Hi all, thank you for the kind comments. This section is a safe space for people to express their feelings. I am going to kindly ask not to diagnose people in the video with other conditions please :)
Why not? Are you against free speech? People can express their opinions. It's not going to do any harm. No one is taking it as a serious diagnosis. Don't be a comment Nazi.
When this started happening to me I was hopeless I didn’t know what was going on and I felt like it would never end. Looking back I wish there was more mental health resources so that I wouldn’t have been as lost as I was. Psychosis is no joke and I recommend anyone who doesn’t know about it to research and learn about it.
100% I feel most of us who have suffered from Psychosis have similar feelings on the subject. A much better general knowledge of the condition (even from some GPs) would be extremely helpful.
I had psychosis and still do to a degree but for me it was more delusions rather than hallucinations. My perception of reality was more grounded around feelings or my empathic energy readings of other people. Weather it was actually the energy of others I was perceiving or my own projections onthers is still fuzzy to me but I’ve learned that self awareness is the greatest asset to combating mental illness such as psychosis. While outside psychiatric help can be beneficial ultimately you have the power to understand your own mind better than anyone else. Meditation and introspection has helped me a great deal in controlling my perception of the world around me.
Self awareness is key for me. I am quick to identify the beginning of paranoia. I somehow am able redirect my thinking. Cognitive Behavior Therapy may have helped me. (ie challenge thought) Take care everyone.
Wow man. I had the same thing because of weed in 2017 and I'm getting better. I regret it deeply but it happened, God is helping me along my journey. Not everyday is going to be perfect but be greatful that you're alive. Everyone who is going through this you will be alright. God bless you all❤
I had an episode longer than a year, im turning to Real life, have a job, taking medication for 2 3 months and its Like nothing out there for me, i have a job but i cant afford so many things, cant rent a home, move my own place, i cant afford a chinese motorcycle, i mean i have to work for that at least a year while not spending any, idk, that was a crazy year, yes, i had so many bad, sometimes really awful Times in it, but it was still more colorful than this, im working eleven hours in a day, but still i cant be financially independent under these circumtances, and its also concludes that i have no social life, i mean friends and activities, i started working so lately, im 24, idk what to do in the country im living in where everything going worse and worse day by day for especially people Like me, im living in Turkey, im sorry but when i saw "no fun" i couldnt hold myself even though during that year i had so many and really really embrassing Times there was a bit fun, embrassing things about it doesnt concern me much because i have no life, i cant even make my mom happy, thats the way i feel
I felt the same for quite a few years. I made this channel fully with the intention of letting people know they're not alone. I hope you found this helpful :)
Psychotic Movie Database thank u so much. Ur a life saver. I feel like my life has had a huge weight lifted off it. Ur so amazing and thank u so much. I’m gonna continue to watch this channel to help me. This is just better than CAHMS.😘💖
@@elizabethg2428 I found through peer support other peoples experiences made me feel safer and I hope I can do the same for you and anyone else who views my content. Please be aware I would never call myself a medical expert so don't take my word as fact. Hopefully as you said hearing other people talk about their issues can provide a sense of calmness :)
Psychotic Movie Database do u sometimes feel like u need to kill yourself in order to help heaven in case hell is gonna try and take over? This is my most common one.
@@elizabethg2428 Hi the things we see and think can be quite unique. Mine was a belief the world around me simply wasn't real and that I was actually in a coma. As you've probably seen in the film your ideas seem similar to what Erin felt. What I can tell you is it can all feel very overwhelming and hellish sometimes. It can be a slow road with steps back and forward but you may find somewhere further down the line where psychosis no longer has the power it once felt like it did. It's hard to be helpful over text but I hope this helps :)
I have never liked friends visiting me since I was a child because I could never fully convince ,myself they ever left my place. Should have told someone, but.... well, I'm older and know now.
I guess I could be in this video. I had a 3 psychosis starting in 8th grade with no hallucinations or auditory hallucinations although I did "communicate" with voices I didn't hear them. For the first year I would pop in and out delusions: a month of delusion, figure out I was delusional and cry, then start a new one. I called these "flipping delusions" They had whole story lines and are in general a lot to explain. I was hypographic and wrote pages and pages of nonsense. I can give a few examples like thinking I was pregnant but for an hour I kept thinking I had more and more babies in my stomach. Finally at 24 I realized I wasn't making sense and the delusion ended. I was upset and wrote I note to myself that just said "psychosis" to warn myself not to be delusional again. I remember reading it as I was starting a new delusion and deciding to crumple bit up and throw it in the trash can because I really just chose the psychosis over facing reality: my Autism, feelings of worthlessness, ect. About two years later I tried to kill myself which put the recovery wheels in motion. After 3 days in the (regular) hospital I went home and my dose of Seroquil was upped. On Thanksgiving night as I finished my turkey the thought suddenly struck that I had been psychotic for the last 3 years and everything I believed about my brilliant special abilities, saving humans on other planets, the whole damn thing was just a lie. I wasn't completly sane at that moment: still thought people were giving me special secret signs for a while, but for the most part I just remember running up to my room, closing the door, and sobbing non stop.
