speaking for myself, I value you as a person, not an entertainer... I just love to witness how you're navigating through life and how you rationalise things for yourself... its such a strength and to call it inspiring seems trivial, but in many respects it is. Keep figuring it all out sade, you're doing amazing! Honestly watch your videos like your my internet sister, love from London x
If I could cry, I would. Not being able to feel your feelings, being numb and only being able to express the frustration you feel is.. a slow death. I've been a shell of myself for the past year and everything you said in this video reminded me of myself. For some reason, I have been drawn to you and your channel but I finally figured it out. You remind me of me. The mentally unstable past partner, not being able to feel in the moment, the Virgoness with punches of scorpio, talking to yourself all the time and still not feeling heard, hell even the room aesthetic. Everything you said in this video, I Understand. When you said you were your happiest when you had God, I felt something for the first time in a long time. The happiest I've ever been is when I had me, when I didn't even realize my love for myself exuded out my pores. Now thats gone, hopefully only temporarily. Seeing this video allowed me to see that, I'm not alone. and as frightening as it may be, it makes the numbness a bit more bearable, with the hope that one day we all can feel again. Thank you Sade, for your bravery and transparency. For using your platform as a discussion rather than "making the shit look pretty". I will support any and everything you do. I will not rush your healing (nor my own). Take your time, find you, find God, and find your healing. It is already yours.
I just felt every single word of this. Thank you soooooooo much for Sharing this Ty, I truly needed this, you have no idea...and thank you Sade for sharing so much of yourself.
I have been in a weird spiritual limbo since 2015. My relationships have been coming so real in which everyone is showing their true colors and their colors are so dark and I feel like I have remained the same which sensitive and timid. So I tried to become more aggressive in self protection and no one likes it but they want me to except their dark colors and not expect them to change.
Me too but I changed completely I decided 2 years ago that nobody would ever hurt me again and I haven’t given people the opportunity to right their wrongs I just cut them completely off and it’s not fair to them but I’m legitimately traumatized.
AMEN #REALMVP THIS IS ME SUMMED UP . I AM MOST AT PEACE THAN I'VE EVER BEEN NOW I KNOW GOD AND KNOW HIM WELL AND KNOW EVEN MORE SO NOW THAT MY WALK WITH HIM IS A WALK IN PROGRESS AND IT'S CONSTANTLY DEVELOPING AT DIFFERENT STAGES . PHIL4:13 HELPS ME TREMENDOUSLY AND HAS HUMBLED ME SO MUCH ! THE BOOK OF JAMES IS A GREAT START TOO !
LORD. I FELT IT when you said “I’ve been vibing high for a long time... where is my tribe?” YES. Honestly I feel alone too, but I come to your channel to watch your chit chats and updates to feel connected. You are not alone. THANK YOU!
Sade and any other queens, please get in touch with yourself, it's so easy to drift in life. If you're religious and I can only speak from a Christian standpoint and I'm not downing anyone else's religion but please please get in touch with God, get on your knees and ask for guidance. Believing in God is not about "submitting", it's about showing love and admiration to a God that loves you so much and blesses you beyond recognition , God has done so much for those that even are far apart from Him and all we have to do is take the first step, I ramble too but I'm trying to say that taking the first step to finding God, taking the very first, littlest, most minute step to become closer with God is the best thing you can do, I want to see all of you on the other side, in eternal life in the Kingdom, this is not forever by far, this is only the beginning, I am not upmost "holy", I sin too but I just want to spread love no matter who you praise. May God bless you Sade and anyone else drifting, I love y'all and hope you find the perfect peace. Blessings to you all 💕
Your want to know God is so familiar. Trying to discipline yourself to read any religious word as a Christian, Catholic, Muslim, etc could be really overwhelming and brings about constant guilty and dubious thoughts when you're not sure that denomination is what you want to practice. So I'll advise this. Take on religion as a course. Read the Bible like a student. Pray to God before you begin for understanding and clarity while you read. And utilize the resources around you. If you don't want to or can't physically visit a church use the internet to hear sermons, perspectives, to gain insight and answers. Don't feel guilty for questioning shit bc it tells more of you wanting to learn the God you're yearning to know. And personally I highly advise looking up Alysia Harris if you don't know her and following her on all social media. Her insight on Christianity is so refreshing and helpful.
Take care of yourself and give yourself the time and permission to heal. You are so worthy. You are a healer yourself and you do so by pouring out so freely into others. It’s time for you to go inward and allow healing to take place by being compassionate with yourself. Thank you for being so transparent about your journey. You’ve shared so much and we’ve all seen you grow. This season will pass soon and you’ll have moved on to another stage in life. You’ll look back and see what this situation was meant to teach you. The divine wishes no ill intent towards anyone of us. We’re all meant to evolve on this journey and it’s usually in our darkest times that we find ourselves evolving even faster.
I'm a licensed psychotherapist and it seems you're looking for a therapist that specializes in Trama-Focused Cognitive Behavioral therapy which focuses on reshaping the way we view, think, and cope with our past trauma! Just a suggestion for when you decided to find another therapist!
i haven't gotten through even a quarter of this video but I wanted to say, in reference to you stating, that you essentially sacrificed pieces of yourself because you noticed the changes your ex made for you, although he'd always return back to his original self.. often we see the potential in people rather than the actual person before our eyes, in hopes that one day the effort and sacrifices made will bring that potential into fruition. The truth of the matter is people rarely change and if so, its only for so long. Im so so glad you ended things with your ex, the situation sounded extremely abusive, in an emotional sense. Even the fact that he doesn't want you discussing the relationship, as if deducing and reflecting what occurred during that time isn't therapeutic and would offer you closure. Someone who truly love(d) you wouldn't gaslight you like that and marginalize your feelings. Some people only love you because they can control and dominate you, which is a rare occurrence in their fickle lives. I wish you the best, Sade! Your presence is so needed xxx
Ahhh girl you got me crying while I️ was driving, I️ had to pull over. I️ resonated with so much of what you said in regards to being happiest when in relationship with God and your struggle to know them. Tbh all I️ can say is that I️ know that feeling of feeling stuck in limbo and not having a feeling in your soul to guide your walk .. I️ also know we will get through this. I️ am also heavy on the Scorpio placement and I️t is in our nature to feel so I️t will come in due time. ... I️ typically don’t feel connected to people when they say I️ love you online but when you said I️t I️ knew I️t really came from your heart, from the deepest place in my own heart I️ love you too and I’m praying for the revitalization and healing of your mind body and spirit. ☀️
I love you too Sade, being in a toxic relationship does change you, it changes your personality, perceptions get distorted , I have never been so uncertain in my life , been in this for going on 3rd year I'm not the same person , your guy sounds like a narc or sociopath or psychopath , or even borderline , they are out here and very common , thanks for sharing
100%Gemini yes! Definitely sounds like he is a narc/sociopath/ psychopath. Somewhere on the ASPD spectrum. I *think* he was diagnosed with something else (she has an old video about it) but Idk.
I can 100% relate on what you were saying about having so many questions about Christ, and this entity. I was so trapped in my head, making it so hard for myself to really open up to God. Until one day i literally just started researching the Bible. That is truly the best start! Google what God has to say about “love” in the Bible or about “life” and find those verses and go from there. I’ve learned so much about God, things that I would’ve never known if I didn’t go looking for these answers myself. I pray all the time to bring me closer to him and help get to know more about him, and that’s exactly what he did! Try it out girl ❤️ it’s good to start small, somewhere anywhere! You will literally start to feel yourself changing, and growing closer to him. You just have to pray on it! God bless 💜
I can relate so much. I’m only 19 but I’ve been through so much. I grew up in such a religious and strict upbringing that I saw doesn’t really make anyone happy. But I have also witnessed true believers of God and the peace it brings. But the actually religion doesn’t do anything for me. Following some guidelines only to be saved isn’t what I want. I want a true relationship with God. A true happiness that I don’t feel has to come from reading a certain amount of scriptures or how many functions you attend.
Every minute of this video just spoke to me. I don’t ever comment but I’ve been loving on your platform for 2 years now and I’m only 16. At the end when you spoke about God I had to stop for a minute because I just had this exact same conversation with someone yesterday. I just can’t find the same level of transparency among my peers so I just feel lost. Like I’ve been seeking for something that I don’t even know exist. But I do send love 💕 and on multiple occasions I have actually included you in my prayers. But I actually thank you...for your time and your vulnerability.
"on multiple occasions I have actually included you in my prayers" girl i have tears in my eyes. the best someone can give me is a prayer. thank you boo
When you spoke to yourself in the mirror I literally broke down with you because girl I’ve been through the exact same thing of not being able to feel too. Honestly, it’s a process that takes time and it’s good that you already know that. You need to get to the point where you’re ready to sit in your pain and allow it to fully manifest itself as it’s only then that you’ll be able to grow and learn from it. I’m wholeheartedly rooting for you and praying that you heal and recover xx Love you Sadé!
First things first before we get into the serious stuff let me just tell you why I love you Sade. You put on your eyelashes with hair glue (only real ones can relate), you drink the water they sell at Dollar (that's my store!), and you're transparency is always from a good place. Now on to what really made me comment....God put me in the same situation earlier this year, I believe he puts you in a place where you cant feel anything so when you have that urge to know him that the feeling is like no other and you wont settle for feeling anything but happiness. Just try talking to him or writing to him first ask God to answer your questions. I started off that way and then I started watching Pastor Mike Todd on youtube, Girl He's the truth! I'm praying for you boo don't lose yourself and keep talking to us! LOVE You!
