Stopping Antidepressants after 3 years! | VLOG | LiveitlikeLauren
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Having a meal in the sun, surrendered by nature is such a blessing. Your parents' garden is so pretty!
It really is!
When you write ‘drop you shoulders and take the deepest breath you have taken all day’ it staggers me that I haven’t asphyxiated myself as I realise my shoulders are up around my ears and I’m holding my breath 😂
That’s exactly why it’s there ❤️
And that my tongue is touching the roof of my mouth!!
Exactly! Really appreciate when she does that!
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The tongue gets me. I never realize how stiff I am
I love my Tuesday evening catch-ups with lovely Lauren. Both the happy moments and the sad moments ... they all add up to make you more lovable. ❤
When you do the drop your shoulders and take the deepest breath it always makes me cry . I think its because it's such an act of kindness to us all and I know that thousands of people are all doing it at the same time . Just as you are kind to us lauren, you need to be kind to yourself . Thank you for being so vulnerable on this video and a virtual hug from me . ❤
I've been a silent watcher for a while now but just wanted to say I am so glad that you included the stretching and breathing at the end again this week! I joined in and had immediate tears just falling out my eyes, was exactly what I needed after a long day! Your videos really make my day whenever I watch, and I'm just so grateful that you take the time to put them together to show real life. Looking forward to next week 🤍
You are so welcome! Thank you Isla, you are safe here x
You looked fabulous for the wedding and pride! Happy and joyous ! Your journey coming off meds might be a ‘bumpy’ one, so be prepared! We all love a ‘yellow sticker’ moment at M&S , yippee! 💛Have a good week, be kind to yourself, you’re a star! ⭐️
Lauren, i think you are beautiful in every video but the photos of the wedding and pride....you are simply glowing. Happiness is bursting from your smiles. Stunner. The card was gorgeous too, you are so talented. Hate to see your tears but i love your openness and honesty - thank you as always for sharing your life with us and making some of us feel less alone ❤️🩹💫
You are so so so welcome Mavis xx thank you for these beautiful words, I needed them today xx
Thank you for being real because it makes me (and probably 90% of other people) feel somewhat normal 😂 I spy on the neighbours too 👀 😂
Just wanted to say, I stopped taking prozac after 5+years in December, and the increase in emotion is overwhelming at times - i have found it useful to purposefully watch sad or moving films / tv / reels to allow the emotion to flow without having to revisit trauma / the past. That has been cathartic and gave me a safer way to have a good cry.
Thank you for your vulnerability and willingness to share what's going on with you. Normalising mental health struggles is so important. I really hope the coming weeks are as steady and manageable as possible xax
We all need a good cry at times!
My therapist recently made the floodgates open when she asked me "have you ever been able to put it down?" ('it' being whatever you're carrying... it's different for each person, it can be pressure/expectations/stress/worry/fear, etc.) I burst into tears. I feel like I have never been able to set it down. I am always going, always busy, always taking care of others, always selfless. Realizing that I have always carried so much was awful and I allowed myself to be vulnerable in that moment which was very much needed. Even those of us who are extremely self-aware have blind spots about ourselves. Everyone says "feel your feelings" these days, its like a throwaway line, but it's the most difficult thing actually. If you can allow yourself to feel them, cry them out, breathe through it, set it down, trust me you will start to feel lighter and better xo
You sound very wise, thank you for sharing that insight ✨
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You looked so stunning for the wedding and Emma seems to make you so happy. Lovely to see ❤
Your mum's garden is like a fairy garden trees plants flowers and privacy. What a place to unwind and relax in.❤❤❤
I was on anti depressant believe it or not for back pain due to work injury thanks to my pain Dr. From 8 yrs ago...but I took myself off the darn things after 3 yrs, it nearly took me about 3 whole months of emotional roller coaster cause like you it just blocked all my crying completely out Lauren I couldn't feel any emotions after a while ,i just went on with my days like a statue...today I feel much better ..I do cry out of the blue once in a while heck yess when something is sad or im in pain ..but that's OK, it just tells me that when I feel I'm human ...take your time ,take care of yourself emotionally and everything will fall in place after ...keep the videos coming ...every Sunday now I start waiting for Tuesday video ...your great person and you're loved all the way from Canada and I'm sure from all over the globe where ever your subscribers are ...thank you for being you
What can not be said will be wept ❤️
You are brave, strong, loved and not alone. Hugs and love. 🫂💖💕😊
❤️❤️❤️ Love your vulnerability😊 You’re genuine and real. The two of you looked absolutely beautiful at the wedding! Keep on being you and don’t let anyone stop you!!!
