Just want to say you’ve made such an impact on my life that I told my therapist about you when she asked if there was a particular reason I’m feeling better! I can’t thank you enough for your videos
Wish I had a therapist to tell that to in the first place but yeah, one British metaphysics boi cures my anxiety regularly. For about however long episodes of this series are.
exurb2a you’ve done so much for me, Ex. Thank you. Idk if you read your emails, but I sent a note of appreciation to you and I would really appreciate you reading it. Much love, and thank you so much for everything you’ve done with this podcast
Hi Pete, we are the ones who give meaning to life and we're all gonna die just like we all lived. It's just the end of a life we were gifted by the universe. To parphrase Alan Watts, we have been told that life is a journey, but we've been lied to. We're not really trying to reach a destination. We're all going to die. Life is more of a dance. We're not aiming at a particular spot in the dance floor, or to finish the dance as soon as possible. The point of the dance is the dance itself. The point of life is living. Aim to make your living experience the best you can and if you're feeling ambitious make the living experience of the people around you great as well. Cheerio.
@@LoLeanderx as an introvert, the analogy of "life is like dancing" is deeply disturbing and makes me want to vomit. Anyway, thanks for your words. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
@@Pete_YT as an introvert as well the dancing term makes me uncomfortable I have danced in front of the entire school and messed up oof that day btw alt account
Important add-on: Whatever grows from your misery compost does not have to be art. Personal growth , a broadened horizon, or a new appreciation for anything are also beautiful plants that deserve to grow!
I only get good vibes from his work. Okay maybe i get why you called him depressed. If some depressed anxious mess like myself is able to relate with his work, then he also prolly goes through the same sort of cripples. But I like to think and have good reason to believe that he has learnt ways to cope with those emotions and use them to fuel his creativity. To me that is inspiring. And I don't feel like one should call him depressed. You don't know that. Maybe he is not now but used to be. I hope that's how it is tho. Ehh idk it just sort of made me bit angry, anyways.
Mujtaba Omar Gee man, I didn’t mean for this to be taken so seriously but if it triggered something in you I am genuinely sorry(This isn’t supposed to be sarcastic and I don’t want for it to come across as such) I’m not claiming that he is depressed, it’s more of a, let’s say, exaggerated impression I get from his work, I didn’t intend for this to be taken so seriously, Although I wouldn’t be surprised if such brilliance came from a dark place
+1, it actually makes me feel not just chilled out, but motivated to do something with my hobbies as well, and both of those feelings are rare. Hell I didn't just generally increase the tempo at which I do current stuff, I also picked up an entirely new hobby!
As an artist who draws nothing but horrific creatures for the hell of it and draws tortured animals to express internal metaphorical struggles, I relate to this heavily. ^^^
Depressing turtle is the father, that I never got, and never deserved. These series cut deep, but in a good way. Thank you so much for creating these for all of us; your lost kids.
“One day you realize you’ve become yourself again, and you didn’t even notice it happening” Working through + recovering from severe depression & anxiety and this quote really stuck with me. Years of not being myself that I almost forgot who I am? Then it’s like suddenly I’m back, even though it took years to get to the place I’m at now (and probably many more to fully “get healthy)
Thank you for this. I was really afraid of expressing my emotions in my writing, because I felt it would feel weird and people would not care. You have convinced me otherwise. Hopefully I can write something great one day.
Hey there, this video was uploaded mere moments after i had finished self harming. And i cant say i did anything other than break down about halfway through watching this, your perspective and idea on hardship is so beautiful. Im trying to get better, i hope we all do. Cheers
we're all out here. i have many friends who managed to stop self harming and i wish you the very best. i know you can do it. may turtle boy enlighten us all. much love, fellow human, wherever you are
“If you think about it, all through our lives we are all different people, and that’s good. you should keep moving through your life, so long as you remember all the people you used to be” A good dr who quote, which says to me that you have to learn from your past experiences and grow your personality, but only if you persistently move onward.
Aw man, it really sucks to see so many people suffering these days, hell even I feel only pain nowadays, and I used to be an optimistic little shit just a few years ago. Blame it on growing up or something, but one can't say that the current society isn't getting harsher and harsher towards itself as the years pass. We have branched technology outwards in the last hundreds of years so fast, that we forgot to look inwards to expand our knowledge of ourselves. I honestly wish you the best, and I hope that whatever it is that makes self harm your best escape option is going to be short lived, and that you'll be able to fight the urges when it hits you. If you ever need to talk hit me up here, and we could move to some better platform for convenience. Good luck out there.
Hang in there, fellow internet stranger. It gets better. I know it's inconceivable right now, but life has more to offer. Just know that if you self-harm, you'll be making someone sad (and I'm one of those people) and while you can't just will yourself into feeling better, time will runs its course. You're strong, just be you.
I've been diagnosed with a pretty bad case of Tourette's Syndrome back in march. Since quarantine started and Im forced to live only with myself 90% of the time, it became harder to focus on any of my projects and dreams with this unceasing interruptions of my brain making me scream or twitch out of nowhere. This video helped. I think it will be good to try this bittersweet perspective instead of the bitter one I was getting used to. I adore your content. Hope you never lose motivation to do more of it. Cheers for making my day less meaningless.
