How not to open an airport

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  • @lateralcast
    @lateralcast  8 місяців тому +340

    Correction: question should read "August 1959".

    • @llearch
      @llearch 8 місяців тому +24

      For those looking for more detail (such as it is), the page in wikipedia is entitled "Ottawa Macdonald-Cartier International Airport"; the previous name of Uplands is fairly well hidden.

    • @ajs41
      @ajs41 8 місяців тому +13

      Important in a very small way, because Concorde might have been available in 1969 but not in 1959.

    • @lucindao
      @lucindao 8 місяців тому +7

      For those wondering, in today's money that would cost about $3,103,000 CAD ($2,294,000 USD, €2,115,000 EUR or £1,808,000 GBP)

    • @sirgarberto
      @sirgarberto 8 місяців тому +14

      while we're on corrections, the subtitles for Taha's last line should read "lighter and airier", not "lighter an area"

    • @renerpho
      @renerpho 8 місяців тому +6

      @@llearch I went ahead and added a few details and primary sources/reports to that Wikipedia article. Funny how little the incident is (was) mentioned there.

  • @JimFaindel
    @JimFaindel 7 місяців тому +135

    I really enjoy grandpa Tom hanging out with the local teens.

    • @GiraffeFlavored
      @GiraffeFlavored 7 місяців тому

      A previous video Tom felt Very Old from them all being born in 98 (except Tana who was 97). As someone who was _also_ born in 98, A. reminder that we are 26 years old, and B. Yeah. Fair enough lol

    • @burningknight7
      @burningknight7 4 місяці тому +2

      Srsly lol watching it again, its so clear that he is being constantly reminded how old he is

    • @dianefields6056
      @dianefields6056 4 місяці тому

      Like yeah, like great. He's like picking it up.

  • @PastPresented
    @PastPresented 8 місяців тому +249

    2:53 "It's not that far north"
    There goes that famous America/Europe latitude thing again. Ottawa is only about as far north as Venice, roughly half-way between the Equator and the North Pole.

    • @emdivine
      @emdivine 8 місяців тому +22

      Right yeah, hard for the brain to parse. They get better light than us, but the temperatures aren't as good because they're west of the gulf stream. Or something like that

    • @ornil
      @ornil 8 місяців тому +35

      It's worse than this - they are talking about light, not weather, and in August. Even if it was at the North Pole, there'd be more light if anything in August.

    • @markusklyver6277
      @markusklyver6277 8 місяців тому

      Suuuuuuurely, Ottawa is basically the Arctic.

    • @cannot-handle-handles
      @cannot-handle-handles 8 місяців тому +4

      Moreover, August would still mean more than 12h of daylight on the Northern hemisphere, so "it's not that far south" would have made more sense. 🤔

    • @emdivine
      @emdivine 8 місяців тому +3

      @@ornil holy heck how did I miss that, August has almost no night here in the arctic circle. I just completely glossed over which month was mentioned

  • @Chicken_o7
    @Chicken_o7 8 місяців тому +84

    Just glad that it happened during the rehearsal and not when the airport was in use!

    • @GyroCannon
      @GyroCannon 8 місяців тому +7

      It'd be kind of weird to have a military jet fly so close to an actively used airport though 😅

    • @empath69
      @empath69 8 місяців тому +8

      @@GyroCannon On Opening Day tho - they'd have a 'mini air show' (and probably rethought that)

  • @GeekmanCA
    @GeekmanCA 8 місяців тому +34

    What's funny is that this happened again in Brazil in 2012. A low supersonic pass by some Mirage fighters shattered many of the windows on their supreme court building. It was a viral video back in the day.
    Humans never learn, it seems! Making jets go BOOM BOOM is just too much fun. "I'm gonna go sooo fast..."

    • @JoaoPessoa86
      @JoaoPessoa86 8 місяців тому +1

      the UNESCO world heritage supreme court building

  • @boy638
    @boy638 8 місяців тому +84

    The answer shattered my expectations

  • @NCopper27
    @NCopper27 8 місяців тому +54

    My initial thought (once I, too, metagamed the “light and airy” comment) was that there was so much glass that it created one of those “death ray” type scenarios where it reflected all the sunlight into a single location-in this case, I guessed it would have been the primary runway, so any pilots coming in would be blinded by the sun’s reflection.