Omg the first clip...STUNNING!!! You have such a beautiful character Lauren, I love your videos!
Thank you so much!! X
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3:00 She told us in a video from years ago, she saves the tomato seeds on the towel for them to dry, and then she uses them for the next sesson😊❤
Well remembered!
I’m now renaming Tuesday to simply ‘Lauren day’, aka best day of the week! Perfect end to my night. Also, sending so much strength on your journey with been med free. I’m not quite ready to get off mine yet but I get why people would prefer not to be on them. You’re very brave making that step & I hope it pays off xx
Lovely Lauren ❤ thank you for sharing your journey. When the feelings start coming back after anti depressant’s; they come back BIG. Loved the yoga element ! After much trauma myself I did yoga last week for the first time in years and I felt like I was floating on a cloud after! Slept so well too which proved to me how much of a toll stored trauma has on our mind and body. Thank you for being you Lauren - you’re so kind and loving - we all appreciate you and keep going how you are - you’re doing so well it’s so good to see 💐💞
Just love you to bits, Lauren! Thank you 🙏 that stretching was amazing i hadnt felt how tight and stressed i was until i got down in the floor to "do these stretches with you" saving these tips in my arsenal. Sweet friend please know that the time Ive spent here with you has made a very hard week, so much brighter for me. I see your precious soul and your kind yet fierce spirit. Thank you, Lauren! Love to you ❤
This is incredible. Thank you for sharing my friend xxxxx sending you love and light x
One ❤ for you , one ❤ for me and one ❤ for your lovely subscribers. You have the nicest community I came across so far .
This vlog had me in laughing and crying ! Thank you for taking the time to share your life with us .
Greetings from sunny Greece 🇬🇷
Wow, thank you. They are truly the best x
Oh Lauren you looked lovely for the wedding as did Emma. I can fully relate to you being on antidepressants and coming off. I had been on them for many years and came off 3 years ago. It was very difficult…not only the crying but the tiredness and anger sometimes taking over. Hopefully I am getting beyond that now but it can come back when under stress. I wish you the best and remember to be kind to yourself. Try not to be so busy…relax. We do not have to fill every moment with something!! Until next week! Enjoy your week. 👋🏼🇨🇦❤️❤️❤️
Once we truly pay attention to ourselves, we realize how stressed and stiff we are. My mind lately has been very noisy and disorganized that by the time I’m back to earth the day has passed and I was not productive at all. Lauren, THANK YOU for the chat and the time you put in to help us find ourselves ❤❤❤and a fourth one for our mommy ❤
❤❤❤ I am here with you all. I am present. I am showing up for myself finally. Thank you Lauren, you have helped me out a lot this week. Keep going everyone xx
Hello Lauren, I've watched your channel for a while now and have just subscribed. Your content can be so raw at times and it resonates with me in many ways. Keep going girl, being the strong and wonderful person that you are. I'll be there with you.🤘
You’re so beautiful inside and out, Lauren! Thank you for sharing all that you do 🙏 I didn’t stop crying for a while when I came off my meds, I realised too they had been masking everything that I hadn’t worked through 🥺 so that took some time, but it got easier, the lows were there more at first, but the highs felt more real, pure, and all-consuming than they ever did on medication too 😘 It takes some strength and we can all see you have that in abundance 🌹 It gets easier ♥️ I’m so glad you have beautiful people around you, you deserve all the support, you definitely support all of us 🥰 You always inspire me. Sending love, hugs, and huge appreciation always xx
New subscriber here, watched afew of your previous videos and you fast became one of my favourite youtubers, on a side note i gathered early on you were a Taurus only to find you are born on the same day as me !!😀
Yayyyy birthday twinsssss!