That sounds intense and an incredibly harsh way for the brain to realize it's delusions. I'm not surprised you experienced a lot of emotions when coming to such a realisation. I hope you're looking after yourself well now and know this is a safe space for people like yourself :) (I'm still learning new stuff about my brain everyday which might make it into a video at some point) P.S. Thank you for mentioning an initial lack of hallucinations. It's a common misconception that psychosis is specifically to do with voices and imagery.
watched this video in the middle of may 2022 and was on the verge of ending it all. seeing the girl in the video be stuck in psychosis for so long made me realize or at least think that i was in some kind of psychosis so i went to in-patient for about 2 weeks and was on my way. it’s now nearly febuary 2023 and while i do feel so much better than that dark place i was at, the realization that it could happen again scares the piss out of me
I think the reality is what we really live with other people, we can define reality through sharing moments with people and when we can recall these moments.. btw great vid , that was inspirational to me
I see how this would be entertaining to them who haven't had these experiences but for people like us it is hard to watch, it brings back trauma of the condition. It gives you a kind of PTSD that a POW would go through. Yes, we get ptsd from the trauma of our mental conditions, and there is no cure. Chemical mind control and half hearted therapists cannot help one who has had this there whole lives. And I have not had a rest from mental, not illness, it is not a disease - mental distress. I had it at these kids age, and it slowly got worse from when I was a small child till now at 36. I am just tired now, and tired of the so called help, tired where I cannot entertain my mental thing anymore. It doesn't help that the world is such a strange place - and people so irrational and low.
Hello, it sounds like you have been through a lot to put it lightly. I made this film hoping to give people an idea of what it feel like to go through this condition, as a result it can be very intense if you have been through it for sure. PTSD is very real and common with psychosis yes. I am also aware "help" can sometimes be the complete opposite but there is people who genuinely do care and will look out for you
@@dreamznaspiratons7064 PLEASE READ IT ALL. And as for looking into help, I have been in the system for almost 30 years and have never had at least human kindness. Help in other areas, but cold as ice. And have been to the best hospitals and have had every program 50 psychiatrists, 50 therapists and psychologists, inpatient outpatient, and every chemical they made, and every one they took off the market because of bad side-effects. I have worked with spiritual healers, energy healers, new age, etc. etc. I HAVE DONE ALL mankind has to offer. I do appreciate the gov. help and programs that I wouldn't have survived without and certain other help from agencies when I couldn't do things for myself. Eleven years ago I also came down with an incurable autoimmune disease with another physical ailment. Not only must I walk with a cane in my early thirties now, but any chance at a normal life is over because of it. I used to be a woodsman and into extreme sports all year round, now I cannot walk a quarter mile. ANY CHANCE AT A WIFE AND KIDS IS GONE, and I am sick all the time and have anemia and whatever else makes your body weak and constant pain where it feels like getting in a car accident everyday. So, there is literally nothing in the world of men for me to abide in. THANK YOU THOUGH FOR YOUR CONCERN.
i can see what you mean about the PTSD i started freaking out a little bit bc one of my neighbors was walking his dog and i thought i was losing it again, i started hearing little clicks like i used to the point where i had to click out the video and call my dog over bc ik if something was really happening he would start barking
You need Jesus my friend! Pray for deliverance. Seek a trustworthy church and be a part of a service one day. If you accept Jesus Christ into your life He will set you free. Do not lost hope. Despair ends.
Perception isn’t reality. Otherwise half these people would be dead. Reality is what happens no matter what state of mind we are in. Even if you think you can fly and you jump off a building. You hitting the ground and dying is reality smacking you in the face.
Psychosis can be a form of a cry for help from unresolved stress. Brownie treats triggers it. Most people who get it seem very intelligent people and sensitive in a good way.
One definition of reality is that it is a shared reality. Everybody agrees that grass is green, so we know that grass exists and that it is green. If you saw grass that was skyblue pink, then it would be an individual hallucination and not a shared reality.
im just curious did anyone go through like "oh shit" moments right before they snapped into pschosis? im just wondering because thats wut happened to me and than just like a light switch i felt "awake"
Marijuana apparently triggers psychosis for about 1 out of every 100 people who use it. I don't use drugs, but I knew someone who was hospitalized for about a week, after eating brownies. 1% is actually a LOT of people, if you think about the millions who use marijuana. Probably hundreds or thousands of people in every state, triggered into psychosis by drug use.
Idk if I have this but like I remember a time when I wasn’t eating properly and it was weird and I was on tiktok and every video I saw I would think they were suffering with mental illness and I’d look at things like their eyes and I’d comment a really long paragraph to them explaining that everything ok and I thought I knew everything about everyone and it was so weird, id relate to every song I heard too. Couldn’t sleep either at night Had to get sent to my nans cause sleeping issues, that kinda helped but it did last for a while I remember I had to sleep in my dads bed aswell and honestly I didn’t sleep for about 3 days straight Everything I tried to eat aswell would just get puked up I have videos of myself and they’re really weird I remember my dad showing me these things and saying “we’re going to set these off tonight” I was really confused Everything confused me I had to go to school Started crying over the word “suicide” on the board I was looking at trees and I said to my friend “they look really nice” and she was like “are you on drugs “ and I was like “no” I had never touched drugs at this time, just the eating problems I was convinced my dad had feelings for me Which was just a conspiracy in my brain no proof or anything I also was convinced he had drugged me but I don’t think he did cause I don’t remember him giving me anything like wtf and he’s not like that… I am still confused today what that was There was more but I can’t remember a lot of it I only have video proof I also cried at absolutely everything..
Thank you so much. This video has taken off over the last few months for some reason. Great to hear people like it and will be posting new stuff soon :)
It's like everything is mirroring or mocking my life. The TV talks to you. You become obsessed with trying to find out where it's coming from and you have no clue what your looking for. Every piece of life is gone because your terrified of everything. No eating no shower no talking no memory. Music is the only thing that helps. Videos help but it comes right back then your reading a Bible thinking it's speaking specifically to you. Girl I just need myself to say "hey shut it down boo this ain't you"
That's the thing God can use psychosis to speak to you. The Bible is alive. It's God's word expressed through literature and everything is especially to you. He died for everyone but even if He had to do it just for you He would have. GOD IS GOOD!