OOOOMMMGGGG TRANSFORMATION NATION! DASSS MY CHURCHHHHH! God is doing great things thru him bcuz his preachings helped me when i was going thru suchhhh a hard time. It brought me a lot closer to God bcus he explained Him in a way that i could understand Him and relate to Him more. Love pastor Todd
Yesss for this tea time. So much truth, soul and transparency ❤️ reasons I keep coming back to your channel. Here for it! Update : I'm almost at the end, but something you really said stuck out to me. "She's just not ready to feel again." Can totally relate, its something about our brains when we have been through something sooo traumatic that our brain will protect us from anything else. People can't understand unless they've gone through it. Spirituality has helped me get back to myself, God is showing me my purpose and hopefully therapy can help me too. But it is definitely a journey mama, don't give up ❤️ I feel you.
Wow, what you said about feeling stuck in limbo really struck a nerve with me, I've been feeling like that for such a long time and I felt lost in myself. I couldn't relate to anyone around me. SO MUCH of what you said felt so personal because they're feeling I have and just couldn't articulate because I felt so frustrated and "like I didn't make sense". When you said you hadn't found your tribe was also a strong point that stuck with me I literally was saying" thank you" out loud because I have prayed to find mine and still feel like I don't have one. I just feel way better like it was lifted off my chest to hear the things in my head said out loud and I thank you for that. I also hope that you feel better and the fog in your head lifts. peace and love Sade.
My senior year my father passed away and life hasn't been the same ever since. I am now a freshman in college who just turned 18 and I feel like everything is spinning around. There are too many side situations to even jot down, but just know life has been very difficult lately as well. I feel like I'm losing myself as well because two years ago I was a completely different girl who was mentally and physically healthy and stable. I sat down and watched this entire video because I can understand you and the descriptions of how you're feeling. We may not be going through the exact same situation but I definitely do believe we are feeling the exact same way. I give you nothing but virtual hugs and kisses and wish the best and happiness for you with much love! God will forever be there in times of need of help, he is not blind to your tears.
that part about introducing someone to people you love, then it not working out.... i really felt that because it happens frequently and makes me debate if the problem is me or the people that I choose to be in relationships with.
when I saw this it felt like I just saw my best friend crying and immediately clicked the video like a concerned friend lol haven’t watched yet but I hope you’re doing good sade💜
Are you an empath , Sade? I feel like you definitely are. 🙂I pray you are granted peace in this transition of your life. You’re very loved and appreciated 🧡🧡🧡
I was you a couple of months ago, dealing with a narcissist,. who I believe was my soulmate that I I didn't want to let go. Because I saw the good he could be but it would never work. And also dealing with my Jamaican family that is blind to mental health. Plus I had my own personal insecurities.I lost myself, all I have to say is its gets better with time. This is all part of your soul growth, in the end you will come out stronger. you will grow to leave toxic people, situation behind. you will find yourself becoming more closer with yourself.
Girl I understand especially with the relationship thing. And lately I’ve been feeling like I’m losing my mind/memory because I’m in my head too much and I feel like I’ve changed so much I don’t know who I am. The only difference is I do have a relationship with God but I feel like it’s been going lower since I’m putting anxiety, stress, and worries above him. Don’t rush the process of trying to get back to the old you.
I appreciate you're vulnerability girly it's beautiful. I am glad you have this platform to speak your testimony your not the only one going through a situation like this and I understand. Some times your friends and family may not understand but there is some one out there who does. & hey that some one might be your UA-cam family. I love you and you are worthy too girl. I hope making his video made you feel better because writing and talking about what our feelings Are is great. Thanks for sharing. And this is your platform you can cry if you want to 😊💪🏽😘
This video came at THE perfect time. I can relate on so many levels. As a 24 year old i'm still trying to figure out who I am and what my sole purpose is in this life, and it's good to know that i'm not the only person who has felt like this. At times I feel like life is just a constant cycle on repeat and I can't catch up with how i'm feeling or what i'm feeling. Taking breaks from Social media has helped when I feel like this. I'm a scorpio & completely agree and understand the darkness that you're discussing. I too have been in situations where I have to let go of that darkness and be of light and positivity, especially when I'm reacting to conflicts. Knowing God for what and who he/she is, is a constant Goal of mine. The feeling of not incorporating God in my every day routine feels like a missing piece and as if something is off. But once I began praying and just having regular conversations with God, that's when I feel my happiest. Thank you for sharing Sade xoxo
Sade I really needed this video. I found you a couple years back when searching for dp/dr videos and I’m not experiencing that rn but I’m feeling depressed/numb coming out of an emotionally abusive relationship and it’s scary to feel like you’re checked out. Thanks for the reminder that healing is a process. Sending you all the love
We are so aligned it’s crazy! I’ve been feeling the same way b/c of the trauma induced by narcissistic/sociopathic (ASPD) personalities (which your dude sounds like). Relationship with these types will take your entire soul if you let it, they’re soul snatchers. You lose yourself and don’t even know how to explain it. The gas-lighting they do will cause those feelings of fogginess, confusion, self-doubt, etc. I consider it to be spiritual warfare and typically jezebel is the demon that runs their life. You may find solace in Cindy Trimm series/books on spiritual warfare b/c that’s what it is. Omg! Even with the Game of Thrones thing. I just tried watching it with my husband and couldn’t keep up with it. You have to be an empath b/c girl! YES!🤗
I admire your mind,and like everybody else is saying your transparency.. watched the whole vid and I FEEL you. your outlet seems to be UA-cam and mine is writing in my journal. All I’m gonna say is trust yourself. You know more than you think.
Man I respect you so much for being able to be so vulnerable and so authentic! You'll come out of this in a much better place! I felt everything you were talking about, I get it 100%. Trying to find yourself out of a toxic situation is not easy. I'm at a similar stage as well. I keep telling myself "patience" is the key. Growth takes time, but the fact you're so open about how you feel is the first step.
Sat down and watched the WHOLE video and wow sade I hope everything gets more stable for you and I relate in terms of wanting perfection and having the need to obtain it . The concept of control is really so hard to let go , your videos help me make sense of my thoughts and how much we relate. Take as much time as you can , I appreciate your transparency and honesty throughout your journey . I hope next year you can look back on this video and see how much you've grown
What you said makes so much sense! Thank you for sharing. I have been going through something similar for months. It's nice to know I'm not alone in this.
I just broke up with my boyfriend. He was very emotionally abusive to me and I’m very traumatized not only by the relationship and the breakup but by my own behavior. I’m glad I ran across this video showing a strong woman moving on
Tbh even tho I'm Muslim whos from a Christian family. I have realized we as people shouldn't tell others that religion is the only way to connect to God. I feel like one can connect to God with no religion. Most religion basically talks about the same thing about who God is. Religions are just roots connecting to one plant. God is a spiritual being and yes religion do talk about spirituality but us as people don't focus on that but the physical aspect of religion. Basically, what I'm saying God shouldn't be limited to just people who follow a religion. Anyway, I believe you are gonna figure out what you don't understand, you truly are strong person Sade. I hope everything goes well in your life and may you attract the people you feel like you deserve to attract. Also, I don't think you are asking for too much or being ungrateful. Tbh I feel like there's no limit to life, we are brought here to accomplish everything we think we can do. That's the beauty of life, accomplish something and continue with the next one, get what you want and ask for more. We are being told by society you asking for too much which not true, once you understand the spiritual aspect of it. Also one more thing. We are all energy from people to animals, to plants, and even water. Its been proven that water has consciousness, its said before drinking water talk to it send love to it before drinking it. our body is mostly made of water so its just gonna spread throughout our whole body. We as humans are connected to all those things cause we are made of all those things. Lmfaoo fun fact ppl share DNA with banana. Pls try meditation, on attracting more love, self-love, and connecting with your higher self more. Our higher self is the only part of us that's connected to God and know what's gonna happen before it happens. It will be lovely if you see this comment, but to anyone who sees this, I hope my comment influence you if you are going through a dark period in your life. Everything has its an appointed time so you might not see result quickly but trust me this work. It has helped me so much, that I would randomly be happy for no damn reason. Anyway, have a safe and lovely day to anyone who read this.
I’m a Virgo too and what you said resonated with me. It will take me years to even realize what happened to me or take it serious and feel at all. I’m not hiding feelings, they just aren’t there. So I understand wanting to feel. Also, I feel the same with the waiting for your tribe. But I think I’m realizing I need more gratitude for who I have right now before I can even meet others. Why do I deserve new people just for me to still be ungrateful and find flaws like I’m perfect? Nothing is “perfect”. That’s what I’m trying to work through with never feeling fully grateful and always nitpicking. I know we can be super critical of the ones we love because we want to help them improve, but if no one asked, why not pour that energy into ourselves? Self intervention is rough but so helpful. Thank you for this. Much love!
Wow, I started watching your videos a while ago for the beauty, and hair purposes. Then I started watching your GRWM and chitchats. This video right here was so open, vulnerable, insightful, warranted and needed. I think a lot of us are in that same limbo with you trying to figure out wtf is life. I’m blabbing but this video was needed and so relatable.. thank you.