On antidepressants to help me cope with anxiety and depression which helps me sleep at night as i have insomnia and this works well. Trying to find balance with work and life curb ball. I cried seeing you cry. You are a true inspiration even being 47 years old i love your honesty in daily life thankyou Lauren for being you ❤❤❤
Try the brand Viridian ~ Magnesium Bisglycinate capsules, absolute game changer for me and sleeping. Knock you out 💤
Hey Lauren, i know what you’re going through..I have the feeling of dread most days, I’m on meds but the things going through my head are just horrible ! My daughter suffers from a disease that she suffers from day after day..she’s nearly passed away a couple of times and my son died at the age of 5 months with a similar disease.. my mums 91 and she’s fallen and broken so many bones and both side of her hips! It’s like I’m living in a nightmare that I can’t cope with 😞…I love your channel you really do help me and I thank you so much..so much love ♥️💋😔♥️♥️♥️
I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. You've been through, and are still going through, a lot. Wishing you peace and strength.
Lauren, sending lots of love. I have been where you are and went into counselling and have now finished after 6 years. Journaling through 3 large journals crying and sitting with my emotions taught me that the trauma, judgments, shame and guilt fear I felt was because as a child young adult mother and wife I had attached emotions to them. No medications in 25 years, courage to walk from my marriage go back to school at 54 after 4 years I graduated the same day my divorce was final the date was 10/11/2020. You are strong and that little girl inside is jumping for joy ready to explore life. Take care look forward to seeing you grow in ways you never imagined possible ❤
You sound amazing! Congratulations on changing your life ! For the better 🎉
@@katcampbell9213 thank you.
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Lauren-I know you have spoken about having anxiety. Have you ever considered ADHD? The only reason I ask is because I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 37, and was misdiagnosed with anxiety for many years and none of the medications worked because it wasn’t what I was dealing with-the anxiety was a side effect of ADHD. Also it presents very differently in women than in men. Anyway-here to support you on your mental health journey. Thanks for posting ❤ 😊
I was thinking the same! I wasn't diagnosed with ADHD until 39. I was beginning to think I had treatment resistant depression and anxiety. Yes, I have depression, but being on ADHD medication has made things so much better! I'm glad you found the right support, and I hope Lauren can too!
You are healing. So brave. Taking risks and trusting someone . It’s so lovely to see. Thank s for breathing for us xxxx
I also feel like I’m never gonna stop when I start crying, hearing you say that made me feel uplifted in the sense that it’s not just me who feels it. You can cry, you can have the time, you’re worth the time
Your mum calls sharpies “stubbies” love your videos thank you for being you x❤x
She does!! ❤️
Mom calls Sharpies ‘stubbies’ I absolutely adore her! The both of you are so funny together! When mom pulled that hair from your nose, I felt it here in the states! 😂 But on a more serious note, when you said to place our hand on our body, my hands went immediately to my scar from having a total thyroid removal as it was cancerous. I have stage 3 metastatic ovarian cancer Lauren and my thyroid was one of a few places my cancer has spread to. I will to the day I take my last breath, cry instantly when I touch my incision and remember my doctor telling me, “Joany, you had thyroid cancer but now you are “thyroid cancer-free.” Just hearing those words I’ve long to hear was like I was dreaming and at that moment I was grateful to God there was one cancer they could get! That’s what I wish for all my ovarian cancers gals, is that one day we’ll be told they have found us a cure. It’s been a long journey these last 21 years and I’ve had no fun. With that being said Lauren, I fight the good fight every day as I have since 2003. I was 49-years-old when I was diagnosed and I’m now 70 and I’m on a daily chemotherapy pill that has so far kept me stable a few years, and if it stops working, I’ll cross that bridge when and if I have to. Until then I’d like to say I know how beautiful life is and can be for all of us no matter what we are dealing with, but I’ve lost my way it seems. I’m suffering with such emotional sadness. My body has been through so much. I have lost all motivation and my cat Luca is my only comfort. I am physically disabled, unable to walk and exercise because cancer treatments have affected my joints. I weigh 330 lbs and I’m so ashamed of myself. I’m on depression medication. They help a little, but I cry a lot. I have more years behind me than in front of me my love. But we can’t keep looking back can we? we’re not going that way. We must move forward! Does it ever get easier?