Mine started when I was waking up, I had a very similar experience with voices except I thought it was my friends driving out and ducking with me, on top of that I hear two girls constantly making fun of me, there’s a insecure guy too that kinda hold authority over who i let in my life, if he doesn’t like you he will say it over and over again and start to whisper, luckily nothing visual. There’s a hand full more stuff too.
Since getting a gf though I’ve noticed the voices aren’t as negative they exist but it’s jokes and hearing people talk story, so there’s a good and bad to it
Yet to be diagnosed but smoking a hybrid strain is how this started Lmaoooo I just got to the end of the video, I am currently still smoking, symptoms aren’t worsening, about a year and a half in, I’m a ducking dumbass but I really do believe the cannabis isn’t the problem here, I’m willing to have a debate with someone lol, love you all
I once had these bad intrusive thoughts telling me that my family were trying to kill me and I would constantly picture my mum coming into my room and stabbing me. When she did come in I never took my eyes off her and I didn’t let her touch me until I just started crying. I couldn’t sleep that night because I was scared that if I closed my eyes my mum will take her chance to stab me. This happens to everyone I meet and I can’t handle people walking behind me because of it but that was the most severe time it happened
Whoa the lady who said she got clues about self sacrifice hits home. I had that experience too and was receiving clues from all sorts of things... telling me the exact date and time to sacrifice myself and my sacrifice would be misunderstood by the world but a higher power would know why I did it and reward me with a new life. I remember believing I had to do it in my wedding dress and everything... fucking weird time
I have to disagree. We perceive reality subjectively yes but reality in of itself is objective. And our sanity or psychosis is measured against how close our perception is to reality.
Interesting, I don't think anyone is denying there is such a thing as objective reality. How could you objectively know you are in reality though? (This very question sent me down a massive rabbit hole making me more ill. I got better by being ok with not knowing objectively when I was in reality though.) I'm also not too sure about the word sanity being used down to "how close our perception is to reality." I have met people I would perceive as less in touch with reality coping relatively well and others deeply troubled due to how in touch with reality they were. (I mean no disrespect to you in this post I'm very interested in an opposite view.)
@@PsychoticMovieDatabase ever kicked your little toe into the corner of a piece of furniture? That's one way to know you are in reality lol. But to test it would simply be to look around at the world we are all living in. We all think differently but in our actions you see the similarities that reveals the real. For example if you're driving your car and you get low on gas you are going to have to abide with the laws of reality and go fill up your car or it will run out and you will no longer be able to drive. No amount of perciving your tank is full3 will put gasoline back in your tank, you will need to act in accordance to reality. We do it all the time every day, we exist only in reality. But the mind is powerful and how we perceive reality can aid us or deceive us.
Agreed, reality is in fact reality no matter what our perception of it may be.For example, someone may perceive in the mind that he was born on Mars, but the reality is that he was in fact born on Earth.Thus reality may be defined as the state of things AS THEY REALLY ARE.
There’s a difference between feeling a spiritual awareness that we could be a “tv show” (if you could even call it that, plus we could never know until we die for real) for angels/demons who just like to watch us like a reality tv show and believing humans are watching you.... personally I am pissed that the UA-cam and google algorithm is suggesting this bullshit to me every day every time I go on youtube! I am into philosophy and the scientific process, I don’t hallucinate unless like a couple years ago I am tripping balls off psychedelics. If I did... I would admit myself almost immediately, but I don’t need to because I’m not. The only reason I would be sacrificed for a higher reason would be if I was killed by the police for calling out how the government & companies has algorithms spy on ALL of us (usually for targeted advertising) and violates peoples rights as well as partakes in corrupt conspiracies with companies to violate consumer rights.
Had one last night. 3 different voices of me from different parks of my life. The good the bad and ugly. The normal me was just tell me. That I will be ok. That I have to hang on. That I can't die now. I thought it was just a bad panic attack. But lasted an hour. Have three of you fighting with your self and all of them are right in certain ways and all wrong at the sam time. Just like three personality at at once.
Hello my friend. My suggestion would be talk to your support networks let them know and if you feel it is necessary seek medical help. That being said I have a video on post illness I'd recommend. We can sometimes feel like our health is struggling when we are actually still doing much better then the past. Much love ❤️
Take care for your body and mind my friend, good diet that fits your body, meditate, naturewalks, creative outlets, like drawing, maybe reading or writing, talk openly about your experiences, feelings with friends and family. Take care 🙏
Manage your stress and strengthen your way of handling bad emotions is the key. Try to do anything makes you happy everyday along with meditation and never stay alone. Spend time with family and friends as long as you have healthy relationship with them cus it helps too
I dont know, maybe it is bad idea but, i helped my pychosis-fears and -stress by get myself in psychosis to meet that reality again and think about them. No meditation helped me, but you have to take it easy and dont be anguish when its happen. You have to meet your fears and weird thoughts again with understanding that you are in psychosis. May be it doesnt fit on you, it fitted on me. I just wrote my experience because i was really feared, got ptsd and couldnt stay home alone. And that was the way which helped me.
amazing guys, how different in psychosis for a guy and a girl. guy doesn't care and decides not think and girl is at an extreme hinking time. women are much stronger then ?
