They say "the best dissertation is the done dissertation." This is hard to follow, however at the end of the day we just want to get done with the dissertation no matter how much we loved the topic and felt passionate and enthusiastic about that in the beginning. It all comes down to completion it may take 3, 4, or more years, all onto us. While seeking perfection, we burden ourselves, and that pressure burns us and kills our motivation to do work. Delayed submission is also prone to lose novelty. Therefore, we better get it done asap. If we just focus on completion, things become easier. Interestingly, we'll never submit bad work as we would definitely have a perfect draft before submission. This is what I have learnt during my journey. ❤❤❤
You have no idea how your honesty and transparency with us through this tumultuous personal journey brings so much therapy. I am currently nothing and everything at the same time. That's how best I can describe my situation. Thank you, from Accra-Ghana.
Hearing you talk about your anxiety was actually really reassuring. I have similar struggles and I was really reminded of myself when watching you. It's nice to know that other people have similar struggles and that I'm not alone in that
As a non-traditional doctoral student, I truly appreciate your videos. Also your dog is so adorable. Sometimes I feel like I don't know how I am going to complete my dissertation while working full time in a leadership role with 100+ direct reports. Thank you for sharing the struggles and wins, it makes me feel less alone in the process.
Thank you for this video. I just started my MA and I'm already getting a bit overwhelmed by everything, so it was honestly very affirming to hear someone in academia who was struggling and then to hear it work out was so lovely. I can't imagine it's easy to be so vulnerable online, but it's truly appreciated!
I totally understand what you are going through. Take your time. Decisions are a mix of intuition and rational thinking. They must be in order to be true to ourselves. Keep going and stay strong 💪
Nice work being honest Kaelyn, and thank you. I’ve been following your content for about a year now - I’m a licensed therapist turned historian-in-training of medicine making my way back into academia (almost done my MSc and currently applying for PhDs!!). Anxiety is the absolute worst - know you’re absolutely not alone (hello sleepless nights over here!) and from what you’re describing, you seem to be managing the challenges of anxiety really well. Thanks for sharing!
identity as a multipassionate person is so in conflict with how social media & strategy wants to identify us. It’s such a frustrating experience and I really feel what you’re saying
All the best, Kaelyn. Keep going on and finish your PhD. I started watching your videos two years ago and you really motivated me in my doctoral work, too. Cannot wait to hear you announce the completion of your PhD with distinction. ✌💪🌷
Thank you so much for your vulnerability. You being honest about the process is so important! Many of us don't see this and suffer in silence. I am now working full time (that job market is ROUGH) and pushing to finish my dissertation this fall semester. I made the decision to delay my dissertation in July and as expensive and heart-breaking as it was, it was the best decision. I am finding that I'm building an identity outside of academia in my new career and that my dissertation is NOT indicative of my value/worth as a person. Yes, I want a good dissertation, but I also just want to move on to bigger and better things. Wishing you all the best. Do what is right for you! And thank you for your contributions to your UA-cam community.
You've got this, both with the dissertation and with your content creation. People are dynamic. We change over time, and so do our interests and identity. I've started going back to school in my 30's to get a bachelor's and then a master's. My life has pivoted drastically over the years from getting an associates degree for veterinary technology and working in that field for a few years, moving and being unable to get a job as a vet tech somewhere else without having certification forcing me into different work which ended up being a job as a legal assistant that I really enjoyed for the last decade, and now recently switching again to going back to school for botany/microbiology/toxicology with hopes of working in toxicology and public health. I haven't decided if I'm going to aim for a PhD or not, but videos like yours are incredibly helpful so I know what to expect if I do go down that path. I 1000% understand how therapeutic vlogging about major life changes and struggles can be. I've done it before. It's amazing how something as simple as talking to a camera and uploading the vlog can help you be able to take a step toward healing and moving forward. Do that as much as you need to. If it helps you, it's worth it. And it also helps us as well, if any of us happen to be in a similar circumstance. AND I've also dealt with pivoting the subject matter of my content. It's scary for sure, but making content you enjoy making and want to make is better than forcing yourself into a small box of content. If you want your channel to be more varied, then do it! Yes, you might lose some viewers who aren't interested in the other subject matters you post about, but you might gain new viewers with it and it will even out. Personally, as helpful as the PhD vlogs are, I would also absolutely tune in to watch videos about the horses or whatever else you want to post about. Ultimately, go with the flow in the directions life takes you, and just do whatever feels right and makes you happy.