Imagine if everyone who’s ever committed suited would just have sat down and listened to this just before they did it. I wonder statistically how many would have been saved. This series alone has probably helped thousands to get a better grasp of this despicable thing know simply as struggle. I love, and appreciate you T man and may your flower blossom forevermore.
It's this precise reason that I find _kintsugi_ such a wonderful art form - repairing broken pottery with gold. Existence habit of breaking us over time, but those breakages make us what we are. Our cracks are a written record of having done something in the first place, and if we're lucky, then we can come out the other side with veins of gold running through us as well. A wonderful episode of the podcast; from a very appreciative statue.
The best part of progress is that you only notice it when you look back at the past and see how far you've come already It always adds more reasons to keep going This guy is by far my favorite UA-camr and the only podcast host I listen to
when i watch a video after finishing and i find myself crying i know it is a good one... at least for me... when i rewatch it months ago and i still cry i'm proud of what i've done your videos are really special for me cause they make me cry as hard as those that grew on my own compost thank you so much for doing your thing and thank you for this series... it helps to not give up love
What's insane to me is how well you've managed to put these feelings into words. And the effect this has on me once i hear it. It's as if this door unlocked inside. And all the emotions, all the feelings, everything comes out. And this door was always there, and you knew it was there, but you could never open it. Until you hear it. You hear someone put into words what you've always felt. You are an extremely talented writer. Thank you.
I had the same experience that you described when I was in Erasmus in Manchester.. Too many chemicals the prior weeks and two Energy drinks gave me that good old "fake" heart attack. That was when I was 22 (six years ago). I was also very confused and out of my mind for months, but even if it is something I cannot take back, the experience has definetly added a lot of insight into what is important and how to interpret the world. I find it very conforting that people like you (with whom, pardon the arrogance, I feel are very much like-minded) talk about it with such honesty Edit: BTW, I even started my Own channel (not this one) in Spanish. Although I only uploaded one video, you were the one who inspired me. It definetly follows your style.
That was excellent. I just sat here and listened to all 6 of this series staring out my window, clinging onto every word. You are truly talented and the way you present ideas is ingenious. I hope you continue to make work like this in the future, it would really mean a lot
You can not imagine how much this episode means to me. I have exactly the same experience with panic attacks for quite some time now. aslo convinced that im just havbing a super strange diseas that noone beliefes me i have. And you talking about it makes it so much easyer for me to work on it., knowing that this is something others expreience as well. Thank you a lot, really!
Your series has finally given me the audacity to start planning the outline for a book. I've wanted to write a book ever since I was very small, and I'm finally going to try and get it done this time instead of getting buried and eventually bored in overly complex worldbuilding. Thank you for this, man. It really means a lot to me.
Yesterday I was reading a book, and for the first time in a long time, an idea jumped into my head that I was so passionate about, I had to put my book aside and pursue it immediately. Unlike my previous attempts at writing, during this process, the idea has grown and become so much more than I initially intended for it. For the first time, I am confident that I will finish this short story, and form it into a UA-cam video. Maybe, at some point time, you will stumble over it. Just know that without you it would never have existed in the first place.
I came back to this again after a few months after not listening it… decided to listen to it after i woke up at 4AM and i couldn’t go back to sleep cause of university exams that i will have in a few months. As you were wrapping up the 6th episode i could feel tears in my eyes and all i have to say is thank you… I haven’t had anything make me cry or get the symptoms of it? In years… just thank you
In a few years time, a wave of books is going to come out, with the dedicatory page saying: "Thank you to my family, friends, and exurb1a for this". Thank you thank you thank you exurb1a, you strange and wonderful soul.
Hello mr turtle, I would just like to say thank you for helping make the days a little easier, minute but minute, video by video, this is truly a debt that can never be repaid.
this video is 3 years old when im watching it. i developed a pretty severe case of generalized anxiety last year. there's hardly any way to be prepared for the anxiety dragons to take you. they keep you and hold you for a while...and they teach you things that maybe you never really cared to learn, but once you learn them, you're better from it. this video spoke to me in a way that few things have this past long while of being with the anxiety dragons. i appreciate and admire your content endlessly.
A seed starts in the dark, buried in dirt! Suffacating and weighed down. Yet it somehow appears above the surface and goes straight for the light. And once it reaches its peak, it creates art and expresses it's true self for all to see.
This one right here might be my favorite one so far! Love that we're discovering little bits about father's backstory with each new episode. It takes huge balls to share these personal struggles with such beautiful words, massive props to you 💫
I don’t know if you’ll read this. But I really want to thank you. I’ve been watching/listening to your videos for a long time. Honestly you got me through some pretty bad years in my life where bad stuff happened, so thank you for that. But also your videos have made me realize, over time, how to make myself happy. You’ve convinced me to take risks in my education, professional, and personal life and I couldn’t be happier. I left a shit job that I hated on the whim I’d land my dream job (which I did). I dropped out of school because I wasn’t listening to myself but my parents and I haven’t had a break down since getting my associates. And I moved away from the toxic people in my life and my family. I took a lot of risks, although calculated risks. But I don’t think I would have had the courage if I had not been watching your videos in the time before my life changed. I really want to thank you for changing my life indirectly, and for boosting my self esteem and courage. Thank you!