    • @agustinvenegas5238
      @agustinvenegas5238 7 місяців тому

      I have no concept of how cold it is in August in Ottowa so I thought the plane slid on ice right into the light and airy terminal bc he didn't stop soon enough not being able to see the brand new clean glass façade

    • @Atlessa
      @Atlessa 3 місяці тому +1

      @@agustinvenegas5238 August in Ottawa probably means t-shirt weather. 25°C and up. They get MORE sun in August than almost any other month.

  • @macsnafu
    @macsnafu 8 місяців тому +23

    "But I don't see what the problem is--it's just lighter and airier."
    I don't think he's wrong here.

    • @liseturner1019
      @liseturner1019 Місяць тому

      Wait until winter...
      Montreal and Ottawa are forever finding out that their normal climate is outside of engineering tolerances. Montreal once took delivery of a whole bunch of hybrid busses whose batteries failed entirely below -20C. That's a temperature we reach several times every single year. They eventually got fixed, but it was chaos the first time it happened.

  • @fsodn
    @fsodn 8 місяців тому +55

    FYI: The F104 starfighter is a fairly small plane with short stubby wings (google indicates wingspan of 20 feet). But they were wicked fast. First operational in 1958, so August 1959 is consistent.
    Yeah, and of course, they were doing a rehearsal. And it was a low-level flight over a non-operational airport. So they probably weren't *too* super-concerned about staying below the sound barrier, so the pilot probably just punched it for the low-level pass and got a bit fast.
    Oy. Youch. I hope no one was hurt, and I hope the pilot's career survived.

    • @jon2922
      @jon2922 8 місяців тому +13

      If you want to get a bit grim, I'd argue that being a starfighter pilot was punishment enough for the pilot.
      Those stubby wings and general sleek design meant that its stall speed was only slightly below its landing speed.
      Consequently, a *lot* of pilots ended their careers in a fireball of starfighter parts.

    • @pattheplanter
      @pattheplanter 8 місяців тому

      Lucky the plane didn't crash into the building. The Widow Maker was immortalised in the the concept album Captain Lockheed and the Starfighters by Robert Calvert (often in Hawkwind) - the plaintive "Catch a falling Starfighter" being the most memorable song for me, though the much more upbeat songs like "Ejection" and "Widow Maker" are fun.

    • @WyvernYT
      @WyvernYT 8 місяців тому

      Yes indeed; the F-104 Starfighter was not large but it was very, very fast; it was just the thing if what you wanted to do is go very fast in a straight line.
      It wasn't as dangerous as some legends make it out, but it was a plane that rewarded the skilled pilot and wasn't a flexible do-anything airframe. It was designed as a fast interceptor and was the right tool for that job.

    • @comicus01
      @comicus01 7 місяців тому

      Definitely not a big plane. Just very fast.
      A similar incident happened (I think) in the 1960s at USAFA. A couple of planes went supersonic while doing a flyby and blew out lots of windows.

  • @pluieuwu
    @pluieuwu 8 місяців тому +198

    *laughs in Berlin Brandenburg Airport*

    • @robertk1701
      @robertk1701 8 місяців тому +19

      Thought that was going to be what this one was about. I was going to say it'd be more like "How To Never Open an Airport", but looks like they finally got it open in 2020.

    • @DukeDukeGo
      @DukeDukeGo 8 місяців тому +9

      ​@@robertk1701yep, silently during covid when no one was traveling, which no one could have expected to be financially bad

    • @Myrtanae
      @Myrtanae 8 місяців тому

      Willy Brandt bitteschön

    • @tobyk.4911
      @tobyk.4911 8 місяців тому +4

      yes, probably every German is now laughing and saying "the opening of the airport was delayed by one whole year? how cute! - the opening of our new airport near Berlin was delayed by more than 8 years"

    • @pluieuwu
      @pluieuwu 8 місяців тому +3

      @@robertk1701 yeah, i actually live in berlin so i can attest that yes, it is open (finally) xD
      it is pretty nice though it doesn't nearly have the scale that the airport of a nation's capital should have, imo, and it's being hit really hard efficiency-wise by outdated procedures and lack of airport staff. still, i like the decor and the vibes 😸

  • @faenethlorhalien
    @faenethlorhalien 8 місяців тому +61

    I am not a native, so when you mentioned, in a very matter-of-fact way "light and airy", I was a bit confused as to what it meant. I even wondered if it was some kind of very Brit saying, like "tired and emotional".