How did she get text messages from Guns n roses hahaha, BTW i also feel like im suppressing the fact that i even have mental health, just quit weed, i know somethings really off in my head, been feeling really existential and spacey for years now, doctor said im on verge of schziophrenia but i dont believe him at all cos he said that the fuckin first time i met him...
a little late to comment but the mental withdrawals from weed are a real thing and i’ve experienced them at least a dozen times, 1 of those times put me into a behavioral facility (literally rehab for kids). smoking weed before the age of 16 has a higher chance of drawing out dormant schizophrenia than doing it after, the same applies with cannabis induced psychosis. you’re probably not schizophrenic, you probably just smoked a fuck ton of weed and you’re living life sober for the first time in a while. i’m not a doctor though so i’d trust the ones around you significantly more than me, just a suggestion.
this is where religion originate. it begun like this. somthing real and factual became the basis for imaginary beliefs that manifested stories that are similar to reality but 100 percent made up by a persons crazy mind. this is why religion and superstitous beleifs is so dangerous as it makes people do to other and hurt them in ways that is totally crazy because the delusional person is delusion because he believe that somthing imaginary is real. when i say this i mean he believes and that is the problem. you must never act just on beliefs as that is what turns people crazy. you must always question your beliefs logically from the standpoint of the majority of people and not yourself. you must think do other people believes there is a santa in the clouds that is spesifically interested in just you and nobody else. if you think based on experience that if others had spoken publicly about talking to angels and you would find that kind of crazy and then you now think that santa is specially interested in just you and he lives in the clouds then you can question your own beliefs by comparing them to others that have similar ones and then ask yourself if not just them was crazy but that you also is on the boarder of insanity. if you realize that others crazy thinking is like your then you will also realize that you can logically dismiss your own crazy by comparing to other similarly crazy. its also when you act on beliefs of some experience that felt real in a dream or a vision perhaps you are also on your way to become insane. never believe your dreams are real. never beleive in visions. never believe in anything worth acting on without playing out logical thought experiements based on others that have similar thoughts. you must always think logically and naturally about reality. anything based on energy or spiritualism is created in the brain and is just fantasy that your brain just makes up. your brain is a sophisticated fantasy generator and can create dreams so realistic their indistinguishable from reality in experience but always have shifts in behavior that seem unnatural. how you know if your in a dream or reality there is always somthing that does not make quite sense. these are what you need to tell its a dream. the reason why people experience delusions is because they act on beliefs without evidence to support it and also just decides that somthing impossible is true as quick as flipping a switch. that can result in a chain of events that drives the person slowly over time more and more mentally insane. without a person being educated in logic and reason like most people are these days in school and universities the person would not have enough skill and experience to separate fantasy from reality and would just dive deeper into superstitous thinking. poorly educated people very quickly begun to live in a fantasy world because they have not gained the nesserly training to separate real from imagined. it takes the logic and reason of a philosopher stand point to sepearate real from imagined but most people do reach such a high level of philosophical skills trough education or with familiy versed in educated knowledge. it does not help if you sleeped yourself trough life and missed all that you supposed to learn from family and also missed all that you chould have learned in school as then your back to the stone age again and superstiton all over again. people that experience delusions have and lala land mindset but where they themselves makes the rules in the game. it usually takes half a lifetime to fully separate real from imagined and become a experienced philosopher but many remains stagnant in a undeveloped mind for life and can have a devestating effects for people around them.
Hi all, thank you for the kind comments. This section is a safe space for people to express their feelings. I am going to kindly ask not to diagnose people in the video with other conditions please :)
Why not? Are you against free speech? People can express their opinions. It's not going to do any harm. No one is taking it as a serious diagnosis. Don't be a comment Nazi.
@@WILD__THINGS maybe because you’re not a doctor and can’t diagnose someone else or yourself lmao
Hats off to you on the production quality. Really professional stuff!
I diagnose you with " I'm right, your wrong" syndrome. It's a disease that can't be fixed.
When this started happening to me I was hopeless I didn’t know what was going on and I felt like it would never end. Looking back I wish there was more mental health resources so that I wouldn’t have been as lost as I was. Psychosis is no joke and I recommend anyone who doesn’t know about it to research and learn about it.
100% I feel most of us who have suffered from Psychosis have similar feelings on the subject. A much better general knowledge of the condition (even from some GPs) would be extremely helpful.
I had psychosis and still do to a degree but for me it was more delusions rather than hallucinations. My perception of reality was more grounded around feelings or my empathic energy readings of other people. Weather it was actually the energy of others I was perceiving or my own projections onthers is still fuzzy to me but I’ve learned that self awareness is the greatest asset to combating mental illness such as psychosis. While outside psychiatric help can be beneficial ultimately you have the power to understand your own mind better than anyone else. Meditation and introspection has helped me a great deal in controlling my perception of the world around me.
Self awareness is key for me. I am quick to identify the beginning of paranoia. I somehow am able redirect my thinking. Cognitive Behavior Therapy may have helped me. (ie challenge thought)
Take care everyone.
I had this happen to me on 07/2017. I am still processing it--but I've come a long way.
It can be a long process for sure I'm glad to hear you've come a long way though. Stay healthy :)
Wow man. I had the same thing because of weed in 2017 and I'm getting better. I regret it deeply but it happened, God is helping me along my journey. Not everyday is going to be perfect but be greatful that you're alive. Everyone who is going through this you will be alright. God bless you all❤
Hey man me too
How long did it take you to recover if you dont mind me asking?
Jess Green couple days weeks months
Psychosis is no fun I wish everyone of you good health peace and love
Thank you Carla. Everyone in the film is now doing well. I hope you are also healthy, at peace and loved :)
I had an episode longer than a year, im turning to Real life, have a job, taking medication for 2 3 months and its Like nothing out there for me, i have a job but i cant afford so many things, cant rent a home, move my own place, i cant afford a chinese motorcycle, i mean i have to work for that at least a year while not spending any, idk, that was a crazy year, yes, i had so many bad, sometimes really awful Times in it, but it was still more colorful than this, im working eleven hours in a day, but still i cant be financially independent under these circumtances, and its also concludes that i have no social life, i mean friends and activities, i started working so lately, im 24, idk what to do in the country im living in where everything going worse and worse day by day for especially people Like me, im living in Turkey, im sorry but when i saw "no fun" i couldnt hold myself even though during that year i had so many and really really embrassing Times there was a bit fun, embrassing things about it doesnt concern me much because i have no life, i cant even make my mom happy, thats the way i feel
im taking this back, now i learnt i may get into prison because of i disturbed people during my psychosis, psychosis is no fun
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Always wish I knew that other people had this. And that I wasn’t alone.