I can 100% relate to this especially when you said I just want you God I felt like I was just listening to myself❤️ you don’t know how many women you help especially me by just speaking your truth. Hope you get through it❤️
wow, I was missing "classic sade" videos and I decided to go back and binge your content and I landed on this one. Which I've seen before and I'm sure I've probably even commented on, but this is hitting different in quarantine and dealing with a recent breakup. A lot of what you are describing is exactly what I'm experiencing. Thank you again for being so vulnerable with us. I hope you are well in 2020.
Your vulnerability as you find clarity is healing for me. I identify more than I anticipated. I felt so disassociated after my last relationship. I recently went back to school (doing well too), but I haven't been able to give myself permission to feel. I'm a feeler, but I feel afraid to feel because of past experiences. Anyways you making this video hits home. I appreciate you.
Thank you so much for sharing your life sade 🌺 you made me tear up when you were talking about how you were grateful for the people who watch your videos. And I've been feeling numb for a good few months so only a couple things can make me physically tear up. I can relate to you in many ways. And you're really comforting. I hope the next part of your journey is filled with lots of healing and love🌱✨🌺
That was truly therapeutic to watch and I want to thank you for it. I have these same conversations with myself quite often as I recently lost my mom and have been in the most miserable state of mind. The purest love I've ever experienced has been from her and now that she's gone, I feel gone too. I don't know if I'm going or coming most days and seeing how cruel the world is makes me miss her so much. So again, I thank you for your purity and openness.
Yessss, I missed your life talk videos!! I got so hype when I saw a notification pop up 😁 I totally understand where you’re coming from. I feel like I’m kind of on the same boat with you when it comes to the spiritual aspect of things. Everything that’s occurring in your life is for a reason and will eventually make sense in due time 🙏🏾
You just spoke my feelings! I needed this. To see I’m not the only one detached and hating the detachment. Everything you said, even your ex and god, I’m experiencing or have experienced. I feel like I’ve lost myself. But not to be alone in this struggle is comforting, thank you🖤🖤
This video hit it right on the head for me! I’m in the same space as far as creating, feeling the need to get out, bored, and just being an entrepreneur lol. Wishing you better vibes, and a clear head space. Thanks for sharing ♥️
Soooooo happy to see you're back !! When I was in a very dark confusing place Gospel music really lifted my spirits and saved me !! One day I just randomly started listening to the gospel channels on Pandora, and I thank myself everyday for doing so ❤
Thanks for sharing and being transparent. I get so much from your videos. I have been going through a lot in my life and the transitions from one space to another has been real! Keep your videos coming much love 😍
i am literally cryingggg at how perfect the timing of this video was. i resonated so much w this video. i literally could see myself in you, especially the last 8 minutes or so of the video. i think it is absolutely beautiful how vulnerable and transparent you were in this. i, too, am in this funk where i feel like i don’t really understand myself and i feel as though i don’t make any sense when trying to explain what is going on thru my head. sometimes i even find myself questioning my existence, yanno trying to figure out what my true purpose in this world is bc most times it feels like i’m not living but merely just existing and i don’t like that feeling at all. i also am in spiritual limbo trying to better my relationship w God bc i know my relationship w him is not where it should be at all and i know he is the only way that i can rid of this energy that has been cast on me as of recently. i say all this to say, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. & i am beyond happy to know that there is another person out there who is in the exact same predicament that i am. thank you, sade. 💙
I felt this sis ! I’m literally feeling that exact same way these days , some days are better than other and I feel like im actually trying to feel again and then other I’m just like BLLAAAAHHH all over again ! It’s crazy because A LOT of us are experiencing this right now at this very moment , and you know what it’s okay because we are all aware and trying to find a way out of it for us to be better and getting closer to God in the process ! It’s all apart of our journeys toward our new selves . We can all help each other through these times by sharing what we did during these times and just simply encouraging one another to let each other know we are not alone in this and we WILL get through this little detour !
Once again you have managed to verbalize thoughts I have been trying to come to for months . I love your mental processing . You truly inspire me to firmly stand strong in what I value . You’re so right !! When you’ve been quieted , you feel uncomfortable explaining how you feel and how you think. I’ve been in a cloudy mental state these past few weeks . I feel you bring parts out of me I need to hear! Thank you for being so vulnerable .
Ugh! I just want to hug you! Girl you make so much sense it’s not even funny...I pray that you get back to you because those feelings are intense and holding onto it hurts so much that it definitely takes you to a place where you feel like you don’t feel anything because you’re feeling so much disassociation is inevitable. You’re definitely growing through something though, and while it is tough within the moment, this narrative isn’t yours forever. You will be replenished in all the ways that are necessary for your best self and people like your ex or others who have mishandled you will not get the opportunity to even feel comfortable enough in your presence to try to waste your time in those ways. You will come out on the other side of this and I believe that wholeheartedly. I love you girl and I don’t even know you, but through this platform that you’ve created is very clear to see that you’re an amazing person with a gentle spirit who deserves the absolute best. Pray through the process even if you don’t know what you’re doing. Those chains will be broken and you will return to your authentic self. Speak light into yourself sis at every opportunity even when nothing makes sense. Even if it doesn’t always feel like it you are strong and deep within yourself you possess the necessary tools to replenish yourself. Help is out there but it starts with you. Make time for yourself because you matter so much! Go to the right type of therapy and start unpacking, healing is attainable. 💕
I saw myself so much while I was watching this video that I stared finishing your sentences. It is a really crappy feeling when you feel like you don’t recognize yourself anymore and the only emotion you can feel is frustration when you’re not numb. I’ve been in that moment for the last year and it’s like... it makes feel so embarrassed to know that this all started when I dealt with my last “partner” because instead of taking that time to love myself I chose to spend time trying to convince someone else that I was worth loving and it literally sucked the life out of me. I can’t wait till the day I wake up and recognize myself and I know it’ll feel like I’m finally able to exhale. I respect and love you so much for sharing this with your subscribers. Thank you 🙏🏾🌻
You are not alone in this spiritual warfare. So many people, including myself, are right there with you. I resonate with you on seems like every video. I haven't felt connected to this realm for years (It's confusing because I'm in my early 20s). Yet I remember things where I was truly in myself, and they always have a different shade or aura than the world has now. I'm not in my darkest of days, but I feel the pull. I'm sending you good energies in my prayer. Love you, girl!
I really loved this as being a Virgo myself I feel so misunderstood as well as not even understanding myself. I felt everything you have said I felt as though I finally heard someone I can relate to or feels the same in every way. From the relationship and always trying to quiet myself for others to where now it’s hard to start voicing out things. As well with the not feeling anything after my toxic relation I’ve felt very numb and normal things that used to be so easy aren’t anymore .. crying or even voicing out to anyone how I feel. I also seek perfection and things and try my best to help people even family but still feel misunderstood constantly and things sadden me when I see things can be so precious and u know nice and life but others do not maybe it is a perfection thing? Who knows. But u are great and the only person who makes me feel understood. ♍️❤️ keep being great . Thanks for your videos. You aren’t alone .
It's taken this video to realise I'm not crazy, I know what I feel and being so in tune with yourself allows you to fully dissect at what's been going on and what needs to be left alone. I haven't felt like myself in years and slowly, it took time to realise that I needed to be alone in order to get back to me. And you clearly need to get back to you. Take your time to do that, I'm still not there yet but you'll get there. Focus is what lets you move on slowly, focus on what's best for you and only do that! Love and light to you, I feel you heavy! X
Man I needed this..I'm going through a horrible breakup too and I haven't felt like myself since then. I wouldn't say that I'm numb to my feelings, but my feelings are like all over the place. One day I'll be really motivated and happy about myself and the next I'm super depressed. I ask God why every now and then, but I never get or "see" an answer..so I'm glad I'm not alone. And you're not alone either.
This is the one of realist conversations somebody can ever have with they self...I felt this one a whole other level 💯...from the talking about your relationship with God to feeling like you don’t know who are because you’ve internalized so much shit...like, sis..I needed this chat
I appreciate your videos so much. It feels good to know that other people out there experience disassociate tendencies but still manage to express your feelings and love. I love you so much. Thanks for being you, god is in you already!
Hey Sade! Thank you so much for sharing, wow! You're probably expecting this.. but no, you're not alone and there is beauty in brokenness and confusion. And that's something I also had to accept over the past few years. When I began my relationship with Christ (2016) it was because I also was trying other things and felt like it wasn't helping me in any capacity with understanding the trauma's I've gone through and the woman I want to become. For 3-4 years I was also numb, I didn't know how to deal with plot twists in my life (mainly caused by hurt people hurting people and me being the byproduct of that), I didn't understand okay, yeah life is a rollercoaster but how do I become fully present for allll of it, cry if I wanna cry, be hurt, be mad, be happy, but mainly be joyful I didn't understand that in the Gospel until I had nooo resources and was referred to the Bible and starting researching different religions and sectors of Christianity. I prayed to God, not knowing if He would even listen to me relentlessly, I was also dealing with depression and anxiety, reading and meditating on the book of Philippians really helped me! And God always brought resources my way, testimonies of others being honest about things they've overcome with the strength of Christ, I have a counsellor now too and journal a lot, have spiritual mentors and asked God tirelessly to help me understand me (still doing that now, but now I see the calm in the storm but the beginning stage which I believe you're at was bruuuuutal). You should listen to "I Gotta Find Peace of Mind" by Lauryn Hill too. Sorry for such a long comment... but again, thank you Sade! It takes a lot of strength, light and faith in love to take a chance on someone.