I love your videos and tonight was my favorite video. When you were loving on that gorgeous cat, I cried when you cried. I get it too Lauren. And you showed us a beautiful side of yourself that I thought took such bravery and courage to say. We all adore you💗I live in the 🇺🇸 USA in Rhode Island and I love you.
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@@joanysmith2uJoany, bless you for sharing your heart and your story. You’re absolutely incredible. ❤️❤️❤️
Stopping anti-depressant can be a real struggle. I had to stop mine with the help of my doctor... one major SIDE EFFECT was "you could get suicidal thoughts". The overflow of emotions is normal. Your body has to adapt to life without meds. I've been keeping a daily GRATITUDE journal. I also have one for "BRAIN DUMPING" when I'm too overwhelmed/anxious/emotional. I write a few words or sentences as soon as I get up in the morning. I keep it short and sweet. I also do "THE DAILY PRACTICE" (from the you tuber: The Crappy Childhood Fairy), when I'm in a really bad spot. It helps to re-regulate my emotions. I'm a much better human being for it. I totally recommend it. Sending you a big hug 💖💖💖
There are some very good reasons why slow tapering is recommended, even more slowly than any doctor would suggest. 😮
If you need to cry then cry don’t hold it in as it will make your anxiety worse . You are a beautiful person and you have lots of people who love you ❤❤❤
My day is already better now!!
Yayyy! Thanks for being here!
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Looked absolutely beautiful at the wedding!
Thank you!!
💜🩷💙 Lauren, you are beautiful outside and inside. Never forget the beauty you share ❤️ on your channel 😊
Love this love you! Remember it’s ok to cry and let you emotions happen ❤
Oh my goodness Lauren, I stopped taking antidepressants 4 weeks ago after 3 years….. in the same way you did 😂
The crying … at anything or nothing and irritation and anger at everyone….. I’ve been numb for so long, that experiencing emotion is unsettling for me, but I’m doing my best not to judge and chastise myself. On the up side I do actually feel alive again and have the starts of feelings of excitement for the future (once I actually decide on what I want to do and where I want to be).
It was comforting for me to hear you talk of your experiences. ❤
I am sending you the biggest hug! Thank you so much for sharing. Xxxx
🌹You looked so beautiful at the wedding Lauren! Love the photos of you and Emma. You both look so radiantly happy together. Continued Blessings and Support. ~Love&Light♥️Carli ♥️♥️♥️
Craniosacral therapy gave me the biggest emotional release that I’ve experienced in YEARS…if there’s ANY way you can go for even one session, go in blind…hopefully you’ll just explode with emotions during it and leave feeling light as a feather 😭💖
Your brother’s cat is adorable 🩷 You could have a cat like mine. He hates being held. He loves to be jammed up beside me, but doesn’t stay still in my arms for more than 30 seconds.
Thanks Lauren this really helped me this week I came off my meds last year after eight years of taking them and I was feeling emotions I’d not felt for ages but you get used to it it’s normal but a bit strange at first it’s like your back in the room again you forget wat it’s like to have all these feelings but when you get used to it it’s amazing to feel whole again I just needed a break from reality for a while to function but doing great now ❤😊
Wow you looked amazing at the wedding, your wee mum is a sweetheart and your parents garden lovely ,have a great week .🌹🌹🌹.
33:45 “Don’t make a joke. This is trauma.” I felt that so hard. 😅
Hi Lauren,
Just be gentle with yourself coming off your meds . I tried to come of mine but think it's too soon for me as only been year and a half since I lost my gorgeous husband. Your a strong beautiful independent woman. Just be kind to you.
Love and hugs xxxxxx ❤❤❤
Sending you so much love. Thank you x
Stoppppp 😭😭😭😭 her little drawing of you is sooo cute
Hi Lauren loving your vlogs just wanted to send you a warm thank you for putting a stretching session at the end of your vlog so relaxing. I am now chilled and ready for the day. ❤❤❤
Really really really love the meditation/yoga part. Especially when you're speaking live on the video. Thank you so much!