    • @SenshiSunPower
      @SenshiSunPower 8 місяців тому +2

      No, but sometimes "breezy" is a euphemism for "short / revealing clothing".

  • @DasGanon
    @DasGanon 8 місяців тому +27

    My first thought was "oh it's like Denver International Airport where the terminal is a literal tent" (above the Lizard Bunker guarded by Blucifer) but when they got to the actual definition of "light and airy" I realized I have actually heard this before.
    Super good question though!

  • @jurian0101
    @jurian0101 8 місяців тому +8

    In my head now there's Bill Wurtz's voice singing 'At the airport terminal / it's light and airy' in a loop now. Great job me.

    • @1bluecat962
      @1bluecat962 8 місяців тому

      That makes two of us now. Thanks for that.

  • @panda4247
    @panda4247 8 місяців тому +6

    "The great ribbon shortage of 1969" sounds like something I would hear about from TechDiff.
    To be fair, Sabrina with her description of the plane flying by, would be a great guest on TechDiff.
    Also, "this is so classic Ottawa" --> not only Ottawa, the Berlin Brandenburg Airport had it worse - if I remember correctly, it was supposed to be opened in 2011/12, but failed some acceptance tests (something to do with fire alarms or fire suppression, they did not know which alarm is which section, or something, and then they found out that the whole electrical cabling of the airport is a mess and no one knows what is what...). Then they were hoping to fix the things in short time (months), but it went on for years... Then in 2018 or so (still not open), a most ridiculous problem - all the years that the airport was "completed" but not open, they had several hundreds screens on, so they began to fail after 7 (or so) years of being on, and needed replacing...
    That was when I heard of this airport, it was quite a story in the news at the time...

  • @OwlRTA
    @OwlRTA 8 місяців тому +4

    When Tom said "1969" and before he said there wasn't any "major stuff happening around that time", I thought of the FLQ lol

  • @boy638
    @boy638 8 місяців тому +37

    The answer really took off

    • @wta1518
      @wta1518 8 місяців тому

      No it didn't. The airport's closed.

  • @jovanweismiller7114
    @jovanweismiller7114 8 місяців тому +4

    Tom, whilst there is a canal in Ottawa, called the Rideau Canal, there is also the Ottawa River that runs by/through the city.

    • @Sylvander1911
      @Sylvander1911 2 місяці тому

      But it is the Canal that doubles as a skating rink.

  • @daerdevvyl4314
    @daerdevvyl4314 8 місяців тому +5

    How many Canadians spent this entire video yelling "It's in AUGUST, for f**k sake!! It's not going to be cold or dark, or have ice! ……Okay well probably not cold with ice anyway…"

  • @MarylandFarmer.
    @MarylandFarmer. 8 місяців тому +1

    As soon as Sabrina said it I remembered this story from a history class or something. Well done that was a good one!

  • @firstcynic92
    @firstcynic92 8 місяців тому +17

    4:10 F-104? Big? It was one of the smallest fighters made of the jet age. One of its nicknames was the "missile with a man in it".
    Others were "widowmaker" and "flying coffin".

    • @pattheplanter
      @pattheplanter 8 місяців тому +1

      Immortalised in the the concept album Captain Lockheed and the Starfighters by Robert Calvert (often in Hawkwind) - the plaintive "Catch a falling Starfighter" being the most memorable song for me, though the much more upbeat songs like "Ejection" and "Widow Maker" are fun.

    • @empath69
      @empath69 8 місяців тому +2

      "big" is relative - sure in comparison to military aircraft, but in relation to pedestrians that typically think a car with four doors is 'large'...
      Also it's STILL a supersonic aircraft, which is the factor at hand here. *Acoustically*, military aircraft - especially in that 'transsonic' era - have a large effect things in that way.

  • @robburgess4556
    @robburgess4556 8 місяців тому +1

    I really wish they would put the whole video of the podcast up.

  • @joshuahillerup4290
    @joshuahillerup4290 4 місяці тому

    As someone who lives in Ottawa, that checks out

  • @dexteritymaster
    @dexteritymaster 8 місяців тому +3

    I am thoroughly confused, I was sure I heard this question if not on Lateral then on Tom's video, but I can't find it :( There was even talk that that ceremony organisers asked pilot to showoff and fly really close to airport, and he did.