I feel this on so many levels!!! I swear, when you were “rambling” I knew exactly what you meant... it’s like you were speaking to me and for me. I truly appreciate you for always being such an open book. I needed to hear this. Hell, anyone who came to watch this video needed to hear this. All love ❤️ ❤️❤️
every time i watch these sit down/update/how i'm feeling type videos from you, it's always like watching myself talk to... myself.. in a sense? idk how to really put it into better words but i really do understand what you're feeling and it makes me glad to know that i'm not the only one who goes thru times like these. you've described what i've been going thru these past couple of months and your experiences are so similar to mine. its kinda wild but not so wild but wild. but you're gonna get through what you are going thru. you are very bright, inside and out and this is just part of your journey. sending lots of love, light, and positivity.
I’m so happy to see you, to see this it’s beautiful. And the fact that you can come back to this place where you not afraid of being open and honest with yourself is amazing. Your healing is faster then you think became you’re aware of yourself. I am much like you where I go off and tangents but it feels so amazing after consult you first 💕
Only 6.5 minutes in to your video, but I just wanted to say, as a future occupational therapist, the feeling of wanting a routine as a human being is very valid and real. There is an art to the power of "doing": doing the things we love, doing the things we need, having a routine can all be very therapeutic. Studies have even shown that people who are involved in occupations and are connected to society to a certain degree, literally have better physical health outcomes!
That guy didn’t deserve you and you’re s strong 💪 woman. I know God will bless you and give you abundantly! He was a stepping stool for you to move higher. Love your channel and it helps me or gives idea 💡 of how women feel and help me to approach different ppl. You are a beautiful woman and stay strong!
I LOVE YOU! DAMN! I've only watched a few of your videos, but I felt your soul through your humor and demeanor, and this right here...proves that we're not as alone as we think we are, we're just silent about it. Sending healing vibes your way! I love your passion and respect of this life...I hope to meet you and others like you along my journey. Vulnerability is a superpower and I feel IDENTICAL when it comes to showing and feeling my feelings...KEEP SHINING YOUR LIGHT SADE and help illuminate a way for others alike
Wow, i just love hearing you speak! I appreciate this so much. It had me thinking a lot. I know everything is gonna work out for you. I’ll be praying. Peace is the best blessing and i know you’ll find it again!
I'm praying for you Sade. I always feel so close to you when you talk about personal experiences bc I UNDERSTAND exactly what you're feeling, it's like you just put words to the thoughts in my head.. Love you girl, I can't wait til you're in a better place! Please pray for me as well💕
Hi Sada, new subbie! Thank you for sharing. I was there once too, I felt like I’d displeased Jehovah in more than one way with me trying to direct my own steps, and then I reflected back on how much more purpose my life had when I was seeking Jehovah, and because of that I have returned back to him. I’ll share a few scriptures that encouraged me doing my rough times...Deuteronomy 4:31 For Jehovah your God is a merciful God. Jehovah knows we will stumble over and over due to our inherited sin, but if we take heed to Malachi 3:7 Return to me and I will return to you, Jehovah promises to protect those who seek him! I’ll be praying for you and just remember Jehovah isn’t far from any of us, we just need to trust in him to direct our steps! 🙌🏾
Man. I understand/Understood. I feel like Vigro/Scorpio charts been GETTIN it this fall. I VALUE YOU! You are inspiring and I also do youtube and understand the lack of motivation and inspiration that comes from the platform these days. I understand the willingness of giving pieces of yourself to help comfort another the beauty is when they're willing do the same bc not giving up anything creates little room for oneness and cohesion- its nessacary. This feeling limbo will soon pass and youll see in the mirroior your core self again. And God meets your heart. And he hears you without the labels of organizations. He knows.
I felt this on EVERY SINGLE LEVEL ! FROM noticing the depression, noticing maybe I too need trauma therapy to the feelings regarding youtube and not feeling connected to ppl and needing a job or something to get that back. I agree to maybe do that cause even with right now I got a temp position for 7 weeks and being able to get up and go somewhere and interact with ppl has felt good. Having a reason outside of youtube or your own stuff to get dressed feels good. I really relate to you so much and Im so glad I found your channel like a year ago.Keep trying to get to your old self or at least that part that was familiar positive. You will get through this and we will always support you ! Im praying for you.
Sis!!!! Everything you said is confirmation for me. We are going thru a spiritual war because the energy and the life we posses is valued. Don’t let your physical thoughts try to contradict what your spirit is telling you. That’s discernment! As long as you’re aware of a change you will find the way with time and prayer!!! I’m on the same journey with you and the one thing that keeps me going is LOVE. Knowing God loves me the same when I’m doing great and when I mess you I’m loved. He loves me unconditionally just as I live my kids when they get on my nerves and when they tell me I’m the best mom ever. We are strong and remember this everyday. God loves you everything will be alright and God loves you
I’m so glad I watched this! I felt this way over the summer and the best way to get through is to PRAY! God will give you more than what you need, but when he knows your ready to receive it. It just takes time.
Thank you. a million times thank you for coming as honestly as you do and have been. ive followed your videos for a while and didnt get why these specific conversations struck me so hard until i found myself in it and currently out of it. healing and reflecting in my own time. just looking back at the way he would talk me, always literally playing devils advocate just for personal amusement( honestly should of been a red flag when he told me that and even told me that was his favorite movie) its just..no. i dont need someone advocating for the devil in my life. it took me watching the movie WITH him to realize im literally the wife, who he watched the life get drained out of her until she went insane and took her own life. smh. just.. your stories have helped me to heal, and helping me reflect and know that growth from this is possible. that im not crazy for going through what i went through and im certainly not alone. i dont owe any man who doesnt know how to speak seriously, act seriously or be honest with himself and his trauma, anything. i owe myself and deserve everything and then some 🌸 wishing u love and light
My girl.. I’m going through things much similar to you right now and watching this just gives me the confirmation I needed just to know that this is all part of a bigger plan and to just get it together, find peace in the process and leave the rest to God. I definitely feel you on the relationship mishap because this just happened to me too as well and find myself borderline unsure if it was just toxic or us just growing in separate ways but either way I still don’t think I fully processed it mentally the way it should be. I often find myself just praying and healing now way faster than I expected if that doesn’t sound too much like a contradiction lol. I thank you for just speaking on such truths that so many of us evolving women don’t even give ourselves the time to acknowledge and cope with and just using your platform being the genuine soul that you are and honestly being someone I can relate to speak about real issues. Even just you talking about your channel and not really posting as much from not being in sync with yourself , exactly how I’m feeling too as to why I haven’t fully started my channel and pushed it theyveay I planned but I’ll get there lol. I genuinely wish nothing but the best for you, time heals all and praying, reflecting, and putting you first changes everything. Keep pushing! 🙏🏾❤️
Sade, you really are amazing. I relate so much with emotional abuse and a lot of what your saying. You spoke my mind and most importantly my heart. Thank you
I totally get what you saying with those Pluto placements, I have a lot of them too. That’s exactly what’s going on with him. I’m glad that you are fighting for your happiness! It sounds like a dark night of the soul actually. These trials only make us better ❤️
watching this really made me feel like I was listening to myself. I've been in a similar space many times and could not understand what it was or how i would get out of it?? get back to myself or even get to God. so it was pretty amazing to even hear you put it into words. the ideas of not feeling, being delayed emotionally, and feeling just so alienated in that feeling. wow. I'm glad you came back to make this. much love + peace to you on this journey.
Everything you said made sense. I can so relate to ALOT of things you said that you are struggling with. Sending you lots of love & light ✨ Remember that this too shall pass
You are definitely not alone sis ! I really relate to alot of the same emotions PEACE AND LOVE AND CLARITY AND POSITIVE VIBRATIONS being sent your way 🌼💫🧡
"You feel like you don't make sense when you've been quieted for a long time" powerful words Sade
Mykala Ranger that was a whole word
that really hit me!
Mykala Ranger very powerful. I had to stop to the video to realize how true it is. Especially being in a similar dilemma as her.
I basically need this tattooed on my arm
I love it !
speaking for myself, I value you as a person, not an entertainer... I just love to witness how you're navigating through life and how you rationalise things for yourself... its such a strength and to call it inspiring seems trivial, but in many respects it is. Keep figuring it all out sade, you're doing amazing! Honestly watch your videos like your my internet sister, love from London x
"i value you as a PERSON, not an entertainer" girllll. my heart. thank you. sending you love from ny girl
If I could cry, I would. Not being able to feel your feelings, being numb and only being able to express the frustration you feel is.. a slow death. I've been a shell of myself for the past year and everything you said in this video reminded me of myself. For some reason, I have been drawn to you and your channel but I finally figured it out. You remind me of me. The mentally unstable past partner, not being able to feel in the moment, the Virgoness with punches of scorpio, talking to yourself all the time and still not feeling heard, hell even the room aesthetic. Everything you said in this video, I Understand. When you said you were your happiest when you had God, I felt something for the first time in a long time. The happiest I've ever been is when I had me, when I didn't even realize my love for myself exuded out my pores. Now thats gone, hopefully only temporarily. Seeing this video allowed me to see that, I'm not alone. and as frightening as it may be, it makes the numbness a bit more bearable, with the hope that one day we all can feel again.
Thank you Sade, for your bravery and transparency. For using your platform as a discussion rather than "making the shit look pretty". I will support any and everything you do. I will not rush your healing (nor my own). Take your time, find you, find God, and find your healing. It is already yours.