Just wanted to say I think your videos are fantastic and as a desperately confused wannabe writer this series has been so inspiring for me so thanks :)
I love these new podcasts I'm in the middle of a creative writing course so I can finally get some of my ideas down. I've learned more in 6 podcasts and gotten more confidence from these than the whole formal course so far. You are an amazing teacher. Thank you for sharing this, parents are amazing. When my first marriage fell apart I had a mental breakdown, felt like I was a failure as a wife, as a person and that everyone would see me as less than a real person 'what's so wrong with her that she can't keep a man?'. My dad drove hundreds of miles just to bring me home. I was lucky that I had so many friends and family to support me and they didn't judge. My fears were all in my head and I got better. If you ever find yourself back in the dark, send me a message, I'll do all that I can and come find you. Big love xxx
This playlist has become a solid support beam for me. Every times I forgot why I continue to draw for so long, I always comes back to this playlist to remind me of the reasons. :) thank you
Man, I felt every single word in this video, everything. From the panic attacks (and the denials that it must be some rare disease) to the feeling of having lost yourself, I felt everything, I even began to cry, not gonna lie. My only hope is to ascend from this weird pit of mental bleakness and transform all this fear and doubt into art, this wish lies deep down my chest. Thanks for being the light passing through the cracks right now, turtle. You never fail at giving me hope.
I just wanted to drop a quick thank you here. These videos really inspire me and everytime I'm in a "I really want to write, but I'm weird so I don't" mood I come here and watch one of them. After that, it's always like the mood was never there in the first place. So thanks for the work you put into these and all the other videos you make. You are a big inspiration and, judging by the other commets I've read, not just for me.
I don't listen to podcasts, but I listen to this one almost every day. I had to comment on this episode because I've had that experience of a breakdown in a movie theater surrounded by friends who didn't know what was going on inside my head, least of all me. It's bittersweet to hear of someone else who's been through something so similar - bitter to briefly relive it through someone else's memory, but sweet to know they made it out with time and help from others who really cared, the same way I did. Your anecdote validated my experience even further. I haven't had attacks in years either, but I do still draw from the darkness of the time to create light today. And I doubt you'll ever see this comment among the 500 others on this video, and I don't know you, but I wanted to tell you this and thank you. Listening to your voice is like listening to a friend. Ahh I have so much I want to say to you but this is embarrassing even to type lol okay, you're doing great, I hope you're happy more often than you're not, and have a lovely day!!
I've been depressed during this entire quarantine. 2 months ago I started a UA-cam channel and working on it has been the only thing keeping me sane. Your videos, especially this series, have been especially helpful. Cheers!
I’m so thankful I found these channels when I did, when I have lost the person closest to me; gods know I need a voice like yours. Thank you for everything
I know you've said this about other people but my god. I don't think I've ever seen someone get down human emotion so well and so accurately while not being a preachy dick about it, your honest and so right. I'm not a very creative person ( just not my thing ) but this episode helps me with much with being alive, not to mention all of your other content. best wishes.... and much love...
Thank you so much dude! I come to your channel for guidance or whenever I feel down and you never disappoint me. You're wisdom helps a lot of us and gives us hope and a reason for being a decent person in a crappy world. Hello from Mexico, and how are you today?
I swear whenever I finish one of these videos, I am just sat anticipating the next one, they're something so nice to listen to and give me actual hope and ambition to do shit.
I love your channel, I loved this series and I will buy your new book as soon as it comes out on paper. I don't think i can express just how much better you made my life. Thank you so much! Love from Bulgaria
My days are now better because of these podcast. I was in a bad place, I'm in a moment in my life in which I have to take some choices for my future and I'm very afraid. You're podcasts are making me believe more in myself and in my art, every word you say it's like it was meant to be heard by me, and that I think is what writing is about, to reach people's souls. So thank you for your amazing job.
Listening can save someone's life. A person who refuses to listen to someone who wants to be heard adds to a destructive force against that soul who has to learn that their growth is to say their Truth, no matter. Exurb2a, yeah I'm mostly regurgitating your ideas, but it's because I'm trying to internalize it all. Thank you for your fantastic work and this amazing series.
You're a lighthouse in the fog, a navigable start, a GPS signal in a dead zone. Thank you A.M. I shall now be reviewing all of my notes from the past 6 episodes! :D
There are people in the world that can teach us in the most important way, that teach us about aspects of life to learn from. These people are the ones who have scaled the mountains of self-doubt, plunged into the deepest canyons of depression and that have burnt their confidence to the ground, but are also the ones that keep moving through whatever situations that they are faced with, only to pass on these experiences to later generations. These are the true heroes of the world in my eyes.
Turtle Dude - thank you from the west side of the US. You really have pushed the buttons I need to step forward into as you've deemed it - a new life. I for one apologize for the experiences you had, but I'm glad you had parents there to help support you back onto your feet so you could metaphorically and physically run again. Thank you for sharing those steps with us. Like a book for dummies, you've given us the meat of the sandwich here (mmm turtle sandwich), and I think I know how to wade through this disheartening environment I currently live in. I may not suffer from anxiety anymore, panic attacks, etc, but I absolutely appreciate others who do. You're great.