Another great vlog. So happy to see you happy. Looks like you had an incredible time at the wedding and pride! Keep shining on Lauren! ❤️❤️❤️
19:35 Can’t still my curious brain off sometimes, and was so curious of the plaque that you passed here on the ground. Spent a good 10 minutes of finding it and saw it was a Princess Diana memory walk- plaque. Made me a bit emotional. Thanks for taking us with you around London, Lauren❤
Blimey..I’d forgotten it was Tuesday..yay!
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I’m hereeeee
I completely relate to the fear that I will never stop if I allow myself to cry. Trauma is a MF. I'm sending you so much love, cosiness, cat cuddles, gentleness. Thanks for sharing your vulnerability :)
The cat is just wonderful what a gorgeous creature to look at, very handsome ❤
He is a lovely boy x
Always enjoy your videos Lauren. You both loved lovely in the wedding pictures. The drawings were so sweet! Hugs 🤗 xxx
Lauren, you looked beautiful at the wedding and on Pride day. I'm glad you had a couple of amazing days.
You and your mum are both beautiful people.
When you pretended to speak while there was a loud motorcycle in the background, it had me in stiches... 😂. It's hard being honest and vulnerable, but you're doing it and are amazing for it. I, too, have suffered some trauma in my life and struggle with it sometimes, but every day is a new day and full of amazing possibilities. Or it just may be a simple day where you get to snuggle with your brother's cat. Life is good. No, scratch that. Life is great. ❤❤❤👍
❤️❤️❤️👍hope your feeling better Lauren. The crying is the effects of stopping the tablets coming off them extremely slow is the way. Sending hugs xxxx
Thank you so much for sharing your life with us. I truly enjoy watching you each week. I can relate to the challenges you are facing in various aspects of your life. While I don't know much about your personal life beyond what you share with us, I understand that there is likely something very therapeutic about opening up to an audience. Your willingness to show your true self, including insecurities, vulnerabilities, struggles, and triumphs, is truly appreciated. Thank you for being so open and transparent and sharing your journey with us!
Hi Lauren, You are a beautiful person, watching you since last April. You are an inspiration and I love watching your journey. ×❤❤❤
i’m so proud of you and your amazing I know you can do it and it’s a journey of feelings and emotions with trauma stay strong 💪 ❤ don’t give up positive thinking 💭 always love you 😘 ❤ sending luv and hugs 🥰
Lovely wedding pics Lauren 📸 and real as ever video bit of a hard watch you been upset hope uour feeling bettee soon 😢 ive been there so many times and felt your every tear. Just take care of your self lass what ever you need to do. Im not sure if you have tried reiki before but it helped me loads and i go to a meditation class that really helps me too ☺️ keep been you never change ❤
Awww darlin! You do what’s best for you! We all suppose you no matter what! right!
YOU ARE STRONGER 💪😊👍👍
You got this!
Yippee!! THE best vlog by the best girl!! X
I’m hereeee
Here she is! ❤
Better late than never x
@@LiveitlikeLauren abso-bloody-lutely xxx
I'm also on medication withdrawal ,so you're not alone and i just want to send you a huge hug and my support. ❤❤❤
Thank you, Lauren. This was wonderful. You are so special.❤❤❤
I love your vlogs so much and would absolutely love a stand-alone series dedicated to meditation and stretching 💚
Noted! ❤️
❤❤❤ thank you for this Lauren it was exactly what i needed at exactly the right time. Looking forward to the journaling vidoe. Doing these things along with you helps me so much. I actually do it instead of genuinely intending to and getting so side tracked i end up just being too exhausted and put off untill tomorrow and repeat again and again. You are my virtual friend who helps me take the time for myself instead of ignoring my needs and care. Never miss a post of yours even if it takes a day for me to watch. Pls keep being lovely you and sharing ❤❤❤
Hi Lauren I really enjoyed your video keep smiling 🙂 you are doing amazing and always have a beautiful spirit within you always beautiful soul thank you for sharing so positivity wish you love and light take good care ♥️♥️♥️🌻🌞
Thank you for being so raw and real about coming off meds. I feel so low right now i feel like ive been hit by a bus full of emotions. I have surpressed for so long that its starting to spill out abit now. But i have to be strong as i have people to care for but i know i am not caring for myself at all. Im just full of anger and sadness its overwhelming and i needed to see this vulnerability from yourself to not feel so alone in this. So thank you. Youre the best 🥰
Loving that you are including the time stretching/talking etc at the end. Long time follower and also taking my health back… at last. So refreshing but also just at the right time so thank you - small steps for all of us… right… we will get there!