I just felt every single word of this. Thank you soooooooo much for Sharing this Ty, I truly needed this, you have no idea...and thank you Sade for sharing so much of yourself.
I have been in a weird spiritual limbo since 2015. My relationships have been coming so real in which everyone is showing their true colors and their colors are so dark and I feel like I have remained the same which sensitive and timid. So I tried to become more aggressive in self protection and no one likes it but they want me to except their dark colors and not expect them to change.
Bryce Curry wooooow so deep 😢. I have the exact feeling now. I send you love and positivity ❤️
yooo i feel you. since 2016 for me and that's WAY to long. one of my next videos actually are gonna be on this topic.
Me too but I changed completely I decided 2 years ago that nobody would ever hurt me again and I haven’t given people the opportunity to right their wrongs I just cut them completely off and it’s not fair to them but I’m legitimately traumatized.
Yyyyyyyyyeeesssssssss 🙌🏾
Keep your light; burn them with it. You will attract your twin flame and what you need. Star seeds don’t fit in or settle
I’m not done watching the video but I just wanted to comment real quick. Please start a podcast. Okay now let me finish.
Najah KK plssss
God can heal the emptiness you feel. Pray, He's listening. He wants to give you purpose as well!
AMEN #REALMVP THIS IS ME SUMMED UP . I AM MOST AT PEACE THAN I'VE EVER BEEN NOW I KNOW GOD AND KNOW HIM WELL AND KNOW EVEN MORE SO NOW THAT MY WALK WITH HIM IS A WALK IN PROGRESS AND IT'S CONSTANTLY DEVELOPING AT DIFFERENT STAGES . PHIL4:13 HELPS ME TREMENDOUSLY AND HAS HUMBLED ME SO MUCH !
THE BOOK OF JAMES IS A GREAT START TOO !
Does anyone else feel like they’re friends with Sade ?
She feels like a big sister ❤️
LORD. I FELT IT when you said “I’ve been vibing high for a long time... where is my tribe?” YES. Honestly I feel alone too, but I come to your channel to watch your chit chats and updates to feel connected. You are not alone. THANK YOU!
Sade and any other queens, please get in touch with yourself, it's so easy to drift in life. If you're religious and I can only speak from a Christian standpoint and I'm not downing anyone else's religion but please please get in touch with God, get on your knees and ask for guidance. Believing in God is not about "submitting", it's about showing love and admiration to a God that loves you so much and blesses you beyond recognition , God has done so much for those that even are far apart from Him and all we have to do is take the first step, I ramble too but I'm trying to say that taking the first step to finding God, taking the very first, littlest, most minute step to become closer with God is the best thing you can do, I want to see all of you on the other side, in eternal life in the Kingdom, this is not forever by far, this is only the beginning, I am not upmost "holy", I sin too but I just want to spread love no matter who you praise. May God bless you Sade and anyone else drifting, I love y'all and hope you find the perfect peace. Blessings to you all 💕
Thank you Sade for everything and being who you are in this world; please know you are divinely blessed and a beautiful, bright light in the dark 🤍
Your want to know God is so familiar. Trying to discipline yourself to read any religious word as a Christian, Catholic, Muslim, etc could be really overwhelming and brings about constant guilty and dubious thoughts when you're not sure that denomination is what you want to practice. So I'll advise this. Take on religion as a course. Read the Bible like a student. Pray to God before you begin for understanding and clarity while you read. And utilize the resources around you. If you don't want to or can't physically visit a church use the internet to hear sermons, perspectives, to gain insight and answers. Don't feel guilty for questioning shit bc it tells more of you wanting to learn the God you're yearning to know. And personally I highly advise looking up Alysia Harris if you don't know her and following her on all social media. Her insight on Christianity is so refreshing and helpful.
Haven’t watched the video yet but I MISSED YOU SADE😭💜💜💜
love when you do long videos about life.
me too tbh
Take care of yourself and give yourself the time and permission to heal. You are so worthy. You are a healer yourself and you do so by pouring out so freely into others. It’s time for you to go inward and allow healing to take place by being compassionate with yourself. Thank you for being so transparent about your journey. You’ve shared so much and we’ve all seen you grow. This season will pass soon and you’ll have moved on to another stage in life. You’ll look back and see what this situation was meant to teach you. The divine wishes no ill intent towards anyone of us. We’re all meant to evolve on this journey and it’s usually in our darkest times that we find ourselves evolving even faster.
I'm a licensed psychotherapist and it seems you're looking for a therapist that specializes in Trama-Focused Cognitive Behavioral therapy which focuses on reshaping the way we view, think, and cope with our past trauma! Just a suggestion for when you decided to find another therapist!
I need that! Will write that down! 📓 🖊
i haven't gotten through even a quarter of this video but I wanted to say, in reference to you stating, that you essentially sacrificed pieces of yourself because you noticed the changes your ex made for you, although he'd always return back to his original self.. often we see the potential in people rather than the actual person before our eyes, in hopes that one day the effort and sacrifices made will bring that potential into fruition. The truth of the matter is people rarely change and if so, its only for so long. Im so so glad you ended things with your ex, the situation sounded extremely abusive, in an emotional sense. Even the fact that he doesn't want you discussing the relationship, as if deducing and reflecting what occurred during that time isn't therapeutic and would offer you closure. Someone who truly love(d) you wouldn't gaslight you like that and marginalize your feelings. Some people only love you because they can control and dominate you, which is a rare occurrence in their fickle lives. I wish you the best, Sade! Your presence is so needed xxx
Ahhh girl you got me crying while I️ was driving, I️ had to pull over. I️ resonated with so much of what you said in regards to being happiest when in relationship with God and your struggle to know them. Tbh all I️ can say is that I️ know that feeling of feeling stuck in limbo and not having a feeling in your soul to guide your walk .. I️ also know we will get through this. I️ am also heavy on the Scorpio placement and I️t is in our nature to feel so I️t will come in due time. ... I️ typically don’t feel connected to people when they say I️ love you online but when you said I️t I️ knew I️t really came from your heart, from the deepest place in my own heart I️ love you too and I’m praying for the revitalization and healing of your mind body and spirit. ☀️
I love you too Sade, being in a toxic relationship does change you, it changes your personality, perceptions get distorted , I have never been so uncertain in my life , been in this for going on 3rd year I'm not the same person , your guy sounds like a narc or sociopath or psychopath , or even borderline , they are out here and very common , thanks for sharing
100%Gemini yes! Definitely sounds like he is a narc/sociopath/ psychopath. Somewhere on the ASPD spectrum. I *think* he was diagnosed with something else (she has an old video about it) but Idk.
@@ambermarie8027 yep, yeah I watched the other video , we ladies (men) deserve better
100%Gemini omg same! Everythinggg u said.. im no longer the same person 😑 and now I have a baby for him smh
@@Niberiangirl stay strong beautiful , 😘,
100%Gemini thank you! You too ❤️
I can 100% relate on what you were saying about having so many questions about Christ, and this entity. I was so trapped in my head, making it so hard for myself to really open up to God. Until one day i literally just started researching the Bible. That is truly the best start! Google what God has to say about “love” in the Bible or about “life” and find those verses and go from there. I’ve learned so much about God, things that I would’ve never known if I didn’t go looking for these answers myself. I pray all the time to bring me closer to him and help get to know more about him, and that’s exactly what he did! Try it out girl ❤️ it’s good to start small, somewhere anywhere! You will literally start to feel yourself changing, and growing closer to him. You just have to pray on it! God bless 💜
I can relate so much. I’m only 19 but I’ve been through so much. I grew up in such a religious and strict upbringing that I saw doesn’t really make anyone happy. But I have also witnessed true believers of God and the peace it brings. But the actually religion doesn’t do anything for me. Following some guidelines only to be saved isn’t what I want. I want a true relationship with God. A true happiness that I don’t feel has to come from reading a certain amount of scriptures or how many functions you attend.
Every minute of this video just spoke to me. I don’t ever comment but I’ve been loving on your platform for 2 years now and I’m only 16. At the end when you spoke about God I had to stop for a minute because I just had this exact same conversation with someone yesterday. I just can’t find the same level of transparency among my peers so I just feel lost. Like I’ve been seeking for something that I don’t even know exist. But I do send love 💕 and on multiple occasions I have actually included you in my prayers. But I actually thank you...for your time and your vulnerability.
"on multiple occasions I have actually included you in my prayers" girl i have tears in my eyes. the best someone can give me is a prayer. thank you boo
When you spoke to yourself in the mirror I literally broke down with you because girl I’ve been through the exact same thing of not being able to feel too. Honestly, it’s a process that takes time and it’s good that you already know that. You need to get to the point where you’re ready to sit in your pain and allow it to fully manifest itself as it’s only then that you’ll be able to grow and learn from it. I’m wholeheartedly rooting for you and praying that you heal and recover xx Love you Sadé!
First things first before we get into the serious stuff let me just tell you why I love you Sade. You put on your eyelashes with hair glue (only real ones can relate), you drink the water they sell at Dollar (that's my store!), and you're transparency is always from a good place. Now on to what really made me comment....God put me in the same situation earlier this year, I believe he puts you in a place where you cant feel anything so when you have that urge to know him that the feeling is like no other and you wont settle for feeling anything but happiness. Just try talking to him or writing to him first ask God to answer your questions. I started off that way and then I started watching Pastor Mike Todd on youtube, Girl He's the truth! I'm praying for you boo don't lose yourself and keep talking to us! LOVE You!