Hey, I'm a track&field athlete and I've been struggling with an injury for the past 8 months, I was losing hope I would ever be able to compete again, but your videos have kept me above the water, especially this one along with the Making Stuff video, and you have convinced me to keep believing that I will eventually come back. Words cannot describe how thankful I am. Much love, Turtle guy.
hey i just wanted to join the "cheesy" group as well and say thank you very much for basically narrating my whole creative life, the point of realization that holy hell i can draw!! then going on a roll and not stopping for anything to get out as many creative thoughts as possible before burning myself out really hard and not hitting but ramming into a dense creative road block, then gathering up all that compost for the past few years and still am awhile trying to animate this crazy and wild dream i had since i was 10 i am pretty sure you already know this by now that just by speaking or talking about these events that happen to just about everyone and showing there not alone somehow inspires them to suddenly put back on there hard hat and get back to working on there own creative dream and just say "hell yeah if he can make it through his own shit so can i" so again, thank you
Thank you for creating these short videos. Since 4 years ago, I have been watching your videos and it helped me directly or non-directly going through the depression that I hadn't been able to make anyone understand. Back then I thought when I reach adulthood I would be able to comprehend everything, I would achieve great wisdom, I would be able to find meaning in these miseries I had to endure all these years, I would be just like you space turtle. But I was disappointed that nothing changed since then, the only difference is I am a little older now. But nevertheless, in these lonely quarantine times, your videos give me hope that someday I would be able to appreciate all of my misery.
Man. There is some magic about everything that you create. I am probably listening to the whole podcast for the 20th time. Ever since I found it, I don't go a whole week without listening to it. It just reminds me that I am not alone in the way I feel and think. I've dreamt my whole life of creating something that affects people as much as you affected me, and listening to you helps me put little hours here and there, writing something myself, hoping that maybe one day I will pour out part of my heart out there as well. Cheers
space turtle, you've made such a huge difference in how i see life today and tomorrow and the other tomorrows and clicking on upsilon dies backwards is one of the best decisions i have ever made. i hope all your dinners taste good. i hope your cat is healthy.
I have never experienced a panic attack and all of these descriptions i hear make me eternally thankful for that. Hopefully i never do, but life is stressful and appears to grow in worry over time. I shall try to turn that misery into compost when it comes.
Thanks for sharing your story, it's a really important message that we have to suffer in order to grow and learn. Many people are suffering now and learning to cope with it for the first time, so excellent timing. Like you, my first experience of extreme stress led me to believe I had a brain tumour - No sleep, constant migraines, retching every morning, couldn't keep food down. Couple of years later and my knowledge now makes me laugh at what I thought back then, and I'm genuinely grateful for the experience.
"There is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in." Damn.
Man, and I've been buying that shit on street for years. Wish I knew earlier...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA CLMFKAOAOAOAOAAOOAOAOAOAO
Kintsugi
Hey turtle man this podcast really makes me less miserable, you are doing a fantastic job here. Just wanted to let you know ok kisses byeee
Thank you, Pablo, that's very kind of you to say. Pip pip and cheerio old bean yes indeed
@@Exurb1a Well aren't you a sneaky one, showing up on the main account so that it doesn't yell at everyone that you yourself replied to the comment.
@@megan00b8 Sneaky indeed...
@@Exurb1a haha you highrn't aren't ya lol haha
Just want to say you’ve made such an impact on my life that I told my therapist about you when she asked if there was a particular reason I’m feeling better! I can’t thank you enough for your videos
Wish I had a therapist to tell that to in the first place but yeah, one British metaphysics boi cures my anxiety regularly. For about however long episodes of this series are.
Thank you, Alec. That means the world, it really does. (I hope this episode doesn't change your mind!)
@@exurb2a114 You help so many people, thank you
exurb2a you’ve done so much for me, Ex. Thank you. Idk if you read your emails, but I sent a note of appreciation to you and I would really appreciate you reading it. Much love, and thank you so much for everything you’ve done with this podcast
@@mateuszjokiel2813 Me too.
"oh Hiiiiiii, life is shit". Best intro ever. Nothing means anything, and we're all gonna die. Cheerio.
Hi Pete, we are the ones who give meaning to life and we're all gonna die just like we all lived. It's just the end of a life we were gifted by the universe. To parphrase Alan Watts, we have been told that life is a journey, but we've been lied to. We're not really trying to reach a destination. We're all going to die. Life is more of a dance. We're not aiming at a particular spot in the dance floor, or to finish the dance as soon as possible. The point of the dance is the dance itself. The point of life is living. Aim to make your living experience the best you can and if you're feeling ambitious make the living experience of the people around you great as well. Cheerio.
@@LoLeanderx as an introvert, the analogy of "life is like dancing" is deeply disturbing and makes me want to vomit. Anyway, thanks for your words. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
@@Pete_YT as an introvert as well the dancing term makes me uncomfortable I have danced in front of the entire school and messed up oof that day
btw alt account
Important add-on: Whatever grows from your misery compost does not have to be art. Personal growth , a broadened horizon, or a new appreciation for anything are also beautiful plants that deserve to grow!
Depressed turtle man is really giving us everything with this series and I’m here for it
Why do you say depressed
I only get good vibes from his work. Okay maybe i get why you called him depressed. If some depressed anxious mess like myself is able to relate with his work, then he also prolly goes through the same sort of cripples. But I like to think and have good reason to believe that he has learnt ways to cope with those emotions and use them to fuel his creativity. To me that is inspiring. And I don't feel like one should call him depressed. You don't know that. Maybe he is not now but used to be. I hope that's how it is tho.