  • @andrewgrant6516
    @andrewgrant6516 8 місяців тому +5

    I thought it would be designed to stay breezy and not get stagnant air, and when they opened the doors it became a wind tunnel and blew out the windows.

  • @loddude5706
    @loddude5706 8 місяців тому +2

    Plit twost - Pilot later admits to simultaneously playing his Celine Dion album at full blast in the cockpit . . . : )

  • @mabogibo525
    @mabogibo525 8 місяців тому

    It's that Gundam's "HAHA I'm a GENIUS!" "oH NO!!" meme

  • @justandy333
    @justandy333 8 місяців тому +1

    I really really hope there's some archive film of this lurking somewhere on the internet.
    If I find any I'll post a link to below.

  • @bsdewhurst
    @bsdewhurst 7 місяців тому

    I didn't think it was possible to have a worse airport opening than Wellington NZ, I guess I was wrong.
    During the Wellington opening airshow:
    - 4 Vampires got lost in cloud during a high-speed dive and ended up 3 meters off the ground.
    - A Sunderland made an unscheduled touch and go landing (its a flying boat, there are no wheels, but there was a large hole in the hull afterwards).
    - A Vulcan bomber clipped the end of the runway ripping off one landing gear and puncturing the fuel tanks.

  • @dylanzwering2255
    @dylanzwering2255 8 місяців тому +1

    The blackbird did this to a lot of windows in Toronto. Ever since that incident, all airshows across the world don't allow sonicbooms.

  • @expectationlost
    @expectationlost 8 місяців тому +1

    that shot from the old top gun film too

    • @hairyairey
      @hairyairey 8 місяців тому

      "Permission to buzz the tower? Negative ghost rider the pattern is full"?

  • @diagonalleaf
    @diagonalleaf 8 місяців тому +1

    I live in ottawa and i feel like stuff like this happens way more than it should

    • @Quince828
      @Quince828 8 місяців тому

      Let’s add trains that don’t run, buses that can’t climb hills or stay on the road when the wind blows, roads that suddenly open up and swallow cars, the list goes on.

  • @moomoo_01
    @moomoo_01 8 місяців тому +1

    My favourite guest team🙌😂❤

  • @erictaylor5462
    @erictaylor5462 8 місяців тому

    1:00 They forgot to invite "Airy Potter" and he used magic to curse the airport.

  • @johne.coughlan6824
    @johne.coughlan6824 8 місяців тому

    Wel I heard of a skyscraper in Moscow during Ussr that had no elevators nor stairs, a multi level dorm in Buffalo NY with no bathrooms, they had to turn the elevators into bathrooms, so there is/was no elevators. Also in Clinton NY or near by an elemetery school tha had a room with no doorway in. I heard that in the '70's.

  • @amon_69
    @amon_69 8 місяців тому +1

    when i read the title i thought for sure this would be about BER Berlin Airport ;-)

    • @petertaylor4980
      @petertaylor4980 7 місяців тому

      Wouldn't that be "How not to build an airport"?

  • @YasuTaniina
    @YasuTaniina Місяць тому

    They read the question and my first thought was "The skylight shattered." Hilarious that it's basically my first thought X20

  • @designpuli
    @designpuli 8 місяців тому

    4:44 Tom, that "guy" is Ed Harris! ✈

  • @andrewzelitt
    @andrewzelitt 8 місяців тому

    This is the second one of these where I have gotten the answer just from the question lol

  • @BarryFrancis
    @BarryFrancis 8 місяців тому +1

    My guess was that in the rehearsal they found that the date on the carved foundation stone to be revealed was the next year.

  • @Atlessa
    @Atlessa 3 місяці тому

    For anyone wondering, the figure given near the end of the explanation, adjusted for inflation and with the corrected year of 1959, is roundabout 3 million of today's dollars. Whether that's canadian or US I can't say.

  • @Pencilneckgeek216
    @Pencilneckgeek216 7 місяців тому

    My immediate thought was "acoustics," and in a way, I was right, lol.