Te's Journey 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
OOOOMMMGGGG TRANSFORMATION NATION! DASSS MY CHURCHHHHH! God is doing great things thru him bcuz his preachings helped me when i was going thru suchhhh a hard time. It brought me a lot closer to God bcus he explained Him in a way that i could understand Him and relate to Him more. Love pastor Todd
Yesss for this tea time. So much truth, soul and transparency ❤️ reasons I keep coming back to your channel. Here for it!
Update : I'm almost at the end, but something you really said stuck out to me. "She's just not ready to feel again." Can totally relate, its something about our brains when we have been through something sooo traumatic that our brain will protect us from anything else. People can't understand unless they've gone through it. Spirituality has helped me get back to myself, God is showing me my purpose and hopefully therapy can help me too. But it is definitely a journey mama, don't give up ❤️ I feel you.
Wow, what you said about feeling stuck in limbo really struck a nerve with me, I've been feeling like that for such a long time and I felt lost in myself. I couldn't relate to anyone around me. SO MUCH of what you said felt so personal because they're feeling I have and just couldn't articulate because I felt so frustrated and "like I didn't make sense". When you said you hadn't found your tribe was also a strong point that stuck with me I literally was saying" thank you" out loud because I have prayed to find mine and still feel like I don't have one. I just feel way better like it was lifted off my chest to hear the things in my head said out loud and I thank you for that. I also hope that you feel better and the fog in your head lifts. peace and love Sade.
My senior year my father passed away and life hasn't been the same ever since. I am now a freshman in college who just turned 18 and I feel like everything is spinning around. There are too many side situations to even jot down, but just know life has been very difficult lately as well. I feel like I'm losing myself as well because two years ago I was a completely different girl who was mentally and physically healthy and stable. I sat down and watched this entire video because I can understand you and the descriptions of how you're feeling. We may not be going through the exact same situation but I definitely do believe we are feeling the exact same way. I give you nothing but virtual hugs and kisses and wish the best and happiness for you with much love! God will forever be there in times of need of help, he is not blind to your tears.
cray jaay my dad died in January and I feel like I’ve never been the same
I think you should seek therapy as well as God - church. I am so sorry for your loss, things do get better. 💕
Colleges usually have on campus therapy also that comes with you tuition.
I want my feelings back too sis... I appreciate your post
that part about introducing someone to people you love, then it not working out.... i really felt that because it happens frequently and makes me debate if the problem is me or the people that I choose to be in relationships with.
when I saw this it felt like I just saw my best friend crying and immediately clicked the video like a concerned friend lol haven’t watched yet but I hope you’re doing good sade💜
I felt the same way
Are you an empath , Sade? I feel like you definitely are. 🙂I pray you are granted peace in this transition of your life. You’re very loved and appreciated 🧡🧡🧡
yeah i deff am and thank you babes
I was you a couple of months ago, dealing with a narcissist,. who I believe was my soulmate that I I didn't want to let go. Because I saw the good he could be but it would never work. And also dealing with my Jamaican family that is blind to mental health. Plus I had my own personal insecurities.I lost myself, all I have to say is its gets better with time. This is all part of your soul growth, in the end you will come out stronger. you will grow to leave toxic people, situation behind. you will find yourself becoming more closer with yourself.
Girl I understand especially with the relationship thing. And lately I’ve been feeling like I’m losing my mind/memory because I’m in my head too much and I feel like I’ve changed so much I don’t know who I am. The only difference is I do have a relationship with God but I feel like it’s been going lower since I’m putting anxiety, stress, and worries above him. Don’t rush the process of trying to get back to the old you.
I appreciate you're vulnerability girly it's beautiful. I am glad you have this platform to speak your testimony your not the only one going through a situation like this and I understand. Some times your friends and family may not understand but there is some one out there who does. & hey that some one might be your UA-cam family. I love you and you are worthy too girl. I hope making his video made you feel better because writing and talking about what our feelings Are is great. Thanks for sharing. And this is your platform you can cry if you want to 😊💪🏽😘
You don’t even understand how I’ve been binge watching your videos for the past few days. The fact that you just uploaded is so appreciated.
SADEEEE! We’ve missed you!
This video really hit home. Thank you for being vulnerable enough to share.
This transparency is so pure Sade. I love you darling. I hope you heal and feel again.. Even in your limbo you’re full of light. Thank you for this.
This video came at THE perfect time. I can relate on so many levels. As a 24 year old i'm still trying to figure out who I am and what my sole purpose is in this life, and it's good to know that i'm not the only person who has felt like this. At times I feel like life is just a constant cycle on repeat and I can't catch up with how i'm feeling or what i'm feeling. Taking breaks from Social media has helped when I feel like this. I'm a scorpio & completely agree and understand the darkness that you're discussing. I too have been in situations where I have to let go of that darkness and be of light and positivity, especially when I'm reacting to conflicts.
Knowing God for what and who he/she is, is a constant Goal of mine. The feeling of not incorporating God in my every day routine feels like a missing piece and as if something is off. But once I began praying and just having regular conversations with God, that's when I feel my happiest.
Thank you for sharing Sade xoxo
Sade I really needed this video. I found you a couple years back when searching for dp/dr videos and I’m not experiencing that rn but I’m feeling depressed/numb coming out of an emotionally abusive relationship and it’s scary to feel like you’re checked out. Thanks for the reminder that healing is a process. Sending you all the love
I appreciate you so much for talking with us about real shit. I needed this is every way possible. Thank you!
We are so aligned it’s crazy! I’ve been feeling the same way b/c of the trauma induced by narcissistic/sociopathic (ASPD) personalities (which your dude sounds like). Relationship with these types will take your entire soul if you let it, they’re soul snatchers. You lose yourself and don’t even know how to explain it. The gas-lighting they do will cause those feelings of fogginess, confusion, self-doubt, etc. I consider it to be spiritual warfare and typically jezebel is the demon that runs their life. You may find solace in Cindy Trimm series/books on spiritual warfare b/c that’s what it is.
Omg! Even with the Game of Thrones thing. I just tried watching it with my husband and couldn’t keep up with it. You have to be an empath b/c girl! YES!🤗
*sees that the video is 42 minutes*
*reaches for headphones*
Me To Me: Bitch! I'm gonna watch every single minute of it 😥
Lesego Mateme same😂
😂 I missed her so much 😭
Same lmao. I got so happy. She’s the only person on this platform I can watch a 10+ video of her just talking to the camera.
literally me lmao
Saaame
I admire your mind,and like everybody else is saying your transparency.. watched the whole vid and I FEEL you. your outlet seems to be UA-cam and mine is writing in my journal. All I’m gonna say is trust yourself. You know more than you think.
Man I respect you so much for being able to be so vulnerable and so authentic! You'll come out of this in a much better place! I felt everything you were talking about, I get it 100%. Trying to find yourself out of a toxic situation is not easy. I'm at a similar stage as well. I keep telling myself "patience" is the key. Growth takes time, but the fact you're so open about how you feel is the first step.
Sat down and watched the WHOLE video and wow sade I hope everything gets more stable for you and I relate in terms of wanting perfection and having the need to obtain it . The concept of control is really so hard to let go , your videos help me make sense of my thoughts and how much we relate. Take as much time as you can , I appreciate your transparency and honesty throughout your journey . I hope next year you can look back on this video and see how much you've grown
I love hearing you talk because you help me find perspective. Thank you for being open
What you said makes so much sense! Thank you for sharing. I have been going through something similar for months. It's nice to know I'm not alone in this.
I just broke up with my boyfriend. He was very emotionally abusive to me and I’m very traumatized not only by the relationship and the breakup but by my own behavior. I’m glad I ran across this video showing a strong woman moving on
This spoke to me so very much. Thank you for this! I understand and I love you too!
Tbh even tho I'm Muslim whos from a Christian family. I have realized we as people shouldn't tell others that religion is the only way to connect to God. I feel like one can connect to God with no religion. Most religion basically talks about the same thing about who God is. Religions are just roots connecting to one plant. God is a spiritual being and yes religion do talk about spirituality but us as people don't focus on that but the physical aspect of religion.
Basically, what I'm saying God shouldn't be limited to just people who follow a religion.
Anyway, I believe you are gonna figure out what you don't understand, you truly are strong person Sade. I hope everything goes well in your life and may you attract the people you feel like you deserve to attract. Also, I don't think you are asking for too much or being ungrateful. Tbh I feel like there's no limit to life, we are brought here to accomplish everything we think we can do. That's the beauty of life, accomplish something and continue with the next one, get what you want and ask for more.
We are being told by society you asking for too much which not true, once you understand the spiritual aspect of it.
Also one more thing. We are all energy from people to animals, to plants, and even water. Its been proven that water has consciousness, its said before drinking water talk to it send love to it before drinking it. our body is mostly made of water so its just gonna spread throughout our whole body.
We as humans are connected to all those things cause we are made of all those things.
Lmfaoo fun fact ppl share DNA with banana.
Pls try meditation, on attracting more love, self-love, and connecting with your higher self more.
Our higher self is the only part of us that's connected to God and know what's gonna happen before it happens.
It will be lovely if you see this comment, but to anyone who sees this, I hope my comment influence you if you are going through a dark period in your life.
Everything has its an appointed time so you might not see result quickly but trust me this work. It has helped me so much, that I would randomly be happy for no damn reason.
Anyway, have a safe and lovely day to anyone who read this.