Citalopram is a weird but effective med .. it doesn’t allow u to keep a negative thought … which helps so much but also impedes getting the feelings out ! Win / lose . I’ve been on n off this med for many years … ❤
Fave of the week !! 🥰
Hey lovely xx
I also was on citalopram when i was going through a divorce and weaned myself off and u will feel emotional at first but its better to feel your emotions rather than mask them take care your the best ❤
I totally agree. Thank you Lorraine x
Thank you for another amazing video they're my new comfort
Good luck with coming off the anti depressants, I know that's not an easy task. I love the deep breath exercise you do halfway through. I always think "Oh, yeah!" and relax. Beautiful words at the end. I also love Chelsea! Thank you lovely lady.
Be kind to yourself hun 🏴 your doing amazing ❤
Hey Lauren l definitely can relate it's so hard.if you need to cry cry l feel it's a good release.thanks for sharing . Xx
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♥️♥️♥️ sending you hugs. You're a superhuman getting off the meds! I've done it. I feel your emotional pain. I get scared all the time I'm going to hit the bottom of the barrel again. But I always overcome. Getting to FULLY feel is a blessing. Even though it can feel like a curse some days. But on the REALLY good days I'm so thankful.
I feel like Ikea is the same everywhere. I live in Canada and ours are the same except you wouldn't see a sign saying fill your trolley😆 it would say fill your cart! I loved the pics of the wedding and the Pride picnic and glad you enjoyed it. In my 20's I was on anti depressants and went off them like you did ( I am now 67 ) It was good for me and do not remember anything that happened during that time. I love your videos and please just keep being yourself.
Thank you so much lovely xx
Heal it like Lauren. I would trust your healing advice. ❤
There were so many beautiful pics of both you and Emma in this vlog. You both look so stunning together. I LOVED this vlog. ❤ "Stubbies?" I relate to you in so many ways... it's uncanny. {{{Hugs}}}❤ P.s. I'm a certified personal trainer as well. I recently retired. My last job before I retired, for 11 years, was a group exercise instructor & a certified personal trainer. You made me cry......... it's a good thing.
@@classykitty6603 it astounds me that two people got this right ! This word didn’t occur to me, what am I missing ? 🤣🤣🤣
Brilliant lovely Lauren 🎉🎉🎉🎉 thank you so much - 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Loved loved loved the yoga ❤❤❤
Wishing you the best with your mental health journey! Emma seems like such a lovely partner and I'm happy for you both! 💚
You have a beautiful, genuine smile 😍
To heal you have to ‘feel and deal’ and you will in your own time when you’re ready. It will come in whatever form it needs to and you’ll be ok.
Thank you so much Caroline xx
girl! love your nails at the end! your vids are so lovely! Thank you for being you!
Thank you so much!! Thank you for watching x
Thank you Lauren
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Hi Lauren keep doing what you do. You bring me such great joy. Let those tears out girl.Aine in Ireland.😊
Thank you so much Aine x
Thank you Lauren!
Writing this at the point where your crying, please be careful when not taking tablets as things got worse when i just stopped them things got so much darker! Really care about you and your mental health so if you’re not okay please reach out.
Thankyou for being open and honest as it means so much to relate to somebody ❤️❤️
I’m really ok. It’s sadness, nothing more sinister ❤️ thank you for your kindness x
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I don't feel alone when you share your lovely video ❤ Love the green nail polish on you.... I need to do my nails...🙄 It's difficult to be motivated when my AC is broken and I'm struggling... 😅I'm hanging in there. Have a lovely day, Lauren & to everyone here! 💗💚🩵🌻
♥️♥️♥️sending love to you Lauren, great vlog as always x
Thank you so much!! Xx