Ehh idk it just sort of made me bit angry, anyways.
Mujtaba Omar Gee man, I didn’t mean for this to be taken so seriously but if it triggered something in you I am genuinely sorry(This isn’t supposed to be sarcastic and I don’t want for it to come across as such) I’m not claiming that he is depressed, it’s more of a, let’s say, exaggerated impression I get from his work, I didn’t intend for this to be taken so seriously, Although I wouldn’t be surprised if such brilliance came from a dark place
Super video
Exurb1(2)a should make another channel called Depressed Turtle Man
This podcast is my personal therapy.
Me too
You mean
Our personal therapy
@Yeabsera Woldetsadik 🤣🤣🤣
+1, it actually makes me feel not just chilled out, but motivated to do something with my hobbies as well, and both of those feelings are rare. Hell I didn't just generally increase the tempo at which I do current stuff, I also picked up an entirely new hobby!
You mean youtuber*
“There are some monsters you can only kill if you know their true name.” Bruuuuuuuhhhhh
The British depression turtle podcast gives emotional advice, nice.
Do we know he's British or just a guess?
@@l1mbo69 we know hes british
@@l1mbo69 he talks about tea and biscuits so pardon my predisposition I’m pretty sure he’s British
*"To the artists specifically, and god knows you go dark places..."*
As an artist who draws nothing but horrific creatures for the hell of it and draws tortured animals to express internal metaphorical struggles, I relate to this heavily. ^^^
@@candydoggo8926 holy shit
You did it - you pierced through the noise and spoke to me. Thank you for this
oh wassup hair jordan. hope you're havin an ok day today
Depressing turtle is the father, that I never got, and never deserved. These series cut deep, but in a good way.
Thank you so much for creating these for all of us; your lost kids.
i suggest you check out jordan peterson, he is a father figure to many who havent had the fortune of having a father, including me.
I'm a schizophrenic artist. these things happen. your mum sounds nice.
I hope you're doing good, mate.
@@samaelnoir thanks! things are going well. I hope the same is true for you.
@@unclassedmedia I've been getting by, kind stranger. Hopefully things get better. I wish you all the good things in life!
“One day you realize you’ve become yourself again, and you didn’t even notice it happening”
Working through + recovering from severe depression & anxiety and this quote really stuck with me. Years of not being myself that I almost forgot who I am? Then it’s like suddenly I’m back, even though it took years to get to the place I’m at now (and probably many more to fully “get healthy)
Thank you for this. I was really afraid of expressing my emotions in my writing, because I felt it would feel weird and people would not care.
You have convinced me otherwise. Hopefully I can write something great one day.
Well that is ever so nice to hear, and I can't wait to read it
@Muse's Slave same
Budhha: wakes up after days enlightened
"What the f-"
Hey there, this video was uploaded mere moments after i had finished self harming. And i cant say i did anything other than break down about halfway through watching this, your perspective and idea on hardship is so beautiful. Im trying to get better, i hope we all do. Cheers
we're all out here. i have many friends who managed to stop self harming and i wish you the very best. i know you can do it. may turtle boy enlighten us all.
much love, fellow human, wherever you are
“If you think about it, all through our lives we are all different people, and that’s good. you should keep moving through your life, so long as you remember all the people you used to be”
A good dr who quote, which says to me that you have to learn from your past experiences and grow your personality, but only if you persistently move onward.
Aw man, it really sucks to see so many people suffering these days, hell even I feel only pain nowadays, and I used to be an optimistic little shit just a few years ago. Blame it on growing up or something, but one can't say that the current society isn't getting harsher and harsher towards itself as the years pass. We have branched technology outwards in the last hundreds of years so fast, that we forgot to look inwards to expand our knowledge of ourselves. I honestly wish you the best, and I hope that whatever it is that makes self harm your best escape option is going to be short lived, and that you'll be able to fight the urges when it hits you. If you ever need to talk hit me up here, and we could move to some better platform for convenience. Good luck out there.
Hang in there, fellow internet stranger. It gets better. I know it's inconceivable right now, but life has more to offer. Just know that if you self-harm, you'll be making someone sad (and I'm one of those people) and while you can't just will yourself into feeling better, time will runs its course. You're strong, just be you.
Hope you feel better mate. This guy seems to be helping the other listeners, hopefully we'll benefit too x
Thank you.
Cheers, Linda!
I've been diagnosed with a pretty bad case of Tourette's Syndrome back in march. Since quarantine started and Im forced to live only with myself 90% of the time, it became harder to focus on any of my projects and dreams with this unceasing interruptions of my brain making me scream or twitch out of nowhere.
This video helped. I think it will be good to try this bittersweet perspective instead of the bitter one I was getting used to.
I adore your content. Hope you never lose motivation to do more of it. Cheers for making my day less meaningless.
Or: dropping everything and clicking on the notification faster than *should* be humanly possible - the podcast
goddammit thats so accurate
True true
Imagine if everyone who’s ever committed suited would just have sat down and listened to this just before they did it. I wonder statistically how many would have been saved. This series alone has probably helped thousands to get a better grasp of this despicable thing know simply as struggle. I love, and appreciate you T man and may your flower blossom forevermore.
your mother is a gem and so are you. thank you.
sometimes you forget how healing words can be, especially as an artist whos afraid of them.