I’m a Virgo too and what you said resonated with me. It will take me years to even realize what happened to me or take it serious and feel at all. I’m not hiding feelings, they just aren’t there. So I understand wanting to feel. Also, I feel the same with the waiting for your tribe. But I think I’m realizing I need more gratitude for who I have right now before I can even meet others. Why do I deserve new people just for me to still be ungrateful and find flaws like I’m perfect? Nothing is “perfect”. That’s what I’m trying to work through with never feeling fully grateful and always nitpicking. I know we can be super critical of the ones we love because we want to help them improve, but if no one asked, why not pour that energy into ourselves? Self intervention is rough but so helpful. Thank you for this. Much love!
Wow, I started watching your videos a while ago for the beauty, and hair purposes. Then I started watching your GRWM and chitchats. This video right here was so open, vulnerable, insightful, warranted and needed. I think a lot of us are in that same limbo with you trying to figure out wtf is life. I’m blabbing but this video was needed and so relatable.. thank you.
I can 100% relate to this especially when you said I just want you God I felt like I was just listening to myself❤️ you don’t know how many women you help especially me by just speaking your truth. Hope you get through it❤️
wow, I was missing "classic sade" videos and I decided to go back and binge your content and I landed on this one. Which I've seen before and I'm sure I've probably even commented on, but this is hitting different in quarantine and dealing with a recent breakup. A lot of what you are describing is exactly what I'm experiencing. Thank you again for being so vulnerable with us. I hope you are well in 2020.
Your vulnerability as you find clarity is healing for me. I identify more than I anticipated. I felt so disassociated after my last relationship. I recently went back to school (doing well too), but I haven't been able to give myself permission to feel. I'm a feeler, but I feel afraid to feel because of past experiences. Anyways you making this video hits home. I appreciate you.
Thank you so much for sharing your life sade 🌺 you made me tear up when you were talking about how you were grateful for the people who watch your videos. And I've been feeling numb for a good few months so only a couple things can make me physically tear up. I can relate to you in many ways. And you're really comforting. I hope the next part of your journey is filled with lots of healing and love🌱✨🌺
That was truly therapeutic to watch and I want to thank you for it. I have these same conversations with myself quite often as I recently lost my mom and have been in the most miserable state of mind. The purest love I've ever experienced has been from her and now that she's gone, I feel gone too. I don't know if I'm going or coming most days and seeing how cruel the world is makes me miss her so much. So again, I thank you for your purity and openness.
Yessss, I missed your life talk videos!! I got so hype when I saw a notification pop up 😁 I totally understand where you’re coming from. I feel like I’m kind of on the same boat with you when it comes to the spiritual aspect of things. Everything that’s occurring in your life is for a reason and will eventually make sense in due time 🙏🏾
You just spoke my feelings! I needed this. To see I’m not the only one detached and hating the detachment. Everything you said, even your ex and god, I’m experiencing or have experienced. I feel like I’ve lost myself. But not to be alone in this struggle is comforting, thank you🖤🖤
This video hit it right on the head for me! I’m in the same space as far as creating, feeling the need to get out, bored, and just being an entrepreneur lol. Wishing you better vibes, and a clear head space. Thanks for sharing ♥️
Soooooo happy to see you're back !! When I was in a very dark confusing place Gospel music really lifted my spirits and saved me !! One day I just randomly started listening to the gospel channels on Pandora, and I thank myself everyday for doing so ❤
Thanks for sharing and being transparent. I get so much from your videos. I have been going through a lot in my life and the transitions from one space to another has been real! Keep your videos coming much love 😍
i am literally cryingggg at how perfect the timing of this video was. i resonated so much w this video. i literally could see myself in you, especially the last 8 minutes or so of the video. i think it is absolutely beautiful how vulnerable and transparent you were in this. i, too, am in this funk where i feel like i don’t really understand myself and i feel as though i don’t make any sense when trying to explain what is going on thru my head. sometimes i even find myself questioning my existence, yanno trying to figure out what my true purpose in this world is bc most times it feels like i’m not living but merely just existing and i don’t like that feeling at all. i also am in spiritual limbo trying to better my relationship w God bc i know my relationship w him is not where it should be at all and i know he is the only way that i can rid of this energy that has been cast on me as of recently.
i say all this to say, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. & i am beyond happy to know that there is another person out there who is in the exact same predicament that i am. thank you, sade. 💙
I felt this sis ! I’m literally feeling that exact same way these days , some days are better than other and I feel like im actually trying to feel again and then other I’m just like BLLAAAAHHH all over again ! It’s crazy because A LOT of us are experiencing this right now at this very moment , and you know what it’s okay because we are all aware and trying to find a way out of it for us to be better and getting closer to God in the process ! It’s all apart of our journeys toward our new selves . We can all help each other through these times by sharing what we did during these times and just simply encouraging one another to let each other know we are not alone in this and we WILL get through this little detour !
Once again you have managed to verbalize thoughts I have been trying to come to for months . I love your mental processing . You truly inspire me to firmly stand strong in what I value . You’re so right !! When you’ve been quieted , you feel uncomfortable explaining how you feel and how you think. I’ve been in a cloudy mental state these past few weeks . I feel you bring parts out of me I need to hear! Thank you for being so vulnerable .
Ugh! I just want to hug you! Girl you make so much sense it’s not even funny...I pray that you get back to you because those feelings are intense and holding onto it hurts so much that it definitely takes you to a place where you feel like you don’t feel anything because you’re feeling so much disassociation is inevitable. You’re definitely growing through something though, and while it is tough within the moment, this narrative isn’t yours forever. You will be replenished in all the ways that are necessary for your best self and people like your ex or others who have mishandled you will not get the opportunity to even feel comfortable enough in your presence to try to waste your time in those ways. You will come out on the other side of this and I believe that wholeheartedly. I love you girl and I don’t even know you, but through this platform that you’ve created is very clear to see that you’re an amazing person with a gentle spirit who deserves the absolute best. Pray through the process even if you don’t know what you’re doing. Those chains will be broken and you will return to your authentic self. Speak light into yourself sis at every opportunity even when nothing makes sense. Even if it doesn’t always feel like it you are strong and deep within yourself you possess the necessary tools to replenish yourself. Help is out there but it starts with you. Make time for yourself because you matter so much! Go to the right type of therapy and start unpacking, healing is attainable. 💕
I saw myself so much while I was watching this video that I stared finishing your sentences. It is a really crappy feeling when you feel like you don’t recognize yourself anymore and the only emotion you can feel is frustration when you’re not numb. I’ve been in that moment for the last year and it’s like... it makes feel so embarrassed to know that this all started when I dealt with my last “partner” because instead of taking that time to love myself I chose to spend time trying to convince someone else that I was worth loving and it literally sucked the life out of me. I can’t wait till the day I wake up and recognize myself and I know it’ll feel like I’m finally able to exhale. I respect and love you so much for sharing this with your subscribers. Thank you 🙏🏾🌻
You are not alone in this spiritual warfare. So many people, including myself, are right there with you. I resonate with you on seems like every video. I haven't felt connected to this realm for years (It's confusing because I'm in my early 20s). Yet I remember things where I was truly in myself, and they always have a different shade or aura than the world has now. I'm not in my darkest of days, but I feel the pull. I'm sending you good energies in my prayer. Love you, girl!
I really loved this as being a Virgo myself I feel so misunderstood as well as not even understanding myself. I felt everything you have said I felt as though I finally heard someone I can relate to or feels the same in every way. From the relationship and always trying to quiet myself for others to where now it’s hard to start voicing out things. As well with the not feeling anything after my toxic relation I’ve felt very numb and normal things that used to be so easy aren’t anymore .. crying or even voicing out to anyone how I feel. I also seek perfection and things and try my best to help people even family but still feel misunderstood constantly and things sadden me when I see things can be so precious and u know nice and life but others do not maybe it is a perfection thing? Who knows. But u are great and the only person who makes me feel understood. ♍️❤️ keep being great . Thanks for your videos. You aren’t alone .
It's taken this video to realise I'm not crazy, I know what I feel and being so in tune with yourself allows you to fully dissect at what's been going on and what needs to be left alone. I haven't felt like myself in years and slowly, it took time to realise that I needed to be alone in order to get back to me. And you clearly need to get back to you. Take your time to do that, I'm still not there yet but you'll get there. Focus is what lets you move on slowly, focus on what's best for you and only do that! Love and light to you, I feel you heavy! X
Man I needed this..I'm going through a horrible breakup too and I haven't felt like myself since then. I wouldn't say that I'm numb to my feelings, but my feelings are like all over the place. One day I'll be really motivated and happy about myself and the next I'm super depressed. I ask God why every now and then, but I never get or "see" an answer..so I'm glad I'm not alone. And you're not alone either.
This is the one of realist conversations somebody can ever have with they self...I felt this one a whole other level 💯...from the talking about your relationship with God to feeling like you don’t know who are because you’ve internalized so much shit...like, sis..I needed this chat
I appreciate your videos so much. It feels good to know that other people out there experience disassociate tendencies but still manage to express your feelings and love. I love you so much. Thanks for being you, god is in you already!