  • @sophiamarchildon3998
    @sophiamarchildon3998 8 місяців тому

    Initial thoughts: It uses UNIX time (epoch) which starts at January 1st 1970? So the computers would not work correctly until then.

  • @Knitspin
    @Knitspin 7 місяців тому

    Classic Ottawa transit indeed.

  • @anythinf1
    @anythinf1 8 місяців тому

    my first thought was that the rehearsal music just happened to be the same as the resonant frequencies as structures in the building

  • @suzannehawkins383
    @suzannehawkins383 8 місяців тому

    haha after you said river and before you corrected yourself, I had already gone... tom, tom. its a canal!... in my head lol. - Suzanne from Ottawa

  • @wesleyevans2981
    @wesleyevans2981 8 місяців тому +4

    Am I alone in never having heard "Light and airy" being used to describe a building?

    • @falaise6077
      @falaise6077 8 місяців тому +3

      ...have you never had an estate agent show you a house?

    • @wesleyevans2981
      @wesleyevans2981 8 місяців тому +1

      @@falaise6077 No, I haven't. I'm a Gen Z American. I'm lucky I can afford an apartment.

    • @falaise6077
      @falaise6077 8 місяців тому

      @@wesleyevans2981 Oh I see, you live in a basement then. One day when you're rich you can move to the penthouse, I'm sure that will be light and airy

  • @danc1513
    @danc1513 8 місяців тому +1

    What video about Ottawa is Taha talking about? Out of curiosity.

    • @qwertyTRiG
      @qwertyTRiG 8 місяців тому +2

      Answer in Progress made a video about public transport in Ottawa. It's rather good.

  • @UpHigherMusicOfficial
    @UpHigherMusicOfficial 8 місяців тому

    I nearly got this. I guessed they smashed through the building with the plane lol

  • @polacoprogramador2175
    @polacoprogramador2175 8 місяців тому

    This happened in Brazil in 2012. A military demonstration broke the glass off the STF buildings

  • @jaredkelly925
    @jaredkelly925 8 місяців тому +4

    Good catch on the canal Tom :) Also very funny (and sad) to see that our many transit woes have managed to make it across the pond, and all over the internet.
    Their video on Ottawa for those of us interested: ua-cam.com/video/V3yXSD2O95E/v-deo.html

  • @NaoRose
    @NaoRose 7 місяців тому

    The Ottawa transit quip after AIP did the video about public transit and chose the Ottawa LRT of all places😭😭

  • @bonelesswatermelon420
    @bonelesswatermelon420 8 місяців тому +1

    The funniest thing about this situation is that allegedly... (spoilers)
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    Everyone was supposed to pack up and go home at the end of the day having finished the rehearsals, but it was an Canadian official speaking from the tower who requested for the pilot of the F104 to do something "special" before they landed.
    They were this close to succeeding with the rehearsals, but that one maneuver literally cost them an entire year.

  • @pvtbuddie
    @pvtbuddie 8 місяців тому

    What do you do when you run out of missiles?
    A. Return to base
    B. Low fly

  • @mobu553
    @mobu553 8 місяців тому

    Did anybody else come here from Tom's newsletter because you were just curious about those "bricked-up buildings"?

  •  8 місяців тому

    Taha forgot the bit scissors

  • @StrangeChickandPuppo
    @StrangeChickandPuppo 8 місяців тому

    I wonder if news crews were on site to film the grand opening? A photographer at least?

  • @manuholoable
    @manuholoable 8 місяців тому

    BER: hold my beer

  • @milesmartin9624
    @milesmartin9624 3 місяці тому

    I'm from Edmonton. Referring to Ottawa as "northern" in any sense is insane to me.

  • @michaelocyoung
    @michaelocyoung 8 місяців тому

    And there's me thinking all those light and airy windows were reflecting sunlight into the view of the landing planes

  • @SteinGauslaaStrindhaug
    @SteinGauslaaStrindhaug 7 місяців тому

    0:28 Did they test run fireworks that accidentally set it on fire?

  • @hairyairey
    @hairyairey 8 місяців тому

    I didn't know I had a terminal building 😂

  • @pookhahare
    @pookhahare 8 місяців тому

    Storm damage?

  • @maxpayne2574
    @maxpayne2574 8 місяців тому

    Well there go any Ottawa viewers.