I felt the same for quite a few years. I made this channel fully with the intention of letting people know they're not alone. I hope you found this helpful :)
Psychotic Movie Database thank u so much. Ur a life saver. I feel like my life has had a huge weight lifted off it. Ur so amazing and thank u so much. I’m gonna continue to watch this channel to help me. This is just better than CAHMS.😘💖
@@elizabethg2428 I found through peer support other peoples experiences made me feel safer and I hope I can do the same for you and anyone else who views my content. Please be aware I would never call myself a medical expert so don't take my word as fact. Hopefully as you said hearing other people talk about their issues can provide a sense of calmness :)
Psychotic Movie Database do u sometimes feel like u need to kill yourself in order to help heaven in case hell is gonna try and take over? This is my most common one.
@@elizabethg2428 Hi the things we see and think can be quite unique. Mine was a belief the world around me simply wasn't real and that I was actually in a coma. As you've probably seen in the film your ideas seem similar to what Erin felt.
What I can tell you is it can all feel very overwhelming and hellish sometimes. It can be a slow road with steps back and forward but you may find somewhere further down the line where psychosis no longer has the power it once felt like it did.
It's hard to be helpful over text but I hope this helps :)
I have never liked friends visiting me since I was a child because I could never fully convince ,myself they ever left my place. Should have told someone, but.... well, I'm older and know now.
Ouch
I guess I could be in this video. I had a 3 psychosis starting in 8th grade with no hallucinations or auditory hallucinations although I did "communicate" with voices I didn't hear them. For the first year I would pop in and out delusions: a month of delusion, figure out I was delusional and cry, then start a new one. I called these "flipping delusions" They had whole story lines and are in general a lot to explain. I was hypographic and wrote pages and pages of nonsense. I can give a few examples like thinking I was pregnant but for an hour I kept thinking I had more and more babies in my stomach. Finally at 24 I realized I wasn't making sense and the delusion ended. I was upset and wrote I note to myself that just said "psychosis" to warn myself not to be delusional again. I remember reading it as I was starting a new delusion and deciding to crumple bit up and throw it in the trash can because I really just chose the psychosis over facing reality: my Autism, feelings of worthlessness, ect. About two years later I tried to kill myself which put the recovery wheels in motion. After 3 days in the (regular) hospital I went home and my dose of Seroquil was upped. On Thanksgiving night as I finished my turkey the thought suddenly struck that I had been psychotic for the last 3 years and everything I believed about my brilliant special abilities, saving humans on other planets, the whole damn thing was just a lie. I wasn't completly sane at that moment: still thought people were giving me special secret signs for a while, but for the most part I just remember running up to my room, closing the door, and sobbing non stop.
That sounds intense and an incredibly harsh way for the brain to realize it's delusions. I'm not surprised you experienced a lot of emotions when coming to such a realisation. I hope you're looking after yourself well now and know this is a safe space for people like yourself :) (I'm still learning new stuff about my brain everyday which might make it into a video at some point)
P.S. Thank you for mentioning an initial lack of hallucinations. It's a common misconception that psychosis is specifically to do with voices and imagery.
watched this video in the middle of may 2022 and was on the verge of ending it all. seeing the girl in the video be stuck in psychosis for so long made me realize or at least think that i was in some kind of psychosis so i went to in-patient for about 2 weeks and was on my way. it’s now nearly febuary 2023 and while i do feel so much better than that dark place i was at, the realization that it could happen again scares the piss out of me
i have schizophrenia, but luckly with meds i have no Symptoms anymore
What a really beautiful look into this unique experience. Thank you for making this!
I think the reality is what we really live with other people, we can define reality through sharing moments with people and when we can recall these moments.. btw great vid , that was inspirational to me
You said it much better then i ever could. Thank you so much I'm glad you liked it :)
what nonsense are you saying
I see how this would be entertaining to them who haven't had these experiences but for people like us it is hard to watch, it brings back trauma of the condition. It gives you a kind of PTSD that a POW would go through. Yes, we get ptsd from the trauma of our mental conditions, and there is no cure. Chemical mind control and half hearted therapists cannot help one who has had this there whole lives. And I have not had a rest from mental, not illness, it is not a disease - mental distress. I had it at these kids age, and it slowly got worse from when I was a small child till now at 36. I am just tired now, and tired of the so called help, tired where I cannot entertain my mental thing anymore. It doesn't help that the world is such a strange place - and people so irrational and low.
Find your tribe. Look into trauma healing and disassociation
Hello, it sounds like you have been through a lot to put it lightly. I made this film hoping to give people an idea of what it feel like to go through this condition, as a result it can be very intense if you have been through it for sure. PTSD is very real and common with psychosis yes. I am also aware "help" can sometimes be the complete opposite but there is people who genuinely do care and will look out for you
@@dreamznaspiratons7064 PLEASE READ IT ALL.