Making a decision is really hard… I was pushed into this early this year when my primary and secondary supervisors decided to go to a different university and I felt so lost… not knowing whether to go or stay. I decided to stay. This meant I had to scratch off all my progress from my previous research after a year into the program… and start anew with a different supervisor. I followed my gut. I’m more relieved.
so excited to see this video posted today. thank you for showing the discomforts and vulnerabilities that come with a phd. your presence here is appreciated 🤍
Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. I can sense you being sad and unsure. I hope you will be really kind to yourself. Have patience. You will find joy again. ❤
Kaelyn, I truly am in awe of your courage to preserve in life and to share all that you do on your channel. I’m happy to be one of your many followers and supporters! 😊❤
At the symposium I said I'd been watching back through your content and the thing that comes through always is that you love having multiple jobs and multiple passions - if anyone watching thought you are about only one thing then they haven't really been listening! I hope the response to the last video has helped show that people appreciate seeing the tough side, and in Accepted you've created a place for fellow jugglers who are doing their best to make it all work. Sending hugs and support, see you soon! x
I am in the final stages of my dissertation and anticipating its completion by the end of the fall quarter. I don't know what my "next" will be after this journey is over but I am trusting in the process and choosing to take it one day at a time. Tfs and continued success with your endeavors!
I have felt unsettled in my PhD simply because I am so ready to be done and get on with my life now that I know what career I want to pursue when I’m done. So I feel similarly and yet very diffident to the way you do. Wishing you the best
If there's one thing that I always take away from your videos (which really helps me) is that following your gut and your instincts is so crucial - it rarely ever results in regret even if it might seem like it doesnt make sense in the moment - but it does, in the long term. so just please go ahead and make all and any kind of videos that just come to you intuitively - the rest will follow. Lots of love
Awww amazing 👏 so pleased you are continuing and yes you need to get the balance right and look after yourself! Agree make the content you want to as its helping! Yiu have helped so many! X❤
@KaelynGraceApple yes! Feel I have a community who will support in terms of just understanding and being there as I start my professional Doctorate In Nursing!
I feel the exact same way, I’m a 9-5er in marketing, graduated with a BA in history, wanting to pursue a MA in PR/Strategic Comms in the UK, an adult ammy equestrian (but on a break), run a publication and podcast about the royals, all while living with my parents in a small town on the east coast. I don’t know what to call myself. Writer-Marketer-History Buff-Royal Commentator-Ammy Equestrian-Soon to be grad student? I enjoy having multiple passions, but this world is very pro-one way lane, surrounding yourself with similar people is key.
I think you are talking about embodiment when you say you need to vlog to process your emotions. Sarah Fischer will love to hear you describing this process, she is writing her dissertation on the topic. Kaelyn, I'm sorry to see you've come so far and have to face this struggle. I understand 100%. I am writing my thesis and I am feeling a lot of resentment towards pursuing a PhD as well. It's not an easy feeling.
Thank you for talking about hard things. I'm now thinking of the things I want to do and what it will take to do them. That being said, I can see Factorio on London Boy's computer and all I want to do is let the factory grow.
Good luck to you on this revitalized journey!!! 🥳 Now over here... I've been "sitting in"/"with" these emotions for over 1 year & I am SICKOFEMMM 😤👎🏽 I thought I've done all the things _(including grieving, intense therapy, meds),_ yet I still feel similarly. 😮💨
That was a big decision - it will take time to bounce back from it. It sounds, too, like you just needed a bit of a break. Working 5 straight years on a project can be draining - need to refill your well! I'm glad you can escape to the country and spend some time with the horses. You make me want to move to the UK! (So, anytime you need filler videos, I'm all-for "life in the UK" style - I'd love to see what's different from the US and if there is anything you miss from home.) Good luck!
Maybe instead of saying "I am ...", you can say something like "I make ... related content". Perhaps that helps with continuing to make content that is maybe less clearly defined.