Hey Sade! Thank you so much for sharing, wow! You're probably expecting this.. but no, you're not alone and there is beauty in brokenness and confusion. And that's something I also had to accept over the past few years. When I began my relationship with Christ (2016) it was because I also was trying other things and felt like it wasn't helping me in any capacity with understanding the trauma's I've gone through and the woman I want to become. For 3-4 years I was also numb, I didn't know how to deal with plot twists in my life (mainly caused by hurt people hurting people and me being the byproduct of that), I didn't understand okay, yeah life is a rollercoaster but how do I become fully present for allll of it, cry if I wanna cry, be hurt, be mad, be happy, but mainly be joyful I didn't understand that in the Gospel until I had nooo resources and was referred to the Bible and starting researching different religions and sectors of Christianity. I prayed to God, not knowing if He would even listen to me relentlessly, I was also dealing with depression and anxiety, reading and meditating on the book of Philippians really helped me! And God always brought resources my way, testimonies of others being honest about things they've overcome with the strength of Christ, I have a counsellor now too and journal a lot, have spiritual mentors and asked God tirelessly to help me understand me (still doing that now, but now I see the calm in the storm but the beginning stage which I believe you're at was bruuuuutal). You should listen to "I Gotta Find Peace of Mind" by Lauryn Hill too. Sorry for such a long comment... but again, thank you Sade! It takes a lot of strength, light and faith in love to take a chance on someone.
I feel this on so many levels!!! I swear, when you were “rambling” I knew exactly what you meant... it’s like you were speaking to me and for me. I truly appreciate you for always being such an open book. I needed to hear this. Hell, anyone who came to watch this video needed to hear this. All love ❤️ ❤️❤️
you're absolutely awesome! It takes courage to be vulnerable. YOU ARE ENOUGH
every time i watch these sit down/update/how i'm feeling type videos from you, it's always like watching myself talk to... myself.. in a sense? idk how to really put it into better words but i really do understand what you're feeling and it makes me glad to know that i'm not the only one who goes thru times like these. you've described what i've been going thru these past couple of months and your experiences are so similar to mine. its kinda wild but not so wild but wild. but you're gonna get through what you are going thru. you are very bright, inside and out and this is just part of your journey. sending lots of love, light, and positivity.
I’m so happy to see you, to see this it’s beautiful. And the fact that you can come back to this place where you not afraid of being open and honest with yourself is amazing. Your healing is faster then you think became you’re aware of yourself. I am much like you where I go off and tangents but it feels so amazing after consult you first 💕
Only 6.5 minutes in to your video, but I just wanted to say, as a future occupational therapist, the feeling of wanting a routine as a human being is very valid and real. There is an art to the power of "doing": doing the things we love, doing the things we need, having a routine can all be very therapeutic. Studies have even shown that people who are involved in occupations and are connected to society to a certain degree, literally have better physical health outcomes!
That guy didn’t deserve you and you’re s strong 💪 woman. I know God will bless you and give you abundantly! He was a stepping stool for you to move higher. Love your channel and it helps me or gives idea 💡 of how women feel and help me to approach different ppl. You are a beautiful woman and stay strong!
I LOVE YOU! DAMN! I've only watched a few of your videos, but I felt your soul through your humor and demeanor, and this right here...proves that we're not as alone as we think we are, we're just silent about it. Sending healing vibes your way! I love your passion and respect of this life...I hope to meet you and others like you along my journey. Vulnerability is a superpower and I feel IDENTICAL when it comes to showing and feeling my feelings...KEEP SHINING YOUR LIGHT SADE and help illuminate a way for others alike
Wow, i just love hearing you speak! I appreciate this so much. It had me thinking a lot. I know everything is gonna work out for you. I’ll be praying. Peace is the best blessing and i know you’ll find it again!
I'm praying for you Sade. I always feel so close to you when you talk about personal experiences bc I UNDERSTAND exactly what you're feeling, it's like you just put words to the thoughts in my head.. Love you girl, I can't wait til you're in a better place! Please pray for me as well💕
Hi Sada, new subbie! Thank you for sharing. I was there once too, I felt like I’d displeased Jehovah in more than one way with me trying to direct my own steps, and then I reflected back on how much more purpose my life had when I was seeking Jehovah, and because of that I have returned back to him. I’ll share a few scriptures that encouraged me doing my rough times...Deuteronomy 4:31 For Jehovah your God is a merciful God. Jehovah knows we will stumble over and over due to our inherited sin, but if we take heed to Malachi 3:7 Return to me and I will return to you, Jehovah promises to protect those who seek him! I’ll be praying for you and just remember Jehovah isn’t far from any of us, we just need to trust in him to direct our steps! 🙌🏾
Man. I understand/Understood. I feel like Vigro/Scorpio charts been GETTIN it this fall. I VALUE YOU! You are inspiring and I also do youtube and understand the lack of motivation and inspiration that comes from the platform these days. I understand the willingness of giving pieces of yourself to help comfort another the beauty is when they're willing do the same bc not giving up anything creates little room for oneness and cohesion- its nessacary. This feeling limbo will soon pass and youll see in the mirroior your core self again. And God meets your heart. And he hears you without the labels of organizations. He knows.
I felt this on EVERY SINGLE LEVEL ! FROM noticing the depression, noticing maybe I too need trauma therapy to the feelings regarding youtube and not feeling connected to ppl and needing a job or something to get that back. I agree to maybe do that cause even with right now I got a temp position for 7 weeks and being able to get up and go somewhere and interact with ppl has felt good. Having a reason outside of youtube or your own stuff to get dressed feels good. I really relate to you so much and Im so glad I found your channel like a year ago.Keep trying to get to your old self or at least that part that was familiar positive. You will get through this and we will always support you ! Im praying for you.
Sis!!!! Everything you said is confirmation for me. We are going thru a spiritual war because the energy and the life we posses is valued. Don’t let your physical thoughts try to contradict what your spirit is telling you. That’s discernment! As long as you’re aware of a change you will find the way with time and prayer!!! I’m on the same journey with you and the one thing that keeps me going is LOVE. Knowing God loves me the same when I’m doing great and when I mess you I’m loved. He loves me unconditionally just as I live my kids when they get on my nerves and when they tell me I’m the best mom ever. We are strong and remember this everyday. God loves you everything will be alright and God loves you
I’m so glad I watched this! I felt this way over the summer and the best way to get through is to PRAY! God will give you more than what you need, but when he knows your ready to receive it. It just takes time.
The fact that I was watching a house tour , seen this and dashed
Thank you. a million times thank you for coming as honestly as you do and have been. ive followed your videos for a while and didnt get why these specific conversations struck me so hard until i found myself in it and currently out of it. healing and reflecting in my own time. just looking back at the way he would talk me, always literally playing devils advocate just for personal amusement( honestly should of been a red flag when he told me that and even told me that was his favorite movie) its just..no. i dont need someone advocating for the devil in my life. it took me watching the movie WITH him to realize im literally the wife, who he watched the life get drained out of her until she went insane and took her own life. smh. just.. your stories have helped me to heal, and helping me reflect and know that growth from this is possible. that im not crazy for going through what i went through and im certainly not alone. i dont owe any man who doesnt know how to speak seriously, act seriously or be honest with himself and his trauma, anything. i owe myself and deserve everything and then some 🌸 wishing u love and light
My girl.. I’m going through things much similar to you right now and watching this just gives me the confirmation I needed just to know that this is all part of a bigger plan and to just get it together, find peace in the process and leave the rest to God. I definitely feel you on the relationship mishap because this just happened to me too as well and find myself borderline unsure if it was just toxic or us just growing in separate ways but either way I still don’t think I fully processed it mentally the way it should be. I often find myself just praying and healing now way faster than I expected if that doesn’t sound too much like a contradiction lol. I thank you for just speaking on such truths that so many of us evolving women don’t even give ourselves the time to acknowledge and cope with and just using your platform being the genuine soul that you are and honestly being someone I can relate to speak about real issues. Even just you talking about your channel and not really posting as much from not being in sync with yourself , exactly how I’m feeling too as to why I haven’t fully started my channel and pushed it theyveay I planned but I’ll get there lol. I genuinely wish nothing but the best for you, time heals all and praying, reflecting, and putting you first changes everything. Keep pushing! 🙏🏾❤️
I completely feel you I process things slowly too and internalize a lot . This video really does speak to my soul !
Sade, you really are amazing. I relate so much with emotional abuse and a lot of what your saying. You spoke my mind and most importantly my heart. Thank you
I totally get what you saying with those Pluto placements, I have a lot of them too. That’s exactly what’s going on with him. I’m glad that you are fighting for your happiness! It sounds like a dark night of the soul actually. These trials only make us better ❤️
I love your vibe and the way you speak out expressing yourself. Completely relateable with me. I understand everything you are saying. :)
watching this really made me feel like I was listening to myself. I've been in a similar space many times and could not understand what it was or how i would get out of it?? get back to myself or even get to God. so it was pretty amazing to even hear you put it into words. the ideas of not feeling, being delayed emotionally, and feeling just so alienated in that feeling. wow. I'm glad you came back to make this. much love + peace to you on this journey.
Everything you said made sense. I can so relate to ALOT of things you said that you are struggling with. Sending you lots of love & light ✨
Remember that this too shall pass
I understand 100% thank you much for sharing. I feel the exact same way and it’s comforting to know that I’m not in this alone💞
I love this video and I really needed to hear a lot of the stuff you were talking about. Thank you for being so raw and real with us
I love you for this. Your videos are saving lives. You got me through the hardest breakup and you are helping me with my healing process. Thank you.
You are definitely not alone sis ! I really relate to alot of the same emotions PEACE AND LOVE AND CLARITY AND POSITIVE VIBRATIONS being sent your way 🌼💫🧡