And as for looking into help, I have been in the system for almost 30 years and have never had at least human kindness. Help in other areas, but cold as ice. And have been to the best hospitals and have had every program 50 psychiatrists, 50 therapists and psychologists, inpatient outpatient, and every chemical they made, and every one they took off the market because of bad side-effects. I have worked with spiritual healers, energy healers, new age, etc. etc. I HAVE DONE ALL mankind has to offer. I do appreciate the gov. help and programs that I wouldn't have survived without and certain other help from agencies when I couldn't do things for myself. Eleven years ago I also came down with an incurable autoimmune disease with another physical ailment. Not only must I walk with a cane in my early thirties now, but any chance at a normal life is over because of it. I used to be a woodsman and into extreme sports all year round, now I cannot walk a quarter mile. ANY CHANCE AT A WIFE AND KIDS IS GONE, and I am sick all the time and have anemia and whatever else makes your body weak and constant pain where it feels like getting in a car accident everyday. So, there is literally nothing in the world of men for me to abide in. THANK YOU THOUGH FOR YOUR CONCERN.
i can see what you mean about the PTSD i started freaking out a little bit bc one of my neighbors was walking his dog and i thought i was losing it again, i started hearing little clicks like i used to the point where i had to click out the video and call my dog over bc ik if something was really happening he would start barking
You need Jesus my friend! Pray for deliverance. Seek a trustworthy church and be a part of a service one day. If you accept Jesus Christ into your life He will set you free. Do not lost hope. Despair ends.
perception is reality and reality is perception
Perception isn’t reality. Otherwise half these people would be dead.
Reality is what happens no matter what state of mind we are in. Even if you think you can fly and you jump off a building. You hitting the ground and dying is reality smacking you in the face.
Reality would still exist apart from your ability to perceive it or experience it.
this is really well done
reality is different for everyone. the real world is immutable.
Psychosis can be a form of a cry for help from unresolved stress. Brownie treats triggers it. Most people who get it seem very intelligent people and sensitive in a good way.
i will take one if you have extra
Had psychotic episode after a brownie on the weekend. Terrifying!
@@cristimay1 As in a normal brownie?
@@timwhitmore7no no, a weed one!
One definition of reality is that it is a shared reality. Everybody agrees that grass is green, so we know that grass exists and that it is green. If you saw grass that was skyblue pink, then it would be an individual hallucination and not a shared reality.
been about 3 years since i had psychosis, great video, lots i can relate too, very interesting
Weed related?
Ok but that dude standing in the door scared me, now I’m just staring at my door waiting for a man to come out and it’s currently 12am
😂😂😂 Same
Stop listening to people telling you to do DMT while your world is crumbling
Damn so well produced, I'm gonna use some clips of this in a video of mine, it's a must, more people need to know about this production.
My world is extremely disturbing
im just curious did anyone go through like "oh shit" moments right before they snapped into pschosis? im just wondering because thats wut happened to me and than just like a light switch i felt "awake"
it's a bizzare experience/reality
@@Pravduh ya and it feels like everything finally makes sense
Yeah bro it's lowkey breathtaking but not in the good way.
Yep psychedelics did it for me and cannabis. Really interesting stuff
Cannabis brought it out for me too. Really awful.
Marijuana apparently triggers psychosis for about 1 out of every 100 people who use it. I don't use drugs, but I knew someone who was hospitalized for about a week, after eating brownies. 1% is actually a LOT of people, if you think about the millions who use marijuana. Probably hundreds or thousands of people in every state, triggered into psychosis by drug use.
Idk if this is a normal thing but I believe that I’m living the life of someone incredibly important in the future
Then you are delusional friend.its ok everyone is.you just have to except it and move on.
Great watch and very insightful . stay happy .
Idk if I have this but like I remember a time when I wasn’t eating properly and it was weird and I was on tiktok and every video I saw I would think they were suffering with mental illness and I’d look at things like their eyes and I’d comment a really long paragraph to them explaining that everything ok and I thought I knew everything about everyone and it was so weird, id relate to every song I heard too.
Couldn’t sleep either at night
Had to get sent to my nans cause sleeping issues, that kinda helped but it did last for a while
I remember I had to sleep in my dads bed aswell and honestly I didn’t sleep for about 3 days straight
Everything I tried to eat aswell would just get puked up
I have videos of myself and they’re really weird
I remember my dad showing me these things and saying “we’re going to set these off tonight” I was really confused
Everything confused me
I had to go to school
Started crying over the word “suicide” on the board
I was looking at trees and I said to my friend “they look really nice” and she was like “are you on drugs “ and I was like “no” I had never touched drugs at this time, just the eating problems
I was convinced my dad had feelings for me
Which was just a conspiracy in my brain no proof or anything
I also was convinced he had drugged me but I don’t think he did cause I don’t remember him giving me anything like wtf and he’s not like that…
I am still confused today what that was
There was more but I can’t remember a lot of it
I only have video proof
I also cried at absolutely everything..
wow! only 217 subs, good quality for that amount
Thank you so much. This video has taken off over the last few months for some reason. Great to hear people like it and will be posting new stuff soon :)
@@PsychoticMovieDatabase 👍🏾👍🏾
weed "burrito" is the reason i no longer smoke
It's like everything is mirroring or mocking my life. The TV talks to you. You become obsessed with trying to find out where it's coming from and you have no clue what your looking for. Every piece of life is gone because your terrified of everything. No eating no shower no talking no memory. Music is the only thing that helps. Videos help but it comes right back then your reading a Bible thinking it's speaking specifically to you. Girl I just need myself to say "hey shut it down boo this ain't you"
That's the thing God can use psychosis to speak to you. The Bible is alive. It's God's word expressed through literature and everything is especially to you. He died for everyone but even if He had to do it just for you He would have. GOD IS GOOD!