Hi Kaelyn! I've been following your content for a while now and never commented but I just have to in this video. I admire you. So much. I'm a first generation university student from Brazil (International Relations) and my dream is to do my postgraduate degrees at Oxford (with a scholarship, because without it I wouldn't be able to). Currently, I am at the end of my undergraduate degree, going through the motions of writing my thesis. Seeing you overcome so many challenges has been very inspiring, because you make me believe that it's possible. Not only to go there and study and keep going, but also because you are not only one thing. I love research, but still am not sure if it's the (only) end path for me. I just wanted to say that when you are having a hard time thinking about how you should do the intro, just remember that you are not what you do. You offer to this community so much more than showing the things that you do, but by showing who you are, you give us something precious. And you are all those things you do, but also more. I love to see the life and the struggles and celebrations of who you are besides all the routine and activities you do. Just wanted to come here and give you a little kindness and love. You've got this!! 💗
Just my two pennies..... how about Hi I'm Kaelyn..... pretty simple and then you can more easily flow between those multifaceted part of you and you life 😀😀 also so happy for you that you were able to find a solution for your PHD, and find a way to keep moving forward. its a nice reminder that there is always a way.... also an inspiration for me to keep on with my studies. Thank you.!!!!!
yknow how it's so trendy when you're in the social sciences to be like "hi im so and so and my research is at the intersection of gender and politics" (or whatever x and y). But the operative word is "intersection." it's all the rage doncha know :P You could be like, "hi I'm Kaelyn and my content exists at the intersection of academia and entrepreneurship, as I'm a 5th year... while working full-time as a ... at productivity lab". Wherever you end up, I'll keep watching! it just encourages me to see people striving while i'm trying to be all strive-y.
@@KaelynGraceApple This! Your life is full of many different versions of you, different careers, different interests, and honestly, they all feel like this as you're about to make a shift. You don't get your sh** together. You change as you find what works for you in that phase or season.
A doctorate is much harder than the general public might believe; it's complex, tedious, psychologically taxing and that's partially why merely 2% of Americans ever obtain these. Not sure about other countries, but keep your head up and your S.O.C.K. will be great, I'm sure because your subject matter helps pull the knowledge for the under represented demographic you're helping.... you're so close 🎉😊
I think you are right when you are discussing taglines. A label doesn't do any justice to who you are and what you do on the channel. Because your videos are more "slice-of-life" or can be summarized as "documentary." They are not so much a "productivity guru-esque playbook" I agree that experimentation is better than already defining a niche from in the beginning. The latter would stifle your creativity. I think the thread of all videos is just you in the end and these videos showcase how you deal with different various aspects of life (friends, writing, burn-out, the books you're reading, Moo, difficult decisions, Moving to London, Moo, your symposium, your documentary essay, etc.). It's like reading how a story unfolds. Yes, the different aspects that you choose to showcase in your videos don't categorize your videos, but they are enriching! These are my two cents here.
They say "the best dissertation is the done dissertation." This is hard to follow, however at the end of the day we just want to get done with the dissertation no matter how much we loved the topic and felt passionate and enthusiastic about that in the beginning. It all comes down to completion it may take 3, 4, or more years, all onto us. While seeking perfection, we burden ourselves, and that pressure burns us and kills our motivation to do work. Delayed submission is also prone to lose novelty. Therefore, we better get it done asap. If we just focus on completion, things become easier. Interestingly, we'll never submit bad work as we would definitely have a perfect draft before submission. This is what I have learnt during my journey. ❤❤❤
Thank you for your wisdom
Best comment.
most helpful comment I‘ve ever seen ❤️ So relatable!!
Thank you for sharing this. I need to read this. I am honestly printing this out and pinning it in front of my desk for a reminder. Thanks ❤
You have no idea how your honesty and transparency with us through this tumultuous personal journey brings so much therapy. I am currently nothing and everything at the same time. That's how best I can describe my situation. Thank you, from Accra-Ghana.
Thank you so much friend
Hearing you talk about your anxiety was actually really reassuring. I have similar struggles and I was really reminded of myself when watching you. It's nice to know that other people have similar struggles and that I'm not alone in that
You’re never alone friend ♥️ right here with you
As a non-traditional doctoral student, I truly appreciate your videos. Also your dog is so adorable. Sometimes I feel like I don't know how I am going to complete my dissertation while working full time in a leadership role with 100+ direct reports. Thank you for sharing the struggles and wins, it makes me feel less alone in the process.