It's this precise reason that I find _kintsugi_ such a wonderful art form - repairing broken pottery with gold. Existence habit of breaking us over time, but those breakages make us what we are. Our cracks are a written record of having done something in the first place, and if we're lucky, then we can come out the other side with veins of gold running through us as well. A wonderful episode of the podcast; from a very appreciative statue.
"once you have experienced chaos you learn how to mold it"
- me
The best part of progress is that you only notice it when you look back at the past and see how far you've come already
It always adds more reasons to keep going
This guy is by far my favorite UA-camr and the only podcast host I listen to
This video brought tears to my eyes.
when i watch a video after finishing and i find myself crying i know it is a good one... at least for me...
when i rewatch it months ago and i still cry i'm proud of what i've done
your videos are really special for me cause they make me cry as hard as those that grew on my own compost
thank you so much for doing your thing
and thank you for this series... it helps to not give up
love
I was reading his book and then the notification popped up. The universe never stops giving!
What's insane to me is how well you've managed to put these feelings into words. And the effect this has on me once i hear it. It's as if this door unlocked inside. And all the emotions, all the feelings, everything comes out. And this door was always there, and you knew it was there, but you could never open it. Until you hear it. You hear someone put into words what you've always felt.
You are an extremely talented writer. Thank you.
"There are some monsters you can only kill if you say their true name."
And trough you the universe says "I love you".
I had the same experience that you described when I was in Erasmus in Manchester.. Too many chemicals the prior weeks and two Energy drinks gave me that good old "fake" heart attack. That was when I was 22 (six years ago).
I was also very confused and out of my mind for months, but even if it is something I cannot take back, the experience has definetly added a lot of insight into what is important and how to interpret the world.
I find it very conforting that people like you (with whom, pardon the arrogance, I feel are very much like-minded) talk about it with such honesty
Edit: BTW, I even started my Own channel (not this one) in Spanish. Although I only uploaded one video, you were the one who inspired me. It definetly follows your style.
this episode made me tear up
Same? Help? Where are these tears coming from?
Exurb1a is the most beautiful artist I ever seen, lots a peace bro.
youre litterally one of the most wholesome, amazing people on this planet
You too
@@darksteiner631 you three
@@abdullahibrahimhassan7301 You four
@@darksteiner631 you five
@@Sir.Ena9001 you six
i dont know why the world is as it is, but i'm glad it gave me an exurb1a suggested all those years ago.
3 seconds in and I already agree.
He couldn't be more right
That was excellent. I just sat here and listened to all 6 of this series staring out my window, clinging onto every word. You are truly talented and the way you present ideas is ingenious. I hope you continue to make work like this in the future, it would really mean a lot
I've wanted to cry for months now and I cried while listening to this, so thank you
You can not imagine how much this episode means to me. I have exactly the same experience with panic attacks for quite some time now. aslo convinced that im just havbing a super strange diseas that noone beliefes me i have. And you talking about it makes it so much easyer for me to work on it., knowing that this is something others expreience as well. Thank you a lot, really!
Every moment you are still awake, there is hope.
Your series has finally given me the audacity to start planning the outline for a book. I've wanted to write a book ever since I was very small, and I'm finally going to try and get it done this time instead of getting buried and eventually bored in overly complex worldbuilding.
Thank you for this, man. It really means a lot to me.
Yesterday I was reading a book, and for the first time in a long time, an idea jumped into my head that I was so passionate about, I had to put my book aside and pursue it immediately. Unlike my previous attempts at writing, during this process, the idea has grown and become so much more than I initially intended for it. For the first time, I am confident that I will finish this short story, and form it into a UA-cam video.
Maybe, at some point time, you will stumble over it. Just know that without you it would never have existed in the first place.
Turtle man, we love you. Thank you for everything
JUST as I pen a short story I had in my head while miserable and couldn't sleep, this video turns up. Too right!
Oh hi!!!
Hewwo Ethan
exurb2a how are you?
@@ethanmundt Im doing fine
I came back to this again after a few months after not listening it… decided to listen to it after i woke up at 4AM and i couldn’t go back to sleep cause of university exams that i will have in a few months. As you were wrapping up the 6th episode i could feel tears in my eyes and all i have to say is thank you… I haven’t had anything make me cry or get the symptoms of it? In years… just thank you
4:35 , I started tearin up,, I’ve just watched all 6 of these in order and I really hope there’s more to come
In a few years time, a wave of books is going to come out, with the dedicatory page saying: "Thank you to my family, friends, and exurb1a for this". Thank you thank you thank you exurb1a, you strange and wonderful soul.
Hello mr turtle, I would just like to say thank you for helping make the days a little easier, minute but minute, video by video, this is truly a debt that can never be repaid.
This series is seriously amazing, I beg you, don't stop
Thank you turtle man, i just had my anxiety attack every night and when i listen to this it made me realize a lot and it helped me to recover
this video is 3 years old when im watching it. i developed a pretty severe case of generalized anxiety last year. there's hardly any way to be prepared for the anxiety dragons to take you. they keep you and hold you for a while...and they teach you things that maybe you never really cared to learn, but once you learn them, you're better from it. this video spoke to me in a way that few things have this past long while of being with the anxiety dragons. i appreciate and admire your content endlessly.
A seed starts in the dark, buried in dirt! Suffacating and weighed down. Yet it somehow appears above the surface and goes straight for the light. And once it reaches its peak, it creates art and expresses it's true self for all to see.