Mine started when I was waking up, I had a very similar experience with voices except I thought it was my friends driving out and ducking with me, on top of that I hear two girls constantly making fun of me, there’s a insecure guy too that kinda hold authority over who i let in my life, if he doesn’t like you he will say it over and over again and start to whisper, luckily nothing visual. There’s a hand full more stuff too.
Since getting a gf though I’ve noticed the voices aren’t as negative they exist but it’s jokes and hearing people talk story, so there’s a good and bad to it
Yet to be diagnosed but smoking a hybrid strain is how this started Lmaoooo I just got to the end of the video, I am currently still smoking, symptoms aren’t worsening, about a year and a half in, I’m a ducking dumbass but I really do believe the cannabis isn’t the problem here, I’m willing to have a debate with someone lol, love you all
I once had these bad intrusive thoughts telling me that my family were trying to kill me and I would constantly picture my mum coming into my room and stabbing me. When she did come in I never took my eyes off her and I didn’t let her touch me until I just started crying. I couldn’t sleep that night because I was scared that if I closed my eyes my mum will take her chance to stab me. This happens to everyone I meet and I can’t handle people walking behind me because of it but that was the most severe time it happened
This sounds more like OCD than psychosis. Don’t worry, I have intrusive thoughts too, and regular people have them too once in a while.
Yeah, I have potential OCD but I’m not diagnosed, it doesn’t help either way :/
THIS EXACT SAME THING HAPPENED TO ME. You are not alone, oh my gosh. Word for word I experienced that..
"You have to lose touch with reality in order to examine and contradict it" - Some important guy/ don't steal my quotes
Whoa the lady who said she got clues about self sacrifice hits home. I had that experience too and was receiving clues from all sorts of things... telling me the exact date and time to sacrifice myself and my sacrifice would be misunderstood by the world but a higher power would know why I did it and reward me with a new life. I remember believing I had to do it in my wedding dress and everything... fucking weird time
I have to disagree. We perceive reality subjectively yes but reality in of itself is objective. And our sanity or psychosis is measured against how close our perception is to reality.
Interesting, I don't think anyone is denying there is such a thing as objective reality. How could you objectively know you are in reality though? (This very question sent me down a massive rabbit hole making me more ill. I got better by being ok with not knowing objectively when I was in reality though.) I'm also not too sure about the word sanity being used down to "how close our perception is to reality." I have met people I would perceive as less in touch with reality coping relatively well and others deeply troubled due to how in touch with reality they were. (I mean no disrespect to you in this post I'm very interested in an opposite view.)
@@PsychoticMovieDatabase ever kicked your little toe into the corner of a piece of furniture? That's one way to know you are in reality lol. But to test it would simply be to look around at the world we are all living in. We all think differently but in our actions you see the similarities that reveals the real. For example if you're driving your car and you get low on gas you are going to have to abide with the laws of reality and go fill up your car or it will run out and you will no longer be able to drive. No amount of perciving your tank is full3 will put gasoline back in your tank, you will need to act in accordance to reality. We do it all the time every day, we exist only in reality. But the mind is powerful and how we perceive reality can aid us or deceive us.
@@PsychoticMovieDatabase try this video, bro. This was the beggining to a Great new understanding for me. Short vid on Truth vs Perception.
Agreed, reality is in fact reality no matter what our perception of it may be.For example, someone may perceive in the mind that he was born on Mars, but the reality is that he was in fact born on Earth.Thus reality may be defined as the state of things AS THEY REALLY ARE.
@@codeypendent1899 how can You say that there is something objective, when all people are subjective? not tryin to argue, i'd like to understand it
There’s a difference between feeling a spiritual awareness that we could be a “tv show” (if you could even call it that, plus we could never know until we die for real) for angels/demons who just like to watch us like a reality tv show and believing humans are watching you.... personally I am pissed that the UA-cam and google algorithm is suggesting this bullshit to me every day every time I go on youtube!
I am into philosophy and the scientific process, I don’t hallucinate unless like a couple years ago I am tripping balls off psychedelics. If I did... I would admit myself almost immediately, but I don’t need to because I’m not.
The only reason I would be sacrificed for a higher reason would be if I was killed by the police for calling out how the government & companies has algorithms spy on ALL of us (usually for targeted advertising) and violates peoples rights as well as partakes in corrupt conspiracies with companies to violate consumer rights.
Great docu!
Was it really necessary to play that background music?
What is that song at the end? Love it
Hi, it's by a guy called Jordan Nathaniel. He has a Spotify check him out :) I can't remember the name of this specific song I'm afraid
Amazing job to all of you thnk you
Thank you so much
You're most welcome
Had one last night. 3 different voices of me from different parks of my life. The good the bad and ugly. The normal me was just tell me. That I will be ok. That I have to hang on. That I can't die now. I thought it was just a bad panic attack. But lasted an hour. Have three of you fighting with your self and all of them are right in certain ways and all wrong at the sam time. Just like three personality at at once.
This was so good
These days there are apps that help people I have two of them and so far better than what people have received
Oh god. It makes sense
great video
Thank you very much
What’s the song at the end??🔥
Volume too low and I have a brand new computer with all speakers on HIGH.