Thank you for being here friend
Thank you for this video. I just started my MA and I'm already getting a bit overwhelmed by everything, so it was honestly very affirming to hear someone in academia who was struggling and then to hear it work out was so lovely. I can't imagine it's easy to be so vulnerable online, but it's truly appreciated!
I totally understand what you are going through. Take your time. Decisions are a mix of intuition and rational thinking. They must be in order to be true to ourselves. Keep going and stay strong 💪
Thank you friend
Nice work being honest Kaelyn, and thank you. I’ve been following your content for about a year now - I’m a licensed therapist turned historian-in-training of medicine making my way back into academia (almost done my MSc and currently applying for PhDs!!). Anxiety is the absolute worst - know you’re absolutely not alone (hello sleepless nights over here!) and from what you’re describing, you seem to be managing the challenges of anxiety really well. Thanks for sharing!
Thank you so much for your encouragement
identity as a multipassionate person is so in conflict with how social media & strategy wants to identify us. It’s such a frustrating experience and I really feel what you’re saying
Thank you friend ♥️ I had a feeling you would relate. I’m just saying screw it and posting what feels good and well just see how that goes
this transparency!! you have no idea how many people this helps, proud of you 💛
Means a lot coming from you
All the best, Kaelyn. Keep going on and finish your PhD. I started watching your videos two years ago and you really motivated me in my doctoral work, too. Cannot wait to hear you announce the completion of your PhD with distinction. ✌💪🌷
Yes! How you are juggling entrepreneurial/ startup and doctoral program. No one else is sharing this! I’ve looked!
I understand this! This is a stressful time, but you got this! The end is near and your time is your time.
Thank you so much for your vulnerability. You being honest about the process is so important! Many of us don't see this and suffer in silence. I am now working full time (that job market is ROUGH) and pushing to finish my dissertation this fall semester. I made the decision to delay my dissertation in July and as expensive and heart-breaking as it was, it was the best decision. I am finding that I'm building an identity outside of academia in my new career and that my dissertation is NOT indicative of my value/worth as a person. Yes, I want a good dissertation, but I also just want to move on to bigger and better things. Wishing you all the best. Do what is right for you! And thank you for your contributions to your UA-cam community.
Thank you so so much for this comment and for also sharing your experience
You've got this, both with the dissertation and with your content creation. People are dynamic. We change over time, and so do our interests and identity.
I've started going back to school in my 30's to get a bachelor's and then a master's. My life has pivoted drastically over the years from getting an associates degree for veterinary technology and working in that field for a few years, moving and being unable to get a job as a vet tech somewhere else without having certification forcing me into different work which ended up being a job as a legal assistant that I really enjoyed for the last decade, and now recently switching again to going back to school for botany/microbiology/toxicology with hopes of working in toxicology and public health. I haven't decided if I'm going to aim for a PhD or not, but videos like yours are incredibly helpful so I know what to expect if I do go down that path.
I 1000% understand how therapeutic vlogging about major life changes and struggles can be. I've done it before. It's amazing how something as simple as talking to a camera and uploading the vlog can help you be able to take a step toward healing and moving forward. Do that as much as you need to. If it helps you, it's worth it. And it also helps us as well, if any of us happen to be in a similar circumstance.
AND I've also dealt with pivoting the subject matter of my content. It's scary for sure, but making content you enjoy making and want to make is better than forcing yourself into a small box of content. If you want your channel to be more varied, then do it! Yes, you might lose some viewers who aren't interested in the other subject matters you post about, but you might gain new viewers with it and it will even out. Personally, as helpful as the PhD vlogs are, I would also absolutely tune in to watch videos about the horses or whatever else you want to post about.
Ultimately, go with the flow in the directions life takes you, and just do whatever feels right and makes you happy.