This one right here might be my favorite one so far! Love that we're discovering little bits about father's backstory with each new episode. It takes huge balls to share these personal struggles with such beautiful words, massive props to you 💫
I don’t know if you’ll read this. But I really want to thank you. I’ve been watching/listening to your videos for a long time. Honestly you got me through some pretty bad years in my life where bad stuff happened, so thank you for that. But also your videos have made me realize, over time, how to make myself happy. You’ve convinced me to take risks in my education, professional, and personal life and I couldn’t be happier. I left a shit job that I hated on the whim I’d land my dream job (which I did). I dropped out of school because I wasn’t listening to myself but my parents and I haven’t had a break down since getting my associates. And I moved away from the toxic people in my life and my family. I took a lot of risks, although calculated risks. But I don’t think I would have had the courage if I had not been watching your videos in the time before my life changed. I really want to thank you for changing my life indirectly, and for boosting my self esteem and courage. Thank you!
"I was even dumber than i was now"
Um....yea... "dumb".
Naturally he would think he's dumb given that he looks towards some of the smartest in history.
@nuno de castro The wise know that they don't know
@nuno de castro That depends on which humans, and it what ways.
@nuno de castro In physics and philosophy sure, but what about cooking and archery?
I mean ignorance and intelligence are different, right?
Just wanted to say I think your videos are fantastic and as a desperately confused wannabe writer this series has been so inspiring for me so thanks :)
The fact that you can put depression and anxiety into words is extraordinary
I love these new podcasts
I'm in the middle of a creative writing course so I can finally get some of my ideas down. I've learned more in 6 podcasts and gotten more confidence from these than the whole formal course so far. You are an amazing teacher.
Thank you for sharing this, parents are amazing. When my first marriage fell apart I had a mental breakdown, felt like I was a failure as a wife, as a person and that everyone would see me as less than a real person 'what's so wrong with her that she can't keep a man?'. My dad drove hundreds of miles just to bring me home. I was lucky that I had so many friends and family to support me and they didn't judge. My fears were all in my head and I got better.
If you ever find yourself back in the dark, send me a message, I'll do all that I can and come find you.
Big love xxx
This playlist has become a solid support beam for me. Every times I forgot why I continue to draw for so long, I always comes back to this playlist to remind me of the reasons. :) thank you
I never had panic attacks, I don’t believed I’m artistic in any way but I may have needed to hear that. Thanks for what you do
i can’t believe i’m paying for therapy when the depressed turtle man is putting this stuff out for free
keep in mind hes not a therapist tho, still fucking amazing person lmao
This podcast has changed my life. Thank you Exurb1a
Man, I felt every single word in this video, everything. From the panic attacks (and the denials that it must be some rare disease) to the feeling of having lost yourself, I felt everything, I even began to cry, not gonna lie. My only hope is to ascend from this weird pit of mental bleakness and transform all this fear and doubt into art, this wish lies deep down my chest. Thanks for being the light passing through the cracks right now, turtle. You never fail at giving me hope.
You seem genuine in your videos and i really like that. You tell stories and give advice and do so without sponsors or ads. Thank you
I love you existential turtle. thank you for comforting me, encouraging me and inspiring me
Everytime exurb1a upload i get a little bolder
I just wanted to drop a quick thank you here.
These videos really inspire me and everytime I'm in a "I really want to write, but I'm weird so I don't" mood I come here and watch one of them. After that, it's always like the mood was never there in the first place.
So thanks for the work you put into these and all the other videos you make. You are a big inspiration and, judging by the other commets I've read, not just for me.
I don't listen to podcasts, but I listen to this one almost every day. I had to comment on this episode because I've had that experience of a breakdown in a movie theater surrounded by friends who didn't know what was going on inside my head, least of all me. It's bittersweet to hear of someone else who's been through something so similar - bitter to briefly relive it through someone else's memory, but sweet to know they made it out with time and help from others who really cared, the same way I did. Your anecdote validated my experience even further. I haven't had attacks in years either, but I do still draw from the darkness of the time to create light today. And I doubt you'll ever see this comment among the 500 others on this video, and I don't know you, but I wanted to tell you this and thank you. Listening to your voice is like listening to a friend. Ahh I have so much I want to say to you but this is embarrassing even to type lol okay, you're doing great, I hope you're happy more often than you're not, and have a lovely day!!
I've been depressed during this entire quarantine. 2 months ago I started a UA-cam channel and working on it has been the only thing keeping me sane. Your videos, especially this series, have been especially helpful. Cheers!
I’m so thankful I found these channels when I did, when I have lost the person closest to me; gods know I need a voice like yours. Thank you for everything
I know you've said this about other people but my god. I don't think I've ever seen someone get down human emotion so well and so accurately while not being a preachy dick about it, your honest and so right. I'm not a very creative person ( just not my thing ) but this episode helps me with much with being alive, not to mention all of your other content.
best wishes.... and much love...
Thank you so much dude! I come to your channel for guidance or whenever I feel down and you never disappoint me. You're wisdom helps a lot of us and gives us hope and a reason for being a decent person in a crappy world. Hello from Mexico, and how are you today?
I just cried properly for the first time in years watching this. thank you for this series
Thank you turtle man.
