I just began seeing a psychiatrist I have not made any effort on fixing all the holes in our house. I have broke many objects, including a glass ashtray that sent me to the ER last summer and I had stitches inside and outside of the palm of my hand. I'm scared of the possible side effects from medications and most of all knowing that I am going to have to change a lot of things in my life and possibly leave ppl whom I love and care about.
Holly Lewis it sounds as if we are pretty much in the same boat here. My husband should have left me about 5 years ago. Actually, I've never treated him as well as I should have. More power to you with your fixing your house and, possibly, some relationships? I know I have many people to which I need to apologize! All the best to you! And, I too have fears about meds. I had to quit reading about my medication.
BTW, my last name is Lewis as well. 😉
Missi Gee The moodstablizer I'm on (also took in the past) doesn't cause weight gain and doesn't effect your libido. Which only being 28yrs old is not a fun way to live.
That's cool your last name is Lewis.
I recently had a situation at work during a day that was high stress in general. I didn’t expect myself to literally let out all my anger on a coworker who I wasn’t on good terms with due to something I didn’t agree with. My boss (who is naturally upbeat and able to stay upbeat most of the time) insensitively told me to keep my composure and remain professional. Smh. Meanwhile my other coworkers congratulated me on having the balls to stand up to someone I’m front of everyone like how I did.
Great job as usual. Thank you!
Absolute hell - so relatable 👍
I worked at a kava bar in Hawaii. I can attest to it's wonderfully palpable calming feeling. Good when fresh!
Wow when I listen to you I feel like someone really understands you have more insight and knowledge than any dr I’ve spoken too also you wouldn’t believe how many loved ones I hurt and said a hundred sorrys
I started watching this because I sometimes struggle with being easily frustrated, I felt like it was coming more from a place of anxiety but I do have Bipolar 1 and PTSD dx so I figured maybe it would help. I've also known for a while now that Bipolar runs on my moms side of the family (though most would never admit it or have dx I did recently learn that my great grandmother DID have a dx) but this video just opened my eyes much more fully to something I've suspected a time or two and that is that my dad fits this type of Bipolar perfectly. You just described him to the T. Sudden outbursts of anger that didn't really make sense, issues with insomnia and then extreme-sleeping (which I too do) everyone walking on eggshells then deer in headlights. This will be in my discussion with my therapist last week since me trying to understand and relate to my family and stop being hurt by them is a common theme. Thanks for this video!
I listen to u for my Son- I worried about him-Oh my God you are so Good!!!! Thank u so much -God Bless🙏🏻
you make the most informative videos. honestly i relate so much unfortunately im not even sure if this is what im dealing with because the psychiatrist that i saw didnt even try to understand a thing i was saying and after my therapist put bipolar in her notes, i got the blame for it and ever since ive been a complete wreck on no meds, nothing.
i dont think ill be alive within the next few years because i have nothing but thank you for your videos they are so professional and well put together.
Makaelee_Anne I am so glad that you found my channel and you are very welcome here. You are absolutely not alone with the way you feel. I would strongly suggest finding a different therapist. From what you described, it sounds like they are definitely not qualified to treat someone who has bipolar. I have seen a lot of crappy doctors and my time, before I found a very precious few who truly got it. Don’t quit… This illness takes so much from us, and you can’t let it take the ultimate thing we have, which is our life. Don’t let it win! 😊🤗
-Robert
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I needed this because I have been irritable all week
I’m glad I found this I’m just bawling. I can’t control my emotions things are getting hard
i didnt think i was bi polar until i watched this video. i came here for advice on my anger. my brother and sister were both diagnosed bi polar. im almost certain my eldest sister is, just undiagnosed. but i never once thought i could be too, until this video. i have anger issues. and almost every line of this video described me to a tee. i was angry with my partner when i opened this video, now im sitting alone with my jaw dropped. im stunned. thank you for this. seriously, thank you
Oh my goodness...I feel the same way...just trying to control my anger now 😩 I feel bipolar....
Ouch. This is one of your videos where I hate to admit, your right! I've watched this one twice already and my anger is sometimes unbearable inside my head.
Then, after battling it alone, I often just simply blow up, yelling, swearing, and just throwing a tantrum. I'm alone, so it does no good, but I cant control it sometimes.