Making a decision is really hard… I was pushed into this early this year when my primary and secondary supervisors decided to go to a different university and I felt so lost… not knowing whether to go or stay. I decided to stay. This meant I had to scratch off all my progress from my previous research after a year into the program… and start anew with a different supervisor. I followed my gut. I’m more relieved.
so excited to see this video posted today. thank you for showing the discomforts and vulnerabilities that come with a phd. your presence here is appreciated 🤍
Thank you so much friend
Thank you for sharing the raw and real. We’re here for you.❤
Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. I can sense you being sad and unsure. I hope you will be really kind to yourself. Have patience. You will find joy again. ❤
Thank you friend ♥️♥️♥️
Kaelyn, I truly am in awe of your courage to preserve in life and to share all that you do on your channel. I’m happy to be one of your many followers and supporters! 😊❤
Thank you so much friend ♥️♥️♥️
Thanks for this! Sending love, light, and peace your way.
Thankfully I'm a mediocre historian and won't have to deal with this, but you're an inspiration, keep going!
@@KaelynGraceApple oh, that's nice of you, thanks
At the symposium I said I'd been watching back through your content and the thing that comes through always is that you love having multiple jobs and multiple passions - if anyone watching thought you are about only one thing then they haven't really been listening! I hope the response to the last video has helped show that people appreciate seeing the tough side, and in Accepted you've created a place for fellow jugglers who are doing their best to make it all work. Sending hugs and support, see you soon! x
This means the world
I am in the final stages of my dissertation and anticipating its completion by the end of the fall quarter. I don't know what my "next" will be after this journey is over but I am trusting in the process and choosing to take it one day at a time. Tfs and continued success with your endeavors!
Wishing you the best of luck with the completion of the dissertation ♥️♥️ and I hope the next chapter of life is a beautiful one
I have felt unsettled in my PhD simply because I am so ready to be done and get on with my life now that I know what career I want to pursue when I’m done. So I feel similarly and yet very diffident to the way you do. Wishing you the best
If there's one thing that I always take away from your videos (which really helps me) is that following your gut and your instincts is so crucial - it rarely ever results in regret even if it might seem like it doesnt make sense in the moment - but it does, in the long term. so just please go ahead and make all and any kind of videos that just come to you intuitively - the rest will follow. Lots of love
@@leanne36720 🥺 seeing this made my day. I’m so glad my videos have brought such kind and thoughtful people into my life, like you ♥️
@@KaelynGraceApple Awww - i feel the same way about you and I genuinely relate to you. Also, you inspire in so many ways
Awww amazing 👏 so pleased you are continuing and yes you need to get the balance right and look after yourself! Agree make the content you want to as its helping! Yiu have helped so many! X❤
@KaelynGraceApple yes! Feel I have a community who will support in terms of just understanding and being there as I start my professional Doctorate In Nursing!
@@NurseJanice ♥️♥️♥️
I feel the exact same way, I’m a 9-5er in marketing, graduated with a BA in history, wanting to pursue a MA in PR/Strategic Comms in the UK, an adult ammy equestrian (but on a break), run a publication and podcast about the royals, all while living with my parents in a small town on the east coast. I don’t know what to call myself. Writer-Marketer-History Buff-Royal Commentator-Ammy Equestrian-Soon to be grad student? I enjoy having multiple passions, but this world is very pro-one way lane, surrounding yourself with similar people is key.
Kaelyn, You are truly amazing and I know you will finish your dissertation. I am a mature person but I love watching your vlogs!
I am so so glad you enjoy my videos
0:41 these shots 😍
I think you are talking about embodiment when you say you need to vlog to process your emotions. Sarah Fischer will love to hear you describing this process, she is writing her dissertation on the topic. Kaelyn, I'm sorry to see you've come so far and have to face this struggle. I understand 100%. I am writing my thesis and I am feeling a lot of resentment towards pursuing a PhD as well. It's not an easy feeling.
I absolutely love @Sarah's content and have talked to her about this a lot
I think your tag line should be “I am just a girl who wants to do it all” 😊
Thank you for talking about hard things. I'm now thinking of the things I want to do and what it will take to do them.
That being said, I can see Factorio on London Boy's computer and all I want to do is let the factory grow.
Good luck to you on this revitalized journey!!! 🥳
Now over here... I've been "sitting in"/"with" these emotions for over 1 year & I am SICKOFEMMM 😤👎🏽 I thought I've done all the things _(including grieving, intense therapy, meds),_ yet I still feel similarly. 😮💨
I am so sorry to head you are struggling friend
That was a big decision - it will take time to bounce back from it. It sounds, too, like you just needed a bit of a break. Working 5 straight years on a project can be draining - need to refill your well! I'm glad you can escape to the country and spend some time with the horses. You make me want to move to the UK! (So, anytime you need filler videos, I'm all-for "life in the UK" style - I'd love to see what's different from the US and if there is anything you miss from home.) Good luck!