I just had a episode
Hi, I am sorry to hear that. I hope you are doing okay and being kind to yourself. Have you let anyone close to you know?
what the song whats bangging at the end of video
I felt this years ago and I feel it creeping back any tips would be appreciated
Hello my friend. My suggestion would be talk to your support networks let them know and if you feel it is necessary seek medical help. That being said I have a video on post illness I'd recommend. We can sometimes feel like our health is struggling when we are actually still doing much better then the past. Much love ❤️
Take care for your body and mind my friend, good diet that fits your body, meditate, naturewalks, creative outlets, like drawing, maybe reading or writing, talk openly about your experiences, feelings with friends and family. Take care 🙏
Manage your stress and strengthen your way of handling bad emotions is the key. Try to do anything makes you happy everyday along with meditation and never stay alone. Spend time with family and friends as long as you have healthy relationship with them cus it helps too
I dont know, maybe it is bad idea but, i helped my pychosis-fears and -stress by get myself in psychosis to meet that reality again and think about them. No meditation helped me, but you have to take it easy and dont be anguish when its happen. You have to meet your fears and weird thoughts again with understanding that you are in psychosis. May be it doesnt fit on you, it fitted on me. I just wrote my experience because i was really feared, got ptsd and couldnt stay home alone. And that was the way which helped me.
thank you
You're very welcome. Thank you for watching :)
Wish I could see all of this, but its too triggering.
amazing guys, how different in psychosis for a guy and a girl. guy doesn't care and decides not think and girl is at an extreme hinking time. women are much stronger then ?
Please level out the audio. It is too loud and then too soft.
One day
What is reality? Simply put, a word.
What caused the psychosis in the first place?
That's very specific to each person and not always known. I think my personal experience came from quite long and heavy levels of anxiety
@@PsychoticMovieDatabase Understood; Go with God my friend, perhaps you can say a prayer for me too, bcz we all are struggling with something in life.
Music!!?????
open.spotify.com/artist/0vvKgr1M7oepiBiZmVuuEw?si=f3qwRW1DSDqJqT8u7RM9Lw& this is the band called Big Fuss
"Surreal reality" .....People agreeing and conversing ...... 😲 there are others like me.
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Wow he’s pretty
honestly sounds like they are schizophenics
Read The Code to the Matrix by Sevan Bomar.
Divine psychosis 😂
How did she get text messages from Guns n roses hahaha, BTW i also feel like im suppressing the fact that i even have mental health, just quit weed, i know somethings really off in my head, been feeling really existential and spacey for years now, doctor said im on verge of schziophrenia but i dont believe him at all cos he said that the fuckin first time i met him...
a little late to comment but the mental withdrawals from weed are a real thing and i’ve experienced them at least a dozen times, 1 of those times put me into a behavioral facility (literally rehab for kids). smoking weed before the age of 16 has a higher chance of drawing out dormant schizophrenia than doing it after, the same applies with cannabis induced psychosis. you’re probably not schizophrenic, you probably just smoked a fuck ton of weed and you’re living life sober for the first time in a while. i’m not a doctor though so i’d trust the ones around you significantly more than me, just a suggestion.
Anyone capture 🌞 become Appel fruit or IMEGS of religions ever my question ❓ about spirituality 🤔 a mental illness or whatever ok
would be interesting to know if for many if they actually have the condition PANDAS
this is where religion originate. it begun like this. somthing real and factual became the basis for imaginary beliefs that manifested stories that are similar to reality but 100 percent made up by a persons crazy mind. this is why religion and superstitous beleifs is so dangerous as it makes people do to other and hurt them in ways that is totally crazy because the delusional person is delusion because he believe that somthing imaginary is real. when i say this i mean he believes and that is the problem. you must never act just on beliefs as that is what turns people crazy. you must always question your beliefs logically from the standpoint of the majority of people and not yourself. you must think do other people believes there is a santa in the clouds that is spesifically interested in just you and nobody else. if you think based on experience that if others had spoken publicly about talking to angels and you would find that kind of crazy and then you now think that santa is specially interested in just you and he lives in the clouds then you can question your own beliefs by comparing them to others that have similar ones and then ask yourself if not just them was crazy but that you also is on the boarder of insanity. if you realize that others crazy thinking is like your then you will also realize that you can logically dismiss your own crazy by comparing to other similarly crazy. its also when you act on beliefs of some experience that felt real in a dream or a vision perhaps you are also on your way to become insane. never believe your dreams are real. never beleive in visions. never believe in anything worth acting on without playing out logical thought experiements based on others that have similar thoughts. you must always think logically and naturally about reality. anything based on energy or spiritualism is created in the brain and is just fantasy that your brain just makes up. your brain is a sophisticated fantasy generator and can create dreams so realistic their indistinguishable from reality in experience but always have shifts in behavior that seem unnatural. how you know if your in a dream or reality there is always somthing that does not make quite sense. these are what you need to tell its a dream. the reason why people experience delusions is because they act on beliefs without evidence to support it and also just decides that somthing impossible is true as quick as flipping a switch. that can result in a chain of events that drives the person slowly over time more and more mentally insane. without a person being educated in logic and reason like most people are these days in school and universities the person would not have enough skill and experience to separate fantasy from reality and would just dive deeper into superstitous thinking. poorly educated people very quickly begun to live in a fantasy world because they have not gained the nesserly training to separate real from imagined. it takes the logic and reason of a philosopher stand point to sepearate real from imagined but most people do reach such a high level of philosophical skills trough education or with familiy versed in educated knowledge. it does not help if you sleeped yourself trough life and missed all that you supposed to learn from family and also missed all that you chould have learned in school as then your back to the stone age again and superstiton all over again. people that experience delusions have and lala land mindset but where they themselves makes the rules in the game. it usually takes half a lifetime to fully separate real from imagined and become a experienced philosopher but many remains stagnant in a undeveloped mind for life and can have a devestating effects for people around them.
11:39 bro ate hash brown and got a psychotic outburst for 3 yrs im dying rn 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀
Reality is imaginary
@@andrewdressler6173 The giant brain we are living in
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In America we just call them homeless
As someone who experienced psychosis no offense but shit documentary.
big title for such a poor "documentary"...
i m watching you.
@@whatshisname3304 why would you say that you silly fool