  • @MrFitzomega
    @MrFitzomega 8 місяців тому

    With that title I thought it was going to be about Berlin's airport

  • @naplockblubba5369
    @naplockblubba5369 8 місяців тому +2

    The adjectives are so fragile sounding in the question lmao. I'm just guessing that a firework went wrong and it caused major structural damage.

  • @seventeenpoint5
    @seventeenpoint5 8 місяців тому

    Everyone wondering if it was too cold has clearly never experienced an August in Ottawa

  • @teh-maxh
    @teh-maxh 8 місяців тому +1

    I'm guessing they broke the glass panels.

  • @Quasihamster
    @Quasihamster 8 місяців тому

    If I can't have wings, you can't have windows.

  • @pookhahare
    @pookhahare 8 місяців тому

    It is just lighter and airier😂

  • @Ryo39
    @Ryo39 8 місяців тому

    5:28 subs should be "It's just lighter and airier"

  • @sortius_
    @sortius_ 8 місяців тому

    F-104 Starfighter? More like F-104 Pilot Killer!

    • @empath69
      @empath69 8 місяців тому

      "Widow-maker" (an ACTUAL nickname for the 'rocket with a seat')

    • @tobyk.4911
      @tobyk.4911 8 місяців тому

      Here in Germany they were called "Witwenmacher" (= widow maker) because of the high number of Starfighter pilots that crashed and died during training flights.
      Speaking of Canadian F-104 Starfighters: One day in the early 1980s, a Canadian starfighter pilot lost control of his plane during an airshow in Frankfurt (Germany). The plane fell on a road near Frankfurt airport and killed 5 German civilians (the pilot survived thanks to his ejection seat)

  • @PianoKwanMan
    @PianoKwanMan 8 місяців тому

    I thought the roof blew off.

  • @princecharon
    @princecharon 8 місяців тому

    I wouldn't really call a F-104 'big.' 'Fast,' though, it certainly was.

  • @bigsarge2085
    @bigsarge2085 8 місяців тому +1

    👍👍

  • @winkletter
    @winkletter 8 місяців тому +4

    My prediction before watching: They couldn't source the giant novelty scissors to cut the ribbon.

  • @liz4v
    @liz4v 8 місяців тому

    Where are the Ottawans to comment on their burns?

    • @empath69
      @empath69 8 місяців тому +2

      on Ottawa Transit? The Ottowans were tut-tut'ing Sabrina for going to easy on it. (it's a nightmare and a boondoggle)

    • @empath69
      @empath69 8 місяців тому

      @@matthewharris-levesque5809 ...and so much MORE, too!

  • @stamfordly6463
    @stamfordly6463 8 місяців тому

    It could have been worse I suppose. Starfighters had a terrible reputation for crashing when flown at low level. Just ask the Germans.

  • @kayleighlehrman9566
    @kayleighlehrman9566 8 місяців тому +1

    They had a dedication mural commemorating the year it opened and someone pointed out that the public would be too immature about a giant '69 on the wall so they had to wait for '70 because it isn't a funny number.

    • @greensteve9307
      @greensteve9307 8 місяців тому

      Ha! Caught out in a total lie! Tom said the year wrong, it was 1958 not '69, so your comment is total BS.

  • @darrenmorby4753
    @darrenmorby4753 8 місяців тому

    By her "classic Ottawa transit" comment, Sabrina must have had first-hand experience with OC Transpo, including its light-rail-transit woes.

    • @josee2000
      @josee2000 8 місяців тому +3

      There is a video on the answer in progress chanel about why north american addiction to cars, where they take trip to ottawa. Would recommend giving it a watch

  • @MR_00_3
    @MR_00_3 8 місяців тому +5

    Cheese

    • @mamper.1323
      @mamper.1323 8 місяців тому +3

      Cake

    • @Greeeenmoss
      @Greeeenmoss 8 місяців тому +3

      Burger

    • @DasGanon
      @DasGanon 8 місяців тому +4

      Guys it's a Canadian question.
      Poutine.

    • @dliessmgg
      @dliessmgg 8 місяців тому +2

      Toast

    • @ianb5949
      @ianb5949 8 місяців тому

      @@DasGanon That's the name of a Russian dictator isn't it?

  • @RuboStars
    @RuboStars 8 місяців тому

    Sabrina is so pretty I'm gonna die 🙈