Whenever I face hardship in life, I always try to think "How can I make a story out of this."
Hey, that's the way
I swear whenever I finish one of these videos, I am just sat anticipating the next one, they're something so nice to listen to and give me actual hope and ambition to do shit.
I love your channel, I loved this series and I will buy your new book as soon as it comes out on paper. I don't think i can express just how much better you made my life. Thank you so much! Love from Bulgaria
My days are now better because of these podcast. I was in a bad place, I'm in a moment in my life in which I have to take some choices for my future and I'm very afraid. You're podcasts are making me believe more in myself and in my art, every word you say it's like it was meant to be heard by me, and that I think is what writing is about, to reach people's souls. So thank you for your amazing job.
Listening can save someone's life. A person who refuses to listen to someone who wants to be heard adds to a destructive force against that soul who has to learn that their growth is to say their Truth, no matter. Exurb2a, yeah I'm mostly regurgitating your ideas, but it's because I'm trying to internalize it all. Thank you for your fantastic work and this amazing series.
You're a lighthouse in the fog, a navigable start, a GPS signal in a dead zone. Thank you A.M.
I shall now be reviewing all of my notes from the past 6 episodes! :D
I'm actually in love with these Catastrotivity videos
There are people in the world that can teach us in the most important way, that teach us about aspects of life to learn from. These people are the ones who have scaled the mountains of self-doubt, plunged into the deepest canyons of depression and that have burnt their confidence to the ground, but are also the ones that keep moving through whatever situations that they are faced with, only to pass on these experiences to later generations. These are the true heroes of the world in my eyes.
Turtle Dude - thank you from the west side of the US. You really have pushed the buttons I need to step forward into as you've deemed it - a new life. I for one apologize for the experiences you had, but I'm glad you had parents there to help support you back onto your feet so you could metaphorically and physically run again.
Thank you for sharing those steps with us. Like a book for dummies, you've given us the meat of the sandwich here (mmm turtle sandwich), and I think I know how to wade through this disheartening environment I currently live in.
I may not suffer from anxiety anymore, panic attacks, etc, but I absolutely appreciate others who do. You're great.
You have no idea how deep your creations touch me and make me feel much less alone .
"Oh hi! Life, is sh*t"
best intro ever
Hey, I'm a track&field athlete and I've been struggling with an injury for the past 8 months, I was losing hope I would ever be able to compete again, but your videos have kept me above the water, especially this one along with the Making Stuff video, and you have convinced me to keep believing that I will eventually come back. Words cannot describe how thankful I am. Much love, Turtle guy.
hey i just wanted to join the "cheesy" group as well and say thank you very much for basically narrating my whole creative life, the point of realization that holy hell i can draw!! then going on a roll and not stopping for anything to get out as many creative thoughts as possible before burning myself out really hard and not hitting but ramming into a dense creative road block, then gathering up all that compost for the past few years and still am awhile trying to animate this crazy and wild dream i had since i was 10
i am pretty sure you already know this by now that just by speaking or talking about these events that happen to just about everyone and showing there not alone somehow inspires them to suddenly put back on there hard hat and get back to working on there own creative dream and just say
"hell yeah if he can make it through his own shit so can i"
so again, thank you
A single video/audio just saved me today.
Thank you so much for continuing this podcast, I’m so happy to listen to it with every episode. You’re the best, Ex. Thank you.
Just wanted you to know that I will listen to this series often over and over again.
I listen to this while walking my dog. It's good shit
Thank you for creating these short videos. Since 4 years ago, I have been watching your videos and it helped me directly or non-directly going through the depression that I hadn't been able to make anyone understand. Back then I thought when I reach adulthood I would be able to comprehend everything, I would achieve great wisdom, I would be able to find meaning in these miseries I had to endure all these years, I would be just like you space turtle. But I was disappointed that nothing changed since then, the only difference is I am a little older now. But nevertheless, in these lonely quarantine times, your videos give me hope that someday I would be able to appreciate all of my misery.
Man. There is some magic about everything that you create. I am probably listening to the whole podcast for the 20th time. Ever since I found it, I don't go a whole week without listening to it. It just reminds me that I am not alone in the way I feel and think. I've dreamt my whole life of creating something that affects people as much as you affected me, and listening to you helps me put little hours here and there, writing something myself, hoping that maybe one day I will pour out part of my heart out there as well. Cheers
space turtle, you've made such a huge difference in how i see life today and tomorrow and the other tomorrows and clicking on upsilon dies backwards is one of the best decisions i have ever made. i hope all your dinners taste good. i hope your cat is healthy.
I’d never expect to bawl my eyes out in this video. This time I felt warmth while crying. Felt good afterwards.
I have never experienced a panic attack and all of these descriptions i hear make me eternally thankful for that. Hopefully i never do, but life is stressful and appears to grow in worry over time. I shall try to turn that misery into compost when it comes.
I've decided to become an animator and follow my passion because of your vids...Thank you 🌸🌸🌸
Thanks for sharing your story, it's a really important message that we have to suffer in order to grow and learn. Many people are suffering now and learning to cope with it for the first time, so excellent timing. Like you, my first experience of extreme stress led me to believe I had a brain tumour - No sleep, constant migraines, retching every morning, couldn't keep food down. Couple of years later and my knowledge now makes me laugh at what I thought back then, and I'm genuinely grateful for the experience.