I love that content concept
I clicked this video as fast as I could
I hope you enjoyed it
Wahoooo! 1 day at a time ❤
Maybe instead of saying "I am ...", you can say something like "I make ... related content". Perhaps that helps with continuing to make content that is maybe less clearly defined.
I really like this idea ♥️
Hi Kaelyn! I've been following your content for a while now and never commented but I just have to in this video.
I admire you. So much.
I'm a first generation university student from Brazil (International Relations) and my dream is to do my postgraduate degrees at Oxford (with a scholarship, because without it I wouldn't be able to). Currently, I am at the end of my undergraduate degree, going through the motions of writing my thesis.
Seeing you overcome so many challenges has been very inspiring, because you make me believe that it's possible. Not only to go there and study and keep going, but also because you are not only one thing. I love research, but still am not sure if it's the (only) end path for me. I just wanted to say that when you are having a hard time thinking about how you should do the intro, just remember that you are not what you do. You offer to this community so much more than showing the things that you do, but by showing who you are, you give us something precious. And you are all those things you do, but also more. I love to see the life and the struggles and celebrations of who you are besides all the routine and activities you do.
Just wanted to come here and give you a little kindness and love. You've got this!! 💗
Just my two pennies..... how about Hi I'm Kaelyn..... pretty simple and then you can more easily flow between those multifaceted part of you and you life 😀😀 also so happy for you that you were able to find a solution for your PHD, and find a way to keep moving forward. its a nice reminder that there is always a way.... also an inspiration for me to keep on with my studies. Thank you.!!!!!
I like that idea
Amazing 😊 work you’re doing 😊
Thank you friend
Maybe you're just Kaelyn and like sharing your love of history, reading and horses as well as the struggles of PhD here.
@@mufflekin I think that is just right ♥️
The Redhead Polymath!
yknow how it's so trendy when you're in the social sciences to be like "hi im so and so and my research is at the intersection of gender and politics" (or whatever x and y). But the operative word is "intersection." it's all the rage doncha know :P You could be like, "hi I'm Kaelyn and my content exists at the intersection of academia and entrepreneurship, as I'm a 5th year... while working full-time as a ... at productivity lab". Wherever you end up, I'll keep watching! it just encourages me to see people striving while i'm trying to be all strive-y.
I LOVE this idea 🥰🥰
No one watching has their sh*** all figured out, we don‘t expect it from you and neither should you!
Thank you friend ♥️
@@KaelynGraceApple This! Your life is full of many different versions of you, different careers, different interests, and honestly, they all feel like this as you're about to make a shift. You don't get your sh** together. You change as you find what works for you in that phase or season.
A doctorate is much harder than the general public might believe; it's complex, tedious, psychologically taxing and that's partially why merely 2% of Americans ever obtain these. Not sure about other countries, but keep your head up and your S.O.C.K. will be great, I'm sure because your subject matter helps pull the knowledge for the under represented demographic you're helping.... you're so close 🎉😊
I think you are right when you are discussing taglines. A label doesn't do any justice to who you are and what you do on the channel. Because your videos are more "slice-of-life" or can be summarized as "documentary." They are not so much a "productivity guru-esque playbook" I agree that experimentation is better than already defining a niche from in the beginning. The latter would stifle your creativity. I think the thread of all videos is just you in the end and these videos showcase how you deal with different various aspects of life (friends, writing, burn-out, the books you're reading, Moo, difficult decisions, Moving to London, Moo, your symposium, your documentary essay, etc.). It's like reading how a story unfolds. Yes, the different aspects that you choose to showcase in your videos don't categorize your videos, but they are enriching! These are my two cents here.
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My pleasure, when I feel low, your videos keep me going. ❤❤❤
@@mahvishmuzaffar1005 That is the greatest compliment 🥺Im glad my videos offer that comfort for you
That's why I wanted to let you know that please keep going and recording your journey. You're a motivation for so many of us. ❤❤❤❤❤
@@KaelynGraceApple Yes, thank you for that, friend. ❤